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Raphael's 20Sergeant Hamato Leonardo of the NYPD tapped away on his PC keyboard, frowned and wondered how to get out of his father-in-law’s humanitarian award acceptance speech at the New York Plaza the following day. It’d be boring as hell and he hated dressing up and hanging out with the snobby elite. He’d also have to play the dutiful and attentive husband to Hannah May, his wife of six years. She was blonde, blue eyed, gorgeous, vain, pompous and spoiled and bored him senseless with her inane chatter about herself and fashion. Her equally conceited friends detested him as much as he loathed them. They’d never thought Leo worthy of Hannah, because he didn’t come from the same background and they’d long advised their pal to ditch him.Leo and Hannah had met when they were sixteen at Hannah’s parents’ country club where Leo had been the pool boy. It’d been love at first sight for the couple, but the romance had soon fizzled out on Leo’s part when he’d discovered her true nature. It was too late then, because she was pregnant and at the demand of both their families, they’d married to avoid scandal. Hannah had had a miscarriage a couple of months later and when Leo had raised divorce, because he was miserable and out of love with his wife, both sides of the family had said that was out of the question, because it’d generate a scandal, so he was stuck in a loveless marriage for the rest of his life.He and Hannah didn’t have sex anymore, because she didn’t love him either, had said he was like a jellyfish in bed, she liked men with a pulse and he didn’t turn her on. She had her lovers on the side. That was fine with him, because he’d discovered that he preferred men. He'd had a couple of boyfriends, but they hadn’t worked out, so he was essentially alone, which was depressing, because he was lonely and yearned to be loved and to have the loving and happy marriage his parents had.Leo sighed audibly, scowled and thought, if only I hadn’t met her! Why did fate have to punish me so?“Trouble at home?” Karai, his colleague, asked from her desk next to his.
“Same old,” Leo replied. “Man, you’re so lucky you have such a great and supportive spouse, instead of a bitch like I have.”
“Shini and I have problems sometimes, Leo, but we communicate and work on them. Every couple has problems. They’re lying if they say they don’t.”
“Yeah, but Shini loves you and is willing to talk. Hannah doesn’t want to and thinks she’s always right. I wish I’d never met her.”
“You could leave her.”
“I can’t. It’d scandalize our families, especially if I left her for a boy. I thought Paul would last and would be my oasis through this sham of a marriage, but he wanted more from me than crumbs and an occasional fuck. He wanted marriage. I couldn’t do that, so he split. I don’t blame him. He deserved better, but I do miss him,” Leo said wistfully.
“Maybe Paul wasn’t the right one, Leo, and if you met the right one, it’d give you the push you need to leave the bitch. That’s what I think. You have to have faith. The right guy will come along and he’ll blow you away in the bedroom and beyond,” Karai said, her brown eyes twinkling mischievously. “And if I have to be honest, Paul didn’t seem right for you. He was too strait-laced and too like you. You need someone who’s like you, but also polar opposites. Do you follow me?”
“No.”
“You need someone passionate, impulsive, temperamental and outgoing, who'll challenge you, but who’s also caring, loving, considerate and who complements you. My cousin, Casey, could be perfect for you. I’ll give you his number.”
“No, thanks, Karai. Casey’s a meathead, who swigs beer by the gallon, who’s uncouth, a loudmouth and he's had more partners than hot dinners. He doesn’t turn me on. I appreciate you thinking of me, but I’d rather be celibate for life than date him. Besides, isn’t he taken?”
“Nope. Pity. He likes you, but maybe it’s just as well, because if you hurt him, I’d have to hurt you back, because he’s family.”“Hamato, come to my office,” Commissioner Jones, a white haired, brown eyed and rotund man in his sixties said as he stood in his office doorway. “Jones, get back to work.”
“Yes, Uncle,” Karai said and resumed reading a file on her computer.Leo stood and headed to the commissioner’s office.XXXXCommissioner Jones was Casey and Karai’s uncle and was well respected in the police department, although there were rumors he was corrupt and had ties with the Mafia.Casey had briefly joined the police, but he’d been caught having oral sex in his cubicle and had been fired on the spot. He now worked at an auto repair shop.Leo was rapidly rising in the ranks and he hoped to be a commissioner before he was fifty.“Hamato, take a seat,” Commissioner Jones said, pointing to a chair and then sitting at his maple wood desk and lacing his fingers. “What do you know about the Haven Church?”
Leo sat down and said, “Their leader is Oroku Saki, who’s rumored to have made his money through drug smuggling and who’s supposedly a born-again Christian. He was born in Japan, has a dodgy past and turned his life around when he met Tang Shen, his wife of the past thirty years. She's from a wealthy family in Okinawa. They sunk their combined wealth into creating the Haven Church twenty-seven years ago. It's supposed to be a refuge for people, especially those with issues, like addictions. He's called king and Tang Shen is called queen. They have a following of sixty thousand around the globe, which is increasing all the time. Oroku Saki’s an excellent orator and people are sucked in by his lies. He promises to help them and to provide a safe haven and place to join and to have a family to belong, but the members have to pay all their cash to the church every month and they're subject to harsh rules. The women are subservient and are only seen as breeding machines."
“You’ve done your homework, Hamato,” Commissioner Jones said in awe. “I’m impressed. That is correct. They believe in free love, polygamy, arms appropriation, pro guns, Revelation, the end of the world and there are allegations of child sexual abuse. That’s been strongly denied by the church, of course. Ex-members are shunned and current members are told to shun those who leave and call them apostates. Even family members. The church has services up to twice a day for as long as three hours at a time and they believe in disciplining the kids. They go so far as to spank them with belts and whips. Babies as young as six months are spanked if they cry. Members get married at fourteen. It's sometimes younger and men have as many wives as they want. It’s called Celestial and it’s believed that the more wives they have, the more spiritual they are. Oroku Saki has several other wives as well and he has fifty kids. One wife was twelve when he married her. It's disgraceful, perverse, nauseating, immoral and illegal! I will not have that happen in my city! Members spend their lives promoting church growth, attending church, working there and breeding. If anyone contravenes the church laws and dares to speak out against them, they’re severely punished and shunned, so members are fearful to leave. Some have even been killed when they’ve left. Hamato, this isn’t a church. This is a damn dangerous cult. I want you to go undercover, to investigate it and to report to me, so we can finally start compiling dossiers on them, bring them to book and shut the damn organization down for good. If they’re stockpiling guns, it’s not good and if they become spooked and think their members are in danger from the outside world, us and convince them that they are, it could become another Waco. Do you understand, me, Hamato?”
“Yes, Boss. How long do I stay undercover and when do I start?”
“Tonight. You’ll meet with Oroku Saki’s eldest boy, Tim, at their headquarters a few blocks from here and tell him you wish to join the church. Tell the church you read about them online and liked what they offered or even better, that you saw a brochure they left at one of the university campuses. They leave them there, hoping to recruit new members. They’ll be suspicious at first, but they won't have a clue you're a cop if you copy the members and act like them. They wear kimonos, so wear that. You speak fluent Japanese, so you should fit in. Most members are Oriental and speak it. My advice is to also befriend the members, like Tim and his siblings. If people see that, they’ll trust you more, because Tim and his damn family are revered. You’ll report to me in a month, will live near the church and will work with the members. Now your background. You were born in Japan, are an only child and your parents are deceased. You studied history at NYU, but dropped out when you saw the pamphlet about their church, because it looked interesting, you want to do something wonderful with your life by serving others and what better way than this church, which promises that?”
“Yes, Boss,” Leo said, thrilled he would miss his father-in-law’s dinner the following evening and that he wouldn't see Hannah for an entire month.
“Excellent. The church is extremely manipulative. Do not allow yourself to be sucked in and to believe their propaganda. You’ll pay out of your own pocket for whatever you need and you’ll be reimbursed when you return to work. I suggest you leave work now and go and pick out some kimonos and Japanese sandals.”
“Got it, Boss. I really appreciate you trusting me with this assignment. I won’t let you down.”
“I know you won’t, Hamato. You’re a fine officer and I believe you’ll have my job someday. Good luck and don’t worry about your wife. I’ll inform her about your assignment. Do it well and you’ll be promoted.”
“I sure will. See you in a month,” Leo said and saluted his boss.Leo left the office, went to his desk, grabbed his briefcase and told Karai he’d see her in a month, because he had an assignment.Leo then left the station, hopped into his car and drove to the nearest mall to look for a kimono and Japanese sandals. He vowed his assignment would be a success and that the church would soon be shut down for good.

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Leo arrived at the Haven Church’s headquarters a little after 5 p.m.. He wore a blue silk kimono and Japanese sandals for his meeting with Oroku Tim, which had been arranged over the phone. The kimono and sandals had cost him over a grand to his dismay, but hopefully he’d be reimbursed for them the following month.“Hi,” Leo said to an elderly gray haired, dark eyed and plump woman who was on the way out. “I’m Sato Brian. I’m here for a meeting with Oroku Tim.”
“Did you make an appointment?”
“Yes. I saw a brochure about the church at my uni. It piqued my interest, especially as you do so much good for everyone. That’s how I’d like to spend my life. You know, dedicate my life to serving others,” Leo said and flashed his warmest smile. “I have several questions I’d like answered before I commit myself.”
“Do you know the other Turtles here?”
“No. ma’am. I don’t know anyone.”
“You wait here. I’ll see if one of our junior pastors can answer your questions. Mr. Oroku’s busy,” the woman said and disappeared into the church.She returned with a kelly green skinned, green eyed and surly looking Turtle who wore a red silk kimono and Japanese sandals a few minutes later.“Raphael, this is Sato Brian,” the woman said. “He wishes to join our church and has a few questions he wants answered. I trust you can assist him.”
“Yes, Mrs. Suzuki,” Raphael said and bowed.
“Good boy,” the old woman said and beamed. “You’re a fine pastor and we’re all very proud of you. Good day, Mr. Sato. Raphael, I’ll see you at the service later.”
“I can’t wait,” Raphael muttered when the old woman had left. He scowled at Leo and said, “Come on already. I haven't got all day and I have more important things to do.”So much for the welcome reception, Leo thought as he and followed Raphael inside. That Turtle’s extremely sexy. I wouldn’t mind getting to know him. Why’s he so hostile?XXXXSeated inside Raphael’s office, Leo smiled at Raphael and said, “I was really hoping to talk to Mr. Oroku. He said he was available.”
“He isn't, so you get me. I’m Tanaka Raphael. I’ve spent my entire life in the church and am perfectly qualified to answer your questions. Ask and make it quick, because I have things to do.”
“I’m an only child…”
“I didn’t ask your family history. What do you wanna know about my church?”
Leo bristled at Raphael’s rudeness and said, “Why are you so hostile? Do you treat all potential members this way or is it just me?”
