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*personal diary installation complete*
i hear CAI´s voice in my brain AHA!i knew there was some type of pesonal writing enginee on this thing.paper and pen still are my go to personal preference but this will suffice for now.i take a deep breathe and slowly start typing...wich is a bit difficult with my left hand right now but i think i can manag-
*senseing.disconfort.activate writing via mental link?*
...yes?
than i just start thinking and the words apper on the screen
i relly whanted to write right now,no one will read this except me, im just doing this because...i dont know,maybe in the futere i can look back on these´s and see how much time has passed...or maybe if i like it to adimit or not...wiriting keeps me calm and my mind grounded...i relly shouldn´t explain this for my future sealf should i?...yhea thats relly dumb,lets try agai_<---
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04/05/2323
working on my first mission for the resistence has been...exactly what i expected?not in a bad way though! i think its just the exact thing that titania told me to do.
yhea we have six months,but the contry is pretty big on its own.so titania decided to just stick with the parts most afected by the fall.mainly the north and west parts, with a time of one week per part that we have to look through.the is it the first place me and silver has to go is a bit isolated from the nearest city but we managed to rent a hotel to stay for the week(good because from here,i think were gonna have to start camping...with no shower...so better take what we have when we still have it )silver even Taught me a bit about loadstars and how to dig them up,he also said that we get a half day off on sundays basicly just to relax for a bit or prepare for the next trips,wich thank god titania for it (not that i would complaing if she expected us to hunt for loadstars 24/7 i totally understand it,but its relly nice of her anyways)it should be useful...the acutual load stars though!we have been geting...it.
silver says that 7 pieces its a good amount for one week in the area that we areso i belive him.he said that when we get even more to the north it will have plenty more so thats good...
i also relly miss my friends on the base .i relly whant to know how they have been with out me there,if karin is okay on the gym all by herself,if aaron is pacticing his writing,if vita is taking good care of the plants,if canto still...is canto,im proabably just being overdramatic over the hole thng...but yhea i am missing them just like i thought i would...
some times,when i am not tired enough to sleep i just like hearing the music box that aaron gave me while looking at the load star necklace...is relly relaxing
4 days earlier
"ho my god man its feels we have been looking for hours"i exclaim craking my back,who would´t be at least a bit tired with the creeping sun on the back of your neck and hands that will proabably form some calluses.well not silver aparently.i turn to look at him, looking not bothered at all,save for a little sand on his fur and just a bit of pating here and there.that sun hat must be working for him...he loos kind of funny on it but decide to not coment on it.after all that training my stamina recovered relly well,but the repeated movements and intenselly gazing at the sand will do no good for any 300 year old humanjust had to forget my suplemments today hadn't i?i proabablly will just be able to get it on lunch...Silver takes a deep breath tugging the colar of his shirt with disconfort"well... we kinda are?we started at 8:00 and now is currently 11:22
... we can take a little break right now, before lunch if you are too tired?"he asks sparing a glance at me, a bit concerned For my well being"No no its okay sigh were gonna be doing this for six months.might as well be used to the rotine right now right?"i say taking a little moment to strech my joints for a bit.i look a bit curiosly at silver´s axiom display, a kind of awkward screen"hey,what you doing on your axiom?"Sielver tilts his head a bit confused than turn back to his axiom"ho!im looking for cool spots..."he says simply like some common knowledge
I look at him expectandly but get nothing after a few seconds. "...why?""...to get the load stars?""...why?how is that gonna help"silver look at me dumbfounded"relly?anyone took a moment to explain how people normally try to find for load stars??"i just shrug.the first time i tride i just wondered off and found a big chunk of it thought it was just get out there andfind them"... how they work?"ok that one i can awnser it"w-well they are pieces broke out of the seven star from the fall right,they have a shit tone of energy stored and them"i ask expectanlly.i never tought too hard or too deep about hoe the load stars workbut since we are looking for them.. i thinkit would be good to know more about it"right?" he put his hand on his chin thinking for a moment"well yes thats basically...look i am not an expert,but canto explained to me once that,the seven stars that had fallen were made of a super rare...unique...kinda of rock.the basic is that,that material that forms the load stars can absorve humungus amounts of energy,would it be eletrical or like thermal and etc...he said he thinks that,thats why the impact was so huge,since it absorbed it the thermal energy of the sun."he takes a deep breath and walks beside me showing his screen"and even now the loadstars can energizeit self by the sunlight or the heat of the ground,and after the loadstar absorb all the energy aroundit...it forms a cool spot"he finishes poiting at his screen that i can see now that is basiclly just a heat camera.o focus my gaze on where he is poiting.i can see,a few feet away just the tiniest bit of blue on the see of red that is the desert ground "wuuu,okay thats pretty cool...pun not intended"i grab my shovel enthusiasticly"come on lets go!"
