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“It's so sweet,

knowing that you love me.

Though we don't need to say it to

each other, sweet

."
 
You parked in your driveway and turned off your car radio, the last glimpses of daylight peeking out over the horizon and bathing the land in a mesmerizing orange glow. You took a deep breath, took your keys out of the ignition, flung open your car door, and planted both feet on the solid ground as you strolled to your front door at a leisurely pace. It had been an extremely long and taxing day at work, leaving you physically

and

mentally exhausted, with almost no energy. 
 
But finally, the work day was over, you were home, and you had the next two days off, which was

definitely

something to look forward to. Speaking of things to look forward to, as you opened your front door, you let out a sigh at the prospect of immediately collapsing into your nice, warm bed the

second

you got inside. No work shenanigans, no nagging voices of your superiors, nobody to boss you around, no rules, and absolutely no limits to what you’d be doing. This was

your

time now. And after a long day, you would finally be truly and blissfully alone.
 
But there was one problem with that plan.

Namely the cunt with wings who happened to be sprawled out on your couch like he owned the place.

You froze in your doorway, your brain needing a moment to process the fact that you

weren’t alone,

and that there was an intruder in your personal space, and that this was the third time this week that your not-so-friendly neighborhood Decepticon had decided that your house was

his

kingdom.
 
After your mind had registered the situation at hand, you closed your front door and let out a heavy sigh. Did this really have to happen tonight of all nights? Couldn’t you catch a single break? For goodness sake, all you wanted to do was lie down, take a bubble bath, eat some comfort food, and maybe watch some Netflix or something! You weren’t getting paid for this!!

And so justifiably, the first words that left your lips were the first words that crossed your tired mind.

“

Not this asshole

.” You muttered quietly under your breath, covering your eyes with one hand as if doing so would make the seeker on your couch magically disappear. Alas, said “asshole” had not disappeared. In fact, he was now glaring at you with an unamused expression, as if it were

you

who was intruding on

him

. And without missing a beat, he snapped back in a bitter tone.
 
“Oh. It’s

you

.”

God fucking dammit, Starscream

.
 
A wide range of expletives and petty insults surfaced at the forefront of your mind as annoyance and mild anger welled up inside you, but you held your tongue, knowing that lashing out would only make things worse. But you still couldn’t help the sass that made its way into your tone as you spat back at him. “Uhhh,

yeah, it’s me

. I live here. You don’t. Why the hell are you here

again

? Last time I checked, you don’t pay my rent.”
 
It’s not that you

hated

Starscream, because you most certainly didn’t. On the contrary, you actually

enjoyed

his company most of the time (but you’d never tell him that, lest you fuel his ego). The problem was that you had

really

been looking forward to being alone for the first time all day. Entertaining an ornery cybertronian house-guest wasn’t exactly on your agenda, nor was it on your “Top 10 Ways To Relax” list. On most other days, you would’ve been fine with sharing your space with the melodramatic mech, but christ on a stick, you just wanted to relax!
 
Starscream let out an irritated scoff, turning over on the couch so that he was fully facing you. You leaned back against the wall, bracing yourself for what was bound to be either an overly-dramatic speech or a rage-induced one liner directed at dissing your very existence.

And you were right.

“Well, the last time

I

checked, the fleshling in possession of this residence wasn’t so

insufferable

and

impassive

.”
 Before you could say anything to retort and defend yourself, you watched as Starscream’s expression changed from one of cocky arrogance to one of immediate remorse and apprehension. That alone concerned you, and you immediately let your crossed arms fall to your sides. And not a second later, the seeker on your couch spoke in a barely audible tone.  
“I… I

apologize

, _____.” 
 
That concerned you

even more

. In all the time you had known Starscream, he’d never once apologized for

anything

, even the things he had done that were clearly his fault (like him purposely pushing one of your vases off of the kitchen counter, then blaming

you

for leaving it too close to the edge, even though you had watched the smug fucker slowly scoot the damned thing off of the counter with your own two eyes)! In all honesty, you didn’t even know if Starscream knew what the word “sorry” meant before today. So this was

definitely

a cause for alarm. 
 Before you could find the right words to use to ask Starscream what was wrong (because something was clearly wrong), he slowly sat up, not able to meet your eyes as he gripped the edge of the couch, his wings lowering behind him as he slouched over. You barely had a moment to register his change in positioning on your couch before he spoke in a feeble and weak tone, his voice wavering ever so slightly. 
“Please… please let me stay. Just for a cycle or two, a-and then I-”

Alright, that’s it.

Without wasting a second, you marched over to the couch, determined to figure out who hurt Starscream so you could personally hunt them down and give them hell to pay, previous exhaustion be damned. Besides, all the exhaustion had left your body the second you saw that your favorite menace of a mech was distressed. And besides, you could be exhausted

later

, once you knew for a fact that Starscream would be okay.
 
But unfortunately, your unbridled rage towards those who had wronged Starscream had come off as

general rage

, and your heart broke into a million pieces the second you watched him flinch away from you, instinctively throwing his servos in front of him to shield his faceplate from any oncoming blows. Upon seeing this, your expression softened and you spoke in a quiet and soothing voice.
 
“H-Hey, Star, it’s okay. I’m not mad at you, I swear.” Thankfully, the seeker seemed to hear the kindness and truth in your voice, and he slowly lowered his servos away from his helm. Although you could still see a brief hint of hesitation and fear lingering in his red optics. You spoke again, hoping to ease his mind. “And… I’m sorry too. I shouldn’t have snapped at you. You’re

always

welcome here. I’ve just had a long day is all. A really long and

really sucky

day, and I’m just

so tired

.”
 
“That makes two of us.” The seeker muttered under his breath, staring intently at the ground as if it held all the solutions to his problems. Your brows furrowed as you stared at him with worry. This was so unlike him. He was usually so snarky and sarcastic, but in this moment, he seemed so helpless and scared. And although you appreciated him showing a rare glimpse of vulnerability, it still concerned you greatly. You wanted nothing more than to help ease his mind and alleviate all of his troubles.
 
“Can I sit next to you? Is that okay?” You asked, your tone as gentle as you could possibly make it. And when Starscream shifted over and made space next to him, you took that as an unspoken, yet answered “yes” to your question. You moved slowly, not wanting to agitate or accidentally threaten your alien housemate any more than you already had in the past few minutes. Jeez, you had really screwed this whole thing up right from the get-go, hadn't you?
 
You sat down fully, taking a moment to appreciate and sink into the plush couch before looking back at Starscream. There was a few seconds of silence before you decided to speak.“What happened?” From the way Starscream’s shoulders tensed and his wings seemed to droop even lower than before, you could automatically tell he didn’t want to talk about it right now, or quite possibly

ever

. So you shot him a reassuring smile, responding in an understanding tone. “It’s alright. We don’t have to talk if you don’t want to. I promise.”
 
You could practically see the relief washing over Starscream’s frame upon hearing that he didn’t have to re-live whatever troubles he had gone through that day. And truthfully, you could relate. You knew exactly how it felt when people who cared about you forced you to try talking through your troubles. Even though you knew that those individuals had the best of intentions, sometimes, talking only made things

worse

. So you knew from experience not to force the seeker sitting next to you to say anything. If he ever wanted to talk about what was bothering him, he would do it in his

own

time. 
 
The two of you sat next to each other in silence for a few minutes before you spoke, barely above a whisper. “Is there… anything I can do for you?” That question seemed to snap Starscream out of whatever contemplative trance he was in, as he stared at you with a bewildered expression. It was almost as if he was unsure of the proper way to react to your statement, like being shown any form of kindness was a completely foreign concept to him.
 
You watched patiently as he seemed deep in thought, likely debating over what to say or how to answer your seemingly simple question. After a couple seconds, you noticed the seeker’s expression change from contemplative to embarrassed, almost ashamed. You could tell he had

something

in mind, but you didn’t know

what

exactly was on his processor. 
 
“Star, what do you need from me? I’ll do whatever I can, all you need to do is

ask

.” You said to him with a gentle and compassionate tone. He slowly looked around as if the answer was written on one of the walls, avoiding your gaze and seeming to want to do anything

other

than say what he needed from you. You patiently waited, knowing not to rush him. And ten or so seconds later, Starscream hesitantly spoke, his voice a quiet mumble.
 
“

Can we

…” Starscream continued mumbling, saying more, but you could only make out the first few words he had muttered. Once he had finished saying what you had heard practically

none of

, you stated in the calmest voice possible. “Star, you’re gonna have to repeat that for me.” The seeker let out an exaggerated and disgruntled sigh, rolling his optics before speaking dramatically in a louder and more pronounced tone, drawing out all of his syllables. “I

said

‘Can we go to your “bedroom”, I want to cuddle with your stuffed creatures'.”
 
You couldn’t help but smile. Of course you wouldn’t say it aloud (due to the fact that you didn't want to be murdered on the spot), but Starscream was

adorable

when he wanted to be.

Hell

, even when he

didn’t

want to be, he was still cute as fuck. You let out a quiet laugh before getting to your feet, replaying the words “stuffed creatures” in your head and wondering who gave the menacing mech the right to worm his way straight into your heart. “Sure, Screamer, you can go cuddle my “stuffed creatures".” 
 
You would forever be calling your stuffed animals that.

There was no changing your mind

.
 
Starscream gracefully stood, following close behind as you walked to your room. Like promised, your stuffed animals were waiting in your room, perched in an orderly fashion on top of your neatly-made bed. To be fair, your bed wasn’t

always

neatly-made, but you were in a good mood this morning, so you had straightened up a bit. In hindsight, it was funny to see how fast all of that had changed. Your day had really gone from “Great” to “Great Googly Moogly, it’s all gone to

SHIT

-.” in less than an hour.
 
You barely had time to register the blur of motion that was Starscream launching himself at full-speed onto your bed. And while that didn’t surprise you in the

slightest

, you were happy to witness an aspect of Starscream’s normal behavior returning to him in this moment. Like the last two times the seeker had been in your room, after he had thrown himself onto the bed, he let out a heavy exvent before carefully repositioning himself so that he was laying delicately on his side. And then he did what he had done the few times before that he’d been in here, grabbing 4 or 5 of your stuffed animals at once and pulling them against him so that he was surrounded in a nest of the plush creatures. 
 
You smiled fondly at him, turning off the overhead light in your room in favor of turning on your mood lights. But by the time you had turned back around to face the cybertronian curled up on top of your covers, he was staring intently at you, his expression unreadable. You froze, unsure of what this meant or what to do in response to this. So you slowly and cautiously asked “

Why are you staring at me like that

?”
 
There was no immediate response, and you crossed your arms, feeling a bit self conscious as the seeker practically gazed into your soul. Long seconds of tense silence passed, and you realized that Starscream probably wasn’t going to say anything and was waiting for

you

to ask

for him

. No matter, you knew how this little guessing game worked by now. So you let out a deep breath and asked “Do you want me to leave?” 
 
There was a quiet pause in the room before Starscream muttered out a quiet but certain “

No

.” You tilted your head in confusion. “Do you want me to

stay

then?” You quipped, genuinely curious as to what the seeker wanted from you. He spoke again, even quieter than the last time, hesitantly. “

Perhaps

.”
 
You smirked before responding. “Alright, I’ll stay then. If you need me, I’ll just be over here at my desk, writing or…

something

.” You gestured to your small work area in the corner of your room. But before you could make your way over there, you heard a low snarl coming from your bed. You turned around, locking eyes with red, narrowed optics. 
 
Without thinking, you blurted out. “What? Do you want me to come lay in bed

with you

or something?” You didn’t expect yourself to be right, but Starscream quickly nodded his helm a singular time, and you assumed that was all the confirmation you were going to get from him. Wide-eyed and slightly in shock, you murmured out a bewildered “Well shit.

Okay then

.”
 
You slipped off your shoes and slowly made your way to your bed, carefully climbing on top of it so that you could lay next to Starscream, who for some odd reason currently

wanted you here

, next to

him

. That was all

kinds

of concerning, but you weren’t even going to

start

to question it. You knew the seeker was going through a lot at the moment, and maybe he just needed another living being around him to help him cope. Maybe he didn’t

want

to be

completely

alone, and you respected and understood that if it were the case.
 
You were pulled out of your thoughts when Starscream spoke in an oddly warm tone. “Your berth is…

soft

.” Your brows furrowed as you were momentarily left hoping that was a good thing. “Yeah, it is soft. Is that a

bad thing

?” You hesitantly questioned, and in response, you simply got an amused smirk from the seeker lying mere inches away from you. That only confused you even

more

, but you chose not to question it. 
 
Instead, you chose to focus on the fact that Starscream looked

too damn cute

surrounded by stuffed teddies, cats, a dog, two opossums and an axolotl. You

so

wished you could take a picture of this moment, but you knew that was the fastest way for your phone to get thrown against the wall by an angry alien robot. 
 It wouldn’t be the first time that it had happened… 
You were once again pulled out of your thoughts by Starscream speaking in an uncharacteristically gentle voice. “Your stuffed creatures are soft too.” Upon mentioning said stuffed creatures, the seeker gently ran his taloned digits through the fur of one of your teddies, seeming to be almost hypnotized by the silky texture the bear had. You smiled at the content yet fascinated expression on Starscream’s faceplate as he stared at your plushie. But then his gaze landed on

you

.
 
And for a moment, time stopped, the world stopped spinning, and you were

falling

. You were lost, found, and

everything in between

. You heard your heartbeat throughout your body as if it were a drum, and you silently hoped and prayed that the alluringly beautiful seeker lying inches away from you couldn’t hear it beating too.

Beautiful. Is that what he was to you?

You were dragged from your thoughts when surprisingly gentle digits brushed across your hand. You audibly gasped, being caught entirely by surprise. You tore your gaze from Starscream’s in order to glance down at your hand, noting that the seeker had slowly entwined his digits with your fingers. He had a curious yet slightly dazed expression on his faceplate, as if he were unsure of his own actions. Before you could mutter a single word, Starscream spoke while staring deep into your soul.
 
“

You

are so soft. And…

warm

.”
 
Before you even knew what was happening, the seeker’s smooth digits were unraveling from yours, then slowly and delicately gliding up your arm, to your shoulder, and then back down your arm. Starscream’s optics scanned where his digits were tracing, observing and taking in every inch of your skin, as if it was something completely foreign to him. You realized after an embarrassingly long time that it probably

was

foreign to him. Sometimes, you managed to forget that Starscream wasn’t human like you, and that things like your bed, your stuffed animals, your

skin

were all so different and new to him. And with the way the seeker was carefully running his digits up and down your arm, it was almost as if the experience was

entirely

new, like he’d never felt your skin before.
 
Come to think of it, you don’t think he

had

ever felt your skin before, just as you’d never felt the smooth metal

he

was made of. It wasn’t like you ever

offered

to let him touch you, but even if you

had

, the seeker never showed any interest in you. In fact, he usually showed mild repulsion and a blatant

disinterest

at best. He always kept you at arms length, and you could understand why, even if you secretly wished that for

once

, he would let his guard down and

open up to you.

But that’s what

this

was; That’s

exactly

what he was doing

right now

. 
 
You were brought back to the present moment when Starscream’s servo drifted cautiously and carefully down your side and to your waist, where he then stopped. You glanced up at him with mild confusion, and he met your eyes with an unspoken question, wordlessly asking if you were okay with what he was doing. You in turn gave him an uncertain but content and

willing

smile. Yet he still didn’t continue, so after a few seconds of silence you spoke in a calm yet oddly breathless tone. “It’s okay.

I promise

.”
 
After hearing your confirmation, the seeker slowly and delicately slipped his other arm under and around you, resting his servo on the small of your back. You both remained like that for several moments before Starscream pulled you closer towards him with strong arms. Your hands instinctively came to rest between the both of you on his smooth metallic chassis.

He was so much warmer than you had ever expected him to be.

You absentmindedly ran your fingers slowly down the sleek and glossy expanse of his frame, getting lost in the warmth the seeker was emitting from his plating. It wasn’t a burning or scalding heat, nor was it unpleasant. It was simply just a trait unexpected from an entity made of metal, so your attention was naturally drawn. He was intoxicatingly and addictingly warm and

alive

, and you couldn’t get enough. Common sense and experience had truly led you astray here, as you had always envisioned Starscream being as icy cold as his outward demeanor. But it turned out that you were wrong.

And you were so glad that you were

.
 
A low, pleased hum emanated from Starscream’s vocalizer, and it snapped you out of your mindless trance. You immediately drew your hands back and away from the mech, a small gasp leaving you as panic flooded swiftly through your veins. Had you

really

just been running your hands all over Starscream’s frame? This was

Starscream

you were talking about, the Decepticon second-in-command that on

normal days,

didn’t let you within five

feet

of his personal space. And you had just been practically caressing him like a lover would!!
 