Raphael sighed and said, “It's not you, Mr. Sato. I’ve been up since four and had a long ass day running after everyone and doing what they wanted. I’m tired and all I wanna do is sleep. I can’t, because I have evening service to help with. Then I gotta talk to a couple who’re having marriage troubles. I probably won’t get to bed before midnight. I apologize. Let’s start over. Do you want anything to drink? Caffeinated drinks aren't permitted, because they’re unhealthy, so I can offer you water.”
“No, thanks, Mr. Tanaka. Apology accepted. I know what it’s like to be stressed out. Anyway, I was studying history at uni and I came across a brochure on the church…”“Raphael,” a female voice said from the doorway.
“Good gosh, Maya,” Raphael snapped, his green eyes flashing. “Don’t you knock? I’m talking to a potential member of our church. What do you want?”
“To talk to you about the wedding,” Maya a thin, dark eyed and dark haired Japanese girl said.
“I’m busy!”
“We have to discuss it, Raphael. You keep putting it off and we’re supposed to be getting married in May and…”
“That’s a whole year away.”“Shall I go?” Leo asked. “I don’t want to…”
“No. You stay there, Mr. Sato,” Raphael said. “Maya, I’ll talk to you later. I’m busy. Get out and don’t come back.”Maya’s eyes brimmed with tears and she said sadly, “Raphael, why are you cruel to me when I love you so much?”
“Out!” Raphael hissed.Maya fled.“Sorry about that, Mr. Sato,” Raphael said. “That was my charming fiancée, Maya. The girl can’t take a hint.”
“Do you love her?” Leo asked. “Or is it an arranged marriage? Sorry if I’m prying.”
“Arranged. We’ve been engaged since I was fourteen and she was seventeen. I’m twenty now. The church thinks it’s time we get married and start a family, but I…” Raphael lowered his voice and said. “That's not what I want, but I’ll end up doing it. I have no choice if I wanna stay part of the church. Anyway, what do you wanna know?”
“That stinks.”
“That’s the way it is. You do what the church wants. You're shunned and deemed an apostate if you don't. I couldn’t bring that shame on my family, especially my elderly parents, so I do everything I’m asked, even if I don’t wanna do it. You'll have to if you plan on joining us. Your every move is watched.”
“It sounds like a prison and a cult, rather than a church. Don’t you think, Mr. Tanaka?”
“Screw the Mr. Tanaka. Call me Raphael or Raph. I don’t mind. Mr. is for my dad. It's not a cult. I get why you think it might be, Mr. Sato, but it's not. We have loads of fun singing, honoring our King and Queen, praying, having gatherings and picnics. We’re all happy here. No one wants to leave and it’s a good place to raise kids. I’m happy here. My only blight’s Maya.”Raphael sounded brainwashed, so Leo knew he had to tread carefully.“You’re a dutiful son, Raphael,” Leo said. “Your parents must be proud to have raised such a fine son.”
“I try to be after the way I used to be, Mr. Sato. I was a rebel in my teens. I smoked, drank and did all I could to rebel. The only thing I didn’t do was have sex. I couldn’t find someone who intrigued me enough to do it,” Raphael said, his green eyes boring intently into Leo’s and sending a shiver down his spine. “I ran away, but was caught, brought home and given an ultimatum: conform or I’d be kicked out forever. That’s rough for a fourteen-year-old who has no other family, skills or money, so naturally I changed and became the good kid they all wanted me to be. What about you? Do you have a girlfriend?”
“Brian. Nope. I’m single. My parents died in a car crash when I was five. I was an only kid, so I’m all alone in the world. I grew up in an orphanage. That’s another reason why I want to join the church. You all seem like a happy family. I want to belong and to feel like I matter to people.”
“I’m so sorry, Brian. That must have been tough. I hope you join, because you'll love it here and I have no doubt you'll fit in really quickly.”
“Thank you. Is it true that you’re not allowed to eat meat?”
“Yep. We’re all vegetarians. His Majesty says that’s the best way to be and that alcohol and stimulants are forbidden.”
“Were you born on the compound?”
“Yeah. My family’s from Buffalo, but we all live on the compound now. I have a huge family. Five moms, loads of step siblings, who’re also my cousins, aunts and uncles. My siblings are all much older than me. Dad married my uncle’s four wives when my uncle passed and they never had kids with him, so my cousins are also my step siblings. You follow?”
“How does your mom feel about polygamy?”
“It doesn't matter how she feels. Men rule and women are subservient.”
“Do you agree with that? What about equality?”
“Women are only good enough for breeding and for cleaning house. That’s just the way it is. It's been that way since the church began and it won’t change. It doesn't matter if I agree or not. It's church law.”
“But how can you be okay with it, Raphael? Don’t you think it’s wrong? Do you really want multiple wives and hundreds of kids? What would you want if you could choose?”
“A husband,” Raphael blurted out, his cheeks flaming. “One husband and living with him far away in France or wherever, where we can do whatever we want. Brian, it's a pipe dream, because my life is the church and being under their rules. Don’t tell anyone. I’ll deny it if you do and if word gets out to my parents, I’ll be punished for that again.” Raphael lowered his voice and said, “I was fourteen when I discovered I liked boys. I found naked images of them on the Internet. My dad caught me and was furious. My parents asked His Majesty for help about how to cure their ‘perverted’ son. I was subjected to electric shock therapy, beatings and much more. It broke me so much that I apologized, said I was straight and didn’t mean it. They forgave me, took away the PC and hooked me up with Maya. I've never kissed or touched her. The thought of it disgusts me, because she doesn't turn me on. I still like guys, but... I don’t know why I’m telling you.”
“It's easier to tell a stranger. I’m sorry for all you’ve endured. You didn’t deserve it and your feelings aren’t wrong, Raphael. God made you and you’re perfect as you are, okay? You have nothing to be ashamed of. Love is love.”
“If only I’d met you when I was younger. Maybe my life would have been different. I sense we could have been wonderful pals and maybe more. It’s too late now. My fate’s chosen for me,” Raphael said despondently.
“Rubbish. What if I joined and left after a month or so? You could come with me and stay with me. I’ll find you a job and you can do what you want.”
“Why would you do that for me?” Raphael said, his green eyes wide in surprise. “What would you want in return? There’s always a catch, right? I know. You want me as your bedmate, don’t you? Or maybe you're doing it outta pity. I don’t need anyone’s pity.”
“No to both, although I do think you’re very handsome. I’m doing it, because I sense you’re not really happy, Raphael. How the heck could you be living in a church, which dictates every facet of your life and right down to who you can marry and probably how many kids you can have? A church, which preaches absolute obedience, which shuns those who don’t confirm and which considers women subservient. That’s not a church. That’s a cult. Why the hell do you stockpile guns, Raphael?”
“We don’t stockpile guns. It’s just considered a necessity to have them. I’ve got a few,” Raphael said defensively. “Me handsome? Thanks. No one’s called me that before. You're sexy and I love your blue eyes. I could drown in them forever. The guns are for protection.”
“Why?”
“To protect ourselves. What’s wrong with it? The second amendment says we should have the right to arms.”
“But kids as young as twelve have them. That’s dangerous! You see, Raphael, the outside world’s worried that the church is gonna create another Waco.”
“They’re nuts, because that's not the King’s intention and it isn't true about kids using them. They only use them when they’re eighteen and older. Our King just wants us to be able to protect ourselves in case there’s trouble, because people don’t understand us and keep calling us a damn cult. People like you. Nosy parkers. They don’t see the happiness here and how content we all are…”
“Did you know that the suicide rate of ex-members is extremely high?”
“Manipulated statistics.”
“Manipulated? Four hundred people commit suicide every month, Raphael. Yet, people keep flocking to the church. Why is that? What’s the great appeal of your King? He must be a fine orator and manipulator.”
“He’s an awesome guy and very caring. That’s why,” Raphael said icily. “We all love him very much and I consider him a second dad. The statistics sound manipulated and it's probably by the cops. They hate us and would do anything to shut us down. They’d probably also send an undercover cop to investigate us. Are you one, Brian?” Raphael asked and frowned.Leo’s stomach dropped at Raphael’s words. Had he been found out? Shit. Some cop he was.“No. Of course not, Raphael,” Leo lied. “I’m an interested party wanting to join and wanting questions I have answered. That’s all. The ex-members commit suicide, because they have no one and no skills. They have nothing and they feel alone and disconsolate. They're shunned by their families and friends and they think suicide is the only way. Most who commit suicide were victims of child abuse. It happens in the church, doesn’t it? Don’t you think a child bride is also a form of abuse? It’s immoral, illegal and going on here. You see it, Raphael, don’t you? You know it’s wrong…”
Raphael swallowed the lump in his throat and said thickly, his green eyes filling with tears as unpleasant, traumatic and soul-destroying memories flashed in his mind, “Things sometimes happen that shouldn’t happen. You shouldn’t ask questions if you wanna join, Brian. You could get into huge trouble. Do you understand? You seem like a nice guy. I like you a lot and I don’t want you to get hurt. Please drop it. Go to the service, see what you think about it and make a decision.”
“Were you abused, Raphael? You can tell me. I promise I won’t tell anyone. I’m gonna join, so we can be friends and you can talk to me about anything. I could use a friend. I don’t know anyone here. You can come with me if I leave. Remember that, okay? You can have the life you want. I like you very much and I'll help you.”
“I…”“Raphael!" a male voice said from the doorway.The kelly green skinned turtle glanced up and blanched when he saw the dark haired and eyed twenty-nine-year-old Oroku Tim.“Your Highness,” Raphael said nervously. “I was just talking to Mr. Sato here. He wants to join our family. I’ve answered his questions as best as I could. He’s really excited about it all. I think he’d be a wonderful asset to our family. He seems smart, educated and a decent guy.”
“Like your opinion matters,” Oroku said sharply. “I make the decisions. You can leave. Go on. What are you waiting for?”
“It was lovely meeting you, Brian,” Raphael said. “I’ll see you around soon. Later, Your Highness.”Raphael’s anxiety and unease around Oroku hadn’t gone unnoticed by Leo, who suspected Oroku had harmed Raphael. Maybe it had been sexual abuse, because Raphael had seemed distraught when Leo had mentioned child abuse in the church.Leo watched Raphael leave the room and said, “Mr. Tanaka was a great help, Your Highness.”
“That’s a relief,” Oroku said. “He’s not known for his intelligence and he’s brought a lot of shame on us all at times, so I’m pleased to see he didn’t disappoint this time. You’ve decided to join. We’re honored. It’s always a pleasure to welcome a new member. Mrs. Suzuki mentioned you were here to see me, but she sent you to Raphael when I was busy. I’m sorry. I shall answer any other questions you may have.”
“Thank you. Is it true that I have to give all my money to the church?”
“No. You can give as much as or as how little you wish, but the more you give the more esteemed you are. Raphael’s family gave everything they owned, so they’re high in the ranking system and are well-respected. Maya’s my sister and when Raphael marries her, he’ll be considered part of the Royal Family and called a prince.”
“I see. Why is Raphael afraid of you?”
