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And here he is, everyone I'm presenting to you... KIM TAEHYUNG!!!!!
 Jeongguk looks at the TV screen with heart-shaped eyes while drinking his banana milk. He's looking at Kim Taehyung or as Jeongguk likes to call him, Tae.  While finishing his banana milk Jeongguk listens to the MC even though he'd rather listen to Tae's soothing voice. Jeongguk still remembers the first time he heard that beautiful voice of Tae's. So calm and soothing and VERY deep.(Probably deeper than the ocean!)  He's pretty sure he could fall asleep if he wanted to when Tae's voice is present. Jeongguk kind of lives on that voice. When he's sad, frustrated or just content he always listens to Tae's voice. It's become a habit, a good one he thinks. "So Taehyung-sii when do you plan on going on you next tour? "the MC asks. "Ah soon I promise but I still have a few things to check up on! But soon right ARMY?", Tae says looking very pleased and happy while smiling into the camera.   Jeongguk is also smiling, he just can't help it. "Well we are very pleased to have you tonight on the show! We hope you will enjoy your time on the show and also have a great performance", the MC finishes.
 
Jeongguk's heart begins to beat a tad faster, when Tae is about to perform one of his most popular songs, Singularity. He sits more up now so he can really enjoy the performance. Just in a moment everything is so calm and so silent, and then Tae starts singing. Jeongguk is also singing, going from side to side while he's closing his eyes, looking very happy and content. It feels like he is in some other world, not aware of the real world, but a world where you can only hear Tae's deep and soothing voice. It feels so good and Jeongguk sometimes wish he could actually go to that place. Then in no time the song is done and Tae is already leaving the scene. Jeongguk's eyes shoot up and he looks a little bewildered before he is fully ´´back`` in the real world again. He sighs and looks down for a moment. He hates this part the most, when Tae's performance is done and there's no more singing. Just a hollow silents instead. It doesn't sit well with jeongguk if he's being honest.  He turns the TV off and looks out the window. It's night time right now and he is home alone tonight. Jimin and Hobi went out clubbing, but because Jeongguk knew that Tae would have a performance tonight he stayed home. Even though hyungs had tried to take him with them, since they thought it was sad for him to be all alone, he simply brushed the offer off, and told them that he'd rather see Tae perform than being between a lot of sweaty body's while dancing to shitty music. So he is, home alone with no idea what really to do now. He decides after a few minutes of thinking, to play some Overwatch. While Jeongguk is playing Overwatch and cursing at the other players he suddenly hears his phone's notification sound. He checks his phone, before he sees a notification from Tae's twitter. He quickly pauses his game and clicks into Twitter. He grins when he sees what Tae posted. It's a little video of him, probably from some time ago, where he is standing outside on a bridge smiling at the sun, while making his famous hand gesture, that turns into a V. Jeongguk reads the text below the video and starts frowning when he reads the message. Isn't this beautiful, ARMY?  I hope I can one day take you to this place, it's very beautiful out here. Ah i'm working at full speed these days, but I always seems to have some more things to do. I wish we could all come together and have a trip to this very bridge! ^-^ See you soon ARMY, Hwaiting! Jeongguk thinks for a moment. Why would Tae send this? It's one of those messages that Jeongguk just doesn't understand. He tries to come up with a good solution or reason, but decides to leave it and shakes his head(theories are too hard to even start analyzing) before he starts texting Jimin. He wants hyungs to come home soon, so he has someone to talk to. God he wish he could just talk to Tae, he would probably make him laugh and have a good time.  He remembers the first time he met him 3 years ago at a fan meeting. He was so excited to finally meet Tae up close and actually get to talk to him and ask him a few questions. It went pretty smoothly as long as it lasted, Tae was very sweet and funny, and he even pinched his cheeks because he thought Jeongguk looked cute with his big deer eyes. Of course Jeongguk blushed like a total 1 year-high school student(because why wouldn't he??) and it was so embarrassing but at the same time it felt so weirdly good. He can't really describe or put reasons as to why it felt so weirdly good. Maybe just because the whole atmosphere being in Tae's company was enough.  When He recalls the fan meeting like a movie playing in his mind, he suddenly stops for a second. He is at a part where him and Tae are chatting a bit and Tae sounds like he is... kinda flirting with Jeongguk a little? No way, would Tae flirt with a guy like Jeongguk right?  He's a nobody, nothing WOW about him, he's just like any other ordinary human. But his mind goes back to a certain part where Tae was asking him a question: 
"So Jeongguk, why aren't you with your girlfriend right now? A boy like you is too cute to be single!" Tae says while smiling flirtatious and winking at Jeongguk.
 
Jeongguk looks a little surprised but manage to stumble out "i'm not that cute!" while blushing and trying to look as relaxed as possible even though it's harder than it looks.
 
"Oh I think your much cuter and.. hotter than most guys your age", Tae's says but the last part is coming out a little more quiet than the "oh I think your much cuter" part.
 
Again Jeongguk just looks at Tae like he' didn't just say those words and this time he doesn't know what to say. He just gulps and keeps looking deep into Tae's eyes.
 
Before he knows it, he is being pushed away from Tae and back to his seat, while blinking and trying to figure out what just happened. He doesn't put up a fight and when he meets Tae's eyes again he sees something behind them. Curiousness, and maybe fondness, Tae sends a little smile in Jeongguk's way.  
 Yeah that was actually a bit strange.. He thinks it over for a moment, wondering what Tae meant by those words."hotter than most guys your age"  It felt like it was yesterday he talked with Tae, not like it was over 3 years ago and Jeongguk really wants to talk to Tae again. It felt like they had their own little bubble at the fan meeting and it was great. Until the manager pushed him away from Tae saying his time was up, and everything. Jeongguk leaves the memory at that and decides to go take a shower to think about something else(not in a perverse way)  Late into the night, Jimin and Hobi stumbles inside the apartment looking drunk as hell and Jeongguk just grins and greets them. "So did Tae look good on TV tonight?", Jimin asks while looking tired as fuck while wiggling his eyebrows in a joking manner. "He had a fancy performance outfit on that suited him perfect, so I would say yeah pretty much", Jeongguk says and starts grinning, because he knows that face Jimin is making when he hears that. "Hyung, stop you know I didn't mean it like that!!", Jeongguk says while his checks are heating up a little and when Jimin notices he just starts giggling.  "I'm sorry Jeongguk but seriously we ALL know, how much you like Tae and his body", Jimin tries to say between giggles. "No that’s not true!!", Jeongguk tries to argue against it even though he has lost the fight a long time ago. Since the day they found out, he was a big sucker for Tae with his nice ass and boxy smile. "I mean he isn’t like THAT hot...?", Jeongguk says while looking unsure and wants to hide under a blanket instead and Jimin is just giving him the look, which is enough for Jeongguk to finally give up with a big sigh. "FINE, okay yeah he is really hot and all, you happy now??", Jeongguk asks a little exasperated while throwing his hands up into the air. Jimin is just standing and pointing fingers, singing, "JEONGGUK LIKES TAEHYUNG, JEONGGUK LIKES TAEHYUNG" in a really annoying tone. It's become a habit Jimin does whenever Jeongguk admits to something about Tae.  Jeongguk is having none of it and while Jimin is still standing and singing without having any clue, to what Jeongguk is about to do he goes for it. He makes a home run and all, but slams into him so Jimin falls to the ground while Jeongguk is finding his most sensitive part of his body so he can tickle him until he pees in his pants. Jimin is quick to find out what’s going on and tries to wiggle free, between more giggles but to no use. They both know who’s the strongest between the two and Jeongguk is just grinning mischievously while tickling Jimin. At one point Jimin looks like he is about to cry out of laughter and Jeongguk stops and straddles him while looking down at him. "So are you done now or do you want to die out of pure laughter?", Jeongguk asks and has Jimin's hands fisted to his back. Jimin starts singing again, but not for very long before he finally stops and give up. Just in that moment Hobi comes into the living room looking everything but tired and just points to the two boys who are on the ground. Jimin with his fist behind his back and Jeongguk sitting proudly on top of Jimin while holding his hands. "Hey, hyung how was the party?", Jeongguk asks and tilts his head a little.   "Oh it was fine, we had lots of fun, right Jiminie?", Hobi says with a teasing tone and he winks at Jimin, like they have a secret between the two of them. Jimin just blinks up at him before his mind finally registers what he is implying and grins at him and nods. "Hey why are you two suddenly sending these looks between you, did you do something stupid or what?", Jeongguk asks while looking between Jimin and Hobi. Jimin and Hobi just starts grinning even more and Hobi is the one to spill the tea to Jeongguk. "So, me and Jimin found a really drunk Yoongi at the party and wanted to play a prank on him, since he was really drunk and had no idea what was going on", Hobi says while trying not to laugh. "We wanted to set Yoongi up with a boy who had stared at Yoongi for some time. Of course Yoongi didn't see what we were doing", Hobi says and Jimin starts laughing until he's rapidly falling over.   "And so we asked the guy, if he wanted to talk to Yoongi and maybe take him out on the dance floor. The guy was actually very nice, but at the same time he didn't sound so convinced". "We told him that Yoongi is into guys and everything and that he thinks he look hot, and let me tell ya Jeongguk that guy looked ready to grab Yoongi and dance with him all night", Hobi finishes and Jimin has stopped laughing, but they can clearly see he has been crying, because of laughter. "He took Yoongi out on the dance floor and it was so hilarious because Yoongi was so confused, but at the same time very drunk and just looked content", Hobi says before turning around going to the kitchen to grab a glass of water. He returns with a glass of water and gestures to Jimin to get up from the floor. “Jiminie I think it’s time for you to go rest or something, you look like you could sleep right about now, Hobi says and helps Jimin get up. “Yeah, hyung that sounds like a good plan” Jimin says and yawns loudly before saying goodnight and vanishes to his room. “So Kookie, I’m too tired to talk right now, I’ll see ya tomorrow, goodnight sleep well", Hobi says sounding tired and turns on his heel waving goodnight. “Night, Hyung”, Jeongguk mumbles, but he probably didn’t catch it anyway.   “Wow Jeonggukie why are you stressing so much, what’s the deal?”, Jimin asks while sounding a bit worried at first, before he looks at Jeongguk’s screen. Right there on the screen it says with big words: Kim Taehyung’s concert tickets 13/4 at Gocheok Sky Dome, buy now!! - We hope to see you there!  Jeongguk is not even looking at him, just trying to find a  way to get a ticket, but he’s struggling. The side keeps loading, and it looks like he won’t make it in time. Normally whenever he needs to buy a ticket to one of Tae’s concert he need to be really fast. The tickets are sold out in just a few minutes and he needs to be lucky to get one. Suddenly the site closes and when he tries to restart the site it kicks him out again and again. Jeongguk sighs in defeat and slams his hand down onto the desk with a big BAM. “WHYYYYY”, Jeongguk whines staring into the screen like his life depends on it. Jimin is just standing silently beside him, and he pats Jeongguk’s shoulder in a comfort gesture. “Hey, it’s okay, Jeonggukie, there are more sites that sell ticket ya know”, Jimin says while squeezing Jeongguk’s shoulder.   “Jiiiimiiiiiiinnnnn, I already tried other sites before I found this last one, that I can afford”, Jeongguk says, finally looking at Jimin away from the computer screen and looks so, so tired because of his distress about the ticket sale. “Yeah, but what about your friends at school, aren’t they also fan of Tae?” Jimin asks hope flooding in his eyes. Jimin has always seen Jeongguk like his little brother. Whenever Jeongguk would get hurt or sad about something Jimin was the first one to step in. He comforted Jeongguk and helped him come out of his shell. He was also the one who introduced him to the gym, and Jeongguk all but loved it. He has also inspired Jeongguk in a lot of different ways and he tries his best to make Jeongguk feel loved and safe. So yeah, Jimin is also like a big brother for Jeongguk, since his real brother is working in Incheon at a cafe and he doesn't see him very often. Jeongguk loves to make fun of Jimin’s height, which makes their friendship stronger and they understand each other really well. “No, they aren’t fan of him, because they don’t want to feel ugly, when they see how astonishing beautiful Tae looks”, Jeongguk answers in a matter of facts. “Yah, that’s not a way to say they aren’t fan of Tae”, Jimin says and his voice dripping with amusement. “But it’s true! They really has said it themselves!”, Jeongguk says exasperated and looks at Jimin with his big deer eyes like he really wants Jimin to believe him. Jimin looks away and mumbles something, Jeongguk doesn’t catch and then looks at Jeongguk again, while looking like he is thinking. “Look, how long is there before the concert, anyway?” Jimin asks. “There is 1-2 weeks until the concert, but still, by that time all the tickets will be gone!” Jeongguk says and looks down again. “Ah don’t worry, Jeonggukie, just have your eyes opened in case someone wants to sell their ticket”, Jimin says and turns around to leave Jeongguk alone. Jeongguk doesn’t say more and instead looks out his window, the city alive like always, loud and clear outside.   