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Yamada was a little sad today. He knew he shouldn't be, but he was. There was nothing different, it was just something he had just recently noticed.Aizawa wasn't an overly affectionate person, but he also wasn't not affectionate either. He liked giving soft head kisses at home that made Yamada just melt. He also liked to cuddle, though he would never admit to it. But that was about all. He didn't say 'I love you' more than once or twice a week, and he certainly didn't want to run around doing cute couple things. He loved making love as opposed to just having sex, but he also liked them to stay under the radar with their relationship.Recently it was making Yamada think more about it than he probably should. Was Aizawa ashamed of their relationship? Was he ashamed of Yamada being his lover? The thoughts hit Yamada in the gut harder than any punch from a villain.So now he was pouting in the teacher's lounge, hiding from his feelings and Aizawa during lunch break. It wasn't often that they were able to eat together and it was usually a very pleasant surprise when Aizawa sat down next to him as they ate. He usually grinned widely and tried to give Aizawa a kiss, which he always rejected with a bit of a glare.Yamada let out a soft sigh, rubbing his face and trying not to worry too much. Aizawa was blunt enough to have broken up with him if he wanted to, so why the lack of affection? He knew for a fact that Aizawa was attracted to him. Or...did he? Yamada let out a groan and tried to get his head back on straight.The rest of the lunch period passed in a flash before the bell was ringing and it was back to work. His students didn't seem to notice, and neither did his co-workers. It wasn't until Aizawa pressed a hand to his head that he snapped out of it a bit."You shouldn't overwork yourself, Hizashi." Aizawa looked stern, but with Yamada's years of experience with reading Aizawa's moods, he knew that Aizawa was worried. Yamada nodded a little before he caught himself and went to speak.Aizawa didn't give him the chance as his brows furrowed. "What's wrong?" Yamada shook his head just as a call came in for him. "I have to go and save some people. I'll see you at home?" As Yamada stood, Aizawa let down his stern mask fall for a moment to look confused and concerned. He gently took Yamada's hand as Yamada looked to his phone for the details of his mission."Hizashi, look at me." With a soft sigh, Yamada pulled his hand away from Aizawa. "I'll see you at home, Aizawa." His name made Aizawa stop dead. "Hizashi?" Yamada shook his head, turning away from Aizawa and heading out.It hurt his heart to be so cold and he really didn't mean to be. It had just slipped out. He knew Aizawa would be mad once he got home. But right now he couldn't bring himself to care. He just wanted to know what he had did wrong to make Aizawa upset? Or did he even? His emotions were all messed up and he decided to push it all away until he got home.His mission was quick, messy, and reckless. He had saved the ladies from an armed robbery at the cost of being shot in the shoulder. It wasn't a new feeling, but that didn't mean it hurt any less.Without going to the hospital or reporting his injury, he trudged his way home. He wasn't even hungry at this point. Finally, he arrived in front of his and Aizawa's apartment. He stood in front of the door for a few moments before pressing his forehead to the cool metal. He didn't know what to say to Aizawa.He would start by saying sorry. But that was where his thoughts shut off. All he could think about was the hurt in Aizawa's face and burning in his shoulder. He was just sorry. Yamada finally brought himself to unlock the door, opening it slowly.His eyes immediately landed on Aizawa's pacing form, undressed from the day's work and with his hair up. He looked breathtakingly beautiful in just a stupid tank top and baggy sweatpants. Aizawa turned to Yamada as soon as he entered, wrapping his arms around Yamada's neck and kissing him deeply.This caught Yamada completely off guard. He held Aizawa close, kissing back. Yamada's shoulder burned like hot fire, so the tears that started to spill down his cheeks were two-fold. After what felt like hours of kissing, Aizawa pulled away and touched Yamada's face."What's wrong? You have to tell- You're bleeding! What happened, Hizashi?!" Yamada rested his forehead against Aizawa's. "I got shot. But that's not really important right now. I need to tell you I'm sorry. I'm so sorry for the way I acted with you today. It wasn't fair and I was being an asshole. I'm so sorry."Aizawa scoffed and pulled Yamada inside. "Come on, loud mouth. Let me treat the bullet wound and you can tell me all about why you acted like that." Aizawa led