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Harry’s POVIt was a cold February evening, it was a clear bright night, we were looking up at the stars from the top floor of our hotel balcony, it was beautiful, the stars were shining and the moon was full.I then looked over at Louis, first I saw his bright sparkling blue eyes look down just as he was taking a drag from his cigarette, how mesmerising he looked breathing in that cigarette smoke and blowing it back out, for me it was all in slow motion.I just couldn’t stop staring at him inhaling on that cigarette, it was so movie like.We had to get up at 5am for our hair and make up, we had an early morning TV interview but all I wanted to do was just sit, just the two of us and admire him forever.That’s our dream for our future, one day we will be free, do what we want and not worry about someone tomorrow morning banging our door down, waking us up for the day ahead.I hope wardrobe gives us clothes we can discreetly match and hope that no one from management notices, they watch every little thing that we do.Only those who know ‘about us’ will notice, we like to give hints and god I hope they do notice, it does give us hope. “Oi what you looking at?” I hear Louis voice calling over, made me jump and broke me from my thoughts of what tomorrow will bring, I just smile and look down blushing.He always makes me blush and so uncontrollably. I watch him stubs out his cigarette in the ashtray on the table, stands up and then takes my hand, he interlocks our fingers and walks me into our hotel room. He then asks “would you like a cup of tea before bed?” , “Yes please babe, I would love a cuppa” he then walks over to the coffee and tea station to boil the kettle.I walk over to the edge of our bed and sit down, I cross my legs, fuck these jeans are getting tight I thought to myself while I was looking at his beautiful tight, round shaped butt. Louis is just standing there looking sooo sexy waiting for the kettle to boil,soon we will cuddle up in bed together.Just as I started to undress for bed I started with my black vans, which I know he loves, he tries to steal them to wear them himself first. The kettle clicks right at the point I'm bending down to untie my shoelaces, I look up and my dick twitches just by watching mine.I can hear him clinking on the other side of the room making our tea, I then roll down my jeans to my ankles and pull them off. Ahhhh the feeling of relief after taking them off. I stand up quietly from the edge of the bed with just my boxers and tank top on. I quietly tiptoe towards Louis and put my arms around his waist and kiss him on the cheek.“Love you gave me a fright” “what are you doing sneaking up on me like that” Louis says. I whisper, in his ear “ You smell so good”. I could see from the corner of my eye looking up at his face, his eyes were crinkled shut with a big smile. Louis likes it when I talk sweet nothings in his ear. He turned round giving me a look of love with his ocean blue eyes while holding our tea in white mugs. Louis proceeds to walk over to the round table with two chairs in the corner of the room, he places the mugs on the table, he grabs the remote and clicks on the TV.He flicks through the TV channels until he finds a sports channel, Louis needs to watch the highlights of today's footy match between Doncaster Rovers and Millsborough or it’ll annoy him. He sits down on one of the seats still looking so sexy, he lifts his feet up onto the footstool and crosses his leg over the other, one hand behind his head and the white mug in his other hand sipping at his tea.I glide over to where Louis sat, I grab my mug and sit on his lap sideways, he takes his hand from his head and puts it around my waist.I love the feeling of relief we get when we can have this time alone together in our hotel room. We feel we can be ourselves and not hide away. This is a big thing for us, we have our management trying constantly to keep our love secret so we don’t loose our fans, but I know they would be happy for us!In this room Louis and I feel freedom the world outside is a form of fiction the fans only know what’s protracted to them. This is just us together. Don't get me wrong we both love our job and what we do and we wouldn't trade it for the world, you never know when your career is over in this industry, we have to live our best lives to the best of our abilities.There are positive and negative sides to this industry. We have to stay positive minded to do our job and it is incredible. We travel the world and we have amazing fans, but our lives is all smoke and mirrors.We get to support our families back home and give them the lifestyle that we have dreamed of for years.The negative side of all this is that we have to hide in the shadows, be abused mentally and physically. If we don’t do what they ask of us there are consequences. We have to portray a clean cut image to our fans and can’t put a step wrong or be in a gay relationship!It’s a lot of pressure on us so young, but it's what we've always wanted and we both hope someday we can be open and honest with the world.The clink of Louis cup on the table makes me jump and brings me out of my thoughts and back to my cup of tea. I get up from his lap and stretch and say “Babe I'm ready for bed now” Louis flicks his eyes up to mine and says “darling give me five more minutes the highlights are just about finished from today’s match” I look back down, smile and walk to the bathroom.In the bathroom, I wash my face from the make up I've been wearing all day. I have to discreetly wear it from management. They’ve caught me a couple of times but I just match my skin tone so they don’t notice. I brush my teeth and floss and then put on my night cream thinking of Louis and smiling, I walk out of the bathroom and flick the light off.Walking towards our bed I can see that Louis is still watching the highlights from the Donny match, I roll my eyes and get into bed. I decide to check my emails. I see there is nothing urgent for me to follow up on. I then open Twitter and OMG I have over 1000 notifications on my account, all from fans sending me love. It really makes me smile when I see posts like this from everyone. It makes me think we would be accepted!!I scroll down through my timeline and I see more articles about our band. I roll my eyes as I see one headline saying “Louis Tomlinson, the party boy has been partying again in the clubs of London all night” this really pisses me off, I know this article is full of bullshit. This is how management wins over the majority of our fans by feeding them fake narratives through the media. Clickbait.I quickly put my phone down annoyed but then look over at Louis in the chair and I pat the bed and ask “are you coming to bed babe?” “It's late now and we're up at 5am remember”Louis gets up from his chair, walks to the bathroom all the while kicking his trainers off. I lie down on the hotel pillows waiting for Louis to emerge from the bathroom. When he does emerge he comes out wrapped in a big white towel smelling of his mint and raspberry body wash, he really does smell incredible. I blush as he walks to his side of the bed waiting intensely for him to drop the towel. Just then he turns around facing the large window and opens the towel wide in slow motion, Louis knows what he’s doing to me, he then lets it fall to his ankles, I bite my bottom lip between my teeth to the point it draws blood, just by looking at his beautiful peach bum. Louis sees what I’ve done and walks over to kiss my lips.He quickly turns around leaving me blushing and pulls back the duvet and jumps into bed beside me. I automatically scoot myself over to the middle of the bed and lie in his arms. He starts play with my curly hair, he loves doing this it calms him. It’s getting pretty long now, he’ll miss it when it gets cut as will I, I'm only growing it out for charity.I then put my hand up to his chest and put my head on his shoulder. I can feel his heartbeat, It feels so good every night to be able to touch each other as management won’t allow us to touch each other, camera are always around. My eyes start to close, I know I'll be asleep soon dreaming of us, I can still hear the tv noise in the background, I know Louis finds it hard to fall asleep straight away, he needs the background noise. Just as I was nearly asleep, I felt a kiss on my forehead saying good night.

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Harry’s POVBang bang bang bang on our hotel room door makes us both jump with fright! That was our usual wake up call to get up and get ready for our busy day ahead.I groan into my pillow, eyes pinched closed as if I just fell asleep five minutes ago. I can hear Louis rushing around somewhere in the room. I throw off the duvet clicking on the lamp and stand up with my eyes peeking open.“Morning love your matcha juice is on the side” Louis says as I head to the bathroom. I smile at him and thank him in my groggy morning voice.I jump straight into the shower and start washing my hair, it really needs a wash, it gets dirty quicker these days, I like to prepare it before Lou our hairdresser arrives.After I finish showering I start to brush my teeth suddenly I can hear Louis on the phone to someone but can't work out what he's saying, his voice is too low!I feel fresh now and smell of strawberries, Louis loves the smell of strawberries, we have great memories from them. I step out of the bathroom and I see Louis on our balcony with a coffee in his hand, phone to his ear and a cigarette in his other hand. He smiles at me but signals to keep quiet by putting his finger up to his mouth. He then mouths to me that he's doing a radio interview. I nod ok to acknowledge him and blow him a kiss.I hear another knock at the door, I walk over to the oak door and peek through the spy hole to see who it is. It’s Niall peeking back at me, he’s making faces, typical Niall he knew I’d check the spy hole.I open the door to let him in laughing as he goes. While being his loud usual self I notice he takes out a mini box of cereal from his hoodie pocket and tears open the lid. I don't know where he finds all the food and where he puts it, he loves his food our Nialler.I give him a funny look I can feel my eyebrows frown together and I ask him “where did you get the cereal?” he shrugs his shoulders and with a mouth full of cereal says “I have an emergency supply in my suitcase”. I signal to Niall where Louis was and mouth he's doing an interview and to keep quiet.I know it can be hard at times with Nialls infectious laugh, even more so when he knows he needs to be quiet.Niall goes over to the round table and throws himself down in one of the chairs all the while still munching on his cereal. I walk over to my suitcase which is on the floor still, we only arrived yesterday and it was late by the time we got to the hotel room.Rummaging through my clothes I’m looking for my comfy track pants and a T-shirt. need to get dressed for Lou coming soon. I put my clothes on pick up my matcha juice and head over to the table and join Niall. We wait patiently for Louis to finish on the phone.A couple of minutes later Louis walks back into the room saying hi to Niall and then tells us about the interview.Our door bangs again and we all jump in fright, “why are management so loud and disrespectful to us?” “Why can’t they just knock” I angerliy express, I look over and all I see is both Niall and Louis shoulders shrug! “This is them telling us the hair and makeup team are on their way” says Niall.Our full on day has officially began, Louis runs over to the door and lets the team in but just as he was about to close the door in walks Tom our manager with his clipboard. That's a sign we're going to get a rundown and probably a telling off of some sort.Great great start to the day.... Not. Lou and Lottie are setting up their work stations in the corner of our room that has the most space.Tom’s phone starts ringing, he turns his back to us and answers and starts to walk to the door again, as he does the three of us look at each other and roll our eyes and think, what was he going to say now.Lottie calls Niall over to her chair so she can start his makeup first for our TV interview which is only 2 hours away. EekI’m getting nervous, Louis walks over to Lou and gets his hair trimmed and styled.The door opens again and Tom, Liam and Zayn walk through. They look as tired as we feel, these early mornings are killing all of us. We are all extremely tired.We have been on the go non-stop for nearly four years. Tom turns to us and asks can we all gather round for our early morning meeting. We all hurry over to the bed and pull our chairs together so we are in a semi circle facing Tom.Right guys here's your schedule for the day, Tom starts to read “Louis has already done our interview with capital FM, next we have your TV interview with This Morning, then you are off for your photo shoot with Smash Hits Magazine, following that you’re heading to the studio to start recording your new album.” Tom continues with a list of appearances, looks like we another long day ahead of us.He then flicks his eyes to Liam who narrows his gaze, “Liam we have just received your hotel bill for the night and it's not good” he says “We see that you spent over £100 on alcohol alone, this isn't a good look for you, the hotel staff are whispering among themselves about your late night room orders, especially the alcohol”. Liam looks down at his hands in shame.I’m sure Liam’s feeling really guilty but this is what it comes down to. We work so hard every day and then we’re pushed into a hotel room for the night with no interaction with anyone and we're not allowed to leave. I think to myself we’re in our rooms alone at night what else is he supposed to do? Liam clears his throat and looks back up at Tom and apologises, he says “I'll try to do better today”.God I wish we could help him more and think of a way we could distract him at night so he doesn't head straight to the mini bar.Tom continues “That's it for now guys,continue with your hair and make for now” “I’ll catch up with you all later.” “Wardrobe will be up soon to fit you out within the next hour, we need you ready and in the cars by 7am.”“The cars are at the front of the hotel” Tom reminds us. I’m looking out the window from my room waiting my turn for my hair to be styled. I can see a large gathering of girls at the front of the hotel. Tom then shouts as he’s leaving “You need to be quick, no stopping for photos or autographs, just walk straight to the car.” “We're on a tight schedule today remember” We all nod simultaneously at Tom's last sentence before he leaves the room.Lou and Lottie call Liam and I over to their stations now that Niall and Louis are finished. Lou starts by spraying my hair with a serum that keeps my wavy curls looking good and shiny while I watch Lottie put concealer under Liam's bags that are under his eyes.I'm sitting in the chair feeling relaxed with Louis humming one of our songs ‘little things’. I’m suddenly brought back to reality out of my relaxed dream, thinking about Louis and how much this song means to us, suddenly Niall causes Louis to laugh uncontrollably about something and it makes me smile to hear them laugh, it’s been a while.Just as Liam and I swap places, the door opens again and in walks the style team to dress us for the day. My eyes quickly scan the rails to see what I can wear, I like some outfits but I pray they don’t ask me to wear clothes I don’t like.It’s now 6.45 and another bloody bang on the door from management again!!! All our heads turn with the look of gloom, we know it’s Showtime, put on the fake smile and pretence that me and Louis don’t talk. We all stand in sync as if hypnotised from our seats, head down dreading what the day has in store.We exit the hotel room and make our way to the cars. I see Tom, whispering in Liam’s ear, probably giving him his tasks for today, he will be telling him to try and keep us separated during our interviews, of course, we give away too many hints to the public, we can’t help it though, when you love someone, it’s hard to look at them differently.We are heading to the US for our next leg of tour ‘On The Road Again’ The tour name is really fitting for us, we literally are on the road all the time , travelling all over the world.We love being on tour though although it’s hard work, we have fun on stage, it’s where we feel we’re free.After today we get to have a week off before we head out and I can’t wait to spend time with all my family and have some downtime, and of course catch up on some sleep!

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Louis’s POVIt was day three of our week off before we leave for the states. I miss Harry so much, he went home to Holmes Chapel to spend some quality time with Anne, Robin and Gem for the week and some very much needed rest.I can’t stop thinking about Harry, he’s all I ever think about. There’s not a day that has passed while on break we haven’t talked on the phone though, he just makes me so bloody happy.

I'm booking a little cottage for a couple of nights in Sheffield for us tomorrow. I can't wait to see Harry and his nice little body. It feels like I've been away from him for weeks and not days, my heart flutters every time I think about him.Tonight we're having a big family meal together and movie night in mums. I have missed everyone, we don't get to be back home very often so I make the most of it when I can.Since being in the band I think I've been home about 10 times. “Lou I'm just going to go and pick up ‘phee’ and ‘dais’ from school, I won't be long, Doris and Ernest are having their nap" mum shouts up to me. “Ok mum see you soon" I shout back down from my bedroom.I jump feeling the vibration of my phone in my trackies, I pull my phone out to see Harry's face on the screen. I pull my phone out and slide across to answer. I then see Harry’s face on the screen he looks so beautiful and glowing from the sun shining down on him from his bedroom window, my stomach turns to butterflies immediately.“Hey love" I say with a big smile on my face. I walk over to lie down on the bed and put my phone on the pillow, I pretend he's here beside me."Are you all packed for our trip away tomorrow" he asks me. "I just have a few bits and pieces then I'm all set, I can't wait to see your sexy naked body on the shaggy rug in front of the fire this time tomorrow,” I could see him chuckle and flush.“Oh I can't wait either I want, no need my hands all over your body and squeeze that firm peach ass of yours”. I can feel my dick getting harder in my boxers, fuck he turns me on so much. I look back at my screen to see him licking his bottom lip and his gorgeous green eyes sparkling with a little glint in them, he knows exactly what he's doing to me.

