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“JUNGKOOK! You’re going to be late for your vocal training.” Jungkook didn’t really want to go, though his Jin Hyung told him, he’ll go. ”Jungkook, can you practise a little more? I’m not trying to be mean or anything but you’ve been a little behind. Maybe spend an hour and that’s all you need.” Hoseok rambled. Quite frankly Jungkook was feeling worse, but since his Hyung told him. He’ll follow. “Jungkook. I want you to go to the store and get me some food please.” Jimin asked. Jungkook was a little afraid he might get lost since he’s feeling awful. Since Jimin asked so nicely, he’ll go. “Jungkook. Could you help me with the food?” Jungkook’s throat started hurting as his head started throbbing. He didn’t want to do it. Since Teahyung asked him. He’ll help out. ”Jungkook. Can you help me with these lyrics? I’m having troubles.” Suga usually never asked Jungkook for help. Despite that he vomited a couple minutes ago, he’ll help Suga. ”Jungkook. Can you do the dishes? I know it’s my turn but I have to finsish this rapping part. I’ll make it up to you. Promise.” Jungkook knew how Namjoon needed to finish his part of the song, so he agreed. “Hey, Jungkook. I’m sorry I had to give you all my jobs-”. Jungkook couldn’t make out what he said before that. For all he could see was complete and utter darkness.
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“Hey, Jungkook. I’m sorry I had to give you all my jobs-”. Jungkook couldn’t make out what he said before that. For all he could see was complete and utter darkness.
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Jimin freaked out, he didn’t know what to do. Who could blame him? His Maknae just fainted, he didn’t know why. Spontaneously called out “JIN, NAMJOON. COME QUICK.” His voice was shaking. Jin was the first to arrive and when he noticed an unconscious Jungkook he has become protective. He went down to his knees and checked the youngers temperature. As soon as he placed his hand on Jungkooks forehead, he was shocked. He never felt skin so hot before. He couldn’t call this hot- no, this was scorching, maybe even more hot. Soon Namjoon apeared and already took action by getting Jins car keys. Jin was worried for so many reasons but he did notice somethings like, his uncontrolled breathing, he was panting. Another one was his rash spreading to his chest and arms. Jin took him to the hospital saying how one person should go so they would less likely be spotted by fans. They all agreed and off Jin and Jungkook went. Once they got there, Jin explained what had happend and they took him. Jin was left alone with his thoughts. Wondering why it had gone so far, he was usually, along with Teahyung, so observant with these types of things. After what felt like forever but actually 15 minutes the nurse came out and rambled “he’s good, we lowered his temperature a bit. You can go home with him now, you could let him stay here but we wouldn’t do much.” Jin sighed hoping there wouldn’t be anything to worry about but she continued “but he will have temporary memory loss, not serious, something like he wouldn’t know where he is or what’s he’s doing, because of that a lot of people like this will wonder away and go somewhere outside which will scare them. So make sure he isn’t outside alone.” Jin nodded and went inside. He he was met with an conscious Jungkook. He asked the younger “do you wanna go?” Jungkook looked confused and asked “where?” Jin replied while stepping towards the brown headed boy “to our dorm, okay?” Jungkook nodded and stood up a little to fast. He almost fell down if not for Jin catching him. When Jungkook was back to his feet (with the help of Jin) he whispered almost inaudible but Jin did hear it “I’m sorry.” Now Jin was confused, he didn’t know why the Jungkook was saying sorry. He asked him while getting him in the car “why are you sorry?” Jungkook sighed and responded “because I’m getting sick, I can’t do this. I can’t. Why can’t I? Why am I here? I’m stuck, my head is bad. My eyes are weird. I’m going to sleep.” With that Jungkook laid his head on the glass window and slept. Jin was more confused why was he saying he couldn’t get sick? Only time will tell. And so it will.
