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The previous night, at the Deluca-Bishops' home...
“I’m pretty sure it's in here somewhere, I didn’t even take it out of the cover bag when it came back from the laundry the last time” Maya said, rummaging through the line up of hangers an clothes in their wardrobe closet, a mix of their more formal and fancier outfits kept together there.
Carina had Liam lying in their bed, and she was hovering over him, playing with his little fingers, then blowing raspberry kisses into his tummy to make him laugh.
“That’s right Liam, your mommy’s losing her ‘clipboard’ status little by little” Carina said to him playfully.
“What?!” Maya asked, peeking out from the wardrobe
“The 'clipboard Maya' I know would have kept her ‘Class A uniform ready for the morning by now.” Carina said to Liam,
Maya chuckled at that, and continued her search
“I know, but I lost control of the day,” she said from inside
“Mommy was so busy changing your little stinky diapers, she couldn’t look for her suit, and now she’s panicking,” Carina said in a baby voice to Liam, while lightly tickling his tummy and Liam laughed, and that caused Carina to laugh with him too. The joy on the little boy's face was so contagious.
Maya’s heart melted at the sounds in the room. Her family. This was her own little family. And tomorrow Carina would initiate the process to make this family of theirs bigger.
Maya took a deep breath and closed her eyes. She could imagine all that was to come. The IVF appointments, the pregnancy, the day of delivery, the first day they’ll bring their little baby home, and he/she will get to meet their big brother Liam…
“Bambina?” Carina called out
“Hmmm”
“I’m gonna put Liam to sleep now, come say goodnight…” Carina said
So Maya walked out of their wardrobe closet and came over to where Carina was holding Liam in her arms now
“Hey probie, are you excited for tomorrow?” Maya asked him, as she gave him her finger to hold
He held it and smiled
“I wish I could come too.” Maya told him, and then kissed his forehead gently.
Carina pouted.
Maya had her hand on Carina’s lower back, but her gaze fixed longingly on Liam
“What are you thinking?” Carina asked her
Maya looked at Carina then,
“Just that… I can’t wait for our family of 3 to become 4...” Maya said
Carina smiled, she then looked at Liam
“When you’re older my little pulcino, remind me to tell you the story of your mommy in her “I don’t want kids” phase."
“Carina!” Maya whined.
Carina laughed, and then said “come on, kiss him goodnight and then keep searching.”
Maya took him in her arms and cuddled him close and whispered sweet nothings to him, and then kissed his cheek.
“Goodnight my love, I love you”
When he was back in Carina’s arms, Carina walked over to Liam’s little rocker chair, and slowly placed him there, she sat by him, and soothed his cheek with the back of her finger, he looked at her with eyes of wonder.
Carina chuckled, and said to him “You’re not even Maya’s blood and you still look at me the same way she does sometimes.”
Liam was oblivious to his momma’s words, but the rocker chair seemed to be doing its job, his eyes grew droopy, but then he waved his arms out and started to cry
“Hey hey hey…” Carina soothed her hand over his tummy “What do you need, bambino?”
But from the way he was reaching for her, Carina knew he didn’t want to be in the rocker anymore. So she took him in her arms again, and let him rest his head on her shoulder, and she rocked him herself then, walking back and forth in the room.
“Shhh… I got you baby… I know…” Carina said to him lovingly
“FOUND IT!” Maya said loudly from inside and little Liam who was just falling asleep, turned his head excitedly at the sound of his mommy’s voice.
Maya came out of the wardrobe closet holding the suit cover bag in her hand, absolute glee on her face.
Carina looked at her with a death glare, while Liam chuckled.
“Sorry” she said, a sheepish smile on her face.
Carina was seated in the living room, reading a book, waiting for Maya to get done prepping her stuff for tomorrow, so that they could both go to bed, her gaze often shifting to the baby monitor, in case Liam woke up and needed one of them to come hold him for a bit.
“Well, what do you think?” Maya’s voice got Carina to turn her head to look, and there in the doorway was Firefighter Lt. Maya Bishop in her Class A uniform.
