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“Look at that sleeping cutie!”“He's not normally like that.”“He looks so precious!”“Shut the fuck up already.”A pause.“You're just jealous cause he's getting all the attention right now, aren't you?”“I'll be getting plenty of attention once it's all ready.”“Mnnnng.....?”“Oh shit he's waking up! Give him more!”“Sweetie, he's already had--”“I don't fucking care how much he's had already. He's my brother, so that means he can take a lot. Just get him the fuck back to sleep.”“Okaaaay, jeeze.”Mumbling. Rummaging.“L-Logannnnnnggg?” The words barely audible.Silence. Sharp pain. Sleep.--~--~--~--He was aware, though barely just. Maybe he was still asleep. He felt funny though. Could you feel in dreams? Like, actually feel? Like, was any of this for real, or not? Parts of him hurt, especially his brain. It was so foggy. Had he drunk too much? He was pretty good at drinking so he didn't think so. Why was he feeling like he couldn't move his body then?“Uhhnnngggg.”Wow, had that come from him? It didn't sound like him, but at the same time it did. Stupid.“Hey, can you hear me?”Now that he recognized. It was Logan, which meant that this was a prank he wasn't in on, or something.“Mnnnng.” He couldn't quite force the words out, moaning stupidly instead.“Jake, wake the fuck up, we're ready for you.”“Lnnngggnnngg.” It was getting frustrating not being able to do anything. He was at Logan's mercy, which usually wasn't a good thing.“I told you we gave him too much! He's never going to wake up now.” Jake didn't recognize that voice. It sounded stereotypically gay.“No, I'll get him up.” Logan again. Jake tried forcing his eyes open, which was met with a bit of success. Through his eyelashes he could see some colors now, and it was mostly bright white. Daytime. He was on a bed, but something wasn't right.“Wake UP!”Pain jolted through Jake's cheek, the adrenaline so familiar to him coursing through his body. His eyes fluttered open and he blinked rapidly.“Whuuttt fuccc.” He still sounded like a fucking retard. Stupid brain, wake up!Another slap to his face and Jake managed to focus his eyes. Logan was standing over him, grinning.“Lognnn?” he asked, not prepared for whatever fucking prank he was about to be subjected to.“There you are, fuck. Need another slap?” Logan sounded happy, but that wasn't unusual.“You guys really do run on adrenaline don't you? Kinda hot.”“Shut the fuck up Terry.”“Just saying.”Jake blinked blearily around, slowly recognizing his own room. There was Logan right next to his bed, and two other dudes he didn't know. One had a camera on a tripod, pointed at him. He looked back at his older brother, just noticing that he didn't have a shirt on. Also not unusual. As feeling began to return to the rest of his body though, Jake realized that he was completely naked.He immediately tried to press his legs together, but they didn't move. He lifted his head. His legs were tied to the bed posts. A little panic set in and he looked up. His wrists were handcuffed to the bed as well. He looked at Logan, eyes wide.“Whut the fuck?” was all he could manage.“You know how we're always looking for ways to get tons of views?”“Yeah...?” Whatever it was, Jake already didn't like it.“Well, I'm gonna fuck you.”It didn't process for a moment. Logan had fucked him up a lot of times before, and he'd fucked Logan up before too. They'd fucked each other over many times before, so what was different about this time?“Yeah?”Logan grinned and glanced at the two other guys in the room. Jake looked more closely at them. One was looking very stereotypically gay with bright colors and booty shorts and so on, and the camera guy just looked like a regular good looking guy.“He doesn't get it! How fucking stupid are you, bro?!”Familiar resentment cut with insecurity welled up. “I'm not stupid!” He was quickly regaining his ability to speak in complete sentences, though his brain was still foggy. As even more feeling returned to his body, he realized that he was a bit tingly and warm? He was naked though, so maybe his body was blushing. Not like he had anything to hide of course. He just didn't like random dudes staring at his junk.“Don't say anything. I'm just going to do,” Logan said to the two dudes, leaving Jake's side and walking around to the end of the bed. Jake raised his head to look at him, face calm. Inside he was confused and a little hurt, since this prank seemed to be a bit too much.“What the fuck are you doing? We haven't talked about doing anything like this.” His voice came out a bit weaker than he would have liked.“No duh. You wouldn't have agreed to it if we talked about it.” Logan was standing between Jake's spread legs, stupid grin on his face again. Jake tried to glare at him but it was hard with being naked.“Bro, you know I try to work with you.”Logan leaned forward, making Jake's heart race in fear a little. He scrunched up his face to appear angry rather than scared. Logan crawled up over him to they were face to face. Jake was getting really uncomfortable.“Would you have agreed to let me put my dick in you?” Logan whispered, staring straight down into Jake's eyes. He stared back up, heart racing faster.“What the FUCK bro?!” Jake exclaimed after a second, feeling more confident in expressing anger. Logan just laughed.“I didn't think so! See Jakey boy, you can get a lot of views and money making porn--”“Then go do that with some chicks, you fucking faggot!” Fear was trying very hard to overwhelm anger, so Jake hung even more tightly to it.“Who says I haven't already done that?”“...What?” Now Jake was just stumped. His brother had done porn before?!“That is fun, let me tell you. But I gotta keep it interesting. What's more interesting than me fucking you?” Logan pointed between them and sat up on Jake's stomach, pressing the younger brother into the bed a little and straining his restraints.“Whatever this fucking prank is, stop it! You can't put it on youtube, it'll be demonetized!” Jake said. He had been trying to move his limbs with little success until now, but he could start to feel tingling in his fingers and toes. If he could just somehow get free--“This ain't goin' on youtube, bro.” Logan settled between Jake's legs. “Alright guys, start filming,” he said. He ran a hand down his chest, giving Jake what he could only assume was supposed to be a sexy look. He slid the hand down into his pants, licking his lips. Jake's face morphed into a grimace and he scrunched his eyes closed.“What the fuck. Stop it! You're not sexy you ugly motherfucker!”Logan pulled his cock, which was already hard, out of his pants and began to stroke it.It was only then that Jake realized that this was actually happening. He'd never seen his brother's dick before, aside from when they were little. To see it now, all hard and between his legs made Jake full on panic. Another shot of adrenaline went through him and he thrashed.“WHAT THE FUCK! GET OFF ME! DON'T TOUCH ME! I'M NOT A GAY FAGGOT YOU FUCKING PERVERTED MOTHERFUCKER!”Logan tucked himself back in and threw himself on Jake, who just struggled even harder. He sat on him and pulled an arm back, throwing his whole weight into a punch straight to Jake's face. The younger brother cried out in pain, dazed for a second.“Hahaha, you're so weak!” Logan said, pulling back for another punch. Jake blinked blearily up at Logan just in time to see the fist for a second time before it collided with his face again. He felt his lip split and saw a few drops of blood fly. The sight seemed to ignite Logan, for he began to pummel Jake with blows. He laughed and laughed, and it was all Jake could hear. He balled his own hands into fists and pulled as hard as he could, but all it accomplished was to dig the cuffs into his wrists.Consciousness was slipping, sounds were deadened, vision was blurred again. Jake felt his body slowly give up and his head fell to one side.“--WANT TO DO THIS TODAY!”“Oh yeah, fuck haha.” Jake felt the weight of Logan lift from him and then cold wetness on his face. It stung after a second and caused him to crawl up from the pit of unconsciousness.“That felt so good though. I've wanted to just wail on him for so long. He can put up a pretty good fight if he's not tied up though.”“I hope you got it out of your system. It'll be much more believable now I guess. Hmm, there you go sweetie, most of the blood is gone, but you're gonna look like you got run over by a car.”Jake opened his eyes to see the gay dude standing over him with a first aid kit. He lifted his head to see Logan between his legs again, grinning. Fear shot through him and his balled his fists, his whole body tensing. He started shaking, however, and it was very obvious.“Aw, little bro scared? If you weren't such a bitch I wouldn't have to teach you a lesson. Look, just let me do my thing and I won't beat the shit out of you again, right?”“No! You can't do this to me Logan. You're my brother!”“That's why I have to do this to you. So shut up now unless you're moaning my name.” Logan pulled his dick out again, which was still looking rock hard. Did he fucking get off on violence? Jake wouldn't be surprised.“I'm not fucking moaning anyone's name and you're not going to put that nasty thing in me,” Jake said, glaring at Logan.“Oh, are you jealous?” Logan said, jutting out his bottom jaw and raising his hips so Jake could have a full view of his dick.“NO!”“I know you are. Big brother, big dick amirite? Okay so, Terry here uhh.... prepared you,” Logan said, throwing his head towards the stereotypical gay guy. Terry smiled and did a little wave. “So you're good to go. They wanted me to fuck you with like toys and shit first to get you ready for all this,” Logan said, stroking his cock again. “But I figured we should just go for it! So that's what we're gonna do. Hold on little bro!” Logan pressed up against Jake's ass, putting his hands on his thighs.“LOGAN, FUCK OFF! I HATE YOU RIGHT NOW!” Jake screamed, panic setting in again. He was breathing heavily and he could feel his face starting to swell up. He also wanted to murder Logan and as soon as he could get free, he would.“Okay, here we go,” Logan murmured, ignoring Jake. He placed his cock up against his younger brother and pushed his hips forward. Jake inhaled sharply as he felt Logan's dick against him. This was a prank, this was a prank, this was a prank this was a prank this was a prank thiswasaprankthiswasaprank--The head forced itself in.“FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!” Jake screamed, trying with almighty determination to free himself.“Ahhhh yeah, keep doing that, you're getting more in!” came Logan's oddly cheerful voice.“LOGAN!” Jake screeched, not caring how pathetic he sounded.“Oooh fuck, you're so tight bro! Fuuuuuuck.”“Stop, stop, STOP!”Logan didn't stop; he pushed in farther. His grip on Jake's legs tightened and he grinned. “Hold on bro,” he said before shoving himself all the way in suddenly. Jake cried out in pain and thrashed, but Logan just laughed.“Fuuuck, keep moving like that! Keep doing it!”“F-fuck you Logan. I hate you,” Jake said, feeling the pricklings of weak tears at the corners of his eyes. It wasn't just the physical pain that brought them; his trust for Logan had evaporated in an instant. He had always had that fierce brotherly loyalty, but this was too much.Logan ignored him and began thrusting. “Oooh fuck, this feels so fucking good!”“Logan, nnggg.” Jake was quieter now, trying to block out the noise of Logan slapping against him. This must be a dream. He still felt funny, after all. What had happened, anyway? They had been at a party and he was having a good time, but then Logan came around and he drank some more with him and then he …. didn't remember. What was that all about? He couldn't have been that drunk, could he?A slap to his face brought Jake out of his thoughts and Logan's face was there looming over him.“Pay attention, idiot.”“Hun, he's not hard. Let me fix that real quick,” Terry said, and slid up next to Jake.“Fuck you Terry,” Jake said with all the force he could, considering his situation.“Girl don't blame me. I'm just a hired hand,” Terry said, scoffing. He pulled out something and shoved it straight up Jake's nose. He involuntarily inhaled deeply. Terry watched him as he started to immediately feel better. He relaxed a little, though he was trying hard to glare.“Whut the fuuuuckkk,” Jake moaned. Pain seemed to be lifting off of him to be replaced with something else.“Did you just give my baby brother more drugs?”The tone made Jake look up at Logan, who was glaring at Terry.“Yes? I know what I'm doing, don't worry. We use this all the time. Now, keep going and I'll work on that scrumptious looking cock,” Terry said eagerly, pushing Logan's chest back a little so he could hover over Jake's dick.“Whut.... shit. Fuk. I-I feel weird,” Jake murmured. He blinked and shook his head, looking up at the ceiling. Now his head didn't hurt, but it was all fuzzy and nice feeling. His body was hot too, and now--“OH FUCKKKK!” Jake cried as Terry engulfed his entire cock with his mouth. His hips thrust on their own, which set Logan to moving again.“Keep doing that, fuck!”“Logan!” Jake moaned. He looked up at his brother with his lips parted and face flush. Logan didn't say anything, but he seemed to stare directly into Jake's soul. Terry used his mouth expertly, better than anyone else that had ever blew Jake, and soon he was hard. Logan had never stopped, though he slowed down and rolled his hips at a leisurely pace.With an audible 'pop', Terry slid off Jake's dick. The younger brother shuttered as the room temperature air hit it after that warm mouth. He was feeling horny as fuck now and he hated it and he wanted to fucking destroy Terry and Logan and that fucking camera guy, but he also wanted to fuck someone's brains out.“Logannnn, fuuuuck, get your dick outtameeeeennnnggg.” Jake's pleas weren't very effective as they came out breathy and desperate sounding. Logan dug his fingers into Jake's thighs.“No chance. I'm gonna fuck you so hard and you're gonna moan my fucking name bitch.” It sounded more like a threat than anything, but Jake was caring less and less about anything other than his brother and his fucking hard dick.Before Jake could reply, Logan began to thrust. It shook the bed and made it squeak, it hurt so bad but so good. Jake closed his eyes tightly and balled his fists, feeling his body shaking from the effort of trying to stay tense and not allow Logan to hurt him more. Little moans escaped from Jake here and there until he was moaning in earnest, each sound more frantic than the last. His cock was so hard and it was just bouncing there, fuck.“Come on Jake, I'm not gonna let you cum until you moan my name!” Logan said, and took a hold of the head of Jake's dick.“LOGAN!” Jake cried, automatically trying to move away from the offending hand.“No, not like that. Come on, bro.”“Nnnoooooo!” Jake was losing. He was getting close, but Logan suffocating his dick was pushing him in the other direction.“Jake.”The younger brother snapped his gaze up to the meet the steely blue of the older. They stared at each other for a second and then Logan fell forward onto Jake. Their bodies were flush and Jake gasped as his dick got squished between them. Logan locked his arms under and around the back of Jake's tied ones, bringing their faces close. Jake just stared in confusion and surprise, while Logan grinned.He leaned down.Logan kissed Jake tenderly.Jake's eyes widened in surprise and then fluttered closed as Logan moved his hips again. He deepened the kiss, and Jake did too. They pulled back and then went right back in, kissing hard now and biting at each other's lips. Logan fucked Jake slowly as they tasted each other. The older brother pulled up and Jake held onto his bottom lip, wanting him close, wanting him to stay.Was it the drugs?“Logan,” Jake whispered, brown eyes pleading. Logan was silent for a moment as he continued to fuck Jake, then he looked off to the side.“Uncuff him. Untie him.”Jake nodded, his body shivering with antici--pation. Terry quickly unlocked the handcuffs and untied his legs, and Jake wrapped all of his limbs around Logan. His mouth parted as he panted and looked up at his brother. They didn't say anything. Logan hugged Jake tighter and sped up. Neither noticed as the camera guy came closer and get footage of them from every angle. He got their bodies, faces, asses and dicks. Everything.“Fuck Logan, I'm close,” Jake panted.“Me too,” Logan whispered against Jake's ear.“Uhnngg, Logan,” Jake moaned. It was like a trigger for the older brother and he crushed Jake to him, fucking him mercilessly.“LoGAn!” Jake screeched, throwing his head back against the pillows. He came, the sticky mess trapped between their sweaty bodies. Logan cussed and his body stilled as he came in Jake. They held onto each other, the only sound their labored breaths for a moment. Jake was the first to move, falling back and shivering with exertion. Logan was quiet. He pulled out of Jake and sat back, an unreadable look on his face.“Logan, you fucked me,” Jake said with wonder. He was feeling really fuzzy now, and sleepy. He was so confused.Logan betrayed him. Time for sleep.Logan betrayed him.Just sleep.This wasn't real.Logan betrayed him, and it felt fantastic.

