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Endou was waiting in front of the Teiai elevators, to go up to Hyoudou’s office. He always avoided to see the patriarch himself, but occasionally, even he had to face him and give his report. Gently clenching his envelope with his documents under his crossed arms, he tapped his foot, restless. For such a big and powerful company, they really could have invested into faster elevators.
DING
The doors opened, and just as he wanted to enter without waiting for them to fully open, he saw: Tonegawa. Already standing inside, sharp suit as usual, a folder under his arm. Endou concluded that he must have been in the Teiai archives in the cellar to retrieve them, and now bringing them up to his own office.“Hello Endou.” spoke Tonegawa casually, a slight grin on his lips. “Going up as well?” Endou simply strolled inside, groaning “Hi, Tonegawa.” And nodded. “Yeah, to Hyoudou’s office, please.” Tonegawa pressed the according buttons for the upper floors, then turned back to him, smiling with a raised eyebrow: “About to meet the dragon, hm?” Endou scoffed and stood there with his arms folded, envelope in his hand, “Hm-hm. Some things just need to get done as quickly as possible.”The heavy elevator doors closed, and they both repositioned to face the door, standing next to each other. Looking straight ahead, they sank into their knees for a second, feeling that they went upwards.Silence. Both holding on to their documents. Not looking at each other. Eyes straight ahead.Then.“Yuuji.” said Tonegawa.“Yukio.” said Endou.And after a beat – both let their papers immediately fall to the ground, Endou grabbed Tonegawa hard by his collar, his hands clenching his shirt, Tonegawa grabbed Endou by his shoulders, and they started making out furiously, lips covered, tongues meeting, loud, again and again.“Ngah...! Hah...! Nnh...!” moaned Tonegawa, his eyebrows knitting in passion, his mouth wide open, his tongue gliding against Endou’s, touching so wet and warm, Endou answering him, moaning equally louder “Mmmnh..! Hnah...! Ngah...!”, pulling Tonegawa closer by his collar, wanting him, desiring him.Their relationship was not quite being together, but constantly entangled in encounters of lust, very often in public, but hiding their erotic connection to everyone else – to avoid rumours or talks, but also because it was... hot. Hot to be so secretive. Hot to meet in public without anyone noticing or knowing. Especially elevators were always dangerous, such a good, private place to get horny at each other. Tonegawa’s hand ran over Endou’s head, grabbed his hair and pulled him away from the kiss, strings of saliva connecting their lips and tongues for a second, he looked at Endou’s burning eyes behind his shades, his mouth still open from the kiss, panting, tilting his head with a lustful stare. Tonegawa whispered, breathlessly, “I missed you, where were you... ” And he let go, Endou shot forwards again to meet him, their hands touching all over, Endou sliding under Tonegawa’s suit jacket, over his shirt, to his back, holding on, and Tonegawa’s went over to Endou’s hips, squeezing them. “Ngah... I was in Kyoto... for a conference... Hah...” moaned Endou into the wet, fast, hard kiss, then stopped and pulled away for a second, letting Tonegawa’s lips snap at thin air, wanting to continue. “Ah, Tonegawa ...” he grinned, diabolically, looking at this aroused, sweating man so close in front of him, wanting more. “I fucking want you, Tonegawa.” he murmured, his tongue flicking deliciously with every word.They met again, kissing hard, one big mess of hugs and hands, touching all over, Tonegawa’s hands on Endou’s back, Endou’s grabbing Tonegawa’s ass hard, palms squeezing that smooth suit fabric and his tight muscles, he felt Tonegawa gasp against his lips “H-Hah...!”Glancing at the elevator panel, Tonegawa shifted his hand, sliding over to the back of Endou’s neck, then clenching hard and pulling him away again, Endou moaned loudly, he liked getting his neck touched, especially when Tonegawa’s fingers went through his short hairs on the back of his head, and moaned louder, “N-NGAH...!!” he was getting more turned on, but had to pull himself together to not get an erection – which paradoxically turned him on even more. Not get aroused, not reveal themselves, tell no one... and enjoy each other to the fullest potential. Tonegawa was panting, his commanding voice interrupted by his breathless sighs: “You... Endou... In my office... Hah... Tomorrow... 5 pm...”Endou grinned and nodded, then lifted a cheeky eyebrow, and whispered: “Of course... Hah.. Tonegawa...” And with one quick move, Endou placed a single short kiss on his lips as goodbye.
DING
The elevator stopped, and as fast as it had begun, it had already ended, they let go of each other immediately, picked up their documents, and before anyone could see them through the opening doors, they stood next to each other again, eyes front, shoulder to shoulder.Tonegawa got out of the elevator to get to his office, Endou stayed, to go further up, towards Hyoudou’s office. “Have a good day, Endou.” Spoke Tonegawa in a friendly, calm voice, and Endou answered, “You too, Tonegawa.”The doors closed, and their ways separated again, but inside their hearts, a flame was burning. No one knew of their relationship - whatever that relationship exactly was. And that was what they loved the most about it: Hiding in plain sight, Tonegawa and Endou were overjoyed with each other, emotionally and sexually.And who knew what the future would bring for the two? But a few things was for certain: It would be passionate, hot and most of all, their shared secret.
TO BE CONTINUED
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It was dark. Shadows creeping along the walls, only a far away dim office lamp giving a little bit of an orange glow in-between the dust, shelves, folders and papers. Further away, between the towering cabinets, in a shadowy spot where no light entered, were two figures. They made no noise, moved quietly, saying nothing.They were Tonegawa and Endou. And Tonegawa was pressing the other against the wall, his chest against Endou’s back, his hard erection grinding against Endou’s ass in his tight suit pants. “H-Hah...” gasped Endou quietly, getting himself so turned on by this scenario: Them both alone, in the dark, in a pretty public space - anyone from the company could walk in to get an old document or an archived folder. They had planned this for quite a while now. They had to be quiet. And quick. And very discreet. But that made it all the more arousing.“Shhhhhh...” shushed Tonegawa behind him, and Endou could hear the grin on his lips. They were facing the wall, Tonegawa snuggling up to him, and his hands came around Endou’s hips, holding them. Tonegawa gently moved in slow wave motions, and thrust against Endou’s ass. Endou could feel how hard he was, his bulge was big, strong, at full force... and rock hard.Tonegawa’s hands then both found their way towards Endou’s pants, palms sliding slowly over his abs from behind, towards his button and fly. Endou was getting more and more turned on, his hands resting against the wall, and he felt how Tonegawa came even closer, breathing down his neck. His gentle panting was so quiet, but in this silence, it seemed incredibly loud in contrast, with nobody else around. “Hah... Oh yeah... Endou...” sighed Tonegawa softly, his chin on Endou’s shoulder, moaning quietly and directly into his ear.Endou loved this, his hands holding on stronger to the wall, grinning with rising passion, and then he felt it: Tonegawa’s hand trailing his own erection, and now... he was slowly opening the buttons, taking his fly carefully between two fingers, and opening it... Taking his time, savouring the moment.His thumbs then went over the rim of Endou’s briefs, then they entered, pulling down his underwear and pants together, in one slow move. Endou was trembling with arousal, his head hanging down, panting through his wide smile, oh, he couldn’t wait. The rim travelled over his bulge, his erect cock, over the cusp of his butt cheeks, downwards, tightly, Tonegawa continuing to breathe down his neck, to press himself against him, it was intense.His pants were finally down, stopping at his upper thigh, revealing his naked, round ass and strapping hard erection. He could feel Tonegawa’s rigid shaft against his butt cheeks, sliding against his crack, the smooth suit fabric stretching over it turning him on as well as it caressed his skin. “Hah...” he could hear the satisfied moan of Tonegawa behind him, who was also horny at him. Very much.“Hurry up, Tonegawa...” sighed Endou with a diabolic grin, sweat beginning to run down his face, he wanted this quick, dirty and as soon as possible. “Oho, Endou... Hah... So impatient...” whispered Tonegawa back, his hands sliding over to Endou’s erection, his fingertips brushing the hard, rigid shaft, and his palm followed, grabbing Endou’s erect cock. “Don’t treat sex like your cigarette breaks... my friend...” grinned Tonegawa softly.It was that banter that turned them on so much as well, that constant fight for dominance. And Endou wanted to be dominated right now. Immediately. But of course Tonegawa wasn’t giving it to him immediately. He was taking his time, teasing, grinning with lust at Endou melting under his hands. In combination with the silent setting, it was incomparable.“Ngah...” moaned Tonegawa quietly, and started rubbing Endou’s erection, from his wrist, slow and determined, and his other hand slid over his naked hip, caressing him. Their suits rustled against each other in that quiet atmosphere, the gentle panting from both underlining that private, hidden eroticism even more. “(Nnh... T-Tonegawa... You... fuckin’ bastard... H-Hurry up..)” mouthed Endou, feeling himself getting more erect, harder in Tonegawa’s slow and tight hand, he was jerking him off so silently, yet passionately, he was losing his mind in this foreplay. He wanted it, wanted it so much.“(What’s with the profanity... Endou... huh?)” sighed Tonegawa back, enjoying his impatience, his want, his desire. His hand slid down from Endou’s hip, towards his own pants, and he quickly fumbled around to open his own buttons and fly. With a nearly audible groan, he whipped out his own erect cock, right out in the air, through the spread buttons and fly, not even pulling down his pants. They were loosely open, and with an even deeper sigh close to Endou’s ear, “(Ngah....)”, he snuggled up against Endou again – his hand wandering over to Endou’s chest, running his palms over the tight shirt, under his suit, the other continuing to slowly stroke him, and then... Tonegawa slid his hard, erect cock against Endou’s ass crack, rubbing, thrusting, and nuzzling his neck at the same time. Endou was completely in Tonegawa’s hands, getting overpowered, pressed against the wall, the big physique of Tonegawa against his back, holding, fondling him from behind.“H-H-Hah...!” stammered Endou louder, he nearly couldn’t take it, the arousal and the adrenaline rushing through his veins, his heart thumping in his throat, his erection so hard it nearly hurt, this was so much at once, and immediately, he was silenced by Tonegawa, whispering wet into his ear, “(Stay quiet... Endou... Hah... You don’t want anyone... Hah... To find us here like this... Huh...?)”, and he could hear the delicious grin in his voice. Endou was blushing, panting, sweating, trembling, he wanted it, he was pursing his lips to not moan immediately at Tonegawa’s touch and his hard cock he desired so much, but he pulled himself together, his back arched slightly, his head tilted, and he murmured, with a hoarse, breathless whisper: “(T-Tonegawa... Please... P-Put it in... I can’t take it anymore...)”Tonegawa was overjoyed, he had reached the point where Endou was begging. Begging for him to start. Begging for his hard cock. He knew that they had to hurry, every passing second was increasing the risk, but he wanted to push it just a little bit further. “(Oh Endou... You want this...?)” and he thrust himself harder at Endou, grabbing his chest, squeezing it, pulling him closer, his rigid erection sliding with full force between his ass cheeks, brushing past his hole, teasing, slowly, again and again, his low, commanding voice seeping into his ear, he breathed: “(This here...? This right here...? Hah... You want that? Endou...?)”Endou abruptly took his hand from the wall to cover his mouth, he groaned into his palm “(MMMH!)” he wanted to moan, moan so loudly, sigh with passion and frustration, it was turning him on so much, he was dripping, dripping precum on the floor, squinting his eyes behind his shades, knitting his brows, and Tonegawa behind him knew. He knew he had to start. Oh, it would be wonderful, he grinned to himself.Taking down his hands from Endou’s chest and erection, he rested one on Endou’s hips, the other grabbed his own hard shaft. Leaning just a bit backwards, he looked at Endou’s spread legs and round ass cheeks in front of him, he looked so good from behind: His trembling hand on the wall, the other covering his mouth, his usual rugged suit, and just there... his naked ass in front of him. Tonegawa smiled diabolically, then guided his own raging hard cock to Endou’s wet, lubed up anus. (Endou had prepared himself already, to be done quicker. That had been the plan, at least. Tonegawa had other plans though.)The tip of his cock touched the entrance of the tight hole, and Endou was trembling harder, taking his hand from his mouth, and he was begging, looking full of lust over his own shoulder, falling apart with desire, looking directly into Tonegawa’s eyes. “(Please... P-Please... T-Tonegawa... I s-swear...)” Tonegawa gently poked at the entrance with his raging hard cock, grinning, squeezing Endou’s hips, just about to fully enter him, but he simply couldn’t resist this masterpiece of a face Endou was giving him, continuing to tease, pressing gently against his tight anus, over and over, spreading it just a bit, repeatedly, “(You swear what... Huh...? Endou...? Hm...?)” Endou’s voice was fully falling apart, his eyes begging, staring at him over his shoulder, pleading to start, his sweat drenching his face, and only a hot breath escaped his panting mouth, one that trailed off into high-pitched upper limits of lust, “(O-Oh God... Just f-fuck me a-already... T-Tonegawa, p-please...)”That was it. The money shot. The perfect image of Endou. Tonegawa would think of it when he would touch himself the next time.Licking his lips, Tonegawa couldn’t wait anymore himself. With one strong thrust, contracting his back, his erect cock went inside Endou, sliding in, so tightly, so strong – Endou threw his head backwards, arching his back, covering his own mouth again, groaning “M-M-M-MMMMH!!!” , it was strong. He could feel it, feel it so intensely inside himself, Tonegawa’s hard erection spreading him, his shaft so... thick and hard. The tip, that strong tip was deep inside him, just touching the spot he was yearning for, what he wanted, what he was desiring. And then... he felt Tonegawa’s hands holding on to his hips, and he began to move. In and out. Again. And again. His loins slapped gently against Endou’s round butt cheeks, his fingertips squeezed his body harder, and he could hear his breathing, his lustful breathing, for every thrust behind him. “(Ah... Hah... Yeah...)” moaned Tonegawa, he was fully enjoying this situation, this dirty setup, him fucking Endou in the dark Teiai archive, between folders and shelves, secretly, without anyone noticing.Endou was completely taken away from this world, his eyes opening wide, his lips parting, his warm breath panting, getting held, getting overpowered. “(Hah...!! Ngah...!! Nhah...!!)” he was moaning with every thrust, it felt so good, felt so good to be entered from behind, he was sweating, trembling with lust, he felt his own cock swaying, getting even more erect, dripping, dripping even more glistening precum with rising anticipation.Tonegawa was grinning, sweating as well, seeing Endou’s back and tight round ass in front of him, seeing himself entering again and again, his hard shaft going tightly in and out, oh, it felt amazing.Suddenly.Tonegawa’s head flinched around.
Footsteps.
Endou was trembling, he could hear them too. This was dangerous territory now. Tonegawa stopped in his moves, his eyes darted around, but he could not locate anyone. It was too dim and dark, and the little bit of light that was there was not enough.Either they would interrupt their intercourse right here, or continue in their risky adventure. Sweat ran down Tonegawa’s face and he knitted his brows. He was still inside Endou, who was still trembling, his head hung down, the tips of his hair shivering, his mouth covered by his hand. Tonegawa pursed his lips. He had to take a decision now.“(Endou...)”, he whispered inaudibly, coming closer, cock hard inside, snuggling up to Endou, chest to back again to reach his ear, “(What should we-)”But he didn’t need to ask that question.Because Endou’s head turned around, his big eyes pleading behind his askew glasses, his skin shiny with sweat, his lips quivering, his face twitching, and his mouth moved so quietly, so intensely, speaking in a begging, hoarse, high-pitched moan: “(P-Please... Tonegawa... Finish me off... I can’t... take it...)” and with a string of saliva dripping from his wet mouth, he repeated, his big round eyes begging: “(T-Tonegawa... P-P-Please... H-Hurry...)”That image struck Tonegawa right at heart.The footsteps were still present.But there was no stopping now.Groaning silently with passion, Tonegawa smirked. He was risking his job right now, Endou too, but he didn’t care anymore. How could he resist such a heart-wrenching and horny face? Endou was too exciting for him, that was what he loved in this relationship. Whatever that relationship truly was, they were in it together now. And that made him even more erect.“(Get ready, Endou...!)” he smiled, and then... He started thrusting. Hard. Fast. His loins slapping against Endou’s ass, over and over, his thick shaft going in and out, pleasuring him, pleasuring himself, oh, how warm and tight he was. It was unbelievable.Endou was losing himself, he was too aroused, too horny, he was so erect, he wanted it, wanted to be taken, wanted to get fucked. He wanted to moan and scream, and yet he couldn’t, not with someone present in this archive. The loud, fast slaps were the only thing in his ears, someone could maybe hear them and investigate, or maybe not, but he didn’t care anymore, he wanted it, wanted it hard. And yet, keeping his voice down seemed more and more impossible, he wouldn’t be able to keep it down, not with Tonegawa fucking him so strongly from behind, he would moan any second, he could feel it, he was pursing his lips, trembling even more, oh no-And Tonegawa’s big hand slid around his mouth from behind, covering it. “(S-S-S-Shhhh...)” trembled Tonegawa equally behind him, getting destroyed by lust, continuing to fuck, he felt that Endou wouldn’t keep quiet, and took precautions himself. He could feel Endou’s lustful moan humming against his fingers, “(M-M-M-MMMMMH!!!)” him clenching his eyes and knitting his brows, his hands holding on harder at the wall.Endou wanted to get dominated? He wanted to be “finished off”, as he had said with a trembling voice? Oh, he would get it. And how he would get it.Tonegawa’s big palm covered Endou’s mouth, (and made sure to not cover his nose, he still needed to breathe), and his other hand found around him, towards... his raging hard cock. Continuing to thrust hard inside him, over and over, Tonegawa grabbed Endou’s swaying rigid shaft, and started stroking immediately: An overpowering, strong, dominating reach around.He could feel a hum against his palm, which sounded like a weak, muffled “(Y-Yes...! Yes!!! Oh yes...!!!)” And there was no stopping anymore. He would fuck him. Make him cum. Dominate the living hell out of him, show him what he was truly capable of. Tonegawa got faster, stronger, so much, his hand slid tightly over Endou’s rigid erection, it felt so good in his hand, and he entered him, again and again, rhythmic, in synch, lining up every thrust and stroke for maximum pleasure. Tonegawa was clenching his teeth, knitting his brows, he couldn’t moan either, he heard their suits rustling and his own loud, hard slaps against his round, muscular ass. How Endou felt under his hands, he was moving, twitching, sweating, arching his back in sheer pleasure, his chest heaving, his warm nose breath brushing over Tonegawa’s hand, he was so... lewd . So sexual. Fully enjoying himself, letting himself fall into Tonegawa’s hands, not caring for the looming danger, the footsteps were still present, not sure where they were coming from, but they simply lost all interest in that possible threat, they were here, here right now with their thoughts, in the present.“(Endou... Endou...!)” Tonegawa was muttering quietly, it felt so good, their bodies so close together, he was fucking him, stroking him, holding him, silencing him, this mature, strong man under his hands, this man he desired, his thick, hard cock going in and out, he could feel it, it felt so good, it was rushing through his body, the passion, the desire, the pure pulsating lust, his heartbeat getting faster, sweat running down his neck, Endou felt it too, his body twitching, his cock so erect, throbbing, needing release, his spot inside him getting stimulated over and over by this big, strong shaft inside him, and that tip, that lustful tip hitting him again and again, sending shocks of pleasure through him and accumulating in his twitching erection, that big hand on his mouth telling him to stay quiet, oh yes, and that other warm, tight hand stroking his cock, his cock that was the centre of his very being right now, he could feel it, feel it rush towards it, oh god, it was coming, Tonegawa got so much faster, so much harder, he could feel the climax approaching too, the footsteps, the footsteps were still there, where were they, they didn’t care, they were so erect, so hard, so much in unison, together, racing towards a gigantic simultaneous orgasm, yes, yes, they were fucking, harder, faster, Endou was twitching, his body convulsing, he wanted to scream with passion, he was getting silenced so forcefully, yes, Tonegawa was so strong, so hard, oh god, yes, they felt it, it was coming, yes, oh god yes, in and out, over and over, so erect, so thick, so close together, so deep inside him, so tight, so tight, oh god, yes, yes, YES, YES, YES YES“(NGHMMMMMMMMMMMH...!!!!!!)” screamed Endou into Tonegawa’s palm, his head thrown back, cumming so hard, harsh, strong shots of warm, white cum splattering against the wall, running over his shaft, his erect cock twitching, pulsating, cumming again and again, dripping and throbbing in Tonegawa’s tight, fast hand, sliding over it, “(N-N-N-NNNGH...!!!!!!!!!!!)” moaned Tonegawa through his clenched teeth, cumming hard inside Endou, his own thick, hard shaft pulsating, orgasming at full force, filling his tight anus up with warm semen, it squirting out with every hard thrust, over his own cock and balls, dripping white to the floor, it was so much, so much, their hearts beating, sweating, Tonegawa hugging Endou from behind, oh god, they got slower, yes, yes, it felt so good, so good, so good... ~ Tonegawa and Endou stood in the elevator, going up towards the offices. They looked straight ahead, and in the elevator mirror, they could see that they had not been exactly discreet. Endou’s hair was a mess, his askew glasses were still fogged from his own covered breath, and his tie and suit were not quite were they belonged. Tonegawa looked somewhat better, but not by much. His normally so sharp dark grey suit was crumpled, he was blushing strongly, and both looked like they had been running for quite a while – panting, sweaty, exhausted.After their orgasm, they had to part fast. While Endou had been still twitching in his open-mouthed post-orgasm exhaustion, Tonegawa had quickly pulled out, and started cleaning himself and the surroundings as well as possible, wiping off the floor and the wall with his little silk handkerchief. Endou had caught himself in the meantime, and closed his pants, and then, in a very unexpected move, Tonegawa had grabbed him by his hand and whispered “(Run!!!)” and they sprinted off into the darkness together.The footsteps had come closer and just then, Tonegawa had heard voices of two people talking, and seen lights at the end of the corridor – this had been definitely too dangerous for them to stay.And now, they had reached one of these side elevators, one of many that went down to the archives. If they had taken the main elevator, they would have passed the lobby and other dangerous places.They were safe here.Tonegawa cleared his throat, then whispered: “That was close, Endou.” Endou took a second to react, still in his after-orgasm glow, but then grinned back: “Yeah. But it was hot, though!” Tonegawa snickered at that answer, then sighed in a satisfactory manner and said, “Yes... Yes, it was.”The elevator continued upwards, and they both enjoyed their comfortable ride, both radiating with emotional satisfaction and sexual fulfillment. Then Tonegawa shuffled a little bit closer and tilted his head towards Endou, waiting for something. Endou looked confused for a second, then chuckled and understood - and they met for a short kiss on the lips. Softly nipping, their lips touching for a few sweet seconds, then separating again with a smile. With a slow blink, Tonegawa was happy, and Endou teased him, raising a curious eyebrow and grinning: “Tonegawa, you are the first one I met who always, always, wants a kiss after having sex, heh.”Tonegawa straightened his tie and took a boastful posture full of pride, sticking his chest out, and then smiled back, equally teasing: “Hehe, yes, I do, Endou. I insist on it!” Endou scoffed and shook his head, chuckling: “Pfffff, what an oldschool romantic you are.”They continued their ride upwards, towards their day to day life that awaited them. No one knew, except for them, and that made them more than happy.
