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Life had been over all good, Yamaguchi Tadashi grew up a carefree kid with parents who loved and supported him in all that he wanted to do. During middle school Yamaguchi was bullied a short time but he never looked back on it as something be wished didn’t happen because it was the cause of him meeting Tsukishima Kei.Tsukishima Kei was a loner, the fact that he was way taller than those his age intimidated some but what kept most away was his salty personality. This never bothered Tsukishima though, he rather liked the peace and quiet and the freedom to come and go not having to deal with troublesome people.However tall and salty Tsukishima was didn’t bother Yamaguchi at all, the day Tsukishima unintentionally stopped his bullies he decided he wanted to be friends with him. That’s how it was too, Yamaguchi and Tsukishima became best friends and it continued to be the two of them against all others until their first year at Karasuno.At first it seemed as though nothing had changed but slowly they became bonded with the schools Volleyball team. Becoming friends with various people on the team made Yamaguchi care about all of his team but he cared differently for Tsukishima, Yamaguchi realized that he was in love with his best friend.Once he realized this all he could do was hide those feelings, after all what normal boy is happy to hear his boy best friend is in love with them? Everything was going perfectly until one day after school during their 2nd year Tsukishima got a confession from a cute girl in Yamaguchi’s class.Of course the confession took place outside the gym and while Yamaguchi was inside suppose to be practicing his serve. Before even realizing it Yamaguchi had tip toed over and was ease dropping despite the fact he knew he shouldn’t.Tsukishima didn’t just flat out reject the girl, he told her he was already so in love with someone else he couldn’t even give a thought to be with any one else. Yamaguchi felt like his world had just shattered, he knew his chances of being with first love were non-existent but he had no idea Tsukishima was in love with someone else.The idea of Tsukishima being with someone else was too much for Yamaguchi to process so he distanced himself from his best friend. And he did, he successfully avoided Tsukishima all of the break before entering their 3rd year.After being apart the whole break you could say the relationship between Yamaguchi and Tsukishima was awkward but as time went by things started to get back to normal. They were anyway until one afternoon Yamaguchi was having lunch with a teammate, Hinata Shouyou, who he had gotten fairly close to over the last 2 ½ years.Hinata was complaining about how the girl he liked in his class was always going on and on about Kageyama, another teammate of theirs. Hinata hated that all the girls liked Kageyama because he was tall and stoic looking and Hinata was still small and boyish looking despite being in his 3rd year.Hinata asked Yamaguchi if he ever has to deal with this and without a thought he answered honestly and said he wasn’t interested in girls, Hinata seemed fine with his answer. What they didn’t know was that there were some 3rd year basketball players that overheard them.3rd year Yamaguchi Tadashi of the volleyball club is gay was the talk of the whole school the next day and at first Yamaguchi was worried his teammates and maybe even Tsukishima would begin to avoid him but they all welcomed him with open arms. However his teammates seemed to be the only ones at school who accepted him, it was like traveling back in time dealing with bullies.The bullies were worse than when he was younger but he didn’t have to suffer through any of it for long or alone like before. This time around he had his teammates and more importantly Tsukishima to help him keep standing and not let the bullies win in tearing him down.Towards the end of the year things were mostly back to normal, his teammates had helped him stand up enough that the bullies eventually got bored when there was little to no reaction from him. Yamaguchi was also pretty sure Tsukishima and a few of his other teammates fought some of them off, often noticing their bruised knuckles but no one ever said anything.It was then that Yamaguchi received his first confession, it was a first year boy, he was shorter than himself with medium length light brown hair that seemed to stick up in every direction. The boy was shy and blushed to his ears looking down while he confessed, no matter how you looked at him he was adorable.Since word got around Tsukishima accepted that he was gay sure but he didn’t act interested and why would he, Tsukishima was straight. So ultimately realizing he had no chance to be with his first love Yamaguchi accepted the confession, maybe he could learn to love this boy.Yamaguchi had taken his relationship very seriously and spent every chance he had with his boyfriend, they never made it passed holding hands but the relationship itself only lasted a few weeks. Getting dumped didn’t upset him, apparently the now ex used him to see if he could make his straight friend jealous and succeeded, he was surprised that his now ex he told to confess his own feelings too before it was too late.Not needing to rush off to see his now ex off Yamaguchi went straight to practice, making it there before anyone else giving him some time to think, had he really been that transparent with his feelings? Everyone was shocked when they showed up and saw that Yamaguchi was already changed and doing warm up stretches, he explained that he had been dumped and the reason behind it all.This angered the team but no one more than Tsukishima, letting his emotions run free, threatening the boy as he punched the wall only to then pull Yamaguchi into a hug confessing that he would never hurt Yamaguchi if he were his. Realizing what he had said Tsukishima pulled away visibly flustered looking at the ground as everyone else silently cleared the gym to give them a few moments alone.Minutes passed and Yamaguchi could no longer handle the deafening silence, walking up to Tsukishima saying that he didn’t care about the boy because he was just as guilty using the boy to try and move on from his first love. Tsukishima gave him a puzzled look and that’s when Yamaguchi snapped and yelled out “I love you Kei!” as he flung himself into the other pulling him down by the shirt and crashing their lips together.Things went smoothly for them after that, their parents, siblings and teammates all accepting them which was all that really mattered to them.They graduated and moved on to the next steps in their lives, Tadashi took a job at his grandparents flower shop and Kei went on to college. They stuck together and eventually made a life together, Kei graduated early and got a job at a museum and Tadashi inherited the flower shop when his grandmother died.
Their life together had been good until now.Current day, 4AM Monday morning Tadashi carefully set down his bags at the front and then made his way back to the bedroom, he placed a note under Kei’s glasses on the night stand and slowly crept out of the room. On his way back to the front door he grabbed a few more things, one being Kei’s favorite hoody from the chair in his office and then half of their framed photos before walking out the door for the last time at 4:30AM.When Kei woke later that morning he didn’t find it alarming that he was alone in bed, Tadashi has been getting up before him for the last couple weeks. What he does find out of the ordinary is a small folded paper under his glasses on the night stand.Kei,
I just can’t please forgive me.
I love you and always will but don’t look for me.
Promise you will continue to live well.
I’m sorry.
Tadashi.Hoping it’s some kind of sick joke Kei bolts up out of bed and runs through their apartment, Tadashi is nowhere in sight and he’s noticed some of their things are missing. Quickly returning to the bedroom he grabs his phone and dials Tadashi’s number but is greeted with a voice message saying that the phone has been turned off. Unable to process what’s happened Kei drops the phone and sinks down to the floor.
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“Hello?”“Nii-chan..” Kei manages to force this response easily enough, still sounding like his usual monotone self.“Good morning Kei. You never call this early, not that I’m complaining. What’s up?”Silence.“Kei you still there?”Silence once more, Kei’s mind is completely blank at this point.“Is something wrong?”This question breaks the spell and Kei cries out loudly finally letting the tears fall. Of course something is wrong! Tadashi left me! He’s gone, I have no idea why he left or where he’s gone to! He’s just gone! He mentally yells these thoughts but the only things capable of coming out of his mouth are sobs as he drops his phone.“Kei?! Kei you’re home right? I’m on my way! Just stay there, I’ll be there as soon as I can.”Akiteru hangs up but Kei is such a mess that he’s already forgotten he called his brother. He’s scrunched himself into a small ball, burying his face in his knees hoping that this is all just a bad dream and when he wakes up Tadashi will be making breakfast in the kitchen like always.Half hour later and the doorbell goes off but Kei doesn’t seem to register the sound, still curled into himself on the floor clutching Tadashi’s note. The door clicks open and he can suddenly hear footsteps outside the door. Immediately thinking Tadashi must have come back he jumps to his feet, after all there’s no way his Tadashi would leave like this.“Kei?! This is where you were!”It’s not Tadashi, he really left me. Kei crumbles back down to the floor at the sight of his brother enter his bedroom.“Kei!” Akiteru rushes to his little brother’s side. “What happened? Are you ill? Where’s Tadashi?”Not wanting to directly look up at his big brother and not trusting his voice Kei pushes the note out for Akiteru. I must look so pathetic right now. Kei can hear the note being carefully unfolded and squeezes his eyes shut as a gasp escapes the others mouth.Arms suddenly fling around him and even though he hates showing others his weak side Kei can’t help but lean into his big Brothers touch and cry some more.“Kei what do you need right now, what can I do for you?”Kei thinks, “Work. I.. not today please.. call them.” He manages to force out the words.Akiteru nods and rubs Kei’s back lightly. “What should I tell them?”“Th-the truth, they.. they all know.” Kei coughs to clear his throat, pulling out of his big Brothers embrace he slides himself up onto the bed and turns away to hide himself. “I’ll be taking the week off, they can reach me by email if needed.” His words flow much more smoothly now that he’s calmed down a little.“I’ll be right back then, I’m just going to step out into the kitchen to make some calls, your work, my work and home. I won’t tell Mom till you’re ready though, do you need anything else while I’m out?”“Asprin.. please, and Nii-Chan?”“Yes?”“Tell Mom.. just don’t.. want her here today, I’ll visit her soon.”“As long as you’re sure.”Reaching the kitchen Akiteru sighs as he runs his fingers through his hair. This was definitely the last thing he was suspecting when getting the call from Kei. Looking at the time he decides to call his own work first seeing as he needed to be in sooner than Kei did.“ Good morning this is Tsukishima Akiteru… yes… no I’m calling because I won’t be able to make it in today, maybe not the next few days… yes, there’s been a family emergency… thank you, goodbye.”Hanging up he looks through his contacts for the museums number.“Good morning this is Tsukishima Akiteru, Tsukishima Kei’s older brother.”“What a surprise Tsukishima-San, you might not remember me but I’m Ennoshita Chikara, I was one year your brothers senpai in volleyball.”“Yes of course I remember you, Ennoshita-Kun, I hope you’ve been well.”“I have since your brother got me this job last year, I really owe him. Speaking of your brother he hasn’t come in yet this morning, it’s unusual for him to not be here already.”Damn Kei how early do you go in, doesn’t your day officially start around 9?! “Actually I’m calling on his behalf, he told me to say that he’ll be taking some time off, a week to be exact, and if there’s any problems he can be reached by email.”“Is he ill?”“No he’s not sick, um well he said it was okay to tell you but ah, well Tadashi left him..”“….Oh wow, that’s awful. Please tell him to take all the time he needs, I’ll keep everything in order and be in touch via email so he’s still in the loop.”“I will be here taking care of things here while he gets back on his feet but it’s a relief to know he has someone he can depend on to help with his work. Thank you Ennoshita-Kun. Please have a good rest of the day.”“You as well Tsukishima-San, goodbye.”Now here comes the difficult part, he said to tell her but will she really not barge in here? Letting out a long sigh Akiteru sits down at the table and presses the dial button.One ring.. two rings..“Good morning, Tsukishima residence.”“Hey Mom, it’s Akiteru.”“Aki shouldn’t you be on your way to work?”“I’ve called out for the next few days.”“Oh? Are you and Saeko celebrating something? Maybe you’re calling because I’m finally going to be a Gramma?”“I’m calling from Kei’s place.”“So no grandchildren then?”“Not yet sorry.”“Is everything okay over at Kei’s, if he’s sick Tadashi should be more than capable of handling it, unless they’re both sick, do you need my help? I can be there in twenty.”She sounds worried already, man this is not going to be easy. “Listen Mom, I need you to listen all the way through what I’m saying before you do anything, or I’ll hang up and you’ll know nothing.”“Oh Akiteru just say what you need, don’t be so dramatic.”“No Mom, promise right now.”There’s a serious moment of silence in the conversation.“Okay I promise, now tell me what’s going on?”“Kei called me early this morning and just started crying. He was unable to say anything at the time, I came straight away cause we all know Kei doesn’t cry for no reason. When I got here no one answered so I let myself in, things were quiet and the place was a mess…”“Akiteru where’s Kei?” She’s worried so she’s interrupting.“I found Kei curled up on his bedroom floor and when I asked him what was wrong he handed me some crumpled paper..” Akiteru takes a deep breath. “It was a note from Tadashi, Mom he left him. From what I can see he took some stuff while Kei was asleep and left a note saying he still loved him but not to look for him.”“Akiteru this is a very bad joke, Kei and Tadashi have a wonderful relationship, very open and loving, there’s no way Tadashi would leave like that. We just had them over for dinner a few weeks ago and everything was fine between them. Now tell me what’s really going on.”“Well it happened Mom, I’m out in the kitchen right now and I can see Tadashi’s half of the dishes are gone, he has no shoes by the door and half of their photos are gone. I haven’t looked in the closet yet but I’m betting most of if not all of his things are gone from there too.”“There’s just no way! Akiteru tell me it’s some horrible sick joke you boys are all doing?”“I have to go Mom, Kei needs me. He asked me to tell you but he doesn’t want to face you today.”“Of course I’m coming right now! He’s my baby and he’s hurting!”“No Mom, I don’t think that’s a good idea, you know how Kei is about people seeing him weak, we’re lucky he even called me. He said he would see you soon, so respect that he had me call you and tell you right away because he could have waited. If you want to help him you should call Tadashi’s Mom and see if she knows where he is? Even if he doesn’t come back Kei deserves a better explanation for why he left other than he “just can’t”, whatever that means.”“Are you sure you don’t need me today?”“Yes Mom, I’m sure if you did come it would make things a lot more difficult for Kei to let his feelings out. So just make some calls please, for Kei.”“Okay Aki, I love you both, please take care of Kei. ““Always, that goes without saying. Goodbye Mom.”“Goodbye Aki.”After hanging up Akiteru let’s out a long sigh and sends a text to his wife.‘Hello dear, I called out of work for the next few days, Kei needs me. Tadashi left him only leaving a note for him to find when he woke up.’He sends a second text immediately after.‘Can you discretely ask around Ryunosuke and their friends if Tadashi has said anything to any of them? I’m not sure I’ll be home tonight, I’ll let you know later’One more message.‘I love you.’Putting the phone down Akiteru heads to the bathroom to look for the asprin, then returns to the kitchen for a glass of water. The phone dings, it’s Saeko.‘Consider it done, take care of Kei, I love you too baby.’Finally tucking through phone into his pocket Akiteru heads back to the bedroom.“Sorry Kei, you know how Mom likes to talk, but she promised not to come to..” Kei has fallen asleep hugging Tadashi’s pillow, eyes all red and swollen. Damn you Tadashi, you better have a damn good reason for putting my brother through this.Akiteru leaves the water and asprin on the bedside table and removes Kei’s glasses before peaking in the closet really quick. It’s just as he thought most of Tadashi’s things are gone. Leaving Kei had been the most difficult and painful decision that Tadashi has ever had to make. Never in his life has he cried more than while loading his things into his car.His destination was 3 ½ hours away by car or it should have been but with all the crying Tadashi had to pull over multiple times to calm down in fear of getting into an accident, making the trip take almost 4 ½ hours instead.Once arriving in the small town Tadashi went straight to the Drs. Office to check in and pick up what he needed. I made the right decision for us, even if I feel like I’m dying this won’t actually kill me, I hope. Now breathe Tadashi, you can do this, walk in there and start your new life!It’s now almost 9, taking a deep breath Tadashi pushes himself to exit his car and make his way inside the small building and to the front desk where a small blonde boy sits.“Good morning how can I help you?” The receptionist smiles brightly.“G..good morning. I’m here to meet Dr. Ryugazaki, I had some difficulties getting here so I’m a little late, I hope that’s not a problem.”The receptionists smile widens going from professional to over excited. “You must be Yamaguchi-San! Rei-Chan mentioned you might be coming in late. So have a seat and I’ll let him know you’ve made it.”“Ah, thank you.”After sitting down Tadashi let’s out a breath of relief but is only able to relax for a minute before he doors to the back open up and a relatively tall man with red rimmed glasses walks through the door.“Yamaguchi Tadashi?”He must be Dr. Ryugazaki. Tadashi stands, making eye contact.“Yes that’s me.”“Of course that’s him Rei-Chan, you cleared your whole day for him and no one else is here.”“Nagisa! How many times do I have to tell you to stop referring to me as Rei-Chan while we’re in the office? It’s unprofessional.”“You’re such a stiff Rei-Chan, Yamaguchi-Kun here doesn’t mind, we’re a small office in the middle of nowhere pretty much.” The short man named Nagisa turns to Tadashi quickly. “Besides I can just tell we’re going to get along great, right Yamaguchi-Kun?”I went from San to Kun in a matter of minutes, what an interested person. The smile he gives Tadashi is almost blinding and he can’t help but give an honest smile and small laugh in return.“Y..yeah I’m sure we’ll be friends in no time, um..?”“Oh! Call me Nagisa! I’m the receptionist here but I’m also this guy’s partner!”“Nagisa! Please don’t just blab about everything like that the moment you meet someone.”Tadashi can’t help but laugh even more.“Thank you, Nagisa. I was having a rather bad morning but you somehow just managed to make me laugh even though I was sure I wouldn’t be doing that anytime soon.”Both Nagisa and Dr. Ryugazaki eyes widen at the sight of Tadashi’s genuine smile before them.“Ne Yamaguchi-Kun let’s exchange numbers and be friends? You just moved here right, I can show you around and introduce you to people if you like.”“Sure that’d be fun.”“Alright Nagisa you can chat him up all you want after I’m done with him but I’d like to move on if you’re done.”“Of course Rei-Chan! Before I forget, will we be eating lunch together today or will you be with Yamaguchi-Kun for longer?”“Geez Nagisa! I don’t know I’ll probably be busy but I’ll message you okay so please just go answer the phones or something. I need to get back to work.”Nagisa stands on his tip toes and kisses his partner on the cheek. “Right away sir!” He winks and then skips back to sit at his desk, leaving behind a blushing man.
They’re so cute.
The man now turning and smiling. “I am so sorry about all of that, you’re new so he’s extra excited, he’s not usually that bad. Anyway it’s a pleasure to meet you, come on back and we’ll chat in the exam room.”
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Walking down the hall to the exam room Tadashi feels like he’s going to be sick but almost instantly relaxes when the door is opened for him. The room is larger than he expected, the walls are a relaxing pale blue and over all the room gives off a spacious homey kind of feel. “We’re not a very big office but I take precedence in making our patients as comfortable as possible. Please have a seat anywhere and we’ll begin.” Tadashi nods and hums in agreement as he sits down in a comfortable arm chair next to where Dr. R is seated. “I’d like to formally welcome you, I’m Ryugazaki Rei, as you now know I also have a male partner, he’s a bit much sometimes but I still love him dearly. I wouldn’t normally state that to a patient the first time meeting them but I’d just like you to know that no one here will ever judge you for your sexuality.”“Thank you very much.” Dr. Ryugazaki smiles softly and nods his head in return.“Right into business then. Dr. Nakamura has filled me in on some of your unique situation, from what I understand is that things didn’t work out with your partner so you’ll be doing this alone and that’s why you opted to move so far suddenly?” “I..um, Kei and I were childhood friends since middle school and finally became lovers our 3rd year of high school. Kei went on to college and then got a job at a museum and I eventually took over my grandparents flower shop. Our family and friends accepted us easily and we’ve always been really honest and open with each other. So things have always been good for us.” Come on Tadashi get yourself together. Dr. Ryugazaki hands Tadashi the box of tissues as he starts to sniffle. “Take your time.” Tadashi nods. “One thing Kei always said was he was glad he ended up gay because he didn’t have to worry about having children. Even as a child himself he didn’t like other children, he’s always been stubborn like that. So when I found out that I, even though I’m a male, was pregnant I knew I had to choose between Kei and this baby...” Tears are steadily flowing down his cheeks but Tadashi knows it’s best to get it all out in the open now to help him feel better and hopefully avoid misunderstandings in the future.“I love Kei more than I’ve ever loved some one but this baby is ours, part Kei and part me, this baby is a miracle that shouldn’t have been possible but happened, this baby even though Kei doesn’t like children was made because Kei and I love each other. So I just couldn’t abort this baby even though it meant I couldn’t be with Kei any more.” Dr. Ryugazaki moved over to sit next to Tadashi and began rubbing small circles on his upper back to try and comfort him.“That must have been a very tough decision to make but you made it yourself so I won’t press anymore.” Tadashi can only slightly nod his head in response, his words have left him and suddenly he feels the urge to throw up once again. Only this time it’s not only a feeling, he really is about to throw up. Standing up and look around frantically Dr. Ryugazaki realizes what is going on and quickly pulls the trash can over and continues to rub Tadashi’s upper back as he dry heaves into the trash can. “Has the morning sickness been a problem you’ve been dealing with or is this just because of today’s events?” Tadashi coughs and accepts the tissues being held out to him so he can wipe his mouth of any spit or whatever left on his face. “Since the be..beginning, it has been getting worse though.” Tadashi sinks back down into his chair feeling both relief that it’s over and soreness in his upper chest from how often this has happened to him. Dr. Ryugazaki takes a few notes down on his clip board and types some things into his computer. “Would you like something to help you not feel so nauseous?” “Will it hurt the baby?”“Not at all, morning sickness and nausea are very common in pregnancy so there are multiple different medicines that are safe for you and baby. In most cases the sickness goes away completely or subsides a little when you enter the second trimester.” “Second trimester?” “Did Dr. Nakamura not explain any of this to you yet?”“He might have but honestly I’ve been too shocked to really listen. I just know he recommended you for privacy reasons and he said you were an expert in these kinds of things.” “I wouldn’t say expert but I was always interested in these unique kinds of cases when I was a student. You are my first male pregnancy patient so I won’t lie I am very excited to take a look inside you.” “L..loo..look insi..ide me?” “Ultrasound wise of course, I can’t risk just cutting you open and hurting you or your baby, I’m not that type of person.” Dr. Ryugazaki smiles genuinely. “Yamaguchi-San..” “Oh um just Yamaguchi is fine.” “Very well then, Yamaguchi, do you mind if I give you a look over and run some tests to see where we are in this whole pregnancy? I know my previous colleague Dr. Nakamura wasn’t really equipped for this but my office has everything here that I will need.” “What kind of tests? They won’t hurt the baby?” “Routine physical since this is my first time seeing you as a patient and then routine pregnancy tests. Just know that I will never subject you to any type of tests that would do harm to you or your baby.” “O..okay then. What’s first?” “Great!” Dr. Ryugazaki stands up going over to the cupboard and returns with a hospital gown. “I’ll step out so if you would strip down completely and put that on I will be back in a few minutes.” A quick nod from Tadashi and Dr. Ryugazaki is gone from the room. Stepping out from his clothes and into the gown Tadashi sits up on the exam table, absent mindedly rubbing his lower abdomen waiting. This is really happening, I wonder if I’ll be able to see you soon little one. A few more minutes pass by and there’s a knock on the door. “Yamaguchi are you all set?” “Yes I’m ready.” Dr. Ryugazaki re-enters the room with a smile that screams how excited he is but also that he will stay professional. “Very good. First I’ll start off with basic vitals; temperature, heart rate, blood pressure, O2 levels, height and weight, I’ll listen to your lungs and give the outside of your body a quick once over. Are you aware if you are up to date on your vaccines?” “Yes I’m up to date.” “Very good, I’m going to stick this on your finger to check your heart rate and O2 level while I check your temperature.” Tadashi nods while holding out his right hand. “Alright 37 C°, 97% O2 and 68 BPM all good. Next I’ll check your blood pressure.” Tadashi holds him arm out and let’s Dr. Ryugazaki wrap his upper arm with the cuff and slightly winces as it tightens on his arm. “117 over 78 very good. If you would please stand up and join me over there I’d like to get an accurate height and weight.” “Sure thing” “181.1 CM and what’s your usual weight do you know?”“69.5 KG.” “Seems the morning sickness has taken in toll on you, you’re currently 64 KG, but don’t worry I’ll give you a prescription for something before you leave that should help you right a way.” Dr. Ryugazaki smiles seeming proud of the check up so far. Sitting back on the exam table Tadashi feels relieved that things are going well so far. Dr. Ryugazaki checks his eyes, ears and throat and everything checks out.“I’m going to lower the top half of the gown to listen to your lungs more clearly and examine your chest and abdomen now.”Nodding Tadashi allows Dr. Ryugazaki to unbutton the back of the gown and slip the top down so it pools around his waist. “Breathe in nice and deep for me.. and again.. and again..” he’s moving the stethoscope around on Tadashi’s back. “You have nice strong sounding lungs.” Dr. Ryugazaki moves to set his tools down on the counter and grabs a small sheet blanket. “If you would please drape this over your lower half and lay back so I can examine your chest and abdomen.” Tadashi does as he’s asked, feeling slightly awkward now. “Okay I’m just going to press around now and see how things feel, don’t worry I won’t press hard enough to hurt anything, I’m just looking to see if I can tell what’s what so I have a better idea of where to look later on with ultrasounds.”Tadashi tenses under the first touch over his chest. Dr. Ryugazaki’s fingers dance over the top of his pectoral muscles, slightly gripping and pushing up underneath and then around his areolas. “Hm well these seem to be normal, I don’t feel any swollen or enlarged glands like I would if you had female breasts. So I guess the likely-ness of you producing milk is very little if at all but it might be too early to tell.” Tadashi mentally sighs with relief, although he’s accepted he’s having a baby even though he’s a male he doesn’t want to think of himself in a position where he would need to wear a bra. Dr. Ryugazaki gives Tadashi a gentle smile and he moves downwards, his hands are pushing more firmly around his abdomen. “I can feel your abdominal muscles quiet well like I expected to since you are fit but I’m pretty sure I am also feeling what should be your uterus right here below your belly button. It’s nice and firm and a good size, we should be able to do an ultrasound today and see baby if you’d like?” “Really? I’ll be able to see?” “After the exam is done on the outside I’ll need to do an ultrasound to check organ placement and so on inside but your uterus feels larger than I expected it to so that tells me we’ll most likely be able to see the fetus.”
