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The First I stared at the woman, while she complained. She was on a tirade. The anxiety pulsing through my system, it was getting stronger with every word she spewed.The voices were getting louder in my head. "Do it. Make her regret this. Make her feel like the Bitch she's acting like." They said.I continued to stare. Another minute or so, I'm not entirely sure how long....I lost my control.I pulled the knife from my pocket and flicked it open, staring at her the entire time.Her eyes bulged when she spotted it. Though she never stopped complaining until...I plunged the knife into my shoulder. Without even blinking, or flinching. I couldn't feel pain. I couldnt feel anything in that moment.The woman stared, in shock. Fear? I don't really know.All I do know is that I had lost control. I lost my struggle. I stood there, still staring at her. My knife embedded in my flesh.I can't say what happened next...because I don't remember it.The last thing I remember was that. Staring at that woman, a knife in my shoulder.--------------------------------------The next thing I see...is white. I'm restrained to a bed. White room. White hospital gown. It's cold. And it's silent inside the room. I must've blacked out... I look around....all I can see is white...an IV bag, I don't know what it is. What I'm being given.I look to one side, and I see a door. I can see movement through the little window, but that's all.--------------------------------------I can't tell how long its been. Months? Weeks?...I dont know... All I do know..is there's been a lot of talk...I havent made any sense of it...I did something..before I was brought here...The screaming started not long after I arrived here....took a while before I realized...the screams were my own.--------------------------------------It's been so long... I think I'm dying tonight....At least that's the feeling I get, the way the doctors are acting.--------------------------------------I'm being wheeled out of my room...I hear screaming...I think the screaming...is coming from me...What's going on....No one is saying anything...I'm scared...The screaming is getting louder.Somebody tell me what's happening!!Wait... Why are there so many people outside the room..I...I recognize one of them...I crane my head to look back... That can't be who I think it is...The screaming stopped...As we round a corner...I can hear a familiar voice in the distance...He....he sounds distressed...what's wrong with him! Somebody...please tell me something....The screaming has resumed...God! Someone tell me something please!!!--------------------------------------...where am I...This...is different than I remember..wait...am I on a couch?I lift my head a little and look around...this looks like a living room...none I've ever been in though....I can feel eyes on me as I sit up.Turning around...yep...but..hang on I know who these people are...but..."She's awake!" One of them yells.There's four here now...where's..the other three?Two more have come in....they're surrounding me.... One is missing...I'm staring. I realize I'm staring."Hey, how are you feeling?" ..that's...that's Namjoon...sitting next to me.. What the hell..."어쩌면 그녀는 마실 것을 필요로한다." That's Hobi... (Maybe she needs something to drink)"아니면 약간의 음식. 긴 비행기 였어요 ... 그녀는 꽤 오래 동안 외출 중이었습니다." And that's Jin... (Or some food. It was a long flight...she's been out for quite a while)Oh my god...what the hell happened? Did...am I dead?...is this my heaven?....The only one I can understand in all the chatter is been Namjoon...The two youngest have disappeared...Jimin is to my left...watching me...that's a little intimidating...I think I'm gonna puke... All the attention...new surroundings...I...I feel so overwhelmed....--------------------------------------I must've passed out....it's dark now...I look around to find I am alone...Thank goodness...I think I've got an idea where I am now....but why?...