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June 4
Today I woke up with the most gorgeous man I’d ever met— my husband. It’s only 6 am and the sun is still yet to rise. However, who needs the sun when the person you love shines brighter? He always reminds me of the cold breeze of air in the morning with the calming sounds of waves in our hometown. It’s so refreshing and never failed to make me feel at home. His whole being is my home; my safe haven.I never minded the hours of just looking at him sleeping peacefully. His whole body curled up side wards while still leaning on my body. Ah the warmth, I can’t believe it’s still there after all these years we’d been together. The flashback of those times when we were still starting— our college years. I remember how cold and shy he was back then despite my never-ending affection. I almost gave up, but I was thankful I didn’t. Because finally, I got him. And of course, he got me.I saw my man stir in his sleep, trying to adjust for a better sleeping position. I can never control myself to look at him fondly. If Taehyung, my best friend, could see me right now, he would tell me I was love sick since college that he wants to throw up. I will never deny that though. This guy in front of me turned me into something I didn’t imagine back then. He sure has some magic powers.“Mm.” I heard him whimper as he buried his face on my neck for closer contact. I can’t help but to smile. He’s so mesmerising, how could I be so lucky. Suddenly, I decided to place a soft kiss on his closed eyelids; a habit of mine since that thing happened.He stirred again and sleepily wrapped his arms around my body to close the distance between us. I chuckled and looked at our clock on the bedside table to learn that it’s already 6:15 am. Just in time for sunrise in our place.Knowing that my husband used to love watching the sunrise, I decided to interrupt his slumber.“Kook,” I whispered into his ear softly while still keeping my fond smile. “Sunrise is about to start.” I continued as I softly drew circles on his arm.“5 more minutes hyung.” I heard him mumble as he tries to bury his face on my neck even more. I just love how adorable my man is.“But we’ll lose the sunrise if you sleep for more.” I whispered again as I smelled his strawberry scented hair— it’s wonderful.Jungkook seems to contemplate whether to sleep in or not. He’s always like this every weekend; the only days we really spend time with each other.Suddenly, Jungkook’s face look up to mine and god, did I already say he’s mesmerising and mentioned how lucky I am to have him?“Fine.” He then said with a pout which I kissed softly with a chuckle.“Good morning baby.” I said and decided to wrap my thighs on his and hug him as tight as I could.“H-hyung I c-can’t ugh breathe!” He said as he tries to get out of my embrace for oxygen. I loosened our hug and decided to just look at my man’s face while he slowly finds his time to recover his breath.“I love you.” I suddenly blurted which made him blush and softly punch my chest. He’s so adorable.“Why are you always like this every morning?” He mumbled and pouted. “But, I love you too Jimin hyung.” And those words coming from him never failed to send butterflies on my stomach. I decided to kiss him again, only this time it’s longer and much more passionate. Words can never explain how much I’m in love with this man I married and fell in love with since college. I hope that with this kiss we’re sharing, he’ll get my unspoken messages of love and adoration.After a while we broke the kiss and I just stared at him while caressing his cheeks as gentle as I could and we stayed like that for awhile.I again pressed multiple kisses on his face which earns me the softest giggle in the world.“The sunrise!” He suddenly exclaimed and jumped out off our bed which caused him to trip on my body and fall on the floor. “Ouch.” he whimpered.I immediately got on my feet to help him stand.“You never changed Jungkook-ssi.” I chuckled but with still worry on my tone.“Jimin-ssi.” He just muttered and I laugh.I then guided him to sit on the loveseat couch in front of our window that shows the sun, slowly rising up on the horizon. I then sit with him and made his body lean into my chest as my arms were encircled around his waist; our hands intertwined with each other with our wedding rings clearly showed.We sat there in silence for awhile. Embracing the comfort and warmth of each other’s bodies. I will never get tired of waking up every morning like this. It’s just so… perfect.“What does it look like today?” Jungkook asked.“It didn’t change— beautiful as ever.” I answered.“I’m glad.” He said and sighed. By that, I know it’s starting again.“The sun is slowly giving a fresh color on the surroundings Kookie. Just like what you used to photograph and paint before.” I said to lighten up the mood and softly rub my free hand on his stomach.“Yeah, used.”“Babe-““I know hyung. It’s okay.” He started. “I just miss everything you know.” He said and I just listen.