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They don’t come together easily. Gibbs never comes together easily with the FBI. He finds them annoying and undermining. Every case he is able to solve alone he will. He is sure he could also solve this case alone but now he has a team of FBI agents standing in his office. Profiler, which he thought was what he hired Kate for.Hotch isn't more pleased, he hasn't met Gibbs before but he can not stand the attitude with which he greeted them when they arrived, that he is not budging from his strategies and ideas. That he goes off before consulting them first. But then again maybe he is proving his point by thinking this way about him when this was supposed to be worked together with none of them having the authority. Of course he noticed the bickering between the two teams as well. While JJ, Emily and Kate go along just fine. Derek and Tony cant seem to speak one sentence to another without having to prove to the other that their way is the better way. Spencer, with making him small as possible in those situation seems the only one who doesn't make this even worse for them.“You okay?” Hotch asks him as he picks him up in the morning to drive out to the NCIS headquarters. He had offered to drive him when he noticed Spencer anxiously scanning the map to figure out how to get there. If he can relieve some stress of not having to adapt to a new route to work, he will gladly take it.“Great, how are you?”“Same” Hotch forces out and waits for Spencer to get settled before driving back onto the route.“You sure?”“Yeeah, it's just the case”“The case or them?” Spencer questions with a smile.“Let's say I am not going to cry goodbye tears ones this is over” Hotch tells him,“Ah”“You seem to get along well with Abby I noticed” Hotch points out, wanting to show him that he doesn't mind it, “She is nice, reminds me of Garcia”“She is nice. She always asks what book I am reading” *“Your agent is shivering” Gibbs points out as they are standing in the bullpen, hinting at Spencer who is sitting next to Gibbs’s desk, his eyes focused on the file in his hand.“He is always shivering, he is always talking about being cold” Hotch tells him, not giving Spencer a second look.“He is shivering a bit much to just be cold”“We got used to it” Hotch mutters, looking down on the file in his hand, “I will drive out there with Agent Rossi and talk to the store owner again, he is not telling us everything”“You do that” He keeps his eyes on Spencer who is staring at the file in his hand, “You sure he is okay?”“Yes I am sure” Hotch confirms, “He is just in his own world, don't mind him” He underlines before calling for Rossi and leaving for the questionnaire, while Gibbs heads down to Abby before coming back to the bullpen where Kate is working on her desk,“So how are things?” Gibbs questions hoping to get an update from both of them but while Kate can offer at least a few information, Spencer stays quiet. “You too Dr. Reid?”Again he doesn't get any reaction from him, his eyes being darted on the file in his hands. “Dr. Reid!” Gibbs calls louder, causing Spencer to flinch and look up, “Any updates?”“No, Sir” Gibbs has gotten used to him not looking into his eyes for the last few days but this was not even the general direction of his face, as if he reacted to what was being said without actually listening to what he was saying.“Nothing?” Again no reaction, “Dr. Reid!”“No, Sir”“Then what have you been doing, Dr. Reid?” Gibbs asks, a bit annoyed. stepping a closer and seeing again the file moving up and down from his shaking hands while the rest of his body is completely still; he had always been moving around the last days and this morning, almost so much he had wanted to tie the kid to a chair and teach him to stop fiddling, “Dr. Reid”“Mhm yes sir” Spencer says, still not looking up.“I asked you, what you have been doing” Gibbs repeats again and by now Kate is grinning, enjoying how the kid is ignoring Gibbs and knowing what happens when they do. “Dr. Reid”“If that was me you would have slept me three sentences ago” Tony chimes in, “You better speak up, kid”“Something is wrong” Gibbs mutters, worryingly walking around Spencer’s chair before crouching down, “Spencer, why don’t you hand me that.” He speaks more softly and tries to pry the file out of Spencer’s hand but he holds on strongly, his grip not loosening, “Can you hear me?”“What's wrong boss?” Tony questions, “Everything alright?”“Dr, Reid?” Gibbs asks again but also this time there is no reaction apart from Spencer pressing his eyes shut, “Alright, what's wrong?”“Maybe it's something in the file, now that you are mentioning it, he has not changed files for some time, the others he just rushed through” Kate points out and hurries over, looking over Spencer’s shoulder, scanning the page, “It's the medical file from one of our suspects-” Kate explains while continuing to read, “looks like he has been diagnosed with PTSD after being molested as a child”“He is a BAU agent, he reads that all the time, he can deal with this-” Tony wants to comment but Ktae stops him in his accusation,“Just some days it comes over you when you don’t expect it” Kate scolds him, “Spencer, can you hear me?”Again Gibbs tries to pry at the file in his hand but he is not budging, only panickly looking up at Kate when she places a hand on his back, so she quickly withdraws, apologizing to him while Gibbs starts speaking to him again, “You are okay, kid”Anxious Spencer looks at him for a moment, a clear mistrust written on his face when he looks at the older