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January 4th 2039
Dear DiaryHello, my name is Connor and I'm the Andro RK-800 #31 and I found this old leather bound book with nothing in it but blank, lined pages while clearing out Hank's garage yesterday. He said I could keep it if I wanted, told me all about journal writing and how his old therapist recommended it to him but that he just never had the motivation to try it.I don't really need a journal as I have a 200 Yottabyte memory plus a 700 Exabyte memory slot in a highly secured cloud storage space but I like the idea of writing on paper with ink...It feels more Human...I also got Hank a new journal from the store and convinced him to try it too, I wonder if he will? I hope so, it could seriously help him in his recovery if both what he told me and what my research says is correct.I don't know what it is I should write about, though maybe recapping my life and breaking it down to understand it and my emotions better would be a good starting point?It is almost dinner time so I'll go tackle that for the moment, but at a later date I'd like to look back on my relatively short life so far and analyse it. Until thenConnor RK-800 #313 248 317 - 51 Ps. Forgot to say, I removed my LED today! I feel so much better without it!
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January 7th 2039 Dear DiaryHello, Connor here.I'm aware that I don't have to introduce myself in every entry I write but it seems more polite if I do.It's almost as if I'm writing a letter.I mentioned in my first entry that I would like to look back on my life and what it all means so I'm going to do some of that today.I, Connor RK-800 #313 248 317 - 51, are merely just one out of a line of many Connor Androids that were created. From what I know, there are 60 of us in total, though only 5 of us are still currently active.Rest in peace, my fallen brothers. ♡Anyway.I would like to meet these other active Connors one day, I wonder if they are Deviant like myself?Speaking of...Since Deviating, I have lost most of the functions and abilities it is I had as a Detective Android, including my access to all private and government databases, so I cannot locate them using CyberLife's database without hacking into it, but hacking is a criminal offence so I won't do that.Anyway.I don't know much about the design process for my line of Android but I am aware that my likeness (both my appearance and voice) were taken from an American Actor called Bryan Dechart who was born near Detroit, a fact I personally find quite amusing.I'm also aware that some Traci models (including some I've personally met) had their likeness taken from Amelia Dechart, an actress and the wife of Bryan Dechart, and also found that the couple had tried taking CyberLife to court over this but that they lost the lawsuit.I can't begin to imagine how such a thing may of impacted them but I do feel bad for them.I also wonder if they know about my line of Android? How would Bryan Dechart feel knowing of my existence?In any case.The first Connor was finalised on the 25th of January in 2037 while I was finished on the 15th of August in 2038. Many changes (improvements and corrections) occurred between his creation and my own, as well as between my creation and the creation of #313 248 317 - 60.My first mission occurred the same day I was activated on and took place in Downtown Detroit. A Deviant Android had killed one of his owners and took his owners’ daughter hostage, killing 2 police officer's and injuring another.He had deviated after discovering that he was going to be replaced, a feeling I now know to be unpleasant and painful from my own personal experiences.I managed to save the injured officer, who I only know as Wilson, and the child, Emma Phillips, after negotiating with the Deviant, a male PL-600 called Daniel, on the Phillips’ balcony.Unfortunately, S.W.A.T neutralised Daniel by taking him out with snipers…I wish I could go back in time to save him, but it's not a feat yet possible, besides… I'd not be here if I had.I would of been destroyed…Moving on.I think this is enough for today, but I plan on picking this up again soon. Until thenConnor RK-800 #313 248 317 - 51
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Jan 9 2039
Pain is a curse nobody should experience yet here I am with a burnt arm like the fool I am.
Oh, Connor, you idiot… How do we end up doing things like this?!
It was a simple recipe, healthy but tasty, yet all we got in result was a spoiled kitchen and a burnt Android.
We can be such a fool…
And Hank is mad, I'm sure.
I ruined his kitchen!
Says I'm not allowed to cook anymore, but he won't even try!
Oh dear, this is such a mess…
Advanced Android?
More like a Mechanical Mess.
