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He felt the sun on his skin. He didn't enjoy the feeling but he would rather not move.
If only there were some clouds.
A white and flowy shirt draped on him. It's been a few minutes since Jimin came here. He sat on a wooden bench, his feet were bare and playfully brushing over the grass.
He liked it. The freshness and closeness to nature. He liked how he knew everything yet nothing.
He was tired, his limbs ached but he didn't want to go yet. He couldn't.
He waited. Not for someone. For himself, to calm his own mind.
Rustle. Rustle.
Oh.. Someone is beside him.
The smell...
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A black haired guy looks for an empty bench.Someone was occupying only a side of one. He went there.
He came out to relax, just like the person on the bench. He tried to not to wake up the sleeping boy.
But his legs didn't listen to him much. Tae struggled to move quietly but he managed.
He drops down, now a bit breathless, he turns towards the boy.
Is he sleeping...so beautiful.
Feels like a trance..
.. he's awake.
"Sorry, did I wake you up? Should I sit somewhere else?" he asked.
No...no.. the voice..
"No, it's fine. I had to wake up anyway. And please make yourself comfortable. I would prefer not being lonely" he said and.. smiled.
That smile...makes him smile too.
"Oh... Alright.." he replies.
No. It's not alright. He looked so at peace. His brown hair glowed. His light-tinted sunglasses shielding his eyes...his beautiful eyes...oh how his lashes turned golden under the sunlight.. How his fingers laid on the opened book on his lap.. He could look at him for ages.. This felt natural yet he was so conflicted...For wanting him.. He didn't even know him..
"So you come here often?" he finally asked.
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"I was gone for a while. But I know this place well." he replied. His nose and ears are working at full capacity.
Is it really him? His smell.. His voice.. No, I can't be mistaken. It is him.
They talk.. about the unusual strips of flowers grown on the side, the lake nearby, the trees that shade most of the benches and about...themselves.
"What are you reading? Is it interesting?"
"Oh.. yeah. I like this book a lot. I have read it so many times that I have almost memorized it" he says while smiling bright.
He is so done for... The boy's smile is enchanting..
"Then can you read a part from it? I want to know-"
"Oh....I mean..sure!" his heart aches..
"I could taste
the sting of whiskyon your lips,a final kiss,before we saidour last goodbye,
without a wordbeing said." (The End, Michael Faudet).
Sadness creeps onto the brown-haired boy's face as he recites without looking at the book..
Is he okay?..
He sniffs.
I need to change the topic..
"Is it too hot here? Do you want to move under shade?"asks Tae. The weather isn't too hot but he's worried.
"Thank you.. I will just drink some water. The sun is not too strong now and you like to sit out in-"
What? How did he know..
"Ah where's my water bottle" Jimin moves fast and drops his book. He panics. He panics real BAD.
"You can just drink from the public fountain. It's right here." he says and tries to help the boy.
"There's a fountain? It wasn't here before-"
Oh.
Hah...He can't see.
He notices the brown-haired boy talking to him, his eyes hollow.
No..
Something feels wrong.. He needs his answer..
"Can I ask you something? Did I know you?" his voice soft but demanding.
"Please answer.."
He freezes.
He knew him. For very long.
What memories did he forget?What moments can't he see?
They don't know.
They won't.
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Tae.A tall, black-haired boy.He knew how to be loved but never loved.
"That's how he always stays so bubbly" thought Jimin, his... friend.Being the life of parties but also spending a lot of his time drawing alone. He has a nice balance.And Jimin?He, on the other hand, is quite feisty. Small and brown haired. Almost always annoyed.He doesn't hate people. He is just uncomfortable around them. His nervousness is always masked by anger. They couldn't dislike him if he never let them in his bubble. That's his philosophy. His own little world. He gets to decide his behaviour. No one controls him... no one! He trembles at the thought.He's anxious again...the memories flood his mind...He roams around restless.. he just wants to forget..Forget his past..