TO BE CONTINUED
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It had been a while since Tonegawa and Endou had met in a non-sexual manner. Every time for the last weeks they had seen each other, they were more preoccupied with other things than talking. Hot and passionate things.However, Tonegawa was adamant that they should at least met once every two or three weeks for a talk and a good time, maybe outside the Teiai office tower – that tower that had already been the setting for way too many of their public encounters. A change of pace was in order.For Endou, the sex was the most important thing. They had fantastic sex together, pushing each other to new heights and pleasures every time. But he was less so involved with the social and emotional side of things. Did he have feelings for Tonegawa? Yes, quite so. Would he admit his feelings? Not openly, no. Was he looking forward to a highclass dinner without sexual tension, no dirty talk and no hard cock action? Absolutely not. It would be boring, he knew that already, he scoffed. Like getting dragged to a meeting he didn’t want to attend. But at least the food would be nice, so he had reluctantly agreed. He had heard the crème brulée was exceptionally great there, he had never had one before, and fine sweet desserts where indeed his weak point. At least something to look forward to, he licked his lips, thinking about it. ~ The day had come, a warm Saturday evening, it was already dark outside, and Tonegawa’s limousine stopped in front of one of Tokyo’s most luxurious French restaurants. Both Tonegawa and Endou stepped out, and stood in front of the modern, very chic glass doors with gold ornaments. Endou grumbled: “That is so much your style, that restaurant. I’ll feel out of place there.” And looked down himself: Endou had put on his best suit, a dark red pinstripe three-piece, but next to Tonegawa, in his classy, sharp and fitted black tuxedo with a pearl white shirt and pocket watch, he looked too mundane - not being able to wash off the visual smell of ‘underground loan shark’.“Haha, don’t worry, Endou, I’m sure you will like it.” Tonegawa gently patted him on his back. With a quick mumble, he added, “If it helps, take it as a little sweet revenge for when you took me to that shady bar down the pier, where we nearly got mugged when drunk kissing in the backalley afterwards.” Endou smirked, remembering that very drunk and very dangerous evening as if it was yesterday. “Touché.” He grinned. It was true: He had dragged Tonegawa to one of his places, so Tonegawa was dragging him to one of his. It was very fair, he concluded.One of the waiters opened the elegant doors for them, and they entered the warm, calm and classy atmosphere. Gentle muttering of friendly conversation was all around, chandeliers and candlelight, a live band was playing smooth classical music - and that was the most fancy decor and architecture Endou had ever seen. It was a big room splitting off into smaller ones all around, lots of mirrors, glass and gold, many discreet and private tables parted by half-see-through curtains. “Damn.” gasped Endou softly, he could get used to dining like this.Tonegawa walked up to the counter, where a perfectly dressed waiter already stood. “Reservation for Tonegawa, table for two.” The man checked his big leather-bound book, trailing the lines with one finger, and then nodded, “Welcome Mr. Tonegawa, would you follow me please.”They walked between the tables, a long corridor meandering through different sections and room parts, and Endou grew more and more fascinated and intimidated. Glancing left and right, he could spot people whose faces he knew, but never met: film actors, news anchors, politicians, models. The cream of the crop of Tokyo was here. And he, shady loan shark from downtown, was walking among them.They took a sharp turn, and in a small corner, surrounded by other two person tables with couples and dates, was their destination. Even if the tables were close, the gently swaying curtains coming down from the ceiling gave them space and visual separation. Endou thought that it added a fresh, summery feel, all these vertical white lines in midst the gold, glass and classy music.The waiter showed them their table, and even pulled the chairs back to let them sit down comfortably. Endou’s eyebrows raised, no one had ever seated him like this. After they both received their menus, the waiter bowed and walked away. They were alone at their highclass table.While Tonegawa was gently turning every page, looking at the dishes and inspecting the according wine list, Endou grew nervous. Those prices were insane. The silverware looked too fancy and elegant to eat. All the people around them were famous, rich, important, or a combination of the three.Would he really belong here? And stay here for a full-course meal? But just as he wanted to say something, Tonegawa looked at him and whispered in a friendly tone: “No need to be nervous, Endou. No one here knows us, and if someone does, we are celebrating some Teiai success as workmates. ‘Special bonus from the chairman’ and all that.” And winked at him. Endou felt a little bit better, but couldn’t get his mind to rest about this dinner. Tonegawa was looking at his own menu again, and added, feeling Endou being tense: “You are free to choose, Endou. I’m inviting you for this evening, meals and drinks included, of course.”That really was good news, Endou sighed with relief, the weight falling off his shoulders. Then this evening would be a lot more relaxed, not having to worry about money or being seen in public together. His usual attitude came back, and he raised an eyebrow, whispering lowly: “Ohooo, Tonegawa... Are you paying for all my needs...? Haha, one might even think that you are my sugar dadd-““Don’t say that, that’s beneath you.” interrupted Tonegawa in the most stern and serious tone, not even looking up from his menu, angrily flicking over a page. Endou snickered, he knew how much Tonegawa hated that word and the implication in their context. They had a proper relationship - not based on income or money, but rather on lust and attraction. How much they were partners and how much just fuckbuddies however seemed to fluctuate every day, but for now, it was great how it was, and that was good.Endou got his self-confidence back, teasing Tonegawa was just too much fun. “I’m sorry, Tonegawa, it was a joke.” He grinned. Tonegawa looked back up, raising an eyebrow. Endou continued, a bit more serious: “A bad one. I would never suggest such a thing.” And slid his open hand discreetly over the table towards him.Tonegawa noticed it and a little blush came over his face. He slid his own hand towards his, and after a little beat of hesitation, he covered Endou’s, palm to palm. They held hands on the table. Tonegawa gently squeezed it, a little smile coming over his lips. “Thank you.” he whispered, and Endou nodded. Their hands parted again before someone could see the act, and they went back to their menus. “Bordeaux for us two, I suppose?” beamed Tonegawa, and Endou grinned, “Only the best, my friend.”But Endou was also grinning about Tonegawa. He was so predictable. An oldschool gentleman who was romantic to the core. You only had to show a little affection and he would melt away in your hands – much to Endou’s joy. (Of course, Endou was exactly the same when Tonegawa showed affection towards Endou: especially during sex, Endou would turn into a mess. But as always, people were the most oblivious about their own quirks and feelings.)Maybe this evening would be a lot better than expected, thought Endou. In addition... he had spotted something. A small but important detail that would come in handy later. He snickered to himself, haha, yeah, that would be fun. But for now, he would enjoy this dinner and a little conversation. ~ Tonegawa enjoyed the last few bites of his bouchée à la reine, a delicate puff pastry with chicken and cream filling, together with basmati rice and peas, an exceptionally well made dish. Endou had chosen an entrecôte, a beef rib eye steak with fries and garlic butter. Endou was extraordinarily happy with his choice, he had thought that everything would be too fancy for him, when in fact, the menu was pretty down to earth in its selection, but at an exceptional quality. Even the starter, a delicate pumpkin soup with vinaigrette and roasted seeds had been absolutely to his taste.Taking the last bite from his fork, his lips savouring as they gently glid over the fork, Tonegawa blinked slowly and hummed a little in his pleasure. Endou equally took his last bite, the steak leaving a fantastic rich flavour in his mouth.Tonegawa wiped his mouth discreetly with his napkin and placed it down on his lap again, then smiled: “Not that bad, huh, Endou?” Endou was indeed impressed, and grinned deliciously back: “I can definitely say that you got taste, Tonegawa. Well chosen as a dinner place.” He leaned back casually and grabbed his wine glass, then pointed it at Tonegawa with little fling: “Haha, of course you have good taste, you chose me as your partner!” And snickered to himself, taking a sip, the red wine matching the meat taste on his tongue perfectly.Tonegawa just pursed his lips, wanting to say something to that boastful claim, but shook it off after staring into thin air for a few moments, then lifted his glass for a toast: “To good taste, then!” Endou was still chuckling at his own dreadful joke, and their glasses touched with a tiny Clink! noise.Taking a lovely sip and putting the glass down again, a waiter appeared and took their empty plates. Tonegawa was nonetheless still very chuffed about this cosy evening, the food had been wonderful, and the talk invigorating. He had never guessed that Endou liked cheesy 80’s city pop music, just like him.He looked at Endou again and asked, folding his hands: “What did you chose as a dessert again? It was something nice, I recall.” Endou’s eyebrows rose for a second behind his sunglasses, and he said “Crème brulée!” with a joyful tone. Tonegawa smiled: “Ah, a classic! Did you know that professional chefs often use a little gas burner to crystallise the sugar on top of t-the... c-cream?”Tonegawa stopped dead in his tracks, just as he had leaned forward to share his culinary knowledge. Something had touched him. And not just somewhere.Something was delicately pressing against his crotch. Directly aiming for his cock.And judging from the little smirk that had just appeared on Endou’s face, it was pretty clear who it was.
That sneaky bastard.
Glancing downwards for a fraction of a second, Tonegawa could see it, under his napkin he had placed on his lap: Endou’s foot. To be more precise, his leather shoe, and the tip of it gently pressing against his package, rustling against his suit.Endou had spotted the opportunity for this little stunt earlier: The drapes of the table went all the way down to the ground on both sides, but not where they sat, giving full control and view for what was happening for the participants, but not for any outside watchers. To him, the evening would reach its climax now: His dessert, and teasing Tonegawa sexually while eating it. And nobody would notice. In this fancy restaurant, he would touch a man’s crotch in public, Tonegawa’s crotch, someone who was sensitive to that, oh yes... Endou couldn’t wait for the result, whatever the result would be. That little voice break there had already been a fantastic appetizer. But he wanted more.Pressing stronger, moving slightly left and right, feeling the shaft, Endou asked, casually, as if nothing happened: “What were you saying, Tonegawa...?” Tonegawa pursed his lips, then answered too as if nothing happened: “You can caramelise the sugar on top of the cream with an open flame, that works a lot better than just p-putting it in the... oven.” His voice cracked again.Oh. Oh, this was fun, grinned Endou.Tonegawa was shifting in his chair, his thighs moving, and Endou pressed harder, seeing Tonegawa trying to hold it together in front of him was pure bliss.“What did you chose as a dessert, anyway?” smiled Endou, putting on a nearly mocking lovey-dovey voice, and Tonegawa twitched, as he let his tip run in circles over his crotch now. “I... I chose a selection of the handmade sorbets.” he sighed, and Endou couldn’t get enough. “Can you tell me more about that?” Endou hummed, resting his head on his hand in the most coquette manner, “Like... What’s the difference between ice cream and sorbet?” And gently moved his shoe tip up and down – and he could feel it: Tonegawa was getting hard. He could feel the resistance, him getting turned on at this lewd public act.Little drips of sweat began to form on Tonegawa’s forehead, glistening perfectly in the candle light, and he grinned, pulling himself even more together: “Hehe... I’m glad that you ask, Endou. Most p-people don’t know the difference. Ice cream is made with milk, while...” his eye twitched, “...while sorbet is made with only sugar, water, and fresh fruits. It’s more d-difficult to make, but all the more delicious, because it’s... lighter and has more of that pure natural flavour...”Endou tilted his head, and asked with an even softer voice: “And you chose that...? That sounds good...” And smiled at his creation. Tonegawa was clenching one fist on the table, his head flinching away for a second, and Endou wanted to see more. He got faster, letting the leather tip brush up and down at a higher speed, pressing onward, harder against Tonegawa’s rising erection.He felt Tonegawa shifting again, putting his feet together, rummaging around, but oh no, there was no escape, Endou smirked. Tonegawa’s stare went behind him and Endou turned around as well, and saw: the waiter with their desserts was arriving. “Ah, there they are!” remarked Endou in a jolly tone. This highlight was meeting the other highlight of this evening.The waiter placed down the sorbet in front of Tonegawa, and the crème brulée in front of Endou. Tonegawa simply nodded in appreciation, not wanting to speak right now, and Endou thanked the waiter, “Thank you very much, ...s-sir!”The waiter stopped for a beat at that strange intonation, but simply bowed and disappeared again.Endou stopped. What was...Impossible.Glancing down, Tonegawa had started a counterattack while Endou had turned around and was distracted. His foot was also pressing against Endou’s crotch.But Tonegawa had one advantage. He had taken his shoe off.It dawned on Endou now.The rummaging around with his feet had not been an attempt a defensive move, but the preparation of an offensive one: He had stepped on his own heel to take his shoe off, sliding out of it – and now his foot, clad in a deep black kneesock, was gently rubbing his crotch.“Well then...” grinned Tonegawa, “Enjoy your dessert, Endou, it looks delicious.” He picked up his little spoon and carefully took a little of his sorbet, a selection of three flavours, all different colours. As his spoon touched his tongue, he pressed on stronger against Endou’s cock. “Hmmm... Delicious...” he hummed.Endou had just been staring at his dessert, feeling himself get aroused. Very aroused. He hadn’t a thing for feet, but that was good. Getting touched in public was something he could never get enough of. And Tonegawa was going hard at him. Pressing with just his footpad against his balls, then going upwards, to his shaft, that was getting more and more erect. It was a strong move.Endou picked up his spoon, his fingers trembling a little. And now this dessert in front of him. The one he had been waiting for a whole week for. It was still a bit warm, freshly made, crispy caramel top with vanilla cream beneath, and as a garnish, a few fresh raspberries and a mint leaf.Taking the metal spoon, he pressed against the caramel, and with a little crack, it broke, and Endou twitched. Tonegawa had pressed on hard in the same moment.
That old fox.
Endou grinned, equally beginning to sweat. He looked up at Tonegawa in front of him, who was now intensely staring back at him, licking his spoon with great care. “What are you waiting for, Endou...? ” he smirked, “ I thought you were looking forward to it...” and pressed slowly up and down Endou’s hardening shaft.Taking a spoonful, Endou guided his unsure hand to his lips, and as he put it in his mouth, he was hit with an ecstasy of flavours and textures: The vanilla custard was sweet, pairing itself with the freshly roasted caramel whose taste had seeped inside it, a simultaneously crunchy and soft experience within a single dish – an embrace of love between two different elements creating a masterpiece of a dessert.“Mmmnh...” moaned Endou, his eyelids fluttering in pure pleasure. He had never had something so good, so unique and so perfectly crafted. It was sex. It was sex to his tongue, his personal taste, his love of sweets...And Tonegawa continued to touch his now rigid hard cock. Rotating, loving, pressing against it, rubbing it with great care and passion. Endou’s foot slid down from Tonegawa’s crotch, he couldn’t keep his own attack going. He wanted more of this. More of these two things stimulating him.Tonegawa lifted an eyebrow and whispered under his breath to not be heard by the surrounding tables: “(Endou... Are you spreading your legs for me...? I like that...)” He was indeed, his want was taking over his body, he wanted to be touched more, and he spread his legs under the table, to give Tonegawa more space.Taking another spoonful, this time with a raspberry, Endou was completely lost in pleasure, a little smile curling on his lips as they slid over the spoon. “Mnh ...” he moaned quietly, the fresh red fruit taste combined itself perfectly with the roasted caramel and the vanilla. Tonegawa shifted, he let his foot glide to the right, his sole caressing Endou’s thighs, over these beautiful spread legs. He went over these nice muscles, this leg hair he could feel under the suit fabric. “ Mmh...” hummed Tonegawa, himself enjoying his dessert as well, it was a fantastic selection of fruit sorbet he had. Then he had another idea, to make this whole act even better. He probably had to be either quick or very discreet, looking left and right that no one was spotting them.Leaning forward, Tonegawa whispered, sweat running down his temples, “Want to try some of mine...? ” Endou was completely horny in front of him, his eyes fogged with lust, enjoying his own dessert to an incredible degree, now trying the vanilla with the little mint leaf garnish that added a whole new level of freshness to his taste. “ Yeah ...” gasped Endou, “ Give me...” and leaned forwards on the table, on his elbows, his face coming closer to Tonegawa.Tonegawa smirked and put a bit of everything on the spoon, carefully scooping a piece of every flavour on it. His foot then went strongly towards Endou’s crotch again, and he leaned forward as well, in one nice balance act, and guided his little spoon forward, towards Endou’s parting lips.“There... It’s peach, pear and mango...” he whispered gently, and Endou looked at him, opening his mouth, wanting it. “Hurry, or it’ll melt...” he added softly with a smirk. Endou’s eyes burned behind the dark shades at Tonegawa. Oh God, it looked good.Gently giving it to Endou, Tonegawa led the spoon inside his mouth - and Endou let his tongue curl around it, towards the sorbet, the metal spoon, sliding around, tasting, closing his eyes, knitting his brows with passion, slowly, savouring every second of it, then he took it between his lips, closing his mouth, and Tonegawa could feel Endou licking it, clenching his jaw, gently pulling, tilting his head – and Tonegawa couldn’t resist, he pressed on in that very same moment, his foot pad running slowly up Endou’s rigid hard cock again, and he saw it, saw Endou trembling, moaning discreetly “(M-Mnah...!) ”, his tongue twitching inside his mouth... that was slowly opening again... lips parting... the spoon in Tonegawa’s hand was trembling as the wet, quivering tongue touched it... Endou’s eyes opened... radiating lust... Tonegawa moved his hand gently... and Endou moaned... “H-Hah...” as he pulled out... a string of saliva following... slowly... it glistened in the candle light... as it dripped off the spoon...Tonegawa gulped. That was dirty.He wasn’t sure if he was overdoing it right now. There was only so much they could do without getting caught, and he wasn’t sure how long this flimsy visual shield of see-trough curtains was going to hold. But good lord, was it hot. He saw Endou leaning back again after this sexual sorbet tasting, and he gasped, licking his lips quickly, “Oh Tonegawa... That tastes good... Hah.. .” and led his own spoon to his mouth again, the vanilla mixing with the plethora of new fruit tastes in his mouth, his eyes rolled back for a second as he closed his lips. He sighed, and then replied, “ Yours and mine go so well together... I love that, Tonegawa...”Tonegawa was just in awe at this point. For one, he hadn’t known that apparently Endou had a thing for sweets, a very sexual thing it seemed, and also... That was the first time he had heard Endou say the word “love”.He was smitten and horny now. Normally a good mix, but probably not a good one to have in a public upper-class restaurant within the high society of all of Tokyo. They had to get out of here as soon as possible.“I’m glad you like it...” sighed Tonegawa, and Endou continued, spoon after spoon, so full of lust, lust for the sweet taste lingering on his tongue, lust for Tonegawa, staring at him. “Hey...” whispered Endou, wet with pleasure, “H-How do we get out of here...?” His tongue curled around one of the last scoops of Vanilla cream, and his voice got a lot more quiet, breathing to make extra sure only Tonegawa could hear him, “B-Because I want you... I want you right now... I want you in the limousine immediately...”Tonegawa took down his foot and grinned, and equally leaned forward to quietly whisper: “I say that I will pay the bill, and you will do like any good gentleman who has an erection in public, you tuck it in the rim of your underwear, close your suit on top of it and hope for the best.” Endou nodded gently, still enjoying his dessert, blushing, panting, wanting it. Tonegawa was equally horny, it was amazing what Endou could ignite in him.This face, he had rarely seen it so aroused. It made him unstoppable - had they not been in public, Tonegawa would take Endou immediately on this very table. Although this was impossible to pull off and would be interrupted by the staff in a matter of seconds, fucking Endou right here and right now was an intriguing thought. Heh, once they were out of here and in privacy, nothing would hold him back. Endou’s red three-piece looked so good on him, Tonegawa couldn’t wait to take it off his aroused body, to slide his hands under it, to make him moan and sigh so loudly in response, he would open that vest, that shirt, look at that chest, embrace it, feel his rigid hard cock, so turned on by him and this sweet situation, his thighs, his tight ass, he would run his hands over them, touch him, grab him hard, and just... fuck him as if there was no tomorrow. He could never get enough of his moans, his sighs, how he held on to him, how warm he was, this voice, this face, this body, this body hair, this sexual aura and strength that made him mad with desire and love for him...Oh no. That train of thought had turned him on even more. Tonegawa’s bulge was also quite visible now, hidden under the napkin in his lap.It really was time to get out of here.Repositioning his napkin so that it looked more unsuspicious, Tonegawa lifted his hand to call a waiter. Endou had just finished, letting the spoon out of his mouth one last time, and placing it gently in the little cup with great care. While Tonegawa asked the waiter for the bill, Endou figured out a way to tuck his raw power away, so that it would at least hold until they were in the limousine. Leaning forward with his crossed elbows on the table, he could use the tips of his fingers to fix this bulge. Tonegawa used his napkin as a shield, quickly reaching down a tucking away what could lead to quite a stir in this restaurant. Sliding back into his shoe posed no problem.After Tonegawa had paid, simply sliding his gold credit card to the waiter, he wanted to get up and leave. But just as he stood up, Endou grinned widely and pointed discreetly at his crotch for a second, lifting one side of his suit to show him what was underneath. And Tonegawa couldn’t believe it.Endou had tucked it, yes, but not with his underwear - but with his suit pants. Meaning, the tip of his erect cock peeked out on top. Between shirt and rim of his pants. Right out in the open. He let the buttoned up suit fall down again, and it seemed absolutely unsuspicious now. Completely covered.Tonegawa was more than just nervous now. And also quite aroused. That absolute madman.“(Are you out of your mind?!)” he quickly whispered at him as Endou got up, and Endou just grinned back, straightening his suit with a big diabolic grin, and quickly breathed back into Tonegawa’s ear as he leaned over: “(If I can make it out of this fancy-fancy restaurant while walking through Tokyo’s high society with my erect cock out on the open, then I will goddamn do so, Tonegawa...)” and he added, “(Wanna bet...? If I can do it, then I want to be on top tonight...)” with a sweating, delicious grin.Tonegawa was speechless. Endou could have whatever position he wanted if he asked, it had always been like that, switching was normal for them. This wasn’t about the bet – Endou just wanted to have fun in public. And that was damn risky. And very exciting.“The bet counts, then...” smiled Tonegawa back, wanting to see where this led, and they both started walking back the way they came from. Between tables, through the little connected rooms, Endou was grinning behind Tonegawa, and Tonegawa couldn’t help but also grin. They were straight up walking through the most important people in town - no, in the country, with strong erections, and in Endou’s case, even with revealed ones. It really was too much fun.They had reached the big main room, the gold and glass one, with big chandeliers and the live orchestra playing classy music. The mutter of soft dinner conversation was all around, and Endou snickered quietly to himself, a drip of sweat running down his face, walking leisurely. The inside of his suit even rubbed against his strong tip with every move, that was also quite arousing, oh, he was beginning to feel the precum trickling on his tip, it felt good, he grinned wider. That really would be a story for the ages, the story of how Tonegawa and Endou walked out a highclass restaurant with their dicks out. The waiter held the door open for them, and they got out into the cool evening air. After a minute of waiting in silence, smiling to themselves and exchanging a few cheeky glances, their limousine arrived. As Tonegawa held the door open for Endou, he whispered, “ You won the bet, Endou... Shall we get to the payoff then? ” And Endou replied: “ I could really go for my second dessert, Tonegawa...” and licked his lips. They both climbed in and the door snapped shut behind the two.And as they drove off into the night, many sweet surprises and tastes were explored, and hunger was satisfied in the most beautiful and passionate ways.
