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Eijirou couldn’t believe it.It had finally happened.He broke.His brain shut down and he couldn’t feel anything.…not just that, he didn’t care about anything.It felt so good.He felt as if he was high or drunk. He couldn’t feel, he couldn’t think and he felt so light, so in fucking peace.God, he had prayed for this to happen for many years and now there he was, walking in the middle of the night, barefoot with only a hoody and his boxers on. The air cold, the floor was hard and uncomfortable, but Eijirou didn’t care. He couldn’t. He just kept walking, head thrown backwards as his red eyes looked at the night sky and the few stars that covered it. It was so pretty.He felt his body taking a deep breath. The cold air felt good, kind of grounding. He kept walking.A little part of his brain knew that he could be in danger. He was alone, half-naked in the middle of the night and he wasn’t paying attention to his surroundings; he could be murdered, kidnapped or rape and still----He wasn’t afraid, because he couldn’t bring himself to care about anything or anyone.He was finally free.Even if she found him, he would be immune to her. She could insult him, hit him, scream at him, humiliate him and it wouldn’t work. Not his time, and hopefully not ever again.Suddenly he felt his foot stopping, something---- someone was there? He wasn’t sure, he thought he felt something warm around him and some kind of pressure on one of his arms-----…rou?He felt his eyes lazily blink; once, twice… was someone else there?-…here?! Eijirou?!Huh…he---he knew that voice, he thought? Or maybe he was imagining things?It was then that he felt a couple of hands touching his face and bringing his head down, though his eyes kept looking up at the sky.-.Ei… at me… irou!-.He felt himself taking a deep breath. The voice kept talking, or so he thought; his brain could barely make sense of the words it was saying.Something warm touched his forehead and Eijirou’s head felt backwards, his eyes looking at the night sky once again.So pretty, the sky and its colors were one of the few things why Eijirou didn’t regret to be alive. He liked the night sky, especially when he could see some stars; he liked the sunrise, those rosy colors on the clouds were fantastic and the sunsets--- oh, how he loved the sunsets. They were warm, and its orange and red colors always made him think of him----Him?Who---?-… yes, I alre… take me for---He loved the sky, but he came to love the sunsets the most because everything about it reminded him of him, especially its colors because his eyes----.Sunset eyes.-.Ah?His eyes were the same color as sunsets.-.Don’t call me something so corny.-. But it’s true!Looking at the sky and its colors had been the only thing that had him not regretting to be alive, until sunset incarnated came into his life and---Where---?Who---?-.It… kay… Ei… at you.Sunset…-…eyes…-.He felt himself breath the word out and not a second later, he felt a warm pressure on his face and then there they were.The colors of sunset hiding in his eyes.-.Ei…a se… mething-.And then, the air left his lungs and he couldn’t take a deep breath anymore.He began to take shorts breaths and he didn’t feel desperate; the pressure of his ribs expanding his skin so tight felt good and he wanted to feel good.Though, it seemed his body didn’t agree with him because the next thing he knew was that he was falling and everything went to black.+When his consciousness came back, the first thing he did was to take a deep breath.He felt so tired.He opened his eyes, slowly and blinking drowsily, trying to focus his sight as he moved his eyes.Then, he saw him.Sunset eyes.-.Eijirou!-.The redhead smiled.-.Kats?-. The blonde came closer and that’s when Eijirou noticed the bags under Katsuki’s red eyes as if he had not slept properly in days, which was weird since his boyfriend had a strict sleep schedule.The he noticed his eyes were red-rimmed and still shinning with unshed tears and Eijirou sucked a breath.What--- What had happened?-.Why… What happened?-.Asked Eijirou, Katsuki let out a sob as some tears began to fall. Eijirou’s concern grew-.Kats?