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stan was sitting at starks pond with kyle, kenny, and cartman. it had been a week since the school year started. the four are now in highschool. stan felt kyles hand touch his hand and started to blush.‘why have i been feeling like this? kyles not a girl like wendy…’ stan thought. he pulled his hand away from kyle’s hold on him and turned around to face kyle. he looked down and saw that kyle was smiling at him. stans stomach lurched at the sight of it, but this smile wasn't mocking. no it was warm, sincere and happy.‘what do i do if this gets out?’ he thought. he didn't know what to do so he just said what came to mind.“what if i like guys? and girls too?” stan blurted out before he could stop himself. there was silence. stan couldn't believe he blurted that out. he had always believed himself to be straight, so why did he say that. he wanted to die. kyle broke the silence first.“so... you like boys?” he asked.‘oh no. please tell me they don't think i'm gay.' stan looked at his friends. their faces were all different, except for cartman, who seemed to be trying to zippity zip those lips from laughing. stan took the chance that they wouldn't hate him forever.“like hypothetically!” stan hurriedly tried to explain.“i dont mean sexually, i just meant...” stan began rambling, but then kyle interrupted by putting his arm round stan’s shoulders and saying“that's cool! you had a gay dog dude!” kyle smiled again and stan's heart beat faster. stan was thankful that his friends hadn't taken it the wrong way, even though they probably already thought he was some perverted freak. kyle then continued talking about something else when stans thoughts became jumbled. he didnt get much more of it until kyle leaned over and whispered in his ear.“are you okay? you've been quiet for awhile.” stan jumped out of his skin and nodded quickly. he didn't trust himself to talk after hearing kyle whisper in his ear. stan didn't dare look at kyle, so he focused his attention back to his other friends. stan was glad for the distraction as kyle stood up and walked towards the pond, pulling stan behind him. the group continued to chat for another hour or so till they decided to go inside for lunch. stan was looking forward to getting home alone. he needed to calm down. he didn't need them to know that he might like guys, especially kyle. stan was hoping that kyle would forget about it , but he knew that would never happen. stan could only pray that his parents wouldn't find out about the possibility of him being bi. the last thing he needs is for them to ask him if he's gay. stan was pretty sure his mom would ask him if he ever kissed a boy. stan's mom knew how bad he was at lying and she hated it when he lied to her. stan could practically feel her disappointment in him. stan felt tears prick at his eyes and he quickly blinked them back before anyone noticed. he tried desperately to keep the lump in his throat from forming. stan really hoped that kyle and the others forgot about it. stan didn't think that they would, but he also hoped that he was wrong. stan was scared of what everyone else would say if they found out. he was sure they would tease him mercilessly for liking dudes. he shuddered imagining himself being teased, especially by someone like kyle. usually his friends teasing him doesnt affect him, but this is different.‘im probably not bi… maybe? ive still never kissed a girl… maybe i could kiss kyle to practice kissing girls?’“hey, kyle! wanna come over today and sleepover?” stan asked“oh, sure! i was about to ask if i could come over anyway.” stan's face lit up in surprise, kyle wants to spend more time with him?*few hours later*“youre here! cmon kyle, lets go upstairs!” stan yelled happily and dragged kyle to his room. once they got up there, both collapsed onto stan's bed.“okay… i have a reallyyyyy fucking weird question…” stan said hesitantly.“yeah? shoot. whats the question?” kyle replied.“uhmm, so, um, how am i supposed to practice kissing a girl if i dont have any friends that a girls?” stan said nervously.“what do you mean, practise kissing girls? you havent had your first kiss?” kyle said raising an eyebrow.“no…” stan mumbled and buried his head into the pillow“but I've heard other people talking about it!!” “uh… you could practice on me?” kyle proposed.“hmmm…. sure! so how do i do this… you know, without making it gay?” stan asked.“its not gay if its just for practice! now get over here.” kyle said and patted the spot next to him on the bed.“so, i'll start off slow, ok?” kyle explained while moving his hand closer and closer to stan's face, slowly approaching his lips. stan watched and waited for kyle to get close enough to give his first kiss. kyle inched closer and closer to stan until the two boys shared their first kiss. it happened so quickly that neither boy noticed what was happening and kept going. stan grabbed kyle's shirt and pulled him deeper into their kiss. eventually kyle put one of his arms around stan waist and the other on his neck. stan held him tighter and deepened the kiss. as their tongues intertwined with eachother, stan realized that he liked this kiss. it made him realize that he really liked kyle. they finally stopped kissing for air. stan moved closer and hugged kyle tighter and kissed him one last time on the cheek. kyle smiled and pulled back slightly.“wow… thats what kissings like? that was awesome! i think i need more practice though…” stan said, his mouth watering. kyle chuckled and looked into stans eyes.“well, we better get practicing!” kyle said as he pushed stan on his bed so that he was laying flat. kyle placed his hands on either side of stans head and kissed stan passionately, sending a tingling sensation throughout the taller teens body. they finally came up for air.“how'd you learn about these things?” stan asked breathless.“i watch a lot of movies. i think you should lead the next kiss.” kyle responded.“I think i can handle that.” stan said. kyle gave stan a quick peck on the lips and they began to make out again. they spent the rest of the day kissing and playing games together. Stan had no idea how he ended up falling asleep. he must've passed out. when he woke up, he noticed he and kyle were wrapped up in eachothers arms. kyle was fast asleep, his mouth slightly parted and snoring softly. stan couldn't help but smile; it was rare to see kyle look so peaceful and relaxed. stan gently lifted kyle's head off his shoulder and sat up. stan's hair brushed against kyles forehead, causing a slight shiver to run through the shorter one. he gently pushed kyle's hair out of the way and placed a small kiss on top of his forehead. stan didn't know why he did that, but he knew that he didn't regret it at all.