“I miss doing things that I used to do; photography, painting, teaching, everything. Hyung I miss seeing colors and structures. I miss seeing my students and their artworks. I miss seeing Jin hyung’s irritated face whenever I give him a smug response or Namjoon hyung’s facial expression whenever he gets serious or angry. I miss looking at Hobi hyung’s triangular face every time he’s upset and also his sunshine smile. I miss seeing Yoongi hyung’s poker face and gummy smile. I miss looking at Taehyung hyung’s weird faces whenever he wants us to laugh. And most of all, I miss looking at you hyung.” I decided to look at my husband’s face and I saw him crying making my heart ache. I tried whispering him comforting words while I wipe his tears away but I think he’s having none of it right now. So, I decided to let him get it all out.“Hyung I miss you. I miss looking at you. I miss seeing your eye-smile, your crooked teeth, your angry or annoyed face, everything! Hyung I miss looking at your sleeping self whenever I wake up earlier than you and had to make us some breakfast before going to work. Or your mesmerising face whenever we make love. I miss everything about you hyung. You’re the one who made me see colors. But now,” he stop and choke because he’s finding it hard to breathe again. “…the only thing that I can see is black.”And there was silence.I was about to speak again to comfort my crying husband when he decided that he’s still not finished.“Because I turned blind. Your husband turned blind Jimin hyung I fucking hate him!” And there he cried harder and there’s nothing I could do but to tighten our embrace as much as possible and whisper him that everything’s going to be okay.It’s just hard to accept the fact that our once confident and strong Jungkook became like this- vulnerable and insecure. As his husband and best friend, I am deeply hurt. If only I could take away his pain and just shoulder it myself I really would gladly do it. But unfortunately, I can’t. And the only thing that I can do for him is to be strong so that he has someone to hold onto. So that he feels that nothing changed between us; that I still love him more than my life.
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June 6
It's Monday and Monday means work. Back then I used to love working outside my house because I get to meet new people and share them my passion. However, due to Jungkook’s condition, I grew to hate it. Well, a little bit because working means that I have to drop Jungkook to Jin hyung’s cafe everyday throughout the whole week and by the time I get home— with my husband of course— I can’t really give him that much time for communication because my whole body was sore from all the choreography I taught to my students. Gladly though, Jungkook enjoys being with Jin because who doesn’t enjoy being with that man? So right now, I’m guiding my husband in the parking lot and made sure that as soon as we’re in front my car, he was carefully seated inside. “Jin hyung told me that we’re going to make a strawberry cake today. I’ll promise to bring some at home later.” I heard my husband excitedly say while I’m fixing his seatbelt. “That’s great! Strawberry is my favorite so I hope my beautiful husband would really make it delicious so that his hot husband would feel better after a long day of work.” I replied as I giggly press a quick peck on his lips which made him jolt in surprise. Ah, my husband is so adorable. “Tsk. Since you mentioned that you’re hot, I decided to add some poison to your share so that you’ll die.” He pouted but I know he really didn’t mean it. Jungkook is soft and can barely kill an insect. “Sure babe as long as you did it.” And I pressed a kiss on his lips again. “Ah hyung! Just because I’m blind you can use it as an advantage to kiss me whenever you want!” He whines and crosses his arms around his chest, trying to look upset. I giggled again and moved towards him. He used to move away in the past, trying to give us some distance as much as possible. But with his condition right now, he didn’t move an inch. “But I always want to kiss my Jungkook. What should we do about that?” I whispered in his hear that obviously made him blush. One thing I love about my man is how easily he can be embarrassed about almost everything I do; although we did more than flirting for like I lost count anymore. “J-just start driving!” He squeaked and tried to move to the side but sorry baby I really like to tease you right now. “Hmm, I still have 2 hours before work so why don’t we just,” I started as I kiss the side of his mouth. “Do something hot real quick?” “H-hyung,” He whimpered and before he can move further away, I circled my right arm around his waist and closed the gap between us with the most passionate and not-so-horny kiss I could ever give. Gladly, Jungkook seems to like it and responds. It stayed like that for a little while; the passionate kissing and the little ‘I love you’s’ every time we break the kiss only to reconnect because this, ladies and gentlemen, is one way for us to feel the warmth in each other. There’s no need to buy expensive gifts or go to luxurious places. It’s the feeling— the emotion— that both of us never get tired of giving each other no matter what circumstances would bring us. God I love this man. “H-hyung, you’re gonna be late.” He whispered yet didn’t even try to stop kissing me back. Seriously, he