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Kaoru was a good man. No, actually good didn't make him justice. A great man, a wonderful man. That was the best to describe Sugimura Kaoru, thought Nana. He was reliable, hard-working, diligent, observant and extremely sweet. If you judge him by first meeting, you wouldn't caught those things. He could be rude, sarcastic, short tempered and have a bad mouth to top all off. He was both bitter and sweet, and like many things like it, not everyone could understand the refined taste. But Nana did. She not only understood, but she also adored. She relished at the both sides of Kaoru, was tempted by his bitter side, and was addicted to his sweetness. She loves him. More then anything, more than anyone. She would sacrifice everything she had, every person in her life, to be by his side. Her heart belonged to him, and him alone. There was no space in her body and soul to anyone but that man. They know each other since grade school, and had their ups and downs during all those years in their relationship. Years together, then years apart, only to be brought together by a uncommon event. BDSM. The night they started their ‘breathers’, was the night where Kaoru won her. Even if they both didn't knew it back then, but now it was obvious. That was the night that made their paths intertwined once more, only to be tight up firmly, to never be apart ever again. Dim lights flashed, breaking Nana's day dreaming, and bringing her back to the present. The stage was now illuminated, and the crowd was getting even more agitated. It was a special night after all, because it was one of the rarest performances of Master K. In the S&M community, everyone knew the famous shows of K. A section of dominance and submission so good, and so exciting, that was possible to touch the heart of anyone that experienced. Many said that, if K ever had a section with you, you were bound to him forever, and no other Dom would be able to satisfy you ever again It was intense, sweet, out of this world even. The experience of a life time. Of course, not everyone believed. No one could be THAT good, right? Oh, but Nana knew better. It was true alright. After all, Kaoru was a majestic dom. Nana couldn't help but tense every time she went to watch her man perform. They were very rare, and Kaoru forbided her to watch everytime. But she would always watch in secret. She would choose stay in the back, in disguise, but always present to see her Master. She admired his work as a S&M performer. It was mesmerizing and beautiful to watch. A true form of art. But that wasn't the only reason she would watch. No, if she had to be honest with herself; she would only watch to make sure:Make sure he was not the same Dom he was with her on stage. On stage, he could be as rough, maniac and perverse as he always wanted. He could play the part of the heartless Dom, only to sweep everyone of their feet with his kindness. But Nana refused to accept, he would show the same matter of care, compassion and possessiveness to anyone but herself. As his one and only Sub, she wouldn't allowed it. Her greedy heart couldn't bare the thought of him being the same Master he was to her, to anyone else. Not even Ryoko got the same treatment, and Nana knew how close they were. Kaoru would reminds her that "Taichi is a test sub, but you are the real deal, Nana" Over the years, Nana accepted his sweet words, and allowed herself to be fine with him working as a full time Dom. She knew he helped others, just like he helped her so many times. She knew it was nothing but work, and that she was his one and only. Oh, but the complexity of being a Masochist. She still wanted to see her man with other subs, just to make sure he was still hers in the end. She wanted to test his loyalty, his love, over and over again, even if she got hurt in the end. She was greedy, and a pervert, after all. "Ladies and gentlemen" a voice came out of a speaker "We would like to thank each, and everyone of you, for your presence tonight. We would like to welcome him once more, after a 3 years hiatus, Master K to the stage." The crowd clapped wildly once Kaoru step up in front of them. He bound casualy, showing no sign of anxiety or even embarrassment to be in front of such huge crowd. That was her Kaoru, alright. " and introducing his partner for tonight, the sub Ami-chan" Soon after that, a beautiful girl, stepped on stage and placed herself right beside Kaoru. And just like that, the show started. And Nana had to keep herself in check to just sit there and watch. Otherwise, Kaoru would see her, and she would be in huge trouble once he got home. Curse her greedy heart, it was getting harder and harder to share what was hers
