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Leo's 16Donnie's 16Mikey's 16Raphael's 15Raphael shivered and inwardly cursed as he sat in the cave with Leo while the unexpected November snow blizzard blanketed the forest they'd been hiking in. Trust him to be trapped with Leo, the turtle he fought with most and the one he had feelings for. Feelings he didn't think would be returned, so he kept them bottled up and took his frustration out on the punching bag. Leo, Splinter Junior, wouldn't date him the rebel, imperfect son and black sheep. Raphael knew he should make a play for Mikey or Donnie, who'd both admitted to having feelings for him, but he'd told them he was holding out for someone who made his heart soar and anyway, they didn't tick his boxes. Mikey was too immature and Donnie was a walking encyclopedia. Raphael had trouble understanding half he said. The genius also didn't turn him on.Leo ticked all of Raphael's boxes. He was smart, gentle, dedicated, passionate, loyal, courageous, mature and he was gorgeous with his lithe leaf green body, toned ass and thighs and his stunning cobalt blue eyes. Raphael could drown in his eyes and stare into them forever. Leo was perfection personified. Mikey had said that Leo would never date them, because he was afraid of Splinter's reaction, he loved Karai, he was scared of jealousy occurring and of favoring his brothers. He'd rather be alone than cause friction and earn Splinter's scorn and displeasure.Leo was also a proud and emotionally unavailable turtle at times, like Raphael was. The kelly green skinned turtle wished Leo could see how similar they were. They were both extremely passionate and had blazing tempers. Leo could be a spitfire too, but he'd learned how to temper his rage and didn't have many outbursts, unlike his brother. Raphael allowed his anger to cloud his emotions and actions. That and because he didn't adhere to Leo's orders were the main reasons why they argued. But Raphael had thought there was still love and that they had some hobbies in common. Leo was artistic and was excellent at kanji. Raphael loved drawing and painting and on the rare occasion that Leo wasn't trying to be a big brother, they talked as equals. They'd discovered that they shared a desire to travel. That could be a basis to build something.Leo was the person Raphael respected most, although he'd never admit it and he craved his attention. He got it through arguing, but what he wanted most were kisses and hugs. Not like the innocent childhood ones, but the tender and passionate ones a lover gave. He wanted Leo to see him as a mate who could give him a family and not as the annoying, temperamental brother who pushed his buttons. Raphael knew he could lay eggs and could give Leo a family, because he was intersex and he knew Leo would be an incredible dad. They all knew he was intersex. He supposed that was also why Mikey and Don were interested in him, but they didn't do it for him and he knew they never would. No. He wouldn't have Leo either. He'd be alone emotionally and sexually until he died. Realizing that at the tender age of fifteen sucked. He already couldn't have a normal life, because of his appearance, but no love either? That was rotten turtle luck and unfair. He knew what he wanted and what would make him happy. It was right there in front of him, but he had to say nothing. Big brother would be mad and would most likely punch him if he did and would call him a pervert or worse, blab to Splinter and he'd be sent away. That couldn't happen. He'd suffer being around Leo and being unable to touch him, but being miles away would be worse. Did that make him a masochist?"Raph, you're shivering," Leo said.
"I'm fine!"
"Come closer," Leo said, opening his arms.
"I said I'm fine."
"Stop being stubborn. It's minus eight out there and we need to huddle close to stay warm. "
"I…"
"Raphael!" Leo said in his most authoritative tone. Raphael reluctantly got up, sat down beside Leo and allowed him to wrap his arms around him. "Better," Leo said as Raphael settled into the embrace.Raphael smelled Leo's strong musk that was mixed with mint and sandalwood and he shivered. Not from the cold, but from the near proximity to Leo and his intense and intoxicating scent. It was pleasing to his senses. More than pleasing, because he was starting to feel extremely tight in his shell. It was exciting, thrilling, arousing…"We need to talk," Leo suddenly said.Raphael froze. Had Leo smelled his pheromones indicating his arousal?"I can tell you're happy."Shit, Raphael thought with dread. He knows. What am I gonna say?"That you like cuddling up to me. I like it too and sitting here and not fighting."Maybe Leo hasn't smelled my arousal, Raphael thought in relief.Raphael's relief was dashed when Leo said, "Do you know how turtles know they're liked? They emit pheromones indicating like and arousal. I can smell yours, Raph."
Green eyes met blue ones and Raphael snapped, "No. It's my body betraying me. I'm not attracted to you, Leo. I never have been. I like…"Raphael's sentence was cut off by fern green lips capturing his in a tender kiss that caused butterflies in his stomach and his heart to race. His eyes wide in shock, he stared at Leo. Then he eagerly returned the kiss and tugged on Leo's mask tails to deepen it.They passionately kissed, their tongues explored, passion surged through them and their hearts overflowed with love as they gave in to their desire. The kiss was unexpected, but it was most welcome. Hands roamed and their plastrons ground against each other's, which created a delicious friction and caused them to churr. They churred so loudly that Raphael was grateful no one could hear them. He'd hoped his other brothers would find them, but now he was glad they hadn't. He'd finally kissed Leo and now he could die a happy turtle. He couldn't dare to hope for more and didn't believe he'd get it. Leo would make up an excuse that his hormones had gotten the better of him when he realized what he'd done, he'd ditch Raphael and it'd be back to backbiting and Raphael jealously watching him, especially if Karai was near. All these thoughts churned in Raphael's mind as the kissing heated up.Needing air, Leo broke the kiss and said breathlessly, "That was wonderful. You're an amazing kisser."
"So are you. What now, Leo?" Raphael asked, his heart hammering. "You're gonna tell me you regret this, aren't you and that I was just something to pass the time in the blizzard?"
"No, Raph. I don't regret this. Truthfully, I've had feelings for you for a long time," Leo said, trailing a hand down Raphael's plastron and sending tingles down his spine. "I didn't know to express them or when. I feared you'd punch me, because the idea of being with me was repulsive and I also thought that maybe Donnie or Mikey had won your heart. Then when you… I smelled… I took a chance. I'm glad I did. I'll tell Splinter when we're ready. I don't care if he's upset. I love you and I want you. I'll leave with you if Splinter can't accept it."
"As if. We fight, Leo, but I do that to get your attention. I admire you so much and no one could hold a candle to you. I wanted you to see me as a lover and not your pesky brute of a brother. I have other layers to me, you know. I love you too."
"I know," Leo said and traced a finger along Raphael's jaw, making him blush. "You're brave, sweet, loyal, passionate, keep me on my toes and you're sexy. I've loved you for a long time. Maybe two years and not admitting my feelings has been a struggle."
"For me too. I've loved you for about the same length of time. You drive me insane, Leo. Both good and bad. I'm mesmerized whenever I see you and when I watch you do your katas. You're perfection and everything I wish I could be."
A flushing Leo said, "Same here. You don't know it, but I sometimes watch you practicing in the dojo at night. You're a wonderful ninja when you focus, Raph, and I have no doubt you'll make a fine leader if I pass."Raphael's face reddened at the praise. It meant so much. Leo thought he was terrific, a good ninja and worthy of succeeding him. What had been a shitty day was turning into a fantastic one. Was he dreaming?"To make it official," Leo said interrupting his thoughts. "Will you be my boyfriend?"
"Hell yeah!" Raphael exclaimed and smashed his lips onto Leo's in a spine-tingling kiss."I think I found them, Donnie!" Mikey yelled, suddenly appearing. He wore an orange raincoat. Mikey took in the kissing Turtles and said, "I thought you hated each other?"Raphael and Leo's cheeks flamed and they hastily broke their embrace."We don't and actually like each other, Mikey," Leo said. "Hey. You guys shouldn't be out in this weather. It's…" Leo suddenly realized that it'd stopped snowing. "Abated."
"Yeah," Donnie, who wore a yellow raincoat said. "About ten minutes ago. We decided to search for you. Good thing we did. Come back with us before it starts again. I'll brew some coffee. April and Casey should be back from town with supplies soon."Mikey's eyes hadn't left Leo and Raphael, but now he shifted them and said, "Donnie, you should know that Leo and Raph were kissing."
"That's great. You guys a couple now?""Yeah," Raphael said, taking Leo's hand in his.
"I'm so happy for you!" Donnie exclaimed. "I like you, Raph, but I know you don't feel the same way. I'm not jealous. I just want you to be happy. I'm glad it's Leo if you have to date someone, because you couldn't do better than him. I wish you all the joy in the world and may you have tons of babies. Come on. Let's get back to the cabin now. Hurry.""No hard feelings, Mikey?" Raphael asked, concerned that Mikey hadn't said anything.
"Nah. None," Mikey lied to Raphael's immense relief.Leo helped Raphael to his feet, kissed his lips and holding hands they wended their way to the cabin.Mikey trudged after them, silent tears staining his cheeks and his heart was shattered into a million pieces. Raph. His Raph was taken. Damn Leo. How had he never seen it coming? And how was he supposed to recover? His only option now was Don. Why was life so unfair? Raphael was perfect for him. He knew it and had always known it, but Raphael was clueless and a dingbat. Leo? Really? Mikey knew there here was no way Leo would make Raphael happy. Leo was too stubborn and pure and he'd only be a source of constant pain, irritation and ire. There was no way in hell their relationship would survive and when it crumbled, he, Mikey, would be there to console Raph, would show him what real love was and they'd live happily forever. He just had to be patient and wait for that day. He'd be his sweet and cheerful self in the meantime, but he'd also show Raphael that he was more than a goof and an immature brat. He was capable of being everything Raphael deserved in a mate. Everything that Mikey felt Leo wasn't.

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Looking like he'd won the jackpot and still holding Leo's hand, Raphael entered the cabin.April saw them, smiled and said, "You finally told him, huh, Raph?"
"You knew I liked him?" Raphael said in amazement. "How?"
"Call it a woman's intuition. That and I've seen the longing, lingering glances you've directed his way and vice versa. Congrats, guys." "Congrats, why?" Casey said, entering the living room. He'd been unpacking the groceries in the kitchen.
"Leo and I are an item," Raphael said proudly.
"You're a fag, Raph?" Casey said in amazement."Casey!" April hissed, elbowing him hard in his side."I am," Raphael snapped, his green eyes blazing. "Got an issue with it?"
Casey shrugged and said, "Whatever floats your boat, man, but I always figured you were into chicks, because you drool over them. I can't believe you like cocks."
"Only one. Piss off, Jones, if you can't be respectful to my mate!"Leo squeezed Raphael's hand, trying to calm him down and said, "Look, I get it's a shock…"
"You think?" Casey said sarcastically. "Raph and I watched chick porn and we talked about getting laid by chicks. I had no idea he was a homo and into you. You jerk his chain all the time. No pun intended and I'd have thought he'd be into Mikey if he'd been gay, not stuck up and pompous you. It makes sense in a weird way, though, I guess. Raph likes a challenge. What's it about Fearless that attracts you, Raph? It can't be his scintillating personality. Didn't you say he was as emotionless as a rock and a snooze? Or was that an act and you've been itching to crawl up his shell all along?"Raphael's eyes flashed dangerously and he punched Casey's jaw so hard it sent him stumbling back."What the fuck, man?" Casey hissed and spat out a tooth. "That's not cool. I'm just trying to get some answers here, Raph!"
"I don't have to justify myself to you, Casey. We aren't a couple. April's your girl.""Whoa," Mikey said, holding up a hand. "Calm down, guys."
"Mikey, don't get involved," Donnie said. "Let's talk in the kitchen, okay? You too, April…""No," April chimed in. "Casey, stop it. Raph's right. It's not your business who he's with. All that matters is that he's happy. He is, so all's cool."
"Now I fucking gotta see a dentist," Casey yelled. "Thanks a lot, Raph.""Mikey, now!" Donnie insisted and dragged his brother out of the room."You're welcome," Raphael growled. "You'll lose more if you don't shut your trap. I've always been in love with Leo. Liking chicks was an act. How could I tell you that? I thought you'd freak out and well… Leo's always liked me, but was too scared to admit his feelings. Things happened in the cave and…"
"Cave? You fucked Leo in a cave?" Casey said in astonishment."No one's 'fucked' anyone," Leo said coolly, his eyes flinty. "Raph and I discovered we shared mutual feelings. That's all and we decided to date. Got a fucking problem? You know where the door is, Casey."
"This is my damn place. You can't kick me out!" Casey shouted, his eyes blazing."Then we'll walk," Raphael said. "Come on, Leo. I can't be in a place with a bunch of homophobes."
"I'm not a homophobe," Casey said. "You can't go out. Look at that atrocious weather."
"I'd rather freeze than listen to you, Casey.""Guys!" April interjected. "Please. Enough. It's a joyous day. Two people found out they're in love. We should be happy for them. Love's hard to find, let alone for mutant turtles. Casey, you and Raph have been friends for a long time. Are you really going to let your prejudice ruin that?"
"I'm not a homophobe, April. I'm floored he's into guys and with Leo of all people after all the shit he said about him. I'm sorry, Raph. I was truly amazed. I'm glad you found love. I don't get it if it's with Leo, but I wish you the best. I'm sorry I annoyed you."Leo flung an arm around Raphael.The green eyed turtle sighed and said, "Fine. I understand you didn't see that coming, but I was also too scared to admit it to myself for the longest time. I mean, liking your bro's kinda fucked up, you know."
"I pray I never do," Casey muttered."But you aren't bio brothers," April said. "And even if you were, siblings in the wild mate. It's natural. Anyway, I'm stoked for you guys. Will there be babies soon?"
"What the hell?" Casey spluttered. "How the shit can there be babies, unless one of them's female? My money'd be on Leo then. He acts more like a chick than Raph.""Actually, it's me," Raphael said softly and reached for Leo's hand. "But I'm not a girl. I'm intersex and have male and female parts."
Casey stared at him like he'd grown another head and muttered, "First I find out my pal's banging his bro and is gay and now I find out he can lay eggs. This is too much. I gotta take a walk and clear my head."
"We're done if you walk out," Raphael spat, his green eyes flashing. "I accept you for who you are. Why can' t you accept me?"
"Because eggs is weird, Raph. Don't you get it? Guys don't lay eggs and things will be different when you've laid them. You won't want to go out. You'll become domesticated and spend all your time being a mommy. I'll lose you and you're my best pal. What will I do without you? Who will I watch football and drink beers with? April's great, but she's not into that," Casey said miserably.
Hearing the pain in his friend's voice, Raphael's face softened and he said, "Firstly, Case, I won't be a mommy. Secondly, Leo and I aren't planning on having a family yet. We've only started dating. Finally, when and if the babies arrive, it doesn't mean that things will completely change. It just means my priorities have. That's understandable. I'll still see you, watch football and drink beer. It won't be as often, but I will. You won't lose me, but you will if you act like a jealous lover. I have a right to love and Leo really loves me. You don't have to be jealous of Leo and of any possible babies. You'll always have a place in my heart."
Casey smiled weakly and said, "Yeah. That's what you say now, but I know the score. You'll spend less and less time with me. Then nothing. Leo will monopolize all of your time and you'll let him. You'll become a drip and will be practically up his ass the whole time."Raphael's eyes blazed at the words and Leo squeezed his hand to soothe him."I really didn't think us dating would be such an issue," Leo said. "And I didn't mean to cause conflict between you and Raph, Casey."
"Don't you fucking apologize, Leo!" Raphael said crossly. "You did nothing wrong. Casey, I told you we'd still stay friends and I'll see you, but you're right. Leo's my priority. You'll either take what I said at face value or we won't see each other at all. I won't apologize for being happy and in love and for possibly having a family. Damn you. You're being a selfish prick. I felt the same way when you hooked up with April. I didn't see much of you, but I didn't act like a jerk and I was happy for you. I still am. You're amazing together and so are Leo and I.""You're right," Casey said. "I am being selfish, Raph. I just don't want things to change between us."