“Is he? I don’t know why if he is. We’re like brothers and extremely close,” Oroku said and grinned. “The whole church is. We’re one big happy family.”
“I heard rumors of child abuse.”
“Categorically untrue. I’d know about them if there were. Would you like to see the grounds? And you can tell me more about yourself.”
“I’d like that. Where would I be staying?”
“There’s a vacant house next door to Raphael’s house. He lives with his parents. The previous owners left. I can’t understand why. We’re all blissfully content here. It’s paradise.”
“Some might consider it a prison. So I’ve heard anyway.”
“Only the apostates who don’t understand us and our ways. They fabricate all kinds of stories about us, but it hasn’t stopped our church from growing. It never will. And you know what? Most members join and never leave. They have a choice, but they choose to stay. What does that say about us? That it’s a haven, like we advocate, right? Come along, Mr. Sato.”Leo followed Oroku out of the office and outside and thought, it’s a prison and a living nightmare for everyone and they’re too brainwashed to realize it. If they do, they’re too petrified to leave, because they fear they’ll be shunned from everyone they love. I suspect Oroku raped Raphael and he’s too ashamed and frightened to tell anyone. I’ll be a friend to Raphael and help give him the strength to fight for what he really wants and to leave this hellhole.

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Oroku Tim finished showing Leo around the compound a while later. Then they headed to the evening service.Leo wondered when the King and Queen would show up.XXXXTim and Leo entered the church. The older man left Leo to take a seat by the door and then joined his wife in the front row.Leo glanced around and saw that the King and Queen were already there. They wore their purple kimonos and Japanese sandals and sat on their massive golden thrones on the stage. Their expressions were warm and open, as the congregation waited for the service to begin. Leo didn’t think their smiles were genuine, because they didn’t meet their eyes. He thought they were ones of self-importance.“Now we’re all gathered here,” Oroku Saki said. “We can begin. Today’s sermon is about the outside world, which we all know is evil. That’s why we have guns to protect ourselves in case of trouble. There will be trouble, my friends. There will come a day when we will have to defend ourselves and all we hold true. We have to be prepared for it, the day of reckoning and the stand-off. Do you know why that happens? Those apostates don’t understand us and our ways and because they don’t, they tell people we are a cult and that I’m indoctrinating you. Why would I do that, my loyal subjects? What would I have to achieve by doing something so base? Those apostates are afraid of us, because we have something they don’t: a unity and a loving and happy family, instead of dissension, distrust and suspicions. There is no judgement and inequality here. You’re all equal and equally loved by your Queen and me. My friends, you have to ignore the apostates. They are the evil ones who are trying to manipulate you into venturing into their unholy world, where there is sin and temptation. None of that exists in our pure existence. I only want the best for you, my family. That is why I urgently stress to you not to embrace the outside world. I do not do that to frighten you or to indoctrinate you. I say it out of love and experience, because I have seen immorality and I have known what it is like to live in an apostatic and sinful world, where there is hatred and intolerance. It's only love and peace here. It's paradise. Do not let the apostates dictate and brainwash you into believing that the world out there is a better one! You know our church is the only truth, is the only way of achieving exaltation and salvation and that you will not reach them if you leave. Why then would you believe the apostates who don’t care about you? All they want to do is shut us down and they judge us, who only do good for others. What good do the apostates do? They preach love, but only show hate and intolerance…”Leo had to admit Oroku Saki certainly had a gift for oratory and spun things in such a way that he was seen as a benefactor and a loving father, who genuinely cared for his flock. No wonder people were sucked in. If Leo didn’t know better, he’d probably also have swallowed the crap hook, line and sinker. A family. Really? Bulldust. That was a lie to make them think they were cherished. They were merely pawns, puppets and people to bleed dry as the King’s dynasty grew. He didn’t care about them one iota. All he wanted were people to dominate, power and money. He’d have nothing but false promises if these people left. Leo was certain the followers knew at the back of their minds that everything was a massive lie, but they didn’t want to accept that, because they’d have to admit that their lives were one big lie. Who really wants to acknowledge that? And they were terrified to leave, because of the shunning and fearful that the world was an awful place full of sin. The King also repeated himself, which was a fantastic way of drumming his beliefs into his loyal followers. Hear it often enough and you believe it.“And,” Oroku Saki continued. “You all know the end of the world is coming. My dearly loved father will be there to greet us and he’ll judge if we’re worthy of joining him on the spaceships to fly to Orokua, where peace and happiness prevail. That day is coming soon, my family. You must be prepared. You will not be allowed to go if you don’t acknowledge that our church is the true church and the only truth. You must follow me, listen to my guidance and you must not be led astray by apostates. You must honor and dedicate your lives to the church, promote the growth of it and populate it with many children. That’s the only way you’ll be guaranteed entry to the spaceships and salvation.”Leo chuckled inwardly when he heard spaceships and thought, how can they believe such rubbish? Good grief. This Oroku really is a master manipulator.“Children are the future,” Oroku Saki said. “My father appeared to me the other day and told me he was worried about Raphael’s salvation.”All eyes turned on Raphael, who, mortified at bring called out cringed and his cheeks flamed. “I am as well,” Oroku Saki said, studying Raphael intently. “Do you know why, my family? Raphael doesn’t always do as he’s told. He challenges his parents and my authority. Truthfully, I doubt he’ll be joining us on the spaceships. He’s going to Hell, where apostates go! I don't want that for him, but it’s clear he doesn’t care and only thinks about himself. His poor parents, who gave him everything they could and who showered him with love. He shows no gratitude, maltreats them and disrespects them! What kind of son is that? Ungrateful brute!”
“NO!” Raphael shouted in alarm. “It's not true. I'm not going to Hell, Your Majesty. I don't wanna. I wanna be with my family forever, experience salvation, go on the spaceships, see your dad and be happy. I don’t wanna be an apostate and scorned.”
“Then you know what to do, Raphael. Stop being such a difficult child and listen to those who know what’s best for you. Do you understand? I don’t want to cast you out, but I’ll have no choice if you keep being a nuisance. Then you’ll be alone and shunned by all who love you. That’ll be your fault. You’ll disgrace your poor parents and break their hearts. Do you want that and to die an apostate?”
“No,” Raphael wept. “I’m sorry. I’ll listen to you all and I’ll never challenge you again, including about my marriage. I’ll be an awesome husband to Maya and have tons of kids. I’m sorry. Please don’t throw me out.”
“This is your last chance, Raphael. I have a meeting soon, so let’s bow, pray and end the service early. Raphael, lead us in prayer.”
“Oh, Great Being, thank You for giving us Your cherished son,” Raphael said, his head bowed. “To guide us, so that we don’t become sinners and apostates. He’s the most remarkable man and we all love Him so much. Help us stay on the right path and to not fall into temptation. Help us be all we need to be, so that we can see You, go on the spaceships and have the salvation we’ve dreamed of all our lives. Let us show love to the apostates who hate us and teach them what’s the real truth, which is our church and Your teachings. Thank You for all the blessings You bestow on us. We love You so much. Bless You, Your beloved son and his family always and may they and their legacy of love live on forever. Amen.”“Amen,” the flock said.“You’re dismissed, “Oroku Saki said. “Good job, Raphael. See, you can listen when you want to.”The King and Queen left with their children and spouses.The flock stood and bowed until the Royals had left. Then they dispersed.Leo was leaving when a voice called out to him.“Brian, wait,” Raphael, who was with his parents said. “I’d like you to meet my parents. Mom and Dad, this is Sato Brian. Brian, these are my parents, Tanaka Ryan and Shana.”
“Pleased to meet you,” Leo said and extended a hand.Raphael’s parents, who were also kelly green skinned and green eyed shook it and said in unison, “So are we.”“How do you like the church so far, Mr. Sato?” Shana asked.
“Love it,” Leo replied. “I think I will be happy here, Mrs. Tanaka. I thought His Majesty founded the church. Please call me Brian.”“No,” Raphael said. “His dad did, but both are revered. His dad will be there to welcome us all on Judgment Day. I hope I can join my parents. I don’t wanna be an apostate.”
“I hope so too,” Shana said. “I’d be sad without you, Raphael. Brian, do you have any skills? All the members work on the compound.”“I'm excellent at math and budgeting,” Leo replied. “And speech writing.”
“You could help me then,” Raphael said. “Do you have a place to stay?”
“I’d be happy to help. Next door to you."
“Cool. We’re gonna be neighbors,” Raphael said and smiled. “Mom and Dad, can Brian can join us for dinner? I don’t think he’s got any groceries yet. The couple I was gonna counsel said they can sort things out themselves."“All right,” Ryan said. “Are you a vegetarian, Brian?”
“No," Leo said. "But I can get used to it. It’s not a problem. I want to serve the church and do good with my life. I love what it preaches and I’m sure I’ll be happy here.”
“Perhaps you’ll be a good influence on my son and prevent him from being led astray from our doctrine.”
“I’ll certainly try.”Raphael’s parents led them to their house and walked ahead of the youngsters.“I’m sorry about what happened in the church, Raphael,” Leo whispered. “His Majesty was severe with you.”
“Yep, but I deserved it after all the trouble I’ve caused him and my family.”
“No, you don’t, Raphael. You’re your own person. You don’t have to do what everyone wants all the time and they’re wrong. The world isn’t evil. Some people are, but the world is an exciting place. It’s magical and there’s so much to do and see.”
“Why are you here if it’s so awesome?” Raphael asked suspiciously.
“Because I believe I’m meant to be here and I want to serve the church. I think I can do the most good here."
“That really doesn't make sense, Brian.”
“Neither do the spaceships, but people believe it,” Leo countered. "I'm sincere. I really want to serve this church."
“They do exist! His Majesty saw them.”
“He said he saw them. That doesn’t make it true. Do you believe in aliens as well?”
“Of course not. They don’t exist.”
“So, why do you believe in spaceships?”
“Because His Majesty saw them and he wouldn’t lie, Brian. He doesn't have a reason to. He’s a truthful and loving man and he adores us all. We’re his family. I told you before that if you wanna join, you gotta believe things. That means everything. If you don’t and wanna make a mockery of it all, then you should leave. I hope you don’t.”
“You’re absolutely right. I’m sorry. Forgive me. I’ve always been a cynic and found it hard to trust and believe. I’ll try harder and I won’t question things.”
“I understand. It's because of your background. Well, you can trust me,” Raphael said and beamed. “And you can trust His Majesty and the congregation. We’re good people and won’t hurt you. Are you staying?”
“Yes.”
“Great, because I like you, Brian, and think we could be awesome together.”
“Huh? What about what you said in church?”
“I’ll publicly do what they want, but I'll do what I want when I'm alone. What I want is you,” Raphael said huskily, his green eyes boring into Leo’s. “I sense you want me too. We’ll be careful and discreet. What do you say, Brian?”Leo’s heart flipped. Butterflies fluttered in his stomach and he thought, how can I say no to that gorgeous guy? I should, but I can't.“Yes,” Leo said. “But I want you to do something for me, Raphael.”