I’ll get to see our baby!
“This next part may be the most awkward part but I need to check your gentiles and the anus opening. So I’ll need you to scoot your bottom down towards the edge of the bed and..” He pauses and pulls out the stirrups “place your feet in here.” Doing as he’s told Tadashi slides himself down the table and lefts his legs placing his feet in the stirrups. “Great..” Dr. Ryugazaki says as he’s slipping on some things white gloves. “Now just let your knees fall to the sides.. perfect. All I’ll be doing is checking to see if there are any abnormalities, I won’t be pushing anything up inside you this time so try and relax.”
This time? What the hell does he mean by this time?
Tadashi squirms as he feels the sheet being lifted out of the way. “Well appearance wise you look like a normal male..” Tadashi feels hands on him now, lifting his shaft and moving it side to side and then up out of the way. The hands move onto his balls next, cupping them and then searching the sac to give each testicle a little squeeze. The hands move lower and spread his cheeks apart, he flinches again when he feels the cold air touch his entrance. Then everything is over, the sheet is being pulled down and an unloved hand is reached out to help him sit up. “As far as looks you look completely normal, if I wasn’t specifically looking for something different I might not have noticed. Your size in shaft is normal, your scrotum size is normal, your anus is also normal from the outside. What I did notice is your testicles themselves are very under developed. It’s odd, you seem to have gone through puberty normally, have you had any other problems, hormonal wise or functioning wise?” “What do you mean?” “Do you often become emotionally unstable, are you able to become erect and ejaculate easily?” Not trusting his words because of the serious blush on his face Tadashi nods. “I’d like the run some blood and a urine test to check hormone levels.” “That’s fine.” Walking to the cupboard where he pulled out the sheet blanket Dr. Ryugazaki pulls out the things he needs to draw the blood for testing. “I’ll draw blood now but the urine sample will have to wait until after the ultrasound because it’s best done with a full bladder.” Tadashi nods once again and holds out his left arm to be prepped for the testing. The upper arm is tied off and Tadashi feels the cold of the alcohol wipe against his flesh and then without warning there’s a small almost not noticeable prick of the needle entering his arm.Dr. Ryugazaki takes 4 viles of blood and it’s over before Tadashi even has time to freak out about it. “Now the fun part. If you’d be so kind as to pull the gown back up and sit here in this wheelchair I can wheel you down the hall to where I keep the ultrasound machines.” Dr. Ryugazaki smiles brightly and Tadashi can’t help but feel butterflies in his stomach as he’s being wheeled down the hall. He’s going to get to see his baby, hopefully. Once in the room Dr. Ryugazaki instructs him to lay back cover his lower half with the sheet blanket and lift the hospital gown up over his abdomen. “The gel will be cold, I wasn’t planning on doing an ultrasound today so I didn’t warm any gel before hand but your uterus is telling me everything will be fine.” He squires the cold gel onto Tadashi. “I have to check out other things first but when I get to actually checking out inside your uterus I will let you know.” “Okay.”The room is silent as the wand glides easily around Tadashi’s abdomen, he’s watching intensely but nothing seems to make sense to him.“Interesting, very interesting indeed.” “Um, i..is everything okay?” “Oh yes my apologies, being a Dr. I’ve done a decent amount of ultrasounds for various reasons but I’ve never seen anything like this.” Tadashi looks from the screen over to Dr. Ryugazaki and sees the bright smile of fascination on his face and can’t help but laugh a little.“These right here..” Dr. Ryugazaki points to the screen “and here are your kidneys, your bladder and lower intestines, everything looks normal but then here over to the left in the back you have something extra, I can tell just from looking that it’s an ovary, it seems you only have one where women usually have two and your one is very under developed. It’s amazing you were able to ovulate at all.”
Even if you tell me what everything is it just looks like blobs to me.
“Now here is where you’ll want to pay attention. If I follow the tube from the ovary it should lead me to the uterus.. and ah here it is right where I’d expect it to be. Oh and such a nice size, nice healthy thick lining, looks very nice for baby…” there’s a few seconds of silence but it feels like forever to Tadashi as he searches the screen trying to pinpoint his baby.“Ah! Speaking of baby here’s the little fetus now. Here let me zoom and get some measurements to tell you how far along you are. Would you like me to take pictures to print?” Tadashi is speechless, tears threatening to spill from his eyes. I can’t believe it’s really happening, that’s our baby, mine and Kei’s. “Yamaguchi?” Dr. Ryugazaki taps on his shoulder gently. “Would you like some printed copies?” He hands Tadashi a few tissues “Y..yes p..please” He may be full out crying again but these tears are happy tears and Dr. Ryugazaki can’t help but feel great full to be apart of this moment himself. “I’ll take the measurements and then take some nice screen shots for you to have then. You might feel a little uncomfortable as I apply more pressure to get different angles for the measurements but that’s normal.” After a few minutes go by Tadashi begins to squirm realizing how badly he needs to pee now.“Baby looks to be about 10 weeks and 4 days along and very healthy with a heart rate of 186BPM, congratulations. Only a few more moments and then you can empty your bladder and we’ll head back to the exam room.” Tadashi nods and then his eyes go wide. Did he just see what he thinks he saw? Did baby just wave? As if reading his mind Dr. Ryugazaki speaks up. “Oh looks like baby wanted to say hello to you, that’s cute. Pretty soon you should be able to feel little movements, flutters of baby brushing against the inside walls. Okay and I’m done,” Dr. Ryugazaki hands him some tissues. “These are for the mess and here’s a sample cup to use when you relieve yourself. The bathroom is right through that door, I’ll have your things ready for when you come out.” After relieving himself and sitting back down into the wheelchair Dr. Ryugazaki hands him a manila envelope which Tadashi clutches the whole trip back to the exam room.“There’s multiple copies of photos in there and also a movie disc that I started recording once I got to viewing your uterus. So you can go back and watch baby wiggling around when ever you would like to.” “Thank you very much for everything.” “I’ll step out now so you can get dressed and then we can discuss things further. I’ll be back in a few moments"
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Akiteru tidied up his brothers home as best he could then decided to make lunch for when Kei woke up. There’s no way he had breakfast this morning and he probably won’t feel up to eating when he gets up but he needs to even if I have to force feed him. The phone dings and it’s a message from Saeko.‘I asked Ryu and got Sugawara’s number figured he’d know best but he said that Tadashi for sure hasn’t said anything to any of them.’Another message.‘I’m sorry babe I have to head out now keep me updated. I love you.’He replies.‘Thank you. I love you too.’Sighing with defeat Akiteru goes into the kitchen and decides to make a simple omurice, looking into the fridge and cabinets he sees that everything is stocked up nicely. Tadashi must have went shopping before he left and made sure Kei had all his favorites. The thought makes Akiteru frown. Just why did you leave Tadashi when you clearly still care about Kei. Loading up a bed tray with the omurice, fresh cut strawberries, a black coffee and a small glass of orange juice Akiteru heads into his brothers bedroom to wake him up.“Kei it’s almost noon now you should really wake up.” Akiteru places the tray on the bed side table and gently shakes Kei pulling the covers away from his face causing Kei to stir awake.“Nii-Chan?”“Hello sleepy head, I made phone calls and brought back your asprin but you were asleep so I let you sleep for a while, though a while turned into like 5 hours. I picked up for you and made you a light lunch, asprin is still on the bed side table if you need it.”“So he’s really gone, Tadashi?”“It looks like it, I can’t picture him pranking you like this and the majority of his things are gone.”Kei reaches over to the bed side table putting his glasses back on and taking the asprin with some juice. “I hate to pry but did you two have a fight or something?”“Honestly I can’t think of any reason why he would leave, things have been as great as always between us and… he’s been getting sick the last month or so. I told him to go to the Drs. because I thought maybe it was a virus but what if it was something serious after all?”
Kei’s starting to panic, I have no clue how to console him though, what kind of big brother am I?
“That’s does sound like Tadashi, leaving so he doesn’t burden you, but he would have had to tell someone. He’ll be found, Mom, Saeko and myself we’ll all help you find him. He still loves you, not only did he say so in his note but he stocked all of your favorites food wise and also took half of your photos of the two of you with him before he left.”Akiteru grabs the bed tray and places it in front of his brother. “Please eat some food Kei and then we can come up with some type of plan to look for Tadashi, okay?”Kei gives Akiteru a displeased look.“I’m not saying you have..” Akiteru’s phone starts to ring. Pulling the phone from his pocket he sighs.“It’s Mom. I’m going to take this out in the kitchen but you should eat something. You don’t have to eat everything but imagine what Tadashi would say if he knew you were refusing to eat the strawberries he picked put and bought for you?” I’m sorry Kei I know that was low of me but I’ll do anything to get some of the color back in your face. Standing up and walking to the door he answers the phone. “Hey Mom how are things going?” He closes the door and goes to sit down on the couch in the living room.“Aki dear how is Kei?”“Not so great, I found him asleep hugging Tadashi’s pillow when I got off the phone with you. I let him sleep and picked up for him. I just made lunch and brought it in to him so he’s hopefully eating. Did you find anything out?”“I did and didn’t. Natsuki-San wasn’t aware of any problems between Kei and Tadashi. She did say that Tadashi called his cousin’s wife and asked if she would be willing to look over the shop for a while because he wanted to take a vacation. She tried calling him about it this morning to ask for how long but the number has been disconnected.”
Damn you Tadashi, you didn’t even tell your own mother you were running away from something? Just what is going on with you.
“I asked Saeko to talk to her brother discretely since they were in volleyball together and have been in touch still. She got Sugawara’s number and called to ask him because if any of the friends knew something he would be the one to know but according to him Tadashi didn’t say anything about anything going on to any of them.”“So what are we going to do Aki? We can’t just leave things as is, what about Kei?”“I don’t know Mom, I called out for the next few days and Kei had me call his work to take the week off for him, thankfully everyone he works with knows and is supportive so they said take all the time he needs but I’m not sure I can take more than 2 or 3 days tops off.”“It’s okay, you brothers bond and Mom here will come take over when needed. I’ll make Kei’s favorite for dinner for the two of you and bring it over, and before you say anything I won’t go inside. I’ll call you before I leave and you can expect me afterwards.”“Thanks Mom. I’m going to go check on Kei and see if he’s eaten anything. Call me later before you come.”“I love you both very much Aki.”“We love you too Mom, goodbye.”
Just what am I going to tell Kei now? He probably already knows about the phone being off but Tadashi even has someone else taking over the flower shop for him.
“Sorry Mom really likes to talk, she’s going to make us dinner and bring it over but she promised she won’t come in.” Walking back into Kei’s bedroom Akiteru see that Kei has eaten only a few bites of the omurice but has eaten all of the strawberries. Guess I was right to put more strawberries than there was omurice on the tray. He laughs in his head and smiles because Kei has eaten at least something.“What else did she have to say?”“I.. well I asked her to call Natsuki-San and ask questions, to help you rather than her rushing here and smother your till you’re beyond annoyed.”“And I suppose she was calling back just now to tell you what she found out and the fact that you’ve said nothing yet means it wasn’t good.”“No I’m afraid not. It seems Tadashi called his cousin’s wife and asked her if she would watch the flower shop for him while he went on vacation. She called him back this morning to see how long he would be gone and his phone was turned off. Seems he didn’t mention going away to anyone.”“What else? I know you’re not telling me something.”Damn it. Akiteru sighs and runs his fingers through his hair, why does his brother have to be so observant? “Saeko called Sugawara this morning for me and he said Tadashi for sure hasn’t mentioned anything to any of them.”That news seemed to hit Kei harder than Tadashi not telling his parents.“So Tadashi didn’t even tell Sugawara huh.”Kei leans back and slams his fist down into the mattress. “How the hell am I suppose to find him then if no one knows anything?! I need him Nii-Chan, burden or not I can’t be me without him! I..”Kei has broken down again, tears streaming down his face. Tadashi where are you? I’ll do anything to get you to come back to me so please just reach out to me once more. I need you, I love you. “I can’t be me without you Tadashi.” Knock knock.. “All set Yamaguchi?”“Yes you can come in.”“Very good, we’re almost done. It’ll be a little while longer though I was so distracted when you first came in I forgot to have you fill out this sheet questionnaire, if you could fill this out we can talk about your living arrangements at the same time to make things go quicker?”“No problem.” Tadashi takes the sheet and it’s simple yes or no questions about his medical history which should be easy enough to fill out while talking.“Since you’ve moved here specifically to be treated by me and your situation being what it is I have a small house you are free to live in for as long as you’d like. Of course while you are unable to work I will be covering your expenses. Before you say anything I won’t be paying for them out of pocket but with a grant I’ve received for studying your case and reporting back on how things are going. It’s not every day something like this happens so when it does the medical field is very interested and will do just about anything to get their hands on information.”This makes Tadashi slightly uncomfortable, having others pay for his way of life.“I.. I have a savings I’m able to use for a while.”“That’s good because the grant won’t cover everything. I’ll be in charge of the housing costs which won’t be much cause I do actually own the house I just don’t use it. I’ll also be in charge of covering food expenses and making sure you have everything needed to keep a healthy diet. You’ll get a 5,000 yen allowance a week to put towards extra things like phone bill, internet, clothes as you get larger and baby items you may need or want but that’s not much compared to what babies need.”Tadashi has finished filling in the questionnaire and hands it back to Dr. Ryugazaki.“Thank you.” He turns to file it away in a folded named Yamaguchi T.“I calculated your due date based off how far along the ultrasound dated you as. October 12th but you can go sooner than that, I’m not sure how long your body will be able to carry the pregnancy but I’m prepared to perform a caesarean as soon as you needed so no need to worry.”
Caesarean? That’s right, I can’t carry this baby forever, eventually baby will have to be born and of course I can’t push it out because I’m not a female I don’t have the right parts for that. But October 12th, how lucky, baby will be born in between both our birthdays Kei.
“Alright shall we get going? We can grab some lunch and then I’ll show you to the house you’ll be staying in?”Tadashi nods. “Okay good I’m actually really hungry.”“We’ll stop at the pharmacy too so you can pick up your prescription I already had Nagisa call it in along with some vitamins so they should be ready to be picked up. Also any medication pregnancy related will be covered by the grant so you don’t need to worry about that.”Dr. Ryugazaki starts walking out but stops just shy of the door and turns abruptly. “This is extremely unprofessional of me to ask but do you mind if Nagisa comes with us to lunch?”“I don’t mind at all, he’s funny.”Dr. Ryugazaki laughs lightly. “He is, that’s one of the many reasons I fell in love with him. If you do take him up on his offer to show you around know that anyone he introduces you to will accept you fully, he has the next two days off just incase you do need help so it won’t incontinence anyone.”“Thank you very much, we’ve only just met and you’ve done so much for me already. I have no idea how I can thank you.”“No need to thank me, I’m very pleased you decided to come here and let me be witness to this incredible journey you’re going on.” Dr. Ryugazaki smiles genuinely and slips his white coat off.“Let’s head out shall we? I’m almost betting Nagisa is getting antsy waiting for me to see if we’ll be having lunch together or not. It’s something he forces into my schedule everyday so we don’t miss out on each other, even though we’re together most of the day.”As soon as they reach the front reception area the blond bounces out from around the desk.“Rei-Chan! Yamaguchi-Kun! Are you two finally done?”“Yes Nagisa, well I’ve got to show Yamaguchi where the pharmacy is and where the house is but we figured we’d grab lunch at the same time so would you like to join us?”“Seriously no joke? I want to I want to! Just let me shut down the computers and turn off the lights!”“Alright but move it along Nagisa, Yamaguchi is hungry and needs to eat.”“Oh right! Let’s go Yama-Chan we have to feed your baby! We can’t let her go hungry!”
Yama-Chan? Her??
“Nagisa don’t be so rude! I am so sorry again Yamaguchi. Maybe we should just leave him behind after all.”“No I want to go I’m sorry.”“It’s fine really, I don’t think anyone’s ever called me Yama-Chan before but I don’t mind. But he said her, were you able to tell that baby was a girl?”“No its too soon for that, generally you can’t tell till around 20 weeks.”“Call it a gut feeling if you must but I just know baby is going to be a girl!”Tadashi breaks out into laughter once again. “You’re so cute Nagisa! Like a funny little stuffed animal that I want to squeeze and cuddle till I feel all better.” A girl huh, she’d be a beautiful girl especially if she got Kei’s blond hair. Nagisa is in full on blush mode when Tadashi looks over at him as they walk out to their perspective cars.“We’ll go to lunch first, are you having any cravings or are there things you can’t eat lately without getting sick?” Dr. Ryugazaki asks.“Um.. I want.. strawberry shortcake.”“Very nice choice I’ll find a place, I’ll drive slow so just follow behind okay?”“Okay.”“See you soon Yama-Chan!”Arriving at the small café Tadashi parks next to Dr. Ryugazaki and Nagisa’s car and follows them in, walking next to Dr. Ryugazaki but far behind Nagisa who is practically sprinting inside to grab a table.“Yama-Chan! Come sit next to me, please!”Tadashi accepts the invitation after Dr. Ryugazaki nods showing him that he doesn’t mind.“Sure thing Nagisa.”The waitress comes and takes their orders, coming back a few minutes later with their drinks.“I should apologize now because I have no idea what kind of trouble he’ll get himself or us into while we’re out. He seems to be full of extra energy.”“It’s really no trouble he kind of reminds me of someone I was on the volleyball team with in high school, who was always very energetic.”“You were on the volleyball team?!” Shouts a very excited Nagisa.“Mhm, Kei and I played together from middle school through high school.”“That’s so awesome! Rei-Chan and I were on the school swim team! Though it was only the 5 of us there for two years and we weren’t very well known at first but that made it all the more fun.”“Same here, well we had 12 members but that was still really small compared to the other schools we went up against. Then at first we were either not known or they knew us as “the flightless crows” because we use to be a power house school but did awful for a while.”“Oh! My! Word! You’re from Karasuno?!”“I am! How’d you guess?”“Rei-Chan! That’s the team that I went and watched play with Sou-Chan that one time in Tokyo! Hey! No way! You’re the pinch server they used in that match! Your floaty serves were amazing, you scored like 5 points in a row one set!”Nagisa’s eyes are shinning and Tadashi can’t help but blush at the compliments and amazement that someone he just met actually recognized him from so many years ago.“Ye..yeah that was probably me.” He laughs lightly and rubs the back of his neck embarrassed.“Amazing! I’m having lunch with a real champion! Oh which one was your partner? You said you played together so did he play in the match too?”“Yep, number 11, Tsukishima Kei, tallest player we had, blond and black rimmed sports glasses.”“Oh no way no way! The tall lanky middle blocker! He was good looking Yama-Chan you did good, your baby is going to have such good looking genes!”The waitress returns with their food orders.“Nagisa please calm down people are starting to stare because of how loud you’re being.”“Oh sorry Rei-Chan.”
Kei is good looking, he was the best catch I could have ever caught for a man. I wish he was here.
“And what do you mean by good looking? Didn’t you already have me when you went to that match, why were you checking out other men?”“Is my Rei-Chan jealous? Don’t worry though baby you’re the only man I’ll ever need.” Nagisa winks and Dr. Ryugazaki blushes like it’s his job.Tadashi wipes the tears from his eyes quickly hoping neither of them notice.“Man you two are just too much together, I feel like I’m going to get a cavity and I haven’t even had my dessert yet.”The table erupts with Nagisa’s laughter. “See Rei-Chan I’m not the only extra one here sometimes.”A waitress comes by to collect their empty plates and take dessert orders.“So Ryugazaki Sensei how..” he’s interrupted.“Please, we’ll be seeing a lot of each other in and out of the office so just Rei is fine.”Tadashi nods. “Then Rei, how long have you and Nagisa been together?”“I think it was during our 2nd year high school we finally got together? I was originally on the track team doing poll vaulting our first year and then Nagisa pretty much stalked and harassed me until I joined the swim team.”“Don’t make me sound like some criminal!”“Well how would you describe yourself then?”“Determined to fulfill destiny.”“More like persistent because you were so desperate for a 4th swimmer to keep the club open.”“Now, now Rei-Chan don’t be a poor sport just because you joined despite the fact that you couldn’t swim.”“Woah wait, you joined swim club not knowing how to swim?”“It’s true! Rei-Chan had all the formulas perfected but no matter what he would just sink straight to the bottom on the pool. Turned out he was only able to swim the butterfly stroke, which worked out well for us in the end.”The waitress returns with their desserts. Tadashi got strawberry shortcake, Nagisa got a raspberry and cream filled pastry and Rei got a coffee cake. One bite into the strawberry shortcake and Tadashi is crying again.“Something wrong Yama-Chan? Do you not like the cake, we can get you something else?”Tadashi laughs dryly, he can’t help it Nagisa is just so cute.“I should get something else, this is hardly my favorite dessert they had on the menu but I want it, I feel like I need it. Kei loves all things strawberry, especially strawberry shortcake. I guess I just want to feel closer to him.”“You miss him?”“Yes very much.”“Can you call him?”“Nagisa! Please..”“No it’s fine. I could but he’s probably really mad that I just left while he was sleeping and he’d probably be even more mad if I told him I chose a child over our relationship.”Nagisa rubs Tadashi’s back and Rei gives him his handkerchief. They decide it’s best to leave, they get their desserts in take out boxes and Rei decides to let Nagisa drive his car while he drives Tadashi’s to the house.