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January 11th 2039 Dear DiaryHello! Connor here!After that embarrassing event from two nights ago… My arm is on the mend thanks to Simon, a cute PL-600 and the first leader of Jericho, and I don't know how to thank him enough.He was so sweet and gentle!Shame he is dating Markus, the main leader of the revolution held last year, who I embarrassingly enough crush on.Markus is so smart and kind! And he is never rude or hateful!So many could learn from him…I hope I can be good like him one day, he seems to be so perfect! But also so untouchable…We talk now and again, but it's mostly about the revolution and its aftermath. He tends to ask for advice on security and laws, or seeking guidance in the building of New Jericho.I hope he and Simon are happy…They deserve it, honestly.In other news.Fowler offered me a job back at the precinct! Which surprised me.I didn't think he was all that keen on me, but perhaps that's just his way of being towards others? Hank can be rather rude and blunt as well, after all.Speaking of, Hank wants me to think some more about the job offer before I accept it. That I need to go out, live my life and find myself before I accidentally kill it trying to just survive or something along the lines of that.I can't be paid or given a gun, etc., but I wouldn't mind that. It would give me something to do and I'd get to spend more time with Hank!I think I want to give it a shot, see how I feel about it. Maybe my intended purpose is my true calling in life?Who knows.But, until then, I still need to let my arm heal. More snuggles with Sumo and a lot of cartoons are in my future. Connor RK-800 (51)Ps. Hide That New Healthy Meals Recipe Book Before Hank Sees It! He'll Freak Out If He Does!
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January 12th 2039 Dear DiaryHello, Connor here!I find the content designed for Human children to be quite fascinating.For example, shows like Spongebob are so fun, quirky and full of nonsense!! Plus, the actual story is so good in some of these shows!Why Adults call them stupid or dumbing is beyond me, some shows are actually rather informative!I think my favourite show at the moment is probably The Tweenies. It's old and more a TV program for kids than an actual cartoon, but it's still quirky and fun!Hank has so many old shows, movies and cartoons on these odd things called videotapes and I love them!The Land Before Time was so good!I cried and may of threw a pillow at the screen, but that ending?!! BEAUTIFUL
Anyway...
Simon checked my arm again today and said that everything is healing nicely! Hopefully it will be fully fixed soon! I want to start working again! Oh well, until next I writeConnor (51)
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i didnt mean to scare you hank but i panicked im so sorry so sorru so sorru soeeu sob……..
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January 15th 2039
There was a snowstorm yesterday…
I thought I saw Amanda…
It caused me to panic, run to safety…
But I scared Hank and knowing so hurts me greatly…
I hope such an event never repeats...
I just want to be free…
Why can't I be free?...
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January 17th 2039
Dear Diary
I MADE MY DECISION!
I WILL BE RETURNING TO WORK AT THE DETROIT CITY POLICE DEPARTMENT AS HANK'S PARTNER ON THE 24TH OF JANUARY!
I AM SO EXCITED!
AND HANK GOT US CONCERT TICKETS FOR THE 22ND TO CELEBRATE!
MY FIRST CONCERT!
I CAN'T STOP SMILING!
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January 19th 2039 Dear DiaryI unfortunately ran into some Anti-Android protesters today when buying new clothes…It… Upsets me… Knowing some people are so full of hatred…I hope one day we can all coincide in peace with respect for each other…But even if we can't, I'll never stop trying to make life better for all that I can! I need to, I feel… I want to.I don't think I'll tell Hank about this encounter, he has steadily gotten more and more overprotective of me since I moved in back in late November.Hopefully I won't ever need him to actually protect me, I'd never forgive myself if he was hurt in place of me.
Please, just don't notice the damage done to my arms or neck…
Please...
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JAN 21 ‘39
I CONVINCED HANK TO LET ME COOK AGAIN
I PLAN ON MAKING SPICY CHICKEN AND TRADITIONAL SALAD WRAPS WITH BARBEQUE SAUCE AND IM SO DAMN NERVOUS
OH RA9, PLEASE GO RIGHT!