A few days pass by, and Jeongguk tries not to think too much about the ticket, but it’s really hard. He wanted that ticket so bad and he is so sure that he won’t find someone who is willing to sell their ticket. When he walks down the street, on his way home from a long, boring day at school, he hears a faint calling. “Jeongguk!” “Jeongguk, wait!” The voice becomes louder and louder and Jeongguk turns around to see one of his good classmates, Yugyeom who is running towards him. “Jeongguk fucking stop, dude I have something to tell you!!” Yugyeom all but shouts and Jeongguk starts grinning and stops. “Hey, Yugyeom, what is so important that you have to tell me?”, Jeongguk asks with a teasing tone “Ah, finally it’s like calling someone who is deaf, seriously!” Yugyeom all but concludes and then starts giggling before he gets serious again. “I came to say that my cousin got me a ticket to a weird concert, I can’t remember clearly something with a guy named Kim something… uh Kim.. Kim.. Taeyang or something like that”, Yugyeom says while looking a bit confused and tries to remember the name, but Jeongguk knows exactly who he is trying to remember. “Kim Taehyung!”, Jeongguk says, happily. “AH yeah, exactly Kim Taehyung, it was” Yugyeom says looking pleased and smart. “Well what about him and that concert?”, Jeongguk asks starting to become a little jealous because he has a ticket and Jeongguk doesn’t. “Well, I um came to ask if you wanted the ticket, since I know u like that guy and his music a lot, and I’m not really that interested in it” Yugyeom says while looking excited and patient. Jeongguk can’t believe his own ears right now. Did Yugyeom just ask him if he wanted a ticket to Tae’s concert? (Yeah, he did), and he better not ask anyone else, cause that ticket is his. Jeongguk returns from his thoughts and blinks at Yugyeom before he nods rapidly and says yes to the ticket. Yugyeom gives the ticket to Jeongguk and looks relived. “Well now that that's solved I gotta go, and catch up with my brother, he is waiting for me at the gym”, Yugyeom says and waves a goodbye directed to Jeongguk before he turns around and runs before he disappears around the corner. Jeongguk is still standing on the street and he looks down at his ticket. The ticket looks beautiful, so nice and delicate to touch and so calming to read the words: Ticket to Kim Taehyung Concert 13/4 at Gocheok Sky Dome and then when he keeps reading he sees a word that completely takes the air out of his lungs. [ VIP ] This VIP Ticket allows to get access to more features at the concert, read more information at our website: KimTaehyung/)seneryTour.kr Seat number is: Number (30) VIP seat.  Jeongguk just stares down at it before he realizes what this means. He is going to Tae’s concert but he has VIP access and he gets to sit closer to the scene. He gets to see him after the concert, and talk with him too! He can go out to the private bathrooms, without needing to hold his piss until he gets home again!(Seriously that really sucks when that happens). So many features and Jeongguk is getting excited, and then starts dancing on the street. He checks to make sure no one is there, before he just pours all his feelings into the dance. When he gets home he tells his Hyungs about his lucky ticket and they congratulate him and hugs him. They decide to eat out(om McDonald's) to celebrate it and when they get home, with their tummies full of fast food, Jeongguk thinks he couldn’t be more happy right is this moment. He is going to Tae’s concert, he is with his hyungs feeling all happy and light and everything is just so good right now.   Now he just has to wait one week more until it’s time and it’s already being a pain in the ass. So Jeongguk decides to use most of his time down at the gym or at the dance studio, with either Jimin or Hobi. Everyday he keeps thinking about the concert and he just can’t wait. Jimin and Hobi share knowing looks but they don’t say anything. They know how important this is for Jeongguk so they just continue to watch him, being all happy and light. A few days before the concert, Hobi and Jeongguk is at the dance studio, trying to remember a new choreography they got from their dance teacher a few hours ago. Jimin isn’t at the dance studio today, because he had other things he needed to attend to. Jeongguk is laying on the ground, his muscles a bit sore, but for some reason he likes the feeling. It makes him think he has done a good job. While he is laying on the ground trying to repeat a certain part of the choreography in his head, Hobi walks over to him looking at him with his sunshine-smile. Hobi has always been a really good friend and whenever Jeongguk needed some help with the choreography, he was quick to guide him through it or make sure he understood every part of the dance. Hobi would always become very serious when it came to set dance moves together and get everything right. He could be scary when he got mad or frustrated, whenever someone would make a mistake in the choreography. He would give you this deadly look, that just somehow seemed to be screaming at you, telling you to stop making mistakes and to pull yourself together.  Jeongguk remembers one time when he was younger and they had to perform a very complicated choreography. Doing the days up till the performance he was being scolded a lot and given a lot of death looks from Hobi. Jeongguk had trouble with remembering all the moves because they had to do multiples things with almost every move throughout the whole choreography. Jimin was a bit sweeter, but he didn’t have much patience. If he would get to his red field it was over. Simply over.  He would yell at Jeongguk, and give him looks that made him feel small. His presence when he would be mad or pissed off made him look much bigger and more threatening than anyone would think of him. Sometimes it still makes Jeongguk hesitate before he teases Jimin about his height or something like that. Jimin can be threatening in the most scariest ways p.e.r.i.o.d. “Yah Jeonggukie, come on don’t lay here on the ground, it’s gross”, Hobi says while making a disgusted face. Jeongguk open his eyes and looks up at him, before closing them again as if he wasn’t standing there. He starts to grin when he hears an insulted sound coming from Hobi and he just keeps his eyes close to irritate him even more. “Jeonggukie how dare you disrespect your hyung?”, Hobi says and he sounds fake-insulted and this time Jeongguk looks up and says one, simple word “Because” and closes them again while making a fake-relieved sound leave his lips. “You little brat, I should punish you for ignoring your hyung and make you wish you never did it”, Hobi says and when Jeongguk open his eyes, fear showing in them for a second Hobi just smiles, pleased that he finally got Jeongguk’s attention. Jeongguk yawns before he finally sits up and sighs, like he wants to go home now. They have been here for about 3-4 hours now and it’s 8 pm in the evening. “Hyung, can’t we go home and eat some ramen?”, Jeongguk says tiredly clear in his voice and he looks up at Hobi hopeful. Hobi looks like he is thinking it over before he hums in agreement. They get their stuff and leave the dance studio.   Jeongguk is running. He is running so so fast, because he need to be at the concert in about 2 hours. Jeongguk was at the gym because he still had a good 4 hours before he had to go to the concert. Let’s just say time fly by way faster than Jeongguk thought and now he really needs to hurry. He needs to get home, get some clean cloth and probably a shower too and then down and catch the subway train to Gocheok. Even though his muscles are tired because of all the training at the gym, he still manages to get home in less than 15 minutes. When he reach the apartment he just runs inside and gets ready for a bath. He is quick in the bathroom and when he steps out, wet dripping hair and a towel around his waist he just needs to get changed. He has already found his outfit for tonight and when he looks at the time he has about 30 min before he needs to be at the subway station. His outfit is looking like this . He gets ready, looks in the mirror to check that everything is where it needs to be and then he’s out the door. He almost doesn’t catch the train but once he’s found a seat and now on his way to Gocheok, he can’t stop himself from smiling. He looks out the window and sees the city pass by. He decides to listen to some music since there is a good hour before he arrives in Goheok. While listening to Tae’s newest album(because why not) he can’t stop thinking about the access he has once he's at the concert. He hope he can talk with Tae again and make some good memories at the concert too. He can count the concerts he has attended on two hands. So it’s not that much considered he lives in the same country at Tae. But with a student, dancer and gym enthusiast like Jeongguk it’s hard to make room for a concert, even though he would much rather go to one of Tae’s concerts whenever there is one it’s simply just impossible for him at the moment(his bank account is definitely crying)  Hopefully when he gets older he can go to many more concerts than he can now. He smiles at the thought, yeah he hopes that will become a reality. Jeongguk is listening to music while humming quietly when suddenly the train announces their arrival in Gocheok. He looks out and gets up from his seat. When he steps out of the train he quickly types the destination on his phone and then starts walking in the direction his phone is telling him to. Luckily the subway station isn’t very far away from Gocheok Dome Sky and when he’s getting closer to the Dome Sky he can faintly hear loud music coming from the place. He starts running a little since he can’t wait to get inside and enjoy the time being in the same place as Tae. When he spots Gocheok Dome Sky he picks up speed and runs almost all the way before he goes back to walking when he is almost there. He looks at the massive place and a “woaw” leaves his lips before he enters through the big doors. Everything goes smoothly he shows his ticket get a special bracelet around his wrist and then he is being showed where to enter the concert. He breathes out in relief when he walks through the hallways, leading him to the concert. Since he has more access he can go through a special door that takes him behind the scene.  Because he has a VIP ticket he gets to walk around among the managers and see what's going on. While walking around he thinks It’s very interesting seeing all these things you don’t get to see if you just have a regular ticket. He really enjoys being here and he takes everything in and studies it for a moment before continuing to explore. There is still a good 30 minutes before he has to get to his seat so he really wants to use the spare time, exploring behind the scenes. He sees so many things, managers that are discussing and pointing fingers at papers they’re holding, agents who walks around with funny things in their ears, people running, noonas who are getting the makeover ready and some even shout to someone else to come and help them with something. Jeongguk is not really sure where he is going, but to be honest he doesn’t really care. As long as he just walks the same way back it should be fine. Suddenly he stops when he spots someone talking with one of the many managers. He looks at the person and his heart starts beating faster and faster, because right there just a few meters away from him stands the very famous Kim Taehyung or just Tae. Jeongguk has to gulp when he studies Tae. Tae looks more than perfect in his beautiful outfit that is made out of a beautiful dinner jacket with gold flower pattern, a pitch black silky shirt underneath, a nice butterfly same color as the shirt and to top it all of his amazingly good-fitting black pants that hug him in the right places- outfit.  The way his hair is styled, so delicately placed, his makeover perfect and not too much, and god his gorgeous eyes that looks so brown and deep like the universe could fit in them. It’s all too much for Jeongguk to handle and he knows he has to go somewhere else, before he says something stupid to Tae. Tae doesn’t have time right, he’s just about to go on stage and perform, so there's no time to say anything. Jeongguk’s mind is really trying to pull him away, but something in Jeongguk’s body is firmly keeping him on the spot and suddenly he hears it before he does it. “Hey, Tae!”, Jeongguk calls and when his mind register what he just did he slams a hand on his mouth, wants to disappear right on the spot.(Wauw Jeongguk what a nice start huh?, good job buddy!) When Tae hears his name being called he looks up, and right there a few meters away stands Jeongguk, the sweet cute boy standing and looking frozen in time. He looks much older and mature now, but he is still just as cute, he thinks.  Tae gets out of his thoughts and says “Oh hi!” and smiles at Jeongguk’s reaction, when the boy sputters and starts playing with his fingers. “H-hi, Tae… um uh you look beautiful tonight!, I-I mean you look um cool tonight!”, Jeongguk stammers and internally slams his head into a wall for his little mistake. “Thanks, uh.. Jeongguk wasn’t it?” Tae says, sounding a bit unsure at the last part. “Uh yeah, I’m surprised you remember my name”, Jeongguk’s says a little shocked over Tae’s good memory. “Hehe, I never forget my fans names”, Tae says and winks at Jeongguk before his manager dots him on the shoulder to get his attention. The manager says something to Tae, and he just nods before he makes a gesture with his hands. His manager walks away and Tae’s attention goes back to Jeongguk. “Oh well, I have to go and get ready, I’ll see you at the concert right?”, Tae asks and Jeongguk nods and bits him goodbye and a "hwaiting!" before he turns around and starts walking to where his seat is.

