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I can feel it begin to bubble. The small breakdown in my stomach is slowly growing. I can feel on my skin. I tried, I really did, but I couldn't stand it anymore. I had already flushed my pills down the toilet and I remember how good it felt when I did, but now I just wanted to break down in a fit of misunderstood anger. I look around the room at everyone. They looked guilty of God knows what. I knew I shouldn't believe what I had seen. I knew that my mind was just warping my perception, making me think that everyone had done something awful, and it made me want to scream. I wanted to scream really badly. "Laur?" My girlfriend chimed in my ear. I snap my head to her, eyes wide and my heart obviously beating out of my chest. I could see in her eyes that she was realizing the situation, which gave me a slight feeling of relief since I knew I wouldn't have to vocalise how I felt, because if I did, it would be a mess. "Come on, love." She said as she guided me up to my feet, her arm wrapped snuggly around my shoulder. "Something wrong?" I heard Ally speak. I tried to keep my mouth shut as much as I could, because I knew that I would say something I didn't mean. I just wait for Normani to respond for me. "I'm taking Lauren out side for a moment, we'll be back in a moment." She spoke softly before leading me out of the room. I immediately thrown my head against the wall as I slid down it. I closed my eyes, the last thing I saw being Normani looking down at me with pursed lips. "Lolo?" She spoke as gently as an ant as she moved to sit beside me. I turn my head to her, trying to contain the tears that were now filling my eyes. I knew that this was all so irrational and it irritated me to the point of almost sadness. "Don't cry, babygirl..." She said with supportive eyes and a gentle thumb to wipe away the stray tear that had escaped. "Why didn't you take your medicine, Lolo?" "I put them down the pipe." I sniffled. She knits her eyebrows disappointedly but they soon soften again as she nods. "Why did you do that?" She softly chuckles. I shake my head, not knowing what to say. I honestly didn't know why I did it. Maybe it was a fit of mania, or maybe I am just an idiot, I just didn't know. "You know what, we aren't going to worry about that right now, okay? How are you feeling right now?" "Sad, mad..." I choked out. She nods, looking away at the ground. I felt another wave of nerves hit me, causing me to sob out. "Hey hey. I'm here, it's okay." She said, pulling me into a tight hug. I rest me head in her chest, sobbing into her shirt. I felt her rub her fingers through my brown locks of hair, in an attempt to calm me even in the slightest. "Shhhh...shhhh..." She repeats until I feel myself begin to calm. It wasn't quick, but I was slowly feeling my muscles relax and my crying begin to disperse into small whimpers. I could feel the calming vibration of her voice through her chest, making me nearly purr. I sit up to look at her, wiping away the tears from my now red eyes. "You okay, love?" She asked. I only nod before standing up to pull her into a hug. "Thank you..." I whispered into her ear. "For what?" "Putting up with me.""Love, I don't put up with you. I'm helping you because I love and care about you.""But still...""No, I love you and that's all that matters, okay?" "... okay." I smiled.Here you guys go! I wrote a Laurmani oneshot cause I know that everyone loves Laurmani and if you don't, you're lying to yourself. I hope you enjoyed :) - Emily