TO BE CONTINUED
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„Hey.“ Whispered Endou into Tonegawa’s ear, “I’m hard.”Tonegawa looked up from his little sip of orange juice he was about to take. Endou grinned back at him, and he saw his own surprised face in the reflection of his sunglasses. “Endou.” Spoke Tonegawa slowly, “We are on a plane.”That was correct. They both had been summoned to an important meeting a bit further out, and Hyoudou had insisted on them using one of the private jets from the Teiai squadron. No more relaxing time on a train, but a straight one hour flight from A to B, Tonegawa was miffed about that, but at least he would take advantage of all the free drinks. It was cosy after all, they were the only passengers, it had a carpet floor, a few seats with tables for less than a dozen passengers, and overall good service by the crew.“Yeah! We’re on a plane!” grinned Endou wider. And it began to dawn on Tonegawa. Shaking his head and chuckling, he responded: “Oh, somebody wants to join the Miles High club? You just waited for this opportunity, didn’t you?”Endou’s grin got wider, and he looked over the rim of his sunglasses, tilting his head: “Exactly, Tonegawa... When are we getting this chance again...?” But Tonegawa just placed his little plastic cup down, then answered with a serious voice: “As intriguing as this idea is, I don’t want to bother the stewardesses. They are underpaid by our company, they don’t need to find us in the act as well, that would be too much on them.”“No worries...” smiled Endou, and pulled a big stack of yen bills, slapping it on his lap, “I’ll just bribe them if they find us. Would improve their salary, for sure, how nice of us! And who would believe them anyway? Some poor worker or the middle manager and right hand of Teiai Corporation?” Endou’s eyebrows lifted teasingly, overjoyed at his plan and outlook. “Eh? Eh? Tonegawa?”Tonegawa just sighed. “Endou, you are awful...” But he got up anyways, undoing his seat belt and stretching himself slightly. He had also been thinking about having a sexual encounter on a plane, but never pulled through, as he felt sorry for the cabin crew. And yet, Endou’s askew morals currently did a good job of enabling him to things he wouldn’t do otherwise. As usual.Endou followed him, shoving his money back into his suit pocket, nearly bouncing with devilish joy. Walking up to the cabin toilet, Tonegawa hesitated as he opened the door. He looked inside, and quickly whispered: “Endou, this is too small for both of us to have sex. I’m too big, I would need that space alone.” Endou was surprised, then he mumbled, looking away with a pout: “You're not ‘too big’. I like you how you are.” Tonegawa was smitten, but that didn’t solve their problem. Under his breath, he whispered back: “Thank you. ... How are we making this work then?” Endou put his hand to his chin, “Hmm...” As this was a tiny private jet, the toilets were even smaller than usual.Tonegawa looked quickly around and spotted... a stewardess, looking at them from the other side of the plane aisle, peeking out behind the curtains. “Everything is fine, madam!” nodded Tonegawa with a small wave, the image of two grown men inspecting a toilet was most likely very suspicious. The lady, with a confused look on her face, just nodded and bowed with a simple “You’re welcome.”Tonegawa simply smiled back at her and answered the nod, while Endou was still looking at the toilet, tilting his head, thinking about how they could fit inside. The stewardess left them alone and disappeared in her little compartment again.“In there. Now.” said Tonegawa through his forced smile – and simply pushed Endou with his hand on his back to get in. “Whoa!” exclaimed Endou, as he stumbled inside, Tonegawa immediately followed and closed the door behind them.And his prediction had been right. It was narrow. Cramped. Their bodies close to each other, pressed chest to chest, facing each other – Endou with his back against the lavatory, Tonegawa a smooth wall behind him. Their noses nearly touching, they stared into each others eyes. “Well then.” whispered Tonegawa. “Can we make this work before she comes around to check why two grown men were staring intently at a toilet, who coincidentally were also the two only passengers on this flight - who also are now both gone at the same time?”Endou wasn’t sure either what to do, but he only knew one thing: Damn. This was turning him on. A lot.Their bodies so close, in a pretty public context, with the danger of being found out, pressed against each other in this tight space. Endou was getting more excited, feeling his light erection become a full rigid one. He was breathing faster already, panting: “I dunno, Tonegawa... Can you turn around?” Tonegawa shifted his shoulders, but failed. “No... Can you, Endou...?” Endou tried as well, but everything stopped him, the lavatory, the paper dispenser, the mirror in his back. “No, me neither...”And there they stood.A little moment passed, and Tonegawa said, agitated: “Well, I’m not going back out, turn around and shuffle back in sideways while waving ‘Haha, everything is fiiiine!’ at the stewardess, just so that we can have sex on a plane!” That image alone made Endou snicker, but it still didn’t help them. Raising one eyebrow, Endou looked at Tonegawa and whispered with a smirk: “Rub our dicks together...?”Tonegawa quickly shook his head, glancing at the door, “No, that will just make a mess. Clean-up will be difficult in here.” He knitted his brows, thinking. They needed something quick, that didn’t leave too many traces, and that was easy to perform in a cramped space while facing each other.The motor of the plane rumbled in the background as they thought of a solution.Then, Tonegawa smiled.Endou looked back at him, a little confused and then, he understood: Tonegawa slid down, his back going tightly over the wall, further down, lifting his hands as he did, running them down over Endou’s thighs, until he was on his knees in front of him.Of course.A blowjob.It had been a while since Endou had received one, their foreplay was more often too quick or just focused on hands. Getting a blowjob from Tonegawa was something special, his heart beat faster, and he grinned diabolically as he looked at Tonegawa beneath him looking up. Tonegawa’s eyes were on fire with lust, he hadn’t performed one in a while as well. His legs spread far, knees left and right of Endou’s feet, he ran his hands over Endou’s smooth suit pants, caressing his thighs, feeling the leg hair beneath the thin fabric, and then he looked at what would be part of his act.Endou couldn’t wait for it. He was massively turned on, seeing his own hard cock move slightly, twitching, his pants stretching out hard, and just next to it, Tonegawa’s face, inspecting it. Tonegawa looked at Endou’s crotch and whispered “Hmm...? Is that for me... Endou...?” and started rubbing his cheek gently against the bulge. “Yeah...” grinned Endou back, panting, sweat beginning to form on his forehead, “All of this is for you, Tonegawa...” Tonegawa looked at Endou, his stare continuing to burn with passion. “Oh my... I better unpack this present then... If it’s all for me...” and in an unexpected move, Tonegawa tilted his head, his neck muscles twitching, and he opened his mouth, his tongue twirling gently as he came closer... and he took Endou’s fly between his lips, then bit down on it, holding the zipper between his teeth. With a slow turn of his head, exhaling slowly, he unzipped Endou’s tight suit pants with just his delicious grin, his hands resting on Endou’s hips.“Oh fuck...” whispered Endou through his sweaty smile, that just looked and felt amazing. He couldn’t put his finger on it, but there was something special about Tonegawa’s blowjobs – the amount of care he put in, the use of his mouth, but most of all: he had a certain dignity. He always looked so full of lust and honour when he went down on Endou, as if he took full pride in what he was doing, displaying that deep craftsmanship with all of his body. Endou was more of a rough, quick and messy blowjob performer, which he liked doing as well, so seeing something so radically different and, dare he say ‘elegant’, turned him on even more.“Hah...” gasped Endou, feeling his erection getting more space, his fly open, and Tonegawa opened the button with his hands, staring at the hard shaft underneath these briefs, just in front of his face. Tonegawa gasped, teasingly: “Oh Endou... How hard you are...” and with a grin, he put his thumbs in the rim of Endou’s underwear. He pulled them down, taking his time, slowly revealing Endou’s erection, hands travelling down with the pants and underwear – and there it was: Endou’s naked, rigid, upright cock.“How wonderful...” sighed Tonegawa, looking at this hard beauty in front of him. He had never paid Endou a proper compliment so far, but damn, he loved his cock. Such a good size, the shape, slight curve upwards, and just... how hard he always was for him. It just looked and felt so good. Tonegawa’s hands held on to Endou’s hips and he came closer, smiling, and then... his lips met with Endou’s shaft, giving it a small kiss.“Nngh...” groaned Endou, not only did Tonegawa always have so much fun when he performed oral sex, but he also knew how to tease and excite. Tonegawa looked at aroused Endou above him, and not breaking eye contact, he licked the head of Endou’s cock, his lips softly nipping at the tip, smoothly going over it again and again, nibbling gently.“F-Fuck...” gasped Endou as he saw it, just having his own erection next to Tonegawa’s face was arousing, but how he built his tension, how slowly he began his act to get faster and more intense the longer it went – it turned Endou on, so much.“Hah... Endou...” he heard from beneath, and saw how Tonegawa’s tongue caressed the wet head of his cock, “Are you giving me your precum already... Hah... Are you that excited...?” and he saw that glistening drip of his cock getting licked off by Tonegawa’s warm, precise tongue. “Nngah...!” moaned Endou back, fuck, that looked hot.With a low chuckle, Tonegawa parted his lips, and he let Endou’s shaft slide in, further, further, deeper, going over his tongue inside his warm and soaked mouth. Nearly at the base, he closed his mouth, his lips around the erection. “Mmmh...” he moaned, and slowly he began to move his head back and forth, taking his time, closing his eyes, knitting his brows in passion. His lips slid tightly over the hard shaft, again and again. “A-A-Ah....! Y-Yes...!” stammered Endou, it felt amazing.Endou felt Tonegawa’s hands move, going from his hips behind him, the big warm palms slid over his naked butt cheeks and then... he grabbed them hard, holding on, continuing in his deep and slow blowjob, as if claiming all of Endou for himself, not letting go. Feeling the tips of his fingers press into his tense ass muscles and seeing Tonegawa so strong and wet on his cock, it made Endou mad with desire.“Y-Yeah...” Endou moaned heavily, looking down at Tonegawa on his knees in front of him, how good he looked there, putting all his passion into this blowjob, enjoying himself and wanting Endou to feel good.Endou wanted to grab Tonegawa’s head and move him, harder, faster, in and out, his quivering hand went forwards, trembling with lust, yeah, down to grab that grey hair, he came closer, closer, wanting to hold it...
SLAP
And with a leisure slap, Tonegawa had swatted Endou’s hand away, a relaxed swing with the back of his hand. “A-Ah...!” gasped Endou, he hadn’t expected that, and pulled back his hand. It didn’t hurt, but it sure was demanding. Tonegawa let this strong, hard cock out of his mouth with a big erotic sigh, and looked up at Endou, smirking: “Tsk, tsk, who told you that you could touch my head...?” He waved a cheeky finger, saliva and precum dripping from his lips to the ground, “So impatient, Endou... You let the master do his work first and then you can interfere...!” And suddenly he grabbed Endou’s ass cheeks hard, even spreading them a little, and he lunged forward, taking his rigid hard shaft in his mouth again, immediately going deep, his lips touching the base.“A-A-AH...!!!” moaned Endou even louder, throwing his head back, Tonegawa was so strong and passionate making love to him with his mouth, gliding over his hard shaft over and over, closing his eyes, so tight and warm, his tongue caressing the hard erection inside his mouth, his head going back and forth, his powerful hands grabbing Endou’s ass hard – it was amazing.Endou would cum soon if this continued, feeling his cock twitch and tremble with arousal, his breath getting faster, sweat running down his face, now holding on to the lavatory for support.How good Tonegawa looked while doing that, his sharp business suit adding something, his lips going so tightly over the glistening wet hard shaft, his passionate face, and his breath getting erratic, breathing through his nose.Then... Endou felt Tonegawa getting a little slower. As he looked further down to see why, his eyes widened. Oh yes.Tonegawa had taken down his hands from Endou’s ass, one going to the front, holding that hard cock steady at the base, feeling it with a few fingers. The other hand however... went down Tonegawa’s own body, tightly over his shirt, down, further down. Until he reached his own crotch. “H-Hah...!” gasped Tonegawa into his blowjob, as he felt himself, his palm going over his own stretched out suit pants. He was hard as well. Very hard for Endou.Opening his belt and unzipping his pants with one hand, Tonegawa whipped put his own rigid erection. “H-H-Hah...!” he moaned into his blowjob again, this form of double stimulation that was about to begin was something he adored. And with a slow, hard stroke, he began to touch himself, his strong hand sliding over his erect cock, and continued to pleasure Endou, his lips gliding over his shaft again and again. He synched everything up, every stroke, every suck, and he began to move, move his whole body gently, rocking on his knees, back and forth.“Mmmmnh...!!” he moaned wet into Endou’s cock, it felt good, so good. It felt amazing to give pleasure to himself and his partner. Endou could see that Tonegawa was slowly beginning to lose himself – his eyes were fogged with lust, a little blush on his cheeks, and sweat began to run down his neck. It looked so hot, Endou grinned, to see Tonegawa on such a carnal, sexual level - craving, needing and giving everything.Tonegawa was so aroused, and yet he wanted more, he began to move his hips, to thrust inside his own tight hand, and moved his head stronger, back and forth, now sucking, clenching his jaw with passion, closing his eyes, knitting his brows, moaning through his tight lips gliding over Endou’s hard shaft, over and over. Endou was trembling, grinning, damn, he loved it. He nearly forgot where he was, the low rumble of the plane fading in the background.And Tonegawa didn’t stop, he went faster, his own strokes, his tight lips, his body rocking back and forth, his tongue caressing and loving this erect shaft that was filling his mouth, feeling, tasting Endou, and pleasure him and himself more and more. Taking down his hand from Endou’s cock, he patted his own head twice, to give Endou a signal.“Oh yes.” grinned Endou. And his quivering hand approached Tonegawa’s head.His fingers went through Tonegawa’s grey hair, feeling it, the tips of his fingers caressing his skull, how strongly it moved back and forth – and he just couldn’t resist, he started ruffling Tonegawa’s hair. It was always neatly styled back, not a single hair out of place, so seeing it in disarray made Endou excited, more than that, very horny. And it looked good: Single thin strands were hanging down his face and sides, oh, he loved how rough that looked, together with Tonegawa’s blushing, sweating face, his lustful eyes, and his tight lips going over his erect, wet shaft, it was a masterpiece.“T-Tonegawa... Hah...” gasped Endou, he nearly couldn’t take it, how hot it looked, he had to really pull himself together to not immediately cum inside his fast, warm and wet mouth. But still, there was one thing he needed to do right now. And he could see Tonegawa’s lustful eyes begging for it.With a low, devilish chuckle, Endou grinned.He lifted both of his hands, in synch, and then, they slowly went over Tonegawa’s head, left and right, holding him, feeling him move and sigh... And with one last lick of his lips, Endou drooled with aroused anticipation: “Get ready... Tonegawa...”And he began to thrust his hips. Hard. Holding Tonegawa’s head, pulling him inside his hard, rigid cock, his wet, warm mouth gliding deep over his erect shaft, meeting the base. And again. And again. Yeah, again. Again. Harder. Faster. Oh fuck.“Ngahahahaha...” laughed Endou with a moan, he couldn’t believe it, and it was exactly what he was craving, getting harder, getting faster: Facefucking Tonegawa. His strong hands dominant and harsh on his head, grabbing his grey hair, feeling him tremble and moan under his palms, his hand holding on to his hips, the other one gliding fast over his own cock, pleasuring himself in this intense act.“Mmmnn!!! Nnnhh!!! Mgnnnh!!!” moaned Tonegawa, his mouth filled with Endou’s thick cock, it gliding fast and deep over his tongue, in and out of his mouth, his tight lips around it, his eyes closed, knitting his brows with passion – it felt amazing to give himself to Endou, completely, letting go, getting dominated, getting fucked. He then looked up, seeing Endou’s panting, sweating, blushing face, who looked back down, grinning, seeing completely submissive and aroused Tonegawa on his dick, and said: “Oh fuck, you look so good like that, I could never get enough of that...”Tonegawa smiled for a second, and then stroked himself harder, jerking faster, moaning louder through this intense blowjob. “Yeah... Yeah... Touch yourself harder...” muttered Endou, and in a final act of rushing to the finish line, he put his back into it, his ass contracting hard – and fucked Tonegawa’s hot, tight mouth at full speed and power.“MMMNH!! NNNGH!!! MNAAAH!!!” moaned Tonegawa so much louder, his body trembling, his own cock so erect, he wanted it, he wanted it more, his head getting moved so fast back and forth, lips meeting the base over and over, complete deepthroat, he could feel himself rushing towards a vicious climax, getting overpowered, he could hear Endou’s grin through his fast breathing, it was coming, he closed his eyes, he knitted his brows, a drip of sweat running down his neck, this rigid cock gliding over his wet tongue, so fast, so deep, Endou’s hands clasping his head began to tremble, his moans got higher, yes, he stroked himself faster, Endou was muttering through his breathless panting, “Hah – Fuck – Ngah – Mmnh – Tone – Nnh – Gawa...!” he could hear Tonegawa’s wet lip smacks against his skin, his fast, hot, soaked mouth, feel his head under his forceful palms, oh fuck, there it was, any second, oh yes, yes, yes, YES YES YES“HHHNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH” groaned Endou through clenched teeth, throwing his head back, cumming hard into Tonegawa’s mouth, his cock twitching, throbbing in his tight lips, over and over, filling him with warm semen, sliding again and again over his hot tongue, “MMMNNNH!!!! NNNNNNNNNNNGHHH!!! MNNNNNNNNNNNNGGH!!!!” moaned Tonegawa in this simultaneous orgasm, shooting white thick cum with every stroke, dripping between Endou’s leather shoes to the dark floor, running over his hand, his glistening shaft, his mouth getting fucked at the same time, his brain stopping in pure lust, his eyes turning into his skull, his hair in complete disarray, these hands moving him, again and again, his mouth getting filled, swallowing with every thrust, deep inside his throat, so much, so much, then Endou got slower, panting “Yes... Yes... Y-Yes...”, letting go of Tonegawa’s head...They remained like that for a few silent moments, the low rumble of the plane engines in the background. With a small moan, “Mnah...” Tonegawa slid backwards, hard shaft pulling out of his mouth, pressing his lips together to not spill. A little line of spit and semen connecting his lips to Endou’s cock, he lifted his clean hand and waved to Endou in a little ‘come here’ motion. Endou was still breathless, trembling, and didn’t understand, but then suddenly twitched and mumbled: “Oh yeah... Sorry...” and took a handful of paper towels from the lavatory behind him and handed them down, keeping a few for himself to clean up.Tonegawa cleaned everything with care and precision, wiping his own lips, hands and erection dry, and wiped the floor. After he looked up with a little spent smile, he slid up the wall again, standing in front of Endou. Snuggling up to Endou for a second to throw the paper towels away behind him, he whispered “That was good, Endou..” Endou grinned back, “Yeah, Tonegawa, that was a good idea...”Tonegawa stood there, looking lovingly at Endou.Silence.Even longer silence.Endou’s stare began to dart around behind his sunglasses, nervously asking: “Is... Is something wrong...?” Tonegawa said nothing, smiled and silently pointed to his lips.“Oh. Yeah.” sighed Endou with relief. The kiss. Tonegawa had this habit of wanting a kiss after their sexual encounters. Endou's head shot forward and he gave a little peck on Tonegawa’s lips, then immediately turned to the door. Opening it slightly, he looked down the aisle to see if no stewardess was around. “I think we can get out now. Quick.” And shuffled outside, suits rustling against each other, sliding out the door, and left Tonegawa alone in the toilet....Tonegawa was taken aback.Alone.He had definitely heard a hint of annoyance in that relieved sigh. That kiss had been nothing more than an obligation for Endou, a tick on a list, without emotion or affection. Of course, they had to get out of here as fast as possible, but that didn’t feel... right. At least to him.He saw his own reflection in the bathroom mirror, now that Endou was gone. His grey hair was in disorder, his suit all over the place, and his face... satisfied, but with a slight scowl in his brow from that short and unemotional kiss.With a heartfelt sigh, Tonegawa pulled his suit into the right position, checked his cuff links and shoulder fit, ran his hand over his hair, then got out.They really had been lucky. No one was around. Endou was back in his plane seat, his seat belt on, looking out the window at the clouds. The sunshine caressed his face, the beginning wrinkles of his skin, the shadows of his dark sunglasses circling his deep brown eyes, giving him a strong look – one that Tonegawa loved. Normally loved.Sitting down next to him, Endou looked back at Tonegawa, with a neutral friendly face, nodding. He had become quite good at hiding his sexual exhaustion, nothing hinted at him having had a blowjob just one minute ago. Tonegawa wanted to say something. To these usually so friendly eyes. Something was growing in his heart that didn’t belong there. And it had to get out. “Endou-“The stewardess came to them, bowed slightly and spoke: “Sirs, we will arrive in 10 minutes, descent starting in 5 minutes. Is there anything I can offer you?” Tonegawa just wanted to politely wave her off, this here was more important to him, “No thank you, madam-““Actually!” grinned Endou and pulled out the large stack of yen bills again, handing all of it to her with one big swing, “Thank you very much for your service, and please share with the rest of the crew.” The lady couldn’t believe what she was seeing. “Oh...! Oh God, sir, that is...!!” Endou just smiled and shook his head, “All for the team, and thank you for the excellent flight.” The stewardess took the large pile with both trembling hands, not believing her luck, and only stammered a breathless: “I just... Thank you so much Sir, oh God...” and tippled off behind the curtain, where a few excited gasps and tiny screams came from the rest of the crew.Endou folded his arms in deep satisfaction. “See? I told you we could make them happy with a little bit of extra cash!” and chuckled to himself, looking out again.But Tonegawa wasn’t smiling.He was getting angry.“Endou.” He spoke in a stern tone that made Endou’s head turn to him, “Why are you bribing the crew. They haven’t done anything wrong. Don’t drag them into your, or rather, our matters.” Endou was surprised at that strong reaction. His eyebrows rising, lips parting, he said flatly: “...You can never be sure that they didn’t knew anything. I’d rather pay upfront and don’t deal with issues later. It’s win-win. Either they knew what we were doing in the toilets, and have been informed that they have to shut up now – or they didn’t knew, and we just gave them a little friendly salary boost for the rainy days.”What Endou said made sense. Rationally. But not emotionally. Tonegawa was feeling that he was getting quite upset.“Well, Endou...” he spoke, “... As much sense as that makes, it feels wrong to me. Especially myself as a person.” He sighed and grit his teeth. “... Because now it feels like you just bought me. You cannot buy me, my affection, or sexual favours. I don’t like having money involved in our relationship. Don’t do that again.” And looked at him, sternly.Endou listened closely, and grew angrier with every word, then lowered his voice and stared back over the rim of his glasses: “Well, excuse me, Tonegawa, that I would like to take care of both our secrecy in this ‘relationship’ of ours”, (he did a little mocking air quotations with his hands, then pushed up his glasses and crossed his arms again,) “And that just there was just a little bit of harmless fun. That’s it, and nothing else.”