really is the type of person that says one thing and do another. Instead of answering him, I deepened our kiss and I felt his arms wrapped around my neck and softly massage my hair. It made me sigh in comfort. “Hyung,” he whispered again but I didn’t mind and just continue doing my business until I move my lips into his jaw and pepper him kisses on the said spot. I heard my man produce a breathy sigh. “I love you Jungkook.” I said while still peppering him kisses as soft as possible. “God I love you.” I repeated and move my lips on his again. It stayed like that again for like who knows how long until I felt Jungkook’s hands move on my cheeks. I decided to lean away and look at his face. He’s crying. “Baby why are you crying?” I asked as I also cup his cheeks and wipe the subtle tears falling on his face. He didn’t answer for a while. He just cried softly while brushing his thumbs on my cheeks. His head is leaning on the door while his face is angling upwards since I’d been hovering on top of him since we started kissing. Knowing that he needs time to calm down, I decided to just stay here and not utter a word. Seeing my husband cry hurts. But it cannot be compared to the pain he feels inside after the accident. “Nothing.” he whispered while bushing his thumbs on my cheeks still. “I’m just thankful and lucky to have you.” “Jungkook, you have no idea how much I feel the same.” I whispered softly. “Hyung I’m sorry. I’m sorry you have a husband to take care for.” He vulnerably said and god please make this man feel how much I am even more thankful to take care of him and there’s nothing to apologize for. “But Jungkook, you don’t have to be sorry about anything. In sickness and in health right?” I started as I myself can also feel the tears starting to fall. It’s just painful for me to see him like this. “And even if you’re not yet my husband and we’re still in college, I will still never hesitate to take care of you. Because the love that I felt back them didn’t change until now. Well, it grew stronger and much more passionate, so please baby don’t feel sorry.” I then saw him smile; the one I fell in love with since I first saw him in the music room with Yoongi hyung. It was soft and so child-like or maybe bunny-like because my husband looks like the cutest rabbit there could ever be— only, he’s human not really an animal. “Thank you.” He whispered softly and again, I connected my lips into his and soon we’re both drowning in each other’s presence. I used to be a very impatient person and I’m also definitely not a fan of drama. But this guy in front of me taught me that it’s okay to wait. And it’s also okay to cry. 6 years. We’d been dating for 6 years but no matter how long we’d been together, everything still feel fresh and beautiful. Like the start of winter or the beginning of spring. Yes, we did fight a lot of times because of petty things and that’s okay. Because after those war are cuddles and maybe make-up-sex. I’m just kidding. The thing I love about us fighting is how we try to resolve it as soon as possible. And then after we both agreed on both ends, our bond will only grow stronger as well as our tolerance with each other. “Seriously? You’re not going to drive?” I snapped out of my thoughts because of Jungkook’s angelic chuckle. “And, can you please get off of me? You’re heavy.” I just chuckled and complied. + Time flew faster than I’d expected because finally I can get out of 1 Million Studio and pick my husband at Jin hyung’s. Though my body’s sore and it’s been raining outside for hours now, the excitement to see my man makes me forget about the word ‘exhaustion’. He truly is my energizer. It wasn’t just 20 minutes when I arrived at Jin hyung’s house. The familiar scent of coffee brushes my nose as I walk passed the gate and open the door. And their he is, the most gorgeous man I have ever seen in my whole 30 years of existence, laughing with Jin hyung while holding a cup of coffee. Wait. Coffee?! “Jungkook no!” I immediately ran towards my husband and took away the cup of coffee in his hands when he was about to take a sip again. “W-hat the. Jimin?” He asked confused. “Hyung! Why did you let him drink coffee at 8pm? You know what happens whenever he does!” I whined at Jin hyung while taking the table napkin and wipe Jungkook’s lips. “Don’t overreact Jimin it’s just coffee!” Jin hyung rolled his eyes. “Besides, it’s been raining for hours and a hot of coffee would felt nice right Jungkook?” “Mhm.” Jungkook hummed in response. I only gave Jin hyung a tiny bit of glare— because he’s older and might poke my eyes with a spoon— and then kiss my husband’s forehead before sitting beside him. Seriously, Jungkook is not the one for night coffee no matter what the weather is because damn he’ll find it hard to sleep. I don’t even know what came into Jin hyung’s mind when he offered him one instead of hot chocolate or milk. “What’s with all the fuss?” A voice suddenly said and we all turned around— even Kookie— to see who it was and found out it was Namjoon hyung, Jin hyung’s husband. His clothes are completely wet from the rain. “Jin hyung made Jungkook drink coffee!” I whined like I was 5 which made Jungkook giggle softly