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Last day of summer, that's what this was: people rushing, and bustling doing fun things with their friends. Newt wanted to do something fun. He was trying to get a hold of his best friend alby. with one hand holding onto his phone and the other struggling to put pants on finally alby picked up the phone. "Jesus newt, this is like the 4th call. What's up?" Newt put his phone down, and clicked the speaker trying to find a shirt. "right, well I heard someones having a party tonight yeah and I wanna go, you wanna come with?" he heard a small chuckle from the other line. "you called me to ask about a party?'' Newt finally found a shirt that looked presentable for now and hummed "no I called you to tell you that there's a bloody party just to hang up and go without you." he sat down on his bed picking up his phone "okay, I get it. Ill go with you to make sure you don't die.” alby laughed from the other side of the phone and newt hums feeling a warm smile creep onto his face. Alby, he's an amazing friend and hes known newt since he moved to america. Hes honestly the most grateful and respecting people newt knows. Hes glad to call alby his best friend. “So” he dragged out the ‘O’ “ill see you then yeah?” you could hear rustling from the other side of the phone “yea im getting dressed now ill be over to pick you up in about 30 so actually find something nicer to wear other then some clothes you found on your floor.” newt just scoffed in surprise “how did you-” he was interrupted “30 minutes.” and the phone hung up. He sighed and laid down on his bed looking up at the ceiling then he didn't mind the thought of wearing something nice to the party Some time later, (hes not so sure how long) he's nicely dressed in a white turtleneck, and pitch black pants wearing a silver chain. Looking over his outfit a couple of times he just smiled at himself in his mirror fixing his hair so that it was decent enough. Almost as soon as he sat down he heard a knock at the front door so he just shoved his phone into his pocket and walked downstairs swinging open the front door to see Alby standing there, he smiled “wow, you look nice newt!” alby just threw his arm around his neck and Newt closed the door behind him. Both ready to have the best last summer party ever.
Almost as soon as they got to the party alby was drug off by some mate that recognized him, Frypan- great guy hes super cool and he sat with us a lot last year for lunch. Nevermind that Newt found himself immediately finding the drinks, grabbing those red solo cups downing the first drink he could get. **
A little after an hour or two has passed newt was really tipsy dancing with some girl who pulled him into the crowd, dancing made him happy, he felt free when he could just move and be in places like this. Leaving the girl with no warning he walked back to the drink table and grabbed some red mix brenda (another close friend) has made earlier. He drank a little of it tasting the bitterness of the alcohol mixed with the sweetness of the cherry red lemonade. As he walked towards somewhere in the room to get away from that table, someone shoved into him making him spill his red drink all over his nice white turtleneck. People around looked and ‘oo’ed over it just staring them down Now he was pissed. He looked at who was pushed into him seeing it was someone he wished he would have gotten to ignore for the entire summer. Of course it was him out of all fucking people newt thought to himself. Thomas greene. Clearly not thinking at all he just let the angry words roll off his tongue “you fucking PRICK!?” thomas scoffed “aouhh did I ruin your pretty outfit newton?” newt just let out a huff of anger “out of all the people to have done it of course it had to be you.” he just stared at him. Thomas rolled his eyes “ever think something could be an accident or do those things not exist in your self absorbed world?” Newt could slowly feel the soberness coming back “the only one here self absorbed is you thomas.” Thomas looked angry, like he was about to even punch newt. That is until someone pulled thomas by the arm “thomas just let it go alright?” he knew who it was, it was minho, he was super chill and would probably be the one in charge of this party. Thomas just nodded and crossed his arms walking away leaving newt looking down at his absolutely ruined shirt. He scoffed and walked back to the drink table needing something to take his mind off of the whole situation that just happened. Alby was mindlessly searching for newt, seeing really nothing but sweaty bodys pressed against each other and people making out, (heavily might he add) in corners and areas of the house that weren't so crowded. Some people were leaving and alby got the feeling that they should probably go as well. He was starting to get a little worried, still searching for his friend, basically pushing past people and occasionally asking some people if they have seen him. Finally walking up to sonya he just tapped her shoulder “hey have you seen newt anywhere? We should be going” she just smiled still drinking with her friend and nodded “yea I saw him in the hall earlier I think he with a girl” alby let out a sigh of relief and nodded thanking her and heading off to a hallway to see if he was still there. And so he was, in the halfway sitting on a couch with a girl, making out alby just pushed past a few more people and approaching newt. “Thank god I found you, we should go man” newt looked at alby and pulled away from the girl sighing, “mmmmm ookay..” he looked back at the girl who looked a little upset “sorry love, I should get going” the girl just kinda scoffed and got up. Newt just looked back at alby still tipsy and feeling sick to his stomach. Alby pulled him up and looked at his red stained shirt “the hell happened to you?” newt looked at his shirt and groaned “that prick thomas, he bumped into me and made me spill my drink all over myself.” alby just sighed but he nodded eventually leading a tipsy newt out of the house and putting him into his car. Newt had time to think, the thought and the taste of that girl still on his tongue. It didn't feel right but he felt like he had to do it to make others around him happy. The car ride was silent but peaceful. And when he got home that's when it kicked him in the ass he looked like he was gonna puke, mainly because he was going to puke. Luckily Alby threw his arm around his waist and brought him upstairs to the bathroom. There he let it all come out, throwing up everything from the alcohol that made him feel like shit, to the girls taste in his mouth. His body felt weak, and he felt disgusted in himself for touching, let alone kissing a girl. Alby was there the whole time sitting on newts bath tub. “God, I feel disgusting.” Newt had accidently said, sitting down and leaning his head on the wall. The drunk feeling was still there so he wouldn't really know what he was doing or saying. “Well you drank a lot newt so-” newt interrupted him “not not that.” alby looked confused “then why?” he asked, sounding genuine and caring like he always is. “That girl. The taste of her” alby chuckled a little “bad breath?” newt shook his head and brought his legs to his chest, his heart beating basically 100 times faster then it was before. “No not that either it was just..her the feeling of her kissing me the thought of her kissing me” he felt like he was gonna cry and alby sat next to him. “What? you like some other girl or something?” newt looked at him, feeling the concern and the sarcasm at the same time just coming off of albys expression. “No, girls in general.” albys face changed shape, his expression said it all. But then it calmed and newt felt his heart rate slow down to a normal speed. “You dont like girls?” alby said in a soft voice and newt just nodded. Alby didn't say anything, instead he just hugged him. Newt was a bit shocked but he hugged him back immediately understanding. “Thats okay to newt.” newt felt safe with him and that was all he could ask for right now. “Thank you alby” he said softly sighing with relief. “You should get to bed now, tomorrows the first day, and our last first day ever” newt sighed “senior year, here we come”
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(SWITCH POVS BETWEEN THOMAS AND NEWT)The sound of the birds outside, and the soft snores coming from newt was almost to nice, too comfortable. The sudden noise of someone knocking at his door he groaned. “A little more sleep…..” he felt himself say out of instinct. Hearing the door open and the covers being pulled all the way off of himself he pried his eyes open looking at the bright light coming from his windows. And glanced up at the culprit who rudely awoke him from his slumber. “First day newtie!!! Get UP your driving” he heard sonya say, already dressed with the look of joy or pride on her face, she was definitely excited for school. He groaned again and sat up looking at her. “Okay okay-” she smiled and walked out of his room. Leaving him there with his thoughts, and that's when it hit. He remembered everything from last night. He remembered the girl, and throwing up, and..coming out to alby. “Fuck-” he let his head rest in his hands. Alby was supportive no doubt about that, he said so himself- kinda but he knows he'd never really think of him differently. But that's not what scares him, its just the fact that something could happen and someone would find out. After sitting with his thoughts for what felt like forever, he got up and grabbed his outfit for today and walked to the bathroom to take a shower. After getting ready, and making sure he had everything he remembered today would be the last first day of school ever. No more late night studies with friends, and alby sleepovers, or getting drunk on a school night…well maybe not the last of that one but still! He smiled trying to forget about that, having to put on somewhat of a fake smile walking downstairs. He saw his mother sitting at the coffee table drinking a cup of coffee so he smiled and walked over hugging her and kissing her head. She smiled “good morning dear, how did you sleep?” he looked at her and sat down next to her letting out a small sigh. “To tell you the truth I didn't sleep very well, I went to a party last night and got pretty drunk, and found myself making out with a girl” his mom put her hands on his and rubbed them gently. “Its okay newt at least you didn't do anything to serious right?”he looked at her and nodded “but that's not the full story, Alby had brought me home and I sorta drunkenly accidentally came out to him.” she smiled but it faded “And?” he just looked at her “i'm scared someone else would find out.” she kissed his hand and held the side of his face “baby, as long as hes supportive and you know he probably is he wouldn't tell a soul, not without you knowing” he smiled a little feeling a bit at ease “you're right mum thank you.” she smiled and stood up hugging him “anytime dear, and please have a good first day back okay? Dont worry to much about it” he thought for a moment “do you think I should tell sonya? I mean she has a right to know?” she sighed and looked at him “only if your comfortable with it, you don't owe anyone any information.” he nodded and smiled “ill think about that” He loves his mum, shes sweet and caring and has always been there for him no matter what. Especially since his dad left them when he was younger.Smiling as she walked down the stairs sonya looked so excited, I mean it was her last year to so maybe she was just ready to get to be a senior. He laughed when she jumped down off the last step and looked at them “ready to go?” newt nodded and smiled walking over to her and started to talk about breakfast and what they should get.
Thomas walked into the school feeling happy to be here, knowing it was the last year that he'd have to see these halls, these teachers. Sure he was a little sad but he didn't want to think about that right now. He sees his best friend leaning against his locker talking to ben, he smiled at them, hes always known minho liked ben, he was just to pussy to say anything to him. But he could tell that ben liked him to. He walked up to them and dramatically bumped into minho “whoopsiesssss” he laughed as minho falls more towards his locker. “Not the first impression I woulda got from you shank-” he laughed and threw an arm around thomas. “Have fun last night?” Thomas thought and smiled but then it faded remembering newt.
“Yea up until that dickhead started shit with me.'' Minho sighed and looked at him “I don't really get why you hate him so much, hes a nice guy” Thomas scoffed. “Nice my ass, he's a player. Have you ever seen him with just one girl, ever?” Minho gave him a little look. “I mean no but-” Thomas just interrupted him “my point exactly.” he didn't like newt, at first he thought maybe just maybe he wasn't a bad guy. But something about him he didn't like, even if it pained him to know that his friends were friends with him and some of his friends. But he couldn't control that. Just as he was shaking off the thought of the blond boy, Minho looked somewhere and Thomas just followed his eyes curiously.
Of course, it was him walking through those doors. Latched to his sister talking. He scoffed “speak of the devil.” Minho just hit his side and walked over starting to talk to the guy. God he really did just hate him. Newt looked in his direction and gave him a smug look just looking back at minho. He wasn't about to let some guy ruin his day so he walked over and stood next to Minho, kinda forgetting Ben was even there in the first place. “Well if it isnt newton isaacs' ' newt looked at him and scoffed “and thomas greene.” he crossed his arms and looked at minho giving him a look basically asking to leave. Minho just looked between them. “You guys really gotta stop hating each other.” he looked at newt “your a great guy newt no matter what this shank says. But so is he, you are seriously misreading each other”
newt scoffed at that “ill believe that when greene here learns not to be a self centered prick” he said just eyeing the brunette, thomas rolled his eyes “and id believe that whenever isaac here decides not to be the biggest fuck boy at this school” newt just laughed “jealous? Do you want a kiss to thomas?” his accent heavy thomas made a face at the words. “Come onnnn it's the first day of school just relax ey?” Minho said and newt just patted his shoulder “Have a good day mate kay?” Minho just nodded and smiled looking at a pissed off Thomas as Newt walked away.