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05/09/2323
i fucking hated this
Artemis relly just gave him some tremendous vague spots were cyrus might have been,and just expect me to just sniff around with hopes to find him.it is so fucking stupid.he doesnt know if he is more furious about this or if it is the fact that his freedom is so so close but also so so out of reach.he just need do capture him,the aformationed fugitive humanAnd this time i wont look back,it doesnt matter if he has to capture him again,it doesnt matter that he was the last person that treated him in a decent way,even when he didn't know nothing about him,he just need capture him,walk foward,and then continue surviveing alone like allways,i want to let resoom blow up the entire resistence with Aaron and everyone inside it,and he wont look back,he can't look back,if he does then...then......he decide to stop rolling around on bed and start to do something useful. 04/07/2323 first place,goldem requim,last place Cyrus was seen at,a so called city that is more of a black market for guns and that type of shit.i still remenber like is yestarday when me,Aaron and Reggie passed by here to buy guns and weapons and explosives...a past long behind nowI start on the street that king's arm ware cut off,than i follow the his and his goons depoiment in were Cyrus were and where he passed by.the thought of Cyrus and Aaron just walking around looking for weapons is a bit...unsettling,i dont know if they were buying specifically for Cyrus but he will certainly be a lot more of a pain in the ass to capture this time...
I clench on one of my fists
if only he could still be the dumb amnesic that he was back in the day that i found him,would make things alot easier......thats a horrible toght,but the ever growing presure of the arcadia colar around my neck both Philosophically and physically,its a remider that no matter what i think,i dont have nothing else to do...if my train of thought is correct...yep this is the street,even after years Aarons taste in were to buy weapons didn't changed much...this was the main street ware we passed by,in the past.according to Patsy and Saber both Cyrus and Aaron ware talking to a half blind,beat it up,cheetah...their wordsI Walk and look around fot a bit in the stalls,i can feel the gaze of the pedestrians on mei am still not used to have all this attention on me,all because of this stupid colar,maybe i´ll buy some turtleneck cloathes just to hide this shit locked around my neck maybe a bandanna i don't know.as im walking i stop on a open shop,several guns and melee weapons scattered around the table.the shopkepeer,whom is turned away listing some things on a clipboard,turn around to look at me."ho!welcome welcome!freshily stoled from the overturned truck this weekend!"cheeta,halfblind,half of one ear and half of the teeth missing.yhea this is the guy.the shokeeper goes quickly to the point trying to sell me some of his ''products''."what are we looking for today-"he looked like he was going to go on but his mouth quickly shuts,his gaze going from my arcadia colar to my gun behind me,i can quickly see his deamenor chaging,the smile on his face turning to a more serious expression almost like a snarl,griping on the edge of the table besides him and looking directly at me as like waiting for me to state my bussines therei rapdly look at him up and down to see if he is going to try any funny bussines"i'm not here for weaponry"i say in the most monotone i can, going to my axiom and trying to open a photo of cyrus on it"clearly"the shopkeepr mumbles under his breath but i decide to ignore it"have you seen this human around this parts?"i ask unfortunilly the photo that i have is one from the ressom database,cyrus with long hair and more bones and skin than muscle,and another pretty bad,quality wise, one from a camera outside of resoom's databasehis snarl falls apart to a more curious expression,putting a hand on his chin thinking relly hard while looking at the photo,after some seconds,his eyes widen and i can pratically see the lamp turning on,on top of his head,but he swiftly clears his throat and put a deadpan expression"what if i saw it?""he is a fugitive from resoom's complex,he is under resooms ownership, if you know anything about him you have to tell me"i say it.that damn little phrase that Artemis made me memorize,for every time someone ask's a bit too muchthe cheetah looks unfased though.he pretends to think for a moment crossing his arms in front of his chest"hmmm...i