Now Carina had seen Maya in this outfit a lot of times before. But there was something about this moment.
Carina put her book down, rose up from her seat, and walked over
Maya raised an eyebrow at her in question.
“Did you think it was not going to fit?” Carina said as she walked up to her
Maya did not miss the way her tone had changed
“No, I just like seeing your reaction to it.” Maya said, and then licked her lips in anticipation. Carina bit her lip, and her hands came up to adjust the knot of Maya’s tie
“You never get the tie right.” Carina said
“And that’s why my life has been forever changed after I married you.” Maya said
Carina chuckled, and then leaned in, her hand still holding the knot of the tie, she pulled Maya forward a bit by tugging on it, and kissed her, passionately on the lips
Maya moaned into the kiss, unable to control herself
“Is this what you wanted?” Carina said
“This and more…” Maya whispered at her lips…
Ever since they’d brought Liam home, their sex life, while still existent, they hadn’t had a chance to really have fun with it. It was mostly cuddles and kisses that turned into hands roaming lower, and bringing one another to orgasm, and then they’d give in to sleep from the tiredness of the day.
But tonight… they were both feeling… adventurous. And Maya wearing this, was not helping to tame that fire.
“Are you done flaunting this look?” Carina said
“Why?”
“I want to take it off you” Carina said softly at her ear
Maya closed her eyes
“And if Liam wakes up…” Maya asked
“We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it.” Carina said, and lightly pushed Maya back against a wall
"Another english idiom, I'm so proud of you" Maya said, smiling.
"As am I when you speak Italian"
"Do you find it hot?"
"I most definitely do"
Carina's deft fingers had already started to unbutton the double-breasted coat Maya was wearing.
“Careful, I don’t wanna have to iron everything again” Maya said to her
Carina pulled away and looked at Maya, squinting her eyes at her.
“Okay okay, I’ll do it.” Maya said quickly, and Carina resumed her work on Maya’s coat
She leaned in and started to kiss down her neck. Maya closed her eyes. God! It had been a while since she’d experienced this side of Carina. Horny, hungry, desperate to make love to Maya.
She pushed the coat off her shoulders, and it fell to the floor, and then got to work on the tie.
But she simply loosened it and then switched over to the buttons of the white shirt
“The tie stays on” she said at Maya’s ear and then nibbled on her earlobe. Maya wasn’t sure which of the 2 elicited goosebumps all over her skin, but did it really matter?
Maya bit her lower lip, her hips jutting forward of their own accord. That’s when Carina felt it. Maya was wearing a strap-on.
Her fingers on the shirt buttons froze, she looked down at Maya’s crotch and then back up at Maya’s face.
“Did you…?” Carina began to ask, her eyes wide with amusement
But Maya was already nodding yes.
“Thought it ‘suited’ the look,” Maya said with air quotes, and a mischievous smile.
“Fuck me…” Carina exclaimed hurriedly and pressed her lips against Maya’s lips again, her fingers resuming their work on her white shirt buttons
Maya’s hands had already reached under Carina’s top, caressing her soft skin, moving from her waist to her back, just stimulating,
“You look so fuckin sexy in this, each time you wear it. And when I have to watch you at the station, I'm always mentally undressing you…” Carina said
Maya smiled proudly
“I’ll be sure to remember that tomorrow when I catch you staring at me during the ceremony,” Maya said
Carina chuckled
Once the shirt was opened, Carina smiled at Maya’s choice of innerwear.
“Was this really necessary?” she asked, her fingers lightly grazing over the white lace that covered Maya’s voluptuous breasts.
“You can’t tell me it’s not working for you” Maya teased,
Carina chuckled, her kisses moving lower down Maya’s neck, her sternum, and then she got on her knees. Not bothering to push the shirt off of Maya’s shoulders yet, just letting it hang on her,
“What are you doing?” Maya said
Carina unbuttoned her trousers and pulled down the zip, and freed the strap-on Maya was wearing. It was their matte-black one. Carina’s favourite on Maya.