You opened your mouth to let out an apology for your previous actions, but before you could even say a word, Starscream pulled you flush against him, caging you in a tight embrace as he nuzzled his helm against the crook of your neck. You felt your cheeks erupt into a fierce blush, and your breath got caught in your throat for a moment or two. After the initial shock of

Starscream

hugging

you

wore off, you slowly wrapped your unoccupied arms around the seeker’s back, being mindful to steer clear of his wings. His wings were a foreign concept to you, and you didn’t feel like invoking his wrath by accidentally hurting him or startling him. So you played it safe by lightly wrapping your arms as far away from his wings as you could.
 
The seeker gently traced circles into your back as he squeezed you tighter, and you positively

melted

into the gentle touch and his warm embrace. Never in your

life

had you felt so safe and secure. And even though you had absolutely

no idea

what was happening, or

what

had brought this on, you weren’t complaining. In all honesty, you secretly hoped that this moment would never end. You hadn't known or realized how touch-starved or lonely you were until this very moment, and you’d be damned if you didn’t savor this rare display of affection from Starscream. And even though this all felt extremely intimate, it didn’t necessarily feel

wrong

. 
 
On the contrary, nothing had ever felt more

right

.
 
Especially when Starscream lifted his helm so that he could look you in the eyes, moving one of his servos from your back so that he could cup the side of your face. You noticed the expression on his faceplate was a mix of confusion, intrigue, affection, hesitation, as well as an emotion that seemed to be the result of what you expected was an internal conflict. He broke eye contact with you, looking ashamed, and through what you hoped would be a comforting gesture, you brought your hand to his servo, which was still cupping your face. You could practically

feel

him trembling in your arms, and you started to grow worried, wondering what exactly was troubling him. 
 
You gave his servo an affirming squeeze, trying to meet his optics. But his gaze was aimed towards your lower face. Or rather, your

lips

. It took you all of three seconds to realize this, and by the time you had, there seemed to be significantly less space between the two of you. All semblance of rationality seemed to flood from your mind, and you couldn’t seem to find a single word to say, left with nothing but the sound of your heartbeat echoing in your racing mind. This was so wrong, yet so unbelievably right, and you were completely okay with that, and he was leaning in, and you were too, your heart was beating inhumanely fast and you probably weren’t breathing at the moment

but that was okay, and

-
 
Before you had any time to react or collect your thoughts, your lips were captured in a delicate and tender kiss that made you feel as if you were floating through the clouds above. You closed your eyes and melted into the feeling, savoring the sensation of Starscream’s metal dermas against your softer, human lips. But it was over as soon as it had begun, and your head was left spinning as you tried to process

what the hell had just happened.

You opened your eyes only to see Starscream’s optics wide, a panicked expression settling on his faceplate. You could pinpoint the exact moment where he had realized what he had just done, the gravity of this whole situation hitting him like a freight train. The seeker went positively

rigid

, his entire frame tensing in your arms while a blue blush coated his faceplate. He seemed to be searching for the right words to say, looking anywhere but in your eyes, trembling in your arms as he muttered unintelligibly under his breath. You could’ve sworn you heard him apologizing, but for

what

you didn’t know. It was clear you had no qualms about kissing him, because if you

did

, you would have made it blatantly obvious, and you

knew

Starscream knew that. 
 
Yet he still seemed to be searching for the right words to say. But he didn’t need any words when you could answer

for

him with your actions. So without wasting another second, you closed the distance between you and the seeker once more, this time with more passion and urgency, proving to him that you

wanted

this, you wanted

him

, and he had absolutely

nothing

to apologize for. 
 
All the tension vanished from Starscream's frame once your lips were back on his dermas, and you felt him pull you even closer, leaving you pressed flush against him. You brought one of your hands to the side of his faceplate, deepening the kiss. He, in turn, entwined his digits in your hair with a firm yet gentle grasp as he slid his glossa into your awaiting mouth. You practically moaned against the sensation of the long and smooth alien tongue invading your mouth, and you made a conscious effort to breathe through your nose throughout the entire ordeal. You were in heaven, on cloud 9, being thoroughly engulfed by the warm and welcome feeling of pure adoration and reverence. You could’ve sworn you were floating, drunk on the feeling of bliss and the intoxicating flavor on your tongue which was

Starscream

.
 
Time was frozen still, and nothing else mattered but the dextrous glossa that was delicately running around and over your tongue, effectively turning your mind to mush. You were melting into the warmth enveloping your entire body, getting absorbed in the gentle purr that was coming from the seeker’s engine. Lost in the ecstasy of passion, your right hand, which was still wrapped around Starscream’s back, drifted upward, making contact with the base of his left wing. And at that moment, you could've

sworn

you felt him shudder against you.

Or maybe it was the lack of oxygen making you imagine things.

You pulled away from the kiss, dropping your hands from the seeker’s frame, taking shuddering breaths as you desperately tried to fill your burning lungs with oxygen. Starscream looked slightly embarrassed, as if he had completely forgotten that one of you was human and needed to

breathe

. He gently brought his servos back to your waist, nervously glancing at you as you caught your breath. After your head had stopped spinning, you glanced at Starscream with a curious expression. Had you imagined the full-body shudder that overtook the seeker when you accidentally touched his wing? 
 
There was only one way to find out.

But first…

"That was…

really nice

." You said with a sheepish smile, wanting Starscream to know that you

had

in fact enjoyed the kiss, even if it

had been

incredibly spontaneous. You saw the blush return to the seeker's faceplate, and you giggled quietly to yourself in response, taking a moment to run your thumb against his metallic cheek. He truly was

adorable

, even if a word such as that was unbecoming of a Decepticon war criminal. 
 
Starscream leaned into your touch, placing his servo over your hand as he let out a content exvent before replying to your previous statement. "It

was

rather…

nice

." He paused for a moment, seeming to be gathering the right words to say. After a long pause, he continued. "Although I do believe I… I should

apologize

. That was not supposed to happen,

I assure you

." This was so unlike the Starscream you knew. Something

big

must've happened today to change him so drastically. The Starscream

you knew

wouldn't have apologized for kissing you. On the contrary, he would usually be blaming-
 
"But this entire ordeal is still completely

your fault

." Ah yes,

there

was the Starscream you knew and loved. You smirked as he continued blaming you for what was

completely his doing

. "You know,

I

would have never succumbed to that momentary lapse of judgment if

you

had not been-" The seeker's words died on his glossa the second that your hand grazed over the base of his right wing, a violent shudder instantly washing over his frame. 
 
Starscream seemed to be as surprised as you were at this recent turn of events, and it took him a minute to register what had just happened. But when he saw the devilish grin resting on your face, his optics narrowed at you warily. You both stared at each other for a few seconds, before the seeker spoke, continuing where he had left off.
 "Like I was saying before I was so rudely interrupted, this is entirely your fault." You shot Starscream a mischievous smirk while he was speaking, removing your left hand from his faceplate and wrapping it around his back to join with your right hand, once again brushing the tips of your fingers against his wings. "It's obvious that your continued displays of kindness towards me have negatively altered my judgme- w-what are you doing?"  
The seeker questioned you the second you touched his wings again, so naturally you feigned innocence, lifting your hands away from his wings for the time being. "Nothing, nothing. I'm not doing anything, Screamer. Just keep talking!" Starscream eyed you suspiciously, and it took everything in you not to burst into laughter. But he reluctantly kept talking, and you took your chance to be as much of a nuisance as you could. 
 
"I was

saying

that

you

have somehow altered my judgment a-and… being in your presence has… h-has impaired me f-from… you've impaired me from t-thinking ration-

AAHHHh, WILL YOU STOP THAT, YOU WICKED FEMME?!"

You couldn't help but burst into nearly maniacal laughter at the mech's reaction, and you rested your forehead against his chassis as you tried and failed to catch your breath. You could tell that Starscream was entirely unamused, and that made this entire situation so much funnier to you. Although you knew in the back of your mind that he could kill you in an instant if he wanted to, you weren't worried. You

knew

Starscream wouldn't hurt you. 
 
The seeker let out an aggravated sigh, narrowing his optics and scowling at you. You smiled in response, catching your breath as your fit of giggles ebbed out. After you could

properly

breathe again, you spoke in a teasing tone. "What, are you

ticklish

?"
 
Starscream broke eye contact with you, and you could've

sworn

the blush on his faceplate deepened. He broke the silence by responding with a hesitant "

N-not exactly

." You couldn't tell at the moment what he had meant by that statement, your thoughts still slightly jumbled from the kiss. But your brows furrowed and your heart sank when you quickly came to an initial conclusion.
 
"I wasn't hurting you, was I?" You couldn't help your voice from wavering, feeling incredibly guilty if it were the case. But luckilly for you, Starscream responded with a quiet "

No…

" You sighed in relief, all guilt leaving your body. But that only left you wondering what the situation was with the seeker's wings. "

Then…

" You started, trailing off as you analyzed the information you currently had, racking your brain for any logical conclusion. His wings weren't ticklish, and you

weren't

hurting him, yet he still had a clear and distinct reaction when your fingers touched the base of them.

So…

The realization hit you like a ton of bricks to the face, and you were sure that Starscream knew that from your wide-eyed, open-mouthed expression. But your surprise was soon overtaken by the overwhelming urge to

grab his wings again

. So that was exactly what you did, gently gripping at the bases of them while watching Starscream's reaction closely. The seeker immediately went rigid in your arms, his optics wide and his intake open, a sharp gasp escaping his dermas. 
 
Oh this was going to be

fun

.
 
You loosened your hold on the base of his wings, now choosing to trace your fingers lightly upward. Starscream’s wide-optic expression changed to a half-lidded one, and you felt the shudder that overtook his frame. You watched with adoration as the seeker bit his lower derma, barely able to stifle a needy whine. The desperate noise left your face burning as heat flooded through your body, choosing to settle between your legs. And Starscream trembling helplessly under your careful ministrations wasn’t helping your case. 
 
God dammit,

why was this turning you on

?!
 
You continued caressing the cybertronian’s wings, relishing in the feeling of power you had in this moment. Gentle touches from your hands alone had Starscream in shambles. And if

that

wasn’t hot, you didn’t know what was. You were becoming acutely aware that the higher you traced up his wings, the tighter his hold on your waist grew, and could feel his talon-like digits digging into your flesh, but not hard enough to hurt or draw blood. If anything, the pinpricks of sensation you felt against your skin were egging you on. 
 
But seconds later, Starscream’s servos left your waist, instead winding around your back and pulling you fully against him, which in turn allowed you to reach further up his wings. You took the opportunity that was presented, trailing your fingers even higher. In response, the seeker buried his faceplate against the crook of your neck, letting out shuddering exvents against your skin as his cooling fans kicked on to their lowest setting. You had to steady your own breathing, trying not to let the feeling of hot air against your neck get to you.

But it was definitely getting to you.

You decided to add more fuel to the fire, smirking as you purred into Starscream’s audial. “Mmmm. Does that feel

good

, Star?” You were expecting a ‘yes’, quite possibly a ‘shut up’, maybe even an angry growl. But instead, you were met with a breathy moan as the seeker thrusted his hips up against your clothed sex, clearly lost in pleasure. The action caught you entirely by surprise, and you let out a gasp, letting go of the seeker’s wings. Heat pooled between your thighs, and your heart skipped several beats. 
 
Once Starscream’s wings were free, he removed his servos from around you, choosing then to create a small yet noticeable amount of distance between the two of you. The room was silent, save from the quiet whirr of Starscream’s cooling fans. And through the heavy silence, you couldn’t help but stare at the seeker’s beautifully flushed faceplate with pride and adoration. He was still trying to recover from the experience, and you could very clearly tell. After a moment or two, Starscream met your gaze, which was burning with a barely concealed desire for him. 
 
The seeker scowled, shying away from your intense gaze, muttering out a quiet “

Don’t look at me like that

.” You couldn’t help but smirk, choosing to lean in closer to Starscream as you responded in a teasing tone. “I figured it felt good. But I didn't know it felt

that good

.” The seeker let out an irritated growl. “Well it

did

, okay?” Starscream hissed, gritting his denta together. He met your eyes once more before snarling out an exasperated “This is

your fault

.”
 
You took a second to let those words register in your lust-addled mind, before quipping back with mild amusement. “

What’s

my fault?” There was a momentary delay before Starscream practically shouted “Everything!” in a tone that was pure rage. It then crossed your mind that maybe you had gone

too far

, maybe you had messed everything up by

continuing

to touch Starscream’s wings, maybe you had read all of his signals completely wrong and the seeker had never wanted you near him in the first place.
 
Before your thoughts could spiral

too far

out of control, you remembered that this was

Starscream

you were dealing with. Even though he sounded positively

pissed

at you, you knew from experience that irritation and anger (real or not) were his defaults. Most of the time, if Starscream seemed mad at you, it was simply because he was trying to disguise a different emotion that he didn’t know how to properly express.

But it didn’t necessarily mean that was the case in this situation.

So you asked hesitantly, apprehension and concern worming their way into the pit of your stomach, “Did I… do something wrong?” Starscream growled at you, unable to look you in the eyes as the word left his glossa. “Yes!” You flinched at Starscream’s tone, immediately opening your mouth to apologize, but Starscream continued in a tone that sounded unusually breathless. 
 
“You’ve managed to get me charged up from your touch alone, a-and now I want…

I want…

” The seeker’s voice softened, and he cut himself off before he could say anything else. Your mouth fell open in shock. Even though you were nowhere near an expert with cybertronian terminology, you had a pretty good guess as to what Starscream meant by “charged up”. And that realization should

not

have turned you on as much as it did, but it did anyway. Especially when you recalled that the seeker was “charged up” just from your touch. You had to stop this train of thought; All this power was going straight to your head, or rather, straight to your throbbing cunt.

Your eyes met Starscream’s red optics, and you could see the thoughts eating away at his processor. So you placed a hand reassuringly atop of his servo, and surprisingly, he didn’t yank it away like you feared he would.

On the contrary

, he took your hand and placed it right where it was before, resting on his back strut near the base of his wings. All the while, he shifted himself so that he was pressed up against you, grabbing your waist and arranging you so that your still-clothed sex was slotted right up against the firm (and surprisingly hot) metal of his interface panel. 
 
Of course, in your already aroused state, you

clearly

felt the metal panel pressed flush between your thighs (and it felt

so good-

). But the whole time, your mind was screaming at you, namely one question, that being “

Does Starscream have any clue what he just did?”

Was he aware of your human biology, and did he know that his panel was currently pressed snug against your clit? Did he know that you were in the perfect position where if you wanted to, you could shift against that deliciously solid piece of his plating over and over again and likely get off from it alone? Did he know how much this whole experience was turning you on, and how soaked your panties were probably getting, and how much you were throbbing,

craving to be filled, and

-
 
Holy shit, you were down

bad

. 
 
You were snapped out of your trance by Starscream nuzzling his helm against your neck, and you shuddered against the feeling of his warm exvents hitting your skin. You closed your eyes and took a deep yet shaky breath in through your nose, trying to calm your rapidly beating heart and your still throbbing pussy. If the seeker kept this up, your arousal might just soak straight through your pants, and if that were to happen, there would be no

way

that Starscream wouldn’t feel the wetness when he was pressed against you the way he was. 
 
And that thought should've been

humiliating

, but to your twisted mind it was

hot as hell

.

What was wrong with you?

Before you could get anywhere even

remotely close

to calming yourself down, Starscream all but growled into your ear “

Touch my wings again

.” The seeker let out a shaky exvent which bordered on a whine, before adding a soft and desperate “...

please

,” to his previous request. And who were you to deny him when he sounded so vulnerable and so positively

wrecked

?
 
But a brief part of your mind was in denial, doubting this was even happening. This was

way

too good to be true, something had to be amiss here. So you asked Starscream in a quiet tone “Are you

sure

?” The seeker, in turn, scowled, hissing out his response “Yes I’m sure! Don’t make me repeat it!” The way he said those words in such a low and commanding tone right next to your ear made you shiver, but you weren’t going to waste any more time. If Starscream wanted it,

then he was getting it

. 
 
But you had one last thing to say before you completely wrecked the mech. “Hey Screamer?” The seeker gave an irritated hum of acknowledgement against your neck, so you continued speaking with a sly smile. 
 
“

Don’t hold back for me.

”

In an instant, you were stroking at his wings, this time using the entirety of your hands as opposed to only your fingertips. Starscream’s reaction was instantaneous, his grip on your waist tightening immediately as he let out a breathy moan against your neck. Your soaked cunt clenched down on nothing in response to the absolutely sinful noise the mech had made, and you were made aware of how painfully empty you felt. 
 
But that didn’t matter, not when you had the Decepticon second-in-command completely at your mercy. 
 
You started trailing your hands higher, making sure you were exploring every inch of the seeker’s sensitive wings, and in return, you were granted with several shameless sounds from Starscream against your neck. You could feel the vibrations of his tone simply due to how maddeningly close you were both pressed against each other. And Starscream was shaking and shuddering against you, practically trying to bury his helm in the crook of your neck. You continued your ministrations, this time, choosing to pay special attention to the undersides of Starscream’s wings.

Apparently this was the right choice.

Starscream’s reaction was immediate. He took in a harsh invent, biting his derma to stop a sharp, high-pitched keen from escaping, all the while squirming against you fruitlessly. You let out a low hum, smiling as you reveled in this feeling, getting completely lost in this moment.
 