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Jake woke up with a start, breathing heavily and looking around wildly. He was in his room, in his bed.He was alone.What the fuck?His head hurt. His face hurt. Was that a dream? His own brother did not tie him up and fuck him. Or drug him. Or make him feel so damn good. Fear and doubt and confusion pooled in Jake's stomach and he stumbled out of bed towards the bathroom. He barely made it to the toilet before he was heaving. Powerful contractions wracked his body. It made his face hurt even more.“Fuck,” Jake croaked between heaves. His mind was whirling in circles, not able to grasp any concrete answers. What the fuck. He got straight into the shower since he was still naked. He turned up the heat until the water hitting him caused his skin to steam. It hurt everywhere but mostly his beautiful face. Which wasn't looking so beautiful right now.Jake stared at the drain unblinking for some amount of time that felt like a second and a year. The water swirled down into it, uncaring, unfeeling. What about him? What was he supposed to feel? What was he supposed to do?For once Jake heard a knock on the door instead of someone just barging in. Oh yeah, he still had a life, a job, fans, money. That's what really mattered. He could focus on that. He could just tell everyone that he fell down the stairs onto his face or something.-~-~-~The day passed quickly, the content was filmed. Jake heard nothing from Logan. He checked his brother's social media and saw him posting things as usual. As if it had never happened. Angrily, Jake typed up a text and hovered his thumb over the send button. He was impulsive, so it should already be sent, but he was hesitating. He read the text again.
“Yo wtf bro???>? you didn even callme 2day???? WHAT THEFUCKDID U to ME??”
Jake deleted it. He would wait for Logan to text him, to explain himself. He was not going to give in first. He was going to go along and pretend it didn't happen, either. Jake went onto his own social media and posted pictures of his beat up looking face, making up an elaborate tale about how it happened. He immediately got a hefty amount of sympathy and derision in equal measures. Usual.The younger Paul brother looked out of a window into darkness. How had nighttime crept up so fast? He walked to the bottom of the stairs and gazed up them, suddenly feeling nervous about going back into his room. Nah, he wasn't going to sleep there tonight. Instead Jake found a large plush blanket and burrito'd himself onto a couch.The next morning was uneventful, as far as it went for a Paul brother.Filming, pranks, stunts, PR, social media, merch. The next day was the same. He didn't have any trips planned soon, but maybe he would go somewhere. He had yet to sleep in his own bed again, and he had heard nothing from Logan at all. He was starting to get fed up with that shit. Cocooning himself in his blanket couch burrito again, Jake stared at his phone. He was willing a notification from Logan to pop up, but it didn't.
“WHAT THE FUCK BRO”
Jake sent that before he could talk himself out of it. That motherfucker had better respond. Sighing, Jake flopped to the side and pulled his legs up. He switched between social medias for a while and was about to put his phone down to sleep when Logan's notification sound blared through. Jake jumped and sucked in a breath, not expecting his brother to actually get back to him in a timely manner. He quickly opened the text, but it wasn't a text. It was a video.Again Jake hesitated. There had been a camera guy. What if it was that? Stupid motherfucker. Would he really send that to him?! Well, it had happened in the first place, so Jake supposed Logan wasn't above sending the evidence to him. He played the video.He and Logan fucked. He and Logan kissed. He moaned. He came. Logan came. It was expertly edited, and both of their faces were plain to see. Logan's wasn't crazy, as Jake had thought. It was.... something. The younger Paul stared blankly at his phone after it was over. If this got out, he would like, go to pervert jail or something.But so would Logan.So why did Logan send him this?!
“That didn answer myqustin fukker. WHATTHEFUCK. IM GONNA LEEKTHIS all oVER. YOU GOING TO JAILBR.”
Jake sent the text and glared at his phone for just a few seconds before Logan answered him.
“Bro do u rlly think thats the only version?”
Jake's thumbs moved to reply, but then he noticed the icon for Logan typing. He waited. Another video popped up. Jake watched it. It was the same thing, but Logan's face was cut off. It was just Jake moaning, getting boned by some dude now. They took out all of the times Jake called out his brother's name too. Jake was dumbfounded. He stared at the phone and kept staring as it faded to black. After a moment, Logan's stupid notification sound again. Jake ground his teeth together and opened it.Another video. This time both their faces were cut off and their tattoos were removed. Just two dudes going at it, moaning. What the fuck.