Carina stood up. Maya noted how Carina wasn’t really taking the clothes off her. She wanted Maya to fuck her, while still looking like Firefighter Lt. Maya Bishop.
“Where would you like me, lieutenant?” Carina said, in that blessed bedroom voice of hers.
Maya actually groaned, because Carina’s hand was on that makeshift cock, stroking it like it was real. Maya had so many ideas of how she wanted to make love to her wife right now.
“Here…” she said,
And flipped their positions so Carina was standing, back to the wall.
Maya began to palm her breasts over clothing, while sucking at the skin of her neck, Carina closed her eyes, her hands on Maya’s arms, feeling them up.
Maya was so fit. And she loved it when Maya took control. Her arms were toned and tough, and right now, Maya was fondling her breasts in a way that had Carina desperate to be touched between her legs.
Carina reached for her own jeans, unbuttoning them. Maya helped her get them off, along with her panties.
Next, they got rid of her top, but had zero patience to take off her bra too. Carina was pulling Maya's face to hers for a passionate kiss, one of her legs already hooking high up on Maya’s hip.
She felt the silicone of the strap-on touch her highly-sensitive pussy, and moaned
Maya reached behind Carina with one hand and unhooked the bra.
Once it was gone from between them, Maya began to squeeze and fondle them again, with her free hand
“Ohhhh” Carina moaned
“Shhhh… we don’t want to wake…”
“I know.. I know… but GOD!” Carina said
“I haven’t even…”
“Your hands… they’re…” Carina closed her eyes, her head thrown back to the wall, she was enjoying the way Maya was touching her breasts, rolling her nipples between her fingers
And then Maya’s hand was between them, her finger dipping into her pool of arousal.
“Oh babe… if I knew this suit would cause this reaction again…” Maya said, attaching her lips now to Carina’s neck.
“Each time. Each time you’ve worn it Maya, we’ve had wild sex after…” Carina said
“Then I’m looking forward to tomorrow night too...” Maya said, smiling into Carina’s skin, and then leaving a hickey on her neck.
“Bambina…”
Maya dipped her finger in further, entering Carina.
“Ahhhhh” Carina sighed, the feeling familiar as always, but yet, always able to blow her mind so easily.
Maya started to move her finger inside, building up the arousal further
“Two…” Carina said, as she always instructed Maya when she was ready for more…
Maya dipped the second finger inside her and then took some of that slick and rubbed it at the tip of the strap-on.
Carina watched with darkened eyes. She then looked into Maya’s eyes, she nodded.
So Maya positioned it at her pussy, and then slowly helped Carina maneuver her other leg to hook on her hip too, and just as she did that, Maya slid in slowly
Carina moaned with no inhibitions.
Maya had to shut her up with a kiss, wild and eager
“You have to stay quiet” Maya said
“You should have thought about that before putting on this strap.” Carina argued, and then closed her eyes, her head thrown back against the wall again in pleasure, she bit her lower lip, her pussy felt so good, her entire body felt so good.
And her wife, her strong, sexy, lieutenant wife, holding her up this way against the wall, pleasing her, kissing down her neck, sucking on her skin, was eliciting the dirtiest of moans from her lips
“Hold tight” Maya said to Carina to make sure her arms wrapped around Maya’s shoulders were firm in their grip, and then Maya started to thrust forward, one of her hands on Carina’s butt, the other around her back, and the wall provided immense support too
Maya fucked faster, attentive to the rhythm of her thrusts and Carina’s whimpers and moans in response to it.
“Oh…. bambina… faster… please…” Carina said, her lips next to Maya’s ear
“I got you” Maya said, doing as instructed, filling her wife up,
Maya smiled into her neck
“I’m gonna wear this more often for you…”
“I think it’s the suit for sure… oh… but it's also the idea of us having a baby that’s got me feeling some type of way for you, bambina…”
“You don’t get to say things like that when I’m fucking you,” Maya said, not stopping her thrusts.