“God he's aggravating” minho just tilted his head “don't you think he's cute?” Thomas just looked at him like ‘are you seriously asking my that?’ but he thought for a second, sure he's kinda hot but that would just prove Minho right. Plus it's not like he'd EVER admit to thinking newt was cute let alone attractive. “Not my type” Minho glared and raised one of his eyebrows. “Sure man you say that about a lot of people, next thing you know you're in a janitor's closet making out with them” Thomas just shook his head. “Not him though.” the other just sighed and started walking to his class “whatever you wanna make yourself believe shank”
After class newt aimlessly searched for alby, hoping he could talk to him about last night. But he couldn't find him anywhere. Just as he was about to give up he felt someone attack him from behind. He was about to literally throw someone but just turned around to see it was who he was looking for in the first place, alby looked happy. He looked more happy than normal but that just brought a smile to his face. “You look really happy?” alby just smiled even more “I missed my best friend! And just because I got this girls number” newt raised an eyebrow and oo’d and alby raised his arms in the air as a celebration. Newt just looked down “I was wondering if we could talk about last night, ya know the whole thing in the bathroom?” alby put his arms down, and nodded “sure man whats wrong?” newt just rubbed his neck “I was drunk, and I didn't really mean to say what I said so soon, BUT its not like i'm taking back what I said I just wanted to know how you felt about it” albys smiled faded for a second feeling sorry about newt but just put his hands on his shoulder “dude, I really don't mind it. You're my best friend and what you like won't change a thing between us.” at that newts burden was forgotten. He felt better knowing he could truly trust alby “so your not gonna rat me out to anyone?” alby chuckled a little “id never do that! Ever.” Newt nodded and just swung his arm around his shoulder, starting to walk to lunch. “Good”
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(A LOT OF SWITCH POVs BETWEEN NEWT AND THOMAS)**time skipping a few monthOver these past three months thomas has been really fucking with newt, doing little things to piss him off. Just about everyday Thomas trips him or spills water on him. Newt has gotten so close to just punching him, alby has always stopped him and told him it wasn't worth doing. God newt really hates that guy.. He's just a prick, all of his friends tell him that hes a good guy if newt gave him a chance but why should he give someone who literally messes with him everyday for absurd reasons a chance at friendship, yea not happening.Hes sitting at lunch, oddly having a good time talking to alby and frypan eating at a lunch table being goofy. Frypan made an ick face at the food in front of him “God if they would let me in the kitchen I could make some real food.” he just pushed his tray away and newt laughed at that. “Agreed, your food is way better than what these people call…..food” fry nodded and just sighed looking around and spotted minho. “Ill be back later, I see minho and I wanna say hi” alby just nodded and patted frys back, newt looked over to where he was and saw minho. Talking to thomas. His smile fell and he looked back at alby as fry left the table running over to minho, newt looked back to alby. “What do you even see in that guy. Hes a horrible person” he held his head in his hands as alby laughed “you just don't wanna accept the fact that he might actually be a good person” newt rolled his eyes “he practically tortures me why would I give that a chance huh?” alby just sighed but thought for a second and grinned “maybe he likes you” newt almost choked on air and just looked at alby like he was crazy. “Are you NUTS? There is NO way that he'd ever like me EVER” alby just gave him a look “and you?” newt just glared “No i don't-” alby interrupted “buttt hes cute right?” newt just rolled his eyes “sure yea hes cute but still a bad person” alby just sighed “I'm sure you guys would be good friends” newt just scoffed standing up “when trolls fly” alby threw away his tray and wrapped an arm around him “sure when trolls fly”THOMAS POVHe was talking to minho during lunch about some sort of car or something when someone ran up to them, he looked over and saw that it was frypan, he smiled and looked at them two “hi guys! Hows it going?” he smiled back and did a dramatic sigh “I have calculus after this soooo not to great” minho laughed a little and looked at fry “were alright how are you fry?” fry put his hands on his hips and looked over to where newt and alby were sitting “well I just got back from newt and albys table, they were talking about how They think my cooking is better then this lunch” thomas just scoffed looking over at newts table seeing him smiling and talking to alby then newt made some sort of grossed out look and minho nudged him “whatcha lookin at…..orrr who ya lookin’ at shank?” he looked at minho and minho looked where he was looking at newt and alby, a smirk plastered all over his face “looking at your little boyfriend?” frypan shot a look and raised a brow “boyfriend thomas?” thomas elbowed minho and he dramatically gasped shoving him back, at that thomas just glarred “one, hes not my boyfriend and never will be. And two don't ever say that again” frypan looked at what they were talking about and he just looked confused “newt? Whats wrong with….newt? Hes cool” thomas just crossed his arms “how could you think that hes a complete dud, and just thinks about himself '' Fry just looked back at him “no? No he doesn't really just think about himself, hes sweet and friendly” minho patted frys shoulder “i've been telling him that for the longest, he just doesn't want to believe that.” thomas put his hands into his pockets “believe what you want to believe but he's just a bad person” fry laughed a little “god someone lock you two in a room for 72 hours and maybe you two could be friends by the end of it” minho laughed at that “or they would have killed each other within the first 30 minutes” fry laughed to and just looked at thomas who was just killing them with his eyes. “Im gonna go hang out with gally, screw you both” and with that he walked out of the cafeteria.(NEWTS POV AGAIN)Newt was forgetting about Thomas and just having a good time with alby walking with him in the hallway, he was happy that alby was a great friend and he could always cheer him up. But when we came to a stop because people were huddled around a locker and.. Wait thats where newts locker was. Alby looked ahead of people and froze. Newt was trying to get past everyone and alby tried to grab his arm “no don't-” newt didn't really hear him, so he pushed past everyone and walked up to the front of the crowed and felt his heart drop.He looked straight at HIS locker with big words on it. That read “Fuck boy slut” on it. He thought he was gonna cry but stopped that immediately, those feelings being replaced with anger. Feeling the anger run through his blood, he pushed past everyone, even alby who tried to stop him again, walking fast after him. “Newt. newt what are you doing? " Newt just kept walking “To find that bastard” alby kept following him “maybe it wasn't him maybe it was ""NO ALBY” he stopped and looked at him “IT WAS THOMAS. WHO THE FUCK ELSE WOULD SAY THAT” alby stepped back feeling the anger coming from him. His voice was shaky and mixed with two emotions. He looked at Newt's hands and they were shaking. Since alby didn't say anything he turned around and kept walking(THOMAS POV)He was chuckling with gally looking at a picture of newts locker. Thomas had done it but in all honesty he wasn't gonna do it at first but he just thought it would be funny. “Man hes gonna be pissed '' Thomas just scoffed and put his phone into his pocket “i'm sure he is, but he deserves it. I mean theres lines of girls who say they've had somewhat of a one night stand with him and he just blows them all off” gally just shrugged “he probably has his reasons” thomas just scoffed and looked at gally “your on his side now?” gally just put his hands in his pockets “I mean hes not that bad man but this. Oh this is funny” thomas smiled then heard the words “Newt, newt wait” and he turned to look at who was yelling that.(nobody's pov? Or both)newt walked right up to that prick and punched him straight in the face, thomas fell into a locker, gally backing up not wanting to get in the middle of this. Thomas held his jaw and punched him back, newt dogged it and straight up tackled him. He didn't care and he looked more then pissed. Thomas dodged a few of his punches, he punched him in the nose, and the eye landed a few blows to his whole face. Newt had gotten a lot more than Thomas, he definitely had a busted lip and a black eye. Newt was just punching him over and over and over again. Red was all he could see, and he could feel his knuckles splitting. He wasn't gonna let this one go. He climbed on top of Thomas and just started hitting his head against the floor.thomas was fighting back trying to get him off of him. Gally got scared and ran to go get a teacher, kids started to circle them and started oo’ing at all of their punches. Alby was getting held back by Minho. “Minho let me go.” Minho just shook his head. “Gallys getting a teacher, I saw what Thomas did and I cant say im happy about it but right now we just need to let this happen.. A teacher will handle this.” alby just watched and looked to see if he really did need to jump in and stop them. Newt was shaking and on the brink of tears. He could see the panic and anger mixed in his eyes. Luckily gally got back with a teacher, and the teacher pulled them apart getting hit in the process. “WHATS THE MEANING OF THIS.” newt was breathing heavily, whipping some blood from his nose. “That PRICK spray painted on my fucking locker.” thomas just glared and spat out some blood “yea and its the truth. The whole fuckin truth” before newt could jump out and just tackle him again another teacher came over and pulled them completely apart. “Were going to the office, CLEAR OUT AND GET TO CLASS NOW.” the teacher yelled at all the kids who were standing there. Alby was going to talk to him about this later, same with minho. Newt and Thomas were sitting in mrs. ava pages office, the principal of their school. She let out a long sigh and looked at the both of them “boys this is disappointing to see, your both really smart and fairly popular. And frankly I thought you were friends thomas spat out before newt could “were not friends.” newt just looked at him and scrunched his face up. She sat the files down on her table and took her glasses off “this cant happen again, i've contacted your parents. There should be an expulsion. That fight was violent and heavily against school rules. It could stop you two from graduating” they both sat up and at the same time “WHAT!?” Mrs.page put her finger in the air and stopped them mid breath. “But I have a solution and if it doesn't work, we will just move you two to different schools. But lets hope that doesn't have to happen.” they both sat back and just listen to her talk for a second(NEWTS POV)Newt zoned out as she was talking, her words were forming into one. There was only one thought. Those words on his locker, and the things Thomas had said, he really didn't want him to think that way of him because it wasn't true. He wasn't a player, he had reasoning and he wished he could just not be scared of it but he was. But it was when Mrs. Ava page said this next thing that brought him out of his thoughts. “The solution to this problem is that you two will be mandatory desk partners and project buddies for every class you share.” newt just snapped out of his thoughts and gave her a shocked, confused look. “Excuse me.” she put her hands in her lap and looked at him. “That or its expulsion Mr isaac.” he just sat back into his chair and scoffed, but then he thought about his mother and how she would look after finding this out. Being expelled was the last thing he needed. She spoke again, grabbing her papers again. “And you two will be going to detention at least 3 times a week and talking to the counselor every now and then, separate, and together to see how well you two are really getting along.” Newt rolled his eyes and looked over at thomas. He looked… scared. No mortified. He finally spoke “you said you called our parents..?” she nodded. And he sunk into his seat. That made newt curious but he didnt question it. He just stood up and looked at Mrs. page. “Are we done here or can I go back to class?” she just nodded and said they could leave. Thomas didn't get up right away but Newt got out of there as soon as he could. When he got out alby was waiting for him, pulling him somewhere to another space. “Dude- are you okay? What happened?” newt just whipped the dried blood from his lip off and looked at alby starting to explain himself. “Well we have to go to the counselor every now and then, after school detention, and we have to sit and be project partners for every class we are in together. I have 3 classes with that wanker.” alby just let out a sigh of relief and hugged him “that scared me, minho wouldn't let me pull you two apart.” newt hugged him back and just sighed “if you were to have jumped in I probably would have punched you too” he chuckled a little. “Just dont worry about me alright?” alby just nodded and saw minho doing what he did but he didn't look happy he looked disappointed starting to talk to thomas. “Look i'm probably just gonna go home, my mums gotta be worried bout me” alby nodded and patted his shoulder. “Fix up your face” newt smiled a little and said goodbye, heading towards the exit looking back at the words on his locker feeling this disgusted feeling at the pit of his stomach, this was gonna be on his mind for a while.(Thomas’ POV)As soon as he walked out into the hall minho was standing right there, he grabbed thomas’ shoulders and just looked at him. “Thomas, whats going on what was that fight about?” he barley spoke just shoving his hands into his hoodie pockets and looked at his disappointed best friend. “I wrote some stuff on newtons locker, but you gotta-” minho interrupted him “NO thomas. That's not a good explanation. I get you dont like the guy but openly calling him a ‘fuck boy slut’ could seriously do damage to someone.” thomas just sighed and nodded, not in the mood to fight off his best friends scolding “you dont ever have to like the guy but that was shitty, and you should apologize to him” thomas just looked at him and licked his lip glaring. “You know I don't fuck with that.” minho interrupted him again “did you ever think to talk to him and ask him about that issue instead of instantly hating him?” thomas just thought but he didn't say anything. “Get over this please and just stop messing with each other” thomas just looked away “well that's gonna be hard considering we will have to see more of each other, more often then you think” minho knitted his eyebrows in confusion “what?” thomas groaned and scoffed telling him what the principal told him.Minho just looked surprise and thomas drew his lips into a thin line. “At that point i was so close to choosing to just be expelled” at that minho nudged him. “And leave me here? You shank thats a terrible thought” thomas laughed a dry chuckle, mind still not in the right state right now. “The only way im going to forgive you is if you apologize to newt.” thomas groaned and leaned on the wall. “Really?” minho nodded, crossing his arms. “Yea, you could have done something seriously bad to the guy, the least you could do was explain yourself to him” thomas just let out a long sigh but nodded. “Okay okay fine.” minho smiled a little and hit his arm, sighing a little “Ill see you later? You should probably go home, you look a mess” Thomas' heart dropped at the thought of that. But he didn't let minho see that so he nodded and gave him a dry smile and started to leave the building.. He was NOT looking forward to going home.Thomas walked into his home, the rank smell of alcohol and sadness was all over his house. He looked at his dad who was sleeping on the couch with a whisky bottle in hand. He tried to walk past as quietly as possible. But when he heard a low groan like growl coming from him he froze. Fuck. he looked over to his dad now sitting up and setting the bottle on the table. “Thomas.” his voice was full with anger, and disgust. But he just stood up straight and looked at him “yea..?” his father glared at him, and scoffed. “Why did the school call me telling me you got into a fight. And were so close to getting EXPELLED.” the anger, and the sudden tone change made thomas flinch. But he just kept eye contact. “Some dickhead at school punched me first” his father stood up. And walked over to him. Stumbling a little and shoved his phone into his chest. “Pictures, of this boys locker with disgusting words written on them. Whys that?” he looked at the pictures and felt his throat close a bit. Panic rose inside of him. He handed his phone back and stumbled to answer “well-” his father stepped closer. “Well?” thomas stepped back “he deserv-” he got interrupted by a slap to his face. He winced and held his face. “That's pathetic thomas.” his father just grabbed his whisky and took a long drink. “Go to your room.” thomas walked away just as fast as he could.When he walked up to where his room was, he saw his door. He felt disgusted. It had the words “faggot, disappointment” sprayed on his door. His stomach turned at that as he walked into his room, hed walk over to his bed. Crashing on it and silently cried feeling disgusted to his stomach. God he heated it here.
