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"I can't leave him," Kurt Hummel mumbled, looking down solemnly at the tiled floor of his lover's kitchen. He sighed heavily, unable to look Sebastian Smythe in the eye.Sebastian's face contorted in pain. "You're still in love with him," Seb accused almost aggressively tossing the used tea towel in his hand down onto the kitchen counter top."I am not," Kurt shook his head in denial, taking Seb's hand in his own. "You know I love you Seb. I absolutely adore you. I would be with you if I could but ...""That's bullshit," Sebastian cut Kurt off, dropping his hand with disgust. "You're a fucking liar Kurt. You don't love me. You might love dropping by my penthouse every time your husband is out of town for a
quick spin on my cock but you don't love me.""How can you say that?" Kurt met Sebastian's teary eyes at last. "You're the love of my life Sebastian Smythe. In my otherwise gray world you are an incredible ray of sunshine. You make me feel so treasured and loved.""Right, sure," Seb scoffed. "I make you cum. That's about it.""Well yes," Kurt grimaced. "You definitely do but it's more than that. You make me happy. You make me feel alive.""And what about Blaine?" Sebastian shot back, disgust in his tone as he mentioned Kurt's husband's name. "How does he make you feel?"Kurt pondered for a moment thinking of his husband and their relationship. "He makes me feel trapped," Kurt responded thoughtfully. "He makes me feel inadequate, like no matter what I do I'll never be enough.""And yet you're still willing to choose him over me?" Sebastian was clearly perplexed. "I could give you a good life Kurt. The best of everything, so much love. We could grow old together, be deleriously happy.""I know," Kurt couldn't deny that a life with Seb offered so much more than his current existence with Blaine. "It's just so complicated.""How is it complicated?" Seb groaned with frustration. "You say you're not in love with him, that you love me and when we're together, when you're in my arms and in my bed I do feel that Kurt. When I'm inside you and we're lost in each other's eyes and we're moving together in complete synchronisation I feel that love Kurt. I feel it right here," Seb placed his hand over his heart briefly. "When we're snuggled on my sofa sharing a bottle of wine and watching movies I feel it. When we're laughing together and cooking up a storm in my kitchen like we did this evening, I feel it Kurt deep down in my heart and despite what I said earlier I know you feel it too.""Of course I do," Kurt reached out to Sebastian. Seb stepped into Kurt's embrace. They clung together,savouring the love, the warmth, that radiated between them as they breathed each other in. They parted reluctantly. "I've told you a million times over, that I love you.""Then be with me Kurt. Move in here and be mine. You know you want to. You know you want this," Seb gestured down his body and around the room, offering himself and his home to Kurt. "Can't you imagine leaving work everyday and coming home to me? Falling asleep every night in my arms.""It's what my dreams are made of," Kurt smiled sadly. He reached up cupping Seb's jaw. He stroked his stubbled cheek tenderly with his thumb. "There's nothing stopping you," Seb leaned into Kurt's touch."It's not that simple," Kurt truly wished it was. "We're adults Sebastian.""If you tell me you made a commitment to him I might just puke," Sebastian fake gagged."I did," Kurt shrugged. "When I was young and impulsive. At the time I was alone and thought no one would ever love me."""I love you," Seb reminded him. Kurt sighed. "Divorce would be a nightmare Seb. Our finances, my theatre money and his music money, are all intertwined. There's all our investments and real estate.""This is about money?" Seb raised an eyebrow. "Fuck money. Let him have the money. I have enough money to take care of us.""It's not just the money," Kurt looked knowingly at Sebastian. "It's also about our son Finn. You surely don't expect me to just let Blaine have him. Custody battles are brutal on children. I can't put my little boy through that.""It doesn't have to be ugly," Seb attempted optimism. "We're all rational humans. Surely Baby, Blaine loves Finn too. He wouldn't want to put him through any unnecessary trauma.""I guess," Kurt sounded unsure. He was acutely aware of how narcissistic Blaine could be. He expected that Blaine would take any attempt by him to leave as a personal attack and subsequently use Finn as a pawn to enact his revenge. Blaine was definitely capable of being that cruel and petty."Aren't I worth the