I smile because I know exactly what he's implying. "Do you want to have some fun since we're alone in our rooms" Harry asks.As Harry turns the camera I hiss “shit look at the size of that” “feels so good baby” Harry says. “God you’re a sight for sore eyes” I reply. “so big”Harry manages to get out while squeezing around his dick, “shit” I curse as he’s pumping his shaft quickly. “Ah fuck” is all Harry manages to get out as he chases his orgasm. I’m clenching down tightly on my cock and throw my head back. “ fucking hell” I grunt. Harry sighs out a heavy breath while tightening his grip. We’re both in sync chasing our orgasms.

Harry winces and moans, “I can’t wait until tomorrow Louis for you to bend me over on that couch" “mmm lou I want you so badly right now, I want you fucking my ass.” my orgasm is near, my breath is quickening as it's building. “Fuckkkkk" I hear Harry moan out as I sense he's also reaching his orgasm, My hips buck up and my tip twitches as I’m wet from my cum.Harry cums a second later while screaming out my name. Harry switches back the camera so I could see his face and he’s all flushed. “ all for me love” I say, Harry nods back and replies “always for you babe”.I love you so so much and can't wait to see you tomorrow" Harry pants as he's also coming down from his high. "I loves ya too darling" I reply with a goofy smile on my face. "I better go and look after the little ones,they will be awake soon and the twins are on their way home from school.

We're having family night tonight with food and a movie,I'll send you some pictures of the night so it feels like you're here with us ok?" I say to him as I head to the bathroom to clean myself up before walk to the door. "yeah we're doing the same thing tonight,”Harry says, “I miss you already, tomorrow isn’t soon enough!” “talk to you later". We both blow kisses to each other before hanging up.I head down the landing to where the twins are sleeping and pop my head round the white door trying not to wake them, it creaked a little but they're still sleeping.

I see they're both still tucked up in bed. I start to head downstairs sliding my hand along the wooden staircase, deep in thought of Harry and his moans when the front door swings open, it’s the twins running towards me, I squat down and spread my arms open to greet and hug them tightly.

"louuuuuuu" they scream. I’m happy to see them too and can’t wait to spend the evening with them seeing them.I stand up and grab their hands and walk over to the long white dining table. I sit in the middle so they're on either side of me, they’re looking up at me with huge smiles on their faces. "Lou we're having roast dinner tonight, your gran and grandad are bringing over dessert for the movie" mum says from the open plan kitchen behind me.

I pull out my phone from my trackies pocket, open the camera and take a picture with phee and dais with mum in the background, I smile at how beautiful the picture is and of course I open my WhatsApp and send it to Harry with the caption "wishing you were here x".

I stand up from my chair and walk over to the kitchen to help mum prepare dinner, there are 11 of us tonight for dinner. I really miss these days with my family, especially mum, we’re like friends more than mother and son, I treasure my time with her and my siblings when I’m home. I can tell mum anything except how life on the road really is or how management treat us. I wouldn’t want her worrying. When I’m away from them for so long at times I really do miss them and the feeling of doing normal little every day things like this. I’m home.

I feel my phone vibrating in my pocket and instantly smile, I know it's Harry, especially after sending the picture just two minutes ago. He adds a heart emoji to my picture and replies with one of him, Gemma, Anne and Robin cuddled up on their big couch with a glass of red wine each and of course Harry and his peace sign.Mum looks over to me with a smile, she knows who makes me smile like that. Just as I added a heart emoji and replied, my phone starts ringing.

My smile drops and mum notices and gives me a hug. My mind starts to get anxious and filled with thoughts “what the fuck does he want now, we're on our week off and shouldn't be dealing with work related stuff” I huff to mum. She’s a little confused from my words and reaction and gives me another hug.

Mum knows a hug makes me feel a lot better. I click on the answer button, I walk over and out to the backyard to have a cigarette, I know this isn't going to be good and I don't want to draw attention to my frustration when the twins are here."Hello Tom, what's the problem" I say to him. "Hi Louis, we need you to come down to London tomorrow for a meeting about something that has come up for you" he says in his demanding tone. I take a long drag from my cigarette, shut my eyes and exhale the smoke from my mouth."Fuck Tom you know it's my week off, can't it wait?, I also have plans with Harry tomorrow" I beg him. “No Louis it’s in your contract that when we request your presence for a meeting of any sort, you have to fulfill it!” he answers sternly .

“What’s this meeting about anyway Tom?”I ask him anxiously as I pace the grass outside.”You know I can’t tell you the details over the phone Louis, be in our offices at 1pm tomorrow” he replied. I pinch the bridge of my nose and shut my eyes “Fineee, I will be there” I whine back annoyed. Just like that Tom ends the call.I’m really worried about what this so called meeting is about, why do they need me to be there tomorrow. I throw my cigarette into the bucket and open the white French doors and walk back in with my head down. I try to put all my worrying thoughts to the back of my mind and focus on our family night. I pray that Harry will take the news that our romantic getaway has to be delayed, well at least for a few hours anyway. “Oh Lou what’s wrong?” Mum asks me immediately as I enter the kitchen, she can see my eyes are full of anxiety and anger.

“they’ve requested me to a meeting tomorrow in London and I can’t get out of it” I say back with my voice trembling. She wraps her arms around me and squeezes me tightly, but this hug from mum doesn’t help this time. “It will be alright love, it will be okay don’t worry, I’ll be on the other end of the phone if you need me” she softly says back. My eyes flick to the front door to see lottie, fizzy, gran and grandad walk through. They all have big smiles on their face as they join us in the kitchen.

I shout out to them “Hey everyone, great to see you guys” I smile saying before giving them all a hug, “let’s enjoy tonight, I can’t wait to have mums homemade mash” everyone laughs!

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Louis’ POVI spring my eyes open, I hear my phone going off with the alarm I set for 9am. I roll over to my side and switch it off. I didn’t get a good sleep from thinking of what the meeting is about and not having Harry beside me to calm me down, there’s just that little extra bit of specialness to him, he always seems to relax me in times like this. I check my phone and see I have a text from Harry, my heart starts to beat a bit faster as I open the message. “Morning babe, good luck today, call me the minute you get out of the meeting x” He also sent a picture of him in his lavender house coat and a cheesy grin. There he goes again making me smile, I send back a selfie from my bed and reply “Will do, loves ya and can’t wait to see you later x”.I drag myself off my double bed. I’m dreading this meeting today. I go to the bathroom and have a quick shower. After my shower I’m looking through my wardrobe, what shall I wear, nope I’m not putting on a suit. I grab a black t-shirt, grey trackies and my denim jacket with fur on the collar. It’s quite cold outside and I know Harry loves to wear this jacket too, in a way he’ll be with me at the meeting.I open my bedroom door and I instantly smell bacon mum knows I love a bacon sandwich, she’s making sure I don’t head to London on an empty stomach, she really is an angel. I make my way down the wooden stairs and head towards the kitchen. “Morning, I’m just making you a bacon sandwich for your journey and I have coffee in your travel mug” mum says to me with a bright smile. “Thanks mum” I say while giving her a kiss on the cheek and hugging her tightly. I grab the sandwich, coffee and car keys from the table and head to the front door. “thanks again, I’ll call you later mum, loves ya”I jump into my car, click on some greenday for the long three hour drive and hope I don’t run into too much traffic. I don’t want to be late and give management something else to complain about.I get to the building with five minutes to spare. I’ve chewed all my nails off on the drive down, Harry won’t be happy, I’m just very nervous, I have this bad feeling, it’s just me that’s been summoned so I know that’s not good. I’m now here outside and I guess it’s time to face the music. I get out of my car and tilt my head up to the tall black building that’s full of windows giving a view onto the river. I huff to myself and take a big gulp and walk into the building, my trainers squeak along the polished marble floor as I head to the elevator for the 8th floor.The elevator opens, I walk in and lean against the back wall while my foot is tapping like mad and I’m counting the floor numbers as it goes up. The doors open and I meet eyes with Tasha. She’s sitting behind the big glass reception desk, she nods and smiles to me, points to her left to direct me to the conference room then tells me they’re all waiting. I nod back and say thank you and make my way down the long corridor which brings me to the room. “Fuck” I mutter to myself, I know this isn’t good. I’m walking down and I can see them all sitting at the long table through the glass, all eyes on me as I reach the door. It feels like I’m walking to my death on death row, especially this length of the corridor, it feels like forever to get here.I pull down the silver handle and open the glass door with a fake smile on my face greeting them. “Louis good to see you but you’re two minutes late, it’s not acceptable, we’re waiting for you and have a busy day” Tom says, I look around and all I see are unhappy faces. “Erm sorry I couldn’t get a parking spot, it won’t happen again” I quickly reply. “Take a seat and relax while we pass out the files” Cora our US promoter says while flicking through her big bundle of files.What is she doing here in London, we only see her when we’re in the US, my brain starts to tick. Tom clearing his throat brings me back to the room. “Louis as you’re aware we’re going to the states for a few months, we have a few tasks for you to fulfil while we’re there and we think we have great opportunities for you and the band if you complete these tasks” Tom says sternly. “Ok, what are these tasks?” I ask with hesitation. “We require you to go out partying a little more, get your image out there and the band in the headlines, you will be paired with a girl when we get to LA” he continues on explaining. My body breaks out in a sweat panic, my hands start to shake in my lap, what does he mean by this? I just know there’s more coming!I jump from my seat in shock hearing this, slamming my palms on the table. The chair I was sitting on falls to the floor. “You can’t do this to me again, you promised the last time it wouldn’t happen again and that Harry and I could be together openly” I shout back at them. The room went silent for a moment. “Settle down Louis, remember you signed and agreed to this contract and we own you and we can do what we like in the band’s best interest” Tom replies in a harsh tone.I huff, grab the chair from the floor and sit back down. Im trying to take in what they’re asking again of me “I’m begging you please, stop this, I can’t do it anymore” my voice trembles. “Sorry no, we can’t and won’t stop it, all agreements are in place from our side and the girls side, it’s a done deal” Cora explains with a smirk on her face. What a bitch Cora turned out to be I think to myself. “Oh and by the way, we have booked you a hotel for the night here in London, your going to Ministry of Sound later, dress nicely and we will supply you with the drinks and some groupies” Tom adds, just as I was about to leave.I stop and turn round to face them with pure anger on my face. I can’t hide my rage any longer. “No I can’t make it to the club, you know I have plans with Harry, I told you this on the phone yesterday” I bark back. Tom shrugs his shoulders and says “hmmm yeah that’s why we booked the club tonight, there’s rumours online about you two meeting up, again we had to shut them down” I slap my hands to my sides and sigh. I turn back round and open the door to leave. On walking back to my car my brain starts to think, how can I get Harry to me? I suddenly get a lightbulb moment and start putting my plans in place as soon I’m in my black Range Rover and out of ear shot from the world. I actually think this plan might work