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Jeongguk is really confused, he screwed up big times! While trying to find his way back he thinks about the little talk him and another girl, just had a few minutes ago. 
Jeongguk was smiling while walking back to the concert, he felt light and in a good mood. Nothing would make him mad now, since he had just talked with Tae.
 
Well except for this girl, who looked like someone had made her really mad, by telling her how awful she stench of pure perfume.(Because seriously, she really did put too much perfume on) She looked really rich though, and Jeongguk thought he had seen her somewhere before, probably on a TV show or something. He just couldn't remember where he had seen her.
 
Then walking past her, while she didn't even spare him a look, she bumped into his shoulder and stopped.
 
Jeongguk looked confused and insulted before he politely said, "watch where you are going".
 
The girl looked like she wasn't even listening before she coughed loudly, "Oh I'm sorry are you okay??" she said with the most annoying voice she could make and gave Jeongguk the ´´elevator`` look.
 
Jeongguk just snorted "I'm sorry are you blind or something, watch where you're going, and for god sake don't put that much perfume on!" , he said with a very sarcastic and exasperated tone and smiled triumphantly at her.
 
"You little rat, don't you dare speak to me like that, and don't you ever talk to my Tae again!" she said and pointed a finger at him out of pure disgust. Jeongguk was starting to get really annoyed with her, but tried to keep his temper down.
 
“I don’t know who you are, or what your problem is, but seriously look where you’re going!” He finishes and sighed before walking past her.
 
“You don’t get to tell me what to do, you bastard!” She shouted after him, but he just ignored her, finding it very amusing.
 And now he had to hurry, because of that annoying girl.(He really hope someone accidentally step on her foot or something) He tried to find his way back, but for some reason he had ended up in a different hallway, that lead to the fan meeting. 
Stupid girl
 He kept thinking while trying to find his way back, but then he looked at his watch that said 15:50 The performance started at 16:00. He knew he really needed to find the way back now! He started running frantically and almost bumped into a manager. When it seemed like he was just running in circles, someone suddenly took him by the arm and lead him somewhere, probably to the concert. “Uh, hi stranger” Jeongguk says with confusion clear in his voice, while he was being lead. “Hi, sorry if I scared you kid, but you looked kinda lost”, the stranger says calmly and smiles at Jeongguk(holly shit, his dimples are really clear, what the hell) “My name is Namjoon, Kim Namjoon, what’s your’s?”, Namjoon asks and Jeongguk becomes calm at the friendliness the man radiates with.   “Yeah...you could say that, my name is Jeon Jeongguk”, he says and flashes Namjoon a shy smile. “Well nice to meet you Jeongguk, but I think our time is over now” Namjoon says and makes a clicking sound. “Oh yeah, right, uh thanks for helping me, finding the way”, Jeongguk says before he bows politely. Namjoon smiles at him and (god those dimples are really clear)bows before he turns around and walks hastily away. Jeongguk looks at his time, 15:57 and hurries inside, to find his VIP seat number. Sitting there at the VIP section is a whole new experience. Jeongguk almost feels like a royalty or something like that. There are a bunch of different snacks, goodies, and tons of supplies. The seats are very very comfortable and the view is amazing. He is also allowed to film the performance, which he greatly wants to use for his advantage. He couldn’t wait to see Tae appearing on the stage, and his heart was beating fast at the thought. Looking around the arena, filled with thousands of cheering fans, Jeongguk can’t stop a smile creeping onto his lips. The fans make their, traditional fan-cheering and he joins them, while waving his hands up in the air. It feels like hours before the stage finally lights up and everyone starts screaming in excitement. Jeongguk tries to spot Tae on the stage, but to his disappointment the spotlight is the only thing present. Jeongguk makes a sad sound before looking down for a second. He looks at his card, around his neck that reflexes the light, coming from the stage and then he sees a figure. It is faint and unclear, but he looks up at the stage. There on the very center of the stage, stands Tae with a microphone-stand. He looks unreal with his blond-curvy hair, big pink lips and so so pretty eyes looking back at the crowd. How did he not hear the fans sudden screams at Tae's appearing? Jeongguk has to gulp for a moment, and need to catch his breath(because Tae on stage with this look and outfit on, is doing wonders to Jeongguk’s mind). He sighs contentedly and enjoys the way Tae starts dancing with a white mask. It looks so mesmerizing with the way he dances so collected and in so much control. The dance looks even better with the backup dancers who are also holding white masks, and one is even holding a blue flower. It looks really good and Jeongguk is really impressed. 
Jeongguk also wish he could give a blue flower to Tae
 He remembers his first concert with Tae and it was really not even close to all this. Tae wasn’t so good at dancing either and there were a lot less wild things going on at the concert. There were not so many fans at that time and for some reason the balance was not there yet. Not like now where everything is in balance and in some kind of sync. It was amazing to think about how far Tae had gotten, Jeongguk thinks to himself. Tae’s beautiful voice makes it sound like heaven and when his voice becomes a bit deeper Jeongguk let’s a impressed gasp fall from his lips. 
Yup, nobody can make such a deep soothing voice like Tae can, he just proved it!
 When Jeongguk quickly looks around at the others, they look so pleased and relaxed. He smiles to himself, knowing what Tae’s voice do to people. Knowing how relaxed people and himself included, becomes when Tae sings. 
He wish he could tell Tae one day, how deep his voice can touch people and make them relax.
 The music is loud and clear, booming inside the arena and it feels like he can hear the beat in his stomach. It also sounds much better in real life than on a device, Jeongguk declares. At one point, a few songs ahead, Tae suddenly spins around and looks directly at Jeongguk when he sings the last line of the song:  “I hope one day, will be together again” and then looks away before ending the song with a little dance move. People are clapping and shouting for more. Jeongguk is frozen in his seat(because did that seriously just happen!?) and looks confused for a moment before lightly shaking his head. 
Tae must have known where he was sitting, before he saw him
 Tae appears on stage once more but now in a more relaxed outfit and starts singing one of his more sweeter and happier song. Fans cheer and join in and Jeongguk smiles at the way Tae is jumping around having fun. He looks content and shows his big boxy grin to the camera before making a heart(What a heart attack) When the best part of the song comes on, firework and confetti explodes everywhere in the arena and Tae throws water at fans. He dances while swaying his body to the beat and moving his shoulders in a really flirty manner before shouting “ARMYYYYYYY”. Jeongguk is cheering and is all smiley, and before he knows it Tae looks in his direction again. He decides to wave his hands at him and shouts “TAE!!” with all his power. Apparently that makes Tae look at him and he smiles back at him and waves to him. Jeongguk makes a thumb up and then a little heart before he looks down in embarrassment. 
God what is he doing?!
 Before he knows it the concert is coming towards its end and Jeongguk is so confused because where did the time just go? Tae appears one last time on stage, but this time he isn’t singing, but saying his goodbyes and saying a final sweet goodbye-message to the fans. “Army I hope you enjoyed the performance, you were very loud and happy today and it makes me sooo happy!” Tae says before he smiles at all the fans. “I hope you are doing good and that you will continue to support me and my music, I love you, ARMY!!” Tae ends it with a big heart and bows before waving goodbye. Now Jeongguk almost feels bad for all those fans who doesn’t get to talk with Tae, like he does. He silently prays that one day everyone will get to talk to Tae too. Everything is a little chaos right now since everyone needs to get out of the arena. Thankfully those who have VIP access can go through a different ´´hidden`` door to the fan meeting without having to be dragged into the chaos. Jeongguk follows the others who have VIP access, but he decides to stop and see what the clock is, since the fan meeting begins a little later. The clock is 19:33 and the fan meeting is starting at 20:45 so there is plenty of time to go roam around behind the scenes.   So here he is standing in front of a minor chaos behind the scenes, again with tons of managers, people who run around now with water bottles and even backup dancers who sit down at random places around the backstage. One of them looks at him and nods as if to call him over and he doesn’t know why, but decides why not. He can faintly start smelling the sweat coming from the backup dancer when he gets closer and he tries not to scrunch his nose up in disgust. “Hey manager could you take this card to Tae’s room, I need to go very soon so I can’t do it”, the dancer says when Jeongguk gets close enough to hear what is being said to him. “Uh, but i’m not-” “Yah, just do it, I don’t got all the day I gotta go!” the dancer cuts in sharply looking tired and restless without giving a damn care in the world. Jeongguk walks away with the card, looking like a big question mark. 
I guess I could just really quickly give Tae this card or whatever it is
 