"Relationship".
A little bit of harmless fun.
That stung.Right in Tonegawa’s heart.Even though he meant the action of bribery with that sentence, it was clear, from the air quotations alone: He didn’t take their relationship seriously. It was “fun”. A little play-thing on the side. A little amusement, something to get his rocks off, nothing to invest emotions in. Which was the complete opposite of Tonegawa. He knew that he was a helpless oldschool romantic, one who always fell for his partners. It was a weakness and a strength. And while he had accepted this purely carnal relationship in the beginning, he was ready to make the next step, or at least, add affection to the sexual side. He needed it. He was not the type to just share pleasure without emotion. It hurt his heart in the long run.But Endou wasn’t joining him. At least not fully. Sometimes he was ready to give a kiss after sex, smiling so breathlessly and beautifully at Tonegawa, without him asking for it, as if he wanted Tonegawa romantically as well - and sometimes, just like today, it was like he was an unwanted element in his life.
It was...
It was as if they were standing on two different cliffs, high up there in a raging thunderstorm. Facing each other through the pouring rain.
Tonegawa reached out his hand through the heavy wind, wanting Endou to jump, to his side, to him. To help and secure him in his decision. Hold him in these turbulent times. Be together with him. But Endou was hesitating, looking behind himself, as if somebody else was calling him: The dark fog. It was looming behind his back, a place with no emotions to invest. Lonely and painful with time, hurtful to others who were not in it, yet comforting and warm with carnal lust and physical togetherness. It was reaching out to Endou as well, seeping around his shoulders.
Distressed, Endou was staring back and forth, at Tonegawa’s hand before him on the other side, and the comforting darkness behind him. Back and forth. “ENDOU!!!” yelled Tonegawa through the thunderclaps and lightning, shielding his eyes with his elbow from the storm, squinting, not sure if his words would reach him, “Come to me...!!! Please...!!!” he yelled at the top of his lungs, rain drenching his clothes, his skin, his voice.
But Tonegawa couldn’t see Endou’s eyes behind the sunglasses. He stood there. His face seemed worried. His brows furrowed in the tempest of life’s decisions. His lips parted to say something, wet with rain, his suit and coat fluttering in the wind, reaching his hand out towards Tonegawa, but stopping as soon as it hovered over the empty abyss. Staying on his side.
The wind howled.
On two different standpoints, too far from each other, alone, looking at each other, and one at the danger of turning away.
Tonegawa reaching out.
Endou hesitating.
Two lonely men in a storm.
“I don’t get why this is such a big deal to you.” spoke Endou with a grave tone, “You’ve been getting a lot more grumpy lately.” And looked out the window.Tonegawa couldn’t even answer to that. Something was brewing in his heart.He took up his glass of orange juice again and finished it in one go.It tasted bitter.
TO BE CONTINUED
----- CHAPTER BREAK -----
It was late at night, again.Tonegawa was alone in the office, the last one to remain after a long tiring day of diabolic gamble planning. Just the amount of work one had to put in to make such a show work: booking the locations, tell the subsidiaries to rope in debtors, make them sign papers, check their backgrounds, then build machinery for said gambles or whatever other objects that were needed for interaction, raise money from sponsors and special guests, send out invitations to the rich sadists who wanted to see it all, catering, drinks, food, cameras, security, staff, waiters, builders, mechanics... it was simply madness.And today had been one of the final days of crunch time, the last week before the big event. His blacksuits had gone home already, but he wanted to stay to finish up the paperwork. They were all burned out already, no need to push them over the edge. As for Tonegawa himself, he didn’t mind staying longer today.In fact, he wanted to. He needed some distraction.Or time to think. Maybe both.His “relationship” with Endou was still on his mind. With big steps, shouldering his big pile of folders anew, he walked to the copy room, a little place with many machines - warm and cosy, full of paper. He would have some alone time in there, do his copies for filing and archiving, and be undisturbed. Although, no one would come around at this time of day anymore - not even the cleaning ladies, they had already been here. As Tonegawa loaded a pile of paper into the machine, his thoughts were racing:He wanted to be together with Endou.He gave his life a light, a spark that had been missing for a long time: the banter, the passion, the fire, just their interactions alone. The highlight of his otherwise drab and regulated life full of work. They had known each other for quite some time too, years and decades even. Tonegawa felt understood, they inhabited the same underworld and were able to support each other on topics a civilian would never dare to think of. It was comforting and reassuring to not be alone.And although this physical side had only started recently, they still knew each other’s tastes and boundaries quite well. The new physical side was marvelous. Tonegawa simply desired Endou from the bottom of his heart. It was more than just carnal, it was emotional, deep and passionate, and he could not dismiss his feelings, he wanted to dive deeper into it. As well as... just having him. To have him when he woke up. By his side.Tonegawa frowned, thinking about all the chances he had missed in his life. Chances he had let go by, ignored, or not given any response to.But Endou.He would not let this chance go by. To be with him, to support each other, to love one another. Fully. Openly. Together.He would have to speak with him. But Tonegawa was very hesitant to do so. Endou didn’t seem to feel same way, and doing a direct step in the wrong direction would most likely scare him away. And Tonegawa wanted to absolutely avoid that at any cost. He didn’t want to lose Endou. He couldn’t bear the thought of him leaving, being alone again, not having him close, his eyes turning away from him, never feel his lips on his ever again.Tonegawa sighed.It was a difficult situation.His stack of copies was ready. He simply took the whole pile in his two big hands and placed it on the table. Then, he opened the folder again to retrieve the originals and class them anew.Just as he wanted to put back the documents and get out a new stack, he saw the doorknob turning. What? He wasn’t alone in the building?“Who is there?“ he spoke loudly-The door opened. And in the door frame stood, with his long coat, a folder under his arm, and his sunglasses on: Endou.Tonegawa gasped in surprise.“Oh!” Endou equally gasped back seeing him there, his eyebrows raising gently: he was also astonished to see someone else here at this time of the day.Endou grinned: “Well, well, look at you here, doing overtime like an honest manager, not slaving his workers for him!” He came into the room and closed the door behind him. “Is old Hyoudou at it again? Asking for last minute changes and completely new plans every waking second?” and patted Tonegawa’s shoulder in a jolly manner.Tonegawa could only rub his forehead, closing his eyes for a second. “Don’t even ask, I feel as if it is getting worse every day.”Endou just laughed: “Hahaha, that’s how he is, that old coffin dodger! Good thing that I don’t work directly under him anymore!”But then his voice got a little more subdued, somber: “Although I still have business with him as the head of ‘Endou Finance’. I feel like I can’t even follow with all of these debtors he needs. So many...”Endou flicked through the folder in his arm. “That’s why I’m here at short notice. To get this list. I wanted the last version of all contestants and their IDs, and make copies for my folders. I need to keep track on who is recruited already by other loan sharks and how the selection looks so far.”He gave a little cheeky glance at Tonegawa: “Because a certain someone forgot to send me the last version, and the deadline is in two days...” then he grinned deliciously.“Ah...” sighed Tonegawa. He knew what he had forgotten: Sending out the last version of the candidate list. Of course. It had escaped him in all of this stress.“I’m sorry, Endou, I really forgot...” his shoulders sinking with the sigh, it really was getting too much.“Hey, hey, no worries...” smiled Endou, raising one eyebrow. “I’m here now after all, no problem...” He put the complete file in one of the other machines, pressed the button, and the pile slowly shrunk, page by page, disappearing in the warm, humming machine - only to appear somewhere else on the side, together with a freshly printed copy next to it on another pile.As they stood there, looking at the automatic process doing its calm work, Endou whispered:“I would’ve even thought that you did it on purpose, just to get me to visit you at work...”Tonegawa looked at Endou.Who smirked.And Tonegawa knew that specific smirk on his face all too well.As if Endou suddenly moved a lot smoother than before, he went in front of Tonegawa with a slow step, his coat gently swaying, and whispered close to his lips: “Well... How about it...? Us two... late at night... alone... in this little cosy room...?” Endou lifted his hand, his fingertips brushed Tonegawa’s cheek, and he continued: “I know you are ready whenever, wherever... Like me...” he ended on a diabolic grin. “You could get some stress off... And we have some fun... I could need it too...”Endou turned around with a delicious move, tilting his head slowly in the same movement, and then, he rested his elbows on the copy machine. Bowed over like that, Endou looked over his own shoulder - Tonegawa could see that he was rolling his hips under his coat - and he whispered under his breath, his smile overloaded with lust:“Do you want to take me from behind...? On the machine...? My aroused, sweating face on the glass...? ... And maybe... press the “copy” button when I cum...?” and grinned from ear to ear.That mental image alone was enough to send a gigantic wave of arousal through Tonegawa’s body, going directly to his loins, and he pursed his lips: Damn, Endou was good in his aggressive flirting. Always having breath-taking ideas for public sexual encounters. But Tonegawa was hesitant, there was something else in his heart...He took a step forwards and gently grabbed Endou’s hips, his big, warm palms sliding over the coat, that trench coat he had seen so often. He heard Endou’s gentle moan at that gesture, “Mnh...”, and saw his eyes close with rising passion, waiting for him so start.“Endou...” Tonegawa spoke, feeling his own lust seeping into his voice, but he took all his courage together and said: “As much as I would love this... I think... I think I want to kiss you instead.”And with a sigh, caressing Endou’s hips, he added: “Really kiss you.” “WHAT?!” Endou spat out, as if he had bitten on a bad piece of candy, “Kiss me?!?!” and immediately turned around, Tonegawa’s hands sliding off his hips.Endou crossed his arms and came forwards with his upper body, tilting his head in disbelief (It nearly made Tonegawa smile to see him fall back into his typical loan shark mannerisms), “A KISS?!?! How old are we?! Huh?! What is this, middle school??”Tonegawa lifted his finger, and answered in a calm, friendly tone: “That was college for me.”“Pfffff, what a late start!” scoffed Endou, shrugging his shoulders with a suppressed chuckle, but Tonegawa added with a gentle grin:“And there is nothing wrong with that, Endou. Everyone at their own speed.”Endou lifted his eyebrow and remarked with a sneer: “Tssk. Well, I guess, you’re right.”After a beat, he turned back to the matters at hand, getting heated again: “No seriously, are you pulling my leg? We’ve had sex so often now, in many positions and locations, some of them more than dangerous, and now you want to kiss and nothing else? In this perfect office setting where no one could find us?!”Endou was quite upset, but Tonegawa had expected that to happen at his proposal.“Endou...” he spoke, “A kiss is something nice and lovely, it can open the act to something more passionate, or end the act, as a sweet seal to end an adventure of lust.”Endou raised an eyebrow and mumbled: “Comin’ in here with the big speeches again, you old romantic?”That definitely stung a little, but Tonegawa did not falter in his words. He continued: “But it also can be the act on its own. Standing for itself, leading to an ending full of lust and intimacy.”He was definitely revealing himself right now, even if not openly – but Tonegawa wanted to be more intimate with Endou.More than just sex. Explore him. Feel him. Not only for an orgasm and that physical thrill, but for the emotion as well, that deep emotion of love that had grown inside him over the time they had known each other and had sex. It fuelled his desire, filled his heart with a flame that burned brighter than the night. And this situation here seemed to be a great opportunity to do just that, without being too forward or pushy.“We are alone here, yes... So that means we can take it slow... Take our time...” whispered Tonegawa, looking deep into Endou’s eyes.Seeing the remaining disbelief glinting behind Endou’s sunglasses, Tonegawa added, to tease him a little more: “Or are you too scared to try, hmm...?” and looked directly into his eyes, raising an eyebrow.“Scared?!” whispered Endou, not believing his ears. “W-Why would I be scared to kiss you? We have already kissed before.”But Tonegawa already saw the effect of his words, a little blush appearing on Endou’s cheeks. Tonegawa continued, looking more intently at him:“Endou... We only ever kissed in short bursts, in elevators or around corners where no one could spot us. Those were limited meetings, interrupted by time, nosy people or... you. Because you want to go straight to the sex... Endou...” hissed Tonegawa deliciously, “Are you scared of foreplay? Of intimacy? Or...” he tried a full frontal attack that was hopefully not too strong, “Or are you scared of emotions...?”Tonegawa had come a lot closer, Endou’s back pressed against the machine, not being able to go any further backwards, standing directly in front of him. Endou blushed harder and stammered back: “I-I’m not afraid of any emotions or intimacy, w-what are you talking about, Tonegawa...?”He had him. Perfect.“All I’m saying is, Endou...” breathed Tonegawa, a strong erotic undertone in his voice, “I want to kiss you, make out with you, and see where it maybe leads to... Not just sex... A journey together through shared passion...” and with his last breath, he added, “To end in a shared climax together... Emotion amplifying the physical... Harder than everything else before...”Endou gulped.Then, the spark of fire ignited in his eyes again.“Now you’re saying things that make sense...” Endou breathed back, a drip of sweat running down his face.Tonegawa grinned back. His sweet-talking and big speech had entangled Endou. “Let’s take it slow, Endou... Take all the time we need...”With that, Tonegawa came even closer, and put his hand on Endou’s cheek. It hit him in his heart for a second to hold him like that - His big palm caressing his skin... feeling that little bit of stubble... the wrinkles of life... seeing his eyes, his burning eyes, so close...Oh, how much he wanted to say to him that he loved him... But it was impossible. Not now. Not here. It was too early. He would lose Endou if he did. Lose him from his life forever.He fought this rising sting in his heart.No, no, no, no.This here.This was important. It would be a passionate meeting full of want for each other.Parting his lips and his face coming forward, Tonegawa closed his eyes. He tilted his head, cupped Endou’s face with great care, and felt him coming towards him, making his heart race, Endou was already answering him, wanting it too, yes, any second-Their lips met.Gently touching.They met, slowly, again and again. “Mmh...” moaned Tonegawa lowly, feeling Endou so close and warm again. Brushing, nipping, and caressing each other, Endou kissed back, equally as slow, a quiet “Mnah...” escaping him.With their eyes closed, they took in each other. Listening to their suits rustle, their sighs and hot breaths, them touching each other – as Tonegawa’s hand slid down from Endou’s face to his shoulder to embrace it, and Endou’s hands slowly ran over Tonegawa’s hips.“Mmmh...” sighed Tonegawa, feeling Endou’s hands on his body again, he went closer, answering the beginning hug, his chest softly meeting Endou’s, his suit jacket brushing his coat. This quietness, this intimacy... it was arousing. Their hands slid around each other, caressing, hugging. Kissing slow and intimate.As they met, again and again, lips brushing and touching, Tonegawa could feel Endou getting a little faster, groaning slightly with every move. Tilting his head to come closer, and now, he could feel his tongue brushing his lips.Tonegawa smiled for a second. How eager he was.“Slower...” whispered Tonegawa, nibbling Endou’s bottom lip for a second, then breathing: “Take your time...”He could feel Endou reacting, moaning in dismay “Mmnh...” and holding on harder to him, his palms stronger on his back. Again, they were hugging tightly, the kiss slow and private.The warmth of the room engulfed them, beginning to sweat in their passionate meeting. Endou’s hand moved, sliding over from Tonegawa’s hip towards his loins, while groaning into their lips: “Gnah...” Endou’s fingers brushed over the dark grey suit, forward, knitting his brows with passion, he would reach Tonegawa’s crotch, grab what he desired, coming closer, wanting to cup that-And with a firm grip, Tonegawa had snatched Endou’s wrist. Holding him away from touching. “Aah!” moaned Endou surprised into kiss, opening his eyes again. Just in front of him were the stern eyes of Tonegawa.“Endou...” he moaned back, a direct erotic note in his voice. “I said kissing and then see where it leads too... You are so impatient... You always want the result first...” Their noses nearly touched, so close were they, feeling each other’s panting breaths.Tonegawa grinned devilishly. This was too fun. “Hah... Endou... Take your time... Enjoy the feeling... Take it in...” And with one big sigh, he placed Endou’s hand back on his own hip, and went forward, close to his neck:“Let go... of everything...”His warm lips kissed Endou’s neck, his hands caressing his back, running around him, hugging him, desiring him, close to him.“Mmh... Nmh... Mnh...” Tonegawa’s loving kisses ran along his neck. Endou was overwhelmed with emotion. Trembling. Holding on to Tonegawa’s back again.“Ah... Tone... Gawa...” Endou sighed, this felt out of this world. Strong and intimate. Endou was overwhelmed, how loving Tonegawa could be, holding him, kissing him, his big arms supporting him. His nose and lips nuzzled his sensitive skin, moaning gently with every kiss – and Endou felt more turned on. His hand slid from Tonegawa’s back upwards, to his head. And slowly, his fingertips entered Tonegawa’s well-cared hair, caressing it, caressing this man who was adoring him.In this little room, the two met with great passion. Tonegawa felt Endou’s hand on his head, and smiled into his kisses. “Mmh... Nmh... Ngah...” he continued, his hands running over Endou’s back.It was time to do more.Coming up to Endou’s face again, breathing close to his skin, Tonegawa looked at him. Their eyes met. Filled with fire for each other.“Yeah...” moaned Endou, his breath deep and emotional, blushing, sweating. And as they came closer again, their lips parted to kiss anew.However, it would be more intense.Closing their eyes with rising passion, they kissed again – and gently, the tips of their tongues met. “Mmnh...” moaned Tonegawa, feeling Endou so intensely, who moaned back, “Nnmh...” as their lips covered each other.Their tongues glid along one another, wet and warm, caressing slowly. With their hands repositioned, they hugged closer, tighter, wanting to kiss more, tilting their heads, their lips meeting again and again.Their combined moans got louder.Moaning with every short moment they met, only to reconnect anew, to savour the other all over again.“Mmnah...”“Ngah...”The copy machine hummed lowly, the paper rustled, and their palms ran over their clothes. Here in this little private space, far away from the eyes of others, focusing only on each other, to join in an act of pure intimacy and eroticism.And sex.Tonegawa was getting hard, and he could feel the strong bulge of Endou’s suit pants pressing against his own. They were turning each other on, more and more, desiring more with every passing second. While kissing, their hands moved slowly – Endou hung on to Tonegawa’s suit, Tonegawa’s palms slid under Endou’s coat, to feel him closer.He couldn’t exactly say what the coat added, but it felt amazing. Something about having their clothes on and engaging in sexual acts was always massively arousing to them – raunchy and forbidden. It was also that Tonegawa had seen this coat so often, and experiencing it now in a new context was more than exciting.Their kiss continued, intense and strong, making out passionately, moaning and sighing. “Mmh... Endou...” Tonegawa gasped as his tongue slid strongly inside Endou’s mouth, who trembled and squinted, “H-Hnmh... Tone... Gawa...” feeling Tonegawa entering him fiercely.Nothing else was on their minds, only to join, to crave, to meet, to desire. They kissed. Again and again. More and more.“A-A-A-Ah...” trembled Endou, moaning into Tonegawa’s lips, his tongue quivering against his, his eyes squinting, eyebrows furrowed with want. It was hot.Lust rose in Tonegawa’s heart to see him like that. This was always such an intense moment to see Endou fall apart with pure sexual desire like that during foreplay.He wanted to tease him, more. Tease and get every single drip of his increasing lust, savour it, feel him so close. And he knew just how.With one devilish smile, Tonegawa’s hands slid around him, over Endou’s back under his coat, went over that smooth suit fabric, and then... he grabbed Endou’s ass with both hands. Hard.His big palms started kneading Endou’s round cheeks, and in the same move, he started grinding against him, rolling his hips, his rigid erection pressing against Endou’s equally hard bulge.“A-A-AH...!!!! Y-YES...!! TONE... GAWA...!!!” moaned Endou, his eyes wide open, his mouth wet, panting with lust, and his hands held on stronger at Tonegawa. Their kisses began anew, in the rhythm of Tonegawa’s thrusts. Again and again, their erections and tongues met, breathing hard, sweating, moaning, moving in unison. “Mnah...!!! Hah...!! Nmah!!!” They met, lips covering with the pure want for each other.It was intense. Hard. Strong. Making out as their erect shafts slid along each other, feeling hands and lips so close and passionate.Slowly, Tonegawa’s right hand slid down, his left still grabbing Endou’s tight ass.And with one smooth move, he stopped thrusting, letting the moment linger for a second, let Endou pant with exhaustion, and then...“A-A-Ah...!!”Tonegawa had touched Endou’s crotch, running one strong finger against his hard shaft bulging out of his suit pants.“What’s this... Huh... Endou...?” Tonegawa asked, grinning from ear to ear, seeing Endou’s sweating, quivering face so close, “Are you that hard for me... Just by kissing...?”His thumb pressed hard against Endou’s rigid erection, whose head flinched away, moaning “H-Hah!!”. Oh, it was beautiful to witness. Tonegawa wanted more, sweat running down his face.And with that... Tonegawa grabbed Endou’s cock. Hard and strong through the suit, feeling the fabric over it, and that hard erection underneath.“NNNGH...!!” groaned Endou through clenched teeth, throwing his head back, drips of sweat running down his temples. Tonegawa did not stop, he continued to rub his strong palm over the shaft and head stretching out. “H-H-HGNAH...!!!” Endou squinted his eyes harder, his tongue curling with an open mouth.“Oh yes...” sighed Tonegawa, feeling his own hard cock twitch with excitement. He would never get enough of Endou’s deep and emotional moans. His aroused face was always a masterpiece to witness.And slowly, very slowly... Tonegawa unzipped Endou’s pants. He could hear the zipper opening, their faces so close, feel that erect cock wanting space, bulging out, and see... Endou’s now open and quivering eyes behind his sunglasses.“H-H-Hah... Ngah... Y-Yes...” sighed Endou, trembling and wet, saliva dripping off the corners off his mouth, his hands grabbing the back of Tonegawa’s suit harder. He was getting overpowered, by sheer eroticism and lust, as well as Tonegawa’s big physique, and his arm running around his back, holding him.With a big grin, Tonegawa entered Endou’s trousers, his fingertips sliding in the fly, into his briefs, and with one passionate grab - he whipped out Endou’s naked cock right out into the air.“N-N-NH...!!!” flinched Endou, his chest now heaving with pleasure, breathing deep and fast, feeling his erection unleashed.“Oh Endou...” whispered Tonegawa, seeing Endou fall apart more and more with pure sexual desire was magnificent. “How hard you are... How... erect... Just for me...” His voice was nothing more but a deep and low tease, dripping with desire and sex.Looking into Endou’s aroused eyes, he whispered, his lips so close to his:“Get ready...”Tonegawa’s hand slid down his own body, towards his own crotch. And Endou’s eyes widened.Unzipping his own trousers, Tonegawa moaned gently, feeling his own lust running through his veins, accumulating in his own erect cock. He wanted Endou. So much.“N-Nnah...!!” he grinned devilishly, as he whipped out his own hard shaft, right out in the open. And what he saw turned him on even more: In front of him was Endou, his usual sharp loan shark clothes, but just in the middle, the centre of his being, was his rigid hard erection. Naked. Bare. Trembling with anticipation. So erect.It turned them both on to no end, to see their lust so unchained from their usual work looks – the clothed sex they always had was unparalleled in its intensity and unleashed eroticism. So hot. So raunchy. So forbidden. So obscene.And oh lord, was it turning them on even more, the surroundings adding to it, as they were still in the Teiai copy room, machines, shelves, paper, all their work life – and in the middle: hard, unstoppable, sexual desire. Meeting in secret, among their peers and regular lives, to indulge and drown in intense, passionate, burning pleasure.They looked down, at each other’s rigid hard cocks.So close. Directly in front of each other.Their eyes met again.Breathless, panting, ready.Endou stared at Tonegawa, his lips parted, Tonegawa stared back, both sweating and panting with want.Both knew what would happen right now, without saying a word.And with one firm move, Tonegawa pressed their hard, rigid cocks together in his hand.“N-NGAAAAH!!!” moaned Endou loudly, his eyebrows knitted with passion, throwing his head backwards. He leaned further backwards, against the copy machine, breathing faster, harder, his erect nipples under his shirt. “Y-YES...” he groaned, holding on tighter onto Tonegawa, his fingertips pressing into his back.“Y-Yes... Endou...” sighed Tonegawa, seeing and feeling him so close. His face. It made him horny. Ecstatic. To see him so full of sex. To feel him wanting him. More. More. He wanted more of this.And then, he started moving his hand. Slowly. Strongly. Tightly grabbing their rigid shafts and pressing them together. Moving from his wrist.Frottage. ‘Frottage’. French for “rubbing”. The act of rubbing two erections together in a tight handjob. An intimate and emotional position that allowed for kissing, hugging and seeing the other’s face all throughout. Either as foreplay or as a sexual position, it was unparalleled proximity, sexuality and eroticism all at once.And it was exactly what Tonegawa wanted right now. To feel and see Endou so close to him. Clinging on to him. Desiring him. Kiss him. Wanting him. Satisfy him. See him happy. Bring him to highest places of ecstasy.And it was working.Endou was quivering, his eyes closed, moaning with every breath and stroke, “Hah...! Ngah...! Nngh...!!!”, so close to him, his voice beginning to fall apart with pure arousal. Tonegawa wanted more, touching harder, grabbing anew, stroking slightly faster. And Endou’s voice became more broken, higher – begging.“Tone... Gawa... Hah... Yes... Nngh...” he was whimpering, looking deep into Tonegawa’s eyes. His face was sweating, glistening, blushing, his lips wet, parted, and his stare fogged with sex.It became impossible for Tonegawa to hold back anymore. He wanted him. More than anything else in this world.Lunging forward, he kissed Endou deep.Hard.His tongue split his lips apart, entering him, going inside him, gliding along his, making out furiously. Their noises became so loud, they filled the room. Tonegawa stroked faster. Harder. Wanting to pleasure them both.