“Anything.”
“I want you to tell me what happened to you when you were a kid and why you’re so afraid of Oroku Tim. I won’t judge you. I need you to be open with me, like I’ll be with you if we do this.”
Raphael paled and he said in a small voice, “I’ll tell you later, Brian, but I'm warning you. It reads like something outta a horror movie.”
“It’ll be all right. And, Raphael, I want you to know that my offer still stands.”
“I know, but I’ll never leave, Brian. I can't. If you want me, you won’t either, because I can’t be with you then. Do you understand? This is my life.”
“I won’t leave unless you want to,” Leo promised and mentally cursed himself for lying. He had to leave, because he couldn’t stay with Raphael. He was a married man, an undercover cop and Raphael was a forbidden fruit he could never have.
Raphael nodded and said, “That makes me so happy. I’m glad we met. It was fate.”
“I think so too.”
“Call me Raph. Raphael’s when my parents are mad at me.”
“Raph.”
“Better,” Raphael said and tentatively touched Leo’s hand. “Brian and Raph. I like that. I wanna know more about you. You intrigue me.”
“I’m an open book.”
“Cool. Talk to me when my parents have gone to bed.”They walked along in silence.I like Raphael very much, Leo thought. I’m drawn to him. How will I leave him after a month? I can’t bear the thought of him living in this hellhole forever. I have to convince him to leave. How can I?

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Raphael and Leo sat at Raphael’s parents’ kitchen table.Shana had made a vegetarian stir fry with almond milk to drink.Leo’s stomach rumbled as he gazed at his plate and he realized he hadn’t eaten since that morning. It smelled delicious and he picked up a fork to dig in.Raphael frowned at him and said, “No. We say grace first, Brian, and hold hands as we say so.” He grabbed Leo’s hand and said, “I’ll say it.” His other hand was linked with his mom’s.Electricity coursed through Leo at Raphael’s touch and his heart raced. He'd never felt so alive with one touch.Did Raphael feel the same way?Raphael bowed his head and said, "Oh, magnificent Being, thank You for this dinner tonight and for letting us all be together to enjoy it. Thank You for Brian. Let us be able to teach him our ways, so that he'll also be of service to our church. Please bless us all now and always. Amen.”“Amen,” the others said in unison.They tucked in and there was silence for a while.Leo broke the silence and said, “This is delicious, Mrs. Tanaka. Thank you.”
“You’re very welcome, child," Shana said. "I hope you don’t think we’re rude, but we’d like to know more about you.”
“No problem. I was an only child and my parents died in a car crash when I was five. I was sent to an orphanage, because I had no other family. It was awful, but I got through it.”
“How dreadful,” I’m so sorry,” Shana said and clucked her tongue sympathetically.
“It’s okay. I’ll always miss them, but it became easier to deal with over time. I’d love to hear about your family. Why did you join?”“We heard it would be a safe place to raise kids and we liked what they preached,” Ryan said. “So we packed up, left Buffalo and moved here. Best thing we ever did. Raphael had an idyllic childhood. He wouldn’t have had that in the city with all the apostates. He can learn here and can be guided without any outside influences. He's thriving, aren’t you, Raphael? You’re happy.”
“Yeah. I love living here,” Raphael said quickly. Too quickly in Leo’s opinion, like he had to agree or he’d be spanked. “I wouldn’t wanna live anywhere else.”
Ryan smiled affectionately at his son and said, “Good kid. You’ll make your dad proud yet. Have you and Maya talked about the wedding plans yet? Time has a way of creeping up on you fast, son, and you don’t want to leave it too late.”
“I've been busy,“ Raphael said and stabbed a piece of okra with his fork. “You know my schedule.”
“Make time, Raphael. She is your fiancée, after all,” Ryan said coolly.
“I’ll try, but I have a lot on my plate right now, Dad.”
“Try harder or you’ll disappoint me. You don’t want to do that, do you, Raphael?” Ryan said sharply.“Ryan, please,” Shana said quickly. “He will. He’s just been busy lately.”
“Stop defending him, Shana. Raphael’s trying to stall the wedding, aren’t you, boy? I don’t get it. You’re lucky to have such a pretty girl who adores you and all you do is keep putting off the planning!”Leo felt like an interloper and his heart broke for Raphael. Was this how he was treated daily? His dad trying to keep an iron rod hold on him and to lay down the law to him and his mom trying to keep the peace? No wonder Raphael had rebelled and fled.“I’m going out,” Raphael declared as he stood up. “I’ll be back when I wanna be.”
“Raph, please,” Shana begged. “Sit down.”“The hell you are,” Ryan said heatedly and stood up. “You sit back down and finish your food that your poor mother cooked for you, Raphael! You’re not too old to be whipped, my boy, so watch the attitude.”Leo wished Raphael would storm out and defy the bastard, but he sat down, stared into his plate and his shoulders shook with fury.“Forgive my son’s rudeness,” Ryan said. “He’s usually more polite, Mr. Sato. More almond milk?”
“No, thank you,” Leo said. He was keen to leave. “I really should be going. It’s late and I'm tired. Thank you for the hospitality.”
“You're welcome. Raphael, stop sulking. It’s pathetic. Walk Mr. Sato home and see he’s settled in. Then I want you to return and to finish your dinner.”"Yeah, Dad,” Raphael said and leapt to his feet. “Come on, Brian.”“Do come back again,” Shana said. “You’re always welcome.”
“Thank you, Mrs. Tanaka,” Leo said and smiled. “Please join me anytime too.”Raphael led Leo to his new house.XXXXRaphael helped Leo unload his stuff from his car trunk and took it inside.“That’s all of it,” Raphael said after the third load. “I hope you like it here, Brian.”
“Hey. I want to ask about your home life. Does your dad beat you?” Leo asked.
“Yeah. Mom too if she doesn't listen. I try to defend her. I’d do anything for Mom. She’s an angel. I’d better go or the old man will blow a gasket. It’s okay most of the time. It’s just when I don’t listen. I’m too stubborn. I should go,” Raphael said, but didn't make any attempt to leave.
“You don’t have to. Your dad told you to settle me in, so why don’t you stay for a few minutes? I’ll make hot chocolate,” Leo said, getting out his favorite brand of hot chocolate from a box.
“I can’t have it if it's a stimulant. You know the score.”
“No one will know. It’s our secret,” Leo said and filled the kettle with water. “Come on, Raphael. It’s cold and almond milk doesn’t cut it. It certainly doesn't for me anyway. I intend on having my tea and hot chocolate when I can. They're my only luxuries. It won’t kill you.”
“Fine. I’ll try,” Raphael said and sat at the table. “Is it good?”
“I think you’ll love it,” Leo said and spooned hot chocolate powder into two mugs.
“Hmm. Was your family life good before your parents died? Do you remember? I’m sorry if I’m dredging up bad memories.”
“My mom was a sweetheart and she and Dad adored each other. No one fought much. They’d probably still be married if they were alive.”
“Were you ever hit?”
“No.”
“Not even when you were bad?” Raphael said in disbelief, his green eyes wide.
“Nope. They didn’t believe in spanking. What about you? Does your old man still thrash you? You’re twenty and not a kid anymore. You’re entitled to your own views, opinions and you should be able to dictate what you want to do with your life. Your family shouldn’t force you to marry someone you don’t love.”
“You think I don’t know that?” Raphael said bitterly. “Why do you think I ran away? I only came back outta fear of being cast out, because I don't have anyone outta the church and I don't have anyone I can call to help me. I don't have a degree or a bank account or a driver’s license. I haven't had opportunities. My life was and is decided for me and there’s nothing I can do about it, unless I wanna be cast out and Mom to be Dad’s punching bag again. I love my mom so much and I sometimes take the beatings for her. Have you any idea what it’s like? And no one gives a fuck. They pretend they do, but no one wants to hear about anything like that. Everyone is so happy-clappy and says it's paradise in this fucking community, but I know what really goes down. Child abuse, rape, molestation, corruption and more. I have to keep my fucking beak shut, because there’s Mom, the fucking apostates and shunning and I don’t have anywhere else to go. Besides, who’d believe me?” Raphael said miserably as tears streamed down his cheeks. “No one.”
“I do,” Leo said as the kettle boiled. “I told you can come with me. I’ll also help your mom.”
“She’ll never leave Dad, because she’s too scared. I have nothing to offer you in return if I accept.”
“You don’t have to give me anything. I told you. I just want to help you. You need to decide fast, Raph, because I’m only here for a month,” Leo blurted out. He cursed when he’d realized his mistake.
“Why only a month?”
“Um…”
“Are you a fucking cop on an undercover mission for a month?” Raphael demanded, his green eyes flinty. “Are you trying to trick me? I don’t like being lied to. I’ll deny everything I told you. I swear I will. I don’t trust the fucking cops. They hauled my aunt and uncle to prison for child molestation and it wasn’t true. Now they’re in fucking prison for a hundred years. I hate the cops.”
“Chill. I’m not. It could only be a month. That’s what I meant. It depends if I like it and have a reason for staying on.”
“That'd better be all, Brian, because I won’t be able to trust you if I find out you're lying. Trust is everything to me and whatever we have will be ashes.”
“What do we have?” Leo said, pouring hot water into the mugs and then sliding Raphael’s mug over to him.
“Chemistry and I like you. I don’t like many people. That says a lot.” Raphael sipped the hot chocolate and a smile spread across his face. “This is amazing. Thank you.”
“No problem. I told you you’d like it,” Leo said and sat down.
“I meant what I said. I wanna hang out with you and for us to be together, but we must be discreet. I can’t leave, because of Mom and the shunning. You understand, right? I’ll make it worth your while,” Raphael said huskily, which sent a shiver down Leo’s spine and made his shell feel embarrassingly tight. “And you won’t leave if you want me. You'll be one of us.”How could Leo leave this sexy guy? His mission was a fucking failure. Some cop he was. Sent undercover to investigate a cult and he’d fallen for one of the members.“So, are you gonna leave?” Raphael asked, grabbing Leo’s hand and then caressing it. Electricity coursed through them and their hearts raced. Man, sparks sure flew between them.
“I don’t think so,” Leo found himself saying and mentally cursed himself. Of course he had to leave.
“Great. We’ll be dynamite together," Raphael said happily.
“Do you try to seduce all the new members?”
“Only you. There hasn't been anyone else I liked. They all seemed boring, but there’s something about you, which draws me to you. It’s like we’re meant to be together. Do you believe in fate and soulmates? I’ve always believed that everyone has their soulmate. I think you're mine. That's pretty fucked up, huh, as we haven't known each other long? But I don’t think it’s about the passage of time. You sometimes just know right away."
“No. I feel the same way, Raph.”
“Really?”
“Yeah. I’m not the kind to fall easily, but you’re mesmerizing and stunning. I could stare into your eyes forever.”