It’s not a big deal right, I mean what’s the worst thing that could happen?
 Without having any clue on which direction Tae’s room is in, he just walks around and somehow he finds the room. It is pretty obvious it’s Tae’s room because it literally says Kim Taehyung on a sticker mark, placed on the door. Jeongguk is pretty nervous right now, because he doesn’t know what’s gonna happen next. He thought about it while trying to find the room, but the thoughts just kept getting worse and worse. He shakes his head before taking a deep breath and finally get the courage to knock on the door. Nothing happens at first, so he tries again and this time someone shouts “two seconds!” Then within a minute the door opens and Jeongguk has to stifle a gasp, because Tae looks sooo cute in his over-sized, white t-shirt that reveals his suntanned collarbone. He has some grey sweatpants on and slippers on too. Jeongguk tries to say something, but nothing comes out of his mouth. He is just about to run away, because he is THAT nervous but a cute little giggle stops him from doing anything. “Hi Jeongguk, um I didn’t think I would see you right here ” Tae says sounding a bit confused, but he looks more amused than confused. “I-I, um Ijustcametogiveyouthis”, Jeongguk mumbles and looks down, checks starting to heat up. “Sorry I didn’t catch that”, Tae says with challenge dripping in his voice. “I, just came to give you this”, Jeongguk says looking at Tae and holding out the card. Tae looks at him, then down before looking between the card and him. He looks like he is thinking for a moment. Then out of nowhere he grabs Jeongguk by the arm and takes him inside his room. Jeongguk looks around the room, looking like a big question mark, before Tae stands before him again. “Sorry I ´´kidnapped`` you but that card is a little.. um precious to me”, Tae says looking a little unsure before he gives a small smile. “May I ask how you got your hands on that card?”, he asks and crosses his arms in a defending manner, but he doesn’t look mad, just a little confused. “One of your backup dancers thought I was some kind of a manager and told me without even looking closely at me, to go give you the card”, Jeongguk says, but he sounds a little ashamed and uncomfortable saying it. Thankfully he doesn’t have to be, since Tae starts laughing a little before he shakes his head. Jeongguk doesn’t know what’s funny(wauw what a surprise Jeongguk) and asks a little exasperated “what’s so funny?” before he regrets using that tone. Tae doesn’t look affected by it in the very least and he tries to get a hold of himself before he looks at him. Jeongguk pouts a little and before he knows it Tae is standing so close to him, pinching his checks and saying all these coo sounds and “Aigoo you’re so so adorable Jeonggukie!” He thinks he's in heaven with that small distance between him and Tae. He almost faints when Tae bops his nose and winks at him before putting some distance between them again. Jeongguk feels a little disappointed, but he still wanna know why Tae was laughing before. Tae composes himself before he coughs awkwardly to make Jeongguk look at him and gestures to the coach. “So will you please tell me why you were laughing about that dancer?”, Jeongguk asks while turning his body towards Tae. “Yeah, sorry I just couldn’t help myself”, Tae says before he gives him a small smile, eyes crinkling and scratches his head. 
Jeongguk is definitely not blushing, nope!
 “Kai was the backup dancer that sent you, and the reason why I know it’s Kai, is because he is very lazy after a show”, Tae begins. “And that is mostly the reason why I laughed, but also because it was you he choose to sent of all the people” “What do you mean by that?”, Jeongguk asks sounding a little surprised at hearing that. He starts grinning when an idea pop up in his mind. “You thought about me before the show, didn't you?”, he says a little daring now, even though he knows this could end in a really awkward way.
Why am I so daring all of a sudden?
 Tae doesn’t say anything at first, and Jeongguk becomes a bit worried(because why wouldn’t he?) Then he looks at Jeongguk and starts grinning before saying “in your dreams, Jeonggukie” before he turns around and Jeongguk starts grinning too. 
That was close
 “Maybe another time, baby ”, Tae then says flirtatious and looks like he just got an idea popping up in his head. “Hey wanna take a selfie?” “For real, I don’t look as good as you though” “Nonsense, I don’t think you know how good you look, Jeonggukie” “Ha ha what a good joke”, Jeongguk says sarcastic and looks down for a moment. “I meant what I said now, and also what I said at the fan meeting, a few years ago”, Tae says sounding shy and somehow way smaller than before. Jeongguk looks up and he is part frozen in place and part in awe over what Tae just said. “You remember!”, he says and he starts playing with his fingers before he does something he might regret later. He puts his arms around Tae and envelopes him in a big warm hug. Tae doesn’t say anything, doesn’t hug him back before a good few seconds. The hug feels oddly good for some reason and Jeongguk doesn’t wanna let go. Tae smells so good not of sweat, but more like vanilla and strawberry. It smells so so good. He can feel how Tae squeezes his shoulders and slowly let go of him after some time. “Thanks...I kinda needed that actually”, Tae says before adding “your hugs are really good by the way” “I can only say the same about your hugs”, Jeongguk says and starts blushing a little. “So can we take that selfie now?” “Yeah, yeah I succumbs to your stubbornness” After they have taken a good amount of selfies because someone(cough cough Tae) wanted to have some memories from this concert they just chat for a while and get to know each other a little before someone is suddenly knocking on the door. They go completely still and Tae gestures to Jeongguk to hide behind his cloth rails. Jeongguk immediately go to his hiding spot without making any sounds and Tae opens the door so only his face is showing. “Taehyung, the fan meeting is about to start in 30 minutes and we need to get you ready”, a voice says coming from a girl. “Just a moment I need to collect something and then I’ll come”, Tae says and closes the door before the girl shouts, “TAEHYUNG DON’T” “Phew just one of the makeup-noonas coming to collect me for the fan meeting”, Tae says and Jeongguk gets out from his hiding spot. “Well I should get going then, see you, at the fan meeting?”, he asks. He has become so used to talk to Tae in this little amount of time, without stammering anymore. “yeah, see ya there, Jeonggukie”, Tae says and the nickname doesn’t stop Jeongguk from smiling and he gives a little wave before making his way out the door.

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The fan meeting is about to start very soon, so Jeongguk is running yet again. (Doesn't feel familiar at all!) Luckily he doesn't run into someone this time and he makes it, smoothly. There are a lot of fans waiting for Tae to appear once more, and they are all holding albums and small bags, with presents inside. While Jeongguk is trying to find his seat number he can't stop thinking about the possibility of Tae's disappointment, when he finds out, Jeongguk didn't have any present for him. He looks down for a moment before shaking his head and composing himself again. He honestly is a bit tired by all the other fans, wanting to be alone with Tae instead. Maybe he might be able to do that one day, yeah one day.. He starts pouting not really knowing what to do in the meantime while they are all waiting.  Suddenly a little girl beside him, steals his attention from the scene and he looks at her confused as to why she wants his attention all of a sudden.  "Sorry, to disturb you, but do you know what time it is?", the little girl asks him, tone sweet and light.  He looks at her for a moment before excusing himself for zooming out and quickly looks at his phone. "It's 20:40, why?", he asks a little curious. "I just wanted to figure out how long it is before the fan meeting starts", she says before she looks like she just realized something. "Oh I'm so sorry, I totally forgot to introduce myself!, my name is Seok Ji yeon", she says happily and he just noticed, how adorable she is. "Hi Jiyeon, my name is Jeon Jeongguk", he says while smiling friendly at her. "So.. aren't you just so excited to see Taehyung again?", she almost whispers to him while leaning a little closer to him as if no one else may hear their little conversation. "I'm very excited, more excited than anyone!", he whispers with bravery and something close to teasing dripping in his voice, looking at her with a smug grin. "NO!, not as excited as I am!", she whisper shouts and starts pouting and crossing her arms at him. "I'm very sorry young lady, but I'M the most excited out of you and me", he whispers and stretches his grin when she pouts even more and huffs a little. She doesn't really look mad at him, but acts like it. "Well that's not true then! Your a bad liar, Taehyung will see that!!", she says and a few people around them looks in their direction, before he starts giggling a little. Jiyeon starts giggling too and before they both know it, their laughing. Jeongguk looks at her when they finally stop. "Let's keep this between us, let's agree that we are the most excited about Taehyung, than anyone else in this fan meeting", he says and she looks like she is contemplating before she opens her mouth. "Not just in this fan meeting, in the whole wide world!", she says happily and they agree and lock pinkies to seal the secret or promise. [] They are both happy sitting and chatting and just in that moment Tae appears on the little scene in front of the fans.  They both look at each other before looking back at Tae, while cheering for him.  Tae introduces himself before a manager calls out the first fan. Jeongguk doesn't know when it's his turn. After a good 15-20 minutes Jiyeon suddenly gets up from her seat. He looks confused and she turns to him.  "It's my turn now, wish me good luck, Hyung", she says, excitement clear in her voice and Jeongguk smiles and says "good luck, hwaiting!" before she walks down.  He looks after her, how she is almost jumping a bit on the ground, looking like a bomb that's ready to explode with happiness anytime. A manager grabs her gently by her shoulders to keep her calm, and then she is pushed forward in front of Tae. He is sitting and smiling at her, showing his boxy grin, while holding her hand. Jeongguk doesn't know what they are talking about,(no shit Sherlock) but Tae looks surprised for a second before his face changes back to happy face again.  He wonders what they are talking about, especially since Tae looked surprised just before. When Jiyeon's time is up, Tae makes a sad face and makes grabby- hand movements to make her come back. She laughs a little before she waves goodbye while walking back.  Tae isn't the only one who thought she was cute, basically everyone thought she was cute, with her black, shoulder length neat hair, her cute little converses and her fluffy dress.  "That. was. amazing." she says when she sits down again and makes a sad sound. "I wanna talk to him agaiiin", she says and pouts a little. Jeongguk gives her a pat on the shoulder and she scootes closer to him. "I know, but don't think of this as the very last time you'll talk to Tae, because it's not!", he says while looking very serious at her. Jiyeon nods slowly, but she is looking down a little. Jeongguk quickly makes her look at him and he smiles at her before saying "Don't worry about it" and she starts smiling now before she nods this time more energetic.  "When is it your turn?", she asks after some time and Jeongguk shrugs, but she doesn't buy it.  "Hey don't lie to me!", she says exasperated, but Jeongguk shrugs once more but it looks more forceful than before. "Why don't you know, when it's your turn?", she whines now, looking completely lost and confused at him. "I don't know, I never checked", he says sheepishly and she shouts "YAH" before hitting him lightly on the arm. A few look in their direction but shrugs it off.  "Hey!, don't hit the older ones, you little demon", he says with a grin and caress the little hit to his arm. She just looks at him, and gives him a mini bitch face before she huffs slightly.  Jeongguk sighs before he tells her that he didn't have time to check because he was almost late for the concert, and it looks like she finally understands when a little "oh" slips out.  He shakes his head and they sit in silence. There's no tension between them, but Jeongguk do feel it's a little weird that almost everyone has had their turn, and yet he still hasn't... A manager suddenly turns to talk to Tae, after he just said goodbye to a fan, and they are whispering before Tae nod and he looks directly at Jeongguk. Jeongguk feels a little exposed but tries to shake the feeling of him, before he looks at a very interesting spot on the floor. When he looks up again, he immediately notices that there is nobody waiting at Tae's side to greet him.  All of a sudden a manager walks up to Jeongguk and tells him it's his turn now. He quickly nods and Jiyeon looks at him for a second before she nods, as if to tell him he got this. He gives her a smile and gives her hand a little squeeze before he walks down.  He feels like the time has stopped, everything is going so slow and it's like only him and Tae are present. It feels weird, but Jeongguk doesn't really mind. Every step he takes, feels like his very first steps. His heart is beating fast and uncontrollable and his mind is oddly blank. No thoughts no nothing. He tries to inhale through his nose but he doesn't feel the oxygen. He doesn't hear anything around him.  What is with me, why are all these feelings coming up now?  Why is am I reacting so funny to this ? Before he knows it he is standing right in front of Tae and slowly but surely a smile creeps it's way onto his lips. Tae silently nods before he greets the other and takes his hand in his. His hand feels very soft and warm, and oh wow his fingers are so long and slender.  
This is totally normal thinking about someones fingers right?
 "I feel like I've seen you somewhere before", Tae says while sounding confused and a bit teasingly and Jeongguk rolls his eyes before he snorts amused.  "Hi Jeonggukie", Tae says without thinking and looks mortified for a moment, before he collects himself again. He doesn't wanna sound like he knows Jeongguk already. "Hi Tae", Jeongguk says with ease, and he doesn't even notice the nickname before now. He hides his face in embarrassment, but is met with sweet, warm eyes when he looks at Tae again. "Sorry about the nickname, I'm just used to.. call you that", he says shyly, but Tae just shakes his head before saying, "I like the nickname". Jeongguk looks mildly surprised for a moment. "So I can keep calling you that?", Jeongguk asks a little fast and Tae nods while smiling widely.   "What a good start we have, huh", Tae says and they both giggle. "You with the whole name-thing and me just sounding like I know you", he says theatrically. "Nah not really, I think this is the worst start I've ever had, thanks to you, Tae", Jeongguk says sounding upset and annoyed before he starts grinning and Tae is now the one to roll his eyes. "Yeah right, you just got distracted because of my presence", Tae says while looking smug. "Noooooo I didn't," Jeongguk says feeling a little shy because(yes he did), but he feels like Tae can see right through him and read him like an open book.  "It's okay, I would get distracted too", Tae says teasingly and Jeongguk whines while covering his face. "Can we please talk about something else?", He says feeling like dying right now. He thinks his face looks like a tomato but denies the thought. "Yeah, of course, um why didn't you bring any album with you?", Tae asks while gesturing to the empty table in front of him.  
Oh yeah, the album, hoped he forgot.. guess not
 "I forgot one", Jeongguk says sincerely, but he feels a little disappointed. Luckily Tae doesn't look like it's that  important. "Oh, too bad then, could've given you an autograph or something", he says pouting a little, but Jeongguk just shakes his head. "It's fine really, being able to be here is more than I could wish for", Jeongguk says and smiles sincerely.  "You must have been quick, to get a ticket", Tae now says nodding to himself, but raises an eyebrow, when he sees Jeongguk starting to twitch in his seat.  "Actually, um my friend gave me a ticket, since I couldn't get through the site, so yeah", he says sounding awkward while scratching his head. "Oh okay, what a nice friend you have", Tae says trying to lighten the mood a little. "Yeah, he is quit a nice guy, I'm grateful towards him for what he did", Jeongguk says sounding proud and happy. He stop twitching in his seat now, the mood light and comfortable again. "Have you known him for a long time, or?", Tae asks.  "Yeah, kinda, we became friends in 7. grade in middle school. We were in a fight, dunno why, and then our teacher told us something, that for some reason made us think twice, I guess. So later when school was over we decided to walk home together, and talk about whatever was on our minds" Jeongguk says and sighs happily at the old memory, of him and Yugyeom fighting and later on becoming best friends.  "Wauw, that was a different start on a friendship, I must admit, but cool anyway", Tae says looking surprised. "I've never heard of that one, though", he says and Jeongguk grins at him. "What about you, any weird friendship starts you know of?", He asks and Tae looks like he is thinking for a moment. "Oh!, yeah I know this one" he suddenly says. "I met this guy, one a set one time, when we were shooting a scene, and he was really different I guess. He sounded like an old man, he made some really bad, but also funny dad jokes, and he was a very generous guy, who always made sure everyone had eaten, ya know. So one night I wasn't feeling so well, and somehow he kind of noticed that and without further, he went down to a store, to get me some painkillers and also some soup. I didn't think he had noticed, since I tried my very best to hide it, but when he came over and gave me this, he said, "I know you're an actor, but you can't hide a sickness" and then he smiled kindly at me and I didn't know what to say. He stayed by my side for the rest of the set and since then we just hit it off. Today he's one of my best friends and I'm very grateful to have him as my friend" Tae finishes and Jeongguk nods and claps his hand excitedly.  "It's always good to have someone close to you", Jeongguk says and they both nod at that.  "Yeah, it really is", Tae agrees. For the remaining time they talk about everything, from games to hobbies and from hobbies to what they like and dislike. The list is endless and before they know it they are laughing their asses of because of a funny story one of them just told. They are having so much fun, getting along really well. They don't really notices the camera sounds going of whenever they laugh or hold hands for a while. It's like it's just the two of them, in their own little bubble, where no one can get in and interrupt their time together. Except when their time is over, and a manager pokes Jeongguk on the shoulder telling him it's time to move on.  Taehyung protests and whispers something to the manager before they both nod and the manager tell them, they have 1 minute. "I know this sounds weird..but", Tae says sounding a little uncertain, biting down on his lip.  "But?", Jeongguk pushes on and it makes Tae smile before he continues. "But can I give you something", Tae says hesitantly and Jeongguk tilts his head a little. Tae finds a pen and writes something down on Jeongguk's arm. It's numbers. "Don't show or tell anyone about this, okay?", he then says and looks dead serious at Jeongguk. Jeongguk quickly scans the numbers over and when he registers it's a phone number he looks up in shock before he nods a little frantic.  "Why did y-", he trails off when Tae suddenly grabs his cheeks and plays with them, while making sweet noises.  
I guess he doesn't like when I look shocked or something
 He hears fans making "awww" sounds at the scene in front of them, but right now he couldn't care any less. For some reason he enjoys the way Tae is playing with his cheeks, his hair his nose, everything. He normally hates when someone tries to do that, but it feels pleasant when it's Tae who's the one doing it.  When Tae stops again his hair feels like a mess and he opens his eyes to see Tae, trying to stifle his laugh, even though he can clearly see it's very hard. He feels like his hair is sitting differently and he begs internally that his hair is fine.  "Mirror now", Jeongguk says calm even though Tae probably doesn't have one on him, but to his surprise, he fishes on up from his pocket.  When he looks at his hair, he makes a screech sound and looks horrified at Tae, who immediately starts laughing when he see his reaction. He clutches around his tummy and small tears starts lining up.  "TAE, MY HAIR!", Jeongguk shouts a little loud and tries to fix his hair, but to no avail. He can hear the fans laughing at his reaction in the background and he starts smiling a little.  
Silly me it's just hair, I mean it's not like it was because of Tae and his long fingers it ended looking like this, not at all
 