Carina chuckled, she felt her orgasm start…
“I can’t wait for us to complete our family…” Carina said
“Me too” Maya said, and then Carina let go, surrendering to all the sensations and feelings inside her, her pussy clenching around Maya’s strap,
Maya had stopped moving when Carina instructed her too, and she was currently tightening her grip of her thighs around Maya and her whole body writhed in pleasure, and when her moans started to get louder, Maya covered her mouth with her hand
And just like that, Carina rode out her orgasm, seeing stars behind her eyes, feeling Maya’s kisses on her skin, and loving the idea that Maya was still wearing most of her Class-A uniform.
When Carina came down from her orgasm, and Maya slowly backed out from between her legs, and Carina’s feet were safely on the ground again,
Maya carried her up in her arms
“It’s a night to celebrate” Maya said
“We don’t start the IVF process until tomorrow” Carina told her, gazing into her eyes
“We always said we wanted to have all the sex that comes with having a baby… we can start tonight…”
Maya was walking them over to their couch.
“I like that” Carina said
Maya laid her down, and then began stripping.
“Take off the strap, I want to touch you now...” Carina said, her eyes hungrily roaming Maya’s body
“Your wish is my command Dr. DeLuca” Maya said with a mischievous smile.
Maya was just done with shift, and craved being near Carina and Liam now. She needed to see her family. It had been quite a day, and all of it felt heavy.
The heaviness she was used to. But being near Carina and Liam these days, always seemed to help it all dissipate.
Maya opened the door to her bunk room
“Hey” Carina said from the bed, where she was sitting with Liam laying by her side, protected, safe.
“Carina, hey” Maya said, relief washing over her instantly at the sight of her lover, her wife in her clothes, in her bunk room, with their baby boy.
But then something else caught her eye. Carina’s clothes hanging on a chair, with blood stains on them
Maya felt cold all over, as she rushed to Carina’s side “OH MY GOD, what happened?”
She threw her coat at the edge of the bed, and immediately sat before her wife, checking, checking for bruises, blood, any indication that she was hurt and needed medical attention
“Oh no, we’re fine” Carina said, picking up on the fact that Maya had seen the blood-stained clothes
“Are you okay?”
“We’re fine”
“Is Liam okay?” Maya quickly glanced towards the little boy who in such little time had already become her whole world.
“We’re fine” Carina repeated, holding Maya, needing her to be calm, needing to assure her they were alright. Liam was alright. She was alright. Well, in a manner of speaking.
Carina wanted to take a moment to think about how Maya loved so ferociously. How just the idea of them being injured, had Maya panicking like that… like she would go to the ends of the world to make everything okay for them. Alas, Maya would not be able to do much to soothe what Carina was about to tell her.
“It’s a long story… uh…”Carina said, gazing at Liam again quickly. She then took Maya’s hands in hers. Needing to be touching her. Needing Maya to be that stable force that grounds her. Like she always did. Maya was her rock. And she needed that right now.
Carina looked down. She was mature enough to understand that this happens, but it felt annoyingly humiliating at the same time to admit.
“My FSH is high which means that I can't… I… I…”
Maya was looking at her like she was trying to take some of the pain, even though she still didn’t know the cause of it. Searching her gorgeous brown eyes.
“It’s… uh.. It’s not gonna happen” Carina said
Maya stared at her, unable to understand. What was Carina telling her exactly?
“What do you mean?”
Carina sniffled, unable to hold back the tears anymore. She’d been holding strong for Liam all this while. Holding it all together. Not letting the news overwhelm her.
But here she was, with her wife. Her Maya. Her bambina. Who’s been with her, through it all, who’s been hers. To laugh with, and cry with, and build this family with. And she could let it out now. She could lean on her wife, for love, support, and comfort.
“I can’t get pregnant” Carina said out loud, her voice shaky from the sob she held back, but at least now she was gazing into Maya’s blue eyes, staring right back at her with so much love and comfort
“The eggs I have left are not viable… and...” Carina said, as if she was quoting the doctor from the appointment today.
Maya felt her heart break for her. Because she knew Carina. She knew how much Carina had wanted this. God, Maya wanted it too. They’d dreamed of so much together, of this family, of their future…
“I’m so sorry, Carina” Maya said to her wife, holding her hands, stroking her thumb comfortingly against her skin
“Yea” Carina said, trying to keep a brave face, but Maya knew she was breaking down inside.