“Sappy, huh?”
“Honest. You’re gorgeous and I'm so sorry for all you’ve endured. You didn’t deserve it.”
“Have you been with anyone?” Raphael asked jealously.
“A few partners,” Leo admitted.
“How many’s a few?”
“Shit. I don’t know. Six?”
“Are you a whore? What about monogamy?”
“I believed they were my soulmates, okay? They just didn’t work out. That’s how it sometimes goes. You don’t always find your soulmate right away. I’m not a whore. I had bad luck and I do believe in monogamy. Your church doesn’t.”
“Yeah, but I do. You're completely mine if you're with me,” Raphael growled. “You're mine to kiss, to hug and to cuddle. Do you understand? I don’t share.”
“But I have to share you, right? How is that fair?”
“It's not and I know it's a mess. Maybe a miracle will happen and we can have our fairy tale. Just us far away from this place. I’m hoping. I haven't had hope in years. Not until I met you. We’ll be together, but we have to be careful. That’s all we can do until fate maybe smiles on us again.”Raphael’s phone rang. "Yeah? I’m coming. Shit. Hold on. I’ll be there, Mrs. Chang. Okay.” He hung up and said, “I gotta split, Brian. Mrs. Chang can’t find her son and is worried he’s run off. I’m gonna help her. I hope he hasn't done anything stupid. I’ll see you in the morning, okay? I’ll dream about you. Wait.”Raphael gently pulled Leo to his feet, drew him close, wrapped his arms around him, passionately kissed him and poured all his passion, his heart and soul into that kiss. His first.Leo eagerly returned the kiss and his legs felt like jello. Raphael was an extremely good kisser, who seemed to make every part of his body tingle. He'd never felt so alive before. Damn. Was that heat flooding his groin? Shit. No.Their tongues twined together and hands roamed as they swapped spit and the kissing intensified. They churred as they gave in to their raw passion.“Mmm,” Raphael mumbled into the kiss. “You're turned on, aren’t you? You smell amazing.”
“So are you,” Leo said as he smelled Raphael’s arousal. The intoxicating scent filled his nostrils and made him dizzy.
Raphael suddenly pulled away and said, “It's been fun, but I gotta go.”
“You tease,” Leo said breathlessly.
“I'm not a tease, Brian. I like you. I just gotta go. I'll be back in the morning. Will you make me hot chocolate? I can sneak out at four a.m. and see you. No one’s up yet.”
“Deal. By the way, you’re an awesome kisser and your scent is incredible.”
“Back at you. Later, babe,” Raphael said and kissed him again.
“Babe?”
“Yeah. We both know you're the chick in our relationship,” Raphael said and chuckled. “Later.”Leo playfully swatted Raphael’s rump as he headed to the door, making him almost jump out of his shell.“Sleep well, babe,” Raphael said.
“You too, Raph.”The cop headed to his room when Raphael had left. He didn’t lock his door, because they didn’t in the community.XXXXLeo undressed, climbed into bed and thought, what the hell am I doing? I have to leave in a month. I can’t be with Raph. I’m married and I’m a cop. Raph will never forgive me when he learns the truth and I…I don’t want to leave Raph. I want him. He makes me feel things I haven’t felt in years: love, happiness and frigging hope. Why does my life always have to be so damn complicated?His sleep was restless and plagued by thoughts of his family, what they’d think of him, what his boss would think if his mission failed and what Raphael would think about him when he knew he was a cop. He’d feel betrayed and would hate him with good reason. He was a liar.Sniffing interrupted his thoughts and he looked up to see a figure standing at the foot of his bed.“Raph?” Leo said uncertainly.
“Yeah. It’s me,” Raphael said, stepping closer and visibly shaking. “Please forgive me. I had nowhere else to go after...”
“After what? Are you okay?” Leo said, standing up and going to him. “Talk to me. I’m here.”A tearful Raphael flung himself at Leo, passionately kissed him, wrapped his arms around him and poured all his love into the kiss.Why was Raphael crying? What happened? Did it have something to do with the Chang boy?“I don’t wanna talk. I just need to feel,” Raphael whispered between kisses and tugged at Leo’s kimono.Leo wanted answers, but he found himself returning the kiss and undressing Raphael.Their kimonos fell to the floor and their kissing intensified.The couple's plastrons ground against each other's and deep churrs roared from their chests from the delicious sensation. Their shells grew embarrassingly tight and their pheromones permeated the air.They churred even louder as their cocks unsheathed and pressed up against each other’s legs. “Raph, no,” Leo said. “We should stop!”
“I need you,” Raphael replied, breaking the kiss and leading Leo to the bed.Raphael pushed Leo onto the bed and was on top of Leo, but then he flipped them, so Leo was on top.He looked at Leo shyly, parted his legs and his tail thumped with excitement on the mattress.Leo’s cock throbbed and his desire grew. Damn, Raphael was magnificent, but he had to stop it.“I want you, Brian,” Raphael said huskily. “Give me what I want.”
“Raph, did something happen? We can talk about it, okay?” Leo said.
“I don’t wanna talk. I locked the front door, so we won’t be disturbed. I just want you. Please. I’m tired of begging. Only you make can the pain go away, baby,” Raphael said as he wagged his tail invitingly and revealed his puckered hole.Raphael’s heady scent filled Leo’s nostrils again, which made his brain hazy. He bent down and nipped Raphael’s collarbone.Raphael tilted his head to one side, giving Leo better access and moaned.“Mmm. Make love to me, Brian,” Raphael said. “I want you.”
“It'll hurt,” Leo said. “I’m warning you.”
“I can take pain. Make love to me.”Leo trailed sweet kisses down Raphael’s legs, thighs, arms, stomach, chin and finally his mouth.Leo’s erection pressed up against Raphael’s legs. Raphael’s cock was throbbing, pulsating, twitching and beautiful to behold.Raphael, himself, was glorious as he lay there for Leo to take him. Trust and love shone in his eyes.Leo was honored that this spectacular being trusted him so implicitly and wanted him to be the first to make love to him. The cop wouldn’t betray that trust. He would take it slowly and make it as special as he could.Raphael moaned in anticipation and parted his legs wider.Leo stuck a finger and then two into Raphael to prep him.Raphael whined a bit at the breach.It feels weird, Raphael thought, but I don’t want him to stop.“Do you want me to stop, Raph?” Leo asked.
“No. Continue. I’ll be okay.”Leo continued prepping Raphael and when he thought he was wet enough, he thrust his cock into him.Raphael hissed at the burning sensation and tears sprang to his eyes. It wasn’t his first time. He’d been fucked countless times by Tim and a few elders, but he hadn’t had sex in a long time, so he was tight and Leo was bigger than the men he'd been fucked by before.“I’ll stop, Raph. I don’t want to hurt you,” Leo said.
“No. Continue. I want this. I want you,” Raphael said, bucking his hips and then lifting his legs around Leo’s waist so that he could go in deeper. “I trust you. Don’t stop.”Leo thrust in and out and soon formed a steady rhythm that made them see stars. Their churrs echoed off the walls as they gave in to their carnal desires.This is magic, Raphael thought as he churred and his nails raked down Leo’s arms. This is heaven. I feel so alive with Brian. He’s gentle, but passionate at the same time and he’s extremely caring, unlike what I experienced before. I wish my first time had been with him. I know he’d have made it very special. It wouldn't have been filthy and sordid like it was with Tim. Yes, this is what true love is. I love Brian’s sexy noises. He’s adorable and I could drown in his eyes forever.They rocked against each other. Pleasure coursed through them, their toes curled, their faces were flushed and their hearts pounded.Leo repeatedly stabbed at Raphael's prostate, listened to Raphael's moans and thought what a lucky guy he was to have Raphael. He would never take him for granted and would love and treasure him for as long as he had him.Raphael yelled ‘Brian’s’ name when he climaxed and his hot, sticky and ropey seed splattered across his plastron and on the bedsheets.Leo gave a final thrust, came and painted Raphael’s insides with his sticky essence. He pulled out and flopped down beside a breathless Raphael, who had his arms open as he basked in the afterglow of their lovemaking.Leo leant up and kissed Raphael’s beak.Seeing tears shining in Raphael's eyes, Leo thought anxiously, fuck. I hurt him, didn’t I? I hurt this beautiful being. I’m scum.“I’m sorry if I hurt you. I guess I got carried away,” Leo said. “Please forgive me.”
“I'm not crying, because of that, Brian. I’m crying, because it was everything I always wanted: passionate, sweet, tender and caring. Thank you. It wasn’t my first time. I've been fucked a lot, but this was special and love. The other times were meant to dominate me and to break me. I can heal, because I know what love is now.”
“Someone hurt you?” Leo said furiously, incensed someone would hurt his love.
“Yeah. I’ll tell you about it some other time. I was never kissed. I was fucked and rutted as if I was a mere toy and trash to use and to abuse. I wanna cuddle and then sleep. I think I love you, Brian. Dumb, huh? Who’s the sap now? We make love and I act like a chick.”
“No. I feel it too, Raph,” Leo said, snuggling into his arms. “Rest. I have you now. No one will ever hurt you again.”
“Promise?” Raphael said in a small voice.
“Yeah. Always and forever.”
“Get me outta here, Brian. Don’t let me die in the community. Promise me,” Raphael begged. “I was too scared to leave before, but I wanna now. I’m ready. Get me out as soon as you can. I don’t wanna end up like Sean Chang.”
“I swear we’ll leave the first chance we get. What about the shunning? It scared you.”
“Death is worse than shunning. I don’t wanna die. I want to live and I wanna be with you. Get me out. I trust you,” Raphael said sleepily and rested his head in the crook of Leo's neck.Raphael closed his eyes, soon fell asleep and was gently snoring.My mission is a fucking failure, Leo thought as he listened to Raphael’s snores. But I’ve found my soulmate. He’s what counts. Nothing else does. I hope he doesn’t hate me when he learns I’m a cop. I’ll do whatever I can to help him and anything he wants. I didn’t have the guts to leave Hannah and to stand up to my family before Raph, but I do now. I already care so much for Raph. I’m gonna divorce Hannah, quit my job, take care of Raph the way he deserves and help him heal. I have enough money to tide me over for a bit, so we should be more than okay. It’s funny what life throws at you. Yesterday, I was a pessimistic bastard who was stuck in a loveless marriage. Now I have a chance at a real, happy and loving relationship with a sweet guy. I won’t give him up, no matter what happens.

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Leo stirred a few hours later and looked down at his handsome lover, who was still snuggled in his arms. His heart swelled with love and fierce protection for Raphael. It was amazing how much he’d come to care for the kelly green skinned turtle in such a short span of time. He reflected on what Raphael had said to him about his life in the community. What hell it must have been to be so ensnared and to have no chance of ever getting out, but things would be different for Raphael now. He would see that Raphael had everything he wanted and needed, even if they split up. It would start with a bank account of his own.Raphael woke, blinked, raised his head and said sleepily, “What time is it, Brian?”