“MNAH!” “NNNHM!”
More. More. Harder.He began to move his hips as well.Thrusting.His erect shaft pressing strongly against Endou’s.As if fucking the tight space of his hand.As if fucking Endou indirectly.Enter him.Again and again, pleasure him.Hard cocks sliding along each other.Tonegawa stood tall, his legs apart and steady, his ass contracting with every hard thrust, oh yes. Yes.Hearing Endou meeting his lips with every thrust, feel him twitch and tremble, his hands clinging on to his back, desiring him, wanting everything.“MMNH!!! HNNH!!! MNAH!!!! HAH!!!” moaned Endou, getting completely overpowered, his eyebrows knitted with lust, his face and lips wet, kissed by Tonegawa over and over, who moaned back, “MNAH!!! HAH!!! MMMNH!!! HHN!!!”. Their strong tongues slid along each other, twisting, caressing, adoring.It made them so much harder, dripping precum, their erections rigid at full force.Tonegawa stopped in his panting kisses for a second to see Endou’s face.And it nearly took his breath away.Endou was falling apart. His eyes quivering, fogged with lust, sweating, drips running down his skin, blushing so hard, his lips parted, a line of saliva connecting him to Tonegawa from their soaked kisses, this crumpled suit, his tight shirt and erect nipples, his fogged shades, that little bit of chest hair visible in his cleavage, neck muscles twitching, and feeling his hands holding on so strongly to him – craving, desiring, wanting. His voice was nothing but a breathless begging mess.“H-HAH... N-N-NNH.... H-H-HNNH...”Tonegawa was speechless, blushing himself.Oh.How beautiful he was.How emotional.And how much Tonegawa wanted to say that he loved him.Just three simple words.
I love you.
But he couldn’t.Endou would leave him.But he wanted to.So very, very much. “Endou, I...”Tonegawa gulped.“I...” he whispered again through his panting breath, continuing to stroke and thrust, feeling him so much closer, hugging tighter, their faces so close,“I...”he panted,“I...”And Endou was moaning back, looking directly into his eyes, his tongue curling with lust, “Yeah... Hah...”“Endou... I...”He swallowed.Endou was looking at him. And with a hoarse whisper, Tonegawa spoke: “Endou... I want you...” It was just one word off.But he couldn’t.He really couldn’t risk it.Endou lips twitched upward to a smile for a second, then answered with an erotically laden voice:“I f-fucking want you too, Tonegawa...” Tonegawa’s heart was breaking.It was only physical desire for Endou. Again.And it was exactly at this point, right in the act, as he was kissing anew, that Tonegawa was getting intrusive thoughts. HE DOESN’T LOVE YOUHE IS ONLY USING YOU -Tonegawa shook it off, but it left a sting. There had to be a reason Endou was with him, right now and before, it was his only hope, he continued, kissing, making out, stroking- HE ONLY WANTS YOUR BODYHE DOESN’T CARE ABOUT YOU -Tonegawa squinted, continued to kiss, to caress, no, that was not true, Endou liked his company, they had spent so much time together, gone out to a bar, gone to dinner, shared hard times and laughter, there was no way that- HE WON’T STAYHE WILL LEAVE AFTER HE ORGASMS Tonegawa gasped into their kiss.Endou never stayed long after their climax.There was always something.After sex, he would just... leave.Go somewhere else. Do something else.Never taking in the moment or sharing intimacy and comfort with him afterwards.The kiss Tonegawa always asked for had been an idea by himself, most likely subconsciously, to receive at least a little bit of affection after sex. But sometimes, even that failed.Leaving him empty and alone.Endou was still panting heavily close to Tonegawa’s face, so close and wet, and whispered with a devilish smile: “Well... Wanna finish me off?” Tonegawa grit his teeth.Fighting the splintering pain in his chest.Of course he would.Because he loved him.And he wanted to see him happy.In the highest heights of ecstasy.Endou’s lustful eyes glanced at him with anticipation. Tonegawa took heart.This was no place to be anxious.He had Endou right here. In his hands, holding on to him, wanting him, desiring him.“Of course, Endou...” grinned Tonegawa back, hiding his true feelings.He would enjoy this to the fullest and worry about other things later.This here. Right here. This was important.Not the worrisome future and unwritten events to come. With one strong stroke and coming forward again, Tonegawa kissed Endou deep. Closing his eyes. Wanting him. His hand closer around him, and tighter around their erections. Their tongues met yet again, wet and passionate, for one last encounter that would bring them to the peak. Sliding, caressing, covering, again and again.Endou’s hands pressed into his back again, hanging on to him. And then... Tonegawa moved his hips again. His moves just the same as if he was making love. Strong, tall, legs apart, his ass contracting hard with every deep thrust. Their rigid shafts sliding along each other in this tight space.“MNN-N-NH!!” moaned Endou into his lips, and leaned himself against the copy machine in his back further. Tonegawa also leaned forward, his chest meeting Endou’s again, kissing as if there was no tomorrow. “MNAH...!!!” he groaned heavily back, his passion and craving overflowing, charging him with hot lust. Lust for Endou. Love for Endou.Their lips met, over and over, wet smacks of saliva filling the air, again and again, connecting them, their tongues circling and caressing each other, gliding into each other’s soaked, hot mouths. Hands touching all over, clinging, holding, stroking their aroused bodies.It was messy.In one sudden unexpected move, Endou swung his leg around Tonegawa, holding on to his ass, his calf pressing against his thrusting butt cheeks. Tonegawa gasped, but Endou just whispered quickly, wet and panting: “I f-fucking want you so much... Give it to m-me...” and kissed him even harder, forcing his way between his lips, meeting his equal with heavy lust.Tonegawa was on fire.He would be unstoppable now. Unstoppable in his deep desire to satisfy Endou.Tonegawa put all his strength into his kiss and thrusts, harder, faster, while stroking in the exact same rhythm.It was too intense.Endou could not keep his voice down in this sexually charged overflowing encounter.“AAH!! HAH!! NNNH!!! YES!!!” squinted Endou, moaning so much louder with passion, disconnecting from their kiss, he was getting taken apart with pleasure.His face had turned into a complete mess. Panting, blushing, his sunglasses slipping askew, his mouth and lips wet, dripping, dripping saliva, sweat and precum, he wanted it, wanted it so much. His voice broke with sheer pleasure, whimpering with lust, “HAH... H-HAH... NGAH...!!!”And Tonegawa couldn’t take it anymore. His hand tight and fast around their erect, trembling cocks, he hugged Endou close, their chests together, pressing him against the copy machine with his big physique and broad shoulders, his face went past his, cheeks caressing, sweat meeting...And Tonegawa bit Endou’s neck.Hard.“GNAH!!! AH!!! Y-YES!!!!” Endou was begging, he couldn’t take it for much longer. Tonegawa’s teeth held on to this twitching neck, squinting his eyes, breathless through his open mouth, warm panting meeting his skin, hunched over him, truly dominating him with all senses.“NNH... MNH... NNNH...” groaned Tonegawa, completely drowning in lust, holding on to Endou.His hand was stroking as hard and fast as he could, thrusting strong, rhythmic, powerful. It was his last move, this tight hug, this hard frottage, he could feel Endou tremble, whimper, his voice suddenly getting louder, screaming, screaming with lust, “YES!! YES!!! T-TONEGAWA!!!”Endou’s cock was twitching, his hands, his hands were clinging to Tonegawa’s suit, nearly pulling it off, his fingers digging deep into the fabric, his own long coat slipping off his shoulder.Tonegawa’s eyes were wide open, frowning, huffing through his bite, his nose, holding him harder, tighter, stroke faster, desire burning, burning, burning, “NNNH – GNNNNH – NNMMH!!!”Endou was continuously screaming, “YES!!! Y-YES!!! A-AAAH!!!”, his voice hoarse with lust, tongue curling, craving, needing, begging for release, holding on stronger, his leg pressing against Tonegawa’s ass, who was an unstoppable force of raw, powerful, hard sex, biting harder, it was too much, too much, they were trembling, Endou’s voice was nothing but broken mayhem, “O-OH GOD, T-TONEGAWA!!! I’M GONNA... I’M G-GONNA...!!!” Tonegawa was unstoppable, passionate flames in his eyes, he wanted this, his hand gliding over their rigid hard cocks, hands craving, they could feel it, feel it coming, they were tensing up, chests heaving, nipples hard, sweating, twitching, their heartbeats so fast, their cocks so erect, so close, so close, yes, yes, yes any second oh god oh god oh fuck fuck fuck FUCK FUCK OH GOD FUCK FUCK“AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! HAAAAAAAA!!!! HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! FUCK!!!! FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!” Endou was screaming, his cock shooting white, thick cum in harsh thrusts, cumming again, again, hard, over and over,“NNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!” groaned Tonegawa, letting go of Endou’s neck, saliva dripping off his lips, cumming in quick, fast, hard shots, it was too much, too much, Endou was still cumming too, oh god, he was still clinging on to him, they were together, together in this chaotic frenzy of an orgasm, pulsating, “HAAAAAH!!! NGAAAAH!!! HAAAAH!!!!” moaned Endou louder, his eyes turning into his skull with ecstasy, nearly ripping Tonegawa’s suit jacket off in his trembling white-knuckled fists, it was so much, so much, semen shooting in powerful thrusts, dripping off their throbbing erections, his gliding stroking hand dripping with cum too-And then, all got a lot more quiet. Only their loud panting could be heard, and the warm hum of the copy machines.Their clothes rustled as they slowly began to let go of each other.“Hah... Hah... Ngah...” breathed Tonegawa, Endou was still in his twitching aftershocks, groaning: “Nnh... Ngah... Ah...”. Then Endou let go, his arms dangling left and right of him, his head tilted to the side, and he hung there against the copy machine.Tonegawa was blinking heavily.What were these thoughts he had gotten about Endou and their relationship?And just right then, as a veil of raw sex had obscured his eyes, he had... bitten Endou’s neck?Bitten?What an unusual choice to do in the heat of ecstasy.But he didn’t have time to think about it, because Endou came a lot closer, and-His lips gently met his.What a sweet short kiss.They disconnected with a small gasp.“Hah... Now, now, Tonegawa, don’t tell me you are the one now being surprised to get your after-sex-kiss? Hnn?” Endou cheekily remarked. He was still panting, breathless, but he looked immensely satisfied – his eyes half-open, his body relaxed, his arms hanging, his chest heaving. Still blushing, even. Endou smirked and rubbed his neck: “And you even... bit me... Heh, didn’t knew you liked it that way...” A red bite mark on his skin. Smiling.It made all the dark thoughts and fears disappear. Tonegawa smiled. How good he looked. And had even given him a kiss out of his own free will.A little moment in time when they looked deep into each other’s exhausted and satisfied eyes.In this comfortable silence, both took out their handkerchiefs, and started cleaning this mess of sex they had left. Endou slowly rubbed his cock dry, Tonegawa took care of his dripping hand first.With a small glance, Tonegawa looked at Endou, and smiled. This had been wonderful. There was no need to be anxious. There was no need for these intrusive thoughts. He would try to calm himself down over the next few days, approach this slowly. Stressful situations came and went, he would deal with it. As usual.As they both finished, Endou threw his handkerchief into the little office trash can, then turned around and looked at the copy machine. “Ah, nice...” he mumbled, and took up the stack of copies that had printed out during their encounter.He picked it up with both hands, perforated it with a loud noise, and put it in an empty folder. Closing the whole thing, he swung it under his arm, and then smiled, his sunglasses shining:“Alright, I have everything I need, I’ll be going then!”
CRASH
Tonegawa’s heart shattered. Shattered into many painful splinters digging into his chest.“L-Leave...?” Tonegawa gasped back, not believing his ears and... that smiling Endou that stood in front of him.Endou scoffed in a merry tone: “Yeah, I got everything I need, we had a bit of fun, so I will return to my office and deposit this file there! My employees have all left, but I want everything ready for tomorrow.” He hesitated for a second. “... Why would I not leave?”These words hurt, the shards of his broken heart twisting their way into Tonegawa’s soul.Endou was leaving.Again. HE WON’T STAYHE LEAVES AFTER HE ORGASMS What was this relationship for Endou?Just a little plaything on the side.A ‘bit of fun’. Just like on the plane.Something to collect your emotional and sexual high and then leave. I WAS ONLY “ENTERTAINMENT”SOMETHING TO “DO” WHILE HIS COPIES PRINTED “I...” gasped Tonegawa, then fell silent again. How could he keep him here? Tell him how much he loved him? His thoughts began racing, what would be a good reason?The restaurant, no, it was too late.The bar, no, that was nothing special.The love hotel, no, they already had sex.The park, no, it was too dark.His office, no, that was work.The Teiai rooftop, no, it was work again.And too cold.Nothing that was connected to “work”. Something private.That Endou could understand. Nothing casual, nothing public, something... “W-Would you like to come to my place...?” stammered Tonegawa, massively blushing. Immediate regret.He should not have said that.Tonegawa tried to save it, his nervousness ripping his soul apart: “I have a good whisky at home, we could relax after this hard work day. Just us two.” He said with his usual big grin, masking his anxiety.But he knew that he had already overstepped a line.Tonegawa had never invited Endou to his home. Nor had Endou invited him. Never in their professional careers. They tried to keep the private and business lives apart, but now, it was impossible for Tonegawa.He wanted to move Endou away from the “public and office sex” mindset. To him. Talk to him.And yet, the line was already crossed. A fatal mistake. “Yeah... Uh...” mumbled Endou. “I think it’s too late for that already, and...”He was dodging Tonegawa’s stare. Looking at the door. Scratching his neck. His fingers brushing past the bite mark.“Mmh...” he grumbled, pondering.But Tonegawa already knew. Endou would not go home with him. He didn’t want to. Just keep it physical. Stepping into his home would break that rule for him.“No... Sorry, Tonegawa.” Endou said, looking away from Tonegawa’s face. Tonegawa’s heart was bleeding, falling further into pieces. Every splinter in chest hurting more and more.Endou spoke, a distinct flatness in his tone. “I think I’ll go then... Thank you for the file and the good time, old friend. See you.” And waved a little, then walked towards the door, file under his arm.
He was leaving.
Again. “Endou...!” gasped Tonegawa, coming one step closer.But at the same time, he knew that he couldn’t say anything that would keep him here.“Yeah, Tonegawa...?” Endou turned around, doorknob in his hand.
There was nothing more to say.
“... Good night. And sleep well.” sighed Tonegawa.“Thanks, you too...” answered Endou with a tired smile. And with this, Endou opened the door, nodded as a final goodbye, and disappeared, his coat swinging behind him.The door fell shut behind him. Tonegawa was alone. Silence. What had once been a dream, had become a nightmare.Casual intense sex with his workmate had been so fun, so spontaneous, so enthralling – but now it was ripping him apart that this act of sexual pleasure did not hold any romantic emotions.He was giving, but not receiving.And not even little after-sex-kisses would help to heal the wounds it left on him. Tonegawa leaned against the copy machine. Not only was this relationship missing the emotionality he was needing – he was starting to beat himself up: How utterly, utterly selfish he was. What right did he have to hold on to Endou like that? Endou had never promised anything in regards to a relationship. It was not that he was leading him on or making false hope, no. They had agreed to a purely sexual connection, never explicitly, but through mutual understanding that this was physical. Without a romantic goal in mind.In addition, they had entered this sexual affair as two grown adults, knowing about the implications and gravitas such a thing would have, as well as the secrecy they had to keep up.Endou was free to do whatever he wanted. So was Tonegawa....Was he clingy?Was that the reason he had bitten Endou? To keep him, to control him, to dominate him with pure aggressive force?To make sure he wouldn’t leave? He didn’t want to be so possessive.So egotistical. All the splinters in chest accumulated in his throat, smothering him. Had this all been his fault? His askew romantic worldview and inability to keep up casual sex? Or... Was he simply getting old?Old and afraid of being left alone by time and loved ones?Be forgotten? Tonegawa felt tears welling up in his eyes. He now understood. It was not the missing emotion, the fear of loneliness, the emptiness of sexual acts without romance. It was a concept far bigger than the accumulation of all these small ones. It was the uncertainty.
That cruel, cruel uncertainty.
Not knowing how Endou felt.Not knowing where it all lead.Not knowing what their relationship was.And not knowing how Endou would react if he told him. It was the uncertainty that was breaking his self-confidence, his courage, and his very soul. To know that all was fleeting, unsure, and one step in the wrong direction could hurl both his private and professional life into unthinkable distress. It was too much. Far too much for him. The tears in his eyes made his view blurry.The machines, the paper, the folders and the whole room melted into grey and white mayhem. He didn’t want to cry.Not now, not here. And so, he began to whimper.Swallowing his tears.Words never to be heard by the world, only by himself, for himself.
“It can’t go on like this…”
He was sobbing, his eyes dry and his voice falling apart into painful stammers.
“It just... c-can’t go on like this…”
He clasped his mouth, his brows frowning, the wrinkles around his eyes getting deeper. His heart was bleeding. Tonegawa began to quiver and closed his eyes, alone, in that copy room at Teiai Corp. There was only one thing he knew for certain, as he had repeated it for himself in his mind, like a painful mantra:
It just can’t go on like this.
It was destroying Tonegawa to his very core. The only way out of this misery and suffering was to get clarity into this relationship. And with a heavy trembling sigh - he had taken a decision. No matter what the outcome would be:
The next time they met, he would have to tell him.
