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_-1-_Love is a wonderful thing, and it hits people at the weird and most unique times. Whether you passed someone and they caught your eye, or you’ve known someone for all your life and all of a sudden you see something in them that you didn’t before. But love hurts, as the lonely moments just get lonelier then if you were alone. So sit down and hear this story two friends, where you wonder if what they went through was worth it or if they were better alone. _-•-_Yoongi stood in front of the school, he was at the end of the long driveway going up to the school. He got the parking spot that was the farthest away, despite his efforts. His old shoulder bag, hanging off one of his shoulders as he shrugged his shoulder looking towards the school. He wasn’t even late and the parking lot was full, the fellow students were always too early. Yoongi walked amongst the cars towards the brick building of Yoongi’s personal hell. He sighed as he had to walk up the few steps, he shouldn’t complain about walking up a few stairs but, he just didn’t even want to be here.“Hey,” a familiar voice caught his attention, Yoongi turned over to his best friend Jungkook, who was sitting down, back against the flagpole. “I was wondering when you were going to come here,” Jungkook sighed, standing up. “You didn’t have to wait for me,” Yoongi stopped, not showing any emotion as he friend sighed again, this time towards Yoongi.“But if I didn’t you would’ve complained about why I didn’t wait for you,” Jungkook called Yoongi out, “I never said that,” Yoongi furrowed his eyebrows,“Exactly, because I’ve always waited for you,” Jungkook was getting tired of this, Yoongi just shrugged as turned away from Jungkook, looking back at school. “Hey, what’s wrong? You seem more grumpy than usual,” Jungkook mocked Yoongi’s demeanour, Yoongi just looked at Jungkook with annoyance.“I don’t want to go to school,” Yoongi said, looking at Jungkook waiting for him to say something,“Yoongi…” Jungkook paused, making sure Yoongi was thinking the same thing he was, Yoongi gave Jungkook a little smile, Jungkook smiled back. “Let’s go,” Jungkook took Yoongi’s hand, the two raced away from the school, “you drive,” Jungkook commanded as they got to Yoongi’s car,“I always drive,” Yoongi sighed, but he didn’t fight it as he got into the driver's seat. “Where do you want to go today?” Yoongi asked, taking his bag off and throwing it in the back, Jungkook did the same.“Starbucks,” Jungkook grinned evilly, Yoongi groaned as he gripped onto the steering wheel.“Why?” Yoongi whispered, “Because I like their cappuccinos, and I like hearing you complain about Starbucks,” Jungkook watched for Yoongi’s reaction,“I fucking hate you so much,” Yoongi started his car, “Yes!” Jungkook cheered, throwing his hands up in the air, Yoongi tossed his head at Jungkook’s reaction. _-•-_Yoongi parked the car, taking out the keys, he looked at Jungkook, he was staring at him with great excitement, “You need to get a life,” Yoongi got out of the car, Jungkook laughed, getting out as well,“Getting a life is so overrated,” Jungkook sarcastically rolled his eyes. The two of them walk into the Starbucks, being surrounded by skinny moms and businessmen with their suits, Yoongi grimaced at the people around him. “Ah, your face makes my day,” Jungkook wrapped his arm around Yoongi’s shoulder, Yoongi took a deep breath, closed his eyes to retrieve calm before letting it out in a heavy sigh. “Just get your stupid drink,” Yoongi placed his hands in his pockets, waiting to the side of the café. People looked at him with judging looks, someone like Yoongi wasn’t ‘allowed’ in Starbucks in their minds. Wearing his long black sweaters and ripped jeans that show more leg than pant, people even cringe at his white hair. But does Yoongi care? Of course not, the only person he cares about is Jungkook and nothing he can do can damage how Jungkook thinks about him, at least that’s what Yoongi hopes. Jungkook walked back over to Yoongi, grabbing a seat across from where Yoongi was standing. “Come and sit,” Jungkook kicked the chair out from the table, Yoongi obeyed and sat down, watching Jungkook as he took the first sip of his hot beverage. “Good to the last drop,” Jungkook took his mouth off the cup with a pop, causing Yoongi to jump the tiniest bit. “I think we should hold an intervention for your love of Starbucks, do you know how expensive this shit is for how mediocre it really is?” Yoongi asked, he couldn’t believe it, he hated so many things about Starbucks, he had nothing against coffee, in fact, he loves it, but Starbucks… Nope. “Here we go, rant Yoongi, rant!” Jungkook smiled widely, sipping his coffee, getting ready for the rant of the century. “First of all, the people, yeah I said it, everyone that goes to Starbucks is privileged, skinny, pieces of shit that have nothing better to spend their money on but coffee and makes you seem cool to your other girlfriends who also wears black leggings or short shorts!” Yoongi started,“Yeah, we need to burn,” Jungkook answered, enjoying this too much.“And the prices, the prices are ridiculous, like who would spend money on that? You can get the exact same coffee anywhere else for 99 cents and yet you feel like you need to spend four dollars on the same thing but Spanish,” Yoongi complained, “Si,” Jungkook mocked, “And they make you wait in line forever just so your coffee can be made by some hormonal teenagers that mispronounce your name, and to end it all, the coffee isn’t that great either, like why do you drink this? Why do you do this? Why did I drive you here?” Yoongi broke, he laid his head on the table, he felt Jungkook’s hand running through his hair. Yoongi calmed down, his eyes closed, it felt really good, Jungkook’s hands were nice. “Your hair is so soft,” Jungkook hummed to himself, stopping as soon as he said that, Yoongi brought his head up, Jungkook seemed embarrassed, “sorry,” Jungkook laughed it off.“It’s okay,” Yoongi ruffled his hair with his hand, he was embarrassed that he felt so good for Jungkook to comb through his hair. “We should get back to school, the second period will start soon,” Jungkook looked at his watch, Yoongi groaned, the previous conversation already lost in the wind.“Let’s go,” the two of them leaving, “goodbye Starfucks,” Yoongi flipped the building off as they left, Jungkook smirked,“Take this foul corporate chain scum!” Jungkook threw the rest of his coffee on the ground in front of the cafe, Yoongi looked at Jungkook in shock, smiling a little. “Jungkook-” Yoongi was speechless,“Run!” Jungkook cut him off anyways, both of them ran back to the car, “start the car, the police are coming to defend their corporate ally!” Jungkook joked, Yoongi played along, starting the car and whipping out, “WHOO,” Jungkook shouted, laughing hysterically. “You’re crazy,” Yoongi smiled a little, it was reasons like this Jungkook was his best friend, no one understood him like Jungkook. “You should come over tonight, my mom is ordering pizza because while dad is away, she’s going out with her friends, leaving the house totally empty,” Yoongi could hear Jungkook smirk, “Sure, it’ll be nice to not spend the night alone thinking about the void and our small existence in this vast universe,” “I’ll cheers to that,” Jungkook preached. _-•-_Yoongi knocked on Jungkook’s door, his duffle bag over his shoulder, it’s been a while since he spent the night at Jungkook’s. Jungkook opened the door, “hey Yoongi, come in, my mom got only pineapple pizza,” Jungkook raised his eyebrows, “Why do you enjoy hurting my soul?” Yoongi asked, walking in, Jungkook bounced into the kitchen, Yoongi followed Jungkook. “I ordered some terrible movies to watch and got some popcorn, drinks in the garage, my dad drank all the Pepsi so sorry about that,” Jungkook explained, “It’s okay, I just wanted some water anyways,” Yoongi shrugged. “Just water? Pussy,” Jungkook chuckled, “I can just leave,” Yoongi suggested, “Okay, I’ll stop,” Jungkook raised his hands in defence. A little later, Yoongi and Jungkook laid in Jungkook’s bed, watching the end of one of the terrible, in the movie a few teenagers were egging a house, Jungkook grabbed a fist full of popcorn. “Remember when we egged that guy’s house?” Jungkook asked,“The one that cut me in the lunch line?” Yoongi turned to Jungkook,“No,”“The one that made fun of Jimin?” Yoongi asked,“Wait, which one that made fun of Jimin?” Jungkook branched off again,“The one who said his dancing was bad,” Yoongi explained,“I thought we egged the one who tripped him,” Jungkook furrowed his eyebrows,“Yeah, yeah, I remember that one,” Yoongi nodded. “I don’t know why I mentioned it now,” Jungkook pondered reality,“Me neither, but yet again, I haven’t really understood anything you’ve done,” Yoongi confessed. “Even when we were children?” Jungkook asked,“Especially then, you were just an active child, how someone could be that active freaked me out,” Yoongi sunk into the bed,“I see, I see,” Jungkook nodded slowly, doing the same. They stared at each other, Yoongi looked into Jungkook’s dark brown hairs. “You like my eyes?” Jungkook asked, probably joking but Yoongi nodded subconsciously, Jungkook flustered a little bit. “I mean, your eyes are nice, but like normal people’s eyes are cool too, but you're nice, but-” Yoongi was getting awkward, “Thank you,” Jungkook cut him off, sparing him the embarrassment. The silence went on again, Yoongi had this feeling in his chest, it was uneasy and yet he didn’t want to move for that spot. He was so awkward now despite Jungkook’s words, Jungkook seemed the same. Yoongi and Jungkook’s hands were intertwined, but that was normal, ever since they were young and Yoongi had a nightmare, Jungkook held his hand to show that he wasn’t alone and it kind of caught on and now every single time they lay or sit next to each other they hold hands. Yoongi squeezed Jungkook’s hand tighter, Jungkook looked deeper into Yoongi’s eyes, both of them were moving closer slowly. Yoongi lips got dangerously close to Jungkook’s, too close, and Jungkook’s eyes were closing, his heart going crazy. ‘Bring, bring, bring,’ the sound of Jungkook’s phone brings noise to the silence, separating the two boys. Jungkook shot up answering his phone, “hey mom,” Jungkook’s voice cracked, “yeah it is… Okay, have fun, love you,” Jungkook hung up, Jungkook looked back at Yoongi,“I have to go to the bathroom,” Yoongi rushed out of the room, his heart was beating so much. What was going on? What was this feeling in his chest?