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"Great job today Kaoru-kun" Kyoko said excited once he left the stage, already out of ear shot from the audience. "Another great performance of K." Bashfully, Kaoru thanked the compliments of Kyoko and everyone from back stage. He should show a bit more excitement, after all the show was a huge success. But he honestly just wanted to go home "Here is you paycheck. You really helped us alot!" Said Kyoko grinning. Thankfully, after so many years knowing each other, she could probably tell that Kaoru wanted to just get over with it. "Thank you. Well then, good job everyone. I am going home now-" "Wait! Kaoru-sama!" Turning around, he saw Ami-chan quickly picking up her pace to talk to him before he left "me and some other members of the show are going out to get some drinks. Would you like to join us?" She said, batting her eyelashes at him, innocently trying to get him to stay with her more. Ami-chan was a beautiful girl. 24, short stature, big hips and small breasts, and a bob-hair cut to complement the innocent girl type look. If you look at her, you would swore she was underage. But looks could be deceiving, and Ami took full advantage of that. She acted all innocent and cute, but deep down, she was an hunter. Ready to fish any one she was interested in.And right now, her target was Kaoru. Noticing her antics to get him to go out, Kaoru slowly gave a few, and small steps back. He could see her act from a mile away. After 8 years doing S&M, and 4 years doing as a full time job, you kind of learn to read the subs energy very quickly. "Ah, sorry Ami-chan. Thanks for the invitation, but I need to get home right now" he turned around, hoping she would take the hint, and that this would be easy to manage. It wasn't: "Well then, maybe we can get together some other time? If not for drinks, I would totally love a 'private' section with you. Tonight was a wonderful experience, it would be a shame if it was a one time thing only. Don't you think?" Kaoru signed. He really didn't want to waste any more time talking. If sweet wasn't cutting it, maybe he should be a bit rougher. "Yeah, that is a 'no can do' for you Ami" he responded coldly "I have enough of a tight schedule as it is. And honestly I have no reason to make extra time for ya. Not to mention, if my girlfriend found out I am giving sections to random girls, I would have one more headache to deal with." "Oh! You-you do have a girlfriend then" said Ami, taking aback by the way the spoke to her. "If you finally get it, I will take my leave now. Excuse me" And just like that, he left the underground theater in a rush, not bothering to look back. As for Ami, she quickly went from surprised, to offended. " 'random girl'? How rude of him! And here I thought he was a good guy" "He is a great guy Ami" responded Kyoko, after watching the whole scene unfold "but he doesn't really enjoy getting close to the subs he perform with." "And why is that? Sure, he has a girlfriend, but dons can have many subs all at once! What, his girlfriend is that jealous of him?" "His girlfriend is actually very chill with his work, not to mention she is a huge supporter. She even came tonight." "Oh wow! I didn't even notice-" "So yeah, his girlfriend is okay with it. But his Slave, is a total different story.
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Kaoru rushed to the train station, hoping the last train hasn't left just yet. He got on the train by the skin of his teeth. Lucky him. Sitting down in a empty wagon, he finally managed to relax. S&M performances where way too stressful. Not only he had to plan a section for almost two hours, but he also had to keep his "Dom" mask the whole time. Not to mention all the Subs he had to perform with. Many where nice, but others like Ami-chan really grinded his gears. To be fair, it wasn't boring, and he always got a good paycheck to do it. But it was SO MUCH work, and he found himself annoyed after dealing with other subs, and just pretend he wasn’t. Lately Kaoru has being thinking of stopping doing S&M full time. He knew he helped alot of people, being like a psychiatrist to many, and a teacher to others. It did made him happy that he was helping people do BDSM safetly, and even changing some prejudiced points of views. But it wasn't fun. It wasn't even as exciting as it used to be. He would restlessly look at the clock, waiting for the time for him to go back home, and finally experience some GOOD BDSM. 'If is not with Nana, BDSM is meaningless. ' he thought Nana. Chigusa Nana, his childhood friend, and his very first Sub. She was also his girlfriend, and the love of his life. Thinking of Nana made his heart pound heavily in his chest. She was always on his mind, always reminding him what a good submisse should be, and why no one of his clients could ever compare to her. Long black hair, white silk skin, gorgeous brown eyes and a hourglass shape body. A true beauty. Not only that, she was extremely smart, determined and hard working. And as a sub, she was obedient, reckless and made it feel like it was always their first time. Perfect in every single way. Kaoru couldn't help but smile. He was so lucky to have her, not only as his sub, but as his girlfriend. For years, he felt unworthy of being by her side, and now he finally did it. He was with Nana for good now. He truly felt lucky. The luckiest man alive. They started dating in college, once both of them went to Tokio U. Those first 4 years were heaven. It