“Logan.”

“Here's what your gonna do.”
Jake waited.

“Actually cum to my house RITE NOW”

“NO I NVR WA SEE U AGIN”

“JAKE GET HERE OR I”M LEAKING”

“FUKKKKKKKKKK”

“That's what I thought. Come on over, little bitch bro!”
Jake flung the blanket off and threw his phone across the room, screaming in frustration. The phone shattered and Jake raged more. He got into a boxing position and started to punch the walls. He punched a few holes before his fists became bloody and he stopped. He went up to his room before anyone could come out and confront him. He stripped and went through his wardrobe, throwing everything on the ground before he found an old shirt. It was pretty much from before either of them had become famous, something that Logan would recognize. Deep in his brain Jake was trying to protect himself. If Logan saw this shirt, it would remind him of his little brother and the time he helped him when he had scraped all the skin off his knees. Logan couldn't do anything to him if he remembered that, right?Storming down to the garage, Jake got into his Lambo. He peeled out and floored it, not caring about if he got pulled over and not caring so much about traffic laws. He could probably die on the way to his brother's house, but he didn't even think about that. He didn't think about anything until he was getting waved through to Logan's house.Shit.His brother was in there.Jake's shield of anger was cracking already. Still, he got out and stormed up to the door and didn't bother to knock. He flung it open and inhaled.“YOU OWE ME A NEW PHONE MOTHERFUCKER!” He screamed, almost hoping that Logan was vlogging or something so he could ruin it. No such chance. Logan slid up from where he was sitting nearby and came right up to Jake, shoving the door closed and planting a kiss on his brother's lips at the same time.The younger Paul was too stunned to react for a second, and by then it was too late to retaliate.“WHAT THE FUCK. STOP DOING THIS TO ME!” Jake screamed, even angrier and louder. Logan laughed.“Your face is looking better, bro,” he said, reaching up to touch it. Jake slapped it away and threw a punch at Logan, who dodged.“What, no love for your bro?”“NO! NOW COME HERE SO I CAN KILL YOU!” Jake lunged at Logan, who caught him. They rolled onto the ground where Jake proceeded to try to hit Logan everywhere he could. Logan was bigger and was trained just as much as he was however, so soon Logan had his stupid long legs around Jake's neck.“Git yer fukking legs off me!” Jake choked out, gasping for breath.“Only if you calm the fuck down, shit,” Logan said. Jake didn't say anything, so Logan released him. Jake jumped to his feet, arms out in a boxing stance.“Come on. Get up. Let's finish this.”Logan stood, but he kept his arms by his sides. “No, we're not doing that today. You're here to talk.”“THEN WHY THE FUCK DID YOU KISS ME?!” Jake was getting more upset by the second. He wanted to physically rip Logan's face off and eat it.“Cause you're cute?” Logan said with a shrug. Jake stared at him, mouth open. Then it snapped closed and he snarled.“WHAT THE FUCK?! STOP IT. STOP PRETENDING EVERYTHING IS FINE. IT'S NOT FINE. YOU FUCKED ME WITHOUT CONSENT!” Jake suddenly realized what that meant. He took a step back. “YOU RAPED ME! YOU RAPED ME! YOU RAPED ME! YOU'RE MY BROTHER!!”“CALM DOWN AND I'LL EXPLAIN!” Now Logan looked mad, and that just made Jake even more mad.“NO! YOU CAN'T JUST EXPLAIN WHY YOU RAPED SOMEONE! I FUCKING HATE YOU AND I HOPE YOU DIE!” Jake lunged again. This time there was no holding back for either of them. Jake punched Logan in the face, who then kneed him in the stomach. Jake's breath left him and he stumbled back, while Logan swept a leg under the younger brother's legs. Jake went careening onto his back, knocking the breath out of him again. Logan was on him in a second, and in a moment of panic and fear Jake just held up his arms over his face. This was too familiar, this was making him feel weird, he hated everything and everyone in the whole entire world--The first blow landed on Jake's forearm and he curled in tighter on himself. Logan was sitting on his crotch and the weird feeling continued. Logan stopped and Jake peeked at him between his arms.“Are you getting hard?”The fact that Logan whispered it made it worse. The words hung in the air between them for an eternity. Jake watched as one of Logan's eyes actually got swollen and closed from the punch earlier. Jake was at half mast now. It was undeniable.“Bro, you been thinking bout me?” Logan looked excited. He licked his lips.Jake didn't say anything. He hated himself at this very moment, more than he ever had. He just breathed, glaring up at his older brother.Logan leaned down, planting his hands on either side of Jake's head. They were inches apart again. Jake's heart started beating faster, betraying him. Blue eyes met brown and seemed to get lost in each other for a moment. Logan was kissing Jake again before he realized it. Jake wrapped his arms around Logan's neck, drawing him closer. Logan lay flush against him and Jake could feel his bulge now too. Fuck, what if Logan actually liked Jake like that?!Logan pulled up after a moment and they stared at each other again.“Fuck, your eyelashes are like a girl's.”Jake's longing look snapped instantly into a glare. “Get off me,” he growled, shoving Logan to the side and getting up. He turned away for a second and felt Logan engulf him from behind. Logan's dick pressed up against his ass.“I love when you wear this shirt. I haven't seen it for a long time,” Logan whispered, giving Jake goosebumps.“I said, get off me,” Jake murmured, shoving at Logan's arms. The older brother held on tighter.“Let me fuck you. That ass is calling to me,” Logan said, rolling his hips up against Jake. He reached down to grasp the younger Paul's bulge, making him gasp.“Bro, get off me I'M NOT LETTING YOU DO THAT TO ME AGAIN.” Jake struggled and Logan let go. The younger Paul whirled around to see Logan hold up his phone. One of the videos was on it.“You know what this is. Let me fuck you or else this goes out.”Jake glared, all of his anger focusing into laser beams from his eyes, at least in his mind.“Did I mention how much I fucking hate you?”Logan laughed. “You have! But I know it's not true. You were moaning my name at the end last time. Follow me,” the older Paul said. He started towards the nearby stairs and Jake followed silently behind him. His brother had the best goddamn blackmail of all time on him, and Jake couldn't do a thing about it.They went to Logan's room and the older brother locked the door behind them. Jake frowned.“Are you going to rape me again?”“No, of course not. If you let me fuck you, I'll have them post the version where we're both cropped out.”“Post it to where?!” Jake couldn't imagine where some gay fucking shit like that would go.“Oh, there are a few sites that feature gay porn,” Logan said. He began to take off his shirt, which made Jake shutter in disgust.“How would you know that?! Are you really actually gay? What the fuck is actually happening with all of this shit?”Logan threw his shirt to the side. His pants were low, revealing his Squirtle tattoo. “I'm not gay. I'm bi. But not really. Just bi for you.” The matter of fact way Logan said it again threw Jake off.“Bro, look me in the eyes and say that again,” Jake said. He crossed his arms over his chest with a frown. Logan smiled and looked straight into his eyes.“Jake, I am in love with you and I am bi only for you.”The silence exploded between them, almost deafening in the lack of noise. Only the sounds of the house being a house filled in the void. Logan was still smiling, and it was a real, sincere smile. Jake could tell.“What.... you—why did--? You can't just say that. You can't do that! You can't be in love with me, you stupid piece of shit!” Jake stepped forward and shoved Logan as hard as he could. The older brother cried out in surprise, but thankfully he just fell into a pile of blankets at the foot of the bed.“JAKE! Just fucking stop for one second and let me EXPLAIN!” Logan screamed, getting back to his feet.“Why should I listen to a rapist?!” Jake backed away as Logan came closer, though he held up his fists. They were still a little bloody and a lot bruised from earlier but he was going to punch the shit out of Logan if he had to. Jake gasped as he hit the door and he fumbled with the lock while still keeping his eyes on Logan. The older brother cornered him, pressing him up against the door and grabbing his arms.“Loga--”“No. Shut the fuck up and listen. After we came here to L.A. and started to do our own things, I saw a change in you. You weren't just my brother anymore. You were a famous dude. A youtube influencer. Someone who has his whole future ahead. I know I do too, but damn you grew up fast and –like, fuck.” Logan stepped back and rubbed the back of his head a few times. Jake didn't move, though he relaxed a tiny bit.Logan began pacing, not able to harness his energy. “We spent so much time apart after we got out here. We each had our own thing, right? Whenever I checked in on you, you looked more mature and like.... more sexy. Me too, but damn bro. I started to feel weird whenever I saw you in person or a new pic, and I had no idea what it was. It's hard for me to like, like... you know. Connect with feelings sometimes. I ignored it. I pushed it away. But then one day you started to post pics of you in your damn underwear and one of my friends was all like 'Baby bro lookin' fine' and showed it to me as a joke and I was like 'Fuck off I'll kill you if you say that again about my little brother', and then that night I looked at that stupid picture and I--” Logan stopped moving and talking and looked at Jake again.“What?” Jake said, scared to know the answer. This was too much, this was wrong, this was stupid, Logan was stupid for feeling like this. He needed to talk to someone about it, he needed to delete his contact information from his phone--“I bust a nut to it, OKAY?! I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU AND YOUR STUPID ASS AND I JERKED MYSELF OFF ALONE IN MY ROOM. THIS ROOM. I DID THAT,” Logan screamed, jabbing himself in the chest. “I DID THAT AND I HATED MYSELF FOR IT. I DID EXTREMELY STUPID SHIT TO GET YOU OUT OF MY GODDAMN HEAD AFTER THAT!” Logan continued to scream and stomp around. Jake watched him, not able to comprehend what he was hearing. His brother, his brother Logan Paul thought about him and rubbed one out. He thought about his little brother and got so fucking hard that he came.“I KEPT THINKING ABOUT YOU AND I CAN'T GET YOU OUT OF MY HEAD. I HAVE NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT A CHICK THIS MUCH BEFORE. I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! SO I CAME UP WITH MY PLAN TO FUCK YOU BECAUSE YOU WOULD NEVER LET ME DO IT ON YOUR OWN. And oh fuck, it was the best fucking fuck because it was you Jake.” Logan stopped, his chest heaving. He had a pleading and confused sort of look on his face, and Jake knew it was true. His brother was in love with him.“It's true about the views though. On those sites we're going to get so many views. 'Older brother fucks younger brother'. Little will they know we're actually brothers.”Jake was pressed flat against the door, almost as if the force of Logan's words had flung him there. He had no idea what to do, what to think, what to feel. What did someone do when their sibling confessed to them? Jake was disgusted at the very least. That much was true. But …. after he was full of drugs and sucked off he had liked it. He loved his brother yes, but just as a brother. He could never love Logan the way Logan loved him. That was fucking gay and incestuous.“Look. I appreciate you saying all that's on your mind. It takes a lot to do that, believe me. But bro, you're my bro and we can't--”“Stop. Just stop there. Do you remember that I have the videos? Do you want the version where it's us, or just you getting fucked?”“Logan, why would you want the one with both of us to be out there?” Jake asked, genuinely curious.The older brother sighed and stared at the ground for a second before meeting Jake's eyes again. “Because I don't care anymore. It would just be the latest in the long line of crazy shit I've done, right? 'Oh my god, Logan Paul fucked his brother Jake Paul! What were they thinking filming it?' or 'The Paul brothers are gay—FOR EACH OTHER!'. I don't care, don't you get it? I fucking—I fucking love you and want you and the only way that's going to happen is to blackmail you. I know you don't see me the same way. What brother would? So I have to do it like this. I don't care if everyone knows, cause I love you.”What was Jake supposed to say? What the fuck was he supposed to say?“Logan. Like, I'm not sure what you want me to say. I don't like you like that. You're my brother. You'll always be my brother. Just my brother. I'm not gay, I'm not bi. I don't want your dick."“I know. That's where the second part of my plan comes in,” Logan said. He sat on the edge of his bed, eyes empty as he just stared forward. “We're going to do porn or else I leak the videos.”“We're WHAT?”“Come back here tomorrow night.”Jake came up to the bed. Logan looked up at him, any emotion that he'd been showing gone. He looked just... empty.“Bro, we're not doing porn--”Logan held up his phone and showed Jake the screen. It was a text log, with Terry's name at the top.“Let me know what # to post,” was Terry's last text.“All I have to do is send a number and whole planet will know.” Logan's voice was empty, too. Had Jake done that?“Bro--”“2.” Logan typed and said. He paused over the send button, giving Jake an out.“Fuck. Okay! Fuck, don't send it!”Logan nodded. “3.” That one he sent. Jake stared at the phone. His body was going to be out there, being fucked. No one would recognize him without his face, right?“I'll send you the link when it's uploaded,” Logan said, messing with his phone now. Jake automatically reached for his pocket where his phone wasn't.“Shit. You still owe me a phone.”Logan looked up. “What the fuck are you talking about? What did you do?” A little life sparked back into the older brother's eyes. Jake felt relieved, somehow. Maybe dead and lifeless was not how he liked to see his brother.“When you texted me earlier telling me to come over here I was so fucking mad, I threw my phone. It shattered.”Logan laughed. “Your texts did looked pretty pissed. Let's go get you one right now. I gotta keep my bitch on tap.”“Okay don't call me that, like seriously. I'm not your bitch, and I'm only doing this because you'd release the video otherwise,” Jake said. Logan didn't say anything as he put his shirt back on and then some shoes. He popped up and unlocked the door, holding it open for Jake.“Ladies first!”“Fuck off,” Jake grumbled. This was still getting too weird. The confession had made him super uncomfortable but, like, relieved at the same time? At least he knew what was going on with Logan, even if it was something stupid.Heading outside, they got into Logan's vehicle and pulled out of the driveway. Logan put on the GPS to the nearest Apple store. He turned on the sound system to sync with his phone and scrolled while they idled at the end of the driveway. He scrolled for a second and then stopped and stared at Jake.“What?”Logan pressed on his phone and instantly “I Love You Bro” started playing. Suddenly, the song took on a whole new meaning.“No, I'm not singing! I'm not in love with you! I just love you normally!” Jake tried, but Logan just started singing both of their lines. He drove out onto the road and accelerated, happily bobbing his head. Despite everything, Jake found himself singing along to his parts of the song. Logan started singing more exuberantly, making Jake do the same. Soon they were screaming out the lyrics and laughing when it was over. They played more songs they both knew and sang along with. By the time they got to the store, Jake was almost feeling normal about Logan. They got out and made it into the store without anyone recognizing them but the first store employee did.“Logan Paul! And Jake Paul!”They were swarmed and had to take a few minutes to take pictures with everyone and sign things before being able to get an employee to themselves.“What brings you two in?” she asked, eyes bright.Logan put an arm around Jake's shoulders. The younger Paul fought with himself to not yank out of the embrace. Logan pulled 0ut his phone and started recording.“I made my little bro break his phone, awwwww, so I'm buying him a new one! And any case he wants. Even one of mine!” Logan said happily into the camera, laughing. Jake switched to vlogging mode as well automatically.“Yeah right, like I'd rep your brand bro! Let's take a look at the phones! It better be better than the one I broke!” It felt so forced and fake, but what else could Jake do but play along? Logan could still get Terry to upload a different version of The Video at any time.They looked quickly over the available phones with Logan vlogging the whole thing. Jake got the newest, most expensive phone, case, and screen protector they had, as well as at least five different chargers. Logan comically paid the bill with cash, and they left.Jake started messing with the phone once they were in the vehicle again. Logan played lowkey music.“Hey listen.”Jake looked up, not knowing what to expect any more. It made him feel out of control and frustrated, and he hated feeling like that. Would Logan stop the car and fuck him in the back? Would he pull out a gun and threaten him? Would he lean over and tenderly kiss his lips, leaving him wanting more?“I know this whole situation is like, really fucked up. I put all this on you and I know it's a lot,” Logan said. They were at a red light. A few people around them recognized Logan's vehicle and were honking, but he ignored them.“I just had to do something, you know? It was eating me up inside. More than anything else ever had. You can hate me for all eternity, but like, I was at the end Jakey. I was pretty much at the fucking end,” Logan said. The light turned green. Jake looked down at his hands around his phone. This was so much for a little brother to process.“So what do you mean?” he said quietly.“I mean. Hah, what do I mean? I mean that I was going to do something bad. On purpose. Worse than the forest. Something super dangerous. I didn't want to put this all on you. I almost did it. I almost did it. I had everything planned out. I couldn't take it tearing me up anymore. How could this ever work? It couldn't work. I was so in my own head.... The only thing that saved me was you. I thought about what it would do to you if I did it. Even if you never love me like I love you, you'd lose your brother. I couldn't do that to you.”Jake was silent. He couldn't process this. He couldn't be the reason Logan had almost done something incredibly stupid--and he couldn't be the reason he didn't! He didn't know what to say! These past few days had been kinda like that. Confusion and anger and more confusion. They lapsed into silence for the rest of the drive. Logan pulled up to his house and turned off the engine.“I'll text you in a few days.” Logan said, and slid out of the vehicle. He walked back to the house and inside without looking back. Jake sat in his vehicle for a few minutes, thinking.That was the problem, really. He didn't know what to think. How could anyone think through a mess like this?Sighing heavily, Jake got out and into his Lambo.