"Life changes, Casey, but friendships stay the same. That's if you give and take. You follow? And just think we can double date sometimes, instead of me always being the third wheel. You know how much I hated that?"
"I never made you think you were one."
"No, but I felt like it and just think our kids can play together if I have babies. That'd be cool, huh?"
"Yeah. Swell," Casey said unconvincingly. "All right. Best of luck to you both, but you'd better not break his heart, Leo. I'll kick your butt if you do."Leo laughed and said, "Actually, I think it's the other way around. Raph's quite capable of breaking hearts, considering how handsome he is and have you seen his eyes? They're exquisite gems."
Raphael blushed and said, "Enough, Leo. You're ruining my tough guy image."April smiled and said, "Raph is kind of cute. Now that things are peaceful again, I'm going to start dinner."Casey cleared his throat and said, "Uh. I'm gonna help April." He headed to the kitchen."So, what do you want to do now?" Raphael asked, suddenly feeling shy. "I reckon we have at least half an hour before dinner."Leo's reply was to tug him towards the bedroom he shared with Mikey.XXXXThe lovers fell back onto the bed, kissed and hands groped everywhere they could reach. Mesmerized by each other, they gave in to the raw passion between them.Raphael was underneath Leo and his heart raced as he stared intently into his mate's blue eyes.Is he gonna make love to me, Raphael wondered? I'm not ready for that. A churr roared from his chest when Leo stroked his sensitive tail. Damn. I like that, Raphael thought, but it can't go further. I'm not ready.Raphael broke the kiss and said, "I'm not ready for more, Leo. I'm sorry if you are, but…"
"There's no need to apologize, Raphie. I'm not either. I just want to cuddle with you and to really look at you," Leo said, trailing a hand down Raphael's plastron and making him shiver.
An embarrassed Raphael flushed and said, "Leo, I'm nothing special."
"You are. I'm gonna show you."Leo gave Raphael a long and sensual bath all over his body with his tongue and inwardly smiled when the temperamental turtle churred, his cheeks flushed, his lips slightly parted and his eyes glazed over from the pleasure coursing through him."Like that, baby?" Leo whispered, raising his head from Raphael's feet.
"Baby?" Raphael huffed. "Seriously?"
"Don't like it. Then how about my little marshmallow? You're already soft and pliant," Leo said with a grin. "Kind of suits you."
"Only if I can call you cherry blossom or something equally sweet. Fair's fair, right?"
"Whatever you want, hon."Leo kneed Raphael's legs apart, lifted a leg up and planted kisses all the way along it, making him blush even harder."Perfect. So toned and powerful," Leo said. He sucked Raphael's toes, making him gasp. He did the same with the other leg and then kissed the soft flesh between Raphael's thighs. "Gorgeous. Soft. Just like you. You've no idea how beautiful you are. I'm gonna tell you that every day."Unused to all the praise, Raphael flushed again. He'd never considered himself anything special. Okay, he had thought he could be described as ruggardly handsome in a badass way, but beautiful? Nah. That was for a girl, but he strangely didn't mind Leo saying it.Leo continued exploring Raphael's body. He turned his attention to Raphael's arms and admired the muscles beneath his mottled leathery skin and the many scars on it. His brother was certainly ripped from his working out and was like a Greek god. Raphael had many scars all over his body. He loathed them, but Leo thought they were beautiful and added character. He felt so blessed to have Raphael, who was a prize to be treasured, loved and spoilt. He'd do that in every way he could. Honoring Raphael. Dedicating his life to Raphael. Cherishing him. The way Raphael deserved."I love you," Leo whispered and kissed Raphael's collarbone. The hothead tilted his head to one side, allowing Leo more access and Leo grazed his teeth over it. Then he nipped it, causing Raphael to groan. "People might talk if I leave bruises."
"I don't care. This attention is kinda nice. It almost makes me think I'm something. I'm not that hot and my scars are ugly."
"You are something, Raph," Leo said and planted a kiss on his lips. "You're a work of art. Mine and I'll never stop admiring you or wanting to caress you. Nothing about you is ugly. You're perfection."Leo licked and nipped Raphael's collarbone, leaving multiple marks he knew would show, but he didn't care. Raphael was his to mark, to claim, to show off and besides, his brother must love it or he'd have told him to stop.Leo lowered his head between his brother's legs and licked his slit as he stroked his tail.It wasn't long before the cartilage in Raphael's slit parted. His thick ten-inch purple cock, which oozed precum dropped down and the veins pulsated.Leo hungrily studied it and his shell was embarrassingly tight. He was practically drooling over it, but who wouldn't? It was thick, throbbing with need and perfect. He'd dreamed about Raphael's cock forever. He'd dreamed about tasting it, sucking off his brother, making him cum and listening to his moans of pleasure. Sounds only he'd draw from him."Gorgeous, Raphie," Leo said. "You're such a big boy. I bet you're nine inches."
"Ten," Raphael said, reddening.Leo alternated between licking and sucking his brother and watched him close his eyes, flush, his lips part again and him fist the bed sheets.Raphael churred loudly and his tail thumped on the mattress.Leo took Raphael's cock further in his mouth and up to the root, deep-throated him and savored the intimate moment and the precious gift he was giving his brother and the cries Raphael emitted."I'm gonna cum!" Raphael declared, opening his eyes and locking them with his brother's. "Fuck, Leo! Argh!"Raphael came a minute later, shot his creamy and ropey essence down his brother's throat and panted heavily.Raphael pulled out with a plop and his cock retreated into its pouch.Leo licked his brother's cock clean, kissed his lips and said, "How'd I do?"
"Amazing. Thank you."
"You're welcome, my stud," Leo said, lying down and pulling Raphael close.
"You want me to do something for you?"
"Only when you're ready. I didn't do this to receive something in return. I just wanted to make you happy."
"You certainly did. Thank you, angel."
"Angel?" Leo said and raised an eyeridge.
"If I'm marshmallow and whatever, you're angel and whatever I wanna call you."
"Fair enough," Leo said, stroking Raphael's face. "Thank you for letting me touch you and for letting me get to know you better. I know letting me and allowing yourself to be so vulnerable and open wasn't easy."
Raphael smiled softly and said, "On the contrary, Leo. It was easy. I trust you, I love you and I can let my walls down with you. Having so much attention and being made to feel that I was special was heaven. I loved every minute of it and I love being with you. I'm not scared of being vulnerable, because I know you won't do anything to hurt me."
"I won't," Leo vowed. "You're my takara and I'm grateful and honored to have you as my mate."
"Even though I'm a shit sometimes?"
"Yeah. You complete me. I know we've only been together for a few hours, but I swear I'll love you forever, Raphie, and no one or anything will break us apart."
"Damn straight," Raphael said, snuggling up to him. "Nothing and no one will tear us apart, Leo. I won't let it. I love you so much."
"Love you too."
"Did you get your fill of looking at me?"
"Never. I'll never tire of looking at you."
"Me neither. You're gorgeous and it's my turn to explore you later."There was a knock on the door and Mikey said, "Dinner's ready.""Want to get dressed, Raph?" Leo whispered. "To cover up the bruises?"
"Heck no. They're love bites and I'm proud of them," Raphael said with a grin. "You're getting some later. I'm swapping rooms with Donnie and sharing with you if you want to."
"Of course I do.""Guys!" Mikey said.
"Keep your shell on, Mikey," Raphael said, climbing out of bed. He stood and helped his mate up. Then he opened the door.Mikey's eyes nearly popped out of his skull when he saw the bruises. His jaw dropped, his heart shattered and the anguish was so great he felt like he was going to die. Leo's teeth marks were clearly visible. Deep and purple bruises that'd be visible for a long time. Blood on them. Leo had been like a vampire and ravished HIS Raphael."What are you staring at, bro?" Raphael demanded.
"Are those hickeys?" Mikey asked, sniffing the air and inwardly crumbling when he smelled Leo's strong musk that was mixed with mint and sandalwood and which was all over Raphael. His crush had been marked and claimed. Leo had sent out a message that Raphael was taken. It was a warning to the others to back off from his territory.
"They are," Raphael said as he wrapped an arm around his mate. "But I prefer to call them love bites. Come on, Leo. I'm starving."Hand-in-hand, the lovers walked to the kitchen. They were followed by Mikey, who blinked back tears and thought, what do I do? Do I give up on Raph or do I accept Don's proposal? I love Raph so much and more than Leo. Leo will use and abuse him. I'm perfect for Raph. What do I do? How can I let him go?

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Dinner was hell for Mikey, who jealously watched Leo and Raphael canoodling and holding hands at the kitchen table like a pair of loved-up teenagers, which they were, but still. How could they do that so publicly? What had happened to Leo’s decorum? Raphael knew Mikey liked him. How could he be so callous? Mikey could tell that Casey was uncomfortable, because he hadn’t said a word throughout the meal. Casey usually talked non-stop, but the lovers were oblivious and only had eyes for each other.Raphael fed Leo spaghetti and said, “You're messing, Leo. Let me clean you up.” He licked the corner of Leo’s mouth and said, “Hmm. You taste so good, babe.”
An enraged Mikey’s eyes whitened, he scrunched up his napkin and said, “Enough! Have you guys no shame? None of us wants to see this display of…”“I think it’s sweet,” April said. “I’ve never seen them so happy. It doesn't bother me."
“Display of what?” Raphael demanded.“Vulgarity,” Casey piped up. “Look, Mikey’s right. You’re in love. That’s weird, but kudos to you. I’m trying to accept it, but I don’t wanna see you making out in public. It’s gross.”
“Yeah, dudes,” Mikey said. “It is. Keep it to your room.”“Mikey, you're just jealous, because I’m happy and you're not,” Raphael snapped and stood up. “And you're a homophobe, Case. I don’t need this shit. I’m going to bed. Come on, Leo. We aren't wanted here and we’re going home tomorrow. I can’t stand this hostility anymore.”
“I’M NOT JEALOUS!” Mikey yelled. “I’m happy for you guys, but I don’t want to see you making out publicly. It's revolting and should be confined to your room.”“Guys…” April said.
“I’m not a homophobe,” Casey said. “Really…”“Guys, calm down,” Donnie said. “Please. This is supposed to be a relaxing break for us.”“Mikey has a point,” Leo said, standing up and placing a hand on his fuming mate’s shoulder. “We did get carried away. Please accept our apologies…”
“NO!” Raphael shouted, his green eyes blazing. “You don’t have to apologize, Leo. We did get carried away a bit, but we’re in love and showing affection to each other is normal. Mikey wouldn’t care about public displays of love if I was with him. He’s just damn jealous, because he has the hots for me. I noticed he looked like a thundercloud all evening and I saw the death stares he shot at Leo. He’s pissed we’re mates, but too bad. It’s reality, Mikey, and nothing will change it. I adore Leo and he adores me. We’re gonna be bonded and have a family someday and we don’t care if anyone approves or not. So you'd better forget any ideas of us happening. Do you fucking hear me? You too, Donnie, if you still harbor desires for me. Come on, Leo. We’re outta here. We’ll take the van. Casey and April will take you guys home.”“You can’t go out in this weather, Raph,” Donnie said. “It’s hazardous on the roads. Stay until morning if you have to leave.”“I didn’t get an answer from you, Mikey,” Raphael pressed.
Mikey looked at his kelly green skinned brother as tears rained down his face and he said, “I understand, Raph. I really do. It’s just I’ve always…”
“I’m glad. You'd better not meddle in our business. I’m this close to telling you to fuck off for good.”
“I won’t cause trouble, Raph,” Mikey said miserably. “I promise.”Leo opened his mouth, but Raphael pressed a finger to his lips, quieting him and said, “Leo, you're gonna say that I was harsh on Mikey. Maybe I was, but at least he knows where he stands. I won't sugar-coat anything to spare feelings. It’s best to be open and honest. I am. I adore Leo so much and if no one can accept that, then they can fuck off. Even you, Casey, whom I love like a brother. Nothing and no one will come between Leo and I. I won’t allow it. Come on, Leo.”Leo said nothing and followed his mate to their room.A sobbing Mikey ran to his room.XXXXMikey threw himself onto his bed, wept bitterly and thought, Raph was so brutal. I know he supposedly loves Leo, but he didn’t have to be so hurtful. Hell. I want to die. It hurts so bad. I feel like my heart’s gonna break. Raph, how can you be so dumb? Why can’t you see that you belong with me and not Leo? I’d make you happy. Leo never will. I can make all your dreams come true. Leo will only bring you heartache.The door opened.Donnie entered the room and said as he sat on the bed, “I’m sorry, Mikey. Are you okay?”
“No! How can I be after that? Did you see how angry Raph was? He’s been mad at me before, but not to the point where he told me he’d tell me to fuck off for good. Raph and I used to be so close and now he hates me. Leo’s all he wants. It’s not fair, Donnie!”
“I know, Mikey,” Donnie said and patted his arm. “It sucks big time, but that’s life. We don’t always get what we want. I also love Raph, but I know he’ll never feel the same way about me and that it’s best to let him be with whom he wants. Jealousy and fighting won’t do any good. It won’t make Raph love me more than a brother and it won’t do that for you either. He loves Leo and is happy. I can deal with it, as long as he’s happy. That’s all I want. His happiness. You have to do the same thing. Life will find a way of making it happen if Raph's meant to be with either of us, but you have to stop pining for him. You also have to discard any plans of causing trouble. You could lose Raph forever if you don't.”
“I understand, but seeing him and Leo loved-up is hard, you know,” Mikey said despondently, his eyes filling with tears.
“I know. I feel the same way, but what can we do? We'll lose both of them if we're jealous and fight. You know Raph. He’ll want to leave the lair and he and Leo will leave for good. I don’t want that and I don’t think you do either.”
“No, but how am I supposed to deal with this, Donnie?”
“I don’t know. Keeping myself busy takes my mind off of things. Well, at least for a while. It’s just I lie awake at night thinking about things and I can’t hold back the tears. I’m also lonely and wish I had someone to love. You aren’t alone, you know. Everybody wants someone to love.”
“Do you think Dad will approve of them dating?”
“Yes. Love is sometimes hard to find and unlikely when you’re a mutant turtle. He won’t begrudge them, but he will want Leo not to favor Raph and to show him special treatment, especially on missions. That’s no problem. Leo wouldn’t do that and Raph wouldn’t let him. Did you consider my proposal? We could heal each other and be each other’s oasis. I know neither of us is what the other really wants, but at least we won’t be alone. I’ll try and be all you need, Mikey. Who knows, maybe we’ll fall in love with each other for real? What do you say?"
“Maybe,” Mikey said unconvincingly. He knew he could never love anyone the way he loved Raphael. No one could ever measure up to the volatile turtle, no matter how much they tried. “I accept, Donnie.”Donnie smiled and tenderly kissed his lips.Mikey deepened the kiss by tugging on Donnie’s bandana and wrapping his arms around him. The kiss was gentle, sweet and like Donnie, but it didn’t fill Mikey with butterflies and make his toes curl. All he felt was brotherly affection for the genius and that wouldn’t change.I know I’ll never stop loving Raph, Mikey thought. And dreaming of a future with him. Please let something happen, so that occurs. Raph and I belong together and I’ll cherish him forever if it happens. I love him so, so much.

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Leo and Raphael left for home the next morning at six, having mutually decided they couldn’t endure any more animosity. They were nervous about informing Splinter of their romance, but they knew that come what may they’d stay together, even if they were banished and had to make a life elsewhere. Their love would survive whatever obstacles life threw at them.Raphael slouched in the front passenger seat and a frown marred his handsome face. Leo drove.“Are you okay, Raph?” Leo asked.
