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I think it's wise of me to say this: Lillian Jones is the only main character that doesn't exist in real life, she's not based off of anyone, neither she's friends with any of the boys (obviously).But if you're wondering how she'd look like, Google up "Taylor LaShae". There.Also, Lillian Sterling/Jones is not me.Maybe I gave her this name because I'm terrible at picking names for my characters and then decided to give her my own because it was the easiest one to remember.Anyway; I'm not in the story. You won't see me in any of the characters, you won't see me in between the lines or in hidden meanings. I'm not there.Now that you know it, I'm gonna let you carry on with your reading and please comment, if you will, it feels too lonely up here in the cloud.X
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- You're becoming a problem, missus. One more time and we'll have to take you to the judge.The police officer spoke as he opened one of the holding cells at the police station.The lady got in.The officer left and everything was awfully quiet. Anger was building up inside of her, she felt like she could snap the bars of the cell holding her. She thought she was alone.Except she wasn't.- What 'ave you done?A voice asked, coming from the cell in front of hers. Hers were well lit but the one where the owner of the voice was imprisoned, was dim and she only really noticed him after squinting her eyes.He moved and she turned around.She was unsure about answering the question or just ignoring it.- I hit a guy, sent him to the hospital. - The voice said.- I stole a car. - The woman said.- I quite like dangerous women. Whose car was it?- My husband's... - Oh, man. Another married woman.Both fell silent.- Why were you running away?- Who said I was running away?- Well, nobody steals a car to go to the bakery.- I guess. - she sighed and turned around again. She could see him now.His arms were hanging through the cell bars which his forehead rested against.But she wasn't looking directly at him.- We had... disagreements about some stuff.- And what this on your face has to do with it?- Oh... this. - She was ashamed. - I hit my head on a shelf.- Alright. - The man scoffed. - See, I have this friend--- I don't want to know about your friends. You look like you're up to no good.- You didn't even look at me since you got 'ere.- Maybe because you're nosey and I hate your scouser accent.- Oi, Mrs! - Miles protested.- What?- Fine... you don't want to tell me so go back home to him tomorrow and get hit some more.She was enraged by shame.- He goes out and about spreading lies and telling everyone I cheat on him. Now he drinks, gets home and beats me up, it's not even the first time I'm here for trying to defend myself from him! What do you want me to do!?The man lowered his voice.- I say we kill him. Me and my friends, we hate men like this.The woman was taken aback.- What? - It's that or you run. But as far as I can see, your runaway attempt was unsuccessful.- I can't kill him. - she said, faintly- Then plan your escape better this time 'round.------------------------------------------------------Next morning, the man was released first and left the police station. The woman watched his feet 'til he disappeared.It was her turn, next.She left with a warning that next time there was gonna be a mugshot.She started walking around the streets, back to her home, being watched by every single pair of eyes passing by her.Some mouths called her names.Women's mouths, mostly.She hadn't signed up for that.Married at 19 to a 30 year old man not by choice but to try to save herself from starving or having to give in to prostitution. She wasn't in love with him when they married but he wasn't bad, as well.She had met him through a nun.She had no one left.No mother, no father, no brothers.Just him, just the husband.She stopped in front of her house.Victor was gonna be pissed at her for not being home to make him breakfast. By that time he would have already left for work.She knew he was not in there but she could not take another step forward.She felt his heavy hand slapping her again, from the back of the room of her memories.The anger came back.
I say we kill him.
She shook her head. Could never do that.She took a deep breath and got in.-------------------------------------------------------- And you followed her?- I had to. Girl was a mess.- But she's married.- Yes.- We ain't gonna go through that singing in front of nobody's 'ouses business again, Miles! - Matt complained.- I won't ask you to do that ever again! - Miles answered at the same tone. - But yes, I did follow her. She doesn't live that far, actually. D'ya think there's summat we could do? - He asked, looking at Alex. - What do you want us to do? - Nick asked back to Miles.- Give him a lesson. Beat the shit out that motherfucker. If you'd seen what I saw... her face is gonna turn purple. - What a bastard! - Jamie said.- Yes.- Then all we 'ave to do is get him alone. - Alex said, putting both hands in the pockets of his trousers. That always meant things were about to get serious. - You followed her but do you know where he works? What paths he walks? - Matt asked.- No... I have no idea. - Then it's gonna have to wait another night. - Matt said, lighting up a cigarette. - Yes. - Alex said. - Tomorrow me and the boys will follow him to work. I say we go to the house before he leaves and wait a tiny bit so no neighbours are gonna suspect anything. After that we will walk after him and map out every possible street he can walk to and from work.- And the pubs. Look for pubs, she mentioned he drinks. - Miles said.- Will do. - Jamie said.-------------------------------------------------------- WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU?Miles could hear the screaming from outside the house. He was lurking in the dark, in the alley.- I went to buy bread!- What happened to the bread we had? I didn't have breakfast this morning because you were being a whore somewhere!- I was in jail because YOU beat ME up and I tried to defend myself!- You liar! You attacked me! - Miles could hear glass breaking. He thought of going in but stood his ground. - Oh, I know what is happening. You're fucking the baker, aren't ya!?A muffled noise came from inside the house, Miles could not tell what was happening.
I have to get to a window.
Miles got ouf of the dark and tried to make it look like he was just crossing the street.He went around the housed and peeked through the kitchen window.He could see the couple perfectly.The man was strangling the woman.Her hands were searching for something she could use, on the kitchen counters.She grabbed a bottle and kicked her husband in the groin. He let go of her and she hit him with the bottle. It broke.Vodka spread all over the floor.She started gasping for air, coughing. And then she was crying.Miles was frozen.The woman grabbed a box of matches and lit one up.She was shaking.The match went out.She lit another one and this time she threw it.She threw it on Victor's clothes, soaked with alcohol.He started to burn like a torch.Miles ran and was about to tear the backdoor down when the woman opened it and ran outside, bumping into him. She looked at his face and knew who he was.She was still crying.- I did it. I killed him.
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- Breathe.- I can't, I can't.Miles was trying to make the woman calm down a little, she was shaking like leaves in the wind.- Look at me. - He said, putting his hands on both sides of her face. - You need to calm down.- I JUST KI--Miles put his hand over her mouth and whispered in a serious tone.- And you want everyone to know that?The woman looked at him with big eyes. She shook her head "no".He took his hand back.The neighbours were starting to gather round as the whole house really started to burn down.- You're free from him but do you really want to remain free?- What?- Do you want go back to jail?- NO! - Of course not, so I need you to make a scandal.- Wh-- No questions, just start screaming. Your house is on fire and you think your husband is inside. "Someone needs to save the motherf-- him". If you don't do that, they'll suspect you.She didn't think about all the complications.Not before nor after Miles told her to act like crazy.She just started screaming and someone was already calling the firefighters, someone else was holding her back from going inside the house.Miles was watching.But not for long, he had to leave.He had to prepare the others.--------------------------------------------------------- Problem solved, then. - Alex said, happily lighting up a cigarette.The boys were working nonstop. Prohibition was set to start in ten days and they had to stock and hide their booze. Alex had asked around and convinced the police officers to let their venue become a speakeasie*, so they were covered, just needed to stock enough alcohol.- No, I'm afraid it's not solved. - Miles said.- The shithead is dead, what else would be the matter? - Matt asked.- She has nowhere to go.- What about her mum? - Jamie asked, moving a box of beer bottles and not really paying attention.One of Alex's eyebrows was already raised.- No mum, no dad, no brothers or sisters. Nobody.- Jeez, where does this girl come from? Space? - Matt said.- No, guys. Her parents died when she was little and she went to live in a convent and--- How did you know about all of this, Miles? - Alex interrupted him, blowing smoke on his direction. - I talked to her... on our way here.- YOUR WAY WHERE? - Nick, Jamie and Matt asked at the same time. Alex was pressing the palm of his hand against his face.He knew his friend very well.He knew something like that would happen.- She's lost her 'ouse.- OF COURSE SHE DID! SHE SET FIRE TO IT! - Nick said, exasperated.- Put 'er in the backroom. - Alex said, he knew there was nothing he could say to make Miles change his mind about helping this girl.- Alex, we can't have her 'ere! Police is gonna come look for her to, I don't know, ask her stuff about the fire and there's gonna be booze everywhere. - Nick protested.- I believe she is clean for now. - Alex looked at Miles. - Miles would not be so stupid to the point of risking our business. And it's not gonna be for more than a few days. Am I right? - Exactly. It's just for now. - Miles said. - She's outside, may I bring her in?- Yes! Bring the killer in. - Jamie said, but really not to offend.- The fuck, Cookie? She may have killed a motherfucker or two but don't forget you did it too. A lot more, and that's no way to treat a lady. Where's the education your mum gave ya?- Don't drag my mum into this.- Then shut up. And yes, Miles. You can bring the girl in.- Will do.- Juss... tell her to no ask questions. Ok? - Alex asked.- I'm sure she won't.Miles disappeared and came back a few minutes later.The woman by his side, she was looking at her feet.Her clothes were scorched, she smelled like smoke.- So, Miles. Introduce our guest to us. - Matt said.- I think she should introduce herself. - Miles said, looking at the girl. She looked back at him. He nodded.- My name is Lil--Lillian Jones. And... no, nothing.- What was that, dear? - Alex asked, putting his hands in his pockets.- Just... thank you. - Oh, you're welcome. I believe Miles is gonna show you your room, it's in the back, hope you don't mind.Lil shook her head to show she didn't mind.She was very grateful for having a roof above her head.At least for now.Miles signalled that Lillian followed him and so she did.When they were out of reach of hearing, the boys started talking.- Well, at least she is not married anymore. - Jamie said.- One less thing to worry about. - Nick said.- Come on, boys. - Alex said.- What? Do you really think Miles is not gonna try to make her fall for him? Girl is pretty as hell. If it wasn't for my missus...- Can we quit the bollocks? I'm worried about our business now. We couldn't leave the girl out in the world but if the cops do indeed show up here? I mean: the ones we're not gonna pay to keep their mouths zipped.- I don't think they will come here.- Remember Miles said this man kept saying his wife cheated on him? - Matt said. - What if the police thinks that Miles was the man she was cheating on her man with? I mean, her 'ouse burned down yesterday and Miles was there. Now she's 'ere. Don't you guys see? - I see, man. - Nick said, crossing his arms.Everybody looked at Alex.- Well, I don't think this is gonna be a problem. - Despite staying calm, Alex knew very well that that was a possibility. - Everyone in this town knows how charitable Miles is. And they may be thinking "poor woman, lost her husband and home". - But still I-- - No "buts", Matt. Let's just get back to work.- Yeah. - Nick said, moving another box of gin to the side. - I can't wait for this thing to start and we get fucking rich. - I'd rather we'd get rich for our music but... at this point I don't really care. - Alex said, a tad disappointed. - Come on, Al. People are gonna come 'ere every night, looking for booze, a'ight but we'll still be playing and they'll still be listening. - Matt said.- Yeah, thass good enough, I guess.-------------------------------------------------------- This is the room. We keep it just in case some worker has to spend the night 'ere. It's not much but it ain't gonna be for long.The bedroom consisted of a bed, a table with a single chair. A small dressing table with a mirror and another door that Lil thought it'd be the bathroom.- Mr. Kane, about that... I... I really don't have anywhere else to go. Couldn't you talk to Mr. Turner, please? I mean, to get me a job. I can cook, clean, sew, I can even assemble furniture... I could clean up every night after the bar closes, cook your meals. - We could really use some help around 'ere but it's not me call. It's really Alex's and I promise I will talk to him, but that is as far as my promise can go.- It's better than no promises.- I think so... Well, I'm gonna leave you now. And remember, at night, only open this door if you hear 3 knocks, a pause, and another knock.- Yes, I'll remember that. Thank you.- Oh, by the way. You don't have anything to dress do ya? I'm gonna see if my mum can get yer some of her clothes for you to wear while we can't buy you new ones.- That sounds perfect, thanks again.- Ok, I'll be back by night. Close the door.- Will do... see you later.Miles walked away from the door and Lil closed it, locking it right after. She started exploring the space. She found towels on the drawers of the dressing table and a comb. She looked under the bed but there was nothing there.The other door was the bathroom indeed so Lil started to undress to take a bath.A really cold one.-------------------------------------------------------- What did she say? - Jamie asked as soon as Miles came back.- No, that's not the question. - Nick corrected his friend. - What did he say to her?Miles ignored both boys.- Alex, can we talk?Alex dropped what he was doing and followed Miles to the side of the room. He gave the other boys, who were all looking at them, a look and they started working again.- We gotta help her out. - We're already doing that.- No, I mean, she can't stay 'ere forever and who knows how long she'll take to find a paying job out there?- That's not on me, Miles. We're already doing everything we can.- No, we are not.- How come?- We could give her a job. She could clean or cook for us. You were talking about this last week, remember? About hiring someone to keep things organized around 'ere.- And she could be the one?- I believe so. - Miles said, firmly.- Well, Imma think about it, Mi. I make no promises, there's already a possible implication of her being 'ere but... I promise I'll put me brain to work a tad more.- Thanks, mate. Now I'm gonna run home and see if my mom has any clothes to lend to the girl. She has nothing else to wear, 'ouse burned to a crisp.- No, no. Swing by me house, get Alexa and go buy this girl some clothes. All on me. Tell her she can buy whatever she wants for herself, as well.- Ok, then. I shall be back by 7 tonight.- You better be. You're late, you're dead.Alex returned to his work and everyone kept silent. There was almost a banter rising to the surface of that room but the worrying about losing it all was bigger and so they kept their anecdotes to themselves.-------------------------------------------------------- Do what? How did this happen?- Do ya mind if I explain on the way? I can't get back past seven.- Alright, let me just grab my purse.And so Alexa and Miles went around the city and he explained to her everything that had happened since he met Lil in jail.- I mean, I heard rumours about a house burning down, yesterday. But I would never imagine you boys would be involved.- We're actually not, it was really an accident. - How d'you know?- I... was, uh. I... kinda followed the lady to see if she was alright, I mean her husband and all. And I was arriving when I saw her running from inside the house and started screaming for help.Miles lied about the last part.- Oh, poor thing. I hope she likes the clothes I choose for her, tho. I have no idea how she likes her dresses so... yeah.- Don't over think it, Lexie. She's gonna be happy with whatever you choose.- And where is she now? - Our pub, the back room.- What!? - People would start talking if we put her in a hotel or something. They may already be talking juss 'cause we are sheltering her at the Arctic.- I see, I see. But I hope she doesn't have to stay there for too long.- No, the plan is for her to leave as soon as she gets a job. Alex even might have one. Another pair of hands to help us clean the pub after it closes would be marvellous.- I think so. Well, I hope everything swings in the right way for her. Tell her... tell her that if she needs a friend, I'll be happy to help.- Will do, Lexie. Thanks.- No problem. And I am so proud of Alex, him helping this girl out and everything. I'm proud of all of you, actually.Oh, Lexie. Only if you knew what we really do.- It's nothing, actually. She just happened to meet me and the boys at the "right" time.Miles and Alexa kept talking and shopping until she thought she was done and Miles dropped her at her house again, that day.He went back to the pub, the other boys were not back yet. Alex was probably in his office.Miles went to the door of the back room and knocked three times, waited a sec and then another time.Lil unlocked the door.- Hello again. - Miles said.Lil replied with an almost inaudible voice.- I brought you some new clothes. Alex asked me and his wife to go shopping. Alexa, his wife, says she hopes you like what she picked for you.Lil grabbed the shopping bags and put them all on the bed.- I'll never be able to repay them. Or you, for all the effort. - I wouldn't worry about it.Miles had a thought.- Why don't you change and come out to get to know the pub? It's not gonna be open for another hour - Miles checked his pocket watch - so I think we have enough time.- What about Mr. Turner?- There's not gonna be anybody 'ere while I give you a tour of the 'ouse. It'll be fine.Lil nodded.- I'm gonna change. See you again in a few. Thanks again, Mr. Kane.- Ok, go change and we'll do something about the "Mr." thing when you come out.Lil closed the door again and Miles went to pour himself a dose of whisky.His mind was wandering very, very far when Lil approached him.She called his name a few times.- I'm ready.- You look beautiful, if I may say it.- Thank you.- So, let's make one thing clear, ok? Well, actually two things. First: you don't ask questions. Second: call me Miles. - I think I can do the first part.- And the second one as well. But, what do you wanna see first? We have the bar, the backstage, the dres--- Excuse me, Mr. Kane?- Yes? - Miles turned around.- Police.Oh I hadn't noticed your uniform.- What can I help you with?- About this very lady next to you, we have a witness who said that they saw you walking around her house by the time the fire started. Can you explain?- I sent him. - Alex's voice broke the silence.- And why is that?- To see why our guest was late.- Guest? - The officer asked.- Yes, you see we are a band and we own a venue. Sometimes we invite people to sing for a change.- Then we can say Mrs. Jones works for or with you?- For me and the band, yes.
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- Man, we are SO screwed! - Matt said as soon as he heard the news.- Please, oh Lord, tell us you can sing. - Nick said.Lil stayed silent for a moment.- Oh man! - Jamie cried.- Can we calm the fuck down? - Miles asked.- I think I'm gonna be a lot more calm after I hit yer face. - Matt replied. - The fuck you had to go there alone, Miles? We had agreed to go in the morning. - I was worried and he could've strangled her if I wasn't there. - If you weren't there? And what the fuck d'you do? For all I know, girl hit the man and set fire to him, solved the problem all by herself. More of a man than you, Miles. - Matt said again.- Could you guys shut up?Lil felt shivers going down her spine.She could still be caught for that crime.
He is haunting me.
All the boys were looking at her.- I used to sing on the church's choir and I can play the piano... I think it's gonna be enough to sustain the lie. - Al, how many minutes left? - Miles asked.Alex took his timepiece out of his pocket.- 8 minutes.- It's enough.Miles grabbed Lil by the arm and they started walking towards the stage.He made her get up.- You have 8 minutes to prove you really can play or sing decently or we can't help you anymore. - Miles said.Lil was pale.She sat by the piano and started tickling the ivories. Her voice started to be heard.
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air,
They fly so high, nearly reach the sky,
Then like my dreams they fade and die.
Fortune's always hiding,
I've looked everywhere,
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air.
Lil's voice was strong, yet sweet and deeper than anyone could ever imagine.
I'm dreaming dreams, I'm scheming schemes,
I'm building castles high.
They're born anew, their days are few,
Just like a sweet butterfly.
And as the daylight is dawning,
They come again in the morning
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air,
They fly so high, nearly reach the sky,
Then like my dreams they fade and die.
Fortune's always hiding,
I've looked everywhere,
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air.
When shadows creep, when I'm asleep,
To lands of hope I stray!
Then at daybreak, when I awake,
My bluebird flutters away.
Happiness, you seem so near me,
Happiness, come forth and cheer me
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air,
They fly so high, nearly reach the sky,
Then like my dreams they fade and die.
Fortune's always hiding,
I've looked everywhere,
I'm forever blowing bubbles,
Pretty bubbles in the air.
She finished the song and all the boys could finally let out a relieved breath.She could sing alright.Alex started applauding.But it was really his nerves acting up.- A'ight. Boys, we're safe. - he turned around to look at his partners and then back at the stage. - Now, please, Mrs. Jones. The pub is gonna open in a few and we can't have you around yet, I would not be in the mood for singing after a tragedy happening to me, you see?- Yes, you are right. I'm gonna go back to my room. - she said, going down the steps from the stage and walking back to her room.A week went by and Lil never left her bedroom at night. Actually, she would hardly get out at all.The boys would check on her occasionally and she'd always ask if she could be of service but they would always say "no".Sometimes she would leave the door ajar so she could hear more clearly the boys practicing for the night show.- It's not right. - Alex was complaining.- It is man! Listen to it again. - Matt played again while Alex and Lil, payed attention.It's not right. It should be a Do and then a Mi and Do again. Lil thought to herself.- It ain't right man. - Alex ran his fingers on the ivory.- We gotta get this one right, it's gonna be the peak of the show. Prohibition starts in 3 days and we gotta be sharp. - Miles said.- Nobody is gonna be sober enough to care for the music. - Alex replied.- Well, I'm gonna be sober and I do care for the music. - Miles said again.- Ok, let's give it another go. - Jamie said.The boys kept trying to play the song but they would never get it right.Alex was nearly giving up. They would have to wait for it to play on the radio again so they could gather round and listen more closely to it in order to get it right.The only problem was that the song, despite being a successful one, it wasn't new and therefore wasn't played on the radio that often.- May I?None of the boys noticed Lil's footsteps approaching. None of them saw her watching them as they tried and tried again.- You may. But if Alex couldn't do it, I doubt you will. - Matt said, resting his drumsticks.The corner of Lil's mouth just went a bit up as she walked into the stage.Alex didn't get up from the piano bench, he just made enough room for Lil to sit down next to him.And so she did.- This is what you guys are getting wrong.Lil started playing the song and stopped at the very same part the boys were having trouble with.- See, I told you she couldn't do it as well. - Matt said, crossing his arms.And then Lil started playing again very slowly.Do Mi Do.- How? - Alex asked her.- I just used to listen to the radio a lot. I had one hidden in the house, Victor almost caught me listening to it once. He used to say that information were only for men to know and music would turn women into whores. But it doesn't matter he didn't catch me listening to the radio, I got beat up anyway. - She said, getting up. - Do you think you guys can get it right, now?Alex tried to play and succeeded.Lil smiled a bit.- Now if you excuse me... - She said, in order to go back to her room and listen to the boys playing again.- Actually... - Alex started.All eyes on him.- I think you should make your debut with us on Prohibition night. - he added.Lil raised her eyebrows.She never thought they would really get her into their business even tho the police already thought she was a part of it.- What? - All the boys asked at the same time.- Me? - Lil asked.- Yes. - Alex replied. - Do you really think I could do it? - Lil asked.- Well, I do believe so. - Alex said.- I guess... I guess we could give it a try. - Great, now get over 'ere we 'ave a lot to practice.And so it came, Prohibition night.- How do I look? - Lil asked the boys turning around so they could see her dress and all the feathers. - Like a posh french singer. - Jamie replied. - What's her name? - He asked.- I believe it's Elisa Bou.. chou? I know it's Elisa but I can't pronounce her last name. - Nick replied. - Me wife loves her.- I met Alex's wife, yesterday, but all of your wives seem to be very lovely ladies, boys. - Lil said.- Thanks. - They all replied but Miles.- Miles is not married, tho. - Matt said.- And what does it have to do with anything? - Miles said.Alex clicked his tongue.- You look lovely, Mrs. Jones and I'm sure you're not gonna disappoint onstage tonight as well.- Thank you, Mr. Turner.- But what the fuck is this name, anyway, Alex? "Melancholholic night"? - Jamie said.- Have you ever heard about sarcasm, Jamie? - Alex replied. - Tonight all men will be weeping cuz there's gonna be no alcohol available on the shelves from now on. They're gonna be melancholic about it.- But not us, so what's the point? - Sarcasm, Mr. Cook - Lil replied.-------------------------------------------------------
There's been a sayin' goin' round
And I begin to think it's true
It's awful hard to love someone
When they don't care about you
Once I had a lovin' gal
The sweetest little thing in town
But now she's gone and left me
She done turn me down
Now I ain't got nobody, and nobody cares for me!
That's why I'm sad and lonely,
Won't somebody come and take a chance with me?
I'll sing you love songs, honey, all the time, If you'll only say you'll be sweet gal of mine,
Oh, I ain't got nobody, nobody cares for me!
I'll sing you love songs, honey, all the time, If you'll only say you'll be sweet gal of mine,
Oh, I ain't got nobody, nobody cares for me!
People started to applaud the lady in red and she bowed a bit.- Thank you. Oh, what a marvellous night. - Lil couldn't keep herself from saying.The band started playing again. This time, Alex and Lil sang together.You have loved lots of girls in the sweet long ago, And each one has meant heaven to you You have vowed your affection to each one in turn, And have sworn to them all you'd be true; You have kissed 'neath the moon, While the world seemed in tune Then you've left her to hunt a new game. Does it ever occur to you later boy, That's she's prob'ly doing the same?
I wonder who's kissing her now, Wonder who's teaching her how? Wonder who's looking in to her eyes? Breathing sighs! Telling lies!
I wonder if she's got a boy?
The girl who once filled me with joy, Wonder if she ever tells him of me?
I wonder who's kissing her now?
If you want fo feel wretched and lonely and blue, Just imagine the girl you love best
In the arms of some fellow who's stealing a kiss
From the lips that you once fondly pressed;
But the world moves a pace and the loves of today
Flit away with a smile and a tear.
So you never can tell who is kissing her how.
Or just whom you'll be kissing next year.
I wonder who's kissing her now, Wonder who's teaching her how? Wonder who's looking in to her eyes? Breathing sighs! Telling lies! I wonder who's buying the wine? For lips that I used to call mine, Wonder if she ever tells him of me? I wonder who's kissing her now?Another round of applause.Lil smiled shyly at Alex and waved to the audience before leaving the stage.The band kept playing as Lil went to a table near the bar to watch them.About forty minutes later they had finished their set and got off the stage.The dancers got up.They were the men's delight.- Man, where the fuck is Miles? - Matt asked after hanging around a little while with the other boys and Lil.- I don't know. - Alex said. - He was here after he got off the stage as well but I didn't see him leave, I was paying attention to you playing. - Lil said to the boys.- He may have found himself a bird. - Nick said.- True that. - Jamie said.- A what? - Lil asked. Sometimes she had no idea what the guys were talking about. They all came from Britain and their speeches were confusing sometimes. - A girl. - Matt replied. - Hope not another married one. - Alex said, sipping his liquor.Hours and hours went by.People started to leave and the boys started getting ready to clean up the place, get rid of all the bottles and go home.- We really didn't think about what to do with all of these empty bottles, did we? - Alex said. - We can't put them with the unopened ones. - Why not? I mean what if we put them backwards 'till refill day comes. So you won't mistake them for the other ones. - Lil said.The pub has always sold booze but they had the space for the empty bottles and the full bottles. Now their cellar was completely full because smuggling booze in small intervals of time would be too risky. So they bought a huge load of alcohol all at once.Besides, every customer had an alcohol quota for the night. Nobody should leave drunk as not to arouse any suspicion.- Yes, yes. That's a good idea. - Alex said.Everyone was focused on finishing cleaning up as fast as they could so they could go home and get some real rest. The last days had been busy.A sound made everyone turn around.- Oh, there he is. - Jamie said when he saw Miles passing around the bar. - What's the bird's name this time? - Matt asked and all the boys laughed.But Lil saw something was off.Miles was pale...She saw red.- Guys! - She called loudly. - I don't think he's fine.Lil let go of the broom and it hit the floor as she walked towards Miles, the boys followed her.Miles looked at them.He had his right hand, covered in blood, pressing a spot on his lower stomach.Alex ran to grab him.- On three we're going to lift him and lie him down on the bar. - Alex said to the others1..2..3!Miles whimpered from the pain of being moved like that.- Matt, get me a knife. - Alex said while he grabbed a bottle of vodka from the bar.Matt came back with the knife and Alex cut Miles' shirt to expose the wound.Luckily the bullet had got in and out by the edge of the right side of his belly, just above the hip bone, Alex knew that since there were two holes, and it had not been too deep despite it bleeding an awful lot.- The bullet is not 'ere anymore. It passed through. - Then why the fuck does it hurt so much? - Miles said faintly.- It'd be worse if the bullet was still in there because I'd have to pull it out and you know it hurts much more.- Have you guys been shot before? - Lil asked and then the guys remembered she was there.- Uh... I believe it's better you go back to your room, dear. - Nick said.- No, we gonna need her. - Miles said, grabbing the bottle from Alex and drinking almost half of it at once. - Why? - Matt said. - None of you fuckers can sew. - Miles replied.- You mean... do you want me to stitch that up? - Lil asked carefully.- In a few minutes, love. As soon as the vodka hits me hard and I'm almost passing out so you can do your thing. I'd do it meself if I wasn't the one who got shot.- He's the only one who knows how to properly stitch up a wound. - Jamie said.- If you guys get shot that often, I think it's better you all start learning. - Lil said, grabbing the bottle from Miles and drinking a little from it.
Liquid courage.
Jamie had the sewing kit, he handed it to Lil.- Ok, I think I can do it. - she said.- Alex? - Miles called. - Yes. - Alex started pouring vodka on Miles' wound to "clean" it as the wounded man winced and cursed. - Your turn. - Alex said to Lil.She approached Miles with the needle and pushed it into his skin, stitching the both holes shut as if she was sewing through fabric.- Miles, stay with us. - Alex slapped his face a bit so he would stay awake 'till they had moved him to a more comfortable spot. - It's done. - Lil said. - Put him in my bed, he needs to rest.Alex nodded and the boys lifted Miles up again and took him to the bedroom in the back.- Ok. - Lil said. - Is he gonna die? - She asked Alex. - From that? No. It's just that gunshots really do hurt and bleed a lot. - How-- Why you... - Lil started but didn't finish.- Well, I don't know what he did this time but I got shot in a business operation. Me and Matt, actually. - Alex rolled up the sleeve of his shirt to show his scar to Lil. - Matt has his scar on his leg.- What do you guys tell your wives? - We were not married yet, thankfully. They don't know we're into smuggling and theft. And I hope it stays that way.- Theft!? - Long story. But that's why we ended up in America. Well, not all of us, we met Miles here not long after we arrived.- I see. Well, I'm gonna... - Lil looked at her hands. - Wash this blood out of my hands and see if he needs anything.Alex nodded.- You don't seem shocked. - Alex noticed.- Because for the first time it is not my own blood I'm washing off of myself. I was helping someone else.Lil said and left.That made Alex start thinking about how many times the girl must have had to take care of her own wounds.-------------------------------------------------------Songs:Forever Blowing Bubbles - I Ain't Got Nobody - Marion Harris.I Wonder Who's Kissing Her Now - Billy Murray.
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Lil was sitting on a chair, in front of the dressing table's mirror. She was attempting to remove the last traces of her make up.- Hey. - Miles voice called. It was low and hoarse. His head was hurting.- Hey! How are you feeling? - Hungover. - Nothing else?Miles looked around. He was at the back room. Did that mean...- Wait! Did we sleep together?- What!? No! - Lil got up.- Then why am I 'ere? - Because of this. - Lil pressed Miles' skin lightly, next to his wound. He winced.- Shit. - Nobody knows what happened, tho. You just came back bleeding and we did what we had to do since you guys can't just go to a hospital with an unexplained bullet wound. - Otis... - Miles said. - Who is that? - Wait! You stitched me up! I remember now.- Yes, I did. - Sorry about that... How long have I been out? - About six hours, I believe. The guys went home. Alex said he was gonna tell your mom you had to go to Tampa.- Ok. It was wise of him. - One of them will be back in a few hours, I'm gonna go to a hotel for a week or so... I didn't want to but you're gonna need to stay here and we don't have two rooms. - Well, at least you're going to a place more comfortable than here.- I don't really care. It's only been a week but I grew attached to these walls... this whole place was my safe place after everything that happened. After everything I did. - You blame yourself for that? - Shouldn't I? I'm free to go anywhere in the world but my soul will never be free, or my mind. The guilt is very heavy.I understand how you feel. Miles wanted to tell her.- It gets lighter with time. And no, you've done no wrong. If you hadn't killed him, he would have killed you and got away with it.- Just like I did.- You were the one being beat up, not him. He would just marry again and start all over.Lil stayed silent.- Sometimes the system fails us and we have to take matters into our own hands. There's no shame in that, just risk. - How many men have you killed? - More than you.- How did you get into this mafia thing? - Cheers to my Dad for that. He got me into shoplifting when I was 7. He gambled and wasted all of our money and in the end of the day we had no money to buy groceries. Sometimes he made me steal, sometimes he'd give me a shopping list, tell me to get into a store and pretend I was gonna buy stuff so he'd fake a robbery and take me as a "hostage". He'd point a gun to me head and everything, a real one. It wasn't loaded but still...- I'm so sorry, Miles. This is awful.- Then he died when I was 13 and I had to carry on. It was not 'till I was 16 that I got into real trouble. A robbery gone wrong, I killed a clerk. Me mum found out and sent me here before the cops could find me. It was days on a ship with barely anything to eat, days after I arrived that I slept on the streets. I had to steal again. And then when the police of New York was aware of me, I ran away to Los Angeles and then here.Miles stopped talking. He thought Lil had heard enough.Both stayed silent.- Miles? - Alex said, approaching the door. - Yeah?- I thought I heard your voice. How are you feeling?- Hungover as fuck. - Miles looked at Lil and apologized for the saying a dirty word.- The hell happened? - Alex asked.- Otis happened.- Again? - He came here last night to call me out for beating the shit out of Tom. I suggested we stepped outside for a chat and we drove in his car to the lake. I told him that Tom had threatened us and all that shit and he told me he had not sent Tom to us and I said I didn't believe him. We started having an argument and I turned around to walk back here but I was shot. I don't know if it was him or his new assistant. - New? - Well, Tom's still at the hospital.- They shot you in the back! Son of a bitch better come 'ere and explain himself or I'm gonna go after him meself. - No, you are not. - Miles said to Alex. - I ain't worth it, Al. And you can't get killed, you have your wife and your son. - You have your mum. - I got her covered. I have lots of money that's gonna go to her if I end up dead, I ain't that dumb. - Money is not gonna fix the hole losing you would cause on her. - Alex protested.- It's still better than nothing. After all we went through, I want her to have the best life I can give her. What if yer son had to grow up without you 'cause you went to call some guy out on my behalf? No, thank you, Alex. Everyone will stay put.- But they shot you in the back!That was the ultimate low blow for gangsters: shoot someone in the back.- I'll do something about that later. - Miles said, putting the subject to rest. - What did my mum say? - She complained you always leave town in a hurry but I assured her you did nothing wrong and you will be back in a week so you 'ave a week to stay 'ere and recover. - That will do, thanks, Al.- You're welcome. Now, you - Alex said, turning a bit to look at Lil. - Matt is gonna pick you up and drop you at the hotel in one hour. Did you pack? - Yes.- Great.- But... I will be coming back to work, right? I mean, to sing. I can't and I won't let you guys pay for me to stay at a hotel when I can perfectly come here and work and pay for it myself. Besides; if Miles is outta town and your wives know nothing 'bout what you really do, who's gonna take care of him? I don't think you guys can cook.- Yes, they can't. - Miles said. - If you want to come, then come. I can't lock you up in the hotel but if someone from Otis' gang come here there's gonna be trouble and we can't promise you'll be fine. - I will be fine. - Lil said. - So, I won't be singing tonight because I did not get sleep and by the time the pub opens, my eyes would have glued themselves shut, but listen: I'm gonna go to this hotel, rest and tomorrow morning I'll be arriving by 8. - There's not gonna be anybody 'ere by 8 in the morning. - Alex said and Lil pointed at Miles.- You're gonna let him starve? - Lil asked.- A'ight, I forgot. Sorry. - Alex said. - So I say: I come in by 8 and leave by 6, back to the hotel and come back again at 8 the next day. You guys don't have to bother cleaning up after closing, I can do it when I get here.- I think it's reasonable. - Miles said. - Yeah... yeah. Just remember that at all times you're here alone, you're at risk. - Alex said to Lil. - We've never had to deal with a woman in our business.- Well, there's a first time for everything, right? - Lil said. - Now if you excuse me, I'm gonna fix some supper for Miles before I leave. - I like that. - Miles said.--------------------------------------------------------The first two days went by and Lil did exactly as she and Alex had agreed. She would come in at 8 everyday, greet Miles, cook for him, clean up the pub and wait for the other boys to arrive. Sometimes she would cook something for them too.A certain afternoon the boys were cleaning up their guns and Lil was watching them from the corner of her eye. Her fringe partially hiding her gaze.- Take this. - Matt said- What is i-- What!? Why? - Lil asked, trying to hide the paper bag with a small gun inside. - You need to be able to protect yourself in this business. It is already loaded, do you know how to use it?- I do. Safety off: pull the trigger. Victor used to clean up his gun every Saturday. I paid a lot of attention to how these things work.- Good. You shall be safe.- Any problems, dear? - Yes.- What's wrong?- You should be lying down. - Lil said to Miles, now looking at him.- I'm fine. You did a good job with the stitches. I'm healing fast.- Glad to hear that. - Yeah, but really what's the matter? - Why do you think something's wrong?- I don't know, you just seemed so... out of it. - I was thinking.- About...?