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Harry’s POVI pull up outside Lou’s apartment. I’m so happy she was willing to help us. It’s getting dark so hopefully no one sees me entering. I know paps and fans hang around here just in the off chance we turn up. I walk briskly up the five stone steps to the red door and knock quietly all the while looking over my shoulder to make sure nobody is watching. This is a risky move especially with what Louis has planned for tonight!Lou opens the door and greets me with a wide smile and gestures for me to come in. “Hi Lou, have you got everything we need for tonight” I ask as I walk in. “Harry it’s good to see you and yes, Louis rang ahead and gave me the low down of the plan” Lou replies while still smiling but with a hint of glee on her face! We walk straight into the kitchen to the left as you enter the hallway. I pull out one of the leather bar stools and sit at the kitchen island. Lou is opening the cupboard across from me, she reaches up for two wine glasses and opens a bottle of red. “Cheers babe to operation goose” she says while handing me a large glass of wine. “I’m so nervous about this, it’s so risky” I say while taking a large gulp of my drink, Lou laughs!I take out my phone as Lou leaves the room to send a quick text to Louis telling him that I made it here safely and we’re on plan. Lou walks back into the kitchen with her hands full of clothes, makeup, shoes and wigs for me to try on. My eyes light up by the selection of items.Lou starts by putting my hair into plaits, then ties it up, this will stop my hair from being seen under the wig. I know I will sweat in the club later.My eyes start to wander over to all the clothes hanging over the grey couch. There’s a few items that have caught my eye. I take a big gulp of my wine as my thoughts drift to what’s going to happen later. “What do you want to wear tonight Harry? I will match your makeup to the outfit” Lou asks, bringing me back to the room after been lost in my thoughts.“I’ll go with the black long sleeve blouse, that one will cover my tattoos on my arms and chest, the black tights to hide my hairy legs, oh and the rainbow sparkling shorts, mmmm for shoes I’ll wear the red ankle boots” “would these all look ok Lou?” I ask, “I think I’ve matched it all ok”. “Great choice Harry, Eeekkk I can’t wait to see you in them” Lou squealed. She grabs her makeup bag and starts covering up my cross tattoo on my hand, that’s a dead giveaway of who I am.After my cross is covered, Lou applies makeup to my face, she even added a small set of eyelashes. “Shit are we really doing this” I ask a bit nervous as the clock is ticking to pull this plan off. “Hell yes we’re doing this” she replies excitedly. Lou then tells me to close my eyes, I feel her putting on the long curly blonde wig, she then glues the sides down so it won’t slip off in the hot club. After a few minutes she then tells me to open my eyes, she’s standing there with a mirror and I look, ‘beautiful’ it feels sooo good. She gives me a look with sparkle in her eyes and I can see her tears forming, she just nods, no words are needed, I know what she’s thinking. I get up quickly and hurry to change my clothes.Five minutes later there’s a knock to the door and I stop in my tracks. My head shoots over to look at Lou in nervousness of who it could be. Lou runs to answer. When she walks back into the kitchen her brother Paul and her boyfriend James walks in dressed in clubbing clothes. Paul is going to escort me to the club so it doesn’t look suspicious. We need to make it look like two couples out clubbing. I finish off my wine, I know the taxi will be here in 10 minutes. We still need to stop off at the hotel first to pick up the room key, Louis left it in an envelope at reception, then we will go on to the club.The taxi arrives, we all get in. We head to the hotel, I quickly text Louis to ask the name he left at reception on the envelope ‘Miss Harriet Walker’ he texts back. I start to chuckle at the name, then I tell lou, she’s going into the hotel to pick the key up for me. Paul, James and I wait in the taxi as Lou runs into the hotel. My feet start tapping uncontrollably with nerves, I peer out the window and my thoughts start to wander. I worry how tonight will be. Lou returns from picking the key up, I take a deep breath as we drive on down to the club.We pull up outside and can already hear the beat of the music. We quickly pay and step out and hurriedly walk to the entrance, Paul gives his name at the door and the security opens the velvet rope for us. We booked a booth near the VIP area, directly across from where Louis will be. This way we can keep our distance but still have a good view of the area without being caught by anyone that’s with him, and hope nobody will recognise me.We weave our way through the crowd of people dancing. We arrive at the round white leather booth. The minute I sit down my eyes scan the area and I find Louis, there he is, in the middle of the VIP lounge surrounded by girls and Tom. Fuck I mumble to myself. I see Tom has supplied the table with a bottle of Goose Vodka and red bull, Louis favourite drink. They were in big buckets, each with a large sparkler, trying to draw attention to everyone in the club, I know their tactics, it’s all about Louis, putting him on display like an animal in a zoo. I can see by Louis face, I know him very well to see he’s really uncomfortable with it all. I also know that fake smile.I’m drawn back to the reality we’re here, doing this when I hear a voice, it’s a waitress at our table taking our drink order. “A bottle of red wine, 4 shots of tequila and a gin and tonic, please” Paul orders, I can’t talk or it would give the game away.We clink our shot glasses together and neck the tequila. I need this shot so bad, my nerves are shattered at the fear of getting caught. If we do it’s the band’s reputation. I can imagine the headlines if I get recognised! I look over again to the VIP area and we lock eyes, his ocean blue eyes staring at me, I look down for a moment and smile to myself.I bring my hand up to my chest and sign an L shape. I pat my chest three times to tell him I’m here and I love him. He brings his index finger up to his nose and rubs it in acknowledgment, he then flicks his tongue out to the side of his mouth, then smiles.Suddenly I saw from the corner of my eye, Tom walking over to Louis table. He had a long legged blonde girl with him, his arm was around her back guiding her towards Louis. He then introduced louis to her, Louis immediately stiffened his body, but he knows he has to play this game so he plasters his fake smile on. I watch them interact with each other, the girl is starting to get really touchy with Louis, it’s driving me mad watching this, but I know he has to do it. Still I can’t help but feel the emotions stirring up inside, I don’t think I can handle much more.I turn my head back to Paul with anger and grip my wine glass in frustration, just as I do, the glass breaks and shatters in my hand, everyone looks our way. “Fuck, we need to get out of here” I quickly say to Lou. She nods to me in agreement. We get up from our table and briskly walk towards the exit trying not to bring anymore unnecessary attention to us.Once outside the club we run towards the taxi stand and jump into one, “phew glad that’s over” says Paul, “I thought we were caught there”.Paul tells the driver the hotel address first then Lou’s for them. “I’ll wait for Louis at the hotel to get back, I think that’s enough sneaking around for one night” I say quietly, I don’t want the taxi driver to recognise my voice. “Hopefully he won’t be too much longer, thank you all for tonight, but I just want Louis next to me, I know he doesn’t want to be there so I want it over for him” Lou gives me a sad look and holds my chin up.I arrive at the hotel, just as I open the hotel door to Louis room, my phone vibrates with a text from Q Louis telling me Tom is making him go back to his apartment for an after party. This is bullshit I pace the room floor with anger. Two seconds later another message comes through from Louis saying he told the taxi driver to go around the block and come back for him.My heart flutters, I know he’s on his way to see me.

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Harry’s POVWe all arrive together in a black SUV jeep with tinted windows at Gatwick airport. We can hear the fans screaming as we pull up to the entrance, they’ve been waiting hours for us to arrive. They start banging harshly on all our windows and surround the car, hoping to catch a glimpse of us. We all look at each other as if to say ‘who’s going first.’I pull out my sunglasses from the pocket of my white button down shirt and slide them on. The camera flashes from the paps coming through the window are blinding, and we’re not even out of the car yet!I was just about to open the door when, “Louis switch places with Zayn before you get out of this car, I don’t want you and Harry pictured together” Tom barks from the front of the car. Zayn quickly climbs over the seat to join me in the back, squashing us all in the process and then Louis does the same to get to the front.“Sorry bro” Zayn whispers to me just as the door slides open for us to get out. The minute we get out the fans surge forward towards us but thank god our security team is holding up the wall of fans all be it with great difficulty. We pave our way through the crowd of screaming fans, they’re trying to touch us, I even got my hair pulled from a fan. We run to the airport doors we can check in.We take a few pictures with some fans inside but only a couple. We don’t have time to stop and chat, we need to catch our flight to New York. Check in was quick, we get to do it in the private area of the airport, we then head to the business lounge to relax before our flight.We gather round at the corner of the lounge and sit together. Louis sits beside me and stretches his arm out grazing mine on the way to rest it in the chair behind me. It’s hard not to touch in public, we try to steal little moments and hope management don’t notice, if they do it will be another lecture. I love sitting beside Louis, I press my knee against his and he smiles, it gives me butterflies every time.I shoot my eyes up, I can hear Niall’s laugh from across the room walking towards us with a plate stacked with food. Of course he has food, especially since it’s free in the business lounge. Technically it’s not, it’s part of the business ticket price but Niall thinks it’s free. Who am I to burst his bubble! I shake my head and chuckle to myself seeing him, you think I would be used to it by now but it still makes me laugh every time.I turn my head back to Louis and whisper in his ear, “I’m going to send out ‘I study rainbows’ to the fans to show some love” His eyes flick back to me quick, “Love that’s a bit risky don’t you think? but I do like the idea to send a message to our fans” Louis replies. “I will send it just before we take off, this way they can’t do anything to us or remove it while we’re in the air, Fans will know if removed after take off it wouldn’t be us”. I reply with a little laugh.Our flight is called so we head to the gate and board. We find our seats, Louis is at the window, I’m in the middle with Liam on the aisle seat, Zayn and Niall are on the opposite side.I quickly open twitter, write out the tweet and hit send. That’s it’s sent, I turn my phone off and lay my head down on Louis’ shoulder and try to catch a few hours sleep. It’s going to be a long flight.We land at JKF in New York and are hurried out the side entrance to a long black limo waiting to take us to our hotel in the centre of the city. As we reach Brooklyn Bridge we all take turns popping our heads out of the sunroof to take pictures of the beautiful skyline of New York. “Man this view never gets old” Liam says just as we arrive to our hotel.We have just stepped inside our hotel room. I surprise Louis by flipping him around by his waist and kiss him passionately against the oak door “I’ve been waiting all day to do this to you” he mumbles to me between kisses all the while he’s rubbing his hands up and down my sides. He starts to unbutton my white shirt slowly, I rip it open and throw it to the floor and say oops, I start to grind against his cock, I can feel him getting harder every time I brush against him. “ Mmm” he moans out. I pull his pants down, they slide down to his ankles. He kicks off his shoes and starts to unbuckle my belt then pulls on the zipper. “Louis I need you now” I groan.I pull his white boxers down and immediately his hard cock springs up and hits his stomach, I place my hand to the base of his throbbing cock and I start pumping him up and down. “Fucking hell Harry, this feels so good” Louis pants.Louis then flips me around so my back is now against the door and gets down on his knees. He is now eye level with my cock. He yanks my jeans and boxers in one quick motion. His eyes quickly flick up to me with pure lust in them. He llicks his lips and opens his mouth. He wets my hard cock with some saliva. “Holy fuck Louis, suck my cock now” I try to moan out, but it breaks up, he’s so good at sucking my cock it renders me speechless.Louis rubs his thumb over my tip where the saliva is and slowly drags it down my shaft till he gets to my base. He leans forward, opens his mouth and takes in my full cock and starts to suck on it. My head flys back in pleasure and I groan “Lou, fuck so good babe, love your mouth, so warm and wet”He continues to suck up and down and occasionally flicking his tongue around my tip. He knows doing that makes me moan loud, it’s so sensitive. I grip his hair, my knees are starting to go weak in pleasure. He puts one of his hands on my hip to keep me in place. I feel my tip hitting the back of his throat. He moans out, my god the vibrations from his moan is really making me more horny. I can’t help but buck my hips up more, he gags on my big cock.I keep bucking my hips forward really going deep into his mouth now “ I’m close baby” I groan. His pace picks up and he starts pumping my base again, I’m sure he can feel my cum approaching. The sweat is dripping from my hair, I tug on his hair more, it makes him move faster, he knows I’m near my orgasm. Louis takes my cock out of his mouth and licks from the bottom of my base all the way to my tip and slips it back in again. “Yes Louis just like that” I pant out as I know my orgasm is coming.Just at that moment my cum shoots into his mouth. Louis swallows it full, wiping his mouth, he looks at me with hunger in his eyes “I love you” I stammer out coming down from my high. “I loves ya too darling” he whispers back to me as he gets up from his knees.I know Louis is still really turned on and hard by giving me head, I grab his hand and lead us to the king size bed in the middle of the room. The cotton sheets are cold, I push him back onto the bed and crawl on my hands and knees towards him. I straddle his hips feeling his cock hit my ass cheeks. “Mmmm what are you going to do to me now Mr. Styles” he asks cheekily with a sparkle in his eyes.I kiss Louis on his forehead, then his lips and slowly slide down his body kissing him as I go lower till I reach his cock. He grabs a pillow and places it under his hips. I put his throbbing cock in my mouth and start sucking. I know it won’t take long before he orgasms just by the feeling in my mouth. I’m going down on his full shaft, up and down then I wet my finger and slide it into his ass. “Ohhhh, god Harry yes” he moans out loudly. I scratch against his prostate, he groans “Harry please, fill me up” I pull out my finger and put my full hand in my mouth as he watches me wet my fingers. I push two of them back in and find his prostate again striking it. Louis grabs at the sheets, I then push in another, “feel so full” he moans while buckling his hips like crazy now. Just like that he grips the bedding again tight and cums in my mouth.I crawl back up beside him and lay on my back, I start cuddling into his chest, we’re both sweating, we look around the room, this is the first we’ve seen it since opening the door and we both laugh! I look up and kiss him, we kiss for what feels like forever but we’re both still out of breath. We roll to face each other and smile. This love is our love and I never want it to end.A harsh bang to our door breaks our gaze and we both jump to our feet and quickly try to get dressed before answering.I walk to the door while buttoning up my shirt and doing up my belt, I turn around and wait to open the door to make sure Louis is decent, we don’t know who’s at the door, but I do have a suspicion of who it is.I look through the spy hole and of course it’s fucking Tom. I mouth to Louis it’s Tom, his eyes immediately go wide and runs to the table and chairs so it doesn’t look like we’ve just had sex! My mind suddenly starts to think were we too loud? could someone have heard us, are we caught?I open the door and Tom brushes past me, pushing me out the way without even looking or speaking to me. Fuck this isn’t a good sign when he does that. He heads over to Louis at the table. “Harry we need to have a little chat about the stunt you pulled today” he barks still without looking at me. My hands start to sweat with worry.I walk over to him feeling shrunk. He opens his phone and shows me my ‘I study rainbows’ tweet from earlier. “What the fuck were you thinking sending this out” he screams at me, his face going bright red with anger. My eyes fill with tears from him screaming. “I - I” is all I managed to get out. “I’ve had 100s of calls, emails the lot from the press looking for a story on this. It has blown up all over the internet” he angrily said. I can see through my tear filled eyes Louis’ anger from the way Tom is speaking to me. I try to speak again but Tom cuts me off before I get a word out. “Tomorrow we’re shooting the music video for Perfect, you two will be separated all day for punishment” he said before storming out of the room.I turn to Look at Louis and fall to the floor in tears, he runs over, hugs me tightly and tells me “darling don’t worry, everything is going to be ok”We get into bed and try sleeping ahead of the shoot tomorrow. Louis just holds me in his arms and smothers me with little kisses to try sooth me until I fall asleep.