“I don’t know, but it must still be dark out, because the birds aren’t awake.”
“I’ll probably get a thrashing, because I didn’t go home, but maybe Mrs. Chang will cover for me and say I went somewhere to recover from what I saw. My parents would understand then, because Sean and I were close. I can’t believe he’s gone, Brian,” Raphael choked out and blinked back tears.
“Want to talk about it?” Leo asked as he gently stroked Raphael’s face.
“He hanged himself in the barn. I cut him down. His body was still warm, so he hadn’t been dead long. He left me a note in his pocket. It fell out when I cut him down. I managed to palm it before anyone saw it. He said he couldn’t stand the shame of who he was any longer. He was gay, Brian, and terrified of his family finding out and of being subjected to what I had been. The electric shocks and so on. That's why he took his life. He was my best friend. We met as babies and were inseparable our whole lives. He was my only confidante. We did everything together and he was gonna be my best man at the wedding. He had plans too, but he was also petrified of leaving. He felt like he had no way out. He told me in the note that he loved me, wanted me to leave and to have the life he could never have. Brian, he was the nicest guy ever and was always helping others. I loved him like a brother. Why did he have to die? Life isn't fucking fair. I don’t wanna end up like him. I will if I have to stay here!” Raphael said hysterically as tears streamed down his cheeks.
“Sh,” Leo said and kissed away his tears. “I’m so sorry about your friend. I won’t let that happen to you. I will get you out of here.”
“When, because I swear I’ll crack if it isn't soon? Seeing Sean that way really tore me up. I’ll never get over it and seeing his once shining eyes so dull, his face pallid, his body lifeless. I tried to bring him back with mouth-to-mouth, but it was too late. So much promise gone in the blink of an eye. When, Brian? I need to know.”
“I don’t know. I have to…”
“Look, if you're having doubts about us, have the balls to tell me.”
“I’m not. It’s… I heard there is something called the God squad that has guns and watches your community like a hawk. They ensure they can’t get out and sometimes there are spot checks on families to see that they’re towing the line. It won’t be easy to evade them. I have to phone for help. I’ll disappear for a bit this morning, but I'll be back.”
“You'd better not ditch me. We might have a baby. How will I explain that to my parents? They don’t know I’m intersex. I figured it out when I laid eggs when I turned thirteen. I didn’t become gravid with Tim and the others. Maybe it was because they were humans, but I might with you, because we’re the same species.”Leo’s jaw dropped in astonishment. Raphael was intersex and could have his baby? Crud. That raised a whole new set of complications. Ones he’d never considered. How the fuck would he explain it to his family?"Judging by your expression, you aren't happy, Brian,” Raphael said crossly.
“I’m shocked. Wouldn’t you be if someone sprang that on you?”
“You don’t want kids?”
“My ex was pregnant, but miscarried. I thought that was it for fatherhood. You should have told me, Raphael. Damn it. You don’t hide secrets like that.”
“I’m sorry, okay? I wanted comfort and didn’t think, Brian. Let’s make a deal. If you don’t want babies, get me outta here, set me up someplace and I’ll figure the rest out on my own.”
"It’s not that I don’t want babies. I was just stunned when you told me. You’re a macho guy and that’s the last thing I’d expect from you. I've always wanted to be a dad."
“Yeah. I felt the same way when I found out and it took me a long time to accept it. No one knows. That’s another reason why I wanted to stall the wedding. Can you imagine being married, your wife wants babies and you can’t give her any, because you're sterile? I am. Most intersex people are. I can only have babies if a guy fucks me. What a laughingstock, huh? They probably would have made us have IVF and I’d be called a freak. Everyone would know and Maya would be pissed at me.”
“Raph,” Leo said, cupping his cheek. “A baby is a blessing whatever the circumstances. I’d be thrilled if we have one and would do my damndest to be a great dad. I'd shout it from the rooftops about how happy I am to be a dad and we’d go crazy buying baby stuff. That baby would be thoroughly spoiled and what’s more, I’d never leave you.”
“Really?”
“Cross my heart. I’d be a douche to dump my kid’s mommy.”
“Daddy,” Raphael corrected and lightly punched his arm. “I may be intersex, but I'm not a chick. What kinda life are we gonna have?”
“An awesome one, Raph. You can do whatever you want and you don’t have to worry about people breathing down your neck. We can try to get your mom out too.”
“Nah. She’d never come, like I said and to be honest, she wasn’t much of a mom. She knew I was being abused and so did Dad. They never did a thing about it and even said I was lying. I don’t wanna see them ever again. You're all I need and want, Brian. I trust you implicitly.”Brian, Leo thought as guilt at his deception gnawed at him. Raph has been so open about everything and I'm still lying about everything.“You look distant, Brian. Are you okay?” Raphael asked.
“Yep. Just thinking about how incredible you are.”
“Yeah?” a flushing Raphael said.
“You’ve been brought up in a hellhole, Raph, but you’re not like the others here. You’re fearless, loving, passionate, open and honest.”
“I wear my emotions on my sleeve. Always have.”
“It’s a good way to be. I used to be that way, but life changes you and makes you more guarded. You’re not so trusting and naïve.”
“Yeah. You've had a shitty life too, Brian. I’m sorry. Things will be different for you too. I’ll take care of you, love you and cherish you forever. I’ll chase your demons away and I’ll be your strength during your tough times. You'll never know sorrow or heartache with me.”
“I’ll always love and honor you,” Leo said and kissed him deeply. “You’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.”Leo’s phone in his dresser rang and he mentally swore. Only one person would call and that was his boss. What bad timing.“Aren't you gonna answer that, Brian?” Raphael asked.
“No. It’s not important,” Leo said and sighed in relief when the phone stopped ringing.
“Who'd call you in the middle of the night? Your ex trying to win you back?”
“Paul? No. He made it clear we were done. Relax. I’m all yours.”
“Who then?”
“No one, Raph.”
“But someone did call, so it must have been important. People don’t call in the middle of the night for nothing.”
“Fuck. Let it go, Raphael!” Leo snapped and immediately regretted his outburst when he saw hurt flash on his lover’s face. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to yell at you. It was probably a wrong number or a crank call or…”
“Or something you're hiding from me. I don’t like being kept in the dark.”
“You’re not.”
“Then look at the caller ID and see. Tell me. I'd tell you.”
“Raphael, you sometimes just have to trust in relationships.”
“Bullshit. There isn't supposed to be secrets. You know what? If you can’t be honest, maybe we should…"
“It’s my freaking boss, okay? I haven’t shown up for days at work and he probably wanted to chew me out and fire me.”
“In the middle of the night?”
“He’s weird and has done that to employees before. You should get home. I’ll call you if there’s news.”
“Now you're throwing me out,” Raphael growled, his green eyes blazing. “Because you know the person will call you again and you don’t want me to hear.”
“I’m not, Raph. I promise it’s nothing. I’m all yours. I don’t have any jealous exes. Only a weird probably ex-boss.The phone rang again.“Answer it, Brian,” Raphael snapped and added sarcastically, “Seeing as you have nothing to hide from me.”Leo cursed, withdrew the phone from the dresser, hit the green button and said, “Yeah?”
“Why the hell didn’t you answer me earlier, Hamato?” Commissioner Jones demanded.
“I was in the shower. What’s up?”
“How is the investigation coming along?”Fuck, Leo thought as he watched Raphael listen intently. Raph can hear every word and he’s gonna explode.“I have all the intel we need,” Leo said and flinched when he saw Raphael glare at him.Yep. Raphael was going to punch him for the lying sack of shit he was.“Excellent,” Commissioner Jones said. “So, someone talked, Hamato? That was fast.”
“Yeah,” Leo said. “I have my ways and means. I have enough intel to shut down the cult, but I need help to get out. The sooner the better. I’m bringing someone with me. He’s a good person. Tanaka Raphael. He gave me all the info we need and we need to get him out for his own protection.”
“Tanaka? That family? Are you freaking kidding me? Have you any idea what they do? They help peddle drugs. I’ll get you out, but I’m not assisting him, Hamato.”
“He’s not like that. I swear he isn’t. Please.”
“Soft on him, huh?”
“It’s not like that and it’s been strictly business. Raphael talked, because he’s a lonely kid and he wants to get out of here. He’s been through hell and back, Boss. He isn’t like his family. He’s a good and kind person. You have to believe me. I’m good at judging people. That’s one of the reasons why I’m a great cop.”Raphael’s glare deepened and it felt like a dagger in Leo’s heart.“I’ll contact you later and see about getting you and Raphael out tonight. I trust your judgment,” Commissioner Jones said. “Does Raphael know you’re a cop, Hamato? Does anyone else know?”
“No. They think I’m Brian.”
“Keep it that way. I’ll be in touch,” Commissioner Jones said and hung up.“You fucking asshole!” Raphael snarled, his green eyes flashing as he punched Leo’s jaw, making him wince. “I fucking asked if you were a cop and you lied to me. I was just a tool to get info outta, so you could shut down this place. That’s all I am to you. All the promises you made to me don’t mean anything and neither does the sex. They were meant to get more info outta me. I feel used. How could I have been so dumb and believed you? Fuck. I’m pathetic. Goodbye, Brian, or whoever you are.”
“That’s not true,” Leo said as he rubbed his jaw. “You’re more than that to me, Raph. Please stay. I’ll tell you everything and then if you still feel you want to leave, you can go, but please hear me out.”
“Fine. It'd better be good,” Raphael said and crossed his arms. “I don’t take kindly to deceit.”
“I’m a cop. My boss asked me to go undercover and to investigate this cult. I was grateful…”
“Is Brian even your real name?”
“No. It’s Hamato Leonardo. Leo to friends and family. Anyway, I was grateful, because it gave me an excuse to not attend my father-in-law’s speech…”
“You're married?” Raphael said in disbelief and then snorted contemptuously. “Figures. You're too cute to be single.”
“Unhappily married. We married, because she was pregnant, but she miscarried. I wanted a divorce, but both of our parents refused, because it would cause a scandal. Image is everything to them. Hannah and I live separate lives. I had pretty much accepted my fate until I met you. I threw myself into work and had a few affairs, but nothing made me happy. My life was pretty dark and hopeless. Then I met you. Now I’m happy and I can’t stop smiling. I’m sorry I kept things from you, but I had to, so my work wouldn’t be jeopardized. I didn’t plan on falling for you. It screwed up my mission and I’ll probably lose my job when my boss learns about us. I don’t care. I love you, Raph. You’re not someone who gave me intel. You’re my soulmate and I want to spend my life with you. That’s the truth.”
“So, you have family? You were never an orphan?”
“No. I have parents and a brother. His name is Donnie. He's six years older than me and he’s a billionaire. Self-made. He’s a scientist and an inventor. Raph, please,” Leo said, cupping his cheeks. “I’m sorry. Everything I told you now and how I feel about you is the truth. I’m prepared to tell everyone about you and I want to get a divorce from Hannah and marry you someday. All I care about is you.”