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He bumps into the door.Ouch. He rubs his forehead. Wh-His dorm room's door is open!?.."Sh*t", he curses under his breathe.Did anyone see him panicking? It's his senior year... Not now.. He managed to hide until now..No one should have seen his state. He thinks as he frantically scans the hallway for people. Breathless. No oneHe slams open broom closets.No oneHe peeks into unlocked rooms.No one. He sighs in relief.As no one is there, Jimin runs back to his room and slams his door shut. He's flustered and worried. He needs some time alone to not pull his hair out.What he doesn't know is that a guy hid from him. That guy is currently thinking if he should get out from an unknown person's dorm or not. Should he just risk it all and get killed by Jimin? Hah..He scoffs at himself for thinking that. He would rather die stuck in this room than face an angry Jimin. That guy has a bad reputation.He is sitting against the door of the room that's diagonal to Jimin's.He's careful to not make even a teeny bit of sound. He has it rough with short-tempered people.So Tae just decides to wait until the dorm occupant comes back. He will just explain and then leave.I hope he comes back soonHe looks at his watch and plans to wait 20 mins.And he waitsand waits and waits and dozes off. of course he fell asleep. His black bangs fall on his face, covering this eyes. A small pout on his lips. He looks calm and, soft. But something awaits or someone.. the dorm owner was never outside.Hearing all the ruckus, he was mad when someone disturbed his sleep. It was the only day he could sleep early. But he chose to watch and listen, quietlyNow,Still in the room, he slowly gets out of his blanket as Tae's snores get more convincing."Hmm-um..." Tae reacts in sleep when the guy slightly pokes him.. He fell asleep... Cute. Should I have some fun now?
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The guy, we will call him Sej, sits beside Tae.He looks at his sleepy pout and smirksOh sweetheartHis eyes linger over Tae's outline. Especially his full lips, how his chest rises and falls with every breath, his slender fingers, how his loose tee clings onto his abs..By now, Sej's eyes are dripping with lust, he just wants this boy. Now.Tae lies there against the door, his face tilted to the side and his legs stretched out on the floor. Sej puts his knees down between Tae's legs and his hands on the sides of his waist. He's amused Tae didn't wake up yet..He leans in, his nose almost touching Tae's jawline, his right hand slides smoothly on his inner thigh. Sej lingers his own lips over Tae's, trying to get some friction. Their warm breaths close in..slowly..
Tae's eyes fly open. "What the hell!" He yells and throws Sej off and kicks his hip for good measure. Sej rushes to cover Tae's mouth "Baby keep quiet we don't want others to hear""You thought!" Tae slams him against the wall."You sneaky b|tch, you really thought I would let you go huh?!" He's so angry. He just wants to wreck this guy's face, how dare he touch him. HOW DARE HETae's fist clenches tight, Sej did not expect him to be so strong, he himself couldn't fight. Tae looks trained and well-built. He is so screwed. Tae huffs furiously, if he could exhale fire he would.Sej plops down on the floor. Huh? I will let you go. Now you know better than to mess with me. Keep sh-*BANG* KNOCK* KNOCK*"Hey Sej! Are you in there! I am coming in if you don't open I heard your voice!"*CLICK* "What are you-""So you are his friend?" spats out Tae.Jimin is dumbfounded. He doesn't really know Sej, but he looks at his state before answering. Sej looks beat up.. Is Tae dangerous.. He doesn't seem so.."Yes, I am." Jimin says out confidently. And regrets it immediately. Tae's questioning eyes change into mocking. He looks disgusted.Tae scoffs, "Huh""Well then tell your goddamn friend to keep his hands where they belong. The next time he tries to get in my pants, I won't let him go." saying this Tae stomped out of the room. It takes a while to process what Tae said. Wait WHAT- Jimin is livid. "You." He deep exhales."You fucking touched Tae? Yes or NO." his voice low but dangerous. "I- I just wanted to tease hi-" "SHUT THE FUCK UP" A hard punch hits his face. *CRACK* *PLOP*
Ouch. That nose is gonna stay broken for days.Jimin scurries out and searches for Tae.Did he go to his room already? Ah sh|t. I have to clear this up I can't let him hate me even before he gets to know me.
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Jimin looks for Tae all over the dorm, he checks the broom closets, the hallways, the restrooms and everywhere he can be, except for his room.His eyes fixated on the door of Tae's room, he doesn't know what to do. His mind is blank and his heart beating out of his chest. All he knows is he wants Tae to know the truth.Even if it's a small lie, it crushes both of their insides. Tae rarely trusts anyone.. he thought he had observed Jimin enough to conclude that he is a great guy.. He did not expect this today.. Why..Jimin, on the other hand, trusts people too easily. And he knows it. That's why he keeps his distance from people.. He made a bad reputation for himself as a facade.. but.. Tae.. Tae did not deserve this today.. He's going to fix it no matter how.He takes deep breath and walks forward. *KNOCK* "Tae.. I know you are in there. Open up please.. You must be angry but I just want to clarify something.. I will leave I promise.." Jimin explains.No answerJimin rests his head against the door, hopeless..Just as he was going to turn back and go- *sniff*huh? *sniff* "T-tae?Are you crying?"He quiets down to find the sniffs again."Tae I heard you!""Please! Open up please!"