The gun in my purse.
- Why do you wanna know? - I can never guess what you're thinking about. I can tell what Alex is thinking about, sometimes, and the rest of the guys as well... But never you. - Maybe it's because you know them for years. Nothing special there.- I disagree. My mum says I'm special.Lil laughed a bit.- Aren't you too old for that? - She doesn't care. - Miles replied, talking about his mum.- You never told me her name. - Pauline. - Miles pulled a locket from inside his white sleeveless shirt - You'd love to meet her someday. - Pretty name for a pretty lady. - Lil said, looking at the picture inside the locket. - She seems very lovely as well, for what you told me this morning.- She is.Miles put the locket back inside his shirt, close to his heart.He had taken off all of his rings and chains but not the locket.Their chat was interrupted by the ringing of the telephone.- I'm gonna pick that up. - Lil said and walked away from Miles.A few moments later, Miles saw Lil cover the phone' speaker before shouting.- Nick! Your wife on the phone!She said something else before handing the phone to Nick and walked away back to the kitchen.Miles went to see Alex in his office.3 more days passed.Lil and the boys were really getting along and they started rehearsing again for the shows of the upcoming week. They would laugh the whole afternoon, Lil always baked cakes or cookies for them, so they could all have tea in the afternoon at 5pm.The boys' business was doing very well so far and they could be called, at least, "upper class boys" in such a short time.- Ok, I'm leaving for today. - Lil informed the boys after washing the dishes from their tea. - See you guys tomorrow, don't get into trouble. - We won't. - Matt assured her.- Great.- Uh... Lil. - Alex called.- Yeah?- Ring us when you get to the hotel, would ya?- Oh, alright. Will do. Bye, boys.She left, it was a bit cold that day so she started walking faster to get to the hotel.- Hello, Mr. James! - She greeted the receptionist.- Welcome, Mrs. Jones! You had your delivery come in this afternoon.- Delivery?- Yes, it arrived by cleaning hours so we had it put into you room. - Who was it from? - The card is here. - Mr. James handed a card to Lil. It had AJMMN written on it. Nothing else. - Alright... thank you, Mr. James. - You're welcome, Mrs. Jones. Have a good night.- You too, sir.Lil went up the stairs, her room was on the third floor.She opened her room and saw a big wooden box by her bed. She closed the door behind herself and hanged her coat on it. She crouched near the box.Lil noticed a piece of paper coming from one of the box's gaps.She pulled it and it turned out to be another card.
Dear Lillian,
We hope you like this gift. It's from all of us to you. Thank you for everything.
Love,
Monkeysand Miles.Lil smiled at the card. Now she understood what AJMMN stood for.- Those boys...Lil tried to open the box.At the pub the telephone started ringing.Alex went to pick up.- 'ello?- Alex! You guys got me a keyboard! - D'you like it?- Yes! I love it! Thank you so much! - It's the least we could do, you've been helping us out an awful lot and we thought that since you like to play the piano, you should 'ave a keyboard of your own. - That is so sweet! Really, guys! Thank you so much!Lil and Alex talked for a few more minutes and after saying goodbye to each other, Alex hung up.- She got the keyboard. - Alex announced, walking out his office.- Does she like it? - Nick asked.- Yes, she says she loves it. - Alex replied.- Thas' good. - Miles said. He was the one to come up with that idea.-------------------------------------------------------Next morning Lil woke up a little late, it was already 7:30 so she would have to run if she didn't want to leave Miles still hungry by 9.She went to bed late the night before, assembling and adjusting her new keyboard.She threw herself off the bed and started dressing up in a bit of a hurry, she threw on her sky blue dress and put on her light brown shoes. Combed her shoulder length hair, applied just a little lipstick as not to look so pale in the cold morning, grabbed her purse and coat and left.She walked past the reception and didn't really stop to talk to anyone, she just waved goodbye.She managed to get to the pub at 8:20.But she stopped at the door.It wasn't locked... Were the boys inside? Did they stay there last night?Lil thought about what to do for a minute and decided to go inside. She heard voices so she took her shoes off and started walking very slowly towards the sounds.She saw Miles.And a man.She didn't know who the man was.But he had a gun.She took a deep breath and stopped moving, listening to the conversation.- I don't care. You were the one who started with the threats, you really think I would let it slide? Do you really know who I am, Tom?
Tom...
It was the man Miles beat up and was in jail for.
- He told me to fuck off. He told you he didn't send me, didn't he? It's because he's afraid you're gonna take over the whole business. He did send me, I got beat up and now he tells me to go away. I am not letting that slide.- What are you gonna do? He or his new boy already shot me. - Miles scoffed.- You might have been shot but they failed to kill you. I was gonna take over his business and get fucking rich, it's all your fucking fault.Tom took a step further towards Miles.Miles closed his eyes for a second.- Don't do it. Don't come any closer. Turn around and leave while you still can.- So you're afraid now? - Not for me.Miles was telling the truth.He wasn't afraid for himself, he wasn't telling Tom to go away.
He was talking to Lil.
She approached them very, very slowly.After a week of cleaning up the place she already had an idea of which floorboards would creak if she stepped on them.- Please. - Miles said.Tom shook his head.- I made up my mind, Miles. - So did I. - The sound of the safety being turned off made itself clear as Lil spoke. - Drop the gun and get away from him.Tom put his hands in the air. Miles got the gun from him.- Turn around. - Lil said.- No, don't do it! - Miles was now poiting Tom's gun to Tom's head, preventing him from turning around. - Lady, if he sees your face there's no going back.- I don't need to see her face. I could recognize her voice anywhere. - Tom said.- It doesn't matter, actually.Lil started walking closer to Tom.She touched his shoulder and made him turn around. She faced him as he studied her face with his blue eyes.Miles was afraid to shoot Tom so closely and the bullet go through him and into Lil... maybe Miles could shoot Tom's leg but what if that scared Lil off and she shot at him?He didn't know what to do.The small gun Matt gave her was centred at Tom's forehead.- Say hi to Victor for me, would you?Lil and Tom looked into each other's eyes for an eternal second.And then she pulled the trigger.
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Lil watched as Tom's body hit the floor.Miles' upper body had been splashed out with blood.Bright red freckles.- You didn't have to do it. - I felt like it. - Lil said in the coldest tone ever. She was looking at Tom's blood spreading on the floor. She took a step to the side so it wouldn't touch her shoes. - Nobody messes up with my friends. - I know how this feels but you can't kill someone because "you felt like it".- Why not? - She pointed her gun at Miles and then slowly lowered her hand 'till she was aiming at the body. She shot again. - Just to make sure he stays dead.- Lil, stop!Miles walked towards her and took the gun off her hand.- I think I just needed to get away it with one time.- Away with what?- Murder. It doesn't bother me anymore. I don't feel afraid anymore. - It's the adrenaline rush but will you be ok in an hour? I don't think so. - Miles said, escorting Lil away from Tom's body.------------------------------------------------------- She did this? - Nick asked. - She did. - Matt replied. - How come you're so sure? - Alex asked. He had his hands in his pockets. - For all I know you were not 'ere.- These bullets are from the gun I gave her. - Matt said. - What did you gave her a fucking gun for? - Jamie asked.- Protection. She walks with us now, you can never be too careful. I just didn't know she was gonna go around shooting at people and then at their bodies. - Matt defended himself.- Where is she now? - Nick asked, almost whispering.- I don't know, really. - Miles replied.- Well, you should go check on her. This whole shooting at him after he was already dead because she "felt like shooting him" is kinda messed up, even for me. - Yeah, I know. But if she hadn't walked in late, it'd be my body you would be dealing with right now. Or even hers. Anyway, I'm gonna look for her.Miles went away to look for Lil and Matt looked at Alex with a question.- What do we do now?--------------------------------------------------------- Hey. - Miles said softly when he stepped into the back room. Lil was looking out the small window.- Hey. - You ok?- Why do you ask?I think you might know why.- You're here. The backroom, I mean. Your safe place.- I think I wandered off. And yes, the adrenaline rush is already over.- And how do you feel?Lil turned her head to look at Miles.- Great.- Is that so?- Yes. - Do you still feel like 'it'?- Yes. I believe this feeling will come and go at least once every day.- What's changed? Two weeks ago you were terrified about the thought of murder. At the beginning of this very week you said you felt guilty... - And I'll feel guilty forever. What's changed is that when I saw that man I realized he could be pointing that gun at me if I wasn't late. Would he have shot at me without notice or would he have me know what was going on before pulling the trigger? And then he was gonna go after you, or make me take him to you and kill us both in front of one another. I won't let anyone lay a finger on me anymore, Miles. No one will stand in my way. - I see. It's awake.Lil looked away.- The hunger for power and the thirst for blood. The lust for danger. - Miles continued. - I see it in you because I see it every time I look into the mirror. - You asked Tom if he knew who you are.- And he had no idea. Nobody but myself knows who I am.- If we're the same, I do want to get to know you. - Get to know yourself and you'll know me. You'll see me as I see you. - You do have a dark side, don't you? - Don't we all? - I thought you were gonna say something like "Don't let this take over". - I would if I knew there was a way to take it all back. To change it. But there's not, it's just gonna grow from now on. The only thing I can tell you is: always make sure who the enemy is.Lil nodded.- I'm gonna go back. - She said. - I want to finish it. - By "finish it" you mean...?- Learn how to get rid of a body.------------------------------------------------------Miles and Lil went back to the saloon, the guys were arguing about something.They all shut up when they saw Lil.- What does one do with it after the kill? - Lil asked. She was referring to the body.The guys looked at each other.- First of all; - Alex finally spoke. - don't kill indoors if you're at your own place. Too much work for later. - I didn't exactly have a choice, did I? - Lil said.- Well, actually, you did. You could 'ave hit him in the head with your gun and tied him up. Killed him in the woods late at night. He didn't see you come near him, you were in advantage. - Miles said.- Exactly. Scrubbing hardwood floors is a pain in the arse. And now it's daylight, it means we can't move the body anywhere else 'till the sun sets. - Basically I did everything as much wrong as I could. - Lil said.- It was a nice shot, tho. - Nick said.- And since when do you know anything about shooting someone, Nick? - Matt teased. - She has already outnumbered you. - One can learn a lot without having to actually kill. - Nick replied.- I'm with Nick on that one. - Alex said. - Yes, you did everything wrong but we're in luck today. - Why's that? - Lil asked.- It's very cold today, wich means it will take a bit more time 'till he starts to swell. That part is ugly. - Alex replied.- What if we wrap him up in a rug, I don't know, and put him by the backdoor? It's colder there and the fabric should stop the blood from spreading again. - Lil suggested.- That is very good thinking. - Matt remarked.- It is exactly what I was gonna propose we would do. - Miles said. - Then let's get moving. - Lil said. - Not you, tho. - She pointed at Miles. - You've still got your stitches. - Oi! Since when you started giving the orders? - Miles said. - Since I'm the one who's gonna have to stitch you up again.Jamie brought the rug and a piece of an old curtain.They placed the rug on the floor and rolled Tom to the edge of it.He bled a lot more.Lil had an idea.- Hold on, boys. I think I just... - What, aren't you gonna pass out now, are you? - Matt asked.- No, I just think... - Lil crouched near the body and examined the wounds. - Yeah, I think this can work. I'll be back in a minute. - She said, wandering off and into the kitchen.- IT'S OK TO HANG OUT WITH THIS COLD TURKEY 'TILL YOU COME BACK. DON'T BOTHER HURRYING UP. - Jamie spoke a little louder so Lil could hear him.- What the fuck is she doing anyway? - Matt thought aloud.Lil came back a little while later carrying a little mug. She crouched next to Tom again and started pouring candle wax inside the wounds 'till it was filled.- What the fuck? - Alex asked, turning around for a bit.- This will stop him from keep on bleeding and blowing our cover. - She looked at the boys and all of them, but Miles, had disgusted expressions on their faces. - You guys are a bunch of sissies. - I've never thought of that. - Miles said.- It's because you were not raised to be a maid for your husband. And at the convent we used to make new candles all the time with the wax from the ones that burned out, occasionally we would fill holes and cracks in the holy statues with wax so I figured that maybe this could help in this case as well.- Yeah, yeah. - Are you finished? - Nick asked. He was looking in another direction. - Yes. Now we just have to wait a--- Ahhh. - The boys complained. They just wanted to get rid of that body and start cleaning the floor. - Bit. So the wax will harden up. Miles, would you pass me the curtain, please?With the curtain in hand, Lil started wrapping Tom's head. It was an extra layer for the blood to pass through.- I think we can roll the rug now. - Lil said.- Thank God. - Matt said, turning around.- Wait. - Miles said.- NO, NO "WAIT". WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE? - Nick yelled. He had always been the worst to deal with bodies.- Tom said that Otis would tell me he didn't send him. And he actually told me that. But, if they didn't send him and yet I got shot; who's telling the truth?- Why do we have to discuss this over the body? - Jamie asked.- Because I'm thinking of sending them a little gift and Tom could help me with that.-------------------------------------------------------- Don't choose spots near trees. - Alex said.- Why's that? - Lil asked.They were out in the woods somewhere.She had asked Alex to go to bury the body with him. He thought it'd be too much for her but she insisted.- Because some of them might still be growing and their roots can dig up the body. - Alex explained.- You're such a pro. - I had a good mentor... and I do that for a living as well so, yeah. Pick a spot.Lil looked around.No trees...There would be ok.Oh but it'd be too obvious, the soil is pretty uniform on that spot.I think... I think that...- There. - She pointed.- Why?- It's not too near the trees, in fact there's just a big one there, and it's a bit rocky so it won't look too obvious that somebody dug up a hole after we're finished. - You learn fast. Well, off you pop. - Alex gave her the shovel. - Start digging, we don't have the whole night.- Aren't you gonna help me?- Not this time. It's gonna be good for you to remember how much work getting rid of a body requires so you'll think harder next time before shooting someone. - Alex lit up a cigarette and sat on a rock.Lil started digging.------------------------------------------------------ Boss!- What?Otis put his cigar down on the ashtray.- This box came in, boy said it's for you.- Who sent it? - Otis looked at the little boy carrying a cardboard box.- I don't know. A man just told me to give the box to you, sir. - How much did he pay you?- One Zero Zero. - the boy said.- What if I pay you two hundred? Would you tell me how he looks like? - What is that?- A lot of money.The boy thought for a second.- I can't.- Why is that?- He said he was gonna smash my fingers with a hammer.- I'm sure he didn't mean it.- Well, I can't tell you.Otis sighed.- Give me the box and get the fuck outta here.The boy put the box on Otis' desk and ran away.Otis examined the box carefully.- I don't see how this could be a bomb. - He was talking to one of his men.- Neither do I. - Well...Otis opened the cardboard box .A cigar box was inside.- It's a cigar. - Otis announced, grabbing the little box and opening it up. - FUCK!Except it wasn't a cigar.It was a middle human finger.--------------------------------------------------------- Ok, you've made your point. - Lil said as she got in Alex's car again. The first lights of the morning started to show. - But I can't go back to the hotel covered in dirt. And God! I am so tired.- Do you still want to stay in this business?- Is there a way out at this point?- I don't think so, no. - There you have your answer.- You still amaze me, tho. I could never imagine my lady or any lady, actually, doing a man's job.- Because there are no men's jobs and women's jobs. There are just jobs and we do what we gotta do to survive. I could be dead by now...- An eye for an eye, I see. But sometimes we can get out of the worst situations with talk. We just have to be convincing enough, you'll still learn that. - I hope I do.As the months went by, Lil really became a part of the boy's business.They taught her how to shoot for real, she taught them how to properly stitch a wound, they taught her how to hide, she taught them the wax trick. They sang together, they killed together, they robbed together and wrote songs together.Made money together.Buried bodies together.Lil would always dress up as a man when the gang had to meet up with another gang so they would never find out who she really was and go after her.She said to Alex she didn't care but he insisted.And with that she could always hide in plain sight. The boys decided if they all got ambushed, she had to be the one to survive because it was so easy to believe her. She could go back and tell a story to the police and have the killers arrested.Or she could take the matter into her own hands if the law didn't swing in her favour.She could get away with anything by now.That night she was out, downtown, with Miles.- But I'm tired. It's all the same every time. - It's just how the things are.- I want to feel the thrill of it again. The same feeling I had when I walked into the stage for the first time. - She started whispering - From when I buried my first body. - That escalated quickly. - Miles replied.- Did it? - Lil smiled a little smile and sipped on her "special juice".Miles always carried a freskle of liquor with him so he could add a bit of it to his drinks.- You look...Hot- ...great as a blonde. Even tho I still think you look more dangerous as a brunette.- Really? - Yeah.- Then thank God this is just a wig.And there's the red ones too. But let's not get started on it.- What about my red wigs, tho?Miles choked.Of course she had to ask.- What about them? - I don't know. How do they make me look?Like the beautiful devil you are.- It doesn't really matter. I'm bored. - Lil clicked her tongue and pulled an unamused face.- Give me a challenge, Miles.- What kind of challenge?- Obviously a hard one.Miles look around.- See that man? - He hardly pointed. Lil waited a few seconds before turning her head to the direction Miles had pointed.- Yes? - He's the Governor.- That man is Sidney Catts?- Yeah, why?- I thought he would be... a super fat old ugly man. But he's somewhat decent. - I guess he is.- Yes, but what about him? - I want you to steal his wedding band.Lil laughed, she threw her arm around Miles shoulder.- That's too easy, Mi! - Prove it to me, then.Lil stared into his eyes for a minute and then she got up, whispering in his ear before she left.- I just did. Check your pocket.Lil walked away and Miles frowned before putting his hands on his pockets.He felt a piece of metal and a string, he pulled it out and looked at it.His locket.Miles' eyes started to follow Lil again, still frowning his forehead.He put the locket back around his neck.How the fuck?Half an hour later, Miles was bored at his table. The liquor had all been drank and now he was on regular juice.He was about to leave when Lil approached the table and said.- Let's go!She walked away before he could get up.He stepped out of the bar and looked around, Lil wasn't to be seen.He started walking home, he passed by a dark alley when a pair of hands grabbed him and pulled him into the dark.He was pressed against the wall for a second 'till he heard a well known little laugh and relaxed.She put something on the palm of his hand and made him wrap his fingers around it.- Told you it was too easy.Something soft hit his feet and then she was gone again.Miles saw Lil's wig on the floor by his feet.He opened his hand.Of course it was the Governor's ring.
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- I don't think you should be alone, together... I mean.- Why? It's just Lil, Miles. - Alex said, lighting up another cigarette. - Have I ever been wrong about people? - Miles asked him.- No.See?- But you could be this time. - Alex added.-------------------------------------------------------- It's gonna be the anniversary of my first year here, of course we need a party! Alex, please tell me I can have a party! - Lil pleaded.- Of course you can. - Yes! - Parties mean planning which means working which means I'm too tired for that. - Matt said.- Come on, Matt. - Jamie said. - Parties mean more money coming in, money you could use now you've got a baby on the way. - I've been hiding all of my money but I'm running out of places. - Nick said.- See, we don't need more money coming in. - Matt said again.- Then let's spend it. - Alex said. - I like parties, parties are good. - Yeah, but what are we gonna tell our wives? "Hey, Breana. Me and the boys are having this huge party at the bar to mark the anniversary of one year since Lil's joined the gang" ? - Matt asked.- We need a good reason to throw a party. Specially now Prohibition is still going on, nobody goes to parties if they don't 'ave a fucking good reason. - Miles said.- I can give you a reason. - Lil said.--------------------------------------------------------- And then she screamed "WHO IS COMING?"All the boys started laughing out loud.- I told you it was a good idea. - Lil said to Nick.- It was very kind of her to accept, tho. We've only gave her a month. - Alex said. - Yes. She is amazing isn't she? - Lil replied. - Will we ever get as famous as her? - Nick thought aloud. He was enchanted they were having the one and only Elisa Bouchou as a guest at their pub.- Well, you guys already are kind of a big thing around here. - Lil said. - Last month we've had people coming from Vegas to watch you.- And by the end of the month we're gonna be in Vegas! - Jamie said, excited.Alex smiled.People really liked their music. It felt good, very good.- I hope everything goes right, tho. - Lil said. - I mean, you guys have to be here for the next refill day on the 28 but you will be leaving Vegas by the 26th's morning. Can you really make it on time? - If everything really goes as we plan, yes. - Alex said.- I think I should stay, tho... just to make sure, I mean. - Miles said, looking at Lil.- You're really passing up on Vegas!? - Jamie asked Miles.- Well, the club can't be left alone anyways...- But I was already gonna take care of that part. I will stay here. - Lil said, confused.- Yeah, I know. But I believe at least two of us should stay. - Miles replied.Alex thought he saw what Miles was trying to do.- Yeah, guys. I think Miles' oughta stay.- So we're going as the Monkeys, not the Death Ramps? - Matt asked.- We were never going as the Death Ramps. I play sometimes, a'ight, but people are not paying to see me. - Miles said.- That's not true, Miles. - Alex said.- I don't really care.Miles said in a rude manner. All the other boys stayed silent.- Sorry, didn't mean to be rude. - Miles said and walked away from the group.The guys looked at Lil.- Guys, I'll be back in a sec.She excused herself from the table.- Mi? - She approached him.- I already said I'm sorry.- Yeah, I'm not deaf. Anyway... I came to check on you. What is wrong? You don't seem like yourself since last Monday's night.- I just don't want to go to Vegas, thass all.- If you don't wanna tell me: fine. But talk to one of the boys at least. I've seen you hold grudges before and it did not end well.Miles hesitated.- Will do. Thanks.Lil nodded and walked back to the table the boys were.-------------------------------------------------------- 10 thousand! The prices are going up and up and up. - Alex complained.- Well, good for you you're making lots of money out of it. - Lil said. - It must be getting harder to get.- That's the only explanation. - Alex said, emptying two bags of money and putting it on the safe. - Well, here it is anyway. You and Mil-- where the fuck is Miles? - Didn't come in yet. - Lil replied.- Well, it actually doesn't matter. I was gonna say the obvious; protect this money while we are gone. - Will do. - Lil nodded firmly. - We always do. - I know. It's just that this time around the rest of us are not gonna be here and we can't risk not getting the money on time, maybe we will get back from Vegas and go immediately to this meeting, you can't never be to careful about the pay up.- Really, Al. Don't worry. - Yeah, it's gonna be alright. And I hired those men, again. For the night time, I mean. When you and Miles are not here. - Yeah, they did a pretty good job last time. I like that Tyler boy. - Yeah. But it's time to go, I'm meeting up with the boys at the station. Hope Miles gets in soon.- I bet he will turn up any second now. Scouser never gets late... well, at least not too late.Alex bid farewell to Lil and left.She walked into the stage and lied down on the floor, staring at the ceiling.- This is so boring.Alex was on his way out to his car when he bumped into Miles.- Hey! Sorry I'm late I--- Don't worry, Miles. Lil's inside, stage is fixed, - it was a code for "the money is in the safe". - Tyler and Michael will be here by 8 every night. Ring Zach if you need backup. - Ok, understood. - Don't be late again tomorrow.- I won't. Hope you make it safe to Vegas.- Thanks. - Alex said, getting into his car. - And Miles?- Uh?- Please don't have sex in my office.- I w-- What!? - I saw what you were doing when you said you and Lil had to stay here but please... not my office.- What the fuck, Alex?- Ok, don't overreact. I 'ave to go now. I'll send you some updates from Vegas.- Just go already.Miles walked away from Alex and into the pub.Make a wish for me, babyCause I think they might be catching upYou're a thousand times mineI'm a thousand times yoursA thousand times mineAnd I want a thousand moreOh, until the vanishing point, babyNot a moment beforeYou're a thousand times mineAnd I am a thousand yoursAs if the earth's reserved for you and INot a soul for- Miles? - Lil interrupted the singing and rolled over to lie on her chest on the stage floor so she could see the saloon.- Yes?- No, nothing. I thought I heard a noise. Glad you're in.Miles stayed silent.He went to the bar and poured himself a drink.- Can you pour me one too? - Yes, I'm drinking on your tab.He poured Lil a drink as she approached the bar.- The hell is it with you, Miles?He still didn't reply.In fact he started walking away from her, on his way to Alex's office.Lil threw her glass at his feet.- I'm fucking talking to you! - She started walking towards him. - Can I at least know what I did to you? - She hit his arm.- Move aside, please. I've had a hell of a night, I just want to be alone.Lil didn't move.Miles tried to take another step and she blocked him again, grabbing his glass from his hands and throwing it on the wall.- I'm done with this shit. - He said.Miles grabbed Lil by the arm and threw her against the same wall she had thrown the glass at. She hit her head and cut her feet.But she didn't let a single whimper out.- When I tell you I want to be alone, it's because I want to be THE FUCK ALONE. - He punched the wall, Lil didn't blink. Her bloodshot eyes staring at Miles' face.- You don't yell at me again, I'm warning you for the first and last time. - Lil said.- Then get the fuck outta my way.He walked away from her, going upstairs and slamming the door to Alex's office behind him.- You fuck! - Lil shouted from where she was standing.She had to pucker up and go take care of her feet.Lil started to take steps, very slowly, making her way back to the bar, leaving red prints of her feet on the floor. She sat on one of the bar stools and put her feet onto another one.- FUCK!She watched as the blood dripped on the floor.-------------------------------------------------------- The hell happened? - Tyler asked, after following the bloody footprints and finding Lil. - Are you ok?- I cut my feet. - She replied. She had her feet wrapped up in improvised bandages. - I think there's still some glass inside of it. Can you or Michael take me to the hospital? - Miles is just leaving, I--- Fuck Miles!Tyler shut up.- We were ordered not to leave but I can phone Zach, get him here and then I can take you.- Can you please hurry that up, then?Half an hour later, Lil had her feet anesthetized, cleaned and stitched. 10 stitches at least.Tyler dropped her at her room at the hotel.It didn't hurt that much now all the glass had been removed but still...Motherfucker.She threw herself on the bed.You brought this on yourself, you bitch. You know you can't just come at him. Now Alex is gonna be pissed.Lil reached for the telephone in the room and asked to be connected to the Turner's house.- Hi, Alexa! - She paused to listen. - Yeah, about that...------------------------------------------------------ 'ello?- Miles.- You in Vegas already?- No, we didn't make it yet. - I see. But you're close, right?- Yes, we are. Listen, I phoned Alexa from the station, yesterday and s--A train made a loud noise and Miles couldn't hear Alex.He was at another station.- Can you repeat that? - Miles said.- I was saying; Alexa told me Lil called our 'ouse to ask her to tell me she won't be coming back to work for a few days because she cut her feet. The hell 'appened? - I don't know, I was at your office.- And she didn't ask for your help? For what Alexa told me, Tyler was the one to take her to the hospital because Tyler phoned Zach to take his place while he took Lil to the hospital, that means it was past eight when she was taken to the hospital. It is not possible you had not seen what happened.- She cut her feet on the glass she threw at me, a'ight? I didn't do anything. I arrived in a bad mood and I was going up to your office to stay a bit by meself when she stood in my way and started being annoying. - Did you see when she cut her feet? - No, I just saw the blood when I was leaving. - You "just"... what the hell!? I needed you two working together and you get into a fight as soon as I leave? - It's not me fucking fault, ok? - Did I say it was your fault?- No, but--- Then shut the fuck up. - You don't tell me to shut up, you fucking twat. Or I'll leave right now and fuck you and your money. I have lots of it already and I can always rob a bank if I really need to. - You really want to go against me? - I don't want to but I fucking will if you make me. - Listen. I don't want to fight you, I didn't call to blame you. I called Lil but couldn't reach the hotel so I asked for the pub. You should call her and apologize.- Apologize? What the fuck for?- I don't fucking know but you're the man on this and we, the men, should always apologize to our women.- She's not my anything.- I don't care. Phone her, send her flowers, do whatever you need to do so we can have this shite fixed and go back to our plan. - Alex?- What?- Buy her fucking flowers yerself.Miles ended the call and went down to the bar for a drink.- I fucking hate this. This is fucking lonely. And now I have to sweep and scrub the fucking floor because of that--Miles stopped and took a deep breath.And a drink.He reached out for the telephone downstairs and asked to be connected to the hotel and then to Lil's room.- Hello?- It's me, listen--- Go fuck yourself.Miles put the phone back on it's place before the temptation of throwing it into the floor and smashing it into pieces grew much bigger.He finished his drink and went to grab the broom and some stuff to scrub the floor.He started to feel guilty as he saw the footprints get more and more bloody.- This may have hurt, maybe I really should apologize... apologize for what you idiot? You were just trying to get to the office, she was the one who stood in your way!He was talking to himself.- But you saw the blood and didn't try to help. What the hell, Miles? What about your vows to never hurt women or children? Even tho you didn't hurt her, you did nothing to help.Miles phoned Tyler and asked him to come in by 6 that afternoon.He left the pub with a destination in mind.------------------------------------------------------- Are you ok, Al? - Jamie asked.- Yes, fine. Thank you. - Alex replied.- You didn't touch your food. - Matt said.- I'm not really hungry. You can 'ave it. - Ay! - Matt grabbed Alex' sandwich.The boys laughed.- No, but seriously. Is everything alright? You seem a bit off since you called Alexa last night. - No it's ok. I just... I just miss them.- Is the lil one better? - Yeah, he ain't got no fever no more.- That's great!Alex had lied about his son being sick.He almost told the other boys what was happening but what was the use? Matt would probably want to turn around and go back home to beat someone up. Nick would be too worried to play and would go home as well. Maybe Jamie would stay.But then just the two of them couldn't play by themselves.He kept his thoughts to himself.-------------------------------------------------------Someone knocked on Lil's bedroom door.- It's open. - She announced. It was always one of the maids. But she kept her gun around just in case. She slipped her hand under the pillow next to the one she was using.- You leave your door open? - Miles asked, walking in.- What the-- ?- I came to...Miles' words got stuck.- To what? - To...- Say it already and get the fuck outta here or I'm gonna phone the reception and have them send security here. - I came to...Lil reached for the phone.- Apologize. I'm sorry. - He made a move to give her the bouquet of flowers he was holding.White roses.White for peace.- Apology accepted. - Lil said and kept staring at him. - You can go now. - Come on, I came all the way down here to bring you fucking flowers and you're still being...- Being what?- Mean! - You were the one giving me the silent treatment, remember? I wanted to know what I did so I could apologize. Now I just want you to fuck off. - Oh, I was wrong... I didn't mean "mean", I meant bitch.- You motherfucker.Lil threw the flowers back at him.- Say that again! I dare you. - You're being a mean bitch!Lil grabbed her gun and pointed at Miles.He did the same to her.They were interrupted by the ringing of the telephone.Lil reached for it without taking her eyes off Miles.- Hello?- Mrs. Jones. Mr. James, speaking. - Yes.- Some guests from your floor complained about "strange noises" coming from your room. I'm sending security up, is everything ok? - Oh, yeah. - Lil put her gun back under the pillow. - I just had my friend move my keyboard for me, I mean, I tried to help but I couldn't because my feet are hurt so it may have made more noise than it should, tell them I apologize. Thank you Mr. James.Lil ended the call.- Security coming upstairs. Sit by the keyboard.Miles hid his gun and sat at the piano bench, in front of Lil's bed.He looked at the flowers on the floor and grabbed them, throwing them at Lil on the bed before sitting down again.Someone knocked on the door.- Mrs. Jones? This is Security. May we come in?- Yes, it's open.Two suited man walked into the room.- Is everything alright?- Yes, I just had my friend move the piano for me. Usually it takes two people but as you can see I hurt my feet so I couldn't help him. I promise not to drag furniture around anymore. - She smiled sweetly at them.- Mhm... ok. Just phone the reception if you need anything, alright?- Will do, sir. Thank you.The men left and Lil threw the flowers back at Miles.- Can you stop throwing them around? Poor flowers did nothing wrong. This is not catch.- Alright. - Lil clicked her tongue. - Sorry. Give them back to me.- No, I'm gonna put them on the nightstand. - You know I can reach them there, don't you?- Yes, I know.Miles put the flowers on the nightstand, by the phone.- It was because of this "throwing stuff around" thing that you hurt yer feet. Alex is pissed at us.- I imagined he would be. - Why did you phone Alexa, then?- I had to! Something happens to that money and we're screwed. I had to tell Alexa to tell him I can't go to work for a few days so he could decide what he would do.- Well, he decided to come at me.- But you said he's pissed at us. - Yes. He tried to phone you as well. Anyway, I said I'm sorry, I brought your stupid flowers. I hope your feet gets better soon.- Thank you. I apologize for being "a bitch" as well. A couple more days and I think I'll be able to walk and a couple more 'till I'm able to properly walk.- So I won't be seeing you for four days?- I know right? Everybody's happy!- Yeah. - Miles said. - I think I'll have to have Zach around for a while, then. - Hope you're less moody when you call him.- I was moody bec--Miles shut up.- You still won't tell me.- I have to go, mum's waiting. See you in a few days.Miles left without saying goodbye.--------------------------------------------------------- Thank you, thank you. - The Monkeys bowed to the crowd applauding them.The curtains were closed.We did it!The boys went to their rooms at the hotel, they needed to share with their families how great that show had been.After phoning Alexa, Alex tried to phone Lil, again.- That is awesome, Alex! I wish I was there, I'm so proud of you, boys!- Thanks, dear. It really was great, I mean, we played for almost a thousand people at a casino. Huge crowd, it was a bit intimidating but we pulled it off.- It takes more than a few thousand people to intimidate my British boys. - Lil laughed a bit, Alex chuckled from the other end of the line.- But I didn't ask yet; how are your feet getting better?- I think four more days 'till I'm back at it again. Some cuts were a bit deep so... yeah. But I'm doing fine, thanks.- Glad to hear that. I mean, I wish that didn't have to happen at all but... I'm sorry on Miles' behalf.- Me too but I actually started it, it was mostly my fault. And you don't have to be sorry on anybody's behalf. Miles came here to apologize, earlier tonight.- Oh, did he?- He did. He brought me stupid flowers and everything. White ones.- You don't like flowers?Lil could hear Alex frowning.- No, I love flowers it's just that... I never got much of them, I mean, every time I get flowers it's because somebody is trying to apologize. I never got flowers because somebody decided to just... buy me flowers.- Oh, I see. Well, I'm glad Miles went to apologize, he can be as stubborn as a mule sometimes.- Tell me about it. But Alex?- Yes? - When you guys come back, can you try to talk to him? I mean, he's been moody as hell lately and he doesn't want to talk to me but maybe he'll talk to you.- Yes, I'll try to get him alone. - Thanks, Alex.- You're welcome, dear. I have to go now, talk to you when we get back. We're leaving tomorrow morning. - Alright. Have a safe trip, you guys. - Will do.- Bye, Al. See ya.--------------------------------------------------------The next morning Lil woke up later than usual. She wondered if anyone from the staff had knocked on her door and she didn't listen.She made her way very slowly to the bathroom, brushed her teeth, washed her face, combed her hair and checked if everything was going ok with her feet. She wrapped them up with new bandages.Lil made her way back to bed and phoned the reception, it took a while 'till someone picked up.- Morning, Mr. James. I would like to have a maid up here and also the breakfast menu. - I'm sorry, Mrs. Jones, but that might take a while. Half of the staff didn't make it to the hotel today.- What? Why? What happened? - The workers declared a collective strike. - Oh! But is it... is it happening just in town or...?- For what I've heard, it's national.- Oh... actually, don't worry about me. I'll be fine. Send the maids to that couple's with a kid room.- Thank you, Mrs. Jones.Lil put the phone back on its place.Shit. Did the boys manage to catch the train?- Why the fuck are we not moving? - Alex got off the train.The boys followed him.The station was pure chaos.- The hell is happening? - Matt said as a gentleman bumped into him and apologized.- Let's ask the police. - Jamie suggested.Alex couldn't help but to laugh.Back home they would never do that, they didn't need to; they were the ones who had all the answers.- What? - Jamie asked.- No, nothing. - Alex replied. He looked around again. - I'll go talk to them. - Nick said and left the boys' side.He returned about five minutes later.- It's a strike. We're not moving for a while. - Nick said to the other boys.- Man, what the hell!? This can't be happening right now. We've only got a few hours to get this train going or we're gonna miss the deal. - Alex started to panic.- It's ok, Alex. We will get there on time. - Matt said. - And even if we don't get there in time, Miles and Lil are there. - Jamie said.- Lil's out the picture for a few days.Alex said and mentally kicked himself, right after.- What? - Why?- What happened?Asked Jamie, Matt and Nick.- She cut her feet. It was kinda bad and she's not walking for a few days. I was gonna propose that she would not go with us this time.- Miles' alone?- I don't really know but I told him to get Zach if shit happened. - But she can't walk at all?- She said yesterday that four more days she would be walking again. - Alex replied.- Then she can make it. - Matt said. - I'm sure she will not accept not to be there when we're not. I'm still curious about the cuts, tho. She's always so careful about everything.- Yeah, me too. - Jamie said. - Did she tell you how that happened, Alex?Alex hesitated.Nick looked at him.- Come on, Al. What have you been keeping us in the dark about?- She and Miles had a row. Some glass broke and she stepped on it.- Did he hit her!? - Matt asked.- What the fuck, Matt? You know Miles never hit a girl. He vowed to the "no women no children" thing. - Jamie scolded Matt.- No, he did not. Jamie is right, Miles would never do such thing. Both told me Lil threw glasses at him. He was annoyed, she was annoyed. Anyway... they were not speaking. - Oh man... this is not good. - Jamie said. - Girl's a thunderstorm, she can jeopardize the whole operation.- No, it's ok now. She told me Miles went to apologize, last night. - Alex said.- Were there flowers? - Nick asked.- Yeah. Some white ones. - White? - Matt asked.- Yeah, man. White? - Nick asked too.- Shouldn't it be red or am I mistaken? - Jamie said. - I always give Katie red ones.- I do that to Breana as well. - I do that to Kelly.- And I do that to Alexa but I don't think there's a problem with white flowers. I mean, we're only supposed to give our women red flowers after we're married, right? - Yeah, before that I would give Katie pink ones. I don't know what the white ones are for.- Man, it's for funerals! - Nick said.- I don't think so... I mean. She is not her girlfriend so he can't give her pink and she's not his wife so he can't give her red... - Matt was thinking out loud.- What about the yellow ones? - Nick asked.- Are we seriously discussing flower colours right now? - Alex asked.All the boys froze.- What if we kidnap the train? - Matt suggested.- Oh man. - Nick whined.-------------------------------------------------------- So they will not be here? - They will not make it in time. They tried to take the train but none of them fuckers know how it works.- Do you? - I... no, actually.- What are the orders? - You, Zach, Tyler, Michael and me are gonna get the booze. They don't know how the boys look like so the chances they'll think it's a coup are pretty low.- Just "pretty low"?- There's always a chance. We don't know how they look like and they don't know how we look like so we could be the cops or vice versa.- I see. Well, orders are orders. - What about your feet?- As long as we don't have to run, it should be fine.------------------------------------------------------2 days later, meeting place.- DON'T SHOOT THE BOOZE. THE LAST THING WE NEED NOW IS FIRE THIS IS THE FUCKING GAS STATION.It had all gone wrong.20 minutes earlierThe boys were there, the booze was there, the money was there.- It's all here. - Miles said to the other boys. - Bring the money.Michael approached Miles with the briefcase.- 10 thousand. - Miles said.- 10? It is 15! - The other man replied.- No, man. It's 10 thousand. I'm pretty sure 'cause the money has been sitting down for a week.- Boss said 15.- Then there's no deal cuz I'm the other boss and I say we agreed on 10.- You're the boss? - One of the other man scoffed. - Bosses never come to transactions.- I do, any problems with that? - Miles asked. - If you're not willing to go with the price we agreed, then I bid you farewell. - No deal. You get us our five and we'll let you go. We can't just take the booze back. - You'll have to.- I'm afraid we really can't. - The man pointed his gun at Miles' head and everyone else pointed their guns at each other. - Are you really willing to solve this? - Of course I am. - Our boss said there's a password in case you wanted to talk to him. - Yes?- What's the password.Catfish - Lil thought to herself.Miles stayed silent.- How can I be sure that he didn't give you a different password or a new meaning to our password? - Miles tried to buy time. He didn't know the password.- Why would he do that?Catfish!- I don't know. This whole extra 5k is already too weird and now you want the password.IT'S FUCKING CATFISH!Lil cleared her throat and deepened her tone.- Catfish. - She said.- What the hell, Jones? You should not have done that. - Miles faked a protest. - There, you have your fucking password. Can we work it out now?One of the men walked to the phone of the gas station and dialed a number.A few moments later he announced their boss was available for a chat.Miles walked to the phone.All the guns still pointed at each other.- We're not gonna get you another five. - Miles said to the phone. - This is what we agreed to. Take the fucking booze back and try to fool someone else, we're not buying it.He walked away from the telephone.One of the men picked it up;- Understood.and ended the call.- What did he say? - Grab the money. Shoot them.Present time- AAAHHHHH - Lil cried and tried to protect herself a bit better. - Jones, you're ok?Lil looked at Michael's body at her feet.- Yeah. - She said as blood coming from a wound on her shoulder started to paint her clothes red.Three men still standing for the other gang.Four to theirs.- FUCK!- Dawes, is everything ok?- Yes! It was close but I'm fine.- ARE WE MAKING IT HOME? - Tyler shouted somewhere. - YES! - All shouted together.One less man for the other gang.- I can finish this off! - Lil shouted.The gang stopped shooting at them.- Was that a girl?- I think so, Charles.- The fuck you're talking about? - Miles spoke from the other side of the car he and Lil were hiding. - Grab the boys and go home. - she told him.Lil came out her hiding spot and started shooting at will.- WHAT THE HELL? - Miles yelled. - DON'T SHOOT! DON'T SHOOT, BOYS! - he told Tyler and Zach.One man tried to run.Shot in the head.The other one started to plead.- STOP SHOOTING, YOU'RE GONNA HIT A BOTTLE! - Drop your gun, come out. - Lil ordered.- Of course not, you're gonna shoot me! - You either come out or I'll keep shooting at the bottles.- You're fucking crazy!A shot was heard and Lil screamed, getting down on her knee.One of the men down wasn't quite dead.She shot him again and killed him. The last man standing came out his hiding spot, he was ready to shoot Lil.She closed her eyes.Shots were heard.A thud followed.Lil opened her eyes, the man was dead in front of her.- WHAT THE FUCK? - Miles screamed at Lil. - She's bleeding. - Tyler said, taking Lil in his arms. - Very observant. - Lil said.- They're all dead. - Zach came back with the confirmation they all wanted.- So is Michael.- I think it was the same man who shot my shoulder. Michael was just behind me, it was not longer after he was shot that I got shot too.- What now? - Tyler asked.- We get the booze and go home. Let's move the booze from one of their cars to one of ours, we set fire to fire to it after we have moved all the bottles. - No hurry, boys. - Lil said. - Tyler, put her in a car and let's get moving.Miles and Zach started moving the bottles.- You'll be ok? - Tyler asked Lil, putting her down on the backseat of one of their cars, carefully.- I think I'll survive. If I don't please lie and tell Alex I killed those motherfuckers all by myself and died a hero, would you? - She smiled faintly at Tyler.- You ain't dying on me. My history with girls has only little deaths.Lil liked Tyler was cheeky.- Oh, I see.- TYLER, GET YOUR ARSE IN HERE - They heard Miles yelling.- You better go. - Lil told him.- And you better stay put. See you later.Tyler walked away and Lil stopped holding the pain back.Her left thigh was hurting much more than her shoulder, it felt like something extremely hot was touching her skin, burning it, twisting it.It's terrible. This is terrible. The boys never told me it hurts this much.Why did they never tell me?Why... didShe passed out.