and reach out for my hand which I gladly took in return. Now, our hands are intertwined. “Why? Isn’t he going to find it hard to sleep whenever he drinks coffee at night?” Namjoon hyung asked with his right eyebrow raised. “God it’s just a fucking coffee can ya’ll chill?” Jin hyung yelled with irritation. “And you old man, go upstairs and take a bath. You’re so fucking wet.” “Oooh. Double meaning.” I cooed which earned me a smack on the head in response. “Ouch.” “Whatever. It’s getting late and you and Jungkook should go before the rain falls harder. Go on. Drive safely. Shoo.” He said as he guided us to the gate while helping me support Jungkook with an umbrella. “Goodbye Jin hyung see you tomorrow!” Jungkook said which made Jin hyung smile fondly. “Mhm. Drive safely Chim!” “Yes sir!” I muttered with a salute and head home. + It’s already 9pm and right now Jungkook and I were cuddling on the couch. Actually, I’m also currently eating the strawberry cake he and Jin hyung made today. “How was it?” Jungkook asked as he tried to reach for my cheek but fails so I decided to lean towards him and make his hand touch me. He squished my cheek for a little bit. “Ich derichous.” I said while munching and getting pinched by my husband. To be honest, I’m not the one for sweets because I’ve been monitoring my weight. But since Jungkook wanted to feed me with different kinds of food, then I have no choice. Good thing I dance everyday and sometimes work out in the gym for 30 minutes whenever I have time. “Kiss.” He demanded while pouting which I immediately gave him in return. God I love him I love him I love him. But of course, being Park Jimin, I didn’t stop for just a single kiss so I planted one kiss after another and another until we’re both giggling in the living room. “I love you.” I whispered, earning me a genuine smile from my husband. He caressed my thighs and proceeded to kiss our intertwined hands. “I love you too.” he whispered as well and god did my heart skipped a beat? We stayed like that for a little while. Chatting about what happened with each other’s day. He told me he learned a new dish with Jin hyung and that he wants to cook it for me sometimes. I said I can’t wait. I then told him about my day at the dance studio and mentioned some of my students whom he knew and told him their improvements along with Hobi hyung’s new choreography and how cool it was. Of course being someone who loves dancing, Jungkook got excited with all I shared. I even did some little gestures about how the choreography works which is dumb because he can’t even see it. But, since my husband is as dumb as I am, he also tried doing little dances asking if he’s doing it right while giggling. I felt my heart become warm, and I wasn’t able to control myself when I made him stand. I held his hand and placed it on my shoulders as I placed mine on his waist. We swayed for a little bit while our foreheads touch with each other as well as our chest leaving little distance between us. I smiled. “Thank you for marrying me.” I said and kissed his eyes who had been closed since we started swaying. “Thank you.” he corrected as he wrapped his arms around my neck, leaning his face in it in the process. We stayed like that for a while; swaying to the song he’s humming as I caress his back. Ah, there’s nothing much more than being with him like this. It feels magical. After what feels like eternity— but I’m not complaining anyway— we decided that it’s time for us to go to bed. I guided my husband to the bathroom and gave him a bath. I remember the first days I did this to him— when the news of him being blind was just fresh— there wasn’t a time where he’ll go out of the bathroom without having a blowjob coming from me. He even told me that I’m taking advantage of his condition when in fact, I just really wanted him to feel better; and maybe take a little advantage of it but please don’t tell him! *winks* But right now, we got used to it— me bathing him without anything sexual that is. Well, he literally kicked my face once when he felt my mouth near his dick and threatened to give me a bleeding nose if I continue. Since then, I decided to stop; only when I give him a bath. After getting him clean, I helped him wear his underwear and pajamas. I then guided him to the bed and made him listen to songs in his headphones while it’s my turn to take a bath. After a while, I finally got out of shower and changed myself with comfy clothes and landed my body on top of his. “Ugh hyung you’re heavy.” He said as he tried to squirm against me. “I love you baby.” I whispered and kissed his forehead which of course gave him a slight blush on the cheeks. “I love you too stupid.” I chuckled at the response and rolled to the side and arranged our position. He usually sleeps on my chest but right now his head is leaning on his pillow with his arms and legs wrapped around my body. “Good night baby.” I whispered again and peck his lips. “Good night hyung.” And with that I turned off the bedside lamp and hug my husband to finally get some good night sleep. But of course, Who am I kidding? Of course we’re not sleeping soon. Or Jungkookie that is. ‘Damn you Kim Seok Jin!’
“Hyung, let’s have sex.”