But as much as you liked watching and hearing the seeker stifle himself (because the muffled sounds he was making were sinful in their own right), you wanted him to pull out all the stops; to be loud and unabashed and

vulnerable

. 
 
You lived in the middle of nowhere.

It wasn’t like anyone was going to hear him anyway.

You stopped caressing the seeker’s wings, whispering lowly in his audial “Stop holding back, Star.” He squeezed your waist once in a sign of acknowledgement, exventing shakily. You paused for a brief moment, taking a deep breath, but you then continued pawing at the seeker’s wings with renewed vigor and determination. And you got a response far better than what you were hoping for. 
 
Starscream didn’t

just

moan loudly against your neck; he also thrusted his hips against your core for a second time. And you could do nothing but let out a gasping moan as your sex was stimulated in all the right ways, which then led to you stuttering out a soft “

O-Oh.”

You assumed that your wanton sounds were a clear indication for Starscream, as he chose that moment to buck his hips upwards once more. 
 
The sudden feeling sent you nearly doubling over in pleasure, and you let out a breathless whine due to the sensation. You grabbed Starscream's wings like they were a lifeline, which was apparently

another

good decision on your part, as your firm (yet not punishing) grip on the seeker's wings had him rutting up against you again and again, over and over. He let out a low moan which turned into a growl, and the noise alone set your body alight. 
 You tried your best to continue stroking at Starscream's wings, but his jerking motions prevented you from being able to trail light touches like before. Instead, you had to continue gripping onto his twitching wings for dear life as he bucked against you with an unspoken urgency. And even if that wasn't the case, you still wouldn’t be able to focus on the task at hand due to the irresistible drag of the seeker's panel against your folds and the overwhelming pleasure coursing through your body. 
Your mind was left almost completely blank, except for one thought, which was a direct answer to your earlier question; Fuck yes, Starscream had known

exactly

what he was doing when he positioned you both like this. He was making you feel like nobody else had, his panel alone stimulating your clit in the perfect way, and with every thrust of his hips, the air was forced out of your lungs, leaving you panting and moaning helplessly. And you hoped your pleasured noises were adding fuel to this fire, because you never wanted this to end. 
 
Starscream let out a low snarl, gripping your waist even tighter before he captured your lips in a searing kiss. His glossa immediately slipped past your already parted lips and worked against your tongue, exploring the inside of your mouth. You let yourself get lost in the dizzying, euphoric feeling of the kiss and the addicting sensation of the seeker's interface panel rubbing against your cunt. You couldn't pinpoint exactly when, but some time during the frenzied kiss, the sharp, erratic thrusting of Starscream's hips had changed into a slow, tantalizing drag against your sensitive folds, less fueled by desperate and impatient lust and more fueled by a precise and deliberate desire
.
 
 
Your body felt completely weightless, and all time was frozen still as you savored the intoxicating taste of Starscream’s intake, a taste that you don't think you'd ever be able to get enough of. It was so different from anything you'd ever tasted before, but in the best possible way. It had you drowning and spinning and completely unable to think, and somewhere in your hazy mind, you wondered how you had managed to get so lucky. Truthfully, you didn't know. But you

did

know that you never wanted this to end.
 
But all too soon, Starscream pulled back from the kiss and you took a much needed breath, which was interrupted by the drag of the seeker's panel between your legs, leaving you gasping. You locked half-lidded eyes with the seeker's unusually bright optics, noticing the deep flush on his faceplate, as well as the fact that his intake was still open as he vented shakily. 
 
Now that there was the briefest of standstills, you took the opportunity to start where you'd left off, caressing the seeker's wings. It seemed that somehow, Starscream was still not prepared for you to continue touching his wings, even though you had been doing so for long minutes. In response to your actions, the seeker bit his derma and let out a low, needy growl, offlining his optics as the slow grind of his hips turned into frantic thrusting once more. 
 
You let out a breathless moan, gritting your teeth together as you drowned in intense pleasure once again, lost in the motions of Starscream's frenzied rutting. You once again had to grip the seeker's wings in support, but this time, you only grabbed his left wing, trying your damnedest to continue caressing his right wing with your free hand, even though your touches were uncoordinated and sporadic. Through your pleasured haze, you somehow managed to speak, albeit in an uncontrolled and jittery tone, due to the jarring movements of Starscream's thrusting. “You don’t know how-

hahhh-

hot this is, S-Star-.” 
 
In response, the seeker growled in your ear, causing you to shudder violently against him. You could very clearly feel the heat radiating from between your legs where Starscream was thrusting against you, but it was a mystery to you whether or not the heat you felt was from your own arousal building steadily between your legs, or if it was emanating from the seeker's interface panel instead. Hell, for all you knew, it could be

both

simultaneously. It was extremely obvious to you that Starscream was enjoying this just as much as (if not

more

than) you were, so you wouldn't be surprised if his frame was radiating more heat than usual. And his cooling fans kicking up another notch would suggest that your theory was correct.
 
Spurred on by the mech’s reactions, you did everything in your power to continue stroking at his right wing, still slightly struggling to keep your motions firm and unwavering. But you were determined to watch Starscream fall apart from your touch, so you chose to focus every ounce of attention on him, rather than the burning arousal eating away at you. You’d have time to focus on that

later

, you were sure of it. 
 
But as you drew your gaze to your hands on Starscream's wings, you noticed and remembered simultaneously that the seeker had a smaller, inner pair of wings positioned in between the larger, outer wings which you had been paying attention to thus far. And of course, like usual, your curiosity and significant lack of given fucks got the best of you. You immediately shifted your focus onto the inner pair of wings, relocating your free hand in a swift movement. 
 
And once your hand made contact with one of the smaller wings, Starscream went

rigid

. You could only guess that these wings were even

more

sensitive than his main ones, as Starscream practically yelped as you lightly scraped your nails across the metal surface. The seeker let out a wanton moan in response to your touches, and

damn

, you never knew how good it would feel to be in control over this sexy mech. All of this power was definitely getting to you, but you were absolutely not complaining, and neither was Starscream. In fact, you thought you could vaguely make out Starscream muttering barely audible pleas against the skin of your neck. 
 
But after a minute or two, Starscream slowed and then completely stopped his erratic thrusting, much to your disdain. He was venting heavily, practically panting, and he lifted his helm away from your neck. You felt him loosen his grip on your waist, his optics unfocused and hazy, and you let out a quiet whine of protest. But due to the seeker's actions, it didn't take long for your jumbled mind to start questioning everything. Had you done something wrong? Had you not been doing enough for Starscream? Was he having second thoughts about this? About

you?

You slowly and cautiously removed your hands from the seeker's frame, uncertainty taking over you. Luckily, your thoughts were interrupted before they could spiral

too far

out of control. Starscream met your eyes with a half-lidded gaze as he growled out a faint “I want…” before trailing off. You took a shaky breath, replying in a low, breathless tone laced with raw lust. “What do you want, Star?” There was tense silence as you stared into the seeker's glowing red optics. All time seemed to be frozen, and your heartbeat echoed loudly in your head. 
 
The silence was broken as Starscream brought his servos to your cheeks, cupping your face and giving you a look that practically screamed his need for you, and the words leaving his glossa confirmed said need. “

You

." His voice was low and laced with desire, which instantly sent shivers wracking through your body. The seeker let out a shaky exvent, securing his hold on your face and running his digits over your skin as he continued speaking in a low growl. "I need

you

. Let me touch you,

please

.” You were frantically nodding your head before you had even found the right words to say. But you responded anyway, just in case enthusiastically nodding your head wasn't consent enough. “Yes.

Fuck

yes, Star.”
 
You hated how raspy and hoarse your voice had sounded in that moment, but all of your thoughts dissipated the second the seeker's servos slowly started tracing gently from your face and down to the sides of your neck. They lingered there for a moment, and you could feel yourself trembling against the delicate touch. You could see hesitation in Starscream's optics, and for a moment or two, he was frozen in place, seeming to be contemplating something. But then he carefully ran his digits along your collarbone, slowly and delicately, his every touch setting fire in you. 
 
Somewhere in the back of your mind, you were acutely aware that if Starscream so desired, he could easily crush your windpipe. Yet instead, he was choosing to delicately trace his talons along the expanse of your neck with utmost care, as if you were made of glass. You could still distinctly feel each sharp, clawed digit brushing over your throat, but they wouldn't leave any marks due to Starscream's careful caresses. But you knew that if the Decepticon second-in-command so desired, he could easily draw blood. And for some reason, the knowledge that he

could

, but

wasn't,

had your walls clenching around nothing. You truly were completely at his mercy.
 
You didn't know where exactly to place your hands, but you needed something to grab onto for your sanity, and to ground you, lest these gentle touches drive you insane. So you instinctively let your hands land on the seeker's slim waist, which earned you a low hum of approval. You trembled, partially due to the seeker's affirming hum, and partially due to nerves. 
 
Even though you had been shamelessly letting Starscream grind against your clothed sex not minutes ago, somehow this felt

more intimate

. And that made you nervous. You didn't know if it was because of the gentle caresses to your sensitive neck, or the desire you could clearly see in Starscream's optics, or maybe just the fact that this was uncharted territory. But whatever it was, there was a clear hesitance and tension lingering in the air, which you suspected was mostly your fault. Your heart seemed to be beating unnaturally fast due to the anticipation you were feeling.
 
And somehow, Starscream seemed to be picking up on this tension, and your overall nervousness. You didn't think he would notice (or

care

for that matter), so it surprised you when he spoke in a tone much softer and gentler than usual. "

Relaaaax."

The seeker purred while slowly moving his digits from your collarbone to your shoulders. You inhaled shakily and closed your eyes, trying your best to slow your rapidly beating heart. You felt Starscream run his right servo gently down your arm at a languid place, and you exhaled slowly, trying to relax as he had requested.
 
But you were caught by complete surprise when you felt the seeker pressing gentle kisses to the side of your neck, just under your jaw. Your eyes shot open and you gasped, gripping his waist tighter. The feather-light press of his dermas against your neck sent shivers down your spine, and you quietly whined, squeezing your legs together to alleviate some of the burning desire that the gentle kisses were causing you to feel. You heard

and

felt Starscream chuckle against your neck, and he pulled away slightly to glance at you. His optics met your eyes, and he smirked at you, continuing to trail his servo up and down your arm as he spoke in a low, hushed tone. "Is this alright, my dear?" You nodded, before muttering out a quiet "Y-Yeah." 
 
Starscream planted a kiss on your cheek before replying "

Good

." Then, in a quick moment, he was back to kissing you, trailing quick pecks down your neck, all the while dragging his servo back up your arm. But this time, instead of repeating the pattern and running his servo back

down

your arm, the seeker froze, then while still kissing your neck, slowly brought his servo towards your chest. You closed your eyes and let out a quiet moan, a jolt of arousal rushing through you as Starscream's digits worked their way down one of your breasts. You felt him pause for a minute, likely judging your reaction for any signs of discomfort. 
 
After a few seconds, you felt the seeker remove his left servo from your shoulder, gliding his digits down across your collarbone and to your other breast, continuing his gentle kissing as he cupped both of your breasts in his servos. A breathless moan escaped your lips, and you could practically feel Starscream smirking against the side of your neck. Through the pleasure, you couldn't help but ask yourself why you were only

now

realizing how large the seeker's servos were. Even while holding your breasts, his digits

still

managed to reach up to your collarbone.
 
In an instant, the seeker switched from holding your breasts to cautiously squeezing them, a hesitant curiosity evident in his touch. He stopped kissing your neck to quietly murmur "

So soft

-" against your skin, as he continued carefully squeezing your breasts. You hated to admit that you rather liked Starscream's delicate yet explorative touches. If anybody else had been touching your boobs like this, slowly, cautiously, and like your skin was porcelain, you would've politely asked them to either hurry things along or to be more assertive with their ministrations. Yet here Starscream was, once again making you doubt everything you thought you knew. You were still completely

melting

under his touches, even though your shirt and bra hadn't been removed yet! You truly were enjoying his careful touch, especially when his gentle squeezing changed into caresses as he stroked along the expanse of your breasts.
 
You let out a content hum, which evolved into a low moan as Starscream's digits brushed over your hardened nipples through the fabric of your shirt. You instinctively gripped the seeker's waist tighter, forcing your thighs together to keep your arousal at bay. Starscream paused his kissing, moving closer to you so that he could whisper directly in your ear. "I take it you like that~?" The seeker said in a seductive lilt while still fondling your breasts. You slowly opened your eyes and let out a quiet "Mhm." 
 
"And what about

this

?" Starscream purred, as he went back to kissing your neck. His gentle kisses then turned into light nips at your skin, which weren't

nearly

enough to draw blood, but which left you biting your lip and letting out hushed whines. The quick nips at your skin then turned into longer, sharper bites which would likely leave indents of the seeker's denta embedded in your skin for a minute or two, but which were still not harsh enough to bleed. The love-bites then turned into sensual, open-mouthed kisses, and Starscream ran his glossa against your skin. You stifled a moan as you tried to keep your eyes open, completely transfixed by the sight of the seeker latched onto your neck while grabbing at your tits. And with your eyes now opened, you were able to see that every few seconds, Starscream would glance up at your face to read your expression, checking if you were okay and making sure you had no qualms with his actions. 
 
The feeling of the seeker's smooth glossa against the side of your neck paired with the circling of his digits against your nipples had you seeing stars. And you could tell Starscream knew that, if the smug expression on his faceplate was anything to go by. He locked eyes with you once more before biting down right above your collarbone, where your neck and shoulder met. This time, the bite

was

hard enough to draw blood (or so you assumed, because it stung significantly more than all of Starscream's gentle bites from earlier). You whimpered softly at the unexpected pain, grabbing the mech's waist even tighter in your shaking hands and letting your eyes fall closed as your body tensed involuntarily. You assumed Starscream had been watching for your response, as the second he saw the slight grimace on your face that you had made subconsciously while shutting your eyes, he removed his denta from your shoulder and instead, started gently sucking and licking your wound. 
 
You opened your eyes once the pain subsided (which was almost immediately), only to find Starscream glancing at you, his expression a myriad of emotions which you couldn't quite make out. But you could definitely make out the concern and care in his optics, which he slowly offlined as he continued sucking at the skin of your neck. The seeker purred lowly, his gentle groping of your breasts never ceasing. You let out a shaky sigh, loosening your death-grip on his waist as you relaxed your body. After a few more seconds, Starscream onlined his optics, unlatching himself from your neck and licking his dermas with a satisfied smirk. 
 
He met your half-lidded gaze, and you smiled at him with reverence. He gave your tits a playful squeeze in response, before glancing down to where he had bitten your neck. You followed his gaze and were just barely able to see the beginning of what would surely be a noticeable hickey on your neck. It was a good thing you had two days off from work. Not that you minded Starscream leaving marks on your body. On the contrary, you liked the idea of being able to see what Starscream had done to you every time you looked in the mirror. And something about having indisputable evidence of this unbelievable night made your heart soar. You just had a feeling that if your coworkers noticed the bruising hickey lining your neck, they'd definitely ask questions. And how is one supposed to admit that they have hickeys because they were getting frisky with an alien? You'd rather

not

have that conversation, especially not with anyone from work.
 
You hadn't realized you'd been staring at the mark on your neck with wide eyes and your mouth agape until Starscream gently ran his digits over the already bruising skin of your collarbone. That snapped you out of your stupor, and you met the seeker's optics, in which you could see hesitance and remorse. Starscream's satisfied smirk had long since been replaced by a shameful frown, and you could only assume that he had mistaken your initial surprise as disapproval. There was an unspoken apology imprinted in the seeker's optics, one which you could see clear as day, so you wasted no time in reaching up to place your hands on the side of his faceplate as an effort to reassure him. You could practically see Starscream's processor working overtime as he struggled to find the right words to say. You gave him an understanding and patient smile, and in response, the seeker leaned into your touch, nuzzling into your hands while placing both of his servos over them gently.
 
After a minute or two of silence, Starscream spoke in an uncertain and hesitant tone. "I… I didn't hurt you, did I?" You shook your head the second those words left his intake, and you couldn't help but smile fondly at the seeker. "Not really." You spoke, but then paused, wanting to add more to your previous statement for the sake of honesty and transparency. "I mean, yeah,

sure

, it did sting

a bit

, but I think it's really hot that you marked me up. What's the harm in a little pain when I get to keep a mark that will remind me of you every time I see it?" You replied, glancing down at your shoulder with a smirk. "To be honest, you surprised me more than anything. I just wasn't expecting you to give me a hickey."
 
Starscream rolled his optics in response to your statement, his signature smirk returning as he shot back. "

I

wasn't expecting your flesh to be so…

delicate

. I didn't think I could leave you with a mark

that easily.

" You couldn't help but snicker at the seeker's sass, and you removed your hands from his faceplate in favor of crossing your arms in front of you. "Screamer, you're like… made entirely of metal

. You're one to talk."

