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Jimin wasn't sure how the anxiety started. Maybe it was getting so far into his headspace, he couldn't pull himself back out. He and Yoongi had started out their session as they always did."Are you sure you're ready Jiminie?" Yoongi askedJimin nodded confidently, "Yes, I am. I'm ready.""Okay, do you remember our safe words?" Yoongi made it clear that he wanted both of them on the same page."Yes, green means okay, yellow means slow down or wait, red means stop completely," Jimin recited by rote. Yoongi smiled and nodded, they were already seated on the bed so it made starting thing mush easier. The raven haired man lightly push Jimin down onto the mattress, he followed after him, connecting their lips as they went. Yoongi licked at Jimin's bottom lip, attempting entrance. The pink haired male eagerly opened his mouth, allowing Yoongi to explore his mouth. The elder's hands roamed over Jimin's body, trying to feel everything. They slowly discarded their clothing one by one. First it was their shirts, then their pants and underwear. During all of this, Yoongi had been alternating between kissing Jimin's lips and the juncture between the boy's neck and right shoulder. The ebony haired elder focused on Jimin's neck for a bit and sucked on Jimin's most sensitive spots. Occasionally he'd nip at them harshly, Jimin released breathy moans the entire time, even clutching onto Yoongi's hair a few times. Yoongi pulled away momentarily and asked, "Color?" "G-green," Jimin gasped while staring Yoongi in the eyes. The latter male smiled and continued on with his work. He left bright red marks that would soon turn a deep plum. Yoongi moved down Jimin's chest, kissing every inch he could reach. He took one of the younger's nipples into his mouth, rolling his tongue over it as he suckled on it. Jimin's voice increased as his body reacted, jolting upwards. Yoongi held onto Jimin's arms, pinning him down to reduce his movements. He looked into Jimin's eyes, smirking as his inquired, "How about we confine you a bit, hm?"Jimin hesitantly nodded. He and Yoongi enjoy partaking in a bit of bondage now and again, yet each time Jimin had a wave of anxiety wash over him. He wasn't sure if it was the relinquishment of control that scared him, or the nerves that came with something so adventurous. It wasn't that he didn't trust Yoongi, in fact the elder always took such good care of him, it would've been hard not to trust him. Still he felt nervous, but he knew Yoongi liked this type of stuff so, it was worth it in the end."Petal, are you okay with this tonight?" Yoongi softly asked as he caressed Jimin's cheek with his knuckles. The pink haired youth swallowed back his worries and nodded.Yoongi pressed, "Tell me, use your words Jimin-ah.""Y-yes, I'm okay with it. I promise," Jimin murmured. Yoongi smiled and rose from Jimin's figure. He reached over to the bedside table and opened one of the drawers, grabbing a pair of leather cuffs. He hooked the restraints around a metal bar of the headboard. Yoongi grabbed Jimin's wrists one at a time, securing them above his head in the cuffs. Jimin felt completely variable, naked under Yoongi's gaze. He wanted so badly to curl in on himself, but forced himself to stay strong. Yoongi attacked Jimin's neck again, grazing his teeth over his sweet spot before he'd lap his tongue over it, repeating the sequence several times. Each time, Jimin gasped louder and squirmed under the touch. Yoongi dragged his hands down Jimin's body, finally letting them settle on the youth's thighs. He kneaded them roughly, holding them for a moment before he messaged them. Yoongi curled his hands under Jimin's thighs and hiked his legs up into a bent position. The elder maneuvered himself between the pink haired boy's thighs, gliding his hand up and down them one more time. Without warning, Yoongi took hold of Jimin's cock and began to pump it slowly. Jimin writhed violently, he attempted to take hold of the headboard, but to no avail. Moans feel from Jimin's mouth as Yoongi picked up the pace of his strokes. Every so often he'd squeeze the base a bit harder, allowing the pleasure to become stunted before immediately starting up again. The younger of the two panted as if he'd ran a marathon, whimpering every time Yoongi would change the pace on him. "H-hyung, I'm g-gonna-" Before Jimin could finish, Yoongi let go of Jimin's dick, letting it bob back to its place against the youth's stomach. Jimin