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The following morning Jake checked on the vlog that Logan posted about the phone. The general consensus from both sides was that it was nice to see them being nice to each other for once. Everyone was waiting for the prank at the end, but it was just a phone buying vlog.Weird.Jake uneasily got back into his own rhythm for the next couple of days and he even managed to sleep in his own bed without nightmares. A horrible, nagging feeling of something was starting to bubble up inside him though. He'd felt it before and he hated it.Guilt.Guilty.Logan was making him feel guilty.Jake was the reason that Logan had considered doing something drastic, but also the reason he didn't. Jake didn't want his brother to ever feel like that again. What was he supposed to do about it though? He couldn't return the feelings, ever.Despite trying to put on his best face for the videos he was filming, top comments were all concerned about him.
“Jake, are you ok??”

“What's happening bro?”

“Dindnt u jus get a newphone?? STOP MOPING”
It was late at night a couple days after getting the phone that it played a notification sound he hadn't heard before. Jake looked at it curiously, seeing a text from 'Bae <3'. Jake just stared. He didn't have a bae right now. Who the fuck?
“New phone who dis?”

“Your BAE! Come over tomorrow nite. Terry misses you.”
What the fuck?! It was Logan.
“WERE NOT BAE'S”

“here's the link to our debut porn!”
Logan sent a link. Jake just stared at it.
“Im not gonna look @ tht.”

“Sure. So tomorrow be @ my house @ 7pm. See you soon BAE!”

“Fuck off loser.”