nope nope nope
 
YES YES YES! 
 "Sorry let me fix it", Tae says sending Jeongguk back to reality and he blinks at Tae once, twice before he registers what Tae just said to him. "Nah it's fine", Jeongguk reassures, but Tae is already leaning over him,trying to straighten his hair with his hands and Jeongguk enjoys the sensation. 
so good
 ... "Time is up now!", the manager says a little annoyed and pushes Jeongguk away without further saying anything else.  Jeongguk just lets him, and when he gets back to his seat, Tae is looking at him, smiling and waving a little. Jeongguk waves back, feeling so happy and the fluttering in his stomach makes it even better.  He hears a few people whispering about them, but doesn't deem it any interest.   []  What a day it was yesterday, Jeongguk thinks to himself, while laying on his bed listening to Jimin and Hobi's small talk, in the living room. He finds it comfortable, that he can hear someone else in the apartment. Not that he's afraid of being alone in the apartment, but it just feels better  when someone else is there too. He briefly looks at his arm with the still, written numbers on, and his heart does weird turns. He smiles to himself, feeling like a very lucky man. Maybe the most lucky man right now. 
Not maybe, definitely!
 When he came home yesterday after the whole concert-fan meeting experience, he was pretty worn out and without further to do he just went to bed. It was also a bit late when he got home since he had to wait for another hour at the subway station. He hadn't thought about the written number on his arm since he was too tired to think about that.  But now the next day, fresh mind and not feeling tired he starts wondering about that number. He wonders if he should save the number on his phone, but it feels a bit weird for some reason. After a moment of thought, he decides to just save it an leave it at that. It's a start right?  While saving the number on the phone he contemplates what he should call Tae in his contact. Something cute or just very casual. Or maybe even funny (since he did mention that thing at the fan meeting). He thinks for a few minutes, but after a tough competition between Taetae and Yeontan's owner(yes he did get that much information, thank you very much), the winner is Tae Tae, since he finds it very cute. Taetae. He tries to say it out loud and he likes the way it sounds. He adds the number to his contact with the name Taetae above. He smiles to himself at his new special contact.  Suddenly the door to his room barks open and he is met with a certain Min Yoongi standing in the doorway, looking as if nothing happened.  "Hey kid", Yoongi greets and scans the room before looking at Jeongguk again.  "Hi, Hyung!", Jeongguk says excitedly looking at the blond male in front of him.  He has always felt comfort and security from Yoongi and they have a great friendship together. Especially because Yoongi treats Jeongguk like a son sometimes, which means he feeds him quite often with delicious food. What's even better is when Yoongi takes him with him to the studio, and lets him sing and play on all the instruments. He loves to play the guitar or the drums, but these days he is quite fond with playing the piano with Yoongi. He's a good teacher, who has a lot of patience. He doesn't look like the person who has a lot of patience, but when it comes to music or in that direction he is VERY patient. It's something Jeongguk could learn a lot from. Luckily Yoongi doesn't live very far away from them and that means that they get to see each other more often. Not to forget that also Yoongi and Hobi have a very close brotherly-bond and Jeongguk likes to think that they sometimes share the same brain cells. It's is quite funny to look at.  Yoongi and Jeongguk have known each other since Jeongguk practically moved in with Jimin and Hobi, when he started in high school. They started off as not knowing what to say, to become better at making small talk, to talking pretty normally, to become good friends and starting to hang out sometimes too, to now where he treats Jeongguk as his son. It's been a long bumpy way, but they have finally found their balance in the friendship.  Hobi and Yoongi on the other hand, had practically been platonic soulmates since day one, (they had told Jeongguk when he had asked one day). They've known each other for a loooong time and they know each other like brothers and it is always funny when the two are together. They are so different, but at the same time so alike. They like and dislike mostly the same things, although Yoongi will never be as loud as Hobi always is.  "Wanna come with Hyung to the studio?", Yoongi asks casually and Jeongguk's eyes light up at that. "YES!", Jeongguk shouts excitement clear in his voice and Yoongi just shoots him a smile before he mumbles "this kid" and walks out of the room. Jeongguk is following right behind him like a loyal dog. The scene must look comical because of out the corner of his eye, he can see Jimin trying to stifle his giggles, and when he looks at Hobi, who sits on the little couch he just grins and shakes his head.  Jeongguk doesn't care, because as long as it's his hyungs it's fine. He knows they take good care of him and that they only mean it in a friendly gesture.   []  Being at the studio is always fun, and the people Jeongguk sometimes meet in the building are very generous and sweet. Sadly he doesn't see them very often maybe out of 1/4 times but still. Some are funnier than others and there is one person particular that makes Jeongguk's blood boil, because the person acts like he knows everything, even though he doesn't and thinks that he owns the world. He's pretty annoying and Jeongguk isn't the only one who thinks that. Yoongi has similar thoughts about the guy and they always share the same look whenever he walks past them or they hear him talking to someone in the hallway.  The studio is very cool and there is a comfortable atmosphere in there. It's not that big, but for a little guy like Yoongi it's just perfect, and he has filled the room with all sorts of different music equipment. Some even from other countries, because Yoongi apparently likes to go overboard when it comes to music equipment. The room also has some funny lights, that can change color. Jeongguk is very interested in staring at the lights changing colors. Even though the studio is Yoongi's ´´work place`` it is also somehow a little home of his. He has some pictures of friends and families and even has a photo of him and his dog, Holly. He also has a little sleep-spot where he can sleep, since he does that a lot too, but the music his speakers can produce is probably Jeongguk's favorite thing in his entire studio. They can make such smooth, clear, amazing filled sounds that leave Jeongguk astonished to the point where he becomes jealous.  Yoongi takes good care of his stuff, and he is always careful with his equipment. He treats it like some sort of fragile statue or something like that. He even communicates with the music he makes, and Jeongguk has to hold a hand on his mouth, to not burst into laughter. He really enjoys being with Yoongi at the studio, because he is surrounded by music and a place where it's okay to make something different  than what people are used to.  Jeongguk also learns a lot being at the studio. It was Yoongi and as well as the studio that proved, that he wants to study music when he graduates from high school. he hopes he can get a music career out of it. But for now he is just happy being here, helping Yoongi editing some music parts and also putting his voice in a few times here and there. He has been told many times, that he has an amazing voice, but he has never competed in any song contests or stuff like that. Yoongi thinks it's a pity, but on the other hand he understands, since he has many fellows who work in the kpop industry.  While they are editing some parts in an upcoming song, a few months from now, Jeongguk's phone vibrates in his pocket and he has a weird feeling in his stomach. Yoongi is too immersed in the editing, so he doesn't care that Jeongguk checks his phone.  When Jeongguk sees a notification from twitter he blinks for a moment and raises an eyebrow. He opens twitter and sees that someone has followed him. He nearly gets a heart attack when he sees who the owner of the account is. It's the same person he talked to yesterday, the same person he got a number  from, the same person who makes his heart flutter and his mind going crazy. It's Tae.  He wonders how the hell he found Jeongguk on twitter, but then a thought crosses his mind.  
I told him my full name didn't I?
 Then something clicks inside him, and it suddenly makes much more sense now. Or does it really?  
Definitely not
 Tae must have searched him up on twitter by his full name, and of course the way the internet is made today have given Tae directions to find Jeongguk's personal twitter account. It's crazy, he thinks and wonders what he should do about it. Why would Tae suddenly just add him on twitter? Why did he even remember Jeongguk's full name? So many questions, to no answers and he gets a little stressed out about that part. He tries not to panic or scream or just do anything, but he knows he's a ticking bomb right now.  He is about to excuse himself to go to the bathrooms, but then in the mist of everything a message pops up on his screen. It's like time stops for a moment. He gulps and checks who sent it.  Tae 
Yup, of course Tae sends me a message, why wouldn't he... 
 Right there on the screen a message is sent to Ironman_Jeongguk97 from Kim.Taehyung_SK : 
Hi, Jeonggukie!!, call me later :3 - Tae ^-^

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Jeongguk is completely frozen in place. He doesn't know what to do or say. All he can think about is that message: Hi, Jeonggukie!!, call me later :3 - Tae ^-^
 
It feels so weird, getting a message from Tae. Why would he even do that, in the first place? Is this some kind of a joke? Jeongguk don't know, but he should probably call Tae sooner or later. Since Tae seems like he want Jeongguk to call him. (no shit Sherlock) The only problem is, Jeongguk is still in Yoongi's studio, and he still has no idea, what just happened. Jeongguk thinks of a plan, that will get him out of the studio without too many questions, to why, and what happened.  He takes a deep breath and decides to just lie about a meetup he has today or something like that. Something that Yoongi will definitely buy without more questions to come.  "Hyung", Jeongguk says in a little specific tone. Yoongi doesn't bother, but when Jeongguk is about to tap him on his shoulder, he turns around to face Jeongguk. "What's the matter, kid?", Yoongi asks. "I have to go to uh a meetup, I totally forgot today!", Jeongguk explains while trying to look as stressed out as possible. It probably doesn't work, but hopefully Yoongi won't see it.  "Right, well alright kid, but uh-", Yoongi doesn't get to finish, because Jeongguk is already out the door.  He remains silent, but soon lets out a sigh, mumbling, "this kid, might forget his head one day" before going back to his music.   []  Jeongguk decides to go somewhere quiet, since he doesn't wanna go home, having 2 Hyungs asking him why he's already home and all that stuff. So he decides after a moment of contemplating to go to the library.  The library is quiet(surprise) as always and he finds a small place for himself, where nobody will interrupt him(hopefully). He finds his phone and glances down at the message yet again. He just doesn't know how to approach this. Is he going to call right away? Or just send a quick, Hi! or maybe even a little selfie of where he is? He has no idea, but after a solid of 5 minutes(because Jeongguk overthinks stuff way too much) he pushes the call button while sweating like a boxer who had just been in a boxer competition. He waits, and holds his breath. It feels like hours, and he is just about to give up, before a familiar voice suddenly come through after the fifth ring.  "Hello, who is this?" "Tae, hi it's me jeon- "Jeonggukie!!!" "Yeah it's me, uh how are you?" 
"I'm good, and you?"
 "I'm good too, thanks"  "Good to know!, whatcha doing?"  Jeongguk chuckles at wording, before he goes back to the question. He also remembers he has a question directed to Tae, about all this with twitter. "I'm just in the library, chilling, what about you?"  
" just got done with practice for today, and now I'm getting ready to wrap up"
 "Sounds good, um Tae .  . . can I ask you about something?", Jeongguk sounds a bit unsure, not sure if it will come out sounding harsh or judging. 
"Always, Hyung is here for you" , 
 "It's just..  why did you uh follow me on twitter?", Jeongguk curls in on himself, but tries not to think to much about the way his question came out or sounded. "Oh, I just felt like it, plus your profile, looked really cute and you looked like a bunny, so" , Tae says without sounding affected by the question at all. In fact he sounds happy about it instead.  
A bunny... I don't like a bunny, do I?