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When they got home, no one could sleep. Not even Yoongi, who loves to sleep. Since Jungkook fell asleep in the car and Jin didn’t have the heart to wake him up, Jin carried him in their dorm. Rap Monster was the first to come to the door when he heard a knock. He opened the door to find a sleeping kookie in Jins arms. The leader asked “is he- has he not woken up yet?” The oldest whispered “no no, he’s just sleeping, which reminds me can you carry him to his bed my arms are getting tired.” Namjoon nodded his head, picking up the youngest to put him in a more comfortable place. Once Jungkook was taken care of, Namjoon met up with Jimin and Yoongi saying “you should go to sleep, tomorrow we’ll need a lot of energy. Especially you Yoongi, I don’t want you freaking out on him.” Jimin agreed and went to his shared room with Jungkook. Jimin was looking at a sickly pale Jungkook. He the same rash that was less noticeable, but still noticeable. His breathing was uneven but better then before. He was sweating bullets too. He couldn’t fall asleep anymore. The next day Jimin woke up to Jungkook crying loud but not to loud to wake anyone else up. Jimin ran to his bed and asked “what’s going on kookie?” Jungkook replied between sobs “Jimin, I-I d-don’t.. k-know w-where I am~”. Jimin patted his head saying “your at your house, you’re safe.” Jimin was so shocked, Jungkook has lived here ever since he was 16 and he’s 19 now. That still didn’t stop him from crying. Nothing did. His sobs went louder until Hoseok came in to ask what the ruckess was. He started “whats the- what happened to Jungkook? Is he alright?” Jimin looked at Jungkook then went to Hoseok replying “he doesn’t know where he is. Don’t worry, he knows who we are.” That still didn’t stop Hoseok from coming to his knees when he got to Jungkook. Jungkook asked Hoseok “Hoseokie, w-where a-am I?” Hoseok answered “you’re safe and home. Don’t worry, all of us will take care of you.”
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Jungkook asked Hoseok “Hoseokie, w-where a-am I?” Hoseok answered “you’re safe and home. Don’t worry, all of us will take care of you.”
Let’s be honest, Jungkook feels like he could die any second. He has better memory but sometimes he just forgets. That usually starts with tears and ends with cuddles and smiles. Jin is the oldest so he was in charge of the medicine. While the rest of the Maknae line (Jimin, Teahyung) made sure he was as happy as he can get while being sick. The rappers (Yoongi, J hope, Namjoon) took care of his memory. With that, Jungkook would be healthy in 3-4 days.
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Jungkook felt his head pounding against his skull. He had to tell someone but he didn’t want to worry anyone. He then thought of bang pd-nim. Or the manager, he’s very nice. He’ll know what to do. He settled down for his manager. Jungkook sated, “My heads been hurting lately. What should I do?” He responded, “Let’s see Jungkook. How about I take you to the doctors after lunch okay?” Jungkook nodded and walked away. It was before lunch he felt nauseous. He ran to the bathroom and opened up the door. He rushed to the toilet and vomited. But it’s blood. Why? When he was at the doctor he said what’s happening. “First my head was hurting then I vomited blood what’s happening?” The doctor nodded and checked his heart rate and other doctoyly stuff that a twelve year old doesn’t know. Soon on he said, “Jungkook, I know you have a career but... I’m afraid to tell you...”. He stoped talked and Jungkook was afraid. The doctor continued, “Jungkook, you have a brain tumour.” Jungkooks whole world started collapsing. He will die, he will die, he will die. “How long until I die?” ”3 months since it’s pretty big.” He has three month, he has three month, he has three months. When his manager asked, “What is it?” “Brain tomour.” The car car ride was silent until his manager asked, “Are you going to tell them?” Jungkook responded, “I have three months so on my second month. I don’t want to worry them.” His maneger nodded. When they got back Taehyung asked, “Whered you go?” Jungkook wanted to say, “Taehyung I’ll die.” But instead said, “Just was doing extra practice and Maneger-nim brought me back.” He smiled a little brokenly and Taehyung said, “Oh you shouldn’t practice to hard. Have to worry about you’re health. Right?” Jungkook was going to die anyway but nonetheless nodded. It was past 12:00 in the night when Jungkook was in pain. He wanted to cry so bad. He wanted to scream and shout and let it all out. He wanted to hug someone tightly and cry in their arms. He wanted to do so many things but couldn’t without questions being asked. He couldnt fall asleep at all that night.