“<3”
Jake stared at his phone again. This sounded exactly like Logan but also nothing like him at the same time. He was seriously messed up in the head, that much was sure to Jake. He sighed heavily and continued to get ready for bed. -~-~-~- The next evening Jake was worried and anxious as fuck as he pulled into Logan's driveway. This was the night, wasn't it? He was going to be fucked by Logan again. And it was going to get filmed. Logan was going to keep gathering blackmail on him and there was nothing Jake could do about it. If only the first videos didn't exist--but they did and at least one version was posted online. Who knows how many places the really incriminating ones were saved to?Jake sighed as he pushed open Logan's front door. At least they weren't in his house this time.“Hey, bae's here!”“Fuck OFF with that,” Jake yelled as Logan came out of nowhere to engulf him in a hug. Jake kept his arms at his sides as Logan squeezed all the air out of him. Terry and camera guy came up behind him.“Ready for tonight, Jake?” Terry asked with a wink.“No. Fuck you Terry.”“That's the spirit! Logan's been telling me all the things he wants to do to you. Obviously we can't do them all in one session, but we'll get there. Come on, we've set up a whole room for you guys,” Terry said as he turned around and headed to the stairs.Logan released Jake and followed him, as well as camera guy. Jake stared after them, feeling like this still wasn't happening and the time before hadn't happened for real either. It just couldn't be real. If it was real and his fucking brother was in love with him, his brain just couldn't take it. The past couple of weeks since it happened had been a blur of confusion and more confusion and anger and self-doubt. Jake just wanted it to end so he could get back to his 'normal' life.Yet here he was, following his brother and some dudes upstairs so he could get fucked. They went to a spare bedroom that had been set up with a new bed and various props they might need. Terry and Logan went to the bed and started talking about the scene. Jake sidled next to camera guy.“What's your name, anyway? I might as well know who's gonna be filming my naked ass.”Camera guy nodded. “I'm Robert. Just call me Rob.”“Nice to meet you Rob. So.... do you do this for a living? Like film porn?”“Yeah.”“Just gay porn?”“Yeah mostly.”“Are—are you gay?”Rob nodded. “Yeah.”“Oh.” Jake turned away to see that Logan was naked now and making a blanket angel on the bed. Fear rolled through Jake's stomach and his heart started beating faster. Rob seemed to notice.“Just relax. That's really the most important part of all this.”“Easy for you to say. You're not about to get fucked by your brother.”“True. But I've seen armatures get really hurt cause they're so wound up and tight. We have stuff if you can't relax, though.”“Fuck,” Jake whispered. Terry came over.“Alright, I'm going to prepare you again. So strip and get on the bed,” he said, eyeing Jake closely. The younger Paul hesitated.“Bro....we're really doing this?”“Of course! Or else!” Logan said happily. He slipped off the bed and sauntered to Jake, pulling him in for a sudden kiss. Terry gave a little gasp as Jake didn't resist, but instead deepened the kiss. Rob turned on his camera. Logan ran his hands up under Jake's shirt and rubbed at his chest before pulling back so he could take Jake's shirt off. Jake frowned, but pulled Logan in for another kiss.He liked this part. He liked to kiss Logan. There was just something tantalizing about his older brother's lips and how they felt against his own. Logan let his hands trail down to Jake's pants, slowly unbutton- and unzipping them. Jake felt himself start to get excited and immediately felt disgusting. He closed his eyes and kept kissing Logan even as his pants were pulled down. Logan knelt down and pressed his face against Jake's bulge.“Fuck,” Jake breathed.“Getting into it?” Logan asked, blue eyes staring up and directly into Jake's soul.“No,” the younger Paul lied. Logan just smiled before putting his mouth over the fabric of Jake's underwear. He moved his lips, pressing his tongue up in there as well. His hands reached up to feel out Jake's defined hip bones before hooking his fingers into the waistband of the underwear. Jake was feeling himself only get harder, and yes he would actually like to get his underwear off.“Bro...”Logan looked up again and the brothers gave each other a significant look. This moment was the precipice. If they continued, then everything about their relationship would change forever. Jake's heart was being so fast as he gazed down into Logan's eyes.This was it.This was where he could give in and start a career of porn with Logan. Or he could back out and have their first video leaked, alerting the world to the fact that the Paul brothers fucked. Jake was suddenly unable to do anything. He froze. This was too much, too scary--“Hey Jakey.”Jake didn't realize his eyes were closed until he snapped them open to see Logan smiling at him. It was an oddly reassuring smile, and Jake automatically returned it a little. That seemed to be all the indication that Logan needed, for he grabbed Jake's waist and pulled him in for a hot, passionate kiss.“Mnnng.”“Mnnn, Jakey,” Logan growled against the younger Paul's lips before he swept Jake up into his arms.“LOGAN!” Jake cried in surprise more than anything. Logan went to the bed and turned so he fell onto his back with Jake on top. The younger brother steadied himself on his hands and knees over Logan.“Alright, that was good! I actually felt like you two were a couple for a second! Okay Jake, I'm gonna get you all loose now. It will feel weird at first, but believe me, I know what the fuck I'm doing,” Terry said. Jake turned his head to watch him get behind him with lube.“Now relax honey. Your ass is like, so sexy,” Terry murmured.Jake closed his eyes, trying to force himself to relax. This was happening, this was actually happening, this wasfuckinghappeningtohimrightnow--“Fuck!” Jake gasped.“What did I tell you? Relax! It'll feel good in a second. Just stop tensing up.”“Jake.”The younger brother looked down. Logan reached up and wrapped his arms around Jake's neck to pull him down. Now his ass was sticking out more and he felt Terry shove his lubed finger in further.“Just kiss me,” Logan whispered.“I don't like this,” Jake whispered back. So foreign to him. So wrong. So very, very wrong.“Well you're gonna love it in a little while. Kiss me for now. Just focus on me.”“Logan, this is wrong. We can't do this.” Jake had doubts, so many doubts. They were all welling up in him now.“We can. We're gonna. I love you, remember? So kiss me.”“Logan, I can't do this.”“Jake.” Logan didn't wait to lean up and kiss him. It was slow this time, just two dudes kissing. Jake closed his eyes and felt himself relax as the kiss went on. They pulled back after a moment to breathe, then connected again. Terry watched them and continued to work Jake's ass open, progressing after a moment to a small toy with the younger Paul barely noticing.“Fuck, you're so hot,” Logan said under his breath.“Fuck off.” Jake didn't know how to take that compliment from his brother. It was weird.“No, I'm serious. Your face, your body. So fucking hot.”“Eh, okay.”Terry licked his lips as he finished working the toy all the way in. “So, how do you feel Jake? I'd say you're ready,” he said with a little chuckle.“Whut?” Jake looked around and suddenly really felt the thing in his ass. He also felt that he was fully hard now, without even a touch to his dick. His face flushed.“I am so ready to fuck you into the bed,” Logan said, eyes brightening. Jake swallowed.“Alright, hold on hun,” Terry said as he planted a hand on the curve of one of Jake's asscheeks. With the other, he slowly worked the toy out. Jake gasped and moaned as it came out, shuttering a little. That was certainly a new sensation.“Okay Jakey. Just look at me,” Logan said. Terry reached between them to lube up Logan's dick and added more to Jake as well. He nodded and stepped back. Jake bit his bottom lip, heart fluttering.“Jake, look at me. I'm not gonna hurt you.”For some reason, Jake believed it this time. There had been so many instances in their lives where those words meant a prank was following, but right here and right now, Jake fully trusted Logan. Those blue eyes were sincere. Jake relaxed a little more.“Alright, sit down on it,” Logan said as he took hold of his dick. Jake sat up and squatted over it, keeping his eyes locked with Logan's. He inched himself down until he could feel the head pressing against him and hesitated. Logan nodded, encouraging.Jake lowered himself down until the head pressed in.“Nnnnnn, fuck.”“Come on Jakey. It'll feel good. I promise,” Logan said. He trailed the index finger of his free hand along the top of Jake's cock, making his younger brother moan. Jake took a few deep breaths and sank down further. More of Logan's dick was forced inside him. It was big, he wasn't going to lie. But he could take it.And just like that, it was a challenge.Jake smiled down at Logan with a strange sort of confidence and let himself plop down onto his crotch. They both moaned loudly as the entirety of Logan's dick shoved its way inside of Jake.“Ooooh fuuuuuuuukkkkk,” Jake groaned. It—it did feel good. Dammit, it felt good!“Do you wanna move, or me?”“Let me. Let me do it,” Jake said. He experimentally rolled his hips forward, earning more moans from the both of them.“Fuck, move!” Logan growled. He placed his hands firmly on Jake's thighs, looking at him with a predatory expression now. Jake managed a smirk.“Watch me.”With the enthusiasm that he poured into his videos, Jake raised himself up a little and dropped back down.“OOOH FUCK!” he cried, and did it again. Logan's cock was forced so far in him each time and it felt good .