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With the eternity of time, memories begin to float and disappear...But some of them stuck in the timeline...Some of them you try to forgetBut you couldn't...You can't forget these memories because these memories are the last remnants of your true self...They are trying to hold you with their arms...They keep you from turning into a monster...But as time goes by...Arms becoming weaker and weakerThe remaining memories want to join the othersThey begin to want to float in eternity...They begin to want to be free...As long as they are free...The arms that hold back the feelings of beastliness begin to fall away...The monster becomes free...As the memories leave, they thank you for the last time...You are in that moment right now.I'm letting the memories do their thing one last time before they disappear completely...•••"He-ya! Are you my new mentor or something?" A short man asking me while waving. He was right. I'm his new mentor. Considering his height and physique, it is obvious why he cannot use a scythe . "Yes i am." I answered. "You seem kinda similar new-mentor, did we meet before?" That specific voice tone and question made me dive into the past...--It was a windy September day... I was swamped with work but boss still continue to giving me more to do. He called me and gave me an emergery task that I must finish soon as possible. Place that I must go is far away so, I started to running as fast I can. When I was running in the halls I hit someone that carring a tons of files and papers. Everything fell off besides him. I can't even say sorry untill he screams to me "WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!! COME HERE AND CLEAN THIS MESS AND BRING THE PAPERS IN MY ROOM! NOW" "I must return to my mission sorry" I replied. "I DON'T GIVE A SHIT! COME HERE!" He shouted again. I was quite impressed that he had the courage to shout at me like I had no rank or dignity. Everyone is afraid of me because I'm the strongest member of all the time. I could run because my mission is more and more important than his. But I did not. Interestingly, I returned next to him and help him to stack his papers and files again. I carried them too. Of course every worker at the office were in the shock when they saw me carrying his stuff to his desk. After I finished I appologized and ran to my mission. I was late but my heart feeling better... That was the first time I let my feelings won and control my act...-"Yes we did" I answered. "If I was correct, you are the person that made me carry your stuff after I hit you." I'm sure that person was he. "Ohhhh! That makes sense. I remembered you too! By the way, I must thank you for your gentelman-ish acting. I was feeling resentful to someone so I may have been rude to you." He replied. "O-oh my bad! I must be more careful" I apologized. What the hell is wrong with me. I am the most dangerous and scary person in this area. What is that kindly actting, I must be harsh andunmerciful. He must obey me! I don't need anyone! I am a lone wolf! While I'm suffering with my emotions, he stared at me with eyes that saying: "I understand you" that's deffinetly what he is saying. Wait? How long have I been looking into his eyes? That was so ridiclous and embarrasing. Oh dear Lord... please forgive me...••The strong scent of beer and whisky fills the air. Some of the alcholics are screaming an old irish song, some of them breaking their wine glasses into others heads. All of theese are triggrering my senstive and strong senses. Everthing is disgusting me at this place but him. He is my everything, he is the only one that make me have fun at this stinky place. After he finished his long conversation with bartender, he is gave me a look "Wanna go out?" He asked. "Alright, lets go" As I stepped outside he took my glasess "Hey! Give it back" I yelled. Oh god, why he is acting like a toddler. I gave up. "Do whatever you want". Suddenly, he came back. "I need to show you something" he said. Why he sound like so innocent what happened? "I can't see anything without glasses,dear." He came more closer "I'm gonna count to three and you're gonna wear glasses okay?" Sure, but I'm still wondering why he looks pretty embrassed.123!!I wore my glasses and saw the thing... he was holding an engament ring. My heart sank, I was breathless. How? Why? That must be a dream right? "You saw that right, I'm doing a wedding proposal!" He said. I couldnt even reply, I just grabbed his waist and kissed him with my all strength.••"I AM NOT SAYING "THATS NOT YOU MY DEAR"! BECAUSE I'M SURE THAT YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT YOU'VE BECAME!" I can't feel anything, all I'm doing is listening his screamings. "WHY ARE YOU LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT?! THATS IT, GO FUCK YOURSELF. IF YOU DO SOMETHING TERRIBLE IN THE FUTURE, I DONT WANNA TAKE RESPONSIBILITY." Oh, how tragic! He is throwing the ring. I dont feel anything, but its sad that he is suffering right now, how pathetic. "Are you finally done? I'm glad that you'll never suffer again. I can't even understand why are you crying and shouting. Maybe it's because of something you have that I don't. Sorry, I can't focus on someone who is weak and whiny and doesn't support my plans. A human is probably more useful than you. I suggest you to keep living and working in the mouse nest, goodbye." I shut the door and left. What the hell was that? If feelings arent real, what was that?••