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Louis’s POVThe morning light gleams in from the floor to ceiling windows in our room. It stirs me awake feeling the warm sun on my face. I peek my eyes open to see the clock on the night stand says 8.45am. I lean forward and kiss Harry on his shoulder, our bodies still intertwined from last night. God he's so beautiful as I look down at him. Harry grabs my hand, he lifts it up to his mouth and kisses my knuckles, he then stretches to wake up.Today is going to be a hard day for us, we know what’s in store after Toms outburst yesterday, we're being punished after Harry's tweet, yet we have to look happy for the music video. Harry and I wrote the song together, will our fans who believe in our relationship read between the lines, we wrote it from the heart. It’s also true we do love to have secret little rendezvous and midnight drives with the windows down.I can hear a lot of noise coming from outside our room, this means the producers and crew are setting up for the day. They actually closed off the whole floor to other guests to shoot and we don’t have much time to complete. It has to be all done today, no pressure, our tour starts soon.Harry turns round and snuggles into me. "I don't want to get up and face the day" he murmurs into my neck. "I know love but it will be ok, we will get through it and come back later and cuddle up" I say while stroking his hair to add some comfort. I kiss him on the lips, get up and head to the bathroom, “I’ll shower first, you take longer than me” I tell Harry, he just nods. After my shower I walk back into the room and see Harry still lying in bed, his back to me facing the window. I rip back the sheets and smack his ass "Get up lazy" I chuckled. He immediately leaps with fright, runs towards me and pulls me to into him, he plants a big sloppy kiss on my lips. My eyes crinkle in laughter, I can’t help but kiss him back.Harry walks towards the bathroom to get ready, I walk over to make my morning coffee and have a cigarette. I love the peace and quiet in the mornings. I like to sit and gather my thoughts, I enjoy every moment I get with Harry. Mornings and late evenings is our time. My lips curl into a smile thinking about him and what our life will be like in the future. I hear my phone ringing from the nightstand, I put my cigarette out in the ashtray and walk over and answer it. I tut to myself as per usual it's Tom. "Hello” I say. "Louis, get yourself down to the catering room for breakfast. We are having our morning run down in five minutes, its room 601” Tom demands. "Ok, we just need to get dressed and we will be down" I say quickly while going through my suitcases for something comfy to wear.Harry walks out of the bathroom looking a sight with a towel on his head and another around his waist. "Hurry we only have five minutes to get dressed and be down for breakfast" I say to Harry while pulling out a red t-shirt and black trackies to put on. "Shit that's not much time to get ready, my hair is still soaking" Harry says trying to towel it dry. He then pulls out a white Kiss band t-shirt and grey trackies, hopping to the door while trying to put his long dangly leg in his trousers.We get to the catering room, I scan round the tables to see who’s already here. Immediately I spot Zayn isn't here yet, I hope he doesn't get punished for being late. Harry and I greet everyone and head to the buffet. I grab some toast and bacon and a coffee, thoughts flood back of home of my mum. Harry picks up some pancakes and we walk over to the table to sit beside the rest of the boys. Still no sign of Zayn, this isn't good.Tom walks over to our table with his famous clipboard tucked under his arm. "Morning all, we had an emergency in the early hours, Zayn needed medical attention and won't be part of the shoot today. Unfortunately we can't cancel today as our schedule is too tight to reshoot" he explained. “We’ll shoot Zayn’s part when he’s well enough” All our eyes flick to each other's with worry for Zayn “He collapsed in his room and is being treated for dehydration in the hospital and will need a few days rest” he continued to inform us. “Jesus Christ can we go see him?” Liam asks. “ No, you can’t, we have this music video to shoot, which is starting in an hour so go get to wardrobe now.” Tom says sternly.We all get up from the table and walk down the hallway. “This isn’t right” I say to the guys, they all nod in agreement with me. “I will give him a ring the minute I get a chance between takes” Liam says. “Thanks lad” I reply.We walk into wardrobe and see they have along the wall five chairs in front of mirrors with bulbs all around them, rails of clothes are on the other side of the room. Harry goes first as they want to shoot a scene of him trying on a suit with a cute bow tie, it brings out his feminine side. He looks so handsome in the suit, I can’t help but stare and admire him through the mirror.It was my turn next and of course I got to play with a football, I actually miss playing football but at least I get to enjoy something I like, my mood is getting better. The producers bring in a luggage trolley, we’re supposed to be chaotic, this was easy for Liam and I, we did cause chaos with it. It’s good to act out, clears some of our anger! We had a right giggle to ourselves messing about with it too.Liams up next, he’s actually getting a tattoo for his section, man, I’m actually jealous, I want another tattoo but it was fun to watch it being done on the directors small monitor, it looked wicked in black and white.Niall is last, and of course he’s playing his guitar and showing off his golf skills. That boy either always has food, a guitar or a golf club in his hands but that’s just our Nialler, I wouldn’t change him for the world.The last scene of the night is all of us on the roof of the hotel, wow the views are unbelievable from up here. “And that’s a wrap guys” our director calls. Finally we can find out how Zayn is and see if he’s ok.We all head to Liams room where we can do a group call with him. “Hiya mate, what happened to you, are you ok?” Liams asks Zayn. “No man, I’ve been hooked up to a drip since this morning, the doctors told me I’m very dehydrated and have exhaustion” he says groggily. “Shit mate that’s not good, we’re all worried about you” Niall speaks up. “I will be discharged tomorrow so I will see you all then, I appreciate you guys so much” Zayn says before he hangs up.“Liam let’s have a fifa tournament on the PlayStation” Niall suggests, I think he’s trying to distract Liams mind from worrying about Zayn and he won’t head to the mini bar again. “Sure, let’s go” Liam agrees.Harry and I look at each other and side nod to leave and start to head back to our room “Let’s order room service and watch a film in bed” I suggest. “ I couldn’t think of anything better” Harry replies. I pick up the phone and press the room service button, I order us a cheese pizza with fries, salmon salad and a couple of beers.We’re both resting on the bed, I nudge Harry to get undressed as I’m taking my own clothes off while waiting for our food to arrive. I still keep my pants on as I have to answer the door. Harry gets straight into bed while setting up the laptop. Shortly the hotel door knocks, I get up to answer, our food has arrives and I carry the tray over to the king size bed. We start tucking into our food and Harry flicks on the movie “The fault in our stars” he loves romantic movies, I got to admit so do I.

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Louis’s POV“Alright lad, how you feeling after spending a night in hospital?” I ask Zayn with concern in my voice “Feel like shit, the doctors are advising me to stay in here another day at least as my results still aren’t good” Zayn says with a shaky voice. I sit up in bed leaning my back against the high cream headboard, I’m really worried for Zayn’s health, he’s not been eating very much and has lost a lot of weight in the last six months.We were concerned all of us, but he told us he was having some stomach issues and he was getting it looked at.“Listen lad, don’t worry we will come see you today and cheer you up” I assure Zayn. “Cheers mate that means a lot” Zayn replies “We will give you a call when we’re on our way but for now get some rest, loves ya, bye” I hang up and sling my legs over the side of the bed, need to get ready and talk to the other guys, give them an update on Zayn.Harry has gone shopping with Lottie and Lou early while shops are quieter, he doesn’t want to be noticed by fans. He learned his lesson from last year, he was stuck in a shop for hours before security could come and rescue him. He even lost a shoe in the scuffle to the car. But he really does love his fashion, which is why he still takes these chances. I can’t wait for his usual private fashion show later. I smile to myself reminiscing his previous one, prancing around with those emerald green eyes and giving his hair a flick. Oh, he is just so beautiful!I walk to the cream desk and turn on the tv just for some background noise. It’s lonely here when Harry isn’t with me.I look at my phone and decide to text mum. I give her a little update of how things are going and ask how everything is back home. I just finish reading her text when the door opens and Harry walks in with only a few shopping bags this time.He instantly smiles when he sees me, he hurry’s over and kisses me on the lips, his lips are so soft and moist, we kiss for what seems like forever. I move away first and Harry groans, “We need to have a catch up with Niall and Liam straight away about Zayn” I inform Harry, his eyebrows raise a little in worry. “Ok babe, let’s go now” he grabs my arm and he put it around his waist. He then puts his arm around my shoulder and we head out to find Niall and Liam.We arrive at Niall’s door first and knock, Niall shouts, coming, from inside. He opens up still in his PJ pants, white tank top with bed head “Yo, what’s up?” Niall asks, he can see the look of worry on my face. “We need to all have a meeting together in Liams room, I’m not long off a call with Zayn” I tell him. “Shit ok, let’s go” Niall replies while shoving his feet into his shoes.We all walk briskly to Liams room, knock on the oak door, we patiently wait for Liam to answer. After a few minutes of waiting, Liam hasn’t answered, we look at each other and shrug our shoulders. I knock again with a bit more force, still nothing. “I’m worried now” I say to Harry, “I will ring his phone see where he is” Niall says, pulling his phone up to his ear. I lean my head against the door and I hear Liams phone ringing from inside the room, I bang harshly this time, he’ll answer if he’s in. He’ll think it’s management at the door. I hear a groan, then a bang as if he’s fell out of bed, then I hear shuffling of feet coming towards the door. I breathe a sigh of relief knowing he’s there and by the sounds of it things ok.Liam opens the door just ajar enough we only see part of him, the smell from Liams breath nearly knocks me out when he peaks his face in the doorway. “Hey man, can you let us in, we have an update on Zayn and don’t want anyone to hear” I ask gently. Liam hesitates for a sec but then opens the door. As we walk further into the room my eyes scan all over, all I can see are empty bottles scattered around, clothes everywhere and junk food wrappers.Shit he’s gone on a right bender over Zayn’s news. “Sorry guys, I couldn’t help myself last night but I couldn’t shake my demons” Liam says with guilt written all over his face. “It’s ok Li, we will help you and we also understand, we’re all in this together” Harry tells him while giving him a hug.I lean against the table and the guys sit in front of me at the end of the bed. Their arms are folded with worried looks on their faces. I fill the boys in on my earlier conversation with Zayn. We all agreed that we would go visit Zayn in hospital ASAP, we don’t want him to be alone.Niall leaves for his room to get dressed and Harry and I stay with Liam. “Mate get yourself in the shower you will feel better” I tell him. He nods and staggers over to the bathroom. Now that Liam is in the shower, Harry and I start cleaning up his room and get rid of all the evidence from last night. We know if management find out and see his room the way it is there will be hell to pay later. We are brothers and we look out for each other as best we can, we try to keep them off our backs as much as possible. I'm sick of all this punishment they give us, even though they hand out rules and contract requirements etc, they’ve done this to us. They’ve caused all this pain and we can’t do a thing about it.Liam is dressed and looking better, now we’re heading to meet back up with Niall in his room. We’re walking to the elevator, it’s just around the corner but just as we turn the corner we lock eyes with Tom. “Eh excuse me boys, but where do you think you’re going without telling me or security?” he asks storming towards us. “We’re going to see Zayn” I explained. “No chance of doing that, it’s too risky for you all to be out in public with no security, now turn around and go back to your rooms” he barked while twirling his finger in a turn around motion. “No, you can’t do this to us, we want to go see our mate” Liam begs but Tom won’t budge. I can see him pulling out his phone and calling security, I hear him tell them to get up to our floor immediately and informs them to make sure we do not leave this hotel floor. We look at each other in disgust, we huff and turn round and head back to our rooms with our heads hanging. “This is so wrong what they’re doing to us” Niall mutters under his breath.“I know Niall but give me half an hour, I think I have a plan. I’ll call you both shortly once I work out the details on what we can do to get out of this” I whisper so Tom doesn’t hear.After some thought and pacing the room floor I text Niall and Liam the plan. Harry and I are going to do a twitter live together, it will be a good distraction and bring management to our room. Our room is at the end of the corridor and around to the left, therefore Niall and Liam can sneak out without being noticed. I know it’s another risk but we will take it. It would be great to actually talk to our fans, also Niall and Liam need to get to Zayn. He’s our top priority right now. It’s all set up, I send a thumbs up to the boys, it’s all systems go now.The laptop is on the table, I’m logged into our 1D twitter, now to hit the live button, here goes nothing. I’m praying the guys have enough time to get out of here. I’ve only been on the live a minute and already we have thousands of fans on asking us questions. It is pretty fun to do this and feel we’re being naughty, well we really are. I did see the log in password and thought why not, keep it for a day when we feel like rebelling. Today is that day. We answer a couple of questions and tell our fans a little bit about our tour coming up in the next few days.Just as we’re really enjoying ourselves Harry’s phone vibrates, he glances down and it’s a text from Tom, telling us, get off the live or he’ll be down to our room. We ignore it and carry on, that’s exactly the purpose of this live to bring him to our door. Another few minutes go by and the knock on our door comes. Harry gets up, he slowly walks to the door, he turns round just before he pulls the silver handle down and nods to me. I quickly text the guys to tell them to go now!Harry opens the door, Tom bursts in with anger on his face and hurry’s over to where my laptop is and immediately pulls the internet cable out. The live gets cut off straight away. I look up in pretend confusion as to why he did that. He then slams down my laptop and just stands there with his arms crossed waiting for my explanation.I glance over at Harry, he’s still standing at the door and out of sight from Tom. He gives me a thumbs up signalling to me that the boys made it out of the hotel.“What are you two playing at doing a live like that?” Tom asks. I shrug my shoulders and explain we just wanted to do something fun with the fans on our day off. “Don’t do it again, without running it by me first, you’re on your last warning now Louis” he shouts at me before storming out of the room.Now we wait to hear from Niall and Liam and hope all goes well and they don’t get caught!

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Harry’s POVWe’re on our tour bus making our way to our first stadium to do a full dress rehearsal and sound check for the US leg. I’m ready to get back on stage again and have some fun. This is what we love most is to be ourselves on stage and sing, also giving our fans the best experience possible.Zayn got discharged from hospital after spending a further two nights. We’re all pretty worried about him as he still looks pale and underweight but at least he got to have some proper and much needed rest. I’m fully stretched out along our U shape couch at the back of the bus in our soundproof lounge, just waiting for everyone else to get up. I’m actually enjoying lying on this black leather couch in the silence with just the hum and vibration from the bus engine.After about 10 minutes of just daydreaming the door slides open. I flick my eyes and in walks Zayn still half asleep and wearing his pj pants. He’s also wearing a baggy red hoodie and the hood up to cover his bed head hair. I sit up and lean against the back of the couch with my legs crossed. “Hey Z, how are you feeling today? I ask. “ Not good Harry, I’m really struggling with all of this and I don’t know how much more I can take” he says in an anxious tone. I nod back understanding. “I get it Z, we’re all being pushed to our limits but I can see you’re really struggling with your anxiety, missing home and not eating anymore” I say while sliding over to his side of the couch.I can see tears starting to form in his eyes which breaks my heart. I reach over and wrap my arms around him, I rub my hand up and down his back in comfort. He puts his chin on my shoulder and puts his arms around me letting his tears fall. “They’re killing me Harry, both physically and mentally” he sobs. I stay silent and let him speak his mind while still holding him tight. “Harry, they wouldn’t even let me call home and tell my mum I was in hospital and I can’t keep something so serious from my family” he stuttered through his tears.Anger and heartbreak fills my chest from hearing this. “God that’s awful Z, I’m so sorry they have done that to you” I say with tears building up in my own eyes. He’s really crying heavily now, I wish I could do something more to help in this situation but all I can do for this moment is show compassion and an ear to listen.“I think we should set up a meeting with management in the next week or so in between show nights and beg them for a hiatus after this tour is done. We can’t keep doing this anymore” I suggest. Zayn leans back wiping his tears away with his hoodie sleeve and nods in agreement. “Yeah man, I think we should. It will give us time to get our heads together and come back stronger”. Zayn leans in again to give me a hug to gesture his thanks.I get up from the couch and walk over to the mini kitchenette in the corner and grab some fruit and water. “Z, do you want anything to eat?” I ask “No thanks, I’m not hungry” he shakes his head back at me. “Please just have a banana and a few sips of water, for me?” I plead. He nods and puts his hands up to catch the water and the banana that I threw.I sit at the table and start eating. Just then the sliding door opens again with Niall running towards the couch and jump up dressed wearing only his black Calvin Klein boxers and a red cap backwards. “Morning fuckers” he says in his chirpy voice. Zayn and I lock eyes and just shake our head and laugh at him, typical Nialler.“I’m so pumped for this rehearsal today, I want to have some fun” Niall says excitedly. “Yeah, we definitely need this today, to have some fun” I agree as I finish off my banana. I walk to the bin and all I can hear is a loud cat meow and Niall uncontrollably laughing. Oh god he’s watching one of those funny cat videos again, I can’t help but snigger to myself. If he hears me laughing he will continue playing these all day!“Dude, will you bring me over the bread and peanut butter spread please, I’m starving” Niall asks in between his laughter. I grab everything and bring it over, and as I place everything down on the table, Liam and Louis walk in. My eyes immediately light up seeing Louis in just his grey trackies and my dick starts to get hard but I have to try and control it a little bit. Not in front of the boys!!Liam walks over to the tv that’s mounted on the wall and flicks on the PlayStation. “You guys up for a game of Mario cart, since we have a few hours before we get to the stadium?” He suggests while handing out the controllers. “I’m going to beat you losers today!” Louis says as he picks up his controller and sits next to me. He really is competitive when it comes to gaming.Time flies by when we’re all engrossed playing together. We have such a laugh while we are just sitting and chilling out and being just normal young boys.Before I know it, I look out the tinted windows of the back of the bus and see we have just pulled into the entrance of the stadium. I’m getting the happy butterflies in my stomach, I'm looking forward to performing tonight.We all pile out of the bus and are amazed to see a small group of fans waiting for us. How do they know we’re going to be here? I think to myself. We walk over to them, take some pictures and have a small conversation. It’s so nice to actually talk to our fans and interact. They told us that they have traveled hours for our concert. We thank them for sticking by us over the last four years.I spot one of the fans wearing a rainbow flag t-shirt, they also have a blue and green phone cover that has Larry written on it. My heart skips a beat seeing it, our messages are reaching the fans and they know the truth. I feel a little relieved that the fans are picking up on our messages and they do support us.We give them all one last hug and head inside the stadium to start rehearsals. I nudge Louis just as we get past the steel door. “Did you see that girl with the t-shirt and the phone case? they do know and support us” I say in excitement. “I know darling, they’re noticing our messages, we’ll continue little by little. Our master plan is working.We had an amazing time on stage tonight, Niall read out a sign from the crowd that said "If god hated gays why do harry and louis look so cute together”. The audience went crazy, I saw the look on Tom's face, I couldn’t help but snigger at him. I was even cheeky and got Tom to buy me some pink cotten candy. I offered the boys some and was so happy Zayn had some too. We get away with so much on stage, I was so happy Zayn ate something. Of course Louis and Liam had their water fights as per usual, they were soaked through by the end of the night!After the show we were all still on a high. We all run off stage and headed straight for our tour bus. Everyone was full of adrenaline and decided to have a little celebratory party on the bus. Zayn was Dj Malik on the decks blasting out our favourite dance songs. Niall and Liam were on top of the couch dancing and jumping about. Louis and I were throwing shapes in front of Zayn and singing along.It was a great ending to the day, I hope we can have more days like this!