“Keep going, FUCK!” Logan moaned. He was trying desperately to not move his own hips, still trying to let Jake feel it all out and get his own rhythm. The younger brother did move, picking himself up and dropping down repeatedly. Moans and groans filled the room, each feeding into the other. Rob and Terry found the best angles and the money shots, filming everything.Jake got lost in the sensation. How could getting fucked feel so good?! He was not prepared for this. He'd only ever gotten pleasure from his dick before, but holy shit this was a whole different level.“Uhng, Logan, f-fuck! L-Logan !” he cried, wanting more but not knowing how to get it. Logan seemed to know, thankfully. He wrapped his arms around Jake tightly and sat up with him. Jake automatically put his legs around Logan's waist and rode him. The older brother held the younger down tightly so he could slam his hips up into him. Jake bounced up and down in time with the forceful thrusts, getting that dick in deep.Then it happened. Logan's cock found Jake's sweet spot.“OH FUCK OH FUCK OH FUCK LOGAN RIGHT THERE HOLY FUCK HARDER!” he commanded.“FuuuuuuuuuCK!” Logan groaned. He pushed forward and forced them over so Jake fell on his back. The younger brother held onto Logan as tightly as he could, unable to do anything else as the older brother pounded him hard.Jake's head was swimming, he couldn't focus on anything, but he was keenly aware of the dick in his ass at the same time. These sensations were so foreign to him, but so fucking good. He dug his fingers into Logan's back, not able to stop the river of noises coursing from him.“HARDER! OH FUCK LOGAN PLEASE HARDER! OH MY GOD HARDER !” Jake practically screamed.“FUCKING FUCK JAAAAKE! HOLY FUCK!” Logan screamed right back. He fucked hard and Jake held on hard until he couldn't really be sure who was who anymore. All that mattered was the utter pleasure.Any doubts were long gone by now, replaced by an insatiable need. This ecstasy was unlike anything Jake had ever experienced; any of the times he'd fucked a bitch paled in comparison. He needed more, he needed more Logan, he needed more dick up his ass, he needed--
It hit him.
“FUCK LOGAAAAANNNNN!” Jake screamed his release. His nails dug welts into Logan's back and his legs clamped in place. He forced Logan to do a few more short, powerful thrusts before he felt the warmth fill him.“JAKE, FUCK!” Logan keened, his hips moving a little with each spurt of cum deep into Jake. The younger brother panted heavily, his whole body shaking. He couldn't loosen his death grip yet, and it seemed that Logan couldn't either. They held onto each other, shaking and heaving huge breaths. Jake blinked a few times as the high he was on slowly ended. He leaned up a little to press his forehead against Logan's.“I love you,” Logan said, placing a quick kiss on Jake's lips.“Mnf,” Jake responded. He just felt too good right now to deal with Logan's continued confessions. His limbs finally decided to listen to him so he released his grip, letting them fall. Logan let up on his embrace a little, though not fully.“That was—uhh,” Jake said a little sheepishly.“Amazing?” Logan offered with a smirk.“Uh, well, you know,” Jake said. He couldn't admit now that it had completely blown his mind. Logan would just use that against him.Or would he?Jake didn't really know anymore. “Hey, why are you still hard?” he asked instead.“Cause I'm not done with you. I'm gonna fuck you some more after you recover,” Logan said. He let himself flop down onto Jake, knocking the wind out of the younger brother.“Oof, fuck, you're heavy,” Jake murmured. He didn't mind though. He actually didn't fucking mind. He cautiously nuzzled his face against Logan's, which earned him vigorous snuggles and kisses to his entire face.“You're so fucking cute,” Logan said dreamily. He rubbed a finger along Jake's cheek, twirling it up into his hair. Jake allowed him to do it. Why, he couldn't fathom.“Shut up,” was all the response he could muster. Logan began to lazily roll his hips a little.“Logan, not yet fuck.”“I can't help it. I just want to fuck your brains out and make you cum till you pass out,” Logan said with great sincerity. Jake scrunched up his face.“You're a beast, okay? Now get your dick outta me.”“Noooo. I have you here now and I'm going to use that to my advantage. Take it bro, take it,” Logan said. He rolled his hips a little harder, though not much faster. It was leisurely this time. Easy, comfortable.“My ass is gonna be sore, you stupid fuck,” Jake said with affection. He didn't mind. He actually didn't mind that Logan was fucking him again right after having fucked him.“Oh fuck, they're going at it again? Have you being recording the whole time?”Both Pauls paused at the breathy tone in Terry's voice as he came trotting in from somewhere. Rob nodded. He had a massive bulge. Terry looked kinda sweaty. Logan smirked.“Got you all hot, huh?”Jake tilted his head back so he could look at them upside down. Logan continued the easy pace of his hips.“If you guys keep this up, you're gonna have a lot of views,” Terry said, clearly out of breath. “Okay, back to it, don't mind us.” Terry waved his hand dismissively at the brothers.Logan looked down at Jake. “Let me know how you like it.”“I will, don't worry. It's good right now.” Jake licked his lips and adjusted himself a little, wrapping his arms around Logan's neck. The older brother's hips moved slowly but forcefully and as he concentrated on fucking his little brother, Logan's thrusts soon drew moans from Jake.“Ahhhh, fuck,” Jake said softly. He craned up so their foreheads were touching again, his gaze on his own dick. It was hard again, which was no surprise. He was a young man full of vigor! And so was Logan apparently.“It feels good, Logan,” Jake assured. Logan nodded, the sensation tickling Jake's forehead. He giggled, unable to help the happy sound. That made Logan smile and kiss him.“Oh fuck, that's so hot,” Terry whispered, though it was audible to everyone. Rob just nodded and moved around, getting their faces and getting their whole bodies before focusing back in on the important parts.“Uhhhnnnggggggg,” Jake groaned after a moment, pulling away from the kiss. He pressed his forehead against Logan's again, panting now.“Good, yeah?” Logan murmured.“Nnnnnnng,” Jake agreed. He tightened his hold on Logan's neck and let his own hips move in time with his brother's. They moved together easily, naturally. Logan managed to keep a steady, slow, deep pace the whole time. Jake was so focused on him and his dick and his body and face and everything that he didn't even notice when the camera was practically shoved into his face.“I'm close Logannnnnggg.”“Me too.”They panted together, bodies moving as if in a choreographed dance. All too soon Jake felt his orgasm overtake him. He threw his head back as he came, moans mixing with pants. It seemed that Jake's climax was what triggered Logan, for he grunted and came a moment later, filling Jake again. This time he rolled to the side and pulled out, flopping on his back next to Jake. They looked at each other, mouths open and sucking in as much air as they could. Jake started giggling.“I love you Jakey,” Logan asserted again, raising an arm over Jake and letting it fall across his chest.“Oof,” Jake said. He was never going to return that sentiment, no matter how much he had absolutely loved getting fucked. He couldn't. He wouldn't.“And that's a wrap. Fuck, that was some good footage,” Terry said. Rob handed him the camera and hurried out of the room. Terry bit his lip as he watched him go.“Alright,” Terry said as he packed up the camera. “You guys can brainstorm some ideas for next time and we will too. We'll pick the best ones. I'll be in contact,” he said as he finished packing up. He waved over his shoulder as he left the room as well, closing the door behind him.Logan sighed happily and cuddled up to Jake, who certainly didn't push him away.Now what?“I'll make some food in a little bit,” Logan said, his voice muffled from being shoved against Jake's side.“What?” Jake asked. Now that it was over, the confusion was setting in again. It was dawning on him how much he had liked that, and it was scary. It was so different, so wrong. Jake felt himself freezing again.“I'm fucking hungry. I'm sure you are too. I sent everyone away for the night,” Logan said. His nuzzles were starting to tickle.“Yeah....”Logan sat up a little, propping himself on an elbow. “Jake?”The younger brother was silent. It was starting to get overwhelming again. It was too hot. Logan was too close. Jake pushed himself up into a sitting position. He looked around, feeling the need to get up. He was feeling tingly and prickly and he had to move.“I have to go. I-I just have to go,” Jake said as he stumbled off the bed. His legs kind of felt like jelly, but he pushed past that. He looked around for his clothes.“Jake, come on. Stay over tonight,” Logan said as he scooted to sit at the edge of the bed. Jake didn't look at him.“I can't. I can't. I have to go.” He found his pants, pulling them on and skipping the underwear.“But, you liked it, right?” Logan asked. He stood and frowned at Jake.“No. Yes. Maybe. I don't know. I just can't right now. I'm not like you, I can't just love my brother,” Jake said. It was for sure too hot in here. Where was his fucking shirt?! Fuck it, shoes instead.Logan was silent for a moment. “Here,” he said, holding out Jake's shoes. The younger brother took them without looking at Logan, hurriedly pulling them on. He went to the door and paused, finally looking back at his older brother standing there naked and …. sad. Jake let his emotions show on his face for a second before he just frowned.“I need some time. I need—I need a drink,” Jake said, and left the room. He went down the stairs and to the front door, looking back to see if Logan was following him. He wasn't. Jake felt a flash of disappointment that he squashed immediately. Frowning further, he pulled open the door and slipped outside to his car. He started it up and just let the rumbling engine fill him.What the fuck was he supposed to do now?