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- Don't you die on me! - Tyler said aloud while walking back into the pub with Lil on his arms.
27 minutes ealier.
- She dead? - She passed out. - Tyler replied to Zach as he looked at Miles. - Miles, I don't think we can take care of this, she's bleeding too much. We have to take her to the hospital. - We can't. How are we gonna explain her being shot twice, how are we gonna explain her man's clothes? How is herself gonna do that? They'll trace everything back to us if they find out about her, we're only gonna save her now to get her killed later, it's no use! - Miles said.- Then what do we do? - Zach asked.Miles looked at him.- I'm gonna take one of the cars and the money and go to the hospital, I'm gonna bribe a doctor and take him back to the pub. I'd have one of you go but I'm the only one who's not soaked in blood. Can you two drive to the pub and wait for me there? - Of course. Let's go, Zach.Tyler got into the car Lil was, and also half the booze, and started driving back to the pub.So did Zach with the other car.Miles got into the third car and took the turn to the hospital.
Now
- We're here! - Miles yelled when he walked back into the pub.- Hurry, she's not breathing! - Zach yelled back.Tyler was trying to make Lil start breathing again. The doctor took over.
Tell Alex I died as a hero
Lil started breathing again.She was as white as a sheet.- I'm gonna need some help. - The doctor said.- As long as you don't ask questions. - Miles replied.------------------------------------------------------The band came back two days later. Miles had refused to pick up the telephone at the pub every time it rang.The boys arrived ready for some pretty bad news.Alex stepped in first.- It's clear. - He told the other boys and they all got in as well.It was the middle of the night.Miles was sitting on the floor, his back resting against the wall, asleep.He was drooling a bit.- What the fuck? - Alex whispered to himself.He kicked Miles awake.- THE HELL!? - Miles yelled, getting up in a split second. He saw Alex and his heart stopped racing that much. - Thank God, it's just you guys. - The fuck you're not picking up the phone? - Alex spoke just a tone lower than shouting.They heard a door slam shut and be locked.All the boys reached for their guns.- It's ok. - Miles tried to calm them down. - Who else is here? - Nick asked.- Knock the door down! - Alex said.Miles stepped in to block them.- IT'S OK! It's just... it's just the nurse.- Nurse? - Yes. - Miles took a deep breath. - And you better calm down and try to lower your voices if you don't want to wake her up. - He walked to the door and knocked three times. - It's ok, Ms. Lars, we're not in danger. - They all heard the door being unlocked but not opened again. Miles walked back next to the boys.Alex unconsciously obeyed.- Miles, - he spoke very hushly - the fuck is this about? - Lil got shot. Twice. - Miles looked at the boys trying not to start a commotion. - We had a doctor over and now we're having this nurse over for two nights now. It's always when she gets feverish. We had them all bribed, and threatened, so don't worry your pretty heads about it.- The fuck didn't you tell us? - Jamie tried to kick Miles in the leg. - Stop! I could not lie to you, I could not tell you what happened 'cause there was no way you could get here faster so I preferred to ignore the phone and wait 'till you've arrived. - How that 'appened? How' she? - Matt asked.Miles told them everything about how wrong the transaction had been gone. He told them everything about how Lil walked in front of the other man, trying to be a distraction so the others could "make it home". And they all did it... Almost all of them, at least.- They had already killed Michael, there was nothing left to do. I kept the papers from the next morning. It's all in your office, - he pointed to Alex - they seem not to have the slightest idea booze was involved. Never mentioned it. As for Lil, she's holding up 'till now. She's lost a lot of blood and all that shit we're used to but the only thing that's really being a big deal it's the fever, it always comes back at night and it's always about sky high degrees. Tyler, Zach and me are taking turns here every night.- I know she's gonna make it. - Nick tried to sound confident.All the other boys just stayed silent.- We have to be ready in case she doesn't. - Miles said. He was trying to accept that was a possibility. - She will, ok? - Nick said again and walked away from the group.The deal with Nick is that he had a sister about Lil's age when she died in a shipwreck from England to the States, on her way to meet up with Nick. The boat was caught in a storm.Nick loved Nina and he grew attached and worried about Lil as if he was doing for her what he couldn't do for Nina.- She get conscious when the fever is gone? - Alex asked. - No. She hasn't been awake since the shooting. - Miles replied.- Thass not good. - Matt said. - But let's hope for the best. She's too stubborn to die like this.-------------------------------------------------------
- ARE WE MAKING IT HOME?
-YES!
Home.
- Yes.- What is it? Can you hear me? Darling, can you hear me?Her eyes fluttered open for the first time in seven days.- Tyler. - Lil looked at the face hovering over hers. She closed her eyes again.
It's too bright.
- Are we home? - Yes, we're home.Tyler sat by her side on the bed. It was high noon so he was the only one with Lil at the moment.The nurse and Miles would not get back 'till night time.- How are you feeling? - He rested his hand on her forehead for a second to check on her temperature. - Thirsty. And it's too bright. - Give me a second.Tyler got up and closed the bedroom door. He pulled the curtains on the small window, allowing just enough light in so the room he could see Lil and Lil could see him.- What about now? - He asked her.- It's better. Thanks.He poured her a glass of water and sat next to her again.- Take just a small sip to start, ok? It's been a week, the nurse said you might feel nauseous.- A week? - She tried to lift her upper body a bit but felt something sharp in her shoulder. - AHHH F-- - Easy. Let me help you. - Tyler put an extra pillow under Lil's head. - Better this way? - Yeah, thank you. - Do you remember you were shot in the leg, as well? - I don't exactly remember but I can feel it. - Lil replied before sipping her water.
Why did they never tell me this hurts so much?
- How's everyone? - Worried about you. - Oh my God, Michael! They killed Michael! He was right behind me, I remember!- Yes... Michael is gone. But you saved all the rest of us. Do you remember what you did?Lil fell silent for a while.- I told Miles to get you and come home. I don't remember much after that. - We made it home and that's on you.Lil handed her glass of water over to Tyler. It was still full.He put it on the dressing table.- I hate being the dead horse.- I don't feel like you're being it, actually. - You're just being polite. You mentioned a nurse and everyone being worried. And it's been seven days so it's pretty clear some of you are taking turns to watch me. Just like we did when Miles got shot last year. I hate causing this kind of trouble.- We are taking turns but none of the boys mind. I don't mind for sure.- Ugh, I might look terrible. And I feel awfully weak. - Well, you've lost a lot of blood and the food they've been force feeding you for about four days now it's not enough to compensate for that. - Argh.- But don't worry, you still look cute.Lil smiled at little.- You know I can tell when you're lying, right? - Yes, I do know that. And it's exactly because I know that, that I'm telling you still look cute. Not as cute as in the night we met but still cute.
8 months ago, Chicago.
- And what brings you here, Mrs. Jones?- I'm just accompanying my boys.Lil pointed at the stage where the Death Ramps were playing.- So you know the lads? - Yes. We're very close.- You're not married nor you're engaged to none of them, though.She noticed he was looking at her hands, searching for a plain gold ring.- Very observant. - She smiled a bit at Tyler. - And no, I'm not. Our relationship is professional. I sing with the band back at their pub in Florida. - I see. Me and my friends got a band, too.- Oh, you do? Tell me about it! - We mostly play here in Chicago. We never left the city as a band, actually. - What do you leave the city as of? A gang? - Lil joked. - Maybe. - Tyler looked into her eyes. - So you guys play together and rob banks together, then? - She tried to make it sound like a joke again.- Mostly small businesses, but yeah. - Tyler had mischief in his eyes.- I bet you never killed anyone, tho. - Lil went on.- Don't bet too high, you may lose your money. - Tyler said.- You guys wanted?- I can't tell you that but would it be too bad if we were?- It'd be bad if you were to flee the town very soon.- Then it is bad indeed.- Mhm... Mr. Parkford, I think I might have found you just the job if you and your friends care to meet up with me and my friends again here, tomorrow.
Now.
- You're as just as cute as that night, tho. It's not fair. - Lil replied.Tyler smirked at her.- But back to it, now. I have to phone the boys, tell them you woke up.- What time is it?- Half past noon.- Then don't phone them yet. I can't deal with commotion right now. - Ouch.- Sounds bad, I know. But I really can't have a million questions asked yet. - I understand. Well, you should really rest. The boys mentioned a french singer and a party...?- Yeah?- Well, the party is in four days, they were debating if they should call it off but didn't want to upset the singer and they didn't have an excuse to give to her or their girls. - Four days! - She clicked her tongue.- You seem upset about it.- I was gonna sing too! I don't think I can do it anymore. But maybe it's better this way, I don't want to embarass myself in front of Elisa. - You could never. I've seen you on that stage and I can tell you that no men had their eyes anywhere else but on you while you sang. - Maybe, but she's... well, she's herself. I could never compete.- It's not a competition, is it? - No, it's not. I'm just so glad she's coming. I've always wanted to go and see her but I've never had the chance. - Why's that?- Because I'm always here with the boys. - You seem very devoted to them.- They saved me. I told you the story.
Sort of.
- Maybe it's time you leave the nest? I mean, if you wanted so much to see this artist, why didn't you just take some days off? They would not die without you around for a few days.- I know they would not but I'd be worried about them, about leaving them.- Leaving just for a few days.- Even for a few days. And besides why would I want to go to Paris by myself?- You wouldn't have to go by yourself.- Oh, but I would. All the boys are married, I have no girlfriends, I won't want to go with Miles. Who's left?- Would you go to Paris with me?-------------------------------------------------------- Take me to the hotel, please. - Do you think she can go back to her hotel, miss? - Alex asked the nurse. She never looked at none of them boys directly. - I don't see why not. She hasn't got the fever for a few days now and the wounds are healing up as expected. If you don't make any efforts you should be ok. - The nurse said to Lil.- But who's gonna take care of you there? We can't just go there every day. - Alex asked.- Is the strike over? - Lil asked.- For now, yes. - The maids will help me out. I don't have to tell them I got shot, I can tell them that I've been abroad and had, I don't know, a skiing accident. - Skiing? You had your feet still hurt the night you left! They're are not gonna buy that. - Miles protested.- I can't tell them I was attacked by a bear, either. - What if you don't tell them anything at all? - Matt said.- I don't plan to but if they start asking stuff I better have a fucking good excuse for my wounds.-------------------------------------------------------- Yes, I was terrified. I'm never going back to Canada ever again!Lil spoke on the phone to Mr. James on the reception as Tyler watched her. He had taken her upstairs.- Thank you, Mr. James. Will do, bye!Lil put the phone back on the nightstand.- A moose in the middle of the road, at night, in Canada? - He bought it. - I would have, you're convincing as hell. You gave him details. How would he not to buy it? - I think the details were a little too much, tho. - The Devil is in the details. - So I'm the Devil.- You could be it if you wanted to. - I'll think about it. - She smirked at Tyler.- Well, I better go now. You'll be fine? - I'd like it if you stayed. - Lil said.- Won't they talk?- Let them talk! And it won't be Mr. James at the reception in the morning, anyways. You could be a guest from last night just before... the other receptionist arrived to take over Mr. James' turn.- The other receptionist. What's his name again? - Tyler said.- Not Mr. James. - You're staying here for almost a year and you don't know his name? - Tyler laughed.- Should I? - I don't know. What about the maids?- What about th-- Ok, you don't wanna stay. Sorry for asking. - Lil turned her head to the side a bit, trying to hide her disappointment.
She really liked Tyler.
- No, it's not that. - He approached her. - I'm just making sure they won't kick you out for indecency. You know, having a guy over and everything.- It's not like we're doing anything wrong. - Lil said.She couldn't stand all that "shame on you" bullshit people would throw at girls if they tried to be a bit bolder, if they wished they were as bold as the men were.- I know it's not. - Even tho I really wanted to do some wrong things with you.- Actually, I know you love games so I have one ready for you. If you're up to the "challenge", I mean - Lil said.- What would that be? - Go home in the morning, grab some clothes, come back before noon when Mr. James' next shift starts. He won't know you got out and the other receptionist won't know you got in again. Spend the next four days with me. We can hang the "Don't disturb" sign on the door handle and we shall be fine.- See, you're the little devil in the details. I'm up for it. - Really? - Yes. - Tyler smiled at Lil and she smiled back at him.The next day Tyler went home in the morning, as Lil told him to. He came back by eleven carrying some shopping bags and a small suitcase."Not Mr. James" phoned Lil at her room and she told him to let Tyler upstairs.The pair spent the next couple days playing cards, reading books, laughing, planning their trip to Paris - which Lil didn't believe Tyler was serious about at first - and occasionally Lil would sing as Tyler played the piano. He would never sing for they didn't want him to be heard.On the third day, there was an unexpected knock at Lil's bedroom door.Tyler went to hide in the bathroom, as he always did every time Lil really needed a maid to come in with food.- Who's it? - It's me. - A known voice said.Tyler came out his hiding spot and unlocked the door. He went to sit at the armchair by the window.- Come in, it's open. - Lil said.- You still leave your door op-- Miles looked confused when he saw Tyler sitting on the armchair. - Close the door, please. - Lil said.- But they told me you were alone. - Miles said.- They don't know he's been here for two days. - Lil replied. - What you doing here?- I could ask the same thing about him. - Miles sounded upset but said - Actually it's none of my business.- Exactly. - Lil said.- Well, I came to see how are you. The party is happening the day after tomorrow so you better be rested. - Miles looked briefly at Tyler, who had a playful expression painted on his face. - At what time should I come pick you up? - I'm taking her. - Tyler said.- Oh, are you now? I see. Well, - he turned his gaze back at Lil - you think you'll be ok for the night? I mean, it's not like you're dancing, remember what the nurse said, but still... - Yeah, I will be ok. - Lil smiled a bit.- I'm on my way to the airport to pick up Ms. Bouchou, by the way. - Oh! - Lil clapped her hands in excitement. - I can't believe she's really gonna sing in our stage! I mean, your stage.- I'd say our stage, indeed. - Miles replied. - But yeah, if everything is ok and you don't need anything...- No, I don't. Thank you. - I'm on my way, then. See you at the party. - Miles nodded before getting up to leave.- Er... Miles? - What's it?- Don't mention to Elisa I sing at the pub, sometimes. Ok? Tell the boys to do the same. Please.- What? Why not? - Miles asked.- Nothing. Just do it as I say, ok? - Ok.Miles left the room and Tyler went to lock the door again.Lil smiled a bit, lost in her thoughts.- You don't really see it or you chose to ignore it? - What?- Miles.- What about him?- He likes you.Lil started laughing.- No, he doesn't. - She said to Tyler, still smiling.- If you say so. - No, I know he doesn't. If he liked me, we wouldn't fight all the time. We've had the worst fights you can ever imagine. I threatened to shoot him so many times I lost count. And he threatened to shoot me, as well. We're always at each other's throats.- And what do you guys fight about so much anyways?- I don't really know. When I realize we're already fighting. But enough with this "Miles talk", ok? Come back to my side.- I was just making sure.- About what?
That I'm not dealing with any buried deep feelings for him, here.
- Actually, nevermind. - Tyler said at last.------------------------------------------------------- Mademoiselle Bouchou, welcome to Florida. - Miles greeted the French lady and kissed her hand. - Oh, what a gentleman. Thank you, my dear. - Ms. Bouchou replied, smiling at Miles.Miles thought she was very pretty and very... French. And by that he meant that her clothes seemed fancy, she had delicate manners and a beautiful accent.Her hair was short and blonde. Suited her face perfectly.She had adorable eyes as well.- I'm gonna put your luggage in the car and we're ready to go.She nodded.Miles opened the door of the backseat of his car for her.He got into the driver's seat just a while later.- What makes an English man leave England for the States? - She asked Miles.
I'm kinda of wanted there.
- Well, the weather is so much better here in Florida. - Miles said. It wasn't a lie at all. - The weather's never this nice back home.- I see. But you're not a Londoner, I can tell. - No, I'm not. I come from the Wirral. It's near Liverpool. - Oh, I've been to Liverpool. Lovely place.Miles and Elisa kept chatting the whole way to her hotel.- This is the best one around here. - Miles spoke as the staff of the hotel started to take her luggage off his car. - Me and all my business' partners hope you enjoy the city and the stay. If you need absolutely anything, this is our telephone number at the pub so you can phone us and we'll be here in a second. - Miles smiled at her. - Well, I do need something. - May I help you?- I believe so. Well, let's just say you've just been promoted to my tour guide. - She smiled at him.-------------------------------------------------------- Miles, the fuck 'ave you been? It's been hours? Did Ms. Bouchou like her hotel? - Alex asked as soon as Miles walked back into the pub.- I don't know I'm just coming back from there. - He replied.- What? - Alex asked, confused. - You left this morning to pick her up and leave her at her hotel, did you not do it?- I did. - I don't understand.- Where's the lady? - Matt walked in, trying to fix his hair.- At her hotel. - Then why does it smell like if the lady is here? - Matt asked confused.Alex hit his own head with the palm of his hand.- WHAT THE FUCK! - He yelled.- What's wrong? - Matt asked.- Miles, did you... - What? No, no, no! I was giving the lady the tour of the city! I may be - he brought his right sleeve close to his nose - smelling like a french lady but it's because I held HER ARM for the whole afternoon. What the hell, Alex?- Ok, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I forgot about Lil.- Lil? What happened to her this time? - Matt asked and Alex looked at him like "am I the only one who sees it?".- And you had to talk about her, right? - Miles said, sarcastically. - Don't worry about her, Alex. She's completely fine. I went to check on her before going to the airport. - Miles said and started to walk away.But then he stopped and went back to the same spot he was standing before.- Did you know Tyler has been in her hotel room for the past two days? - Miles asked Alex and Matt, but mainly Alex. - What? - Alex seemed confused again.- Yes. They don't even know he's there. She's hiding him. So you can stop talking about "Lil this, Lil that" to me, thank you very much.He said and really walked away this time.-------------------------------------------------------- You look beautiful! - Tyler kissed Lil's cheek when he opened the door to her room at the hotel, he had gone home to change to his tuxedo. - So do you! - She smiled at him. - Ready to go? - I think so.Tyler put Lil in his arms and started to make his way downstairs with her.- Why don't you move to a place with an elevator? - He asked.- I thought about it since I cut my feet but this place really feels like home by now. I couldn't really just leave it all behind because of an elevator. Am I too heavy for you?Tyler laughed.- Absolutely not, my dear. I was really just thinking about you going up and down the stairs. - I like it, actually. It really wakes me up in the morning and tires me up at night so I can sleep more heavily. - I think so. But the bed really helps. - Tyler whispered, making Lil laugh. - Yeah, that too.They arrived at the pub.Lil made her way, with Tyler's help, to a table reserved for her near the stage. She greeted the boys, hugged Alexa, and finally met Breana, Katie and Kelly. She also met Miles' mother, Pauline.The pub was full.The lights went off and she walked into the spotlight.People started to applaud like crazy as Ms. Bouchou thanked them and made her way to her side of the stage.- Is she singing with the boys? - Lil thought aloud when another spotlight started to shine.Miles walked into the light. He bowed at Elisa and took her hands, kissing them.He also walked to a certain part of the stage and started playing, with the band. He started singing
Walking down some cobbled street
The sound of water near my feet
I found her
A hundred thousand flashes hit my mind
Soon my arms were all around her
We lay and let our heart take wings
and fly across the Seine
Love came for us from the sky
pretending it was rain
Oooh, Paris summer
And then Elisa' sweet voice was heard
Standing on some cobbled street
The sound of water near my feet
You found me
I took the wedding ring off of my hand
Before he put his arms around me
I lived my lie and dreamed his dreams
And lay beyond the Seine
When I left the tears I cried he though were just the rain
Oooh, Paris summer
And then they started to take turns at the verses.
Walking down some cobbled street
Le son de l'eau près de mes pieds,
I found her
J'ai enlevé l'alliance à mon doigt,
Before I put my arms around her
We lay and let our heart take wings
Je me suis couché près de la Seine.
When I left the tears I cried
He though were just the rain
Oooh, l'été à Paris
Ooh, Paris summer
They finished the song together and were immensely applauded by every single living soul in that pub that night.The smiles only grew bigger on everyone's faces.Elisa's voice was terrific and she put so much of her soul to each word of a song that you could almost touch it.She sang about ten songs before leaving, under complaints she was leaving, the stage. The boys presented her with bouquets of yellow roses.Which by now they had had a lesson from their wives explaining the meaning of each colour.Miles accompanied her to her table as the boys kept playing as the Arctic Monkeys, now.After their show, the boys came down from the stage and started to introduce their wives, and mother, to Ms. Bouchou.- Lil! - Alex called. - Come over here.Lil looked at Alex and then back at Tyler.- I can't do it, I'm too nervous. - You'll be fine, dear. - Don't leave my side.Lil and Tyler approached Alex and he introduced them to Elisa.- And this is our partner in crime, - Alex loved like how that phrase sounded so innocent yet had so much meaning behind it - Lil. - It's an indescribable honor to meet you. I've been wanting to watch you sing for ages, now. - Lil smiled at her.- I heard it was your idea, bringing me here. - It really was. - Nick said.- I'm very glad I have so many lovely admirers in the States, I could never imagine. - She smiled at everyone. - Thank you for inviting me. And you, gentlemen! What a band! - She laughed in delight. - And Miles told me there's two formations to it, isn't it?Alex thought it was funny how she called Miles by his first name but never called any of the other boys by their first names.- Yes. - Alex replied. - When we play with Miles, we're the Death Ramps and when he's not on stage, we're the Arctic Monkeys. - I love that name for a band, by the way. - Yeah. - Jamie laughed. He was the one to come up with the "Monkeys" bit. - Well, our pub it's called the "Arctic" and when we first started with this place a certain man said we were "monkeys that couldn't play for our lives".- And we proved him wrong. - Matt said.Everyone laughed.- But well, when we sing with Lil we don't actually have a name. - Nick said.Lil mentally slapped him across his face.- Oh, so do you sing too? - Elisa asked.- Sometimes but it's usually when one of the boys is away or something like that. Tell us again about Paris, Ms. Bouchou. Tyler and I are actually planning to go there in a few months. - Lil said.All of the boys' eyes were glued to her now.- I'll tell you everything about Paris if you sing for us. You're the only one who didn't sing tonight. - Elisa said.
Goddamn it, Nick!
- I'd love to but I've hurt my leg, you see? I can't go on the stage. - Lil told her.- Oh, such a shame! But well, since you're planning on going to Paris, if I'm there, I insist you sing for me, ok?
We're actually going there to watch you.
- Yes! - Lil replied, agreeing to whatever Elisa proposed so the subject could be changed.Elisa started to talk about how things were in France.All the ladies were paying attention but the boys were still looking at Lil and Tyler.------------------------------------------------------- But why? - I've never been abroad, Alex. I really want to go. And it's not happening for a few months anyway, I need to be completely healed first. Let me live a little.Alex had Lil cornered somewhere away from Tyler in the pub.- But I thought being here was "living a little". - And it is. But it's exactly it: little. I wanted to see the world and now I can. - So you're leaving us? - For a few days.- And after that?- What do you mean? - You're gonna be away again and again and again. And then... maybe you'll just go away.- Alex! Al! There's no way I'm leaving you boys. But it's just like Tyler said; maybe it'll be good for me to leave the nest a little bit.
Tyler said.
Tyler.
- You guys have your wives and kids and Miles has his mum. You all have real reasons to stay here all the time but I don't. I'd like to take advantage of that and travel a little from time to time. You heard what Ms. Bouchou told us about France. It must be so beautiful!But Alex had stopped to listen to Lil after she said she had no real reason to stay.- So you don't 'ave it? - Excuse me, what?- A reason to stay. You don't 'ave it?- Not like you guys have.- I thought we were "reason" enough. You know, you're like our sister, here. We care about you a whole lot. The other boys will be really sad too when you leave.Alex said and walked away.The other boys will be really sad too.- Alex! - Lil called. - Al...She sighed heavily.- Everything ok? - Tyler approached Lil. - I've been looking for you. - Alex had me cornered. He's upset about us going to Paris. - What is it to be upset about? - Tyler asked.- He thinks I'm leaving. He doesn't get the "just for a few days" part. - Lil said.- I see.Both fell silent.- What are you gonna do? - Tyler asked.- What? Well, I'm gonna go to Paris and then I'm coming back here. They'll see I'm never abandoning them as Alex thinks I'll be doing.- Are you sure you're going?- Yes, I am. There's nothing to be doubtful about.Tyler nodded.- Anyway, it's getting pretty late. Can you take me back to the hotel? - Yes, I was actually going to suggest that, you seem pretty tired.- I actually am.Lil and Tyler left.The boys were watching them.
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- What do you propose we do? We can't just tell him to go away. - Matt said.- Why not? - Alex asked. - 'Cause if we do that and she really likes him, she's gonna follow him wherever he goes. You told me she told you she doesn't 'ave "a reason to stay", what if he's it? - Matt explained.- Then what do we do? - Alex said, but not really asking.- He could... die. I bet he has at least ten people looking for him back in Chicago.- If you're killing him or turning him in, it's gonna be by yourself. You know no truths stay underneath forever, even when there's endless layers of lies on top of it. - Alex told Matt, making it absolutely clear that he was not willing to kill Tyler. - If she wants to go, we can't make her stay. What if there was someone trying to separate you from Breana? I don't know, Matt. I think we're being selfish this time around.- Well, you're the one who's making it seem like a huge deal.- It is a huge deal. I just don't know if I'm ready to deal with it. I was never the one to lose people. - Alex said.- Nick is gonna be pretty upset as well. Do you think we should tell him? - No, I don't think we should tell Nick and Jamie about this part. I'll tell them I spoke to Lil last night but I ain't gonna tell them she said what she said.- Yeah, I think you're right.- And we're not telling Miles, either. - Alex added.-------------------------------------------------------- Good morning. - Lil smiled a bit at Tyler and stretched her arms. - Good morning-ish. - Tyler replied, kissing the corner of Lil's mouth. - What time is it? - Almost 1 p.m.- But we came back to the hotel fifteen minutes ago and it was like, 3 a.m. or something.Tyler laughed.- It's ok if you want to sleep a little longer, dear. You're still not going back to the pub, today, anyways. - I don't want to leave you hanging out by yourself. - Lil said.- No, no, no. Don't worry about me. I'm gonna sleep a bit more as well, I was just making sure you're alright. - Tyler said, reassuring Lil she could sleep as much as she wanted to.Lil looked at Tyler's face.He didn't look sweet at all but still he was sweet. Very sweet.She liked that.- Will you hold me? - She asked him. - You don't have to ask twice. - Tyler put his arms around Lil and held her close to his chest. She rested her face against the fabric of his shirt.It was so good to feel loved and protected.Now that she finally understood how that felt, after growing up without her parents and never really having Victor's love, or any other man's love, she found out it felt good as hell.
I'm never gonna let this go.
------------------------------------------------------Two more days passed and Lil did not show up at the pub.- Maybe someone should go check on her? - Nick suggested.- I wouldn't bother. - Miles said. - Last time Tyler was there, bet he's still is. - But what if, I don't know, she fainted and hit her head? - Nick insisted.- And nobody from the hotel would notice that? No, Nick. Sure she's fine. - Alex said. - Besides, she needs much more than two weeks for that leg wound to heal up decently so she can properly walk. I don't think she'll be coming in for a while.Nick was about to say something again when he was interrupted by Miles.- Anyway, it's time I leave. I'm taking Elisa to the airport. - He got up.- You guys really first name basis, aren't ya? - Matt asked.- Yeah, but don't start with the funny ideas. - Miles said. - I wasn't gonna start anything. Not even if I wanted to. Not in the mood. - Matt said. - There's no mood to be in lately, it seems. - Jamie added. - Yeah. - Nick agreed.Miles left the pub and started driving to the airport.- You're gonna drive by her hotel on the way and you're a bit early. - He was talking to himself, as usual. - You could stop by. I don't know, say 'ello.He stopped talking for a moment.- Yeah, I don't think it's a good idea, either. If she needed any help she would 'ave phoned the pub or Alex's house as she always does. And why is it you who's gonna 'ave to go check on her, anyways? Let the others go if they really want to. Your job saving her is done, Miles. All that's left to save now is yourself.He passed by Lil's hotel without even looking at it.- You really not from the band, you told me that yourself. I could make you a famous solo artist, Miles. We could sing Paris Summer together whenever our tour locations met. - It's very tempting, I'm not gonna lie. But would involve being away from my mum for very long periods of time and also moving her to France. I don't think she would be willing to start again and I would never leave her behind. - I see. Really. - Elisa smiled bittersweetly at him. - You promise you're gonna visit us in France? - You promise the great Elisa Bouchou is not gonna forget about this old chap?Elisa laughed.- You ain't old. You're my husband's age! And no, I won't forget about you.- Then I will definitely go see you guys in France. I look forward to meeting your husband, he sounds like a good man. - Miles said.- The very best of them. - Elisa smiled a genuine smile this time. - Hope it doesn't take too long 'till we can sing together again. It was delightful.- Me too, my dear. It's been a pleasure. - Well, time to go. Remember your promises mon ami. Au revoir. - Elisa waved at him.- Will do. Goodbye, my friend. Tell Mr. Kazuya I said hi. - Will do.Miles watched as Elisa disappeared amongst the crowd.