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_-2-_Jungkook walks into his classroom, after the weekend, everything has been pretty awkward between him and Yoongi, but both of them were trying their hardest to make it seem not awkward. “Hey Jungkook, what’s up?” Jimin asked, “Nothing much, how about you?” Jungkook sat down next to Jimin and Taehyung,“Me, Namjoon and Jin went to the beach and had a nice walk on Saturday,” Taehyung chimed in, “In February?” Jungkook asked,“Yeah, why not, it was fun,” Taehyung smiled. Jimin turned to Jungkook,“What did you do?” Jimin asked Jungkook, honestly, Jungkook stayed at home after Yoongi went home on Saturday, he kind of just thought over everything. “Yoongi and I hung out on Friday as I told you we would, and we, well, I guess we almost kissed or something like that,” Jungkook was embarrassed to tell his friends that, but he kind of needed help thinking about his feelings.“You almost kissed Yoongi?!” Jimin exclaimed, Jungkook immediately shoved his hand in front of Jimin’s mouth to shut him up. “Shh, not so loud, someone might hear you, jeez, I should never tell you anything,” Jungkook took his hand away, leaning back in his chair. “Sorry, sorry,” Jimin bowed in his seat, “How was it?” Taehyung asked with curiosity,“We didn’t kiss,” Jungkook explained, “Well, the same thing,” Taehyung rolled his eyes, waiting for a response.“Let’s just slow our ropes, we don’t even know why they almost did,” Jimin stopped Taehyung,“I’m just a little confused, you know with my emotions, how did you feel when you knew you liked Hoseok?” Jungkook asked, Jimin paused, he had to think about that for a second. “I don’t know, I guess I just knew I did, I’m not the best with relationships Jungkook,” Jimin confessed,“You can ask my brother, he’s been dating Jin for a few years now,” Taehyung suggested,“You know what nevermind, we were both tired and it’s probably nothing, so just throw what I said out the window,” Jungkook laughed it off, Jimin and Taehyung looked at each other._-•-_Jungkook went to the soccer field after school to play some ball with his team. And despite everything, there Yoongi stood at the end but the parking lot, sitting on one of the yellow cement blocks watching. This time it was a bit weird, Jungkook had never had any doubts playing before, but now, with Yoongi watching him, he felt insecure. He caught himself thinking things, like what if he messed up or fell down, or what if he missed the ball, should he wave to Yoongi or just play on? He never had these thoughts before, what did he ever do before this whole thing happened?“Jungkook, are you there?” One of his teammates asked, Jungkook whipped his head towards the person that was speaking,“Yeah, sorry,” Jungkook sighed, clearing his head.After an hour, the team stopped playing, everyone went their own way, Jungkook looked to where Yoongi was, he was talking with Jimin and Hoseok, Jungkook grabbed his bag and ran over just as they were leaving. “What did they want?” Jungkook asked, catching his breath,“They asked me out to a restaurant tomorrow night, I’ll probably go,” Yoongi explained,“I’m going with them too,” Jungkook smiled,“Yeah, they told me, they passed it off as a selling point as if you didn’t go I wouldn’t have,” Yoongi rolled his eyes,“Would’ve?”“Probably not, I mean, I would think about it, but most likely wouldn’t,” Yoongi grabbed his bag, Jungkook couldn’t help but smile at the fact that he was a selling point to Yoongi. What was he thinking? What does he care? “Let’s go,” Yoongi grabbed his keys out of his sweater,“Okay,” Jungkook followed his friend to his car. _-•-_Jungkook and Yoongi laughed over a joke as they talked over some of Jungkook’s mother's famous sandwiches. It was typical Friday night if Yoongi didn’t sleep over, then at least he would come over after school. “Are you serious?” Yoongi asked,“I’m not joking, I swear Jin needs to just stop,” Yoongi sighs, his smile still bright, the one that makes Jungkook’s heart stop only for a second.“Well it is Jin,” Jungkook shrugged, Yoongi seemed like he agreed to that statement. “So you going to the restaurant tomorrow?” Yoongi brought up out of the blue, Jungkook nodded,“Yeah, I haven’t hung out with Jimin or Hoseok for a while, and it’s free food,” Jungkook confirmed, “Good,” Yoongi answered, Jungkook made eye contact with Yoongi, “Yeah,” Jungkook felt the same way, it was awkward between the two, but they were both trying to act like it was normal. But both of them were desperately trying to tell themselves that it was nothing, that they were friends and the other didn’t think anything more._-•-_Jungkook caught a ride with Jimin and Hoseok, they were dressed up in fancy casual, apparently, Hoseok got Yoongi in a pair of jeans that didn’t have rips in them, and Jungkook was excited to see how his best friend could clean up. “Here we are, you and Jimin go in, I’ll find a parking spot,” Hoseok explained, so Jimin and Jungkook went in, “Hello, Park for 4,” Jimin explained, the waitress brought them to a table, where Yoongi was already sitting, he was pretty annoyed. “Where have you been?” Yoongi stood up, “Sorry, we got caught up in traffic,” Jimin defended himself, Jungkook looked at Yoongi, he looked pretty good, button up shirt, black jeans, his hair looked like it was actually brushed, it was a weird look, but one that Yoongi stilled pulled off. Jungkook took his seat next to Yoongi, Jimin looked at his phone, “I’ll be right back, Hoseok said the car broke down, if I’m not back soon, order without us,” Jimin raced out of the restaurant, leaving Jungkook and Yoongi by themselves.“So this place is nice,” Jungkook looked around, Yoongi nodded, taking a sip of his water.“Still annoyed that you guys were late, leaving me alone is a restaurant in a tight ass shirt,” Yoongi complained.“I think you’re fine, don’t worry, you look really nice,” Jungkook managed to spit out with it sounding too awkward, Yoongi seemed a little flustered. “Thanks, these are Hoseok’s,” Yoongi stuttered, Jungkook looked around for the waitress, hoping to order something to occupy his time until Hoseok and Jimin came back. The time flew past, five minutes turned into fifteen minutes into a half an hour, by then Jungkook and Yoongi ordered something to eat. “What is taking them so long?” Yoongi groaned,“The car has a problem, so it could be serious?” Jungkook suggested,“I have a car too, they would’ve shot us a text if they had to tow it or take it somewhere,” Yoongi looked at his phone, Jungkook did the same to see if they left him a message. Jungkook shot Jimin a quick text with a response that was almost right after. “They said they had to go home, family emergency, have fun, winky face,” Jungkook pressed his lips in a straight line. “Fuck,” Yoongi cursed under his breath, but enough for Jungkook to hear him. “We already ordered food, so we can’t just leave,” Jungkook explained, both of them sighed at the same time. “Fine,” Yoongi’s attitude made Jungkook feel more uncomfortable, he knew this wasn’t Yoongi’s favourite place on earth and wearing clothes that he didn’t like, but he thought at least they would have a good time together. “How did they get to the emergency if their car broke down?” Jungkook questioned,“Honestly, don’t know, don’t care,” Yoongi bluntly said,“It’s just, they invited us out, and then left right as soon as we got here, it’s like-” it all clicked for Jungkook, it was something Jimin would do. “What?” Yoongi looked up at Jungkook, Jungkook didn’t want to answer, it was just going to make thing awkward again. “Spill it, Kook,” Yoongi pushed,“I told Jimin that we almost kissed, and I think this is a set-up,” Jungkook cut to the chase, Yoongi’s jaw dropped, but his face got a bit red.“Oh,” and that’s all Yoongi said for a few minutes, when their food came they just sat there and ate it in silence.It was only after they finished and Jungkook opened his mouth to say something, but Yoongi beat him to the chase, “why would you tell Jimin, or anyone of that matter that we almost kissed?” Yoongi asked, Jungkook was frozen there with no excuse,“Because,” Jungkook didn’t make eye contact with Yoongi, but that didn’t stop him,“I mean, I know it’s awkward, but we didn’t kiss, we almost did sure, but why did you have to go tell Jimin?!” Yoongi’s voice was louder than it was usually, Jungkook felt really bad,“Sorry, I was just confused,” Jungkook confessed,“About what? Jungkook what goes on between us, stays between us, what else have you been telling Jimin or anyone else for that matter?” Yoongi asked,“I was confused about how I felt okay? I’ve kissed many people, but-”“Way to rub my nose in it,” Yoongi scoffed,“Let me finish!” Jungkook huffed, “I kissed many, but I never felt this way before,” Jungkook finished, Yoongi paused, looking at Jungkook, it was too late to go back now. Jungkook licked his lips nervously, he took some money out of his wallet and placed it on the table. “I’m sorry, I’ll be leaving first, see you around,” Jungkook rushed out, he didn’t look behind to see what Yoongi did, he just called a taxi and went home._-•-_The next week or so were quite awkward, for the first time in years, Yoongi wasn’t over there on the Friday night after school. Jungkook didn’t know what to do with himself, they weren't talking. They weren’t mad at each other, at least to Jungkook’s knowledge, but not talking, is still not talking no matter what. Jungkook nervously sat in his living room, talking to his mother.“I hope you and Yoongi make up soon, you’ve been friends for so long,” his mother comforted him, Jungkook didn’t tell his mother what happened to make them not talk, he just said they fought. “Thanks, I’m going to my room,” Jungkook sighed, “Okay, my friend is here to pick me up, so you call me if you need anything,” his mother reminded him as she left, Jungkook went up to his room, looking out his window. He wondered what Yoongi was doing at that moment, in his little ground floor apartment by himself on a night like this? It was raining like all hell and he was left feeling bad that he let the best friendship he ever had be destroyed by something like this. He was just a coward, here they weren’t talking and Jungkook didn’t even get to tell Yoongi how he felt, what he found out about himself, he regrets it, but life has its reasons. His phone rang, it was Yoongi, Jungkook was so surprised, he almost didn’t answer it. “Hello?” Jungkook spit out,“Jungkook,” Yoongi voice sounded just as nervous as Jungkook felt, “can you come over, I need to talk to you about something, something I want to admit to you,” Yoongi left him hanging, before Jungkook could agree, he hung up. Jungkook looked around, thinking about how to get across town to Yoongi’s house, he had his driver's license but no car, but his mother's car was still in the driveway. He wasn’t supposed to drive it without her permission, but this seemed innocent enough, he grabbed his coat and raced down the stairs, grabbing the keys and jumping into the car. Jungkook started to drive to Yoongi’s house, thinking about all the things that could go right at that moment, or all things wrong. He liked Yoongi, quite a bit and he knew that now, he knew what they would eat when they went out afterwards, they would go a lamb skewers restaurant and laugh about school. They would go to their special spot and skip rocks into the water as they do on Sunday mornings. He couldn’t wait, he kept thinking of things, like their trips to Starbucks, the way Yoongi looked with his black sweaters and how much he couldn’t wait to just sit down and watch some of their favourite terrible movies together. He smiled as he raced to catch the yellow light, he stepped on the pedal as soon as the red light turned, knowing he could make it. He was going to make it, he got to the middle of the four-way stop as the sounds of a car horn in the distance got closer faster, he just needed to tell Yoongi he-