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The following month was absolutely chaotic. Jake was preparing for a fight against a professional boxer, and he threw himself into it as hard as he could. People thought he was just being extra, but the reality was much different.

Jake was running from himself. He was running from Logan, and what they'd done. He was filling the void with violence so he had no time to think about his brother.

Logan was all he could think about. Each day he waited for a text, a call, a call out on social media. None came. Jake worked himself ragged every day just so he could maybe sleep. He got into the best physical shape of his life. His mental health was another story.

He couldn't even stalk Logan's social media because he stopped posting anything for that month. No podcast, no videos, no rants, no ad reads. Jake was worried, but he just couldn't reach out. What was Logan planning? Was he going to release the incriminating videos? Was he going to kill himself? Jake had no way of knowing. He wanted so desperately to know that Logan was okay, but he couldn't reach out first.

The day of the fight came. It was hyped up so much. It was going to be live and then posted everywhere. Jake was apprehensive. Not because of his opponent, but he had gotten it into his head that Logan would be in the audience and he wouldn't be able to concentrate. His brother, looking up at him with those fucking eyes. Would there be pity? Longing? Hatred?

The fight began. Suddenly Jake's opponent

was

Logan. It caught him off guard and Jake got a few cracks to the ribs as a consequence. All of the confusion, longing, guilt, anger suddenly welled up. Logan was right in front of him. Jake snarled as he launched himself on his brother, pummeling him relentlessly. Each round, he used all of his pent up feelings to demolish Logan. He didn't even feel pain when Logan got in any hits. He didn't stop.

Finally Logan didn't get up and Jake stood over him, reality slowly trickling in. Not Logan. Just another boxer. The ref came to hold Jake's arm up in victory. Jake almost didn’t hear the cheers and jeers as he gazed down at his fallen opponent.

Jake sat alone in the locker room after the fight. He stared down at the ground, at nothing. His mind was blank now.

His phone rang. Jake started, not having realized he'd spaced out. He glanced at his phone on the bench beside him.

Logan. It was Logan.

Jake picked up his phone and answered.

“Lo–”

“Were you thinking about me?”

Logan's voice was playful. Almost as if he wanted Jake to have imagined his opponent as him and beat the shit out of him.

“No.” Jake had to keep his voice steady. He couldn't let Logan know how fucked up he'd been since he'd seen him last.

“Aw, you don't have to lie to me, Jakey. You missed me. You hate me. You want my dick. You really wish I was the one you were fighting out there. I got you bro. Come on over.”

Jame was silent. Logan had heard right through him. Of course he had. Logan sounded far too chipper for him to not be plotting something. Jake didn't feel guilty about the situation for once.

“You know what happens if you don't come over.”

Jake ground his teeth. Of course he did. What would be worse? Facing Logan now or being exposed? Stupid.

“Fine. I'll be there soon.”

“That’s my lil bitch. Can't wait to see you!” Logan hung up before Jake could reply. He sat there for a little while longer before getting up and getting dressed.

Jake sat in his car, gazing at the lit up windows of Logan's house in the dark. The anger of the last month was slowly giving way to the guilt he'd been holding for so long, mixed with trepidation.

The front door opened.  Logan stepped out. He didn't have a shirt on. He only had loose pajama pants on. He looked just as fit as Jake was right now. The younger brother swallowed and stepped out of his car. He came up to the door, waiting for some stupid comment from his brother, but Logan was silent. He just smiled a little, looking completely relaxed and like their last meeting hadn't been weird.

As soon as the door closed, Logan was on Jake instantly. Having just come from a match, Jake responded instantly. They tumbled, wrestling each other ferociously. Jake was tired and bruised, however, so Logan pinned him on the ground easily.

“Still got energy after the fight? How badly did you get hurt? You took some hits,” Logan murmured. He reached up under Jake's shirt and the younger brother let him. He

was

tired. Logan lifted up Jake's shirt now, frowning at what he saw.

“Aww, ouchies.” Logan gently placed his hand on what was sure to blossom into a huge bruise on Jake's ribs. Jake grunted a little, but otherwise let Logan touch him.

Why had he come here?

“My poor baby,” Logan said quietly. His hands roamed to Jake's pecks, squeezing them a little.

“Look at how fucking in shape you are, god. You're so fucking hot. I missed you,” Logan said, as if it was the most casual thing in the world to say to your brother.

“I didn't miss you,” Jake said.

“Mhm. Let's get upstairs,” Logan replied. He jumped to his feet and  yanked Jake with him. Jake sullenly followed Logan upstairs to the room they'd used last. Terry and Rob were there, and the whole room had been remodeled. It was decked out in what Jake could only assume was supposed to be a stereotypical Arabian theme. Lavish silks, pillows, decorations all accentuated the  circular bed in the middle. It was colorful everywhere and a bit overwhelming.

So, it was going to happen again. Logan would get what he wanted and Jake would be left to feel confused and stupid.

“Oh honey! He really did get you, huh?” Terry said upon seeing Jake's bruised torso. Jake just shrugged. He had been so angry for so long, but as soon as Logan had pinned him, it had evaporated. Jake was feeling just empty and tired now.

“Logan, he's not in the mood. Obviously. We talked about this.” Terry said, frowning at the older brother.

“Yeah? So? Just blow him or something to get him ready.”

Terry put a hand on his hip. “We talked about this! I told you I'm not going to work with you anymore if you're going to force him. So talk it out or something.”

Jake perked a little. At least Terry was on his side this time. He turned to Logan, who was frowning.

“C'mon, babe. Let's fuck.”

Jake's eyes widened and his brows furrowed. The anger was coursing through him again instantly.

“What the actual fuck? You can't just say that. You can't just call me babe. You can't just expect things to go back to how they were after not talking to me for a month! Do you even remember how we left it?!”

Logan looked contemplative for just a second. “Yeah, you left you little bitch. I know how bitches are, so I gave you space.”

Jake was stunned. How could Logan still not understand how he felt?! And to this degree?! Jake snarled.

“FUCK YOU. I HATE YOU. YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT YOURSELF YOU MOTHERFUCKING PIECE OF SHIT.”

“C'mon Jakey–”

“NO, I'M DONE. FUCK YOU.” Jake screamed before turning towards the door.

“Wait! Wait, please Jake!” Logan grabbed Jake's arm before he could make it out of the room. Jake whipped around, eyes ablaze.

“Why should I?!? Why should I ever listen to you again?!?”

“Jake, please. I know I was stupid. I know I was expecting something from you you weren't ready for when I asked you to stay. But, I just love you so fucking much that it felt natural, you know?”

“What’s natural for you isn't natural for

anyone

else. Do you know how you make me feel? You make me crazy. You make me hate you. You make me feel

guilty

, Logan. You make

me

feel guilty for being the one that almost drove you to suicide and the one that made you not kill yourself. How is a little brother supposed to deal with that shit?! And you keep blackmailing me everytime you fuck me. You act like it's no big deal because you're a psychopath or whatever, but I'm normal with normal human emotions and this has all been so crazy and fucked up.” Everything about their situation was bubbling up and pouring out of him now. It felt good to release it.

It was like some weight had been lifted off of Jake, but a lot of it was still there. Logan's brows furrowed as he worked through all that, finally going to sit on the edge of the bed.

“Shit. I really fucked up, didn't I?” he said. Jake was surprised at how frail he sounded.

“You did,” Jake agreed.

“Jake, I'm sorry. I just– I guess I just got so caught up in finally getting to hold you and kiss you that I just let it spiral.”

“Wasn't that your plan though? Blackmail me so you could do whatever you wanted to me?”

“No! I mean, well yeah–”

“You were right, you know. I pictured you in the ring with me today. I wanted so badly to beat the shit out of you for making me feel all these stupid things. For making me so fucking confused about our relationship, for making me feel weird about my brother–”

“You feel weird?” Logan asked, eyes widening and a smirk starting to play on his lips. Jake absolutely fumed, leaping onto Logan and shoving him onto the bed. Jake's hands made their way around Logan's neck, but only for a second. Logan was nowhere near as tired and beat up as Jake was. The younger brother got pinned once again.

“What kind of weird?” Logan continued, blue eyes bright.

“Fuck you.” Truth be told, Jake's side was starting to hurt and he just wanted to go home. He would never get through to Logan. Logan could never understand.

“Just get it over with and fuck me. I want to go home.”

“Aww, no Jakey.  It's so much more fun when you're screaming my name.”

“I don't care. I'm tired and I hate you, so get it over with.”

“Nooo, Jakey. It was so good last time, right? I know you liked it.”

Jake was so unbelievably done. This was not how he'd imagined seeing Logan again would go. “That’s part of the problem you fucking dipshit.”