I would go to Paris to start again, I really would.
I just don't think I can be the stranger in a stranger's land again.
My family is here, my home is here now.
I'm sorry.
He thought about what he kept himself from saying before turning around to go back to the pub.-------------------------------------------------------- You not coming in, again?
One month later.
- I'm not feeling too well, Al. - What are you feeling? - I have this headache and I feel cold. - A'ight man, hope you get better soon. - Thanks. I will, refill day is just around the corner. - Don't worry about that. Get some rest, Miles. See you soon. - See you soon, Al.Miles ended the call and went back to his bed.It was almost noon.He pulled the blanket over his body.He was perfectly ok, he couldn't remember the last time he got sick. He just thought Alex would never understand if he told him that their workplace felt too empty now, that the feeling of something missing was too heavy to carry to and fro all day everyday the pub opened.That the usual banter wasn't enough anymore.He rolled over to his side.- Another night tossing and turning, not getting any sleep, eh? - He whispered to himself.Miles heard keys jiggling in the kitchen and pretended to be asleep.- Son?He didn't reply at first.- Son? - Yeah?Footsteps came closer and the door to his bedroom was opened.- You're still home. Are you ok?- Yeah, I'm just not gonna go to work today. - Miles said, looking at his mum.- Why's that?- I asked for a day off. I'm tired.- I see. Well, I came to water your poor plants but since you're home, I'm gonna make you something for lunch.- It's ok, mum. - Miles shaked his head - I want to sleep a little longer and after that I can drive downtown and eat something. - He rolled over again, turning his back to the door and therefore to his mum. - I'll pick you up by seven. - He finished, pulling the blanket over his head.Pauline sighed.- You're ain't tired, son. You're sad. - She said, closing the door.- Yeah, it might be it. - He spoke to himself.Miles spent all afternoon staring at the ceiling of his bedroom.Sprawled across his bed.His disheveled hair sticking out in every direction.He might even have gotten a project of a beard on his jaw, by now.- Looking out my window... looking at...Miles started singing to himself.Actually, just singing was not quite the word.He was creating.- Looking out my window, looking at the rain.Nothing left but sorrow, nothing left but pain...Miles sighed.- This is bullshit. This is fucking bullshit! - He started to kick the air like a spoiled child not getting a stupid big toy for Christmas. - I FUCKING HATE YOU!He got off the bed and walked into the bathroom.Facing himself in the mirror.He could see the dark circles adorning his brown eyes.He looked down at his feet.- You can't lose control. You can't lose control.He started repeating to himself.Over and over and over and over.Miles stopped and took a deep breath.He closed his eyes.- What are you doing?
They were on the pub's rooftop.
- Escaping. - She said.
- May I? - He pointed at the space by her side.
- Yeah.
Silence.
- I hate champagne. - She said.- Yet you're downing a bottle. - I'm punishing myself. Maybe I'll get drunk and lucky enough to fall from up here.- Jeez. What is that so wrong you've done?- I don't really know. I just feel so awful. It's like I haven't been doing anything right for ages now. - Well, if you weren't, Alex would have probably kicked you out by now. So don't worry.- Yeah, but I mean with my life. I'm going down this path and I'm young but I'm not gonna stay young forever. Will I ever be able to stop or am I gonna stay chained to this and live on the run? Did I think about it when I shot Tom? Was I signing the contract when I shot his body? What if I...- You're overthinking it. - But isn't it better to think about it now than to think about it later when it's already too late? I don't care if I will end up dead, I'm just afraid any of you guys are gonna be taken away from, well, me... your families as well. What if I want to start a family of my own? Will my ghosts follow me? Will they haunt my children? - I don't know. I never thought about it. - Maybe you should.- What for? So I would be drinking this "awful" champagne to get myself drunk and fall of a building?- Think about it when you're not near any buildings, then. - She said, drinking a little more from the bottle. She put it by her side and raised her gaze to the sky.
He pushed the bottle, pretending it was an accident.
- Shit. - He said as the bottle was falling from the roof.
They watched as it got shattered on the floor.
- I'm sorry. - He fake apologized. - It's alright. I'm gonna get another bottle. - She said, dragging her legs off the edge of the building and getting up. - Come on!- What?
Miles got up too.
- Let's go out, I'll grab some decent drinks and we can go sit on the beach to have our existential crisis, what do you say?
- You amazing son of a--
- Don't!
She laughed.
- Sorry.
He smiled a little.
- I fucking love you. - She said.
Miles looked at himself on the mirror again.- SHE'S SO FUCKING DERANGED! - He yelled at his own image. Tugging on his own hair. - Why do I feel like I lost her if I never even had her in the first place? Why do I feel like wanting to drown her at the same time I want to... kiss her? This can't be love, Miles Kane. Love is not like this, you know very fucking well.
You know it.
Don't you?
Miles turned the shower on and got in, fully clothed. He sat on the floor.- You can't lose control. Don't lose control.------------------------------------------------------- I'm finally going back tomorrow. - Lil smiled, looking up, her eyes following the smoke of Tyler's cigarette as they were parked somewhere along the shore to watch the sunset. - You really like that place, don't you? - It's my home as well. I like to feel like I belong. - She replied.- It's great to see this permanent smirk on your face. - Tyler said and watched the smirk turn into a full smile.- And I never thought things could get better but I'm glad I was wrong.- Yeah? Why's that? - A smirk on his own face.- You came along.He leaned on to kiss her.Is it time to say it? Lil thought.- I love you. - He whispered, his face close to hers.- I love you. - She echoed him as a she felt a smile grow on her face. Tyler was smiling too.He held her in his arms.- I wish I could freeze time right now. - she whispered.- But if you did that, tomorrow would never ever come and you've been talking about it all day.- It doesn't really matter. I wish I could stay here, in your arms, forever. - Well, we can't be here forever but you can certainty stay in my arms forever. - He said, kissing the top of her head. - You can stay in my arms around the world forever.- You really doing it? - she asked.- I can't back down now, the guys are counting on me. I'll do it and we'll go to Paris the next day. They'll never catch me. It's gonna be ok. - He caressed her arm.They kept watching the waves die on the beach.- I want in. - She said.- What? - Tyler asked, surprised.She untangled his arms around her and switched her position on the passenger seat so she could look into his eyes.- I want in it. - She repeated.- I don't think it's a good idea. - I don't think it's a good idea you do it as well but still I never told you not to.He sighed.- You already have your business with the boys, why do you want to take part on a heist? - I want to learn. The business is been going good so far but as you know it, I'm not their actual partner, I just tagged along. And every refill day is a complete agony for me, I'm afraid things might go wrong again. I'm afraid one of the boys might end up dead.- What about yourself?- I'm never afraid for myself. I accepted all the risk being associated to a gang means. Every time a gun is pointed to me I fight but I accept it may be the last time, that's what I signed up for when I decided to really go down this way.Tyler just kept staring at her.- I'm not afraid, Ty.- No, but I am. - He replied. - We just started, what if I lose you? - You're never going to.-------------------------------------------------------- Did you get some sleep? - Pauline asked Miles when he walked in her house.- Not much, but it's ok. - He answered. - Ready?- I didn't think you were serious. - Come on, ma!- I didn't think you were serious! I just had dinner. I'm sorry. Besides, you said seven and it's seven-forty already. - Yeah, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, ma. - It's ok. Sit down, I'm gonna get something for you to eat. - No, no. Don't worry. I'm gonna go to the restaurant, anyways. But do you promise you'll believe me next time I tell you we're going out for dinner?- Yes. I promise, son. I'm sorry.- It's ok, my love.Miles kissed his mum's forehead and started to leave.- Don't go home too late, ok?- A'ight, mum.Miles went back to his car and started to drive again.He parked at a restaurant downtown. One he had never been to before.- Welcome, sir. - Thank you. I'd like a table, please. - Yes. This way, please.The woman took Miles to a table.- A waiter will be with you in a moment. - She said, giving him the restaurant's menu.- Thank you.She left and he started to try to decide what his order would be.The waiter came and Miles told him he'd like to have the chef surprise him.And he was very surprised indeed when he saw a burger come to his table.He started laughing a little bit.Miles took a bite on his food and was surprised again.He finished eating, paid his tab and told the waiter to get the chef.He wanted to see the mind behind that move.And then she appeared.Miles was even more surprised the chef was a woman.- Good evening, sir. The waiter told me you'd like to talk to me?
And she is British!
- Yes. I'd like to thank you for surprising me this much. Your food is delicious. - Thank you, sir. I'm very glad you enjoyed your meal.- Very much. - Miles smiled a bit at her.She smiled back at him.- Now if you excuse me...- Yes, of course. Actually, just one question. - Miles pointed at her. - From which place in London? If I may...- Hammersmith. - She replied with a smile and left.Miles left too.He had a little smile on his face.------------------------------------------------------- Hello, boys!Lil said when she walked into the pub.- Lil! - Nick dropped what he was doing and went to give her a hug.Jamie did it too.Alex and Matt exchanged a glance before walking up to meet her.- I've missed this. - Lil said after hugging Jamie.- Did you now? - Alex asked, approaching her.- Of course I did, Alex. To spend a month in bed is actually no fun. I was dying to get back here.She looked at Alex and he saw truth in the words she was speaking.He let go of his pose and went to give her a hug.Matt did it too.She smiled sweetly at them.- All my boys... Wait, where's Miles? - She asked.- Miles' sick. Didn't come in yesterday or the day before. - Matt said.- What does he have?- He said he had this headache and felt cold. Actually he just phoned this morning to tell us he's not coming in today, either. - Alex said. - I hope he recovers soon 'cause refill day is just around the corner. - Jamie said, scratching his nape. - Well, if he doesn't make it, I'm here now. - Lil said.- No way. You just came back to us. - Nick said. - We're not gonna let you just jump back into it. If you get shot again, you'll die this time around.- So will you guys. Or anyone who gets shot, actually. - Lil protested.- Yeah, we know that. But if I get shot in the arms or legs I won't die but maybe you will. You lost too much blood, a month didn't make up for it yet and that's for sure. - Alex said.Lil just looked at him.- I wish I could say you're wrong. - She told him. - Any of you guys went to check on Kane boy? - She asked.- No, not really. He hates when we do it, actually. - Matt said.- Gets bloody angry. - Alex added.- Remember last time he had that stomach flu a couple years ago and you went to check on him? - Nick asked Alex, laughing a bit. - It was a fucking disaster. He vomited all over my clothes. - Alex said.- Give him a discount, he was sick. - Lil said.- It was on purpose! Man, it was on purpose! - Alex protested.Lil thought about that situation for a second before deciding that she really didn't want to imagine that.- Ok, ok. Stop. - Lil said.- Not funny, right? - Alex said.- No, not a bit. But I feel like I should go check on him. He always does that to me and I don't think he's gonna puke on me... Anyways, I'll be back in a second. - Take my car. - Jamie said. - His house is not exactly right around the corner. - I was gonna take a cab but thanks, Jamie.Lil grabbed his keys and started driving to Miles' house.She parked Jamie's car right next Miles'.She knocked on the front door.No answer.- Come on, I know you're in there! Alex told me you phoned the pub this morning. - She spoke a bit louder.Still no answer.Lil started walking around the house, trying to see him through one of the windows.She went back to the front door.- Come on, Kane! I'm not leaving 'till you show up. You're stubborn but you know I'm much more stubborn than you.No answer.
But the window is half open.
Miles is such a control freak, he would never leave the house and leave the window open.
- Miles? - She called again.Still no answer.Lil went around the house again and managed to get in through the window.She started to walk furtively inside the house. Until she remembered with whom she was dealing with.
I'm not ending up shot again.
- Miles? - she called.Lil had never been inside Miles' house before so she had no idea where he could be. She entered and left rooms 'till she finally found him.He was on the bathroom floor.- Miles! - Lil ran to his side to check his pulse, it was almost non-existent. - What the hell, Miles? - She approached her face to try to smell traces of alcohol and check if he was still breathing.Didn't find any alcohol.He was barely breathing.- What have you done?Lil got up and tried to drag Miles out of the house to Jamie's car. She had no time to lose.The boys would not get there on time if she called them.She started pulling him outside but she felt a sharp pain on her thigh and let go of Miles for a second.- FUCK YOU, STUPID LEG!She yelled as she and Miles hit the floor.She got up again and saw it on the bathroom sink.A medium-sized bottle.She grabbed it with shaking hands.- Veronal*? What the hell is a whole bottle of this doing outside a hospital?She put the bottle inside her pocket and went back to try to drag Miles to the car.Every step she took came accompanied by the sharp pain and a scream.- YOU STUPID KANE! I FUCKING HATE YOU! THE HELL HAVE YOU DONE? WHERE DO YOU GET THESE THINGS FROM?She managed to drag him to the car and shoved him into it.She drove to the hospital as fast as she could.- HELP ME! SOMEBODY HELP ME! - She started screaming as soon as she stopped the car in front of the hospital.Parking would not really to be the case this time around.A bunch of people came to see what was happening.- What happened? - A nurse asked, while she and two men started helping Lil to get Miles out of the car.- HE'S DYING, HE'S DYING! HE'S NOT... HIS HEART NOT. - Lil could barely form sentences.The men took Miles away and Lil started crying.She could feel every nerve on her body start to fail its function.- He's... he's overdosing. It was accidental. - She started limping while making her way into the hospital as well. - I found this on his bathroom sink. - Lil put the bottle on the nurse's hand. - Please, help him. He can't die!She started crying harder and felt the really sharp pain in her leg again, she fell.- Don't mind me. Just help him. Help him!The nurse left but another one came to help Lil get off the floor.She couldn't stop crying.One thing was step into the danger knowing there are risks, another thing is to go to check on your friend and find him dying on the bathroom floor.She was scared he was gonna die.And for, maybe, the first time she acknowledged how terrifying "being scared" really was.-------------------------------------------------------Veronal: a popular sleeping powder in the 1920s, but like all sleep medicine, it could be dangerous. Many people were poisoned, accidentally committed suicide or were murdered.The normal dose was between 5 and 10 grains. A lethal dose has been reported to be around 50 grains. Veronal came in powdered form in a folded paper called a powder paper. The paper would be unfolded and the powder dropped into a beverage and drunk. It was also made in cachet (which are like small ravioli). The cachet was placed on the tongue and chased with a beverage or dissolved into a beverage and drunk.
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5 hours ago
- I'm sorry, Al. Maybe I'll be better tomorrow.Miles finished talking to Alex and put the phone back on its place at the public phonebooth at the beach.He had been at a pharmacy downtown and now he was making his way back home when he decided to phone the pub.Miles parked his car in front of his house.He threw his coat on the couch and put his sunglasses on the centre table in the living room before walking to his bedroom.He opened the window just a little bit and changed to his pyjamas before going into the bathroom.
How many did he say I should take again?
Miles took three cachets and went to bed.Half an hour later and he wasn't asleep yet.
Did that son of a bitch sell me sugar or what?
Miles got off his bed and went back into the bathroom. He grabbed the bottle again.Six cachets this time.He looked at himself in the mirror.His dark circles were even bigger and darker than the day before.He started to feel dizzy.
Now it is working, finally!
Miles turned around to go back to bed.Except he never made it.
Now
- She should be back by now. - Alex told Jamie and Nick. - I bet she's on the way. - He replied.The telephone rang.- Matt can you get that? - Alex shouted.- Aye! - Matt shouted back from where he was downstairs.- I want to see her face when we tell her. - Nick said and laughed a bit.- Yeah, it was the most... adorable thing she's ever done. - Jamie reminisced.- I want to know what she's gonna say when she learns that you guys grew jealous of Matt. - Alex said and laughed.- We didn't. It just sorta 'appened. It's funny a'ight but it wasn't planned. - Nick said and Jamie agreed. - And how do you know Alexa is not pregnant as well? - I don't know that but I think it's difficult because she says she doesn't want another baby. I wouldn't mind, actually. I really like babies and their small hands and feet. Aiden is growing up so fast, he's gonna be four in two months.- Maybe she'll change her mind when she holds our newbies. - Jamie said.Matt was running upstairs.The boys were laughing a bit about one last comment from Alex.- GUYS! - Matt yelled.He seemed... he seemed...- What is it? - Alex asked.- Miles... - Yeah, what about him?- Miles is dead.--------------------------------------------------------- But are you ok? - Why does it matter? Is he ok? - Of course it matters!She sighed.- My leg still hurts but it's gonna be fine. Would you tell me about Miles, now?- The doctors didn't tell me anything new. I gave them the pub's number so they can phone the boys and they can figure it out if they'll let Miles' mom know he's here or not. - Tyler said.Lil sighed again.- I hope the boys will know how to report the news.- Yeah. - Well, - Lil said, pulling the blankets off of her, - I'm gonna see if they'll tell me something about Miles. It's been hours already since I've last heard of him.- No. - Tyler gently put the blankets over her again. - I'll go. You stay right here and rest your leg.- But--- Lil, please. It should not be hurting this much you're complaining about by now, something is wrong and you know it too. Don't overwork it.She looked at Tyler and clicked her tongue.- Ok, I'll stay here. - I'll be right back. - He said, kissing her forehead before leaving.- You better come back with some news or I'm really going there myself! - She raised her voice a bit by the end of her speech so Tyler, who had already left, could hear her from the hallway.After a while, Tyler started making his way from the main hall back to Lil's room when he bumped into the boys.They looked... awful.- Tyler? - Alex said, surprised.- Oh, hello fellas. - What are you doing 'ere? - Lil is here... she brought Miles in. But you probably know he's here, that's why you're here as well. I gave the nurse the pub's number.- Yeah, they called us. - Nick said.- This feels awful. - Jamie said.- How's she holding on? - Alex asked Tyler.- Her leg started hurting again but the doctors said it'll be fine. - Tyler said. - That and she's stopped having "crying fits" every five minutes.Crying?Lil crying?- Well, it must've been hard on her... - Nick said.- Yeah, I mean-- Tyler started to say but was interrupted.- I know she's used to deal with bodies by now but... it was Miles. - Nick said again.- Excuse me. Body? - Tyler asked.- Yeah. Miles is... dead. - Matt said.- No, he's not! I just came back from his room, they finally let me in there. - Tyler said, he had a confused expression.- What? - Alex asked.- Yeah, I'm coming back to Lil's bedroom to tell her the doctors said Miles' gonna be fine. - But Matt said... - Alex turned around to look at Matt. - Wait a second, what did they say to you, again, Matt?- They told me he was virtually dead when he was brought in and asked one of his friends to come since he was... alone. - Matt said.- That is not the same as being dead dead. - Tyler said. - What the hell, Helders! I spent the whole way down 'ere thinking about how I'd break the news to Pauline. - Alex said.The other two boys had relieved expressions as well.- How would I know? I don't even know what that word means. Do you? - Matt asked the others.- Why the fuck does the dictionary exists for? I have one in my office. And you didn't even mentioned it like this before. You plainly told us "Miles is dead". What the-- Alex rested his back against the wall. - You ok? - Jamie asked Alex.- Yeah, it's just the weight of the World being lifted off my shoulders. - Alex replied, adjusting his posture. - I'm sorry, a'ight? I just... I think I was too shocked. The important part is that Miles is alive. - Matt said.- And he's gonna be fine. - Tyler added. - And he's gonna be fine. - Matt echoed. - Yeah but what 'appened in the first place? They didn't tell us anything about what really 'appened.- I think Lil can help with that. - Tyler said.- Yes, let's see her. - Alex said.- Well, I think all of you can't get in the room at the same time. They only allow two people each time.- Then me and Jamie are going to see Miles and you and Nick go to see Lil. - Matt said to Alex.- Yeah, we can meet back here again after we see them.- His room is on the other side, tho. The docs did an emergency something to his stomach so he's not exactly on the regular wing. - Tyler said.Matt and Jamie left and Alex and Nick started to follow Tyler to Lil's room. He explained to them everything the doctors had said they had to do with Miles and how they knew he was gonna be fine.
Time was essential, though.
- I brought you a little treat. - Tyler said as Alex and Nick walked into the room. She smiled at them. - Alright, I'll be right outside if you guys need me.- Wait, what abou-- Lil started but Tyler had closed the door already.- Miles? - Alex asked her.- Yeah, Tyler went to ask about him. - He was virtually dead when he arrived. - Alex said.Lil froze.- Alex! - Nick hit his arm when he noticed Lil was about to cry. - That means he's not really dead and that he's gonna be fine. We bumped into Tyler on his way back from Miles' room. - Nick approached the bed and held Lil's hand.- Then why did Alex say he's dead? - It's what they told Matt when they called us but it turns out that "virtually", whatever the hell this word means, it's not the same as being really dead. - The nurses should explain things in English, tho. I mean, I don't know that word... and it's, well, me. - Alex complained.Lil took a deep breath.- Thank God. I was so worried about Pauline, you guys have no idea. - She said.- Me too. - Alex said. - Now we're only gonna call her when Miles wakes up. I hope that's soon.- But what happened? - Nick asked Lil.She explained them how she suspected something was off when Miles seemed not to be home yet his car was parked and the window was open.- He would never leave without closing the goddamn window. I think he didn't die because the window is still open and he wants to go back to close it. He's so annoying about that. - Alex said.Nick scoffed.She went on telling them how she had found him and the bottle on the sink. How she dragged him out to Jamie's car and drove as fast as she could to the hospital.- I thank God you payed attention to the window. I don't know if I would have. - Nick said. - That and that you took all the right decisions after finding him. The doctors told Tyler that if more time had passed, he'd be really dead by now. You saved him. - Alex said. He kissed Lil's forehead and she smiled a bit. - How's your leg now?- It's hurting a little less. I might have pulled a muscle or something like that, it's gonna be fine. I'm just so, so, so happy Miles is ok. I was going... crazy I was gonna lose one of you.She seemed very tired.- We're tough. Hard to break. - Alex said. - Yes, you are. I love you guys so much, you're my family. - No, don't cry. - Nick said, looking for his handkerchief. He gave it to Lil. - I'm sorry, I've just being... silly all day with all these... tears. It's just that it feels so awful, being scared. I had never felt so scared before.- Everything's ok now. - Nick said.They chatted a little more and Alex and Nick left so Jamie and Matt could see Lil.- What? - Alex said after being smacked in the arm by Nick.- You scared her. You just had to say "he's fine" but then you started talking about that "virtually" shite. - Nick complained.- I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare her. To be really honest, I didn't even think it was possible.- Of course it is. In the end of the day she's just the same as we are: human. I know sometimes we are scared of her but it's just because she's very... intense about everything. We 'ave to stop thinking about her as a... I don't know... machine. She's just like our girls. - Nick said.- I don't think she's a machine. - Alex replied. - But yeah, sometimes I think she can handle much more stuff than what she really can. I had never seen her cry, that was the first time back there. Maybe now things will change a bit in my eye. - I hope it changes in mine too. And we're also gonna sit down the boys to talk about this. - Nick said.- Agreed.They walked into Miles' room after talking briefly to a nurse that was accompanying him.- Did someone punch him in the eye? - Nick whispered to Alex.- I know right? - Alex whispered back. - It seems like he really was in need of that nap.-------------------------------------------------------- What were you thinking, Miles? - Pauline held Miles hand as she spoke. By now he had been moved to a regular room.
3 days later.
- I'm sorry, I just wanted to sleep. It had been three days. - Miles had decided to tell his mom the truth about what had happened. - So you were not trying... I mean, you were never like this. You're so careful about everything.- I wasn't trying...?- To die...?- No! I wasn't trying to die. I would never take my life because of any woman. - Miles said, a bit upset in the end.- Then you really are sad. I never had a doubt about that but I was not sure about what that was about. And it turns out it's not a "what" it's a "she". - Mom, can we not? - Don't you trust me?- Of course I do, you know I do. I just don't want to talk about any of this. - Miles said.- I can but I won't force you to talk. - Pauline looked at Miles. - I just hope you find someone to talk to when you feel like it. Maybe one of the boys since you guys are such good friends... or even that lovely girl who sings with you. She was the one who saved you after all.- I don't feel like talking anytime soon. Where is Alex, by the way? - The boys are in Chicago. You had a show there, don't you remember? - Chicago? Oh... yeah. Chicago! I remember now.Actually, he had no idea why the guys could be in Chicago.--------------------------------------------------------
3 days ago.
- It's an ambush! - Lil said to Tyler.- What?- Don't you see? He is talking about them! Get me out of here, I need to find Alex right now. - But Lil, it's--- Tyler get me OUT of here!
Now
- Are we set?- Yes, stage is ready. - This time it was not a code.- I still can't believe we did it. I'm nervous, did they really just need a band or are they ambushing us again? - Matt asked the others.- I don't think they suspect about anything. - Jamie said.- You ready? - Alex asked everyone.- Yes. - Yes.- Aye.- Yes. You guys are gonna go up and they should start serving the booze right after just like we do back home. I believe it's gonna start very soon after that. - Lil said to Alex.- This is the craziest thing we've ever done. - Nick said.- Yet the cleverest.The boys started to adjust their ties and their instruments so they could walk into the cabaret in Chicago.- Good luck, boys. I'll be by the door taking care of... the astray. - Lil said to them.As planned, the band started playing and Lil followed with her eyes as the waiters started to walk around with drinks on their trays.The boys started to play their third song from their set that night.
Take a little walk to the edge of town
and go across the tracks
Where the viaduct looms,
like a bird of doom
As it shifts and cracks
Where secrets lie in the border fires,
in the humming wires
Hey man, you know
you're never coming back
Past the square, past the bridge,
past the mills, past the stacks
On a gathering storm comes
a tall handsome man
in a dusty black coat with
a red right hand
He'll wrap you in his arms,
tell you that you've been a good boy
He'll rekindle all the dreams
it took you a lifetime to destroy
He'll reach deep into the hole,
heal your shrinking soul,
but there won't be a single thing
that you can do
He's a god, he's a man,
he's a ghost, he's a guru
They're whispering his name
through this disappearing land
But hidden in his coat
is a red right hand
And then it started.The first man fell and some of the others went to check on him.Only to fall as well.The boys continued to play.Chaos started to take over.
You don't have no money?
He'll get you some
You don't have no car?
He'll get you one
You don't have no self-respect,
you feel like an insect
Well don't you worry buddy,
'cause here he comes
Through the ghettos and the barrio
and the bowery and the slum
A shadow is cast wherever he stands
Stacks of green paper in his
red right hand
You'll see him in your nightmares,
you'll see him in your dreams
He'll appear out of nowhere but
he ain't what he seems
You'll see him in your head,
on the movie screen
And hey buddy, I'm warning
you to turn it off
He's a ghost, he's a god,
he's a man, he's a guru
You're one tiny tiny cog
in his catastrophic plan
Designed and directed by
his red right hand
And as Alex sang the last word, the last man fell, still agonizing.The ones who hadn't been poisoned had been shot by Lil. No one could ever escape that cabaret that night.Of course Lil had managed to lock the girls in their dressing rooms before the boys started playing.
No women, no children.
- Can we go now? - Matt asked, putting away his drumsticks.- Yes, I believe we've reached our goal here. - Alex replied.The boys left and split up in the night, some on their way to the train station and some on their way to the airport. They had decided that catching a plane or a train back home all together would be too risky.- What's the next move? - Lil asked Alex as they walked around the station, looking for a bench to sit down.Lil had a fake pregnant belly and a wig going on.She and Alex were pretending to be a married couple.- Otis is the next move. He thought he was getting us killed, too bad for him. Now we watch him fall or we take him down ourselves.- I know right. Thank God for that talk-too-much-boy from Tyler's group.- Do I wanna know how d'you meet him again? - Alex asked. - I don't know, do you?- You tell me.They stopped talking as another couple passed by them.- Tyler and him have this thing they were hired to do, they're also both from Chicago and this man started talking about some sort of deal his former boss was gonna do with some people from Florida but it was confusing because he thought there was two bosses and then he told Tyler what the buyers were buying and when Tyler told me about it I figured that maybe this man was talking about you guys.- You really pay attention to everything don't you?- I've been taught to. - I knew we should have killed Otis an awful while ago but Miles decided he was gonna think of something.- I think Miles forgot about him.- No, Miles never forgets anything. He just likes to be really sure before lashing out at someone. Once he's out you can't stop him. - Alex said, looking for his cigarettes in his pockets.- It's funny 'cause he's so quiet, you'd never take him as a violent man.
Get the fuck outta my way.
- ... but I think I can see him being one. - I don't see you being, well, you. And Miles only started being this quiet, recently, actually.- Yeah, but I hint I am me, don't I? - No, I don't think you do. - Alex shook his head.
- You really have a dark side, don't you?
- Don't we all?
- This is... weird but I need you to make some room in your shoulder right now.- Uh? - Alex asked as Lil rested her head on his shoulder and pretended to be slightly asleep. He looked around and flicked his cigarette just a second before the cops' eyes fell upon them.He pretended to be looking away.The cops walked past them looking at Lil for just a split second.Alex looked at them with an innocent face.- They're gone. - Alex whispered to Lil after a minute or two.- Anyone else looking at us?Alex looked around.- No.Lil adjusted her position on her seat.- They barely looked at us, actually. - Yes, people hate intimacy. Even tho I was just sleeping on your shoulder, it's awfully late and "I'm pregnant" so it's enough for them to start imagining. - I wonder if it was the middle of the day, tho. - Alex said, laughing a bit.- Oh, we'd be screwed. - She laughed too. - Do you think the other boys are fine? - She asked, after a few moments.- Absolutely. I'm very sure Matt and Jamie managed to catch a plane by now. Nick is on the other plataform so there's nothing to worry about.- It's still weird they're not going home exactly.- One can never be too careful.- I think so.- But they won't be home too much longer after us so it's gonna be fine. - I still can't believe Jamie's gonna be a dad and Nick is gonna have another baby. They're so cute. - Lil said with a big smile. - Are you gonna have another baby anytime soon, too? - I'm not against the idea, I was very happy when Aiden was born but Alexa says she doesn't want to 'ave another baby. - Maybe she'll change her mind.- Maybe. I hope so. But at the same time I don't know 'cause like... I'm very confident about everything we do but I know there are big risks. I mean, what if this boy from Chicago hadn't appeared at all? - Yeah, but he did and it's all solved. - It is but are we gonna be this lucky again?- Maybe it is time you hire some men and let them go get the drinks for you. You know it's not hard to find someone. I did it with Tyler and his boys being just months in this business.- I know... at the same time I don't like being blind about what's 'appening in the meetings. - You can have a right-hand man without the others, and by others I mean the new boys, knowing and if they were up to something your right-hand man would report it back. - I did think about it but I really don't know... giving up control just like that? - In the end is this about avoiding risks or about your ego, Alex?- Honestly? I don't know.Alex and Lil made it home two days after.Matt arrived in the morning and Nick by night of day three.Jamie arrived just a bit after.They were all together again at the pub.Miles was there too, tho he didn't seem to be that happy to be back.Another month passed by and for Lil it was time.- I'm gonna need those days off, Alex. Tyler and I should be leaving for Paris in a couple of days. - You're really going.- Of course we are. - When are you gonna to be back, again?- In a week... or two. Shouldn't be any longer than that. - There's nothing I can say that's gonna make you stay, right? - No, sir.Alex couldn't help but to smile a little.- A'ight then. You've earned yourself a vacation, anyway. - You guys promise you're gonna be alright? - We're gonna be fine. It's gonna be very hard, I'm not gonna lie. - Alex said, joking.Lil laughed a little.- I'm on my way back to the hotel, then. - Lil approached Alex and kissed his forehead very briefly. - See you soon?- I'm looking forward to it.Lil looked at Alex one last time and started making her way home.- Good evening Mr. James. - Hello, Mrs. Jones. Welcome back.She smiled sweetly at him and went straight to her bedroom.Two nights passed.- No matter what happens tonight... - Tyler started. They were walking slowly down the street. - Hey, nothing is gonna happen. We're gonna be just fine. - Lil said, squeezing Tyler's hand a little.- I hope so.They walked into the bank, it was near closing time.- Nobody moves!A guy shouted from the back.Tyler and Lil assumed their positions.So did another ten guys.There was just three clients and part of the staff had left already.One of the men held one of the clients as a hostage.It was quick.They had studied the bank' schedule for two whole months. And according to the schedule, money had been piled up so it could be moved to a even safer place by the police the next morning.They grabbed the money and gave each man their part so everyone could get separated and don't have to meet up ever again.They were ready to leave when one of the women who worked there started to make a fuss.She hit the alarm button.Her shaking hands pointing a gun at them.To Tyler, actually, since he was closer to her now.- DON'T MOVE! - She yelled.They all froze.- This wasn't planned. - Lil whispered to herself.- Drop the gun, lady. We will not shoot you, we're going to tie you up and leave you. We're robbers not killers. - One of the men said.The lady did not back up.- You're wasting your time. Leave. - Tyler said quietly. - IF YOU LEAVE I'LL SHOOT HIM! - The lady yelled again. - Charlotte, drop the gun, they'll kill you! Please! - One of the other ladies cried.- Leave guys. - Tyler said again. - Now.- DON'T TAKE ANOTHER STEP! - She yelled again.The alarm was still pounding.A shot was heard.-------------------------------------------------------- Of course you had to change your fucking mind didn't you? - Miles was talking to himself on his way downtown. He was driving slowly. - You're not even wearing decent clothes! What the hell would I be wearing a suit for? No, your clothes are just right. You just have to be smooth. - He clicked his tongue.He took a turn.He heard the alarm of the bank going off and a gunshot not too long after.People on the streets started running.He parked his car and looked around.- What is going on?Miles saw two figures, too well known figures, running around the back of the bank.- I can't fucking believe he made her do this. - He said and stopped.
Wouldn't it be the other way round?
Miles started driving again.- Get in the car you two! - He yelled when he drove past Lil and Tyler and stopped the car very briefly.The pair got into Miles car.- GO! GO! GO! - Lil yelled as she saw a police car in the distance.Miles focused on driving and about ten minutes later they were driving by the beach, the car not longer being an easy target to be hunt down by the police since the avenue by the boardwalk was full of people and other vehicles. A circus had arrived in town just the night before.- What the hell did you two do this time? - Miles asked in a low voice.- Isn't it kinda obvious? - Lil asked. - Yes, it fucking is but what the hell would you be robbing a bank for? For all I know you get money enough from the pub. - Miles said again.- This is not my money, it's Tyler's. I was just helping. - Helping. - Miles scoffed.- Yes, helping. And I'm actually glad I was there. It could have gotten even worse.- I told you this was not a good idea. - Tyler said to Lil.- Everything was going just fine 'till that bitch started making a fuss! We wouldn't even be running right now. - Lil replied. - And she would have shot you! - I heard a gunshot. - Miles broke Lil and Tyler's argument. - Who's down this time? - Her. I shot the woman.Miles hit the brakes.- Get out. - Miles said.- Wh--- Get the fuck outta my car. - He turned to look at Lil. - You can do anything you want with your fucking life but I ain't gonna be an accomplice to this! I've made my vows and so did you! No women no children.- I've never made any vows! And I'm not fucking proud of this, I had to shoot her, she was gonna shoot Tyler!- You should have let her!Lil slapped Miles' face.He felt it burn across his cheek.Tyler grabbed Lil's arm and started to drag her out of the car.Each of them carrying a suitcase full of money.Bloody money.Miles drove away.Lil was crying angry tears.- What the hell did he say that for? - She complained as Tyler hugged her. - Did you hear what he said? I would never let that woman take you away from me! I had to do it! - She started sobbing. - I hate to say this but he was right. When we get caught like this we die. The rest didn't shoot you because you're a woman too but they will be watching you very close from now on. - Tyler said quietly. - I'm sorry, Ty. I couldn't lose you. I can't lose you. - She was still sobbing. - Come on, get a hold of yourself we need to get away from here. Right now. - Tyler said and started walking, guiding Lil by her waist.The pair disappeared amongst the crowd.Miles made his way into the pub.Two hours left until opening time.- I AM FUCKING DONE! - He shouted when he saw Alex. - The hell happened? - Alex asked. All the other boys had turned their attention to Miles.- They robbed the bank and she shot a FUCKING WOMAN! - Miles replied. - Are you talking about Lil? - Nick sounded confused and disappointed.- No, I was talking about your mum. OF COURSE I'M TALKING ABOUT LIL! - My God... - Matt said, resting both hands on his waist as he started pacing around.- Now we are in fucking danger! They know she works with us. What if they think we're involved in this? We're about to 'ave a big fucking stain in our stainless reputation. If this story spreads it's gonna affect all of our deals, we could lose it all! - Miles said again.Alex didn't know what to do or say.- Calm down, Miles. You're gonna pop a vein or summat. - Jamie said, guiding Miles to a table so he could have a sit. - Alex, what do we do? - Nick asked Alex. - We have to stop her.