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_-3-_Yoongi waited for Jungkook, he checked his phone a couple of times, but no response, it’s been an hour and no Jungkook. He was starting to get worried, it only took ten minutes to get from Jungkook’s house to his by car, and walking here didn’t even take this long, he was getting worried. Someone was calling him, he looked down, hoping it was Jungkook, but it wasn’t, it wasn’t, it was Hoseok, why would he be calling this late? “Hey Hoseok, can’t really talk, Jungkook is coming over soon,” Yoongi explained, the other line was quiet, the sounds of people talking and crying in the background, like he was in a crowded room or something. “Hoseok?” Yoongi asked, maybe he pocket dialled him,“Yoongi, Jungkook isn’t coming over there,” Hoseok told, Yoongi was confused,“What? Why?” Yoongi asked, a million of things raced through his head,“Because Jungkook got into an accident, he’s in here in the hospital, I came here with Jimin, you should get over here,” Hoseok’s voice was shaky and soon Yoongi couldn’t even stand properly. “Yoongi?” Hoseok asked, but Yoongi just hung up, he looked around, unaware of what to do. Where were his keys, his jacket, did any of that matter when your best friend is in the hospital. He decided against it as he raced to the hospital, his eyes were on the road, but his eyes were elsewhere, his mouth in a permanently open position as he couldn’t come to terms of what happened. Once he got there, he raced around, trying to find anyone, he didn’t know where to go or what to do? He was scared and worried, what if Jungkook was dying, it would all be his fault. “There’s Yoongi,” Jimin could be heard, he turned around to see Jimin and Hoseok standing with Jimin’s mom and dad. Jimin raced to Yoongi, giving him a huge hug. Jimin just started to ball, Yoongi couldn’t hold his own tears in as he started to cry too. “Everyone is on their way over,” Hoseok explained, Yoongi didn’t know what to ask first.“How is he? What happened?” Yoongi asked,“We don’t know, all we know is that he was in an accident and he just came out of surgery, his mom is in with him, they won’t tell us anything, we told her that he was coming to see you though,” Jimin sniffled. Yoongi was breathing quickly, all of this was his fault, at least he was alive, but for how long?“He’s going to be okay,” Hoseok reassured his friend, Yoongi took those words and tried to calm himself down. Jin, Taehyung and Namjoon came soon after, and Jimin and Hoseok explained it all to him, Yoongi just kind of stood there, awkwardly, he didn’t know what to think, everything was a surprise.“Hey, how if I get you some coffee or some tea, or even some water,” Namjoon suggested to Yoongi, Yoongi looked up at Namjoon, he nodded, and said nothing more, so Namjoon decided to just get him some water. “Hey, Yoongi why don’t we sit down?” Jin suggested,“Hey, Yoongi are you feeling okay?” Taehyung asked,“Hey, Yoongi, why did you call Jungkook over so late?” Hoseok sat down next to him,“Hey, Yoongi here your water,” Namjoon gave him the plastic bottle, Yoongi didn’t hear any of the words, he was too far gone in his own head.“He’s okay,” Yoongi looked up, at Jimin, he looked hopeful, Yoongi smiled a little, Jimin smiled back, even if it wasn’t true, he had to believe in the best then dread the worse. A doctor could be seen coming out of Jungkook’s room with his mother, she looked sad but she wasn’t crying, everyone looked over to her waiting for them to walk over to them, to tell them good news or bad news. Which they did after a few seconds, “thank you all for coming,” Jungkook’s mother bowed, everyone bowed back. “How is Jungkook?” Jimin asked, “He’s going to be fine, has a broken foot and some bent bones, but now that he went through surgery, he’ll heal and everything will be fine,” his mother smiled, everyone breathed a sigh of relief. “Can I go in and see him?” Yoongi stood up, he needed to talk to Jungkook, and apologize, but Jungkook’s mother looked sadly at the doctor.“Yoongi…” “Jungkook seems to have declarative amnesia, it’s a rare kind of amnesia that affects the personal memories of certain memories or skills they’ve learned, mostly the things they think about the most or whatever was on their mind during the impact,” the doctor explained. “What are you talking about?” Taehyung asked, “What does he forget?”“Yoongi, I’m sorry… ” Jungkook’s mother looked at her feet. Yoongi rushed past them, pushing into Jungkook’s room, the others following him. Jungkook was just there, looking out the window from his bed, “Mom?” Jungkook looked towards Yoongi, he looked so innocent, Yoongi could feel tears in his eyes, “Excuse? Do I know you? Do you have the wrong room?” Jungkook asked, Yoongi could feel his heart clench, Jin and Namjoon came up behind him.“Hey,” Jungkook smiled at his other friends, Yoongi just stood there, “Hey Jungkook how are you feeling?” Namjoon asked, “I could be better, I honestly don’t know how I got here, my mom said I got into an accident,” Jungkook awkwardly laughed, he looked behind them again, “do you know him?” Jungkook whispered,“Yeah, he’s cool, don’t worry,” Jin reassured, Jimin, Hoseok and Taehyung came in, Jungkook looked happy to see them. Yoongi just couldn’t handle it. Yoongi ran off, out of the room, he could hear someone following him, “Yoongi!” Jin called out for him. “Stop! Don’t follow me!” Yoongi cried, he followed him down outside the hospital.“Yoongi,” Jin grabbed Yoongi’s wrist, Yoongi just collapsed on the ground, “Yoongi,” Jin kneeled down, “He doesn’t remember me,” Yoongi was shaking,“It’s only temporary, he’ll remember you soon,” Jin comforted Yoongi, who just sat there.“I’m pretty sure I love him Jin, and I was going to tell him, I made him go out tonight, I made him get into the accident, he’s hurt because of me,” Yoongi shook his head of the tears he was shedding.“Don’t beat yourself up over this Yoongi, he’ll get better, he’ll remember you and you can tell him then,” Jin reminded him that it’ll all be better soon.“What if he doesn’t?”“We will,” Jin was lying, there was a chance Jungkook would never remember those things he’s forgotten.“Yeah,” Yoongi stood up, he wiped the tears from his eyes,“Why don’t we go back in there and we can introduce you to him again,” Jin laughed it off,“I just need some time,” Yoongi walked off, Jin watched Yoongi escape into the darkness of night, he didn’t know what to do. _-•-_Jungkook gets better, like they said he would, no one has seen Yoongi since the night of the accident. “Hey Jungkook,” Taehyung entered Jungkook’s room, Jungkook turned to Taehyung.“Hey Taehyung, how are you?” Jungkook asked, “Good, good, and you?”“Great, they say my rib has healed enough for me to go home at the end of the weekend,” Jungkook grinned,“That’s great,” Taehyung sat at the side of his bed. Jungkook has always liked seeing Taehyung the most, it was weird, it’s just something about Taehyung that seemed more familiar than usual.“So, how are Jin and Namjoon, they haven’t stopped by for a while,” Jungkook inquired,“They’re busy, sorry, but they sent me, the second best thing,” Taehyung smirked, Jungkook laughed,“Oh come on, you're better than second best,” Jungkook reassured Taehyung. “Well thanks,” Taehyung playfully blushed, laughing it off right after, “I was thinking after you got out we could get you some lamb skewers, you deserve it after what you went through,” Taehyung offered, Jungkook looked confused, “Lamb skewers? What is that?” Jungkook asked, Taehyung laughed like it was a joke, but he slowly stopped, realized it was his memory loss.“Oh, sorry, it’s just one of your favourite foods,”“Really? But I never had one before,” Jungkook felt a little weird, “Oh, I must have been mistaken,” Taehyung let out a keening sound from his throat, they haven’t really told Jungkook he has amnesia, they say that makes the person more stressed to remember which does the opposite. “Okay,” Jungkook wasn’t sure he was mistaken, but he let it slide._-•-_Yoongi climbed up the tree that leans against Jungkook’s wall. He decided if Jungkook wasn’t supposed to know him, then he shouldn’t chance Jungkook throwing all their precious pictures away. So like a good friend, he broke into Jungkook’s room, using Jungkook’s window that doesn’t lock. He took a breath, he didn’t know the next time he would come into this room, he was kind of sad, he has gotten so many messages from his friends asking where he was, and giving updates on Jungkook. It wasn’t helping though, them reminding him about Jungkook made he want to stay away longer, but he had to go back to school one day, he still wanted to graduate. Yoongi put his bag down and started to take down all the photos and specials things he gave him. It was bittersweet seeing the room so bare, he knows that this was probably for the greater good, but it sucked to think he had to live his life without Jungkook by his side. He zipped up his backpack that was full of memories and climbed back down the tree, walking off to his car. _-•-_Jungkook’s mom helped him inside, it was nice to be home, he looked forward to going back into his room and sleeping in a normal bed. Believe it or not, he was looking forward to going to school and see all his classmates. When Jungkook came in his room, it looked different, like someone robbed it, but Jungkook couldn’t for the life of him remember what it would be that was stolen, maybe pictures, but what were the pictures of? Jungkook got a headache just thinking about it, what was happening?
