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It's another day in a row that Shigaraki comes to my office with an unreadable expression on his face, sits on a chair and says nothing. We sit like that for a while in silence, each lost in his own thoughts until I break the silence. Usually I don't mind Shigaraki listening to what I say, it's nice to know that someone appreciates my views, but I have a feeling that these days are different from our usual routine. His eyes don't show that flash of excitement about the things I'm talking about, usually talking about meta abilities brings a smile to his lips. It's one of his favorite topics, after all. Everything changed after his brother death. Since then, every day he seems more distant, more cold. In the beginning, I gave him space to organize his thoughts and whatever people usually do after losing someone close to them. I don't understand it because I don't have such sentiments myself, death is inevitable. I know that Shigaraki usually doesn't have such sentiments himself, but the loss of his brother was something especially painful for him. Even if I find it weird considering that from the outside, they didn't seem to be close, but I know that it's not for me to judge, especially since I haven't had such a close relationship with anyone myself. I may not understand their relationship but I know what connects me with Shigaraki and what is hapenning right now is not what I want. I still don't know how to breake this new routine, but I know I have to do something before it gets to the point where something irreversible happens.So when Shigaraki came to my office and sat on the empty chair, I looked at his blank face and knew it was time to do something, now or never. However, for some unknown reason, I felt very nervous. It must have showed on my face how I was feeling because Shigaraki gave me a reassuring smile. A feeling of warmth spread throughout my body as I got up from the table in search of something different from our daily routine. Somewhere in a heap of forgotten things lay sparklers. I don't know how they ended up here, but they're just as good a distraction as anything else. Tensely, I turned back to him and showed him the sparklers in my hands. Surprise on his face was almost comical.- It is true that the new year has passed a long time ago but it would be a pity if they were wasted, don't you think? - I was the first to speak again and Shigaraki was silent but seemed more relaxed than before. I sat back in the chair, not a moment passed when I jumped in the chair suddenly plunged into darkness. I realized with affrighted that I hadn't turned on my computer or the lamp on my desk today. I don't have windows here because my office is in the basement so I couldn't see anything with the lights off. I'm not afraid of the dark, but the sudden darkness and the silence that accompanied it seemed unsettling to me. The sudden warm touch on my cold hand made me scream in horror. However, the hearty laugh that followed my scream calmed my nerves and I realized that it was Shigaraki who was trying to take the sparklers from me. I felt ashamed of myself. I wanted to stay in the dark longer to hide my embarrassment but Shigaraki lit sparklers for us and handed me for me.- Why did you do that? - I wanted to repeat my earlier explanation but Shigaraki dismissed it with a wave of his hand - You don't have to lie, I know you too well to know that you don't care about such trivial things. So what is it about?I smiled at his affirmative that he knew me well. In the light of the sparklers his face looks almost ethereal. - You seem upset lately, so I thought I would cheer you up Shigaraki - sama.Shigaraki laughed slightly. His laugh is the most beautiful sound I've ever heard.- I'm flattered that you're trying so hard to take care of my mood, but I'm fine. Don't worry about what you don't need doctor.I wanted to say that his well-being and good is what I care the most but when he looked into my eyes I couldn't say a word. The intense gaze of his golden eyes made me dizzy.- And if I remember correctly, we talked about my name. My name is no longer Shigaraki, I'm All For One.Shigaraki is a beautiful name, it's my friend's name after all. But All For One fits him too. This name is the embodiment of his dreams, ideas, who he is and who he supposed to be, after all, everything has to be for him.- I'm sorry - I whispered, my voice as quiet as fading sparklers. If All For One heard it, he didn't care.We sat in blissful silence, even when the sparklers burned out, we were not bother by darkness. I stared at All For One the whole time and my thoughts revolve around him. All For One was still sitting in his chair, absorbed in his thoughts not caring that I was staring at him. I like to think that All For One likes the way I'm devoted to him and how much I admire him.I didn't notice when the light was turned back on and All For One stood relaxed in the door way.- See you soon, doctor - All For One gave me a small smile before leaving.- See you later All For One - I replied in a similar tone.For some time I stared at the door behind which All For One had disappeared, still processing what had happened earlier. I feel happy. Thinking about how wonderful All For One is, I went back to work.