“I'm kinda nervous about telling Dad and I’m sad about the events at the farmhouse. All we wanted was a relaxing break and it was fucking awful.”
“Language,” Leo admonished.
“Sorry, Mother Teresa,” Raphael said sarcastically. “You like me cursing. You said it’s hot.”
“It is, but I’m so used to telling you off,” Leo said and laughed, his eyes twinkling. “Sorry. Carry on.”
“All that tension was horrid. I loathed it. I can understand how hard it must be hearing that your ‘crush’ is taken, but…”
“I don’t think you do. There are only four of our kind, Raph. You know that and it means Donnie and Mikey probably have to settle for each other, because humans won’t want them. That must be terrible for them. I can’t imagine having to settle for someone, because I don’t want to be alone. I hope they fall in love for real if that's what they do. Maybe we shouldn’t be so open and vocal with our love. It must be extremely distressing for them.”
“They gotta get used to it, Leo. I won't act like a nun, because they’re upset. Besides, they’ll be good for each other and they’ll have to get used to it being the two of them, because we aren't living at the lair forever. You and I are leaving someday.”
“I know, but we have to show more sensitivity to them. Imagine if it was us and we had to settle for each other.”
“I guess you're right. Fine. I’ll try to restrain myself in public, but I won’t in the bedroom. Then I’m gonna ravage you and claim you like you did to me. Everyone’s gonna know you're mine. I wear these hickeys, your love bites with pride. You'll do the same when I claim you.”
“I sure will, my love. I’ll show them off, my adorable Alpha.”
“I'm not adorable,” Raphael said and blushed.
“You are. You’re breathtaking, Raph, and I can’t take my eyes off you,” Leo said and lovingly looked into his eyes.
“You'd better. We don’t want accidents. Focus on the road, muffin,” Raphael said as his heart swelled with adoration for his mate.
“Muffin? Okay, my rose blossom. Whatever you say,” Leo said teasingly and focused on the road. “I’m so happy, Raph, and I swear we’ll always be together, no matter what happens.”
Raphael placed a hand on his knee and said, “We will. No one will destroy what we have, Leo. I won’t allow them and I’ll love you until my dying breath.”
“Me too, sweet pea.”
“Ugh, Leo. Sweet pea. Really?” Raphael huffed. “That’s so sweet and unmanly.”
Leo laughed and said, “Buttercup?”
“I’m gonna smack you,” a flushing Raphael said without a trace of venom in his voice.
“Ah. You’re into BDSM, are you? I can like that. Maybe I’m a masochist, huh? Are you my Master, Raphie? I know you like the endearments. You’re blushing.”
“I admit I love them, babe, and yeah, I could maybe like BDSM. That could be fun. We could take turns being Master and thinking of new things to try. Now focus on the road, so that we can get home in one piece.”
“Whatever you say, Master,” Leo said and chuckled.XXXXThe couple arrived home a few hours later.Splinter was in the living room. He raised an eyebrow when he saw them and said, “You are back early, my sons. Where are your brothers? Did they not return with you?”
“No,” Leo said, his heart racing, knowing he was about to tell Splinter his and Raphael’s news. “We left them at the farmhouse. Casey and April will bring them home. We have some news to tell you,” he said and reached for Raphael’s clammy hand. He was also clearly anxious.
“And what is that?” Splinter asked.Raphael’s heart pounded, he took a deep breath and said, “Leo and I are in love and we’re dating. We won’t let it negatively affect the team and we’d like your blessing. It’d mean the world to us. I know it’s a shock, but…”
“It is not that great a shock. I always had a feeling this would happen,” Splinter said. “You are so alike and you have always complemented each other well. I see no reason to forbid this union. My only condition is that this does not negatively affect the team.”“Neither of us would let that happen, Dad,” Leo said, his heart leaping for joy and squeezing Raphael’s hand to convey his happiness. “I won’t favor Raph more than the others and he wouldn’t let me do that. The only thing that’s changed is that our feelings for each other are more than brotherly.”
“Yeah,” Raphael said, his green eyes shining and his cheeks flushed with elation. “That’s all, Dad. We left early, because of the friction at the farmhouse. Casey was a homophobe and our brothers didn’t wanna come home early. They’ll come home when they wanna and Mikey was jealous…”“Jealous of what, my son?” Splinter asked.
“Leo and I," Raphael said. "He’s crushed on me for ages and was mad Leo and I hooked up, but he’ll get over it.”
“So your union has brought dissension,” Splinter said and frowned.
“No! They’ll get used to it,” Raphael said in alarm, having a sinking feeling about what was going to occur.
“They?”
“Donnie also liked me. Look, they’ll get used to it, Dad. I swear and they’ll…”
“Silence, Raphael!” Splinter said sternly.“Dad, no!” Leo said worriedly. “Dad, please don’t. Donnie and Mikey will…”
“SILENCE!” Splinter roared, his brown eyes flashing. “I am glad you and Raphael have found love, Leonardo, but I cannot allow the union if there is dissension in the family. I have to deny it.”“YOU CAN’T!” Raphael screamed, his green eyes filling with tears. “Leo and I belong together and we’ll die without each other.”
Splinter slapped his cheek and said, “Raphael, remember your place. I am your sensei and your father and you are my student and son. You will obey me.”
Raphael rubbed his cheek and yelled hysterically, “You can’t separate us. I love him so much." He fell to his knees and said, “I’m nothing without him. I need him and he needs me. Please don't do this.”“Dad, please don’t,” Leo begged as his eyes misted over. “I love Raph.”
“I am sending Leonardo away in the morning. He will go to the Ancient One for two years,” Splinter said firmly. “I hope the absence will eliminate your romantic feelings for each other, so that harmony can once again reign in this family. Please understand that I am not doing it to punish. It is for the good of our clan. You will understand one day, my sons.”“I hate you,” Raphael snarled, his green eyes blazing, rising to his feet and balling his hands into fists. “I hate you, Splinter. Leo's the only good thing about my life and you're taking him away from me. I’ll never forgive you for as long as I live.”A heartbroken and furious Raphael ran out of the room, went to his room and banged the door behind him.“Leonardo,” Splinter said. “I am…”
“I’ll never forgive you either,” Leo said coldly and raced after his lover.XXXXLeo went into Raphael’s bedroom, saw him sitting on the bed with his head in his hands and heard him sobbing.“Raphie,” Leo said softly.
“Lock the door now,” Raphael said. “Don’t ask questions. Do it.”Leo obeyed, sat down on the bed and looked questioningly into his eyes.“We only have today, Leo,” Raphael said earnestly as he cupped his cheek. “I don’t wanna wait. I want you body and soul. I want you inside me and filling me up. I want you to make love to me now. I need you and you need me. We’ll at least have this memory to carry us through our separation and lonely times, although I swear I’ll never stop loving you and I’ll wait for you.”
“We shouldn’t. There could be complications.”
“Like a kid? I understand the risks, but I’d take care of it, Leo. I would, so you don't have to worry. This is our only chance for probably a very long time, my love. We need to take the opportunity.”
“I know. I don’t want to leave you. I’ll never stop loving you either and we'll make a home somewhere else when I return. Just us.”
“I’ll count down the days,” Raphael said as he lay down on the bed and parted his legs. He wagged his tail invitingly and said, “Take me, Leo. I’m yours. Make love to me. Claim me.”Leo stuck a finger into Raphael’s puckered hole to prep him and when he was satisfied Raphael was wet enough, he thrust his cock into him.Raphael hissed at the penetration and Leo immediately glanced at him with concern.“I’m okay, my love,” Raphael said. “Continue. I'm not made of porcelain and I can take pain. Continue. It just burned a bit. That’s all, but I know that’s momentary and it’ll soon be amazing.”
“Are you sure?” Leo asked.
“Fucking sure. Continue now, Leo. I won't beg you.”Leo thrust in and out and Raphael rolled his hips so that Leo would go in deeper.Raphael’s nails raked down Leo’s arms and drew blood, but Leo didn’t care. His focus was his lover and that was all that mattered. Now and forever.Their eyes remained locked on each other’s throughout their lovemaking.Raphael’s heart raced, he panted, his cheeks flushed and his eyes glazed over. He thought as he listened to Leo's churring, this is magic. I’m making love to my angel. My beloved Leo. This is heaven and true love. I know it is and I’ll remember this until we’re reunited.Raphael churred in response and moaned from the pleasure when Leo repeatedly stabbed his prostate.I’m an uke, Raphael thought. I never thought I would be, but I don’t care. All that matters is us and this moment. I love being an uke, but maybe I’ll top next time. We’ll see. Man, I feel so alive, so loved, so happy. Oh, Leo, I’m gonna miss you so much.Raph is so beautiful, Leo thought. I love those sexy and adorable sounds he’s making. He and this moment will forever be imprinted in my memory and on my heart.Leo shouted Raphael’s name when he came a few minutes later and deposited his warm and sticky seed into Raphael.Raphael climaxed with a low growl shortly after and affectionately nuzzled Leo's cheek with his beak.Leo pulled out, flopped down beside him and tugged him close.“I love you, Raphie,” Leo said breathlessly and kissed his lips.
“Love you more, babe,” Raphael said as tears filled his eyes.
“Are you okay, hon?”
“I’m fine. That was so special, mind-blowing and perfect. My first time and I’m so honored and grateful it was with you. I’ll never forget it or you.”
Leo gently kissed his tears away and said, “Me either and I swear I’ll return to you. It’s also how I pictured my first time. I’m happy it was with you. You’re incredible, Raphie.”
“So are you, my love. I hate Splinter for sending you away.”
“I do too.”
“I’ll never love anyone else the way I love you and I’ll never want anyone else. I’ll wait for you.”
“You know I will too. Get some rest and then we can have another round.”
“You're on. I don’t wanna top, though. I liked being your uke. Do you mind?”
“No. Whatever you want,” Leo said and kissed his lips. “Rest.”Leo drifted off to sleep and was still snuggled up to his mate.Fuck, Splinter, Raphael thought. Leo and I will be together when he returns and no one can stop that. I hope I do fall gravid. It’ll be a lasting reminder of my Leo and it’ll cement our love even more. Leo, oh, Leo, I’m gonna miss you so much. I don’t know how I’ll cope without you, because I’m nothing without you. You're my heart, my soul, my everything and I’m just a living corpse without you. I know you feel the same way about me. Hold on, my love. It’s just two years and then we’ll be reunited. Fuck all those who don’t approve.Raphael nuzzled his beak into the crook of Leo’s neck and smelled his comforting musk that was mixed with mint and sandalwood. It never failed to soothe him and he was soon asleep. He dreamed of Leo’s return, their young and a happy life far away from everyone who condemned their union.

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Leo and Raphael had made love five times that day, desperately clung to each other and cocooned each other in their love as tears streamed down their cheeks.It was with a heavy heart when Leo woke the next morning and saw that it was the day of his departure from his treasured mate. Tears rolled down his cheeks as he studied his sleeping lover who was in his arms. How was he supposed to leave Raphael, who was imprinted on his heart, his soul and who was the missing link and his one true love? How was he supposed to go goodness knows where for two long years, then return and only act brotherly towards him? Scaling Everest in a raging blizzard would have been more achievable. He didn't want to go, but he had to. He was still a child and under his dad's rule, but when he returned and if Raphael still wanted him, he'd leave with him and build a life someplace else.Raphael stirred, opened his eyes and said sadly, "It's nearly time, isn't it, babe?"
"Yes, my love. I'm gonna go," Leo said. "Don't come to the living room, because it'll be too hard. Let's say…"
"Make love to me," Raphael pleaded, his green eyes brimming with tears. "One last time. I need you, hon. Make love to me and let me feel you. I want you and I want this to be my lasting memory of you, not falling to pieces and saying farewell. I don't want that fucking rat seeing me crying, so he can gloat. Don't scold me for talking ill about him, Leo."
"I won't. I fully agree, Raphie. I wish it were different and that I could take you with me, but I can't."
"I know, so make love to me and let me have this last moment of our love together. This is how I wanna remember you. You by my side, making love to me, your musk permeating the room, your love bites and your tender caresses. It's always been you and it'll only ever be you."
Leo nuzzled Raphael's beak with his own and said, "My love, I feel the same way, but I promise I'll return." He kissed Raphael's lips and said, "Don't be sad. It's not forever."
"I know," Raphael said, parting his legs. "But it'll feel like an eternity. Make love to me, Leo. We don't have much time left."Leo stuck a finger into his mate's puckered hole to prep him and when he was sure Raphael was ready, he plunged his cock into him.Raphael bucked his hips and arched his back so that Leo could go in further and his nails dug into Leo's biceps."Yes!" Raphael said and moaned when Leo hit his prostate. "That's it! Oh, Leo! Fuck! Fuck!"
"I love you," Leo whispered and trailed kisses down his mate's plastron. "I love you so much. Oh, Raph! Raph! Raph"
"Harder!"Leo thrust in deeper and looked at his panting and flushed mate who fisted the bedsheets and who had a soft expression on his face.He's so damn beautiful, Leo thought. Exquisite. Mine. I'm so lucky to have him as my mate and I'll miss him incredibly.Fearless is damn sexy, Raphael thought as he stared into his lover's eyes and churred. I'll miss him so much. This is heaven. I'm so lucky to have him. I never knew that love could feel like Heaven watching over me. Man, I'm a sap, but it's so true. This is what real love is.A flushing Leo churred back and his eyes were hooded with love and lust. He trailed more kisses down his lover's plastron, making him churr again and kept pounding away.Leo pumped his lover's cock, which had dropped down and listened to his churring.I never thought Raph could make those sounds, Leo thought. But it's so damn sexy like him.Raphael climaxed with a loud growl, yelled Leo's name and his seed coated his plastron and Leo's fingers.Leo shouted Raphael's name when he came soon after and shot his essence deep into his lover."That was heavenly," Leo said breathlessly. He pecked his lover's lips, pulled out and flopped down beside him.
"It was," Raphael said breathlessly. "I never knew that love could feel like Heaven watching over me. We have it all, Leo. Love, passion, chemistry, things in common and respect. You put the color in a world of gray and you make the love that carries me away."
"Oh, Raphie," Leo said, his eyes filling with tears and tugging him closer as they basked in their afterglow. "That's beautiful."
"And sappy, huh? There's a song I like. Don't tell anyone about it, because they'd snigger. It reminds me of you and that's where the words I said come from. It's called Feels like Heaven and is by Chaka Khan and Peter Cetera. It makes me think of you, because that's what you do. Your love is Heaven, Leo, and you make me feel so special, adored and cherished. I'm grateful and honored to be yours. Until you, I was lost in my dreams."
"So am I, my love," Leo said and passionately kissed him. "I'll always be yours."
"Same here, my angel. You should listen to Peter Cetera. He has many cool songs. There's another line from that song that you should remember while you're gone. Wherever you are, invisible hands reach over the miles. For every wish you make to the stars, there's one silent kiss I send to the sky."
"Oh, Raphie, you're gonna make me cry. I love that. That sums us up perfectly. I'll do that every day I'm away."
"Me too."Leo sighed and looked at the digital clock on the nightstand, which said 4 a.m. Splinter had sent him a text the night before, which was unusual, because he hated using phones, but he didn't think Leo would talk to him, so he'd sent one and told him to be up and ready by four fifteen, so they could head to the docks together."I have to go, Raphie," Leo said, extricating himself from Raphael's embrace.
"No. Five more minutes, please." Raphael begged.
"I can't, hon. I have to go now. Be strong, my love. It's not forever."