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That follow day when Newt walked into his house, he took his shoes off and walked into the living room seeing that his mother was already sitting on the couch, she looked disappointed then saw his face and it immediately fell to worry. She stood up and walked over to him cupping his face. “Newton what happened at school today.” she looked terrified seeing the way his face looked. Newt let out a long sigh and grabbed his mothers hands, taking her over to the couch. “Well, someone wrote some..words, disturbing ones on my locker today. I let my anger get the best of me and I got into a fight with him” she just nodded, continuing to listen to him. “We are not suspended or expelled or anything, it's just we have to do certain things after, and during school occasionally.” she let out a small sigh of relief. “You're not normally like this, but it can't happen again.” he just looked at his mother, feeling her worry beaming off of her. He hugged her. “I wont, so please mum dont worry” they hugged for a moment longer before parting ways, as he was going up the stairs and knocking on Sonya's door.He knocks waiting a couple seconds before the door is being swung open, the sound of ‘we fell in love in october’ playing in the back on low in her room. She raised her eyebrows looking at him then asked him if he was okay, he just shook his head and invited himself into her room taking a seat on her bed, she closed her door and sat next to him turning off the music. And she looked at him and read what he was thinking. “Is this about what happened at school today?” her voice was quiet and soft, soothing as well. Before she could think or say another word he spilled. “I don't understand where the idea of me playing girls came from. I never thought I was playing girls. I don't play them. I don't do that, I don't even like girls Im Gay.” he blurted out in a rant, his voice getting shaky and uneven. He just came out to his sister, he glanced at her. Her face had a shocked expression all over it and he didn't know what that meant. She calmed and took a breath. Smiling and let out a small chuckle “took you long enough” he knitted his eyebrows at her and immediately calmed. “What do you mean by that?” She gave him a look. “Newt your my brother, you think I wouldn't know if you were straight or gay?” Newt felt heat rise to his neck in embarrassment. “So you knew?” she laughed aloud this time. “Yes joker I knew.” he laughed and smiled at her.After snacks and many secrets, Sonya took a breath and looked at Newt, her face just morphing into a smile. “I have something to tell you as well” newt smiled and looked at her, she was hesitant but there was nothing to worry about. She took a breath, her hands fidgeting. “Im lesbian, so when you came out to me I completely understood were you were coming from” newt was shocked but he just gave her a comfortable smile. “I'm glad you could tell me sonya” Newt kissed her head. “Have you told mom?” she looked down and shook her head. “I don't know if she will support me.” Newt chuckled, “mom- our mother? Not supportive?” sonya shoved him lightly, “I'm serious!” Newt shook his head and smiled, “She's supportive, trust me. She will never not love you for you” that made sonya smile. She laid back and turned back on her music, grabbing a blanket and looking at newt. “I will tell her eventually” newt nodded, understanding that she had to do this on her own time at her own speed. Newt laid next to her, having full intentions to crash in her room for the night.After the events of what happened last night newt was the least to say, in a very good mood today. He was walking through the hallway with Sonya, arms linked and sipping on coffee. They were very happy today and glad to have each other. When they stopped at newts locker someone was there waiting. Thomas, he looked like shit..even more then the usual. Newt's smile dropped thinking that his day was about to be ruined. But Thomas shoved his hands into his pockets and looked to the ground. “Hey man can we talk?” Newt knitted his eyebrows and turned to open his locker. “What do we have to talk about?” he couldn't think of any reasons as to why Thomas was wanting to talk.”I just feel bad, and thought you should know that I didn't mean what I said to you. Im sorry” newt couldn't help but laugh, closing his locker he glared at thomas. “If you think that now we have to sit next to each other and shit doesnt mean we're going to be friends. Your apology meant nothing to me” Thomas started to get a little pissed but he'd never let him know that, instead he gave him a thin smile and nodded. Newt grabbed his sister's arm and walked away.(thomas’ POV)Watching Newt walk away, he sighed. Turing to find minho. After finding him he laid his head on his best friend's locker looking a little upset. “Your little apology plan didn't work '' Minho chuckled and looked at him. “Did you think he was magically gonna forgive you-” Thomas interrupted. “I mean- no but he didn't have to be a dick about it- he just walked away with no thought to what I said at all '' Minho closed his locker and threw his backpack over his shoulder. “Did you actually mean it?” he glared for a second but he couldn't really hide the fact that he didn't sincerely mean it. “Not really no-” Minho interrupted him this time. “Then actually use that big head of yours and mean it next time ya shank, you have to at least try to be the guy's friend '' Thomas shoved him a little and groaned. “Do I Have to…..” the other nodded and started to walk away. “MEEANN IT” a few people looked at the boy as he walked but it didn’t last long. Thomas threw his backpack fully on and walked to his class.When Thomas got to his class he stood for a second and spotted Newt, knowing that he HAD to sit next to him, he walked over and threw his stuff to the ground and took a seat next to the blond. He turned to look at him but was met with eyes that quickly looked away. “..hi” he spat out, just trying to be civil. Newt hummed and looked at his lap, messing with his hands. “Um-” thomas started being interrupted “you don't have to talk to me thomas.'' Thomas was trying his hardest to be kind to him, but he was just making it so damn difficult. He let out a dry laugh and looked back at the front of the class “right.”(Newts pov)Throughout the class Thomas glanced at him and he glanced back, but for the majority of the class they've ignored each other. He didn't know if the sudden apology and somewhat niceness was a joke or just pity but he didn't like it. Everytime he accidently found himself glancing at the other, he felt embarrassed that he had caught him almost every time. He shook the thoughts off and continued to listen to the teacher's lesson.Class was almost over and he was so ready to bolt out of here and never look back. But the teacher just smiled and looked over the class. “And for our final part of this lesson, Is that you will be doing a project on this subject. Two page essay, and a visual of your choosing” newt groned silently. And the teacher continued. “Choose someone to do this project with.” she shot the two a look, like she knew and nodded at them. Newt turned to look at Thomas rolling his eyes at the teacher. “Well looks like we have to be partners then hm.” The remark came off as snarky and annoyed. Thomas looked at him and sighed. “I guess we do.”After a bit of bickering and talking, they agreed that they would do their project at Newts house. He didn't want to have Thomas at his house, in his room, with nobody else there. Good god that sounded dirty but he didnt wanna think about that.After school had finally gotten out, Newt was walking to his car. Sonya went to Brenda's house so he had no worries about her. He was thinking about going home and sleeping suddenly remembering that he had to work on a project with Thomas today…at his house… he huffed and sat on the hood of his car, waiting for a brunette to walk out of the school so he could tell him to follow him in his car. After about 5 minutes of waiting, Thomas emerged from the school with minho. Thomas looked his way, told Minho something and waved him off. He approached Newt and crossed his arms. “Are you gonna follow me home or-” Thomas stumbled a little and pulled his phone out. “Yea uhm just give me your number, send me the address I can meet you there” newt licked his lip slightly huffing again, and grabbed thomas’ phone entering his number into it and handed it back to him, pulling his own phone out and handing it to thomas so he could put his number into it. After exchanging each other's number he climbed into his car and started it up heading home.It's been about 2 hours of them working silently on the project sitting on the floor, writing what they have to write and getting whatever they need to be done today done with already. They were both starting to get fed up with each other, breaking out into small bickering and glances. Thomas stood up and started to pace around back and forth. He was stressing out, doubting that they would get a good grade on this. Newt looked up at him and tilted his head. Those whisky brown eyes looked freaked and he couldn't help but sigh. “Thomas, just sit down and help me with this will you?” biting on his nails, thomas looked at newt and saw the tired look in his eyes. He reluctantly agreed and as he was walking over he tripped over the stack of books that were on the floor, falling right on top of newt, his legs wedged in between the others. Suddenly newts door opened “hey newt I got you-” it was sonya. Fuck. he pushed thomas off of him and stood up walking out, forgetting to close the door and heading down the hall a bit to talk to sonya.Sonya was shocked. “Well if you were gonna have a guy over, let alone that guy over you should have told me-” he interrupted her. “No no sonya you have it mixed up, that wasn't what it looked like at all.” she huffed and raised her eyebrow. “Are you sure? Because that looked intense- I mean can't blame you he's cute if I didn't like girls id-” he covered her mouth. “No sonya it wasnt that at all he tripped and fell on me, that's it.” she just patted his shoulder.Thomas stood up and grabbed his things feeling the embarrassed heat rise to his cheeks. He was about to walk out when he accidentally overheard the conversation between the siblings.Newt just sighed and sonya smiled “Why not go for it huh? I mean he's cute and he's Bi. put your differences aside for once and get to really know each other” newt shushed her and groaned, running a stressed hand through his hair. “Just because im gay and he's Bi doesn't mean I want to shag him” she laughed “woah shagging?” he dismissed her “seriously sonya” she shrugged and put her hands up in defense “you said it not me” he huffed and looked over to see the boy who was standing in the middle of the hall. Had he heard that? Shit. Thomas just excused himself and left without another word. Newt started to feel his throat clog up. He looked at sonya. “Did he hear that? Please tell me he didn't hear that.” he took a step back and held the back of his neck with both hands looking down. “I think I just accidentally outed myself to him.” sonya felt the panic beaming off of him. She tried to calm him and tell him not to think much about it but he shoos her off and walks into his room with the slam of his door.Did he actually hear that? He couldn't have. Fuck- he was starting to panic and it wasnt looking very well. . the walls around him closing in, his vision getting blurry, his mind running of thoughts and panicked worries. He should tell him that he heard it wrong. That he didn't hear that conversation. That he couldn't tell a soul. He tried to grab his phone but failed and he tried to grab it mid air. But he failed backing up to his door. He hadn't had a panic attack in years. He slid down the door and started to feel his heartbeat in his chest, and his throat. He couldn't move. He couldn't see. He was trying not to cry. The thoughts in his mind were driving him crazy.When he managed to calm down he felt paralyzed to everything except his mind. Still on the floor, eyes puffy and red. . he just held himself close to his chest, sleep catching up to him as he passed out on the floor. Today was supposed to be good and it turned out like a bloody shit storm. Hopefully Thomas wouldn't say anything to anyone..