“Huh? Liking it is part of the problem? How?” Logan asked.

“How can you be so fucking stupid?

I'm. Not. Like. You.

I don't

love

you. You're my

brother

so when you fuck the shit out of me and it feels good, what am I supposed to feel? What if dad fucked you, huh? How does that make

you

feel?”

“Dad?? Ugh,” Logan shivered in disgust. “Wait? Is that how you really feel about me? But… you liked it. You like me. Dad's gross, but I'm not. I'm hot. You're hot. We go so good together.”

“Do you even hear yourself? Fuck, it's like talking to a brick wall, jeezus fucking christ.” Jake fumed. How could Logan not get it?!

“But Jake, you liked it,” Logan said, looking very unsure of himself now.

Jake shook his head, still fuming. “I

did

. And I'm afraid that if I keep liking it, I'll end up starting to like

you

.”

Ah, that was it, wasn’t it? Now the entire weight was lifted. Jake felt relieved, but anxious. Logan seemed to finally understand. His eyes were wide.

“That’s why, huh?” he asked. His tone was genuinely curious, not mocking or derisive.
Jake stopped, frozen. Logan was quiet for once. Jake frowned as he slowly came to the realization that this, being afraid of falling in love with Logan, was the thing holding him back this whole time.
“Shit…” Jake said, the enormity of the revelation hitting him hard. He had started to like Logan like that, he realized. The last time they’d fucked, he had looked at Logan and not seen his brother. He had looked at Logan and seen… someone who loved him. Jake frowned mightily, his head spinning.
“Bro? Would it be so bad if we loved each other?”

Jake’s head snapped up. He looked lost for a second before shaking his head.

“O-of course it would be bad, bro. The whole internet knows us as brothers. Not to mention that would be so gay,” Jake said, his thoughts sorta fragmented at the moment. Logan stood and came closer.

“Bro. Who cares about that?”

“Logan,” Jake said. He looked up into his brother’s intense eyes. “

I

care. I care to not be a goddamn laughingstock or, or be permanently canceled. People might actually try to come kill us–”

“Bro,” Logan said. He wrapped Jake up in his arms, hugging him hard. Jake let him. Jake hugged back. He buried his face against Logan.

“Fuck. I hate you so much for putting me in this stupid situation,” Jake muttered.

“You don’t hate me at all,” Logan said with such confidence that Jake glared up at him.

“I hate you so fucking much,” Jake grumbled, though there was no force behind the words. He sighed and sagged.

“Hey,” Logan said. He tipped Jake’s head up and kissed him. Jake was torn between being angry still and wanting to kiss Logan. He hesitated for a second, then kissed back. Logan wrapped his arms tighter around Jake, who wrapped his around Logan.

“I love you, bro,” he said.

Jake just sighed. He felt Logan’s hands roaming over his body, then settling on his ass.

“God your–”

“Shut up,” Jake grumped. He was so tired. Today was so tiring.

“Jake,” Logan said softly. He gazed lovingly at his brother. “Let me make you feel good, bro.”

“Hmph,” Jake responded.

“Come on, please. I wanna make you feel good. I’ve been learning from Terry,” Logan said. He stroked Jake’s back gently. Jake glanced over at Terry and Rob, who were just watching them. Terry gave a thumbs up, nodding.

“You know what? Fine. I want to feel good,” Jake said a bit combatively.

Logan smiled and kissed Jake. “Okay, okay! Just stay there! I’ll get everything ready.”

“Ugh,” Jake said, putting an arm across his face. He closed his eyes, sighing. He was too tired to fight Logan on this today. Maybe Logan would even surprise him and somehow not be selfish about it. Yeah. Right.
Logan came back to the bed and knelt over Jake. The younger brother sighed as he looked up at Logan.
“What?”
“I’m gonna make you feel good, I promise, okay? Let’s get these off,” Logan said, pulling on Jake’s shirt. Jake offered no help as Logan stripped him, but he didn’t seem to mind. Logan immediately shed his pants and underwear afterwards, then pushed Jake’s legs apart. He sat between them, pulling a bottle over.

“Okay, Terry has been showing me how to do this,” Logan murmured.

Jake looked down at his brother between his legs, swallowing. “On you, or on him?”

Logan’s head shot up and he actually blushed as he glared at Jake. “On him, duh!”

Jake glanced over at Terry again, who smirked and nodded.

“Don’t worry, he’s pretty good at it now. Just let him do his thing. I think you’ll be surprised. Logan has really been wanting to show you just what he’s been up to,” Terry said smugly.

“You guys are lucky that I’m so fucking tired,” Jake said, rolling his eyes.

“Awww, don’t worry baby bro, I’ll make you feel so good that you’ll fall asleep right afterwards, okay?” Logan said, gently caressing Jake’s rib bruise.

“I doubt it,” Jake said stubbornly.

“Oh yeah? I’ll show you!” Logan said. He settled himself between Jake’s legs and pulled him closer. Jake blushed a little as he was presented better for his brother. Logan grabbed the bottle and opened it, pouring some directly on Jake. The younger brother sucked in a breath at the cold feeling, but it soon turned warm. He relaxed, settling back. Logan noticed and grinned as he slicked up his fingers.
“Okay, here we go. I’ll show you,” Logan murmured. He pressed a finger against Jake, who took a calming breath. Logan pushed the finger in and Jake bit his bottom lip, but didn’t say anything. Logan moved his finger back and forth and Jake put his head back against the luxurious pillows. Logan wasted no time in adding a second finger. Jake huffed, but again didn’t say anything. Logan worked his finger for a long while, until Jake couldn’t help but pant. His dick was starting to stand to attention.
“Yes, bro. I wanna make you feel so good,” Logan breathed. Jake glared at him, but remained silent. Logan’s brows raised and he grinned before returning his attention to what he was doing. Jake panted lightly, alternating between watching Logan and closing his eyes. Logan moved his fingers faster, and after a moment he grabbed Jake’s dick to stroke it.
“Ahhhh! Oohhh fuck,” Jake moaned. He kept his eyes closed now, enjoying the pleasure. Logan continued his ministrations on Jake until the younger brother arched up and came. Jake panted lightly.

“Feel good?” Logan asked.

“Hmph,” Jake said.

“I think you’re ready. Do you feel ready?” Logan asked, removing his fingers.

“I don’t think I’ll ever be ready. But just do  it already,”  Jake muttered.

“C’mon Jakey,” Logan said. He slicked up his cock and pulled Jake even closer. Jake didn’t say anything, just glaring down at Logan. The older brother pressed himself against Jake, slowly pushing his dick in. Jake grunted a little, relaxing his body as Logan pushed in further. Logan paused once fully seated.

“Did you miss this, Jakey?” Logan asked with a smirk.

“Shut the fuck up,” Jake grumbled. He licked his lips and avoided looking at Logan. The older brother just chuckled and began moving his hips. Jake closed his eyes and moaned.

“I think you fucking love this, bro,” Logan murmured after a moment. Jake didn’t reply. He did love this. He could never tell Logan that he did, though. That would be losing. That would be admitting something that Jake wasn’t ready to admit.

Logan was blissfully silent after this. He moved his hips in an enticing rhythm, and soon Jake was moving along with him. He kept his eyes closed. He didn’t need to see Logan, just feel him. The pleasant sensations increased, and Jake soon got lost in them. Logan seemed attentive to him for once, moving and changing his position to create pleasure for Jake.

Soon enough, Jake was calling out softly and cumming. He sighed in happiness, but then Logan began to

thrust

. Thankfully it didn’t take Logan much longer to reach his climax as well, spilling into Jake. Logan panted, letting himself fall onto Jake.

“Ugh,” Jake groaned, too tired to protest.

“Fuck, you’re so good for me, babe,” Logan murmured, nuzzling against Jake.

“Ugh, shut the fuck up,” Jake grumbled. He pushed lazily at Logan, who didn’t move at all.

“Good shit. Same time tomorrow, or do you need that time off?” Terry asked, suddenly thrusting him and Rob forcefully back into the picture. Jake lifted his head and glared at them.

“Mmm, how about like, two days you come back?” Logan murmured, still nuzzling against Jake.

“Alright honey. We’ll be seeing you,” Terry said, and he and Rob left.

Jake sighed. “You’re so fucking lucky I’m tired as fuck, you fucking idiot.”

Logan chuckled, settling himself more comfortably on top of Jake. “It’s perfect, really. I get you all to myself.”

“God. Ugh. I hate you,” Jake grumbled.

“No you don’t. You love me and my cock,” Logan murmured, kissing along Jake’s neck.
Anger flared deep within Jake. He attempted to shove Logan off again to no avail. He was just too damn tired. He grunted and then sighed unhappily. Logan sat up a little and grinned.
“Baby boy too tired? Awww,” he murmured, kissing along Jake’s neck.“Fuck. Off,” Jake grumbled, but he realized that he was trapped. He was too tired. He was exhausted. His limbs were like noodles. He let out a long sigh.
“God, you’re so pretty,” Logan murmured, stroking Jake’s hair and twirling a finger into it.
Jake closed his eyes. He attempted to block Logan out.

“Alright. Alright,” Logan murmured, finally sliding off Jake and cuddling up against him. Jake was halfway asleep, and he cuddled back into his brother without really realizing it. He didn’t see the adoring look Logan gave him as he pulled him even closer.