----- CHAPTER BREAK -----
- I'll go.- I don't think it's a good idea, actually.- I'm not asking for permission. I've created a monster now I 'ave to keep it under control.- She ain't no monster, Miles. She saved you, don't forget about that.- You guys still defending her? Seriously!? - We're not defending her. Maybe it is even... my fault, a little. She hinted summat like this could happen, a while ago, but I decided to keep things shushed from you guys. - Alex said, scratching his nape.It was the exact opposite of when he put both hands in his pockets.- Is that so? - Miles asked.- Yes. I went to talk to her about this whole "going to Paris" thing and she told me she had "no reasons to stay here" and that Tyler had told her maybe it was "time she would leave the nest" and "live a little", it was as if she couldn't see us lot anymore. She was blindly in love with Tyler at that moment already. - Alex explained to the others.- No wonder you kept that from us. - Jamie said.- Actually, if it's Alex's fault then it's my fault as well. I got here early the next day and Alex opened up to me about the matter. I even suggested we would kill Tyler or turn him in but there was a chance Lil could find about that later. - Matt explained.- She would 'ave turned against us for sure. - Jamie agreed.All Nick could do was look from one face to another.- I know right! - Alex said.- Well, it doesn't matter right now, does it? Damage is already done, all that's left to do is to try to repair it. I'm pretty sure they'll be laying low for tonight and maybe tomorrow, as well, so all I 'ave to do is get to Paris before them and keep an eye on them, bring her back here at all costs. - Miles said.- What about Tyler? - Matt asked.- What about him? - Miles asked back.- Of course he'll resist you taking her back here and she will not accept to leave him. - Matt said again.- Don't worry your pretty head about it, Helders. I know what I'm doing.Miles said and started to leave.- Gotta go, 'ave to pack. I'll write you lot.--------------------------------------------------------- I don't think I can enjoy much of Paris, now. - Lil said, looking at herself into the mirror. - Maybe I should stay.- You can't stay, darling. I'm sorry. Not even if you wanted to. - Tyler said, holding her hand.- Always running away... - She looked at him.- It's what comes with it. - I know... I just wish we didn't have to go, I mean, at least for now. I don't feel that great anymore. - I can imagine. It's hard but think like this: is there something else you could really have done to reach your... goal?
No.
- Maybe I could have shot her gun.- The bullet could have ricocheted if you had managed to hit her gun, and I mean that's pretty ambitious. - Yeah...
Maybe
- What about we get to sleep now? - Tyler asked, kissing her cheek. - I think it's a good idea. - She said in an almost inaudible voice.Lil lied in bed with Tyler in their little hideout.No one would find them there.- Do you think the other people buried their money by now? - Lil asked Tyler. - I believe so. The deal was to leave the money hidden for a while, it's gonna make it harder to trace it back to us. - Tyler said.They had hidden their money away as well.- I just hope they chose safe places. - Lil said.- I'm sure they did. I might even have given them a few tips about some places. - Is that so? - Yeah. Listen.And then Tyler told her all about the places he had "mentioned" to the others.- I don't understand why you're telling me all of this. - Lil said, turning around to face Tyler.- You never know when you'll need to hide something. And now there are not any secrets between us as well, I just shared all of my hiding places with you that means you'll always be able to find me. - Tyler said, touching Lil's face gently.- I would not let you out of my sight in the first place. I love you.She whispered as her lips approached his.- I wanna die a little with you.-------------------------------------------------------Miles got off the plane in Paris.It was cold.He went to buy some francs and then started looking for the post office at the airport.I made it to Paris. Need to know how they're coming.He asked for the telegram to be sent at the boys at the pub.- This is the address. - He passed a small piece of paper to a woman.- Est-ce urgent? - She asked.- Sorry, what?- Pardon. I asked if it's urgent. - Yes, urgent. Thank you.
I should've packed more coats.
Now I need to find her.And it didn't take too long.- Why's your land so cold? - Miles complained with a little smile as he greeted Elisa. - Yours is too, dear. I just came back from London and it's just as cold. You're lucky I'm home. I thought you would let me know before getting here. - She said, gesturing for him to come in. - I'm sorry, I should have called or sent a telegram, it just happens that this trip wasn't planned. Long story, actually. - Oh, I see. But it's ok, I'm very happy you're in Paris. - She smiled at him. - Where are you staying? - I didn't go to look for a hotel yet, in fact I'm only here for a few hours now so... maybe you could recommend me a place to stay? - Miles said. - Oh, oui. I happen to know just the place for you. - That's marvellous! I bet it's a wonderful place I just hope I can afford it, though. - Miles laughed.- I'm sure you can. It's called the Bouchou-Kamenashi residence, best place in town. - You want me to stay here? But... I don't think I can, I mean...
I'll be hunting down a criminal.
Elisa looked at her maid and told her something in french. The little lady went away.- Of course you can, my dear. It's gonna be an absolute delight to have you here. Isn't it, mon amour? - Elisa was looking at something... someone, behind Miles. - All of your friends are my friends and very welcome to stay. - A man said and Miles turned around. - I'm Kazuya Kamenashi, nice to meet you.Kazuya extended his hand to Miles and bowed a bit, as the Japanese always do.Miles shook his hand and introduced himself.- Then you're the Englishman my dear Elisa didn't stop talking about since her visit to Florida. - He was smiling a bit.- I think that might be me, yes. - Miles laughed a bit.- I was actually talking about Mr. Turner all the time since I got back home, Miles. - Elisa said and laughed. - No, just kidding.They all laughed.- Come my, dear. It's almost the time for tea.The three of them made their way to the living room to sit by one of the house's many fireplaces.
2 days later
- It's so beautiful! - Lil said as she looked at the Eiffel Tower. - My mom used to tell me about this place... I was only five but I remember very well, she used to say we would come here very... soon. And then they disappeared. - I'm sorry about this, my love. - Tyler said, holding her hand close to his chest. - It's... it's fine. It was over a decade and a half ago. My parents never made to Paris but I did and you're here with me. - She kissed his cheek. - I wish we could have a photography of us taken here. - Yes, it would be perfect but you know we can't risk it. - Yeah, I know. - Lil sighed.Both were staring at the monument again.- I say we leave it. - Lil said, looking at Tyler again. - Leave it? - Yes. We leave everything behind. We have money enough to live comfortably. We can get jobs just to... "justify" our money since we can't leave Florida. At least not yet. - She had hope in her eyes.Tyler was looking back at her.Miles was looking at them in the distance.
What the hell are they talking about?
- I say we do it. You're right. We leave it. I believe it's not gonna be that easy but we can do it. - Tyler said.Lil hugged Tyler and closed her eyes.- Yes, we can do it. - She whispered.- But well, off to the really important part now, shall we? - Tyler said as Lil took a step back and looked at him, a little confused. - I don't - He started as he took off his golden thin chain he was wearing - exactly have a ring because I was planning to do that next week actually but - he got down on one knee - will you marry me?People started to pay attention to them.
For God sake say no!
Miles was on the edge of his seat.- Yes. - She said with a big smile.Tyler got up and put the chain around her neck.He lifted her off the ground and she laughed.Miles left.A photograph was taken.--------------------------------------------------------- She's engaged.Miles was talking to Alex on the phone, at the office in Elisa's house. She and Kazuya were out.- I know she's busy but what does it have to do with anything? - No, Alex. Engaged as in she's gonna marry him. The proposal was terrible, by the way.- What? But... what?- You sound surprised. - Miles said, looking at the grey sky trough the window. - But well, I haven't been able to make a move yet. They're always surrounded by a crowd and never ever separated. I don't think she's noticed it but he's making sure they are never alone. It's like if he is afraid of something. - Do you think she could be in danger? - I don't think so... I believe it's more of a "protocol" he follows after every robbery. And besides I don't think anyone else knows they're in Paris, right?- Yeah, I don't think they told anyone else. But, yeah, I think you should leave them, Miles. You should come back, I mean, she will be back maybe next week so we can solve this when she gets back here. I know we were eager to put our hands on her after what she did but I think you're wasting your time now. - Alex reasoned.- Maybe... but I'm a bit puzzled. They were talking about something right before he proposed. What is weird is that she seemed very, very, happy but when he proposed she was extremely surprised and that means they were not talking marriage when she hugged him and seemed very happy... You following? - Yeah.- He wasn't ready to propose either, he didn't 'ave a ring. So I wonder what is it that he told her that made her so happy and him propose right after. Was it any kind of accordance? Was she happy for him, was she happy for them? I don't know, something is off. - You 'ave an intuition... I won't question you about that because you were right every time but I believe you should come back here. Whatever it is it can't be that serious. - Well, I think I'm gonna follow them around a tad more... maybe a day or two and then I'll go back home. - Yeah, you'll be more useful here anyways. But well, tell me, how's Mrs. Bouchou doing?Miles and Alex talked a bit more 'till Miles hung up.He decided to go back to his bedroom.Miles was lying down in bed when he heard knocks on the door.He opened it.- Oh, Elisa. Hello. - Hello, dear. I haven't seen you all day. Is everything alright?- Well... - Miles looked at her for a moment. - Not really.He invited her in.- Is this about that lady friend of yours you told me about? - Elisa asked, sitting on the armchair by the window.- Yeah, it is. I'm running out of time... - Why is that? - She got engaged. - Oh no. - Yeah. I think I should give up, actually... God I shouldn't 'ave fell in love with her in the first place. I don't even know if...
If this is love.
- We can't tell our hearts what to do, my friend. But are you really gonna let her get away? - Elisa asked. - I don't think you should give up without a fight... I mean, if you think you have a shot.- She doesn't even know I like her. And I'm not that sure it would be great if we ever got together... I have a strong personality and she has a strong personality, maybe we would just fight all the time. - But that's a maybe. If you don't talk to her you'll never know and that's even worse than losing the girl you love to another man.- I don't... love her. - For all you've told me, I think you do. You just happen to have a problem with that four letter word. - It hurts. - What hurts? - Love. I don't like the pain. - Love is actually sweet, Miles. It only hurts if you love what you can't have and you'll never have her if you give up now. Think about it. - Elisa said and left.
I sure will. All night.
Miles got off the bed early the next day.He didn't sleep.He had thought about what Elisa told him.Over and over and over.When he left the house nobody else was up yet.He left a note.Miles got in a cab and went to the hotel Lil and Tyler were staying.But he couldn't bring himself to walk in.
She's gonna laugh so loud. I can already hear it.
He made his way to the other side of the street and sat on the pavement.
I'm just gonna watch them today and then I'll go home. There's no use, there's no use I talk to her. She loves him, she has him. They don't fight.
Yeah, they don't fight.
Miles was so caught up in his thoughts that he didn't even notice he wasn't the only one paying attention to that hotel.Lil and Tyler left the hotel by 9 that morning.- It'd be lovely to go back there. - Lil said.- Yeah. I thought about going to the Louvre and maybe we could go to the Moulin Rouge at night.- Moulin Rouge? But didn't it catch fire last year? - It did but they reopened a few months ago. - Oh, that's wonderful. Yes, we should go there.They started walking around.After a while they were at the Eiffel Tower again.They laughed all the way there.It seems you forgot what you've done, didn't you?Miles was standing at the same spot as he was the day before.- I'm gonna miss this place when we leave.Tyler kissed Lil's cheek and started to walk from her. She had turned her attention back to the Tower.
It's my chance.
Miles started walking towards Lil. Going against every decision he had made the night before.He had no idea what he would do after he touched her shoulder.He heard a gunshot and froze for a second.Miles turned around to see Tyler hit the floor. The candy floss on a stick he went to grab for Lil falling as well.People started running.Another gunshot.Gone.- Tyler! - Lil screamed. Miles held her arm, stopping her from going near Tyler's body. - TYLER! Let go of me! - She tried to free her arm. - TYLER!- We have to go. - Miles started to pull her away.She didn't even know it was Miles who was trying to take her away from there.- TYLER! - Stop screaming! You're gonna make them come to us, goddamn it!She was crying, trying to get to Tyler at all costs.
Are you really gonna make do this?
He pressed a specific spot between her neck and shoulder and she fainted. He grabbed her in his arms.Miles managed to miraculously make a cab stop in the middle of that chaos. He got in with Lil and told the scared driver to take them to a quiet place.- Just take us out of here, there's a shooting going on.He paid for the ride, much more than the actual price, and got off the car with Lil in his arms. He put her down in the grass and sat by her side. He had no idea where they were, he was just happy there was no one around.Miles looked at Lil.She had traces of tears in her face.
What the hell happened back there?
She opened her eyes not too long after.- Miles? What are you doing here? - She put her hand on the side of her head and sat down. Miles noticed the ring, it was there now. She looked around for a second. - Where's Tyler?Miles didn't say a word.He just watched as the memories hit her.- No, no, no, no, no.She started hyperventilating.He approached her.- DON'T TOUCH ME! - She yelled. - YOU SHOT HIM!She got up and tried to hit Miles but he grabbed her wrists and pulled her arms down.- STOP! I didn't shoot him, someone else was following you. I didn't notice it, I'm sorry.But it wasn't my job to take him back, so I don't really care.- Following us or you? What are you doing here?She was still fighting him.- I came to take you back home. Alex wants your head you idiot, you killed a fucking woman what did you think he would do, shake your hand and congratulate you? - I didn't want to shoot her!She started to cry again.Miles started to put the pieces together.- It doesn't matter now, it's done. And it must have cost Tyler his life.- LET GO OF ME!Miles let go of Lil's wrists and she started sobbing.- Not my Tyler. Not him, not him... - Do you see now what all of this killing can do? They will hunt you down and they'll you put at least a dozen bullets in you just like they did to Tyler!- SHUT UP! SHUT UP!Lil went full force at Miles and the both of them hit the grass.They started fighting and she bit Miles when he got a hold of her.- DON'T - He yelled as he rolled away from Lil - don't bite me, you fuck!Suddenly they were fighting again.He had her trapped in an arm-lock.She reached his face and started to try to poke his eyes.- STOP! - He shouted. - STOP OR I'LL KILL YOU!Lil kicked his leg, right in his bone, and he let go of her for a second.She reached for a stone on the ground and hit Miles' head.His world went completely black.
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- Miles, what happened to you?Elisa asked Miles when she saw him going upstairs.- Oh, nothing you should worry about, my dear. - Miles told Elisa but not really turning around to face her. - I went to see her. I told you love hurts.She didn't know what to do.
4 hours ago.
Miles woke up.His head was hurting and he was cold.It had started raining.- Argh.He tried to get up: too dizzy.Then he put his hand on his forehead and winced. His fingertips were red.- Next time I put my hands on that woman I will kill her. - He said in a low voice.Miles gave it a few more minutes and tried to get up again.He started walking around, trying to remember what side the cab they were in came from.He put his hand in his pocket only to find out his wallet wasn't there.- I'm very sure no French robbed me.He tried to figure out which way to go by studying the marks of the tires on the ground. No success.- I really 'ave to figure it out, don't I? The thing is: I always pick wrong. I don't even 'ave a coin to flip!He sighed.Miles closed his eyes and thought about what he should do.He heard a sound and started to pay attention.A car.Miles started waving to the driver and made him stop.- I'm sorry. - Miles said, approaching the car. - Are you going downtown? - Oui. - The driver looked scared.- Do you think I could get a ride there?- Oui, of course. Get in.Miles walked around the car and got into the passenger' seat.- How did you get lost? - The driver asked, looking at Miles from the corner of his eye. - I was in a cab and the driver dropped me here. I don't remember much after that. - Miles lied about the last part.- You should tell the police. I know this road is not as safe as it used to be but I really think you should go to the police. - And I will. - Miles lied again. - I just need to get this thing in my head cleaned and maybe stitched and then I will go to them. - My wife is a seamstress and she said she needed some things in order to finish a dress so she gave me a list. I wasn't planning to go to the city today but she made me go. You are very lucky... it's cold and I don't think you would make it back to the city until the end of the afternoon.- Yeah. I'm very thankful.Miles just wished the man would shut up but then again he knew that the man was probably nervous about being alone with a bloody stranger.Literally bloody.- Where are you staying in the city?- Near the Champs-Élysées. - Miles tried to make that sound right. - Alright.------------------------------------------------------Miles put his head under the tap in the bathroom, he had no time to lose anymore.- At least it's not bleeding anymore...Miles studied the wound close to his forehead and decided it really didn't need stitches. He grabbed the first aid kit he always carried around for situations a bit worse than this one and cleaned the wound.He winced a bit when the alcohol touched his flesh.Then he went back to pack and prepare to leave.Miles went downstairs carrying his suitcase.- I'm afraid I have to leave, my dear. - You didn't explain what happened. Is there anyone coming for you? You're safe here. You know you can stay, right?- A bit of a bad thing happened but I'm not running away from anybody, no. I just need to go and... I need to go after her.
And when I find her she will regret hiting my head.
- I see. A man of attitude. - Elisa smiled a bit, not looking directly at Miles. - Well, if you really need to go then I hope your luck gets better. - I promise to come back as soon as I solve everything. - I hope you do come back. - Thank you, my dear. And sorry about having to leave in a hurry, it's just that I can't lose time now. I need to know where she's heading to.
And I need my wallet back as well.
- Yes, you do. And being the one who told you not to go down without a fight, I also don't want to be the one to waste your time so bonne chance, mon ami. I hope the two of you work it out. - Elisa squeezed Miles' hand before letting it go.- I'll never be able to thank you enough for taking such good care of me. - Don't worry about it.Miles said his goodbyes to Elisa and went back to the hotel Lil and Tyler were staying.- Good evening. - He told the receptionist and smiled a bit in an attempt to not let it show how upset he was about all of that. - I'm looking for my friends that are staying here, Lillian and Tyler Parkford.He knew Lil was gonna be using Tyler's last name so they could pose as a married couple.- Oh, oui. I believe you must be Mr. Miles Kane.- Yes, that's me. - Mrs. Parkford is waiting for you. Room 505. - Perfect. Merci.
She is waiting for me?
Doesn't sound like her.
Miles knocked on the door of the room numbered 505 and waited.No answer.He tried to open the door and it wasn't locked.Miles walked into the room very slowly. He knew that Lil wasn't gonna kill him there after all of those lessons but at the same time he knew she wasn't being herself and that was always when trouble started.Miles looked around the room, Lil wasn't there and no signs of her belongings as well.
Of course she wouldn't be here. But then why she would want me here?
Miles saw his wallet on the nightstand. He grabbed it and opened it, everything but the money was there.And there was a note.I didn't really need the money, I just thought you would need it.- That's where you're wrong... well, not entirely but still wrong.Miles put the wallet back in the pocket of his coat and left the room. He needed to know where the storm was gonna go next.He took off the "Don't Disturb" sign of the door before leaving the room.And then it began.The hunt.-------------------------------------------------------Lil was looking out the window on a train.The cabin she was staying was opened and she wiped a tear before really looking at the elder woman who was gonna travel with her.- Est-ce que tout va bien? -(Is everything alright?) The woman asked.- Pardon, je ne parle pas Français. (Sorry, I don't speak French). - You're English?- American. - Oh, I see.Silence.- You're going to Toulouse or somewhere along the way? - Toulouse, yes. - My daughter lives in Toulouse, she moved there after she married. Are you going to visit any relatives as well? - No, I'm actually just touring. I've been to Paris and after Toulouse maybe I'll go to Nice or Marseille... or maybe I'll go to Spain. I don't know.- Oh, I used to travel a lot when I was young. I miss those days.The woman started telling a story about her trips around the world and Lil was grateful for having someone to stop her from thinking about what had happened to Tyler.Lil had decided to go to Toulouse in order to wait for the things to calm down. She would also have time to figure out who killed Tyler and why.She planned to take them down, she knew that that hadn't been a loner's work. She was angry.And then there was tears again.- You're crying.- Oh, sorry.Lil wiped her tears again.- It's just... my fianceé died not long ago. - I'm sorry, dear. That's awful.- Yes... - I'm a widow and I know it's not easy.- We were planning to go back to Florida and get married. I turn around and - Lil laughed a sad laugh and wiped another tear - I look for him because I want to tell him something and he's not here. It's... terrible.- I'm sorry you're going through this, you're so young.
Sometimes in life we're just not destined to be happy.
- But on the bright side - The woman continued. - You're young, you'll go on and you'll find a fine gentleman who's going to give you all the love you deserve.I don't think I deserve such thing but...- Thanks. - Lil replied and smiled a bit at the lady.The pair went on talking until the train arrived in Toulouse. They said their goodbyes and parted ways.Lil began to look for a place to stay.Two months passed and Lil had almost all the clues she needed about where to begin to look for the people who had Tyler killed. She just needed the name of the boss.She was going back to her hotel a certain night when she noticed she was being followed.She walked into a dark alley and hid.If there was one thing she was gonna learn as soon as she arrived in a new city, this thing was the location of all the dark spots between the places she would walk to and from the hotel. It was something she had learned from Nick.Footsteps approached.- What do you want? - She asked as she cocked the gun. - You're the woman who was with Tyler. - Yes. You've been following me for two days, now. How did you find me?- You sent a letter to the States.
See? You knew it wasn't a good idea.
- You intercepted my letter, that's not polite at all. What do you want?- Money. Tyler owned us money.- And you killed him over money!? - No, we killed him for failing his word. There's nothing abo--- Above honor, blablabla, I know. - You don't seem to take this serious, do you?- Oh, but I do. You have no idea. - You're gonna tell us where is the money and maybe we'll let you live. - Or, am I? - She scoffed. - Well, you tell your boss... what's his name again?- Oh, then you don't know who we are? - I'm afraid I didn't figure that part out yet. - Lil pouted a little. - I'm afraid your time is up. All you have to know is that we are everywhere and it's not gonna take long for us to make you give us our money once I take you back to Florida.- Then you're really not gonna help me out? What a shame. What if I gave you some info on the Monkeys? - Who?- So you don't know about them. Great!Lil hit the man in the head with her gun and craved a small knife on his neck.Blood gushed all over the wall.- Thanks for letting me know you're based in the States and have a friend in the mail. - Lil said in a low voice as she cleaned the knife. - Also, thank you for lifting a huge weight off my shoulders, you know. I thought it was my fault.And then it was time to run again.Lil left Toulouse that same night and France the day after.- You're still going over this? - Nick asked Miles, who was sitting by the bar and examining all the correspondence. - Yep.- You know Alex would tell you if she had sent a letter, right.- Mhmm... not so sure about that.- He sent you to Paris.- Actually, I wanted to go to Paris. I was gonna go to Paris anyway. Alex may tell you guys what to do but as you know that doesn't work for me. - Miles said, he was annoyed about not knowing where Lil was. - You know we are all equal partners, we just let Alex point directions because he's better with words and strategies. - Nick patted Miles on the shoulder as a warning and left him alone again.Miles knew Nick was a pretty calm fellow... until you rubbed him the wrong way.- Did you find something? - Alex asked Miles, passing by him and grabbing a glass to pour himself a drink. He asked Miles if he wanted one too but Miles denied. - No, nothing. - Do you think she's still in France? - I 'ave no idea but according to you, she should 'ave come back 9 weeks ago.- That was before Tyler was killed. - I knew she was running away.- I don't think she was.- I gotta find her.- You're a tad obsessed, aren't ya?- I don't like to leave my businesses unfinished. - What did she do wrong? Besides killing that woman, I mean. Sometimes I think about that and I ask myself what I would do if some woman pointed a gun at my Alexa. I have that answer but I refuse to believe I would do it. You said she told you she had no choice, I don't think she did, not after everything we taught her. - She's thirsty for blood and you know it. - Not too thirsty as one imagines. I'm really willing to give her a hard time if she ever comes back--- If she comes back? - Miles interrupted.- Here... but I think I could forgive her. Taking decisions like that: never easy. - You're getting soft, Alex. - Miles complained.- And you are becoming an old grumpy grandma. We've allowed a woman in our business, we should've known she would get... emotional.- And now you're labeling her just because she is a woman. She's got cold blood, she doesn't get emotional.- You should 'ave seen her after she took you to the hospital.Miles sighed.- You know this is my fault, don't ya? This is all my fucking fault. Now she's out there... somewhere I can't keep a watch on her. - Miles clicked his tongue.- You sound more upset rather than angry.- I don't know about anything anymore at this point. - Mhm...- You know...
You were right all along.
I really care about her, I like her.
- What?
But I'll never admit it.
- I met this girl at a restaurant a few months back. She's the chef, actually. - Oh, did you now?- Yes. I think I should go back and ask her out again sometime. We had fun last time. She's from back home, Hammersmith. - Interesting. Do you know if she's married? - Don't think she is, no. I didn't see a ring. - As if you were always looking for it. - Alex laughed a bit and sipped his drink. - Well, if she was, I'd step back. But we ended up at her place and I didn't see any husbands there either.- This is new for you.- I don't need anymore problems. No more married women.- Or widows.Alex sipped on his drink again and eyed Miles as he walked away.- Hey! I was never with her! - Miles protested. - Have no idea where you keep on insisting on it.Alex went upstairs to his office and wrote a note, that was actually going to become a telegram.
Let me know when you arrive.
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Seven days later
- Two down, ten to go... These guys don't know how to hide.- Aren't you gonna need a bit of help?- No, nothing that I can't handle.Lil threw her cigarette on the floor and stepped on it.- How are you feeling? - Sad, tired. Angry. They had no right, Alex. They killed him over money! The first man said Tyler failed his word but the second one told me, under torture, of course, that Tyler actually didn't make to the heist that day because he was in fucking jail. They suspected him and locked him but he didn't say a word and when the robbery actually happened but he was in jail so there was "no way" he could be involved, the police set him free. They wanted Tyler to pay a "fee" for not being there for the action but Tyler thought it was bullshit, and it is bullshit. Part of the gang wanted him to pay, the others didn't, actually. Some men lost all of their money gambling so they thought "if Tyler pays us what he owns us, maybe we could pay our gambling debts". You know, it's not fair.- That's... and he talked about honor? What a joke.- I know right! - Lil sighed. - Anyway, I thought you were pissed at me.- I won't lie, I was. But then I thought over and over and over and I put meself in your shoes and... I don't know how I would react if somebody was pointing a gun to me wife or son. They're the people I love the most in this world... would I let some woman shoot them? Hell no. - I didn't want to shoot her but she was so close to Tyler and she was so nervous. She was gonna shoot him, I don't have a single doubt about that.- Nervous people are the worst. I think that... well, you're a woman so... it's really called self-defence, I guess.- I guess... But, can we change the subject now? I mean...- Yeah, sure.- How are my other boys doing? I miss them terribly. - They're fine. Excited about their babies. And they miss you, too. They talk about you a lot, memories of you. Matt complains about how everything seems to be messier than it ever was since you're "gone", we all miss gravitating around a lighter presence back at the pub.- I hope I finish this off as soon as I can so I'll be free to come back. I miss not being a lone wolf. You know how slow things move when we're alone to investigate, keep watch, keep track and execute. - Are you sure you don't need a hand with that? - Thank you, dear, but no. They're all mine, they're gonna die by my trigger.- A'ight. I like the the little touch, by the way.Alex was talking about Lil putting a hundred dollar bill in the mouths of the men she was taking down.- A bit of drama. But they were the ones that started it after all, I thought it was only fair they got what they went after. - Lil said, looking at the sea in front of her.A faint light indicated the sun was gonna come up in the horizon in an hour or so. Alex had just closed the pub and said goodbye to the other boys before going to meet Lil at the beach.- You know that's gonna attract Miles, right? - Alex said, also looking at the sea.- I don't know why he cares so much. Or why he bothers, actually. He's never gonna catch me. - He likes you, he worries about you even though he never admits it.
You really can't see it or you chose to ignore it?
- I think he's more pissed than worried. I hit him in the head in France with a rock! I don't know what got into me but when he started talking about the way Tyler had died as if... as if it was nothing, I couldn't help myself. He was dancing on my pain. - He's pissed a'ight. But I don't think he would chase you just because he's pissed.
You don't see him like I do, do you?
You see everything about him but you never lit up a bulb on his dark side did you?
- Did he ever talk to one of you about why he was so moody a few months ago? - Lil asked, lighting up another cigarette.- No, he didn't. Do you mind? - Alex asked for a puff of Lil's cigarette. She passed it over to him.- Is he feeling better now? - I can't say he is. Actually he got a lot worse since, you know, you and Tyler...Lil didn't say anything.She and Alex just kept smoking and looking at the horizon. Listening to the sea.- Thank you for covering up my bill at the hotel. I was really worried about my keyboard. - Well, you call that place your home. I couldn't let you lose that and when you sent a telegram from France I immediately thought about your room so I went to the hotel and talked to that man James. - I wish there was a way I could send you the money but sending you an actual letter every week with some money on it would be beyond suspicious.- No, don't worry 'bout it. Where are you headed to next?- It's better if you don't know. It's easier to lie if you really don't know. - You know I'm good at keeping secrets. Proof is that me own wife doesn't know what I do.- Very good indeed. But it's true Al, it's better if you don't know. - A'ight. May I know when you're leaving, then? - Tonight. - I see. Good luck, then. If you need anything you phone my house, ok? - What was that?- What?- You said "house" not "ouse". You're losing your accent, Alex? - Lil laughed.- I slip sometimes. - He started to scratch his nape. - It's alright, as long as you don't really lose it. - I won't.- Great.Lil started to walk away from Alex.- Are you making it home?He asked her a bit louder than usual because of the wind.- Yes.
6 days later.
Alex was sitting on his chair in his office, studying the finances book of the pub when Miles got in.- 'ello, Miles.Since Lil's comment, he started being extra careful about his accent.- You 'ave to see this.Miles put a newspaper over the book Alex was paying attention to.He read the news.- The Money Murders? - Yes, and it's her!- Why do you think this is her?- 1 body in France, 2 in the States. All happened after the date Tyler died. The last murder was the day before yesterday, in Tabasco. She's here and she's avenging Tyler, it's obvious. And if she is anywhere near Tabasco, then I will find her. - What do plan to do now? - I'm gonna go there and I'm gonna get her.- Well, good luck with that. - Alex said, pushing the paper aside and turning his attention back to the book. - I can't stop you so if you wanna leave and somehow catch her, you better go, right?- Yes, I better get going.Miles folded the paper back.- Also, - Miles stopped at the door frame. - I know it's her because this is something I would do too. The money, I mean.
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- I came to kill you.- I thought you would.She replied as her robe touched the floor.-------------------------------------------------------- It all started one year ago, back in 1922.- Yes, the year of the first "money murder".- You know that's a ridiculous name, don't you?- It's how the press has been calling them. And if I were you, I'd start to show some respect.- I'd show you respect if you were somewhat competent. One year and a half and your best detectives couldn't keep a track on her, you never caught her.--------------------------------------------------------Miles arrived in Tabasco in the morning, three days after his last conversation with Alex.He had sent a telegram to a friend of his who lived in the city.- Did you see anyone matching the description I gave to you?- No, and I've been staying at this very train station for 2 days now. - I think she got away immediately after, then. She just stays if she's being followed, that way she won't lead the stalker to the next city and have two loose ends to take care of.- Smart girl. - She is. - Why are you after her?- Oh, long story.Miles thought of not telling the real reasons of why he was chasing Lil to anyone.- Alright. But since it looks like she's not here anymore then what are you going to do now?- Wait for another clue. She's taking down all the men who are involved in the death of a person close to her so it's not gonna take long before she kills the next one. If she already hasn't, actually. We're only gonna find out in the morning. - What if she's across the country?- Something tells me she's not. I just wish I knew who these men are so I could have a better insight of the situation.- We can work on that. How many men she took down so far? - Three. - If it were only five... but I think maybe we can start tracing a pattern. - Hopefully.Miles was right, the next day another death was reported in the papers.- Jalisco... She must be getting ready to leave. If I had to guess, I'd say Texas is her next stop.- Texas?- Yeah, she was here in Tabasco; a small state. Then she moved to Jalisco; a bit larger than here. With all these deaths happening, it's not safe to show up in another small city, it draws too much attention. She needs to go somewhere bigger now and I bet it's Texas. - Makes total sense.- Yes. But if I want to get there before her, I better leave. Thanks for everything, Mike. - Anytime, man. Just a tip, tho.- Yes?- Go in the front of the train, anyone who catches a train has to pass by all the other cabins except the ones in the front and since your train will be passing near Jalisco you'll be safer this way.- Noted.Miles grabbed his things and hopped on a train to Texas.And so did Lil.
6 days later.
- ARGH!Lil hid on the corner of a shop at the main street. It was late and she couldn't see much from the place she was standing.She had managed to take down her 5th target, but she didn't plan it as carefully as she always did this time around and it turns out the man wasn't alone like all of the others were so she had gotten herself in trouble.- The same freaking arm! - She touched the arm a bullet had just grazed. A bit of blood was staining her sleeve.She assumed position and shot blindly again, returning to her hiding place quickly.- I'm running out of bullets...
I need to get closer and get a clearer view of them and I need to do it right now, police are on the way I have no doubt about that... but how? There's a car parked on the other side of the street, if only I could get to it.
Two shots were heard in the distance.
What?
Lil waited a few moments before coming out her hiding spot.The two men were dead, shot in the head.Lil started running to safety.------------------------------------------------------
2
days
later.
Lil heard knocks on her bedroom door.- Who is it?She reached for her gun.- It's me.Lil put her gun away and went to answer the door.- So it was you.- Somebody had to do something, you got all tied up.They were talking about the two men Lil was trying to get rid of but they ended up dead even though she didn't shot them.- May I come in? I brought a flower. - Miles gave the rose to Lil.She stepped aside for him to come in.- A pink one... we're getting colorful around here, aren't we? - Lil said as she closed the door.- I'd buy white or yellow but I didn't come for peace and I'm not your friend.- I see. Thank you, anyway. It was kind of you, you know, knocking on the door.- I'm not a savage.- I know that.- You were looking like a million dollars, last night. Like the wig.- This is my actual hair. Thank you. Have a seat.- What did you do to it? - Miles sat on the edge of the bed.- Bleached it. There are lots of people with blonde hair around here in the South, I thought it'd be more practical not to have to wear a wig all the time.She was talking to him while applying some lipstick on her cheeks so they would look rosier.- I would have recognized you all the same. - I know you would but I wasn't waiting for you... even thought I know I should have. Why are you chasing me this time? - Alex seems not to be bothered anymore so I decided to do things my way.- Oh, did you now? What does "taking things my way" mean?- I came to kill you.- I thought you would.She said as she undressed her robe.- How do you like my dress?- You're not wearing one.Miles had turned his face the other way.- Yeah, this is my nightgown... I was wearing a dress but I decided on a last minute change. - She said, pointing at a dress hanging from the back of the bedroom door.Lil walked towards the bed and sat next to Miles.- What are you doing? - I'm putting my socks on. What are you doing.- I'm not looking at you. - You know I'm not naked, right?- But you're not decent either.- You're so English.- I said I came to kill you.- But you're too English to do that. You're all pissed at me for killing a woman and now you're gonna kill me? I don't think so.- Yeah, I wont. I just want to take you back to Florida and hire a girl to drag yer face in the mud. You hit me in the head, left me bleeding in the middle of fucking nowhere!- You started it! I wasn't being myself, I was in shock, I was furious. Everything you were saying sounded like a complete insult.- It wasn't. I think I was...
Scared of the idea it could've been you the one they shot dead.
- Confused.- If you were confused, try to think about me! And you said his death could've been my fault. I snapped.- I'm sorry. - Both said at the same time and then fell silent for a while.- Did you find out why they killed him? - Miles broke the silence.- Yes.- You know each one of them will give you a different story, don't you? - No, they all gave me the same story. Only a few details changed but the backbone of the story is the same every time.- That's interesting.
It sounds a lot like something Simon would do.