agent, “Try to breathe!” comforting he smiles at the agent, speaking in a tone with him that Tony wishes he would use with them at least ones. “Someone go look for someone on his team” He orders without changing his team nor taking his eyes of Spencer. “Why don’t you hand me that file, kid” Again he tries to take it out of his grip but he won’t budge, a tear slowly making his way down Spencer’s cheek, “It’s alright” Agitated Spencer starts moving his leg up and down, nervously scanning the room when Gibbs won't stop hoding the file and Kate standing behind him while Tony ran off to go look for Derek. “You are okay” Spencer lets go of the file after that, but only in favor of being able to use his hands, digging his nails into his arm as he presses his lips together, his eyes wide in panic as he looks at the older agent. A plea hidden behind the panic to make it stop. “You are okay kid, you are here with us at the office, nothing is going to happen to you, try to breathe” Gibbs continues to try to guide him through it while Kate looks at the scene in sympathy. She has seen him do this for a former marine before after an interrogation. “Listen to me” Quickly he places the file on the floor next to him, reaching up to Spencer’s hands, who whines, shrinking into himself as they hands begin to touch, “I am sorry but I can’t let you do that” With force Gibbs tries to loosen the grip he has on himself but like he did with the file he won’t budge and grows only more and more agitated,“Gibbs” Kate speaks up worryingly but Gibbs soothes her with a hand gesture,“Talk to me, what is happening?” Scared Spencer looks up at Kate who looks at him in sympathy before assuring him that it's okay, he can tell them what is going on, that they are there to help.“I need you to take a deep breath” Gibbs speaks up again, “It's the only thing that will help you I promise”“I can’t-” Spencer brings out, another tear running down his face. No matter what he tries, there is not enough air coming through his nose, through his mouth. It feels like used air being forced down his throat, like the office has no oxygen left for him, like all he can breathe is dust and the smell of the other agents. Nothing can fill his loúngs enough that he won’t suffocate, it's all being used, all being dusty, sticky even.“You can, in through your nose and out through your mouth, you can do that”Panicky Spencer shakes his head and starts gasping for air and when that won’t help either, jumping up from his seat, pacing up and down between the team’s desks as his legs start feeling more and more numb and the prickling feeling in his fingers starts creeping into his fingers.“Dr. Reid, you need to listen to me” Gibbs tries again, holding him in order to make him follow his orders, “You need to slower your breathing, try it with me, c’mon”“Where is Tony?” Kate mutters and runs over to her desk to pick up her phone in order to call someone on Spencer’s team, “Agent Todd here, you need to get back in here, Dr. Reid is what appears to be a panic attack” He orders Hotch not giving him a moment to deny her request. Even Though he would never do that either way, immediately turning around when he had just arrived at his car and running back to the elevators with Rossi following him without knowing what was going on.“Kid” A voice appears behind Gibbs and with relief he recognises Derek and Tony running into the bullpen, “What happened?”“I can’t breathe” Spencer tells Derek, his posture changing when Derek steps into Gibbs place,“Well we know the procedure, kid” Derek tells him, “In through your nose. You can do it pretty boy” Gently he guides Spencer over to a chair, “C’mon, I am here, you can trust me, we will do it together”“There is not enough air, I can’t”“You can, it's just your genius brain fooling you” Derek tells him, reaching for his hand as Spencer tries to scratch his face, “In through your nose, for three seconds, you can do that kid”“No”“Yes, I have seen you do it” Comforting Derek rubs his thumb over the back of Spencer’s hand, “You try again, one, two, three” Shakinly Spencer follows his order, settled with reappearing setbacks into a rhythm with him by the time Hotch gets there, falling over Spencer in worry,“Are you okay?” Hotch asks, placing a hand on his back, “I am sorry we weren’t there.”“I am okay now” Spencer mutters but his hand still has a death grip on Morgan’s hand.“What happened?” Wordlessly Gibbs hands Hotch the file Spencer had been reading and Hotch understands, looking at his youngest agent in sympathy, “Well let's get you home okay?”“I can stay”“No you will go home kid” Rossi speaks up, “I will take him”“Alright” Hotch allows, “Stay with him” He whispers, “Or do you want someone else coming with you?” Hotch asks, directed at Spencer.“I can stay, really, I am fine”“No, you need to rest, kid” Derek speaks up.“A break will do fine” Gibbs advocates for him, “I was about to get some lunch, why don’t you join me?”“I would like that” Spencer whispers, shakinly standing up while Gibbs grabs his jacket, “I am fine, I promise” He tells the others,“If not let us know” Derek warns him, “And take a break, no case work for now”“He won’t” Gibbs promises,“And no coffee” Tony calls after them, “He is going to give the kid caffeine, I know it”“You can have coffee” Gibbs tells him in the elevator, “It will help you back on your feed”“I know, they never believe you” Spencer tells him with a smile,“I know”“You do?”“oh yes” Gibbs assures him, “I would have hated to sit in my apartment after that too, let's get you a coffee and then back to work.”