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The ride to his new home was silent and awkward. Tadashi figured Rei was just giving him space and time to calm down on his own. Part of him was thankful that Rei didn’t try to pry more into his personal issues but another part of him wished someone would so he felt more justified while crying his eyes out.“Yamaguchi we’ve arrived at the house, I’ll show you around and we’ll help you get settled in for tonight. It doesn’t look like you’ve brought much with you so we can bring this all in before we leave.”Tadashi sniffles. “Thank you.”“Welcome home Yama-Chan! It’s a great place, you know this was Rei-Chan and I’s first home together before we moved above the office for convenience. Rei-Chan is super sentimental which is why we haven’t sold it yet. So it’s really nice that it’ll finally be getting some use again after so many years being vacant.”They were standing in front of a small 2 bedroom home, older styled compared to what Tadashi was use to but he always did have a soft spot for the more traditional looking homes so he didn’t mind. Tadashi couldn’t remember how they got there from the café, being too preoccupied with trying to keep more tears from spilling, but from what he can see around them is they’re a ways out of the small town.The house is surrounded by tall trees and Tadashi can’t see any neighboring houses from where he’s standing. The distance might be tough to deal with at first since he’s use to always being in contact with someone but when he gets larger he knows he’ll be thankful not having neighbors around to gawk at his growing belly.“It’s old fashion but it’s been beautifully kept up.”“Yep, yep cause Rei-Chan and I come every Sunday to do yard work and clean together. Or we use to but now the house has you! I can still come every Sunday though to help especially when you get larger in the belly area.” Tadashi is once again laughing because of an adorably silly Nagisa.“Please come everyday to visit me for as long as you can to make me forget how lonely I am.”Nagisa pulls Tadashi into a tight embrace, he’s smaller than Tadashi so he tucks his own head under Tadashi’s chin pulling them as close together as possible.“I will come visit you every day and hug you like this as often as you need me to. Well at least until you get fat cause then I won’t be able to get this close to you..” Nagisa steps back and stares at Tadashi. “You know Yama-Chan I can’t wait for you to get all fat and round, you’re going to be so adorable! Please let me give you lots of belly rubs when it happens!”“Nagisa please don’t harass Yamaguchi and Yamaguchi if this guy over steps his boundaries just push him off, don’t be afraid I once pushed him into a lake because he was being too clingy. He’s always been really handsy.” “Oh um.. I.. I don’t mind. It’s nice to have the physical contact right now.”“Yeah Rei-Chan leave me be and I’m not clingy!”“Sure you’re not. Okay well I’ll be leaving you two here for a little. I completely forgot about stopping at the pharmacy to get Yamaguchi’s prescriptions. I know Yamaguchi’s the one that loaded all this stuff but Nagisa please don’t let him lift anything too heavy. If there is anything really heavy just leave it and I’ll grab it when I get back.”Rei turns to look at Yamaguchi. “I stocked the place with food already, the basics anyways, Nagisa can show you the grocery store tomorrow so you can get things you like as long as you don’t just load the cart with all junk food like some other people do.” Rei turns and gives Nagisa a knowing look and then turns back. “You don’t look like you would but I know cravings can sometimes get the better of people sometimes.”“Okay thanks again Rei.”“Alright Yama-Chan! Let’s get this stuff inside, you heard Rei-Chan no heavy lifting for you. So tell me where you want stuff as I carry it in and you can start opening bags to put stuff away. Sound good?”Tadashi nods. “I didn’t bring anything really big furniture wise, mostly just clothes, a few dishes, books and some photos. Everything can probably go in the living room to be sorted.”“Aye-aye Yama-Chan!”Tadashi walks inside and finds the living room, having a seat on the small sofa. Haha what a guy. I bet Kei would wish he was deaf after just a few minutes with Nagisa. Tadashi begins to absent mindedly rubs his still flat belly. I’ll forever be here for you baby don’t worry about a thing, I’ll love you enough for both Kei and myself, I’ll make sure of it. Suddenly there’s a loud thud and Tadashi jumps up noticing all his things are sitting on the floor in front of him and Nagisa is now sitting next to him on the couch holding out a handkerchief to him.“Don’t you want to talk about it some more Yama-Chan?”Why does Nagisa look so sad, he’s been a bright ball of sunshine since I met him. Reaching up and touching his face and once he realizes he’s crying again the flood gates fully open and Tadashi allows himself to fall into Nagisa and pour his heart out.“I miss Kei. I miss him so damn much Nagisa. We’ve been almost inseparable since middle school. He’s my first and only love I’ve ever had. I just feel like there’s a huge hole in my chest and I’ve only been gone less than a day. What am I going to be like tomorrow or a few weeks from now? I don’t know how to be me without Kei by my side.”“Why don’t you call him and tell him how you feel?”“Nagisa he hates children! Even when we were kids ourselves he didn’t like other kids. He once told me he was glad he ended up being gay because he didn’t have to worry about unwanted children. I.. I just can’t bring myself to tell him about this wonderful gift and have him say he doesn’t want it like I do. It’s different while I’m just thinking he’ll say it but if he actually said it I don’t think I’d be able to move on from it.”He’s worked himself up too much, it’s getting hard to breathe and he feels like he’s going to throw up his lunch but he doesn’t see anywhere where he can let it out. Covering his mouth and frantically looking around the room Nagisa gets the hint and quickly helps Tadashi to his feet.“This way Yama-Chan the bathroom is right here through this door.”Seconds after the door opens and Tadashi is emptying the contents of his stomach just barely making it into the toilet. Nagisa stays with him rubbing his back lightly.“There, there Yama-Chan let it all out. Rei-Chan will be back soon with the prescription to make you feel better.” The sickness subsides and Tadashi leans back against the wall, Nagisa passes him some toilet paper to wipe his mouth and then he leans and eye level with Tadashi’s belly.“Ne little one stop making your daddy so sick all the time, he’s got it tough enough, give him nice little love flutters instead.”A sadden expression on his face Nagisa looks back up at Tadashi. “I’m sorry I poked my nose into your business so much you ended up getting sick.”“It’s fine, it’s not like it was your fault. I’m going through a bad breakup and I’m hormonal on top of being sick all the time so it’s obvious that I’m going to get sick at times. I’m sorry I almost puked on you.”“It’s cool Yama-Chan. I like hanging out with you even if you..”“Nagisa? Yamaguchi? I see everything was brought in but where are you two?”“In here Rei-Chan!”“Oh no did you get sick again Yamaguchi?”“No Rei-Chan we’re partying in front of the toilet for fun.”“With you being you I wouldn’t for even a second doubt that.”“What’s that suppose to mean? Rei-Chan don’t be mean to your lover!”“Me mean? I’d never.”Tadashi laughs. Oh God how can I not laugh when I’m with these two. “I’m glad you can still laugh Yama-Chan, you’re so pretty when you smile with your whole face.”Tadashi blushes at the sincere compliment.“Alright Nagisa no more flirting with Yamaguchi, especially while you’re as you’ve just put it “lover” is right in front of you.”“I’m no flirt Rei-Chan.”“Sure you’re not. Here Yamaguchi you can take one now if you’d like. They’re safe to take whenever pretty much. Just don’t exceed 6 in a 24 hour period and you don’t have to worry about taking them with food or on an empty stomach. They should be in full effect tomorrow after you’ve had taken a couple.”Rei holds his hands out and pulls Nagisa and Tadashi up to their feet and then walk back out into the living room. Nagisa and Rei trying to be discreet while bickering and Tadashi trying to keep himself together as to not laugh at them anymore.“You didn’t bring much so we should be able to get everything sorted and put away before we leave and then you and Nagisa will have the whole day tomorrow to sight see.”A very excited Nagisa starts lightly bouncing on his heels, eyes shinning. “I’m going to show you all the best places Yama-Chan!”Tadashi gives a weak smile. “I look forward to it then.”Unpacking goes smoothly, Rei shows Tadashi around the single floor house, there’s a small but practical kitchen that has a table for two, a toilet room next to the bathroom which has a washer inside, there’s a living room that has a small sofa and a kotatsu in it, a small empty spare room and then bedroom with one full size western style bed and on night stand.“You’re free to use all of the things left in the house without worry. We do have some things packed away in the shed out back but it’s locked so you don’t have to worry about it at all.”When they return to the living room Nagisa has already put most things away. The dishes have all been washed, dried and put in the cabinet in the kitchen, the book and photos are all on the single bookshelf in the living room and all Tadashi’s clothes have been taken out and put on hangers just ready to be brought down to his new bedroom and hung in the closet.“I see you got to work quickly while we were walking around.” Rei walks over to Nagisa and ruffles his hair gently. “Th..thank you so much Nagisa, everything looks perfect.”“No problem at all Yama-Chan!”“He’s right Yamaguchi, he might always act carefree but he’s surprisingly tidy and helpful, two more reasons I fell for him.”“Rei-Chan!” Nagisa is in full on blush mode again, red all the to the tips of his ears.They really sickeningly sweet sometimes but I’m so happy I have them now.“It’s already almost 5 now so we should get going now so Yamaguchi can relax tonight since he’ll be dealing with you all day tomorrow.”“Rei-Chan! Don’t make it sound like I’m awful to be around. Yama-Chan has said more than once that he likes being around me!”“For now yes but Nagisa try not to over work him tomorrow you know he’s doing the hardest job anyone could ever do, supporting new life inside himself.”“I know Rei-Chan, I was mostly just going to drive him around and show him how to get places so he wouldn’t get lost or feel like he has to depend on us when he wants to do something.”Rei smiles fondly and nods, lightly tussling Nagisa’s hair again.“Did you need help making dinner Yamaguchi?”“No I’m all set, I’m actually quiet good at cooking, you two will have to come for dinner one of these nights so I can thank you for all you’ve done for me.”“We’d love to!”“Yes Nagisa is right, please let us know once you’ve adjusted and we’ll schedule something. For now we’ll head out. I wrote down both our cell phone numbers and emails on a paper stuck to the fridge, along with the office number and fire/police numbers just incase. Feel free to get ahold of either of us whenever for whatever reason even if it’s not medical.”“That’s right Yama-Chan! Moving to a new place alone can be scary but Rei-Chan and I are here for you.”“Thank you again and I’ll see you tomorrow Nagisa, feel free to come early if you’d like to join me for breakfast. I always get up early and cook for two so I’m sure I’ll forget and end up with extra.”The thought kind of makes him feel sad, tomorrow morning he will be eating without Kei for the first time in 3 years.“Home cooked breakfast? I am so there Yama-Chan! This guy over here usually only has coffee and toast and then leaves early. It’s no fun.”
Thank you Nagisa if only you knew how much simple plans to not eat breakfast alone my first real morning away from Kei means to me.
And just like that he’s alone. Going to the kitchen he can see that Rei really did stock up on pretty much everything for him. It’s dinner time and he should cooking even though he’s not hungry but the thought of him now supporting a new life inside himself forces Tadashi to find something to eat.He settles on making a simple omurice and cuts up some strawberries he found in the fridge. He took his new medication a little while ago so he’s hope full that the food might stay down this time. Sitting down at the table for two Tadashi manages only a few bites of the omurice but eats all of the strawberries.While eating them he thinks of Kei and quickly decides he’s ready for bed. Venturing into the living room he grabs his favorite photo of Kei and himself, it was the day Kei got promoted at work. They were sitting down in Kei’s new office and in front of them on the desk is the gift Tadashi bought Kei to celebrate, it was a name plaque with Tsukishima Kei written on it with a small imprint of a dinosaur skeleton on it. Kei had loved the gift so much he kissed Tadashi in front of everyone and at that exact moment Ennoshita snapped a picture.After grabbing the photo Tadashi goes into the closet and grabs pajamas and the large hoodie he had stolen from Kei’s study at home. He changes quickly, places the photo on the bed side table and hugs the hoodie to his chest. It still smells like Kei, thank god. That night Tadashi fell asleep with his face buried deep in the hoodie and crying. “Kei you’ve been in bed all day, how about we put a movie on in the living room together, we can watch the new Jurassic movie I know you have.”“No thanks.”“It’s almost dinner time, are you getting hungry? Mom said she would drop off some food for us soon but she won’t come in.”“No.”“How about just getting up to wash up really quick then before going to bed?”“I’m fine as is.”“Then…”Kei interrupts him. “Enough already! You’re being annoying. If I wanted this kind of treatment I would have had Mom come here instead. I’m seriously fine so just leave me alone.”“I just want to help. You called me here so tell me what to do then.”“You don’t have to do anything, being here without pestering me is enough. Trust me.”Akiteru sighs in defeat. “Fine. I’m going to go wait outside for Mom to get here, I’ll let you know when foods here incase you change your mind.”Kei slides down into the bed and buries himself in the blanket and breaks down once more without care. I’m sorry Nii-Chan I know you’re just trying to help but it’s hard to keep a straight face when you’re in front of me.Akiteru’s phone rings.“Hello?”“Aki dear it’s Mom. Is now a good time?”“Sure Mom what’s up, you leaving to bring dinner over?”“Actually I’ve already left a while ago. If you aren’t busy would you mind coming down to the car to bring up the stuff? I don’t trust myself to not try and push my way in to see Kei.”“Sure thing Mom I’m on my way down right now.”“See you soon then Aki.” She hangs up right away afterwards.Well at least she won’t be coming in like she promised, even if I do have to walk down all these stairs.“Aki over here!”An older woman shorter than him with the same colored hair pulls him into a crushing hug.“Hi Mom how have you been?”“Same old same old, it’s lonely at the house with you boys gone.”“Don’t try and act like you don’t enjoy the peace.”“You caught me.” She laughs. “I’ve been able to get a lot of crafts done that I was interested in in the past.”“That’s great Mom. Saeko and I will have to come visit soon, it’s been a while.”“It has hasn’t it? But I don’t expect a visit until you’re coming to tell me that I’m finally going to be a grandmother.” She gives him a sly smile.“Mom I literally just told you that we’ve decided to stop taking precautions and letting it happen when it happens. It’s been two weeks, there’s no way it’s happened already.”“You never know dear.” She shrugs. “So how is Kei doing?”“He’s been in bed all day. I tried getting him to get up and do anything but he just called me annoying. Honestly I think he just wanted me to leave the room so he could cry more…. Mom I don’t know how to help him.”“Your brother inherited your father’s personality that’s for sure. It’s best we just leave him be for now, when he needs something he’ll come to you like he did when he called you this morning.” She sighs. “I’m kind of hurt my baby didn’t call me when he was hurting but at least he called his big brother.”Akiteru takes the bags from his mothers front seat of the car and looks over at her catching a glimpse of her sad smile.“Well you better bring that up to him while it’s still warm. Promise you’ll call if you need anything, I’ll come right away, doesn’t matter what time it is.”Akiteru bends down and kisses his mothers cheek. “Sure thing Mom. Be safe on your way home.”When Akiteru finally makes his way back up to the apt. he goes straight to the kitchen and fixes up a bed tray with the dinner his brother brought along with more cut up strawberries just incase Kei refuses to eat again. But when he reaches the bedroom Kei is already asleep bundled in the blanket.Turning around as quietly as possible and puts the food away before settling down on the sofa. The area around his eyes is even more red and puffy, he must have cried more after I left.Kei doesn’t wake up again before Akiteru pulls out a guest futon and falls asleep in the living room.
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The morning starts out early for Akiteru, he had planned on sleeping in until Kei got up but here he was rushing to get ready for work because of a call he had received 10 Minutes prior from one of his colleges in panic because one of their top clients was due to renew their contract but was refusing to work with anyone except their usual Tsukishima Akiteru.“Kei are you awake?” Akiteru knocks twice and then opens the bedroom door to find his brother still asleep, eyes once again even more puffy and his brows furrowed together. Deciding not to disturb his brother or write a note he calls his mother as he’s making himself a quick breakfast.“Aki dear is something wrong with Kei?”“Good morning to you too Mom. No Kei’s the same, still in bed, but I got a call from work and I can’t avoid going in for this meeting. I’m getting ready to leave for work soon so I was hoping you could come here for when he wakes up. I don’t think him waking up to an empty house would be good for him right now.”“Absolutely! I’ll be there in 10!” click. She hung up.Wow goodbye to you too Mom.Akiteru eats a quick breakfast that consists of toast and a cup of coffee and then grabs one of Kei’s suits to wear. Damn you for being so tall Kei! Hopefully no one really notices it’s not the right size. As promised 10 minutes pass and there’s a quiet knock at the front door.“Hi Mom, thanks for coming so quickly and this early in the morning.”“Nonsense Aki I’ve been up for hours and besides you know I’d do anything you boys needed me to do as long as I was capable.” She smiles brightly but Akiteru can see the dark circles under her eyes. Thinking she must have had a rough night worrying about Kei, Akiteru pulls her into a hug.“Really thanks for everything you do Mom.”“Oh Aki!” She returns his hug, gripping him tightly and sighing. “Alright you have to get going right? I can handle things here while you’re gone. Anything I should know before you go?”“Kei didn’t leave bed all day yesterday besides to use the bathroom a couple of times. He slept through breakfast, I woke him for lunch but all he ate was a couple bites of omurice and the strawberries I cut up for him. But even for that little amount I had to force him by bringing up the fact that Tadashi bought them for him, he also went to bed without dinner. He’s had a few severe break downs that I’ve seen but I can tell by his eyes that he’s been crying even more when I’m not around.”“Oh no.”“The only thing I can think of is that we should continue to give him space and hope after grieving for a few days he will be more like himself again or at least get out of bed.”“I suppose you’re right. Now off you go I can handle things here.” She smiles and pushes him towards the door. “Okay, okay I’m leaving, I’ll call you later and see how things are going.”Removing her shoes and making her way to the kitchen she let’s her smile die down. Making breakfast for Kei should be simple enough, Kei loves strawberries so he’ll eat pretty much anything that has to do with them no matter how foul his mood is. Amazing, Tadashi stocked all of Kei’s favorites.Settling on pancakes with strawberry chunks inside and whip cream on top she loads a bed side tray adding a bowl of cut up strawberries and a large glass of orange juice. There’s no way Kei will be able to pass up eating these. “Kei sweet heart it’s time to wake up.”Kei’s eyes instantly pop open, he reaches for his glasses and sits up against the headboard. His eyes bugged open and mouth slightly agape.“M..mom? What are you doing here? Where’s Nii-Chan?”“It’s very nice to see you too Kei. Aki got a call from work this morning and he absolutely couldn’t miss a meeting so he called me to be here when you woke up.” She smiled down at him and laughed. “Kei close your mouth before you catch flies. I made you breakfast so make sure you eat up.”“No thanks I’m not very hungry right now.”“Buuuuuuut Kei I made you pancakes with strawberry chunks in them, I worked really hard on them for you.” She gives him a look that sooner rather than later guilty him into taking the tray from her arms.“Thanks Mom, they look really good.”“Of course they are, I worked hard on them just for my beloved baby Kei.”“Mom I’m not a baby, I’m a grown man.”“Nonsense Aki and Kei will always be my babies until I die.”“Please don’t talk like you’re going to die anytime soon.”“That’s not what I meant and you know it. Now hurry up and eat and then I want you in the shower right afterwards so I can change the bedding. If you insist on laying around in bed for longer at least do it with a clean body and clean sheets.”Kei’s speechless but still nods to signify that he at least heard his mothers words. She smiles in return and kisses his forehead before leaving the room. Today is going to be a long day, damn Nii-Chan you couldn’t have called anyone else to come babysit me? Kei sighs and quickly digs into his plate because even though he said he wasn’t hungry he’s actually starving and the smell of strawberries is too much for him to pass on.Once he’s done eating he brings the tray and empty dishes out to the kitchen, greeted with the smile of his triumphant mother. He scoffs and heads to the bathroom to shower.Kei’s only skipped washing for one day but the water feels so nice against his skin, like it’s helping to melt the stress off him. He stays in there far longer than needed, mind blank just enjoying the feeling of the water running down his body and the steam surrounding him.He feels amazing when he finally gets out but after one look in the mirror he’s bent over the toilet throwing up his breakfast. Seeing himself in the mirror he feels pity, the red puffiness to his eyes reminds him of how pathetic he is, crying like he has been and the fact that he’s been crying is because Tadashi is gone.Hoping to avoid his mother he quietly climbs back into his bed, she’s changed the sheets like she said she would. Which would normally make him feel very relaxed however right now he just wants to be comforted by Tadashi’s scent and now that the sheets are changed the scent is gone.Fumbling out of bed and rushing to the closet, he’s freaking out as he rips open the door and begins digging through what’s left inside but there’s nothing of Tadashi’s clothes wise. Nothing that he can find that has the comforting smell of Tadashi.All the commotion has attracted the attention of his mother. “Kei dear what’s wrong?” She pears around the corner into the closet. “Are you cold I can dig out some more blankets for you if you want to…”“Leave.” It’s a whisper that almost goes unnoticed.“What was that baby? What do you need?”Kei clenches his fists and looks away. ”I said leave, I need you to leave right now.”“Why Kei what happened?”“Just leave! I want you out now!”“Wh..why? Did I do something? Tell me what’s wrong so I can help you.”“Leave! Leave! Leave! Leave! I don’t need you here! I don’t need anyone!” He screams while looking down at the floor, tears threatening to fall. He knows it’s unfair of him to lash out at his mother like this but he can’t help it. She just took away his only comfort even if it was on accident.“I..I..I’m sorry. I’ll leave.” Her voice is trembling and she quietly retreats.Kei stays there on the closet floor and listens as his mother gathers her things to leave and as soon as he hears the front door close behind her he allows himself to break down once again. The tears fall and Kei let’s out a loud scream, a mixture of pain, frustration and guilt. I’m sorry Mom, I just can’t be around anyone right now. Time feels like it’s frozen in this moment, there’s nothing more Kei can do but let himself go even more. Falling forward he curls into himself on the floor and allows himself to fall asleep.Outside the apt. Kei’s mother makes her way down the stairs to her car, blank faced she’s unsure of how long she’s sat there until she hears her phone ring.“Yes?”“Mom? It’s Akiteru.”“Of course it is, how’s work?”“My meeting just finished so I’m calling to check and see how Kei is doing?”“Oh..Kei he..”Silence.“Mom you still there?”“I thought.. I thought things were going good. I made breakfast, he ate, showered and.. and then.. I had to leave. Kei told me to leave, that he didn’t need me.”“He did what?!”“It’s fine Aki, I must have done something to upset him.”“Upset or not he has no right. My meeting is over so I’m heading back over there now.”“Please don’t be angry with him, he’s gone through a huge shock in the last day, he’s on edge.”“I’ll deal with it Mom. Take care I’ll call you later. Goodbye.”“Goodbye Aki.”An hour later and Akiteru finds himself standing in his brothers closet door way looking down at his brother who is laying curled up on the closet floor, half undressed with still damp looking hair. He’s crying even though he’s asleep, looking more awful than when he found him yesterday morning.
Oh Kei. Just what am I going to do with you. I came here to yell at you but I just can’t bring myself to when you look this bad.
Reaching down Akiteru shakes his brother. “Kei get your ass up.”Kei rolls over and rubs his eyes in effort to get them to open. “Nii-Chan?”“Who else is it going to be? You yelled at our mother and made her all upset so she sure as hell isn’t going to be the one standing here.”“I.. I’m.. she..” nothing he’s saying is making any sense.“It’s whatever for now, you’ll apologize later because right now she understands you’re not yourself. But seriously Kei get up off the closet floor, what are you even doing in here? Get back in bed if you’re going to sleep.”“No.”“What?”“I don’t want to.”“And why not? You were sleeping there just fine this morning.”“She changed all the bedding.. now it doesn’t smell like Tadashi.”
Seriously?! That’s why he’s freaking out so much?
“Does it bother you that much that you feel you have to sleep on the floor?”“Yes.”