Yamada to the bathroom after their door was secured and sat him down. "Take off your clothes. We're gunna take a bath as well."Yamada nodded and smiled to Aizawa. "You know I love you, Shouta? I really do. And all of today I was just stuck on something." As Aizawa helped Yamada out of his clothes, Aizawa hummed to let Yamada know he was listening."I'm always so affectionate to show you that I love you. I want you to never, ever doubt my feelings. But today...I was thinking about how I always say that I love you. I always kiss you and hold your hand and make sure you know. I guess I just realized that you never do those things. It got me thinking that maybe you were only with me because you pity me or that you don't love me at all or that you don't want anyone to know that we're together or-"Aizawa gently took Yamada's chin and tilted it to him, forcing Yamada to look at him. "Hey, I love you, Hizashi. I do. I wouldn't be here if I didn't. I love you with all my heart and soul. I just don't like showing off our relationship. To me, our relationship is ours. Our love is ours and no one else in the world needs to know about something that's entirely mine and yours. That's probably why I'm a bit more open with kisses and hugs when we're home alone. I want to be that open with just you. I want only you to know what I'm like when I'm completely comfortable."Yamada stares at Aizawa as he explains, understanding their relationship in a whole different light. Aizawa's eyes were on Yamada's shoulder, cleaning the wound and then bandaging it until they could get Yamada to Recovery Girl. But Yamada could see the fondness there. "You do also know that I'm always trying to make some kind of contact with you, right? I like touching you when we're in public. I like running my hands over your shoulders or tapping your head. I do try to show affection in touch. Try counting the amount of times I touch you when we're out. It's probably more than you think."Aizawa smiled as he tied Yamada's bandages into place. "We just have different ways of expressing love." Yamada was completely charmed, letting Aizawa lead him into a kiss. Aizawa was careful where he touched for Yamada's wound, but it wasn't long before they both were undressed and in the tub.The two had a sweet night together, full of kisses and affirmations of love. The next morning, Hizashi woke up to a stabbing pain in his shoulder. He looked over to see Aizawa sleeping comfortably on his shoulder, right on his wound.He gently moved a lock of hair out of his lover's face before kissing him awake. Aizawa smiled brightly once they pulled apart. "You're so cute." Yamada chuckled at the compliment before he kissed Aizawa again. "We need to wake up. Do you think you could change the bandages on my shoulder again?"Aizawa sighed and nodded a little. "I don't want to get up. I just want to stay in bed with my husband." Yamada laughed. "I do too, but have jobs." They shared a few more kisses before Yamada finally stood up, leading Aizawa into the bathroom so he could change Yamada's bandages.They shared a few more soft kisses before Yamada and Aizawa were ready for work. Yamada drove as Aizawa gently placed his hand on Yamada's thigh. After a moment, Yamada intertwined their fingers. Aizawa smiled and then looked out the window. "That's one, Yamada. Keep count."Yamada was confused for a moment before he nodded a little, remembering. He was in a lot of pain with his shoulder, but it would all be healed up soon.Once at school, Aizawa leaned over and gave Yamada a soft kiss on the lips before getting out the car and heading inside without another word like he usually did. That was two.Throughout the day, they went through their daily routines, but now Yamada realized exactly how much Aizawa did touch him. He couldn't believe he didn't notice earlier. When they walked past one another, Aizawa was always brushing past him. He also made sure to squeeze past Yamada's desk instead of taking the shorter route around his desk. He even went as far as to run his fingers over Yamada's shoulders a few times.When the day was over, Yamada was pretty keyed up from all the times Aizawa had touched him. All one hundred and thirty nine times had sparked something in him and he was feeling so much better. After being healed by Recovery Girl, he rushed to find Aizawa, fighting his exhaustion until he saw his lover.With a huge grin, he picked Aizawa up and kissed him hard on the lips. Aizawa let out one of those rare startled laughs and let Yamada spin him around. "I love you Aizawa Shouta!"Aizawa laughed again and smiled down at Yamada as he was let down. They kissed once more before Yamada intertwined their fingers and led Aizawa away from the school and back to their home, a new confidence coursing through him.