And then, as if jealous of the attention, Liam called out to Maya, and Maya’s attention was immediately on him, she placed her fingers on his tummy, and tickled him a bit, this little child, their angel…
“Hey” Maya said lovingly, wanting him to not be afraid, he was safe, and loved, and so cherished by his moms.
“We have Liam” Maya said to Carina, tears in her own eyes now… because yes, they loved Liam to bits, he was so quickly becoming so much a part of their being. But the tears, she couldn’t stop. Because truth is, Carina and her had always wanted to do this. The IVF procedure. To have a baby of their own. Carina wanted to give birth. They’d talked so much about it…
That a baby would be another blessing to their lives. To their love. A little version of Carina. With her nose, and her freckles, and all the best and worst parts of her, that Maya loved and adored to no end.
“But we don’t even know if we’ll be able to keep… him” Carina said, her voice breaking, thinking of the off-chance that Liam will be taken away from them… then they’d have broken hearts anyway.
Maya wanted to do something. Say something. To offer Carina some hope, some comfort… to make her feel like this wasn’t the end. Maya needed to do something…
"I’m so sorry, I’m putting you through all this and now…” Carina looked at Liam. “Liam won’t get to a be a brother and… you didn’t even wanna have kids in the first place…” Carina explained
“Hey.. stop stop stop stopppp” Maya said, holding her hands with a firmer grip now. Needing Carina to stop catastrophizing, and spiralling this way.
Maya felt her own voice break, thinking about everything they’ve grown through together to reach this moment.
“I didn't want to have a family until you showed me…” Maya began to say. Carina felt her heart melt at the way Maya’s voice changed pitch, she was all choked up from what she wanted to say “...what a family was”
Carina reached out, caressing the side of her wife’s face. Maya very rarely allowed herself to be so vulnerable, but she was getting better and better with time… and this moment here… meant so much to Carina. She couldn’t help the little smile that came to her face.
“Okay?” Maya asked, wanting to make sure Carina knew that in Maya eyes, she was no less. She was still the amazing woman Maya loved with all her heart. She was still the amazing woman that made Maya want to commit to something real, to want a family, to dream of the house and kids, to dream of a future where she was happy…
Carina nodded. Maya smiled, they gazed at one another, holding one another's stare, allowing themselves a moment to draw comfort from the proximity… to be here for one another…
Carina couldn’t help but think of what they were possibly losing now. A little pout made its way to her lips anyway, a slight twitch of her lips as she whimpered in sadness, the tears still brimming in her eyes…
That’s when Maya flashed back to a conversation they’d had a long time ago… about there being ‘two wombs in this relationship’, about how then, she didn’t necessarily ‘want her genes in there’
“What about my eggs?” Maya asked now.
The absolute dark hopelessness Carina had been feeling all day, suddenly felt like it was washed over with a ray of light… her mind could not keep up with what her ears just heard.
Her lip quivered as she started to feel overwhelmed with… love.
“Can we use my eggs? Can you get pregnant with my eggs?” Maya asked, already knowing the answer.
Carina was still speechless. Was Maya really offering this? Was Maya really so deep into this now, that she wanted to be so much a part of this.
Maya searched Carina’s eyes, and what she saw there was enough for her to know, Carina was moved beyond measure.
Maya reached out gently, her index fingers tucked under Carina’s hair, framing her face lovingly, the words came to her lips so naturally
“proviamoci, amore mio” Maya said with a relieved, joyful smile, gazing at her wife’s lips with excitement, and hope, and love.
Carina was at a loss for words, was this really happening…? Was she going to be pregnant soon, with her wife’s egg…?!
“Proviamoci '' Carina said, thinking back for a moment to the first time she'd used those words with Maya, and Maya told her she liked the sound of the words, she liked what they meant, and now Maya was using those words to change their lives... To bring a new blessing to their love. Carina was hyper-aware of the gentleness with which Maya was cradling her face in her hands.