"Leo, let me come with you…"
"You can't, hon. Someone has to stay and help Splinter and the others. I'll be back. I promise."
"Leo," Raphael said wretchedly as tears spilled down his cheeks. "Leo. Oh, Leo."Leo passionately kissed him and wrapped his arms around him.They clung to each other and unashamedly shed tears, knowing this was it. Their last moment together and they were already missing each other.Leo stood and said as he donned his elbow pads, knee pads, hand wrappings, mask and weapons (They'd undressed some time during their lovemaking), "I love you, Raphie. I'll hold you in my heart and my soul until we meet again. Let's not say farewell. Let's say until then."
"I will too," Raphael said in a broken voice. "Come back to me, babe. I love you madly, passionately and with every fiber of my being."
Leo packed a bag, kissed Raphael's beak and said, "Try to stay strong, my love and if you don't feel the same way about me when I return, I'll try to accept it. I understand that two years is a long time and that you need someone to love, to hold you and to be there for you."
"No! I'll wait for you. I promised, Leo. Wait for me too."
"I will. See you later, my love. Aishiteru."
"Aishiteru, my Leo, my angel." A tearful Leo walked out of the room, met Splinter in the living room and they headed to the docks.Raphael sobbed uncontrollably, held Leo's pillow close and smelled his intoxicating scent. He hoped it'd comfort him a bit, but it didn't. Nothing would soothe him. Only Leo would and he'd soon be thousands of miles away from him.The raw grief was unbearable and shatterered Raphael's heart. He knew he could never love anyone else. He'd had the best, so how could he settle for someone else who would be second best? He'd rather be alone with his memories until his beloved returned.Raphael smelled the heady, heavy scent of their lovemaking and saw the evidence of it on the bedsheets. It was suddenly very overwhelming. That, the loss of Leo, the memories. He had to get out of there and to leave the lair and everything he'd ever known. He had to leave the ancient rat and his stringent rules.Raphael packed a bag containing Leo's pillow, a few photos of Leo and himself and some money, donned his elbow pads, knee pads, hand wrappings, mask, weapons, trench coat and a fedora and ran out of the lair. He didn't know where he was going, but he knew he'd return when his lover did.XXXXRaphael stayed in the tunnels in his secret place until 7 p.m. Then famished, he decided to go to the surface to get some food. He took his bag, thinking he could crash under a bridge or find an abandoned warehouse or something for the night and then return to the sewers the next day.Raphael bought a couple of hot dogs and a soda from a vendor and then went to sit on his and Leo's favourite rooftop and to watch the twinkling city lights. The evening was chilly, so he was glad he had his trench coat.Looking up at the stars, Raphael thought, I'm sending you a silent kiss, Leo. Do you feel it? Are you thinking about me, because I'm thinking about you and missing you so much.Raphael ate the hotdogs and continued gazing at the stars. It was a beautiful night and there was a full moon. It was so romantic. How he wished Leo were there with to share it with him.He sighed and then tensed when he heard footsteps on the roof. His hands gripped his weapons and his keen sense of smell told him that someone else was there. He had to be cautious, because it could be one of his many enemies.Raphael stood and snarled, "Who's there? Come on out and show yourself."
"It's only me," a dark haired and almond eyed man who wore a tuxedo said as he stepped out of the shadows. "No need to be afraid."The man's voice was strangely familiar, but how could it be him? He wasn't wearing his gauntlets or his metal face mask. Maybe Raphael was mistaken."Why are you wearing a trench coat and wielding weapons?" the man asked. "I'm not dangerous. I came here to get a bit of space. That's all. Please put them away."It was definitely Shredder. That deep voice Raphael had heard so many times mocking him and his brothers was etched on his mind. There was no way in hell he was going to put his weapons away, so that the creep could jump him."I'm not stupid," Raphael growled. "What the fuck are you doing here, Shredder?"
"How do you know me? I don't… Wait a minute. You're Raphael. I recognize your voice."
"Yeah. It's me, tin can. Where's your mask?"
"I left it at home. I attended my cousin's wedding reception in the building. Even villains have nights off, Raphael. Put those away. I don't want to fight."
"How the hell am I supposed to believe you after all the shit you've put us through, chrome dome?" Raphael snapped.
Shredder shrugged, sat down and said, "If I'd wanted to fight, I would have done so already. I could easily defeat you without my gauntlets and weapons."Raphael glanced around and wonderered if Shredder's goons were around."If you're looking for Bebop and Rocksteady," Shredder said. "They're at home. Even they have nights off. I don't want any trouble, Raphael. I just wanted to sit here and be alone. I had no idea I'd have company."
"Then I'll leave."
"You don't have to. Why are you out? Shouldn't you be at home with your family?"
"That's my business. Why are you here?"
"The reception's over and I thought I'd sit here for a while. Please sit, Raphael. I won't cause any trouble."Raphael remained standing, gripped his weapons and his green eyes bore into the villain's. He didn't trust him. How could he after all the man had done to him and his brothers?"Fine. Suit yourself," Shredder said. "Everyone else had partners at the reception and it made me a bit sad, because I'm lonely and I don't have anyone. There. Now you know my secret. I'm a tough villain, have money and power, but I can't find a partner. Sort of like you. You understand, right? Of course you do. You're a mutant turtle. How would you find a partner?"Raphael's jaw dropped at the admission. The psycho was complaining about his love life to him? What was he, an agony aunt or something? Had he forgotten all he'd done to Raphael and his family and now he was treating him like a friend or something? Life was certainly fucked up."Have you forgotten we're enemies, Shredder?" Raphael said. "And now you wanna chat as if we're pals. Have you forgotten what you've done to me and my family?"
"I haven't. Let's try and ignore that for the moment. I'm just venting. Hey. You must be broken about something. Don't you usually spend time alone on the rooftop when you are? I've seen you. What's troubling you, Raphael? I can be a good listener."
Raphael snorted and said, "This is rich. You're our archenemy and now you talk like we're pals. Listen, tin grin, we aren't friends and I don't have to talk to you. You don't need to know my business and I don't wanna know yours. You're deranged!"
"I suppose I am, but even deranged people want partners. You know what I think? I think something happened at home for you to be alone here at night with a bag. Did you run away from home? Did you fight with Leonardo? I know you often do, because you're so alike and you're both so stubborn. I've seen it in the battles. Or was it with that old-fashioned rat who makes you feel like you're a prisoner in your home with all his rules?"Raphael's jaw dropped again. How did the creep know so much about him and his family?"Your silence speaks volumes, Raphael," Shredder continued. "Now you're alone and have no one. I know what that's like. I have a brother, but we don't talk and my parents are deceased. I have extended family I sometimes see, but it's mostly just me. We're alike in some ways, Raphael. We don't always let people in and build up walls, we're tough, but we're softies beneath that, we'd do anything for those we love and we both yearn to be loved. I know I've been a monster, but I'm not all bad. No one is all bad or all good. Now what ails you, my son?"
"I'm not your damn son!" Raphael raged, his green eyes stony.
"Maybe, but you're not that rat's either. He's not very understanding and he never listens to you, does he? He always favors Leonardo. Real dads don't do that, Raphael. I wouldn't do that to my son. I'd be there for him and would encourage him, instead of belittling him and making him feel that he wasn't good enough. My arms are open. I'm willing to listen."
"You're just trying to get me to betray my family. I'm not dumb."
"I assure you, I'm not. I just see a kindred spirit in you, Raphael. I see a lost kid who needs guidance and love, instead of harsh discipline. If I wanted to question you I'd have done so and I'd have found a way of summoning my goons to torture you, but I do not wish to. I understand your distrust, though. Do you want to talk? This'll stay between us."
Raphael stared into his brown eyes and his sincere- looking face, put his weapons into his belt and said, "I have a feeling I can trust you. My gut isn't wrong, so here goes. I'm dating Leo. Splinter gave his blessing, but he changed his mind when he learned that Donnie and Mikey also like me and he doesn't want dissension in the family. He's sending Leo away for two years and he won't let us be together other than as brothers." Tears rolled down his cheeks and he said irately, "It's not fair. Leo and I were happy and we belong together. I love him and he loves me. It's the real deal, you know. I'm fucking pissed at the rat and I hate him. I always will and I'll never forgive him!"Shredder nodded and his heart went out to the mutant. He knew what it was like being in love and having it taken it away from him. Poor Raphael and Leonardo. The rat was indeed harsh to his so-called beloved sons. Shredder knew he wouldn't have been. He'd have let them be together and he didn't blame Raphael for his emotions.Shredder pulled Raphael close and whispered, "It's okay, Raphael. I understand. It's okay. The rat was wrong. He should have been understanding and let you and Leonardo stay together. It's okay. Let it all out."Raphael tensed. It was so weird. The villain was embracing him. What the hell? He should pull away, but the hug was so comforting and exactly what he needed. He'd have given anything for one from his dad in apology and for him to change his mind about Leo's exile, but he wouldn't get one. Splinter was too proud. Just like him sometimes.Raphael wept to his great consternation and melted into the embrace. Then he pulled away and said, "Don't think this changes things between us, Shredder. I appreciate your kindness, but you're still a prick."
"And you're still the snarky rebel, aren't you?" Shredder said and chuckled. "But I suspect there are more layers to you and there are more to me. I have a proposition for you, Raphael. The old rat's not worthy of your love after the way he's treated you. You owe him nothing. He's raised you, sure, but what else has he done for you? He certainly hasn't been a loving father. You wouldn't be out in this atrocious weather if he had. You know that. What I suggest is that you come home with me."
"You mean betray my family?"
"I suppose you could call it that, but I'll give you what you need. You're still a kid…"
"I'm fifteen. That isn't really a kid."
"A teenager, so you're still young. You need guidance and a father figure to love you. You're not getting it from the rat. I have always wanted a son. You can be it. You'll lack for nothing, will be my heir and treated well. No harm will befall you. My goons will leave you alone and they'll also not touch your brothers and that rat. They'll be safe and so will you. There'll be rules, but I'll also allow you to have freedom and to do as you like. You'll be adored like you should be, Raphael," Shredder said and cupped his face. "Look at me. What do you see? Do you see sincerity or untruth in my eyes and face?"
"I see truth and sincerity, but it's a huge deal, you know."
"Of course it is, but your life at home won't change. I can offer you a better one."
"One condition."
"What is it, my son?"
"Send your men to the Ancient One and bring Leo home. I'll use my charms to convince Leo that we belong with you. Do that and I'll be your son forever. That's all I want. Leo in my arms."
"As you wish, Raphael. I promise you'll have Leonardo back. Come home with me now. It's getting colder."Raphael followed Shredder to his car and they climbed in and headed to Shredder's compound.I betrayed the family, Raphael thought on the journey. I betrayed them all, but I don't care. All that matters is Leo. Shredder promised to find him and to bring him home. It won't be long, my Leo, and we'll be back together. Aishiteru.

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Raphael and Shredder arrived at his compound and went inside.XXXXShredder summoned his men to the living room. They gawked at Raphael and thought their boss was insane for bringing him home, but maybe the boss had sexual plans in store for Raphael. They wouldn't mind if that was the case, especially if they could make Raphael scream. Their hopes were dashed when Shredder spoke.“Raphael's going to live with us,” Shredder said, placing a hand on Raphael’s shoulder. "He's my son and therefore your superior and my second-in-command. You won’t touch or harm him. There'll be hell to pay if I find out you have.”
“But why?” Hun asked. “He’s a Turtle and has caused so much shit for us. I don’t get it. Why would you suddenly bring that dweeb home, unless you have hidden desires for him and we can bang him too.”Raphael’s blood boiled at the crass words and his green eyes flashed dangerously. Him passed around like he was a slut? Did Shredder really intend that for him?Sensing Raphael’s rage, Shredder turned to him, squeezed his shoulder reassuringly and said, “My son, that isn’t the case. I have no sexual desires for you or your brothers. I see you only as my son and my men will not have sex with you either, unless you permit it. They know they'll be punished if they contravene my orders. Hun, you’d be wise to speak to me respectfully, because I can make life difficult for you and your loved ones.”
Hun swallowed hard and said, “Yes, Boss. Sorry. I was out of line. What do I call the Turtle?”
“Prince Raphael or Mr. Oroku. Raphael, you’ll take my surname and you’ll lack for nothing. Everything I have is yours and you can call me Dad. My men are also your servants and will do whatever you want. Hun’s also a great cook and baker and will make whatever you like.”“Really?” Raphael said, feeling a bit awkward. It was one thing for Shredder to give him a place to live and to take him in, but calling him Dad? He didn’t know if he could ever do that.
“Yes. It’d make me very happy, Raphael. I’ve always wanted a son. Go on. Try it," Shredder said.
“Dad.”Shredder smiled when Hun coughed to hide his amusement.Hun also thought his boss was nuts. He’d always hated the Turtles and now he was fawning over Raphael. What next?“Dad,” Bebop snickered and nudged Rocksteady. “The boss has really lost the plot. Hahahah.”
“Yeah,” Rocksteady said and chuckled. “A turtle for a son. Hahaha and he picked the ugliest one.”“Be quiet!” Shredder boomed and glared at his henchmen. “Raphael, let me show you to your room. Hun, make us something to eat and serve it to us at the dining room table in fifteen minutes.”
“Yes, Boss,” Hun said and left the room.
“The rest of you are dismissed and can go to your rooms.”Shredder and Raphael left the room and went to Raphael's new room.“You know,” Bebop said. "Raphael's ugly, but I wouldn’t mind tapping his ass, Rocksteady, and making him scream. Payback for all the misery he’s caused us. Plus, he has a cute ass and he’d look hot riding our cocks.”
“Me neither. How do we go about it? The boss said we can’t.”
“No. He said we could have sex with the shellback if Raphael gave permission, so we what we have to do is make Raphael want us.”
“But he hates us.”
“There’s a fine line between hate and love. I think he secretly loves us. That’s why he insults us so much. You know, like the kid who pulls a girl’s ponytail at school wants to get her attention. That’s why he does it.”
“Oh, so we have to tease him back?”
“Yes and make him horny. Rub up against him, touch his little tail, kiss him and it’ll drive the little Turtle so wild with desire he’ll wanna be our bitch. Then we won’t be virgins anymore.”
“I love it,” Rocksteady said, clapping his hands gleefully. “I’ll fuck him so hard and will fill him up with my seed. We’ll share him, of course. Our little bitch.”
“Little Raphie sitting on our fat and throbbing clocks with his mouth open and eyes glazed over. We’ll take a picture when that happens and send it to his brothers.”
“Of course and we’ll have fun thinking of new ways to play with our toy. And we can also dress him up. He’ll look adorable in a pink teddy and blonde wig!”
“Yes, but we have to be sly about this and approach him whenever the boss isn’t around. We'll drug his food and screw him senseless when the boss is away if that doesn't work. We recover fast and you can cum every five minutes, so he’ll be well used and a dirty little slut. Ours. We'll beat him and knock his teeth out if he resists.”
Rocksteady grinned and said, “Yep. Nothing like violence to enforce obedience. Come on. Let’s look up some fun things we’ll do with Raphie online. I’m getting horny thinking about it.”The villains headed to the bedroom they shared, went online on hardcore BDSM sites and fantasized about what they’d do to Raphael.XXXXRaphael gawked at the extravagance of his new room, which contained a king-size bed with blue silk sheets and matching bedspread, a canopy above it, Persian rugs, pine flooring, a black leather couch and a 90-inch plasma screen near the couch. The walk-in closet, dressers and closets were made of maple wood and so was the huge desk in the corner of the room. There was a laptop on the desk.“Like it, Raphael?” Shredder said. “All ten bedrooms in my house are similarly decorated. Nothing but the best. If you’re wondering where I received the money for such opulence, I inherited it from my parents. They left my brother and I more than enough, so we don’t have to worry about cash flow. My brother’s a cop and lives in Brooklyn, but like I said, we don’t talk.”