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(both thomas and newts pov)Last night was rough, newt spent the whole night sleeping on the floor cooped up against a door. Thinking about everything that has yet to happen. The way people would look at him if they knew he was gay the way that rumors about him would spread, the way people would hate him, the way people would be disgusted in him. He didn't want that. His brain was running with these thoughts. Walking closer to the doors of the school he felt his stomach drop, he began to feel uneasy and his head started to feel hazy.Walking into the school feeling the pit in his stomach not going away. The walls started to close in again, suddenly he felt the pit rise to his throat. People were looking at him weird, booking it to the nearest bathroom, noticing it was completely empty, not a soul in sight. He ran into a stall feeling the nerves rise even more. He fell to his knees, hurled over the toilet and vomited up last night's dinner.As the pit in his stomach grew, he felt as if his head was going to explode. As he continued vomiting, the feeling of his stomach becoming empty caused him to start dry heating. All the thoughts that were running through his mind at 100 miles and hour. After what felt like forever of throwing up almost nothing he suddenly heard the door being opened and immediately closed and locked. He was sitting against the wall not sure who it was. “Newt?” the familiar raspy voice said in a low tone walking closer to the stall door. His heart beating faster by the second as the stall door was being pushed open, looking up at a mortified thomas. The brunette looked down at Newt like he was some orphan on the streets. Crouching down to his level, and examining the boy carefully. Newt couldn't hold in his feelings anymore, suddenly bursting out into a loud sob. He brought his knees up to his chest laying his head in between them. Thomas stalks closer to the crying boy on the bathroom floor “..Are you ok?” newt didn't answer him feeling his heartbeat getting louder by the second.Thomas didn't know what to do in a moment like this, it was scary seeing someone hes had a different perspective on for years. Sobbing on the bathroom floor. After what felt like years of newt just crying he eventually tired himself out and just sat there. Thomas looked at him and reached out to help him up off of the floor, Newt reluctantly grabbed his hand and pulled himself up knowing that he had to get through the day. Newt leaned against the wall and let out a deep sigh looking at thomas. “What was that about man?” Thomas asked, crossing his arms glaring at the tired blond. “Wouldn't you like to know.” Newt walked past him and laid his hands on the sink. Thomas looked at him with all seriousness on his face “is this about what happened at your house?” Newt looked at him through the mirror, the quick panic look in his eye said it all. Thomas looked at the ground “if you think i'd tell someone I wouldn't” newt stood up straight, looking his way entirely. “You cant tell anyone thomas, seriously.” his eyes were flickering back and forth. Thomas set his arms down to his sides. “Newt if you think i'd tell someone something like that just to piss you off your wrong'' newts eyes still flickering looking for the slightest hint of a lie, not trusting thomas at all “if I find out you have told ANYONE and I mean anyone, ill beat your ass again. At that, Newt walked out of the bathroom.Thomas just stood there, speechless. Trying to re think again on everything hes ever said to newt, to the things hes thought, and to judge someone by how they ‘act’ instead of getting to know them first. He felt grossed out at himself for ever assuming anything about him. Maybe minho was right to tell him to talk and get to know him before hating him for no reason.He walked out of the bathroom and saw minho, heading straight towards him. Minho gave him a confused look, glancing at the blond boy who was already at the other end of the hall. “What was that about?” thomas shook his head. “Something about that stupid project we have to do.” minho didn't believe him but reluctantly nodded and drew his lips into a thin line. “Okay, sure” Thomas wished he could tell minho but him out of anyone would know what saying anything could do to newt.Sitting in class, newt walked over to where alby was, it was a little before class would start, so talking to him for a second wouldn't hurt right? He took a seat quickly by alby and turned to him, alby looked at him and saw how he looked. The feeling of concern was his first thought, and question but newt waved him off. Instead he told him about what had happened yesterday at his house, Thomas had heard him talking about being gay. But said he wouldn't tell anyone. “I don't believe him alby.” alby thought, taking a breath for a second. “Look, Thomas wouldn't do that. Its not like him at all, believe me man he's not gonna tell anyone about you. Have faith in the guy” newt just hesitated, the bell rang meaning he had to go sit next to thomas.Throughout the class Thomas found himself glancing at Newt, he saw the way he nervously bounced his leg, keeping a fair distance from him. He wanted to ask him questions but he couldn't work up the nerve to try. Sitting there was long and awkward, and once the teacher stopped talking so that people could work on their work Thomas looked at him. “About the uhm- project.” Newt got tense but looked at him, raising his eyebrow. “Do you still wanna work on it after school or-” Newt looked back at his lap, thinking for a moment and nodded. “Not at my house though, my mums having company over” thomas tapped his finger on the desk thinking, there was no way that he was going to have newt come over and look at what he has to live in. “were doing renovations.. And my dad dosnt want anyone over” thomas had to lie through his teeth. Newt just nodded and looked around thinking to himself. Sparking up an idea he looked at the brunette who was watching him closely. “The library?” thomas gave him a small smile and nodded looking back at the work on his desk. Newt laid his hands in his hands and huffed already dreading having to stay after school.The tired feeling rushing to his face as he walked down the now empty halls of the school, making his way to the library with his project notebooks and laptop in hand. he yawned thriving for sleep as soon as he gets home. The cold vicious feeling of the air as soon as he walked into the library was soothing as the stress started to wash away but not entirely. Though the feeling of relief was ruined by a boy who was sitting just a few tables down listening to something over his earbuds typing away on his own computer. Newt sighed and slowly walked over to the table taking a seat next to the brunette who was brought away from his focus and looked at him for a moment before putting his clammy nervous hands into his lap.Thomas wanted to start a real conversation with him, maybe get to actually know the blond boy who looked exhausted. He opened his mouth to ajar but closed it after newt looked and spoke before he could get a chance. “How much of this do we have to do?” thomas cleared his throat he didnt even realize was dry until now. “Just a little bit of research and we can put together a presentation for today” newt nodded and opened his laptop, grabbing his notebook and started to jot down things in it. Thomas glanced at it, in awe of the silly little doodles on the sides of them with words and cute little hearts, having a feeling that it was sonya who left them, smiling he cleared his throat again and they began to get to work.After what seemed like forever their somewhat awkward and yet peaceful silence was ruined by the sound of someone standing over them. The smell of roses, and cherry lipgloss wafting over to the pair, newt glanced up at the girl, recognizing her from that party he went to before school started. Also realizing it was the girl he found himself sucking face with drunk in the hallway. Newt smiled at her but it wasnt really a genuine smile, it was some sort of fake smile that was there for show. “Hello there beautiful! I remember you” newt spoke, accent heavy, eyes flickering between the girls eyes and her hands which were placed at her sides. Thomas didnt want to have to listen to this after knowing all of this was fake, but its not like he could do much about the situation. The girl had a huge smile on her face and looked down. “Hi- um Well i was wondering if you'd like to go on a date with me..since we haven't gotten to know each other too well last time we were together” newt gave her a small nod and another flash of a smile. “Sure! Whats to loose, you seem like a lovely girl” she bit her lip and smiled grabbing a piece of paper, her number was wrote on it in a purple marker with a smiley face on it, handing it to the blond. He took it, kissed it and put it in his pocket. Moments like these is what made thomas think he was nothing but a dirty player, pushing those feelings away he continued to do the work. “Great!! Give me a call and we can make plans this weekend” newt gave her a simple nod, with that she walked away.Thomas glared for a moment after the girl was long gone. “Its fake, why would you do that to her. she looks like she really does like you.” newt shot him a look back. “Its a date, not like were getting married or we are gonna fuck” thomas’ face grimiced at that but he again pushed those feelings away not wanting to get in the middle of newts personal life.After another half hour of studying newt closed his computer, leaning back into his chair and stretching. Newts shirt came up in the slightest and thomas found himself looking. He wanted to look away but the sight of the blonds waist, pale and untouched by the sun. thomas looked away eventually. He closed his computer as well, packing up to leave. After the two gathered there things newt stood, starting to walk away. “See you- later” thomas let slip out of his mouth. Newt glared and gave him a thin smile and nodded. “Mhm” with that newt walked out, leaving thomas alone in the chilly yet satisfying library. Why did he look at his waist, why did he want to look at it. Hes gonna be thinking about that for a while.