You noticed the mischievous look in Starscream's optics a second too late, and before you could get another word in, he had pounced, pinning you flat to the bed. You felt his sharp dermas nipping at your jawline and collarbone once more, leaving you squealing and laughing at the sensation of him playfully kissing your sensitive neck.
 
But your laughter quickly turned to gasping moans the second Starscream returned to kneading at your breasts, leaving heat pooling between your legs once more. This time, the seeker wasn't bothering with hesitant and cautious touches. On the contrary, he was pulling out all of the stops, gripping your breasts firmly in his large servos, swiping his digits over your nipples at random intervals, leaving you anticipating each touch. 
 
Now

this

was more like it.
 
After a minute or two, Starscream had apparently decided that he wanted to do

more

than just fondle your breasts through the fabric of your shirt. You watched with bated breath as the seeker started slowly snaking his dexterous digits under your shirt, narrowing his optics as he smirked at you with fervor. You couldn't stop the shudder that raced through your body due to the feeling of smooth metal gliding up your heated skin, and Starscream's low chuckle confirmed that he'd indeed noticed.
 
But once his digits finally reached your breasts, he paused, and you could tell he was slightly surprised to find yet

another

piece of fabric adorning your skin and keeping him from truly getting his servos on you. He let out a disgruntled grumble before he removed his servos from under your shirt, sitting up straight and glaring down at you. You didn't have any time to speak or think before Starscream growled out. "Alright. Sit up. I want that pesky fabric gone." You smirked at the irritated seeker, simply staring at him as he narrowed his optics at you and crossed his arms impatiently. You knew saying so aloud was likely a death sentence, but Starscream was adorable when inconvenienced. And the sour scowl on his faceplate only made you want to kiss him and tell him how much you loved and adored him

even more

.

But alas

, you'd rather

not

be merked by the mech.
 
So you slowly rose to an upright position, taking your time and stretching your arms over your head in a content manner, enjoying the brief falter in Starscream's displeased demeanor as his optics wandered down to your hips, where your skin was now briefly exposed, your shirt riding up your body. But after a minute, Starscream shook his helm with an irritated growl. "Take it off.

Now."

The low rumble of the seeker's voice piqued your arousal, and you fought off a full-body shudder by inhaling deeply. You then grabbed at the edges of your shirt, smiling knowingly as you slowly and carefully worked the fabric up your heated frame, inch by slow and tantalizing inch.
 
And

apparently,

your pace wasn't

nearly

fast enough for Starscream, as before you knew it, the seeker was snarling fiercely as he towered over you while practically ripping your shirt off of your body. And if that display of raw power in itself didn't get you hot and bothered-. "You humans wear entirely too much clothing." Starscream hissed out while throwing your shirt into the abyss, and you could clearly hear the annoyance in his tone. Even though you were painfully aroused, you couldn't help but giggle at the seeker's frustrations. "Well

you

don't wear

any

, so I don't wanna hear it, Screamer." You snarkily bit back, smiling widely. 
 
Starscream rolled his optics, and you could see him fighting off a smile. You playfully stuck out your tongue at him, and the seeker narrowed his optics in response, before lightly reaching out and trailing his sharp digits down your chest and straight to where your breasts were concealed in your bra. He brought his dermas close to your ear before purring in a deep tone. "

Off with this too

." You couldn't help but shiver at Starscream's tone, and you felt a blush making its way back onto your cheeks, and even your shoulders. You glanced at the seeker, who was staring at you expectantly, admiring every bit of your exposed skin in the meanwhile.
 
You took a deep breath as you reached down and started to remove your bra, slowly pulling the fabric away from your skin. But you hesitated, a wave of self-consciousness practically drowning you out of nowhere. Your hands started trembling, and you glanced at Starscream uncertainly. You could almost

see

the impatience in his optics, and your brain shouted at you to

hurry up, he's waiting

. You attempted to vocalize what was on your mind, to explain how you were feeling, because

surely

he'd understand, but all that managed to leave your lips was "I…

um

."
 
You were immediately scolding yourself for sounding so weak and for letting your fears get the best of you.

Nice going, now things were awkward.

You took a deep breath and tried to talk yourself out of this mess in your mind.

Why couldn't you be confident in your own skin for once? Why couldn't you just let yourself go and be rid of your own crippling insecurities for just one night?

It's not like Starscream was going to judge you or anything.

Right…?

"Shall I help you remove

this

as well?" The seeker purred while gesturing to your bra and leaning in closer to you, dragging you from your thoughts and catching you completely off-guard. Fueled by anxieties and fears, your fight-or-flight kicked in, and you instinctively backed away from Starscream, flinching as you desperately tried to distance yourself from the sudden advance towards you.

Wrong move.

You scolded yourself. All this time, you had been fine. You'd been fine with the kissing, and the grinding, and the gentle touches, and even the stinging bites at your neck. What was wrong with you that simply removing a thin layer of fabric was causing you this panic? It wasn't the end of the world, and you were sure Starscream wasn't going to judge you for how you looked without clothes. But what if he did? You were ruining the mood over something so incredibly stupid, why couldn't you just do what he had asked? He was waiting for you to do something or to say something, just say something- 
"I don't… I-

sorry,

I-" 
 
You stammered out, barely able to hear your own voice over the shouting in your head.

Now you'd done it.

You'd completely destroyed what could've been a good thing. Soon enough, Starscream would be realizing the mistake he had made by choosing

you

, and- "You silly human. There's nothing for you to apologize for." The seeker purred, gently taking ahold of one of your shaking hands. You had barely registered what he had said before he was speaking again. "You don't have to feel obligated to remove that garment if you're opposed to doing so, I assure you." Starscream continued, while soothingly placing a servo on top of your knee and tracing circles against the fabric of your pants before adding "I can work

just fine

with what I already have here,

dearest

."
 
Although you could tell Starscream's words were genuine, your brain was running too fast to be able to process any of them. And even though you

tried

to let the seeker's words reassure you, before long, your anxieties took the forefront in your mind once more.

Why did you always have to go ruining good things? You couldn't even do this one simple thing for him. And why were you so imperfect? You'd never be good enough, not for Starscream, not for anyone.

You couldn't help but feel the need to mutter out another quiet apology, ashamed to meet Starscream's optics. If he knew about the war going on in your mind right now,

he'd be appalled

.

He wouldn't want anything to do with you.

Before your thoughts could completely consume you, Starscream placed a gentle servo on the side of your face, drawing your attention back to him once more. "

Hey

. Look at me, sweetspark." The seeker cooed out in a soothing tone which made you forget all of your worries and fears for a brief moment. You hesitantly looked up, meeting Starscream's optics. And the second you did, you could see the adoration and understanding the seeker had for you. You were overcome with a feeling of warmth and love, which gently washed over you and cast all of your doubts and dark thoughts away. You took a deep breath and allowed yourself to melt into Starscream's gentle touch.
 
"We can stop if you'd like, my dear. There's no need to do anything you'd be opposed to." The seeker whispered, smiling lovingly before pressing a chaste kiss to your forehead, brushing loose strands of hair away from your face. Your eyes widened at Starscream's actions and words. For what must've been the third time in one night, you were taken completely aback by his seemingly genuine concern for you. It was so unlike how he usually acted, but you most definitely

weren't

complaining. Usually Starscream was snarky and sarcastic, but now, he was being so kind and considerate and

sweet

, and you couldn't help but feel yourself falling deeper and deeper in love with him.

Nobody had ever treated you like you were the only thing in the universe that truly mattered.

Yet here Starscream was, smiling at you like you were his most prized possession, running his digits carefully through your hair. The second he had seen you were distressed, he had put his needs aside to focus on yours, immediately making sure that you were okay. He had offered to stop everything, to call things off for the sake of your comfort. He wanted

you

to be completely content with what was happening. But no, you didn't want to stop; this was all you could ever want, and you didn't want it to be over so soon! 
 
"No!" You shouted out in response to the seeker's proposal to stop everything for the night. Starscream froze in place, putting a halt to running his digits through your hair, likely as a precautionary measure just in case you had been against his current actions. And it was

then

that you realized that your response may have been a

little bit detached

from his statement, as it had taken several long moments for you to register and process his words

.

You laughed nervously, scrambling to find the right words to elaborate with. "I-I meant

no

, this is all fine Star, I promise. We don't have to stop. I don't

want

to stop. I just… I got a little self-conscious is all. Nothing to worry about. It was stupid, really." You muttered out, and you could instantly feel Starscream relax against you, now knowing you were alright with what he had been doing.
 
He placed another gentle kiss to your forehead, smiling, before softly purring against your skin "I adore you, starlight." You couldn't help but smile and look away sheepishly, a feeling of warmth and love washing over you completely due to Starscream's loving actions and the pet name he had given you. Your body relaxed, and you focused on just

existing

, forcing your mind to abandon its current path of fear and trepidation. 
 
Starscream continued slowly and carefully running his digits through your hair, and after a minute or two of comfortable silence, he spoke softly "You know, darling, it's alright for you to feel…

self-conscious

. But I assure you, I won't think any less of you based on your appearance." The seeker paused, slowing the digits gliding through your hair as he thought carefully over his next words. "In fact, I'll even admit to you that I think you are the most beautiful creature that I have ever laid my optics on. And that will always remain true for me, even if

you

don't believe it."
 
Your eyes went wide, mouth gaping as you processed the Decepticon's words. He… He thought you were

beautiful

.

Starscream

thought

you

were

beautiful. You were

beautiful

. In complete disbelief, you breathed out a quiet "Wh-

What…

?" as a heavy blush coated your cheeks. Starscream playfully rolled his optics, responding in a sassy tone, but one which was fond and had no real bite to it. "I

said

I think you are positively stunning and alluring, but I

WON'T

be saying it again, so don't expect me to."
 
Starscream must've seen the dejected look that appeared in your eyes the second he claimed he wouldn't repeat his flattering words. And your saddened expression must have done something to the seeker, because before you knew it, he was letting out a dramatic sigh and  muttering out "Fine. I

suppose

I can spare you a

few

compliments every now and again if it truly pleases you." The seeker said, feigning annoyance. "But don't get used to it. It's very unbecoming from a mech such as I. Do you

know

what the others would say if they believed their future leader was nothing but a soft-sparked

sap?

!"
 
You frowned, your brows furrowing as you looked away and softly mumbled "But I…

kinda like it when you're sweet to me…

" Apparently the seeker

heard

your quiet remark, as a moment later, he pulled you close, cooing into your ear. "For you, my dear, I

suppose

I can forgo my usual demeanor for

a short while

. If you desire adoration and affection, I will do my best to provide it for you." And Starscream, without missing a beat, captured your lips in a tender and delicate kiss. You kissed him back, letting your eyes fall shut as you melted into the seeker's loving embrace. 
 
This kiss was soft and sweet, and full of warmth and tender adoration. You let out a soft and content hum against Starscream's dermas, letting him take control for a brief minute as you sank into the feeling. It was pure and heartfelt, and after a minute, you broke away to catch your breath, your face flushed.
 
You slowly met the seeker's optics with your half-lidded eyes, and you couldn't help but feel the slightest bit of embarrassment due to the way Starscream was looking at you; with pure love and devotion. A smile formed on his dermas as he cupped your face in his servo. The expression of reverence and veneration on the seeker's face had your heart beating a million miles an hour, and you had to remind yourself that somehow, Starscream was looking at

you

like that. This was real, and for some reason, the mech laying inches away from you was staring at you with so much

love

. You couldn't help but blush, looking away and smiling giddily as Starscream began gently caressing your cheek with his digits. This was such a tender and delicate moment, and truthfully, you were hesitant to break the silence. 
 
But luckily for

you

, Starscream spoke for you in a low yet considerate tone. "You're

positive

you'd like to continue our previous course of action?" He continued running his sharp digits carefully over your heated skin, before adding in a surprisingly serious tone. "You

are

allowed to say no, my dear." You smiled appreciatively at Starscream's concern. But there was no doubt in your mind; you

needed

him. And you weren't going to let your insecurities snuff out this burning flame of desire you felt for the captivating cybertronian.  
 
If you were sure of

one thing

, it was that there was nobody else in the universe you would rather share this vulnerability with. So you nodded your head assertively. "I want to continue, I promise.

I trust you, Starscream

." You said in a content tone, placing your hand atop the seeker's servo as reassurance and looking deep into his optics.
 
You were

positive

that Starscream knew you well enough at this point to be able to tell that you were being entirely truthful and genuine with him. And your assumption was confirmed when he nodded his helm once, taking your hand in his servo and delicately planting a kiss to your skin. You met his gaze, heart fluttering with anticipation and adoration all at once. Starscream gently squeezed your hand, and before you knew it, he had leaned in close, smirking while whispering in a downright

sinful

tone.

"In that case, lay down, so I can have my way with you.~"

You wasted no time, immediately laying flat on your back and shifting yourself so that you were comfortable against the cool surface of your comforter. You weren't entirely sure where to put your arms, so you left them resting near your head, and in the process, you accidentally knocked a few of your stuffed animals on the floor. You froze the second you had realized what you'd done, your eyes going wide with regret. 
 
Luckily for you, Starscream was observant enough to realize your horror upon accidentally flinging your plushies on the floor, and he quickly rescued them without a second thought. You smiled, thankful that your plush friends were safe (and thankful that Starscream had saved them), but only before realizing that if things continued the way you

hoped they would

, your bed was about to get

messy

. And you

definitely

didn't want to soil your stuffies, not to mention-
 
"Perhaps we should temporarily relocate your stuffed creatures, sweetspark. We wouldn't want to taint their image of you and I,

now would we

?" You let out a sigh of relief, eternally grateful the seeker was on the same page as you with this matter. "I agree. Just make sure they're all comfortable on the floor." You said, giggling. Starscream nodded in acknowledgement, grabbing your stuffed animals and gently placing them on the floor, leaning against the foot of your bed. As the seeker was arranging your animals in an orderly fashion, you couldn't help but ask yourself

how you had managed to get this lucky.

But you were snapped out of your pondering by Starscream slowly crawling towards you on the bed, a shit-eating grin on his faceplate as he spoke sensually.
 
"Now…

where were we?"

Of course, the question was rhetorical, and without missing a beat, the seeker slowly trailed his servos up your bare stomach and to your still-covered breasts, all while staring at you with unadulterated lust. You whimpered, shuddering the moment his deft digits grazed over your nipples through the thin fabric of your bra. You were sure your reaction to Starscream's touches was enough assurance for him, as he then captured your breasts in his skillful servos, firmly kneading them and earning several hushed but pleasured noises from you.
 
You heard the seeker chuckle lowly as he crept closer to you on the bed, momentarily placing his servos on your wrists and successfully caging you against your mattress. Spontaneously being pinned to your bed

should've

intimidated you, but instead, it only fueled your arousal; especially with the way that Starscream used a single servo to carefully pry your legs apart. Of course, you eagerly

let

the seeker open your legs, and in return, he settled himself between them, resting his helm against your stomach as he pressed gentle kisses to your skin.
 
Starscream then trailed those tender kisses up to your breasts as he inched closer to you. You felt the warmth from his frame radiating against your bare stomach, and you appreciated the warm feeling against your skin. And you

definitely

appreciated that Starscream, even though he was pressed against you with his helm now nuzzling your neck, he was obviously being incredibly careful not to crush you. Because you were sure that if the mech was resting his full weight against you,

you wouldn't be able to breathe right now.

Starscream began kissing and biting at your neck as he had done before, all while fondling your breasts in his servos. You positively melted into his tender touch, and you closed your eyes and sunk deeper and deeper into your bed, as well as into the sensations which the seeker was taking you through. Even though a few minutes ago, you were drowning in waves of self-consciousness and anxiety, Starscream had easily pulled you from that inner storm, and was now making you feel loved and valued and

unstoppable

. 
 
To think that a mech such as Starscream was currently showering you with affection and adoration, pressing gentle kisses and sensual bites to the sensitive skin of your neck; it was almost unbelievable to you. The mindful realization of

who

was currently pleasuring you was sending gentle waves and currents of desire and arousal coursing through your veins. And that feeling was amplified when Starscream paused his kissing, only to growl out a low "

Mine,"

against your throat. You shuddered at the seeker's tone, and couldn't deny the thrill it sent through you. At this point, your underwear was

definitely

on track to being soiled. 
 
Apparently, Starscream had noticed your reaction to his low, possessive tone, as he once again paused before quietly purring into your skin. "Hmmm. Do you like the idea of being

mine

, my dear?" You let out a needy whine in response to the seeker's query. You

definitely

liked the idea of being his. As if he could hear your very thoughts, Starscream bit your neck, and a sharp flash of pleasurable pain shot through you when you realized he had likely broken skin.

Well, at least your hickeys would be symmetrical; one large, unhideable bruise for each side of your neck.

You had no time to wonder what was wrong with you or

why

you very much liked being marked by the mech; the next thing you knew, Starscream was back to growling "

MINE

," directly in your ear while roughly grabbing your breasts. You couldn't stop the unabashed moan that escaped your lips due to Starscream's claim over you, and apparently, the seeker quite liked your response, as you felt the rev of his engine against your skin as he pressed himself closer to you.
 