risk?" Seb almost pleaded. "Isn't our love, our lives, our happiness worth the risk?""We're talking about my son Seb," Kurt reminded him anxiously. "I'm aware," Seb nodded. "But don't you think your son would benefit from happy parents?""He must notice the tension at home," Kurt admitted. "I try to shelter him but he can't have missed that his daddies don't share a bed anymore.""You never told me that before," Seb's eyes widened."I'm sure I did. Did you really think I was sleeping with both of you?" Kurt frowned."Yes and I fucking hated it," Seb looked so relieved. "I couldn't, Seb," Kurt took Seb's hand in his again. "I could never cheat on you." He lead Sebastian from the kitchen where they'd just finished clearing up from dinner, through the penthouse to Sebastian's bedroom. "I moved into the guest room the morning after our first night together.""Fuck," Sebastian groaned as Kurt reached forward and boldly untied the belt of his bathrobe. "Indeed," Kurt grinned admiring Seb's naked body beneath as it fell open."No," Seb shook his head. quickly closing it again. "I'm not going to let you distract me again with sex. I want to talk about this Kurt." He retied the belt."Do you realise that if I leave Blaine, if I move in here with you and get even any custody of Finn that he would have to live here too?""Of course," Seb nodded."You've never even met him, Sebastian. You've never mentioned wanting kids or even liking kids. Are you ready to be a step dad?" Kurt questioned. "Parenting isn't all fun and games. It's not just trips to the park and reading bed time stories. It's cleaning up shit and puke and constantly trying to rationalise and negotiate with an angry, hyperactive and completely unreasonable mini human. Most of the time it's stressful and exhausting.""You make it sound so appealing," Seb chuckled.Kurt shrugged. "I love being Finn's dad. Just the tiniest smile from him, the smallest hug makes it all worthwhile. He's my baby you know?""I know," Sebastian nodded. "He could be my baby too. I know we've never talked about it but I do want to be a dad. I would love him Kurt. I think I would be a good one.""Even to Blaine Anderson and Rachel St James' child?" Kurt wasn't convinced. He knew it was a lot to expect from anyone."Yes when that child is your son," Seb spoke with certainty. "DNA is inconsequential.""You sound like you really mean that," Kurt replied emotionally."I have the room here Kurt. Look around. I've lived in his massive penthouse alone for so long. I'm ready to fill it with people I love, with family. I love you Kurt. I don't want to live here alone anymore.""You need to be certain," Kurt was suddenly considering this, considering tearing his current life apart, tearing his son's life apart to start over with Sebastian. Seb had been incredibly persuasive. "I have never been more sure of anything" Seb replied adamantly. "We've been doing this thing of ours for two years Kurt. I know what I want. I want you and if your little boy is part of the package then that's just a bonus as far as I'm concerned.""And you're prepared for the mess?" Kurt needed to check."Kids are messy," Seb shrugged. "I was. How bad can it be?""I meant the legal mess of divorce," Kurt sighed. "Though Finn can get pretty messy too.""For the privilege of waking up beside you every morning I am willing to endure whatever it takes," Seb stepped into Kurt's space with lust in his eyes. "Leave him Kurt Hummel, Be mine?"Kurt smiled. His lips found Sebastian's heatedly, his hands cupping Seb's ass to pull him in tight against him. Seb's arms wrapped around the back of Kurt's neck, his hands finding purchase in Kurt's hair as they made out. "All this could be yours," Seb pressed his hard nine inches against Kurt's thigh with a smirk. "Just say the words Kurt."Kurt pulled his face back slightly from Sebastian's to look into his eyes. He saw nothing but love, no hesitation, no doubt, just certainty and love."I'm yours," Kurt spoke boldly and as he claimed Seb's lips once more they both knew it was true. Kurt Hummel's heart, his body and his soul belonged to Sebastian Smythe and as Seb laid Kurt down tenderly on his bed and disrobed him they also both knew that Sebastian was Kurt's too. They knew that the immediate path ahead of them would be rocky, that revealing their truth to the world, to Blaine especially, was going to be difficult but they also knew, as Sebastian settled himself between Kurt's thighs and losing himself in Kurt's eyes, pushed tenderly inside him for the third time that evening, that their love, their happiness together was worth it. They were worth any struggle.