whined loudly at the loss of his only source of climax. "You're doing so good Jimin-ah, just perfect," Yoongi murmured against Jimin's lips as he gruffly kissed him. He teased the boy, poking his tongue in and out Jimin's mouth, but never fully going in. Yoongi managed to lean over Jimin's leg to grab something from the night stand once more. When brought into Jimin's view, the youth shuddered. The elder held a vibrating plug and a remote. He looked Jimin in the eye and asked, "What do you think? ""I-" Jimin hesitated, unsure if he wanted to follow through with the offer."We don't have to Sunflower, not if you're uncomfortable," Yoongi cracks a small smile before inquiring, "Jiminie, color?"Jimin let out a shaky breath before he replied, "Green..."A sliver of doubt flashed through Yoongi's eyes as he looked at Jimin's anxious expression. The elder didn't want his lover to feel unsafe or forced into anything. He wanted to make Jimin feel good above all else. Yoongi was adventurous, so he was always open to trying different things. Jimin had always said he was open to just about anything yet there he sat, looking as if Yoongi had threaten to beat him within an inch of his life. Yoongi took a deep breath and decided no to press and trust Jimin's answer. The elder reached over again to grab the bottle of lube, twirling the cap off with his thumb and index fingers as he brought it closer to him. Yoongi squirted a decent amount onto his fingers and rubbed them together, warming the lubricant slightly. The raven haired man traced a finger around Jimin's entrance, gazing into his eyes the entire time. He pushed the first finger in, allowing Jimin a few moments to adjust."O-okay," Jimin managed gasping in between syllables. Yoongi pushed his finger in and out, steadily increasing the pace. Soon he added another, scissoring the pink haired man open. When he added a third, Jimin winced. Yoongi slowed a bit, letting the younger adjust more. "I-it's okay," Jimin stammered. Yoongi slid his fingers in deeper, crooking them slightly. Jimin gasped and Yoongi assumed he'd hit the younger's prostate. He curled his long, slender fingers once more, brushing Jimin prostate a few times. Jimin moaned over and over again, each time louder and more urgent. Yoongi pulled his fingers out, dismissing the yowl of disappointment. The jet haired elder grabbed the plug and put a generous amount of lube and it. He covered the entire plug with the slippery substance before he aligned it with Jimin's hole. He slowly pushed it in, savoring the half grunt, half whine Jimin let out. Once the plug was all the way in, Yoongi clicked a button on the remote. He'd set the vibrating toy of a medium speed, pleased at how Jimin thrashed and pulled at his restraints.He moaned and whimpered helplessly, "H-hyung please...""Please what Daisy? Tell me what you need," Yoongi coaxed in an all most smug tone.Jimin groaned, it always annoyed him when Yoongi would make Jimin tell him what he wanted. Especially when the elder knew damn well what he needed. He partly his lips and breathed out, "P-please touch me H-hyung, I can't stand it- Ah!"Yoongi smirked and rested his hands on the underside of the youth's thighs, tracing little patterns into the skin. He trailed his hands up towards Jimin cock, making the pink haired man buck his hips slightly. Yoongi quickly changed the direction of his fingers, frustrating the younger to no end."Your so beautiful Jimin, so perfect. There's so many things I want to do to you, for you, and there's never going to be enough time to do it all." Yoongi stated, admiring every inch of Jimin's body. Jimin felt like he was on fire, between the stimulation and the praise. Yoongi took Jimin's cock in his hand and pumped it a few times. Jimin gasped a bucked his hips up again. With his other hand, Yoongi did his best to hold Jimin in place as he positioned his face in front of the youth's erection. Swiftly, Yoongi latched his mouth onto Jimin's throbbing dick, sucking hard. As he lowered himself down more, he intensified the pressure of his cheeks around Jimin's cock; making the boy wriggle. Yoongi bobbed his head up and down hallowing his cheeks in between.Jimin fought against the leather cuffs, wanting so desperately to grab at Yoongi's hair. Yoongi speed up his actions, bringing Jimin's orgasm closer and closer. "H-hyung please! More!" Jimin shrilled. Yoongi continued, he kept his rapid pace until Jimin was cumming in his mouth. Yoongi swallowed the salty