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_-4-_Jungkook’s first day back at school, he still had a broken foot, so he wobbled around on crunches, but the doctor said he could take it off in a week, so it seemed that everything was going to be fine soon. After almost a month at the hospital and a couple of weeks at home, his parents decided he could return to school. He was happy, to say the least. Taehyung and Jimin helped him around, Jungkook really liked having Taehyung around, there was this feeling missing in his chest and having Taehyung there made it better. Hoseok came running up to them, holding a few coffee cups, “I got some Starbucks for our injured friend,” Hoseok handed one of the cups to Jungkook.“If this a new store?” Jungkook asked, “No,” Jimin took a sip, “How come I’ve never heard of it before?” Jungkook asked, taking a sip, “this bad, where is this from? Starbucks was it?” Jungkook looked at the cup, “Yeah,” Hoseok answered, Taehyung took out his list of things Jungkook’s forgot, added Starbucks to the list. “You seriously don’t like it?” Jimin asked, Jungkook nodded, giving the cup back to Hoseok, “why would you drink it all the time then?” Jimin asked himself,“I’ve drunk it before?” Jungkook was surprised, he obviously heard him, they all froze, Jungkook gave up, “nevermind,” Jungkook rolled his eyes. “Let’s get you to class,” Taehyung changed the subject, helping Jungkook up the stairs of their school. Jungkook had a big suspicion that there was something his friends weren’t telling him. There were gaps in his memories for things you would’ve of thought he would remember, places he knows he’s been but has no memory of, foods that people say he’s eaten, but he can’t remember eating them before, an empty feeling filled his chest, his mother said he may forget somethings because of the accident, but Jungkook doesn’t even understand what that means. _-•-_Yoongi walked into the classroom, Jin looked behind him to look at Yoongi, more like everyone looked at Yoongi. But before anyone could say anything, Yoongi sat in the back, putting his head down on the table, and that’s how it was for the entire class. “Hey Yoongi, how are you?” Jin asked, walking over to him after the bell rang,“Fine,” Yoongi groaned, Jin didn’t believe him, “Where have you been for the past month? People have been worried,” Jin asked, he was trying to contain a smile, he was just happy he was back,“I don’t care,” Yoongi mumbled. “Well, class is over, why don’t we get something to eat,” Jin offered, Yoongi brought his head up,“Lamb skewers,” Yoongi whispered to himself, sighed,“Sure, let’s get you some lamb skewers,” Jin smiled, everything was going to get better. _-•-_The next day, Jin convinced Yoongi to come to sit with him during lunch, but when Jin saw him, Yoongi had all these injuries all over him. Brushes on his face, cuts on his knees, he seemed unfazed though. “Yoongi what happened?” Hoseok asked, “Nothing,” Yoongi blew it off, Hoseok looked at Jin, it was worrying. Who knows where Yoongi was through all this time, and now he was getting into fights. “Who beat you up?” Jin asked, looking at Yoongi’s injuries, Yoongi gave him a death stare,“No one beat me up, not like it’s any of your business anyways,” Yoongi sat down away from the two. “Hoseok,” Jin looked at Hoseok with worry as Yoongi shut himself from the world. “Hey, guys!” Taehyung called out, everyone turned around, Taehyung and Jungkook were making their way over to them. Jin and Hoseok looked at Yoongi, who was emotionless, he just stared at Jungkook, no one knew what he was thinking. “Hey Jin, hey Hoseok, how was your morning?” Jungkook asked, “Pretty good, thank you,” Hoseok smiled,“Are you excited to get your cast off in a few days?” Jin asked, Jungkook nodded,“I just want to play soccer again, like my god,” Jungkook laughed at it. After a few minutes of talking, Jungkook looked to the side to see Yoongi again, it was weird, he knew that he knew Jin or someone in his friend group but no one mentioned him before. “Hey, I’m Jungkook by the way,” Jungkook reached out his hand, Yoongi looked up at Jungkook, it was like someone was mocking him, it hurt. Yoongi didn’t say anything, he just groaned to himself.“Yoongi you should be nicer,” Jin explained to Yoongi,“It’s okay,” Jungkook sighed, “you can’t expect much from someone who dresses like that, when did you guys even become friends?” Jungkook laughed, Yoongi looked up at Jungkook, he wanted to say that it wasn’t Jungkook, but it was! Just Jungkook without any memory of him, this is how he really feels, that hurt. Yoongi stood up, everyone turned to him,“I dress the way I want to, you don’t get to comment on my looks,” Yoongi spit,“Look man, I’m sorry, I just never seen someone dressed like you,” Jungkook apologized, Yoongi didn’t let down,“Maybe if you took time and got to know me then you may have the right to talk behind my back, but why get to know me when you just be a fucker right now!” Yoongi yelled, “Yoongi-” Jin tried to stop Yoongi, but he walked off, everyone looked at Yoongi who was walking away. “What is with him?” Jungkook asked,“That’s just how he is sometimes, it’s nothing against you,” Taehyung explained, Jungkook couldn’t just let it go, something wasn’t right._-•-_Yoongi ended up at the end of the school road, he got into his car, turned it on and just started to scream. He was mean to Jungkook, he yelled at him, the first words he heard from him were words of pent up anger. Yoongi didn’t mean to that mean to Jungkook, it’s just so hard to know that Jungkook doesn’t remember anything. And even if Jungkook got his memories back, what would happen? Would him and Jungkook go back to normal? Yoongi couldn’t stop the tears, he knew Jungkook would get better, but why did it hurt so much in the process?
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_-5-_Jungkook sat in Taehyung’s car after soccer practice, “Thanks for driving me Tae, I appreciate it,” Jungkook thanked,“You’re welcome,”“I can’t remember who use to drive me home before the accident,”“Well the doctors said you still may be a bit shaken up, so that’s completely normal,” Taehyung explained.“But I feel like I’m missing so much, like what even is my favourite food, have I ever had a favourite food or am I being crazy?” Jungkook asked,“I don’t think you're crazy, but you are looking into this too much Jungkook, why don’t we go eat something special, you know, since we don’t have school tomorrow,” Taehyung suggested, “Okay! What do you have in mind?” Jungkook asked,“Maybe some lamb skewers,”“Lamb skewers?” It was then Taehyung realized Jungkook forgot that too, how many things was Jungkook thinking about before the crash?“They are skewers, but with lamb, you’ll like it, trust me,” Taehyung felt like giggling, but he held it in. “Okay, I can’t argue if you’re the one paying,” Jungkook shrugged, and away they went. Taehyung put on some of Jungkook’s favourite music, in which he somehow still remembered, it was weird. “Hey Tae, I know my mom says that I was in an accident and that’s why I forgot some things, but there is something that doesn’t make sense, how was I in the accident? Every time I ask they change the suspect,” Jungkook asked as Taehyung focused on the road. “Does it really matter?” Taehyung asked,“Of course it does, there are so many things that I feel like I’ve forgotten and it’s bugging me,” Jungkook complained, hitting the console. “I can’t really help you, I do know that you don’t remember a few things, like lamb skewers, I know you loved these,” Taehyung pointed at the sign as they pulled into the parking lot. “Really?” Jungkook looked at the place, “see, I have no memory of those, but I remember this area,” Jungkook looked around. “It’s so weird, well… Let’s go in and see if you still like it,” Taehyung smiled, Jungkook got out, it was so weird. Taehyung lead Jungkook inside and Jungkook felt a bit nostalgic and it weird. “Table for two,” Taehyung called the woman's attention,“Of course-” she looked up at Jungkook, “Jungkook! I haven’t seen you here in such a long time, I heard about the accident,” the woman smiled,“Hui? When have you worked here?” Jungkook asked,“Good one Jungie, I’ll get you your table, free drinks tonight,” Hui brings them to a booth, Jungkook and Taehyung sit down, “I’ll be right back with your drinks and food, I still remember exactly what you like,” Hui winked as she left. Jungkook turned to Taehyung,“I know her, but I don’t know where,” Jungkook whispered.“Well apparently you came here a lot,” Taehyung shrugged, he knew he probably came with Yoongi, but he still didn’t know if it was his place to say he knew Yoongi. “And this seat, this isn’t my seat, this is what I’m talking about Tae, things like this happen and I don’t even know why I don’t remember these when all I was in was an accident,” Jungkook complained.Hui came with food and drinks, they made polite conversation, but it was all confusing to Jungkook. “Well these look good, to be honest, I have only had these once or twice,” Taehyung takes some and starts to eat, Jungkook waits a couple of seconds before taking a bite. Jungkook did admit these were good, but it was bittersweet, Jungkook looked up at Taehyung, there was something about Taehyung sitting there, it sparked something in Jungkook, something that made the part of him that felt empty just a little more full. “Thank you for bringing me here Taehyung,” Jungkook smiled,“You’re welcome Kookie, anything for you,” Taehyung smiled back,“Maybe we could go to a movie afterwards,” Jungkook suggested,“Yeah, sure,” Taehyung nodded. _-•-_Jungkook sat at the outside table with Hoseok and Jimin, “and then he drove me home, it was rather nice,” Jungkook shared with his friends,“So you basically went on a date,” Hoseok pursed his lips.“I mean, I guess, either way, it was nice,” Jungkook passed it off as nothing, “Good, I’m glad you are doing better,” Jimin touched Jungkook’s arm, smiling. “Thanks, I think I’m getting a hand of these things, it only seems to be foods that I’ve forgotten, so nothing big, actually Taehyung is taking me out to a play on Sunday, I mean it’s new for both of us, but still I’m looking forward to it,” Jungkook exclaimed. “Well I hope you have fun, we should all hang out again, maybe after school this week,” Jimin suggested,“Yeah, I know that Namjoon is playing at this club on Wednesdays, so maybe then,” Hoseok shared,“Good idea, I’ll talk to Taehyung about it,” Jungkook smiled, his phone rang, “it’s my mom, one second,” Jungkook got up and walked out of earshot. “He’s dating Taehyung!” Jimin whispered angrily to his lover,“I know, like it’s so obvious that something is happening,” Hoseok agreed. “But Jungkook obviously likes Yoongi, why is he falling for Taehyung?” Jimin was pretty confused, “I think it’s because Taehyung is helping Jungkook remember all the memories that happened with Yoongi, that Jungkook is visualizing all his lost memories on Taehyung,” Hoseok gave his explanation, “Wow, that’s deep, you should be a therapist,” Jimin leaned on Hoseok, “Thanks baby,” Hoseok kissed Jimin’s hair. “I’m still scared for not only Yoongi, but Jungkook and Taehyung, we should really warn Taehyung about this,” Jimin didn’t give up,“I agree,” Hoseok raised his eyebrows._-•-_Hoseok knocked on Yoongi’s door, no answer, Hoseok sighed. He needed to talk to Yoongi about what’s going on with Taehyung and Jungkook, but reassuring him that it was all being taken care of. Hoseok looked up and saw a light, Hoseok sighed and jumped his fence and climbed up the moss ladder to the roof. Yoongi sat there, crossed legged staring across the street at Taehyung’s house. “Hey Yoongi, I didn’t think you came up here anymore,” Hoseok laughed,“He’s out with Taehyung right now,” Yoongi’s voice was quiet.“Yoongi…” Hoseok made his way to sit next to his friend,“I’m fine Hobi,” Yoongi looked at his hands,“Are you? I want you to know that Taehyung understands what’s going on and is trying to keep it at bay, he doesn’t want to do anything against you, we’re all with you,” Hoseok comforted Yoongi, rubbing his back.“It’s not Taehyung I’m worried about, it’s Jungkook, he seems to be falling for him, at least he enjoys hanging out with Taehyung as much as he did with me,” Yoongi couldn’t stop the tears, he hasn’t cried this much before, but now the past month, he’s been crying almost every day. “Come on, everything will be fine,” Hoseok hated to see Yoongi like this,“Hoseok…”“Yeah?”“I love him,” Yoongi confessed, Hoseok pulled him close,“I know,” “He’s my reason to live,” Yoongi confessed again,“Nothing’s going to happen, he’ll remember soon,” Hoseok didn’t know if it was the truth or not, but he hoped so.“What if he never does, he doesn’t like me, he doesn’t know me, he is rebuilding our memories with Taehyung,” Yoongi wiped away his tears, he was getting angry instead. “Yoongi I-” Taehyung’s car pulled into his driveway, and instead of just Taehyung getting out, both Taehyung and Jungkook got out. Yoongi and Hoseok watched the couple walk to the door, they talked a bit and hugged, Hoseok sighed in relief. But when Hoseok opened his eyes again, he saw Jungkook grab Taehyung and pull him into a kiss, it was a kiss and it completely scared Hoseok. He looked at Yoongi, who just sat there, tears rolling down his face as he sat there quietly.“He… I…” Yoongi couldn’t speak, he just sat there, Hoseok pushed him back and sat in front of him, “Hey, why don’t we go inside, it’s getting pretty late and we have school together,” Hoseok laughed nervously, Yoongi’s eyes lost all the light they held, all the hope-gone.