I know Kei has always been stubborn but to be this sensitive about the bedding being washed.
“Just grab something else of Tadashi’s and get in bed, you’re going to get sick if you stay here on the floor half-naked with damp hair.”“You think I didn’t think of that? Look around there’s nothing in here that belonged to him. Now just get out. I know you’re trying to help because I called you and you’re worried but I’m fine as I am.”“How is this fine?! Kei look at yourself will you. You’re sleeping on the floor because the bedding was washed, you haven’t been eating good and your eyes are so puffy from all the crying you can barely open them! You need…”“Don’t tell me what I need! The only person I need by my side is Tadashi! Now if you would just leave already I’d like to go back to sleep.”Kei is looking straight into his brothers face, no signs of wavering in his determination to be alone.“Fine cry yourself ragged on the floor for all I care! I won’t come so quickly the next time you need me!”Storming out and slamming the front door Akiteru stopping on the stairs a few floors below Kei’s floor. Regret filling his mind but he shakes it off and continues on. Sure he’s mad but he knows Kei didn’t mean what he said and Kei must know that he didn’t mean what he said either. Tadashi’s morning went much smoother than the previous morning, he woke at his normal time, showered and got dressed like usual and made breakfast for two like always. The only differences was that he had taken medication before getting in the shower and he was alone in a new place. However he was only briefly alone, Nagisa had shown up nice and early just as breakfast was finishing up which Tadashi was very thankful for. “Gooooood morning Yama-Chan! I’m not too early am I?”“You’re right on time, I was just about to plate the food if you want to join me in the kitchen.”Nagisa set the table and poured juice while Tadashi brought over the plates of food. There was pancakes, scrambled eggs, sausage and cut up fruit.“This looks amazing Yama-Chan! Is this the kind of breakfast you usually do every day?”“Mostly, Kei’s never been a big eater but he does enjoy food so I’ve learned to make a lot of different things so he always had choices.”Taking a bite of the pancakes Nagisa moans and bounces in his seat.“Soooo good and fluffy!” He continues to shovel the food into his mouth with no restraint. Tadashi laughs and slowly begins to eat his own breakfast.After breakfast is done Nagisa helps Tadashi wash up the dishes and wipe down the table. Thanking him multiple times for the amazing breakfast.“So are you all set to head out now Yama-Chan? Rei-Chan gave me the car with a full tank so I can show you all around.”“Yeah I think so.” Nagisa looks beyond excited as they walk out and load up into Nagisa and Rei’s car. “Where are we going today?”“I’m at your service today to show you anywhere you think you might want to go!” He smiles brightly. “Of course there are boring places Rei-Chan is making me bring you but they’re important for you to know so I don’t mind.”“Thank you for all you’re doing for me,” Tadashi looks down and gently rubs his still flat tummy. “for us.”“Rei-Chan and I are actually not from here either but I agreed to move here with him because of this work opportunity for him. Most of our friends still live near our home town, I get kind of lonely sometimes so I’m really happy that you need me.” His smile is sad and he coughs to clear his throat but he remains silent for a few minutes as he continues to drive.“Aaaaand here we are, this is the main area of our small town, this road has the majority of everything important on it.” Slowly driving down the road Nagisa points out what’s what. “The grocery store, pharmacy, town hall and police station are one building here. A little further down you’ll see the café we went to yesterday.”“If you go all the way down and turn left you’ll end up at the station but if you go right you’ll find the other important places. Our office and home, the library though it’s small.” Nagisa pulls the car over down the road a little ways from the office across from the library. “We don’t have much here but this place here is one of my favorites, it’s the local indoor swimming pool. Obviously since I did swim I love it but I asked Rei-Chan and he said that swimming is very good for pregnancy so if you’d like we could go sometime together maybe.”“I’m not very good so I’m not sure how fun it will be for someone who is but if you’re okay with that then I’d love to.”“How not good are we talking here? Will you sink to the bottom of the pool and almost drown?”“Um no I’m not that bad.”“Perfect then you’ll already be easier to swim with than it was with Rei-Chan and besides we’re not competing so as long as you don’t drown on me it’ll be just fine.” Nagisa gives his signature blinding smile once again. “Anyway that’s about it for our small town, not much to see but it’s been home for Rei-Chan and I for almost 10 years now.”“It’s the perfect quiet place to start over.”
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Things have become routine for Tadashi since he left Kei a week ago. Waking up the same normal time, having breakfast with Nagisa, spending the day with him and then crying himself to sleep hugging Kei's sweatshirt. However today will be different, not only does Nagisa have to return to work but Tadashi has his next Drs. Appointment.Breakfast alone for the first time since leaving Kei left Tadashi feeling numb but luckily he didn’t have time to dwell on it because he needed to be at the office early for his appointment. Eating and quickly getting ready Tadashi put on his best ‘I’m doing just fine on my own face’ as he could and left.Arriving at the Drs. office Tadashi was greeted by a bright smiling Nagisa.“Yama-Chan! Its so great to see you!”“Nagisa you were just with him yesterday.”“Oh hush Rei-Chan that’s already too long for me.”Laughing lightly Tadashi followed Dr. Ryugazaki into the exam room.“Alright now Yamaguchi I know I did the initial examination last week but I need to do a more in depth exam today before you get much further along to hopefully avoid stirring things up. Did you follow the instructions I left you with yesterday?”Blushing as he nodded Tadashi looked away. He did in fact follow the embarking instructions to clean himself out and even stretch for the internal exam this morning.“Great. No need to be embarrassed every male goes through this at least once in their life time in a way. Now if you would my mind undressing while I step out, I’ll back in in just a moment.”Undressing his lower half rather quickly Tadashi couldn’t help but continue to blush as he thought about what was about to happen. Tadashi has only ever been intimate with Kei and they never used toys so he worried how he'll react having an ultrasound wand pushed up his rear.“Yamaguchi are you ready?”“Ye..yes"Entering the room and pulling the curtain shut Dr. Ryugazaki sighed as he looked at the very anxious Tadashi.
“No need to be scared, I’m only going to enter slightly with the wand to see if I can find the opening leading to your womb. I can numb you if you’re to worried about how long it’s been since your last sexual encounter?”Quickly shaking his head Tadashi looked away. “Nagisa suggested I prep a little earlier so it wouldn’t be so hard on me.”And now it was Dr. Ryugazaki’s turn to blush, coughing to clear his throat he nodded. “Very good, though it was unnecessary of him to get involved I should scold him later…”“Okay now I’ll explain what’s about to happen. If you could lay back and place your rear end at the end of the table slightly hanging off we will put your feet back in the stirrups. Now I don’t need to physically look you over so you’ll be covered by this sheet the whole time.”Doing as he was told Tadashi got into position.“Perfect, now this is the internal ultrasound wand. I’m going to hand this to you under the sheet and I need you to put the first bit inside and I’ll do the rest from there.”Nodding Tadashi took the wand like machine and hissed as he felt the cold lube and let out a long breathe as he felt it breach his hole.“Sorry! I forgot to mention I’d already put lube over the covering to help ease it in.” Dr. Ryugazaki apologized as he eased his hand under the sheet and grasped the end of the wand. “Now take some steady breathes for me I need to go in just a little further.”The pressure Tadashi felt was unpleasant but not unbearable. It could be worse. Breathing in and out Tadashi tried to relax as much as possible as the wand probed around inside him.“Amazing! I know we’ve already seen the ovary, womb and even the baby but this right here is how it all happened. This little slit right here is the opening to lead up to your womb. Some semen must have slipped inside here and hence baby! Just let me take some screen shots and we'll be done. You must be uncomfortable. The government won't be satisfied without images.”Of course. Tadashi thought, it all comes down to pleasing the government.“Alright now I'll remove the wand, please don’t hold your breath.” Taking a few deep breaths Tadashi closes his eyes and nods is head signaling that he was ready and on queue Dr. Ryugazaki carefully slid the wand put from within him.“I’ll need to examine you more closely after the baby is born, I wouldn’t want to risk triggering anything but for now this should satisfy the government. Shall we take a peek real quick and see how baby is doing?”Tadashi quickly nods his head as he slides up the bed table further and lifts his shirt.“I thought you might like that,” Dr. Ryugazaki laughs, “actually the government wants weekly progress updates but I figured you wouldn’t mind.”“Not at all.” Tadashi smiles. “Oh actually can Nagisa come back?”“I’m sure he’s free right now but are you sure? Don’t let him pressure you into letting him in.”“Oh no no, it’s actually been really nice to have a friend these days.”Dr. Ryugazaki smiles genuinely. “Well alright I’ll be right back with him.”And as promised the pair were back in record time with a visibly impatient Nagisa leading the way.
“Hurry Rei-Chan we can’t leave Yama-Chan waiting!”“Slow down Nagisa don’t run! I am so sorry Yamaguchi, he was waiting right outside the room the whole time apparently.”Tadashi laughed. Of course he was. “Hush now Rei-Chan, show me that sweet baby girl already, I’m dying here.”“Now now we still don’t know the gender of the baby it’s too early to tell.”“I’m telling you right now, baby is a girl, it’s a but feeling and I’m never wrong.”“Nagisa when have you ever predicted the gender of a baby?”“That doesn’t matter. I have great instincts. Now let’s get on with it Rei-Chan.”“Don’t rush me Nagisa! Yamaguchi are you sure you want him in here, he’s distracting.”“Am not.”“Are too.”Tadashi can’t help but laugh. Seriously perfect together. “Yes I’m sure.”“That’s fine then. Now remember the gel will be cold.. aaand.. here they are right here in the front of your womb. It’s like they knew we were about to take a peek.”The tears are instant for Tadashi. Even though it’s only been a week baby is so much bigger. “Baby looks perfect, right on track I’d say.”
Kei if only you could see our baby and love them like I do.
Days go by and Akiteru finally returns to his brothers apartment, only to find Kei still curled up on the closet floor looking even worse than before. Come on Kei you’re better than this. Thinking of how to help him only one thought comes to mind. “I’m sorry Kei you have left me with no choice." He whispers as he steps out of the room phone in hand.“Yes this is Akiteru, I’m sorry to be calling out of the blue but Kei needs help and I don’t know who else to call… yes we're over at his apartment… thank you… see you soon.”As promised an hour later there’s a quiet knock at the door and a turn of the knob.“Hello? Akiteru-San?”“Yes here! Thank you again for coming I had no idea who else to call, Kei isn’t handling Tadashi bring gone very well. He’s stopped eating and caring for himself completely from what I can tell, he’s even yelled at our mother and myself but I know o can’t leave him as is any longer.”“No we can’t have that now can we. Where is he now?”“Asleep on the closet floor, our mother managed to get him to shower a few days ago but she washed the bedding while he was in there and he had a melt down once he realized the sheets no longer smelt like Tadashi.”“My poor boy. Well leave him to me I’ll have him up and going in no time.”Following after his last hope Akiteru hung back as the closet door was swung open loudly.“Tsukishima Kei get up right now!”And to Akiteru's surprise Kei did just that, quickly scrambling to cover up and put his glasses on his face.
“S..Suga-San?!”“Yes I’m here.”“Wh..what are you doing here?” Kei looks behind Suga to find Akiteru avoiding eye contact. Figures Nii-Chan called him.“Come on get up we'll talk after you’ve cleaned yourself up and eaten.” Pulling his knees to his chest Kei shakes his head and looks away.“I’m not taking no for an answer. Letting yourself go like this isn’t like you at all.”“You don’t know anything.” Kei spat angrily looking straight into Suga's eyes.“I know the situation and how you must be feeling right now but nothing you’ve done will bring Tadashi back. Certainly not sleeping on a closet floor smelling like God knows what I’m smelling but it isn’t pleasant.”Leaning down Suga tries to pull Kei to his feet only to have him violently pull away.“Leave me alone!”*slap*A moment of silence goes by as both Tsukishima brothers are stunned from what just happened. “You will get up right now and go shower, then you’ll eat the lunch I make you. You won’t fight me on this Kei, let me help you.”Letting the tears falls Kei pulls in on himself even more.“I didn’t ask for your help.”“I know you didn’t but you need it, what would Tadashi say if he saw you right now? Would he be happy? I think not.”“Tadashi.. he.. I can’t live without him.”Falling to his knees Suga wraps his arms around a trembling Kei.“Then we'll look until we find him. But first you need to help me help you.”Feeling Kei nod his head Suga stands up helping Kei along with him.“Now go have a bath while I make us some lunch. Wash well and I mean well, I don’t even want to know when the last time you bathed was. Then after we get some food in your stomach we’ll talk about finding Tadashi. Okay?”The room is silent until the water can be heard running in the bathroom.“Sorry about that Akiteru-San, the slap might have been over the top but the Kei that was sitting there wasn’t going to listen to a word anyone said to him.”“No you’re right and I wouldn’t have had it in me to do it so thank you. But what will we do now? You said you’d help him find Tadashi but there’s no clues to where he’s gone to.”“That’s true but for now we should focus on getting Kei cleaned, fed and back on his feet. Tadashi couldn’t have just disappeared into thin air so we'll find him.” A while later the bathroom door opens up and a refreshed looking Kei steps out and sits down at the kitchen table. With red rimmed eyes Kei looks over to his brother. “I’m sorry for the trouble I’ve caused.”Akiteru quickly crosses the kitchen and wraps his arms around his not so little Kei. “Its no trouble at all for me. However you do need to call and apologize to Mom.” Kei nods against his brothers shoulder as he sighs. “I was really awful.”“Its okay now as long as you realize it. Now let’s eat up some lunch Sugawara made us all food and it smells really good.”Zoning out Kei ate his food in silence not listening to the idle chatter of his brother and Suga. Thinking back he inwardly cringes. I’ve been nothing but pathetic, who knew Tadashi had this much hold over me.“Kei are you listening?”“Hm?” “Finally I thought I lost you there for a minute you weren’t listening at all were you.”“I’m sorry.”“Its fine, I was just saying I’m going to ask Daichi if there’s anything he can do to find Tadashi, even though he’s not legally a missing person I’m sure Daichi will do something for us.”“That’s right! Sawamura became a police officer. How handy.”Suga blushes.“He'd be handy even without the title but in this situation yes it’s very useful. I’ll speak with him tonight when I get home.” Suga smiles brightly. “Now Kei we need to talk about how to help you. Ennoshita has been worried he hasn’t been able to reach you. He’s kept up with the work load from what I understand but they’re all wondering when you’ll be returning to work it’s been 10 days.”Kei's eyes widen in shock as he gets up to find his work laptop. Quickly typing away answering emails as soon as he’s opened it, digging out his cell phone to make a call. “Ennoshita, Tsukishima here, I’m calling to inform you I will be returning to work tomorrow.” “That’s wonderful Tsukishima, the higher ups understand your situation but have been getting impatient for your return.”“I don’t doubt that, sorry for throwing my work load at all of you.”“Nonsense, though a lot of us are wondering how you usually manage that much work by yourself, you’re amazing Tsukishima.”“That much is normal. I’ll see you tomorrow then.”“Yes goodbye Tsukishima.”Hanging up Kei looked up to see his brother and Suga standing in the doorway smiling. “Good to see you acting like yourself again little brother, now call Mom.”
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The week crept by Tadashi and before he knew it he was 17 weeks along and sitting in one of the back exam rooms of the Drs. office.“Are you ready to see the progress of your little one Yamaguchi?” Dr. Ryugazaki asked.“Can Nagisa come in? I promised him I would ask.” Tadashi replied nervously.“He’s not pressuring you is he? I know he can get overbearing sometimes without realizing it.”Tadashi shakes his head and arms in rejection. “No, not at all, it’s be nice to have someone… a friend.. in here is all I thought.”“Well as long as you’re sure, we don’t officially open the clinic for another hour so he’s not needed.”Nodding Tadashi relaxes back into the bench as Dr. Ryugazaki leaves the room to fetch Nagisa. Smiling to himself at the thought of sharing this moment with someone else, someone he has grown to consider his best friend over the last 2 months.Returning rather quickly Tadashi can’t help but laugh at the couple’s banter as they enter the room.“Yama-Chan!” Nagisa cries out as he runs forward wrapping his arms around the other. “Rei-Chan is being a meany again!”“I was just making sure you were pressuring him for your own curiosity.”“I would never!” Nagisa shouted. “Yama-Chan is my best friend!”“I see.” Is all Dr. Ryugazaki replied with before turning away but not without Tadashi seeing the small smile on his face.“Now Yamaguchi would you like to know the gender if baby cooperates?”“Of course we do!” Nagisa answered. “What kind of question is that when you already know Yama-Chan and I have a shopping date today.”“Will you calm down Nagisa-Kun, as a professional I need to ask these things, I can’t just base things off what my partner tells me during dinner, now hush. I was asking Yamaguchi.”Once again Tadashi couldn’t help but laugh at the other two, they were such an entertaining couple. “Yes, please.”“Very well, lay back, raise your shirt and slightly lower your bottoms for me.”Quickly doing as he was told Tadashi situated himself and reached over to Nagisa who wordlessly held his hand in return.“Remember the gel is cold.”Tadashi nods and squeezes Nagisa's hand just a little more as Dr. Ryugazaki applied the gel to his small but noticeable bump.“Alright let’s get the little one up on the screen. I’ll point out all the important parts, I need to take all kinds of measurements so it’ll be a while… oh good you followed instructions and came with a full bladder… and heeeere is little baby now.”Tadashi's eyes flew to the screen, seeing a much larger more distinct baby shape, the tears in his eyes were immediate.
That’s our baby Kei.
The room was quiet as Dr. Ryugazaki got the measurements needed every once in a while pointing out vital point such as the beating heart, making Tadashi cry even more.“And finally here are her princess parts, congratulations you’re having a girl.”“A girl! Yama-Chan you’re having a girl! I was right so there Rei-Chan!”
A girl Kei, we're having a daughter.
“That’s all for today, I made sure to print every possible thing I could, you may wipe off the gel and relieve yourself in the restroom through that door. We'll talk once you come back.” Dr. Ryugazaki said.Wiping off the gel and relieving himself never felt so good. With the overwhelming joy and excitement he was feeling he forgot how full his bladder actually was.“Alright now everything looked perfect, little miss is measuring at 17 weeks 6 days so just a little ahead than where I had thought but that’s perfectly fine. I’ve put your printed photos and DVD disc copy of today’s session in the envelope like last time so you can re watch later if you want.” Dr. Ryugazaki handed him a large envelope. “And you’re free to go once Nagisa-Kun has scheduled your next appointment in one months time.”“Thank you very much for today Dr. Ryugazaki and thank you for being here with me Nagisa!” Tadashi sniffled. “Oh Yama-Chan I couldn’t imagine missing out on this moment with you, thank you for allowing me to be here!” Nagisa sobbed and flung his arms around the other.“That’s quiet enough you two, Nagisa go make him appointment then you two can get out of here.”“But Rei-Chan I’m needed here for a few hours.”“Nonsense I can manage alone for 2 appointments, go enjoy your date just remember to come home to me later.”“Oh Rei-Chan no need to be jealous! Yama-Chan may be my bestie but you’ll always be my one love.”“I’m not jealous!” Dr. Ryugazaki blushed. “I meant come home to me later and tell me all about what you bought. Remember I need to make down his spending for the government.”“Sure Rei-Chan sure whatever you say.” Nagisa laughed and pulled on Tadashi's hand. “Lets go I know some great stores in the neighboring town for baby clothes! We should go check them out while you’re still small enough to hide it cause Rei-Chan says you shouldn’t travel too much once it becomes more noticeable.”“For safety purposes!” Dr. Ryugazaki intervenes. “Not everyone out there will take kindly to a pregnant male.”This saddens Tadashi of course there will be people out there who might want to harm him for the abomination he is. For the safety of his daughter though he won’t allow them.In the weeks since Tadashi has left Kei had fallen apart to the lowest of the low and now it may seem like he’s back on top where he was before but he’s only moving on auto pilot. It’s been seven weeks since Tadashi left and no one has heard a single thing about where he has run off to.Not even Daichi has found any leads who is a police officer but there’s only so much he can legally do since Tadashi left by choice.“Suga-San I really don’t need you to come check on me every day, between you and my brother I never have any time to myself.”“That’s the point Kei. You may do fine at work because you’re busy but at home when you have nothing to do your thoughts aren’t so kind to you.”“I’m not a child, I don’t need constant supervision!”“Oh Kei, no one is treating you like a child we're all just worried. Last week you forgot to eat for 3 days and passed out at work.”Kei could see where Suga was coming from but it still didn’t make it any easier to accept people in his personal space so often, he had to deal with people at work already more than he liked.“I know Daichi wasn’t much help but I still think we'll fund him sooner or later. You’ve tried his phone number calling and texting, how about emailing him?”“You think I’m dumb enough to have not tried that at least 5 times already?!” Kei shouted. “..sorry.”Suga wrapped his arms around a trembling Kei and squeezed tightly. “We will find him, I’ll help you search to the ends of the world for him if I have to.”
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"A girl Yama-Chan! I can’t believe it, it felt so unreal even while seeing her move up on the screen.”“I haven’t even felt her move at all yet so I was worried."“Don’t worry anymore baby girl was moving just perfectly on screen, everyone feels baby move at different times, plus you’re still fairly early on too some people won’t feel it till after 20 weeks their first time around.”Tadashi relaxed the more Nagisa talked.“I should really leave the car here for Rei-Chan in case of emergency but I can drive us in yours if you don’t mind since I know where we’re going.”“Sure that sounds great.” Tadashi replied as he dug put his keys from his pocket to pass to Nagisa.“Rei-Chan says we have to get you a new phone as well so he gave me the government card.”“Th..that's not really necessary.” Tadashi suddenly began to panic. He liked not having a phone, it made not reaching out to Kei that much more easier.“Nonsense if there’s an emergency you need to be able to reach Rei-Chan or if you need someone to talk with you can reach out to me, you know emotional support or to make fun plans they’ll never know.” Nagisa laughed sincerity.“Alright let’s go do some shopping for baby girl.”“Hotaru.”“Hm?”“Her name.. Hotaru, with the spelling like her father’s name.”“That’s perfect. Now then let’s go do some shopping for little Hotaru-Chan.”Shopping with Nagisa wasn’t what Tadashi expected. Nagisa was calm and very considerate. There was no yelling or over excitement, no tossing overly expensive items into the cart or even any items at all without consideration for the size, price and if Tadashi even liked said item.Tadashi was extremely great full to have some one like Nagisa by his side though he couldn’t help the tears that began to fall as he wished Kei was there with him.“Alright how about we call it a day? It’s been very emotional, we can shop another time ne?” Nagisa suggested as he rubbed Tadashi's back.Not trusting his words Tadashi nodded and wordlessly left Nagisa with his wallet to pay for the baby items while he went to the car.Oh Kai was this the right decision? I miss you so much, I don’t know if I’m strong enough to do this without you.
In that moment of doubt Tadashi felt little Hotaru move inside him as if encouraging him to keep going.The car ride home was silent as Tadashi sniffled and absent mindedly rubbed his tummy and when they got to Tadashi‘s new home Nagisa helped Tadashi inside and settled him in bed.“Rei-Chan is picking me up he finished early. I set up your new phone with a local number and put mine and Rei-Chan’s numbers inside plus the clinic number, I wrote your number down on the paper on the night stand.”Nagisa bent down a d hugged Tadashi tightly.“I wish I could be enough for you but I can see the hurt in your eyes and it hurts me. Yama-Chan you’ve become my best friend and I know you don’t want to but you need to reach out to someone from before. It doesn’t have to be Tsukishima but maybe your Mother or whoever was your closest friend. Tell them a little bit about what’s going on or don’t but just call and see how they’re doing and talk.”Letting go Nagisa stood up with tears in his eyes.“I hope you’ll manage to feel better, I’ll be here tomorrow morning to check on you, I have to go now bye-bye Yama-Chan!”The room was silent for a long time before Tadashi broke down even further. How could he possibly call anyone after leaving 7 weeks ago without a word to anyone not even his own mother. Pulling out his old phone Tadashi fiddled with the buttons scrolling through his contacts, taking a very few of them and adding them into his new phones phone book.