"Oh okay then. Uh thanks I guess?", Jeongguk suddenly felt heat rise to his checks but he tried to shake the feeling off him.  "I think's it's actually me who needs to say thank you, since you just gave me an excellent idea to my new portfolio", Tae exclaims happily and Jeongguk can't stop himself from smiling at the happy noises Tae makes through the phone call 
God, why is he so cute??
 "No you don't need to thank me!, I mean it was technically your idea, cause you came up with it, with you brain and mind, without my help, because you already thought I looked like a bunny", Jeongguk talks so fast that he is sure Tae didn't get half of what he just said. Instead he can hear Tae laughing loudly through his phone, probably because of Jeongguk and he can faintly hear Tae saying something like, "This guy 's awesome", before Tae catches his breath again.  "Ah, Jeonggukie, you just made my day much better, and I thank you for that", Tae says sounding kind of thankful, and delighted. "Seriously, Tae you really don't need to thank me, I'm just happy that I made your day better", Jeongguk says and makes a clicking sound. "Well I just did, so I can't take it back now, and even if I could I wouldn't, period", Tae says sounding resolute and Jeongguk knows he can't keep denying it, cause then it would become a fight between the two, that would depend on, who would admit to it first.  "Fine, you win, but just so you know it, I'm a very competitive person, in general, and I don't give up that easily", Jeongguk says, courageous dripping in his voice, and Tae makes a snorting sound, as if he doesn't believe him. "Well sorry to say this, but you don't really sound like one, and I doubt you really are, unless you wanna prove it to me", Tae says and it is clear he's challenging Jeongguk.  
So you wanna challenge me, fine then
 "When" is the only reply Jeongguk gives and Tae instantly replies. Like he thought about the same thing as Jeongguk did.  "Are you free tomorrow at 3 PM -ish?", Tae asks already sounding hopeful. "Yeah I'm free, where do we meet?", Jeongguk doesn't even hesitate, but luck is on his side, since he doesn't have anything important tomorrow at 3 pm anyway.  
"I know this little cafe, but I'll be wearing a mask or something, so people don't recognize me"
 "Sure what's it called?", he hopes internally it isn't somewhere too far away, even though he doesn't really care that much. "It's called Ccochie, Ccocheo" , Tae says before adding, "It's a nice little place, where not too many people come, so it's pretty comfortable being there."   "Okay, have you been there many times, Hyung?" and finds the name of the cafe pretty funny, but at the same time cool. "Yeah I have, it's one of my favorite cafe's, and the employee's are really friendly too", Tae says sounding somewhat proud of the cafe. "Sounds like a nice place, I can't wait to see the place tomorrow", Jeongguk says and becomes excited about their little meetup tomorrow. "You'l like it I'm 1000% sure, the atmosphere in the cafe is so nice and everything is just so good and happy for some reason", Tae ends in a long explanation.  "Cool, then I'll meet ya tomorrow at 3 PM at the Ccochie Ccocheo", Jeongguk says and Tae agrees before the say goodbye and hangs up.    []  It felt nice talking to Tae and Jeongguk can't stop smiling when he gets home after their conversation on the phone. He was just so excited to see Tae again and he has almost forgot about the reason they were going to meet up. Tae has challenged him and since he is so competitive he didn't back down. He wants to show Tae that he is very competitive, but also really stubborn, when it comes to winning.  He is gonna do his very best, whatever this challenge has for him, but he do think about what kind of challenge it can be. When he get's home, he decides to go study a bit, since he has an essay due to tomorrow, and he isn't even half done with it yet(Jeongguk better not encourage people into ignoring their homework)  The hyungs are home, but they keep to themselves since first: Jimin is busy talking to one of his dance mates on the phone, and second: Hobi is taking a nap on the couch. He looked worn out when Jeongguk takes a closer look at him. Probably because of all the dancing he's doing these days. Although Jimin and Jeongguk doesn't let him go to the dance studio, before he's got something inside his stomach.  While writing on his boring essay, which he still needs to write about 3 more papers too, his phone suddenly vibrates with an incoming message, from(guess who) Tae. He don't know how long he has been sitting and writing, but probably a few hours since it's starting to get dark outside.  He hastily looks between his computer screen and his phone before he finally opens his phone. He starts smiling when he sees the sweet message from <3Taetae<3, accompanied by a picture of him in a big sweater, hair in front of his eyes, looking back at Jeongguk.  
I'm sooooo bored, wryd?  :p
 Jeongguk snorts at the message before he starts typing and takes a picture of him, struggling to write his essay. He doesn't miss the little emoji at the end and decides to use one too. 
Just writing an essay due to tomorrow -.-

u?  
 
What u writing bout? :o
 
Something about some boring governments in other countries and what the difference is ,-,

I'm dying bc of this essay pls save meh

Awww my poor Jeonggukie!! ;(

I feel bad for ya

(picture of Tae with a sad face)

I am just chilling at home, while Tannie is trying to lick me in the face 
 
Same

(picture with Jeongguk, his hand on his chest while looking miserably)

Tannie looks cute though! 
  They text back and forth and before they know it, it's past nighttime. Jeongguk is also starting to become tired and sore from sitting down for so long, but Tae keeps telling good stories about his life and he loves listening to his stories. It feels nice and comfortable, and sometimes Jeongguk is surprised by the things Tae has gone through or has tried. He sounds like he is an explorer, who have traveled from country to country, not knowing where his next stop will be.  A sudden yawn ripples through their conversation, which makes them both look at the time and almost groans at the same time when they see what the time is. Tae is the first one to say goodnight to Jeongguk even though he was already about to fall asleep multiple times during the conversation. They giggle a little tiredly before ending the conversation.  Jeongguk needs something to drink before going to bed, and he hasn't even realized the other two has gone to bed, long time ago. He can faintly hear Jimin snore, but continues his little night walk over to the fridge. He finds a bottle of water and almost get's startled when Hobi stands in the doorway, yawning before pointing at Jeongguk.  "What are you doing up this late, Jeonggukie?", Hobi asks before another yawn make it's way out of his mouth.  "Sorry Hyung, I was just.. working on my essay and wanted some water, before going to bed", Jeongguk says, but he doesn't like half-lying to Hobi. Especially because he could have said he was talking to one of his friends, without having to put a name on.  "Okay, well get some sleep now, alright?", Hobi says before he retreats to his room, and only when the door closes does Jeongguk tiptoe back to his own room.  He sleeps like a stone, till the next day, 4 hours later.    []   School is being an ass towards Jeongguk and he tries to get through the day as smoothly as possible. He guesses faith isn't on his side today, since his professor make him calculate multiple mathematical operations during math. He make the other students laugh when he gets an answer wrong, but he doesn't really care about that. He knows his reputation and so do all the others. They don't pick on him or disturb him since they know the consequences it will lead to. He has his place in the school and no one has tried to take it from him yet.  During lunch Jimin decides to show up, and he looks very content and pleased, when he sits down opposite Jeongguk.  "Hi", Jeongguk greets before going back to his food again. He probably looks like shit compared to Jimin who always looks good, with his hair the right way and sometimes even a little makeup on. They talks for a while, mostly Jeongguk, because Jimin just asks so many questions about how the concert and fan meeting went. He talks with big interest and Jimin loves when Jeongguk do that, because he looks like a little kid again. Not that he doesn't already but it adds more to it.  "When are you going to ask him out?", Jimin suddenly asks when Jeongguk is in the middle of talking about a funny story Tae had told him, at the fan meeting. Jeongguk instantly stops and stars spluttering, and tries to ignore the question. Jimin just laughs at the sight in front of him and pursues to take a bite from his müslibar before asking yet again.  "I'm not going to ask him out", Jeongguk admits while looking at an interesting spot on the ground.  "Yes you are Jeon, cause your totally head over heels over the famous idol", Jimin says nonchalant and Jeongguk doesn't know what to do since Jimin is right. He always tries to deny it but deep inside himself he know it. He just doesn't wanna come to terms with it. It's sad when he thinks about it. Jeongguk's feelings towards Tae will never be returned back, which break his heart a little. He has to suck it up and find someone else, but until then his heart is beating for Tae and his mind going crazy about the guy. He has dreamed about the impossible relationship between the two, but when he would wake up the next day, he was left with a hollow feeling inside himself.   "Yeah and so what?, he's probably not even into guys", Jeongguk says exasperated and he wants to change the subject. Jimin looks like he can read Jeongguk's mind because he doesn't continue and instead changes the conversation over to something else.  Jeongguk is grateful towards Jimin, because it was never that  fun talking about that subject if he is being honest. It always make this stupid hollow feeling in his chest become even more hollow, and he doesn't want that. He's young, a whole life ahead of him, with lots of things waiting for him. He doesn't wanna keep walking around mind swimming with sad thoughts about him and Tae's Impossible relationship.  After that they talk the rest of the break away, before they part ways to attend their next class.    []   Jeongguk is seated in a very crowded bus, while listening to some music through his headphones. The air inside the bus feels suffocated, and Jeongguk wanna be anywhere but in here. He breathes out in relief when the bus driver announces the city, he needs to stop at. When he gets off the bus he quickly composes himself before walking in the direction the cafe is located.  After some walking he notices the cafe, and takes a quick look at it before going inside. The cafe bells rings at his arrival and sure enough as soon as his inside the atmosphere hits him full face first. It feels so relaxing and calm, everyone looking very pleased and content while talking with low voices. The cafe is lit up by nice lamps that gives the cafe a nice homely-light. The employees are serving and walks back and forth, while smiling and acting very polite to the visitors. Jeongguk makes an astonished face before he finds a little table in the corner. He can faintly hear the nice music filling the cafe, that's adding to the nice atmosphere.  
I could get used to this cafe, definitely!
 He doesn't know what to do in the meantime and contemplates if he should text Tae, asking when he will be here. Is it needy to ask such a question? He doesn't know, but end up taking a selfie and sending it to Tae, just because he felt like it.  A few moments later while he's on his phone playing a game, Tae shows up, in a nice cardigan, followed by a dark, black striped shirt, a black mask and finishes the look with a red beret on. Jeongguk thinks it looks good on him, but instead of saying that he just greets him like any other would. He does admire Tae's fashion sense, since his own mostly consist of the color black, black and you name it . . . black.  Even though he can't see Tae's smile because of the mask in the way, he doesn't miss the way his eyes smile at the greeting. They fall into conversation as if it was nature, but when Jeongguk is about to order something, Tae quickly cuts him off. Jeongguk looks confused and frowns before sending Tae a "why did you do that" look before Tae waves his hand dismissively.  "Forgot about our little challenge, have we?", Tae says while probing one arm up on the table. Jeongguk looks like a deer caught in the lights before his expressions change to something akin to amusement. Then something inside his mind clicks.  "What are you saying, Hyung", Jeongguk says sounding surprised and amused, but Tae doesn't need to explain the challenge to him. Jeongguk continues, "This challenge have something to do with brain freeze by drinking your smoothie too fast, right?" and Tae just smirks at him, before nodding. A devilish glint in his eyes.  Jeongguk groans, and Tae laughs a little before ordering two cold smoothies. He still thinks it's a fun challenge anyway, even though he could get a headache and maybe even stomach ache if he's unlucky.  Their order soon comes and the two boys are getting ready to see who can finish their smoothie first. Jeongguk looks at Tae, and he can see how the competitiveness is flooding in his eyes and he snorts. Tae starts counting down and Jeongguk becomes excited and almost bounces in his seat opposite Tae's.  When the countdown is over, they are drinking as fast as the straws allow them, and it feels like a real fight between the two. Like they are the only people while standing on the battlefield with the all too familiar fight-music(you know the cowboy one) in the background. They are in their own little bubble completely unaware of the people sitting in the cafe as well.  When they are about half through their smoothies, Jeongguk starts to feel the beginning of a brain freeze and he tries not to make it clear. He looks at Tae, but almost looses it at the way he is so concentrated on the smoothie. He decides to remember this moment and store it away in his mind. He looks back at his smoothie, to see that he is almost done, and he gives his everything even if it's starting to hurt a lot now.  In the end he wins the challenge, but he also ends up being the first to get a brain freeze and he groans at the pain it sends him. Tae is just smiling at him, while fake sulking about his failure. Although they are soon just laughing over their stupid challenge and decides to order some real food now.  While they are eating, Jeongguk suddenly gets some food around his mouth, and he is just about to use a napkin to wipe it off, when Tae uses his finger to wipe it away, before licking his finger. He hums at the little taste, and Jeongguk stills for a moment, trying to comprehend the situation.  He tries to go back to his food, but he's suddenly not so hungry for the food on his plate but instead hungry for someone. He stares a little too long at Tae's plump, pink lips that looks so soft and sweet. He just wanna close the distance between them and taste those lips, but he keeps himself firmly seated. He wonders how it would feel to taste them, kiss them, feel them against his very own, and starts thinking about the noises Tae would make. He tries to shake the thoughts away but it's just so damn hard to do so when the guy opposite you is so damn pretty and hot.  
Fucking get your shit together Jeon!
 Gulping a little he takes some water, trying to look anywhere but at Tae's lips and luckily it works after some long minutes. Tae luckily doesn't look like he noticed Jeongguk's intense stare and keeps eating while making moaning sounds at the food. Jeongguk watches with intensity as Tae moans again, while sucking his finger clean from the spilled sausage, and suddenly he looks directly at Jeongguk. Jeongguk feels caught, but there's something in Tae's eyes he can't quite place, and he lingers eye contact with him for a bit too long before tearing his eyes away, looking outside the window instead(as if he had't just stared at Tae for a longer time than you would call normal)  He can feel Tae's eyes on him out of the corner of his eyes, but tries not to look at him again. He's sure if he does so that he won't be able to look away again.  ... Fuck it, he looks back at Tae and sure enough the guy is looking at him, a little smile plastered on his face. He doesn't say anything, more like he's studying Jeongguk's features, and Jeongguk for some reason doesn't mind. Not when it's Tae, and he almost enjoys the attention rather than despise it.  Suddenly out of the blue, Tae stands up and Jeongguk is just about to ask him where he is going, when he plants himself right beside him. Jeongguk frowns before he sees Tae open the camera on his phone.  "Let's take some selfies, shall we?" Tae is looking at Jeongguk with curiosity and a boxy grin and Jeongguk quickly nods before making sure that he doesn't have any food around his mouth. Tae just grins at the action before laying an arm around Jeongguk's shoulder and pulling him closer.  Jeongguk feels like his shoulder is burning and he is so sure that his ears are more red than tomatoes and the same goes for his checks. But when Tae says "smileeee" and they smile together he can't stop himself from wrapping an arm around Tae too. It feels nice and he likes holding an arm around Tae. He could get used to this he thinks.  They take a lot of selfies(cough cough, more than 100) looking like clowns, memes, princes you name it, and they are enjoying taking selfies together. Eventually they stop even though Tae is almost whining to just take one more selfie at this point, but Jeongguk stops him before they will probably end up taking 10 or 30 more.  It is the beginning of the evening and Jeongguk looks at the clock, to almost pass out, since they have been at the cafe for about 3-4 hours now. He quickly tells Tae, but he just waves his hand dismissively in the air before asking if Jeongguk knows how to get home.  Jeongguk wants to say yes, but unfortunately he doesn't and when Tae finds out he doesn't even hesitate to call his private driver and take him with him. Jeongguk is not sure if this is okay, but Tae quickly reassures him that he doesn't mind driving Jeongguk home, and that he instead enjoys their little time during the car ride. Jeongguk smiles upon hearing that and it does make him feel less insecure and before he knows it he is giggling silently at a funny story Tae just told him. It's crazy how easy Tae can make him feel happy and safe again. The ride to his apartment doesn't take too long and Jeongguk almost wish they could spent more time together. He jumps out of the car, but before that he is being enveloped in Tae's warm body, with his long slender arms around his figure and he enjoys the sensation a whole lot. He almost purrs(almost) but stops himself, to not make this awkward. When they part ways, Tae sticks his head out and waves to him before his head disappears inside the car. Jeongguk feels so light all of a sudden, and when he steps inside his apartment, he can't stop the happy and giddy feeling from flooding around inside his stomach.