Raphael swatted Leo’s hands away, stood and said icily, “I told you trust was everything to me, Leonardo, and you betrayed it. I don’t care what your reasoning was. How can I trust you after this? Could you? I loved you, opened myself up to you and for what? I fell for your lies…”
“My feelings aren’t a lie.”
“The rest was. Goodbye, Leonardo. Never contact me again. I hate you.”Raphael stormed out of the room and banged the front door behind him.Leo’s heart shattered as he watched his ex-lover leave and he thought, Raph, I’m really sorry. I hope you can forgive me someday. I had no choice. I never meant to lie to you and to betray your trust. I'll always love you, miss you and never stop praying you’re in my arms again.XXXXLater that day, Leo popped around to Raphael’s place and knocked on the front door.Raphael opened the door and scowled when he saw him. “What the fuck do you want, Leonardo?” Raphael hissed. “Don’t you understand the concept of goodbye?”
“I’m passing on a message,” Leo whispered. “It’s going down tonight. Meet me at my place at midnight if you want to come. You don’t have to be with me. I understand your reasoning why not, but you have to get out of here, Raph. This could be your only opportunity to do so.”“Why, hello there, young man,” Shana said, appearing behind Raphael. “How are you, Brian?”
“I'm okay, thanks, Mrs. Tanaka,” Leo said. “How are you?”
“Great. Would you like to come for dinner?”
“I have plans, but another night for sure. Thank you. I’ll see you guys soon. Bye.”Leo walked back to his place and thought, I really hope Raph pitches. Even if he doesn’t want me back, it would gladden my heart and make me feel at ease to know he’s safe from this place.

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Raphael had spent the afternoon in his room lying on his bed and thinking about the handsome jackass cop, Leo, aka Brian, who’d managed to worm his way into his heart so quickly. The kelly green skinned Turtle had never been so smitten with anyone before, which was why it'd been doubly crushing when he’d learned about Leo’s deceit. Raphael had thought that he’d finally met someone who was everything he’d ever wanted in a mate and more and who would offer him an amazing life away from the shitty existence he had, but could he forgive the secrecy and lies? It'd been because Leo had had a job to do and it hadn’t been because he'd wanted to lie to Raphael, but still. Raphael had been open with Leo about his abuse and life on the compound, so Leo should have reciprocated, right? Wasn’t a relationship about trust and sharing things? Or was it different if you were an undercover cop and Raphael should be more understanding?He knew life wasn’t black and white. There was also the gray area and feelings.Feelings of love and a deep connection on his part. He’d willingly given himself to a man he barely knew, thinking it was reciprocal, only to have his heart shattered. But their lovemaking and when they’d talked, had seemed honest and pure. Was he being too hard on Leo? You couldn’t fake emotions, could you? Oh. That’s right. Some people did all the time, but had Leo?No, Raphael thought. I doubt Leo would be that cold. Not after he spilled his guts about his shitty life. Man, what an awful life he has. Imagine being in a loveless marriage for the rest of your life. The looks he gave me when we talked and made love were caring and real love and the way he touched me was passionate and also tender. He wasn’t faking his feelings and he really does love me. He said he’d leave his wife and he cared when I was upset about Sean and wanted to console me. He didn’t dismiss his death and ramble on about shit. I’d be a moron not to leave and not to give him another chance. I’ll die here and be in a loveless marriage with Maya if I remain and miss out on the most incredible person. I gotta leave tonight.Raphael's cell phone rang. “Yeah, Maya? What do you want?” he said abruptly, not in the mood to talk to her.
“Where are you, Raphael? It’s seven p.m. You should have been here an hour ago!” Maya yelled. “We had plans. We’ve been waiting for you. My entire family is here. I am so damn embarrassed and angry. You’d better not be with that weird Sean Chang kid. You know I despise him and he’s toxic. He’s always trying to break us up.”
“He’s dead. Happy?” Raphael snapped, his temper rising. “I found him in his barn. He’d hanged himself.”
“Oh. So, when will you be here? I’m waiting.”
“Oh. Is that all you can say about my best pal’s death?” Raphael roared, incensed at her callousness. “He was my only damn confidante and the only person who cared about me. He was a great guy! All you care about is yourself. It's been that way your entire life and it isn't gonna change. You don’t love me. If you did, you'd have said something compassionate and shown me love. Anything but just oh!”
“You’re such a drama queen, Raphael. Why should I care about someone who was mean to me? You listen to me. You get your bloody ass here or I’m telling Daddy. I covered for you and said you had a meeting that was running late.”
“I'm not coming. Shove your dinner up your ass!”
“How dare you speak to me that way!” Maya screamed. “After all I’ve done for you. I’ve loved you, nurtured you…”
“Bullshit. You've been a thorn in my ass my entire life by bugging me, never leaving me alone, instigating our engagement. You persuaded your parents and mine that we’d be awesome together when you knew I liked boys. How is forcing someone who doesn't love you to marry you love, Maya?”
“You don’t like boys, Raphael. That was just a phase. Get your butt here now. I’m warning you.” Maya sighed and tried another and softer approach, which always worked. “Stop saying things you don’t mean. I know you love me. We will be good together and have the family we’ve always wanted. Raphael, calm down and come here. Please, sweetheart. I miss you. I haven’t seen you all day and I'm lonely. You’re the only person who makes me happy and who makes me smile. Please, angel.”
“I'm not coming. I have the runs,” Raphael lied.
“Why didn’t you tell me earlier?”
“You were too busy having a meltdown!”
“Right. I do get a bit worked up sometimes. Do you need me to look after you? I can come by after dinner.”
“No. I need rest and my parents are here.”
“But I will see you tomorrow, right? We can go for a picnic. I’ll make your favorite dessert. How about that, sweetheart? I’m sorry for being difficult.”
“Tomorrow,” Raphael fibbed. “Night.”
“I love you, Raphael, and I can’t wait to be your wife. Get better, angel.”He hung up, threw the phone onto the floor and watched the screen shatter. Good. His only means of contact with that bitch and the rest of the compound was no more. He didn’t need them or want them ever again. He had a wonderful life on the outside with Leo to look forward to.Raphael smiled and thought, I’m making the right decision. Leo and I are gonna have a fantastic life together.There was a knock on his door, because of course someone had heard his conversation. He never had any fucking privacy. Twenty-years-old and his family still treated him like he was a baby. It drove him nuts and it’d be the same until he died, even if he’d married Maya.“Raphael, I heard shouting. What’s going on?” Ryan asked.
“Nothing, Dad!”
“It didn’t sound like nothing, boy. You’re late for dinner at Maya’s place.”
“I’m sick, Dad. It must be something I ate. I have water and I’ll rest. I should be better tomorrow.”
“Another ploy to get out of plans with her?” Ryan demanded.
“No.”
“I should hope not. You know how lucky you are to have her. You’ll never get anyone as supportive and loving or as wealthy. I’m not losing my golden ticket to a better life, because of you. You owe me, boy, for all the things I’ve done for you. You could have been kicked out of the compound for all the shit you pulled. I begged for you to stay and to be given another chance. Remember that. You could be living with the apostates. They wouldn’t care about you. I do. I always have and so does your mother.”
"I know.”
"Raphael, I’m a hardass, but it’s for your own good and so are the thrashings. You need to stay in line or you’ll go to Hell. You know the beatings hurt me more than you.”I sincerely doubt that, Raphael thought sarcastically. Man, I hate him. I can’t wait to leave. What kinda man hits his son and sometimes for no reason? A sadistic bastard, that’s who. I'd never hit my kids and treat them the way I’ve been treated.“Sleep. Your mother and I are going to your cousin’s place for the evening," Ryan said. "And staying over. I’ll see you in the morning. If you feel better, there’s leftover watercress soup in the fridge.”
“Thanks,” Raphael said as his heart leapt for joy that his parents would be away until the following day.It’ll make my escape so much easier, Raphael thought. A few more hours and I’ll be outta here. It can’t happen fast enough.“I do love you, Raphael,” Ryan said.
“I know.”
“You’ll understand better when you’re a parent that corporal discipline is sometimes the only way to get through to a stubborn kid. Night, son.”Rubbish, Raphael thought. I’ll never hit my kids and I’ll be a better dad than you were. I’ll love my kids, encourage them, talk to them and I’ll never make them feel like they don’t belong or that they aren't good enough. They fucking are. I’ll support their dreams and they’ll know they can always count on me.He waited until he heard the front door click shut. Then he packed a bag containing his laptop on which he used to write his sermons and stories. He loved creating stories, which helped him deal with his life and he dreamed of being a published author. That had only been a fantasy until Leo had come into his life. Maybe now he could fulfil that goal. Heck, he could write an autobiography if he wanted to. He certainly had a lot to tell and all of it was true, even if it was strange, but then again, the truth was sometimes stranger than fiction.He also packed various kimonos, underwear, a couple of photos of Sean, his journals and his favorite books: The Bible and his grandmother’s recipe book he’d been gifted a few years earlier. That was it. His grandmother’s recipe book had first belonged to his great-great-grandmother on his mom’s side and had been passed down through the generations with new recipes added every time. Raphael hoped to pass it down to his kids one day.He was a phenomenal baker and cook, having learned from his gran who’d taught him everything she knew. She’d been a strict parent, but she was a much kinder and loving grandparent who'd spoiled Raphael, her only grandchild and indulged his every whim. She'd even bought him the laptop. His parents had been furious, but she’d argued that the kid loved writing, was talented at it, it brought him pleasure and it wasn’t like he’d go on the Internet. He'd use it to write. She’d been his only ally, tried to shield him from the abuse and her death from brain cancer when he’d been fourteen had devastated him. He’d barely slept and eaten for weeks.That had sent him off the deep end. Who could blame him? She’d known he was gay, had kept it a secret, told him it was nothing to be ashamed of and she hoped he could someday be himself, instead of what others wanted him to be. She told him that she would help him escape if he wanted to when he was eighteen. Not long after her death, he’d been told that he was marrying Maya.Gran would approve of you, Leo, Raphael thought. I know she would.Looking at the recipe book gave him an idea. Maybe he could open a bakery and call it after his gran. He’d run it past Leo and see what he thought.His packing done, he sat on his bed and waited for the clock to strike 11:55.XXXXRaphael picked up his bag at 11:55, left his room and the house and headed to Leo’s place. He arrived there on the stroke of midnight.Leo was outside his house and had a bag at his feet. His eyes darted everywhere and he feverishly prayed Raphael’s neighbors didn’t see him leave. They’d call the God squad if they did and it would be impossible to get out of there.“Hey,” Raphael said, appearing and nearly making Leo jump out of his shell. He was too busy looking elsewhere he hadn’t seen Raphael arrive.
“You came,” Leo said in astonishment. “I didn’t think you would, Raphael.”
“Neither did I at first, but I got thinking.”
