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Yoongi wanted to marry.There wasn’t anything that he want more than that, feeling that he had already reached that stage in his life of need it, feeling himself more prepared for that.But what happened that night in the amusement park, had been put a big STOP signal in front of him and he wasn’t so sure to have that certainty anymore. It wasn’t because his love had extinguished or he’d changed his mind since he still believed that it was the right moment to do it, but last weeks had showed him that he wasn’t ready for everything that he thought he was and the fear for not being and couldn’t offer all the happiness that he wished, started to eat him alive and was seeding more doubts than certainty in his already insecure being.If it wasn’t for Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook, he may be already engaged and about to marry, but no. Instead of that, he had to take care of four kids that everyday put the house upside down, their ruined his clothes with “physiological accidents”, or spilled food, or color paints. Yoongi had clean so much snot, changed so many diapers and every time that he must to bath a kid he ended up completely soaked head to toes, that he didn’t understand how were people did that for pleasure, when the two last weeks he had passed had been a completely hell. His love will never extinguish, he knew that would be impossible, and he was completely sure that, in any case, whatever would be that happen, it only increased. He will never stop feeling it and that was the constant in his life, for which he’d still resisted, but everything had eroded so fast that he was afraid that it would end in a disaster.He looked the scene in front of his eyes, sitting in the park where they had decided to rest after of walk through the city and he tiringly sighed, feeling the defeat beforehand.The laughs came through his ears lightly, full of life and happiness and an unpleasant weight settled in his stomach. Yoongi knew that he had only been the darkly large storm cloud above their heads, causing more trouble that even the kids. And he didn’t want to give up. He wanted to fight for his love. He wanted to show that he could do it and he could make all the people around him happy. But that weight settled in his heart insisted that he was wrong, that he wouldn’t make it, and that it would be better if he considered the idea of retreat himself, because he never could bring the happiness he wished to all the people he loved. That afternoon in the park, Yoongi took a terrible decision before stand up and go back home.