The low hum of his engine sent light vibrations through your stomach, thighs, and throbbing core, which left you squirming against the feeling, although you weren't sure if you wanted less or

more

of the barely noticeable yet pleasant sensation. All you knew was that the subtle vibration was amplifying your arousal. 
 
But the vibration of Starscream's engine slowly went from pleasant to downright

torturous.

And you didn't know how much of that torture you could take before you were begging to the mech to simply

do something more

.
 
You had to admit, the gentle pecks Starscream was pressing to your neck and the attention he was giving your tits was nice and

definitely

pleasurable, but you were really missing the feeling of Starscream's interface panel grinding against your folds, and the lack of

direct

stimulation to your clit was starting to drive you completely insane.
 
You let out a frustrated yet breathless growl as you squirmed against the seeker's buzzing frame. And after a futile attempt to bring yourself the stimulation that you needed, you let out a dejected sigh. "

S-Starscream…"

Upon hearing the tone you used to practically

whine

his name, Starscream immediately halted his actions, meeting your hazy gaze with alert optics.
 
Now that you had the seeker's attention, you started shifting and squirming once more, trying to escape the comforting yet somehow suffocating weight of his warm frame against your overheating body. Starscream seemed to get the message that you wanted to be free, so he swiftly backed away, sitting up and offering you an outstretched servo so you could right yourself as well. "What is it, my dear?" Starscream asked in a curious yet slightly hesitant tone, as if he was unsure of himself and his previous actions.
 
You shot him a reassuring yet slightly dazed and strained smile as you took Starscream's servo and sat upright on your bed. "It's nothing much, Star." You started, responding to his previous question. And once you had found the right words from within your muddled mind, you continued. "I was just wondering, would it be alright if we continue what we were doing before? Please?" 
 
After the vague words left your mouth, you realized you could have

definitely

been more descriptive in your request; asking the seeker if you could both return to shamelessly grinding against each other, as opposed to requesting to do what you had been doing "before". But, at this point, you knew Starscream most likely knew what you were referring to. He was a smart mech, he would figure it out. And you were sure that the seeker could see the desperation in your eyes, as well as in your tense body. 
 
But instead of pitying you and agreeing like you assumed he would, Starscream sat back, a devious smirk on his faceplate as he took advantage of your vague request.
 "Oh? And what was it that we were doing before? I don't quite recall.~" The smug seeker purred out in a smooth and low tone, definitely taunting you. You knew Starscream well enough to know when he was genuinely asking a question because he was unsure of something, and this was not it. You groaned, aggravated by Starscream's surprisingly in-character reaction. You definitely should've seen that response coming from a mile away. This was Starscream, after all. And he seemed to be aware of how desperately pent-up you were at this very moment, and was likely trying to get you to beg for him to continue. 
No. Not a chance. Nope.

You weren't begging.

Not this early

.

So instead, you rolled your eyes and frowned, bringing yourself to a sitting position before irritatedly crossing your arms in front of you. "Don't play coy with me, Starscream. You know

exactly

what I'm talking about." You spat out, narrowing your eyes and staring directly at the Decepticon in your bed. Maybe

now

that you had retorted back with sass, Starscream would abandon this course of action, and-

Nope. It was never that easy.

You watched the smirk on the seeker's face grow, and he narrowed his optics, mimicking your stance by crossing his arms over his chassis. He tilted his helm slightly to the side, leaning in slightly closer to you before muttering out in a sinfully low tone. "

I don't think I do, darling

."
 
You let out an exasperated sigh. Was this really what Starscream had decided he was going to do? After everything that had been happening tonight, was he

seriously

going to continue playing

this

card?
 Signs point to yes, the Magic 8-Ball in your brain replied once you had stopped shaking your head disapprovingly at the cocky 'Con. Alright; If this was how he was going to be, then so be it. You guess you'd just have to take things into your own hands. And you had no problems with that. You could and would definitely show this mech who's boss. So with a sly smile, you replied in a silky smooth tone as you leaned in closer to Starscream. "Then allow me to remind you." You were able to see the briefest of changes in Starscream's confident demeanor, as he slowly let his servos fall to rest on the bed, his smirk faltering for a second or two. You used the seeker's momentary surprise to your advantage, and you placed your hands on Starscream's slim waist, using your hold as leverage to pull yourself forward and flush against him once more. You then gave him one last chance as you glanced up at him with a look that was practically begging him to continue. If he truly didn't know what you wanted by now, then this should've reminded him. 
Starscream smirked at you and narrowed his optics, but stayed completely still, and it should've made you absolutely furious. But for some reason,

it didn't.

Maybe it was because you could clearly hear the roar of his cooling fans and

see

the vibrant blue blush staining his faceplate. Even though the smug seeker was playing it off, he was still charged up, and you could

see it

. You could

see

how affected he was by this entire situation, even if he was trying to deny it; to deny

you

. And so you decided it was in your best interest to take charge and take what you wanted from the mech.
 
Without missing a beat, you snaked your legs around his waist, effectively trapping him against you, leaving you and him pressed flush once more. You could tell that Starscream had

not

been expecting you to

actually

take control of this situation, as his optics went wide and the smirk on his faceplate completely vanished in a split second. You didn't miss the way that his optics traveled down your body, glancing at the way you were straddling him, or the way that your hands were slowly trailing up his back strut and to his wings. 
 
You could see the tense anticipation in Starscream's optics as he felt your hands gliding higher and higher up his frame. And you were

determined

; you were

going

to get a reaction out of him the best way you knew how. It had worked

earlier

, you were sure it would work

now

.
 
In one swift motion, you grabbed Starscream's inner pair of wings, and you felt his hips twitch as he tensed under you. You smirked, knowing that you had him now. You sensually started dragging your fingers up and down the seeker's wings, knowing this had gotten a reaction from him earlier.
 
But Starscream didn't budge.

Odd

, you thought, knowing that this

should

be making Starscream go

wild

under you. You doubled your efforts, putting more force into your touches, and more speed into your strokes. Now

this

would

surely

have Starscream bucking against your core like earlier.

Still nothing.

Huh.
 The seeker's panel was burning hot against your cunt, yet he still wasn't giving in. You brought your motions back to gentle caresses, taking a moment to analyze this situation and these very mixed results. And after a minute or two of still nothing from Starscream, a thought crossed your mind; Maybe Starscream was waiting for you to take full control of this situation; maybe he wanted to see how far you'd be willing to take this.  
That all made

sense

, yet it still didn't answer the question of

how

Starscream was managing to so effortlessly keep his composure. He had barely even responded to your touches thus far, and it baffled you. Yet one look at his faceplate told you all that you needed to know. Starscream was definitely

not

managing. His optics were offlined, and he was harshly biting his lower derma. Not to mention his servos were clutching tightly at the comforter on your bed. 
 
You were surprised he hadn't

ripped

the damn thing yet.
 
Starscream was

clearly

struggling to keep himself composed through your touches, and that brought you a sense of pride. Clearly you were doing

something right

to have the mech looking so utterly conflicted between staying still and

giving in

. It was admirable that Starscream had managed to hold himself back for this long. You were genuinely surprised and impressed.

But you decided to take pity on the poor seeker

.
 
You slowed your touches to Starscream's wings, letting go of them entirely after a few seconds. And like expected, once the seeker realized you were no longer holding his wings, he hazily onlined his optics to figure out why exactly you'd

stopped

.

Just like you'd wanted.

Once Starscream met your gaze, you reached your hand up to his faceplate, which you gently held. You could see the clear confusion in his optics, and you shot him a sweet smile, which quickly turned seductive and downright

devious

as you held the seeker's faceplate firmly in place. You wanted to

see

the look on his faceplate while you

took what you wanted.

And that's exactly what you did.

You were

not

disappointed by Starscream's reaction the second you forcefully rolled your hips down against his burning interface panel. A vocal gasp escaped his dermas, and his optics went wide as he was taken entirely by surprise due to your dominant actions. You could feel him desperately try to look away, to look

anywhere else

, but you held his helm steadily in your hand, leaving him with no option but to stare directly into your lust-filled eyes. This way, you were able to see

exactly

what you were doing to Starscream.
 You thrust your hips down once more, not missing the quiet whimper that escaped the seeker's vocalizer as his hips twitched up against yours. You smiled deviously, continuing to press your aching core against the hot metal below you, and savoring the way that Starscream desperately tried not to, but couldn't help the twitch of his hips every time he felt the drag of your concealed cunt over him.  
For what seemed like the umpteenth time tonight, you were relishing in the power that you currently held over the seeker. Not only was he currently at your mercy, but he was also

under you

, and damn, you never knew straddling an otherworldly entity would be this hot

but it was.

You were learning

so many

new things about yourself tonight, one of which being the fact that Starscream was positively

adorable

in the most sinful way when he tried to deny himself. 
 
But, sinfully adorable as it was, you knew you'd get at least

double

the amount of pleasure from this experience if Starscream would quit holding himself back. So without wasting any more time, you grabbed the seeker's wings once more, all while leaning in close and whispering to him with a seductive lilt. 
 
"I know you can do better than

that, Starscream."

Thankfully for you, either your words or your grip on the seeker's wings were enough to egg him on, as that was enough to make Starscream take action. He whined, matching your thrusts with fervor, his cooling fans kicking up another notch. The seeker grabbed your waist and pulled you closer, all while burying his faceplate in the crook of your neck to muffle his debauched noises.
 
It took you a second to realize it through your pleasured haze, but you had been granted an

opportunity

. Now that Starscream was nuzzling his helm against your neck, it was

your turn

to have your fun with a usually inaccessible and out-of-reach part of Starscream's frame, and you made your intentions clearly known by immediately sucking at and licking his neck cables.

The only thought in your mind was that you wish you had tried this sooner

.
 
The instant that your mouth made contact with the mech's neck cables, he keened, doubling his pace as he thrust against you at a completely inhuman pace. Luckilly you had your legs securely wrapped around Starscream's slim waist; because if you

didn't,

you would've likely been launched into your headboard by now. But as long as you had a secure grip on the seeker, you were content with

enjoying the ride

as you sunk your teeth lightly into his fuel line. 
 
At this point, you didn't even

need

to continue thrusting your hips; Starscream was doing all of the work for you. But you still couldn't help yourself from rolling your hips down with each thrust upward, getting truly lost in the pleasure. You moaned against Starscream's neck cables as you tried your damndest to continue stroking his wings. Your touches may have been jittery and uncoordinated, but it still earned needy noises from Starscream nonetheless, so you continued. 
 
The more kisses and nips you left up and around Starscream's neck cables, the more desperate noises he made, his composure slipping. And the more sinful noises you heard, the more determined you were to cum like this; while grinding shamelessly against the seeker. You were sure you could reach your peak like this, especially if Starscream kept this pace up.
 
Sure, your clothes were incredibly inconvenient at a time like this, but you weren’t about to ruin the moment by standing up and disrobing. You were perfectly content with the way things were at the moment, even if your pants were turning into a sticky sweet mess. Besides, what was the harm of doing an extra load of laundry? It was all worth it when you were getting intimate with a cybertronian, especially when said cybertronian was completely losing his composure, whimpering and gasping while pleading to

you

, and

shit, that was so hot.

You could most

definitely

cum like this, especially if Starscream kept making those noises and begging for you to continue.
 
You continued meeting Starscream's thrusts, now intensely focused on bringing yourself to your peak from this grinding alone. You desperately

wanted this

; to come undone in Starscream's lap, with nothing on your mind but

him

and the way he made you feel. And Starscream's unabashed whine of "Please-

hhhng-

More,

" against your throat only made your arousal burn hotter.
 
You were

determined

, so you sped up your pace, stroking Starscream's wings with calculated

purpose

. All the while, you continued moaning against the seeker's neck cables as you bit and sucked, trying your best to claim him by marking

him

up as he had done to you earlier. If that was even possible.

But you'd try.

You heard Starscream muttering something unintelligibly under his breath, but you were too determined and focused on pleasuring him and simultaneously reaching your orgasm to try and make any sense of his mumbling. The muttering quickly turned into desperate whines and gasps, and you felt your climax slowly starting to build, those helpless noises the seeker was making only getting you there faster.
 
You bit your lip, before gasping out "K-Keep making those sexy noises for me,

Starscream.~

" The seeker's gasps and moans were the hottest sounds you'd

ever

heard, and you'd be damned if you didn't hear more of them. Especially when you were almost at your peak. And in response to your demand, Starscream let out a truly desperate whine while holding onto you tighter. You retaliated by stroking and grabbing his wings faster and harder, leaning in close and whispering lowly to him with a dazed smile.
 
"

That's my good boy."

Suddenly, Starscream let out an almost ear-piercing shriek, which was then muffled by him biting your shoulder. The pleasurable pain took you by complete surprise, and you let out a high-pitched whine, gripping tightly onto Starscream's wings, which were fluttering wildly. Your walls clenched around nothing as another wave of fresh arousal settled between your legs, and you were

almost there, almost

. The seeker held you tight against him, his sharp digits poking at your skin as he shook violently. You could feel his harsh exvents against every inch of your skin, which only turned you on

more

. He was shuddering and shaking, and his grip on you tightened as he removed his denta from your neck, biting his derma as he tried to muffle gasps and groans.
 
And after a few long moments, he pulled away from you completely, practically panting as he flopped over onto his back, his wings still fluttering and twitching against the bedding beneath him. His dermas were parted, and his optics were half-lidded and hazy as he seemed to struggle to catch his breath.
 
Your immediate response was to protest on behalf of your almost-orgasm which had been

ruined

, but seeing Starscream's

complete

loss of composure first-hand was doing

unspeakable

things to you, and you could practically

feel

your arousal dripping down your thighs. Actually, you

could very distinctly

feel how soaked your thighs were, which was…

odd

. Never in your life had you been so turned on that you

completely

ruined your pants. Because there's no way they

weren't

ruined if the sheer amount of sticky slick lining your legs was anything to say about it. 
 
You slowly sat up to assess the damage done to your clothing, feeling more than slightly embarrassed due to your eagerness. Were you really so horny and wet that your fluids were now flooding from your thighs and onto your comforter?
 No. You weren’t. Because after a brief moment of deliberation, you noticed that it was most definitely not your wetness drenching your thighs, because the fluid was pink. And the last time you checked, that specific shade of pink was not naturally occuring. Especially not from the human body. So after putting those puzzle pieces together, you immediately looked to Starscream for answers. 
The seeker was panting, his optics offlined and his cooling fans on full blast, and while he was recovering from your tryst, you were able to see that the pink fluid was indeed Starscream’s. And it was leaking in copious amounts from the seams of his panel and dripping down his thighs, which were spread wide enough for you to see in great detail.

And if the sight of that alone didn’t almost make you cum on the spot.

It seemed that while you were so focused on chasing

your climax

, you had unknowingly brought Starscream to

his

. And now, he was laying in your bed, completely spent, trying to recover. You didn't know if you were more surprised, curious, or

aroused

by this revelation. All you knew was that your mind had gone completely

blank

.
 
You spent moments of stunned silence trying to find the right words. But alas, no words came to you except “Did you just…?” which you said with pronounced uncertainty. However, Starscream seemed to know

exactly

what your silence implied, and he stuttered out “I-... N-No, I-

you

-", before giving up on trying to form words, instead letting out an irritated and embarrassed growl as he covered his overheating faceplate with his servos.

Cute.

You slowly and carefully crept over to where the seeker was splayed out on your bed, choosing to ignore the throbbing of your pussy in favor of getting a better look at this sexy mess of a mech. 
 
While Starscream's face was covered, you took the opportunity to admire him in all of his post-overload glory. His spread legs were so very clearly stained and dripping with bright pink lubricant and transfluid. And his cooling fans were working overtime as the seeker continued to take in several shaky vents. You had to wonder if Starscream was

purposely

keeping his legs spread, or if he had simply forgotten to close them. Either way, you weren't complaining; this view was positively

pornographic

.
 
But although the image of Starscream laying on your bed like this was hot in its own right, your mind was still helplessly stuck on reminding you of the seeker's

noises;

specifically the shriek he had let out while overloading, which kept replaying over and

over

in your mind. You had definitely

not

been expecting Starscream to be so

vocal

, but damn, you were

so glad

that he was. 
 
So understandably,

that's where your mind was at the moment.

But regretfully, the first words leaving your lips were not "That was hot," or "Are you okay?", but rather:

"Wow, you really live up to your namesake, don't cha?"
 
You realized your mistake moments too late, as Starscream flung his legs shut and shouted in an embarrassed tone."QUIET, YOU!!!" You couldn't help but smile at how flustered you had made the seeker, but a feeling of guilt welled up inside you. You didn't want Starscream to think you were making fun of him or anything. Maybe you had gone

just a little

too far by immediately teasing him. So, without wasting another second, you crept closer to him on the bed, speaking in a soft and genuine tone. 
 
"Hey, I'm sorry. I'm kidding, I promise. That was…

really hot

, y'know." You nervously rubbed your arm, hoping that Starscream wouldn't be

too mad

at you for your remarks. There was a tense silence that felt practically unbearable, but after a few seconds, Starscream hesitantly removed his servos from his faceplate, glaring at you suspiciously before quietly asking "It

was?