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_-6-_Hoseok finds himself standing in front of Yoongi’s door the next morning, making sure everything was fine. No answer and Yoongi’s car was gone anyways so Hoseok hoped that he went to school and if not, that at least he was okay. Hoseok made his way across the street, knowing that Taehyung and Jungkook haven’t left. Taehyung opened the door, “is Jungkook here?” Hoseok asked,“No, his mother picked him up last night, how did you know he came over?” Taehyung asked,“I was on Yoongi’s roof, you know, with Yoongi, all night,” Hoseok tried to spark Taehyung's memory, it seemed to work.“Shit!” Taehyung covered his mouth, “I didn’t want it Hyung, I promise,” Taehyung apologized,“It doesn’t matter, it’s worst that you were the one that didn’t do it, Yoongi confessed to me that he loves Jungkook last night,” Hoseok said.“Really? He confessed to you?”“Yeah, which means he was ready to actually be with Jungkook and now Jungkook is kissing you, you live right across from Yoongi and you just let it happen?” Hoseok was mad, of course, but there was nothing he could do about it now.“It was a surprise, I’m sorry, I told Jungkook that I don’t like him, I told him that I think he only likes me because I’m showing you things that you forgot, I explained it and we talked, he apologized for kissing me and his mother picked him up,” Taehyung explained. “Well, Yoongi doesn’t know that!” Hoseok sighed,“I’m so sorry Hyung,” Taehyung felt so bad,“It’s okay, sorry I’m so mad, but I just watched light drain from someone's eyes,” Hoseok rolled his eyes.“Stop! You’re making me feel worse,” Taehyung pouted,“Just get your bag, I’ll drive you to school,” Hoseok changed the subject. _-•-_Everyone gathers together at lunch, they sit in Jin’s truck as they talk together. “Jeez, are you serious?” Jin asked,“Yeah, like Taehyung said, Jungkook is just projecting all his lost memories on Taehyung,” Hoseok played with Jimin’s hair as they talked. “But Taehyung told him that right?” Jin made sure,“Yeah, at least that’s what he said,” Hoseok shrugged.“Taehyung is really just trying to be a good friend and that’s nice of him,” Namjoon defended his brother. “We weren’t denying that,” Jin ruffled Namjoon’s hair,“Seokjin!” Namjoon pouted.“Getting back on our previous topic, Yoongi has gone rogue and I don’t know what he’ll do, it is Yoongi we’re talking about,” Hoseok brought it back,“Yoongi will come back, he always does, he really is like a cat,” Jimin chimed in. “I have a spare key so if we need too we can go in,” Jin takes out the key,“He gave you a spare key?”“Well technically I stole it, but Yoongi hasn’t asked for it back,” Jin shrugged.“That’s good, but we should find out where he is though, he could be anywhere,”“He’s probably at a bar or just driving off a cliff,” Namjoon rolled his eyes,“This is not funny, because Yoongi could actually be driving off a cliff, you have no idea how worried I am, I watched his life leave his eyes!” Hoseok stressed,“So should we search for him, I’m ready, I got a full tank of gas,” Jin hit the side of his car. “What are you guys talking about?” Jungkook asked, everyone jumped as they turned to Jungkook,“Where did you come from?” Jin asked,“Hell,” Jungkook joked, only Jimin chuckled, “Where is Taehyung, wasn’t he with you?” Namjoon asked a question himself,“He’s just getting some food, he’ll be here soon, so what’s happening, so seem worried,” Jungkook’s face dropped.“It’s one of our friends, we don’t know where he is and we’re kind of worried about him,” Jimin explained,“Is it that gang guy that yelled at me last week?” Jungkook asked, Jimin nodded,“I still find it amazing that you guys kept that friendship from me, like why didn’t you introduce me to him earlier?” Jungkook asked, “Well see what happened when we did,”“I guess, but still, why is he missing?” Jungkook asked, climbing on into the truck,“He’s been acting weirdly lately and now it’s gone out of hand,” Jin looked at his hands, “Can I help?” Everyone looked at Jungkook, it was kind of weird, “is that a bad idea?”“No, no, no,” Jin spoke his head, “I think you can help,” Namjoon nodded slowly. “Yeah, I would love to, if you guys are this distraught he must mean a lot to you guys,”“Oh boy, you have no idea,” Jimin whispered to himself. “So what do I do?” Jungkook asked,“Well Namjoon and I are going to travel around the outskirts in my truck tonight,” Jin explained what he would be doing,“Hobi and I will go to the around the town after school to see if he’s at any local bars,” Jimin said, Hoseok nodded.“I can go knock on his door if you want,” Jungkook offered,“Sure, you do that after school with Taehyung since he lives across from him,” Jin suggested,“Okay,” Jungkook smiled, they all hoped this would work, they all hoped that hearing Jungkook’s concern would be good for Yoongi, if he was home. _-•-_Jungkook and Taehyung parked the car after school and made their way to Yoongi’s house. “It’s weird that you have your house and then Yoongi’s house, it looks like it was burnt,” Jungkook joked,“It’s pretty crappy, but it’s nicer on the inside, plus he does live alone so…” Taehyung explained,“I see, I should stop making fun of him if I’m going to see if he’s okay,” Jungkook sighed,“Yeah, that might be for the best,” Taehyung smiled. Jungkook knocked on the door, no answer,“Yoongi? It’s me, Jungkook, Hoseok’s friend, are you home?” Jungkook knocked again,“His car is here,” Taehyung pointed out. “Yoongi… Your friends are really worried about you, I don’t know what happened, but you should at least contact them,” Jungkook said after he knocked once more.“Maybe he went on a walk,” Taehyung suggested,“Yeah, if he is home he’s not coming out, maybe you should knock,”“No, he doesn’t want to hear me right now,” Taehyung laughed nervously,“Why?”“Long story, let’s just tell Namjoon and he can come by later,” Taehyung lead Jungkook away from the door. _-•-_Yoongi sits, back against the wall next to the door. He finishes off the beer bottle and threw it across the room, hearing it shatter. Yoongi stumbled up, everything second, the words of Jungkook rang through his head, the visual of Jungkook kissing Taehyung, the sounds of cars. Yoongi screamed to himself, he hated this so much, and yet he had no reason to be angry. Jungkook seemed so happy, Jungkook has never kissed Yoongi the way he kissed Taehyung, he hasn’t even kissed him, if he really loved him Jungkook would’ve done that. Yoongi hated this, he hated how his best friend didn’t need him, he hated himself. He caused this, he caused this to himself, and now he was alone. Yoongi stood in one place for probably an hour, looking down at the box of pictures of Jungkook he put away and stole from Jungkook. Yoongi couldn’t even produce tears anymore, his anger, his sadness, it wouldn’t go away, there is no going back, there is nothing left. He opened his drawer, staring blankly at the knives that laid there. Yoongi took a knife, looking at his reflection in it, he stumbles back. Yoongi thinks of Jungkook, his smile, his laugh, his hair in the sunlight, this person wasn’t Jungkook, Jungkook wasn’t Jungkook without him, it was selfish, but Yoongi didn’t care. He missed the warmth of Jungkook’s hands, every night from the accident Yoongi has had the same nightmare of Jungkook dying in the crash, and without Jungkook there to comfort him, he just leaves him more empty. What was there to be cared for, Jungkook is happy without him, his own friends can’t even come to see if he’s okay, they have to send Jungkook and his boyfriend over, fuckers! Yoongi gritted his teeth as he held the knife to his wrist, his hair went over his eyes, and finally he just let it slide, the pain stung as Yoongi managed to do the other one, the pain throbbed, causing Yoongi to almost drop the knife, but the last of his sorrow, he made it through, slitting the other one too, flinging the knife on the ground as Yoongi looked at his wrists, he started to cry, he doesn’t deserve to be happy. “Jungkook…” Yoongi felt the world spin, the pain was numb and Yoongi heard his name being yelled out as he flopped on the floor.