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The weekend gets here a little too quick for newts liking, he's not really sure this girl's intentions but he knew one thing, he wasn't going to let her believe he liked her like that. He's going to be nice and sincere about this. Changing into something casual, sweats and a fitted maroon shirt, he leaves the house telling his mum he's gonna hang out with a friend. Getting into his car he stops by a flower shop thinking that they would be nice for the girl, he picks up some simple roses and drives to the girls house to pick her up. He anxiously waited in his car, tapping his nervous finger on the wheel. He was praying that she didn't want to ask him on another date but he wouldn't want to disappoint her.She walks out the house wearing a white tank top,a jacket thrown over it, and baggy khakis. It fit her dark skin so well, that made him smile. She got into the passenger side of the car and looked at him, her face was happy and excited to see him, seeing the roses and picking them up. “Oh my god are these for me?” Newt's smile grew and he nodded. “Thought you might like them” she smelled them and sighed in a loving way. “I don't think- you ever got my name, im harriet!” newt tilted his head at the name, it fit her perfectly. She did seem like a lovely girl and he wishes they could be friends instead of him having to go out with the sweet girl. “Newt” he answered and she gave him a small joking glare. They both laughed and he started the car, heading to the first place for the night.Walking into a small diner that newt personally loved to be at he breathed in the fresh smell of pie, it made him happy, he glanced at Harriet who was already heading to a table, he followed sitting down on the other side. They had a small chit chat, and harriet grabbed his hand, this is where he started to get awkward..–Listening to his best friend yap about how he keeps losing at this stupid game he got a few weeks ago, the bell to the diner rang, out of boredom he glanced up and ‘shit. Why was Newt walking in with that girl- why what. Good god’ was all that was running through his mind. He felt himself sink into his seat, knowing that this was an act that Newt was putting on made him feel sick to his stomach. He brought his attention back to Minho and he just kept talking about that game. After a while he found himself glancing at Newt from time to time. He saw the way Newt's leg was bouncing and he kept moving his hand away from the girl. Minho finally takes notice, raising a curious brow and turning to see newt. He looked back at Thomas and wiggled his eyebrows at him. “Staring at your boyfriend again are we?” thomas kicks his leg and spits out a ‘fuck you’ but more in a joking manor. Minho rolled his eyes and stuck his tongue out. A thought popped into the boy's mind as he stood up. Thomas sat up as he was getting up. “What are you doing” minho turned to look at him as he walked backwards “i'm gonna go talk to my friend you shank” he had a shit eating grin on his face as he approached the table.–Newt looked up to see Minho, feeling somewhat relieved that he randomly popped out of nowhere. “Minho?” he said curiously. Minho smiled and laid his hands on the table. “Newt!! And who's this lovely girl you got here?” Minho glances at Harriet who's smiling and laying her hands in her lap. “Im harriet!” the dark skinned girl spoke while practically radiating pure joy. “Nice to meet you, im minho” newt smiles seeing his friend, though the curious reason why he's here alone is eating at him. “Are you here on a date or are you alone?” Minho scoffs. “If you wanna call dragging thomas out of his room to eat dinner with me as a date then sure” he glanced at thomas. And Newt followed the boy's eyes, seeing Thomas sitting, basically sunken into his seat, face red as a tomato. Minho smiled at him, Newt waved and when he did Thomas gave him a somewhat awkward wave back. Minho turned back to the blond and his date, smiling. “It was nice seeing you, we should definitely hang out sometime dude!” Newt smiled up at him and nodded. “For sure mate” with that minho looked at harriet and smiled at her before making his way back to thomas who punched his arm as soon as he got back there, newt laughed at that and shook his head, turning his attention back to harriet.–When Minho walked back to the table smiling all dorky with a smug attitude, Thomas punched his shoulder, scolding the man with words that he probably shouldn't use in such a public place. His face was heated, both in embarrassment and something else he couldn't quite put his finger on but he pushed it away. After a few loud laughs from Minho he looked at Thomas “watching you get all giddy brings me a different type of joy” sitting back into his seat smiling, very happy with what he's caused. Thomas rolled his eyes and scoffed at him, falling back into soft conversation about any and everything.Though Thomas was peaking slight glances at Newt he noticed he's stopped bouncing his leg and that he's stopped being so awkward, maybe they were getting along? Bringing his attention back to his and Minho's conversation, focusing on that and only that. After small chats he glanced at the table to see that they were gone, he felt a tense that he didn't know was there get less tense, slight disappointment on his face, looking down at his lap and checking the time. ‘7:00 already?’ he thought, looking back at minho who was getting the check for their dinner. He paid his half and stood up with minho, leading him out of the small diner.–Newt proceeded to spend the next few hours, driving Harriet to lovely places, things to see, things to do. He learned that she loved dogs and loved her friends dearly, promising newt that he could meet her friends teresa, and Brenda one day. He smiled at the thought of having more girlfriends..space between words girl and friends obviously, he liked hanging out with girls, they were more understanding than most guys. He also learned that Harriet loved flowers, and the smell of vanilla. She could talk all night but he didn't mind, she was a lovely person, full of pure joy and innocence.Towards the end of their time together she held his hand, though newt didn't like her in any way like that he smiled at their intertwined fingers feelings different type of joy, she was a really cool person, remembering that he had to come clean tonight and tell her that he didn't like her like that. Part of him didn't want to lose such a precious person like this, but the other half was thinking about thomas’ words, sticking like stone that he had to tell her eventually and could not lead her on into something he didn't want.In his car, the silence was nice and soft, calming. Music barely playing in the background of the quiet car ride. Stopping at her house she sighed and grabbed her flowers he previously bought. She looked at him with a saddened look on her face, and her eyes…if they could talk they'd be saying ‘i wish i didn't have to go’. But she just looked at him, she was thinking, something in her posture and the way she was looking at newt. Suddenly she leaned in and kissed him, immediately he rejected it and pulled back, letting out a small sigh. “Harriet I can't-'' she felt guilt rumble around in her stomach and she backed away, sorrow in her eyes. “shit im so- sorry was that too fast i'm so-” she got interrupted by newt putting a calming hand on her knee, shaking his head trying to reassure her that; that wasn't it at all. “No no, that's not it harriet '' he felt a lump in his throat, she tilted her head in slight confusion. His eyes flickering between her posture and her face. “Harriet i cant because im gay, I didn't want to reject you, and I didnt want to lead you on either. I'm really sorry. Your a lovely girl and I meant that, I meant all the nice things i've ever said about you but I can't, I'm not attracted to women. If I were you would be my first option of amazing people to date "Harriet felt her arms relax and her face softened as newt removed his hand from her knee. She continued to look at him and she just smiled and nodded. “Thank you for telling me the truth, that's the sweetest thing you could have ever done newt seriously”Newt physically relieved himself, giving her a soft smile back. “Thank you for understanding..and the right man-” Harriet interrupted this time “or, women" she smiled and he chuckled. “Or women will find their way to you. You deserve happiness” she pulled him into a tight embrace, an understanding one at that. He knew immediately he could trust the girl with anything. When she pulled back her smile was still plastered on her face, the one he's grown to like over the past few hours. “Friends?” she spoke softly. “Bestest of friends” he returned the sentence to her. She nodded again and got out of the car, with her roses in hand. “Thank you newt. I had a lot of fun tonight.” She was giddy as she closed the door to the car and walked toward the door. Newt stayed out till she was safely inside her home.His smile stayed on, he's glad she understood, he's excited to have a new friend as well.Needing to process all of this he didnt go home just yet, driving in a quiet all alone, he spots a park and decides he could use the fresh air, parking his car he sits there for a moment before getting out of his car and taking it in, the breeze of the chilly october air, the feel of the crunchy leaves under his tired feet. He loved it, it was quiet outside and he couldn't ask for anything more. Coming close to a park bench he glances at the time. It wasn't too late, just around 9:40, taking that seat on the lonely park bench he sat there for a while, thinking over the events of tonight. Smiling at the thought of harriet being so supportive, he was very grateful for her even if he barley knew her for more then a few hours.Sitting there for a little while longer he feels at peace right now, something he hasn't felt in a while. The sound of soft music comes to mind..confusion gets to him and he looks around. Down the path was someone jogging…the brown hair looked familiar. It was thomas, great his peaceful moment being ruined by a halt of the brunette right in front of him, turning to look at the blond boy he raised his eyebrow in pure curiosity. “Newt? What are you doing here?” newt let out a dry chuckle, crossing one of his legs, sitting back in his spot on the bench. “I could ask you the same thing thomas” thomas looked down and crossed his arms. “What you did today was wrong, you know, making that girl believe she had a chance with you, making her think she could be with you?” Newt scoffed and looked at the frustration on the boy's face. He could tell he was feeling something, he looked a little closer realizing it was a jealous look. Trying to push the feeling of that being the issue away he plastered a grin on his face, now wanting to know if he was jealous. “Jealous i got to go on a date with a pretty girl, or that pretty girl got to go on a date with me?”Thomas scoffed and licked the inside of his mouth, running his tongue on his gums, now looking newt straight in the eyes. “I'm not jealous of anything” newt laughed at that, finding amusement in seeing how thomas was acting now. “Sure mate” they looked at each other for what felt like years to Thomas.newt finally gave out a small sigh. “I told her, Thomas, no need to lose your shit alright?” He let out a huff of relief and joined the blond on the bench. He had a small smile tugging on his lips, turning to face the blond. “Thank you” , Newt nodded and placed his hands in his lap. When Newt looked back at the other he saw Thomas had relaxed and laid his head on the back of the bench. Newt felt like he couldn't look away, keeping a close, steady eye on the brunette he took in features he had never taken in before. Taking in the small things about him. His little freckles on his neck, how he had small beauty marks placed in perfect places on his face, neck and collar bone. How fluffy and soft his brown hair looked, chest breathing steady, his heart skipped a beat when Thomas looked at him with his whiskey colored eyes. He pushed the feeling down to the pit of his gut, and he stood up. “I should probably get home.” before Thomas could even get in a word, Newt was already halfway back to his car.Thomas wondered what had gotten into him but he brushed it off, checking the time, and standing up as well, deciding he should go home to, even if that was the last place he wanted to be. When Newt got into his car, the bubbly gut feeling was still at the pit of his stomach, he turned the music all the way up wanting to forget about ever even thinking about looking at Thomas that way. So he did, blocking the memory, flushing it out with the peaceful bliss of music, driving the long way home.