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A hardworking week passes by in a blur, before Jeongguk and Tae are able to find a day they are both free. Even though they haven't seen each other physically, they have still called, texted and skyped almost every day. It is becoming one of the things Jeongguk enjoys the most, but he doesn't say that to anyone. They have become a lot more close now, like they have known each other way longer than just a few weeks. He thinks this is good, he likes their friendship and how their bond is getting stronger and stronger. He doesn't look at Tae as an artist that needs to be treated differently than others. Tae isn't like that either which is really great. Jeongguk would become tired of such a personality, but Tae is not even near that kind of personality.  Jeongguk have decided long ago, that Tae is different than most people. He has a weird mind, like a very 4D way of thinking, he has some weird habits, and sometimes acts like he comes from a totally different planet. Maybe even universe. Jeongguk likes to describe Tae as an alien, with a very cute face, and very creative mind. He comes up with so many great and interesting ideas, and it makes Jeongguk amazed and think he for some reason needs to work better and harder. Because that's what Tae is good at, he works until his satisfied. Jeongguk thinks he can learn a lot from that.  Also when Tae shows him some of his paintings, Jeongguk can't stop the sad feeling creeping up in his stomach, because he knows not many people have seen Tae's work. Or liked it for that matter, which makes him sad and angry. He just wanna show the whole world how great of an artist Tae really is, and how good he is at painting and visualize things, people, nature, and animals. It all makes it that much more astonishing, and there is so much more, Jeongguk can talk about Tae for hours if it is. He really admires him in a lot of different ways.  It's funny how they've come so far in texting too(lol) he thinks. They have a certain time of the day where they have some sort of meme-time going on, and it's funny to look back on it. He remembers one day at home when he was sitting in the living room with Hobi beside him watching a movie, when Tae send him a hilarious meme post and asked Jeongguk what he thought Tae was doing right now. The meme post was the hint, and Jeongguk was eating cereal at the time, when he saw the post and almost spit the cereal out, because it looked so funny. Hobi nearly got a heart attack and scolded Jeongguk lightly for sounding like he was being choked by his food. Jeongguk just grinned and went back to eating before typing back.  During their meme time that particular time, Hobi would sneak a glance at their conversation, but only begin frowning and going back to the movie. Jeongguk would feel the awkward silence between the two, and how Hobi got more and more annoyed at Jeongguk for texting with someone else instead of watching the movie. Especially if it was their movie night. Jeongguk would just stumble out a quick apology before coming up with a dumb lie telling that it was a school project they were discussing. Hobi looked like he didn't give a shit, but when a sigh would leave his lips, he knew Hobi didn't care anymore about the texting.  He feels a little embarrassed about it now, especially because he loves being with his hyungs and hang out with them, but more often than not he will excuse himself because Tae had send him a text or something like that. He does't think his hyungs deserves that, also because whenever they asks who he is talking with he cannot ´´really`` identify the person. He will always have to call Tae by another name like V or lie and say it's just one of his good classmates.  It doesn't feel right, but Jeongguk doesn't have much of a choice. He know he can't just blow Tae's cover without asking first, because they have talked about it and decided that for now their friendship will stay a secret. That is until the day, Tae is sure he can trust Jeongguk's hyungs and that they will not ask him too many favors. Or make him uncomfortable because they want something from him because he is famous. That's some of the main things Tae is afraid of, when meeting new people.  It's after a bad incident with an old friend that have made it's scar in Tae's mind, so it will forever haunt him, whenever he has to meet new people.  But when they one day find a day where they are both free and have no plans, Jeongguk can't stop himself from jumping a little in excitement while Tae is just laughing on the phone. He can hear Jeongguk's happy noises he makes and starts singing a song about two people seeing each other again after a long time. They both start laughing and giggling after some time.  While they are talking about the meetup, the door to Jeongguk's room slowly creaks open and Jimin sticks his head inside. Jeongguk notices him right away and gestures to Jimin to tell him why he is here. Jimin looks like he is contemplating for a moment but then he points to the phone and quickly says he needs to talk to Jeongguk alone.  Jeongguk frowns but says goodbye to Tae before hanging up. He takes a look at Jimin before he notices something. Jimin has a white t-shirt on but on his sleeve there is a spot with some blood on it.  He looks for more spots with blood and to his horror he sees a few more small spots. Why didn't he see them before? "What happened to your t-shirt?" and points to the spots on the t-shirt.  Jimin just pushes the door fully open without answering the question and gestures to Jeongguk's bed instead. Jeongguk complies, but he is getting impatient with the way Jimin is drawing the time out, and huffs a little in annoyance.  Jimin gives him a weakly smile before he coughs. "Jeongguk, I need to tell you something" and looks down for a moment before continuing. 
No shit, Hyung get on with it!
 "Hobi isn't going to come home until next week, because he's currently in the hospital recovering", Jimin informs him and Jeongguk can feel himself getting uneasy as the thoughts start to wander in his mind. "We got in a fight with two young gang members, who were about to steal something from a store. One of the guys had a bat with him, and he went straight after Hobi. I got rid of one of them, but the one with the bat was faster and he hit Hobi real hard. Luckily Hobi was still awake and he kicked the guy where it really hurts. We managed to get away, but Hobi was bleeding from his head. I think you know how the rest turned out", Jimin finishes and Jeongguk looks pale at the story before he asks frantically if Hobi is okay. Jimin sends Jeongguk a little smile which makes him a little less uneasy, but only when Jimin nods and confirms that yes Hobi is okay, does Jeongguk fully calm down again. Jimin starts to sniff a little and before Jeongguk knows it Jimin's trying to hide his tears in a bad attempt. Jeongguk embraces him into a fully hug and Jimin just let's his tears fall completely onto Jeongguk's shirt. Jeongguk just let's him and they hug for a few minutes before pulling apart again. "Thanks, I needed that", Jimin says between sniffles and Jeongguk just pats him on his shoulder before he goes out to get Jimin some water. When he comes back Jimin looks a lot more tired, red under his eyes after the tears, but he still manages to smile before receiving the glass of water.  They sit and talk about the incident before Jeongguk suddenly remembers the blood stained t-shirt Jimin's wearing. Jimin quickly tosses the shirt over his head before he walks out of the room to find a new clean shirt in his closet. He comes back looking better without blood on his shirt.  They decide after some time to go checkup on Hobi even though Jimin's sure, he's probably asleep. That doesn't stop Jeongguk to see his hyung and when they arrive at the hospital, they are met with Yoongi's appearance. He looks a little out of it, but when he sees the others he takes a few big steps to get over to them.  They hug each other and Jimin quickly reassures Yoongi, that Hobi is going to be fine, he only got a headache and a few scratches here and there. Yoongi looks relieved at that and together they all 3 check in on Hobi.  He is laying in his hospital bed, but he is awake, looking a little confused around, before he smiles happily at his friends. He still has his sunshine smile, and he doesn't look different from the last time Jeongguk saw him. Only some scratches on his cheeks and a band around his head. He looks tired though and he is a little pale, but otherwise than that he still looks like the loud, happy Hobi.  They all embrace him into tight hugs(without hurting him) and Yoongi is sitting holding his hand while looking fondly at him. Jeongguk doesn't think any of it, since they pretty much are platonic soulmates after all. After an hour or two with chatting lightly, a few sprites too, and a little checkup they say their goodbyes to Hobi, excepts Yoongi who stays at his side.   "He needs his bro", is the only reason Yoongi comes up with when Jeongguk asks him.    []   Jeongguk is contemplating if he should tell Tae, why he suddenly couldn't talk anymore yesterday, but he decides he will just tell him when they meet later today. Luckily, the weather is nice today, and there is only the sun in the sky, a few clouds here and there, and a light breeze.  You can say it's Jeongguk's favorite weather today. He told Jimin earlier when they had some breakfast that he was gonna go meet up with one of his friends. Jimin didn't mind as long as Jeongguk just came home again of course.  Now he was standing in front of his closet not knowing what the flying fuck he should put on. He sighs and takes a deep breath before he grabs all his clothes and tosses it on the floor. It looks like a big pile of real boy clothes and he might even be able to hide in it if he wants.  While looking for his outfit, Jimin waddles in and takes one look at a frustrated Jeongguk, trying to find the perfect outfit, before he clears his throat and Jeongguk immediately looks up at him.  "Hyung, something wrong?", he asks trying to sound normal, but Jimin just smiles sweetly at him before he shakes his head and sits down on the edge of his bed.  Jimin asks what all this fussing is about, and why Jeongguk is so busy finding the perfect outfit. Jeongguk looks a little sheepish while scratching his head. "Just trying to find uh a good outfit?" he says while looking a little unsure, but he sees a glint of disbelief in Jimin's eyes.  "Is that so, why is it important for you to find a good outfit, if your just going to meet up with a friend?", Jimin asks with distrust in his voice, and Jeongguk knows he's been caught.  "I-uh just wanted to look a little uh- good?", Jeongguk says even though he's not sure anymore what he is trying to say. Jimin just looks at him before he snorts and gives him the ´´yeah right`` look. He then asks how long before Jeongguk has to go and he shows 2 fingers. Jimin gestures to Jeongguk to go out of the room while he finds the perfect outfit. Jeongguk is not too keen about that, but he does as he's told anyway. He checks in on Jimin a few times, but only to be shoved out of the room again. After what feels like years, since Jeongguk forgot his phone in his room, Jimin calls him in. He looks like a little child, that just made a nice drawing for his mother before he shows him the outfit on the bed. Jeongguk looks a little taken aback since he doesn't even remember ever buying some of that cloths. Only the black shirt does he recognize.  His outfit is made out of a black t-shirt, some dark blue cowboy pants with holes, a black belt, white shoes, and lastly a cream-colored jacket to top it of with. He isn't sure if the mask is too much, but when he tells Jimin he shakes his head so fast that he'd wish he didn't just say that.  "Everyone's gonna be head over heels over this look, when you walk past them", Jimin says proudly and Jeongguk just grins and shakes his head in disbelief. He looks at himself in the mirror, and nods as if to approve of this look. Jimin stands beside him before they take a selfie together.  He doesn't think Jimin will help him more or for that matter do more to him, but he's wrong. So wrong. Jimin sits him down on a little chair before he starts styling his hair. Jeongguk is not having any of it and he protest loudly against it, when Jimin tries to make his best puppy eyes.  It doesn't work on Jeongguk and after a good 5 minutes of Jimin trying to look like the most innocent human he gives up with a sigh. Jeongguk grins and giggles before Jimin then ruffles his hair, which he earns a "YAH MY HAIR WAS FINE BEFORE" and runs out of the room before Jeongguk can get to him.  Jimin sends him out the door with a slap to his butt and Jeongguk is so close to turn around on his heel and get revenge.  So close. But not enough and he texts Tae telling he's on his way now. A minute later a texts pop up on his screen from Taetae.  Tae sends him a smiley and a picture of him looking hella fine, and a texts that says he can't wait.    []   This time, they are not going to meet at the cafe, but instead in a park filled with tons of flowers. Jeongguk is going to see Tae's portfolios today, and he can't wait. He himself loves to draw, and he doesn't have so many friends to discuss art with. Thankfully he has Tae now, and he couldn't be more happy about it. While sitting on a bench in the park eagerly waiting for Tae he decides to take some pictures of the park. It is a really a pretty park they are meeting in. While taking pictures of the flowers he doesn't notice a big, black car driving up to the entrance. He looks up when he hears a car door close and he thinks his heart stops for a moment when he spots Tae a few meters away looking so, so gorgeous in his outfit today. It is made out of a nice sweater, some sunglasses and some nice black pants that makes his ass look like a million. It sits just right as always, but there is something that captivates his eyes more. 
Is that lip gloss he has on his lips?
 Jeongguk tries not to stare too much at his lips, but god they just look so good, and he might soon be drooling if he doesn't stop now. They greet each other in a big tight hug, but when Jeongguk is about to let go of Tae it feels like Tae is keeping him grounded. Like he doesn't wanna let go. Jeongguk doesn't mind(at all) and enjoys it.  His hair looks so fluffy and nice and he just wants to touch, but before he can even get a chance to feel the ends Tae pulls back and smiles at him. Jeongguk smiles back before they decide to walk around a little in the park. Tae quickly puts a mask on which makes him look like he just came out of a magazine. He doesn't know how he do it, but he sure loves it. They take pictures together and poses with the flowers as a little touch to the pictures. They talk, and Jeongguk also tells him about the accident with Hobi. Tae looks worried, but his expressions turns calm when he hears Hobi is okay. They keep talking until Tae looks at his watch and grabs Jeongguk's hand out of nowhere.  Jeongguk looks down at the hand before looking back up at Tae. Tae looks like he did something wrong, but then Jeongguk makes a move to intertwine their fingers the proper way. He smiles and Tae squeezes his hand before they walk back to the car while walking hand in hand.  Walking back Jeongguk can't stop the weird sensation flooding around in his stomach and he keeps looking down at their intertwined hands. This feels like a dream if he is honest, and wow Tae's hand is so warm and nice as always. He wanna hold it forever and never let go.  
Is this a hand of god of some sort? Cause it sure feels like it
 They get in the car and Tae tells the driver where they are going before he sits down beside Jeongguk. They are still holding hands to Jeongguk's pleasure, and Tae doesn't look like he minds it at all. They keep looking back at each other without saying anything.  It doesn't feel weird or awkward for some reason and Jeongguk feels more secure than insecure about it. The drive, to Tae's sort-of place feels nice, with Tae beside him. Their knees are almost touching and Jeongguk wish he could scoot closer to Tae.  Wanna brush his knees against Tae, wanna brush his hand against his cheek to confirm if his cheek really is as soft as it looks.  He doesn't do it of course, since it would be a bit weird, to just suddenly do it. He hopes one day it will happen, but for now he is content and happy at the way it is now.  The driver is playing some low, calm music and Jeongguk is humming to the song, while tapping his fingers to the beat. Soon Tae joins him and they hum in harmony, until the song ends and they start giggling when the driver whistles surprisingly.  He apparently heard them and they talk for a short while before going back to just being silent and enjoying the drive.  They arrive shortly after and they thank the driver before he speeds off again. They stand in front of the building where Tae's portfolios are placed and Jeongguk can't wait to see what Tae has made since last time he showed Jeongguk some of his paintings on a skype call.  Jeongguk called him while he was in painting but Tae didn't mind for some reason and instead got eager to show him all his portfolios.  Especially the portfolio with the bunny, which Tae claims was Jeongguk's idea even though Jeongguk still denies it  to this day. He doesn't say it, but shakes the thought away before Tae leads him inside the big building.  It's a fancy building with elevators and people in suits walking hurriedly around, not giving a damn about Tae and Jeongguk. They quickly get in an elevator, but when Tae pushes the button that takes them up to the very last floor, Jeongguk snorts in amusement.  "Really?", "you like heights or do you jut wanna feel better than anyone else?"  Tae just grins and shakes his head lightly before saying he just likes the view it gives. "It gives me inspiration and ideas, to a new painting", he says as a matter of fact, before turning around to look at his reflection in the mirror.  Jeongguk hums and at the same time the elevator stops and a man in a sweet, brown suit walks in, while talking with someone on his phone.  When the elevator finally stop, Jeongguk let's out a sigh in relief and Tae puts a hand on his back before leading him out of the elevator. They arrive at a door before Tae opens it and Jeongguk is met with a beautiful view of the city beneath them.  He let's out a low "wauw" before Tae just smiles at him and gestures for him to take a closer look at the city. The people that's walking on the streets looks like small ants and Jeongguk feels bigger than them.  He can see everything from here, and he even spots his own apartment a little far away, and points excitedly at it. While he is looking at the astonishing view that Tae has the pleasure to see whenever he wants to, the said guy tries to find his portfolios.  "Hey Jeonggukie, help Hyung with his portfolios, please", Tae says and Jeongguk is at his side in an instant. He pretends like he didn't hear Tae snort at the way he almost ran over to him, eager to help.  They get the rest of the portfolios out(or Jeongguk gets the rest of the portfolios out) of the storage room, and while Jeongguk is carrying a heavier portfolio he feels Tae's eyes on him out of the corner of his eye.  He pretends he doesn't like the way he thinks Tae is looking at him or more so at his muscles. What can he say, he loves to go to the gym and work those muscles out until they are sore from exhaustion.  Suddenly Tae just blurt out, if he works out a lot, and Jeongguk tries to keep it cool, even though he can feel himself heat up. Or more so his face heat up, but still. Jeongguk just nods and hums and tries to form a normal sentence but the only thing he gets out is a, "I don't have anything else to do in my free time" which is such a big lie.  
Wow good job, Jeongguk real smooth huh
 Tae sticks with it before he scans Jeongguk's frame over once more before turning around walking over to a portfolio with a cute bunny on. Jeongguk notices instantly and walks over to take a closer look at the portfolio.  He snorts at the cute bunny but when he sees Tae's face looking cute in front of the painting, smiling and looking all happy and lovely he can't stop himself from giggling cutely. Tae joins him and afterwards tells him about that little idea of his. Jeongguk denies it even though he didn't mean to, but Tae is having none of it. What he does next have Jeongguk frowning, because Tae finds a pencil and some painting and without further writes JK on it and makes a sign that points at the bunny. Jeongguk is confused for a moment before it clicks what Tae means. He thinks like a goddamn bunny, doesn't he? And groans and whines like a little child, at the new meaning the portfolio just got. He gets embarrassed and tries to run away, but Tae puts a hand around Jeongguk, to firmly keep him in his hold. Jeongguk feels like he's burning, but then Tae hands him a pencil and gestures to the portfolio. Jeongguk isn't sure he can draw something pretty but Tae dismisses it with his hand and encourages Jeongguk to give it a try. He thinks for a moment before an idea pops up in his head, since it would make a lot of sense(he thinks it will). He reassures Tae when he finds some red and blue that he's not going to destroy the painting, but Tae just hums and looks like he trust Jeongguk enough to not dig further in it. Jeongguk starts to draw a heart, that is placed beside the bunny and when he focuses too much to even register that Tae is laughing silently behind him he smiles inside himself. He wanna make Tae proud of him, so he makes sure the heart is perfect.  Since it is Jeongguk who's drawing the heart comes out just fine and when he's done he writes "Tata" beside it and makes a sign that points to it. Tae looks confused and asks about the new name he came up with. Jeongguk just shrugs and says it just came up in his mind.  Also because it sounds similar to "Tae" but he doesn't say that. They decide to take some pictures of the portfolios and together, and they mess with the selfies. It is becoming one of their favorite things to do. To take some selfies and look absolutely dumb in them and they are living for it.  They might sooner or later have a whole list of things they love to do together, if they doesn't already have one. When they take their last picture Jeongguk leans a little closer to Tae so their cheeks are brushing and he feels a hand under his chin and another holding him closer. They smile genuinely this time and Tae chooses it as his new background. Jeongguk tries not to blush too much at that even though it doesn't work even one bit, but for once he almost thinks he sees Tae's cheeks also blushing a little. Almost. He denies it and shakes his head, but his heart picks up speed.  The time goes by quickly with painting all sort of different paintings and they giggle and make a big mess with the paintings. When Jeongguk gets a tiny splat paint on his cheek, he doesn't waist a second before he is trying to draw a mustache on Tae.  He is pinning him to the ground while trying really hard, but when Tae finds a sensitive spot he accidentally throws the pencil away. Before he knows it Tae is on top of him while Jeongguk is squirming beneath him, begging him to stop.  It get's worse when Tae plays with his nipples because it is his most sensitive part of his body and a tiny moan slips out from his mouth. It hits them both like a storm and they freeze in place looking at each other. Jeongguk feels like he just destroyed the moment but he can't deny he likes the feeling of Tae on top of him.  Tae looks beautiful while topping, but when Tae suddenly leans closer, the distance becoming thinner and thinner he feels like his heart stop once more.  He almost jumps out of his skin from how close Tae are and he feels their noses to brush each other.  That's how close they are, and he can't hear anything else other than the others breathing and his heartbeat. He is so sure Tae can hear it too but when Tae instead looks at him and locks his eyes onto his lips his eyes become a tad darker. He swallows and Jeongguk sees something akin to hunger flooding in his eyes.  He doesn't know what to do, but before he can do more Tae is closing the distance and he is met with the softest lips ever. The kiss is slow and sensual, and their lips moves against each other with eagerness. Jeongguk can't stop himself, tasting as much of his lips as he can get.  
God his lips tastes like vanilla and strawberries
 When Tae slides his tongue on Jeongguk's bottom lip asking for permission to dig deeper, Jeongguk complies with a content hum and he is hit with the taste of Tae's mouth. He starts exploring trying to find sensitive spots and he earns a content moan from the other when he bites down on Tae's lip.  They go from slow kiss to a heated make out and they only take a break when they need some air, before they continue again once gain. It feels so good finally kissing Tae, and Jeongguk feels like they aren't close enough. He puts a hand around Tae's lower back pushing him down and he feels big hands wrap around his shoulders, nails massaging his skin where there is access.  Tae is very noisy he discovers when they kiss but it only makes him more arousing and his mind starts to become foggy and unclear. His legs feel like jelly even though he isn't even standing and he feels so warm and nice under Tae's body. He feels Tae's leg settle between his legs, but he doesn't go further than that, not wanting to hurry things without permission. They continue  until Tae puts some distance between them while they are both a little out of breath.  Tae looks at him while panting and Jeongguk has never seen his eyes this dark contrast before and licks his lip. He is about to demand Tae kissing him again, but he gets interrupted when Tae kisses him again this time a little hungrier and grabs Jeongguk's locks to play with them.  Jeongguk hums into the kiss, and starts playing with Tae's hair. It feels nice between his fingers and wow how can hair be this soft and satisfying to touch? He makes a satisfying sound when Tae strokes his hair and he likes the sensation very much. Tae's mouth feels so wet and warm and he doesn't thin he has ever liked kissing anyone this much before.  Sadly all make-outs have an end and after some time, Tae pushes himself up into a sitting position before Jeongguk props himself up on his elbows looking at Tae with so many feelings he can't even express.  They sit in silence before Tae breaks it by praising Jeongguk for his skilled kissing technique with a smug grin plastered on his face. That has Jeongguk smirking and cocks an eyebrow up at Tae and he quickly looks down in shyness at the way he hides his face in his hands. They decide to order some food and then cuddle on the little couch Tae luckily have, while looking at the stunning view in front of them.  Jeongguk feels so happy, and light, he can't believe they actually kissed. It haven't really registered his mind yet, that Tae might have feelings for Jeongguk, and that this is maybe not going to be the last time they kiss.  When it does register in his mind, he stills for a moment and his mind goes through all the thoughts and dreams he's ever had about exactly this.  He hopes they will make out many many, many more times and cuddle and just be in each others space looking fondly and happy at each other. He hopes that, but he doesn't know what Tae wants yet.   When they sit and eat their takeout, shoulders brushing, knees touching close enough that Jeongguk could easily kiss Tae on the cheek, and he smiles to himself. Tae makes a confused noise before Jeongguk just shakes his head and instead feeds him some of his noodles.  Tae takes it with satisfaction and hums around his chopsticks. They continue to do this, feeding each other until there is nothing left, and their tummies are filled with food. Jeongguk makes a content sound before snuggling closer to Tae.  He is already becoming obsessed with Tae's soft body and skin. He could probably fall asleep laying on Tae's lap looking up at him, while smiling wide like a dummy with heart-shaped eyes to top it off.  Tae looks so beautiful and amazingly perfect, his well-shaped heart lips, his mole on his nose and under his eye sit right where they need to sit and the way his eyes crinkle and sort of smile whenever he shows his boxy grin, makes Jeongguk's head spin and his heart flutter. He doesn't know if he can express his feelings with words, but he promises himself he one day will, so Tae knows how much he already likes him. But for now he will cherish this moment and take one day at a time.