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_-7-_Namjoon knocked on Yoongi’s door, “Yoongi!” Namjoon called out, “This isn’t funny anymore, I know you’re home, open up,” Namjoon yelled, Namjoon heard a thump from inside the house, like a body, Namjoon took Hoseok’s words to heart at that moment. His heart stopped, he waiting for any noise, after a minute and still nothing, Namjoon took out the spare key that he took from Jin and unlocked the door, Namjoon entered the house and he saw Yoongi on the floor, blood pouring out of his wrists, pooling around him. Namjoon felt like screaming, he dropped the keys and pick up his phone, dialling 911 as he kneeled next to Yoongi’s body. “Hello, my friend just slit his wrists, we need help right now!” Namjoon yelled,“Is he breathing sir?” The response asked,“I don’t have time for this! He’s dying,” Namjoon screamed,“We’re getting your address now, do you have a towel or a shirt around,”“Yeah,” Namjoon is frantic,“Press that against his wrists, we’re sending someone your way sir, stay on the line,” the woman said, Namjoon took off his shirt and took Yoongi’s hands, wrapping the shirt around his wrists. Namjoon didn’t know what to think, he lost so much blood, he didn’t even know if he was alive, my god, he wishes he’s alive, why did he do this? Could he be so stupid? The ambulance came, they took over, Namjoon just watched as they loaded Yoongi into the ambulance, “sir do you want to come with us?” One of the paramedics asked, Namjoon nodded and hopped in with everyone. Namjoon stared at Yoongi the entire ride, what would’ve happened if he didn’t show up in time, if he happened to come a minute or two later, but he could’ve also prevented this by coming one or two minutes sooner. _-•-_Namjoon paced back in front, the hospital gave him some spare clothes to change into, but Namjoon couldn’t sit down. Jin came running in, Namjoon looked at his fiance and embraced him. “He…”“Shh… It’s okay, everything is going to be okay,” Jin explained,“He lost so much blood, they need a transplant or he’s-”“Say no more, I’ll go tell them I’m the same blood type,” Jin left Namjoon there, Namjoon collapsed on the chair. He looked around, and watched as Hoseok, Jimin running into the hospital “What happened?” Hoseok asked,“I went to Yoongi’s and I used my spare key and he was lying there, blood everywhere,” Namjoon blinked a few times,“Oh, it’s okay, he’s going to be fine,” Jimin sat next to Namjoon.“Jin went to donate his blood, but there was just so much,” Namjoon stressed,“Okay, no more talking about it, Taehyung is coming, and we can just calm down and take deep breaths,” Jimin instructed, Namjoon took a deep breath, Hoseok sat down also.“I was scared of this,” Hoseok said to himself, Jin came back at the same time Taehyung came in, Jin explained that the doctors said if it was a few more seconds he would’ve really been dead. “But is he going to be okay now?” Taehyung asked,“They don’t know, it’s 50-50 really,” Jin answered, everyone fell into silence.“What triggered this? If it was because Taehyung and Jungkook kissed he would’ve done it sooner right?” Hoseok asked,“Please don’t say this, I don’t want to be the reason Yoongi dies,” Taehyung cried,“He’s not dead,” Jimin corrected.“Maybe it wasn’t the best thing to have Jungkook come over and ask if he’s alright,” Jin fidgeted with his bandage,“It’s no one's fault, let’s just focus on Yoongi’s health now,” Hoseok silenced everyone. Everyone kind of sat there, the sounds of hospitals rang through their ears as they waited for any kind of results. Too of their friends in the same year, the same few months, it was draining. _-•-_Yoongi felt the wind blow on his face, the smell of the ocean, he felt peaceful, was this heaven? Yoongi opened his eyes, he looked around, he was at Hillpoint Bay, the abandoned boating dock. Yoongi hasn’t been here in so long, the last time he was here it was new years and Jungkook stole some champagne and they escaped here to drink it. No one else knew this place or how to get here but him and Jungkook, it was a wonderful place to sit on the back of Jungkook’s fathers truck and stare out to the sea, throwing rocks. Yoongi looked down at his wrists, they were clean, no cuts, was this a dream or was this his version of heaven? Yoongi looked behind him, Jungkook’s fathers truck was there, Yoongi’s head then looked for Jungkook on instinct. And there standing on top of the hill was Jungkook, he looked out towards the sea. The hill was taller than a house, but the trees hid it from the public. Jungkook looked peaceful, smiling to himself, he looked so beautiful. He stepped forwards, knocking some rocks off the ledge, Yoongi wanted to scream but nothing came out, trying his hardest to speak to Jungkook, but nothing got through to him. “Jungkook!” Yoongi finally yelled, his voice seemed stressed, it wasn’t loud enough, no noise. Jungkook looked over to Yoongi, smiling, Jungkook’s smile makes Yoongi feel more worried than happy. Jungkook turned back towards the sea and he took a running jump into the water. Yoongi’s face froze as Jungkook seemed to fall in slow motion, his head started to throb as his wrist stung, he could feel the blood running down his wrists, wind blowing in his face so much as the world regain normal speed, Jungkook was about to fall in the water, but…Yoongi opened his eyes again, and this time he was in a bed, a hospital bed. He looked up to see the empty room, a room without Jungkook. Even though Jungkook fell, it still felt nice to look at him, but he was still alone. Who saved him? Who brought him back to this hell? “Yoongi!” Jin ran into the room, tears falling down his cheeks, “I’m so happy you’re alive,” Jin fought the urge to hug him, all of his friends entered the room, even Taehyung, but no Jungkook. There was never any Jungkook anymore. “My god, I was so worried, you were just laying there,” Namjoon held onto the edge of the bed, crying tears of happiness.“I’m so sorry Hyung, I didn’t want it, I’m so sorry,” Taehyung cried, Yoongi looked through the room at all his friends being concerned for him and yet he still felt so alone. “It’s okay,” Yoongi choked, “What were you thinking? Did you think about this? Did you bother to talk to us?” Hoseok argued,“Talk to you? You are the ones that don’t want Jungkook to remember me, of course, Taehyung gets to show Jungkook everything he has forgotten, but I’m taboo,” Yoongi doesn’t know what’s going on with his mind, but he’s given up on everything and he doesn’t care if his friends hate him anymore.“Yoongi we didn’t mean that-”“I don’t care! I don’t care that you’re here, I’m not thankful you saved me, you’ve all made it worse!” Yoongi yelled, everyone, looked shocked but not surprised. “Yoongi-”“No, just stop interfering with my life, he doesn’t want me anyways so why couldn’t you let me die?” Yoongi broke out in tears, Jin came to his bed size, kneeling down. “Yoongi, I’m not going to tell you it’s going to get better, nor that Jungkook will remember you or anything for that matter, but no matter what, you have to be strong in case he does, what if Jungkook remembered tomorrow and we had to tell him that you committed suicide? That would break him,” Jin grabbed Yoongi’s hand,“But why do I have to break in the process?” Yoongi cried,“I don’t know,” Jin shook his head. “I just miss him, it’s like he’s not even there anymore, he might as well have died because looking at him and knowing he doesn’t know who I am is so much worse,” Yoongi cried more and more, everyone kind of left, leaving Jin and Yoongi together, if anyone was going to comfort Yoongi it was Jin. “But just think, after this is over, you’re going to be stronger for it, I know you think your life is over and there is nothing to live for, but you have to think about Jungkook, will you live for Jungkook?” Jin asked, Yoongi stopped crying for a second, “I don’t know if I ca-”“I know you can, because the Min Yoongi I know is stubborn as a mule and ready to take shit from no one,” Jin smiled, Yoongi let out a little laugh as he blinked back the tears. “Jungkook,” Yoongi looked up at the ceiling, he just wanted to go back to his dream, falling or not, just looking at him was heaven enough.