- You know, maybe I-- Miles started to say, turning around. - can you put some clothes on, please?- For God sake! Alright.Lil got up from the side of the bed she was sitting on and went into the bathroom.- Why is it everyone trying to take me back to Florida? This is getting old. - She complained, coming out of the bathroom after a few minutes. - I don't know about the others but I know Florida is where you belong. And it's also where I'm gonna get revenge but thass secondary.- It's home, I know. I just can't go back there yet. - Yeah, you're really not giving all of this up and I can't stop you. I thought I could but...- But you saw it as it is. Don't forget we're basically the same person, Miles. There's nothing I do that you wouldn't do.
True.
- Anyway, do you want to go out for dinner with me? - Lil asked, turning around to face Miles.- Yes. Chasing you around it's not the easiest thing to do. I'm terribly hungry. - Miles said, offering his arm to Lil.- Good to know I'm doing a good job. - She said, entwining her arm on his.Lil and Miles left the hotel and walked to the restaurant.They were seated at the table.- In the head... perfect shots. I didn't know you were so skilled.- I was training to go to war, seven years ago. All English men, actually. I didn't go but it was worth it. I rarely use my skills 'cause it makes too obvious to trace it back to military training. This time it was an exception because I'm not in Florida and people will never guess it was me, it could have been anyone.- I see. I mean, I could tell Alex had something to do with the army but I didn't know about the rest of you.- Now you do.- See that man at 3 o'clock? - Lil asked, changing the subject quickly.Miles gave it a moment and held Lil's hand on the table before turning around to look.- Yes.- He's the next one. - He doesn't seem scared and clearly he's not making an effort to hide.- Yes, I think he's up to something, that's why I didn't make a move on him yet. But why did you hold my hand again?- So you wouldn't hit me in the head with a glass and run away again, it took a while for me to find you. What could he be up to?- I think he's trying to lure me out and get me killed. I wasn't gonna run away, I didn't even finish my dinner yet.- How's your arm doing? I saw you have a patch, earlier.- Sore. But it was just a graze, it's gonna be alright.- Good.- I thought you were gonna say something like "you deserve it".- Why do you think of me as a cruel man? - I don't know, you're always so cold about everything. It seems like you're never happy and you're always pointing at every mistake I make. - I don't like to smile but that doesn't mean I'm always... it doesn't mean that I don't care and I'm always pointing at every mistake you make because I want you to learn from all of them. - You set me free two years ago, you and the boys took me in not only into your pub but in your business as well, I know you care about things, what I mean is that I think I never saw you smiling. Like a real happy smile, that is.- Well, you should've seen me in Paris. I was pretty happy in Paris, Elisa made me laugh a lot. And I also laugh a lot when I am around the boys so if you never saw me happy maybe you're the problem.- I thought you didn't like smiling cuz of your teeth. But yeah, I think I am. - Lil said and put both hands on her lap, away from Miles.He ignored the remark about his teeth. They were a bit crooked, alright, but it really wasn't a big deal and it also wasn't something Miles worried about.- However, I feel responsible for you. What you are today, half of it is on me.- "What" I am. Who I am has nothing to do with you. I've always been me. Think about the place we first met. After having done that I don't feel like it anymore, I would not do that to Tom if I had another chance. I thought I had a chance of starting a new life with Tyler and it made me change a few things about myself, yet he wasn't the one who changed me. He never asked me to act a certain way, not that I would have anyway. I would never have.- You sound like a revolution.- I don't think I am. I just think this whole "girls should be raised to be wives, not to question" thing is bullshit. It's utter bullshit. One day all women will see that. - I don't doubt they will. Where are you going next? - California. - Aren't they aware of you? - They're aware a witch hunt is happening, but they don't know it's me for sure. No one survived to let the others know it's me, and if they're hiding I can always lay low for a while 'til they start being careless again. Besides, I heard from a guy I know but is not my friend, that California is a great place. Maybe I'll even go to the beach, bury my feet in the sand and watch the sunset.- Like the not-a-bit-adorable-lady you are. - Exactly. - Well, I think you should get going, then.Lil seemed confused.Miles lowered his tone.- I think the head of all this is a man called Simon. You will find him in Illinois. But you better be sure it's him before going after him. - Simon...- Yes. I also think he should be the last one to be taken down, the others will be trying to protect him so it's better you take all the others down first. Now listen, there are two men watching us, they're sitting by the back of the restaurant, behind you. This should be what our fella on the other table is up to. Anyway, you 'ave to go now, get your stuff and move to another hotel 'till morning comes and then go to California.- I can't, I'm not finished here. - Lil said in a whisper.- Do you trust me?Miles stared into Lil's eyes.- Honestly? - She asked.He couldn't help but laugh a little.- This is serious.- Yes, I trust you.Lil stood up to leave. She stopped near Miles and rested her hand on his shoulder for a moment.- I'll be waiting for you in San Diego.She left and one of the men watching them left right after.The other one didn't move, actually he had become uninterested in their table from the moment Miles touched Lil's hand and so Miles deduced the man was actually interested in Lil as long as he thought she could be single.-------------------------------------------------------
3 days later
- I thought you were not coming.- I wouldn't have come if you had said "Los Angeles".- Too much trouble there?- Kinda.
The mayor's daughter, actually.
- How are things hanging in Texas?- Not hanging anymore, I took care of your guy and the other one who was watching us.- You said there was two people watching us.- Turns out the other one was actually just interested in you. - Why did you tell me to run? - I know you're good at what we do but I thought it was not worth the risk, you facing that man. I didn't say anything 'cause there was no time but that man was English as well, he killed our General in the war training. It was ruled as an accident but everyone knows the scene was staged and he always bragged about killing the General, nobody would mess with him. He was ruthless. I don't know how he became associated with Simon but there he was. - A soldier for a soldier. Still, I... - I know you're being careful but I don't think that's enough. You're walking more and more into the eye of the storm. - I can't back up, I will not back up.- You'll end up dead.- I don't mind. Tyler is dead, what else is left for me? - She seemed hurt.- Alex would be so disappointed in these words.
And I'm only
bringing
Alex up because I can't
bring
myself
to tell you how
disappointed
I am
upon
hearing
them
.
Lil sighed.- Maybe it's time Alex, all of you actually, let me go. Let me do my thing and then I'll vanish, I'll go away forever. History. - You know that's not possible.- Why not? The boys have more children on the way. You have your mom and will find someone and get married anytime soon. You guys have actual lives. I have no one like that, not anymore. And it's...- Heavy.- Yes.Lil moved her fingers around the sand.Both stayed silent.- Still, I can't let you go. - Miles said after a long pause.- You... you of all people.- What an irony, right? - Why?- The timing is not right for me to tell you about it now.- As you wish.
Don't you see it?
- Who's the new target? - Miles changed the subject.- Thomas Johnson. I have to be extra careful about this one, he's kind of a celebrity. He didn't take part in the actual robbery but he financed the whole thing. I think I'll be here for a while before making a move.- How long?- A month or two. This man you killed, if he was really so dangerous, the news about his death are gonna spread like fire and it's gonna make the others panic. It's obvious that our friend Thomas will take some precautions as soon as he learns about the fate of his friend.- Yes. Indeed.- Where are you going now? - Where you're going next. - You know I didn't tell you to come here because I needed help, right? I just wanted to make sure you were fine.- Yes, I know. But that also doesn't mean I can't stay here if I want to.- I know. I just thought maybe you wanted to go back home. - I do. But I can always go back home later.Miles meant to put his hand on the sand too but gave up the idea.- What happened to your hand? - Lil asked.- Oh, nothing.Lil stretched her arm and squeezed Miles arm, he winced and pulled his arm away.- I knew it. - She said.- It's not a big deal, actually.- Not a big deal that made you wince, yeah, right.- Told you our soldier friend wasn't easy peasy business. But getting stabbed is much better than getting shot, actually.- Did you get into a physical fight with him!? - Lil asked. He could hear her own heart beating in her eardrums, trying to escape through her mouth.- He caught me off guard. - Let me see it, I know you're not excellent at taking care of your wounds.- It's fine.- Let me see it, Miles!Miles sighed and pulled his sleeve up to expose his upper arm.Lil gulped but tried to make it look like she was calm.
Not this again. I can't be
scared
of losing one of you guys again.
- It doesn't look that good. Shouldn't be this red anymore. - Better red than purple... or black.- If your arm had turned black, you'd have to have it amputated. Well, your neck is purple but it's acceptable since there are no wounds. You should have told me to help you and not take it into your hands alone, you could have gotten yourself killed!- You could 'ave killed me when you hit me in the head with that rock!- I wasn't trying to kill you, I wanted you to let me go.- You could 'ave asked.- As if you were gonna let me go if I'd asked...- Maybe.- Anyway, you're gonna come back to the hotel with me and I'm gonna take care of this. - Lil pointed at Miles' arm.- There's no need.- I'm not asking, actually. - And do you think I'm going with you just because you're telling me to?- Yes, exactly.Miles looked back at Lil for a moment.- I'm too tired to argue.It was true.Lil and Miles arrived at her hotel 20 minutes later.- Sit down, take your shirt off. I'm gonna be back in a second. - Lil said as she walked into the bathroom.He hesitated for a moment.
I'm really here. I'm here because she told me to come here.
One week ago I was bloody angry at her and now I found her I... I...
- Come on, Miles. I don't have the whole afternoon.- Yeah, sorry.Miles took his shirt off and Lil approached him with the first aid kit.- Well, - Lil said after taking off the bandages around Miles' arm. - it's not infected but it does need a few stitches or it's gonna stay open for much longer than necessary and then it can get infected. - Stitches... - Just two or three. - A'ight, give me the vodka bottle. - Miles, there's no vodka. This isn't Paris. I can't travel around with alcohol in my lugagge.- Then what do we do now?- You're gonna have to put up with the pain. I promise to try to make it as quickly as I can.- I think it's better we leave it as it is.- Don't you trust me?- Honestly?It was Lil's turn to laugh a bit.- Do what you need to do, I think I can take it.Lil washed her hands with regular alcohol and cleaned the surgical needle after heating it up.She put a piece of surgical thread in it and gave it a knot.- Ready? - Yes.Lil approached Miles again and cleaned the edges of his wound.- I'm going in.Lil started to stitch the wound shut. Miles was biting his lip because, despite the wound not being infected, it was sore and the skin around it was a bit stiff. It was much worse than stitching a fresh wound.- Ok, done.Lil cleaned the wound again and put new, clean bandages on his arm.- Not so bad, huh?- Bad but not too bad. It was bearable.- Good. Now it's gonna heal up much faster and it's not gonna be that sore.- Thank you. - Miles said to Lil at the same time he was putting his shirt back on. - I would 'ave stitched it up myself but since the wound is in my arm, it's impossible I'd do it without help.- I know. It's all taken care of, now. - Thank you.- Anytime. Now I think you should get going. - Yes, it's time to go. - Miles said even though he wanted to stay a little longer. - I think I'll see you soon, then. Thanks again.- No problem.Lil accompanied Miles to the door and he left.Both had things to say and to ask but couldn't bring themselves to do such thing.
----- CHAPTER BREAK -----
- You know what happened, right? Your "friends", I mean.- Yes. One of your men told me.- It wouldn't have happened if she had collaborated with us. - She would never give you any information. She could be anything but she was never a traitor.- Well, she was acting alone, probably behind your back, when we c--- She had a plan. When she left me at the motel... it was the last time I saw her.-------------------------------------------------------October 20, 1922- Are you sure this is a good time?- Yes, everything is calm now. It's been months since the last time. Besides, elections are coming up, all the attention will be on the politicians.- You're right but the thing is that I 'ave to go. Matt's baby will be here any day now and he wants us all there. He wanted you there, too.- I wanted to be there but I can't risk going back home and have someone follow me. But you must go, you have to. You guys are brothers. - You're part of the family just as well. But I have to say it... I'm torn apart right now. If I leave, it could be the last time I saw you. If I stay I...- Miles, you have to go. - Lil said, stopping in front of Miles so he could really see she meant what she was saying. - Alex told me you guys celebrated when Hearst was born and when Aiden was born too. It can't be different with Matt's baby. This is what family is.I think.- And it's not gonna be the last time you'll see me. And even if it were, it'd be on me, right? Nobody's fault but mine. But frankly, after everything you saw me doing, you think I would go down that easily? - No, but shit happens. Soldiers happen.- Miles, it's gonna be alright. I promise.Lil finished cleaning her gun and put it back in a safe place.- Are you sure we can't do it this week and then I'll go?- No, it has to be next week.Lil rested both hands on her waist and frowned a bit, looking at Miles, again.- Are you afraid for me? - Yes. The boys think I'm still hunting you and it's been months I've been telling them I still didn't find you. It never took me so long to find anyone. If you die, deep down the boys will be thinking "What if he had found her earlier? He could have done something".- The boys will be thinking that or you? Why didn't you tell Alex you found me?In fact, Lil had written to Alex telling him Miles had found her and that they were working together. Alex's response was that he was very relieved and that she should carry on keeping him informed as much as she could.- I don't think he would be ok with this you're doing. He expects me to bring you back.- If you understood what I'm doing, God, you're even helping me, why wouldn't Alex understand it as well? You should just tell him.- He's very protective of you.
I want you to go back home but at the same time I'm
enjoying
it's just the two of us. If I tell Alex and he decides to send someone here it's gonna ruin everything.
- Ah-ah, that would be Nick. - Lil corrected Miles. - Just get your stuff and go, Miles. And please do send me some news when you get there. - Where will I meet you next?- Nebraska. Two weeks from now I'll be going to the train station in Aurora, at 2pm every Wednesday, until we meet. - Noted.Lil smiled a bit at Miles and then shook her head a bit.- What is it?- Uncle Miles... I mean, there's the other two kids but it's still funny they call such a grumpy man their uncle. - I like kids.- I know, I saw you with Aiden, once. You're actually a cutie when it comes to children. You're gonna be a great dad.- If I ever get children.- When I met you guys, the boys were always talking about you and women, and how you'd always get in trouble for hitting on married women and everything... I must confess I'm surprised you don't have a hundred children by now. - Lil laughed a bit. - And of course you're gonna find yourself a bird very soon.- Nah, that was before.
Before I met you.
- The very last married woman I met turned out to be a lunatic. - Miles added, joking.- Oh, I didn't know you had met another married woman after you met me. - Lil joked back.- If I wasn't such good friends with Alexa and didn't know the boy's girls, I would say all married women are death penalty. I don't want any business with them anymore.- Well, they are if you try to snatch them away from their husbands.- How come I never thought about that? - Miles was being sarcastic.Lil had a smirk on her face.- Anyway, when are you leaving? - Since you said the next move has to be next week and there's nothing I can do about that, I think I'll be leaving tomorrow.- Alright, it's better you get there as soon as you can.- Yeah. But if I'm leaving tomorrow I better get going, need to pack.- Hope you make a good trip back home.- Thanks. - He replied with a little smile, a bit lost in his own thoughts.Miles got up from the chair of the small table at Lil's hotel room and started to walk towards the door.- Wait. - She said, getting up as well.He was looking at her as she approached him and hugged him.He felt shivers going down his spine.- Give this hug to Matt. Breana too, if that's possible.Lil said as she began to relax her arms around Miles and let go of him but then he was the one hugging her. She didn't try to get away.- I will.They stayed like that for a few moments.- I'll go now. - Miles said still not letting go of Lil.- Yeah, I think you're gonna have to give the Helders an awful long hug. - I guess.Miles let go of Lil.She was looking at his face.- I'll see you soon. - She said.- I hope so.-------------------------------------------------------- I can't lie to you anymore.- What are you talking about?Miles and Alex were alone at the pub, all the other boys had gone home but the two of them decided to stay and have some drinks.- I found her. It's been months already. I kept telling you guys I was still looking for her because when I found her... when I found her I was so relieved. It was so strange, I was so angry at her but when I saw her I felt so... I felt peace surrounding my heart and I was happy to see she was ok. I had never felt such thing before. I couldn't just phone here and say something like "hey, I found her but I don't want to kill her anymore".- You know what it's called? - Alex asked but Miles stayed silent. - Love.- It can't be. - Miles shook his head.- What's wrong with it, Miles? You like her, you care about her. - She doesn't like me.- Maybe it's because you are always telling her you don't like her, that you're gonna kill her... How is she supposed to show her feelings for you when you're always picking fights with her?- If she had feelings for me she wouldn't have gotten engaged to Tyler.- Tyler is dead and you're very alive so maybe if you stop being so cranky around her, maybe she'll see you.- She could stop being mean to me as well.- Change and maybe she'll change. Stop blaming her for your own cowardice. - Maybe... All I know now is that my chest is heavy. Feels like I have a block of cement around me heart, it's awful.- It's because you miss her. Miles, you're fucking thirty-one it can't be the first time you're in love.- Of course it's not. It's just that it was never this intense, it's like I'm going insane. I'm really afraid to make a move and then watch her go away forever. I really don't think she likes me.- Maybe it's because you always had to hide your true self from all the other birds but Lil is actually part of our business. You don't have to hide from her.- Maybe.Alex poured another drink for the both of them.- Aren't you upset I lied to you?- No. - Alex shook his head. - I knew you two were together.- You knew?- Lil wrote me. She's been writing me since she left Paris all those months ago. I've been even paying up her hotel bills.- And you knew where she was but you didn't tell me?- I felt like I should protect her. You call her "thunderstorm" but you're not different. Sometimes it looks like the two of you are an extension of each other. I was worried you would actually fight Tyler and bring her back here at all costs. It was too much for me to deal with you two so I decided not to interfere.- I would 'ave done that if I hadn't witnessed her engagement. She was happy with him. That hurt me, made me back up.- Well, there's no one in your way anymore. I'm actually surprised you didn't try to steal her away from Tyler, given your history.- That's not the only thing stopping me, actually... Tyler's death got me thinking. What if I lose her? I can't make her stop this hunting that's why I'm helping her, I'm afraid she will end up dead.- But what if you lose her without 'aving never told her you love her? What if you die? - I don't know what's worse. Well... actually I do, it'd be better if I died so I wouldn't have to live with that.- Luckily, nobody is gonna die. If she managed to get this far by herself and now you're helping her, there's no one who can stop you.- Yeah but she's alone now.------------------------------------------------------ You may have killed them but I'm no fool.- I'm aware of that. You are a very clever man, you couldn't have fooled all these people if you weren't smarter than them. Propers to you for that.Lil raised her glass and took a sip of her drink.She was seated at the table of a cabaret, talking to the very man she was going to kill.- I didn't come to shoot you, I came to talk about Simon.- What about him?
Then Miles was right.
- Why did he send his men after Tyler?She knew that answer already but she needed to make him talk and buy some time.- Tyler bailed on the others and Simon's brother got killed trying to replace Tyler.
This part is new.
- Does he know Tyler was in jail the night it went down?- Yes, we all know. But the problem is that Tyler was irresponsible and got drunk the night before, he got into a fight, got arrested and shit happened.- That's not what I heard.- But it's the truth. I was the one who tried to arrange his release. Simon must have given the orders to get Tyler killed but it was the others who decided he owed them money. - Then you know about the money part?- Of course I do. I financed everything, the others came to ask me if I wanted to be part of the "claim group", I told them it was not necessary.- Thank you for all of the details.- You're welcome, even though I'm very sorry you'll not be holding them for too long. It's my duty to inform the others about you.- I know, I'd do the same thing if I had partners. You're very kind, I wish we had met under another circumstances. I'm afraid I have to go now.- Trying to run away?- No, it's just my time is running up.Lil excused herself from the table and walked out the cabaret.She took a little bottle out of her purse and drank all the liquid inside of it.
I hope there's still time or he's gonna be the last one I'll have killed.
Lil started to feel her stomach burning and her mouth fill with saliva.She knew she couldn't keep walking much longer so she hopped in a cab and prayed to get to the hotel as fast as she could.When Lil entered her room, her sight had started to turn black. She walked towards the bathroom but couldn't get there.Suddenly she was on her knees and her whole body was aching, she was sweating.She could taste blood on the tip of her tongue.
If I drank the antidote and am almost dead, he must be dead by now. It wasn't for nothing.
Lil started coughing and spit a bit of blood.
Come on. I couldn't have drank it earlier or it would have coagulated my blood.
I drank it on time, why is it not working?
She coughed violently.And then she passed out.--------------------------------------------------------
November 12, 1922.
- Tell me everything.- They're all fine, it is a girl. Matt cried the whole time and they named her Amelia. - Matt is such a big teddy bear. He looks tough as hell but he's so soft on the inside. I'm so happy for them. Did you give him and Breana my hug?- I had to cut it short but yes, I did give them your hug.Lil coughed into a handkerchief and hid it before Miles could even be aware of that gesture.- I bet she's beautiful, the little one. - She's a cutie alright. - Miles smiled a bit.- Soon it's gonna be Nick and Jamie's turn. Their babies are gonna be born around the same time. Sometimes I wonder if they were to be born on the same day. - That would be funny.Lil coughed again.- Are you alright?- Yeah.- By the way, I told Alex I found you but it turns out he already knew that because you've been writing him since Paris.- Guilty as charged. - Lil said and shrugged. - But I think you understand why he didn't tell you, right?- He explained it to me. He also told me a bunch of other things but maybe I'll tell you about it later.Another coughing fit.- Come on, you're not fine. - Miles grabbed Lil's arm gently, making her stop. - Tell me what's happening.- I took care of our friend Thomas last week but since he was known I couldn't just shoot him so I had to poison him.- Yes...?- I didn't have the opportunity of tampering only his drink so I had to tamper mine as well, in case he would switch our glasses, and so he did, and drink a bit from it so he would drink his too. It worked but I think I miscalculated the time I should take the antidote and now I've been coughing blood ever since.Miles felt his heart racing.
What if you lose her?
- Bright side is that I didn't die and now I can carry on with my plan.- But you almost died. - At least I knew what I was doing.Lil started to walk again.Miles walked past her and stopped in front of her.His heart still racing.- You're not gonna tell me to stop, again, are you? - She asked, a bit tired.Both of them were staring at each other in the middle of the train station in Aurora.- No. But after I tell you what I want to tell you, maybe you will tell me to go away. I wasn't gonna say anything but if I don't say it I think I'll regret it for the rest of me life.- Just say it, then. - Lil said in almost a whisper.Miles looked into her eyes.- I like you and I'm terrified I might lose you.Lil's lips parted but she didn't say anything, she just kept staring at Miles as everything around them seemed to fade. She could've expected anything from him except that.- This whole time I was away I didn't manage to sleep one single night at peace. I kept thinking about the last time we had seen each other, I was afraid I would never get the chance to tell you how I feel and now that I just did I don't know if I should feel relieved or worse than ever because I feel you're gonna walk away and I'll really never see you again.Lil was still staring at Miles.She started coughing again losing a bit of balance as she was so immersed in Miles' words that she "forgot" how hard she'd been coughing.Miles held her by her waist.- I think it's better you sit down.He guided Lil to a bench in a less busy area of the train station.They sat down side by side, she started coughing again. This time there was a bit of blood staining her handkerchief.- You should go see a doctor.- They would diagnose me with tuberculosis and the treatment would make me postpone my plans and maybe kill me since I don't have tuberculosis.- You should tell them you accidentally drank poison.- Miles--
If I die, I die.
- Yes, I'll go see a doctor. - She sighed, lying.- Great.- So this is why you said you couldn't "let me go". - Yes. I just couldn't tell you the reason why, back then. You had just lost... the timing wasn't right.- Yeah.Silence.- I couldn't tell. - Lil finally spoke. - All we do is fight.- I thought that if I could bring myself to hate you I wouldn't have to live in fear of losing you.- Since when? - Not long before we had that fight and you cut your feet. It was when I came to terms that I really liked you. - It was that fight that pushed me to Tyler.- I know, and I wish I could go back in time, all the time. If I'd told you that I was moody because I liked you but didn't know how to tell you... maybe we would not even be here right now.- But we can't go back in time.- We can't, but if we could start again, I'd go back to you everytime.They stared at each other's eyes. Lil felt something like if somebody had punched her in her chest.And with that, she stood up and left.Miles regreted having said anything.--------------------------------------------------------
What do I do now?
Tyler was right, Miles likes me.
I don't think I love him but I like him too much to a point I'll hurt him.
But I know I'll hurt him
,
eventually
.
Tyler is not here but I still love him, I can't be with Miles.
I don't... I don't know what to do.
I'm not
sure
about anything.
Lil lit up another cigarette.She'd been chain smoking ever since she got back to the hotel.- Damn it.She said as she coughed again and spit blood.Her stomach was hurting and she couldn't eat or drink much of anything for a while now.
The big problem with Miles is that he always uses poisoned darts, he aims to hurt. To make the wound burn and remind the wounded of him.
It's his way of making us not to forget about him.
But still, I'd rescue him every chance I got, even if that means getting stabbed by his words.
This is all too new and confusing.
I should tell him to go away but I know he is not going to go away.
If Tyler would've told me to go away I wouldn't have because I loved him.
I love him.
Will I ever be able to love someone else?
Would I be able to love Miles
back?
Do I want to love him?
Am I ready to?
------------------------------------------------------
December 20, 1922
- Haven't seen you in a while.Miles said as he sat next to Lil on a bench at a park downtown.- I found it odd you were not following me. - Better? You look thinner.- Not coughing blood anymore, my stomach still hurts once in a while, I can't eat much.- Did you go see a doc?No.- Yes. He said there wasn't much he could do beyond wait for my stomach to heal by itself.- Mhm... - How are you?- I've been better.- That makes two of us.They were looking at a few children playing with a colourful ball not too far from them, on the grass.- I thought about dropping it. - Lil said after a long pause. - I could go back home. Me and Tyler, we had agreed we were gonna stop all this, I was so happy. And then he asked me to marry him. I thought all could be left behind. Now I'm still doing it and missing the point of the whole thing.
So that's what all that smiling was about.
- At the same time I know life back in Florida will always be missing a piece.- What if they find you? You're not exactly a secret anymore.- I thought about it too. I think I'd rather go back and risk being found and killed than to stay on this endless hunt. But you shan't worry, I'll not be working with you guys anymore. I can't be around you if someone finds me.
Then you'll be there but you wont be there.
Miles didn't like hearing that.- I can't believe I'm saying this but then I'll keep hunting alone. - What? Why?Lil had turned her body towards Miles.- I don't want them to find you. I want you to keep going to the pub and singing on our stage, dressed in the sparkled red dress you love so much.Lil swallowed hard.- I want you to live a long life and not to get killed at 22. Your life is just starting.- And then you want to get killed instead? No, I'm not letting you solve my problems for me. I'm a grown woman, I can do that.- I'm not exactly asking for your permission. - He turned to look at her.- Miles, I can't let you do that.Miles didn't say anything.- I already lost Tyler. - Lil said, hanging her head and closing her eyes.Miles turned his head to look at her.- I can't let you do it.- If I don't do it, you'll be signing up your death sentence. Sooner or later they'll find you. This agreement you had with Tyler, it's not possible. There's no out. We kill or we get killed. Whatever Tyler promised you, he was lying to make you happy.Lil was looking at Miles, she didn't know how to reply to that because deep down she knew it was true.There was no out.They were facing each other.- You know how I feel about you and at this point there's nothing you can do to make me hate you, anymore. Nothing that's gonna make me say "it's her problem" because there's only one of you and you know how terrible it is losing someone you love.Love.Miles wanted to bite his tongue but he stood his ground. The words had been said, there was no going back.- You... you love me?- You deaf now? - He asked, not knowing of another way to react to that but being a tad rude. It was really hard for him to face his own emotions, it meant to feel vulnerable.- No, I'm fucking not. - Lil clicked her tongue before continuing. - I've learned you care about things and that you can smile, a lot, but love...? Do you really do th-Miles pulled Lil into a kiss.She didn't get away from him, she didn't resist him.She didn't want to shoot him.Or kick him.The kids playing with the colourful ball were looking at them now and saying "ewww".Miles and Lil parted the kiss but kept their faces close to one another.She had her eyes closed and Miles was watching as her cheeks were turning a pale pink.- I didn't feel like you were really listening. - He told her, in a low voice.- I...She opened her eyes and looked into his.- Love me? - She furrowed her brows.- Don't make me say it again. But what's wrong with it? - Miles echoed Alex's words from months ago.- After everything I've done, you're saying you love me.- It's not like I 'aven't done almost the same things you've done. I don't 'ave to hide who I am from you, there's no need to be careful with my words, no need to be talking in codes. I was able to show you what's on my mind and it didn't push you away.Miles decided to say everything he'd been keeping to himself for what it seemed to be a million years.- I don't wanna lose this. I don't wanna lose you. We've been playing this game for two years, now. It's time you see me. I don't hate you, I never 'ave. I suffer every time we're apart and you don't even know about it.In the distance the kids were playing again, laughing.One little girl shouted.- Kiss him again!The boys all went "ewww" once more.- Get lost you lot! - Miles shouted back to them threatening to get up from the bench and then the kids ran away screaming.He turned his attention to Lil again, ready to say another thousand words.She kissed him.------------------------------------------------------
January 3, 1923
- What are you doing? - Miles asked Lil as he approached her, resting his hand on her shoulder.- Writing to Alex. You should do it too.They were staying at the same hotel now. Not the same room but the same hotel.They had decided to continue taking down all of Lil's targets but they would do it together and move faster.Both had decided to stay in Aurora until mid January and then go to Montana for the next job.They also didn't know where they were going with their new found feelings for each other, despite Lil still not having let go of her feelings for Tyler altogether, she was willing to try to make that relationship with Miles work.- Yeah, it's gonna be the first time in seven years I won't wake up hangover on January 7. - I remember it last year. - Lil giggled. - You guys were so drunk that both you and Alex were saying the ceiling was moving around. I had to take care of the five of you.- Sorry about that.- No, don't be sorry. It was fun. And your impression of a deaf old lady is very good by the way.- Oh no, I did that? - You and Alex. I wish there was a way I could have caught it on film.She was smiling sweetly at the memories.- You never mentioned any of this before.- I thought it was better not to tell you guys anything so the next time y'all would get drunk again and I would laugh 'till my ribs would hurt. And it did happen. If I'd told you anything maybe you guys would not drink as much as that other night.- So you were laughing at our expense? - I needed to have fun somehow, you know I never drink to the point I get drunk.- I think that's why we all got shitfaced; you were there, we were safe.- You guys trust me too much.- We do it because we know we can.Miles kissed the top of Lil's head before going to sit by the window.- I'm finished with Alex's letter, do you want to send one in the same envelope or you're gonna...- Mhm...Miles got up and walked towards Lil.- Pass me the pen, please.Lil gave him the pen she was writing with.Miles started to write at the bottom of Lil's letter.
Whatever she wrote above this note.
Happy birthday you monkey ass.
Hopefully Lil and I will be with you next year.
Don't have too much fun without us.
X
Miles put down the pen and Lil started reading what he had written.- "X". You always make your letters look like maps to a treasure hunt. "Look, the X is where the gold is buried".- Leave me "X" alone.- Yeah, I will. It's kinda cute, actually.- Cute?- Yeah. - I'm not cute.- I think you are therefore it doesn't matter whether you think you are or not.- You could call me handsome.- Maybe in the near future.Lil said playfully.She licked a stamp and put it on the envelope they would send to Alex and hopefully would get there on time for his birthday on January 6.- Would you be so kind as to drop this off at the mail? - What's in it for me? - I can think of something when you get back. - No, I require advance payment and I know what I want, I want you to 'ave dinner with me tonight. - Deal.- A'ight give me the letter.- Here you go.Miles was still looking at Lil.- What is it?
I was wondering if you would kiss me.
- No, nothing. I'm gonna go now, be ready by seven.- Will be.Miles started to walk towards the door of Lil's hotel bedroom when he stopped in his tracks and walked back next to her, he kissed her forehead and she smiled.She blew a kiss at him as he left.
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January 23, 1923
- He should be out any minute now. - Lil told Miles.They had arrived in Billings, Montana 3 days prior.Lil had her brunette hair back, it was longer now and she didn't have a fringe anymore. Miles had started to grow a beard, it looked good on him.- That's him, 12 o'clock.Lil squeezed Miles' hand before walking away from him and towards their target.She bumped into the man.- I'm sorry. - She apologized.- Oh, are you alright? You seem distressed. - The man said but he had a malicious tone.- I'm lost. My sister was supposed to meet me here but she never showed up. It's been hours.- Do you have her address?- Yes. - Lil took a little piece of paper out of her purse. - She lives down this road but I don't know how to get there.- I can take you.- Oh, really?- Yes, it's not far from here.- Thank you!- You're welcome.The man eyed Lil from head to toe.From the distance, Miles was clenching his fists.Lil started to follow the man and Miles started to follow the two of them.This man was called Ethan Greene. He was a gambler and had been kicked out of Vegas for counting cards. He was also wanted in California for killing a senator.Ethan was leading Lil through the busy streets when suddenly they took a turn and Miles lost sight of them.Ethan made Lil follow him into a dark, less busy alley. When she did, she grabbed her by the arm and covered her mouth with his hand. He pushed her further into the dark and against the wall.He tried to kiss Lil's neck but she stomped on his feet and he uncovered her mouth on a reflex. She pushed him away and he slapped her, she almost fell.He tried to grab her again but little did he know he had just woken up Lil's most aggressive side.The side that swore she would never let another man lay a finger on her again.Lil managed to get behind the man and kick the back of his knee. He fell on it and she wrapped her scarf around his neck.She pulled it with all the strength she had.Ethan was floundering, he grabbed the hem of her shirt ripping off a piece of it.It was the last thing he did.Ethan's fight was over, his body relaxed and his breathing stopped.Lil untied her scarf around his neck and pushed his body away from her.Suddenly it felt like Victor was right by her side, ready to beat her up again.She was sobbing when Miles found her. He was the one who was supposed to kill Ethan.Lil flinched when Miles touched her arm.- It's ok, it's me.Lil hugged Miles and continued to cry.That was the one thing that would terrify her for the rest of her life, being assaulted like that.Being assaulted like Victor would do to her.- I lost sight of you, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Lil. I'm so sorry. - Miles had her arms around her. - Did he hurt you?But her mind was clouded. In two years she had never felt so powerless, so little, so fragile.She thought that once she was away from Victor, she would start facing things better, putting up a fight with the world and the nasty men out there but it turned out it wasn't as "easy" as she had thought it would be.- Get me out of here. - She said in a little voice as if she was scared Ethan would still hurt her somehow.------------------------------------------------------ That son of a bitch cut your face. - Miles said as he pushed a strand of Lil's hair out of the way, behind her ear. They were back at their hotel.- He slapped me, I think he had a ring on.Miles pressed the wet towel against Lil's cheek. She didn't wince.She had her eyes closed and some tears streaming down her face.- I'm sorry. - Miles felt his chest getting heavy. - I'm sorry.He kissed Lil's face gently next to her eye where a tear was coming down.- It wasn't your fault. It could have happened if I were alone.- You wouldn't follow him into the dark if you were alone. You were counting on me to step in and kill him and I failed to do that.- It's over.- But you're still crying.He wiped another one of her tears.- It's gonna stop soon. - Lil touched Miles' face and tried to smile a bit.She bit her lip trying not to cry harder but she failed.- What can I do to stop this? - Miles asked, holding both Lil's hands.- I'm sorry. - She shook her head. - It's that when he hit me... it felt like Victor was hitting me. I thought I was over that but it came back so strong it shocked me. This is... shock. I thought it would never happen again.- It's not gonna happen again. I won't let that happen again. Come.Miles walked Lil to her bed and sat next to her, he hugged her and let her cry as much as she needed to.He had never dealt with a situation like that before, he just thought that if he kept his mouth shut but stayed next to Lil, maybe that would give her comfort.She fell asleep on his chest about half an hour later.------------------------------------------------------When Lil woke up it was still dark, the very first hours of the morning of the next day, to find Miles sleeping next to her. She sat on the bed and looked at him, he was sleeping deeply and peacefully.
He probably stayed awake all night.