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Two months to live
Jungkook never thought he would die so early in life. He actually never thought he knew when he’d die. He’s been holding so many tears back this past week, it’d be impossible for him to not cry. Though theirs been a crazy miracle that makes him not cry. In practise, he usually has to make more breaks then ever. Usually once every hour. He’s so out of breath and pale. His memebers thinks he’s still sick so they don’t start a fight with him. Though, his manager knows. Yeah, he knows Jungkook is slowly winding down. Like watching paint dry. It will take awhile but you know you won’t have to wait longer after that second. Now it’s closer, and closer and closer. His head is pounding so fast and it’s hurting like a rock just fell on it. He doesn’t want food. Well, he doesn’t have the stomach for it. Everything he eats will come back up again with some blood. Luckily, the other memebers doesn’t know about that, though Taehyung is starting to question. He always asks, “Are you okay? You look like you’re going to cry.” He’d usually laugh it off and answer, “Yeah, I’m alright.” Nights are usually the hardest. He just can’t seem to get rid of all the pain that just crashed down on him. Usually in the day, he’d get things to distract himself. Like singing or humming. At night, all he has left is the pain that all came rushing to him all at once. Even though he has his own room, he still doesn’t cry.
One month to live
The days are getting harder and since the doctor knows he’s already going to die, Jungkook doesn’t need to take that much medicine. That was good, he can keep his hair. Though that is least of his worries now. He wants to tell them, at least someone. Tell someone that the pains getting worse. Sometimes he can’t get out of his bed in the mornings. When he does get out of bed, he regrets it. Their would be a headache that is worse every morning. It would get better after a couple of hours or so. Though, when he exercises or does dancing, he becomes dizzy. He would usually have to sit out for a hour or so. He completely given up on eating. Taehyung noticed and wondered if he has an eating disorder. Jungkook realized he’s worrying Taehyung. Jungkook would usually laugh it off like all the other times and say, “No, I’m okay.” Then night time. It’s getting harder to think now. He can’t have any nice sleeps without waking up in a jolt and having a bad headache. When he does have a nice sleep with, at least two wake up in the night, he feels very thankful.
Last month
Jungkook has to go to the hospital. When he fainted, Taehyung called the hospital and asked calmly for an ambulance. Anyone can see in his face, he is scared beyond anyone. Taehyung and Jungkook was a duo. They were everywhere together. Good and bad. Now that Jungkook just fainted, Taehyung feels like a bad friend. He let this slip past him. When the doctor told Taehyung and the rest, “I don’t think he told you this but he was diognosed with a brain tomour three months ago. You can visit him now but he’s on his last legs. He probably won’t make it next week, he might die on Friday.” Today was Wednesday. That was their breaking point. Taehyung broke down as Jimin hugged him. Namjoon feeling guilty since he was the leader. HE was supposed to take care of everything and everyone. Jin was also feeling guilty, well, they were all feeling guilty. Jin was the oldest, he promised he’d make sure Jungkook was safe. Now he’s dying. Hoseok and Yoongi, they tried to block the world out. Listening to music. Their sunshine, was disappearing in the clouds. The doctor said, “You can visit him. Only one at a time though.” They let Jin go first since he was the oldest. No one knew what was going on in their. No one would talk about it. After that, it was Namjoon. Then Yoongi, Hoseok then Jimin. Taehyung couldn’t go in. He just couldn’t. He didn’t want to face a lifeless Jungkook. Then came the frieghtful day. Friday. They came in and they went in the same order. Now, this time, Taehyung went in to see Jungkook. “Hey Kookie. I.” He couldn’t finish the senctence to see a Jungkook staring at him. It looked like all the life was out of Jungkook and got replaced with something different. Pain. Taehyung tried to continue, “Its Friday. It’s okay, Kookie. You can let go, I won’t. I won’t blame you.” Taehyung was full on crying. “Kookie, it must be painful right now. I don’t want to sit here and watch you suffer. I know what you’re thinking. You’re thinking that you’ll get through this. Jungkook, you won’t. I’m not trying to be mean but you already seem dead. You’re eyes are lifeless and pained. You’re hurting and...” Taehyung didn’t want to continue. He sat down next to Jungkook and held his hand. He looked at the older with sorry eyes before looking at the ceiling and whispering painfully, “Thanks... for... everything...” With that, their heard a long beep. Signally he died.