at this point tears are welling up in Jimin's eyes too..The first time he spoke to Tae in all these years and this happened.. He may look strong but Tae's cries have broken him, he may not admit it but he's hopelessly in love with Tae... All he wants is to comfort him, tell him sweet assurances,
and just hold him tight..---(Tae's perspective)---Hah. I should have known better. People are not trustworthy, I should not have trusted that Jimin, Tae thinks.But his heart says otherwise, he's restless. Tears have blurred his vision, he just wants to break down in a closet or somewhere. He just wants to pour all his sadness out.. Why Jimin? Can't I trust him too?..His legs only stop when he's in his room, that's what his pride allows.It doesn't take a second until he drops on the floor, sobbing hard. It's not just today. It's all his pent-up emotions, his feelings were made to be suppressed..He can't do this anymore.. He just can't.*tap tap tap* *KNOCK*Tae looks up to the door, his eyes blood shot from crying.It's Jimin. He wants to clarify something. Tae wants to hear it.. He just wants to talk to him, to let him prove all his suspicions wrong. But he can't.This isn't the way he was taught. He needs some time... Ignore him. Ignore him. Everything will go back to normal if you just ignore him. "T-tae" he hears Jimin's voice break.He's crying? His heart breaks into pieces.. He doesn't want him to be hurt.. No.. He shouldn't be doing this..Silence
Only if he knew, his last months as a senior are no longer going to be normal. Tonight a lot of things changed. For Jimin and Tae, both.
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The next week
Tae is sitting on one of benches along the highschool.As seniors, they can start school later than others or just leave school early, a good thing for him
He gets to bring his sketchbook with him every morning, sits down at the same place but sketches something different everyday.
Someday it's trees, someday birds and flower, but today it was something unusual.. It was Jimin
He could peek into the old band room, until today the curtains were always drawn and the doors always locked. Not that he would have something to draw inside, he preferred the scenery outside.
But today, Jimin was dancing. Tae stared at him in awe, he's wearing light chiffon shirt, his hair drenched in beads of sweat, he's clearly been dancing since early morning..
He looks so graceful, each move light as a feather and smooth. He look perfect..perfect for-
-Drawing.
Tae grabs his sketchbook and graphite, starts to fill the page with lines and shades that soon turn into Jimin.
If Jimin's dance is perfect, then Tae is perfectly capturing his perfection.
He looks down from the view, and thinks why didn't he ever see Jimin dance before?
Why did Jimin suddenly open the curtains?
Tae looks up to his sketch from his thoughts, he is wonderful
Tae's mind is so fixated on the little copy of Jimin he made, that he doesn't see the real one standing in front of him
But he does notice later that Jimin is standing there with a smirk on his lips and eyes on Tae, not on his sketch
"Ah- I- I am sorry.. I should have asked you before using you as my reference-" Tae spurts out
Jimin just grins wider. His eyes dark..
This is the first time they have met after that night, he thought Jimin was ignoring him before he hasn't seen him all this week. And all of a sudden he's here? Just before the weekend?
"You can keep the sketch" Tae says first as Jimin still doesn't talk."Say something?" he rolls his eyes
"I don't want to." Jimin replies "Did I look good to you? While dancing?" he plops down beside Tae
"Yes, well that's why I have drawn you."
"Babe-"WHAT. Tae is shocked to say the least. His face frozen, as solid as a brick."I meant, do you watching me while I am dancing? Not as just a reference. Do you like how my body moves and only you get to watch that? And for your info, I am not playing" it's as if he has read his mind.
"aaaaaa- I think you dance really well and am I the only one who saw you dancing?"
"That's not my answer but yes, I have never danced in front of others." Jimin says and hangs his head back over the bench. He's tired, "and that night" Tae's feels anger boiling up"I told you I'm Sej's friend just because I saw him beaten up. It was too late when I realized what happened. I went to look for you, I know you heard me."
He looks into Tae's eyes, which now show a mix of confusion and sorrow.
"Sorry, I was just too pissed off.""Sorry too..."Jimin's voice on the verge of breaking, he pretends to fall asleep right there.
His stray tear doesn't escape Tae's eyes.. He knows he cares..