“Yeah. I could like it here. A cop, huh? How does he feel about your nefarious activities?”
“Displeased. Foiled them whenever he could. That’s why we don’t talk, because he doesn’t approve of my lifestyle, but he doesn’t have to worry about that anymore. You see, Raphael, my days as a criminal are over.”
“Huh? You're saying you're retiring from crime?” Raphael said in disbelief.
“That’s right. I have a son now and I want to be a father he can be proud of. You remind me so much of myself when I was younger. Young, pure, a heart of gold and a raging temper. I was a good man and so were my parents, who were distraught when I turned to crime. It started with hot-wiring cars and escalated to murder. My brother was the perfect son and never did anything wrong. He was the golden boy ike Leonardo. I became the black sheep and felt like an outsider like you felt. My temper’s not the best, but I’m working on it. Anyway, I’m going straight. No more crime and violence. I want you to be proud of me and to leave a good legacy behind. I don’t want to be remembered as a villain. My men will do good from now on.”
“You're kidding, right? This is some kinda April Fools' Day joke.”
“No, Raphael. I understand your skepticism, but I’m dead serious.”
“What about training, fighting and so on? Are you gonna stop that?”
“Fighting for good and I’ll train you in the dojo. You’ll lead the men when I’m not around. Bebop and Rocksteady are numbskulls, but there’s nowhere else for them to go, so I keep them employed. Hun’s loyal to a fault and I’d trust him with my life. He’s a decent man and loves helping people. Did you know he volunteers at a homeless shelter twice a week and at an old age home?”
“I had no idea. How come you don’t want him as your heir?”
“Because I want you and I want to help you find your place in the world and to give you what Splinter didn’t. Love, acceptance, discipline, guidance, freedom. Freedom to be yourself, instead of someone’s puppet. That’s what you were to him. A puppet to fight me. You never had a chance to be a kid and to have a semblance of a childhood. All you did was follow his rigid rules. What kind of life was that? You’ll be able to do what you want here, although there are some rules. Curfew is midnight. No hardcore music late at night. Meals are always eaten at the dining room table, alcohol is forbidden, you won’t bring strange people home and no narcotics. You’re welcome to have your brothers over if you wish. No harm will befall them. Use a condom if you wish to be sexually active. I don’t want my precious son infected with an STD.”
Raphael nodded and said, “Understood.”
“I’m a reasonable man, but you’ll be punished if you don’t adhere to my rules. I want the best for you and I don’t think my rules are stringent.”
“Nope. What if I wanna stay out later?”
“Then you ask my permission. You’re still a child, Raphael, and roaming around the city on your own isn’t wise. There are tons of creeps who’d think nothing of harming you. Splinter really was a dumb man to have allowed you to stroll the streets on your own. He clearly didn’t care for you or your welfare. I will.”
Raphael didn’t bother correcting Shredder by telling him that Splinter had also enforced curfews and bans for going topside and that his rules had been similar.
“Okay, Dad. You'll look for Leo, right? You said you would.”
“Of course I will. Your room has an en-suite bathroom. You can check it out later, because Hun should have our food ready by now.”Raphael followed Shredder to the dining room and thought, Dad’s going straight. Man, it sounds too good to be true.XXXXShredder and Raphael sat at the table and tucked into the beef burgers, onion rings and French fries that Hun had made.Raphael devoured his food and then a large piece of chocolate cake. Stuffed, he licked the frosting off his fingers and sat back in his chair.“Replete, my son?” Shredder asked with a smile.
“Yeah. Thanks,” Raphael replied. “This was magic.”
“I’m glad. Why don’t you get some rest? I have to go out tonight, so I’ll show you around the rest of the place tomorrow.”
“Okay. Thank you, Dad. I’m grateful to you for taking me in, but please find Leo. I’m going insane without him.”
“I promise I will, Raphael. Come here,” Shredder said and stood up.Shredder opened his arms and Raphael shyly allowed his new dad to hug him. There was a warm tingly feeling in his chest from the affection, which he’d so desperately craved from Splinter, but hadn’t had in years.Shredder pulled away, kissed both of Raphael’s cheeks and said, “Good night, my son. Rest well. I love you.”
“I love you too, Dad,” Raphael said and headed to his bedroom.Raphael saw Bebop in the passage and moved to get past him, but the warthog blocked his path.“No, Raphie,” Bebop said and grinned.
“Get outta my fucking way,” Raphael growled, his green eyes flashing.
“Hmm. Make me, Raphie.”
“It’s Raphael to you, scumbag,” Raphael snarled. “Fuck off or I’ll…”
“You’ll what?” Bebop said, stepping closer, his face mere inches from Raphael’s. “You gonna fight me, Raphie? Hmm. I think I could like that,” Bebop added as he slipped his hand inside Raphael’s belt, tugging him closer and keeping a firm grip on his belt. “I bet you’d be real good in bed and you’ll look gorgeous perched on my fat cock.”
“Get off me, you fucker!” Raphael yelled as he tried to wriggle free. Bebop’s strong odor assaulted his nostrils and made his stomach churn. The warthog smelled fetid and had clearly not touched soap in days.“No. I think not,” Bebop said, clamping a hand over Raphael’s mouth. “Bite me and I’ll knock out your fucking teeth, Raphie.”
“My, my, what we have we here?” Rocksteady said, approaching them. “Looks like you caught a Turtle, Bebop.”
“Yes. Now we won’t be virgins anymore.”A shiver ran down Raphael’s spine and his stomach tightened in knots, because he knew what they wanted. He tried to break free and run, but Rocksteady lunged at him and knocked him to the ground, which winded him.Panicked, Raphael opened his mouth to scream, but it died in his throat when Bebop swung a vicious right hook to his chin, which knocked him out cold.The villains picked an unconscious Raphael up, carried him into his bedroom, stripped him of everything he wore, bound him to the bed with the bedsheets and waited for him to wake up.

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Raphael woke up with a splitting headache a while later and found when he tried to move that he was nude and bound to the bed. He glanced around the room and saw that the villains were also naked and on either side of him in the bed and pressed up close. Their stench permeated the air, engulfed his nostrils and made him want to vomit.The green eyed turtle inwardly recoiled and opened his mouth to yell for help, but finding that he was gagged, all he could do was shoot daggers at the goons.“Hello, little snookums,” Bebop said, cupping Raphael’s cheek. “Had a good nap? Good, because it’s time to play and you’re on the menu.”
“Mfff!” Raphael whined in protest through the gag as his green eyes widened with fear. He instinctively pressed his tail firmly against his body.I don’t want this. Please no, Raphael thought.“You want it, huh?” Rocksteady said as he trailed a hand down Raphael’s plastron, which made him shiver. “Are you a virgin, Raphie? I bet you are,” he added and stroked Raphael’s slit. “Drop down. We wanna see you. Bet you aren’t as big as us, though.”Raphael trembled and tried to tuck his tail away, but Rocksteady chuckled, moved it aside and continued stroking his slit.The villain smiled when he saw Raphael’s puckered hole on display for him.A muffled churr escaped a mortified Raphael’s lips as the soft cartilage in his lower plastron parted and his purple semi-erect cock dropped down into Rocksteady’s hands. The veins pulsated and precum leaked from it.“Wow. It’s purple,” Bebop said in astonishment. “I thought it’d be green like him. He’s a big boy, but we’re bigger. Let’s show him.”Raphael squeezed his eyes shut and thought, this can’t be happening. I’m having a bad dream and when I wake up, I’m…“Open your damn eyes, Raphie,” Bebop barked and slapped the Turtle's face. “Now or I swear you’ll be toothless.”A frightened Raphael opened his eyes and looked at them in horror.“Good boy,” Bebop said and stroked Raphael's shaft. He grinned when it became erect and more precum oozed from the tip. “I’m twelve inches of fun for your holes. You’re gonna get used to looking up at us and you won’t fight us. You’re our toy.”
“Yep,” Rocksteady said and rubbed his own dick. He watched it become erect and saw precum glistening on the glans. “Like it, Raphie? I’m thirteen inches and I can think of no better place than your rear for it. Oh. And your mouth. If you aren’t a cocksucker, you soon will be. Don’t think about whining to the boss. He couldn’t care less about you. It’s an act to get you on our side,” Bebop lied. “All he cares about is power, dominance and getting one over that rat. What better way of achieving it than by brainwashing you into hating the rat? Hmm? I bet you thought Boss was sincere. There’s none here, Raphie, and there’s no escape.”“Fffffff!” Raphael spluttered through the gag in terror and dread coursed through him when he saw their massive dicks.They’re gonna split me in two, Raphael thought and struggled futilely. They’re fucking huge and I can’t take them. I don’t wanna. I want Dad. Where’s Dad? Why didn’t he hear our argument? Dad! They want me as their toy. I’d rather die and they smell. Please no.“You want us to fuck you? We’d be delighted,” Bebop said and snickered. “You really are an eager puppy, Raphie. I get first dibs.”
“Fffff!” Raphael said and tried to break free of his bonds again.“How cute. He’s shy,” Rocksteady said sneeringly and tugged Raphael’s tail, making him emit a strangled cry through the gag and him try to tuck his tail away.
“No, baby,” Bebop said, pulling the tail aside and once again Raphael’s puckered hole was on display.The villains drooled at the sight and their saliva dripped onto Raphael's plastron.“You’re so cute trussed up like this, Raphie,” Bebop said and lined his dick up at Raphael’s entrance. “So cute. Do you like it hard?” he asked, his face mere inches from Raphael’s own and his foul odor filled Raphael’s nostrils.
“FFFFFFFF!”“He does,” Rocksteady crowed, his eyes shining with merriment. “Show him what a real man is. He wants it. He loves us and needs a good stuffing, so he can learn his place as our bitch. Don’t cry, Raphie-poo. You’ll love it,” Rocksteady said and tugged Raphael’s tail hard, making tears spring to his eyes.Bebop thrust into Raphael with no lube, causing him to mewl. Tears rolled down Raphael's cheeks and he felt like he was being ripped in two by the beast.It fucking hurts so badly, Raphael thought wretchedly and moaned through the gag. I wanna die. Dad, please stop them.Bebop sped up the pace and Rocksteady cheered him on. He slammed into Raphael, making his anal walls clamp down onto the villain’s dick as his prostate was repeatedly stabbed.Anguished moans soon turned to ones of pleasure as Raphael neared his climax. His heart raced, his eyes were glazed over and his face was flushed.Rocksteady watched them and thought, not long now and I can fuck the Turtle. He’s gonna get a good workout.Raphael came with a muffled churr and his creamy and sticky cum splattered across his plastron.Bebop climaxed soon after and shot his hot seed deep inside Raphael. Some of it leaked from his hole and trickled between his legs onto the bedspread.The warthog pulled out and smeared some of his cum onto Raphael’s beak and body. He was marking Raphael with his scent. Bebop knew it was animalistic, but he wanted the Turtle to understand that he was owned by him and Rocksteady and that he had to do all they wished for the rest of his life.“You’re ours, Raphie,” Bebop said to a revolted Raphael. “You look so good with my jizz on you, but I’m afraid you were a bit lackluster in bed. You’ll soon be better, though, and boy, do we have a lot planned for you. Do you like BDSM? We sure do.”Raphael’s anus and tail ached and he desperately wanted a shower to try and wash away the shame and memories of the nightmare and torment, but he had a feeling that his abuse was far from over.That was confirmed when Rocksteady declared that it was his turn.“FFF!” Raphael protested.“Raphie, Raphie,” Rocksteady said in a sing-song voice. “My little Raphie. Daddy’s gonna make you see stars.”
“He isn’t tight,” Bebop said. “I think he’s had sex before. Pity. I’d have liked him to have been a virgin.”
“It doesn’t matter. I’ll still breed him like the bitch he is. I’m coming in, Raphie.”Rocksteady thrust his gigantic dick into Raphael, who gasped through the gag.No, Raphael thought wretchedly. Not again. Dad, where the hell are you? Dad, come and ask if I’m okay or something. Dad! I wanna die. I can’t take anymore. Every part of me hurts.Rocksteady thrust harder and faster and it wasn’t long before he was moaning in satisfaction as pleasure coursed through him. He’d never had sex before and he’d finally achieved it. Sure it was with the hideous Turtle, but at least he wasn’t a virgin anymore and he could have it as often as he wanted it with the Turtle under their control.Raphael whined in agony through the gag, but he soon churred in ecstasy as his prostate was repeatedly stabbed and his dick was hard and throbbing. He knew he was approaching another orgasm.Not again. I don’t want this, but I’m churring as if I do, Raphael thought. What the fuck’s wrong with me? I don’t want this. My body’s betraying me. I want them to stop.Rocksteady went over the edge with a loud roar and shot his seed deep into Raphael. Then he pulled out.Raphael came with a muffled churr and his dick leaked all over his plastron.Rocksteady spread his cum onto Raphael’s beak and said, “That was fun. I can’t wait to go again. You’re a dream come true, Raphie.”An exhausted Raphael sniffed though the gag and thought, surely they’re done for now. Maybe they’ll let me go, but I can't walk. They’ve done a number on me and all I wanna do is sleep.“I’m gonna untie you, Raphie, but I’ll hurt you if you try to run,” Bebop said. “Nod if you understand.”Too exhausted to protest, Raphael nodded.Bebop untied Raphael.Raphael quickly found himself lying on Bebop’s stomach, with his beak smooshed into the villain’s groin and his legs wide apart. Rocksteady sniffed his rear.Raphael was still gagged, so his fearful moans were muffled when the rhino stuck his finger into Raphael’s hole.“Hmmm. Think he can go again, Bebop?” Rocksteady asked?
“I don’t think he has the stamina we do.”“FFFFF!” Raphael mumbled.Release me, please, Raphael thought sadly. I’ve had enough.“But he wants to,” Rocksteady said and cackled. “As you wish, Raphie. By the way, we have fantastic staminas, especially me. I can go all night and cum every five minutes, so you’re in for a real treat.”Pressed up against Bebop’s groin and his twitching dick, his overpowering stench filled Raphael’s nostrils, making him want to gag and he frantically tried to get away.“No!” Bebop said angrily and spanked Raphael’s butt, making him almost jump out of his shell. “Lie still, Raphie, and breathe in the scent of one of your Masters. Breathe it in. There’s a good boy,” Bebop added and wrapped his arms around Raphael’s middle, which kept him in place. “Good boy. Breathe it in and accept that you’re not going anywhere. That’s the smell of a real Alpha. You’re just our toy. Good boy.”Rocksteady slammed into Raphael’s hole, making him moan and Bebop’s scent still assaulted his nostrils.The scent was thick and cloying and Raphael was stunned as the relentless thrusting continued that Bebop’s scent was starting to smell really good and comforting. What the hell was wrong with him? He shouldn’t feel that way. They were twisted, evil, his enemies and he hated them.I don’t want this, but it suddenly feels so good, Raphael thought as pleasure coursed through him. Mind-blowing. I like it and their scents. I’m theirs and they own me. Damn. I’m gonna cum!Sensing Raphael’s mind had switched, Bebop patted his rump condescendingly and grinned. It hadn’t taken long to subdue the volatile Turtle to his immense surprise and he didn’t think Raphael would protest ever again, because he knew his place.Raphael’s mind blanked, his heart raced, his cheeks were flushed, his pleasure was spiking and he was moments away from another orgasm.Rocksteady came first and emptied his seed into the brainwashed Turtle with a triumphant roar. Some of the semen dripped from Raphael’s abused hole and onto the sheets.Raphael came with a muffled churr and splattered his cum across his plastron.“Good whore,” Rocksteady said breathlessly and patted Raphael’s ass. “You were splendid.”