TO BE CONTINUED
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Tonegawa was nervous.Pacing up and down his office, he checked everything again:The champagne was cold, in a cooler with ice cubes on his table, two crystal champagne glasses next to it. The large windows behind him gave way to a beautiful orange sunset and the warm city skyline. They had replacement suits in his wardrobe, if they needed any, and the lube was in the left bottom drawer, just in case. And of course, he had sent a quick message to Endou.Tonegawa sighed, it was no use to check everything over and over, all had been placed and events had been set in motion.Today would be the day.The day he told Endou how he felt about him.And he had found the perfect opportunity and location: His own office at Teiai Corp. It was his own turf, his space, but still connected to work, and a place Endou knew quite well. They would both be at ease here.The pretense for the invite was also a true one, not only did he want to tell Endou today, but they had an event to celebrate: The first successful gamble event of the “Restricted Rock Paper Scissors”. Tonegawa had planned it with his team, and Endou had been in charge of locating debtors to participate. A shared success, and a good reason to invite Endou over for a glass of champagne in the sunset. After all, it was also important to celebrate the little victories in life – new work would come in fast, and Tonegawa could feel it, old Hyoudou would soon ask for new ways to satisfy his sadistic needs.Time to relax and enjoy the calm before the new storm of work.And confess to Endou, who would hopefully accept him. Or at the very least, understand him.Tonegawa leaned against his desk, his finest dark grey suit shining in the evening sun with a soft gloss. His white shirt was perfectly ironed, his tie impeccably in place - he wanted to look good today. Checking his cufflinks one last time, his golden ones, he then looked outside.The familiar city skyline of Tokyo. How often he had seen it. And yet, it always looked different to him, depending on weather, season, sun and rain - but most notably, with different moods came different looks. When he was in a good mood, the neon signs and glass towers seemed inviting and larger than life, when in a bad mood, they seemed oppressive and overwhelming, narrowing your horizon to nothing but tight spaces between sky scrapers.What would the city look like today?Tonegawa’s brown eyes overlooked his familiar view.There was a warmth, but also a nervousness in the flitter of the setting sun, reflecting his heart in the concrete and steel of the metropolis.Would it later look the same? There had been a weather forecast of potential rain, but this had been announced for many days now, and nothing had happened so far.He smiled.Maybe all would go well. Endou was a little cold and direct sometimes, but he was not an evil person. Having seen a softer and more passionate side of him during their sexual encounters, as well as having known him for many years, he was sure that it could go well.And maybe... Tonegawa blushed a little and grinned, maybe if Endou said yes, they could start a new chapter in their lives.Together.It made Tonegawa’s heart jump with joy. It was childish and naive that he was looking at their future through rose-tinted glasses, but alas, a man could dream.The warm sunlight caressed his face, softening his wrinkles with love. Suddenly, he heard a knock on his door.He hid his heartfelt smile with a friendly grin.“Come in!” he said loudly, turning towards his office door, which opened with a small creaking noise.And in stepped... Endou. As usual, in his work attire, suit, coat, and sunglasses.With his hands leisurely in his pockets, he walked towards Tonegawa, equally a big grin on his face.“Well, well, an invitation so late...? To your office...?” asked Endou with a raised eyebrow, “Are you sure we are really just celebrating the first successful round of this new gambling event?”Tonegawa felt immediately enthralled by the usual banter, he came equally closer and breathed back: “It was supposed to be a celebration... But you can stay for the other attractions as well...”They now stood in front of each other, next to the office table. Endou looked deep into Tonegawa’s eyes, then glanced at the champagne bottle on the desk.“Ooh, what’s this I see...” whispered Endou, and let his hand glide slowly over the bottle neck, caressing the cold glass, watery drips slowly running down the hard surface. “Is that some high-class champagne...” he exhaled with lust, “....or are you that happy to see me?” His hand gripped the bottle, tightly, then he slowly ran his palm over it, giving the bottle neck a single sensual stroke.Damn, Endou was still good at direct flirting, grinned Tonegawa to himself.“Both, actually...” breathed Tonegawa, closer to Endou’s face.How much could a stare alone convey desire? These flames in Endou’s eyes were always the highlight of his day. Tonegawa asked, with a distinct softness: “... Why don’t you make yourself comfortable on the couch, Endou?”With a cheeky eyebrow raise, Endou turned around and strolled to the couch, with slow and sure steps. Then, looking over his shoulder, he let his coat slide down himself, off his body, over his suit, caught it smoothly with one arm and hung it over the backrest of the couch. Then he sat down, faced Tonegawa, spread his legs slightly, and said with a grin: “I’m comfortable...”Tonegawa chuckled, “Very well...” and turned to the champagne bottle while Endou was watching him. While he took the cork off with a loud PLOP and not spilling anything, (“Oh... Professionally done, Tonegawa...”) he decided that he needed to dial it down a little. This was already sexually charged from the very beginning, he wanted this to be sensual, erotic and slow, and somehow be able to fit in his confession of honest emotions.As he poured the champagne into the two thin crystal glasses on the table, he hesitated. No, was it better to confess after sex? When they were both exhausted and filled with post-orgasm calmness? Or still confess before sex and carry that new feeling into the act itself? Or during sex, like he nearly had done last time, when they were both pulsating with lust and adrenaline? He should have thought about that more beforehand.Tonegawa stared at the two glasses for a second, that soft amber liquid of high-class champagne fizzing with a little friendly noise.Maybe it was just better to let everything flow and see where it all lead, if he tried to take charge too fast or be too pushy, Endou would maybe feel uncomfortable. Which he wanted to avoid at all cost. And even more than that, he had to wait for the perfect moment to not scare him away. He was still not sure how Endou truly felt about him. The perfect moment would appear, he was sure.Right.Taking up the two glasses and turning to Endou, he smiled again and walked over to the couches of his office. Big heavy couches to have meetings on, standing together around a low coffee table. Cosy, practical, with that little raunchy touch of black leather.Sitting down next to Endou, he handed him one of the glasses, neatly between three fingers, and Endou took it with a small nod.“It’s a Veuve Cliquot, I chose it myself.” smiled Tonegawa, to which Endou’s eyes just widened with curiosity and he blurted out: “A weuuwhat please?” Tonegawa couldn’t help but chuckle: “Veuve Cliquot. Or ‘Widow Cliquot’ in English. One of the best champagne producers in all of France. I found this one to be exquisite, you have to try and test many to find the one that fits you the most.”Endou just nodded slowly, and then sighed, a little flatness in his voice: “It’s all the same to me, Tonegawa. My palate is not good enough to savour and celebrate something like that. You could have just bought some pearly wine at the konbini around the corner and told me it was fancy, and I would’ve believed you.”Tonegawa lifted his glass and answered: “It matters to me though. And I want us to have something nice.” After a small beat, he added, “I think you will notice the difference, Endou.”Endou looked a little worried, but still, lifted his glass for a toast.“To us.” whispered Tonegawa, “And this new gambling show that is finally over now. The president loved it. We did well and we can celebrate that together.” Endou seemed a little more confident again, and answered, “Yeah, to us and this finished project.”Their glasses gently met with a tiny clink, and they both took a sip. Tonegawa loved that fresh and light taste, with hints of citrus und peach that caressed the alcohol in a veil of elegance. Endou’s glass left his lips, and opened his eyes again after he swallowed. After a beat and an inaudible lip smack, he breathed: “Oh wow, that’s good...”Endou took another sip, with a bigger gulp, and smiled with gusto at this new experience. “That’s really good! A very light taste, but it feels intense at the end! And it leaves something fresh on your tongue, like an aftertaste?” Endou seemed on fire, glad to have found something new to enjoy.Seeing him with such big eyes and burning for something new made Tonegawa smitten.“Told you so...” smiled Tonegawa, looking at Endou with a slow blink.“Hm! What about that new project that is coming up soon?” asked Endou curiously while the glass left his lips. “Anything new on that front?”Tonegawa simply waved it off casually. “One of the other teams is working on another diabolical game, now that old Hyoudou has found a liking in it. Our Restricted Rock-Paper-Scissors was a success, but we can’t throw ourselves immediately into something new and have it ready at short notice.” He leaned back with a little heartfelt sigh. “Only a short period of relaxation, but an earned one. It’s only a matter of time until we have to help them out on that new game. Something about heights and ‘true human nature’, apparently.”Endou shrugged his shoulders and said: “True, our work never ends. ... But alas, we’re getting paid, and there is an unlimited amount of Hyoudou’s cruelty, as well as debtors of Teiai. Just combine the two and you get some fine entertainment for the big wigs. As long as they’re happy, we get money and are being left alone.”Tonegawa nodded, taking a small sip: “Yes... If the president is happy, he is not taking his frustration out on us.” With a tiny chuckle, Tonegawa lifted his glass: “Heh, I haven’t been hit by Hyoudou’s cane in two weeks!”Endou put on an over-the-top surprised face, smiling and toasting with his glass: “Ohohoho, Tonegawa, congratulations!! A personal record worth celebrating!!”Their glasses met for a toast again, and both couldn’t help but grin wider. They were a great team in a hostile working environment, a connection grown over years, under pressure and companionship, and now towards a sexual side that made them bond even stronger together.Both took one long sip, and then, placed the glasses down on the low coffee table. There they sat, relaxed on the leather couch, next to each other.Nobody would disturb them today. They would have all the time they wanted.Tonegawa slowly inched closer. Endou grinned. They didn’t take their eyes off each other.“What would you say... about enjoying ourselves on this sofa...” whispered Tonegawa as his hand slowly slid over Endou’s thigh. Endou grinned back, and breathed: “I say... That’s a pretty good idea...” Their clothes rustled in this erotic silence, as they slowly pulled up their legs on the couch. (There was probably some Teiai guideline about ‘shoes on the sofa’ somewhere, but they didn’t care.) Endou slid down, as Tonegawa came further forward: He would lie on the couch with Tonegawa above him on all fours.“So you want me to be on top today, huh... Endou?” grinned Tonegawa as they lay completely on the sofa now, him between Endou’s legs, looking down from above, his hands left and right of Endou’s chest. “Absolutely...” Endou grinned back, tilting his head in a teasing manner.They came closer, their chests met, suits and shirts rustling... and Tonegawa kissed Endou on his lips. Their first kiss of the evening would always be soft, but then, as they met again and again, they got faster. Stronger. Needier.“Mnh...” moaned Endou, Tonegawa answered him, “Ngah...” as they kissed. With their eyes closed, they focused on each other, fully taking in one another. Tonegawa felt Endou’s hands sliding over his shoulders, while he ran his hand through Endou’s hair.With one smooth move, Tonegawa entered Endou’s mouth, slid between his lips, and the tips of their tongues touched. Gliding wet along each other, meeting with warmth and passion rising. They were kissing, again and again. It felt good. Very good.Tonegawa’s thoughts were running, but he quickly concluded that he would confess to Endou after sex. It would be a nice point to end on and not disrupt the flow they had right now. He kissed Endou stronger and his fingertips massaged the back of Endou’s head.“Mmnh...!!” moaned Endou into Tonegawa’s lips, knitting his brows with passion. His hands on Tonegawa’s shoulder blades held on stronger, slid over the dark grey suit tighter. They were hugging, getting closer, and then, Tonegawa started to thrust slowly.They were hard. Erect for each other in that short amount of time, it turned them on so much to be together at work, in their usual suits. And of course, just everything else – their kisses, their warm bodies, their voices, their togetherness, their lust for each other. Here, on this couch.“M-M-Mnah...” moaned Endou trembling on Tonegawa’s lips, he felt Tonegawa’s hard shaft rubbing against his, through the layers of suits, and it felt amazing. He was getting more and more excited with each passing second.“Endou...” whispered Tonegawa, and separated from the wet kiss, looking at him with passionate eyes, “I want more of you...”Endou raised one eyebrow, and smirked back: “Oh... What more do you want then, Tonegawa...?” And with one smooth move, Tonegawa smiled, and his hand slid over Endou’s chest. His fingertips caressed the shirt and went over the soft fabric.“This here...” said Tonegawa, squeezed Endou’s pec. “A-Ah...!!” moaned Endou immediately, a slight blush on his face. His face had begun slowly to fall apart with arousal. A drip of sweat ran down his cheek, silently.They had had sex often now, and for quite some time, but Tonegawa had never really seen Endou’s chest properly yet. Their sexual encounters were always clothed and in rather public spaces: toilets, alleyways, restaurants, cars, anything. In fact, they hadn’t seen each other fully naked yet, not even during their early years. He had felt Endou’s chest, under his shirt, many times... but seen and taken a good look at it, taken it in and loved it – the full focus of his attention? No, not yet.And damn, he wanted to.Really wanted to.Maybe because it was a step towards more emotionality and sensuality in their sexual encounters, but also because it turned him on to no end.Tonegawa’s fingers slid between Endou’s shirt buttons, the tip of his index finger running over his skin beneath. “I want this...” he grinned, looking at it with burning eyes.“Y-Yeah...” groaned Endou, blushing stronger. He was getting more breathless, quivering under Tonegawa’s touch. This was getting more intense. Far more intense.With a big grin, Tonegawa slid down further, until he was face to face with Endou’s heaving chest. He looked at it. Wow. How great it was. The slight amount of hair peeking out his cleavage, his twitching neck, the nice round pecs moving under the fabric with every breath.His hands approached the shirt buttons, and slowly, he opened them, one by one. Each little button gave way to more naked skin, and revealed Endou’s chest slowly, step by step. “Hah...” moaned Endou, seeing how Tonegawa undressed him.The buttons were now open all the way down to Endou’s navel, and he was quivering, looking at Tonegawa, who was filled with arousal and curiosity, he couldn’t wait – and carefully, he opened this shirt, pushing the rims open with both hands, travelling over Endou’s skin.It took Tonegawa’s breath away. His chest looked amazing.The black body hair caressing his pecs in a beautiful pattern, circling his nipples and then running down his abs towards his happy trail. Endou had just gained a bit of weight recently, maybe due to his fast food habits, which manifested in love handles and bigger pecs. His dark nipples, heaving with his chest, were laid bare under Tonegawa’s hands on the shirt. With his neck twitching, Endou tilted his head and moaned gently, blushing harder, looking at Tonegawa. “M-M-Mnh...” He then trembled as Tonegawa opened the shirt more, pushing the rims more to the side, and see how the fabric and the open suit framed this beautiful chest like a masterpiece.Oh fuck.Seeing Endou like this made Tonegawa hard. Raging hard. His erection was bulging out at full force in his suit pants. But this was just the beginning.“Hah... Hah...” panting heavily with every breath, Tonegawa came closer, one hand caressing this nice pec, the other one running along Endou’s hip, his eyes focusing only on the chest in front of him... and with a soft touch, Tonegawa’s lips met Endou’s neck.“A-A-Ah...!” moaned Endou, quivering under Tonegawa’s lips and palms, this felt intense. Tonegawa was burning with passion, unstoppable, and kissed Endou again and again, sighing with every move, his eyes closed.As he still was between Endou’s legs, he moved slightly, thrusting gently with every kiss that adored Endou’s skin, “Mnah... Mnh... Hah...” his warm breath caressing him.Endou’s hands held on to the couch, he was squinting his eyes shut with emotion, panting heavily, Tonegawa was so dominant and heavy on top of him, it was too strong. He began to sweat, a drip running down his neck.Tonegawa was in a haze of lust, he continued, in a trance, his eyes fogged with sexual desire. His kisses went downwards, his lips met Endou’s chest over and over, and then... he twitched as the soft black body hair tickled his lips. It felt so good, it looked so good, he opened his eyes again to marvel at Endou’s chest: It turned him on so much. And then, he saw his nipples.With slow kisses, Tonegawa went over to one of Endou’s nips, and then... he kissed it.“MMMNH...” moaned Endou, pressing his lips together, squinting. Tonegawa was equally sweating and blushing now, and kissed again, slowly, carefully, his lips brushing this nipple again and again. With his other hand, he began to massage Endou’s pec, feeling the other nipple under his palm.“Mnah...! Nnah...! Mnn...!” sighed Tonegawa, his voice getting louder and more emotional, Endou’s quivering eyes looking at him lusting for his chest.It was intense. Emotional. Sexual.Tonegawa was sweating, blushing, continuing in his smooth moves, and then... he took Endou’s nipple between his lips and licked it. “NNNNNNHHHH...” moaned Endou, covering his own mouth with his hand, this was too much, too intense. But Tonegawa didn’t stop. Oh no, he wouldn’t.“Hah...! Ngah...!!” moaned Tonegawa, continuing, and now, he could feel it, what he had been waiting for:Endou’s nipples got erect.Hard.Rigid with arousal.He could feel it - under his palm and under his tongue.“Oh yeah... Endou...” he moaned loudly, his eyes not taking off this magnificent chest, he re-positioned his hand and took the hard nipple between forefinger and thumb – and gently twisted.“MMMM-MMM-MMMH-NNNNHH!!” Endou was moaning into his hand, blushing hard and trembling, his eyes squinted, his glasses slipping off his nose, his other hand clenching the black couch leather.Tonegawa was on fire, his heart burning with desire. He began to drip precum, staining his suit with a tiny wet spot on his stretched-out bulge. He wanted it. He wanted Endou’s chest, his body, his desire, everything.He wanted more.More more more.And with a big moan, his lips met with Endou’s nipple again... and he licked it. The tip of his strong, wet tongue pushing against the erect nip, caressing it, running over it, his lips kissing, adoring, loving, he was moaning with every touch, “Nnh...! Mnah...! Hah...!” he could feel the chest hair around the areolas getting wet, clinging to Endou’s skin, he wanted more, he opened his mouth, saliva dripping, and he covered the whole nipple... and began to suck. Hard.His fingers were still playing with the other nipple, gently twisting, pushing, rubbing, caressing.An intricate nipple play simultaneously on both sides.Endou was losing it.“AAAH!! A-Ah...!!! N-NNNH...!!!” he moaned, his voice getting higher, whimpering, it turned Tonegawa on even more, sucking these hard nipples, knitting his brows, his tongue playing with this erect nip in his mouth, he was kissing, licking, moaning, sighing, pinching them, he was so hard, so turned on by this foreplay, to hear Endou, to feel him, he wanted to fuck him, love him, adore every inch of his body, touch him, smell him, he was breathing heavily, wet strings of saliva connecting his tongue to this hard, dark, quivering nipple, his hand massaging, squeezing, feeling Endou’s pec, his stiff nipple under his palm, this soft chest hair, licking, kissing, sucking, so hot, so beautiful, so passionate- “T-Tonegawa...” he suddenly heard Endou whimper loudly. Tonegawa looked up from this chest, to see Endou’s beet-red blushing face.But as he met his eyes, Endou turned his head away, looking to the side. Dodging his eyes.“Tonegawa...” he repeated, then, after a beat of hesitation, he spoke in a flat voice: “Can we leave this...? I don’t want all of this... this...”,He waved his hand in a disdainful manner,“...all this emotional crap.” Endou still wasn’t looking at Tonegawa, a drip of sweat ran down his cheek,“This is too much... stuff.” He then turned back to Tonegawa, his eyes stern, his face still blushing, and said in a disappointed voice: “Can’t we just do what we always do?” It was a sentence that penetrated Tonegawa’s chest.And Tonegawa’s heart broke into a million pieces.Each single shard of pain digging into his soul, his flesh, his desire. Endou didn’t like him being this emotional.He didn’t want his feelings.His honesty.His true intention. He only wanted the physical release.Nothing else.Tonegawa’s heart was unwanted.It was “stuff”.Something to cast aside.Trash. Garbage. Tonegawa swallowed.His throat was getting tight, he felt as if he was choking, the air around him not giving him freedom.Getting smothered with rejection. But more than that...He had made Endou uncomfortable.The one thing he had tried to absolutely avoid.And he had failed. In the worst possible moment - his hands still on Endou’s chest, his face just looking up from these hard nipples, his lips parted, lying between Endou’s legs on his own big leather couch in his office, the orange evening sun filling the room with light - his anxiety, his fear, and his doubts mixed with his intrusive thoughts. YOU FUCKED UPENDOU DOESN’T WANT YOU ANYMORE Tonegawa tensed up, but he immediately caught himself, this was not a place to cry, nor to grew desperate- HE DOESN’T WANT YOUR FEELINGSYOU ARE ONLY HERE TO GIVE SEXUAL RELIEFYOU ARE HIS PLAYTHING Tonegawa smiled gently, trying to play it off. “That’s alright, Endou. I’m sorry.” he whispered in his warmest tone, trying to be calm and comforting, and got up from his lying position. “What do you want to do instead...?” Tonegawa’s voice was nearly cracking in this oncoming emotional breakdown.Endou didn’t notice, but lightened up again, a spark of passion burning in his eyes. “Well...” he glanced outside. The warm sunshine caressing his face.“How about those...?” Endou grinned and pointed at the big windows. “You could fuck me against them while we enjoy a nice view of the Tokyo skyline! The world is beneath our feet and we are on top of it...” he whispered with a devilish sneer.Tonegawa knew that he would have normally liked that idea and position. But right now, it was eating up his insides. He tried to play along, not reveal himself or his true feelings: “Good idea, Endou...” he whispered back. YOU ARE UNWANTEDHE WANTS YOU TO TAKE HIM FROM BEHINDHE DOESN’T EVEN WANT TO LOOK AT YOU Endou got abruptly up from the couch and walked over to the window in big strides, pulling his shirt down hastily and pushing up his glasses again. “What are you waiting for?” he yelled, “Come over here!” he ended with a mocking laugh. YOU SERVE NO PURPOSEYOU ARE OLDNOTHING BUT AN OLD FOOL WHO STILL BELIEVES IN LOVE Tonegawa got up, straightened his suit and followed Endou, but every step felt heavy. As if getting dragged down by the gravitas of his emotions. Endou was waiting for him already, placed his hands on the glass and bowed down, spreading his legs.
Not looking at Tonegawa.
Turning his back to him.
HE ISN’T LOOKING AT YOUYOU ARE DISGUSTING Tonegawa was trembling.Clenching his teeth as he stepped up behind Endou.Staring at the fine hairs of Endou’s neck.The city skyline was vast, and now, clouds started to obscure the setting evening sun.It felt as if Tonegawa’s chest would burst with emotional pressure. No, no, no, no, he had to get himself together, this was not the place to have an emotional meltdown. Not on this celebration day. Not in this room. Not now. Not in front of him.
Just do how we always do.
His quivering hands reached forward, and grabbed Endou by his hips. Hard.“Mmmh...” moaned Endou, his head hanging down with pleasure, “Yeah... Give it to me...” Tonegawa’s palms caressed his curves, and slowly, he reached forwards, to open his tight trousers.As he pushed down the rim of Endou’s suit pants, Tonegawa felt his heart fall further apart. He was an emotional man, he couldn’t swallow everything down and pretend like nothing happened. He tried to, good lord, he was trying to continue this foreplay, to pleasure and please Endou - but with every passing second, he felt his very soul cracking under pressure.He tried to look forward, outside the window, to maybe get a different train of thought. The city was grey.Clouds had gathered, and the sun had now fully disappeared behind the futuristic skyscrapers.Tiny drips of rain began to splatter against the glass.And in this dark mirror lighting up with spots of neon, Tonegawa saw his own face:Sad. Beaten.His eyes full of deep melancholy that stared back with immense desperation.Just beneath, Endou’s reflection, his panting face, waiting, looking down, sweating with anticipation.
Still not looking at him.