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Louis’s POV"Ouch, that hurt" Niall shouts from across the room while rubbing his head. I just threw a bunch of fruit at Niall along the long white corridor at the backstage area. We ended up having a food fight between us earlier in the catering room, but of course I snuck more food into my pockets and waited around the corner for someone to walk past, it just happened to be Niall.We really are rowdy boys, we’re still young and trying to have fun in an unusual and upside down world we’ve joined, but it's all part of the fun isn't it? We just finished our sound check for the day, it’s going to be a brilliant show, the stage is awesome! We’re just trying to entertain ourselves daily till the doors open at 7pm then it's show time. We definitely keep our security on their toes, ha ha!I can hear Harry singing from behind me, I turn round and immediately my mouth opens, my eyes widen, god, he’s so beautiful. Harry is walking towards me in just his tight white boxers with a big grin on his face. He smiles at me and his dimples pop. I can feel my cock twinge in my pants and it's getting hard the closer he walks towards me.When Harry reaches me, he leans in and whispers in my ear "Let's be naughty, I found a secret place for us to sneak off too" he says seductively. He brushes his palm against my now very hard cock. I lick my bottom lip and just nod, my heart pounding in excitement and lust, my mind is going a mile a minute just thinking about him and what he has planned.Harry walks slightly ahead of me leading the way, I can’t help but stare at his ass shaking side to side as he walks. “I can't wait to get that ass" I say to him. We reach the elevator and walk in. Harry clicks the basement button, that’s where all the tour buses and stage trucks are. I grab his hips from behind and slide my hand inside his boxers and start rubbing on his now very hard cock. He cries out a moan, he bends slightly forward and pushes his ass agains my cock.The elevator doors open, Harry pulls my hand out of his boxers and intertwines our fingers together leading the way. We walk past all the buses and trucks towards the end of the basement where it's very secluded.Harry slams my back against the square concrete pillar and starts kissing me passionately. I eagerly kiss him back then he slides his tongue over the bottom of my lips seeking permission to enter with his tongue, when I do he slides his tongue into my mouth and we kiss soft when he wants then hard when he wants. I run my hands along his naked chest feeling his soft skin against my palms. Harry tugs at the top of my pants and runs his fingers across the band of my boxers. "Fucking hell Harry, you're teasing me so much" I tell him between kisses. He moans out in agreement.I pull my top over my head and take it off, it breaks our kissing, but only for a moment. I throw it to the floor. Harry gets down on his knees and pulls my boxers down to my ankles. He immediately slides one of my balls into his mouth and starts sucking it, he then starts pumping my shaft up and down. I whimper as he moves in long slow movements. After a few more sucks of my balls, Harry takes his tongue and glides it up from my base to my tip making it wet before he slips my throbbing cock into his mouth.He moves his mouth and finds his rhythm soon enough in long languid movements. “Like it when you take control” I tell him. My cock goes deeper into his mouth with every suck, it’s reaching the back of his throat, I can feel Harry’s body tremble, he’s so horny now. Harry gags slightly, I can’t help but buck my hips hitting the back of his throat."Fuckkkk" a loud moan leaves my lips. I grab some of his hair in my hand, I feel my knees go weak. After a few more sucks, my cock curves down his throat past his tonsils. He really knows how to pleasure me. I feel Harry’s fingers digging into my hip bone now as he quickens his pace. My cock is ready to burst now and release my cum into his moist mouth. "Yess Harry just like that, close baby” I say with heavy breathing. With just a couple of more thrusts from me, my orgasam highs I cum so hard I’m shaking. Harry like the good boy he is swallows whole. He waits a second to take it all. Once I'm finished he slides my cock back out of his mouth and licks the tip making sure he got all my cum. I stand there breathless leaning against the pillar as my whole body is weak.Harry leans back against his ankles and wipes his mouth with the back of his hand,he has a smirk on his face. “You like it when I get you off like this” Harry says. “Your so good baby, that was insane” I replies.After a few moments of catching our breath, I reach out my hand and pull Harry up from his knees and bring him in for a kiss. I squeeze him tightly while nipping gently on his lips.I whip harry round so now his back is against the pilar without parting our mouths. I slide my hand down his torso and into his boxers and wrap my hand around his cock. Harry then puts his hands on the back of my neck and moving up into my hair. I tighten my grip around his throbbing cock and slide it up and down, squeezing every so often, I know he likes it. "Lou, give it to me rough" he begs.I grab his shoulder and flip him so his chest is now against the cold concrete. I rub my hands up and down his clammy back, I can feel his heavy breathing in anticipation, he’s trembling, I kiss all the way down his beautiful back till I get to the band of his boxers. I crouch down getting on my knees biting at his pants and slide them down. “Fuck, Louis, are you going to eat me out” Harry moans out in his now raspy voice.I push his legs apart and smack him on the ass, I then rub it afterwards so it soothes the initial sting. I lean up on my knees and place both of my hands on his ass and spread open his cheeks. I lick all around my lips to make them wet and move forward so my mouth is in line with his ass. “Oh, god -I” Harry whimpers out but it trails off, I swirl my tongue all round his red rim and push it in and out it occasionally. I can see from the corner of my eye his arms are gripping the edge of the pillar for leverage. He's really groaning deeply now and it's starting to echo around the basement.My face is really buried between his cheeks, I'm eating his ass out, god I’m so hard again. I can feel his rim pulsating against my tongue, especially when my tongue breaks through!"Lou are you" I hear a voice but it's not Harry's. We both freeze for a second. I pull away from Harry's ass to see who's coming towards us, next thing I see Niall whizzing past us on an electric scooter. He looks at us for a second, shakes his head and keeps going. I can hear his laugh echoing throughout the basement. We both look at each other in shock and laugh.I get back to Harry's ass, I then put two fingers in my mouth and wet them, I then move them down and slide them in.His rim opens up and clenches tight again round my two fingers. I draw them in and out slowly scratching against his prostate. All Harry does is whine!Harry spreads his legs wider and slides his body down the pilar so his ass stretches even more, he wants me to go deeper. “Lou, yes right there” he whimpers. I slide in another finger, “feels so good babe, so full” Harry moans. I can feel the pressure as I slide my fingers in deep. He continues to moan louder this time as I hit his prostate.With a few more moves he lets out another long moan, he cums so fast all over the pillar and downs his legs. I pull my fingers out and lick them clean, I then turn Harry round and run my tongue up his thighs licking up all of his cum. I slide his boxers back up to his waist as I stand up. I press my forehead against his and kiss him passionately. “I love you so much darling” I tell him. He can barely speak yet still breathes but he manages to say “love you too babe”I pick up my clothes from the ground and get dressed. “I love you so much” we both repeat to each other at the same time. We then take hands and walk back to the elevator to join everyone. The show starts in an hour’s time. I wipe my mouth just as we get to the door of the main hall. Security just give us confused look.

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Harry’s POVIt’s been all go the past week with doing back to back shows every night. Zayn collapsed just as we finished singing Act my age, we always give it everything for the last song of the show but tonight I could see Zayn just staggering backwards towards the exit.I knew he was still feeling weak and hasn’t been doing interviews, since he got discharged from hospital. He needs to rest as much as possible for his energy to pick back up, but obviously he’s not improving.Zayn and I are on the way to meet with management to request a hiatus. I’m feeling nervous and anxious for this meeting but I’m also feeling guilty. I never told Louis about it. God I hope he forgives me and understands that I would only do this with our best interests in mind. I know this band is his life and technically I’m doing it for him too, so we can be free.“We’re here” says the driver, I look at Zayn as we pull up outside the skyscraper building, it looks as if it’s touching the sky. We both look at each other and nod to say we’re ready and let’s do this.I push open the car door, take a deep breath and walk towards the gold double doors. My hands are clammy and I can feel the sweat forming on my neck from nerves. Zayn and I walk side by side towards the elevator and press the up button.Immediately one of the elevator’s opens. I press for floor 30. Our backs are pressed against the back of the elevator but both our legs are jumping like mad as we start to go up. Just before we get to the 30th floor we fist bump each other and at the same time we say “ Ready” “Shit this is it” I say to Zayn as the doors open and we walk out together into the open planned office.I can feel my heart beating out of my chest, I'm not taking in what’s going on in and around the office yet. Office staff are saying hi etc but I’m so distracted I can’t hear them. We are directed to the boardroom for our meeting. My eyes start to flick round to everyone in the room, they’re either on phones or typing on they’re laptops. A few of them have confused looks on their faces as we pass them. They’re probably wondering why 2 out of 5 members of One Direction are here.We reach the boardroom and I can see through the glass that Tom and Cora are waiting, and I see our London office is joining in via video link for the meeting. With my sweaty hand I pull down the handle and we walk in shit scared. The room is silent and all eyes are on us. My heart beats even faster as we both make our way to take a seat opposite everyone.“Hi Harry and Zayn, what seems to be the problem?” Tom asks us kicking off this hard conversation. Zayn clears his throat and takes a deep breath then exhales. “We’re requesting a short hiatus after our tour, I’ve been given medical advice from my doctor and I’m really struggling with the demands of all of this,” Zayn begins explaining. All their faces drop in shock at Zayn’s request. The room went silent. I don’t know what they’re going to say back but I hope they agree to this. “I’m losing lots of weight and my anxiety is through the roof, I really think I’m going to have a nervous breakdown if we keep going the way we are” Zayn continues.Nobody has said anything to us yet which is making me nervous, they always are quick with their responses. I speaks up after Zayn “I would also like a hiatus because Louis and I want to come out to the world,” With those words I see Tom’s hand ball into a fist. Fuck, I’ve hit a nerve by saying that.Tom turns his head towards Cora and whispers something in her ear discreetly, she nods in agreement. Tom then turns round in his chair to face the TV to our London office and I can see he hand signals something to them. They also just nod and Tom turns back to face us. “Ok Zayn and Harry, would you mind waiting in the coffee room while we discuss this?” Tom suggests.“Sure, we will go grab a drink while you discuss it” I reply. I can hear Zayn dragging his feet behind me as we walk down the corridor to wait for our fate to be decided.We get to the coffee room and make ourselves a drink and sit at a small table in the corner. “Harry, do you think they will agree to our request” Zayn asks me as he takes a sip of his coffee. “I hope so Z, it sounds promising as they didn’t say no to us straight away, they normally do” I say with hope in my voice. My phone starts vibrating in my pocket.I take it out of my black jeans and look down to the screen and see Louis name and picture on it, he’s wondering where I am. I didn’t tell him where I was going, I just sneaked out while he was doing a video call to home with Lottie. He will be panicking now but I can’t answer and tell him what I’m up to, he will want to get here and talk us out of it.I do feel really guilty about keeping this from him and the others but I know once we tell them they will understand. With that Tom walks in and tells us they’re ready for us again. Zayn and I lock eyes and we get up from our seats to follow him back down the corridor. I’m getting nervous butterflies in my stomach as I think they’re going to agree.We all get back into the room and take our seats again. My eyes flick to the table and I see a stack of papers in front of Tom. ‘Omg’ they’re going to let us take this hiatus, I can feel it. I start to get excited and my mind is flooded with happy thoughts of what is going to happen next.“We have discussed what you have requested today and the answer is NO, we’re not accepting your request of a break” Tom takes pleasure in tells us with his superior voice. Immediately my heart sinks and I turn to Zayn. He looks back to me and I can see his tears starting to form. I sit here in shock not knowing what to say back, I really thought they would agree to this.“I’m not staying in the band any longer and I’ll be leaving after tonights show, I don’t care what you say or do to me” Zayn says while tears roll down his face. What did Zayn just say? My mind is swirling now. I’m so shocked. Zayn is so unwell he’s willing to give up being in the band when we know he loves it. My head drops and the tears start filling my eyes from this news.“Zayn, you know you can’t just up and leave like this, you signed all those contracts and if you break them there will be consequences. We say when and if you can leave” Tom explains in a strick tone. I’m still sitting here unable to speak, I just reach out my hand to Zayn to offer support. He reaches for mine and squeezes it hard.“I don’t care what you do to me, sue me if you need to, but I’m packing my bags and I’m leaving after the Chicago show tonight” Zayn says with a bit more strength in his voice, even though he still has tears falling down his face. He really is at rock bottom to make this decision. I totally understand what Zayn is requesting but I’m totally heartbroken for him to get to this point.“And for you Harry, we’re going to make life even harder, you and Louis will not come out. You two are from now on not allowed to look at each other in public because if you do we’re bringing in a girl for BOTH of you. “I want you to sign and agree to this” Tom barks at me. My eyes go wide with what I was just told and I freeze. I can feel Zayn’s hand squeezing mine again for support.“No, you promised that this wouldn’t happen again to us” I stammer out. “Tough shit Harry, this is the way it is but if you do sign we will allow Zayn to leave” Tom adds in. My heads so sore and I’m still trying to take it all in, I want Zayn to be free from all of this, he’s suffering more than us. Zayn has made his decision, I can only say yes because when it comes down to it, it’s Zayn’s health that matters most.“Ok, I’ll sign to let Zayn go” I shake my head and grab the pen in front of me and sign all the documents. “Harry you can’t do this, you’re signing your life away again” Zayn says while trying to take the pen out of my hand. “It’s fine Z, I can handle it, your health is more important than this” I look at him and force a smile to reassure him.He shakes his head and mouths thank you, still with tears in his eyes. Just as I get to the last page to sign my name a small tear drops on the ink, it smudges, that’s it,now everything is signed and Zayn is free.Zayn signs his end of contract and stands up and walk out. I push the papers forcefully towards Tom and leave after Zayn. Once we get in the elevator, the doors close I hug Zayn tightly. On the way down, no words were exchanged all you could hear was the sound of our cries.