"
 
You immediately nodded, smiling sheepishly at the seeker. "Yeah,

pretty sure you've ruined all humans for me. No human has ever gotten me so wet and worked-up before. I almost got off from just grinding against you, and that's

never

happened before."
 
Something changed in Starscream's expression. His faceplate now displayed a curious, yet contemplative expression. You watched as his optics trailed down your frame, choosing to lock on and land between your legs, which you instinctively wanted to close. But you resisted. You felt your cheeks burn in embarrassment and arousal. A nervous laugh left your lips, and you desperately tried to think of the right thing to say. But Starscream beat you to it.
 
"

May I?"

His simple request was enough to stop your brain in its tracks, and it took you an embarrassingly long time to respond. "May you…

what

?" You asked hesitantly, genuinely unsure what the seeker was referring to. In a quick motion, Starscream had sat up on your bed, now hovering over you, gently running a servo up your leg as he purred his response. "May I…

get you off

, as you put it?"
 
Oh.

Oh.

Well this was a turn you hadn't quite expected, but were definitely

not

opposed to. 
 
You enthusiastically nodded your head, scooting backwards on the bed and getting comfortable in a half-sitting, half-

laying

position, where you could see anything Starscream did to you. And Starscream was currently running a servo up and down one of your legs, looking at you expectantly. You stared back, unsure as to what Starscream wanted at this moment.
 
It was a good thing he spoke.

But maybe not.

Starscream smirked, before asking in a low tone. "Would you mind if I removed this fabric from your frame, my dear?" And just like that, your cheeks flushed red in embarrassment, because

of course

, duh, you forgot to remove your pants.

That's

why Starscream was looking at you like that; how was he supposed to get you off if your pants were in the way? 
 
You were officially

mortified

.
 
"Y-Yeah. Sorry, totally blanked on that." You muttered, looking away from the seeker. "Congrats, Star, you successfully turned my mind to mush. But yeah, sure, I-I don't mind. " You added, before immediately starting to shimmy out of your pants. Against your better judgment, you didn't immediately take off your underwear, leaving them right where they were, only focusing on removing your pants right now.

One thing at a time, you could do this.

As you slowly pushed your pants down your legs, you couldn't help the nervous shudder that raced through your body. This was all so intimate and new. You were slowly leaving your comfort zone and treading deeper and deeper into uncharted territory. Of course, Starscream had assured you earlier that he wouldn't ridicule you or judge you based on how you looked, but that didn't stop the irrational fear from settling deep in your mind. 
 
Once your pants were bunched up around your knees, Starscream took over, slowly and delicately pulling them down and off your legs, and then tossing them on the floor. You watched with bated breath as he scanned up your now bare legs, seeming to be taking in every detail, every scar, every blemish that adorned your skin. You

knew

he wasn't judging you for your imperfections, but you still felt anxious under Starscream's gaze. 
 
You involuntarily tensed the second you felt servos gliding up your silky smooth legs, taking in the feeling of your flesh. Starscream's optics were locked on where his digits were feeling your skin, so very different from his metallic frame. You couldn't fault the seeker for being captivated and curious, but it was making

you

feel more and more unsure of yourself.
 
Starscream's servos trailed up to your thighs, and you had to fight the urge to bring your legs back together, self-consciousness flooding through you. And as if Starscream could

sense

that self-consciousness, he began rubbing circles reassuringly against your left thigh, while using his left servo to reach out and cup your face. You were barely able to meet Starscream's optics, but you were unable to escape the warmth and adoration in his smile alone. 
 
It was almost as if Starscream's smile had rewired your brain, as you felt yourself start to relax against his gentle touch.
 
That was, until his right servo trailed right to your soaked core, where his digits lightly ran over the expanse of your soaked underwear.
 
You let out a frustrated whine, wondering

why

you'd left your underwear on. Not only were they stained with your slick, now on full display for Starscream to see, but by not removing your underwear at the same time as your pants, you'd have to go through this scrutiny

twice

. 
 
But at least that light touch to your cunt had re-ignited a flame inside you, leaving you wanting nothing more but to be filled by Starscream. "Take them off." You muttered to the seeker, closing your eyes and willing your mind to

stop overthinking

. You felt Starscream comply, and he slowly tugged your underwear down and off your legs. 
 
And then there was

silence.

Deafening silence

.
 
And even though you were

supposed

to be relaxing, and you were

supposed

to stop overthinking, you couldn't take the quiet. Your eyes flashed open, anxiously glancing at Starscream for a reaction. And he was

reacting

all right. His optics were practically

glued

on your soaked folds, which were on full display for him. Not only that, but his faceplate was flushed a bright blue, and his wings were perked up behind him. 
 
However, you didn't like the fact that Starscream was

completely frozen

, not saying or doing anything.

Well shit.

Did you just break him?

Well the seeker's reaction seemed positive enough. He definitely didn't seem repulsed. You were about to speak, to see if he was alright, but once more, Starscream beat you to it. "You're perfect." Your heart skipped a beat or two upon hearing the loving tone that Starscream spoke to you in. You could practically see the hearts in his optics, and your face flushed as your mind scrambled to find the right words to respond with. But you were once again cut off by Starscream speaking in a breathless tone. 
"You are absolutely

alluring.

I didn't think it possible for you to become even

more

beautiful. Yet you continue to prove me wrong, starlight." 
 
Those words went straight to your core, and you hoped and prayed that Starscream hadn't just noticed your walls clenching around nothing. You let out a quiet whimper, the praise truly going to your head, and without missing a beat, you sat up and swiftly took off your bra, flinging it into existence as you were left truly and completely naked for the seeker. 
 
And apparently this was

the right move

.
 
The next thing you knew, Starscream had pounced on you, capturing your lips in a passionate kiss while his servos clung to your now exposed breasts. You shakily moaned into the kiss, falling back against your pillows and arching into the seeker's touch. His glossa invaded your mouth, fighting against your tongue, and you could

feel

Starscream growling into the kiss, fueled by desire and need. 
 
You broke away after a minute, catching shaky breaths, and Starscream stared at you with burning lust as he licked his dermas. The seeker then crept backwards on the bed, once more focused on your dripping cunt. You spread your shaking legs ever so slightly further apart, and you were rewarded with a pleased hum from Starscream, who slowly and sensually started trailing his servos up your legs. He had a positively predatory look in his optics as he crept closer and closer to your core.
 
Your heart seemed to be beating a million miles per hour, and you could hear each heartbeat echoing throughout your mind. You started breathing faster subconsciously, adrenaline racing through your veins. Starscream was inching closer still, and you weren't afraid of

him

, yet you still felt a distinct sense of fear and insecurity, though you didn't know exactly why.
 
There was a clear imbalance here. You were bare and

exposed

, and Starscream had all the power, and had exposed none of himself other than vulnerability and loss of composure. You didn't know if he

had

anything else to expose to you, but the second the thought crossed your mind,

you wanted to know.

Especially when

you

were currently feeling vulnerable, completely naked. And if that wasn't enough in itself, Starscream was eyeing you as if he could eat you alive, and that

definitely

made you feel vulnerable. Before you had any idea what you were doing, you spoke.
 
"

W-Wait…

"
 
Starscream immediately sat up, removing his servos from your thighs and looking directly in your eyes, concern lacing his faceplate. "What is it, sweetspark?" The seeker spoke in a soft and soothing tone, with nothing but compassion in his optics.
 
And now that you had Starscream's attention,

your mind was completely blank

. All semblance of logical thought had left, and you found yourself scrambling for words. You truly didn't know

how

to say what you

wanted

to say.

This was awkward.

Starscream was patiently waiting for your response, and while your brain struggled to find words, your gaze slowly drifted to the bright pink fluid staining his thighs and between his legs. You didn't know how long you had been staring for, but Starscream seemed to catch on quick, and you saw the realization settle upon his faceplate in the form of a bright blue blush.
 
You had barely put together a coherent thought at this point, but you desperately needed to break this tense silence. So you took a deep breath before stuttering out. 
 
"H-Here

I

am, completely naked and exposed, and to be honest, I'm feeling a

little bit

insecure. Which isn't

your

fault,

it's mine.

And I was thinking that… it's only fair for you... to… I-I mean, unless you're

also

completely n-... na-

I wouldn't know

, obviously, a-and-. " Your nervous rambling was cut-off by Starscream leaning back with a shaky exvent, before purring out in a low tone.
 
"It

is

only fair."
 
Before you knew what was happening, there was a hydraulic hiss, and a distinct yet unique sound which you couldn't describe, and before your very eyes, Starscream's interface panel folded away. He let out a relieved sigh, and you were left wide-eyed, watching as the seeker's spike instantly pressurized, and onto your comforter flooded a mess of transfluid and lubricant from his valve, evidence of his previous overload.
 
You had no words, but your arousal spoke for you.
 
"

Oh… Oh my…"

You couldn't take your eyes off of Starscream's interface array. You were mesmerized by the way his biolights pulsed rhythmically, and how his spike twitched, now free from its housing. And

holy shit

, you'd never seen anything

like

his spike. Sure, it was some-what like what you had expected, but you were caught entirely off-guard. It wasn't absurdly girthy, but you knew the

length

would have you seeing stars later, as it would easily reach the deepest and most sensitive spots in your pussy. And his valve lips were puffy and swollen, dripping lubricant steadily onto your comforter. And you decided in that moment that you'd

definitely

need to have a taste of that valve at a later date, but for now, you were focused on his spike, and how unbelievably full you'd feel with it inside of you, and how erotic it was-
 
"Is this fair enough for you, sweetspark?" 
 
You were snapped out of your trance by Starscream speaking with a seductive lilt, staring down at you with half-lidded optics. You nodded, meeting his optics before muttering out. "I-It took you long enough." Starscream simply smiled, rolling his optics before he shot back. "If I had

known

how badly you wanted my spike, I would've done this

much sooner.

" You shuddered at the seeker's tone, and your eyes subconsciously wandered back down to his beautiful array.
 
Before you knew what was happening, Starscream crawled closer to you, cupping your face in his servo. He let out a shaky exvent while looking away, which was followed by him speaking in a husky whisper. "Can you

see

what you do to me, Starlight? I've never wanted someone as much as I want

you

." Those words went directly to your core, and you bit your lip as you clenched around nothing, feeling painfully empty. You spoke your mind before you could stop yourself. 
 
"If you want me that bad Star, then

take me

."
 
That was definitely the right thing to say, because a second later, Starscream was prying your legs further apart, situating himself so his helm was mere inches away from your dripping folds. With the way he had positioned himself, you were expecting the seeker to eat you out. So you were surprised when you felt a sharp digit brush past your clit. You gasped at the feeling, immediately looking at the seeker with dazed confusion.
 
You assumed that Starscream could see the hesitance and uncertainty behind your confusion, as he smiled before gently reassuring you. "I'll be careful, don't worry, my dear." You nodded in response to Starscream's claim, letting out a shuddering sigh and relaxing into your bed, anticipating the seeker's next move. 
 
Starscream passed his digit over your clit once more, which had your hips twitching as you let out a quiet gasp. You guessed that Starscream took this as a

good sign,

as he continued rubbing slow circles against your swollen clit, letting out low, content hums whenever his actions got a reaction from you. You were

seeing stars

, as the direct stimulation to your clit after being teased and denied for so long was

heavenly

. You threw your head back, moaning as you couldn't help but buck and squirm against his digits.
 
Although the attention to your clit was everything you had wanted, you couldn't help but wonder when Starscream would take this

one step further.

And as if the mech had read your mind, he paused his ministrations, and you opened your eyes, meeting his optics. He smiled, before whispering to you. "Would you be alright if we

progressed

, darling?" You nodded with a satisfied smile, and Starscream took that as his sign to continue.
 
You were able to distinctly feel as the seeker grazed a digit through your folds, gathering the slick that pooled there and letting it encompass his entire digit. On normal occasions, you would've probably been embarrassed to be so wet, but not when Starscream had purred out; "Look at you, already so wet for me~." You were once again left impressed by the mech's ability to know

exactly what to say

to have you clenching around nothing.
 
And this time, you knew he

felt it

. Because the second your walls clenched down, he let out a deep chuckle and began to slowly insert his digit into your tight cunt. Every millimeter he pressed into you was

heavenly

, and you were floating in overwhelming ecstasy. Starscream let out a low growl before breathlessly hissing out "You're so wet… and

warm."

And of course, you couldn't help but clench down around Starscream's digit, which in turn made him exvent shakily.
 
After long seconds of pleasure, Starscream's digit was fully inside you, and fully encompassed by your wet heat. And surprisingly, even though his digit was snug inside of you, and reaching a depth you didn't think was

possible

, you couldn't feel the sharp, clawed end of his digit like you'd been afraid you would. You doubted his "claws" were retractable, so you were truly in awe with how

gentle

Starscream was being with you. And through your lust-addled mind, you couldn't help but realize that even in his mass-displaced form, his digits were still huge, and you felt remarkably full with just one of them pressed into your wet heat.
 
Your pondering was interrupted by Starscream slowly easing a second digit into your tight heat. And you could

immediately

feel the stretch of your walls around his digits. You bit back a moan as you gripped futilely at your comforter. The stretch wasn't uncomfortable yet, but if this was how things were with only

two digits

, you were definitely going to feel what his spike did to you when you woke up in the morning. 
 
Starscream seemed to notice your slight discomfort, and he started rubbing reassuring circles against your thigh with his free servo as he whispered encouragingly to you. "You're doing so well, my dear. You're so good for me, so

perfect

." You felt yourself relax a bit at his words, and you started to get lost in the pleasure of him scissoring his digits inside of you. 
 
You let pleasured noises escape freely from your lips as Starscream began thrusting his digits inside of you at a slow pace. You were starting to get used to the feel of his digits deep inside of you, and you let out a shaky but content sigh. But out of nowhere, the seeker pressed his digits against a certain spot deep in your walls, and you whined loudly at the jolt of pleasure it sent coursing through your body.
 
You didn't have any time to think over what had just happened before Starscream was easing another digit into you. You definitely

felt

the stretch required from your tight walls as the seeker slowly pushed a third digit in. You bit your lip, trying to focus on the pleasure, rather than the pain in this situation. 
 
Once Starscream had eased his third digit completely into you, he paused, placing his free servo over one of your hands, still balled in a fist and clutching at the comforter. You tried to relax your body so that the pain would give into pleasure, but all you could focus on was the distinct throbbing of your walls against Starscream's digits. You felt so

full

, and this wasn't even his spike! Embarrassingly enough, you were almost completely sure that you could get off from the seeker fingering you, provided he kept thrusting his digits into your cunt like he had been doing before.
 
It seemed as though Starscream had heard your unspoken plea, as he slowly pulled his digits partway out, only to thrust them back in, successfully hitting that euphoric spot deep in your walls with the first push. You keened, and Starscream exvented shakily before speaking lowly. "You're doing

amazing

, sweetspark. Your valve is so

tight for me

." The seeker's words had you clenching down on his digits once more, and he gasped at the feeling, all the while you realized that you were

definitely

going to need some sort of lubricant in order to be able to take his spike.
 
It was good that Starscream seemed to be on the same wavelength as you.
 
Sometime during Starscream's ministrations, he had apparently decided that he needed to taste you. And the next thing you knew, he was slowly removing his digits from you. They were quickly replaced by his glossa, which ran across your clit before entering you. Starscream slowly eased his glossa into your cunt, and you couldn't help but clench around the new sensation. It wasn't a

bad

sensation; on the contrary, you almost thought you just might like Starscream's glossa better than his digits. 
 
Especially when the seeker

moaned

against your clit, sending vibrations straight up your spine. 
 
You had to stop yourself from crushing the seeker's helm between your thighs, and you forced your trembling legs to stay open. You were distinctly aware of the feeling of Starscream's glossa flicking upwards against your walls, trying to find that hidden bundle of nerves deep inside of you which had you seeing stars earlier. And it was only once the seeker managed to brush against that sweet spot that you realized how long his glossa really was.
 
Okay, now you were

definitely

sure you could cum like this.
 
Starscream began pistoning his glossa in and out of your drenched folds, successfully tongue-fucking you. And every time you moaned or clenched down around him, he hummed approvingly, sending vibrations directly against your clit, which had you squirming and writhing against the sensation. At this point, you had to put

conscious effort

into not clamping your thighs around Starscream's helm. You knew he didn't need to

breathe

like you did (as proved by his relentless pace while eating you out), yet you still didn't want to

trap him.

Starscream seemed to be picking up on your dilemma, as he slowly spread your trembling thighs wider with his servos while eating you out like he was a starving mech. And even though the noises from his glossa in your wet pussy were nothing short of obscene, they were only

adding

to your arousal. You'd be reaching your peak in

no time

at this rate.
 
And as if Starscream could tell

exactly

what you needed to bring you to the edge, he began sucking at your clit, all while being mindful of his denta. And

this

was definitely the highlight of your night so far. Your pleasure almost

doubled

, and you moaned out Starscream's name, the suction against your clit quickly bringing you closer and closer to release.
 