Tonegawa had to look away. His own face was making him sad.He looked down again.At Endou’s round ass.He pulled the rim further down, saw it travel over these tight cheeks.This should be arousing.But it wasn’t.These beautiful butt cheeks under his palms did not give him any joy.“Mmnah...” moaned Endou, still feeling Tonegawa’s warm hands. Tonegawa, however, was choking.He couldn’t take it anymore.He had lost his erection in this emotional turmoil.It felt like the tears welling up in his eyes were cutting off his breath.He couldn’t hold back anymore. “Endou...” he whimpered.“I can’t do this...” “Heh?!” came the immediate mocking response from Endou, he was still looking to the ground, waiting for Tonegawa to start, then he heckled: “What, is it time for you to start taking little blue pills? Are you getting that old??” But Tonegawa couldn’t even laugh at that tasteless joke anymore. His brows knitted with sadness, and his hands slid off Endou’s body. “No, Endou... I can’t do this anymore.” It seemed to dawn on Endou now that something was not right. His hands slowly left the glass, clinging on to the shiny surface for the fraction of a second, and he stood upright. Then, he slowly turned around, peeking over his shoulder.“What.” he whispered, tension in his voice. “Endou...” replied Tonegawa, and it was absolutely impossible to keep it hidden anymore, as he looked at Endou in this grey shining city skyline, and in these eyes behind sunglasses fixating him - it was the worst possible moment to say it, but it was the only one, his heart was racing, his soul was trembling, he lips were quivering, his entire being dreading what was coming, but it was the only solution, he would get eaten up by unrequited feelings and uncertainty otherwise, he took heart, his own scared heart, and he spoke: “Endou... I love you.” The silence was unbearable. Tonegawa clasped his mouth and closed his eyes, his brows knitted with anguish.Somewhere, he had this tiny spark of hope that Endou would answer his feelings, that Tonegawa had misinterpreted his actions, and that it would all turn out well.
Like that image of them standing on two cliffs, him reaching out through the heavy rain and thunderstorm, wanting Endou to get to him, to hold his hand, to embrace him, to love him, to have him. He was staring to the other side, where Endou stood: unmoving, stern, drips of rain trickling down his sunglasses, his coat fluttering aggressively in the wind.
He started back.
The black darkness behind him seeping around his shoulders, wanting to claim him with sexual release and emotional disconnect.
“Endou... I love you...” whimpered Tonegawa through the rain. It was a quiet, small, single sentence amidst the storm of life, but it carried all the way to Endou.
The cold water dripped off his chin, and his lips slowly parted to answer...
A loud thunderclap.This had been not in his head, but in reality.Behind Endou, a thunderstorm began to brew outside. The big windows gave way to the dramatic dark clouds outside.And Endou said, his eyes squinting as he stared deep into Tonegawa’s eyes, with a calm voice that was beginning to tremble with tension: “I didn’t ask for this.” Tonegawa’s heart was nothing but a raw, bleeding wound in this moment.The tears were filling up his eyes, made his view blurry, and make him choke up with emotional rejection.Endou looked to the side, angrily. Closed his pants and scoffed.“Tch. As if I needed more things to worry about in my life.”Tonegawa was summoning heaven and hell in his heart to not cry in front of Endou. Barely holding himself together. He swallowed, his tight chest and throat making it difficult, and he took his hand down from his mouth to answer:“I’m... I’m so sorry, Endou... But I developed feelings for you.”Endou chuckled bitterly:“Heh. Yeah, I can see that.” The terrible silence returned.Outside, raindrops began to fall and trickle down, pattering against the glass. In the distance, a lightning bolt illuminated the room for a split second, their heavy black shadows spreading in the room.Endou was still not looking at Tonegawa, rather, he was avoiding him purposefully. His eyes disappearing behind the dark sunglasses.As the rain continued, Endou finally continued in a grave voice:“I thought that we had entered this sexual relationship to not get romantically involved. Through mutual understanding.” He paused for a second. “... This was supposed to just be a good time for both of us.”The thunder outside growled.Endou stared at the wall of Tonegawa’s books and folders. He then continued, his voice getting louder:“I don’t want emotions to be involved in this.” Anger was starting to seep into his words. “This is not what I wanted.”Tonegawa could see that Endou’s erection had also left him. Endou put his hands in his pockets and scoffed with disdain: “Why am I even here anymore.” A flash of light illuminated the room with its cruel bright harshness again, and after a few seconds of rainy silence, a massive thunderclap followed.Tonegawa could do nothing but stand there and be petrified in shock. Looking at Endou in this mayhem of weather outside, he trembled: “I’m sorry...” Endou turned his head away to glance outside. His lips were pursed. Tension in his body.“Tonegawa.” He whispered.“... I’m leaving.” And with a harsh turn on his heel, Endou walked back to the couch to pick up his coat. Brushing past Tonegawa with a brisk stride, not even looking at him a second time. HE IS LEAVING AGAINAGAINAGAINAGAIN Tonegawa could only stand there, facing the windows, his back turned to Endou - who was putting his coat on angrily, straightening his sleeves and propping up his collar with frustration.“I’ll be going then.” scoffed Endou and continued to march toward the big wooden doors of Tonegawa’s office. He was angry, the harsh emotions guiding his step, his hand reached out for the doorknob, wanted to grab it with his determined hand-
“Endou.”
He suddenly heard Tonegawa’s strong voice behind him.Endou stopped.Slowly, he turned around to face the old man again, sneering, “Yes, what do you wa-“ There, next to the heavy mahogany desk. Tonegawa. Standing upright. His fists clenched. Looking straight at him. The dark grey suit and white hair standing out against the raging thunderstorm outside, yet somehow also melting into the chaos.There he stood. “Before you leave... answer me one question.” Tonegawa spoke, in a stern and demanding tone. It made Endou gulp.He could only face him, turn away from the door and nod slightly, the tips of his hair trembling. Tonegawa was still staring straight at him with piercing eyes, the thunder outside rumbling, shaking the champagne glasses on the coffee table with a tiny clinking noise. Then...Endou saw Tonegawa’s face fall apart.He grit his teeth.His eyes squinted in pain, the wrinkles around his eyes becoming deeper.His entire body trembling.And as he forced his own mouth to speak, tears began to stream down his cheeks, overflowing from his eyes, sobbing in the most heartbreaking tone: “E-Endou... W-Why me...?” His voice was nothing more but a whining mess, his eyes red and watery, and he asked again, his fist clenched as he repeated, begging, pleading as his heart was fully bleeding with anguish, his tears dripping off his chin, staining his white shirt with grey droplets:
“Why... m-me...?”
Endou couldn’t even move or speak.He had never seen Tonegawa like this.Not even in the deepest pits of desperation they had lived through together at work.He was shocked to his core to see him like that. “W-What...” was the only thing Endou could muster. His own throat got dry. “What... ‘Why me?’... What do you mean...?” Tonegawa was clenching his fists in emotional turmoil, shivering as more lightning flashed outside, making his wet tears and their trails shine and glisten on his face. He tried to pull himself together, but failed, and spoke in a wailing stammer:“When you decided to... h-have a sexual affair at work... W-Why did you choose me...?” Endou couldn’t even grasp the question, Tonegawa continued, fully breaking apart, bawling his eyes out:“You came on to me...!! I answered you...!! A-And we started all this... All of this....!!!!” Tonegawa’s eyes were red, puffy and overflowing, furious with anger and desperation, staring into Endou’s soul, his voice was raspy and loud, nearly screaming, “W-Why did you do this?!?! Huh?!?!”Endou wanted to interject, “I... I just...” not even sure what to say, but Tonegawa was furious, continued mercilessly:“You could have chosen anybody!! ANYBODY!! ANYBODY AT TEIAI!!!”Tonegawa pointed furiously at empty air, his finger trembling with fury, more tears flowing over his cheeks:“You had completely free choice for a sexual affair!! Ichijou, Kurosaki, Muraoka, hell, you could have even grabbed one of my blacksuits!!! And they would have been nice little toys to play with!! You could have just dangled a promotion in front of their faces and they would have done ANYTHING for you!!!!”Tonegawa’s hands went through his grey hair, strands hanging over his forehead, his eyes wide and anxious, and he continued ranting through his tears: “But NO!!! You had to chose me!!! Me!!! Your friend and mentor!!! The one who got you into this company!!! The one who helped you with your career!!! The one who was glad to have you around, who was happy to have such a successful pupil who made his own luck and became independent from this awful company!!!!”He was fully losing it, screaming at top of his lungs as his voice got torn apart by desperation: “I COULD NEVER DO THIS!! IT WAS INEVITABLE THAT I WOULD GET FEELINGS FOR YOU IF YOU CAME ON TO ME!! I CARE ABOUT YOU!!! I’M NOT THE TYPE FOR THIS!!!! I CAN’T BE THIS EMOTIONALLY DETACHED!!!” he was screaming wet spit as his tears ran over his lips, “I CAN’T!!! AND YOU KEEPING ME IN THE DARK MAKES IT WORSE!!! THE WAY YOU REJECT ME MAKES ME DESPARATE!!!! IT BREAKS MY HEART, ENDOU!!! IT HURTS!!!!!!” The tears had become too much. Tonegawa grit his teeth, and wiped his wet eyes with his sleeve. And yet, they continued to flow. He sniffled, his voice being torn in to shreds.“In addition...” he whimpered, “I don’t know anything about you... I never heard anything about your private life... We never talk about our lives, our relationship or the important things outside work...”Tonegawa was holding his heart again, the tips of his fingers sliding over his own chest and grabbing his own shirt.“Endou... I don’t even know if I’m the only one. If you do this with more than one person. Am I just one in a line of others? ... Is this your first time too to have an affair at work? ... Am I just a toy to you? ... Is it fun to flirt with me, have sex and then walk away? ... Or are your feelings genuine? ... Hidden behind some emotional coldness where I can’t reach you? ... What is it?”A beat followed, the heavy rain trickling down the windows, and another lightning strike illuminated the room with its bright flash for a fraction of a second. And Tonegawa sighed the sentence that had been weighing far too long on his mind:“I don’t know anything... Endou...” The loud thunder shook the building.And Endou was speechless. Tonegawa had spoken his mind. Panting heavily with nervousness and emotional exhaustion. His big brown watery blood-shot eyes looked at Endou.He was sobbing quietly after his massive outbreak.“(Sniffle)... (Sniffle)...”Waiting for an answer. Wanting him to speak.Staring into his soul. “Are you done?” asked Endou. The pain Tonegawa felt was unbearable.But Endou’s voice seemed shaken up. Trying to hide this... raw emotion that was in his heart. Tonegawa could see something in his eyes, behind these dark sunglasses, but couldn’t pin down what it was. Anger? Sadness? Disappointment? “I’ll be leaving now.” repeated Endou, and turned to the door. HE IS LEAVINGAGAINA G A I N
A G A I N
“Endou, please...!” exclaimed Tonegawa, reaching out, coming a few steps forward, tears dripping to the floor. But Endou didn’t stop. He took the doorknob in his hand-“Endou!”He turned the doorknob-“Endou!!!”He opened the door-“ENDOU!!!”He made a step outside-
“YUUJI!!!”
Endou stopped. One last time, he turned around.“Tonegawa.”He whispered, looking back at him with knitted brows. Then, he averted his eyes.Looked away.And walked out. His long coat swinging behind him as he disappeared through the big wooden doors. Tonegawa was alone.
The two cliffs they stood on were drifting apart. “Yuuji!!! YUUJI, PLEASE!!!” screamed Tonegawa through the storm, his hand reaching out to him, but it was too late.
As his view got blurry with tears and raindrops, Endou sunk into the darkness. The deep black fog of emptiness swallowing his shoulders, his arms, his body, up to his neck.
“FIGHT IT!! TALK TO ME!! PLEASE!!! JUST TALK TO ME!!!!!! YUUJI!!!!!!!!” Tonegawa was wailing, but it was over.
“I...” whispered Endou one last time, and then, the solid shadows took hold of him.
Fully disappearing into the void, where no light, no emotion, no word could reach.
The storm was raging, the wind was howling and the rain continued ever onward.
Absolute and utter disconnect.
In this thunderstorm, in this awful weather, Tonegawa stood, his heart spraying, seeping blood of pain, mixing with the heavy rain, his arm reached out for a person that was gone now. The cliff was gone, the door had fallen shut. And wouldn’t open again. “Yuuji...” Tonegawa whispered to himself, the tears running over his cheeks anew. As if it was the only thing left to do, he walked over to the window with weak steps.His trembling hands met the cold surface.His face followed, his forehead pressed against the clear glass. Down there...Far away down there... He could see Endou, strutting away from the Teiai building.His arms were tight around his body in this storm, his coat fluttering heavily in the wind. The streetlights threw a cold and harsh light on the wet ground, mirroring these eager and brisk steps that broke puddles and streams.His back was turned to Tonegawa.Walking away.Leaving. “Yuu... ji...”Sobbing, Tonegawa slid down the windows and sunk to his knees.His hands left the glass, and he buried his face into his palms.Crying.Crying his soul out.Tears dripping to the floor between his knees.Silent droplets disappearing into the thin carpet floor.
In a high tower somewhere in Tokyo, an old man was crying in anguish, sobbing, and not stopping - and somewhere else, another man stormed through the rain without an umbrella, drips running down his face, and not stopping.
The world did not know what happened here. And nobody else would ever know.
But for these two men, this thunderstorm on a Friday evening had been life-changing.
TO BE CONTINUED
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The world did not know about Tonegawa and Endou.Their relationship had been a secret, well-kept and hidden. Both had taken good care of that. It was their protection against gossip, evil glances, blackmail and other bad things that working for a powerful dangerous company could bring. No one knew, that was the advantage in their situation – and as they would find out, also a disadvantage. The Teiai building stood tall amidst the other concrete stalagmites of the Tokyo skyline. The dark grey sky was interrupted with patches of sunshine on this early morning. Morning dew glistened on the windows and glass facades of the building.It had been several weeks since Tonegawa had last seen Endou.After their fateful meeting one week ago, none of the two had tried to reach out to the other. Tonegawa glanced at his phone sometimes to see if there was any message, but every time he did, his stomach felt heavy – not knowing what was worse: to get a message or to get no message.But Tonegawa wasn’t feeling well today in general. He had been summoned to come to Hyoudou’s office. Not called, but summoned. There was a difference between getting yelled at by Hyoudou to come to his office, or to get an official appointment. If Tonegawa was yelled at, it was something small or immediate that needed fixing, nothing to worry about, maybe just a little annoying – but if it was something official, it meant that something important and nerve-wrecking was coming at Tonegawa.
As if he needed more things to worry about.
He paused, as he walked up the stairs to Hyoudou’s office.
Endou had said the same thing.
...He shook it off, he shouldn’t get emotional at work, especially not in front of the old patriarch. Tonegawa had calmed down over the last few days, certainly, his tears had stopped, but his pain still sat deep. To be rejected and be unwanted was more than awful. His heart was aching, hurting, twisting with the thought of seeing Endou again.He had reached the hallway of Hyoudou’s office. The most luxurious level of Teiai Corp: marble floor, high columns, mahogany doors, gold decorations everywhere, yet... dark and uninviting.Tonegawa stood in front of said dark door. He quickly looked at his watch. He was punctual. At least a tiny smile went over his lips, he was impeccable as ever. Never let private life take hold of you. Keep your professionalism and pride.He knocked and stepped inside.All the way on the other side of the room, Hyoudou sat in his big chair, a pompous piece of furniture where the old man could easily give orders from. Flanked with two of his personal blacksuits left and right.This office still was no place one could feel at ease at, thought Tonegawa, glancing around. Still the intimidatingly high ceiling, the dim lights, and for some reason, no windows at all. Most likely a security measure, but an uncomfortable one.“Ah, Tonegawa...” groaned the old patriarch from his chair. Tonegawa immediately stood upright and bowed at a respectable distance. “At your service.” he answered in a clear voice.Hyoudou seemed pleased and smiled. Which made him look even more intimidating.“You have done a great job with the Rock-Paper-Scissors game... The investors liked it, and me too... All these suffering, bickering, screaming men... Hehehe...” he began to chuckle with pleasure. “Now... I have told another Teiai subsection that I want more games, and they are planning one... One that is more diabolical, and most of all: more dangerous.”Hyoudou opened his arms, his cane in his hand, and laughed with an ugly grin. “Because what’s better than a game where you could end up bankrupt? A game where you could end up dead! Gnahahahahaha!!”Tonegawa felt his stomach getting heavy, half because of the idea of a life-threatening game breaking all laws of human rights - and the other half because ... why he hadn’t come up with it himself? Of course the old bastard would love that.“Yes, Sir, that is a brilliant idea.” Tonegawa smiled and clapped his hands gently a few times.“Of course it is.” grumbled Hyoudou, getting serious again. He turned his cane in his hand and pointed at one of his blacksuits with it in an aggressive motion. “You. Give him the file.”The blacksuit in question pulled out a sleek black file behind his back and walked up to Tonegawa, then handed it to him with both hands and a little bow.Tonegawa took and opened it, beginning to quickly browse over the pages.Hyoudou chuckled devilishly: “Their game is diabolical. With two different variations even – one that is dangerous, but safe enough for the debtors, the other one however...” his eyes widened, “... is straight up deadly. The perfect spectacle for my guests, and even better for me... Hehehehe...” He snickered and drooled.In the meantime, Tonegawa had gotten a good overview over the event and flicked over the pages that followed. Some more information, some more construction and paperwork that had to be done, and then-
As Tonegawa’s eyes read the next page, his heart twisted in anguish.
It felt as if someone had ripped the floor away under his feet.But he couldn’t let Hyoudou notice it. Tonegawa clenched his fist, hoping to make it stop tremble.Then, he stood upright again, closed the file and spoke in a clear voice.“Thank you, Sir Hyoudou. I have received all the necessary information to make this event a success. ... However...”His voice cracked a little, Hyoudou raised an eyebrow, but Tonegawa caught himself just in time and played it off while clearing his throat,“However, I have a question about this schedule, or rather, this location. I see that it says...” he swallowed, he was choking, don’t let it show, stay calm, be professional, not here, not here, no, “T-That I have to stay... Stay the night with...”Hyoudou waved his words off with a disdainful handwave, then he sneered: “Yes, you will stay at the hotel with Endou. In one double bedroom, it was cheaper than booking two separate rooms. I want both the middle manager and the human resource provider to be close to the location all throughout the final stage.”Tonegawa swallowed, a drip of sweat running down his temples.Hyoudou came forward, supporting himself on his cane: “You are two old colleagues... Our financial department likes you two staying and travelling together, you actually save us a lot of money.”Suddenly, Hyoudou grit his teeth and knitted his brows in looming anger:“Or is that a problem...?”His piercing old eyes stared right into Tonegawa’s soul.“Do you take issue with my plans?” The two blacksuits left and right did a little fearful step backwards from Hyoudou’s chair. “Do you have anything to complain about... Tonegawa...?” hissed Hyoudou. Tonegawa was petrified.His mind was racing. Running at Mach speed hurling him into emotional distress.
Of course.
No one knew about them.
No one knew what they were going through right now.
Not in the past, nor in the present, not even the future.
To Teiai, they were just a cost-saving duo.
Good for the company.
In their eyes, it had to stay that way.
Anything else would be a problem or suddenly look extremely suspicious.
He had to get it together immediately. Grabbing the folder with two hands, clinging on to it with dear life, Tonegawa bowed and responded in a loud voice, talking courage to himself:“No, absolutely no problem. I agree with this plan and this schedule, and will get to work immediately.”Hyoudou seemed pleased, but not happy. He just waved Tonegawa off and mumbled: “Alright, now get to work. Dismissed.”“Thank you, Sir Hyoudou.” He answered. Tonegawa turned around one heel and made straight for the door.He had to get out of here.Now.His heart was thumping in his chest and his throat, suffocating him from the inside.His leather shoes clicked loudly with every fast step on the marble floor.The door.He had to reach it.Don’t show your private life at work.Not your sorrows, not your worries.Keep it inside.Especially in front of his boss.Keep it all inside. ~ ~ ~ Tonegawa was in his office.Anxiously pacing up and down, the folder pressed to his chest. Smoking a cigarette with one hand.He had never thought that their secrecy would turn against them, even less so in a project that was of highest priority.This situation was not good.Not good at all.It was exactly the reason why Tonegawa had never wanted a relationship at work, it would only bring trouble. But now, it had become reality. A cruel reality full of uncertainty.Again, he was in the dark. He didn’t know what Endou was thinking. How could he? What was Endou’s stance, his opinion, his feelings towards this hotel stay? Did he even know? Was this good? Was this bad? A chance to smoothen out things - or only fuel to make the make that awful wound of turmoil and disconnect even worse?Tonegawa pursed his lips, and took another inhale of his cigarette, now running in circles.Round and round, the cold hard folder pressed against his chest. The trail of smoke following him like a curling snake in the air. This was not a state to be in.He had to do something. Tonegawa stopped and exhaled long and deep, smoke escaping his parted lips. Then, he placed the folder down on his table.He would have to see Endou.Right now.Or else his beating heart would not get rest. ~ ~ ~ Tonegawa was on his way to the tenth floor of Teiai. It was the office space for all subsidiary companies, a spot with a few computers and some desks, a temporary workplace for all contractors. Endou’s main office was “Endou Finance”, but his second tiny office was here, if something had to go fast or he had to be near for a reason. There was a small chance that he was here.Tonegawa checked his watch again.The workday was nearly over. Endou would have to step out in a few moments - if he was here. He was not a man to do overtime. When the clock hit the end of the workday, he would drop everything and go home in most cases. Very often he had done this, over many years ago. It made Tonegawa grow a little nostalgic, now that he thought about it.
What bright young men they had been.
Just having climbed up the ranks to lieutenant, Tonegawa had gotten a new blacksuit in his team: This... eager, yet smartly-lazy fellow. This Endou lad had been so full of energy to please and climb the ranks, but he had been also a slacker in other places: Not wearing his suit right when no one was looking, undoing his tie during breaks, arriving just in time with no leeway left, and clocking out as soon as the office bell chimed.
Full of power, precise in saving energy, and yet with his own way of doing things. Tonegawa had been fascinated and glad to take him under his wings, and after many years, they made a brilliant team that climbed up the company ladder together.