substance and looked up and Jimin. Out of nowhere, the elder quickly pulled the vibrating plug out of Jimin and tossed it aside. The younger whimpered at the sudden lose, looking at Yoongi with distressed eyes."Are you ready for more Jimin-ah?" Yoongi interrogated, tone a bit sharp. Yoongi was so turned on and into their session by this point, he hadn't realized his shift in attitude. Jimin felt that wave of panic wash over him again.He wanted to stop.He wanted to slow down at the very least. Things were getting a bit too fast, he thought he could handle it all right now, but he was wrong. The problem was, he couldn't get himself say 'red' or 'I want to stop.' He just breathlessly nodded at Yoongi and prepared himself for what was next. Yoongi started prepping himself, gathering the lube once more.Once he was ready, he aligned himself with Jimin's entrance and gazed into Jimin's worry filled eyes as he slowly pushed in. Though his demeanor had changed a bit, Yoongi was still careful with Jimin and made sure to give him adjusting time. Once Jimin nodded his head to give Yoongi the okay, Yoongi started to roughly grind himself into Jimin.He leaned over and sloppily kissed down Jimin's neck and chest."So tight..." Yoongi grunted, lifting his head to kiss Jimin's lips, but Jimin turned his head to the side. He felt so distressed and heavy, like he was being smothered. His chest tightened as the panic set in, seemily in time with Yoongi's increased pace. The elder's thrusts got quicker and rougher, tearing groans from both men.He couldn't take it any longer, he snapped."S-stop! H-hyung please stop!" Jimin shrieked, fear clearly set in his voice. He began to tear up, much to worked up to hold back. Immediately Yoongi stilled, eyes wide with disquiet. He messed up, bad. He did the one thing he swore to himself he'd never do, and that was hurt his precious Jimin. Guilt began to swirl in the elder's stomach as he slowly eased out of the youth and reaching up to undo the handcuffs.Once freed, Jimin instantly burst into tears and curled around himself, forming a small tight ball. He sobbed into his knees, which were pulled up to his chest. Yoongi stared at the sight in awe for a moment. Soon, he shuffled his body closer to Jimin and daintily held his hand out the Jimin. Almost as if he were afraid to touch him, for fear of breaking him."J-Jimin? " Yoongi mumbled softly, "Are you okay?" Jimin furiously shook his head 'no.' He couldn't speak, the wails just ripped from the back of his throat. "I-it's okay Petal, it's over now. You're safe it's okay, you don't have to be afraid," Yoongi stated quitely. He then asked cautiously, "Can I touch you Flower?"Jimin hesitated before he lightly nodded from between his knees. Yoongi warily caressed Jimin's bicep with one hand, he moved his hand up farther to Jimin's shoulder and rubbed it lightly. Jimin flinched and the touch and tightened his grip on his shins. Then the heavy breathing or rather, hyperventilating began. Yoongi sprung to action."J-Jimin-ah I need you to look at me okay, can you do that?" He questioned. Jimin, still being far too deep in his headspace quickly compiled. His face was strewn with tears, his eye puffy and red. Yoongi's heart lurched when he meet the boy's terrified gaze. "I need you to take a deep breath, okay. Do it with me," Yoongi demonstrated the action, encouraging Jimin to follow suit. The pink haired male shakily took a breath in, huffing it out within seconds only to be replaced with a broken sob. Yoongi smiled and said, "That was great, you're doing so well Jiminie." Yoongi got Jimin to take another deep breath, then another, and another one after that. Once Jimin's breathing was normalized a bit, Yoongi opened his arms towards Jimin. The youth started to cry again, he all but threw himself at his Hyung. Yoongi positioned himself against the headboard and scooped the younger up. Jimin stuffed his head into Yoongi neck and nuzzled against him. He let out a few shaky breaths before he pleaded, "H-hyung please, please don't be upset with me. I-I tried really h-hard, but I just couldn't do it." Sobs erupted from the boys throat once more. Yoongi rocked them from side to side, softly murmuring in Jimin's ear and shushing him."I'm not Jiminie, I would never be angry with you." Yoongi reassured, "I'm sad you didn't tell me to stop sooner. I never wanted this to happen to you, to have you feel like you couldn't trust me enough to say stop.""It's not t-that. I just, couldn't bring