It was this gentleness that Maya had for her, and for Liam now, that always blew her away. That Maya could be this tough soul on the outside, to everyone she worked with, and her friends even, but when she was home, when she was in a 3 ft radius of Carina, she was soft, and real, and generous, and so very caring…
Carina nodded. Because yes, she wouldn’t be able to make this baby herself now, but what a joy it could be, to have a baby created from the both of them.
Maya’s egg, once fertilised, would be transferred to her womb, for safekeeping, for nourishment, for 9 months of growth and love… Carina wanted to cry.
But then Maya was kissing her, and all her thoughts went blank, all she could see behind closed eyes, was a family picture, of 4.
It was a noise from Liam that had them parting from that kiss, both of them looking down at the little boy with gazes of love. Carina caressed his little head and leaned in and kissed atop it
“Turns out you could be a big brother after all” Maya said to him, her fingers grazing over his tummy again.
Carina had this soft smile on her face, Maya was studying her expression, trying to read her mind.
“I can’t help but think… I am to blame for where we are…” Maya said
Carina looked at Maya now, questioningly.
“What do you mean?” she asked her wife
Maya sighed, she still had her attention on Liam as she spoke
“We lost a lot of time… when I.. well when we had to pause… on the IVF procedure… after we separated…” Maya said
“Bambina…” Carina was already comforting her... reaching her hand out to touch her...
“No, like… if I hadn’t been so… stubborn, so adamant…” Maya said
“No, Maya, you were bullied, you were mistreated by your boss, and completely neglected by your friends and colleagues. It brought up old trauma for you… and I don’t hold it against you now…”
“Regardless, it still put a pause on our baby-making… and now…” Maya said
“Maya, it’s possible that even then, we weren’t able to have a positive pregnancy because of the same reason… maybe my eggs were not… viable… then too”
“That would have shown up in a test…” Maya argued
“Bambina…” Carina caressed her face lovingly, looking at her like she could magically make Maya see that this was in no way her fault.
“I’m sorry, I don’t mean to make this about me… I know you’re hurting... And I know it can’t be easy hearing that news…” Maya said, looking at her wife with eyes filled with understanding and love.
Carina nodded, Maya leaned in and pressed her forehead to hers, both of them breathing in the same air.
“Bambina, what you went through, even though it wrecked me to see you that way, to walk away from you that way, it helped us. It helped us be here today… It brought us here with Liam… it brought us to having our own little home, to planning a family together…”
Maya nodded. She then gazed into her wife’s eyes, and smiled lovingly.
“I want you to know that you are nothing short of perfect to me. Even with what you’ve gotten to know today… okay?” Maya said, her thumb lovingly stroking Carina’s cheek. The tears were back again. Because what did she ever do to deserve this woman’s love?
Maya Bishop, her wife, was the most amazing woman. Carina leaned forward and kissed her again, and this time, their kiss lasted longer,
Maya rested her hands on Carina’s thighs, while Carina cradled her face, their lips occupied in a slow dance, moving against one another.
“Speaking of bullying…” Maya said then, when their kiss had slowed down, she looked down, Carina tilted her head to look at Maya, a question in her eyes.
“I apologized to Beckett today,” Maya said
“What?!” Carina exclaimed
“I needed to. I think it was time. I did him wrong by offering that bottle to him. I know how wrong that was. He was already struggling, and I only helped him default”
“And? Did he apologise back?” Carina asked "for what he did to you?"
Maya nodded no, she sighed heavily, “he got pissed off, and almost had an accident while we were on call today”
“Dio mio!” Carina exclaimed, upset.
Liam made a sound at that. Carina lovingly caressed his head again
“I’m here bambino.. What’s wrong?”
But Liam simply stared up at Carina with a slight smile. It warmed Maya’s heart.
“He looks at you like I look at you,” Maya said, laughing
“That’s what I said too!” Carina said, laughing.
Carina then looked at Maya and then back at Liam.
“Liam, did you know your mommy has the biggest heart?”