“Umpgh!” Raphael mumbled.“His brain’s switched, Rocksteady,” Bebop said. “Let’s let him go. He knows his place now.”
“You sure?”
“Yes. I sensed his mind switch.”
“All right. I want a blowjob anyway.”Bebop removed the gag, looked down at Raphael and said, “What are you, Raphie?”
“Yours and Master's,” Raphael said obediently. “You own me and you smell so damn good.”“That’s right, cub,” Rocksteady said and smiled. “You’re ours and we can do what you want. You won’t tell the boss about this.”
“No,” Raphael said and desperate for sleep, yawned. “No, cub,” Bebop said. “Not yet. I want a blowjob, so get at it. I’ll sit on the bed. You get on the floor. Now.”Raphael reluctantly knelt down and slowly took Bebop’s cock in his mouth, but his efforts were halfhearted, because he was exhausted.“Let the bastard sleep for a bit,” Rocksteady said. “I could use a kip. We’ll wake him in two hours’ time and then use him as much as we want.”
“Fine. Bed, Raphie. Now," Bebop said.Raphael climbed into bed and soon fell asleep. The villains were on either side of him.The hothead was woken two hours later to his consternation.The villains spent the rest of the night using him to their hearts' content and were extremely savage and brutal.The goons bit, nipped, hit, spanked and beat Raphael all over and ensured he never fought back.Raphael hadn’t lost any teeth and he didn’t have any broken limbs, but his body was a train wreck when the psychopaths finished just after 4 a.m.Blood trickled from Raphael's abused hole, cum leaked from the same hole and from his mouth and his dick was flaccid and lying in a pool of cum.He’d fallen unconscious during the last round of sex, but the villains didn’t think that was anything to worry about.Bebop and Rocksteady left Raphael and went to their bedrooms. They were looking forward to more action with him and were confident he’d never tell their boss about his torment, because they’d tamed him, brainwashed him and he was now a submissive and obedient bitch. Theirs for all eternity.

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Hoping for a quick romp with Raphael before breakfast, Bebop and Rocksteady headed to Raphael’s room at 7 a.m. They passed Hun on the way and wore shit-eating grins on their faces at the thought of the fun they’d have.“What are you clowns so chuffed about?” Hun demanded.
“It’s a secret, but we’ll tell you,” Bebop said. “We had fun with Raphael. You can too. He doesn’t mind and is quiet.”
“What?” Hun said in astonishment. “You screwed the Turtle?”“All night,” Rocksteady bragged. “He loved it and lay there like a rag doll while we had the best sex ever. It was so much fun. You want in? He’ll do whatever you want, because he’s a submissive bitch now. We tamed him. He passed out when we last fucked, but he should be good to go now and boy, can he go. He looks adorable sitting on our fat cocks and makes cute churring noises. He loves being fucked by us.”Poor Raphael, Hun thought as nausea surged though him at the thought of all that Raphael had endured. He probably didn’t fight back, because he was shell-shocked and traumatized. I want to hurt these numbskulls so much for violating Raphael. He’s just a kid and not any kid. He’s the boss's who’s going to go mental. What were those bozos thinking? How could they do that to an innocent kid? I’ve never liked Raphael, but I would never do that to him or anyone else, even my biggest enemy. Those idiots deserve to be murdered. I’m positive the boss will see to it.“Sure,” Hun said and smiled. “Why don’t I have some fun with Raphael now? Then I’ll get him all cleaned up for you. You’re so thoughtful. I’ve always wanted to bang one of the Turtles.”
“No problem,” Bebop said. “We’ll be back after breakfast. Be rough. The little pansy loves it. Maybe he’s a masochist and into BDSM.”Nope. That’s you guys, Hun thought as he watched the two beasts head to breakfast. He steeled himself and entered Raphael’s bedroom.XXXXHun’s stomach churned when he saw the green eyed Turtle and the encrusted blood between his legs, which was a clear sign of sexual abuse.Poor Raphael, Hun thought as his eyes misted over and his heart went out to the young mutant. He looks so young, vulnerable and unlike himself on the battlefield. It’s not right. It brings back so many unwanted memories.Hun picked Raphael up and carried him to the infirmary.XXXXHun placed Raphael on a stretcher in the infirmary and said softly, “Raphael, wake up. You’re safe. It’s me, Hun, and I won’t let anyone hurt you again. Raphael.”Raphael opened his green eyes and whimpered as pain coursed through him. He glanced around the bedroom fearfully, expecting to see Bebop and Rocksteady, but all he saw was Hun looking at him kindly.“Where are they?” Raphael asked anxiously. “Last thing I remember is…You must be stoked seeing me this way, Hun. You never liked me. Go on. Gloat. The fiery Turtle’s a fucked up mess and a shell of himself. You always wanted that.”
“Why would I, Raphael? I’m a survivor of sexual abuse and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone, not even my enemies. You didn’t deserve it. I hope you don’t think you did.”
“I didn’t fight back. What does that say about my masculinity? I’m just a fuck-up and trash,” Raphael declared despondently. “Don’t tell anyone. This stays between us. I’m too embarrassed and sick to my stomach and I wanna forget it happened. Fuck. Every part of me hurts. I wanna die so badly.”
“You’re not, Raphael, and I’m going to help you get through this.”
“Why would you wanna?”
“I know what being alone and having no one to turn to is like. The shame crippling you and being petrified to tell anyone, because you thought you’d be judged and that people would tell you it was your fault. My grandfather was the guilty party. It started when I was four and ended when I was twelve. He also threatened he’d kill me if I told anyone, so I stayed silent. I ran away from home when I was twelve and the boss took me in. He treated me like a son and helped me deal with my trauma. He’s a good man and even paid for me to go to counseling. I love him like a father. Raphael, I’m going to call the boss and then we need to have you examined by a doctor. I’ll be right here with you and so will the boss. You don’t have to be afraid.”
Raphael sniffed and said, “I’m sorry you were hurt, Hun. No one deserves this. I’d rather have died and how can I face Leo again after this? He’ll think me spineless and blame me for what happened, because I should have fought back and… Leo won’t love me anymore and will dump me. I deserve it, because I’m…”
“Rubbish. Leonardo loves you, Raphael. I’ve seen it on the battlefield and he’d never blame or abandon you, especially now,” Hun said, pulling out his phone from his pocket and then dialing a number.“Boss,” Hun said as he squeezed Raphael’s hand reassuringly. “You need to call the doctor. Raphael’s been sexually assaulted.”
“What?” Shredder said in disbelief. “How?”
“Call the doctor. Then come to Raphael’s room.”
“I swear whoever harmed my son will die,” Shredder said furiously and disconnected the call.“The boss will be here soon, Raphael,” Hun said. “Do you want me to call Leonardo?”
“He’s away in Japan. Don’t call him. I don’t want him to know. Splinter sent him away when he found out we were a couple. I only have Dad, because I can’t go home. I ran away and I don’t want Donnie and Mikey knowing about this. I'm too ashamed.”
“I understand, but that’s not true. You have me too and I’ll be there for you all the way.”
“Thanks.”A distraught Shredder entered the room and tears shone in his eyes when he saw Raphael’s appalling condition.Raphael had never seen Shredder cry, because he’d always been stoic, even when he’d been wounded. It made Raphael think that perhaps Shredder was as human as everyone else. He just chose not to show his emotions. Kind of like Leo.“My precious son,” Shredder said dismally, crouching down beside Raphael and gripping his hand. “The doctor will be here soon, Raphael. He’ll want to examine you, but it’ll be all right. I won’t leave you. Do you want to tell me what happened?”
Raphael blinked back tears and said in a broken voice, “Bebop and Rocksteady raped me more than once and they also beat me, spanked me and hit me. I wanna die, Dad. It hurts so badly, especially my ass and my tail. Dad, does the pain ever go away? Is it my fault? How could they do that to me? Am I that much of a freak that I deserved it?”Raphael’s words pierced Shredder’s heart like a dagger and rage surged through him as he thought about the trauma his beloved son had suffered at the hands of his henchmen. Bebop and Rocksteady would suffer the ultimate punishment for their actions. Death. He’d personally carry it out and then he’d feed their remains to pigs. He’d warned them not to touch his son and they’d cold-bloodedly violated Raphael in the cruelest way. They had to pay.“No, no, my son,” Shredder said. “You didn’t deserve it. No one deserves this and I’ll see that they’re severely punished for their actions. No one hurts my family. Never blame yourself, Raphael. You’re a fine young man. You deserve kindness, affection, love, respect and so much more and you’re not a freak. I know I’ve called you that in the past, but you’re not one and never have been one. I was the freak. I craved power and domination and I was as emotionless as a rock. We’ll get through this and you’ll be even stronger and more courageous than before, because that’s you, Raphael. You’re a warrior and fearless. This is isn’t you and the people who did this to you aren’t people. They’re monsters, psychopaths and not fit to exist on this planet. Do you hear me? You’re a survivor, not a victim. They won’t destroy you. Not now. Not ever.”
“Damn straight,” Hun said. “They’ll never win, Raphael, because you can’t and mustn’t let them.”“I won’t,” Raphael resolved, tears springing to his eyes. “Thank you. That’s exactly what I needed to hear. I’m gonna get better and I won't crumble, because I'm not a bitch or weakling.”
“Exactly,” Shredder said as the front doorbell went. “Hun, get the door and then tell Bebop and Rocksteady I want to see them in my study. Make up a lie about a promotion. They’re so dense they’ll believe anything you tell them.”“Yes, Boss,” Hun said and left the room.Shredder squeezed Raphael’s hand and said, “My son, it’s going to be okay. My doctor's exceptional and he’ll be gentle. I won’t leave your side throughout it all.”
Raphael nodded and said, “Thank you. Did you find Leo?”
“I made some calls, but there's been no sighting of him yet. It’s too soon. He probably hasn't landed in Japan yet if he left yesterday. I’ll keep checking with my men. You’ll see Leonardo again, Raphael. I promise and I always keep my promises.”Hun returned with a tall, thin, dark eyed, white haired and bespectacled man who was introduced as Dr. Robbins and who’d been briefed about the situation. He’d been Shredder’s doctor for over twenty years and was on twenty-four hour call for the ex-villain.Robbins looked at Raphael kindly and said, “Young man, I need to examine you. It’s going to be all right, but I need you to trust me.”
“Fine,” Raphael said. “Can my dad stay with me?”
“Of course. Hun, get me some cloths and warm water.”“Got it,” Hun said and went to the sink.Hun soon returned with warm cloths and handed them to Robbins, who nodded and gently began to clean all the dried blood off Raphael and to tend to his wounds.Shredder clutched Raphael’s hand and whispered, “You’re doing fine, Raphael. It’ll soon be over.”
“Thank you for staying,” Raphael said and stifled a sob when Robbins inspected his most intimate areas. It was extremely humiliating and degrading having a stranger touch him there, even if it was a doctor and it had to be done.
“Of course I would. You’re my son and I’ll never leave your side for as long as I live."“You’re doing wonderfully, Raphael,” Robbins said, “I’m proud of you and you’re so brave. I’m nearly finished. How old are you?”
“Fifteen. Sixteen in April.”Shit. He’s just a kid, Robbins thought sadly. Like so many I’ve treated before. Another victim. Another soul who’s going to need extensive counseling and support. I pray he makes a full recovery and that the creeps who did this to him suffer.Robbins sterilized Raphael’s wounds, applied soothing lotion to them and bandaged them.Shredder covered Raphael with the blankets.“I’m finished,” Robbins said. “Raphael has various bruises and lacerations, which will heal in a few days, Mr. Oroku. He was brutally raped to the extent that there’s a small tear in his anal lining, which’ll take a few weeks to heal. This means it could be sore when he needs to pass stool and so on. I can prescribe medication for it. He needs to stay in bed for a week and to rest to get his strength back. He should make a full physical recovery, but he needs counseling and support. I cannot stress enough how vital that is. So many victims experience depression, PTSD and some even commit suicide from the guilt and the immense shame they feel. I do not want Raphael to become another statistic.”
“He’ll get everything he needs and more. I’ll see to it and no expense will be spared," Shredder said.“I'm not a victim,” Raphael said. “I’m a survivor, Doc, and I’ll get through it. Thank you for tending to me.”
“I hope not, Raphael,” Robbins said. “I recommend the psychologist, Doctor Cornell Preston. He’s excellent and has helped me tremendously. I’ll drop by with a referral letter and your medication later.”“That’d be great. Thank you,” Shredder said. “Doctor, I’ll see you out. Hun, stay with Raphael and do not leave his side. I’ll be back in a while.”
“Got it,” Hun said and plonked down onto a chair by Raphael’s bedside.“Good luck, Raphael,” Robbins said and smiled at him. “I’ll see you this afternoon. Get some rest now."
“Thanks again, Doc, and thanks, Dad.”Shredder patted Raphael’s shoulder and said, “See you shortly. I’m proud of you, Raphael. You were so courageous and I’m honored to call you my son.”Raphael watched Robbins and Shredder leave the room, sank back against his pillows, closed his eyes and thought, I’m gonna get through this. I’m tough, a warrior, fearless and no one will ever break me. Leo, I miss you incredibly. I wish you were here with me. I need you so damn much. I hope Dad finds you really soon, because I'm just a shell without you, babe.

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Shredder paid Dr. Robbins for his services and then ordered Liam Morgan, a slim, cobalt blue eyed and dark haired nineteen-year-old, who hailed from Sligo, Ireland, and who was a new member of the Foot to come to his office and to bring his colleagues with him.Liam fetched his colleagues and they went to Shredder’s office.XXXX“Why are we here, Boss?” Bebop asked, raising an eyebrow when he saw the Foot.
“I lied about your promotion,” Shredder said. “You hurt my son. I warned you not to and you will pay the ultimate price. Death.”“Boss, no,” Rocksteady whined and dropped to his knees. “We didn’t mean to and just wanted some fun. Please don’t.”
“Boss, I’m sorry,” Bebop begged. “I really am. Please. I’ll never touch the Turtle again.”Shredder coolly regarded his henchmen, his eyes flashed with hatred and he snapped, “Nothing can atone for Raphael’s defilement. Nothing you can do will ever make me forgive you. He’s just a child and didn’t deserve it. More than that, he’s my child and I will not let you get away with it! You will die and your heads will be mounted on spikes as a warning to others to not touch my son.”Shedder nodded at his men. They advanced on Bebop and Rocksteady and wielded their weapons menacingly.Rocksteady stood and he and Bebop tried to make a break for it, but they were quickly captured by the Foot and dragged to a kneeling position in front of Shredder.They looked up at Shredder pleadingly and blubbered, but the ex-villain shook his head, looked at them sneeringly and nodded at Liam to get things over with.Liam was the newest member of the Foot and anxious to please his boss, but he felt sick to his stomach at the thought of dispatching the villains, even though he knew they deserved it. Rape was an unforgivable act. He believed it merited death, but he’d never killed anyone before. Liam raised his katana and hesitated.“Why are you hesitating, Liam?” Shredder demanded as a fearful Bebop wet himself.