myself to say I was uncomfortable." Jimin paused and pulled away from Yoongi neck for a moment, ""I-I didn't want to kill the mood. You were getting so into it and it wasn't like we haven't done this stuff before. So, I thought I could handle all of it-" Jimin stopped himself and looked down at his hands shamefully. Yoongi moved a hand from Jimin's waist to caress the youth's face affectionately."It doesn't matter how into our session I get, your comfort is what's most important to me," Yoongi stated, poking Jimin's chest as he spoke. Jimin giggled lightly, wiping his eyes of the tears that still clung to the lashes. "You should never feel pressured into doing something or feel like you have to stick it out, just to make me feel good. Sex is a two way street, a give and take. Both parties have to be comfortable and on the same page." Yoongi repremanned softly. He didn't want to be cruel, just stern enough for Jimin to understand. Jimin sighed, " I know, I just... didn't want to disappoint you I guess."Yoongi nodded and replied, "I understand, but I'm more disappointed with the fact you didn't speak up. I hate seeing you break down like this, I either feel helpless or like I'm the cause. ""I'm really sorry Yoongi-Hyung," Jimin apologized.The ebony haired male shook his head and insisted, "There's nothing to be sorry for. Just please tell me next time, never be afraid." Jimin only nodded and smiled, before he settled his face in Yoongi's neck again. They sat like this for a while, Yoongi had one hand on the small of Jimin's back to steady him, while the other was carded in the soft pink hair atop his head. The elder quietly hummed parts of Serendipity into Jimin's ear, hoping to relax him."Why don't I draw you a bath, so you can wash up and relax, hm?" Yoongi suggests. Jimin half heartedly nodded his head, exhaustion already kicking in. Yoongi smiled and tapped Jimin leg softly, signaling for him to rise. Jimin rolled over Yoongi's lap and curled up into a ball. Yoongi stood up and chuckled as he looked down at his lover fondly. He made grabby hands at Jimin and the youth seemed to understand. He sat up and held his arms out, waiting for Yoongi to pick him up. Yoongi snaked his arms around the boy's waist and hips, hoisting Jimin up. The pink haired male wrapped his legs around Yoongi's waist and settled his arms around the elder's neck. Yoongi peppered kisses all over Jimin' neck, throat, top of his chest, and face. He paid extra attention to the boy's lips, which was greatly appreciated. Yoongi carried Jimin to their master bathroom and gently placed him on the counter. He would worry about wiping it down later. After that, He began to draw Jimin's bath, making sure the water was perfect. He topped it off with one of his favorite bath bombs. Jimin always mentioned wanting to try one of Yoongi's prized bath enhancers, but never dared to act on it without permission. Yoongi looked over his shoulder at Jimin, noticing the bright grin hat had taken place on his face. Yoongi strode back to Jimin and helped him off the counter. He attentively guided the youth to the tub,offering his arm as support for the boy as his stepped into the warm bubbly water. When Jimin sank down into the water, he let out a sign of contentment. He looked up at Yoongi, who smiled down at him. "Stay?" Jimin inquired, Yoongi nodded and crouched down beside the tub. Jimin pouted, which confused Yoongi."You can join me you know," Jimin sassily suggested, hoping Yoongi would take the bait. Yoongi chuckled and nodded.Jimin moved up enough for Yoongi to slip behind him and sink into the water as well. The elder cuddled Jimin in a back hug and eased them back, so he could lean on the wall. Jimin sighed again, taking one of Yoongi's hands in his own, playing with the lissome fingers."Thank you Hyung, for taking such good care of me I mean," Jimin thanked.Yoongi hummed into Jimin's hair, "There's no need to thank me Blossom, that's my job. To love, care, and protect you with all my heart." Yoongi sighed softly before he confessed, "I love you so much Jimin-ah, more than you could ever imagine." "I love you too Hyung, I love you so much, it makes me go crazy." Jimin replied as he smiled and leaned back into Yoongi. He cherished the way his Hyung protectively held him close; as if someone would steal Jimin away from him. Jimin turned his head around to meet Yoongi's lips, and everything fell back into place.He was safe and he was loved. Jimin couldn't ask for a better partner.