And now...Things had changed.Not only was Tonegawa’s hair now completely grey and they both had been marked by wrinkles of life with the passing of time - but now their relationship was unclear.The once unstoppable duo... had come to a grinding halt. “Hah...” Tonegawa sighed, looking around the corner into the hallway in question. Not a single soul seemed to be here. Empty. Just a long corridor with too many doors and cabinets.His brows knitted with worry.Not sure if he should be worried that Endou wasn’t here, or that maybe a door could open and- The door to the subsidiary offices opened.And there he was, at the end of the hallway.Endou.Stepping out, his keys jangled in his hand, and he closed the door behind him. Already in his coat, sunglasses, other hand in his pocket, ready to go home. A stern face looking at the keyhole as he locked up. Tonegawa’s heart sunk.It was still bleeding with anguish.He looked so... normal standing there. As if nothing had happened. As if this was just a normal day at the office.Was this just a mask? His way of not showing his private life at work? Keeping it all inside? Like Tonegawa did? Or... Or did Endou not care about him? Had this just been a sexual adventure that went wrong, and was discarded without another word? Business resuming as usual?What was it?Tonegawa felt tears welling up in his eyes.He swallowed them down, trying to catch himself.Because Endou was walking towards his direction. If Endou wanted to go to the elevators, he had to pass through here - where Tonegawa stood, hidden around the corner in the main hallway.Pressed against the wall, Tonegawa was panicking. His heart thumping in his throat. Sweating. Trembling with uncertainty. There was no escape. He didn’t want to run away. But the pain sat deep.He couldn’t bear to be hurt again. To get rejected. To be unloved. To feel used. To be in everlasting emotional turmoil.But the pain of ‘not knowing’ was worse.Tonegawa had to know. He had to make sure. At least clarify that situation about the hotel stay. At least that.And with one big step... Tonegawa turned around the corner into the hallway. Waiting at the end, looking straight forward at Endou. A worried but determined look on his face. His fists clenched, his legs far apart, standing tall. And... Endou stopped. Looked back at him, the reflection of the office neon lights shining off his sunglasses.Then, he took his hands out of his pockets.With a firm and determined face. Not a single noise disturbed this meeting of two mighty men, each one standing at the end of long hallway. Their eyes met. And without thinking, they both started walking towards each other. Steps that started cautiously, then became faster, longer. Directly at each other. Fists clenched, arms swinging, chests tight.They would meet right in the middle, where only doors and cabinets were.But as they were on their inevitable crash course, Tonegawa noticed something that Endou did:
Behind-Up-Front.
A very peculiar set of movements he had seen more than just a few times: Endou did a short glance over his own shoulder, to check if nobody was behind him. Then he looked up, over the rim of his sunglasses. And then followed a glance straight ahead, with a little sidestep in his long strides, as if he was looking behind Tonegawa down the hallway.After these three checks, he continued to walk straight ahead towards Tonegawa.To which Tonegawa was more than surprised.This set of “looks” was a sign for something very specific. Something they had done quite often at work. ‘Behind-Up-Front’ was a security measure they had set up for themselves to check: “Is no one behind me? Is no one behind the other? Are there any security cameras?”A specific set of checks... to do something indecent at work together. It had always worked perfectly so far, since no one seemed to know at work that they had a sexual relationship hiding in plain sight, but...What was Endou doing now with this triple check...? He wasn’t thinking about...? Surely not now...?They were only a few steps apart, they came closer, Tonegawa’s heart was beating, thumping in his throat, he was nervous, any second, his lips parted to speak, trembling, “Endou-“ But even before he could start the sentence...Endou launched forward, both his hands grabbed Tonegawa hard by his collar, and turned him with a hard swing, slammed his back against the wall between two cupboards, and then-He kissed Tonegawa.Hard.Pressed him against the wall.Lips covered, tongue sliding inside him, wet, warm, soaked, dominant, moaning lowly with every new kiss, “Mnh... Ngah... Hah...”, over and over.Tonegawa had absolutely not expected this, just seen that triple check a few seconds ago that they had always done before kissing secretly in the Teiai hallways.This kiss here only amplified his uncertainty. Made the mixed signals even more unclear.And yet, it felt so good. Healing, nearly. A warmth that seeped into his hurt heart. These conflicting thoughts made Tonegawa more confused, not sure what to do. Getting kissed felt amazing, but... What was he supposed to do now? Answer? Reject? Let it happen? Simply enjoy?Endou did not stop. His brows knitted with passion, he continued, getting louder, kissing harder, running his hands around Tonegawa’s body. Pouring hot passion into him that Tonegawa drank passively.If Endou didn’t want intimacy or feelings... What to do? Tonegawa’s hands just remained gently lifted in the air, cautiously kissing him back, not making any sound, just his breath slowly quickening.“H-Hah...”“Ngah…!”It sounded like two different emotions that didn’t quite belong: Endou’s heavy panting, kissing stronger, wanting more, hands gripping, caressing, moaning, sighing – and Tonegawa’s uncertainty, not doing anything in response, his hands not touching him and his low palpitating breathing, kissing back with hesitation.Endou stopped, panting heavily. His chest heaving. Saliva dripping off his lips. And looked into Tonegawa’s eyes.His brown eyes behind his sunglasses were... sad. Disappointed even.Just as Tonegawa wanted to ask, Endou’s eyes dodged his, looked to the side and he whispered in a grave, raspy tone: “It’s just not the same.” He let go of Tonegawa. Took back his hands and stood there.And Tonegawa’s heart shattered anew.The last shards of his heart getting swept away with the pain that was pouring out his soul already.“Wha-...” Tonegawa quivered. He was still with his back against the wall, and frozen in place with shock.Endou put his hands in his coat pockets and turned slightly away from him, his face still grim. After a silent yet deep sigh, he spoke:“As soon as emotions get involved, it’s just not fun anymore.” “E-Endou...” answered Tonegawa, doing his best to claw at his last shred of composure. He could not get emotional in a hallway, under no circumstance. It was impossible. He would hurt his professional life with irreparable damage. The gossip. The blackmail. The pressure. He could get fired for a meltdown about his relationship at the workplace.How could a man, such a strong man, be emotionally defeated with a single kiss? How could something that was so sweet, so beautiful, throw him into emotional distress? Why did these words hurt so much. Endou scoffed.His eyes sadder than before, the bags under his eyes only accentuating his gravitas.Then, he turned around.And walked away. Walked away again.Again. “E-Endou...” whimpered Tonegawa, praying that no one could hear him anywhere. He got up from his wall, stood on his two quivering legs again, and spoke the only thing he could, not his emotions, not their relationship, not the rejection, his lips moving slowly - to deliver the message of his professional worry:“I need to talk to you... I-It’s... It’s important...” But Endou didn’t listen. Only looked back at him with emotional eyes and said:“I don’t think we need to talk anymore...”His leather shoes clicked on the hard floor as he walked away. His coat swinging behind him, his head down, his hands in his pockets. Beaten. Disappointed. Lost.“...!”Tonegawa gasped, wanted to run after him, but it was too obvious, too emotional, he was too weak, these words, these words drained him, how could he lose so much, how was everything just getting worse?He felt like the hallway was spinning.As if the floor was betraying him.Saw Endou’s back, saw him walk away.HowHow amHow am I so weakWhy is Endou leaving Why am I so aloneWhy am I casted awayI’m old and uselessCan’t even fix or address somethingI’m an idiotBlind with loveUnrequited loveWhat was I thinkingI blew itI couldn’tI justI ju- With a sweaty splat, Tonegawa’s hand clung to the wall.He had to concentrate. Stay here. Stay in the now. Be strong. Don’t be so emotional. Get yourself together. Tonegawa clenched his teeth, his fingertips pressed against the wall.
Get a hold of yourself, Yukio.
He could reach Endou.There was a way to reach him.A single one.Even if it wasn’t the most elegant one.But he would do it.His brows knitted with determination.“Endou...” growled Tonegawa. ~ ~ ~ A few hours later, back at home, Tonegawa sat on his couch in the penthouse living room.He had taken a shower to calm down, his wet hair strands hanging over his forehead. The soft bathrobe gave him some comfort.It was getting late already.But his plan was going to come to fruition, he had decided.He stared at the little black object in front of him, on the low glass table. His smartphone. Writing a message should work.With one warm hand, he picked it up.And he began to type.
However, things would not turn out the way he wanted.
They would derail in the worst possible way.
SEND MESSAGE TO > Endou
Hello Endou. I’m sorry to reach out
to you this way, but we need to
talk about something. It’s work-related.
Sent at 9:21 PM
That was formal and innocent enough to get a response out of Endou. Tonegawa didn’t want to call him, that was too intrusive. But with a text message, people could take their time to answer. It seemed like a nice middle ground for their communication.He placed the phone down again and walked back to his bathroom to blow-dry his hair. That way, he could wait in silence for Endou to answer, and not catch a cold in the meantime.After a warm lovely experience and feeling more comfortable, Tonegawa came back to his phone on the couch table and saw that he had gotten a new message. With a gentle smile, he picked it up and read:
yes what is it
Sent at 9:31 PM
Endou was very short in his messages, Tonegawa had forgotten that. But alas, it was an answer. A first step in the right direction. Even if he had taken 10 minutes to answer – but Tonegawa sighed, he wanted to give him space, after all.Tonegawa’s fingers flew over the keypad, always making sure to type everything correctly, from grammar to punctuation. While it surely wasn’t necessary for text messages, he always put great care into his texts. It mattered to him. Overall, it had taken a while to get used to typing like this, but his young blacksuits had been so kind to help him out a little with the technicalities. He typed:
It’s about the new gamble
for Hyoudou. There is
something in the schedule,
have you seen it already?
Sent at 9:32 PM
He wrote another formal neutral message. That should clear things up. If it was one thing that Tonegawa wanted to avoid, it was to scare Endou again. Keep it professional. He hit ‘Send’ and placed the phone down again. Hopefully Endou would answer faster now.The sun outside had already settled, so Tonegawa switched on some comfortable lights. Maybe he should eat something. He trotted to his kitchen.His fridge was empty. So were his cupboards, just a few sad cans of food for bad times, a single potato, and some high-class pesto he had once gotten as a gift. He was eating out often recently, so he didn’t own much ingredients at the moment. The fate of busy businessmen, he scoffed internally. ... Why did he own a designer kitchen again if there was nothing to cook in it?Tonegawa returned to his living room, picked up a colourful leaflet that lay on the table and looked at the cheap piece of printed paper. “Tokyo 24h Pizza Service – Directly to your door!” He smirked in a coy manner. Sometimes you just had to treat yourself, even if it was unhealthy. And he could need some comfort food right now.He took a bit of time to choose and compose his pizza and then made his order: A big pepperoni pizza with extra ham, onions, and garlic.. That should do the trick, he smiled.Then he saw his own phone light up and he rushed towards it. And on the bright blue screen reflecting in his eyes, it only said:
no
Sent at 10:05 PM
Hm. So Endou didn’t knew about the hotel stay. Tonegawa scratched his own neck. It sort of made sense: For one, Endou never read any of the files he got, especially not when they didn’t involve his direct interests. And secondly, it explained his behaviour earlier today – at least a little bit. He had thought that Tonegawa wanted to talk about their relationship, when in fact, it had been about this work-related thing.It stung, but it made sense. After all, talking about your secret relationship was nothing one could do like that in a hallway at work.Tonegawa immediately typed away, to make the situation clear. Replying immediately, he wrote and sent:
We need to stay in a
hotel room together.
Double bed. Order from
the man himself for
his new project.
Sent at 10:06 PM
That should explain the situation. He sighed.
RIIIIIIIIIIING
The loud doorbell ripped him out of pondering. Ah, his pizza had arrived. Unhealthy, but essentially the best comfort food - next to pasta and ramen. Which he most certainly needed right now. He handed the money and a little tip to the young deliveryman at his door and came back to the living room. Putting the big warm cardboard box on his low coffee table, he opened it and his heart rose.What a delicious smell, and how nice it looked. Still hot, all the more delicious. Tonegawa would normally take a plate, knife and fork to eat it, but today was really a hands-on-pizza kind of day. He took a pre-cut piece and took a bite.It was delicious.He sunk a little deeper into his couch, chewing with gusto. That really did him well. “Hmmm...” he hummed.For just a few moments, his worries seemed far away. Piece by piece, a warm blanket of comfort set on his soul, calming his mind.It had been a while since he had takeaway pizza.The comforting and savoury taste reminded him of his better days, when he had often ordered pizza late at night to the Teiai offices. For his blacksuits and himself, when they had to work overtime again, late into the night, without dinner or pause. Essentially a sad, corporate setting, but a bonding experience for everyone involved.Even that young blacksuit Endou back then had been so happy to get a piece, his tie already hanging around his shoulders, biting into the saviour of his overtime stay. Remembering Endou like that made Tonegawa smile a little, even though it was a bittersweet memory right now.
The same hands that had once so gratefully accepted a warm dinner, were pushing him away now.
Tonegawa fought the sentiment off, picked up the cardboard pizza box and walked to his penthouse window. Eating another slice, he looked outside, into the familiar Tokyo skyline. Blinking lights, rushing cars and cabs, many windows illuminated in the dark. It was a sight that always made him calm – a serene chaos that had its own beauty.The dancing neon of the metropolis cast shadows around his eyes. Wrinkles that had come with time. Slowly chewing and looking outside, time flowed gently by him. What was Endou doing right now... he wondered. And especially, how would it all continue? Was there any hope for them? Or was this adventure already over? A fling to be forgotten soon, only to be remembered by the scars it caused.Tonegawa felt a tear welling up in his eye, but he wiped it away and took another slice. It was the last one.“Huh...” he wondered. That had gone quickly. It probably hadn’t been healthy to just eat a whole pizza so absentmindedly, but alas.He looked at his clock in the living room. Goodness, had so much time already passed? Nearly half an hour?With a few more quick bites, he had eaten his final slice and walked back to his living room couch where his phone lay. Putting the pizza carton on his coffee table in the same move, he typed quickly. Tonegawa certainly didn’t want to put pressure on Endou, but he needed to underline how important and potentially dangerous this hotel stay was. If even old Hyoudou was arising suspicion, then it was of high priority to come up with a plan. Or at least, something to cover them up. He typed and sent the following.
We cannot avoid this.
It will look suspicious
if we don’t stay in one room.
We always traveled
together.
Sent at 10:32 PM
Tonegawa sighed anew.Their once so precious and entertaining business travels had suddenly become heavy with danger and gravitas.As he sunk into beloved but now painful memories of them together, the clock ticked ever onward.The older you got… the quicker time seemed to run. Run, run, run without looking back or taking care of you. Forever caught in the cogs of life, in the wheel of years that flew by. Running on your life energy it was slowly twisting out of you.Endou still hadn’t answered. Probably hadn’t even read what Tonegawa had sent him.With a sigh, Tonegawa looked at the clock on his phone. About twenty minutes had passed without a word, not even a single letter from Endou.Tonegawa’s heart was slowly wrapping itself in anger and anxiety. Thin layer over thin layer of pain. Time casting its hurtful veil over his inner core. Was Endou ignoring him? Wilfully ignoring him? Or was he just maybe taking a shower and not looking at his phone? Had he gone to a bar and was drowning his sorrows in alcohol? What was going on?With his thumbs flying over his keypad, Tonegawa typed only a short message and hit Send.
Are you ok with this?
Sent at 10:59 PM
For just a second, he grew anxious. Was that too pushy? ... No, Endou simply didn’t respond, so he had to ask more questions. Just push on slightly. But not too much. He should wait for another text message now. Any second. Tonegawa tapped his foot, quietly. Nothing. It was past 11 pm now.Getting a bit pissed off now, Tonegawa snatched the empty pizza carton off his table and brought it to the garbage bin in the kitchen. As he stood there, he noticed that it didn’t fit. It was too large to go into his medium sized chrome trash can.“Hrnnh...” he groaned, with a disdainful look. And then, he simply took the cardboard box into both his hands and tore it apart, the carton clenched in his big fists.The loud RIPPING noise took Tonegawa out of his anger for a second.It had sounded way more vicious than it should have. Like a furious tearing apart of someone else’s work, a vivid destruction in blind rage.Not appropriate for the setting or the mood.With a slight tremble to his hands, he dropped the single cardboard pieces into his trash can. They landed softly there, piece after piece, like leaves falling off an autumn tree.Tonegawa’s feelings were slowly descending into a big mess. The uncertainty only amplifying the worst of it all.He had to know. He had to tell. He had to make sure that all would turn out well. They would have to lay out a plan together.Talk. Communicate.Just… anything.Standing here so helpless, being startled by the sound of cardboard ripping, was of no help to anyone.And time ticked ever forward.Forward.Forward. Tonegawa’s eye began to twitch. He touched his eyelids gently. It was pulsating at an uneven rhythm. Now he definitely knew: It was putting him under stress. Massive stress. He hadn’t had this eye twitch in quite a while now. And the mere fact that an unanswered text message could push him over the edge was sign enough that he had to act.“Hrnh…” he grumbled and walked briskly back to his living room where his smart phone lay. Heavy with emotion, Tonegawa threw himself on the sofa, and typed. He would have to show the consequences to Endou, so that he would react as soon as he read it. With his thumbs flying over the keypad, he typed. Then, he hit the Send button a bit stronger than expected:
I have no clue what
will happen to us
if Teiai finds out. Or if
our enemies find out.
Sent at 11:07 PM
There we go. Now Endou had to react. He was personally involved in this as well. It takes two people to form a relationship. Tonegawa grumbled and leisurely threw his phone on the couch next to him, where it lay like a small warm brick.Why was Endou not answering him? He couldn’t be THAT busy all the time, he would have to look at his phone at least once in a while. He was constantly looking at it! What was keeping him?!“Endou…” whispered Tonegawa, staring down at the empty space of his room. The hint of anger in his voice was intertwined with a drip of sadness.To be shunned was one thing, but to be ignored was worse. It was as if… A chill ran over Tonegawa’s spine.As if… their relationship had never existed in the first place.As if Endou was hiding all the traces.Break contact, break relationship, break all communication.“…”A tear ran down Tonegawa’s cheek again, but he clenched his teeth and angrily wiped it away again with his bath robe sleeve. He should pull himself together. Maybe there was a simple, rational explanation for it all. Maybe Endou was really busy.Busy. Yes.Busy.For certain.
Don’t fool yourself, Tonegawa, no one is busy at 11 pm, especially not Endou.
But what could he- Tonegawa’s eyes widened in shock. W-Was…Was he seeing someone else?Tonegawa never had had the certainty that he was the only one Endou had been physically intimate with.Even when he had mentioned it in his vicious emotional outbreak in his office in front of Endou, he had never answered to that statement.There had never been the certainty that he just was the only one.
The hot grasp of envy and abandonment wrapped around Tonegawa’s heart and clutched it tight.
Was that the reason why Endou couldn’t answer?Was he in a restaurant right now, talking to someone? In bar, chatting up a stranger he didn’t know? In a love hotel, being toge-It hurt.It hurt Tonegawa.Right to his core. Boiling strings of bitter feelings began to choke him.Around his heart, his throat, his mind. Don’t cry, Tonegawa.Don’t. You went through more difficult things than that. But- He was tearing up. And he didn’t like that at all. Tonegawa grabbed his phone and began to type, the letters melting into the misty fog of tears in his eyes. He immediately hit “send”. Thrice.
Endou, please
Sent at 11:42 PM
Please answer me
Sent at 11:42 PM
Just tell me if it’s alright
And if we will be alright
Sent at 11:42 AM
What followed was a whirl of anxiety and panic, a spiral downward that Tonegawa was helplessly caught in.
I have many emotions and
feelings I cannot tell
you via text right now
please
Sent at 12:03 AM
Tonegawa didn’t knew anymore how much time had passed, everything began to melt together.
When his phone finally rang, and he darted to it to read Endou’s message, he was already a mess of sweat, tears, and trembles. And what he saw, was simply this:
k
Sent at 01:06 AM
What was that?
Just a small “k”?
After all he had written?
Not even Endou could be this cruel.
And yet here he was, this single letter shining on his phone.
He wanted to call him. Hear his voice. Ask him what it all meant, what it would take to go back, what his thoughts and emotions were, but… What if Endou was writing in such a short manner because he was annoyed? Or at a hostess club? Or with another man even?
It hurt
It hurt so much
Tonegawa began to type, but tears dripped down to his phone screen. As he tried to wipe them away, he accidentally hit a few commas and then “send”.
Yuuji,, ,
Sent at 01:06 AM
Tonegawa grit his teeth in sadness and frustration, tears streaming down his cheeks. He typed again, all his deepest emotions bleeding out in anguish. He had to tell Endou. He had to tell how much he meant to him.
Please call me
Please
Sent at 01:07 AM
At this point, Tonegawa was more than exhausted. This stress, this anger, this onslaught of emotions tearing him apart from the inside… he had to sit down.Not only this storm of feelings, but also from work.He closed his red and swollen eyes, burning from crying so much.If Endou would call, Tonegawa would wake up from the loud, vibrating phone in his hand. For certain. And like this, he fell asleep, into a deep, dark hole of restless quiet. ~ ~ ~ When Tonegawa awoke on his couch, neck stiff from sleeping while sitting, his eyes hurting with the endless tears he had shed last night, his throat burning from all the sobbing - he was a changed man.His phone had fallen to the ground, slid out of his sleepy fingers, and he picked it up from the carpet.As he saw the last exchange —
(message read
at 03:27 AM)
his heart turned to stone.
There were no missed calls.
That was it.
If Endou didn’t want any emotions, then he would provide.
It was the only way to not lose Endou.The pain in his heart, that pulsating, bleeding pain, froze slowly over and stood still.If he had to choose between his own love and Endou’s needs, Endou had priority.And thus, Tonegawa’s eyes turned grey and lifeless.The phone slid out of his hand and fell with a low thump on the carpet.He had to do this to himself to keep Endou.Not a single tear would flow out if these eyes anymore.They would not be the messengers of emotion anymore.No more feelings.
He was reminded of his cliff analogy again.
Where Endou had stood and disappeared into the darkness, turning away from him.
Tonegawa stood on his cliff.
The storm was gone, the sea was calm and breezy.
It was the calmness of rationality and determination.
The sky was grey and heavy, big clouds overlapping and culminating. And yet, it did not rain.
All was still.
Tonegawa looked around with his grey eyes.
He had always loved the sound of the ocean waves.
On the cliff opposite was no one anymore.
Just that endless darkness that had swallowed Endou.
Seeping and waiting for him.
A concept too big and heavy to bear.
A monster too strong and overwhelming.
Tonegawa opened his arms and faced it.
“Hah...” he gasped and smiled.
If Endou was in there, in this darkness of emotional disconnect, carnal lust and complete rejection, only wanting sex without the relationship baggage, that nonsense stuff, that useless garbage – then he would join him in there.
The darkness lashed out like a raging beast and took hold of Tonegawa.
Ran around his legs, his body, his chest.
It was cold.
Clung to him like tar.
Narrow.
So very cold.
But he would endure it.
Embrace it.
Accept it.
Be in the darkness.
For him.
To see him.
To meet him.
To not lose him.
As the darkness went up to his throat, icy cold and tight around his twitching neck, nearly chocking him with emotional coldness — he felt a short flash of regret. As if he had forgotten himself. His values. His feelings. His character. His honesty. His-
His love.
But alas, it was too late.
He would cast away his love, to be with the one he loved.
With a painful smile, his final tears streaming down his cheeks, and a last sigh, he breathed:
“Yuu... ji...”
And disappeared into the void.
Two cliffs in a black ocean.
A darkness looming on it.
And the ocean waves continued their lonely song for two great men that had once stood here.
TO BE CONTINUED