“I’ve never killed anyone before,” Liam confessed in his thick Irish accent. “I know they deserve it, but…”
“But nothing! They violated my son and must pay!” Shredder yelled. “You call yourself a man, Liam. You’re a coward and I should sack you! Have you any idea of what these monsters did to my beloved son? They don’t deserve to live. I'll send you back to Sligo if you don’t do this. I only took you on out of loyalty to my dear friend, your dad, because I had grave doubts about you. I guess I was wrong. You’ll leave tomorrow.”The thought of returning to his volatile and alcoholic dad terrified Liam. He knew he’d be thrashed, even though he was a young adult. No. He couldn’t return home. Not now. Not ever.Liam took a deep breath and with two strikes of his katana neatly severed Bebop and Rocksteady's heads from their bodies.A headless Bebop and Rocksteady fell to the ground. Blood gushed from their stumps of necks and pooled underneath them.Liam immediately retched at the sight, making Shredder grimace at him.“Well done, Liam,” Shredder said. “I take it that was your first kill.”
“Yes, Boss.”
“Don’t pity them. They deserved everything they got. I do understand. It's always difficult with your first kill, but it gets easier and you have to remember that the enemy deserves no mercy when they’ve committed unforgiveable actions, such as rape. I’ll tell your father you were courageous and that you have the makings of an excellent fighter. I won’t send you home. It's probably your last kill, unless trouble arises, because I’m going straight. No more crime, because I want to be an example to my son and leave a good legacy behind. No snickering. It’s the truth. Get those corpses out of here, mount them on spikes and post them somewhere everyone can see as a warning. My son is off limits, unless it’s consensual and I agree to the union. Liam, stay a minute. I want to talk to you.”“Yes, Boss,” the Foot said in unison and removed Bebop and Rocksteady’s bodies from the room.“Liam,” Shredder said. “Your father mentioned that you studied medicine for a year and volunteered at a psychiatric hospital. So you have some nursing experience.”
“That is true.”
“I want you to be Raphael’s primary carer from now on, because Hun also has other chores and isn’t always available. I’ll be there for him when I can and Hun will when he can, but your main job is caring for Raphael. I sense you two could be friends. He needs a friend, especially now in the darkest time of his life.”
“Yes, Boss.”
“Excellent. You’ll be doing me a huge favor.”
“But, Boss, what about my other duties? I’m supposed to…”
“Yes. I know. Train and fight. There’s nothing to fight. I’m going straight and you’ll train when you have time off from caring for Raphael. Go now and please send someone to clean the floor. I don’t want to dirty my shoes.”
“Yes, Boss,” Liam said and left the room.Liam told one of the Foot to get rid of the blood stains in Shredder’s office and then he went to the infirmary.XXXXLiam entered the infirmary and saw Hun sitting by Raphael’s bedside.Raphael was fast asleep.“Hi, Liam,” Hun said. “What brings you here?”
“The boss said I’m Raphael’s main carer from now on.”
“Oh. I’ll leave you then and I’ll check on him later. He’s been asleep for an hour. Poor guy's really been through hell and back."
“So it’s true,” Liam said, studying Raphael and thinking he was handsome, which surprised him. Since when was a Turtle handsome and why did he think that? “They did it to him.”
“Yep. Vile psychopaths who deserve the ultimate punishment.”
“They got it. I was in charge.”
“Good. I hope you don’t feel bad about it. Raphael’s in a lot of agony. I gave him a pill for the pain a while ago and the doc will be back later with his prescription. He reckons Raphael will make a full recovery, but psychologically is a different matter and he might never recover. He needs loads of support. I’ll certainly do what I can. Can you handle it?”
“I worked at a psychiatric center for a while, so I have some experience with caring for patients, but I haven’t worked with rape victims before, so I…”“I'm not a victim,” a gruff voice said and opened his green eyes. “I’m a survivor. Get that straight.”
Hun smiled and said, “Liam, this is Raphael. Raphael, this is Liam.”“Hey, Raphael,” Liam said warmly. “I’m Liam Morgan. Your dad asked me to help care for you.”Raphael stared at Liam in shock when he noticed his eyes, which were the same color as Leo’s and which mesmerized him and gazed at him so intently he felt like they were boring into the depths of his soul, like Leo’s had done. Raphael thought Liam was extremely sexy and so was his accent.“Your eyes are cobalt blue,” an awe-struck Raphael said.
“They are,” Liam said, equally transfixed by Raphael’s green eyes. “And yours are emerald. Striking.”“Raphael, I’ll get you some breakfast,” Hun said. “Liam will stay here.”
“Thanks, Hun."
"No problem," Hun said and left the room.“Anyway, I'll help you, Raphael,” Liam said and sat down on a chair. “I worked at a psychiatric center, so I have some experience with nursing. I hope we’ll be friends.”
“I don’t trust easily, especially after what happened.”
“I understand. I had a violent childhood, so I don’t easily trust either. My dad’s an alcoholic and he beat me up a lot.”
“I’m sorry.”
“So am I for what happened to you. You didn’t deserve it.”
“Thanks. What happened to Bebop and Rocksteady.”
“They were murdered and I was ordered to carry that out. It was my first killing. I guess it was my initiation into the Foot, but I hope it’s the last. I know they deserved it, but I didn’t like killing and felt no thrill in it.”
“Good! And their remains?”
“Their heads are on spikes for everyone to see as a warning to leave you alone.”
Raphael shuddered and said, “How grisly. Then why'd you join the Foot? Surely you knew you'd have to kill people. What’s with the accent? You foreign?”
“My dad sent me to Shredder. They’re old friends and Dad thought Shredder could make a man of me. I was glad to go, because I knew I’d be leaving home. I’m scared of going back. I’m nineteen, but I’m still damn frightened of my dad, so I’ll do whatever it takes to stay here, even if I have to kill again. I’m Irish and from Sligo.”
“I’m so sorry you went through such hell. My childhood was great for the most part and I had the best brothers anyone could ever ask for, especially my eldest bro, Leo. I’m the youngest of four boys. Do you have siblings?”
“Nine. I’m the youngest of ten, but they’ve all got their own lives, so I haven’t seen most in years."
“Ten kids. Wow. I like your accent."
“My parents are Catholic,” Liam said and chuckled.The door opened and Hun entered the room. He carried a tray on which were two plates of scrambled eggs and two cups of coffee.“I brought you something as well, Liam,” Hun said, settling the tray on the desk and then handing Raphael a plate of food.“Thanks, Hun,” Liam and Raphael said in unison.“No problem,” Hun said. “I’ll be back in a bit to get the trays. Enjoy.”Hun left the room.Liam and Raphael tucked into the food and there was silence for a while.Raphael broke the silence and said, “What’s Ireland like, Liam?”
“Beautiful. Green fields, the same shade of green as you and the people are friendly. I miss it a lot and hope to go back someday when I’ve made something of myself. Have you ever been overseas?”
“Are you kidding? I’m a Mutant Turtle. I can’t go on a plane or do things humans do. My life was spent in the sewers with my brothers and we’d only venture out at night. It sucked sometimes, because we all wanted to be part of the human world, but we knew we wouldn’t be, because we’re freaks to the humans. Freaks to experiment on and to torture!” Raphael said bitterly. “Mad scientists are always after us.”
“I don’t think you’re a freak. I think you’re cool. I'm a different story, ” Liam said, his eyes twinkling. “I'm a Goth. I love black clothes, goth makeup and so on, but I only wear that when I’m not on duty. Dad hated it.”
“I bet. Parents don’t understand us. You really think I’m cool, even though I’m different?”
“Yes. Different’s awesome. It’d be boring if we were all the same,” Liam said and touched Raphael’s arm, which sent a shiver down his spine to his astonishment. “But I am weird and proud of it. You should be as well.”
“Heh. I’d rather be a mutant Turtle than a human, despite my bitching about being called a freak.”
“I can’t blame you. We’re not as remarkable or as fascinating,” Liam said and removed his hand. “You’re intriguing,” Liam added, gazing intently into Raphael’s eyes.
Raphael blushed and said, “I have a boyfriend, Liam, so if you're hitting on me…”
“My loss. He’s a lucky guy. I hope he knows it. Human guy?”
“No. Mutant Turtle. Leonardo. Leo. He has the same color eyes as you and he’s kinda like you in mannerisms. He’s quiet, smart and the most incredible guy alive.”
“He’d have to be to have you as his mate. I wish you guys all the best. Is Leonardo going to visit you?”
Raphael’s face fell and he said, “He was banished to Japan for two years when Sensei found out we were dating. Sensei thought our union was causing friction in the family, so he sent Leo away to Japan for two years to get rid of his love for me and for training. It sucks, because we love each other so much and what we have isn't sordid. It's real and deep love. We're not bio brothers, but were raised as brothers. None of us are bio brothers. Dad wouldn’t listen. Leo left and I ran away. Then Shredder-Dad-invited me to be his son. I agreed on condition he bring Leo back to me. His men in Japan are looking for Leo, so I’m hopeful they’ll find him.”
“I hope so too, Raphael. You deserve happiness, especially after all you’ve been through.”
“Thanks. So do you. Do you have a boyfriend or did you?”
“Sean was a political activist and he was killed six months ago in Armagh,” Liam said, his eyes misting over at the memory. “His car was blown up. I was supposed to be there, but my mom was ill and I didn’t want to leave her. Thousands of people attended Sean’s funeral and he’s regarded as a hero. He was the most wonderful guy. I miss him so much and I was in a full blown depression for months. Sean was cremated and his ashes were scattered by me at the Cliffs of Moher. Dad sent me here two weeks ago, having had enough of me and all my ‘quirks’. I should have been there. Sean died alone and he was only twenty.”
“I’m so sorry,” Raphael said as he placed a hand on Liam’s arm, causing butterflies in his stomach. “But you can take consolation that he’ll always be remembered as a hero. Yours and countless others and he’ll never be forgotten.”
“Yes. I’m sorry. I was out of line flirting with you. It won’t happen again.”
Raphael removed his hand and said, “I’m flattered. I've never had a human flirt with me before, but I am with Leo. I love him so much and I won't ditch him.”
“You were the first guy I flirted with since Sean's death and I’m not over him anyway. I doubt I ever will be. I truly hope you and Leonardo have a happy and long life together. By the way, how old are you?”
“Thank you and I hope you meet someone fantastic when you're ready. Fifteen. Sixteen next April.”
“A kid then,” Liam said and forked more egg into his mouth.
“Haha,” Raphael said and punched him lightly on the arm. “Who are you calling a kid? I’ve fought in tons of battles and done more than you have. Have you ever been to Space or fought aliens?”
“Nope. Aliens exist?”
“Of course they do. I fought them,” Raphael said and ate more egg. “Ugly monsters with tentacles, giant roaches, spiders and so on.”
“Fun. Fought how? Bare hands?”
“Sai. I was trained to use them and other weapons, but I'm most skilled at and prefer the sai. I even sharpened the ends. I’m a ninja. My sensei taught my brothers and I to defend ourselves and we fought against crime to make the city better. That’s how we met Shredder-Dad. He was one of our enemies. Well, Sensei’s, but we fought against him for Sensei. Long story.”
“Katana. I trained in ninjutsu from the age of four.”
“Like my Leo. You're so like him.”
“Cool. I’d love to train with the sai.”
“Maybe I can teach you.”
“I’d like that. What are your hobbies?”
“Reading, drawing, painting, movies, music and so on.”
“Awesome. Me too. Do you like bikes?”
“Motorcycles?”
“Yep. I’m thinking of buying one when I’ve saved more money. Maybe we could go for a spin then.”
“Love them,” Raphael said as his green eyes lit up. “My bro, Donnie and I built mine together and we often work on it and other mechanical stuff. It’s so much fun. I’d love to open an auto repair shop someday. It’s a Honda. I’ll get it sometime. I’ll take you on it now we’re friends. Have you seen much of NY?”
“Not much, but we could explore it with Leo when you're better.”
“I’d like that and so would Leo.”
“I assume your other brothers will visit you.”
“Maybe. I'm not ready to talk to them and I don’t know if I’ll tell them what happened. The stigma and shame is still there, even though I know it isn't my fault.”
“I understand, Raphael.”
“Raph. My pals call me that. Raphael’s when I’m in trouble.”
“Raph,” Liam amended and handed him his cup of coffee.
Raphael smiled, sipped it and said, "I’m gonna be laid up in bed for at least a week. Can you see if you can get something for me to do?”
“Do you like video games?”
“Love them. Mikey and I played them all the time.”
“I’ll arrange that. Why don’t you get some sleep?”
“I am tired,” Raphael said as he handed Liam his empty plate and then his mug. “Liam, thank you for treating me kindly and not like a freak to be despised. It means a lot.”
“Hey, hey, Raph. I’m the freak,” Liam said and grinned as he placed the mug and his and Raphael's plates on the tray on the desk. “You keep forgetting it.”
Raphael beamed and said, “I think we’re gonna be terrific pals.”
“Me too. Get some rest, Raph. I’ll stay with you.”Raphael lay down, closed his eyes and thought, Liam’s awesome and I know we'll be friends for life. Leo, I miss you, babe. I can’t wait until you're in my arms again.XXXXDonnie and Mikey arrived home later that day, November 6, and were astounded when they didn’t see Leo or Raphael.“Where are Leo and Raph, Dad?” Donnie asked.
“Your brothers informed me that their union caused dissension in the family,” Splinter said. “So I had no choice but to send Leonardo away to Japan. I hope the time away will erase his romantic feelings for Raphael. I have not seen Raphael since yesterday. I suspect he ran away, but he will be back. He always returns when he has cooled down, so I am not worried.”“Sent Leo away for how long?” Mikey asked as happiness blossomed in his heart at the thought that he could now pursue Raphael.
“Two years,” Splinter replied. “They were upset, but they will get over it and will soon realize that I did it for the good of the clan, because the dissension could endanger lives.”“Get over it?” Donnie spluttered in disbelief at his dad's callousness. “Dad, they’re in love. You don’t just get over a split. It takes weeks, months, years and maybe never. I had a crush on Raph, but I wasn’t upset about their union and wished them well. Dad, you have to get Leo back, because Raph’s probably going out of his shell with anxiety and his running away isn’t like those other times. This is different. You sent his soulmate away and he’s never going to forgive you if you don’t get Leo back home.”
“Donatello, you are being overdramatic. Raphael will get over it,” Splinter said. “Leonardo was a passing fancy like so many things in Raphael's life. Do you remember his obsession with stamp collection, calligraphy, bonsai and so much more? They did not last long. Leonardo would never have either, so I did them a favor. I have made my decision. It is final. Michelangelo, go and prepare dinner.”“Hai, Dad,” Mikey said and went to the kitchen.Splinter said, “I am sure Raphael will be home very soon. He is just sulking, but he will not stay away long, because where would he go other than Miss O’Neil and Mr. Jones's places? They have family at their places, so Raphael cannot stay there.”Splinter had a point, but as Donnie watched the rat leave the living room he had a nagging feeling that his sensei was wrong and that Raphael wouldn’t be returning home anytime soon. If at all, because he deeply resented Splinter for sending his love away.I don’t blame Raph, Donnie thought. I’d have run away and hated Dad if he’d separated me from my love. Poor Leo must be devastated as well. Contacting Raph is pointless, because he’s probably gonna ignore any calls and texts with the way he’s feeling. I'll pack a bag, go to Japan and I'll bring Leo home. He and Raph belong together. I don’t care what Sensei says. I'll do it for my brothers if it’s the last thing I do. I bet Leo’s with the Ancient One. I’ll start looking there.Donnie packed a bag containing money, protein bars and two bottles of water. Then he donned his disguise of a trench coat and a fedora. He sent a text to Raphael telling him he was going to get Leo, he’d contact him soon and how much he loved him.Donnie donned his weapons, slung the bag over his shoulder and crept out of the lair.XXXXDonnie walked through the tunnels until he spotted a familiar manhole near the docks. He climbed up the ladder, lifted the manhole cover, climbed out and headed to the harbor, because he knew ships left all the time.No one was about and Donnie was able to board a ship destined for Tokyo and which he figured would leave either that evening or early the next morning.He went to the quarters below, threw himself onto the bed and waited for the ship to leave.