Do I even have the right to call any of them?
Pressing call Tadashi listened as the phone ring.“Hello Suga speaking. Hello? …”“…Suga-San..”“Tadashi?! Tadashi is that you?”“Suga-San!” Tadashi sobbed into the phone even louder.“Tadashi are you alright? Where are you? I’ll come to you immediately!”“You can’t.. Suga I can’t. I miss Kei so much.. how do I live without him by my side.”“Calm down, tell me where you are please Tadashi.”“I can’t, no one can know. I’m a monster.”“What do you mean Tadashi I don’t understand. Do you know what Kei is going through right now. He’s sick with worry looking for you. Please tell me where you are so I can come get you.”“I’m having a baby! ..I can’t go back to Kei!”“A baby?! Tadashi how.. you?”“It wasn’t planned, Suga-San I miss Kei so much it hurts to even breathe without him by my side.”“Call him. I’m sure even with this he’ll…”“NO!” Tadashi shouted. “I’m sorry Suga-San but you absolutely can’t tell Kei I called.”“I don’t know if I can keep the promise Tadashi.”“You have to! He hates children Suga-San and my daughter deserves nothing but love.”“Daughter?! Tadashi are you being serious?”“We found out today, I’m naming her Hotaru.”“Hotaru as in?”“Yes the same spelling as Kei. I love him still.”“And your partner is okay with this.”“It’s my choice I’ll be caring for her alone after all.”“Tadashi please just tell me where you are I promise I won’t tell Kei your location.”“I’m hours away by train, somewhere safe. I’ve made a new friend, he’s a little loud sometimes but he really cares for us and has helped me settle my new life here.”“I’d like to say I’m happy for you Tadashi but if you’re hurting so much over Kei you should call him.”“I absolutely won’t call him!”“So stubborn.”“I’m sorry Suga-San I have to go now.”“Take care Tadashi and please call again.”
Oh Tadashi what have you gotten yourself into, my poor boy.
“Tsukishima here.”“Kei Tadashi just called me.”“Suga-San? Wait did you just say Tadashi called you? Where is he?”“Yes I don’t know where he is he refused to tell me but Kei listen to me he still loves you and misses you everyday.”Kei tries his hardest to hold himself together but the tears fall.“Then why, why did he leave?! Shit.” Sniffling Kei digs around in his pocket for a tissue to blow his nose.“The reasons are a bit complicated.”“He told you why he left?!”“Please calm down Kei.”“Tell me Suga-San, why, why did Tadashi leave me? Especially if he says he loves and misses me.”“Baby.”“I’m sorry what was that?”“Tadashi said it was unplanned but he’s having a baby.”
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A baby... had Suga really said Tadashi was having a baby? He had cheated on him, with a girl and had gotten her pregnant. Something just wasn't settling with him. Tadashi is gay, would he sleep with a woman even if he had gotten drunk and made the mistake once. When would he have even had the chance to get so drunk? They were always together, the only time they weren't together was when they were working."Kei I can practically hear your thoughts. We don't know the situation, Tadashi didn't tell me much in the few minutes I had him on the phone." "He.. cheated on me?""I don’t know the details but according to him he'll be raising baby alone after they're born.""He could have stayed!""Apparently you hate children so that’s why he ran away without a word.""I.. well I don’t particularly like children but Tadashi's would be different!""I’m so glad you said that. Now as for where he is, he only mentioned being hours away by train. So I don’t know where he is but I do have the number he called me from. I’ll give it to you and you can decide if you want to call him or what from there.""He probably doesn't want to hear from me, otherwise he would have called me not you, better yet he wouldn't have even left in the first place if he still wanted anything to do with me.""Now you know that's not true. He told me very clearly that he still loved and missed you. He said he's safe and briefly mention making a new friend that has been helping him adjust to the move but other than that the call was..."Tsukishima had blocked out the rest of what was said. Had Tadashi moved on already?"Kei.. Kei? You there? KEI!""A new.. friend?" Tsukishima swallowed thickly.Suga can't help but shake his head and sigh, because of course that was all Kei got out of what he said. "Just friends from the sound of it. He was crying quite a bit, in clear distress over missing you.""If he misses me so much why hasn't he reached out to me!? He's been gone for almost 2 months and nothing! Doesn't he understands that I'm nothing without him?!""Listen Kei, I know you're upset but snapping at me isn't going to help and it's certainly not going to make me want to continue to help you!" Suga can hear Tsukishima sniffling loudly on the other end of the phone, his own heart breaking for a man he has grown to see as one of his closest friends."As I've said we don't know the circumstances behind what is going on. Until Tadashi says anymore I will believe that there was no ill intentions behind what has happened. Once again it was very clear that he still loved you and misses you greatly, the fact that he will be raising the baby alone after they're born means he's not in a relationship with the mother and she wants nothing to do with the baby after they're born.""Meaning he can come back home.. back to me.""He could, possibly. However, Tadashi is very worried with the fact that you don't like children and honestly I can't blame him. Everyone who knows you knows how you feel about them, so I don't think he will just come home on his own after the baby is born." Suga takes a deep breath before continuing."There's also just the very existence of the child to think of, how they came to be. Tadashi said it wasn't planned but that was all he said to me. No matter how I look at it I can't picture him cheating on you, especially with a woman with how gay he is.""He wouldn't just leave me for some strangers child though, I'd like to believe we had more than that.""No I agree with you, I think there's something we're missing but what I just don't know.""So what should I do to get him back?""That's a good question, but I think you should think about IF you will take him back."Tsukishima feels his face heat with anger, never did he think he'd hear something like that from Suga. "What the hell kind of question is that!? Of course I will take him back! He's my everything!" "No Kei you don't get it! This child means enough to Tadashi for him to leave you the way he did! You wouldn't be taking only him back, he said he will be raising this child alone after they're born, meaning if he comes back the child will come with him. Can you accept that child and raise them as your own? Even if it means facing the reality of Tadashi having possibly cheated on you look you in the face every day?""I still love him, even if he cheated on me that hasn't changed!""Yes but can you love the child as well? Can you accept that Tadashi will love them in a special way like he loves you? Can you accept sharing your time and that you will become a parent, a parent to someone else's child? What if they come out looking exactly like their mother, they will only serve as a reminder of something painful for you, you can't hold any resentment towards an innocent child. That child deserves to be raised with nothing but love. Will you be able to do that?"Tsukishima feels himself drawing a blank, none of that even crossed his mind, he only thought of getting Tadashi back."For now Kei that is something you really need to think long and hard about before I give you his number.""I.. I.." The words he's trying to say won't form, he wants to shout that of course he would be able to care for Tadashi's child, but could he really? Tsukishima never wanted children and being that he was gay he never felt the need to think about the possibility of having them."It's alright Kei, I don't know how far along the pregnancy is but this is important, you need to think it over carefully before you reach out, so please don't rush. I also think we should keep this between the two of us until you speak with Tadashi. We don't know the whole situation and I don't feel like it's our right to tell anyone else just yet, hopefully he will forgive me for telling you."Words still not finding him all Tsukishima can do is nod."Kei? I know you have a lot to think about so I'm hanging up now, I'll be by tomorrow evening with Daichi for dinner though. Please get some rest and don't hesitate to call me if you need to talk okay.""Yes goodnight Suga-San.""Goodnight Kei."After the line cut out signaling that Suga had hung up Tsukishima finally drops down to the floor, the tension leaving his body right away. Hiding his face in his hands he allows to really break down.
'How could you do this to us Tadashi? What am I suppose to do now? I can't live without Tadashi but can I really raise a child?'
After quickly hanging up on Suga Tadashi rolls over and clutches Kei's sweater, bringing it up to his face and breathing in deeply only to be disappointed with the fact that the last of the smell of his beloved is gone.
'Just what am I doing? I left him like he was nothing but here I am crying into his sweater like he's the one who left me!'
Reaching back around for his phone Tadashi logs into his email. There's the usual messages but just a few messages in and his breadth is caught in his throat. Kei had emailed him, multiple times in fact. Tears form in his eyes as he clicks the oldest message.It's lengthy and doesn't make a whole lot of sense, like it was typed and sent in a panic, the next few are pretty much the same way. All asking where he is, if he's safe, asking for him to return home and finally apologizing for every small little thing in detail that Tadashi had already forgotten that they fought over. The most recent message being from this morning only saying three words."I will wait"
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Kei had been sending him emails daily since he had left, often more than once a day but they had stopped in the last few days since Tadashi had actually checked his email. Panic was beginning to set in for Tadashi, thoughts that either something was gravely wrong or maybe Kei was simply already tired of waiting for him and had decided to move on. But what could he do? It's not like I can just call him to check up. Feeling the weight of everything he decided to message Nagisa and ask if he and Rei would like to finally come over for the dinner they had talked about weeks ago. The reply was almost instant and of course it being from Nagisa Tadashi could feel the excitement from the positive response.At least now he had something to do to keep his mind occupied. Gathering his keys and wallet he made his way to the store and back quickly with some essentials for dinner. He'd make them a nice traditional Japanese dinner, to show thanks for everything they've done for him. Nagisa had truly become his best friend since moving, Tadashi can't even count the number of times Nagisa has been there to help as a distraction, make him laugh and over all Just be there for him. Even Rei has shown silent support rubbing small circles on his back while Tadashi just cried randomly, only once saying that hormones during pregnancy were very uncontrollable so to not feel bad and Just cry if he needed to. He really felt as if he wouldn't have been able to make it this far without the help of these two people to help guide him.Moving around on auto pilot Tadashi almost missed the knock on the door to indicate they had arrived, looking at the clock it was now 5 pm so they had arrived right on time.Opening the door to flowers however was not something he had expected."Yama-Chan! These are for you! I hope you like them!""Nagisa-Kun you don't need to shout as soon as he opens the door, it's very rude.""I can't help but be excited though, oh how I missed my bestie and my little Hotaru-Chan!" A very excited Nagisa made his way inside flowers pushed into Rei's arms and gently rubbing the noticeable pregnancy bump.This had become very normal for them, at first Tadashi will admit it was a little weird but now that little Hotaru has become more active he's grown to love the attention for her from his new best friend."I'm sure she's missed you as well, she's been quite active today, she must have known you were coming." Nagisa's positive attitude is so infectious Tadashi has already lifted up a great deal in the mere minute he's been in the door."She has me wrapped around her sweet little finger already, I brought future gifts." Quickly turning to look Tadashi noticed the bags and bags Rei was struggling to hold along side the flowers."I.. I can't accept all that."Nagisa waves his hands brushing the statement off, finally taking pity on his beloved and helping him through the door."Nonsense. It's not as much as it looks and besides I really do love you two.""Yes please accept them. Not from your Dr and his receptionist but from your.. friends. You truly have brought a great deal of light to our life." What was Tadashi suppose to say to that? The usual stoic Rei was standing there with such a sincere smile on his face after that statement. Tears bloomed in his eyes as he slowly nodded."Now now don't cry." Nagisa pulled him into a hug after seeing the flower case down on the entry table. "Everything Rei-Chan said it's true... besides if you really don't like the stuff you can blame him, he's the one who picked most of it." It was meant to be a whisper but Rei heard him as he was walking by."Nagisa-Kun!""What? It's the truth Rei-Chan, you picked out way more than I did this time. Even after you told me not to go overboard!" Nagisa laughed as Rei's face turned flush and he looked away."I only picked what was necessary and practical after great consideration.""Whatever you say Rei-Chan. Come now Yama-Chan I'll help you with dinner." "Oh no need." Tadashi said as he wiped his tears. "Dinner actually just finished as you guys showed up, things just need to be plated. I hope traditional Japanese cuisine is okay with the both of you.""Sounds just perfect! Yama-Chan out the bags on the couch and let's get to eating, I'm starving!"The rest of dinner was quiet and pleasant. Minimal conversation went on but it was clear his company loved his cooking by the looks on their faces as they ate. After dinner Rei offered to do dishes, Tadashi had tried to decline the offer but Nagisa was having none of it, insisting they go sit and he put up his feet as the two of them went through the bags of baby things.IWho was Tadashi to reject that offer, he couldn't deny his feet were tender after shopping and being on his feet to cook. Tsukishima had taken another couple of days off of work, he had to after his call with Suga. Unlike before though he was stable, waking up on time, eating his meals and taking care of his hygiene but nothing more than that. He couldn't get what Suga said out of his mind. He found himself in deep thought for most of the day. Just what else could he do right now? He figured his first step in all of this mess was accepting that Tadashi had somehow cheated on him with a girl, one time or multiple times it didn't matter, what mattered was that she was pregnant now. It didn't seem logical no matter how he looked at it but there was no other logical explanation.So could he accept that he had been cheated on? Well it was with a female not another male so that somehow didn't feel as bad in his heart. He'd never known Tadashi to be sexually attracted to a female before though, was it a drunken mistake? The more he thought about it the more he couldn't picture it. Tadashi was his everything in life and when Tadashi vowed to never love another not even a fraction of his heart didn't believe that.There had to be some more unknown information he was missing, The logical side of his mind just couldn't figure it out at this moment, he had time though. For the sake of this thought process though he decided to image Tadashi had gotten drunk and cheated on him one time, after all it only takes one time to get pregnant. Tadashi is the type to take responsibility, Tsukishima could easily picture Tadashi begging the other party to let him raise the child without an ounce of anything from them. Now that he had a clear thought in his mind of how things could have come to be he had to think of if he could forgive him.The answer itself was easy, yes. He still loved Tadashi just as much as he did before any of this happened. Nothing inside his heart had changed. Sure he was hurting that much was clear but there was just no way he could move on in his life without Tadashi by his side. Tadashi was sill very much his everything despite what was now going on.Now the next logical step was to think of the child. What Suga had said to him really struck him deeply. Was he capable of raising someone else's child, a child that belonged to Tadashi he would love but this isn't his and Tadashi's child but someone else's.The child could come out covered in freckles and be the spitttng image of Tadashi, that would make things easy, but what if they looked nothing like Tadashi, what if they took after their mother? Could he look at the child everyday and love them unconditionally like they deserve? There was so much to think about, no matter how much he loved Tadashi and wished he would come home to him he couldn't rush this thought process. He needed to carefully think of everything for all of their sakes.
Tadashi I hope you are at least well wherever you are, I miss you so.
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The days without Kei's emails turned to weeks and now more than a month has passed since the last one. Everyday Tadashi struggled to cope with the feeling of missing a piece of himself. However he couldn't just sit back and mope, he had to take care of himself and prepare for the arrival of his daughter.The government had requested more frequent updates, him now being 27 weeks along, making him the fourth longest male pregnancy to survive. Rei was having him come in every two weeks which Tadashi didn't mind cause this meant he could see the progress of his daughter. It also got him out of the house, being 27 weeks along meant he was showing a great deal and was no longer allowed to go out and about alone and where he was allowed to go wss limited to the Drs office, as the government feared the public.Tadashi mostly spent his time alone at home, online shopping and telling stories of Kei to his daughter. Nagisa visited daily and they've begun talks of starting to decorate the nursery but Tadashi couldn't bring himself to start. In his mind decorating the room felt more permanent, like once it was done he would have to stay there, he really could no longer go back to Kei's side, even though he already knew that he couldn't go back. "Yama-Chan, you really can't keep going as you have been.""I don't understand, is something wrong?""You tell me. You're right beside me but the last few weeks you've been somewhere else. I can't sit by and watch you die inside any longer. You're my best friend, I thought maybe you looked at me the same way.""Of course I do!""Then why don't you ever tell me what's bothering you! It hurts to be sitting right beside you laughing but your smile doesn't reach your eyes!" Nagisa rubs away the tears in his eyes. "I thought you just needed more time but It's only getting worse. I don't know how to help you if you don't tell me what's wrong. Please open up to me."What was he doing? Hurrying his best friend like this without even realizing it. Carefully adjusting himself Tadashi sat closer and pulled the crying Nagisa as close as his belt would allow him."I'm so sorry Nagisa. I.. I.. It's just i miss Kei so much. I'm trying to move on but it's so hard." Tears come to Tadashi as well as Nagisa carefully pulls away to face him."You know you don't have to move on. I promised Rei-Chan I wouldn't but into your personal life much more because we technically met in a professional setting but things have changed,you've become such an important part of my life and it hurts me that you're hurting this much. So I'm just going to ask, why did you leave him if you miss him so much? Did he not want the baby? If he's that much of a bastard you really should move on, you deserve better!"Hearing Nagisa call Kei a bastard just makes Tadashi cry even more. He was such a coward, he never even told Kei about the baby, could things have gone differently if he did? Even if there was a small chance that Kei would have accepted the baby the chance of him not wanting it was just too large and Tadashi couldn't take that risk. His heart just couldn't."He's not such a bad guy. I'm just a coward.""I don't understand. It takes a great deal of courage to do what you did for your baby.""No. I'm the worst kind of coward. I.. I never told Kei about the baby. Kei has never liked children, even as a kid he couldn't stand being around many his own age, according to his mother he has been that way since he was old enough to realize his surroundings. Adoption has been questioned in the past by family since we're both men but Kei has always quick to shoot it down...When I found out I was carrying our baby I couldn't bring myself to tell him. This baby is a miracle, a being that shouldn't have come to exist but somehow did. I instantly loved them but what if he couldn't? If Kei were to tell me he didn't want them I never would have been able to recover. So I left after Dr Nakamura told me of a specialist hours away better equipped to help me reach term and deliver my baby. I waited until Kei was asleep and then quietly packed what I could on my own and left.I wrote Kei a note asking him to move on and not look for me. I thought once I was out here for a while things would get easier but.. I checked my email the night we got the new phone and Kei emailed me dozens of times then all of a sudden stopped. I can't help my anxiety thinking he's moved on. It's unfair of me I know, he's just doing what i told him to but it doesn't hurt any less. I still love him!"surroundings"Oh Yama-Chan, I had no idea you were carrying such a heavy burden in your heart. Although I don't agree with how you did things I understand why you did them. Isn't there another way though to help you get more closure? Have you reached out to him out anyone from back home since coming here?" "The night we got the phone before I checked my email I did make a call. An old senpai from the volleyball team, he really was our team mom, the person I was the closest too after Kei. I told him I was safe but not where and I mentioned the baby but didn't tell him any specifics. Logically he probably thinks I cheated on Kei but I'm okay with that, if it means he'll look after Kei for me.""That's no good Yama-Chan. I understand wanting to make sure your beloved is taken care of but you need to be taken care of too. I think you need better closure. I'm not exactly sure how but something else needs to happen before Hotaru-Chan is born. You can't live like this one she's here, you need to be at your best to take care of her.""..You're right. Thanks Nagisa. It's not much but I feel better after letting all that out." "That's what I'm here for! Now how about I order us some take out and we get started moving things around in your bedroom, you said tracking showed that her crib will be here tomorrow right? Let's get the room ready and tomorrow we'll start setting up her things."Tadashi smiles and nods because what else can he do when Nagisa smiles so brightly at him, he really is infectious. "Okay but I'm craving some fried rice so you better know a good place around here.""Leave it to me! I know the perfect place!"It was fairly easy to get the rim ready to accommodate a crib being Tadashi didn't have much furniture to begin with. Nagisa insisted on doing all the moving while Tadashi wiped away any dust, the room sparkled when they were done. They enjoyed dinner together and Rei came to pick up Nagisa after the clinic closed.After his night time bath Tadashi rubbed lotion on his growing belly in hopes of avoiding stretch marks and read a bed time story to aloud to Hotaru because Rei had told him that her ears were developed enough to most likely hear his voice now. It had become his nightly routine. However tonight after he was done reading he found himself staring at a blank email with the thought of proper closure on his mind. A quick email wouldn't hurt anyone right? He could do that. Tsukishima went back to his daily life of work and taking care of himself enough to survive but still thought of Tadashi and the baby everyday, I his every spare moment and sometimes in times when he really should have been being productive with other things. The time just kept on going by but he didn't feel like he was really getting any closer to an answer.While he distanced from his brother and mother once again it was clear that he was no longer in danger of neglecting himself to the point of damaging his health so his family backed off. His families willingness to give him space was also probably thanks to the fact that Suga had been visiting him every few days to check him, often coming over for dinner with Daichi. Not that Tsukishima minded, they were always welcome in his home. Besides they served for a great distraction for his mind and when he felt that he needed someone to talk to Suga was there for him, being that he was still the only other person that knew what was really going on. They didn't often talk about Tadashi, this was really a decision he needed to come to on his own, without the influence of others because it was life altering. Thankfully Suga seemed to understand that because he never pestered him to talk about it, he only reminded him every once in a while that he was there to listen. Which is why Tsukishima was now sitting on his couch with Suga, silently looking off to the side to avoid eye contact. Sure he had called him over by choice because he wanted to talk but this was too much for him to handle. How do people just casually open up to others? It's something he'll probably never understand."Kei, I've been trying to be patient with you because I know the situation is tricky and you're not really an open book type of guy but we've been sitting here silently for almost twenty minutes. It's okay if you need more time to gather your thoughts but do you mind if I order some take out? It's dinner time and the daycare was hectic today so I didn't get to fully enjoy my lunch.""Oh of course, I'll just grab the menus.""It's fine, I'll grab them you sit. You seem to have a lot on your mind, so take some more time to gather your thoughts. Any preference for dinner? If not I'll just order a variety for the two of us to share.""Anything's fine.. actually could you order some fried rice?" "Sure thing Kei, be right back." Tsukishima did his best to try and gather his thoughts as quickly as possible but before he realized it enough time had gone by that Suga had ordered food,it had been delivered and they were already eating. "You don't have to push yourself Kei, I'll listen to whatever you need me to even if it's unorganized and makes no sense. You have things you want to say, that's why you called me over right?" "Yes.""About Tadashi?""Yes.""That boy hasn't called me back even once since that first time, I've thought about calling him myself but I don't know if he realized calling me meant I'd have his number on my caller ID. I'd rather wait it out longer so I don't risk having no way to contact him in the future." "Suga-San, do you think I'd make an okay parent?" "Is that what's been worrying you? You a parent hm? Can't say I've ever thought someone would ask me that, especially you yourself.. do you want my honest thoughts?"Feeling his cheeks heat Tsukishima turned his face away and nodded. Then felt Suga push closer to him, wrapping an arm around his back."My opinion is really my own and doesn't really matter but for what it's worth.. I know you would make a great parent." The tears bein to flow as his heart seeks with thoughts of himself wrapped around Tadashi who is holding a and all child in his arms. "Thank you Suga-San." "You don't really have to thank me for anything, I'm Just telling it like it is." Suga smiles brightly and continues to cling on tightly to Tsukishima who is still crying.Suga has been gone for hours, Tsukishima still sits in the same place on the couch though. It's getting late and he should really go to sleep but he doesn't want to risk moving from this spot and losing this warm feeling in his chest. His mind just keeps thinking of himself with Tadashi and a child, it's such a different life from what he's always imaged but honestly it's not bad.Suddenly his phone flashes and dings, he's got a new email, he wants to ignore it thinking it's spam because of what time of night it is but what if it's about work tomorrow? Damn his responsible nature, he leaves his pleasant thoughts behind and switches to work mode as he reaches for his phone. Seeing the sender he drops the phone then quickly picks it back up and checks again."Tadashi." His hands are trembling as he clicks the message to open it. It's not a lengthy message but the message itself is enough. 'I need you.'Quickly getting up he races to his bedroom, he's found his answer finally."I'm coming Tadashi."