-. Katsuki let out another sob before he cradled Eijirou’s face into his hands and began peppering him with kisses.Eijirou felt himself blush despite his concern and he tried to raise his hands to touch Katsuki, to try and hold him, but he could only raised them a little bit before letting them fall again.Katsuki seemed to noticed and with a kiss on his forehead, he leaned back, just caressing Eijirou’s cheek with his knuckles.-.You still need to res-. Said the blonde-. I’ll Call the nurse-. Eijirou frowned.“Nurse?”And when Katsuki left his sight was that he realized they were in a hospital room, and he was the one laying on the bed.What--?-.Kats…-.Oh, it’s good to see you awake Mr. Kirishima-. Said a happy voice.Eijirou managed to turn his head to look at the nurse.-.I’ll do a quick check-up and then I’ll call the doctor, alright?-. Eijirou didn’t have to agree for the nurse came closer to begin to do her things.Eijirou could only focus on his boyfriend, as he stayed at the foot of the bed, while wiping the few tears that kept falling.When the nurse finished and declared that everything seemed fine, he went out of the room and Katsuki went to Eijirou’s side once again.-.How you feeling?-.Asked Katsuki, caressing Eijirou’s hair, Eijirou blinked.-.Tired but fine?-.He licked his lips-. I’m confused, why am I here? W-What happened?-.Katsuki frowned.-.You don’t remember?-.Asked the blonde. Eijirou blinked in confusion and when he was about to say “no” it hit him.The desperation, the frustration, the hopelessness, the hurting and then peace.-.Oh…-.Ei?-. Eijirou looked at Katsuki’s worried face and he felt his eyes burning as tears began to fall.-.I--- I’m sorry-. Said Eijirou, voice breaking-.I’m so sorry, Katsuki I--- I don’t ---.Katsuki kneeled and took Eijirou’s face between his hands, thumbs wiping gently, the streaming tears.-.It’s okay. You’re okay-.Said Katsuki, trying to contain his own tears. Eijirou kept crying, his body trembling.-.I--- I don’t know what--. Eijirou sobbed-. It--- It just hapenned and- and it felt nice, i--- it felt nice Katsuk, it felt so good----Katsuki let go of Eijirou’s face so he could hug him; the redhead curled into the blonde’s body as he kept crying.Eijirou didn’t remember every single detail about him breaking, but the intoxicating feeling of ecstasy and calm, that not matter what he thought he didn’t care, it didn’t affect him in anyway.It had been great to feel like that, Eijirou had craved for it so much for so long but, in that moment, even when he felt despair and sadness and guilt, he also felt warm, safe and taken care of. And Eijirou now knew he would never trade the warm and safety that Katsuki, his sunset, made him feel for anything in the world.+-.What happens now?-. Asked Eijirou. The doctor had left a few minutes ago, after checking him up again and explaining what had happened to him.A nervous breakdown with a dissociative episode.A long name for Eijirou’s brief moment of freedom and peace.He doubted it would happen again… at least not so soon but he knew Katsuki very well and knew the blond wasn’t going to let him go back to his house, not with her still there.-.You’ll stay with me. Deku’s fine with it, not that I care-. Eijirou smiled-. We’ll book an appointment with a therapist, Shouto already sent me a few options. We don’t have to do it right away but it’s a must.Eijirou pursed his lips.-.I’m a scholarship, Kats. I don’t have money for a therapist-. Bakugou took one of the redhead’s hands.-.We’ll help you. You don’t have to worry about it-.Eijirou tried to blink the burning behind his eyes away.-.I--- I can’t ask you to do that. It’s--- It’s t-too much-. Katsuki kissed the redhead’s hand.-.You aren’t asking, we are offering. And even if you were asking we would help you too, we are your friends Eijirou and I’m your boyfriend, we aren’t letting you to keep fighting alone, no when we have a say now-. Said the blonde. Eijirou sniffed but he smiled, nonetheless.-.Okay…-. Katsuki smiled back at him and kissed his lips softly.-.You’re going to be okay-. Mumbled the blonde and Eijirou hummed.-. I love you-. Said Eijirou. Katsuki kissed him once again.-.I love you too, darling.Eijirou loved the sunset so much and he was glad he loved him back just as much.