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"Tae, I don't understand, why are you doing this to me?" "I don't have a choice Jeongguk!" Jeongguk flinches at the voice Tae is using, looking at him with tears in his eyes. "But why didn't you tell me sooner?, why now of all the times we have been together?!" Tae doesn't say anything for a moment before he looks up at Jeongguk and instantly regrets doing that. He tries to come up with an explanation. "I didn't think it would lead to this, what the hell am I supposed to do?!" "You could at least try to fix things or maybe just TELL ME LIKE A NORMAL PERSON WOULD DO?!?!?!?!" "Please don't yell, Jeongguk. I just.. never thought things would go this way in the beginning..." Jeongguk looks at him and scoffs and tastes something bitter in his mouth. They had been together for almost half a year now and everything was going great, up until now. Tae had been caught by his managers and if Tae didn't cut all contact with Jeongguk they would expose him to the rest of the world. "Yeah well, it did.. and there is nothing we can do about it but are you really cutting me out of your life, like I never even met you?"  Jeongguk looks at Tae and a tear streams down his cheek when his next words leave his mouth. "I'm sorry Jeongguk, but I can't do this... you will meet someone better, someone who will take good care of you and make you happy"  With that Tae turns around and walks away without looking back, while sniffing and wipes his tears away with his sleeves.  Jeongguk is standing still, in the dark night under the lights, looking at Tae's back, and keeps his eyes there until he can't see him anymore. He feels like he's been stabbed over and over again, and breaks down on the street, tears streaming down his face. It starts raining but he doesn't mind, and he suddenly feels so so tired and worn out. He's heart is aching and his head hurts from an earlier headache he was dealing with while Tae was cuddling with him. Good times.... even though it's only a few days ago it feels like years ago all of a sudden.  This feels wrong, like there is something missing by Jeongguk's side. Tae used to be right here by his side smiling so warmly and happy at him while holding him close. He can still remember the warm body, so soft, smooth, so pure and light. The way his lips are formed, the way they tasted against his own, how good they felt around him, and how nice they looked whenever they would morph into a smile. Tae's eyes were only ever something Jeongguk could dream of looking into, they were so deep and brown, had a warm nice feeling flooding in them. He loves the way they also smile when Tae smiles, and how the little mole under his eye is sitting.  Small details is Jeongguk's favorite thing about Tae because there is so many. The way his nose is so masculine but at the same time so small and nice somehow, how his smile turns out his soft hair that Jeongguk loves to play with, everything about Tae is just.. perfect.  And now he will never be able to touch or feel Tae ever again, what a sad reality he thinks. He is drenched at this point but he doesn't give a shit and tries to get up from the ground. Apparently his legs won't move and he doesn't bother trying.  When he starts freezing he eventually gets up and starts walking back home.     []   Weeks pass by, and it's not going so well for Jeongguk. He can't concentrate in class, because of the blank mind he's in, he cries himself to sleep every night, trying to find an excuse when Hobi or Jimin asks him why. He looks like shit, heavy eye bags under his eyes but he brushes it off saying it's because of homework, but really it's because he barely gets any sleep nowadays. He doesn't eat that much either, doesn't have any appetite and he doesn't feel like talking to anyone.  He has become very quiet and when he isn't in school(or skipping his classes because he just can't take it) he uses all his time in the gym or at the dance studio. When Yoongi asks if he wanna come to his studio he just declines the offer and says he's too tired to go.  So yeah thinks looks pretty bad for Jeongguk, but Jimin one day decides he's had enough. When they are sitting at the table, ramen cups in front of them eating in silents Jimin clears his throat and takes a deep breath before he breaks the silence.  "Jeongguk what's wrong?" he uses his sweet, but stern tone and Jeongguk flinches at the question, looking elsewhere but at Jimin. When he doesn't answer Jimin asks him one more time, tone harder this time and Jeongguk finally looks up, looking like a deer caught in the headlights.  "Nothing's wrong" he says but it comes out as a mumble and Jimin barely hears it, but urges Jeongguk to say it louder. When he does his voice cracks and Jimin really takes a look at him and almost chokes on his ramen. Jeongguk looks like shit he thinks, with his hair pointing in all different kind of directions, red eyes, skin paler than normal, and even a sweaty smell coming from him.  Jimin doesn't believe a word, and while Hobi is silently watching the conversation in front of him, Jimin starts yelling at Jeongguk to get his shit together while Jeongguk stands up throwing his hands up in the air shouting that he is fine. The conversation becomes a fight and soon the two of them are yelling and screaming at each other and Hobi decides to go to his room while putting his hands up to his ears to block all the noise out.  The fight ends when Jeongguk gives up out of fatigue and Jimin becomes silent for a moment before he hugs Jeongguk tight while whispering soothing words in Jeongguk's eyes while he is crying his eyes out. He hugs him tightly back and keeps crying until his eyes start to sting from all the tears. Jimin's shoulder is soaked in tears and snot but he doesn't care about that now.  He feels disappointing in himself for not figuring the problem out sooner, but he shakes his head and tries not to dwell too much on it right now. They stay like this for a few minutes before Hobi comes out of his room and silently walks over to them. He envelopes them in a hug and they keep hugging each other, and in this moment Jeongguk thinks it's gonna be okay again or at least a little better  than it has been up till now.  He pulls back and looks at his hyungs who just look back at him giving him the most supportive smiles they can muster and Jeongguk takes it with openness while he tries to smile back. It comes out a little strangled but in the end he ends up thanking them for their support and they decide to go watch some anime in the living room.  While they are watching a movie Jeongguk can't believe he's so lucky to have his hyungs by his side, supporting him and comforting him. He doesn't know why he didn't do this any sooner, but he thinks it's because he was scared and didn't wanna open up to anyone about it. He had kept it to himself trying to get over it all alone but it didn't work out and things just turned way more bad than what they were supposed to do. He was supposed to cry a little about it but be a man and pull himself together without thinking about Tae at all. That's exactly how it didn't go, but now he might actually be able to get himself together again and continue his life without thinking about Tae.  He smiles at the thought, but tries to ignore the hollow feeling in his heart and the way it feels so heavy. He gotta move on and find someone else like Tae said, so that's what he's gonna do and then everything will work out, right?  It has to, there is no other option.      []   
Half a year later
  "Do you mind sharing with me, I'm the one who's the most hungry not you!" Whining loudly Jeongguk gets ignored for his hungry stomach and he pouts while crossing his arms and scoffs at Yoongi who is teasing him.  He doesn't have much patience and Yoongi is not stronger than Jeongguk, so when he eventually tries to take a bite from his burger he succeeds and grins around his mouth. Yoongi sighs heavy before swatting him away, but after some time he gives him the burger.  Jeongguk takes it with happiness flooding in his eyes and instantly starts eating. Yoongi just smiles at him before looking down at a notification on his phone. He has established his own name in the kpop industry and now he works for several different idols and artists, helping them with recording music and making music too. He has come across a lot lately and a quick notification from Namjoon telling him to get his ass over in the studio has him looking up at Jeongguk who is almost done with his burger. He snorts before patting his knee and says that he needs to go to the studio, because of work.  Jeongguk makes a sad noise and Yoongi knows this noise all too well, so without further he lets the kid join him, but only to not interrupt his work. Jeongguk just nods and scrambles down from the bench before they start walking in the direction of Yoongi's work place.  Since Jeongguk has been to the studio for years and knows the place in and out he is pretty much welcomed in any place. So he decides since Yoongi had told him to go use his time he decides to go down in the music room.  It's one of his favorite places of all time and he can stay down there for hours if he wanted to. He quickly gets in place and starts trying out a new beat, a friend of his send him a few weeks ago. It doesn't sound so good, but he can still hear a little hope in the beat and tries to change it a bit.  He keeps trying to change the beat several times and gets too immersed in it too even register that another person walks in minding his own business. He can't see the person, but when he hears the sound of a saxophone tearing through the atmosphere he suddenly becomes very very stiff.  He only knows one person who can play the saxophone the way it is being used right now and he doesn't wanna turn around to face that particular person. He wonders if he has any idea who is sitting right here, listening to the smooth playing of the saxophone, but considers that he probably doesn't.  He starts sweating a little when he remembers that Tae is a very talkative person in general and will most likely greet Jeongguk out of pure generosity.  This is not good, definitely not good! What the hell am I gonna do??  It doesn't turn any better when Yoongi all but barges into the room and waves at Jeongguk before saying his name. Jeongguk is frozen in place because suddenly the saxophone isn't playing anymore and there is only silence in the normally noisy room. Yoongi looks confused and furrows his eyebrows before continuing his way over to the boy who look as pale as a ghost.  "You okay, kid?" Yoongi asks and Jeongguk nods before gulping and mumbles something Yoongi doesn't catch but doesn't bother to dig further in it. He pats Jeongguk on the shoulder before he makes his way over to the guy that Jeongguk don't wanna put a name on.  It's too late when Yoongi greets Tae and his name easily slips out. He hears Tae greeting him back before he stumbles out a few sentences that Jeongguk thankfully doesn't catch on to. He proceeds to go back to his beat even though he has long since forgotten about that.  All he wanna do is get the hell out of the room without facing Tae, cause he knows if he does he might break down even though it's been half a year. He feels a little dizzy sitting there half hunched over the beat, back facing Tae and Yoongi who are having a conversation about a new song or something like that. He clears his throat and tries to get back to his stuff by playing the beat again, as to signal to the others that he is occupied with something else. While sitting there listening to the beat and still trying to change small details here and there, he can't ignore the way his heart is beating so fast and his mind feels like it's going crazy  from having Tae so close  to him.  He becomes pretty annoyed with the feelings and huffs before he starts pack his stuff, to leave the room. He leaves a "I'm gonna go take a break in the cafeteria" without looking at any of them before hastily walking out of the room. He apologies when he almost bumps into someone because he's walking so fast, trying to get as far away from the room as possible as the building allows him.  He tries to breath calmly when he sees the cafeteria ahead of him and he gets to eat in silence without having to talk to anyone. They are all busy talking about music and career and stuff like that.   He spends the rest of his time in an office writing lyrics to a new song he is starting to form little by little. Luckily he doesn't hear Tae or see him and he walks home with a somewhat relieved but also heavy feeling in his stomach. The next time he hears Tae is when he's in the bathroom and he can hear Tae laughing outside the bathroom. He feels a sting to his heart but shakes it away and waits until Tae isn't laughing anymore. He hopes he isn't still standing outside but this time he isn't as lucky as before...  Tae stands just beside the door and Jeongguk gets a glimpse of his face before he quickly shuts the door close again. He hold the handle tight but he can hear worried voices outside. Suddenly someone is pulling at the other side, and Jeongguk doesn't know what to do.  He decides after a good 2 seconds to leave the door and run into one of the stalls and hide. He somehow gets in the stall without the other person seeing his figure but he has trouble staying on the toilet board. The person is walking back and forth and he knows it's useless since the person knows he can't have escaped. Suddenly someone is banging on his door and he hisses at the loud noise it makes. He hastily slams a hand on his mouth but the person on the other side has stopped banging and is just standing outside the stall. The guy starts speaking and Jeongguk is hit with the sound of Tae's deep voice saying soothing words of comforts, telling him it's okay to come out and that he won't be mad. Jeongguk doesn't know why Tae is doing that but he relaxes himself and sighs before finally unlocking the door. He doesn't get to open the door before Tae fully opens the door and his face morphs into surprise and something akin to horror.  They just look at each other without saying a word and Jeongguk looks down after a moment. He is so close to start tearing up but when he hears the other start to sniffle he looks up, only to be met with a Tae that's starting to tear up, rapidly trying to wipe the small tears away.  Jeongguk knows he can't hold the tears back much longer and before he knows it he is shedding tears too. They just stand without saying anything other than sniffing and trying to control their tears. Suddenly Jeongguk let's out a little giggle for who knows why and Tae looks at him and smiles.  He takes his time to appreciate the sight in front of him, because holly shit Tae looking like that even though he just cried while trying to smile is enough to make Jeongguk's heart flutter and it makes him move forward.  He doesn't know when he got so bolt all of a sudden , but when he bumps his forehead lightly against Tae's without feeling two hands pushing him away he moves closer and places his lips so so gentle onto Tae's lips.  Tae doesn't move away and instead he grabs Jeongguk by his hair and pulls him closer. Their chests are touching and they are kissing slowly and enjoying the others lips. Jeongguk places his hand around Tae's back and tilts his head for better access to kiss him deeper. Tae just let's him and slowly walks forward until Jeongguk's legs hit the toilet. He quickly sits down and Tae follows on top of his lap while kissing him sweet and passionate, tasting him as if it was his first time tasting Jeongguk. He tries not to make any sounds, but fails miserably when a little hum leave his mouth.  Tae swallows the sound, and breaks the kiss when they need some air. They look at each other while breathing heavily and suddenly Tae is scrambling trying to get up from Jeongguk's lap, but Jeongguk is faster and holds him down.  Tae makes a stressed sound but Jeongguk shushes him and pulls him in close, hugging him while stroking his back in a comforting manner. It seems to have great effect on Tae because his breathing becomes normal again and Jeongguk doesn't have to hold him down.  Jeongguk knows he needs to say something, because he doesn't know for good reasons if he'll ever be able to talk to Tae again or even see him again. The only thing that he can think of hat sounds somewhat okay to say in a situation like this is: "I miss you, hyung" and looks desperate at Tae, before he says the same thing back and looks down. Jeongguk tries to get the conversation to move by asking him how he's been, how it's going. Tae answers, but Tae struggle with some questions because he simply can't believe he is sitting in Jeongguk's lap talking to the guy he's so.... 
In love with
 They somehow talk things out and Jeongguk wants nothing more than to keep being in this position right now, with Tae in front of him talking sometimes sending small smiles his way, that makes Jeongguk smile and sigh in a ´´I'm too whipped for this man`` way. He looks into Tae's eyes with so much love and fondness flooding in them and suddenly Tae is slotting their mouths together again. He doesn't mind at all and enjoys the kiss very much, so much that he even dares to grab Tae's butt and squeeze them a little. He gets a little gasp from it but Tae seems to like the sensation of Jeongguk's hands on his ass. He sits further down and all of a sudden he moans quietly at the way Jeongguk is kissing him making him flustered and sweaty.  Jeongguk is living for this and feels a little possessive over Tae's ass, god the way he has missed this is unbelievable and he digs further into Tae's mouth tasting his tongue and mouth. He gets a bit greedy and wanna mark Tae to show everyone who he belongs to. He can't do that of course since Tae can't be seen with a mark on his neck, but maybe he could leave a mark another place.. He contemplates for a moment before he moves his head down from Tae's neck to his chest. When Tae doesn't know what he wants Jeongguk almost whispers that he wanna mark him and Tae looks so hot blushing like that. He looks a little sad when he remembers he can't have a mark, but when Jeongguk assures him that he'll leave it somewhere where no one will notice Tae surrenders.  He places Tae on the toilet while undoing his pants and spreads Tae's legs apart before he finds a sensitive spot on his inner thigh. He caresses the spot before lightly sucking down on it until he bites on it, which earns him a deep moan from the other while Tae plays with his hair. He takes his time in marking  Tae and when he is done he can't stop himself from looking up at Tae with pleading eyes, liking his lips. Tae understands immediately and nods before Jeongguk takes his boxers down, and is met with a half hard cock precome dripping from the tip. He takes a moment to appreciate the sight before he takes his cock all the way down to his abdomen.  Tae tries to stifle his moans by the way Jeongguk is sucking  him off, but it becomes so hard and tempting that tears start to form in his eyes. Jeongguk knows how a blowjob is supposed to work, but when it comes to sucking Tae off he is a bit more passionate about his work and proceeds to make Tae a whimpering mess.  Speaking of mess his hair is probably a big mess, by the way Tae is grabbing and pulling at his hair making Jeongguk take him deeper and faster. Jeongguk moans around him and when Tae's body starts to tense, his breathing becoming faster, Jeongguk knows he's close.  "I-I'm so.. so close, fuck" Jeongguk feels a hand trying to tug him away from his cock but Jeongguk wanna swallow around and taste Tae on his tongue. It doesn't take more than a few licks and a few moans before Tae is spilling his cum down his throat while Jeongguk just takes it all, and swallows.  He makes a humming sound before standing up again, helping Tae with his boxers and pants. He wipes a hand around his mouth to get the cum that sits on the side of his lip but when he is about to lick the last cum off of his finger, Tae takes his finger and licks around it.  "Kinky", Jeongguk says and snorts when Tae just smirks at him. He also looks like a mess, but Jeongguk could die  for the way Tae is looking right now, wrecked and still a little high from the orgasm.  Tae proceeds to tug Jeongguk down and slots their lips together in a hungry kiss, and licks into Jeongguk's mouth with great enthusiasms. They have no idea how long they've been in here but faith is on their side since no one have walked in one them. (yet) They kiss for a little longer before Jeongguk starts humping lightly on Tae's thigh to get some friction since he himself have a boner to deal with. Tae knows what he's doing and slowly trails a hand down and stops at Jeongguk's belt. Then he continues and goes down into Jeongguk's boxers. Jeongguk moans desperately into the kiss when he feel Tae's hand skillfully wrap around his leaking cock.  A whimper leaves his mouth when Tae let one of his fingers dig into the split and when he starts moving faster Jeongguk feel tears behind his eyelids. He can't hold up and rests his head on Tae's shoulder while Tae moves his hand, in a way that makes Jeongguk's legs feel like jelly.  He can feel himself approaching his orgasm and stumbles out that he's close. Tae hums and then gets on his knees before taking his boxers down, cock hard, standing proud and licks into the split which make him whimper and moan. He loves the way Tae feels around him, so warm and nice. With a few more thrust he comes hard in Tae's mouth and keep trusting gently into his mouth before he gets down from the high.  "Damn you surprises me every time" and pulls his pants up before sending a kiss to Tae's cheek. It doesn't feel like it was over half a year ago that they were last ´´together`` but more or so a few weeks per say.  They end up promising to meet again some day and Tae unblocks him from his contacts. They need to be really careful about this and they call each other something else than their real names.  
Well at least he still has feelings for me