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He was being more than unfair and cowardly. The message was suppose to give him closure but no matter how much he thought and what he typed out in the end he really just needed Kei to know how he felt. Now all he could do was hope and wait for a reply. It was late though, there was a chance Kei was already asleep so he should try and sleep as well. Tucking the phone away Tadashi rubbed his belly as he felt their daughter move around inside him. "I hope your daddy can forgive me, even if he's not in our lives."Morning came faster than Tadashi was ready for, sure he slept but it didn't feel like it. His body ached, his ankles were swollen, his lower back hurt when he moved around and his stomach felt tight. He couldn't just sit around doing nothing though, that wasn't in his nature but maybe it was best to take it easy. After a simple breakfast Tadashi settled on the couch to sort and fold all of the baby clothes he had accumulated over the last few weeks, today was the perfect day to do so. He really had gotten so much, not only from himself but as a gift from Nagisa and Rei.Tadashi couldn't help busting out into laughter as he remembered how flushed Rei was as him and Nagisa went through the clothes and Nagisa pointed out everything that Rei had deemed a neccesity. The man really did pick out a lot but he couldn't be upset, everything was really adorable and he truly loved them both, so he graciously accepted everything. Clothes now put away in the dresser Nagisa and Rei had built for him the night before there was nothing left for him to do but wait for the delivery of the crib. Turning on the television Tadashi took out his phone to check his email, maybe Kei had gotten back to him before going into work.Nothing. No new messages. Maybe he just hasn't seen it yet? Chuckling slightly Tadashi placed the phone down and wiped the tears from his eyes. Who was he trying to kid? Of course Kei had seen it, he's not the type to ignore notifications because of his work. He either didn't know how to reply or simply didn't want to. Either way he deserved this. This pain.Hissing Tadashi rubbed at his belly. Maybe he should call Nagisa or Rei? Was the pain a normal part of pregnancy? He really had no idea. He didn't want to bother them but the pain was becoming intense. "Yama-Chan! Good morning!"Tadashi found it difficult to find words as he tried to breathe through the pain of the tightening in his stomach. "Hello? Yama-Chan? You there?" "Na..Nagisa..""Yama-Chan?! What's wrong?! You don't sound too well." "Hotaru.. somethings not right.. please help me.. hurts..""It's okay Yama-Chan! Rei-Chan! We need to go! We'll be right over okay? Stay right as you are! Hurry up Rei-Chan!" Laying back the best he could Tadashi couldn't calm down. What if something really was wrong? What if he loses her? Without ever even telling Kei about her.
Please someone save my baby girl.
Feeling his consciousness slip the last thing he remembers is hearing the front door crash open and two blurry images running towards him and then everything goes black. There's a warmth surrounding him and a single image in his mind, he's holding a little bundle of pink blankets, tiny visible hands waving about and Kei is with him, arms wrapped around his waist and they're both smiling looking down. Oh he must be dreaming, how he wishes to never wake up but the image is slowly fading and he can hear the frantic calls of Nagisa.Opening his eyes is harder than it should be. He can tell he's laying down tilted onto his left side, there's a slight sting in his wrist and someone squeezing his hand. Giving a light squeeze back he hopes they'll get the message that he's awake now or at least aware of his surroundings. "Yama-Chan? Are you awake?" He gives the hand another gentle squeeze."Oh thank god. We're at the clinic now. You were showing early labor signs so we had no choice but to bring you in. Don't worry though, Rei-Chan was able to get things under control and little Hotaru-Chan is just fine still inside your belly."He can hear Nagisa sniffling, it's quiet like he's trying to hide it though."You.. you really scared me calling like that and when we got to the house and saw you all pale I thought my heart was going to stop. Thank you for calling though! I.. I.. I have to go tell Rei-Chan that you're finally awake. He wanted to be told right away." With a final squeeze of the hand Nagisa let go and quietly left the room. Tadashi was finally able to open his eyes, looking down he saw the source of the sting in his wrist is from the IV line he was currently hooked up to. "How are you feeling Yamaguchi-Kun, are you experiencing any pain or discomfort?" Looking up he can see Rei and Nagisa are back in the room. He tries to speak but his throat is dry so he shakes his head and tries to clear his throat."Sorry, Nagisa-Kun do you mind getting him some water. I'd like to explain what happened." "Of course. I'll be right back Yama-Chan.""I apologize I should have had some water on hand but was unsure of how long you would be out." "It's fine, really.. " the words come though they're a whisper."Well to get right down to it, you went into preterm labor. You had a slight fever and were experiencing minor contractions that were consistent when we arrived. I've given you some fluids through IV for the fever and also some terbutaline to stop the contractions.The tightness you feel on your stomach currently is just monitor straps but thankfully they have not picked up anymore signs of contractions in the last hour. I'd like to monitor you and the little one for a bit longer and then we can do an ultrasound if that's alright with you?""Yes.""Good. Now if you'll excuse me for a moment."However instead of leaving the room like he thought Rei simply took off his Drs badge and crossed the room leaning down to carefully and awkwardly hug Tadashi. "I'm so happy we made it in time.""Ahem. Rei-Chan, your beloved is over here if I'm remembering correctly. Unless there's something you two need to tell me?""Ah! Of.. of course not Nagisa-Kun! Don't even joke like that! What's wrong with hugging an ill friend?" A very flushed Rei stood and spun around quickly distancing himself Tadashi."Nothing at all Rei-Chan." Nagisa smiles widely as he enters the room and holds a cup of water out, straw pointed towards Tadashi's mouth. "Sip slowly." He aims so the end of the straw goes into the mouth allowing Tadashi adequate time to drink before he pulls it away and sets it down on the table."How much longer till we go for the ultrasound? I can't wait to see how our girl is doing!" "I just told Yamaguchi-Kun that I'd like to monitor them for another hour, so let's say 8 p.m? I've got some paperwork to fill out but feel free to keep him company Nagisa-Kun, actually please do keep him company and let me know right away of even the slightest chang. He needs to be relaxing, so you must not over excite or stress him out." "I'll behave I swear it." Nagisa salutes and waves Rei off in a sarcastic way."I'm serious he must remain relaxed." "I'd never do anything to put them in danger Rei-Chan. Now off you go to your boring paperwork. Leave Yama-Chan to me. " Rei clips his badge back onto his shirt pocket. "Very well then. I'll be back by 8 to do the ultrasound." As soon as Rei has left the room Nagisa quickly but carefully climbs into the bed with Tadashi and cuddles in as close as he can without disrupting the monitors or hurting his friend."I'm so happy you're both okay. I was really worried something bad was going to happen to one if not both of you. But you know Rei-Chan said it's not uncommon for people to go into preterm labor, especially males because the body doesn't handle the stress as easily. Were you doing any heavy lifting or anything over stressful for your body?" "Not really? I woke up feeling off but decided to take it easy and fold the laundry to not stress myself out but still be productive. I sat down while I sorted and folded everything, only moved to put them in the dresser then sat back down to.. sat back down to.. to.. ""Yama-Chan?""I just wanted him to know how I felt!" Tadashi tried to yell but it came out like an angry whisper and then he started to cry."I don't really understand what you're saying but you have to keep calm Yama-Chan, calm for Hotaru-Chan. Breathe in and out with me.. that's it Yama-Chan." "Can I really raise our daughter alone?" "Hey now none of that, everything will be okay. Look at me Yama-Chan. " Tilting Tadashi's face up Nagisa wiped away the tears. "You aren't alone in this. Rei-Chan and I will be by your side for as long as you'll allow us to be. You are irreplaceable to the both of us and we are here for you. Tell me what you need and I'll do it.""I miss him Nagisa. I miss Kei so much.""I know I've suggested this in the past but why not try calling him?""I.. I emailed him last night but he hasn't replied.""It's only been a day then, that's not a long wait , he probably just hasn't seen it yet.""No, he's definitely seen it.. Kei.. he won't ignore email notifications ever because of work." "Then the next step is to call him and ask him what his deal is. Better yet I'll call him myself if you want, give him a piece of my mind.""A call would be too much. I really just need to learn to stand on my own two feet. Kei has been there for me to lean on since middle school.""You don't have to bear all Hotaru-Chan's weight alone though. I may be shorter than you but you can lean on me whenever she feels too heavy." The tears flow in a steady stream down his cheeks but he's smiling. "Nagisa you are one of the kindest people I've ever met him in my life, though I'm not sure what I did to deserve meeting you.""Kind people deserve to meet other kind people. That much should make sense to anyone.""Rei-Chan don't scare us like that!""Nagisa-Kun I thought you said you weren't going to over excite or stress him out? I leave for one hour and come back to find the both of you crying in bed. Care to explain yourself?""It's okay Rei, Nagisa didn't do anything wrong, I feel much better than earlier."Entering the room fully Rei hummed as he looked along the monitor strip."Very well, the strip shows no more signs of contractions and a steady heartbeat for the little miss. Nagisa-Kun please untangle yourself from poor Yamaguchi-Kun and properly unhook him while I grab the wheelchair." "Guess that means we should get up.""Yeah! It's ultrasound time!" "Please don't shout Nagisa-Kun. Shall we Yamaguchi-Kun?" Rei holds his hand out to help him up off the bed and into the wheelchair. "Suga-San please give me the number that Tadashi called you from.""Are you sure you've made your decision? You can't go back once you contact him.""With all due respect Suga-San, Tadashi needs me and I need him, I need them both."Suga digs around in his pocket with one hand to find the folded paper that has the number already written down as he smiles and uses the other hand to pat Tsukishima on the arm. "You know, you grew up to be a fine man." "I had great senpai to guide me." Tsukishima smiles as he accepts the folded paper."So what's your plan, will you call him right away?" "No. Tadashi told me that he needed me. So I'm going to go to him."
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"Go to him? How will you manage that, we have no idea where he is right now.""This number is registered to somewhere, I'll hire someone if need be if it makes things go quicker.""Don't you think that's a little extreme?""Extreme? Maybe it is." Tsukishima scoffs. "But I can't wait any longer to have him back in my arms. Now I have to get going if I'm going to find a reputable place by nightfall.""When you find him please let me know.. I won't accompany you unless you ask, I just want to know that he's safe. Off you go now, take care of yourself and your family.""Of course. See you later Suga-San."Arriving home the first thing Tsukishima did was take out his laptop and open up a search engine to type in the number. Yielding no results he decided it might be best if he asked for help after all. Digging out his cell phone he was tempted to call the number, after all it would be quickest to just ask where he is, but decided against it. This is a talk we need to have in person. Scrolling through his contact list, he stopped at a certain persons contact. He didn't want to make this call but if anyone would be able to help him it was him. Pressing call he listened as the phone rang a handful of times before a very loud voice answered."Hello! To what do I owe the pleasure?""I'll cut right to the chase, I need your help Kuroo-San.""Oya, oya, oya?""More specially I need Kenma.""I haven't heard from you in since your promotion and you only call me to speak to Kenma? I'm hurt Tsukki."Tsukishima grit his teeth tightly, remembering how much this man annoyed him, but Tadashi was worth it. Taking a few deep breaths Tsukishima sighed, he could appease this annoyance for now."Please.. it's important." "Very well since you asked nicely. You owe me one though, Kenma has been on a programming streak for his new game and told me not to bother him.""Thank you.""Damn it must be really important, I can't remember the last time you thanked me, one sec." Tsukishima could tell Kuroo had covered the speaker of the phone but he could still make out the words on the other end."Kuroo I told you not to bother me.""I have Tsukki on the phone here, says he needs to talk to you.""Tsukishima? .. You'll be sorry if you're lying to me and it's really Bokuto again. I won't tolerate it while I'm trying to finalize this game.""I know kitten, he says it's important or else I wouldn't bother you right now.""Very well..." There was something muffling sounds and then a much quieter voice full of skepticism on the phone. "Tsukishima?""Yes I'm here.""Hm.. you've survived this time Kuroo, now out, I'll bring you back the phone when we're done.. So Tsukishima what can I do for you?""I need your help. I'm not sure how far the news has traveled but I'll give you the quick version. Tadashi left me a few months ago, with no warning, didn't tell anyone where he was going and ignored everyone who tried to reach out to him. However he reached out to me by email last night and I now have a phone number from Suga-San when Tadashi recently contacted him. I tried searching the number online but had no luck." "So you'd like me to give it a go?""Yes. Is that something you can do?""Why don't you just call him since you have the number?""There are circumstances I'd wish to not disclose to anyone till we speak and it's a conversation that needs to be done in person. His email was 'I need you', so I'm taking that as my invitation to go to him.""Very well. Give me the number and I'll see what I can do.""..Thank you Kenma.""No need to thank me, it'll be interesting to see what I can come up with. I'll contact you once I'm satisfied with my findings. Goodbye Tsukishima.""Goodbye."Quick and to the point like always, that's what Tsukishima liked about Kenma, how he managed to put up with Kuroo was beyond him.Sitting back he got his laptop back out and decided it was best to focus on work. He usually followed the no work at home policy Tadashi made so they made sure to always have time together but right now he needed the distraction and it was best to get ahead of things since he would be needing to take time off once again.Tsukishima lost himself in his work, two days passed by the time Kenma got back to him. "I'm not sure if I have what you're looking for our not. The number isn't registered to Yamaguchi. It's registered to a Hazuki Nagisa from XX prefecture, I have an address if you want it.""Yes please. Thank you again.""Yes well don't hesitate to call again if you need further help. Goodbye Tsukishima.""Goodbye."He had an address, not for Tadashi but for one Hazuki Nagisa. Who were they to Tadashi? Was this the mother of the child? Regardless of who they were they're close enough for Tadashi to use their phone so they should be able to tell him where Tadashi is.Tsukishima looked up the area, it was pretty rural but the train did stop directly there and they did have a small inn he could stay in if need be, looks like luck was finally on his side. Getting up Tsukishima started to pack his bag, some toiletries, his ID, enough clothes for a few days along with his laptop and his devices chargers. Then he was out the door to catch the next train.While on the train he took the time to message Ennoshita telling him he would once again be off work but would be staying on top of things from at home and able to be reached by phone. Thankfully he was good at his job so he didn't really have to worry about being fired despite taking so much time off lately. Once things were settled for work he also messaged Suga.'I'm on my way to hopefully see Tadashi. He should be in our around XX prefecture, though I won't know for sure till I'm there.'The reply came quickly.'Keep me updated! I'll keep my phone on in case you need me.''Will do.'The rest of the ride Tsukishima spent looking through the photos on his phone. He didn't often allow his photo to be taken but he sure did take plenty of photos of Tadashi over the years. His favorite was one Suga had taken of the two of them together and sent him afterwards. It was of the two of them standing side by side in front of the largest dinosaur skeleton, the night of their celebration for his promotion, holding up his new name plate which Tadashi had gifted him. Time flew by as he looked at the photos and before he knew it he had reached his destination, but what was he to do now that he was there? Being as rural as it was he didn't expect google maps would help him reach the address. The most logical thing would be to walk towards town and ask a local for directions once he came across someone. So that's what he did, however he didn't see anyone in the streets. The next most logical thing was to go into a shop and ask a worker. He ducked into a small cafe that was mostly empty and walked up to the counter."Hello what can I get for you today?" Behind the counter stood a small brunette older woman."I'm sorry I'm actually looking for directions. I'm visiting a friend but they didn't give me very good directions and my phone died on the train ride here. I'm trying to find 123 XX, do you know the way by chance?""Of course my dear! Out the door turn left and go to the end and then turn right. You'll notice the sign outside.""Thank you very much. I'll be sure to come back and order something before I return home." "Take care on your way dear."Tsukishima felt bad for lying to the older woman but what else was he suppose to say? He had a friend illegally look into private masters so he could track down the where abouts of his boyfriend? Yeah not happening. Doing as he was told Tsukishima followed the road to the end and turned right onto a smaller side street. He didn't know what she meant by sign but he noticed the street was the one he was looking for so he figured he would just look for the right number on the outside of the building.What he wasn't expecting was for the address to be for a medical clinic. Did Kenma get it wrong? No there's no way this has to be the place. Maybe Hazuki owns the place? Taking a deep breath Tsukishima walked through the door and up to the front desk where a small blonde man sat back to looking at his phone.
He must not have heard me come in.
Clearing his throat loudly he waited for the man to turn around."Oh I'm so sorry! I wasn't expecting.." The man turned around and his eyes went wide and his jaw went slack making him stop mid sentence just staring at Tsukishima."Is something the matter?"The blonde shook his head wildly and slapped his cheeks a few times before looking back up at him causing Tsukishima confusion. "Y.. you.. you!" Slamming his hands on the desk the man quickly got up and ran around the back making Tsukishima even more confused and some what freaked out. Said man re appeared in front of him and grabbed onto his arms."Ne you're Tsukishima Kei right?" Stunned Tsukishima didn't know what to do or say so he just nodded his head."I knew it! You haven't changed at all since I saw your match against Shiratorizawa! Ah! Are you here to see Yama-Chan? Did he finally call you? I knew you would come if he called. But why are you here here?""I'm sorry who are you and how do you know Tadashi?"The blonde man finally let go of him and held out his hand in greeting. "Ah! My bad, I got too excited. My names Hazuki Nagisa, please call me Nagisa, and Yama-Chan is my best friend. Did he not mention me?"Tsukishima just stares ahead at the hands held out to him. Hazuki Nagisa was not the mother of the child, not even a woman at all but the friend Tadashi had mentioned to Suga on the phone. Letting out a long breath he finally took the hand and shook it."Thank you for taking care of Tadashi while he's been here. I.. Tadashi.. " Tsukishima let out an embarrassing frustrated groan and rubbed the back of his neck and looked away. "Tadashi doesn't know I'm here. He emailed me a few nights ago so I got a number off our senpai who he called recently and I just sort of followed the number here, to this address in hopes of finding him.""That's.. that's so romantic!" Nagisa flung his arms around Tsukishima and patted his back. "Give me a couple minutes to tell Rei-Chan I'm leaving and I can bring you by his place. You two really do need to talk." Then as quick as he appeared in front of Tsukishima he disappeared out back leaving Tsukishima once again stunned. Damn this little blonde really reminded of Hinata, they probably weren't going to get along very well but at least he was going to bring him to Tadashi. Readjusting his back on his shoulder he gripped at his chest, feeling his heart begin to beat like crazy. He was finally going to see Tadashi again."Alright Tsukki Rei-Chan gave me the go ahead to leave so let's go, did you come by car or train?""Train." He was irritated by the over friendly use of the nickname but wasn't in the mood to fight it."Perfect. I'll drive in our car, it's about a ten minute drive so not far. Come on." Nagisa grabbed him by the arm and led him back outside to a small white car and instructed him to sit in the front passenger seat."I'm happy you came, overly happy, way more happy then needed. I'll say this once though and now before we get there. Yama-Chan isn't up to par right now, he's on bed rest and not suppose to be getting stressed out. Rei-Chan would probably be really mad at me if he knew I was bringing you there right now after what happened, but judging by the fact that you came here on your own means you want to work things out. Plus with how Yama-Chan talks about you, I know this will be good for him.However. If you do anything to hurt them I won't hesitate to kill you on the spot. Our town is small but I've been here long enough to know where to hide your body so it'll never be found. Understand?"Nagisa smiled over at him but Tsukishima couldn't feel any warmth behind it, in fact he was chilled to the bone by the threat made by the small and seemingly innocent man. Clearing his throat he pulled himself together to process what he was told before the threat."Is Tadashi ill?""I'll let him explain things to you, just know that's important he not be stressed out. We're here now," They pulled up to a small but well kept traditional Japanese style house. "but I'll ask you to wait outside for a moment so I can get him ready and then I'll come back out for you." Nagisa said as he got out the car. Tsukishima followed him in getting out to stretch his legs and retrieve his bag from the back."I'm not kidding around, wait outside till I get him ready, I may be small but that won't stop me from laying you out.""No I just.. I just want you to know I would never do anything to hurt him. So I'm fine waiting out here till you say I can go in and see him."Nagisa smiled widely. "I'll be back out soon, don't wonder off." It had been few days since he emailed Kei and there was still no reply. He really had messed things up, he should have just talked to him before deciding to leave but there was no point in regretting it now, after all he couldn't go back in time and it was obvious Kei wanted nothing to do with him now. He needed to move on.After breakfast Tadashi had watched some tv in the living room, feet propped up as per Drs orders, getting up only to have lunch. Rei had told him he wanted him to be on bed rest for at least a week, it was killing him with boredom, but he would do anything if it meant keeping his daughter safely growing inside him till she was ready to come out.There was a knock at the door while he was flipping through the channels to find something good to watch after lunch. It was Nagisa's signature knock so there was no need to panic when he heard the door unlock and open. "Yama-Chan?""In the living room Nagisa!" He replied and was soon greeted by his friend who ran to him to gently hug him and then greet his daughter with a belly rub."Yama-Chan! Hotaru-Chan! How I've missed you both so!"Tadashi chuckled, Nagisa said the same thing every time they saw each other but weirdly enough Tadashi could just feel that Nagisa really meant it."What brings you here this afternoon Nagisa? I thought you and Rei were coming over later for dinner?""Sadly I think we're going to miss dinner tonight, so I came with a surprise!" "A surprise?""It's mostly for you but also for Hotaru-Chan. Just one second." Getting up Nagisa took off quickly disappearing into the bedroom and coming back with the comforter. Tadashi just looked at him very confused as Nagisa held it out to him."Thanks? It's not exactly cold in here though Nagisa.""Haha! Oh this isn't the surprise! I need to make some adjustments before I go get your surprise. Please sit up in the middle of the couch, legs tucked up off the floor and crossed." Getting up was a struggle with his belly now but it was much easier with Nagisa there to assist him. He settled back down in the center of the couch and let Nagisa help him situate his legs. Nagisa then proceeded to wrap the blanket around his back, up over his shoulders and pulled the ends to cover his front."Perfect. Now close your eyes and don't move. I need to run outside for just one second then I'll be right back in." Tadashi was utterly confused but decided to just go with it, Nagisa wouldn't hurt them. So he nodded pulling the blanket tighter around him and closed his eyes.Listening he heard the front door open then close, then a minute later the door opened and closed again. He could hear shuffling and feel the presence of someone standing in front of him, he was tempted to open his eyes but kept them closed not wanting to ruin the surprise Nagisa seemed to excited to give him."Okay you can open your eyes now Yama-Chan."