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Louis’s POVI've been pacing our hotel lobby for the past hour in pure panic. Harry and Zayn are missing since I video called home with Lottie. I've called them over 20 times and nothing. I even checked their location but it's turned off. Harry never does this, my mind is racing and thinking the worst.I'm on the verge of walking out of this hotel and roaming the streets to look for him, I was about to leave, all of a sudden. I hear screams from fans outside, there he is quickly walking up the steps and towards me. My eyebrows knit together as both Zayn and Harry have sunglasses on but I can see Harry's chin pulling up when he sees me and his face is red. Is he crying? I think to myself as I run towards them. "Are ye ok?, what is going on?" I ask them both in panic. Neither of them answer me but keep walking towards the elevator. I follow them and we get into the elevator that has just opened.Once inside I ask them both "What the fuck has happened". Harry turns to me grabs my t-shirt in a ball and puts his head on my shoulders and lets out a large cry.The only thing I can do is caress his neck and the back of his head to offer comfort until he’s ready to talk. I look at Zayn with a confused look on my face. Zayn takes a deep breath, "Louis, we have something to tell you and the rest of the band, I'm texting Liam and Niall to come straight to my room" Zayn explains in a sad tone. My mind is swirling with every possible explanation for this and it's scaring me. Harry still hasn't said a word he's still uncontrollably sobbing.The doors open at our floor, we immediately see Niall and Liam waiting at Zayn's door. Their faces drop the minute they lock eyes with us. I'm sure they have the same thoughts as me, something is seriously wrong for Harry and Zayn to be in this state.Zayn unlocks his door and we all walk into his room. Harry sits on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands still sobbing. I squat down and rub his knees “Darling, tell me what's wrong, please" I say still panicking. Zayn is standing arms crossed leaning against the wall not saying anything. "Can someone fucking tell us what is going on" Niall shouts.Zayn starts to cry, "Emm, I'm so sorry guys but I'm leaving after the show tonight" his voice trembles. "What do you mean, are you going back into hospital again?" Liam asks. "No I'm leaving the band forever and not coming back" Zayn clarifies. The room goes silent, Niall, Liam and I are frozen in time and don’t know what to say. All I hear are the sounds of Zayn and Harry's crying. I take a second to let Zayn’s words sink in and when they do, I leap up to my feet. "No brother, this can't be true you can't leave us" I say in shock."I'm sorry lou but it is, I've signed my termination contract with management today, it’s all be all signed and agreed, too late to back out now” Zayn tells me with tears in his eyes. “I just can’t do this anymore, the anxiety, the pressure, the control. I need to do something or I know I’ll end up dead!” Niall and Liam’s heads turn so quick to Zayn with their mouths open in shock. "How did you manage to get them to agree to let you leave Zayn?” Liam finally speaks. Zayn's eyes flick to Harry. I quickly turn around to face Harry I’m worried for what he has agreed to, for this big change.Harry looks up at me and shakes his head. "I signed a new contract to let him be free but I-I" he sobs during talking, Harry can't get a word out, he can’t control his tears. I look back at Zayn for an answer but he looks away. "Fuck sake Harry will you just tell us, can’t you see our worried faces?” Niall informs Harry.Harry manages to pull himself together to speak "I signed another contract, we can't look or talk to each other in public, only in interviews, so no more interactions ever in public between us, Louis. I'm sorry but I had to do it to let Zayn leave, there was no other way". I fall to my knees trying to process what Harry and Zayn have just told us. I curl up on the floor and can’t stop my tears from falling!"I can't handle this, I need a drink" Liam says as he heads to the mini bar. Through my tear filled eyes I can see Niall's feet following Liam. Liam takes out a bottle of beer and Niall wrestles the bottle out of his hands. Liam walks to the wall and slides down and puts his head in his hands.Niall is now pacing the room pulling his hair and mumbling to himself. I can’t believe all of this. I'm finding it hard to digest. After what felt like a long time but was only a minute of us all crying our eyes out, our eyes met, I can see from their faces their heartbreak. We’re brothers and we love each other! I pull myself up off the floor and say "come on lads, let's all bring it in for a hug". We all gather in the middle of the room and form a circle and we hug each other tight. I hold my hand out into the middle of us, everyone else puts their hands on top of mine, "I need you and you need me" we all say in our emotional voices.Through our sniffles Niall starts to laugh and then Zayn starts to giggle. We all just start uncontrollably laughing among ourselves and throwing out funny memories we have had during our life on this wild journey of being together.After a while our laughs fade away and the room goes silent again. Suddenly it hits me about Harry’s new contract he’s signed. My blood starts to boil with anger. “Harry how could you do this to me, you should have called me before making this decision, we are in this together remember!” I shout to Harry "This means we can never come out and be together" I spit out at him, I'm furious."I had to do it for Zayn babe, we can cope, we have come this far, we can get through anything, we need to have faith in our future" Harry tries to explain, I'm just so hurt and seeing red at this point. I shake my head and storm out of the room. I need to collect my thoughts, we have an interview shortly and I can't do it when I'm this angry.We get to the interview, I'm full of emotions and I don't know how I'm going to get through it but we have no choice as always. There has been no announcement of Zayn leaving officially yet to the public. It is hard for us to not show our sadness, we will try. I haven't spoken or looked at Harry since I left the room. It makes it easy right now, I'm still mad as hell with him.Before the interview he tried to talk to me, I just walked straight past him to stand next to Liam. Just as the interview started he muttered "wanker" to me which made me even more mad, I mouthed back "prick" to him. I don't care if it's picked up during this interview as I'm beyond caring right now.Zayn didn’t come to the interview, he couldn’t face it. Shortly after the interview it was announced Zayn left the band to the world and our fans are devastated by it. But before that we had one more show to do.During our last show together all of us cried and so did our fans, it was such an emotional night for us all. It's never going to be the same again. We lost one of our brothers, I'll be lost without him.We gave Zayn an amazing send off on stage tonight, through all the tears we did it One Direction style and still had fun.

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Harry’s POVIt’s been the roughest week of my life. Louis has slept every night in Liams room since Zayn left. I know it’s because he is scared of what Liam might do and he's still hasn't forgiven me for signing that contract. I have been going crazy without him here beside me every night.For the first three nights Niall stayed over with me in our room, none of us wanted to be alone, our hearts breaks for Zayn. All he wanted was some time to get well, now he’s gone forever! Niall is an amazing friend, we sat up most nights looking through our phones at the memories we made together, we laughed and cried remembering them all.We ordered a hell of a lot of food and drinks over the past few days for comfort. I am now feeling the effects of eating junk food for so long. I think I'll head to the gym to try to burn off some of the calories. It will help get out my anger and frustration at management, they have caused this. All they care about is money!!I jump off the bed and walk over to my suitcase, I pull out an old black merch t-shirt and purple shorts and get dressed. I grab a bottle of water and my phone and head to the hotel gym. I like this gym, it's on the rooftop so I have 360 views of the city to look at while I workout. One of the security guards AJ joins me to train. They really do everything with us, it's one big tour family.I start off by doing some yoga to stretch out my muscles and quieten my mind which is pretty hard to do at the moment but I try my best. After yoga I jump on the treadmill, I try to push myself every time to get an extra mile in.I’ve completed a couple of miles, my whole body is covered in sweat, AJ is really pushing me today. I can see out of the side of my eye someone walks in the gym door, I turn round to see it’s Louis. My heartbeat picks up even more just by seeing him, we haven't really been around together accept for work related stuff. "Oi Oi, AJ how you doing lad" Louis shouts from across the room. I keep looking at him hoping he will acknowledge me, but he doesn't, my heart sink's, all I can do is keep on running."Harry, I'm just going to take this call, keep going and I'll be back shortly" AJ tells me before heading out of the gym. I nod back as I'm a bit out of breath. It's now just Louis and I here. I just continue to run, he can’t ignore me forever, I know Louis it will bother him I’m here and he’s not talking to me! He feels guilty, thats just Louis. He needs his time to think, once he does he will realize Zayn needed this. After a couple of minutes in silence Louis walks up to the machine and presses the stop button. "We need to talk and sort this out Harry" He says in his gentle voice. I get off the treadmill and walk over to the oval seat so we can sit and have this conversation.We are facing each other with our knees touching. I smile lightly to him and he takes my hands in his. "I'm really hurt by what you did to me Harry and with Zayn leaving I couldn't handle it all at once" he says looking deeply into my eyes. I get lost in his blue eyes when he speaks. "I'm sorry babe, I had to do it, please forgive me I've been lost without you all week and I love you so much" I spill out. He leans forward and presses his forehead against mine "I love you too darling" he says before kissing my lips softly.I kiss Louis back more deeply and pull him in closer to me by his collar. He wraps his hand around my neck and into my hair while his other hand rubs up and down my thigh. I slide my hand down his stomach and stop at the top of his pants. A small moan leaves his lips as we kiss passionately now. I stand up from the seat, towering over him, Louis looks up to me with pure lust in his eyes waiting for what I'm going to do next.I bend down and pull his blue shorts off his legs, his cock springs up to his stomach, he's really hard for me. Louis leans forward and pulls down my shorts, I pull off my top, we're both fully naked now. I sit back down and pull Louis onto my lap. My cock is under Louis ass. We start kissing passionately again, I rub my hands up and down his back. Louis starts grinding his hips against my cock, it's starting to get even harder for him. "Mmmm" I moan out from all his grinding, I kiss Louis heart just before he raises himself slightly and alines my cock with his ass.With a few slow circular movements my cock sinks in, we’ve no lube so he’ll be limping for days but we’ve missed each other so much he’ll take the pain. His rim is really clenching around my cock so tightly. Louis slowly moves his hips to let my cock fully adjust in his ass. "Fuck you're so tight" I moan out. Louis raises himself up and down on my cock getting faster every time. I grip his hips to help him bounce up and down and Louis grabs my shoulders for support. I tug at his bottom lip I'm so fucking horny. I slip my tongue in his mouth and our tongues intertwine with each other's.I bring my hands down to Louis ass cheeks to spread them more, he throws his head back in pleasure. He bounces on my cock even faster now "Harry I'm so full right now" Louis pants out. I lean back a little against the seat. I buck my hips to really thrust my cock into him, my balls are slapping against his ass with every hard thrust of my hips. Louis grips my shoulders more tightly as he bounces on top of me. I draw my cock in and out of his ass slowly, I found the angle for his prostate, I want him to enjoy this feeling as I'm hitting it over and over again."I'm close" Louis whines out. I keep thrusting my cock in and out, I'm starting to feel my orgasm build too. Louis fingers are really digging into my shoulders now and I can feel his ass pulsating around my cock. I put one hand on his back for support and my other round his cock and slowly start pulling. I know he's nearly there. With a few more movements of Louis’ cock he releases his cum all over my hand and stomach. He breathes out and moans, “so good babe, so good” I thrust my hips slowly and reach my own high and let Louis come down from his."Fucking hell, I missed you" I pant out. Louis kisses my lips softly and says "Me too, I love you Harry". We stay for a few more minutes in each other's arms kissing before Louis slowly gets off my lap."Let's go back to our room and cuddle up together, I haven't been able to sleep since you weren't beside me all week" Louis smiles at me and grabs my hand pulling me up from the seat. "Neither have I, it's been hell without you" I smile back."I suppose that's a workout, fucking you since I actually didn't do anything else here in the gym" Louis laughs. I chuckle back, “Yeah that’s true” We both get dressed and I take Louis hand and walk out the door of the gym to our room while thinking, thank fuck we didn’t get caught, we were both lost in a moment!