You were panting and whining as you were endlessly pleasured, and you could feel your orgasm quickly building, heat coiling deep inside of you. Starscream hit your g-spot once more with his glossa, and you yelped as the seeker effortlessly brought you teetering near the brink of a euphoric release. But in the back of your mind, you knew that you weren't ready for this to be over.

Not yet

.
 
Even though your body

screamed

not to, you spoke in a shaky and breathless voice, focusing all of your power on fighting off your impending climax. "Star, please… stop, I-I can't, I'm gonna-" The seeker slowly removed his glossa from your folds, your fluids smeared all over his faceplate.

Shit

.

Nonono

-
 
You closed your eyes shut as fast as you could, throwing your legs together immediately as you fought with every fiber of your being to

not cum

from the sight you'd just seen. You fought a silent battle through the longest seconds of your

life

as you staved off your orgasm, gripping the comforter tightly and curling in on yourself, panting heavily and whining. 
 
You were

not

going to cum.

Not yet.

And after a few seconds of successfully fighting for your

life

, you felt your orgasm ebb away into obscurity, and you were finally able to

breathe

. So long as Starscream didn't immediately jump back into tongue-fucking you and sucking at your clit, you were in the clear. But you weren't going to chance it, so you kept your legs tightly shut for the time being.
 
Luckilly for you, Starscream didn't seem to have any plans on continuing where he'd left off. Although you could see the sheer

hunger

in his optics as he stared at you. You broke the heated silence by panting out. "Thanks… for stopping."
 
With a disoriented smirk, Starscream replied, briefly slurring his words, lust evident in his low tone. "Sssince you had asked so nicely,

I just couldn't resist.

." Without wasting another moment, the seeker crawled towards you, placing his servos on your thighs and slowly forcing them back apart. You could practically

see

his self-control crumbling, and you couldn't fight the nervous shudder that raced through your body as he lined his spike up against the entrance of your soaked cunt.
 
You could

feel

the desperation in his movements as he gently yet forcefully pushed you back against the bed, and you immediately realized that it was likely that the only reason Starscream had obeyed your earlier command and stopped his ministrations was because he was dying to feel your slick, velvety walls around his spike. Not because he was being

nice

like you had originally thought and hoped, but instead, because he couldn't wait a second longer, and because he

needed

his spike inside of you

immediately

.
 
Your face paled, and your heart sunk as you glanced at the seeker. There was no thought or feeling or

reason

behind those optics, only a crazed lust. He was

going

to wreck you, whether you wanted him to or not. And with this knowledge, you were fully prepared for Starscream to thrust roughly into you with no mercy or concern. You braced yourself for the pain which you knew would inevitably be coming. Hopefully it would ebb and give way to pleasure at some point. You felt the tip of Starscream's fully pressurized spike prodding at your entrance, and you shut your eyes tight and grit your teeth, knowing you were about to be in a world of hurt due to the fast and ruthless pace which the seeker was certainly going to set. 
 
But surprisingly, that pain never came. And instead of pain, you were met with the feeling of smooth digits soothingly rubbing circles against your waist, and delicate kisses being pressed to your collarbone. Your eyes shot open in surprise, and you stared at Starscream, completely confused.

Why wasn't he forcefully having his way with you right now?

Your expression seemed to say everything that was on your mind, as Starscream smiled before speaking in a reassuring tone. "I'd never be able to live with myself if I damaged your fragile human frame. My morals may be…

somewhat misaligned,

but I'd never want to

deliberately

cause you harm." The seeker paused for a brief moment, before smirking as he added on. "Unless, of course,

you

asked for it. But I'm assuming you'd prefer that I

didn't

break you

this time.

So please, let me know if you feel any pain, and I'll

stop

."
 
Starscream's words took an embarrassingly long amount of time to process, and by the time you had registered them in your hazy mind, the only words leaving your lips were "

You promise…

?" The mech smiled, taking one of your hands in his servos, and entwining his digits with your fingers before responding in a caring and genuine tone.
 
"I

promise

, my dear."
 
You let out a shaky sigh, before nodding to the seeker and vocalizing your consent and approval. "A-Alright… you can go." Starscream gave your hand a reassuring squeeze as he let out an exvent, beginning to slowly and carefully push into your tight heat. You were immediately surprised by the amount of self-control the seeker was exercising as he pushed into your slick folds at an incredibly slow pace. He was even stopping every few seconds to make sure you were okay, and you couldn't help but smile, feeling truly loved and appreciated in this moment. 
 
Your eyes were screwed shut, so you couldn't see how much more of Starscream's spike you had to take. But you hoped it wasn't much, because you were beginning to feel the burn of your walls stretching around his impressive length. Luckily you had Starscream's digits intertwined with your fingers to ground you. You squeezed his servo and tried to steady your breathing as he continued breaching you, inch by agonizing inch.
 
"Almost-

hahhh-

almost there, sweetspark." Starscream hissed out, and you couldn't help but clench down around his spike as he spoke, his breathless tone sending waves of arousal through you. You let out an embarrassed laugh before muttering an apology. "S-sorry."
 
Starscream chuckled, giving your hand a reassuring squeeze as he responded. "It's alright, dearest. Just… be aware that once you are adjusted, I don't know if I'll be able to-

nnnnhhh- hold myself back."

You felt the seeker's spike twitch against your slick walls in response to you clenching around him once more, and you couldn't stop the gasping moan that fell from your lips, your eyes flashing open. At the same time, Starscream let out a low snarl as he grit his denta and offlined his optics, venting heavily.
 
Holy

shit

. 
 That was hot. 
After a moment or two, you had both regained your composure enough for Starscream to continue pushing the last bit of his spike into you. And once he had bottomed out, you let out a shaky exhale. You could

feel

Starscream trembling against you as he held himself almost completely still, not wanting to accidentally hurt you. And although you could

clearly

see the struggle Starscream was facing in holding himself back, you were truly grateful that he was waiting for you to grow accustomed to his spike before relentlessly plowing into you. 
 
That small courtesy made you feel desired and appreciated. And even though the stretch burned for a moment or two, there was no real pain. All you felt was pleasure and warmth and

love.

You felt your walls gradually begin to relax against the intrusion as you chose to focus on the gentle way Starscream was tracing your skin, and the way he was still holding your hand, and the way you felt so completely

full

with him pressed completely inside of you.
 
After a minute or two, you were practically completely adjusted. You only needed a few more seconds, the pain virtually nonexistent. Luckily for you, Starscream spoke before you had to, stating in a strained tone. "L-Let me know when I-

nnnhg-

when I can move, s-sweetspark." You nodded, and you took a deep breath before speaking. "Y-You can move, Starscream." 
 
You were

ready.

You felt the seeker's spike throb in response to your words, and without even moving his hips, his spike had brushed against the hidden cluster of nerves inside you that had you gasping. The seeker growled, squeezing your hand tight before hissing out.

"Are you positive

?"
 
You let out an impatient moan before crying out. "Starscream

please

." That was all the seeker needed to hear, as the next thing you knew he had pulled out of your wet cunt almost

entirely

, only to thrust back in with one swift motion. He let out a low groan, and you keened, gasping as every nerve in your body was set alight from the sensation of Starscream's spike pushing back inside your walls. 
 
It was official; You were

ruined

for other humans.
 
Starscream slowly removed his spike from your cunt once more, glancing at you and making sure you weren't in pain or distressed. You let out a desperate whine, hoping it would convince Starscream to pick up the pace; to stop holding back, like he'd warned he would.
 
In complete honesty, you were expecting to be in pain for the first few thrusts. But since Starscream had thoroughly prepared you and had let you adjust to the feeling and size of his length inside of your tight folds, the drag of his spike was nothing but pure pleasure. Yet it wasn't enough.

You needed more.

You could tell that Starscream was still concerned about not hurting you, but at this point, you'd willingly take the pain if it meant more pleasure. Starscream interrupted your thoughts by thrusting back in once more, and you moaned out a vocal "Please,

more

," before squeezing Starscream's servo in your hand, only to promptly let go as you wrapped your arms around his heated frame.
 
Starscream looked deep into your eyes, uncertainty clear and present in his optics. You knew he was hesitant, but you'd already practically

begged him

to continue. And if he wasn't getting the message, you'd take matters into your own hands. Since your hands were already wrapped snug around Starscream's back, it was no problem for you to bring your hands up and grab the seeker's inner pair of wings.
 
Starscream had only managed to get out a few words before you grabbed on

tight

.
 
"Are you-

AHHH-"

You had flipped a switch inside of the seeker, as once you had grabbed his wings, Starscream began thrusting

frantically

, possessed with an inhuman speed. You practically screamed once Starscream began ruthlessly plowing into your soaked cunt.
 
You instinctively bit your lip as the mech continued thrusting into you at a breakneck pace, over and over again, snarling as he grabbed your hips with both servos, holding you in place as he pistoned into you. As promised, he was

not

holding himself back, and you couldn't be happier. And his feral, animalistic growls and groans set the fire inside of you blazing even brighter.
 
Your mind was spinning, and the only thing you could register was

how good this felt

. And Starscream seemed to be sharing your sentiment, letting out several low moans and growls as he continued slamming into you. You were definitely going to be sore after this pounding, but you couldn't find it in yourself to care. You had asked for this, after all. And you wouldn't have had it any other way.
 
Your attention was captured by Starscream speaking in a static-laced tone. "You're so wet, and tight, and

perfect."

You couldn't help the full body shudder that overtook you in response to Starscream's praises, and you couldn't stop your walls from throbbing noticeably around his spike. You held on tight to the seeker's wings as he let out a low and breathy chuckle, now aware that his words most

definitely

had an affect on you. "You like that, do you?" Starscream asked while gripping your hips tighter. You nodded, although you were mostly sure the question was entirely rhetorical.
 
Starscream purred out a low and quiet "

Good,"

and you couldn't help but whine. You'd always found the seeker's voice to be hot, but now that you were being

fucked

by him, his voice was positively

melting you

, turning you into a puddle in the bed. Your thoughts were interrupted as he spoke again with the same low and lust-filled tone. 
 
"I should be leaving -

nnngh

- m-more marks all over your flesh, so that way,

everyone

you see will know that you belong to

me.

You are

min-aHHH-."

Your walls clenched around Starscream's spike in a vice grip due to his words, and he had to stop his thrusting, his spike twitching up in your folds and hitting your sweet spot. You both moaned, and you could feel the seeker's engine rumbling against you as he slowly pulled his spike from your tight walls. 
 
He was back to thrusting at a rapid pace in almost no time, and you couldn't help but admire the near endless amount of stamina that Starscream seemed to possess in this very moment. It was so unbelievably arousing to you, watching Starscream rut into you with reckless abandon. And as a reward to him for being so damn good at fucking your brains out, you tried your absolute best to stroke up and down his wings, which caused him to let out a low moan as his spike throbbed within your walls, which caused

you

to clench down against the feeling with a whine, which caused Starscream's pace to momentarily falter as your walls held him in place. 
 
But soon enough, Starscream recovered, attempting to speak through his fast thrusting pace. "You have

no idea

h-how

irresistible

it is-

nnnn

-when your valve squeezes around me, darling." The seeker paused, thrusting a few more times before venting deeply and continuing his thought. "If you're trying to bring me straight to overload, I have no choice but to-

hhhhh

-regretfully admit t-that it's definitely beginning to work." 
 
You didn't know if Starscream was saying this only to get you to clench around him once more. But if he

was

, he got exactly what he had wanted as your walls squeezed his spike tighter. The seeker let out a breathy whine before hissing out "

F-Frag

, you're so

tight

." You moaned, Starscream's tone sending waves of lust washing though you.

Who gave him the right to be so unbelievably sexy?

While the seeker continued thrusting, he made quick work of his previous comment, as he began nipping and sucking at the sensitive skin of your breasts, all the while squeezing your hips tight as he pulled you against him in time with every perfectly angled thrust. You moaned wantonly, not caring one bit about how debauched you probably sounded. All you cared about was

Starscream

, and the heady mix of pleasurable sensations he was guiding you through at the moment.
 
Every time the seeker nipped at your skin, another burst of pleasure washed over you. Even though him biting your flesh did sting and hurt, for some reason, that pain was only amplifying your pleasure. Especially when you knew that

you

were

Starscream's

, and that he was claiming you for all the world to see. Fuck it,

let them see

. You'd shout it from the rooftops that you got fucked by a cybertronian war criminal if it meant you could do it again.
 
Looking back on your life, you would have

never

pictured yourself somehow becoming friends with an alien robot. And you definitely wouldn't have imagined falling in

love

with said alien robot. Yet here you were, making love with him, getting lost in the feeling of his spike molding your walls to only remember

him

. Even though you hadn't realized it before tonight, this was all you had ever wanted. You were the luckiest person on earth to be sharing this moment with

Starscream

, the most brilliant mech you'd ever met, who had turned from a reluctant acquaintance to one of your best friends. 
 
And you

loved him.

You

truly

loved him.
 
You would follow him to the ends of the earth,

hell

, to the ends of the

universe

if it meant you could stay by his side for all eternity. You were

devoted

to him, and at this point, there was very little you

wouldn't

do for the seeker, which was a terrifying realization to make, and-

And

…
 
This was

definitely

too much to be thinking about at the moment. You should be focusing on the intense pleasure coursing through you, and the way that Starscream was now planting kisses to your neck, and pulling you close against him as he slammed into you. You should be thinking about how

whole

you felt, and how for the first time in your life, you felt like you had a clear

purpose

. 
 
Starscream continued littering your skin with bites and bruises as he continued thrusting into you, and you continued stroking his wings, determined to bring him as much pleasure as humanly possible. And Starscream seemed to have the same goal in mind for you, as he removed his right servo from your hip and gradually brought it down to your clit, where he began to rub calculated and fluid circles.
 
You felt your orgasm building sooner and quicker than you ever thought possible, which was definitely being aided by the attention to your clit. And you couldn't help but grip tighter at Starscream's wings as he spoke in a tone that was pure love and passionate

possession.

"C-Can't wait to fill you up. My perfect, precious little human. You are

mine. All mine."

You were barely able to mutter out a soft "

Y-Yours

," before a particularly sharp thrust against your sweet spot had you crying out in bliss. The overwhelming pressure of imminent release was growing, building in your core, beginning to crescendo into a beautiful explosion of pleasure. And with the way Starscream's spike was throbbing and twitching inside your wet folds, he

had

to be getting close too.
 
"Star-

hahhh

-

Starscream-"

You couldn't properly vocalize any other words to warn the seeker that you were rapidly reaching your peak, but he seemed to hear you loud and clear as he sped up his pace, his thrusts beginning to become sloppy and uncoordinated. But you didn't care, because it was

working

. You let out a high pitched moan and clenched around the seeker. You felt the pressure rapidly building,

almost there

, you were so close, teetering just on the precipice of bliss, and-
 
"

That's it

; Overload for me, darling."
 
Those words sent you crashing violently over the edge, and you let out a silent scream as white-hot euphoria washed over you in rolling waves. It was

intense

, and all-encompassing, and you'd

never

felt anything this wonderful before. Your vision began whiting out, and your ears were ringing, and out of nowhere, you felt a zap of tingly electric energy shoot through your body. You were vaguely aware of a molten hot warmth flooding through your cunt, and the pinprick of pain at your neck, where you could hear and

feel

Starscream's muffled sounds. You swore you could hear what sounded like your name escaping his dermas as he overloaded inside of you, but you could've imagined it. 
 
Either way, you were completely content in this infinitesimal eternity. You felt completely whole, as if you were

one

with the seeker; as if Starscream was the piece of you that you had been missing for your entire life. And that feeling was only amplified as he pulled you close against his frame and wrapped his arms tight around you, as if shielding you from the world while he basked in the afterglow alongside you. You let go of Starscream's twitching wings as you wrapped your arms around him as well, panting against his neck cables.
 
Your mind was rapidly spinning, but all of your thoughts led you back to

him,

and how safe and secure you felt held tight in his strong arms. Your heart was so completely and overwhelmingly

full

of love and emotions. You felt as though you could fly, on top of the world, so peacefully content and satisfied at the moment. You couldn't stop the joyfully happy tears that managed to escape from your eyes, which cascading down your face like a waterfall. You closed your eyes hoping that would deter them from falling. 
 
After a minute or two, Starscream slowly pulled out of your dripping cunt, leaving a mess of fluids on your comforter. You shivered at the feeling of the seeker's transfluid running down your thighs, and you couldn't help but let out a quiet whine, hating how empty you felt now that the seeker's spike was no longer inside of you. 
 
And then the weight of the world set in, as your mind caught up with what had just happened.
 
You slowly opened your eyes, tears immediately streaming down your face, now not entirely of joy, but

bittersweet

, mixed with a strange melancholy. 
 
And as Starscream pulled away from you,

he noticed.

You were able to watch as his expression shifted from one that was satisfied and content to one of genuine concern, and he gently took your hand in his servo as he sat upright. "Are you hurt?" The seeker's question and tone took you slightly by surprise, your mind still reeling, but after a second or two, you shook your head, sniffling.
 