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Taking a few deep breaths Tadashi slowly opened his eyes only to quickly close them once again. What he had seen before him was not Nagisa at all but Kei. Which should be impossible, after all Kei didn't even know where he was, maybe he was hallucinating?"Tadashi?"That was definitely Kei's voice. Slowly opening his eyes again Tadashi peeked up at the face of the person standing in from of him. It was in fact Kei standing in front of him. In a panic Tadashi pulled the blanket even tighter around his front, to keep his now very prominent belly hidden and looked around the room for Nagisa."If you're looking for Nagisa he stepped back outside after telling you to open your eyes, to give us a few mins to talk in private.""W..why?""You said you needed me and well I needed you as well so I came.""H..how?""You called Suga-San which meant he had your number on his caller ID, he called me and we talked for it bit and then I got the number from him right after I saw your email. I called and talked to Kenma and asked him to look into it, he got the name and address of the person the phone was registered too. Which led me to this town and then to the clinic where I met Nagisa and he drove me here after we talked a little."Tadashi's mind went blank midway, Suga had called Kei and told him that Tadashi called him. How much did Suga say? He didn't tell Suga much himself but he did mention Hotaru. Dud Suga tell Kei about her? No if he did there's no way Kei would be here. Tadashi tightened his grip even more on the blankets as Kei moved to sit down beside him."Nagisa told me you can't be stressed because you're not up to par right now, are you ill Tadashi? If there's anything I can do to help please tell me. Are you hungry or thirsty? Maybe too hot in the blanket or perhaps you're wrapped in it because you're cold? I can fetch another if you tell me where they are."Every word was like a knife to his heart. Kei really was very up tight and snarky to everyone except him, sure back in school he wasn't always the nicest but Kei had told him it was too hide his feelings. Once they opened up and became a couple Kei's personality around him did a 180, not that he really minded the snarkiness. But this kindness right now was something he didn't deserve. Tadashi felt Kei's hand on his face wipe away the tears before he even realized he was crying. Which really just made him cry even more. "Tadashi what's the matter? Do you want me to leave?""No! I.. I..""Tadashi?""I'm not ill, I'm just.. just stressed about some things I'm going through.""Is it about the baby?"Tadashi never felt the blood drain from his face so quickly before, he felt he was going to throw up, but all he could do was stare at Kei with fear in his eyes."I'm sorry. Suga-San told me but please don't be angry with him. I.." Tsukishima sighs and looks straight Tadashi's eyes. "I fell apart without you by my side. I missed 10 days of work, my brother saw me crying, I yelled at my mother for washing away your scent on your pillow, finally Suga-San saw me naked on the closet floor and then slapped me. I tried calling and emailing you everyday but couldn't reach you and no one else had any luck either. So when you called Suga-San that night he did what he thought was best for both of us and he called me afterwards. He told me you called him, he told me the reason why you said you left and he made me think long and hard about decisions I thought I would never have to make in my life.About accepting facts and if I could be a father, a father of someone else's child, despite the fact that I don't like children. I thought so long about it and that's what brought me here. I don't care if you cheated on me one time or ten times, or I mean I care, it hurts but not as much as being without you. I can forgive anything if you say you need me and tell me where we went wrong so we can fix things together. As for the baby. They can come out looking like a mini clone of you or their mother, it doesn't matter to me at all. They are your child so I will love them no matter what..and if you will allow me to I'd very much like to be in their life, as a parent figure our whatever you want me to be.I just know I miss and love you so much Tadashi and I can't be without you, I need the both of you in my life to live." There was a long moment of silence as Tadashi processed everything he just heard. He watched as Tsukishima removed his glades to wiped away tears, he felt his own heart break even more but he also felt their daughter move around inside him at the moment, like she was begging him to tell her father she was there. Putting one hand on his belly he decided to just go for it."I didn't cheat you!" First things first he needed to clear up this misunderstanding. "I love you too much to cheat on you and there's no way I could ever sleep with a woman." Tadashi didn't cheat on him! But wait.. "But what about the baby?""I'm a monster." The words came out like a whisper but still loud enough to hear them."I don't understand Tadashi.""There's no woman. It's me. I'm the one having a baby.""But..you're..""A man, yes I'm fully aware, but apparently it can still happen in very rare cases. Basically I'm a freak.""You're carrying a baby right now?""Yes."Tsukishima had a lot to process from that statement. Tadashi was having a baby, not with a woman but he was carrying it himself. Tadashi said he didn't cheat on him which meant the baby was his?"I'm the father?""Yes."There was once again more silence. Tsukishima's mind was racing trying to process everything. He was going to be a father, that was something he had accepted a few days ago but this was a whole new thing. He himself was part of the creation process. Really all he could think about was how he hoped they had Tadashi's personality and not his own. "I'm going to be a father." Kei couldn't help but smile as he wiped away even more tears. "This is one of the best days of my life.""You don't have to say that. I know you don't like kids. I won't ask anything of you just please let me keep her.""Her? We're having a daughter? No wait no Tadashi, I'm not just saying that, have you ever known me to do or say things to comfort someone else if I didn't truly mean what I said. That's not me and you should know that by now. I want to be her father, even if you don't want me to be in your life anymore I want to be in hers. Please let me be her father." He sounded pathetic pleading like this but they were his honest thoughts so he let them spill out into the room for Tadashi."I always want you to be in our lives!" Tadashi cried and finally Tsukishima wrapped his arms around Tadashi as he cried. Holding Tadashi in his arms he could feel Tadashi had indeed grown in size, his face was still slim and before the blanket had hidden his body away but now that he had his arms around him he could tell. He wanted to see though, to really see, see their daughter. He needed to be patient though and wait until Tadashi called down. The minutes passed by and Tadashi had finally stopped sniffling, pushed himself even closer and was practically sitting in his lap with his face buried in his neck."Tadashi can..can I see her..your belly?"Tsukishima felt him nod and begin to shift in his lap to stand. Standing and turning around Tadashi slowly let go of the blanket and lifted his shirt to reveal and very rounded belly. Tsukishima couldn't believe his eyes, sure Tadashi had just told him he was carrying their baby, their daughter, but seeing this was a new reality. He never thought he'd ever see his partner pregnant with his child but it was the most beautiful sight he'd ever seen."You're beautiful." Tadashi flushed and looked away in embarrassment which just drove him even more crazy. "You can touch if you want, she was very active while we were talking, like she was begging for your attention. Talk to her if you want, she's far enough developed she can hear us."Nodding Tsukishima timidly reached out a hand and gently rubs it across the exposed belly. The skin feels stretched and tight but still so soft under his finger tips. Reaching out with the other hand he stops and looks up at Tadashi who nods in return giving him further permission. Now having both hands on the baby he gently touches every part that's exposed, he leans forward and pressing his forehead to the center and begins to talk."Hi baby girl, I'm your daddy. I'm sorry it took so long to meet but I'm here now, I hope you'll forgive me." For a moment Tsukishima is almost sad there's no response but of course there's no response, she can't talk from inside. But then there's a small nudge against one of his hands and then he feels what seems to be a roll across his face and he begins to cry. He had just felt their daughter move for the first time.
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The sight of Kei showing affection to his belly that contained their daughter was almost too much for Tadashi to handle. His heart felt fuller as his legs grew weaker, causing him to lean more into Kei for support. "I'm sorry my legs are a little weak from the extra weight." "No, no, please sit. I shouldn't have let you stand up."With the secret out now Tadashi had no reason to cover up his belly, in fact as he settled back down onto the couch he didn't even feel the need to pull his shirt back down at all. Needing to be closer to Kei was the only thing on his mind, missing that contact only the two of them shared."Nagisa mentioned you're not up to par, is everything okay?" Kei asked as he pulled Tadashi in as close as he could, kissing the top of his head, hands never leaving his belly. Kei was being so sweet Tadashi couldn't help but melt."I had some pre term labor, most likely brought on by stress, but I'm feeling much better now that you're here." As corny as that sounded it was the truth. There was a weight lifted off his chest knowing now that Kei wouldn't abandon them after all, they could indeed raise their daughter together as a family. Without a word Kei carefully stood from the sofa and lifted Tadashi princess style. "Which way to the bedroom?" "Second door on the left." Tadashi blushed as Kei nodded and carefully made his way through the door and laid Tadashi down on the bed."You should be resting.""I don't need to be in bed to rest Kei." Tadashi chuckled as he pulled Kei to lay down with him."I just want you to be as comfortable as possible, that's all." But Kei laid down without a fuss, settling as close as he could pulling Tadashi into his arms and gently placing one hand back onto the belly that was between them.Things were quiet as the two just stared into each other's eyes, until Tadashi's phone went off in the pocket as his pajama pants. "It has to be either Nagisa or Rei, most likely Nagisa, regardless I should check it." Kei agreed with a nod of his head."Is Rei-San someone who works at the clinic?""My Dr. to be more specific." Tadashi says slightly out of breath as he struggles to roll over and dig his phone out from his pocket."You refer to them casually.""We've gotten close over the time I've been here. Same with Nagisa, he's probably the closest I've had to a best friend other than you." Tadashi chuckles again as he sees the message is indeed from Nagisa but then he tears up before going red in the face. "Leave it to Nagisa.""Everything okay?" Kei peaks over Tadashi's shoulder at the phone to see two images that must have been taken through the window. The first of Kei kissing his exposed belly and the other of Kei carrying him out of the living room. Both great candid shots, the text after the images though was the reason he was probably a blushing mess.
Rei-Chan says no hanky-panky funny business because it could cause labor to start acting up again! Other than that we hope to see you both bright and early for your appointment in two days! :D
"Did he seriously think we were going to..""Well he apparently did see us get all emotional and then you carry me off to the bedroom.""I'll admit I had some ulterior motive by bringing you in here," Kei says as he pushes his body flush against Tadashi's back and wrapping his arms around the other. "But it wasn't to do any hanky-panky funny business." Kei lightly laughs. "I just wanted to be closer to you than I could be on that couch." Tadashi couldn't imagine his heart being any more fuller than in this moment, their daughter was still safely growing within his belly, Kei was there and he was within his arms. Laying there with Tadashi asleep in his arms, listening to the even breaths and light snores was more than Kei could have hoped for and then feeling their daughter move around within Tadashi's belly was mood than he thought be deserved. A warmth he desperately missed while they were apart.
'Can I really parent a child? I had resigned myself to doing whatever role Tadashi would allow me to be but now.. What will others say when they realize she has two fathers? No, this doesn't change anything. I'll still protect her just as before even from my own family if need be.'
Kei slowly untangles himself from behind Tadashi to retrieve his own phone.
'I should at least text Suga-San that I made it here safely. The rest can wait till Tadashi wakes up.'
I made it to Tadashi's without a problem, I'll call later after he wakes up from his nap.
_Kei
"Mmn.. Kei?""Sorry did i wake you? I promised Suga-San I'd text him when I arrived safely. You can sleep more you were only out for a little while." "Come lay with me?" "Of course you didn't even need to ask." Kei says as he crosses the room back to Tadashi and snuggles in as close as the protruding belly allowed. "Sorry.""She's growing well because of you so no need to apologize." He looks down at the belly as he caresses it. "You've done more for her than I have." The silence is deafening until Kei realizes where he went wrong."I'm sorry! I didn't mean it in a bad way!" And he didn't but his heart broke when he saw the tears in Tadashi's eyes."No you're right.. I.. I ran away like a coward and kept her from you." Reaching up Kei wiped the tears away from Tadashi's cheeks. "Don't ever apologize again for doing what you thought was best and putting our child first. Granted I wish things went differently but I can accept that you didn't do it to hurt me. We can talk later now lets rest, its been a long day for both of us and I want nothing more than to sleep with you in my arms again." "Hmph. Yama-Chan you stud. I knew everything would work out." Nagisa couldn't help the smile on has face as be watched the two interacting then disappearing into the bedroom. "Oh no! The bedroom!" Saving the last image as quickly as be could be called Rei. "Took you long enough to call. Is Yamaguchi-Kun alright?""Quick question. What is your opinion on Yama-Chan partaking in sexual activities?" "As his Dr I would have to tell him to wait because its known that orgasms can cause the uterus to tighten and after yesterday I don't think that's a good idea. Now what's-" "Thanks Rei-Chan that's all I needed now I have to to but I'll be back at the office shortly.""Yes but-""I love you." "Very well. I love you too."After hanging up Nagisa sent Yamaguchi A quick text to inform him not to partake in anything sexual and then made has way back to the office only to find Rei had already closed up and was waiting for him by the front door."So you going to feel me what that was all about? I highly doubt Yamaguchi-Kun called you over to ask if he could masturbate." *GASP*"Rei-Chan! What happens in our conversations is private." "Nagisa." Hearing his name in that stern but calm voice like that he couldn't help but lower his head as he fell into a waiting room chair."Yes, yes. Well Tsukki showed up here-""I'm sorry who?""Tsukishima Kei, Yama-Chan's baby's father." "He showed up here?!" "Yes then I brought him to Yama-Chan." "What were you thinking Nagisa! The stress child have cause him to to into early labor again!""I know! I know! But you didn't see him Rei-Chan. He was so broken and Yama-Chan told me last night that he himself messaged Tsukki. They were so cute Rei-Chan, you should have seen them.""I wish you would have told me that he had come here." "You would have just rejected him from seeing Yama-Chan." "With good reason, you should have been more mindful.""I just knew things would work out the second I realized who he was.""Yes well if things went as smoothly as you make them out to be then I'm sure it will indeed be easier on Yamaguchi-Kun having him around to help. Just please don't keep me from the loop next time." "Don't worry I stayed behind and spied on them for a little just in case. Here look at these pictures I took." All Rei could do was shake his head as he took the phone that was being waved in his face.
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Time unexpectedly flew by for Tadashi. After being apart for months, two days together were gone in what felt like the blink of an eye.He had spent most of those two days in his bed being thoroughly spoiled by Kei. Sadly despite the many hints he dropped Kei had stuck to Rei's instructions of no hanky panky funny business. Making sure he was fully rested in bed, fed and seemed to always be rubbing his back, feet, hips or any other swollen part of him to help keep him loose. They were still currently in bed, Tadashi didn't know what time it was just that today was finally the day for his next Drs appointment, he would be lying if he denied he was nervous, in fact being nervous was an understatement.
What if Kei sees her on the screen and decides this is all really too much for him.
Completely lost in thought Tadashi didn't even notice that Kei had woken up and was rubbing his fingers along his exposed arm."Tadashi you awake? What time do we need to head out for the appointment?" Kei asked quietly. "Mm." Rolling over in bed Tadashi squinted from the bright light of his phone and groaned. "Rei always opens the clinic early for me specifically so I have more privacy. Meaning these days I try to be there for 8:30, so we have to leave here in.. 20 minutes to make it there by then." Tadashi dropped his phone back onto the night stand and very slowly rolled back over to bury his face into Kei's chest with another groan. "Its weird being in bed still this late, I almost feel lazy. Ever since my second morning here I've been getting up at the usual 6 to make and eat breakfast with Nagisa.""Breakfast.. you had breakfast with Nagisa every morning?""Yeah, he was a great help. Though he had receptionist work everyday he still made the time to come have early morning breakfast with me so I wasn't too lonely." "That's.. really great of him.." Ever the oblivious Tadashi rambled on more. "Not only that but he's gone to most of my appointments with me, shown me around town and taken me out shopping for baby things. I really don't know how I would have survived without him by my side all this time." A moment of silence and Kei hums as he quickly kisses Tadashi on the top of his head. "We should get going so we aren't late." Carefully untangling himself Kei leaves the oblivious Tadashi alone in bed but not for long. Quickly following Kei into the bathroom Tadashi washed his face and brushed his teeth before making his way back into the bedroom to change. Changing was rather easy, slipping into a pair of black leggings and stealing one of Kei's large Tshirts from his bag, Tadashi is now faced with having to put his shoes on by himself. Something he took for granted when Nagisa was there on the mornings of his appointments and after struggling for a few minutes Tadashi gave up and decided to wait on the couch for Kei to help him. "Kei?" "Yes Tadashi?" Kei rounds the corner from the bedroom seeing Tadashi sitting on the couch looking flushed. "Is everything okay?" He asks rushing to his side.Realizing Kei thinks something is wrong Tadashi looks away in embarrassment. "Ye..yes, sorry.. I was having some trouble getting my shoes on and was hoping you wouldn't mind helping me?" Kei let out a breath he didn't realize he was holding followed by a small laugh. "Of course, I'll help you whenever wherever, everyday, its the least I can do." "The least you can do?" "You're working hard around the clock for our daughter and if you can't put your own shoes on because of her growth then I don't mind in the slightest doing it for you." Kei presses another to the top of his head before kneeling down to slip his foot into the shoe and zip up the side."You don't have to always, I should really get easier shoes to put on, I'm only going to get bigger from here on out." Making eye contact Kei kissed the side of his other ankle before gently lowering it to the floor. "It would be my honor to do this for you everyday. Shall we head out now?" Flustered all Tadashi can do is nod before reaching out and accept the help to get up. Who gave him permission to be all dreamy today? It didn't stop there either, Kei insisted on holding onto him on the way to the car and decided he would do the driving despite Tadashi knowing Kei didn't like driving even while having his license. He couldn't argue with him though.Kei managed to drive them to the clinic with no help of directions, having already memorized the trip from two days before. Arriving at the clinic he parked close and rushed around to open the door and lead him inside.Tadashi couldn't help but giggle as Kei rushed to open all the doors but also stay close by his side and help him up the few stairs. "Kei I'm pregnant not completely disabled, I've made this trip dozens of times already."After not getting the expected retort Tadashi looked up at the stern faced Kei. "Kei?" "Dozens.." Kei mumbled. "sorry I didn't mean to make you feel useless, I'm.. just a little nervous." Realizing what was happening Tadashi stopped and pulled Kei down into a kiss. "Kei do you mind running back down to the car? I forgot my water and Rei likes me to have it on me at all times." Kei smiled a little. "Of course, you check in and I'll be right back." Leaning down he kissed him again before heading to the stairs. Leaving Tadashi to enter the waiting room alone.The waiting room where an expectant Nagisa sat close by the door with an absolutely ridiculous look on his face. Tadashi quickly realizing this must have meant that they'd been seen kissing in the hallway and blushed. "Well well well, since my best friend hadn't been texting me the last couple of days I was going to ask how things have been going but I guess I don't need to now." Nagisa smirks.Tadashi sits in the chair closest to Nagisa, tapping him with his shoulder once he'd settled. "Oh please, I texted you plenty, Mr. Voyer. I bet you sat over here today in hopes of seeing something before we came in." Nagisa giggles and leans his head onto Tadashi's shoulder. "Your damn right and you two didn't disappoint! That was just so cute! Oh!" Nagisa shoots back up and moves forward. "Pardon me!" Leaning down he gently places his hands on the pregnant swell of his belly. "Good morning Hotaru-Chan! I hope you've been a good girl for your Daddies! How I've missed you these past two days!" As if on cue Hotaru wiggles around, pressing her limbs forward into Nagisa's touch. "That's my girl! You'll make a fine swimmer one day and don't worry we won't let Rei-Chan be the one to teach you!"Tadashi couldn't help but laugh. "I'm sure he'd be a great teacher." "Hm maybe, there are those who teach without showing by example." Nagisa got up from his seat and walked back over to his desk. "Lets get you two checked in now before Rei-Chan comes poking his nose into our time together." A few quick taps on the keyboard and the waiting room door opened to reveal Kei with his water and a small smile tight tugging at the corner of his mouth. "Its nice to see you again Tsuki and aren't you in for a treat. I bet our little princess will be looking great during her scan today!" Tadashi couldn't help but laugh loudly as he looked upon Kei's annoyed face. Nagisa was exactly the type of person Kei struggled to get along with. "Alright Yama-Chan, Rei-Chan is all ready for you to head on back to the usual room." He spoke slow and Tadashi noticed how he made no move to get up from his receptionist chair.Realizing he was giving them time to themselves for their appointment Tadashi couldn't help but smile sadly as he walked on through the doors. His friend had been there for it all with him and he didn't want to cast him aside just because Kei was here now. However he couldn't bring himself to ask Kei if it would be okay for Nagisa to join them. After all it was Kei's first time coming in for an appointment. The room was empty as per usual, Tadashi made his way over to the exam table and used to stepping stool to climb on up. Kei pulled the chair from the other side of the room and sat down close by, reaching out so they could intertwine their fingers."You know its okay for Nagisa to come in with us, I can tell you're sad he's not here." "Its okay, I have you here now. You're her father and this is about us now." Kei brought their hands to his lips and kissed his knuckles. "Listen closely cause I'll admit this only once.. I was jealous this morning when you kept talking about your bond and when I saw him touching your belly in the waiting room I wanted to punch him. I can tell he means a lot you and I kind of felt like he had taken my place." "Oh Kei no one could ever take your place. You've always been my one and only, now you're our one and only." Tadashi rubbed his free hand across his bump and smiled. He couldn't help the giddy feeling inside, he never thought Kei would get jealous over someone else, he'd always been so confident since they got together."I realized when he talked to me and didn't press his way in with us that he wasn't trying to take my place. He honestly reminds me a lot of Hinata, its kind of scary." Tadashi giggled because it was true, Hinata and Nagisa could have very well had twin personalities. "What I'm trying to say is.. he seems like a good guy and he was there for you when I couldn't be so I owe him and don't mind if he comes along." "Kei.. are.."