Lil lied back in bed and wrapped Miles' arm around her waist.Her muscles were sore, specially the ones in her arms. She closed her eyes again and sighed a heavy sigh. She was feeling like she was floating after being kept on the ground by the horror she felt the night before.She tried to focus on Miles' breathing pattern and the beating of his heart.It had been a long while since she was that close to someone.Lil started to think about all of her history with Miles since the very first time she spoke to him.She started to see patterns in Miles' behaviour towards her, things she'd missed because she thought he really didn't like her after really getting to know her, the very opposite of all the other boys.All of the times he walked away from her when she spoke of Tyler.All of the times he walked away from the boys when they'd start to tease him about him not getting "birds" anymore and Lil was around.The way he would treat her but would be looking at her from the corner of his eye afterwards.All the times they fought because he thought she was doing something that would put her at risk and got mad.When he gave her flowers after they fought and also when he gave her a pink rose back in Texas.Things that screamed they could've been together for a long time if she'd seen them and treated Miles better.She tilted her head back to look at his face and kissed his cheek so very lightly as not to wake him up.Miles unconsciously moved his head a little bit as a reflex of something touching his face.Lil giggled and kissed him again.And he did the same thing.She kept kissing his cheek to a point he woke up confused and she giggled.- What's wrong? - He asked Lil, with a hoarse voice.- I'm sorry, it's just that you were doing this funny face everytime I kissed your cheek. I just couldn't help myself.Miles smiled sternly, closing his eyes again for a second.- It's a'ight.He turned his head and looked at Lil.- Are you feeling better? - Yes. It's just a shadow of a feeling now. - You tossed and turned all night.- You should have left me here and went back to your room to get some real sleep, I kept you awake.- I don't mind, I can sleep later. I just needed to make sure you were fine. - I'm gonna be fine. - She smiled a bit at him. - It's still dark outside, you can go back to sleep. In fact, you can sleep all day.Lil kissed his cheek again, even though she knew he wasn't gonna do the cute face she was laughing at moments ago.- I do want to sleep but I don't want to sleep alone.- You can stay here if you want.- I'll surely stay, then.Lil stretched her arms and got off the bed.She noticed she was still wearing her clothes from last night.
Her ripped shirt...
That gave her the creeps. She walked quickly into the bathroom and closed the door behind her.She started to breathe fast.- Lil, are you ok? - Miles asked, right outside the door.- Yeah, I'm just... I'm gonna... I'm gonna take a shower and I'll be right back with you.- A'ight...Lil looked at her bruised face in the mirror. She touched the small cut and slid her hand to her neck where Ethan had tried to kiss her.
Never again.
Lil took off her clothes and got in the shower. The warm water was working wonders on her muscles. She washed her body and took her time, let all the shadow of that fear go down the drain.She turned the water off and wrapped her body in a towel. She would have to leave the bathroom to go get fresh clothes and her robe.She thought of asking Miles but she knew he wasn't going to feel comfortable going through her luggage. Neither would she.When Lil left the bathroom, Miles was lying down again. His arm over his eyes.His shirt was half open, exposing his pale chest.Lil started to tip toe around the room because she thought Miles was asleep again and she didn't want to wake him up.- I think I'l--Miles stopped talking when he saw Lil wrapped in a towel, with her clothes dangling from her arms.She froze when he spoke.Not because she didn't think he would see her but because she thought he was asleep and didn't hear her walking around.- I forgot to take my clothes to the bathroom. - She started to explain.- It's alright I... I was saying I thought about swinging by me room to grab some clothes and take a shower, too. I was gonna go while you were in the shower but maybe you would come out and not find me here and get... worried.- Yeah, you should do that, you're still wearing your clothes from last night as well.- I promise I won't be long. - Miles said, buttoning up his shirt.He gave Lil a peck on the lips and left the room.Lil rested her back against the door, the room was too empty now.The shape of Miles body on her bed made her want him back at that very second.
We've been playing this game for two years, now. It's time you see me.
Lil threw her clothes on the floor and put her robe on.She also left her room.Miles had just took his shirt off again when he heard knocks on his bedroom door.He didn't think twice before opening it, it was Lil's knocks. The ones in code.- What hap--For the second time that morning, Miles' words got stuck.Lil was standing in the corridor, wearing nothing but her silk robe, looking deeply into Miles' eyes.- I hated it when you left. - Lil quoted what Miles had said to her a month before.Miles stepped outside and wrapped his arms around Lil's waist.She threw her arms around his neck.Everything was quiet, it seemed like they were standing in a world alone.Lil got closer to Miles and he kissed her, gently as always.He pulled her into his bedroom.------------------------------------------------------
March 7, 1923
Lil and Miles had taken down other two men. There were only another two left now. And then Simon.- Where are we going next?Lil had refused to tell Miles the location of her targets. She thought it'd be safer if he didn't know in case he got caught.- What have you been telling your mom? - She replied with another question.All of those months and Miles just had gone back home one time.- The truth. Well... half of it.- What do you mean?- I told her we're together. And I told her we're looking for an aunt of yours. - And are we close to find my "aunt"?- Maybe. - Miles scoffed.- You're terrible.- God will forgive me. It's still better than to let my mom know I've been around killing people with my girlfriend.- Is this girlfriend of yours any good?- The very best of them all, my standards are high.- Mhm...- But you still didn't tell me where we are going.- Home. - Lil sighed heavily. - I want to put all of this on a hold and go home. I want to see my boys, I want to meet Matt's little girl, I want to be there when Jamie and Nick's babies are born. I want to witness something good, be a part of it. I also think it's gonna be good if we stop now and let them think we're finished.- I agree we go back under one condition.- That being...?- You marry me.
Will you marry me?
Those words...She thought she would never hear them again.She didn't think she was ready to hear them again.So she decided to try to keep it cool and not to let it show she was actually worried someone would come through the door of their hotel bedroom and shoot Miles dead.- I mean. - Miles continued. - We're together and we've been... we've been... you know.- Having sex? - Lil asked, teasing Miles about his shyness.In fact both of them were in bed, naked and sweaty as they spoke.Lil found it funny how sexual Miles was while he was at it but so shy about it at any other given moment.- Yeah. I mean, what if you get pregnant? We need to be married first! - Well, if that's your logic, we should have gotten married before we had sex the first time.- Indeed. But you were standing in front of the hotel bedroom like that, what did you expect me to do?- Exactly what you did.Lil slid her hand across Miles' chest.- If I get to do one thing right in my whole life, then it has to be this. - Because it's the British way to do it, right?- Yes. My mom would rip me ear off if I ought to 'ave a shotgun wedding.Lil laughed.- Momma's boy. If I didn't know you, I'd swear you were spoiled rotten.- Maybe I am, I always get what I want.- Do you now?- Absolutely.Miles leaned over to kiss Lil on the lips.She crawled on top of him without breaking their kiss.Lil leaned over Miles, bit the lobe of his ear and whispered.- Then we should stop having sex.She pulled the blanket and wrapped her body with it, walking away from the bed and from a completely naked Miles.He put a pillow over his own body.- Oi, don't do that to me!- You're the one who started it.Lil said from the other "room" of their bedroom.- You didn't even reply. - Miles said, approaching Lil, he was wearing his boxers and she was going through the dining cart, frustrated there was no wine and that it wasn't possible to order it.- You didn't ask me anything. - Lil said, turning around.Miles grabbed her right hand as she was using the other hand to keep the blanket wrapped around her.- It's no surprise I'm gonna ask you to marry me, I suggested it five minutes ago. But I want you to know that I love you an awful lot so that's why I want to do this right and by "do it right" I mean I want to have you by me side for the rest of our dangerous lives. - He kissed her near her mouth to distract her. - I hope you like it, it was my mum's.Lil frowned a bit at that last phrase. And then she looked at her hand.- Will you marry me?Sitting on Lil's right ring finger was a delicate silver ring with a small blue gem.She kept looking at the ring for a while until Miles' words hit her.She looked at him.- She gave it to me and told me to carry it on me at all times when I told her we're together.- Yes. - She said, looking into his eyes. - I didn't think I would be ready to do it so shortly after... but it's you and I've never been so sure. Don't ever leave me.Lil hugged Miles forgetting completely about the blanket but he held it for her at the same time he hugged her back.
Don't ever leave me.
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March 14, 1923
- Hello, boys!Lil said as she walked into the pub on that Wednesday. Miles was right next to her.- Lil! - Nick flashed a big smile at her and she opened her arms to hug him. He walked towards her and so did all the other boys. Alex had a victorious smile on his face.They started asking her a million questions.How was she, where's she been, what she'd been doing.Miles was being totally ignored.- I'm here too, you dicks. - He said, laughing.Alex walked towards him and gave him a hug.- At the end you did it, eh? You brought her back. - Alex said in a low voice so the others wouldn't hear him.- Yep. - Miles said with a proud smile. - And we 'ave some news.Alex looked at Miles for a second, he knew that smile.- Miles, did you...? Is she...? - He asked, kinda alarmed.- Yes, I did. Calm down, she's not. I think.- What are you guys gossiping about? - Matt asked, approaching Alex and Miles.- How much of a dick you are for not welcoming me back. - Miles joked.- Ladies first. And you could 'ave stayed where you were, we don't mind 'aving you back. - Matt tried to sound serious but they all knew he was joking.- Well, I do need him here. - Lil said, walking towards Miles. She smiled at Matt.- Man, this is so weird. - Jamie said. - When are you two gonna start shooting at each other? - Wait, don't start yet, I'm gonna grab some popcorn. - Nick said.- I want to know how the hell Miles convinced you to come back here. - Matt said.Alex was just looking at all of them.- I came back because I have an important event to attend. - Lil said trying to stay in a serious tone- What is it? - What happened?Asked Nick and Jamie.- Her wedding. - Miles replied.All the boys went "what?"Even Alex had a surprised face.- But isn't... I thought Tyler was dead... - Jamie said.- Yes, he is. - Lil said. - But life is very strange and I'm having the chance to begin again. - Yeah, but you have to bring him here first. We don't want you marrying trouble or a man who isn't at your level. - Nick said.Lil smiled and slightly shook her head.- Guys, I'm marrying Miles. - She said and took a step closer to him and he wrapped his arm around her waist.Jamie started laughing loud.- This is the best joke you guys could come up with. - He said, wipping his after laughter tears.- Not a joke, Cookie. - Miles said with a smirk.- Wait, what? - I told you life is very strange. - Lil said.- Then, in the end, all that fighting was hidden love? - Matt asked.- You could say that. - Miles replied, lighting up a cigarette. - When should we save the date? - Alex asked, he was the only one who wasn't crazy questioning Lil and Miles' relationship. .He knew that if Miles tried, he could make Lil come around. And he suspected she would fall for him eventually, as well.- Since your babies, - Lil pointed at Jamie and Nick. - should be arriving soon, Miles and I decided to get married two months from now, he's in a bit of a hurry. - Lil said trying not to laugh at the last bit.- Yeah, she's been giving me a hard time.The boys had no idea what they were talking about.- We will give you the exact date in a week or maybe two, we need to arrange the details. - Lil said. - We just got back yesterday so we still have to figure everything out.- Yeah, we went to my mum's 'ouse to let her know and everything. Not much more than that. - Miles complemented.- A'ight. You guys know what marriages mean, right? - Jamie asked the others.- Party! - Nick yelled. - Yep. - Jamie said - We're gonna throw a big fucking party so y'all better be ready.- I think only Alexa and Breana will be able to attend, tho. - Lil said. - Katie and Kelly will still be recovering and everything. I hope they can make it to the wedding but I don't think they can go through a party.- Yeah, you're right. But let's hope the babies are born soon so we all can be there. - Nick said.- Maybe we should postpone it a month... or two? - Lil looked at Miles.- You know we can't stay that long, love. - Miles said, apologetically.- What do you mean by that? - Matt asked.- We have some unattended businesses that still need to be taken care of. - Lil replied. - We came back to get married here so we could have all of you with us but we can't stay, at least not until it's all settled.- You two are up to no good, aren't ya? - Nick asked.- It's better if none of you boys know anything about it. - Lil said.- I'm helping out but even I don't know everything. - Miles said.- It's for your own good. Well, changing the subject. - Lil said. - How's your little girl, Matt? I heard she's beautiful!------------------------------------------------------
March 18, 1922
Dear Elisa,
I'm writing you this letter to thank you (also to apologize for being a terrible friend and not writing to you in a long while but I'll explain).
Months ago you told me not to go down without a fight so I dove into the fight.
I've been traveling around the States with the woman I love. At first I was following her, but even though this may sound creepy, I was just making sure she was alright since she'd lost someone close to her.
I finally let myself accept I was in love with her, despite being completely scared since I'm terrible at dealing with my feelings (and at writing letters).
Fast forward to this very day, I'm writing you to invite you to my wedding.
You have actually met my bride, it's Lillian, the beautiful girl who couldn't sing for you at the pub the last time you were here.
Elisa, if I must say it, I've never been so happy before as I am now and I owe you this, so I will be very disappointed if you and Mr. Kamenashi won't be able to attend.
The date is 25 of May this year, as in two months from now.
I really hope you can make it and maybe sing for us if you will.
Looking forward to seeing you.
With love. From Florida.
Miles P. Kane.
Miles put Elisa's invitation in an envelope and then inside his coat pocket, hoping to drop it at the mail later that day.- Mi? - Lil called from outside his house and knocked on his door.He went to open it.- Hello, what a surprise! You look beautiful. - He said and kissed his cheek. - I was going to meet you at the hotel. Am I late or something?- No, no. Jamie phoned Alex and he phoned me since he couldn't reach you, maybe your phone is broken but it doesn't matter now. - Lil was talking fast. - Katie is in labor and all the boys are gathering together at the pub to wait for Jamie and some news. I came to pick you up. Well, sorta...Lil had come in a taxi and it had left so she picking Miles up was actually unlikely.- Oh, really? Let me grab the car keys. I can't believe we came back just in time for this.Miles and Lil got into his car and drove to the pub.The boys were sat at a table by the telephone.- Any news? - Miles asked as soon as he and Lil stepped in.- No, not yet. - Matt answered. - Where's Alex? - Lil asked.- Accompanying Jamie. - Nick said.- Oh, alright.Miles and Lil also sat at the table.- It's taking long isn't it? - Miles said after some time had passed.- These things take time, Miles. And it's her first baby so yes, it might take a while. - Yeah, man. Don't you remember how long it took to Hearst to be born? It was like a whole day. - Nick said.- And Amelia too, a few months ago. - Matt also said to Lil since Miles was there and he would remember.The telephone of the pub rang.- I'll get it. - Lil said and got up from the table.The others kept chatting and wondering who was calling the pub.- Oh my God, you're kidding. - Lil said and all the boys turned to look at her. - Alright, I'll let him know. He'll be there in a minute I'm sure. Good luck, that you may have a peaceful time. - She had a smile on her face.Lil hang up and turned to look back at the boys.- Nick?- Yeah?- It was Kelly, it's your turn. Your baby is coming and it's better you hurry home. Don't panic. Kelly was super calm, she said she's alright, she just wants you there. - Oh God. - Nick rubbed his sweaty palms against the fabric of his trousers. He got up but froze on his tracks, not exactly realizing what he had to do. - Nick? - Matt called. - Calm down, mate. I'll go with ya. I'll drive.- What do we do? - Lil asked them.- I don't know... maybe you should stay here and wait for some news, we're all be back here anyway... at some point, I mean. - Matt. - Nick called.- A'ight, coming. Well, you two stay here. We'll phone you lot if we need anything.- A'ight. - Miles replied.- Good luck, Nick. - Lil told him, giving him a brief but tight hug.The boys left and now it was only Lil and Miles at the pub.- In the end, they are really gonna be born on the same day. - Lil said with a little smile. - I think Kelly got nervous about Katie going in labor.- Probably. I don't know much about that. - Miles said.- Neither do I. I've never been pregnant, all I happen to know is by observing. - Mhm...- What's your bet? Two boys, two girls or one of each?- I'll bet one of each. - Yeah, that's my bet too. - Lil giggled a bit. - It's so funny how easily you guys panic. Nick already has a baby but still he went pale as a sheet.- Yeah. Yet I can't mock Nick, I don't know how I'll react when our time comes. - Miles said the last bit in a dreamy tone. He was staring at something only him could see.- I bet you're gonna faint and the boys will have to carry you to another room of the hospital. - Lil said and laughed. - Eh... I can't promise it won't be like that but I'll try not to get too nervous. Well, we'll only know it when we have a baby.- Yeah, "we" because you'll be pregnant too.- In a way. But, - Miles said after a pause. - you remember that time the boys went to Vegas and we stayed here to guard the money? - Yes?- Well, Alex specifically told me not to have sex in his office but that's a request I'm really not willing to respect. - Miles looked at Lil across the table.- Oh, did he? - Lil asked, squinting her eyes a bit and pulling a smirk.- Yeah.- Well, we could do that. - She flashed a smile at him. - If we were married already.Miles rested his forehead against the surface of the wooden table.- You're evil.- You're the one who pulled this card, honey. - Lil ran her fingers through Miles' hair.- Can't we just drop it? - Miles looked at Lil.- Why, can't you wait a few months? Baby fever, dear?- I can wait. - Miles got up from his chair and stopped behind Lil, he put both hands on her shoulders and leaned on to whisper on her ear. - I don't want to. Fuck George V and the British way to do it, I want you.- I thought you said it was your mum who would "rip your ear off" if you were ought to have a shotgun wedding, not King George.- We already have a date to get married, it's not like you were gonna be three months pre—Lil had gotten up and was resting both hands on the table, slightly leaning back, facing Miles.- It's not like we didn't do it before. - Miles said, resting his hands on Lil's waist.- I know...He took a step closer.- But, - She said, running away from him. - you killed the fun and now I want you to think about this choice you made. You said you wanted to do this right, then let's do this right.And then she got close to him again.- If you think this doesn't kill me too, you're completely wrong. - Even closer - If you think I don't want you to fuck me on Alex's desk, you're completely wrong. And if you think I didn't almost give in, guess what, wrong again. I just won't let you win.The telephone rang again.Lil started to walk towards it.- When we get married I'll make everyone leave this fucking pub and we will fuck on Alex's desk! - Miles said and then sighed, he went to pour himself a drink.Lil raised her brows at him before picking up the phone.- Hello? Oh, hi! A boy? That's awesome! Jamie chose the name!?Miles walked towards Lil with a glass of whisky in his hand.- Oh, that's lovely. Yes. No, nothing. We were just waiting for some news, Kelly's in labor too, I think you know. Yeah. Oh, you coming here?Lil looked at Miles with an expression that said something like "see?"- Oh, your car is here. True. Alright, we will be waiting for you. Bye, Alex.Lil put the telephone back in its place.- Forrest Cook. - She smiled at Miles, with the news.
----- CHAPTER BREAK -----
March 27, 1923
- Can you hear this? - Miles said out of the blue.- What? - Lil asked, curious.They were at Miles' house, cuddling on the sofa after having painted most part of the rooms. Lil would be moving in after the wedding so they thought of renewing the house.- Come closer, put your ear here. - Miles pointed at his chest.Lil did as she was told.- Yes... your heart beating. - She said, furrowing her brows.- No, no. Pay attention. - He said trying not to laugh.Lil rested her ear against his chest again.Both were covered in paint from their "war paint" they had in the bathroom.- Miles, I don--- Listen.She shut up and kept listening to the beating of his heart.It was soothing.- Lil. Lil. Lil. Lil. Lil. - Miles kept repeating as if it was the sound his heart was actually making while keeping him alive.Lil started laughing.- I thought it was something serious! - Lil hit his arm playfully. - You scared me. - But it's serious! I'm infected by you, me heart's been making strange noises. - He was laughing while she kept hitting his arm lightly and also laughing.In the end he took her hands.She was still laughing lightly.- Who could've said that in the end we would fall for each other?- Is this the end? - Of our lonely days, yes. - Lil replied.- Then it's a good ending. - The very best of them. - She smiled at him.Lil was trying to rub a bit of paint off of Miles' cheek.- Maybe we shouldn't have done this. - She said.- It was fun.- Yes, but now we have paint all over our bodies, look at my arms. I'm gonna spend a whole year rubbing it off, I'm probably gonna miss our wedding because I'll still be in the shower. - She laughed.- You know we could help each other, right? - Miles winked at Lil.- You still trying to get me into your bed?- Our bed. And yes, I was told to never give up without a fight. Glad to know you got the hint even tho I suggested a shower.- Yeah, I can see that.Miles was resting his hand on Lil's waist.She had a baby blue stripe Miles had painted on her face. She had drew a white heart on his arm.- Our bed, you say? - She asked him, looking into his eyes.- Yeah.- Interesting. Don't you wonder what the Queen thinks about having a bed but never having slept on it?- Queen? - Miles furrowed his brows.- Yes, your American one. - Lil pointed at herself.Miles laughed.He rested his face on his hand and his elbow on his knee.- She must think it's an absurd! I even think it's against the law.- Good to know you know your laws. Well, - Lil got up from the couch and stood in front of Miles. - I'm tired and this paint on my body it's your fault because you started it and America would never run away from England in a war. - Don't forget I'm a well trained soldier. - Miles said, looking at her face.- Yes, I know. But this is my territory and I'm your American Queen, therefore you're under my power.She lifted her leg and put her bare foot on Miles' chest, pressing him down against the couch.- And as a good soldier you know you should obey me.He put both hands on her leg.- What are the orders? - He asked.- First one: take me to the shower. Second one is not an order but a message: fuck George V.------------------------------------------------------
April 4, 1923.
- There's a letter for you. - Alex told Miles when he walked into the pub.- Yeah?- Yeah. France.- Oh, my dear Elisa. - Miles walked towards the stack of letters Alex had put on the bar.He opened the letter and read it.- What does it say? - Matt asked.- The letter is for me, you know? - Miles said, joking.- I'll pass it over to Lil and she will read and she will tell me. - Matt replied.Nick laughed.- A'ight. - Miles said, laughing too. - She's just replying to the wedding invitation, she'll come. She and her husband. You guys will like him as well. - Yeah, you spoke highly of him. - Jamie said.- He's a good fella. A'ight, what do we have on the schedule today?- Nothing special, actually. The guys are gonna take care of the next refill day and it's all settled already.- I'm thankful y'all hired a crew to take care of this part while I was out.- Yeah, we can't risk it now. We all have people to look after and despite business still booming, it's getting harder to get the booze. - Nick said.- Yeah, I'm aware. It was a smart move. - Your girl' suggestion, actually. - Alex told Miles.- It was a good idea so of course it was her idea. - Miles said, laughing a bit.- Eh. - Jamie said.The other boys also laughed.- Where' she by the way? - Alex asked - You two are never apart these days. - Home. My 'ouse, I mean. She's not feeling well.- Oooh... - All the boys said and then they all fell silent.Miles didn't realize what was going on at first.- Wait. No, it's just her leg is hurting. It happens from time to time since when she had to drag me to the hospital for being stupid.- Ah. - All the boys said together again.- You guys are... - Miles started but didn't finish.- Well, you come here with love bites day in day out, it wasn't gonna be unexpected if she wasn't feeling good because there's a baby on the way. - Alex said.- Is it that noticeable? - Miles asked, touching his neck.The boys laughed.- I wonder what your mum thinks about it. - Jamie said.Suddenly Miles was feeling ashamed.- Come on, Miles. You were always teasing us about it at the beginning of our marriages. - Matt said. - You're lucky you're actually getting to do a lot of that before getting married. After you get married time seems to go by faster and kids come and it becomes a luxury, actually.- Speak for yourself, Helders. - Alex said.- Man, it's not she doesn't want to. It's just I'm fucking tired. Everytime I'm home I try to spend as much time around Amelia as I can so I don't get to sleep much and well...- A'ight I get it! - Miles interrupted them and put an end to the subject. Somehow he was feeling really, really ashamed. He was raised to do a thing one way but he was doing it the other way. A funnier way. - Anyway, she's not coming in today. - And when you get home, let her rest her leg for God sake. - Jamie said.- I didn't do anything. - Miles replied. His cheeks were pink.- Miles? - Alex asked.- Yeah?- Why are you still trying to hide the purple thing on your neck?The boys laughed again.- Fuck off you lot. - Miles clicked his tongue. - I'm going to the back, yell if you need anything.Miles started to walk away from the boys.- Well, actually. - He stopped and turned around. - I need a favour. - Yeah? - I need everyone out of here on May 26.--------------------------------------------------------
May 7, 1923.
- I'm not upset about it actually. - Lil spoke as she and Alexa walked downtown, looking for a wedding dress. - I'm already happy enough I'll get to get married at the church, again.She was talking about not being allowed to wear a white dress since she was not a virgin and there was no way she could hide that fact since she was also a widow.- It's not gonna be a big ceremony anyway and all of you will understand why I'll be wearing a creme dress. What's really important is that by the end of the afternoon, Miles and I will be happily married. - She smiled.- Yes. But I'll still help you find the best dress a bride could wear, white or not. - Alexa smiled back at Lil. - I'm happy for you and Miles, I had never seen him so happy and he was already an excited lad when Alex and I met him. - I'm happy he found me. And I'm thankful for the boys too. They took me in, a complete stranger. And you bought me clothes on the very first day I arrived at the pub. The most beautiful dresses I had the chance to wear in my life.Both girls smiled at each other.- Finding all of you gave meaning to my life. Actually, I didn't know what life was before I met all of you. Alex must have told you the story.- Yes. I was saddened and shocked and angry. I'm actually...Alexa seemed to bite her tongue for a second but she continued.- Glad he is dead. - She said as if she was telling a mother her child is the most ugly kid in the world.
Me too.
- It's alright. Victor did so many wrong things that if it wasn't the fire, it was going to be something else.- I'm glad my Alex has the pub and sings and that's it. I don't know how I would feel if I found out he was someone completely different after we got married.Lil gulped.- Yeah... Victor was... wasn't bad at all b-before... we...
Breathe and quit stuttering.
- Before we got married. - She spoke firmly. - He wasn't the man of my dreams but he was decent, he didn't even drink. But then he got into gambling and would lose money and then get home frustrated and start saying I'd done everything wrong. Not long after that he started drinking and every time he lost a game I would get a black eye the next morning. It all happened in just months... I felt trapped, it was awful.- The food is cold!- Because you should be home by six, it's eight.- Are you questioning me?- No. I'm sorry, I'm gonna heat it up for you, it will take just a minute.- I don't want it anymore.
Victor would throw the plates on the floor.
Lil would start trembling because she knew what was coming next even though she didn't do anything wrong.
- Please, don't. - She would beg.
But it was no use.
- It was two horrible years of my life, well, almost two years. - Lil shook her head. - But it's over now. This time I'll be happy.- Yes! You deserve it. After Alex, Miles is the best man I know. Don't let Matt know I told you this, though. - Alexa said and both she and Lil laughed. - I won't.The girls went to a store Alexa loved.Without her, Lil would never know where to find herself a dress.- What about this one? - Alexa asked Lil.- I like this one better.- Try them both and we'll see. There's also that other one in case you don't feel like any of these dresses.- Alright.Lil tried the first dress, she walked around the store in it, feeling the fabric and also if some adjustments were going to be necessary.Then she tried the other one.- I really like this one. - Alexa said about the dress Lil had picked.- Yeah, it fits me nicely. And I like it has long sleeves as well. - Yes, it's very elegant. I mean, you made it very elegant.Lil smiled at her.- What do you think? - Lil asked.- I like the embroidery on the other one better but this one looks like it was made for you.- Yeah. - This one or the other one, you'll look stunning no matter what.- I'm staying with this one, then.Lil looked at herself in the big mirror one last time.- All done, I'm gonna change back to my clothes now.- Alright. It's nearly five so we can go have tea after we're finished here if you fancy it.- Sure!Lil started to take off what was gonna be her wedding dress and stopped for a second.The scar on her shoulder bringing her back to reality. She touched it.
War wounds, war scars.
It's something both of you share.
She touched the scar on her leg as well.
I hate the both of you.
I'm just glad he loves the both of you.
- Let's go? - Lil said, coming out of the fitting room.- Yeah. - Alexa replied with a smile.------------------------------------------------------
May 25, 1923
- He is late!? - Lil asked Nick when he went back to the car to tell her Miles hadn't arrive yet.- I'm sure it's no--- Nick, he can't be late. He's never late! Something happened!Lil said, opening the door of the car but Nick didn't let her out.- Stay in the car and calm down. If Miles gets here and sees you before you step into that church Alexa is gonna kill me. Alex went to get him, I'm sure he's just-- Oh, there he is.Lil tried to look at where Nick was pointing but he blocked the window as Miles passed by them so he wouldn't see Lil.- You're late! - Nick said in a normal voice.Alex was running after Miles, trying to adjust his clothes.- Don't yell, you fuck. - Miles replied to Nick that laughed.- Your bride is in the car, by the way. - Nick pointed at the car behind him.- Oh fuck. I'M SO-But then Miles stopped talking, grimacing, and Nick started laughing again.Alex pushed Miles into the church and the doors were closed.- That's our cue. - Nick said to Lil.- I still don't know why he's late.- You're gonna see for yourself. - Nick said, giggling. - Shall we? - He offered his arm to Lil.She took a deep breath.Nick and Lil stood in front of the doors of the church. He signalled to the boy who was responsible for opening them when the bride was ready to walk in.- Is it strange that I'm nervous? - Lil asked Nick.- No. - He smiled and kissed her in the right side of her forehead. She squeezed his hand as the doors opened.Nick started walking Lil down the aisle, everyone was standing up and smiling at them.Lil was looking at Miles and trying not to burst into laughter as she approached the altar.Nick handed over Lil's arm to Miles, squinting his eyes at him.Lil scoffed.Nick walked away from Lil and Miles, who were now facing each other.- You look absolutely beautiful. - Miles told her as they heard everyone sit down. - Was it Alex? - She asked him, trying not to laugh. - What?- Who punched you in the face. You look awful!Miles couldn't help but to laugh a bit.He had made an effort to try to look presentable but the truth is that if Alex hadn't walked into his house and dragged him out of the bed, he would have missed his own wedding.The boys had thrown him a last minute bachelor party and Miles got so hammered he had no idea how he got home after the party.Said party he didn't remember half of what had happened, too.- It's a long story. I'll tell you about it later.They knelt before the priest and the ceremony began.- Dearly beloved and honored guests. - The priest began. - We are gathered here on this day in the sight of God and the company assembled to witness the giving and receiving of the marriage vows. Marriage is an institution ordained of God and is not to be entered into lightly or in jest and only after much consideration.The priest told Miles and Lil to get up again. Miles had a hard time but got up eventually.- Do you Miles Peter Kane take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife, to have and to hold, in sickness and in health, in good times and woe, for richer or poorer, keeping yourself solely unto her for as long as you both shall live?If so, answer "I DO."- I do. - Miles replied.- Do you Lillian Jones take this man to be your lawfully wedded husband, to have and to hold, in sickness and health, to love, honor and obey, in good times and woe, for richer or poorer, keeping yourself solely unto him for as long as you both shall live?If so, answer "I DO."I won't obey him, you know? She thought about how Miles' bit didn't have the "honor and obey" part. Not his maid.- I do.- If there be anyone present who may show just and lawful cause why this couple may not be legally wed, let him speak now or forever hold his peace.Someone cleared their throat and Lil and Miles looked at each other and then around the room with surprised expressions.They saw Alexa elbowing Alex in his ribs and he laughing.They laughed too, making everyone in the room laugh as well, and then turned their attention back to the priest who signaled for the rings to be brought forward.Aiden approached Miles and Lil holding a small red cushion with the wedding bands on it. The priest took them and Lil got down on one knee to give Aiden a kiss on the cheek while Miles ruffled the boy's hair.Miles and Lil told their vows to each other and exchanged the rings.- By the authority vested in me by the State of Florida, I now pronounce you man and wife and what God hath joined together, let no man nor woman put asunder. You may kiss the bride.People got up and started applauding as Miles leaned Lil back in his arms and gave her a kiss.They walked out of the church hand in hand, with big smiles on their faces. Surrounded by people they loved and that loved them.- We'll see you all at the pub in an hour. - Matt told everyone.
And I don't wanna believe it
So don't, don't let me see it
When you're with him
And I won't bring her
Let's not make it worse
Let's give ourselves some time...
Miles voice echoed through the room....To start again...Lil's voice was heard.She and Miles were singing together.
And I don't know what your papa taught you
But, honey, don't, don't you be cruel
Don't let me see you with her
And I won't bring him
Don't make this a thing
Let's give ourselves some time...
...To start again...
Our mistakes and choices we make
Or chances we take
Without thinking it through
It wasn't me, neither you
No, this ain't a thing
I'm just tryin' to begin, again
But don't come here with him
And I could have played it better
I kind of wish that I never met her
But don't hold hands with him
And you don't with...
...her, let's not make it worseLet's give ourselves some timeTo start again...
And I know that it's only dancing
But don't let me see you romancing
'Cause I'm only human
I can't play it cool when
I know there's something still there
I know you still care
I know she can't hold you like I can
Honey, I'm your man, you know that I am
You just gotta take me back for good
If only you would
But I'm here with him
And I am with her
We're just making it worse
We're just making it worse
We're just making it worse
They walked away from their mics and started slow dancing, on stage, as the song died.Lil was now wearing a sparkly silver dress that ended just above her knee and Miles had taken off his tuxedo jacket.They were smiling sweetly at each other as they swayed around.The song ended and there were applause and whistles. Lil started laughing a bit as she and Miles bowed a bit to thank everyone.- Now, if you allow me, - Miles spoke near the microphone. - I want to invite on stage a dear friend of mine that so very kindly offered to entertain we all with her beautiful voice on this special night. Elisa, this is your cue. - Miles laughed at the end.Elisa walked into the stage and everyone stood up to applaud. She was five months pregnant at the time and she had never looked so glowy and happy and proud.Miles gave her a kiss on the cheek and Lil hugged her.Both got off stage and let Elisa work her magic.- My, my. If I knew you two were gonna sing before me I wouldn't have accepted to sing now. - She said with her lovely accent, laughing. - I mean, there's absolutely nothing I could sing right now that would sound so heavenly.Miles blew a kiss at her from the table him and Lil were sitting now.Elisa started singing and Lil rested her head on Miles' shoulder and closed her eyes for a second.Miles still looked like he had been ran over by a truck but he was feeling much better from his hangover, now. Alex had made him drink endless cups of coffee before all the guests arrived at the pub for the party.- I'm so happy. - She said so only Miles would hear. For some reason, she felt like if she was telling him a secret. - You make me so happy. - I love you. - He replied in the same hushed voice.- Sorry to bother you guys but - Matt approached Lil and Miles and they looked at him. - have you seen Cookie?In a table nearby, Kazuya Kamenashi had his full attention turned to the newly weds and their friend.
Cookie... It can't be a coincidence.
- No. - Lil answered. - Eh... - Why? - Miles asked.Elisa had finished another song when Alex's voice was heard.- There's a car parked outside blocking somebody in. Jameh, it's your car.Alex apologized to her for the rude interruption and got off the stage. Elisa was laughing lightly, he hadn't exactly interrupted anything.- We're gonna look for him. He's probably in the back. - Lil said, getting up.- Why would he be in the back? - Matt asked.- Do you see any champagne bottles around? - She asked him.- No... Oh!- Exactly. Stay here, I'll be back in a second.Lil started to walk away from the boys.Kazuya followed her.- Lady, you shouldn't be here. Please, let me leave. I'm not--Lil frowned upon hearing that.She opened the door of the cellar and found Jamie with a bottle under his arm, backed up against the wall while a woman she had seen only once in her life but knew she happened to be "friends" with Alexa and Kelly.
And Miles.
She wasn't at the church but now there she was at the party.- What is going on here? - Lil asked.- Thank God. - Jamie said as he walked towards Lil. - I came to refill my flask and this lady got in.- What are you doing here, Samantha? - I came to party.She replied with a cynical look.- Pretty obvious. I mean in our - Lil pointed at Jamie and then herself. - cellar. - I saw something else I'd like to taste since my fine wine it's not available anymore...Lil rolled her eyes and took the bottle under Jamie's arm, putting it on the ground, and starting to escort him out of the room.- At least until he gets tired of you and runs back to me. - She said. - He's such a good lover, but I think you know that, I just don't think you're on his level.Lil stopped in her tracks and turned around.Shit. Jamie thought to himself.- Eh... let's go back to the party, it's your party you shouldn't be h--- Your car is blocking somebody in, you should go. - Lil said without really looking at him.- Lil.She didn't reply.Jamie walked away as fast as he could, he passed by Mr. Kamenashi lurking in the shadows without seeing him.That's really him. Kazuya thought. Little fucker.He hadn't attended the wedding since he wouldn't step into churches so he was only seeing Jamie now.Lil took a step closer to Samantha, running her fingers through the bottles. She grabbed one.- Miles!Jamie ran towards Miles.- There you are! Everyone's b--- If you don't want somebody murdered at this party you better run to the cellar. - What? - Miles asked confused but automatically getting up from his chair and walking to the back of the pub.- Strip or I won't hesitate on pushing this broken bottle into your neck.- You're a crazy b--- Do it!When Miles got to the cellar, there was just broken glass and whiskey spilt all over the floor.