Starscream tilted his helm to the side, frowning before he asked "Are you unhappy?" You smiled weakly, wiping away the tears from your eyes as you shook your head, currently unable to find words.
 
After a long pause, Starscream spoke once more, leaning in close and staring into your glossy eyes. "Then… what is it, my dear?" At first glance,

you didn't know.

But as you began to ponder

why

exactly you were crying, your heart answered for you. 
 
At first, you had been crying tears of joy and happiness, because this was all you had ever wanted. You had just been given the best orgasm of your life after spending all night getting intimately close with Starscream, and he was here with you.
 
But there was something deeper beneath the surface that you had originally failed to pick up on.
 
Starscream was here with you

now

, but this moment was almost over. In a few quick minutes, this night could change, fading into obscurity. You had no control over what happened next, and that scared you; no, it

terrified you

.
 
This whole night so far had seemed like a fever dream brought to life. In the span of one night, you had found happiness and worth and passion and

love

, and it was all so surreal and

so good.

Too good.

In the back of your mind, you were entirely convinced that this truly

was

nothing but a dream; a figment of your imagination. Because nothing this good had ever happened to you, and most good things that

did

happen were over as soon as they began. You didn't know why this experience would turn out to be any different in the end. 
 
You didn't ever want to wake up from this dream of a night, and you were so scared that now that this was over, everything would return back to the way it was before. Or

worse

, you'd never see Starscream again. His visits were always sporadic, and sometimes you wouldn't see him for weeks. You had just gotten lucky enough for him to stop by three times this week. But what if after he left tonight, he never returned? What if he was already starting to regret all of this, and was beginning to want nothing to do with you?

What if this was your last night with him?

You hadn't realized that your silent crying had turned into heavy sobbing, and you weren't aware how far you had truly spiraled until you felt strong arms around you, pulling you close once more. You sobbed helplessly against Starscream's warm frame, taking shuddering breaths as you clung tight to him. You could hear him humming softly, and feel him gently run his digits through your disheveled hair, trying to soothe you.
 
"Shhhhh. It's okay, sweetspark.

I'm here."

Although Starscream was

trying

to soothe and reassure you, it wasn't working. You were scared, so scared of losing him. Scared that this good moment truly would fade away into obscurity, like all others before it. There truly was nothing you could do. You had absolutely

no control

of this situation, and that utterly

wrecked

you. 
 
Starscream was going to leave you in a minute or two, and you would be alone.
 
You

couldn't

let him leave.

Not yet

.
 
Before you even knew what was happening, or what you were doing, you had grabbed Starscream's faceplate, immediately pressing your lips against his dermas in a desperate, broken kiss, where you poured out all your agony and hopelessness and fear. Starscream kissed you back after a brief moment of surprise, cupping your cheek, still drenched from tears, in his servo. Where you had been kissing with fear, and the silent plea of "Please don't leave me," Starscream kissed with warmth and reassurance. 
 
But you weren't at all convinced. You didn't want this all to be over, so you continued kissing the seeker until your lungs burned and ached with the need of oxygen. You pulled away with a gasp, which led right back into your violent sobs.
 
Starscream immediately took you back in his arms, wiping the tears from your cheeks with his digits. You could see the confusion in his optics, and without thinking, you broke the uncomfortable silence, speaking from the heart and unable to stop yourself.

Big mistake.

You took a shuddering breath and blurted out in a shaky and uneven tone.
 
"I think…

I think I'm in love with you, Starscream

."
 
And at that very moment, the world stopped spinning.
 
Time slowed to a complete halt as you watched the way Starscream's optics widened as he stared at you. But it was almost as if he was looking right through you, as if you weren't there at that moment or at

all.

You watched and waited with bated breath, hoping,

praying

that the seeker would say

something,

that he would

do something-

In an instant, Starscream loosened his grip around you, scooting away from you the slightest bit. But the distance felt like miles with the way he was staring at you, like you were

insane.

More tears watered up in your eyes, threatening to fall as the silent seconds passed like eons. But then Starscream spoke. "I- You-

What?"

His tone was confusion, disbelief, and a million other things which you couldn't quite make out. But it

wasn't looking good for you.

Your heart had sunk the second the seeker responded the way he did. Clearly he was never going to feel the same way for you. And why would he? You were just a simple human, and he was this perfect mech from an entirely different planet, far more advanced than anyone on this planet could even

hope to be

, yet somehow you were convinced that you could be enough for someone like him.
 
That was all nothing but a foolish fantasy. You were only fooling yourself with that lie, and you were stupid enough to actually believe, for the smallest of moments, that you could be something to the seeker. But you were insignificant; a mere grain of sand in the desert; a single star in the vast universe, one which Starscream had explored and traveled and

lived through

.

And you were stupid enough to do what you just had without thinking about the consequences. You just

had

to ruin a perfect moment by confessing that you were in

love.

So before things could get any worse, you put an end to that delirium. "Nevermind…" you muttered out dejectedly, fresh tears streaming down your face like waterfalls of heartbroken agony. God, you were such an idiot. Why did you ever think that was a good idea? You broke eye contact with the seeker, pulling your arms tight around your naked body, now feeling extremely self-conscious and incredibly foolish. 
 
Once again, your bedroom fell back to deafening silence, leaving you alone with nothing but your thoughts.
 
But that was only until the silence was broken again, by a hesitant Starscream. "I… I'm sorry, I-" You had somehow rendered the seeker at a complete loss for words, and you could see him wracking his processor to find the words he wanted to say.
 
But you shook your head, not wanting to hear the rest of what would obviously be a very painful rejection. You let out a pained and defeated sigh. "Just… forget I said anything, okay? Just forget all of this ever happened, forget about tonight, f-forget about

me

…" You murmured through sobs and streams of tears, which you frantically tried to wipe away, but to no avail. The tears kept falling, no matter how hard you tried to get your emotions back under control.
 
You should've known. You should've known something this good was never meant to last, and you should have known that

you

would be the one to inevitably ruin it.

It was nice while it lasted.

You couldn't get another thought in, because without warning, Starscream pulled you against him, into a tight embrace. You gasped, wide-eyed and surprised, completely unsure of what to do in this situation.
 
You had expected Starscream to leave moments later, to never come back, and if he ever

did

, things would have been different; tense and awkward and forced. But

this

was something you had not expected at

all.

Another thing you did not expect was for Starscream to forcefully capture your lips in a passionate kiss as he ran his servos up and down your bare back. You froze in place, body tensing as you fought through the shock of this situation. This was

too good

to be true, there was going to be a catch, and-
 
Starscream hummed contentedly into the kiss cupping your face in one servo and running his digits slowly and gently across your tear-streaked cheek. You were still unable to move, still in denial, so it was a good thing that Starscream took full control of the kiss, pouring care and devotion and adoration and

love

into his each and every movement, holding you tight in his embrace as if he were scared that

you

would disappear from

him

if he let you go.
 
Starscream broke the kiss, looking deep into your eyes and smiling sadly at you, before saying in a warm voice filled with nothing but truth.
 
"

I

love

you

, ______."
 
The floodgates burst open, and you couldn't help but sob as your brain repeated the words which you couldn't believe. Starscream just…
 
He loved you.
 
He

loved

you.

He

loved

you

.

And you loved him, so very much, more than anything. You were in disbelief, your mind screaming at you that this was some kind of sick joke, that he couldn't really mean it, that he was only saying that because he was pitying you-
 
"I don't want to forget any of this. And I don't

ever

want to forget about

you

." Starscream whispered, pure love in his tone. Yet it was still too good to be true. And the tears kept falling, relentless.

You didn't deserve this, you didn't deserve him, he was making a mistake-

"Starlight, look at me."
 You slowly lifted your face, hesitantly meeting the seeker's optics. You were expecting to see shame and disgust, but instead, you only saw patience and understanding. You humored Starscream, choosing to ignore your brain and your negative thoughts in favor of hearing the seeker out and seeing what it was that he had to say.  
Starscream let out a shaky event, before taking your hands in his servos. "Sweetspark, please believe me when I say my words are genuine. Because they

are.

I truly love you; With my whole spark. In my entire

existence

, I've never been more sure of anything."
 
He paused, rubbing your hands lightly as he seemed to search for his next words. But you beat him to it as the doubt began to set in once more. 
 
"Please… Starscream,

please

don't leave me."
 Starscream immediately shook his helm, as if the very thought was preposterous. "I am not leaving you. Not now, not ever. I'm staying with you, by your side. And I want to be by your side until the day my spark is extinguished.” There was a pause, before Starscream added on. "If you'd let me, of course." 
You were instantly nodding, fresh tears streaming down your face as you threw your arms around Starscream's face, pulling him close as you sobbed.
 
Somehow, this was

real

. This wasn't a dream, and Starscream

wasn't

leaving you. Because he

loved you

, and he wanted to be with you for the rest of his life. You sobbed against him, and he soothingly ran his digits through your hair, perfectly content with soothing you while you cried against him. 
 
You felt Starscream press a delicate kiss to your forehead while whispering a quiet "I love you so much, darling." And you couldn't help but mutter back in a shaky tone while you kept your face pressed to Starscream's chassis. "I-I love you too. T-Thank you for… for staying." Starscream let out a satisfied hum in approval, before speaking once more. "Of

course,

my dear. Anything for you."
 
You closed your eyes and let out a shaky sigh, letting yourself simply

exist

in Starscream's warm and comforting embrace. When you were here in his arms, you felt like nothing could stop you.
 
Minutes passed by, yet you and Starscream were both happy staying exactly where you were, wrapped in each other's arms. Yet in the back of your mind, you knew that there would be many problems and obstacles in both of your ways, doing everything in their power to prevent you both from staying together. But that was a problem for a later date. And a problem that the two of you would no doubt face together.
 
All that mattered now was Starscream's warm frame, the gentle hum of his cooling fans, and his arms wrapped lovingly and securely around you. Your brain was finally starting to register that the seeker's words were true, and that you

weren't

being led astray. He was being honest and truthful with you when he said that he loved you, and that he wanted to be with you. And that made you feel like the luckiest person in the universe.
 
But all too soon, the peaceful, tender moment was over, as the seeker slowly and gently pulled away from you and shakily got to his pedes. You whined in protest to the loss of his warm frame against your body, and Starscream smiled with adoration, planting a kiss to your forehead before whispering to you. “Stay here, sweetspark. I’ll be right back.”
 
The deep-seated fear you had just managed to suppress managed to arise back to the surface of your mind, and you were immediately filled with dread and lingering questions. What if Starscream

didn't

come back? What if he was leaving right now, disappearing into the night? What if he hated you, and was regretting all of this, and-
 
You closed your eyes and took a deep breath, willing your mind to stop wandering to worst-case scenarios and what-if's. You had heard Starscream declare that he too loved you not even ten minutes ago. He wouldn't have left you like that.

Would he…?

No. He wouldn't. So you would trust him, and wait patiently until he returned. Or at least you'd

try

to wait patiently.
 
Starscream came back a minute later, and the second you saw him appear in your doorway, you let out a sigh of relief, all of your anxieties and irrational fears disappearing. Although Starscream had only been gone for a minute or two, every second passed like hours, and your fears and insecurities had made every second

miserable

. But now your Star was here, and everything was going to be alright.
 
You noticed immediately that Starscream had a damp washcloth in his servo, no doubt for cleaning you off. You then noticed that Starscream seemed to have already cleaned himself off, as his modesty panel was securely in place once more, and there was no fluid staining his thighs. You were derailed from your train of thought and your general observations by Starscream speaking in a gentle and quiet tone.
 
"Sorry it took me so long, starlight. I didn't know exactly where you kept your…" You saw Starscream glance at the washcloth in his servo, at a complete loss as to what the small rag was called. So you smiled and helped, offering "Washcloths?" to the seeker, who then nodded, repeating you. "Yes,

washcloths.

But I did find a…

washcloth

eventually, and I hope it is a suitable material for me to clean you with?

"

You could hear the faint question interwoven with Starscream's statement, and you smiled before speaking.
 
"It's the perfect material, but um…" you paused, feeling a bit embarrassed as you thought of the best way to say what was at the forefront of your mind. "Um, Starscream? Y-You don't… you don't

have

to help me clean myself if you don't want to-" You were almost immediately cut off.
 
"

I want to."

You blinked a few times, a blush coating your face as you processed the seeker's words. But then you smiled hesitantly, replying in a timid voice. "Oh… okay then." You saw Starscream's optics soften as he smiled, walking towards you before sitting next to you on the bed and gently placing his servos on your knees. You opened your legs a slight bit, already feeling the soreness from your earlier activities with the seeker. Your entire lower half was going to be

aching

in the morning.
 
But at least you'd have Starscream with you.
 
The seeker began slowly running the damp washcloth along the insides of your thighs, which were stained with a mix of both of your combined fluids. It only took him a few calculated swipes to clean off the majority of the mess. Once Starscream  was satisfied with the state of your thighs, he began gently trailing the washcloth over your folds, and you let out a shaky sigh. 
 
These light touches weren't enough to get you

aroused

, but you couldn't deny that the seeker's gentle touches still felt good. You let yourself lay back against the bed, closing your eyes as Starscream continued cleaning your cunt.
 
After a minute or two, Starscream spoke in a quiet tone. "I… I was being truthful about what I said earlier. I would like nothing more than to spend the rest of my life with you." His movements with the washcloth stopped, and the seeker stared down, as if he was pondering something. He continued speaking after a few quiet seconds. "Throughout my entire existence, I've faced countless uncertainties. But loving

you

is one thing I've never been more certain about." 
 
Starscream continued cleaning you, lowering his tone as he added on once more. "I've become so accustomed to being

alone

. And for a while, I was content with that. But I now know that I cannot

live

without you. Yes, I could

survive

alone, but my

life,

my

spark

belongs entirely to you.

You

are what I'm fighting for from this moment on."
 
Your mind fell completely blank after hearing Starscream's heartfelt confession. And after a few moments, you found your words, which you said with a smile. "I never imagined that I'd meet somebody like you... I mean, you're my

universe

, Starscream. I truly love you, with all my heart. You complete me, i-in a way that nobody else ever could."
 
Starscream looked at you with pure love. You could practically see the hearts in his optics as he leaned in close and captured your lips in a brief, sweet kiss, which you eagerly returned. Now that your mind wasn't

screaming falsehoods at you

, you were able to appreciate and truly process the fact that

this was real,

and it was really happening.
 
Once you both broke away from the kiss, Starscream smiled, before tossing the dirty washcloth on the floor (you'd worry about it

later

). He then gently threaded his arms around you, placing one servo under your knees and the other one along your back, picking you up bridal style. He then carried you off the bed and held you with one servo while he removed your slightly soiled comforter with the other. The blankets and sheet underneath remained in perfect condition, untouched by the mess you two had made, and you were truly grateful for that; you had several

less

things to wash then you'd previously feared. 
 
Starscream gently peeled back the blankets and sheet, setting you down against the plush material of the bed. He then walked around to the other side of your bed and began pulling your sheets and blankets snug around you. When he had finished with that, he turned to the switch for your mood lights, shutting them off. You got cozy, closing your eyes and smiling contently, relaxing under your covers in your now peacefully dark room.  
 
There was a brief moment of panic when you no longer felt Starscream's presence directly next to you, but you opened your eyes to see him gently grabbing and cradling your stuffed animals in his arms. The seeker then walked to the unoccupied side of the bed and set all of your stuffies down around you. You instinctively reached out for all of them, and Starscream smiled fondly, placing a few of them in your arms.
 
After the stuffed animals were situated, Starscream crawled into bed next to you, pulling you close before pulling the sheets and blankets around his frame. You relaxed against him, feeling understandably exhausted. You had definitely had a

long day,

starting with a sucky day at work, then you coming home to

Starscream

, then you having

sex

with Starscream, and now you

cuddling

with Starscream.
 
Well, your night had definitely taken a turn for the better to say the least.
 
You couldn't fight the exhaustion that was rapidly overtaking you, most likely a result from the strenuous activities you partook in earlier. Usually you weren't one to fall asleep easily, but you couldn't fight the desire to sleep when you felt so safe in Starscream's arms. So you let your mind fall blissfully blank, subconsciously focusing on the beating of your heart inside your chest. You were drifting into a peaceful slumber, but then;
 
"

Starlight

?"
 
Starscream asked in a gentle voice. You let out a questioning hum, not daring to open your eyes due to your exhaustion. You fought to stay alert and awake, waiting for whatever Starscream had to say. The seeker then spoke seconds later. "Thank you. Not just for tonight, but for

everything

you've done for me." You smiled sleepily yawning before replying in a tired tone. "Thank

you

. I love you… so much, Starscream."
 
You felt a warm digit brush a few strands of hair away from your face, and you couldn't help but smile happily. You felt loved and whole and

happy

, and you were barely awake enough to hear Starscream's reply of "I love you too, _____." And held tight in Starscream's warm embrace, you began to drift off into a deep sleep, which was beautiful and peaceful and sweet.