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Shredder was in his study at 1 p.m., when his phone rang.“Good morning,” Saki said.
“Father, it’s me,” Karai said. “I bet you thought you would never hear from me again after our fallout.”
“No. You told me you hated me when I was just trying to keep you from making the biggest mistake of your life. I only ever wanted the best for you, Karai. Han was never good enough for you, was a deadbeat, sponged off others and he beat up his women. I warned you, but I realized after our last argument that I had to let you walk away and that you had to see it for yourself. It was the hardest thing I ever did. I missed you every day and yearned for the day you would call, because I could never detest you. I love you so much. You’ve always been the light of my life and I…”
“I’m so sorry, Father,” Karai said thickly and swallowed the lump in her throat. “I’m sorry I was headstrong and never listened to you. I was sixteen-years-old and thought I knew everything. Now I’m twenty-four, I realize I know nothing and you were absolutely right. The last few years have been torture. You have every right to loathe me. I have brought you nothing but pain, heartache and shame.”
“I could never detest you, my child. It is the past. Come home and we’ll start afresh. I assume you’re no longer with Han.”
“He was everything you said he was, but I didn’t leave him, because I was determined to prove you wrong and I did love him. No one wants to admit that their marriage was a failure, but I found the courage after he caused a third miscarriage and I landed up in hospital with six broken ribs, a fractured femur, pelvis and several other injuries. I was extremely lucky to be alive. I was in hospital for months and it was a slow and agonizing recovery. I initiated divorce proceedings and laid assault charges. He’s in prison and we’ve been divorced for about a year. It took me many months to summon up the courage to phone you. I was so afraid you’d tell me to go to hell.”
“Oh, my poor and precious child,” Saki said miserably. “I’m so sorry for all you’ve endured. Come home. My arms are open.”
“Really? I’ll be on the next flight,” Karai said happily.
“Yes, my child. Come home. It’s all in the past. I do have some news for you, though. Raphael.”
“What about that creature? I haven’t been home in ages, but I heard you had problems with Ninja Turtles and Raphael was one of them. He’s the smart aleck and brawn.”
“That’s right. He’s your new brother…”
“You always wanted a son,” Karai said bitterly. “I was never good enough for you. Everything I did was wrong and you never lost an opportunity to tell me. Is this Raphael your favorite now? He’s going to inherit everything that should be mine. A freak Turtle. Have you lost your mind, Dad? It’s a genetic mistake, its family hates you and you want to raise it as your son. You’re insane and crazy to expect me to consider it a brother.”
“I haven’t been the perfect father, Karai. It wasn’t easy raising you alone after your mother died, but I tried my best and I’m trying now. Anyway, this isn’t about you. This is about Raphael. I did long consider the Turtles thorns in my backside and freaks, but I’ve come to see that they’re as human as us and they go through the same things we do: loss, trauma, grief, pain, love. I sense a kindred spirit in Raphael, who reminds me of myself when I was young. He’s lost and is looking for guidance and love. I believe I can give it to him. He needs it more than ever, especially after his ordeal. He was raped by Bebop and Rocksteady, Karai. Can you imagine the agony he must have endured? He’s not the beast I always said he was. He’s a sweet, passionate, caring and kind kid. He's desperate to belong somewhere and he didn’t deserve what happened to him. You might be against him, but I won’t halt in my actions to ensure he gets all the care and love he needs. I will help heal him and he won’t be regarded as your superior. You two are loved equally by me and will inherit equally when I die. That’s a promise, so you have nothing to worry and to be jealous about.”
“He was raped? My hell. That’s awful. No one deserves that,” Karai said sadly, her heart going out to Raphael. “What about his family? Why aren’t they there for him?”
“Long story, but in a nut shell, Leonardo was sent away to Japan to curb his romantic feelings for Raphael, who also loved him, because Splinter didn’t approve. Raphael ran away. I found Raphael, recognized he needed love and support and brought him home. He doesn’t want to see Splinter. I don’t blame him. The old rat is a bigoted fool. I’m trying to find Leonardo. Are you in Japan?”
“Yeah. I can ask around if anyone has seen him, but I can’t promise anything. I’ll give Raphael a chance, Father, and try and help him when I’m home.”
“Thank you. I’m trying to think of ways we can bond and to take his mind off things, but I don’t know what to do.”
“Sport, wrestling, martial arts or something. Take him to that. He’ll love that. Maybe ask Uncle Kaz for advice.”
“I haven't spoken to Kazuo in years. You’re well aware of that.”
“Yes, but Raphael could help you mend bridges. It’s time, Father. It’s been too long and I’m sure Uncle would love to meet his nephew.”
“I suppose.”
“Anyway, I’d better get going. I have things to do. I’ll keep you informed about Leonardo and I’ll send you my flight details as soon as I have them. Thank you, Father. I love you.”
“I love you too, my child,” Saki said and disconnected the call.Saki smiled and thought, I’m so glad Karai and I are talking again and I can’t wait to see her. It's time to check on Raphael.He was nearly out of the study when his phone shrilled. “Hello?” he said.
“It’s Kazuo, Saki. I don’t even know why I’m calling you, but I thought you might like to know that Heidi passed away a week ago. It’s been a crazy few days.”
“A week ago and you call me now?” Saki said in disbelief.
“We aren’t exactly close, Saki,” Kazuo coldly reminded him. “You should be thankful I’m calling now. I didn’t have to, but you’re still family, so I figured you should know. Anyway, you never liked her, so I thought you’d be glad she’s gone.”
“It’s true that I never really warmed to her, but I would never wish ill on the woman. How could you think that of me? How are the boys?”
“Compassion was never one of your traits. Heidi was sick for a long time. Breast cancer. Only close family knew. That’s the way she wanted it. The boys are home from university and go back next week. Max turned twenty-two a few weeks ago and Anton had his twenty-fifth birthday in March. He’s engaged and getting married next summer. His partner, Craig, is a lovely guy. Anyway, they’re doing the best they can under the circumstances.”
“How are you doing? Is there anything I can do, Kaz? I would like to help if I can.”
“Why? What’s in it for you?” Kazuo asked suspiciously.
“Nothing. I want to help my older brother like he always tried to help me. I miss you, Kaz, and I’m sorry for all the pain and suffering I’ve caused you over the years. This is no joke. I am. I was a dickhead, but I’ve changed.”
“For like two minutes maybe,” Kazuo said sarcastically. “Then you’ll revert.”
“You have every right to be distrustful, but I’m serious. I want to heal our rift. Life is too short to live with regrets, grudges and hatred. I want our kids to be able to see one another. I want to be able to have a beer with you and to watch sport and talk, like we did before I changed for the worse. I know it’ll take a long time for that to happen, but I’m prepared to do whatever it takes to earn your trust. I miss my nephews. I haven’t seen them since they were tots and now they’re young men. Too much time has elapsed, Kazuo. We’re not kids anymore either. We’re fifty-four and fifty-seven respectively. Who knows how much time we have left?”
Kazuo sighed and said, “You know, Heidi didn’t dislike you. She always encouraged me to talk to you, but I wouldn’t. She would want us to get along again. That’s all she ever wanted. A happy and united family. She couldn’t stand the angst and fighting and even though you were never present at meals and gatherings, your place and Karai's were always set. We’ll take baby steps, Saki, because I miss you too. Bring Karai with you to dinner tonight, unless you have plans."
"I'll be there, but Karai is in Japan. May I bring my son?”
“Of course. I would like to meet my nephew. How old is he?”
“Fifteen.”
“Different mothers then.”
“Yes. I must warn you that Raphael isn’t human.”
“Neither were you for most of your life.”
Saki winced at the insult and said, “I’m serious, Kaz. He’s a mutant Turtle, but he’s a good kid. He's been through a lot. I’m trying to help him.”
“I don’t care what he is, as long as he brings you joy, Saki. That’s all I ever wanted for you. I’ll see you at seven tonight. Just bring yourselves. We’re still at the same pad in Brooklyn,” Kazuo said and hung up.I’m going to see my brother, Saki thought excitedly as a huge smile spread across his face. I really hope we can mend bridges and get past all of our shit. I'll check on Raphael.Saki headed to Raphael’s room.XXXXRaphael was sitting up in bed and drawing and two pillows were propped up behind him. There was no sign of Liam.Saki entered the room and said, “How are you, my son?”
“Hey, Dad,” Raphael said and smiled. “I’m okay, thanks. How are you? I slept a lot and the pain's going. The emotional pain will take time to heal, but I'll get there. I’m a survivor.”
“You will, my son. I’m all right. I had a busy morning fielding calls,” Saki said, pulling up a chair and sitting down. I want you to know that I’ve set up a bank account for you and that you and Karai will inherit my assets equally when I die. You’ll also be treated equally while I’m alive.”
“Karai?” Raphael asked, raising an eyeridge.
“She’s my daughter from my only marriage and her mom died when she was four. Karai is twenty-four and assinine. She must get it from me. She’ll be home from Japan in a few days’ time and she said she’ll ask around about Leonardo. If anyone can find him, she can. She has tons of contacts.”
“How does she feel about me being your son?”
“She’s looking forward to meeting you and I have no doubt she’ll love you as much as I do. You’re drawing, huh? Is that something you like to do in your spare time?”
“Yeah,” Raphael said and shyly showed Saki his drawing. “Liam bought me some art supplies.”
“Is that Leonardo?”
“Yep.”
“That’s fantastic, Raphael. You’re very talented. I’m impressed.”
“Thanks, Dad. All of us are artistic in different ways. Leo is with his drawing and calligraphy. Donnie can draw and build inventions. Sometimes they actually work. Mikey’s art is writing stories. I love painting, drawing, woodwork and arts and crafts. Leo’s my favorite subject to draw.”
“What’s that in Leonardo’s arms? A baby?”
“Yeah. Our baby,” Raphael said softly. “I drew a boy, but we could have a girl.”
“You’re both males, Raphael. That’s impossible.”
“I’m intersex and can fall gravid. It’s possible I’m gonna have Leo’s baby, so you gotta find him, Dad. Hopefully, my pouch won’t store Bebop and Rocksteady’s sperm. I don’t want their babies, but Leo’s and mine would be adored and would be gorgeous, especially if he looks like Leo. I know this is a lot to accept. Kick me out if you can't handle it. I can make it on my own. Give me a few more days to recover and then I’ll leave. I can tell you aren't happy. I can’t blame you. I’m a genetic freak, huh? A male who can have babies.”Saki’s mouth had opened, then closed and opened again, because he was totally at a loss for words.Raphael can fall gravid, he thought in astonishment. I’m stunned and I’m not exactly over the moon. He is too young to be a father, but I will not make the same mistake I did with Karai and push him away by lecturing him or by being revolted. I will support him and show him unwavering love. That’s what he needs.“I am astounded,” Saki confessed. “But I will never abandon you, Raphael. You’re my son and I will always love and support you. If you do have a baby, he or she or they will be loved as fiercely as you are, so do not worry about a thing.”
“Really?” Raphael asked, his eyes and face lighting up.
“Absolutely,” Saki said and patted his arm. “The babies will lack for nothing and will be thoroughly spoiled like their father. I love you, Raphael. That’ll never change.”
“Aw,” Raphael sniffed, putting down his pencil and then wiping away a tear with the back of his hand. “Thanks, Dad. That means a lot. I love you too. Why couldn’t Splinter be so accepting of Leo and I? He’d have been mad about a baby too. Babies are a blessing, no matter how they’ve been conceived. How could Splinter be so callous?”
“He’s a bigoted old fool, Raphael. Don’t worry about him. You have a family who loves and appreciates you now and a place where you belong. You are Oroku Raphael, my cherished and adored son. That little baby is my grandchild and a continuation of the Oroku family I thought would die out on my side with Karai. I am honored and grateful to have been given this opportunity to be your father. I will do my utmost to ensure you always feel loved and wanted.”
“Sappy much?” Raphael asked teasingly as his plastron swelled with pride. Someone actually loved him, wanted him and valued him. Him, who’d always thought he was an outcast and unwanted by the rat.
“Sometimes. Everyone has layers to them, Raphael. I hid my gentleness behind my rage.”
“Yeah. It was hard to see it when you were trying to kill us.”
“Indeed, but that’s the past. You will only know happiness and love. No more angst, turmoil and drama. The same for your brothers. I will leave them alone.”
“Thanks. I don’t know when I can face them again.”
“Focus on healing yourself. Everything else can wait. Do you think you might be up to going out tonight? My brother invited me for dinner at his place.”
“Yeah? That’s awesome, but what if he doesn't like me?”
“He’ll love you. His wife died and we’re trying to mend our rift. My nephews will be there. They’re older than you, but great kids. I would appreciate it if you came with me. I’m kind of nervous going there alone after nearly two decades of not seeing my family.”
“Of course I’ll go with you. I’d like to meet my uncle and cousins. Cousins. It feels weird saying that.”
“I bet, but they are your family. Do you like wrestling?”
“Love it. Why?”
“How about we go to Smackdown tomorrow night if you feel you can? Just the two of us. Dad and son time.”
"It's impossible. Look at me. I'm a mutant. Thanks, though. It would have been amazing.”
“It is if I have an entire VIP suite rented out not far from the stage. It has a special entrance for VIP guests only.”
“Wow? Really? You do?” Raphael said in bewilderment.
“Yes. I’ll phone now. I’m an extremely wealthy man, Raphael. A billionaire. What fun is that if I can’t spoil my children? I will give you everything you always wanted and more. It’s what you deserve, my son, so do not say no. I will be offended if you do.”
“In that case, thanks a million, Dad,” Raphael said and grinned. “It’s gonna be fabulous. Will the Rock be there? He’s my favorite.”
“I can phone and ask,” Saki said and made a mental note to do something that would knock his son’s socks off more.
“Wow. Smackdown. Leo didn’t like wrestling, but he'd have loved being there for the atmosphere. I can’t believe I’m going. Thank you, Dad, and thank you for all you're doing for me. I’m grateful and I know Leo would be too. We’re indebted to you forever.”
“No. I want to do it and you’re not. You’re my son and being able to bring you happiness is a pleasure. That’s my reward. Seeing your face light up.”
“I won't let you down, Dad. I'll be a son you can be proud of. I never wanna disappoint you. Thank you for taking me in," Raphael said and opened his arms.
Shredder sat down on the bed, wrapped his arms around his son and said, "I am already proud of you, Raphael. It’s a shame the rat didn’t see how special you are. It's his loss and my gain. I should get going. I have more calls to make.”
Raphael pulled away and said, “Can’t you stay with me for a bit and play video games, Dad? Liam brought games and the console and then he had to go and do errands.”
“Video games? I haven’t played them since I was a kid. I’m fifty-four and an old man. I wouldn’t have a clue what to do.”
“You're younger than Splinter. He’s sixty-five. I’ll show you how to play. How about Mortal Kombat? We can play as a team and I’ll talk you through it. It’s so much fun.”
“Well, okay. I can try,” Saki said and picked up a video game controller. "But don't laugh at me if I stink."
"I won't. You're gonna have a blast, Dad."Saki and Raphael played for hours and he had to admit he was having fun, especially when the hothead chuckled. His laughter warmed the ex-villain’s soul.Raphael’s laughter makes my soul dance, Saki thought. I like it and spending time with him. Money is wonderful, but what really counts is the time you get with your children. It’s priceless. I will always treasure our times together, I'll never take him for granted, I'll always love him and support him and I will be a father he will be proud of.