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(ANOTHER TIME SKIP IM SORRY its like a month later)The last month hasn't been very eventful, though some minor things have happened. For example, he's made more friends with both thomas’ and Harriet's friends, they were nice, he's met brenda, and teresa as promised and he's gotten closer to minho,ben, and gally. they were actually really nice people. He's learned that they've all known eachother but didn't really hang out as one big group, he enjoyed seeing everyone around him even if that means having to include thomas. He's had to go to those stupid counseling things with the brunette tho every few months, that he didn't like. It felt like they were invading his privacy, and barging into his life. Overall he's gotten to see that thomas wasn't all too bad, he was a bit grumpy sometimes, but he was quiet when hanging out with everyone, a few glances are shared and a few simple hello’s were shared between the two, not having a real genuine conversation since that night on the bench at the park. Or when they last finished up their project.He takes notice how a few of his friends have gotten closer and closer, noticing how thomas and teresa might have something going on, they flirt sometimes and are constantly touching one another, not in any sexual way but they were really touchy- he’s never chosen to comment on it though, seeing as hes also taken a big notice in sonya and harriet, they became inseparable since newt first brought her over to hangout last month, he noticed the small things about them, the way they looked at each other. It was sweet and full of pure joy. The sight always made him smile.Alby and him have been catching up lately, seeing that they havnt been as close as they were last year, they both made many new shared friends and felt happy with them. They have bonded and now there all practically family, even if he didnt consider thomas to much of a friend as everyone else. Still feeling weird about him, and he has no idea why.Today he was sitting at the lunch table seeing harriet and sonya bickering about some small thing, he smiled at the two taking a seat next to Alby. “They act like a married couple, incredibly cute to” his smile grew bigger at his own words, Alby glancing at the pair who got over their little moment and were talking about something else, sitting incredibly close. Newt sees a light flicker in Albys eyes looking back to newt. We need to get them together.. Look at them!!” Alby smiled and was facing Newt, grinning and wiggling his brows. “We should all hang out at your house this weekend, and make them realize they definitely like each other.” Newt tilted his head at the idea, all of them, in his house, for a little get together. He hummed at the idea, resting his head in his hands. “Doesn't sound half bad of an idea, ill invite everyone” Alby glared at him, a smirk plastered all over his face “even thomas?” newt saw gally glance at them and he kicked Alby “I barley know the bloody man what makes you think i'd invite him over?” Alby huffed “get over the whole ‘I hate thomas’ thing, you know hes not a bad guy, so why keep up this insufferable act of hating him” newt glared and started to pick at his nails, biting the inside of his mouth. “Because he dosnt seem very fond of me either, why should I try-” getting interrupted by Alby shushing him “oh please, he wants to be friends, stop being stubborn Newt”Newt huffed and rolled his eyes “fine fine everyone can come, even thomas.” as he said that thomas sat down at the table “did someone say thomas, thats me!” the brunette had this dopey smile on his face looking at newt. “Well” newt turned to look at the whole table. Gally banging his hand on it to gather everyone's attention. The table went silent, they all looked at gally, then looked at newt. “I'm thinking of having a small hangout at my house this weekend, if you guys are okay, and free friday? Brenda stood up “HELL YEA!!” she shouted, seeming far too excited for his liking, he didn't mind though, it brought a soft smile to his face, the others agreeing after she did. “I do have to go shopping though…….” he looked around the table, eyes landing on Teresa “teresa? Would you like to come with me? You're more responsible than anyone here so I trust you most with the shopping list” that earned a proud smile from the raven haired girl and a look from minho. “WOW NEWT. you trust her more than me? I thought we were best friends, you shank.” Newt stuck his tongue out at Minho, earning a punch to the arm by the boy.After lunch he saw everyone going their separate ways, seeing teresa linked arms with thomas and smiling at him. Hes always assumed that they were either talking, or going out. But whatever was going on between the pair, it was none of his concern. Though it did make something in his stomach turn in disappointment, seeing them so close. Brushing the feeling off he decided that he should get to class before being late.—Gathering the necessities for the hang out, they participated in small chats of nothingness. It wasn't weird or anything, comforting at most. Teresa was grabbing snacks, drinks and other things that she thought would be fitting for the get together, they roamed down aisle after aisle when she glanced at some cookies that were placed on the shelf, she reached over and grabbed them, smiling. “Thomas loves these cookies.” Newt looked at the box in her hands and smiled, seeing the way her eyes lit up, his mouth speaking before he could think. “So you like Thomas huh?” Teresa shot her eyes from the box to meet newts. She laughed at that, seeing the somewhat grossed out look on her face as she shook her head at a fast pace, putting the cookies back on the shelf.She looked at newt again and raised her brow. “What makes you think I like thomas?” he shrugged, and looked back down at his feet, feeling embarrassed for saying that. “I see the way you look at eachother, and you two would be cute” his voice was small for some reason, that feeling of disappointment bubbling around in his stomach again. Teresa took notice, though she didn't mention it at all. “No no- thomas is more like a brother to me, I love him, yes but no, not like that…we've been friends since we were little.” newt looked back up to her and hummed. “Besides, me and minho definitely think he likes someone, so It wouldn't even be considered that he liked me” the feeling of disappointment, still swirling around in his stomach. He pushed it away and looked anywhere but her eyes. “Oh” was all he could get out.After a bit of more strolling around trying to find things for the hangout, teresa turns to look at him. “So, newt” she carried out the ‘O’ and smiled “do you like anyone, girls……guys?” newt, who was pushing the kart came to a halt. The word ‘guys’ coming on by a shock, he looked at her, feeling a lump in his throat. She gave him a knowing look, seeing right through the look he was trying to mask. “Don't worry newt, nobody told me, I figured it out myself, I mean its as clear as day, if your not stupid.” she walked up to him, Newt just looking down at the girl. “No, not any girls….at all, and um- no guys either” Teresa looked disappointed for a moment but masked it quickly. She nodded and linked her arm with Newt, just as she was doing with Thomas just earlier. He wanted to pull away, not the biggest fan of affection, but he didn't. Feeling happy with Teresa at the moment. Still a little surprised that she could look at him like he was glass, and easy to see through. Hopefully it was just her though. “Newt, there is nothing you need to worry about. Half of our friends are apart of the LGBTQ comunity. They would be thrilled you told them” she laid her head on his shoulder. Thinking over her words, he takes them to heart. She wasn't wrong, half of their friends were lgbtq, in some way or another. They wouldn't judge him.It's been a long day. As soon as he got home and put the stuff away for friday he walked up to his room and glanced at sonya's open door, seeing her and Harriet chatting and looking at Harriet's phone, the thought made him smile. As soon as he got into his room he tackled his bed and got comfortable quickly, drifting off into a sleep. The words Teresa had told him ran through his mind like a train, over thinking them more than intended. All he knew was that he would talk to alby about it tomorrow, and not worry so much about it now.–The week has gone by faster than light, after talking with Alby on wednesday about coming out to everyone, he thought it was a good idea, but only if newt was up for it and didn't feel pressured into saying something so vulnerable and personal about himself to them all. He’s also talked to his mother about it, about coming out and how a few of his friends knew already, that made her swell up inside and she was very proud of newt for it. That made him happy, feeling safe in his mothers presents.Before Newt could guess it, he was walking into his house and starting to tidy up a bit before people would arrive. He grabbed movies, pillows, blankets, and planted the snacks out on the table, and stole Sonya's speaker from her room. Finding good things to watch, and having to lock his mothers door to make sure nobody would go in there, even though it was barely 10 people coming over, he didn't want to leave any mess, grateful for his mother as is.After setting up everything, he stepped back and happily admired his hard work, glancing at the time from his phone he realizes it has been an hour and a half already, having just enough time to get into the shower before his friends would be here. Running upstairs and grabbing a towel he walked into the bathroom and turned the water to be lukewarm. Looking at himself in the mirror before discarding his clothes, and getting into the shower, the feeling of cold hitting him at first, froze at the sudden falling water, before he eased his way into the warm feeling of the it hitting his back. Washing his blond, wavy hair, running his hands through it washing the soap out of it, tension washing off of his body that he didnt know was there. He let out a small sigh of relief and after another 5 minutes of standing there, enjoying the feeling of water hitting his body he turned the water off, grabbing the towel and stepping out of the shower wrapping it around his waist as he walked into his room to find something casual, yet decent enough for his friends. He grabbed some simple sweats and a black tank top, knowing that he didn't have to dress to impress, after getting his clothes on he walked over to his mirror and looked over what he was wearing. The shirt was fitting yet loose, he was okay with it. The sound of the door being knocked on he smiled and walked dow stairs, passing by harriet and sonya sitting on the couch on their phones. He was happy sonya was able to bond with harriet.Opening the door to find gally, Alby, frypan, brenda, and teresa. Guess they've all carpooled to get here “bloody hell did you all cram into Albys small ass car?” he smiled letting them in. “ha ha, very funny yes we did.” Alby states bringing in a bag with more things in it, mostly alcohol for them all to sip off of. not really planning on getting drunk tonight.About an hour has passed and they were all just chilling, talking, and eating snacks before there was a knock at the door again. Newt stood from his comfortable spot on the floor next to frypan, and made his way to the door opening it to see a very smiley minho, thomas, and ben. “More car pulling I can see” before he could get another word out minho was pulling him into a bear like hug and was still smiling from ear to ear. Newt laughed a little in the hug, when he pulled back minho walked in like he was comfortable already and greeted everyone. Newt smiled at ben as he walked in, and he looked at thomas, taking a glance at his outfit and met his eyes again. “Hey thomas” thomas smiled and nodded a bit. “Newt” when he said that he let him inside and closed the door, following him to the living room where everyone was already bickering about a movie they should watch.Minho won the movie battle choosing ghostbusters, frypan groaned and huffed crossing his arms, making gally and teresa laugh, newt took a seat on the couch watching all of them start finding spots to get comfortable, gally stayed next to frypan, ben, minho, and Alby on the floor,sonya and harriet sitting on a little love seat, and newt sitting in the middle of thomas and teresa, as there were no seats really left, but teresa cuddled up to newt and that made the blond smile, he enjoyed her company. Thomas kept to himself majority of the time occasionally glancing at newt and teresa and how they were really close. Newt caught him a few times but darted his view back to the screen like he had done something he shouldn't have.After halfway through the movie Ben groaned and stood up in front of the TV, a pout plastered on his face. “Okay guys, movies are definitely a ‘im gonna go to sleep’ thing and not a lets hangout and have fun thing.” Newt sat up and stretched, glancing around the room seeing everyone was looking bored and reluctantly agreed with what Ben was saying. Suddenly Minho grabbed a bowl of crisps and started to throw things at people, the whole living room breaking out into a food fight. As Newt was laughing while aiming to throw a strawberry at Alby he somehow dogged it and it landed in thomas’ face. That made Thomas start targeting him with his bowl of snacks leaving the others to snicker and laughing at them.Everyone eventually calmed down, out of breath and the mess on the floor explained it all. “you shanks better help in cleaning this mess up.” everyone booed at him and threw more stuff at him and he groaned and just flopped on the couch watching his friends having fun, playing games even gally and Minho breaking out into an arm wrestle Minho effortlessly winning that one. They all drank, having just enough for everyone to have a cup full to themselves, it wasn't strong- nobody planned on getting drunk that night but it was just soft fun and really reliving to see them all being comfortable. Noticing Sonya and Harriet getting closer, and red in the face anytime the other looked at one another made him very happy to see. They truly deserved one another.Looking at his best friend he had a smirk pasted on his face as he held the bottle up in the air and everyone was questioning why? “Let's play….. spin the bottle!” everyone except for newt was really excited about that, he didn't want to have to kiss people? Then again, he didn't want to disappoint anyone, everyone gathered into a circle and cleared an area for the bottle to spin properly, at first it was silly pairs he wouldn't have ever thought of. Thomas’ spin landing on Minho, thomas made a face and rolled his eyes when minho scooted his way over and left a big fat kiss on thomas’ head the brunette still had a grossed out look on his face and minho laughed at that, newt glanced at ben who didn't look very happy, in fact he looked jealous. He was glaring at Thomas secretly but he looked back at Newt, shaking off the look and giving him a small smile.The game was fun, everyone was laughing at all the weird pairs until it was harriet’s turn again the bottle spun a few rounds and newt was praying for it to land on sonya, pleased with the fact as the bottle was coming to a stop diverting his eyes from the glass, to where its landed. Smiling as Sonya looked up at Harriet, red as a beetroot looking nervous playing with her hands. Harriet smiled and she crawled over to the blond girl, the kiss they shared showed nothing but pure happiness and love. Everyone in the circle cheered, the two forgetting that there was a crowd, looked at them all and smiled, kissing again, everyone cheered for them and they stopped playing the game to cuddle on the couch.As Newt's turn came up again, he took a deep breath, definitely gonna stop playing this stupid game after this round, calming his hands, taking the bottle and twisting it while watching it spin. As it spins his nerves become unruly as the bottle contenus to spin, he thinks to himself. “Please not thomas.” repeating those three words over and over. As the bottle slows he closes his eyes, not ready to see the result. He heard a gasp from Teresa and opened his eyes, following the line the bottle made between him and the other person, looking up he saw that very brunette boy he's been avoiding all night. Thomas looked at the bottle, then back up to newt. The blond boy shook his head, and as he was about to stand, gally stopped him and gave him a wide grin, wiggling those thin eyebrows of his. Newt groaned and Thomas had this dorky smile on his face as he crawled over to him sitting right in front of him.Newt prayed that his face was as red as he thought it was, covering it up with an eye roll. Thomas tilted his head and smirked. “Don't tell me you're scared of a little kiss newtie” newt glared at him. “I don't want to kiss you” Frypan snorted “kinda the point of the game newt” he shot a glare at the dark skinned boy for a second but looked back at Thomas and sighed, pointing a finger at his cheek to inform that's where he was to kiss. Thomas shrugged and leaned in about to kiss his cheek, before taking his index finger and faceing newt towards him, before the blond could react, thomas had connected their lips, though the kiss didnt last very long, it left a tingle on newts lip, he pushed thomas back and looked away. The brunette boy was smiling ear to ear, seemingly proud of what he's done. “Not so bad now was it?” Newt scoffed and looked back at him “no more of this bloody game” Thomas took his seat next to frypan, and just leaned back crossing his legs in front of him “as you wish your majesty” that earned Thomas the finger and everyone laughed at them.About another 20 minutes passed and Newt was talking with Teresa, she reminded him that he should definitely come out tonight. The thought of that racing back to his brain. Taking a deep breath he nodded at the girl as she smiled and stood in front of everyone who was scattered around the living room, making small chats with others there. She cleared her throat and had Newt standing next to her. His hands felt clammy and a knot in his throat as she stood their confidently. “Listen up shanks! Newt has something to tell us all” she smiled seeing as everyone diverted their attention to look at the two. Teresa took a seat on the couch, standing there awkwardly he looked at alby who had a small smile on his face, already knowing what he was gonna do. “Well um everyone, I have some news” he could feel the knot in his throat eating away at his insides, stomach turning and flipping around. Everyone was curious, a few people already knowing so maybe it wouldn't be as hard as he thought. “Im gay, and I wanted you all to know this because you guys are my friends. And I shouldn't have to hide who I am from you all” he looked around the room for a certain emotion, disgust. In his mind everyone looked grossed out and wanted to leave. But that didn't happen, everyone in the room looked shocked for a moment but their smiles softend.The first one to speak up was Minho. “Finally!” Newt's eyebrows rose, and he looked at the boy's grin on his face. “It was kinda obvious, though still shocking” he heard gally say, giving a grin at the boy. The others joined in on congrating him on coming out, saying that they understood how he was feeling, and how hard that must have been to say. But overall he was glad to have his friends there with him. They all proceed to be in their small chats, eventually leading to everyone going home for the night. He wished his friends one by one a goodnight, watching as they all left, though the last one to be out the door was thomas. The brunette stopped and looked at him. “Tonight was fun, thanks for inviting me.” Newt smiled back giving a small nod. “It wasn't the worst, you're not that bad '' Thomas laughed at that, looking to the ground with his hands in his pocket. “Goodnight newt” newt smiled, a genuine one. “Goodnight tommy.” the words that just left his lips earned a shocked look on both of the boys' faces. Newt quickly turned and closed the door in thomas’ face before the boy could respond to him. Laying his back against the door he questioned himself. ‘Why would you say that!?’ he shook his head and walked away.Thomas was shocked at the nickname, Minho called him Tommy once before and he hated it. But hearing newt say it was different. As if it was made for him to say, he smiled and turned to walk to minho's car, where he would be going home. Repeating the blonds words over and over.‘Tommy.’