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Knock.. Knock.. "Yamahuchi-Kun sorry for the.. wait.." Rei seemed to be taken back by the fact there was a seemingly tall blond man also in the room. Straightening himself and quickly adjusting his glasses he bowed slightly. "Hello my name is Ryuugazaki Rei, I'm Yamahuchi-Kun's attending physician as well as the owner of this clinic." "Rei this is Tsukishima Kei, my partner as well as father of this little girl." Tadashi smiled brightly as he watched Kei nod in response."Its nice to meet you Dr. Ryuugazaki." "You as well Tsukishima-San, I've heard great things about you, so its nice to finally put a face to the name. Shall we get right into it? I'd like to get your weight first so if you don't mind shoes off and step up onto the scale." Nodding, Tadashi went to reach for his shoe to unzip the side only to have Kei beat him to it causing him to blush. "Thank you." "Wherever whenever." Kei replied as if matter of fact which caused Tadashi to smile even more as he carefully climbed down and stepped up onto the scale. "71kg, you've put on a good amount of weight, much better than when you first came in. Has the morning sickness gone away fully?" "Yes, I was still feeling nauseous before just without actually getting sick but the nausea made it difficult to eat. Surprisingly though I haven't felt even the least bit nauseous the last two days." "You're probably less stressed now that your partner is here with you, stress can be a factor for nausea. Hopefully it stays away, I'd like to see you stay on this weight gain curve. You still have the medication on hand though if it does act up again?" "Yes, I've been keeping it in the bedroom nightstand." "Perfect. Now go ahead and lay back, I'd like to measure your uterus before we head down to get a scan. Though I can't imagine there's much of a change from a few days ago it can't hurt to take another look." Rei began to press down in search of the pelvic bone and then pulled the fabric tape measure tight across his belly and gently press down in search of the top of his uterus. "27 CM, still a little big but that's been right on with how you've measured in the past." "Is it okay that he's measuring big?" Both Tadashi and Rei were taken back from Kei's sudden question, but both smiled as it meant Kei was generally interested and worried."Yes everything is perfectly fine. What I just measured was the size of his uterus, its not a really accurate way to determine the size of baby but it gives a rough idea along with fluid amount. Yamahuchi-Kun is 24 weeks along, typically a 24 week uterus is 24 CM give or take 2 CM and we know from previous ultrasounds that baby is on the slightly larger size so I'm not worried at all that he's measuring at 27 CM." "Okay that's good." "Yes if you have any other further questions or concerns through out the appointment please don't hesitate to ask, Yamahuchi-Kun is my first male pregnancy case but I studied the previous cases extensively while in school and am considered a specialist so I will do my best to be of service to the both of you during this time and in the future as well." Rei smiled as he helped Tadashi up from his position of laying down. "If you'll give me just a moment I'll grab the wheelchair, I know how you hate using it but it is still protocol. However Tsukishima-San is here to wheel you down if you'd like." Rei excused himself with another slight bow."He seems very serious about his job, much different than the receptionist." Laughing again Tadashi agreed, he couldn't wait for Kei to realize that the two were actually an item."Kei.." "Hm?" Standing Kei put his arms around Tadashi and gently rubbed his still exposed belly."Do you really not mind if I ask Nagisa to come into the room with us? This will be your first time seeing her after all." "That it is." Kei kissed the top of his head once again. "However him being there doesn't all of a sudden mean I'm there any less. As long as I can continue to be here at your side for the rest of our time then I don't mind sharing your time with your best friend. After all I feel I owe him for being there for you all this time." Tadashi couldn't help but sniffle, Kei really had seemed to change a lot in the time they were apart. Knock.. Knock.. "Everything okay Yamahuchi-Kun?" Rei asked as he poked his head into the room and noticed a crying Tadashi."Yes just being a little hormonal, nothing unusual." Rei nodded not pressing further. "If you're ready I have the chair here, go ahead and get seated and if Tsukishima-San would be so kind to follow me I will lead you two down to the ultrasound room." Kei helped Tadashi down from the exam table and into the chair and proceeded to push the chair close behind Rei down the hall and into the last room on the left. "I hope you've left your bladder full Yamahuchi-Kun?" "Of course Rei, a full bladder means your job is easier." "Perfect. Now lay back, shirt up and lower the front of your pants slightly please. I warmed the gel for you this time, Nagisa-Kun insisted its torture to use cold gel every time, I'm sorry I didn't realize." Tadashi laughed as he did as instructed. "He's over exaggerating, it's never been that bad." Once settled he reached over in calling to Kei to join him, who quickly did so."Since this is your first time here Tsukishima-San I will try to be clear and precise with pointing out everything but if you'd like to see something that I haven't pointed out please feel free to speak up." Rei squeezed the gel onto Tadashi's exposed belly and turned on the machine, smearing the gel with the wand.Instantly you could see the image of their daughter on the screen. "Oh I guess she didn't feel the need to make me search for her at all, must be excited both her Dads are here." Rei chuckled. "I'd like to get the measurements out of the way real quick and then I can go into more depth of explaining things if that's all right?" Tadashi looked over to Kei who was silent with worry, only to see the smile on his lips and tears in his eyes. "Yes that's fine. Will you be recording this again?" "Of course." Rei took a moment to look over and assess the situation and carefully handed Tadashi a small box of tissues to share with Kei before quickly going about getting the measurements. Tadashi gave Kei's hand a gentle squeeze and passed him a tissue when he looked over his way. "That's our baby?" "Yeah, that's our baby." "She's beautiful." Kei couldn't help the emotions going through him in that moment. He couldn't believe what he was looking at on the screen. Granted he didn't know what everything was but he knew enough to notice the body shape, where her head was, her arms and legs and even her little fingers as they seemed to disappear into what he assumed was her mouth. "As expected she's measuring slightly bigger than average but after meeting Tsukishima-San I'm not the slightest bit surprised. Yamahuchi-Kun is tall on his own but it seems she might take after her other father more in terms of height, though its still a little too soon to know for sure." Rei glided the wand around and began to point on the screen what certain things were. Her legs, all 10 toes and then her arms and 10 fingers, her strong heart beat visible on the screen and then he switched over to a 3D scan and showed them her facial features. "She's not fully developed at this point but she has enough to her that you can see her face has its basic shape and her features are filling in more closely to what they will look like at the time of birth." Tadashi stared in awe as this was his first time having this type of scan done. "Oh wow we've never done this kind of scan before, I didn't even know this was a thing possible." "Yes, we generally like to wait till there's either a reason to or when baby is further developed so the image is more clear. Was there anything else you'd like to see before we head on back to the exam room?" Kei squeezed his hand causing him to look over where Kei just nodded his head, such a small act had him smiling."Actually Rei, is it okay if Nagisa comes back and sees this too?" "If that is what you wish I can certainly go get him. You don't have to feel obligated though, he understands." "There's no obligation among friends." Kei says flatly. "Of course." Rei grins widely letting his professional facade slip away for just a moment. "If you'll excuse me for just a minute then." "Thank you for this really, Kei." "No need to thank me, just don't forget about me." "I could never forget you Kei." There was a quick two knocks before a very flustered Nagisa entered the room. "Yama-Chan is everything okay? What's going on?" "Nagisa-Kun will you calm down, I didn't say there was anything wrong." "Well why else would you call me back here today of all days?" Turning quickly Nagisa gathered to Tadashi's other side and held his hand. "Are you sure you're okay? Everything is okay?" "Everything is perfect, now quickly sit down Nagisa before you stress Rei out even more." Tadashi giggled as he looked over and saw Kei roll his eyes at the other man being over dramatic."If you would have not run off so quickly and let me finish explaining you'd know that Yamahuchi-Kun wanted me to ask if you if wanted to come back and see the scan." "Oh.. wait no this is your moment together, I don't need to interrupt it." "We've had our moment, now sit down and be quiet so you can be apart of the next moment." "Tsukishima Kei! Be nice!" "I thought I got away from Hinata after graduation but low and behold there's another just like him, what did I do to deserve this." "Another Hinata? I don't understand." Nagisa plopped down in Rei's chair."Hinata was one of our friends on the volleyball team, the short one with bright orange hair. You must remember him from our game you watched." "Oh yes the zoomy one! Are we that similar?" "Scarily." "Oh hush Kei, you got along just fine by our third year." "No, you got along fine by our third year, I to this day still find him to be too much for me." Tadashi couldn't help but laugh at Kei as he remembered all the time Hinata got on his nerves, maybe it was true that Kei and Hinata never saw eye to eye on anything ever. "If you would Dr Ryuugazaki." Kei gestured to the machine."Oh yes of course, Nagisa-Kun you'll need to move over so I can reach." Kei took this as his cue to move, admittedly he still didn't care for the short blond man but he did seem to care a great deal for Tadashi and their daughter and he figured there couldn't be enough people in the world to care for them. So he put his pride aside and allowed Nagisa to squeeze in beside Tadashi, out of the Drs way and a clear view of the screen monitor.It didn't take long for Rei to readjust himself in his chair, apply a little more gel and get the 3D image back up on the screen. Nagisa watched in silent awe as the little girl on screen seemed to be making a show of sucking on her fingers. Then after a couple minutes the silence broke as Nagisa cried out loudly."Oh my goodness, hello little princess, you're going to be the most beautiful baby girl in the whole world!" Reaching over Tadashi Nagisa helped himself to some tissues and blew his nose loudly as Rei turned off the machine and handed some tissues to Tadashi to clean himself up. "Thank you so much Yama-Chan and Tsuki for letting me be apart of this special moment!" Nagisa cried as he carefully hugged Tadashi and then quickly turned around to capture Kei in a hug as well. Kei who looked around for an escape but gave up when he realized he had nowhere to go. Kei sighed. "I won't push you aside just because I'm here now, I'm great ful you were so supportive of Tadashi and I'd like it if you continued to be part of his support system." Nagisa cried even more, clinging to Kei harder. "I'm so sorry I called you a bastard!""You what?"Tadashi broke out into laughter and then sat up as quickly as he could, face red causing everyone in the room to have his full attention."It seems I've released a little from laughing too much.." Tadashi could not believe he just peed himself a little bit.Rei stepped forward to help him up from the table as Kei and Nagisa moved off to the side away from in front of the bathroom door. "That's perfectly normal Yamahuchi-Kun, your bladder was awfully full during your scan, I'm surprised you lasted this long.""That's right Yama-Chan, go clean up and I'll run upstairs to grab you one of my spare pairs of leggings." "Thank you I appreciate it." Tadashi could feel the burn of his face and even more so when he saw Kei was holding back his laughter. Oh he would be paying for that later.
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Walking through the front door Tadashi quickly carried on into the bathroom and slammed the door, ignoring the protests from Kei. Tadashi wouldn't admit it out loud but he was currently letting his hormones get the better of him. He was absolutely mortified he had allowed himself to leak while at his appointment and in front of everyone no less. Kei snickering had just been the final straw for him to lose it."Tadashi, please open the door! Tell me what's wrong so I can help." That's right Kei didn't even seem to know why Tadashi was so upset, which only fueled him even more. How could he do that and not notice how much it upset him and embarrassed he was. No Kei was going to figure this one out on his own. "Fuck off Kei I'm not in the mood!" Taking off the last of his clothes he stepped into the shower stream to rinse off before climbing into the now filling tub, continuing to ignore Kei knocking on the outside bathroom door. Kei felt he had behaved well enough at the appointment, so he was utterly confused as to why Tadashi had given him the cold shoulder the car ride home and was now currently locked in the bathroom completely ignoring him.
Well damn, he even told me to fuck off.
Stalking off into the kitchen Kei began to dig through the cabinets in search of something he could cook in hopes that Tadashi would forgive him for whatever it was he did. Not only did he remember he can't cook anything complicated but he thought about what Tadashi would even be in the mood for and drew a blank. Sure he knew what Tadashi enjoyed eating at home 6 months ago but was that what he enjoyed eating now while pregnant?Digging out his phone he grumbled and called the newly added number, belonging to one Hazuki Nagisa. "Hello, this is Nagisa speaking.""Tsukishima here. What foods does Tadashi enjoy eating while he's pregnant?" "Oooh Tsukki! Making some ass kissing food to make up?" Nagisa laughed into the other end of the phone and Kei really regretted making the decision to call him, but he needed to play nice, its not like he had anyone else to call."Yes, now please." "Very well. I should let you suffer for your mistake but I could tell right away Yama-Chan was all out of sorts because of his hormones, so I'll help you this once." Nagisa hummed as he thought. "Yama-Chan has been pretty picky with his foods because of his nausea. He can't seem to stomach most meats or anything with a thick saucy base. The last few weeks he's really enjoyed soups and French bread. Oh! And one thing has been a must have every few days since he's come here." "And that would be?" "Strawberry shortcake. There's a small cafe down the street from the clinic here that he ordered from on his first day, they always have some on hand. So every few days he always has a full one ordered to keep at home, he really is the cutest." "Strawberry shortcake?" "Yep! If you'd like I can grab his usual order from the cafe and bring it over? Rei-Chan isn't expecting his next patient for 2 more hours." "No that's okay, I need to figure it out myself or its meaningless. You said its a cafe down the street from the clinic?" "Coming from Yama-Chan's towards here you go straight but about half way right by the station there's a small gas station and behind that on the left is the cafe" Mapping the route out in his head Kei smiles when he realizes its most likely the small cafe he stopped in on his first day to ask for directions. "Yes I believe its the same one I stopped in before coming to the clinic. A nice older woman with brown hair gave me directions." "That sounds like you're talking about Satori-Chan! She's a very sweet woman, instantly accepted Rei-Chan and I in when we first moved out here, she's taken a liking to Yama-Chan as well as we eat there a few times a week. I know she often had strawberry shortcake available but I believe since finding out about Yama-Chan she always makes sure to have it ready for him." Kei hums in thought. "Very well, thank you for your help." "Anytime Tsukki! Tell Yama-Chan to shoot me a message later. We should double date soon! Talk to you later! Bye-bye!" And before Kei could even ask what he meant Nagisa had hung up the phone.
Honestly what a strange man, he's like a hurricane.
Grabbing the car keys Kei decided against telling Tadashi he was leaving, he'd probably just be ignored anyways.Finding the cafe was easy enough as it was indeed the one he had stopped in before. Calming his nerves Kei made his way inside and to the front counter awaiting for the woman behind the counter to notice him."Yes yes! Welcome to.. oh my, hello again deary! Did you meet up with your friend alright the other day?" "I did, thank you very much for the directions." "That's wonderful." The woman he now knew as Satori-San smiled brightly. "What can I do for you today?" "Actually, Nagisa told me you sell strawberry shortcake here so I was wondering if you had any available?" "Sure do!" She quickly turned around reaching inside the refrigerated cabinet and pulled out a whole cake and set it on the counter causing Kei to momentarily salivate at the look alone. "Do you happen to also sell soup and French bread or know where I might find some near by?" "Hm soup, French bread and strawberry shortcake.. would this happen to be for Yamahuchi-Kun?" Her smile widened once again, a mischievous twinkle in her eye."It is, he is the friend I was here looking for. I didn't realize the address I had was for the clinic but luckily Nagisa showed me to the correct house." "Oh how wonderful! Yes Yamahuchi-Kun is such a lovely boy, he loves my strawberry shortcake so I've made it habit to try and always have some for him available! Poor thing had morning sickness so badly it was difficult for him to find foods he could keep down." Turning around she nods her head as she makes herself busy pulling out different breads to set on the counter before disappearing into the kitchen for a few minutes. Returning with two large soup containers and packing the breads she had placed on the counter and then boxing up the whole cake. "Here's my house special soup and also Yamahuchi-Kun's favorite cheese and broccoli soup, enough for two." She winks as she holds out the containers and continues on. "I've packed an assortment on my home made breads and rolls in this box and finally Yamahuchi-Kun's usual strawberry shortcake." Kei is a little intimidated by the amount of food that was just pushed onto the counter in front of him but for Tadashi he would spend any amount. Reaching into his pocket for his wallet he's about to ask for the total when he's interrupted. "Oh goodness me! You can't possibly carry all that to your car on your own. Here let me get someone to assist you." She turns once more to yell into the kitchen. "Yuki-Kun! I need you to help this young man bring an order out to his car!" "I'm busy right now grandma!" "Please? ..It's an order for Yamahuchi-Kun!" Suddenly there's a bang and the sound of little feet running across the floor toward the front causing the woman to giggle. "Sorry he's really taken to Yamahuchi-Kun." "I imagine so. How much do I owe you?" Kei asks wallet in hand.She taps his hand lightly. "You know the first time Yamahuchi-Kun came in to the cafe he was really distraught and then he often came in to order a slice of strawberry shortcake and cried while eating it.. After a while he opened up to me and told me of his first love, his hero, a tall blond who loved strawberry shortcake and how he regretted having to leave him behind to come here. I don't know what happened between you two but I know he loves you greatly so please continue to take care of those two. That will be enough of payment for this old woman." She smiled as Kei tucked his wallet away and bowed to her."Thank you very much for being there for him. Ill do my very best for them from now on." "I'll be the judge of that!" Startled Kei looked around and then down to see a small boy with light brown hair and freckles adorning his face looking up at him with a glare."Now Yuki-Kun behave, this man is very dear to Yamahuchi-Kun." "Oh yeah? If he was he wouldn't have taken so long to come rescue Yama-Chan and let him cry so much!" "Yuki-Kun! Apologize properly right now!" "No that's alright. He is partially right after all." Kneeling down to eye level Kei spoke to the small child calmly. "There was a misunderstanding between Tadashi and I, I wish I could have come sooner as well so he wouldn't have had to cry so much but it took me a while to find him. I came as soon as I knew where he was though so I hope you'll forgive me this once now that I'm here." The boy glared for a little longer, inspecting his sincerity. "Hmph, you'll do for now I guess but just know I'll take Yama-Chan to be my bride when I'm older if you don't treat him right! Now lets get a move on, you're making him wait too long for his food! Make sure you tell him that I helped grandma with the shortcake this time!" The boy stacked the bread box on top of the cake box before walking towards the front door without another word.Kei quickly stood up and grabbed the soups and bowed once more to the woman who smiled as she waved. "Please come visit again with Yamahuchi-Kun!" Kei nodded as he made his way to the door quickly to catch up to the boy who was already half way to the car parked outside. Yuki-Kun helped Kei carefully stack the foods inside the car so they wouldn't tip during the drive. "Is he sick again today?" "He had a Drs appointment this morning and is a little tired now, he decided to take a bath so I decided I would come out to find some of his favorite foods to eat." Yuki-Kun nodded seeming satisfied with that answer. "Don't forget to tell him I helped make his cake, I picked the very best strawberries to use and I hope he feels better." Reaching down Kei ruffled Yuki's hair. "I'm sure knowing that alone will help him feel better." Kei smiled genuinely as the small boy blushed while pushing his hand away. He did never like children but maybe he was going soft now that he had a daughter of his own on the way."Alright old man, don't make Yama-Chan wait any longer for his food!" Sticking out his tongue Yuki took off running back inside without looking back.
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Tadashi closed his eyes and sank further into the water, he let hands glide across his belly as he tried to get a handle on his emotions. He'd like to say he didn't know why he was behaving the way he was but he knew he was just letting his hormones get the best of the situation. He really couldn't even blame Kei because what had happened was indeed as funny as it was mortifying, he was just being unreasonable. Admitting to himself that he was out of line only spurred on the negative emotions swirling inside his mind though. How could he expect Kei to accept him when he's like this. Sure he said he wanted to be there for both him and their daughter out of love but he probably wasn't expecting this outburst.What if it became a normal situation for him?Would Kei really put up with it?After allowing himself to soak a little longer Tadashi decides enough is enough. Soaking until he prunes won't amend things. Kei is Kei and he loves him no matter what. Drying off he dresses in some spare boxers and Kei's large t-shirt that had been sitting on the counter before making his way to find Kei, determined to apologize.The house was quiet when he exited the bathroom."Kei?"The living room and kitchen were both empty, the bedroom was also empty. This had to be some joke, Kei must just be getting some fresh air. Tadashi quickly made his way back to the front of the house to throw the front door open only to see the car was missing. "Kei?"
Where?
"It's okay, phone, I'll just.." Tadashi slowly made his way back inside with the intention to retrieve his phone from the table but only made it about half way before slumping down to the floor."This is all my fault, getting mad with no explanation." Tadashi laughed bitterly as he curled his hands into fists against the floor and began to cry. "I even told him to fuck off."
How could I have expected him to be waiting out here for me after all this.
Of course he wouldn't be here still.
I'm forcing a child upon him, a child that shouldn't even exist, a child he never wanted.
"I'm a freak, there's no way he'd want us."Screaming out in frustration Tadashi slams his fists against the floor before carefully curling around his belly on the floor. Pulling back up to the house Kei carefully balanced the food in his arms and made his way back inside. After opening the door he stood in the doorway for a minute just listening. It was quiet, quiet enough that he could tell Tadashi wasn't in the bath anymore and he couldn't hear the television. Assuming Tadashi was napping Kei toed off his shoes as quietly as he could and made his way down the hall towards the kitchen.Though he only made it around the corner before seeing Tadashi curled up on the floor near the couch. Dropping the food Kei ran to Tadashi's side."Tadashi?!" Tadashi laid curled up on the floor, arms around his belly, cheeks stained with tears and gently snoring. Letting out a sigh Kei gently shook Tadashi to wake him. "Tadashi, you can't sleep on the floor like this. Come on my stars tell me what I did wrong so I can right it. Please." Bending down Kei kissed Tadashi's forehead and wiped the tears away."Mm.. Kei?" "I'm home.""Kei?" "I'm here, come on lets get you up onto the couch." Gently Kei picked up a groggy Tadashi and moved him to the couch."Why were you asleep on the floor?" "The.. floor?" Tadashi rubbed at his eyes while he awoke and his memories came to the front of his mind."K..Kei?! Wha.. why.. why are.. am I dreaming?""Tadashi slow down, why would you think you're dreaming?" "You.. you left." "Yes, to get food." "No! You left because of me! Because I told you to fuck off!" Taken aback by Tadashi's sudden outburst. "I wouldn't lea..""You left because you realized I'm not the Tadashi you fell in love with!""Tada..""I'm a freak of nature that shouldn't exist! A freak that is carrying a child that you shouldn't have anything to do with!" Kei slammed his hand down on the side table angrily, fighting back his tears.
How could he say those things? Does he really mean them?
"You are not a monster, a freak or any other negative name going around in your head! You are beautiful! You are smart! You are wonderful! You are the man I love! Understand?!" "B..but.." "No! You don't get it! You and everyone else! They always looked at our relationship with eyes that saw you as someone who was trailing behind me, clinging to me until I gave in... but Tadashi I thought you were beautiful the moment I first saw you in that park surrounded by bullies, wide eyed and covered in freckles.Sure you latched onto me first after that but I never once wished you would have gone away. You were the only one to stay by my side despite my personality. The only one to say and do the things that I needed even when I didn't know I needed them. You helped me grow and become the man I am today.These months apart you were able to keep going day to day, you even made new friends, while I couldn't even take care of myself in the slightest. That proved I need you more than you and everyone thinks.. it's I who clings to you.So listen closely! I've only ever loved you and you alone my whole life Tadashi, so I won't let even you speak bad of yourself!"" K..Kei" Tadashi sniffles as he watches Kei break down in front of him in ways he never has before."You know even now after all these years you're still taking care in doing the things I didn't know I needed. You and your amazing biology made it possible for our love to bear fruit. The fruit of our love for each other is taking physical form in our daughter, which is by far the best thing you've done that I needed without knowing. So never talk like your biology is wrong, like keeping her isn't right for me, please."Unable to stand the distance any longer Tadashi carefully climbed into Kei's lap and wiped his eyes as he tried to calm himself down. "Can we.. can we really do this, raise her together?""Without a doubt there will be cruel bastards out there but we will raise her to be proud and strong. We won't be alone either, Mom has been bugging Akiteru for grandbabies for at least a year now, I'm sure she'll be ecstatic. There's also your parents and we have our friends too, Nagisa and Rei-San I'm sure but also our friends back home.""Back home?" Tadashi shook his head. "They must hate me by now for what I did.""Hate you? No. They've been worried sick about you since you left with no word, we were all really shocked you didn't even tell Suga-San anything. Even the king has claimed to have asked people about you, though I'm not sure who he has to ask other than that other idiot." Tadashi couldn't help but laugh as a yawn slipped out. "Are you hungry at all or would you like to nap first?" Tadashi's stomach growled causing himself and Kei to laugh at the perfect timing."Food apparently. You mentioned going out for food, what did you get?" Kei carefully maneuvered out of Tadashi's grasp and made his way to collect the food he dropped, silently hoping nothing spilled and was ruined."I called Nagisa and he directed to me the cafe where Satori-San seemed to figure out that I was here to visit you and packed me things accordingly." "She really is such a sweet woman, she makes the best.. um food." "Yes I hear her strawberry shortcake is to die for." Kei smirked as he returned to Tadashi's side with the food he deemed to be fine."Also a very opinionated boy by the name of Yuki-Kun gave me a few choice words as well as made me swear to tell you he picked the best strawberries for your cake.. He seems to like you a great deal." "Yes, he's a very sweet boy. He rides his bike here quite often to deliver things for me." "Is that so." Tadashi gripped tightly onto the hem of his shirt as he recalled the day Yuki-Kun had first seen him sitting in the cafe after school and started to cry before running off."Yuki-Kun's mother passed away two years ago in a terrible accident while she was pregnant with his younger sibling. According to Satori-San she was also adorned with freckles, so we think given the situation Yuki-Kun might have imprinted on me.At first he seemed to be upset whenever he saw me there so after Satori-San told me what happened I thought it might be best to stay away. The third time I didn't go at one of my usual times Yuki-Kun showed up here on his bike with strawberry shortcake and soup. He had been worried I was sick and persisted he check on me until Satori-San told him I was living here.From then on even on days I didn't usually go to the cafe he would stop in to visit, especially now that I can no longer hide the pregnancy and don't go out alone for safety reasons. He's been very understanding of my situation and though he did think it unusual when he realized I was a man he accepted it much easier than I expected." Kei felt for the young boy, he didn't like most children but he would never wish for even the worst child to grow up without the love of a caring mother."What of the boys father?""He.. he left Yuki-Kun with his mother, Satori-San, and left. She said at first she thought he was struggling with the guilt of the accident and couldn't face Yuki-Kun. However after four months he stopped visiting and then just after a year of her having Yuki-Kun he sent word that he was re marrying and has since not made any form of contact with either of them." ..."Kei?""That piece of shit.""Kei..""Even with the situation as it was he should have never abandoned his own child. No wonder the kid went off on me for leaving you alone once he realized who I was." Tadashi couldn't help but smile. Sometimes he forgot how much Kei had genuinely grown through out the years. Before Kei wouldn't have shown even the slightest interest on his face when it came to someone else's life but right now he was clearly seething and even voicing his distaste."Who knew that it would only take a couple days after finding out you're going to be a father to turn you so soft." "Shut up Tadashi.""Sorry Kei." Tadashi laughed and Kei couldn't help but smile himself.