never have seen him around im afrai-""ho no!dont even try it,we-" we??? when did i starded refereing to me and resoom as the same individual??? i cant allow that "-i alredy know you sold weapons for him and a big white tiger!"i say with a deep growl poiting a finger on his face,starting to lose my patient about how dumb this damn cat think i am.does he want a bribe or something???"well...its my word against your's"he says shruging smuglywohoho...okay lets try things my way.i swiftly pin him against a wall with a arm on his chest and the hand of the other arm holding a knife against his throat"is that so?"i say prssing the knife with a little more pressurethe shoapkeeper winces at the pain,he looks up at me with fear in his eyes but trying to compusere himself enogh to form a sentence"y-you cant do that!wh-what will resoom think about thi-"i cut him off pining him againt the wall harderi lean down whispering on his fucked up ear"i'm sure they wont care for a little crook selling stolen guns,in the middle of nowhere"i actually dont know that for certain,but the threat seems to be working.i can alredy see a thin streak of blood on his throat"fuck"he mumbles under his breath.he looks at me,than down to the knife"alright,alright!!i'll tell you what i know!"finallyi release a bit of pressure on his trhoat but still pinning him against the wall.i look at him with a expression that says go on"some weeks ago...i saw that the human with a big white tiger here,they ware looking for weapons and i just sold them i swere!"..."what type of weapom?!what were they attacking?!""they said they were attacking moving people in whatever armor the are wearing,i just sold them some knifes and guns!"what type of gun can cut off a man's arm?this is useless,he is saying nothing of value!i turn around looking at the clipboard that he was writing on it.i grab him by the trhoat with one arm and with the other the clipboard,serching the pages fot the day that they ware hereAaron...Aaron...Aaron!i see his name on that days page and below it a list of weapoms...a lot of weapons,various types of guns,a lot of knifes,i never seen Aaron using knifes before,thats a type of list that we did for newcomers,it doesnt make sense to have all of this new weaponary for noth-my train of thoght is stopped by the sensetion of scratches on my arm.i quicly let the shopkeeper falldown and tear the sheet of paper"im gonna take that"i simply say,when i look around i see some of the pedestrians looking at us"WHAT THE FUCK ARE Y'ALL LOOKING AT?!"i shout and everyone quicly start to walk again. after a not so fruitiful day,after that event with the shopkeeper,artemis decide to pay a little call for me,of course for me to report my findings on the first in goldem requim.i tell him everything i seen, did,and tell him all of the weapons on the list that i found and what i think about it"according to our data the only ood thing in this list is the transformative pistol model XII93,a type of gun not even relesead yet,its supossedely can transform anything that is put in it to ammo...oriented for attack axiom's...i wonder what or little fugitive put on it to have a power to cut off a man's arm...gonna have to runs some tests on...ho!look at me rambling yet again,you said that they were proabably buying weapomnary especificaly for cyrus?i clench my fists ,i fucking hate to just comply with everything the damn otter say to me,again i dont have any other choice,but i hate the idea of have to be acostumadet to this"...yes..."i say not wanting to elaborate i have seen alot of newcomers,when i saw that list its like a parttern that i had seen before...not that i'm going to explain him that"well dont sound so excited about it!...good day today lance"he say's with that same,damn,fake smile on his facei roll my eyes"what am i supossed to do now""well continue your search off course!give a little more search on golden requim,we alredy know from where Cyrus was before golden requim maybe pay a visit there or the town's around it...not that i am telling you how to do your job...when you clear up that area i'll send you the next spot okay?~"i clench on my fist tighter alredy felling little droplets of blood on my palm"...okay...""good boy~until there then!''he closes the callthe second that damn otter is'nt on my face i swiftly turn around punching my table with all my force"FUCK"i recoil at the pain on my fist but,look proudfully at the little bump that i did on the wooden table,i look at my bloodied palm."...i better clean this up"