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Walking into the school with sonya forgetting about the previous night.. Sorta– Continuously thinking about the nickname he gave thomas the nigh prior, the word repeating over and over in his head. Even if hes tried pushing the word away it always came back. As he made his way to his locker, he saw the brunette standing, leaned against it talking to ben and frypan. When newt noticed him he turned and walked the other direction, dragging his poor sister with him.Throughout the day newt found himself ignoring Thomas, avoiding him in class, avoiding him in the halls, and acting as if the boy didn't exist at all. In a class he was thankful he didn't have with Thomas he got called to the counselor's office. As if forgetting why he goes once a month the realization hit him that thomas would be there to, he was so tempted to skip out on today's session just to avoid the brunette. But than again if he skipped out there was a chance hed be expelled. Reluctantly he followed through and walked into the office.Passing by kids who were in trouble, or struggling secretly and needed attention to their issues. Walking into the counselor's office he took a seat. He looked at their counselor. He was a nice guy, and never let anyone call him by his last name, so they all called him Jorge, he preferred it. Before the blonde could think anymore about it, that same brunette he had been avoiding all day walked in and looked at him. Thomas gave him a small smile and sat down next to him. “Welcome back boys! How's it going?” Thomas looked over at newt for a second than back to jorge– “we are doing good, jorge, we have been getting along pretty well if I gotta say so myself '' Jorge nodded and wrote on a notepad he always kept close to him. “And newt? How would you say its going?” newt was too busy fiddling with his hands but looked up to the man. “We're doing well jorge, we have actually become friends– he and I” newt thought that through and nodded in a knowing manner. He considered Thomas a friend. He'd never think that would happen, but look at him admitting it. Outloud! The older man nodded, and he asked a few more questions here and there, though Newt's mind was somewhere else, in the clouds maybe. All he knew is that he wasn't paying much attention to the session until– Thomas said something to him directly. “Hey newt, wanna tell him about that lil nickname you gave me?” he smirked seeing newts' expressions change in an instant. Newt kicked thomas’ leg in secret. “Shut up Tommy '' he spat without realizing that he said the stupid nickname to him again. Thomas laughed and tilted his head back to jorge. The older man was smiling and that was always a good sign. He shook it off and jorge kept talking about how they have really grown, and hopes they can grow even more over time. Glad to see that they can be close friends by the end of this year. With that he told them they could go back to class and newt couldn't have ran out of there so fast.After leaving jorge’s office he was practically speed walking hoping thomas wouldn't try to talk to him. Though someone had to have preyed on his downfall because all of sudden he was being tugged at the shoulder, to the look of a boy who was smiling ear to ear and had the look of relief yet fright on his face. The boy spoke, trying to get in as many words as he could before Newt would walk away. “Did you really mean that? We are friends now newt?” Newt sighed and looked off somewhere other than his eyes. Bringing his attention back to thomas he nodded “we are, your not so bad greene” that made thomas’ slight worry wash away and his smile grew bigger if even possible. “You're not so bad either newton” newt broke into a small smile. Staring into his eyes.. Feeling something there but he couldn't put words or even thought to it as the bell rang, releasing hoards of students to lunch.At lunch, watching all of his friends tear up their food, it was chatty today. Everyone was engaged into their own conversations. Newt on one hand found himself staring at thomas. He didnt know why but he felt a small nudge to the side. Looking over to see brenda he glared. She wiggled her brows as if suggestions something between newt and thomas. “Piss off brenda.” he told the girl, she snickered and turned to go back to talking to frypan. After their lunch the day went by pretty fast which was a huge relief to newt. Going home and crashing on his bed was the best feeling hes had all day today.Over the next few weeks hes been having these moments where he would just stare at thomas, almost as if he was admiring him. Always getting nudged or looked at when he would just look at him for to long. These feeling he didnt know what were; were NOT going away, and the boy didnt know how to feel about it. Its driving him insane thinking about it, hes loosing sleep over the thoughts running in his head, like a boy trying to escape a maze of some sort that he couldnt figure out the clue to. Though today was different, he wasnt paying much mind to Thomas at lunch and was talking to frypan about some game he had sucked at when playing with minho. “That shank gets on my nerves I swear it! Hes always winnin’ the stupid thing! Never letting me win at all "Frypan was ranting and Newt laughed a little. The feeling of someone staring at him was buggin’ and he looked around to find Thomas looking, diverting his eyes away just as quick as he could though Newt knew he was looking at him. The thought quickly dismissed at the sight of some guy standing up on a table and calling out to the whole cafeteria. “PARTY SUNDAY NIGHT AT MY PLACE!!!!” the boy shouted and the whole room bursted into cheer, laughter and sudden talk of a party. Newt looked back at the table seeing that they were apart of this talk. “We're DEFINITELY GOING!” Minho shouts getting sounds of agreement out of everyone. Newt smiled and thought, maybe a party would be fun, had not been to one in months either way. “Better wear something thats not white this time newtie '' Thomas suddenly said, earning a hard glare from newt. “Seriously Tommy, that was your fault, not mine.” Thomas laughed and let out a sigh “if ya say so shank” newt shook his head and turned to go back to talking to frypan. Excited for the following weekend.
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The party being announced two days prior was all Thomas could think about, he had not been to a party since before school and was very excited to go to one. The boy has spent an unhealthy amount of time thinking about nothing but the party, plus the freedom. So up in his room he was throwing together something decently nice to wear to a highschool party, something to impress but at the same time nothing too much. Seating on a nice black shirt, blue jeans, his watch, nikes and a simple silver chain to throw the outfit together. Happy with the outcome, he grabbed his car keys and walked down the stairs to leave his house, there was a figure on the couch. By the smell of the rank disgusting alcohol, cigarettes, and other various things sprawled all over the living room– it was his dad.As his father looked up from the floor, he gave Thomas a disgusted look and scowled, acting as if he was the most horrifically nasty thing on this planet. Thomas hated that look, it made him think that he was truly a disappointment to his father. The man stood up and growled out a drunken ‘where are you goin’ boy.’ the boy looked away- “friends house.” the older man scoffed and walked towards him. “You know thomas your never here no more, never caring about your home and your family.” thomas clenched his fist in attempt to keep his trap shut. “You dont care about me, you only care about yourself.” as his dad continued on with the nasty words, thomas grew angrier by the second. Though he kept going on and on about how he was a bad son and thomas got sick of it. “Dad thats not it at all, I'm here, I'm the one paying the bills cause you cant get up off of your ass long enough to go to work. Or even find a job.'' Suddenly he felt a hand collaps with his cheek, getting slapped by his father shocked him leaving him wordless yet evan angrier. “DONT YOU FUCKIN DARE TALK TO ME LIKE THAT BOY.” he yelled. thomas yelling back to his father earned another slap to the face. More talking back turned into a fight. His father punching him this time leaving a stinging burn at his eye.After finally knocking his drunk dad to the floor he let out uneven breaths and ran out of the household as fast as he could. He couldn't be there anymore.When he reaches the house where the party was being held, the sounds of blasting music and loud teenagers was all he could hear and think about. The thoughts of his dad popping into his head made him feel dizzy, and hurt. Walking into the party he immediately finds minho and smiles seeing his best friend that he considered a brother. Approaching him he pushes him a bit and that earns a glare but then a smile from the other boy. “THOMAS IS HERE!!” minho yelled, making thomas smile.Chatting and sipping on whatever minho was drinking was what he did for about 30 minutes before minho took a good long look at thomas and tilted his head in a concerned, curious look. “What happened to your eye shank? Ya bein clumsy again?” was all that minho could ask. Thomas suddenly remembered what happened just a little over an hour ago– he closed his eyes and shook his head. “No- well yea just being stupid. But I just wanna get drunk and have fun tonight!” thomas smiled re opening his eyes to look at the concern washing off of minhos face completely. He visibly felt relife wash over his own face, as minho nodded and grabbed thomas by the arm dragging him to the kitchen where the drinks were at.After about 4-6 drinks thomas was definitely drunk, he had lost Minho in the crowd of sweaty bodys long ago. But he was having fun, the dizzy feeling the alcohol and the lust that was planted all over the room was eating him alive. Just as he was about to get another drink some guy bumped into him. Though the familiar feeling and look of the guy made his slight anger he had for the person bumping into him wash away. The guys face was blurry and all Thomas could do was see the hazy look of his body. He was slim and had a very nice body. He wanted to dance with the familiar boy. As if the guy had read his mind. No words being exchanged the guy grabbed his arm dragging him further into the middle of the floor starting to dance. The guy wrapping his drunken arms around his waist, Thomas holding onto his upper arms moving closer, tension sitting between them as they danced. Sweaty and hot breaths between the two drove them to a corner. Dancing soon turned into a heated make out session.The feeling of the other's tongue licking his teeth, asking for entrance was quickly earned. Holding onto the other's face pulling him closer, a small noise escaped his lips as the other's hands roamed his body. The boy pulls Thomas to an empty room pushing them both down onto the bed. The two men began pulling each others clothes off in a heated frenzy, they began kissing once more teeth clashing together in a rushed and sloppy drunken make out session thomas felt the familiarity of the boys lips starting to attack at his neck, propping his legs up to lay on the sides of the boy. The air– full of lust and drunken moans. When he pulled away from his neck he went back to feeling all over his body as if craving the feeling of thomas, like he needed this.An hour later, thomas awakens to the feeling of another person cuddled up to his side, the drunk weary feeling washing away from his mind, being replaced by a sense of dread and fear. Looking over, the once blurry face of his companion is now in full clear. Shock jolted all over his body, and face, that familiar feeling and sound of the boys voice as he realized who it was. It was newt, thomas had just had drunk sex with newt. The groggy voice of the other as he awoke he felt the fear growing, along with the heat on his face. Newt looked frozen for a moment. Getting the same feeling of fear on his face as he stood up, grabbed his clothes quickly putting them on and stormed out of the room before Thomas could get any words in. Thomas shot up quickly, throwing his clothes on, and following him out. The crowd of people stopped him from catching up to him, and rejoining him with minho. “Dude where the shuck have you been!? Ive been looking for you for like two hours now!” the boy shouted over the loud music at thomas when thomas shook his head he looked away. “I need something to