Where the fuck is she?
- It's enough. - Lil said when Samantha was standing in front of her in just her underwear. - I would drag you as you are, across the salon and out the front door. - Lil watched as Samantha widened her eyes. - But I don't want a scandal in my party so you'll be leaving through the backdoor like you deserve.- Lil! What the...Miles called. Lil didn't even look at him, she just showed him her index finger telling him with that gesture not to come any closer.- And so it will be clear; this is not about Miles. He already knows what he's gotten into. This is about you learning to respect married men and their wives and never again - Lil took a step forward and Samantha took a step back. - coming near my boys.Lil opened the door in the back of the pub and pushed Samantha out.- Good luck on your way back home. - She said in a sympathetic-ironic voice and slammed the door shut.- Lil, you can't ju--- If you let her in again, know you'll not be stepping in the house tonight. - Lil told Miles, shoving Samantha's clothes into his arms and walking away from him.Miles waited a second so Lil would not see him, opened the back door and threw Samantha's clothes away so maybe the woman could get them back if she was still around, closed it again and ran after Lil.- What happened? - Miles asked, approaching his wife. - Did you throw her clothes away?
She saw me?
- Yes...- I expected you to. - She told him. - I just wanted to scare her. She was preying on Jamie even though she knew he is married. Why was she here?- I 'ave no idea, I didn't invite her.- Are you sure about that?- Completely.- I just hope - Lil stopped in front of Miles and stared into his eyes. - I don't see her near you ever again. For all I know she's already been too close to you. I'm glad we bought a new bed.She walked away from Miles to sit down back at their table.- You know this was a long time ago, I hadn't even met you yet. - Miles said when he sat next to Lil.She didn't reply.- This can't be the first argument we're gonna have in months and right after getting married. - Miles complained.But Samantha's words got to Lil.She was only human, after all.The thought of Miles getting sick and tired of her scared her and even though she knew that silent treatment was exactly what was going to drive him into another woman's arms, she couldn't help but to feel hurt.- Leave me alone for the night. - Lil said to Miles at last. - It will be fine.Lil kissed Miles lightly on his cheek and left the table.He went after Jamie.- Hey. Can I talk to you for a second?Jamie followed Miles to a corner of the club.- What happened? Where's the girl? She killed her and now we have to hide the body? - Jamie asked Miles- No, she just kicked her out. I want to know what Samantha told Lil, she's deeply upset and I don't understand.- Oh man, she said some nasty stuff. I think even Katie would 'ave lost it.
Even Katie.
- For fuck sake, why does everything 'ave to be so complicated around here? - Miles though out loud. - Anyway, - he turned his attention back to Jamie. - tell me about it. I need to fix it.-------------------------------------------------------Lil was making her way home.Her "hotel home".Why am I feeling so down?I know Miles would never cheat on me, he told me he met that girl way before he even met me. I'm being so stupid right now.What am I? Twelve? This should be my first night with Miles as man and wife but now I'm going to the fucking hotel to sleep alone because I'm hurt over some woman's words.Lil stopped and sighed heavily.
It's alright, I just need to digest it. It's the first time someone confronts me like this, it's gonna be alright in the morning. I'm just scared
due to my previous marriage
experiences
.
- Good evening, Charles. - She said as she walked into the hotel, approaching the reception.- Good evening, Mrs. Jones. I didn't expect to see you here. - The man seemed kinda confused. - Mr. James took the day off to attend your wedding and reception so... - Yes, he's having a good time alright. - Lil told "not Mr. James" whom she had found out to be named Charles Winston. He was maybe about her age. - Is my old room available?Winston turned around to look at the keys.- Yes. - He said, grabbing the key to the room 307. - Should I check you in?- Yes, please.Charles passed Lil the hotel book so she would sign her name on it.- Don't tell anyone I'm here in case someone comes looking for me, there's a big tip for you if you do that. I'll give you the billing address tomorrow morning.- Alright, Mrs... - Charles read what Lil had written on the book. - Alice Sterling.It was Lil's née last name.- Thank you. - Lil said, grabbing the key from Charles' hand and going up to her room.Lil sat down on her old bed and looked at the place her keyboard used to be.The room had been completely undressed "from her" now.She kicked her shoes off and let her body fall back on the bed.- It's so strange to be back here.Lil kept staring at the ceiling until she felt her eyes getting heavy and she fell asleep.-------------------------------------------------------
May 26, 1923.
Lil put the keys of the house on the kitchen counter. Miles wasn't home. It was the middle of the afternoon.Lil walked into their bedroom and found out nobody had slept into that bed the night before.
He probably thought I came home last night.
She grabbed some fresh clothes and went to take a shower. Maybe she would swing by the pub later to pick up her wedding dress that she had left in the bedroom in the back when she changed into her silver sparkly dress.Lil spent a whole hour in the bathtub, covered in bubbles. Then she changed into a lace nightgown and put on her silk robe.She made herself a large cup of tea and sat down at her keyboard.- It's been a while, my love.Lil started to tickle the ivory and play around with some melodies. Not happy ones.She heard when Miles parked his car outside.Her heart was heavy.She kept on playing.- Sounds like a funeral. - Miles said a few moments after walking in. - My fingers are doing this by themselves. - She replied. - Do you feel better? - Honestly? - She stopped playing and turned around to look at Miles. - I don't even understand the real reason why I started to feel bad in the first place. I love you, I trust you.- I would have gotten upset if someone had told me you would get tired of me. - Miles said, sitting on the sofa.Lil's heart started racing and she didn't know why.- Jamie told me. It's... disturbing, actually. - Yes. - Lil looked down at her lap. - She spoke with such confidence that would happen. - She said and inhaled raspily. - Hit me like a train.- It's not gonna happen. Think like this; if I never gave up on you when we were nearly killing each other and fighting and throwing flowers back and forth, why would I give up our love now?
There.
See? I know I was being completely stupid for going to the hotel last night.
- I'm sorry. The faintest idea of losing you made me... I panicked when I took you to the hospital and I didn't even love you back then, can you imagine how I felt now you're the one I love the most? And the thought of you leaving.- I understand. - Miles said, walking towards Lil. He sat by her side at the keyboard. - Listen to these words, I've been working on them in secret since I asked you to marry me.Miles cleared his throath and started playing.
I've been searching for love
I'm sorry I escaped you
I wonder how I will end
For now, I'll carry to push on through
And bite my jealous lip
And hope to turn it to a kiss
Take this night from me girl
You're stunningly divine
Take this night from me girl
You're the love I've been searching for
'Cause I will be true, and be faithful
And that's not like me
So take the night from me
And now, my worried concave of thoughts
Won't linger anymore
Because I've been trying my best
Yet still, I've been skipping through my years
To cover my sacred tears
He looked at her as he played, his fingers knew exactly which key to press, it's like he had been playing that song for hundreds and hundreds of years.
Ready for the heartaches and fears
Take this night from me girl
You're stunningly divine
You're the love I've been searching for
Cos I will be true and be faithful
And that's not like me
So take the night from me
Take it from me
Lil hugged Miles after he played the very last note of the song.She knew he was more of a guitar guy and that he didn't like composing on the piano much and still he went through all that trouble to write her a song.- I won't ever leave you, won't ever get tired of you. In good times and woe, for richer or poorer, keeping myself solely unto you for as long as we both shall live. Wasn't it what I said "I do" to? - Miles said, kissing Lil's neck once and burying his face on her shoulder.They just stayed in each other's arms, savouring that moment.-------------------------------------------------------And the header of this chapter is just how I imagined Miles and Lil's kiss at the church. I found the picture while googling up the dresses (after having wrote the scene because logic: I don't have it) and decided to use it.This is how I imagined Lil's wedding dress looked like. And the shoes she'd be wearing Miles' outfit
Alexa's dress (and jewels and hat and shoes)
Lil's dress for the party at the Arctic
And her shoes
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June 12, 1922.
- Hello?A female voice echoed through the empty salon of the pub.- Hello. Sorry, can I help you? - Alex asked the lady.
Thank God we cleaned this place.
- Yes, my name is Suki Waterhouse. I'd like to speak with Mr. Miles Kane, please. - She seemed a little nervous.She and Alex shook hands.- Nice to meet you, I'm Alex Turner. And I'm sorry miss, but Miles is in Paris. - Paris?- Yes, he went to meet his girl.- Oh...- Do you want me to send him a message or...- No, never mind. Actually, can you not tell him I've been looking for him? It's a silly matter, actually. I just came to invite him-- well, but he's not gonna make it on time so we may just as well forget about it, right? - She was talking at the speed of light.- Er... a'ight.- Alright. Thank you Mr. Turner, have a good day.Suki left and Alex kept wondering what business the chef of a restaurant downtown had to do with his business partner.-------------------------------------------------------June 30, 1923. Paris.Bouchou-Kamenashi residence.- Yes, I'm totally positive it is him. I've spent a whole month investigating.- And what do you want me to do?- It's time you repay me that favor.Kazuya spoke to the phone at the office at his home.Elisa wasn't home.- I'm listening.- I want this Jamie Cook dead. He was up to some funny business in England, nine years ago. He killed a close friend of mine and then vanished. Now I found him and I want him dead.- Where is he?- Near you, actually. He's in Miami. It's not gonna be hard to take him down, specially because your boys won't be the ones to do it. I just want you to make sure she is gonna kill him.- What and whom are you talking about? - There's this girl, her name is Lillian. She works with the gang. Don't be fooled, I did my research, she's dangerous. I want you to threaten her and make sure she kills Jamie Cook. The gang has four other members; Alexander Turner, Matthew Helders, Nicholas O'Malley and Miles Kane but you should forget about this last one. I don't want you or her to touch a single hair on his head, it would upset my Elisa. You see, this Lillian, they call her "Lil", is completely devoted to those men, she would do anything to protect them, save their lives. They have children and wives...- I see, I think I get your point. I'll start pulling my strings.- Thanks Alphonse, no rush but let me know when it's done.-------------------------------------------------------
July 15, 1923.
- Lil. Lil, please?- You can't go in with me. One: you're gonna distract me, I'm gonna be worried about you and, two: I don't want you to see me doing it.- I saw you do it a dozen times now. You first did it in front of me!- Not what I'm gonna do this time, I've never done this.
And hope to never have to do it again.
- It doesn't matter. - Miles insisted.Lil's eyes had a dark sparkle to them.- You're not going in with me and if I have to shoot you dead right now to stop you, I will. - She said firmly.Miles felt shivers going down his spine.- I'm not kidding. - She cocked her gun.
I'm not risking it, I won't have you killed.
- I don't care. - I won't warn you again.- I. Don't. Care.Both had gone separate ways to take care of the other two targets and now were back together in Illinois to take care of Simon.Miles left the car and Lil hurried to get out of it as well and intercept him.- Let me have this. - She stopped in front of him. - It's me, I started all this. This is Simon, my last mission. This is from me to Tyler.- Lil, I can't let you go in there alone.- He's alone, probably asleep. I know how to do it.- I can't. - Watch my back, then. If I need any help I'll scream.- And then I'll get there too late and the "alley story" is gonna 'appen all over again. What if he strangles you and you can't scream?- Miles, I know what I'm doing.But Miles didn't want to listen and tried to start walking again.- Don't make me! - Lil said.They had parked the car at the very end of Simon's street. It was late at night and it was raining so no one was around to see them and the rain made it difficult for anyone else to hear them.Miles grabbed both of her shoulders, his wet hair sticking to his face. He pushed her against the car.She put the gun under his chin.- Make you what? Make you do the fucking what?- Let go of me.She looked at him.- If you love me, let me fucking go. If you think I wouldn't do all of this for you as well, you're fucking mistaken. I love you more than anything in my life now, but it was Tyler who first showed me I wasn't an undeserving of love piece of trash. I owe him this. This is the end of the story between he and I.Miles seemed to be taken aback.For a moment he didn't know what to do.- Get in the car and wait for me. Wait for me here. - Lil kissed Miles and left him standing in the rain.He was paralyzed.
Loving her doesn't mean I should let her do wherever the fuck she wants. But I can't, I can't...
This is hers.
Lil decided she would just knock on Simon's front door.A sleepy middle aged man answered.- Hello, Simon.Lil said as she pushed the needle from a syringe nearly ful of curare extract into his neck.It wasn't long until he had lost all the capacity to move or speak.Lil walked into Simon's house and started to check all the rooms to make sure he was really alone.She dragged Simon into the bathroom of his house, totally ignoring the pain in her leg, and put him in his bathtub.He was awake but couldn't move.- You knew your time would come, didn't you? Do you know why I'm here don't you? - Of course he couldn't answer but she kept talking. - You changed my life, Simon. You killed my fianceé, it had only been 24 hours since he had asked me to marry him and your men followed us to Paris and blankly shot him dead. I loved him so very much, he was my everything. We only had one night together because he was sweet like that, he was gonna make me happy and you took him away. Do you think that's fair? Well, I don't. - Lil grabbed a knife she had took from Simon's kitchen when she went to check if there was somebody else in the house. - I shot all the others, some in the head, some in the stomach and then the head. Always the head, that's how we put an end to bad thoughts.Having said that, Lil approached the knife to Simon's neck.- I'm sorry you crossed my way.She pushed the knife into his neck, blood gushing everywhere. He had a terrorized expression on his face but he wasn't able to do anything.Lil kept cutting and cutting, covering herself in blood. Cutting nerves, breaking bones, slicing flesh.And in the end she had Simon's head detached from his body.She sat on the floor of his bathroom and took deep breaths.- It's over. - She whispered, she was trembling.Lil washed the knife and her hands. She left the bathroom and put Simon's head in front of the stairs, that way the first person who would open the front door would see it.She left through the back door.Lil made her way back to the car.- What? What 'appened? Why did you take so long, are you hurt? - Miles was turning her from side to side.- It's not my blood.Miles seemed shocked. Lil was completely covered in blood, it wasn't even possible to tell which colour her skin was.- Drive us to the beach. - She said. By now she had started to limp.Miles and Lil had gone shopping two days prior. She bought two exact dresses and two pairs of the same shoes and Miles bought two exact shirts and trousers.Miles parked the car by the beach, in a deserted area, near some rocks, far from any houses. Lil and Miles got naked and both stepped into the sea, he helped her to get rid of all that blood.After making sure there was no blood left, Lil and Miles got back to the car, dried themselves and put on their fresh clothes.That way they could go back to the hotel and be seen wearing "the same" clothes they were wearing when they left and without blood there was no proof.They put all the stained clothes and shoes and towels in the car and set fire to it.
No traces left behind.
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July 20, 1923
Lil and Miles were back home, in Florida.- Morning, babe.Lil kissed the top of Miles' head as she passed by him to seat on her chair at the table.He was drinking coffee and reading the paper.- Morning, love. Did you sleep well?- Yes. So well that I overslept.- You deserved it. You've been 'aving these nightmares since we came back from Illinois. - I'm sorry about that, I know I keep you awake.Lil would toss and turn or cry almost every night since she'd killed Simon. It was like if once it was done, the weight she carried on her shoulders being lifted off weighed even more than all the people she'd killed.It meant to adjust to a new life; again.- Don't worry about it. I like to be the one to save you.She smiled at him.- What do you want with your coffee? I know it's a bit late but I can still fix something.- No need. I'm on my way out, actually. Alex gave me a list of stuff to buy for the pub and I'm also gonna buy some delicious food for us so we both won't have to cook today.- Don't you want me to go? I can shop the things for the house and you take care of the pub' stuff or the other way round.- No, don't worry. I can do it, you should get some more sleep, it would do you good.Miles got up from the table, and went to put his mug on the sink when he felt Lil's arms around his waist.He turned round and put his hands on her waist as well.- I miss you. - She said.- But I'm right here. - Miles said.- No... I miss you. - She said, moving his hands a little lower on her body.Miles kissed her.- Don't do this to me right now. - He said but was already pulling her close to him. - You know I cannot be quick when it comes to loving you.His mouth near hers.- I know... - She whispered unbuttoning his shirt, she ran her fingers through his chest. - Neither can I.She looked at him and bit her lip.- Oh, fuck it. - Miles said and lifted Lil off the ground by her waist and sat her on the kitchen sink.It wasn't until the middle of the afternoon that he left the house.-------------------------------------------------------Lil was cleaning up after the mess she and Miles had made when she noticed a piece of paper on the floor by the dining table.She picked it up.- Oh no, the list of the things for the pub.Lil changed her clothes and left the house, Miles would probably be looking for that list everywhere and knowing him, she knew he would think he had lost it and gone back to the pub to ask Alex to write it all down for him again, what annoyed Alex deeply since he was extremely organized about everything about the pub.- Alex! - Miles was white as a sheet when he walked into the pub.- Miles? What 'appened?- I'm not sure, can I sit down? - He asked, already sitting down.- I'm gonna get you a glass of water.Alex went away for a moment but came back soon.- Remember, - Miles took a sip of his water. - that chef I told you about? The one from Hammersmith. It was over one year ago I don't know if--- Yes, Ms. Waterhouse. She came here looking for you when you were in Paris chasing Lil. What about her? - She did? Why didn't you tell me about it? What did she say? - Something about inviting you for something but you wouldn't make it on time.Meanwhile, on the outside.- Thank you, you can keep the change. - Lil said to the driver of the taxi she had just gotten off.She walked into the pub.
- Listen, I saw her half an hour ago.
Lil stopped in her tracks, she was about to say something to make the boys aware of her presence but...- This can ruin everything between me and Lil.- What, Miles? What is it? - I saw Suki, she had a baby boy, I think he's almost one year old. - Miles said and looked at Alex.- And...? - And that's about the age a baby of ours would be since the last time I slept with her! The boy could be my son!Lil was frozen in her place, her mind running a million miles an hour. She felt like her heart would implode.- Why would she try to hide it from you, then? Didn't she have anyone else?- I don't know. No, she didn't have anyone else. She comes from a rich family, she owns the restaurant actually, she doesn't need any financial support from me and we were not exactly together, maybe she heard Lil and I were together somehow and decided I... But I'm almost sure it's my son because she was all happy and smiles and then she saw me looking at her and the boy and then she tried to hide him and walked away quickly, as if she didn't want me to acknowledge his existence.- Miles, this is serious. You have to go talk to her and if the boy is really yours...Lil left the pub in shock.She knew that would be the end of her marriage.She didn't have children with Miles, the woman had. That meant he should divorce her and marry the woman to give his name to the boy. And if they had slept together more than one time, that meant they kinda liked each other.Lil's mind was spinning so fast she only noticed someone had put a handkerchief over her mouth and nose when she was already falling asleep.
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When Lil woke up, she was tied to a chair, in front of a desk where a man was sitting.She tried to free her hands but the knots holding her were tricky.- She's awake. - One men informed the others.Footsteps were heard and a man sat by the desk, in front of Lil.- Where am I? - She asked.- Not far away from home, actually.- Who are you and what do you want?- Easy, I do the questioning. But well, please allow me to introduce myself. I'm Alphonse Capone but you can call me Al. And what I want is for you to kill someone for me. - He said.- I don't work like that.- Oh, I know. - He said. - We've got plenty information about you. You did a pretty good job with the money murders, you just forgot to put a bill on Simon's mouth.How do you know it was me? Lil thought.- I got a request from a friend of mine, actually I owe him a favor. Do you work with a man called Jamie Cook, don't you?Lil stayed silent.- Well, if you don't cooperate with us, this is what gonna happen: we know everything there is to know about you and your little funny gang of six. - Al laughed. - What happens is that Florida ain't a playground and we do serious business here. If you refuse to answer, we're gonna have to pay a visit to - Al signaled for an associate of his to pass him a list. - Breana Helders, Alexa Turner, Kelly O'Ma--- Stop! I'll talk. Yes. - Lil took a deep breath. - I know Jamie.- Excellent. He's our job and you're the perfect "man" for it.- No way in Hell.- It's only him or the whole crew and their wives, maybe the children, too. Scott over there doesn't mind killing little kids.Lil felt sick to her stomach.- I can't kill Jamie.- If you don't kill him, we will annihilate them all.
But I could tell him all this and tell him to go away.
- And if you're thinking you can just walk away from here and tell them to save their skin, you can't. We have eyes everywhere.- I've heard this one before, Simon's guy said the same thing.- They all do. But we, we are in your pub, watching your houses, your families. We sleep with you and we wake up by your beds, there's no running away from us. If there is any change in the crew that gets you your booze; we will kill them all, if anyone travels without a purpose; we will kill them all. You see? It's just Cook or all of them. Including your husband.Al lied about the last part.
All of them... no.
Not them.
Maybe I... maybe I could come up with a plan.
Yes, I could do that.
Lil took another deep breath.- I have no choice. I'll do it.Alphonse smiled.-------------------------------------------------------When Miles got home, Lil was lying on the floor, completely drunk and crying.- What 'appened?You know I never drink to a point I get drunk. That memory went around Miles' head and he was sure something was really wrong.He stood by her side.- I don't want to do this. - She looked at Miles, trying to focus on him. - What are you talking about? - He sat on the floor, near her.
You have seven days to work it out, otherwise you know what's gonna happen.
Any clues and you know what's gonna happen.
We will be watching you.
- I can't stay. - She whispered. - You're not making sense. - You are not making sense. In your face; nothing happened.- Ok, come on I'll put you on the bed. We can talk about this tomorrow when you're sober. - Miles touched Lil's arm.- No! Leave me here. - She said, rolling over to her side. - It's not safe.- Lil...- They will hear us.Miles sighed and got off the floor.- My ghosts. - She said, rolling over again. - They're catching up with me.The next day Lil left the house awfully early.She had spent the night on the couch, chainsmoking while turning the pages of the phone book, looking for a certain number and address.Lil stood on the porch of a cute house on the other side of town.She could hear a baby crying, inside.She adjusted her sunglasses, took a deep breath and knocked on the door.- Yes? - A tall, blonde lady with eyes just as brown as Lil's and carrying a crying baby boy in her arm answered the door. She was in fact older than Lil but she had a face of an adolescent.- Ms. Suki Waterhouse? - Yes. - She answered while rocking the baby to try to make him stop crying.- I'm Lillian Kane. I came to talk to you about Miles.Lil said that with all the bravery she had inside of her.Suki hesitated.The baby continued to cry.She let Lil in.After having calmed down the baby boy, which by now Lil had found out was named Austin, Suki sat on the couch opposite to Lil's.- I'm sorry. He's still teething. - She explained.- It's alright. He's beautiful, by the way.- Thank you. - Suki smiled shyly, glancing at her son.- But well... - Lil said and Suki turned her attention to her. - I don't believe there's a delicate way to approach this matter so I'm gonna get straight to the point. Is this baby Miles' son?Suki held her breath.- Yes. - She closed her eyes when she answered. - How do you know about this?- I've heard a conversation. Miles said you "ran away" with the baby after you saw him looking at the both of you.- Yes, I did that. I don't want him to know. - Why?- I can take care of my son, I can provide for him. I don't care about what people say and when Austin grows up I can just tell him his dad died. When Miles and I got together I thought he was alone, I didn't know he had you. - He was alone. I had a boyfriend at the time. Huge things happened and Miles went to look for me in Paris and then we got together not long after that but I believe you were already pregnant by the time.- Yes. I went to tell him but Mr. Turner said he had gone to Paris after his girl. So I decided to back up. - You shouldn't have. - I thought I was the other woman.- Yes, but you were not. Listen, I know you said you don't need Miles but the boy is still his son. He has rights over him just as you, don't make the boy grow up away from his father. I didn't grow up with my parents and I know how awful it is. Please, don't do it.- But what can I do? He's married to you now and if this story comes afloat I'm gonna be called a whore and you'll be shamed by others too. - We're not gonna be married for too long. I don't deserve him. I love him but he was never mine. You see - Lil said, finally taking off her sunglasses. She looked awful. - I've done many wrong things in my life, countless things. I don't want this to be another one. In a week I'm gonna
have to
leave town and I'll never come back here anymore. I can send lawyers to take care of the divorce, all shall be fine. What I ask of you and I'm really asking you to consider this, is that you let Miles give his name to your boy. And if you feel like the two of you can work; marry him.Suki gasped.- No, this is not... No.- Marry him and take care of him. His mother will love you, she is the most adorable woman in this whole planet. She's also gonna love your son. Let's not fool ourselves, Suki. You slept together because you like each other. Was there love? I don't know. But there could be. - Listen to yourself! What you're asking is... I don't need him. - Suki said.- I am. I've been listening to myself all night. I'm not asking for the impossible and I'm not forcing you to marry him, I said that if the both of you think you can work it out then go ahead but above all, let him be near his boy. Now he knows about Austin, he's not gonna just leave, I know him... Miles is the best man I know, he treats Alex's boy like a son and he is amazing with children. Your Austin is a lucky boy to have him as a father.Suki was looking at Lil.Her head was hurting with all of that talking.- Do you think you can consider all of this? - Lil asked.- I can think about half of it. It's a lot to think about it but I think I can.- Great. - Lil stood up and so did Suki. - Thank you. - She said to the taller lady.She crouched near Austin and stroked his cheek. He had his father's eyes but everything else was from Suki.Lil smiled a bittersweet smile and got up again.- Goodbye, Suki. It was nice meeting you, I'm sorry for all this. Really.- I'm sorry too.And without thinking, Lil gave Suki a hug as if she was letting go of Miles with that gesture.And then she left.------------------------------------------------------Lil walked into her house and found Miles sitting by the table, he had his arms crossed over it and his head resting on his arms.He looked just as awful.- You didn't come to bed last night. - He said, not moving.- I didn't want to disturb you. - She said, walking towards the table and also sitting down. - I have something I want to talk to you about.- Me too. - Miles said, adjusting his position and looking at Lil.Both were looking miserable.- I want the divorce. - She said, plainly. - What? - I know about your son, I just came back from her house.She was trying to make that sound like it was about Suki when in fact it was about her having to run away after completing the plan she had sketched to try to fool Al Capone.It was the excuse she needed and she had to move fast if she wanted her plan to work.Miles put both hands over his eyes.- How did you find out? I just found out yesterday. - I know. I went to the pub to give you the list you had forgotten home. I heard you talking to Alex. - Then you also know the two of us were not together when Suki and I...- I know, she explained everything to me.- Then why do you want us to divorce?
I need a reason to leave you.
- I'm not mad at you or her, nothing pointed at the direction we would be together, at that time. She went looking for you when you went to France, she must have missed you for days. She wanted to tell you but then we got married.- I imagined it was something like that when Alex mentioned she went looking for me. - So, we are gonna get divorced and you're gonna give the boy your name. It's your son, the last thing I want is for him to grow up without you around and the second last thing I want is for people to keep saying you're cheating on me or blaming me for not "being enough for you" or blaming Suki everytime you go to see your boy so it's better if we get separated.- No, we can't. I love you, we can work it out. - Maybe if it was another decade, Miles. Sometime in the future but right now, we gotta follow society rules. Also, think about your mother. She would be shamed for "not raising you well" too, the blame is always upon us, the women. Never you, men. And I can't afford it. I don't want to.- Lil, please. Don't do this. - Miles begged. - I'm sorry, my love. - By now she was fighting the tears back. - It's no one's fault but we have to deal with it now.At their wedding night she was so scared he was going to leave her and now she was the one that would have to leave him.- I'm gonna pack some things to take with me to the hotel.Miles tears were streaming down his face and Lil was trying not to look at him, it was destroying her.No bullet, no knife, nothing hurt more than that sight.- Go look for me tomorrow night after you talk to Suki, alright? Let her know you want to be a part of your son's life. I would give everything to have my parents back in my life so don't you choose not to be in his.Lil got up and went into their bedroom to start packing some stuff for the trip.------------------------------------------------------Miles walked into Lil's hotel room. She was not there, he had been informed she had asked for him to go up and get something she had left for him.
My Dear,
Miles started reading the letter Lil had addressed and left for him.
This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry about everything.
Know that I will forever and always love you and hold you in the noblest place in my heart even though we're not meant to be.
I'm going away, I think I'll be in Tampa when you get to read this letter and then from there I still don't know where to go.
I wanted to thank you for everything you've ever done for me and were to me but if I said it to your face, I would never be able to make myself leave you even though I know I must.
This is the end of my happy days as I feel the world grow cold without you.
Please, check the top drawer of the dressing table. I hope you put it to a better use.
Miles reached for the drawer and opened. His mum's ring, the one he gave to Lil when they got engaged.
Goodbye, brown eyes.
Hope to never see you again in this lifetime.
Do whatever you please with the belongings I left behind, I won't be returning to get them.
And despite everything; be happy.
With bittersweet love,
Lil.
- No. No, no, no.Miles left the hotel in a hurry.------------------------------------------------------- I know I shouldn't have mentioned where I would be, in the letter.
But I did it exactly because I needed you to follow me here.
- What are you doing here? - Lil asked Miles.- I came to beg you to come back home with me. I can't live without you.Lil looked at Miles and asked him to come in her motel room.- You know I'm not leaving you because I want to. It's because I need to.- No, you don't. We can think of something, there's always something. I spent my whole life waiting for you to come around and now you're leaving? - Miles put his hand on Lil's cheek.She closed her eyes.- It's better this way.- For whom? - The both of us, you can't see it now but you'll see it in the long run. I'm trying to save you.She didn't know he was the only one who was never in the danger.- You saved me when you first kissed me back. - Miles said.Lil couldn't take it anymore.She didn't want to leave him, she was screaming on the inside, her heart was burning and it felt like every bone in her body was breaking.- Please. - She said.Miles kissed her and she couldn't help but to kiss him back.- Please, don't go. - He whispered, his lips rubbing on hers as he spoke those words.
It's time.
Now or never.
Lil threw her arms around Miles and let him take her to the bed, she took his shirt off and kissed his neck and chest. Held his hands above his head.And shackled him to the bed.- Uh? - Miles looked at her, confused.- I'm sorry. - What's this? - I have a last job to do. Al Capone got a hold of me, he wants me to kill Jamie.- What!?- I need to go back to Miami and kill a certain man, he's about Jamie's age, height and weight and he has the same hair color. I'm gonna smash his face so it's gonna be unrecognizable and nobody is gonna know it's not Cookie. If I don't do that, Capone is gonna kill all of you and the girls and maybe the kids. I can't let him.- Why Jamie?- I don't know.- Set me free and I'll help you.- I can't. - Lil said and walked away from the bed before Miles could grab her.- Lil, not this again. - It's safer if you're not there. - Lil, don't do this! - He said as she prepared to leave. - I'm sorry, my love. This is why I have to leave you. I can't lose you. Not you.She approached Miles and took off his locket.- They can't know about her.Lil was referring to Pauline.She kissed him for the last time and stole the keys of his car.------------------------------------------------------12 hours later.- Listen. - What's happening?- Katie, please, listen.Lil had a handkerchief and a bottle of chloroform in her hands.Katie was looking at her with big eyes.- I need to do this to save yours and your husband's life. I love Jamie, I would never hurt him for real. Now listen. Tell me where there's money in the house, help me trash it, I'm gonna put you to sleep and when you wake up, you're gonna call the police. Are you following?- Ye-yes. - You're gonna tell them two men broke into your house, robbed you and took Jamie. After tomorrow you're gonna be called to the morgue to recognize Jamie's body.Katie gasped.- But it's not gonna be him. Calm down. He is gonna be waiting for you in another city and after you take care of "his burial", you're gonna get all of your stuff and go meet him, alright? Alright?- Yeah. - It's gonna be alright, now help me to help you.- Wait, what about Forrest? - Katie asked, looking at her son.- He's gonna stay in his crib, you're only gonna sleep for one hour, it's the time I need. Trust me, it's gonna be fine.Katie helped Lil to trash the house, she gave Lil all the money, they put Forrest to sleep and then Lil put the handkerchief over Katie's mouth and nose just like Capone's men had done to her.- Hold your breath and make it seem like a struggle. - She told Katie and so she did, at the end it seemed like she and Lil had fought.Lil left the house and went to look for Jamie to get him out of the city as fast as she could.- Jamie! - She yelled as she walked into the pub.- What? What's 'appening? - Jamie asked her, all the boys were looking at her too.- You gotta come with me, there's no time to explain. You boys, please, I beg you; if anyone comes looking for Cookie, tell them you did not see him today, am I clear?- Why? - Nick asked.- Just do as I ask! - She said, dragging Jamie out of the pub.Lil and Jamie got into Miles' car and she started explaining to him what was happening.- I'm gonna hide you, kill this man and right after I'm done I'll let you know so you can flee the town. There's a suitcase with some of your stuff at the hiding place you're staying. You're probably gonna have to move to another country and change your name. Dye your hair. - I wonder who wants me dead.- I have no idea but Capone made it clear he wants me to kill you because he owed someone a favor so I think this person knows us both.- My God, how am I gonna explain it to Katie? - I have no idea. - Lil said, parking the car. - Now go, I'll be back in four or five hours. Don't open the door unless you hear my knocks. Keep the radio on in a whisper, you have to know what's happening out there.- Will do. Thank you, Lil. And good luck.They hugged and it was the last time they saw each other.Lil was driving back from the place she had disposed of the body of the man she had just killed when she was intercepted by the police.
No, no, no.
- Step out of the car with your hands above your head! - A policeman shouted.
I can't, I can't.
Please just let me pass, you don't understand.
Lil's heart was racing faster than it ever was.- I can't! - She shouted back.- Do it now or we will shoot you! We know you're the responsible for the murders.Lil started crying.
Please.
You have to let me go.
I can't be
held
back right now, I'm almost
finished
. If I don't
report
back Capone will know.
And without thinking she grabbed her gun, got out of the car and pointed at one of the policemen but before she could truly aim at him and say whatever, Lil was shot multiple times.She fell and the policemen approached her, they took the gun from her hand.- You - She was coughing blood and bleeding all over. Most of the shots had hit her in the chest and stomach. - you just killed...She gasped for air.- my brothers... You... No.She said those last words and a single tear mixed with blood ran to the side of her face as she took her last breath.Two hours later, back at the hideout Jamie, who was waiting for Lil to come back, had just heard the news about her death.- No!
... a wanted criminal. Her husband and partner was arrested earlier in the city of Tampa. They are believed to be responsible for what the media has been calling "money murders".
The thing is that Al Capone had heard about her death, too.Jamie left the hideout and started walking to the pub, he was trying to hold himself together but he couldn't stop thinking about how it had been the last time he spoke to Lil just earlier that afternoon and how she'd died trying to save him.It started to rain.- Mr. Alex Turner?A man asked.- Sorry, fella. Opening time is just in a few hours. - Alex replied.- I know. I just need to talk to Mr. Turner. Are you him?- Yes. - Nice to meet you.The man said and shot Alex in the head, not giving him time for a reaction.The other boys appeared and started to panic when they saw Alex's body on the floor.More men entered the pub, at least a dozen, and then the boys were taken down, one by one.Matt.Nick.And Jamie, who had just walked in with his face covered in tears.- Our job is done. - Al Capone said while him and his men left the pub covered in blood, behind.------------------------------------------------------- When you killed her, you killed four men as well. - We had no way of knowing she was being threatened.- You should have listened to her. - She was gonna shoot one of our men. - I don't think so. Knowing her, she was gonna try to distract you to get away and carry on with the plan. Besides, she was alone, if she had shot at your men, it was gonna to be easy to hide until she'd run out of bullets and then arrest her.- We will never know. But we did have orders to kill her, so...- Yes, now we will never know. - Miles agreed. His eyes were red and puffed.- This was found in her pocket. - The detective said, putting Miles locket in front of him, on the table.He grabbed it.Shackles on his wrists, again.Even though he was not gonna stay in jail because he agreed to be a consultant for the police and disclose everything about the other gangs who sold them the booze. There was a new chief of police in town and he didn't care for the alcohol business.Miles didn't care if he was gonna turn into a snitch, he had a son to raise and he also wanted to find out who wanted Jamie killed.Miles opened the locket.At one side there was a picture of his motherOn the other side there was a picture of Lil that she wasn't aware he had put in there. He had no time to tell her.She was smiling the same smile from when she sang on the pub' stage for the first time.One that Miles would never forget.
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Hi!
Thank you for allowing my story to come alive inside your head; it means a lot.
Now we're moving on to the sequel, which is called "Hand In Glove".
What will Miles do?
Well, let's find out, X