“About? I saw your parents leave earlier. Any other neighbors home?”
“Probably not. Most of my neighbors are Maya's relatives and have gone there for dinner. They stay super late and often into the early hours. I pretended I was sick and stayed home.”A black SUV with tinted windows pulled up.“We’ll talk later?” Leo asked hopefully.
“Maybe,” Raphael said, deciding to make Leo sweat. He wasn’t going to let Leo think he was a pushover and take him back so quickly, like those stupid movies when the characters fought and everything was fine two minutes later. Life didn’t work that way. They had to talk and Raphael had some rules he wanted Leo to hear. They were important ones that they both needed to follow for them to work out.Karai, and two colleagues of her and Leo's called Slash and Mona Lisa jumped out of their vehicle.Quick introductions were made.“Oh. He’s cute, Leo,” Karai teased, stealing a glance at Raphael. “Uncle said he’s coming with us.”
“Shut up. It’s platonic,” Leo hissed. “He’s a good kid and doesn’t belong here. Mona, is anyone about who’ll follow us?”“We saw the God squad,” Mona replied. “They’re on the eastern side of the compound. We cut our lights. They didn’t see us, but we haven’t much time if they’re patrolling. Twenty minutes top. We have to speed if we see them. We saw a couple of neighbors, but the rest of the compound’s lights are out. They’re asleep, I think.”“Are you sure you still want to do this, Raphael?” Slash asked. “You know the score and what happens to ex-members, right? This is it. You’ll probably never see them again. They’ll shun you.”
“I know. I wanna get out. I can’t stay here anymore. My friend died, because he couldn’t handle life here. I’ll be next if I don’t go now. I know there’ll be difficulties out there, but I can learn to cope and to build a life for myself. I want my freedom. I’m drowning here.”
“All right. I know people who’ll help you, so you’re not alone.”“We have to move,” Mona said. “Now.”Leo and Raphael picked up their bags and they all piled into the van.XXXXSlash drove and Mona sat in the front passenger seat.Karai was in the back with Leo and Raphael.“Are you okay, Raphael?” Karai asked. “I know this is a huge step.”
“I’m fine,” Raphael said, even as his heart pounded. He was excited about leaving, but he was also nervous. Leaving everything he knew and with someone he barely knew was a huge step. And he was worried about the God squad seeing them. They had guns and wouldn’t hesitate to use them if they deemed it necessary.
“I can put you up at my place until we find a place for you if you can handle two crazy lesbians,” Karai said and smiled. “Oh, and a two-month-old we had with help from our brilliant medical team.”“He’s staying at my place,” Leo said. “If he wants to. I have more than enough space.”
“I bet you do,” Karai chimed in and grinned. “Come on, Leo. Let’s be honest here. You never invite people we help home. You’re sweet on Raphael.”“Cut him a break,” Raphael said heatedly. “He’s just trying to help a fucked up kid. That’s all. Poke your nose elsewhere, lady, like in your own life. Back off.”
“Easy now, Raphael," Karai said. "I was just messing around. I wouldn’t care if that was the case, because Leo’s miserable and needs happiness. My uncle would, becaise it's against protocol for cops to be involved with informants. Leo would have to resign.”“Shit!” Mona said. “The God squad. They’ve seen us. Buckle up. It’s going to be a bumpy ride.”Mona increased the speed and drove like a maniac with the God squad hot on her tail.Fear crept into Raphael's heart. They were done for If the God squad caught them. The God squad would probably eliminate the cops and then drag Raphael to his parents’ place, where he’d be severely beaten by his dad and then by Maya’s brothers and dad. Not to the point where he was close to death, but badly enough, so he’d never think about escaping again.He heard the squealing of tires as the God squad also sped up, but they were no match for Mona, who spent her weekends drag racing.Mona increased the speed to the max.Slash opened the window and threw out a few smoke bombs, which immediately exploded and caused a flurry of smoke to descend onto the God squad’s vehicle. It made them unable to see anything and caused their car to skid off the road.Coughing and spluttering, the God squad jumped out of their car and waited for the smoke to dissipate. It soon cleared, but there was no sign of the cops. They were long gone.The God squad cursed, then got back into their vehicle and headed to Oroku Saki’s place to tell him a member of the community had escaped the compound.XXXXThe cops cheered as they drove out of the compound and onto the open road.“I love it when a mission’s successful,” Slash said. “Drinks on me next time we meet up.”
“Awesome,” Mona said. “Is everyone okay?”Raphael was in a state of disbelief and shock. He was really free. It felt so surreal. Maybe he was dreaming it. He pinched himself and gasped when he realized it wasn’t an illusion. He was free to do whatever he wanted.“Raphael?” Mona asked.
“I think my heart nearly stopped back there, but I’m okay now. Thank you. I can never thank you enough for getting me outta there.”
“Yeah. Sorry I had to floor it like that, but I had no choice. Leo?”“I’m fine. Just tired. Thanks, guys,” Leo said.
“What now?” Karai said. “You’re coming to the station, Leo, right? We need to report to the commissioner. He’s waiting.”
“I’m tired, Karai. Can you guys do it? I’ll be at work with Raphael in the morning. He’s exhausted and needs sleep. If he wants to stay with me.”
“Hmmm. I bet he does,” Karai said and beamed. “We’ll be there in twenty minutes or so.““Your place is fine, Leo. Thank you,” Raphael said. Raphael closed his eyes, sat back and his heart pounded with excitement. He was really free. Life was only going to get better from now on.Leo reflected on what Karai had said about resigning from his post. She was absolutely right and he silently made a decision he didn’t regret at all.XXXXThey arrived at Leo’s eight-bedroomed mansion in lower Manhattan twenty minutes later.“This is your stop,” Karai said. “See you tomorrow.”
“Night, everyone,” Leo said as he got out with his bag. “Thanks a mil.”“Thanks,” Raphael said, picking up his bag and jumping out. “I can never repay you enough for your kindness. I’m immensely grateful.”
“No problem,” Mona said. “See you in the morning. Night.”“Night,” Slash said and started the engine.Leo watched his pals drive away and then he and Raphael entered his place.XXXXLeo hit the lights and said, “Make yourself at home, Raphael. You’re welcome to stay here for as long as you like.”Raphael’s green eyes widened in awe as he took in the ornately decorated and humongous house. He’d never been in anything so massive and opulent. How had Leo acquired this place? Probably from his wife’s family, Raphael thought. Because there is no way he could have bought this place with his cop salary.“Nice place,” Raphael said as he placed his bag on the floor.
“It’s all right,” Leo said with a shrug and put down his bag.
“All right? Are you kidding me? It’s amazing. I bet the furniture alone cost like half a million. Wow. And the art on the walls? Easily a few billion. I’m impressed.”
“It’s a house, not a home. Do you know the difference? A home has love in it. This house has spite, vindictiveness and has been like a prison. Are you hungry?”
“What do you have in mind?”
“Follow me. We can sort your room out later,” Leo said and headed to the kitchen.Raphael followed him and thought, I think this is my forever home. I love it. I’ll make it a home full of love for Leo.XXXXRaphael gawked at the large open plan kitchen, which had just about every modern appliance available, including a portable ceramic pizza oven.His parents’ place only had three bedrooms and the only luxury items were a fridge, stove, washing machine and a tumble dryer. The kitchen was the size of his parents’ master bedroom. It was mind-blowing how wealthy Leo and his wife were, but it proved that money didn’t buy you everything, because Leo was bitterly unhappy.Leo rummaged in his fridge freezer and withdrew two frozen pizzas. One was pepperoni and mushroom and the other was ham and pineapple. He had a problem, because that was all he had and Raphael was a vegetarian. Damn it. He’d go shopping the next day.“What do you have?” Raphael asked as he sat at the kitchen table.
“Pizza, Raphael. It’s meat. I know you’re a vegetarian, but it’s all I have to eat. I’ll go shopping tomorrow.”
“It’s fine. I’ll try it. Do you have anything to drink?”
“Only green tea. I’m sorry. I don’t shop much.”
“That’ll do. Hey. How big is your place?”
Leo put the pizzas in the convection oven and said, “Eight bedrooms. It was a wedding gift from Donnie and is in both of our names, so I imagine our divorce will be acrimonious. She’ll probably also want the homes in Rome and Colorado. I don’t give a shit about them. I want this place, because it’s not far from Donnie.”
“You really are gonna get a divorce?”
“Yes. I know you don’t want me, but I can’t stay with her anymore. I have to get out or I could go the same way as your friend. I’m dying inside, Raphael. Every day is a struggle to get up and to go to a job I never wanted. My parents wanted me to be a cop, because my dad was, his dad was, his dad was and so on. I did it, because I didn’t want to disappoint them. Donnie was supposed to be a cop, but he rebelled and did what he wanted, so I’m supposed to suck it up and to fulfil their expectations. Boy, do they have them. They want grandkids and a pretty and rich daughter-in-law. They don’t care about me or my feelings. Only their expectations and feelings matter.”
“Well, I'm not a chick. I won't wear makeup and I’ll probably never be wealthy,” Raphael quipped. “But I can give them grandkids. Are you really divorcing your wife? I'm just checking I heard it right that you are."
“Of course I am. I can’t live a lie anymore. I have to move on. What are you saying?”
“I can give your parents grandkids if you want me back, Leo. I thought about you. I realized you loved me and that I was being too hard on you. I should have understood more. I wanna be with you and to experience life with you, but we have to set some ground rules.”
“Really?” Leo asked joyously, his blue eyes lighting up. “Of course I want you. You’re the best thing that ever happened to me and you’re all I want.”
“Okay then. Leo, I want you to tell everyone you know we’re together. I don’t want us to have to sneak around and I always want complete honesty between us. I mean it. There isn't a relationship with no trust. Do you understand? I can’t be in a relationship with secrets. I wanna get married. I don’t want to be something you enjoy, but can’t commit to. It doesn't have to be a huge wedding. It just has to be meaningful and beautiful. I want a family. I wanna see life through your eyes and to be your strength and happiness, so you're never sad again. I wanna love you for the rest of my days, but you have to pull your weight too. I don’t want a relationship that’s one-sided.”
Leo grabbed Raphael’s hand, kissed it and said, “I want all of that too. I'll make it happen and I promise to always be open and honest with you. I’ll visit a divorce lawyer tomorrow and start proceedings. I love you, Raph.”Raphael stood and his eyes shone with happy tears as he approached Leo.“I love you too, Leo,” Raphael said as he wrapped his arms around Leo’s waist. “I can’t wait until the divorce is finalized and we can tie the knot. I promise I'll always do my best to make you happy."He and Leo passionately kissed; unaware someone was watching.“Divorce?” a shrill feminine voice said, making them break the kiss and glance up. “Don’t make me laugh. You’ll back out of it like you did with Paul, because you have no backbone, Leo. You never did and you won’t now! This person will just be another one of your notches on the bedpost and another stray you brought home. Now used and worthless trash like all the rest!”