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_-8-_ Yoongi stayed in the psychiatric ward for a week, listening to people telling him he was worth it and he had so much to live for. Yoongi was getting fed up with it, it’s nothing he hasn’t heard before, he didn’t do this because he hated himself, he did it because he hated what his life has become after losing someone, but they failed to notice that. Mostly because Yoongi refused to talk to him. “Hey Yoongi, how are you this morning?” Hoseok asked, bringing some flowers in, Yoongi shrugged, he winced as Hoseok pulled open the curtains. “It’s such a beautiful day outside, are you happy for today?” Hoseok asked, Yoongi shrugged once again. “Come on, my mother is already doing a big thing pretending to be your mother, but still, you’ll probably have to tell your parents one day,” Hoseok explained. Yoongi rolled his eyes, he got used to not talking during the last week, he ran his hand on his bandages. “Does it hurt?” “Jesus Hoseok, calm down, I’m fine,” Yoongi sighed,“Obviously you aren’t, or you wouldn’t be here, but as I said, it’s okay, you’ll be coming home with me and my mom today,” Hoseok smiled.“Why can’t I just go home?” Yoongi asked,“I’m not allowed to leave you alone for at least a couple months, and since my mom already pretended to be your mother it made sense,” Hoseok explained.“I live alone for a reason,”“What? So you can commit suicide without anyone knowing?” Hoseok’s voice rose, “sorry Yoongi, I’m just still not over how I almost lost you,” Hoseok forced his smile to stay on his face.“Like I lost Jungkook?” Yoongi asked,“Let’s not talk about him, I’m going to get you some good food, be right back,” Hoseok left the room. Jungkook didn’t come to visit him the entire week, made sense, they weren’t exactly friends, but sometimes Yoongi really expects Jungkook to walk through the door and comfort him, holding his hand and telling him it’s okay, he’s here now, but those days are gone. Yoongi leaned back, looking up at the ceiling, the only bliss he had was listening to the radio, hearing the songs that reminded himself of the long car rides with Jungkook. Jungkook might not be there right now, but he was everywhere. _-•-_Yoongi moved three boxes into Hoseok’s stuff, most of his stuff was still at his apartment, but it was official that he lived here now. “You can take the guest room, it shares a wall with mine so don’t go thinking you can pull a fast one,” Hoseok explained.“I’m not going to jump out a second story window,” Yoongi rolled his eyes,“Oh, but you’ll climb to Jungkook’s window, and then jump out, you’ll sit on your roof and then just jump off it into the bushes,” Hoseok huffed.“I thought the point of suicide watch is that you aren’t supposed to provoke the person to want to do it again,” Yoongi grumbled.“Okay Yoongi, I want you to take this seriously, but this is, you almost took your own life,” Hoseok grabbed Yoongi’s shoulders.“I’ll take this seriously, and you can follow me, but you’re not stalking me okay?” Yoongi compromised, Hoseok nodded,“Sound good enough,” Hoseok was still so worried, he never saw his friend this weak. _-•-_On the weekend Hoseok takes Yoongi to the park, getting some fresh air. “The whole part of going to the park to get some peace is to get peace,” Yoongi bluntly explained to Hoseok and Jimin who were watching him like a hawk. “We’re just-”“Worried, I know, but it’s more like suffocating,” Yoongi pointed out.“Sorry Hyung,” Jimin apologized,“It’s okay, I know you guys care, but could you just give me one day and I promise I won’t leave from here,” Yoongi asked, Jimin looked at Hoseok, then looked at the people playing in the park.“There are so many people here that can help if anything goes wrong,” Jimin whispered,“But how do we know he’ll stay?” “You’re going to have to trust him one day, plus he looks content here, let’s go get some ice cream and come back,” Jimin suggested.“Are you really okay here by yourself?” Hoseok asked,“Hoseok,” Yoongi looked at his friend, hair blowing in the wind, “I’ll be just fine,” Yoongi does his best fake smile, one that fooled even Jin sometimes, never Jungkook though. “Okay, we’ll be back in an hour,” Hoseok and Jimin got up,“Great,” Yoongi groaned, he heard them walk away. To counted to a hundred, eyes closed like he was playing hide-in-seek. When he opened his eyes he looked around and then got up, hands in pockets and walked off. He didn’t want to go to the park all the way on the outskirts of town, if he really wanted to go to a park, he would’ve gone to the one literally five minutes away from Hoseok’s house. This one was close to the place that Yoongi’s heart was leading him, Hoseok should’ve know Yoongi by now, not only was he lazy, he was also a good liar. He walked out of the park and onto the dirt road next to it, walking down until the road ended with a blocker, Yoongi jumped over it, he remembered every time they would unlock it with the key they made for it and drive through, literally the only ones that could get down here. Yoongi could almost hear the truck riding past him. Yoongi turned the sharp corner towards the water. Two large trees covered the spot, but it just big enough for a car, well it was when Jungkook first drove his father's truck through it. Yoongi walked, kicking rocks as he made it to the end of the clearing, sitting down on the boat landing, dangling his legs off the raised part. He looked up at the hill, Jungkook loved to climb it, Yoongi then remembered the dream he had, the limbo he was in, of his sweetest memory mixed with his greatest fear. Yoongi took a rock and threw it against the water.Yoongi laid down, looking up at the sky, he was ready to fall asleep there and just wake up as like nothing happened. Let them worry, let them search, they’ll never find him, and if they do then they’ll understand why then. He closed his eyes, taking a deep breath. “Yoongi?” Yoongi’s eyes shot open, his mind was playing tricks on him, Jungkook wasn’t here, was he? Yoongi sat up and looked behind him and little did he know, there was Jungkook, standing there looking confused.“Jungkook,” Yoongi only wished this wasn’t a dream, hoping Jungkook, his Jungkook was standing right there.“You remembered my name,” Jungkook laughed, Yoongi realized he was still in the same reality as before, nothing changed.“Of course,” Yoongi played it off, Jungkook sat down next to him.“Did you just find this place?” Jungkook asked,“No, I’ve spent far too much time here,” Yoongi threw another rock, “Ah, see I know this entire place, every single thing I see looks familiar, I could draw this place before I actually came here today, and yet no memories,” Jungkook looked at his feet.“Funny,” Yoongi rolled his eyes, “Sorry I didn’t come to see if you were alright, I just thought you didn’t like me much,” Jungkook ruffled his hair, “I don’t,” Yoongi kept giving simple answers.“Do you know if I’ve been here before? You know since you come here a lot?”“No, I don’t,” Yoongi moved his head to the side, shaking it as he wouldn’t look up. “Yoongi,” a pause, “Do I know you? Have I actually met you before, because it seems-”“No, never, must’ve come here the days that I didn’t,” Yoongi denied it, there was no going back from here, everything was sold from that moment on. Jungkook wasn’t expecting that answer to be honest, there was something about Yoongi’s behaviour, the timeline, but he had to trust him. “You came here alone?” Jungkook changed the subject,“No,”“Who did you come here with?” Jungkook asked, “if you don’t mind me asking,”“My best friend, my life, my everything,”“Sounds like a special girl,” Jungkook smiled, Yoongi laughed,“Yeah, it doesn’t matter anymore, they’re gone,” Yoongi shrugged, throwing yet another rock into the water, Jungkook went silent.“I’m sorry,” Yoongi looked up at Jungkook, his hair blew in the wind, “You have nothing to be sorry for Jungkook,” Yoongi said, Jungkook gave a little smile, this is how Yoongi wanted to remember him. Jungkook checks his watch, “Oh I got to go, Taehyung promised me he would take me to the new movie tonight,” Jungkook got up, the moment was ruined, Yoongi turned towards the sea. “Oh and Yoongi!” Jungkook called for Yoongi’s attention, “I hope you find your peace,” and with that, he left, Yoongi knew if he tried he could have the same thing. But it wouldn’t be the same, without their memories, Yoongi realized what he had to do. Living here was doing nothing but hurting everyone, so Yoongi took out his phone. He dialled his mother's number,“Hey mother, yeah it’s me… I think I’m ready to come home,” Yoongi confessed._-•-_Yoongi made it back to the park before Hoseok and Jimin came back, and his week went on as normal. He secretly packed his bags without Hoseok realizing, he was set to go tomorrow morning, but something didn’t seem right. He tossed and turned all night until 3 am when it got unbearable. Yoongi got out of his bed and put on a hoodie and opened the window, Hoseok was right, he was totally ready to jump out the window, but why jump when Hoseok literally put him in the room that has a tree in front of the window? Yoongi walked through the streets until he got to Jungkook’s street, he climbed up the tree, and jimmied the lock so he could get in. Jungkook shifted in his sleep, Yoongi stood there, watching the boy for a few seconds. He took the notepad on Jungkook’s desk and wrote a note, a note confessing to a lot of stuff and apologizing, explaining what happened to him, he thought he deserved it if Yoongi was going to leave. Yoongi walked over to Jungkook, he leaned down and carefully kissed his forehead, “Goodnight Kook, I love you,” Yoongi whispered,“Love you too mom,” Jungkook mumbled, Yoongi fought back the urge to laugh and left, just like that, it was easier than he thought, but that night he had a new nightmare, this time he would really have to get used to them.
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_-9-_
Yoongi sat in his bedroom, he looked at a picture of Jungkook, the only one he would take with him. “Yoongi hurry up, the bus will leave soon,” Hoseok knocked on the door,
“Yeah, yeah, I’ll be right now,” Yoongi rolled his eyes, he looked at the bandages, he was taking them off today, the scars would be there and he would have to tell his parents one day, that is if they ever asked. He could wear short sleeve shirts for the rest of his life and his parents would probably never notice his scars.
Yoongi went into the bathroom and carefully unwrapped them, revealing the marks of the knife that almost cost him his own life. He wondered what would’ve happened if it really happened if he died. Would be have gone to heaven, or sank to hell? He probably would’ve just become a ghost and float around for the end of time.
Yoongi threw the bag over his shoulder, grabbing his backpack full of stuff. Hopefully, hoseok didn’t ask too many questions. He went down to the kitchen, Hoseok looked at him weirdly, “you moving your entire closet to the school?” Hoseok asked,
“Just some things for my locker and homework, I leave for two weeks and I’ll probably have to redo the entire school year,” Yoongi made some lame attempt at a joke, something to make Hoseok think he was okay and stop talking about his bags.
“Yeah, well you have been really strong these past two weeks and I’m proud of you and I’m sure Jungkook would be too,” Hoseok got his shoes on. Yoongi gritted his teeth at the mention of Jungkook, how his friends could even talk to him about Jungkook after all that’s happened is beyond him. “Come on, the bus leaves in ten minutes,” Hoseok pushed Yoongi out the door.
“Ten minutes?”
“It takes us three to get there and if the bus gets there early then it’s good timing, standing in the cold won’t hurt you,” Hoseok closed the door behind him. Today, Yoongi was actually happy at Hoseok’s earliness, it was his only chance to escape onto another bus route. “Why did you want to go to school so early today?” Hoseok made small talk,
“So I could get all my stuff ready before school, why else?” At this point, Yoongi believed his own lies, he wanted to believe he was going back to school and see Jungkook, but he should know that ship has passed the day Yoongi was stupid enough to believe he could confess his feelings to Jungkook. Yoongi saw the bus from across the street pull at the lights, it was now or never, he turned to Hoseok, “bye,” Yoongi said, racing across the street,
“Bye-wait, YOONGI!” Hoseok yelled as Yoongi ran across the street, as the bus pulled up, he jumped on, watching Hoseok running after the bus, he made it. He wouldn’t have to look back, he made his way to the back of the bus, plopping his bags next to him. He pulled out his bus ticket, he couldn’t believe he was leaving, back to Daegu. He was so happy to leave in the first place and now he was going back, there’s going to be so many people that are ready to punch him into tomorrow when he gets back.
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Yoongi’s earphones are somewhere in his backpack, and he’s still catching his breath from running those two seconds. The bus stopped and he looked around, he looked across the street at Jungkook’s house, he sighed as he tried to get all the memories out of his head. “Yoongi?” Yoongi turned around at Jungkook, the unspoken boy, right there, in front of him, on the bus.
“Jungkook?” Yoongi looked around, he was a little shocked, okay, really shocked. Jungkook sat next to him, “what are you doing on the bus this early, and going away from school?” Yoongi asked,
“I’m going to the store to get some lunch, what are you doing?” Jungkook was just as awkward as Yoongi was.
“Leaving,” Yoongi confessed, Jungkook was taken back at that,
“Leaving? Leaving where?” Jungkook asked,
“To Daegu, where I grew up, I just realized, there isn’t a reason for me to stay, now that you’re-” Yoongi bit his tongue.
“Yeah what is about that, I knew you, and yet you don’t want to admit it! Why? What were you too me?” Jungkook asked, he seemed frantic,
“This is your stop,” Yoongi ignored his questions.
“To hell with my stop, I can’t go on with my life knowing that I can’t remember something that I can’t answers to,” Jungkook sighed dramatically.