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Louis’s POVIt still breaks my heart every night when we’re on tour when Harry still leaves a space for Zayn on stage. Especially on the steps where we sit sing ‘Little things’. We’re still having so much fun though. Our relationship is going from strength to strength every day. I love Harry so much, our love only gets stronger, especially with these obstacles management throws at us. We have two days off together and I have a few surprises planned for Harry to show him my love.I’m lying in bed scrolling through my phone, I’m waiting for Harry to get out of the shower before I take him out to lunch. I hear a weird noise coming from the door, I raise myself up from the bed to look over to see what it is. It’s a note, what is this? I ask myself, I then jump out of bed to see who it’s from and what it might say. I bend down and pick up the note to read “Louis, you are requested in the meeting room downstairs at noon sharp, Tom”.For fuck sake what now,I huff to myself. I crumble the paper with frustration and throw it on the table.Harry comes out of the shower with a big smile on his face, his dimples are popping, then he looks at me and his smile soon fades just by seeing the worry on my face!“Lou, what’s wrong?” he asks while walking over to me. I’m sitting in the chair biting my nails, he knows I do that when I’m nervous. I pick up the crumbled paper and hand it to him, I’m waiting to see his reaction. “Christ, what does that prick want now” Harry says with annoyance in his voice. I shake my head trying to think what I did wrong this time and I can’t think of anything so fuck knows. “They always do this when we have plans together and it’s pissing me off” Harry points out.“I know darling but again I have no choice, especially since it’s just downstairs this time” I huff out. “ I’m coming with you this time babe, we’re in this together and whatever it is we face it together, right?” Harry suggests, he’s right we’re a couple, we do things together. “Yeah, you’re right love, let’s show them we’re united” I say jumping from my seat feeling a bit pumped now knowing Harry is going to be by my side for whatever this is.We both have been pacing our room the last 30 minutes clock watching, waiting for the time to go by and face the music,whatever it may be. I kiss Harry on the lips and grab his hand and we walk to the door together strongly, then head to the elevator. We are squeezing each other’s hands so tightly, we have arrived at the meeting room door, with my free hand I swing open the door and we walk in together with brave faces on.Simone our music director and Tom are sitting at the table. Shittttt, this is serious, fucking shit if Simone is here. Both Harry and I turned to each other as we weren’t expecting Simone. We sit down still holding hands but they’re sweating now. I’m definitely shitting myself. “Harry, you can’t be here for this, we just need Louis, so if you don’t mind please leave” Tom asks with a defined expression on his face. “No, I’m not leaving, whatever you have to say to Louis you can say to me, we’re a couple and we tell each other everything” Harry protests.Simone clears her throat, “Harry, I’ll get security in here in the next few minutes if you don’t remove yourself from this room now” she demands. I turn to Harry and whisper “It’s ok, I’ll be fine just wait outside for me” with that Harry stands up and leaves. I know he doesn’t want to make this more difficult than it already is for me.Harry leaves then the TV goes on, theres a picture of a blonde girl on the screen. I’m really confused as to what’s going on. My mind is swirling but after a couple of minutes it soon clicks. This is the new girl they’re setting me up with when we get to LA next week. I actually blurred that out of my mind since I signed that contract back in February.“This is what is required from you and is in the contract with Brianna”. Tom starts to explain all the bullshit plans that they want me to do with this girl. “We’re setting you up in a club with Brianna, you’re going to get photographed leaving the club” ok seems easy enough I think to myself as Tom is still talking but my mind is starting to drift as I’m so used to this shit now.“We’re going to put out a News headline 12 weeks later claiming you got her pregnant” Simone’s voice echoed in my head. Did she just say pregnant!!!! I whipped my head up so fast, eyes going wide. “Pregnant” is all I managed to get out from my now dry mouth. Both Tom and Simone nod to confirm this.I let out a massive scream “NOOOO”. At that moment the door flies open and Harry comes storming in. He rushes to my side and asks me what’s wrong. I stutter out the word “pregnant” that’s all I can say as I’m in utter shock. Harry’s eyes look around and he sees the girl on the tv, then he looks to Tom and Simone, he’s trying to piece it all together. I then can see in his face it’s clicked into place. Harry grabs the chair and throws it across the room screaming in anger and shock. He’s going ballistic and all I can do is sit here crying not knowing what to do or say, I’m just frozen in time. My life is being turned upside down from those words.Harry is shaking me to snap me out of this painful trance but I can’t. He then runs towards Tom with his fist balled up aiming to strike his face. I leap from my seat and run towards Harry before he knocks Tom out from rage. I physically have to pull his shoulders back to stop him. I finally find my voice and start screaming at them both, I am refusing to do this, a baby is for life, this is forever.With all the commotion coming from the room security run in to see what the hell is going on. We all freeze and the room turns silent. Simone raises her hand and tells the security to leave and demands Harry and I to take our seats again. There’s so much emotion and tension in this room now.Tom picks up the contract paperwork and starts reading out all the terms and conditions. “Louis you’re agreeing to this pregnancy and you will sign a new five year contract with us, this will allow us to grant the remaining boys in the band an 18 month hiatus starting in December 2015.” Tom continues “This will be after the release of your new album ‘Made in the Am’ and a couple of appearances after the child is born” my heart sinks from all of this.“You can’t do this Louis, I won’t let you” Harry begs me not to agree with tears rolling down his face. I turn to face him with tears in my eyes. “I have to do it, you signed your contract to let Zayn leave, now it’s my turn to do this for all of you, you can all be free” I cry out. Tom slides over all the paperwork for to me to sign. With my shaky hand I lift the pen from the table but Harry takes it out of my hand and gives me a really sad look, waiting for me to fight. If I agree to this I know my life will be hell for the next five years, the sacrifice is worth it though. I know the boys will be able to move on and heal from what we have encountered! I move my hand over to sign and I think to myself, this is my life for another five years and to have this baby in it too but it’s worth it for their freedom.“I’m begging you Louis, don’t do it, I love you” Harry begs and places his hands on my knees. “I love you too, that’s why I’m doing this” I whisper. I start signing all the papers with my tears dripping down. I don’t care, if they want me to sign it, they will have to deal with the wet paper. I can barely see out of my eyes while signing, all I know now is My life is over!!!!

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Harry’s POVLouis and I got back to our hotel room still in utter shock from what we were just told. Lottie came to our room and when we broke the news of what just happened, she just screamed and cried and couldn’t accept it. Lottie is our biggest supporter and wants us to be free. It’s nice that she travels with us, she is family after all and a piece of home that we will always have with us on the road.We texted both our families, we decided to have a video call with everyone at the same time to break the news to them. We just couldn't cope with explaining it a second time. It’s going to be awful to be doing this, it’s only 7am for our families but they need to know because it involves all of them for the rest of their lives too, as well as ours.Lottie is sitting between us on the edge of the bed squeezing our hands, all of us in floods of tears waiting for our families to join the call. We all take deep breaths as mum, robin and gem join first. Then a couple of seconds later Jay and Mark join. All their smiles turn to worry the minute they see us all crying, “what’s happened” both mum and jay ask at the same time with real concern in their voices. We just stare at the screen unable to speak, we're just uncontrollably sobbing.“Love, tell us what’s wrong you know you can tell us anything” mum encourages. I just keep shaking my head. I can't tell them. “Lou, please just tell us so we can help with whatever it is” Jay begs for us while flicking her eyes back and forth between the three of us. Lottie realises we can’t stop crying to speak, she clears her throat and says “They have ruined all our lives forever mum”. Louis dips his head and takes over from Lottie, he takes a long deep breath ready to give the bad news.“They have made me sign a new contract for five years with them and they’re going to attach me to a girl” Louis’ voice trails off not wanting to say the rest. Everyone is just staring back through the screen waiting and holding their breaths for Louis to continue. They know there’s more from our reactions. “They’re going to send a story to the newspapers,” Louis takes another breath and continues, “I get this girl pregnant and we have to have a baby together, I don’t know what to do” Louis breaks down again from telling our families.Gem lets out a massive scream and is in tears. “WHAT” our parents say at the same time with complete shock on their faces. Everyone of us are sitting here crying as they can’t take in Louis’ words and we can’t believe this is happening not just to Louis but to all of us.After a couple of minutes of nobody saying anything. “This is so hard to digest” mum says “We’re booking a flight to come to you, we can’t have you all do this alone and we as parents have to step in”. I can see Mark and Robin’s face going red with anger as the news of it all sinks in. “Yes, we’re booking a flight for tonight to come to you” Jay agrees. I’m slightly relieved that our parents are coming to help us but in reality there’s nothing they can do which is heartbreaking for us all.“We love you both and we as parents want you to be happy and not be abused in this way any longer” mum said with a small smile trying to tell us everything is going to be ok. “We love you two and we will do whatever it takes to get this sorted out once we get to you” Jay continued.Louis, Lottie and I just nod back and say we love them too. They’re honestly the best family in the world and love us for us and who we are and who we want to be. We haven’t told Liam and Niall yet, we wanted to tell our families first but the boys are family too of course and we will tell them shortly. They’re going to freak out when they find out. After a while of us crying to our family, gem tells us that their flights are booked and they will be getting on the 9.30pm flight over tonight. Jay and Mark are travelling down to Manchester airport to meet up with mum, robin and gem so they can all travel together. They then hang up and we can’t wait to see them but we wish it’s under different circumstances.We’re all still sitting on the edge of the bed in silence. We just can’t take our eyes off the now blank laptop screen, thinking of it all and what’s to come. All our lives are going to change forever and it’s so heartbreaking that our loved ones are being dragged into this too. It's not just us now and it’s completely unfair to do this to them as well.The anger starts to build in my stomach again. The longer I’m sitting here the angrier I get. I leap up from the bed I just can’t take this anymore. I start flipping the furniture around in the room, emptying out my suitcases full of clothes, throwing pillows across the room, I just can’t take it anymore. I scream out loud, I then fall to my knees in the middle of the wrecked hotel room and sob my heart out. Both Louis and Lottie run over and they wrap their arms around me and start crying again. We all hold each other with tight grips. Louis then moves and pulls his knees to his chest and starts rocking, his head is buried in his knees screaming “ no no no” to himself.Lottie is on her knees between us crying but trying to comfort us both as well as herself. None of us know what to do, we’re stuck in this hotel room with nowhere to go and nobody to turn to until our family gets here and that can’t come quick enough. Although they can’t change anything, just having them here will be enough.

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Louis’s POVWe all fell asleep on top of the bed fully clothed last night in this carnage of a hotel room, waiting for our families arriving in San Diego. None of us really slept, reliving this nightmare, our minds are swirling. We held on tight to each other through the night, barely moving, I was comforting Lottie, Harry was comforting me. We were just numb.Niall and Liam popped in late last night, they were worried about us. They thought we were out for the day, but as time went on and we didn’t call as usual as we always check in with each other. They knew something was wrong. Harry started to explain what happened but choked, Lottie took over and explained the whole situation and what they're making us do. Niall and Liam's reaction was complete shock, you could hear a pin drop, then their faces turned to rage. They couldn't believe what they were hearing let alone be asked to be part of it.They now have to lie to everyone about this situation and sign another contract. Although they were happy to hear about the hiatus, they were very concerned and furious I re-signed a new five year contract for them to be free.Both Niall and Liam left the room really angry heading towards management. They want to try to negotiate a new deal so I/we didn't have to do this but when they tried to speak to management last night they were punished, they were punished by not being able to leave the hotel for the next three shows. Tom actually held Liam up against the wall by his collar for trying to fight back after forcing a pen in his hand to sign the new contract.Niall was running around the room with a mix of shouting and crying trying to avoid signing. Tom grabbed him and pushed him into a seat and put Niall's left hand in his, gripped it very tight and held it there until Niall signed. Poor Niall's hand had fingerprints indented into his skin from Tom’s tight grip. Liam is so shaken from Tom holding him against the wall he even ripped his top while trying to get away from Tom.We love our boyos so much for trying to help us, but this whole situation has made me sad and angry for what they have done to us. When one hurts we all hurt. We are a family.My phone then rings, I jump up out of bed to answer it, it's mum. They’re finally here to help us ease our pain, a little bit. I tell mum what room we're in and to come straight up. I went to the bathroom to wash my face and clean my teeth but when I looked in the mirror, my eyes were so swollen, I had bags under them and they were bloodshot from my tears. It's like I aged 10 years overnight with worry. I was actually sick to my stomach.Harry came in and wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed me on my neck. I rested my head back against him for a little bit of comfort, we needed each other more than we ever have before to get through this. I hear the door knock and Lottie running to answer it, our families are finally here. I walk out and look at mum and my eyes are filled with tears again. She drops her bag and runs to me, she hugs me so tightly while telling me it's ok and that we can fix this. I just shake my head and hold on tight, I never want to let go.Anne, Robin and Gemma were comforting Harry on the bed and reassuring him. You can feel the heartbreak in this room. My eyes drift around at everyone’s faces, there were looks of worry, anger and tears. My mind is spinning at this stage and then I hear the muffles of Lottie and gems crying, they’re now holding each other. I have tried so hard to protect everyone from all of this but they have finally dug their claws and poisoned our family and it’s killing me with guilt.“Lou” my mum’s voice brings me back and I focus on her “I’m sorry mum” is my first words I’ve managed to speak since she walked in. Mum grabs my hands and looks at me with sorrow and hurt in her eyes. “Love, never apologise to me, this isn’t your fault we’re here now and to help you both” she reassures me while reaching her hand out for Harry’s.Harry gets up from the bed and walks over to us, grabbing mum’s hand and squeezing it gently. Everyone else follows behind Harry to the middle of the room and forms a circle. They tell us both they love us and they will do everything in their power to help us. This is the first time since yesterday afternoon that I feel I can breathe and have some hope.An hour has passed since our family arrived and we’re now all walking into the elevator to head downstairs to meet with Simone and Tom again, we will try fight this. I hope they’re shitting their pants seeing Harry’s and my family enter this room to face them, especially with us all coming together as one big supportive family.Tom and Simone are as always sitting at the long table in the middle opposite with bundles of files and papers waiting for us with arms crossed. “Nice to see you all, thanks for coming over so soon” Tom says with a smile trying to act the nice guy but it’s way too late to be trying to pull that act on us now. He probably thinks our family is just going to roll over and just sign with no questions like they have done in the past, before all this got serious.Harry and I take a seat in front of them, our mums on either side of us holding our hands. Gemma and Lottie are sitting beside them and Mark and Robin are standing behind us with their hands on our shoulders for support.Simone starts handing out papers to them and starts explaining everything in detail the contract and what it entails. Anne picks up the papers to start reading and then slams them back down again. I’ve never seen her so angry before. “You aren’t and can’t do this to our sons and our family” Anne says sternly. Tom and Simone eyes go wide not thinking this is the way it was going to go.“We aren’t signing anything, we love our kids and who they are and who they want to be” mum says with tears in her eyes but she’s trying to stay strong for us. Simone clears her throat to speak “Unfortunately Mrs Tomlinson, Louis has already agreed to all of this and the arrangements are already in motion, you have to sign or we can sue you if you or anyone else speaks out against this” Simone explains.I can feel Mark's grip going tight around my shoulders in anger. “Is there anything else we can do, can we discuss other options or at least not have this girl be pregnant?” Robin asks calmly hoping to try to renegotiate and try to make this easier. Simone shakes her head again with a no. After confirmation of everything outlined in the contract and that it was going ahead everyone starts to cry again. Those words from Simone will become reality for us and our families.Gemma and Lottie are refusing to sign, they don’t want us to go through this. I tell them we will be ok and to sign. Their love and support will get us all through this even if I deep down don’t feel it, I just want to make sure they’re ok.Everyone is just sitting hesitant to sign, not one of them want to do this. I turn my head to mum and give her a nod to tell her to do it. She picks up the pen and starts to sign, her hands are shaking while signing and tears dropping onto her cheeks rolling down her face. Anne signs next then Mark and Robin, you can see the heartbreak on their faces as they sign. Lottie and Gemma are still refusing, they know first hand what management have done to us. Lottie is obviously traveling with us all the time and Gemma joins us when she can, when she’s not working.“Please girls, I know it’s hurting you but you have to do this, please sign to make this easier for us” Harry tries to encourage them. The girls let out a sniffle and eventually sign, they both push their contacts on the table and storm out of the room linking arms.“Thank you all for agreeing to this, we will see you for the next few shows” Tom says while collecting all the paperwork. “Yeah we look forward to seeing you again soon” Simone pipes up. No-one acknowledges them, we all just stand up and walk out of the room together.