drink.” Thomas, pushing away Minho for the moment, found his way back to the kitchen and got something strong. Something that would make him forget. He needed to forget.The next thing he knew, he was being pulled up, the sounds and faces of people were gone like he had blacked out or something. Dreams.. So many dreams and so many things happening at once was all that was running in his mind. His fathers face was plastered all over his brain. Telling him he was never gonna be good enough. Never and that he should just kill himself right as he stands. That hed never be good enough for him or anyone else in this world. But thats not the worst part, the worst part was that he was starting to believe his father. He was starting to think that nobody truly did care about him. That he wasnt worth the effort of being here in this stupid world anymore. The thoughts were eating at him alive as he shot up screaming himself awake. ‘It was a dream’ he repeated to himself.Suddenly someone was next to him comforting him. It was minho, god he really must have actually blacked out from what happened. Pain in his head was throbbing but not as much as the shaking fear of his father in his head. Minho looked at him, that same worry from earlier coming back to his face. “Thomas? Whats wrong are you okay?” he rubbed his back, trying his hardest to comfort thomas. “Yea. im fine- i should go back home, min." Minho let out a sigh and shook his head. “No thomas whats wrong, first a black eye, then you drink at least 5 times as much as you normally do. Then you black out and i'm forced to bring you here to my house. So tell me you stupid shank. What's wrong?" Thomas looked at him, not able to keep in his emotions anymore, immediately breaking down and sobbing into minho's shoulder. He had explained what happened with his father before the party, what has always been happening at his house. then hesitantly but surly opened up and told him about what happened with newt at the party. Minhos face stayed the same, still concerned. “Thomas why didnt you tell me about what was happening at home before? You know your like my brother, and that you could have always stayed here with me." Thomas shrugged and fiddled with his hands sitting in his lap. “Your staying here for now on. And with what happened with newt- you need to talk to him.” thomas let out a long sigh but nodded at his friend. “Okay sure min.” minho nodded and hugged thomas. “Love you thomas, you know that right?” Thomas returned the hug and smiled “I love you to minho” when minho pulled away he nodded and gave him the look of pity and comfort. “Go to sleep ya shank before I knock you out for good this time.”That made thomas chuckle as he laid back down on his given spot on a smaller mattress on the floor next to minhos bed. “Goodnight minho” minho got back into his own bed and let out a yawn “night thomas.” the boy above returned to him. With that thomas fell back into a dreamless sleep.
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When Newt woke up he felt groggy, a pain in his head from all the alcohol hitting him like a truck. Adjusting to the dark room, memories from just about 30 minutes prior come flying back. Looking over at the body next to him, then glancing down at his own naked body. It made him panic immediately. Thomas, he had just had sex with fucking thomas. Shooting up he starts to rush around him gathering his clothes and throwing them on quickly and bolting out of the room before thomas could even say anything. The party had just barely died down, and the room was starting to get hazy. The pain from the alcohol he had consumed started to give him the worst migraine he could ever possibly imagine. He could feel the tears about to overflow his face, keeping it cool he sucked them up and was trying to find the exit. ‘How could I do this to him. Why would I do this. Fuck’ was all that was running through the blonds head as he ran out of the house.Newt flying past people caught Harriet, and Sonya's attention. They both looked at eachother, put their drinks down and ran out the front door. “NEWT WAIT!! WHERE ARE YOU GOING!” Harriet yelled, a small strain in her voice as she watched Newt rushing to get to his car and climbing in. Seeing the car start made Harriet sprint towards the front of it to stop him. Practically jumping in front of the moving car made Newt pushed onto the brakes, staring at the front looking terrified. Harriet, who was out of breath from the sudden sprint. she walked over and got into the backseat, as Sonya climbed into the passenger side.Newt wasn't looking at either of them. His knuckles turned white from the grip on his steering wheel. Sonya placed her hand on top of Newts, making him visibly flinch and divert his attention to his sister. She had a worried look on her face and he couldn't stand that. As if on cue– he broke down completely. Sobbing, leaning his head forward to lightly hit his head on the wheel. Sonya grabbed both of the boys' shaky hands, and held them softly in hers. “Newt, whats wrong?” is all that she could spit out. When Newt looked up at her his eyes were puffy and he was sniffing. “I did a terrible thing sonya, I did something really bad.” his voice was strained, slightly stuttering halfway through his sentence. “What happened?” the girl in the back said, leaning up to get a better listen at what was going on. Newt took a deep breath, to hold himself together he pulled his hands away from Sonya's and started to mess with the fabric of his shirt. “I slept with thomas.”Earring shocked looks from both of the girls, harriet put her hand on newts shoulder and dropped the look as quick as it crossed her face. “Newt, you were drunk– he was drunk. It was a mistake.” newt looked at her and the thought of calling it a mistake felt wrong. It felt horrible to even say that. Though he nodded and looked anywhere but their sorrow filled eyes. “I don't know what to do, and to honest with you both i'm bloody terrified to face this.'' Sonya nodded. “But it needs to be talked about with both of you. Did he say anything?'' Newt shook his head and sighed. “I left before he could even get one word out.'' Harriet cleared her throat. “Im sure he would say the same thing, it was a drunk mistake.” the hurt of those words still clinging to him, and without thinking he shakes his head. “I think- I actually liked the guy.” sonya kinda smiled at that, “your not very good at hiding it newt, me and harriet could tell there was something going on between the two of you” at that newt glared at her for a second but let it wash off his face.After about another 10 minutes of talking he finally felt a little better, they decided to head back home. Starting the car, Harriet hooked her phone up to the radio, deciding she was gonna make newt feel better by playing some playlist she has. Honestly it does the trick for a bit, the sounds of the soft music blasting throughout the car, Harriet and sonya singing their hearts out to the music made him smile and start singing with them.When they got to the house, making their way in, Newt sat on the couch and both of the girls sat on both sides of him, from then on Sonya and Harriet held and comforted him until he was snoring silently comfortable in the embrace of the two.”When the blonde woke up, he noticed that harriet was no longer on one side of him, and neither was his sister. There was however, a blanket draped over him. After cracking his neck from the uncomfortable sleep on the couch he stood and saw his sister ready for school, sitting at the kitchen table. When he walked over to her she looked up at him and tilted her head to the side slightly frowning. “Do you want to go to school? You dont have to you know?” she asked, genuine to her words. He waved her off and rubbed the still achy feeling in his neck. “No no Ill go, just give me 10 to be ready” she nodded and went back to enjoying her coffee.When newt got in the shower, more memories from the night prior came to mind, almost every little detail, the hot shower not helping much about his problem. So he got out of it as quickly as he could. Drying himself off and putting on boxers, he looked at himself in the fogged up mirror. Noticing how from his collar bone, to his upper chest was covered in hickeys. More of those memories coming to mind as he held the side of his neck. Getting dressed he put on a shirt he knew would cover those marks up and a nice pair of black jeans he put on the best face he could for sonya and walked downstairs, letting the girl know he was ready to leave.After the long and surprisingly soothing car ride to school he got out with Sonya and walked in with her, joyful as ever. But when they get inside eyes fly to them, most of them being on newt. He tries to forget about them all. The last time hes had this gut wrenching feeling of eyes on him was when he was throwing up in the bathroom with thomas. Though as before it was just the thought of eyes on him. Now the were actually on him and he got that uneasy feeling again sticking close to his sister who noticed, and held him tighter around the arm. “Quit your worrying newt, people don't know anything. Let them look” Sonya said in a whisper. Newt couldn't get rid of the feeling of everyone's eyes piercing into him. Some were shocked, others were pure disgust.As they approached their group of friends, well some of them. They were all quiet and huddled around gally, no gallys phone. Alby spotted newt, and when he did, so did the others. Confused as some of them looked away he crossed his arms. “Well? What in the bloody hell could it be now?” he questioned, not trying to show that his voice was clearly laced with fear.Nobody spoke for a moment, alby though, shook his head and stepped forward grabbing gallys phone and. Taking Newt by the arm and dragging him a little away from the group. Newts worry grew even more as alby sighed holding onto gallys phone. “Newt, you have to see this. Its not great, but you need to see it.” newts face stuck with this confused look as he nodded and peaked at the phone. It was a video.Alby was hesitant but un-paused the video, giving newt clear sight as to what it was. The video that alby was showing him was a video someone took of him, and thomas making out that night at the party. Than proceed to show how newt and thomas had backed up into that room.Newt stood frozen for a moment, he could have swore his heart dropped to his feet. After not talking for a second, he grabbed gallys phone and started speed walking. Where? To find thomas. He could hear gally from somewhere behind him as he walked- “HEY MAN THATS MY PHONE!?” but he didnt care. He just kept walking through people who were staring him down. Some whispers but then he couldn't think of anything but finding thomas.Thomas stood next to minho, with dark circles in his eyes, and looked dreadful today. He didn't want to be here. “Thomas it will be okay man, just try to get through today?” minho spoke, patting his back and giving him a half saddened smile. Thomas looked at him and nodded, he knew he had to do this and get through the day. But all of a sudden, he heard loud footsteps, and people starting to look at him. Minho even looked a little shocked, as thomas turned he was met with newt, though he thought he'd never be speaking to him again, here he was standing right infront of him with the most hateful yet scared brown eyes anyone could see.The blonde shoved the phone into thomas’ chest and pointed a finger at him. “People saw. People saw and now there's bloody videos everywhere.” his voice sounded dead, yet full of pain, fear, and frustration. “But-” thomas started but newt stopped him. “They fucking saw us thomas.” his voice was broken, and he couldn't talk properly without trying not to yell. Newt shook his head and stormed away, by away I mean he left school.Thomas was confused at first, than looked at what was on the phone. It was a video. “Shit” the brunette mumbled under his breath before handing Minho the phone and trying to walk after newt. Minho grabbed his shoulder and sighed. “Thomas that would make things worse, give him space man” Thomas didn't want to give him space he wanted to help him. He took another look at Minho, then at all the people around him. They were snickering like this was some sort of reality TV show. He glared at some kids near him that had weirded out looks on their faces. Looking back at Minho, he walked the opposite way. “I'm going home.” before minho could stop him again, Thomas was already halfway down the hallway, walking out of the exit to go home and hope this was all a bad dream.