“You can ask Taehyung,” Yoongi rolled his eyes,
“I don’t want to ask anyone else, I want to know from you, I know it sounds foolish, but were we dating?” Jungkook asked, Yoongi paused,
“No,”
“Why should I trust you anymore?” Jungkook shrugged, Yoongi had it.
“What do you want with me!? Is it your life mission to annoy the hell out of me? You’re making this too hard for me, I don’t care if you don’t feel the same way for me, I don’t! Okay? But could you stop making me hate my own fucking guts!!” Yoongi yelled, a few heads turned to him, Jungkook looked so small.
“Yoongi…”
“Don’t say my name Kook,” Yoongi moved away from him,
“Why? Can’t you tell me everything, we can-”
“We can do shit, what good is it going to do, even if get your memories back, I know the truth, so this is the best option for us now,” Yoongi tried to get it through Jungkook’s head.
“What am I supposed to do?”
“Go be with Taehyung, or whoever you want, you didn’t remember me, so just forget me again,” Yoongi pressed the stop request button, “Good-bye Kook,” Yoongi gathered his things and got off the bus. Jungkook sat there, thinking to himself, Yoongi just left, Yoongi left to Daegu, away, forever. He left him, because of him, to get away from him. Jungkook was frozen, his gaze forwards, but his tears running down his face. Yoongi was gone, his best friend, the only one that really understood him. The reason he left the house that night to get into a stupid car crash for. And he would do it all over again, just to have the chance to see Yoongi again. Jungkook’s entire life seemed to flash by, he pressed the stop button and raced off the bus.
Jungkook ran and ran, he was a soccer player, he had no problem in running, but his body ached, his mind felt like it was going to explode. But what was the point of his life without Yoongi? Jungkook was just ashamed that it took him this long to remember him again. He rushed to the subway, down the stairs, over the turnstile, towards the subways, he saw Yoongi’s white hair, he wanted to call out to him, but his voice didn’t form. He watched him get onto the subway train, he watched the doors close and zoom away as he made his way past the people. And as quickly as he came, he was gone, he stood there, the people moving around him to get into line for the next train. Jungkook caught his breath and he realized what just happened.
He reached out his phone and called Jin, “Jungkook? Is everything okay?” Jin asked,
“Yoongi… He’s gone,” Jungkook said throughout breaths,
“What!? What do you mean? Where are you?” Jin asked,
“He’s gone back to Daegu, he left, he’s gone Hyung, he left because of me!” Jungkook cried,
“Jungkook… Where are you? What happened?” Jin asked again,
“I’m at the subway, line 87, I-”
“Stay right there, I’ll be right over,” Jin hung up, Jungkook moved back and sat down, thinking to himself, everything that has happened, he couldn’t believe himself, he was such an idiot.
Jin made his way through the people, seeing Jungkook, “Jungkook!” Jin called, Jungkook looked over, “what happened?” Jin asked,
“I was on the bus, and he was there, and then he was gone- I’m such an idiot- why couldn't I have been more careful? Why did I forget him?” Jungkook grabbed onto Jin’s shirt.
“You remember?!” Jin asked,
“He almost died because of me Hyung, I pushed him over that edge, want would’ve I done without him Hyung?” Jungkook cried, holding onto Jin’s shirt
“It’s okay, we’ll get him back,” Jin run his hand through Jungkook’s head,
“I love him Hyung,”
“I know,” Jin comforted him.This wasn't looking good, Jin feared this would happen, he doesn't know if he should be happy or sad, all he knows is that he has a crying friend on his hands.
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_-10-_Yoongi stumbles through school yards, bumping into people, “you got a problem Min? Let me remind you that you left, and now you think you’re better than me?” The guy he bumped into him said,“I don’t give a single fuck what you think, I’m going to class,” Yoongi groaned, the guy pulled him back to punch him, Yoongi stumbled back, holding his nose.“You should start,” the guy bit back, walking away, Yoongi held his now bleeding nose as he made his ways through the halls. He grabbed his backpack and left the grounds, his fourth fight that week and he’s lucky if he’ll ever smell out of his nose again. His bruises take up more space on his body than actual skin does and do his parents or teachers care, of course not. Fuck school, the teachers taught him nothing anyways. _-•-_Yoongi made his way out of the liquor store, a cigarette between his lips, this was the life he was promised anyway, no matter what you try to change, it’ll always lead right back to where you started. “Excuse me Mr, you need to show me your ID,” one of the employees called after him,“I D-d-d-don’t care,” Yoongi didn’t look back, popping the bottle of beer on the bike rack and started to drink it as he made his way back home, throwing his cigarette into the ground. Every night he had dreams of Jungkook, every moment he had thoughts of Jungkook, the only time he got them off his mind is when he was drunk and even then, it was just drunk dreams, at least he forgot them, forgot them just like Jungkook did. _-•-_Jungkook sits in Jin’s living room, playing with his hands as the rest of his friends tried to reach Jungkook. “I think we should take Jungkook to the hospital,” Namjoon added, “why are you guys not stressing taking him to get looked out?” Namjoon asked Jin.“What is the hospital going to tell us that we don’t know?” Jin asked, rolled his eyes as his phone went to voicemail again.“He’s not texting me back, I think he destroyed his phone or at least got a new number,” Hoseok said,“It has been a week, I think it’s a lost cause trying to contact him, we have to go down there,” Jimin explained. “I want to!” Jungkook spoke up,“I can’t pay for you to go down, you’ll have to ask your parents,” Jin offered,“Goodluck having them let you,” Jimin sighed,“No, I’m going, I don’t care what they say,” Jungkook stood up,“Jungkook-”“Yoongi left because of me, he went through all of this because of me, and it’s my job to fix it!” Jungkook explained. “It wasn’t your fault,” Taehyung tried to pull him back down,“But it was! I got into that car and I drove my way into an accident, it wasn’t his fault, all of this was my fault, and you guys aren’t going to stop me, I’ll go there one way or another,” Jungkook threatened. Everyone looked around, _-•-_Jungkook made his way to Yoongi’s house, he had a lot of his stuff there, and he knew it now. He wondered where all of his stuff was, and this seemed like the best bet. He took the spare key from the roof and jumped back down to open the door. He looked down and saw blood stains on the hardwood floors, Jungkook’s heart stopped as he realized all he’s done to his friend.He made his way through the house, towards his room, it looked messier than usual, he remembered the couple times his mom let him stay over, she never liked how they were alone in a foreign house, to Jungkook, it was the best times. He looked all around and finally, he found the box, it was unmarked, but it was taped shut. He pried it open and there sitting there were all his pictures and things that Yoongi gave him. His sweaters, he had a lot of Yoongi’s sweaters, Jungkook let himself laugh. But at the bottom of the box, he found a few letters, they were all addressed to Jungkook, but he never received any of them. He looked into them, reading every word, every line, it was like beautiful poetry, the words of Yoongi’s heart sank deep into the paper. Jungkook always knew Yoongi wrote songs and poetry, but this was all for him, from Yoongi, his feelings, Jungkook want to cry again. If he just waited the night and came to see him in the morning. Jungkook knew what he had to do, he rushed back home, by that time, his parents were already at work, he made his way into the safe, he never went into the safe, because he knew his parents would know if he ever took anything out of there. But did he care this time? No, the answer was no, not this time. He made his way to the subway station, buying himself a ticket, making his way towards the line of the people, his anxiety raced, what if he couldn’t find Yoongi, what if Yoongi didn’t want to see him? It didn’t matter, he wanted to embrace Yoongi one time, hold his hand one more time and tell him how he feels._-•-_Jungkook steps foot in Daegu, he’s never been there, he’s only been there from what Yoongi has said, and it’s not all true, he knew Yoongi grew up in a bad part of Daegu, but the city was nice. Jungkook then realized how big the city is and how little Jungkook was, he didn’t have anywhere to sleep, no way of getting home, he should’ve thought this through more. Jungkook made his way down the streets, he asked people where the bad parts of town where, with nothing to lose and something, anything to gain, he walked the entire day. He wished that Yoongi would just come out of nowhere. Jungkook looked up, the sky was getting dark and it started to rain, Jungkook didn’t bring an umbrella, let alone a jacket, all of this was pointless. He would have to phone his mom and dad and confess where he was, and get grounded. He just thought he would get to see Yoongi again, how stupid he was, he was just making everything worse. _-•-_Jungkook made his way down the streets, it was dark and his entire body was soaked with the rain, he would probably go to a fast food restaurant, one that was open 24 hours and call home. He looked around he saw a figure walk down the street, he hoped to all hell it was Yoongi, but as they looked up, it was someone else, he was just hoping for the impossible now. He started to walk again, and looked up to see Yoongi, walking towards him, head down, headphones in, he looked like hell, but it was Yoongi, Jungkook knew his face from anywhere. “YOONGI!” Jungkook called, Yoongi looked up, eyes opening to the size of apples. “Jungkook…” His voice was shot, Jungkook couldn’t stop smiling, he found him, he’s right there, what does he do, Yoongi’s frozen in place, trying to see if it’s a dream or not. Jungkook ran towards him, Yoongi took a step back, bracing for impact, he dropped his umbrella as Jungkook wrapped his arms around him, laughing to himself. “You leave me one more time I’m not looking for you again,” Jungkook hugged tighter, Yoongi didn’t know if this was a dream.“Are you really here?” Yoongi asked, Jungkook looked into his eyes, “Is that something to ask your best friend who just walked all around Daegu to look for you?” Jungkook asked, Yoongi smiled too, “Jungkook!” Yoongi’s smile was the thing Jungkook was missing, the thing that made him feel so empty the past couple months, Jungkook pulled Yoongi into a kiss, a real, lips to lips kiss. Yoongi pulled him back, spinning around, they didn’t care about the rain, or where they were. “I love you Min Yoongi and if you ever leave me again I-” Yoongi kissed Jungkook again, stopping him,“That’s all I need to hear, I love you too,” Yoongi rested his forehead on Jungkook’s, they intertwined their fingers, looking at each other. “I’m freezing cold,” Jungkook laughed, Yoongi laughed back,“Really? I’ve never been so warm before,” Yoongi couldn’t look away, he couldn’t chance it, “But seriously,” Jungkook’s face fell, smile still tracing his face, “Oh, yeah, okay! Let’s go home, back home,” Yoongi squeezed Jungkook’s hand, he was never letting go of his hand again, and Jungkook wouldn’t have it any other way.
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