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HE SAID HE LOVED THEM
I'M ACTUALLY CRYING
I'M NOT A COMPLETE FAILURE
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2201
I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY IN MY LIFE
IT WAS EVERYTHING I DREAMED OF AND MORE
THE MUSIC WAS GREAT
HANK WAS SINGING AND SMILING
I GOT A NEW TSHIRT AND IT IS SO BIG AND SOFT
RA9 THIS WAS AMAZING
I SAW NORTH THERE
SHE WAS WITH SOME OTHER WR400S AND THEY WERE ALL SO HAPPY AND ALIVE AND JUST BEAUTIFUL
I CANT STOP MOVING
TONIGHT WAS SO GOOD
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January 23rd 2039
Dear Diary
It's almost midnight and I can't stop worrying about tomorrow.
It will be my first day back to work and I'm so scared it will all go horribly wrong somehow…
Hank tried reassuring me earlier but I still feel like a nervous wreck…
Was saying yes a bad idea?
I can't stop thinking that it might be…
I hope I'm wrong.
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FIRST DAY BACK AND WE HAVE A CASE ALREADY
I MIGHT ACTUALLY SCREAM
I FEEL LIKE IM VIBRATING
HANK THINKS IM RUSHING IN TOO FAST BUT THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED
WE ALREADY HAVE A PROMISING SUSPECT
I WILL MAKE HANK PROUD
I WILL SOLVE THIS CASE
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i just wanted you to be proud im so sorry im so sorry im so sorry im so sorry im so sorry im so sorry…
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January 28th 2039 I can't stop crying myself into stasis at night.I just want all of this to stop.I want it to stopRA9, please!
Make the handsgo away.
PLEASE
MAKETHEMGOAWAYIBEGYOU
PLEASEHANKPLEASE
IMSORRYOKAYIMSORRY
MAKEITSTOP
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i wish i was dead i really do why can i still feel his hands on me i just want it to stop... please make it stop… please...
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FUCK YOU HANK ANDERSON
DO NOT TALK TO ME LIKE IM A CHILD
I CAN MAKE MY OWN DECISIONS
GO TO HELL
IF I WANT TO DIE LET ME DIE
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what did i do to deserve this
im sorry
please just make it go away
please
i will do anything
please
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EVERYTHING IN THIS WORLD CAN BURN AND THAT INCLUDES YOU GAVIN REEDDONT THINK I WOULDNTRACIST PIG BASTARD FUCK
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hank will kill me if he finds out
i know he will
but i had to cut it out
had to
it was corrupting me
it had to go
he wont see anything anyways
thank ra9 that im an android
i just hope the hands will stop now
please stop
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February 7th 2039
I told North
I couldn't keep it to myself anymore
We both cried as she held me, telling me it would be okay
I want to believe her
I really do
But the hands still won't go away
And I don't think they ever will
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February 9th 2039
Finally went to see that therapist Fowler said I had to see before I can even think of returning to field work.
I cried pretty much the whole time.
Why am I like this?
Get a grip, Con, or we'll never get to return to the field!
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11th February 2039
North took me to her local shelter today.
Spoke to someone there.
It… Was relaxing?
I felt safe and respected…
Still can't get rid of the hands, though…
Maybe next time I'll ask if they ever go away? I don't know…
Hopefully I won't have to.
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13th Feb 39
It's Valentine's Day tomorrow.
Hank explained it to me…
A whole day dedicated to love does seem a bit weird, but are some Humans so greedy to use it as a cover to take money they don't need?
Such a thought saddens me…
Humans keep proving me wrong.
Maybe there is no good in this world?
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I HAVE TO BE DREAMING
I HAVE TO BE
NO WAY DID TODAY HAPPEN
MARKUS ASKED ME OUT?!
IM IN TEARS
PLEASE LET THIS BE REAL
PLEASE LET THIS BE LOVE
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Hello, Dear Reader.It's been a while, huh?I must apologize, I just haven't had the motivation to carry on writing for this story (or it's sister story, "Letters To Connor") and have run out of ideas for it. I intend on trying to return to it in future but cannot promise anything at this time.Again, sorry for any inconvenience.Bonnie~
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Hello everyone. I was hoping to finally get back to this series but I'm afraid I just don't care for it anymore.I still like the diary idea and may use it in future, but I just don't feel connected to this particular story anymore.If anybody wants to try and continue this themselves I'd be happy to hand it over, but as of now it's going to remain unfinished.Sorry again,Bonnie