Maya chuckled
“Your mommy was captain of this firehouse,” Carina told him
Maya smiled. Months ago, hearing Carina say these words would have made her angry, and upset, and annoyed. But today, she was okay. Today she understood, it was all part of the road that led them here now.
“She’s still the strongest, bravest of them all,” Carina said to Liam and then looked back up at Maya.
“And I love her endlessly,” Carina said
“I love you” Maya said to her, her gaze locked on Carina’s
“Tell me about your day?” Maya asked
“okay... Don’t panic, but there was a little accident that happened in a parking lot. I wasn’t involved, but there was this pair of siblings who were hurt…”
Maya was listening intently.
“And well, all said and done, they’re okay now, but… they reminded me so much of my relationship with Andrea, you know?” Carina said.
Maya nodded, her hand reaching out to caress Carina’s thigh.
“He would have loved Liam” Maya said
Carina’s heart ached. Maya was always on the same wavelength as her. Always.
Carina nodded, her eyes brimming with tears again because she missed him. She missed him in this life of hers. She wondered what kind of zio he would have been, she wondered if he would spoil Liam rotten. She wondered if he would have been a role model for Liam. Someone Liam could turn to, to confide in if he ever wanted to have ‘boy’ conversations with.
“Wherever Andrea is, I’m sure he’s watching over you, and Liam too… Andrea knows. He knows you’re remembering him, you’re thinking of him. He knows Liam too.” Maya said
Carina nodded.
Maya took her hand in her own, and brought it up to her lips for a kiss. A reverent, soft, lingering one.
Liam started to whimper,
“My love… what is it?” Maya said, and reached for him, carrying him up in her arms, and making him sit on her lap.
Carina watched them with a soft smile on her lips. Maya gave him her finger to hold, and he grew quiet. Happily distracted.
“How did it feel, pinning the captain's badge onto Andy?” Carina asked then.
Maya sighed. She kissed atop little Liam’s head, he cooed in acknowledgment.
“Weird. But also, not wrong.” Maya replied.
Carina nodded, she understood.
“I’m really proud of her, and I am so happy for her, but a part of me wondered what it would have felt like… to have been in her shoes…” Maya said
Carina was listening carefully
“That’s not to say I'm not happy with where I am…” Maya said quickly
Carina nodded no, she knew that wasn’t what Maya was insinuating
“I know in my heart that if captaincy HAS to come to me one day, it will. And I will continue to work hard for it. But right now, this is my priority…” Maya said,
“This. You. Liam… and the baby we’re gonna make,” Maya said, a smile on her face.
Carina smiled too, Maya reached her hand forward, cupped Carina’s chin, and brought her close for a kiss.
Liam's gaze followed, watching Carina come closer, and the minute their lips touched, Liam reached up and punched Maya’s chin in the process.
“OWWWW” Maya pulled away laughing
“Liam…” Carina laughed, looking down at her sweet baby boy, and he laughed too.
Maya and Carina shared a moment of comfortable silence between them, simply gazing into one another's eyes.
“I caught you undressing me with your eyes today” Maya teased
“Bambina.. Shhh...” Carina laughed,
“Come on, I saw it in the way you were looking at me” Maya said, biting her lower lip, thinking back to last night, and their activities on the couch.
Carina shrugged “I couldn’t help it. It’s hard to think of anything else when you’re in that uniorm” Carina said, her hand coming up to the collar of Maya’s white shirt. Maya watched her hand move slowly down her chest, over a slight crease there, smoothening it out.
“Well, I think I understand what you go through when you see me in these…” Maya said.
“You do?” Carina teased…
“Yea, because you’re sitting there wearing my SFD clothes, and looking like a goddess, I think I’m mentally undressing you too right now,” Maya said
“MAYAAA.. Shhhhh”
“He doesn’t understand…” Maya laughed
“How do you know that?!” Carina chuckled
Maya gazed on lovingly at Carina.
“I’m glad you stayed…” Maya said then
“I needed you… desperately, after the doctor told me…” Carina said.