were only them, and nobody else, 24 hours a day. Studying at morning, taking care of themselves at the afternoon, and at night... at night they were Master and slave, practicing BDSM to their hearts content, not having anyone around to bother them. He wish he could go back to those years, when they didn't had to stay apart so much. Even after graduation, they kept living together, and still managed to do both breathers and good old sexual S&M But there were times he was too tired to even look at ropes, or gags, even her colar had problem exciting him. Bless Nana's heart, she would never push him to do breathers when he was tired, but he could see the disappointment in her eyes. How deflated she felt that they couldn't partake in any of the activities that made them... them. He tried to compensate after, but he knew it was not the same... he always felt like he failed her somehow. Some times, anxiety would get the best of him, and he felt that sooner or later Nana would leave him. If he struggled to satisfied her needs, to be there to hold her when she most needed, and be her full time support, he was sure she would get tired of him, and go find someone else. The simple thought of losing Nana to some wannabe loser, filled him with anger and sadness. So he took shorter shifts, had less clients during the week, and would rarely perform. Tonignt was more of a favor to Kyoko than anything else. He wanted more than the anything, to get back to Nana, and help the only one that actually mattered. "Perhaps there is another way of doing this full time? I mean, the payment is really good, and I can't just stop working and leave all the bills to Nana..." he said to no one in particular.He took a look at his paycheck and felt unsure to leave this career. If he wasn't doing BDSM, what else would he do with his life? Maybe he could make equipments, be a consultant for couples, instead of actually doing one on one sections. Or maybe he was looking at it all wrong. Maybe he had so do something else to satisfied Nana and himself. He just didn't knew what.
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"Welcome home, Kaoru" Nana's voice always sounded the sweetest when she greeted him. Every night, the same sweetness. He trully was a lucky man. "Hey Nana, I am back. Sorry to keep you waiting, the performance took way longer than expected" "Don't worry about it. But you came straight home? I thought you would go out and drink with everyone." "You know I don't like the taste of alcohol, and besides” He quickly brought her face closer for a quick kiss “I wanted to see you as soon as possible"Her face flushed at his words, and just as quickly, melted into a beautiful smile. " I am glad Kaoru... I really missed you today" They truly were one of a kind couple. Even after 8 years together, they still acted like a pair of teenagers in love. With Nana, he was always on edge, always feeling his heart palpitate, just like it did when they met as kids. It felt good and painful at the same time. They lived this constant game of tug of war, making every single mundane thing look like a romantic event. Kaoru was sure, this is what true love was like. "How was your day? I didn't see you since morning" "Stressful beyond believe!” she admited, her voice aggravated by her frustration “You should see the chaos that was the company today... so many unresolved cases, and new ones showing up left and right! I thought I would collapse with so much work!" Nana as a important lawyer, worked at a very trustworthy company, and was beloved by her clients and peers. Really, nothing diferent how it was from High School. No matter where Nana went, or what she did, she would always be loved by everyone around her. Part of her unique charm. "I see, must have being rough." He replied with a smirk. The cenario was working perfectly for him. He holded firmly the paper bag in his hand, tonight was going to be incredible. "So rough! I am really not looking forward to go to work tomorrow" her tired eyes looked at him, still not noticing where this was going. " well then. Maybe you should take a breather, don't you think Nana?" Once the word Breather left his lips, Nana's eyes glimmered with excitement. Her face flushed a beautiful shade of red, and her mouth began to form an nervous smile. Just the reaction he was looking for. "R-Really? Right now? Isn't it late? Aren't you tired? I don't want to-" she stuttered, like she was fighting with herself the need to be a good girlfriend, and her selfish desire to have a breather. "Is fine, the performance wasn't that difficult to manage, besides..." stepping closer to her, he gently brought her ears close to his lips, seductively whispering to her "is being so long- You miss our breathers just as much as I do, don't you Nana?" Kaoru could feel the rush running in his vains. He needed this just as badly as her "Come on, I have the perfect outfit for you. Aren't you curious to see?" Nana tried not to look at him directly, although they both new she was already hooked to the idea. She licked her lips slowly, excited for the night they were about to have. " I am."
