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Zanderia Dischloski was not your typical cat girl. She was not the type to cry” save me!” and go running towards someone more capable, but she was one thing. And that was religious amongst her healing and her doctorate. She had lost her family just a short time ago,and now through a whirlwind of events partially her fault to blame, she was pregnant. With not just one baby, but two. A true Mi’quote litter. The sheer prospect had been scary, and mind-boggling. HER?! A MOTHER? After just losing her own mother just three years ago. Her friends knew her situation,but most did not know about her past. The sheer thought of raising two children on her own terrified her. So, she did what she knew she could do in a desperate time of need. She traveled to the one place she found solace. The temple in which she served. A temple dedicated to Menphina- The lover.Zanderia wore that day her scrubs from her work. She had come to just relax, but the thoughts that plagued her won out her will to relax and just take in the peace and succor the temple readily provided in quiet solitude. Her sandaled feet carried her through the doors, and there at the altar that she prayed at often, she stood. Hands clasped in front of her as she began to pray, unsure of where to begin, and just letting her thoughts carry her prayers,”Menphina...Thank you for your many blessings. I know i should be blessed, and happy. And i will be i am sure...But right now...I am scared. Scared of what the future holds for us..” She looked up at the moon, her eyes glistening with the start of what she sure was many more tears to come as she started to speak again,” Will i be...who i need to be? Will I live up to my family's legacy? Will they like me? Will i be able to provide for them to the best of my ability? I barely have a roof over my head...What am i doing?" Her voice sounded anguished as she fell to her knees, her legs unable to hold her body upright anymore as her eyes went back to the moon,” I am not worthy… By any means, of the lives you have put with me. Why did you choose me to be their mother?” Her eyes finally left the moon as she looked down at the altar and sniffled a bit as if it would help clear her nose of everything that was to come. Her eyes hardened a little, even as her tears fell.” I won’t squander the chance you gave me. But, I do wonder why. A doctor who barely has her act together...Who is constantly busy with research and classes and field work.”Her voice raised a bit here, ”Which by the way THAT is over because I won’t risk their lives on the field!” She hugged her stomach then protectively for the first time as another tear ran down her cheek as she said softly then, “I just....i need help. Because i DON'T have it together....i know the medical side of it sure...but i don't have the knowledge.....not the street smart."It was here that her head touched the altar and her shoulders began to shake as she lost it to both her hormones and her fears.She felt a warm presence then as glowing arms gently hugged her body and rocked her against herself as a soft tender voice rung in her ears, “Zanderia. My child. Too much heartache you have endured since your family found their way to me. They are safe. They send their love. And, they are proud of you. I know you asked that question weeks ago. It is no different here. The circumstances my dear may not have been ideal, but I know you will love these two with your life. I will be beside you,watching you. Even if you do not see me. You have asked for help in a big way. That’s why I am here with you now. Go to one of the rooms...and rest. Give yourself over to the exhaustion I feel...you won’t have any dreams tonight. I will make sure of that. Truly get the rest you deserve. You have done well my child. Thank you for finally coming to me and giving everything on your mind.”She kissed Zanderias forehead and stood,and when she looked up at the woman she saw a sight she did not expect. A brief glimpse of her family with bright smiles on their faces. It gave her hope.”We love you Zanderia.” That was her mother.”Don’t forget us.” Was her father. She had two more tears run down her face as she watched them disappear”Thank you Menphina….they were who I needed to see.” Her hands shook as she managed to pick herself up,and walked into a room called Saint’s rest. Where she collapsed,and let sleep overcome her senses. The rest could wait.