Maya nodded. “I’m here now. We can go home, play with Liam for a bit, share some cuddles, and tickles, and baby talk…”
Carina laughed
“Then once he’s asleep… you and I can share some cuddles and tickles and…” Maya winked.
Carina burst out laughing. Maya loved making her laugh, she loved watching her wife experience so much glee, that it burst out from her heart in the form of that laughter,
“I’ll even put on the suit again if you like,” Maya said.
Carina looked at her a certain way, that had Maya already feeling all warm inside.
“Nope. The tie and the hat.” Carina said, getting up from the bed now.
Maya raised an eyebrow at her in question.
“Just the tie and the hat,” Carina said, smiling mischievously.
Maya nodded “Your wish is my command, Dr. DeLuca”
The hat lay thrown across their bedroom, the tie hanging down the bottom of the bed, Two lovers, Wives, Moms… Soon to be mom to another little baby, lay on their sides, bare naked, staring into one another’s eyes, a portal to their souls
Carina reached out, her finger tracing Maya's jaw, and then down her neck
“I am so lucky” Carina said softy
Maya smiled softly.
“I’m so lucky I get to love and be loved by you, Lt. DeLuca Bishop”
“Right back at you Dr. DeLuca-Bishop” Maya said
Carina’s eyes started to tear up
“Hey… what is it?” Maya asked, suddenly worried
“It was a tough day”
“Oh babe, I know…” Maya said, quickly scooting closer and wrapping her arm around Carina, pulling her closer to her
“What do you need? What can I do?” Maya asked
Carina was nodding no
“Okay okay… is this hug helping?” Maya asked
Carina nodded
After a few moments, Carina had calmed down, her breathing was even, Maya kissed her head
“The sex helped too” Carina mumbled into Maya’s skin
Maya chuckled now. She looked at her. Carina gazed into her eyes
“We’re really building our own family huh?” Carina said
“We are,” Maya said
“And technically… even though we have no penises in this relationship, you’re kind of gonna be impregnated by me,” Maya said proudly
Carina laughed “How does that make you feel?”
“It makes me feel… good,” Maya said
“It makes me feel good too,” Carina said, leaning in to press her lips against Maya’s, a slow, soft kiss shared
“I’m just sad that my dream of having that little version of you, with this nose, and that freckle… won’t come true…” Maya said, kissing atop Carina’s nose.
Carina smiled sadly
“I’m sorry,” she said
“What?! No! You have nothing to apologise for” Maya said quickly “I wasn’t…”
“No, I know, I still feel bad…” Carina said. And then she smiled softly, “but now you have me imagining a little Bambina with blue eyes and that signature ‘Maya Bishop’ smile” Carina said, daydreaming.
Maya chuckled at that.
“It’s going to feel surreal,” Carina said, “having a part of you within me that way…” Carina said with a smile.
Maya nodded. Her heart was beating so fast. The idea of them doing reciprocal IVF was exciting and scary, and thrilling, and magical.
“I can’t wait,” Carina said
“Me neither” Maya said, gazing into her lover's eyes.
She leaned in, hovering over Carina now, and started to kiss her softly, her hand roaming down her breasts, to her belly, she caressed her lower belly lovingly, and it brought tears to Carina’s eyes.
“If you think about it, now yours will be the only nose and freckles I’ll be in love with,” Maya said “undivided attention”
Carina chuckled at her lips
“Only you could think of such a thing,” she said to Maya.
Maya smiled, and kissed her again, the kiss growing heated, but not changing pace, Carina’s hand reached for Maya’s hair, caressing the back of her head lovingly as they kissed, their naked bodies flush against one another, warm and comforting… Maya’s hand eventually sneaked lower between Carina’s legs, and there, she dipped her fingers into Carina’s center
“We’re still having all the romance and sex involved in baby-making” Maya said
“Si” Carina said, laughing…
Maya smiled, her fingers entering Carina, eliciting a sweet moan from her lips
“Feels like home,” Maya said, smiling mischievously into the kiss
Carina’s legs were already trembling from the pleasure…
“Shhh… make love to me, bambina” Carina said
“Always” Maya said.