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The outfit was beautiful. A Dark red leather Halterneck Backless Crop Top, with long red gloves to match the set. High heels boots and a short, tight bright red skirt, that hugged her ass perfectly, with small cuts on their side. Below the entaicing outfit, a red lingerie pair, not meant to do anything else but cover her small private parts and nipples. But as beautiful as it was, Nana was struggling to keep a honest smile on her face. After all, this was the same outfit Ami-chan wore tonignt. The same outfit she saw Kaoru take it apart, leaving Ami-chan completely exposed to the crowd, so he could not only humiliate her, but have room for all the ropes he was going to use. Nana couldn't tell if, Kaoru saw Ami wear it tonignt and thought it was a perfect fit for her, or if Kaoru choose the outfit so she could wear it later, but Ami decided to wear it instead. It didn't matter. It was already stained. It was no longer Her outfit, it was an outfit, who some other sub wore. Some other sub, that Kaoru tied up.
'Once again, I am just second place uh?'
She couldn't help feel like she wasn't important to him anymore. Like a old toy that didn't work as well, and the child now decided to throw it away. Was she... going to be thrown away? Anxiety filled her heart, making her mind spiraling in despair. After all, why wouldn't she? Why would Kaoru stay with her, if he could have any sub he wanted? Ami-chan, Ai-san, even Ryoko... he could pick any of them, and she wouldn't even be missed. 'You are not special to him' She was just another name, in the huge list of people that loved Kaoru. Just another girl that he trained, and now belonged to him. She belonged to him... but he didn't belong to her. "Nana, are you done?" Light knocks on the door put Nana out of her clouded mind.
'In the end, is Kaoru's choice, right?'
She had to show a nice smile, a real smile. She had to get out and have a good breather for him! She couldn't disappoint Kaoru, she couldn't make his time be wasted, especially after a long day of work. They had to do this, otherwise if they had another failed breather... another failed night, Kaoru would- ‘Kaoru would... he definitely would...’
She could feel tears trying to come out, but she strongly holded in. "I am coming Kaoru." 'Please face' she silently prayed to herself 'please be convincing. Otherwise the breather will end, and Kaoru-' Kaoru would leave her for good.
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"How do you feel Nana? Sure was money well spent for this outfit" Kaoru's eyes would run around her figure, drinking every line, curve, and flash that she would show. The eyes of a hungry man, ready to claim his woman. Nana hid her face away, embarrassed by the way his perverted eyes claimed her. Even thought they have being dating for a long time, Nana still felt the embaressement of being exposed to him. The outfit gling into her, like the red leather was slowly becoming part of her flesh. Her heart raced, making her smile being genuine for a little bit. She was still attractive to him, and that calmed her down "What are you doing Nana, hiding yourself from me. You should know better." Kaoru's voice was firm, secured and autoritary. Long was the days where he would stutter his words during breathers. He was a confident Dom, and have being for a while. 'Of course he is. It is his job after all... being a full time Dom' Poisoning thoughts invaded her mind once more. No good, she can't let herself think about those things. "Come on Nana, turn around for me. I want to see you fully" She did as she was told. Turning around, holding a shy smile on her face. She needs to focus, she can't ruin this. "Now, you remember the safe words right Nana? Red to stop, yellow to wait, and-?" Kaoru then waited for her to finish the sentence "Green, to continue..." "Good girl. You are always so reliable you know" She could feel her spine tingle with pleasure. Karou sure was amazing, he knows exactly what to say 'Duh! Kaoru is a professional. He is paid big amounts of money, to do breathers just like these.’
Once more she could hear her awful mind being mean tricks to her.
‘Many beautiful women look for his services. Women prettier than you. Smarter than yyo. Better than you.’
Oh God, please stop. ‘How many times had you use this dynamic around? Color base safewords. Kaoru only uses those when he is too tired to read your body language for the breathers. And you both have being using this A LOT lately right? Kaoru is using all his talent to more deserving women, And at the end of the day, you gotta get the leftovers. If you are lucky.'
She didn't want to think those things, she really didn't! But it was already stronger than her. Her insecurities crippling inside her head, refusing to be silenced so easily 'You are no longer his number one. You thought it was hard share him with Ryoko? Now is worse. You are sharing him with everyone!'
Make it stop. She had to make those awful thoughts stop! Someone please make it stop- 'Kaoru is probably cheating on you. Is just a matter of time, for him to leave you.'
Please... Kaoru... make it stop! "Nana!" Just like magic, his voice made all her anxious thoughts dissappear. She was once again focused on the here and now. And right now, Kaoru looked concerned beyond believe. He held her shoulders firmly. When did he get so close to her "What happened? You zoomed out, and you wouldn't answer me. Are you okay?" His sweet voice, instant of calming her down, filled her with guilt and despair. How dare she think so low of him? How dare she think he didn't care about her? After everything they went through. But she couldn't help it... her insecurities where already running too deep. She forced a smile. Her best impression of a smile. She knew Kaoru would figure it out. "Is nothing. Sorry, I must be tired." His face quickly changed from worried, to annoyed. He knew she was faking it. And he was angry with her for lying. "What did we talked about lying Nana?" He asked her coldly. "T-To never do it, to e-each other...?" She said feeling guilty, but still refusing to let go of her fake big smile. "That's right. So -" he let go of her shoulders, choosing to firmly bring her face to his face "- care to explain why you are lying to me?" "I-I'm n-no-" " Don't you dare!" His voice rouse like a thunder. She stopped talking immediately. His hand holding her face painfully tight "You should know by now you can't hide things from ME!" He stopped talking for a second, eyeing her out, just so his sadistic expression dominated his face "I know you better than anyone else" In one swoop, she was lying on the bed, her arms above her head, being held down by one hand of his, while he pressed his body on top of her "I hate this dumb smile of yours. It pisses me off that you think I could fall for this. Do you still think I am that stupid?" The way he spoke, his voice and body language- It was scary. It would be even scarier, if she couldn't notice the worry in his eyes. His roughness and anger came from a place of love. Even so... "I don't think... you are stupid." "Then why are you lying to me?" "I-I am not-!" She heard him slapping her face, before she could even feel it. As her face pulsated with the slap sharp pain, her eyes finally let out the tears she was holding on "Is this your way for asking for a rougher breather? You know you don't have to piss me off just to feel extra pain" She turns her face to him, making the best apologetic face she could. She really didn't wanted to make him angry, but deep down she felt like this was the treatment she deserved it from him. She sucked so much- as a person, as a girlfriend, as a Sub… she deserve his fury. " I am sorry..." And just like that, the same hand that gave such strong slap, carefully caressed her face, as lovely as it could. It didn't hurt anymore, she could only feel the electricity from the rush the pain caused. His face now melted from angry, to worry in a blink of a eye. Worry and love was oozing out of his face, melting her heart and giving glimpses of hope that, she wasn't going to be thrown away. "You know you can always tell me what is wrong, right Nana?" "I know..." "We know each other for years, right? You know I won't judge you no matter what, don't you?" "I do..." "Then why you still not telling me what's wrong?" 'Because if I do... you will leave me!' Her heart cried out 'you will leave me no matter what I do now. So what is the point of being honest?!' "Nothing is wrong Kaoru..." once more her smile came to her face. The smile he hated the most. The smile she couldn't put away. And that did it for him. His face closed up. He wasn't going to be sweet anymore. She braced herself for the worse. For him to shut everything down and get out of the room, ending another failed breather thanks to her. And yet: "We just had a change of plans. If you won't be good and tell me what is on your mind, I will take it out by force. I really wanted to be gentle with you today, but since you decided to disobey me, I will be as rough as necessary" The breather was still going. He wasn't letting go of this that easily. She was going to open up whatever she liked or not. She was screwed. "Oh and by the way Nana. Different dynamic, different safewords. Let's see if you had being doing your homework" Oh, she was SO screwed!