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Harry’s POVI was out having breakfast with mum, gem and Robin before tonight’s show. It makes me so happy that I can do this for my family and bring them all over the world. The past two days have been so hard for us but it was nice to see our family and have a catch up and have their devoted support for Louis and I.When I arrived at our hotel room, I was feeling mischievous so I opened the door a little, stuck my right leg in and shouted “Honey, I’m home.” I can hear Louis cackling with laughter from inside the room. When I walk in I can see him standing at the end of the bed with his goofy smile, the kind of smile where you can see his beautiful ocean blue eyes light up and sparkle from tears of laughter and the crinkles at the sides. He waves his hand to come to him. “I have a surprise for you, close your eyes and don’t peek”. My heart starts to flutter with thoughts of what he has for me.Louis puts his hands over my eyes so I can’t see and turns me around to face the bed. I put one hand against his hand over my eyes and the other on his leg rubbing it up and down in excitement. Louis whispers in my ear to count to three and open my eyes. God his voice gives me goosebumps when he whispers in my ear. “1,2,3” Louis counts down and removes his hand, I slowly open my eyes to see what’s on our bed.My eyes adjust and I see two multi coloured teddy bears sitting together on the bed one bigger than the other. I smile so wide at these cute teddies, what a lovely gesture from Louis to me, he really is the sweetest. “What do you think?” Louis asks.I turn around to face Louis, throw my arms around his neck and kiss him passionately. He giggles into our kiss “I take it you love them then.” I nod my head and squeeze Louis tighter. Louis is so affectionate and he is running his hands up and down my sides.He gently but with passion pushes me onto the bed. I grab his waist and pull him down on top of me without breaking our kiss. Louis is straddling my hips now and slowly grinding my cock. I let out a small moan as Louis is turning me on so much just by the small roll of his hips. I pull his top over his head, I need to touch his gorgeous chest. Louis tugs at the button on my jeans and opens it, he slides my zip down. I lift my hips up slightly so Louis can pull my pants down to let my now throbbing cock out of my tight jeans.I kiss down Louis' chest, I make sure I kiss his heart, his skin is so soft and smells of raspberries. I take a deep breath and moan when I feel Louis' hand grip my cock and start to move his hand up and down. I look into his eyes full of lust and I bite my bottom lip, he’s driving me insane just by his touch. Louis is now moving faster and harder up and down my shaft. I slide a little forward and sit us up on the edge of the bed and slide my hand inside his pants and I pull out Louis cock I start to do the same to him.We’re both in sync now stroking each other’s cocks. Louis kisses my lips and rolls his tongue along my lips asking for me to open up for his tongue to enter my mouth, I open my lips gladly and my tongue reaches out for his, they intertwine, “Fuck” Louis groans out as he pulls his head away and tilts it back in pleasure.I stand up, Louis wraps his legs around me holding on. I throw him on to the bed, he falls back with a giggle knowing what I’m going to do to him next. I get down on my knees between his legs and smirk up to Louis. I run my hands down his stomach and pull his pants down, he’s fully naked now. “You’re so beautiful and sexy” I say to him just as I lift Louis cock up to my mouth. I slowly lick his tip with my tongue, I then wrap my lips around his cock, I push it in my mouth and start moving up and down while holding the bottom of Louis shaft. Louis grabs my hair and groans, his cock is hitting the back of my throat. “Oh god Harry” Louis pants out.Louis cock curves down my throat, I start to gag a little, my eyes start to water. I can feel Louis grip my hair tighter and his hips starting to buck up. I take his cock out of my mouth and swirl my tongue round his red tip and slowly run it up and down his cock. I put Louis cock back into my mouth and immediately deep throat him. Louis cock is banging off my tonsils over and over again, his hips are bucking off the bed now. Louis pulls my hair harshly, my mouth disengaged from his cock, he’s panting very quickly now.I grab Louis' hips and flip him over, I pull him towards me so he’s bent over the bed. I dribble some of my saliva onto my cock and rub it all over. As I don’t have any lube available to hand. I place my thumb against Louis rim and start massaging it slowly, trying to make it a bit looser. Once I feel it pulsating against my thumb I line up my tip and slowly sink my cock inside. I slowly push inside until my cock disappears and I’m lined with Louis’ peach bum.I don’t want to hurt Louis, I let out a loud raspy moan as I feel his ass clenched around my cock. Louis is gripping the bed sheets as I move in an upward position, I’ve found his spot, I thrust in deeper and faster, my hips slapping against him with every rock of my hips. “Fucking hell Harry, I’m so full” Louis moans out. I bring my hand up to his throat and squeeze it just under his jaw so the blood rushes to his head in pleasure.My eyes roll back into my head as I’m fucking Louis so hard now, with every thrust I can feel my orgasm building. Louis' ass is pulsating so fast around my cock I know he’s close too. With the next few hard thrusts I let go of his throat and run my hand down his sweaty back. “Harrrry” Louis screams out as he reaches his orgasm and cums. I slow down as I’m nearing my orgasm and I join Louis and cum inside him, as he’s coming down, I look at his smile and scream “Fuck babe, I love you” as I fill him up.I pull my cock out slowly and pull my pants back up. Louis turns around and kisses me. We put our sweaty foreheads together and just stare into each other’s eyes as we try to catch our breath. Louis goes to shower first before we leave. I’m lying on the bed still feeling out of it when my eyes wander over to the bears that are now on the floor and I smile.Louis comes out of the bathroom with a cheeky smile on his face looking at me holding one of the bears and says “Let’s have some fun with these, why don’t we take them to all our shows and set them up on the stage for our fans to see. We can leave little private messages, you know like the hints we’ve been giving them that we’re together in the interviews etc, what do you think?” I smirk looking at the bear in my hand and my mind starts to think how much fun this could be.

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Louis’s POVWe had such a great show tonight in San Diego. We rapped the ‘Fresh Prince of Bel Air song’, it was so fun to do it on stage. Niall was in his element he even put his cap on backwards and went all in on it.The show was extra special, Harry and I had our family here to cheer us on. I could see them up in the VIP section having a great time, I felt so proud.The fans went wild seeing our teddies on the side of the stage. I put a crown with sunglasses on one and added a large McDonald’s fries box. Harry dressed the bigger one in a rainbow coloured top with sunglasses and we gave him a mustache haha. We could see fans taking pictures of them and with curious faces, they were whispering to each other wondering what they meant.After the show we had a backstage party with everyone before our family were due to fly home in the morning. I was in charge of the music so of course I was blasting out Oasis, Greenday and Arctic Monkeys. Niall had his arms around Anne belting out ‘WonderWall’ and a beer in his hand. I whipped out my phone to capture the moment between them. Liam was playing an air guitar and dancing around to the beat. Harry was in front of me throwing his hands in the air and singing along to the songs.Our crew even joined us after they finished taking down the stage ready for our next stop which is LA. I don’t want to think about that place yet or it will upset me so I’m going to enjoy tonight with everyone I love dearly. I have been smoking a lot more weed to try to calm my nerves knowing what is about to happen next. The next song I play is ‘watch me, whip watch me nae nae’ everyone jumps up and starts doing the dance to it. We ended it having a dance off to see who could do it best, poor Harry is so confused with the moves and he tries his best, it makes me love him more. Liam, Lottie and AJ won the dance off.We are all in a massive circle in the middle of the room, arms around each other dancing and laughing. It was the best night we have had in a long time, all of us buzzed from the show and having a few drinks together. Time to go, we all jumped back on the tour bus and headed back to our hotel, we continued the party on the bus. We took pictures and videos on the bus so we have these moments to look back on. The ride back to the hotel only took us 30 minutes and none of us wanted the party to end.The bus pulled up outside our hotel, some fans are outside and in the hotel lobby. They start screaming and flashing their phones to take pictures of us as we walk to the elevator. I had to make sure I wasn’t snuggled into Harry too much as they would see us and there would be consequences.We hugged our parents goodnight and thanked them for coming to help and support us over the last few days as they got out of the elevator. We all looked down sad knowing tomorrow they wouldn’t be here, we all huddled together and hugged.“Let’s have a race to see who can get to the end of the hall first” Niall suggested as he’s swaying taking off his shoes and pants. Harry just raises his eyebrows seeing drunk Niall taking off his clothes to just be in his boxers. “You know I’m the fastest runner out of all you losers” I say sticking out my tongue and kicking off my own shoes and handing my phone to Harry.“Fuck it, I’m in too but I’m going to win” Liam shrugged his shoulders and taking off his shirt. “This hotel is too hot and I’m sweating from the show and partying” Harry says while placing our phones down on the floor and pulling off his jeans. We all just look at each other and laugh as this is so funny we’re all in our boxers drunk and about to have a race down this long hallway. Thank god there’s no other guests on this floor, only all our crew, they’re well used to our antics by now.We’re all lined up ready to run but it’s a tight squeeze trying to fit us all in a line so I move up slightly. “Goooooo” I shout and start sprinting down. I hear the boys not far behind me one of them is catching up, so I try running faster but it’s hard when drunk. A few seconds before I reach the wall I hear a thud, I stop and turn around to look and I see Niall on the floor howling with laughter because he obviously tripped over his feet. Harry pulls him up while still laughing. I wish I had caught it on camera as that’s one for the books.We all run back down to where we left our clothes and phones, say goodnight to each other and headed to our rooms for the night.Harry heads straight to the bathroom to have his shower and do his skincare routine before bed. I pull out my phone to have a little look at twitter to see what fans are saying about the show tonight and of course to see their reactions to our bears. I see some of them have already named them Rainbow Bondge Bear and Sugar baby bear and are loving it trying to figure out what they mean. It gives me an idea, I’m going to set up a twitter account for them so we can interact with our fans more, without them knowing it’s us.After setting up the account Harry comes out of the bathroom, I give him a kiss and go into the bathroom for my shower and brush my teeth. I turn off the lights and jump into bed where Harry is already there waiting for me. I am feeling like being little spoon tonight so I lay my head on Harry’s shoulder and my hand on his chest and rub up and down for comfort.Harry leans over and kisses me softly and rubs his thumb on my cheek and whispers “I love you, night babe”. With my eyes closed and snuggled in close against him I hum “I loves ya too darling”

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Harry's POVLouis and I are cuddled up together in our bunk on our tour bus. It is a tight squeeze for us both to fit into it but we make it work. Our legs are intertwined and I have my chin against Louis' shoulder taking in his sweet smell. Louis set up our bears in my bunk so when I look across, I can see them and smile to myself.I'm glad this is a travel day as I'm feeling slightly hungover from last night but I really enjoyed our last night together with our family, it was so much fun. We haven’t had a night like that in a long time.I plant a kiss on Louis’ bare shoulder and run my finger gently along his arm, he starts shuffling from my touch. Louis lets out a small yawn and turns round to face me. He looks so beautiful even if he has bed head and his eyes are full of sleep. These are all the little things I love about him."Hey babe" Louis says in his groggy voice and a smile, he moves over and kisses right in the middle of my chest. It makes my heart melt when he does that. I know he’s really trying to kiss my heart.I brush his hair out of his eyes as I want to take in those ocean blue eyes. I lean down and gently kiss his forehead, Louis blushes when I do that. We rub our noses together while staring into each other's eyes and giggle, we both have big cheesy grins on our faces. We’re happy, happy as we can ever be as long as we’re together!"Let's watch a movie together in our bunk with popcorn and junk food" Louis suggests. I nod in agreement to his suggestion. With that Louis stretches his body, he rolls over so he can jump down out of the bunk to grab our munchies for the movie. I hear his feet thud down the aisle towards the lounge. I stretch out like a starfish in the bunk while Louis is gone. I can hear Niall snoring very loudly on the other side of the aisle. I roll my eyes and giggle to myself, boy can Nialler snore, but we got used to it after all we’ve been traveling together the past four years.I hear some noise coming from the back of the bus, Liam must be awake too, when the door opens fully, I can hear Louis and Liam laughing at something. I then get the whiff of popcorn, I can hear Louis' feet stomping again, he’s coming back to bed. Louis whips the curtain back playfully and throws some chocolate at me, it hits me in the chest "Ouch that hurt" I chuckle, while rubbing my bare chest, Louis sniggers while handing me the bowl of popcorn. He’s now setting up the laptop on a makeshift stand we have at the end of the bed so we can lie down to watch the movie.Louis puts on Grease obviously, it's his favorite film, he sees himself as Danny and he calls me his Sandy with my long curly hair. I shuffle over and lie on my side to make room for Louis to jump back up into the bunk. Louis props up the pillows and places one hand behind his head and the other in the bowl of popcorn between us. I put my head on his shoulder and open the chocolate."Grease is the word, is the word that you heard, It's got groove, it's got meaning" Louis starts singing along to the movie, when he does these little silly things it makes me smile. I really love him and what we have together, we can enjoy all these special moments, but my mind is starting to drift a little with thoughts of what's going to happen the minute we get off this bus in a few hours."I'm scared Harry" Louis whispers and breaks my own heavy thoughts. We both turn to face one another and wrap our arms around each other. "I'm terrified Lou of what's going to happen" I say as I feel my throat going dry and my eyes starting to water. Louis presses his forehead to mine with tears in his eyes and I can feel him starting to shake in nervousness in my arms.I pull him closer to me, Louis buries his head into my chest and I can feel it wet from his tears. He then starts to sob, I comfort him as much as I can but no amount of hugs will change what we are about to endure. I need to stay strong and support Louis. I don’t like it but I worry for Louis, he is the one who has to go through this. It’s his life for the next so many years that will be changed in the media’s eye! I know he worries about what people think too. We lie in silence with just the background noise of the movie and the sound of our sniffling.What feels like forever of us lying here together, I see from the corner of my wet eyes a roll of toilet paper being passed into us from behind the curtain. "Here guys take this and if you need any of us we’ll be in the lounge" comes Niall's voice from the other side of the curtain. I reach out to take the toilet paper from his hand. "Thanks Ni, we just want to be alone for a while" I say back before I hear Niall walk down to where Liam is.I take some tissue to blow my nose and try wipe some of my tears away. I pull Louis’ chin up with my thumb to look into his tear filled eyes, I take some more tissue to wipe away his tears. Louis leans up and kisses my lips, I kiss him back soft and gentle. Louis pulls the duvet cover up over our heads, he wants to hide away, we're now wrapped up like a cocoon, it's our safe space just us together hiding from the world.We both start to drift back to sleep after being emotionally drained from these thoughts and it's literally only the beginning of it."Guys, you have to wake up we're here in LA" I hear AJ voice loudly.. Louis sits up suddenly forgetting where we are and bangs his head off the top of the bunk. "Motherfucker" he shouts out, he then falls back down onto the pillow rubbing his temple. I groan that I don't want to get up to AJ."Come on Harry, I'm sorry but you have to get up, we're at the hotel and have things to do" AJ says while pulling back the curtain. I think Louis and I really don’t want to move from this bus because we know the minute we do, we're stepping into the reality for the rest of our lives. AJ pulls the covers down from our heads and my eyes squint from the bright lights."Ok, ok we're coming now" Louis moans with nervousness in his voice. He rolls over to pull his top on and jumps down off the bunk to put on his shoes. I slip my white t-shirt on and get out myself and slide my feet into my shoes. Louis and I are facing each in the middle of the aisle with bunks on either side of us. Louis reaches out his two hands for mine I place mine in his. "I love you, we got this, it's you and me till the end" Louis says trying to be positive. I squeeze his hands back and kiss him on the lips. "I love you babe, til the end” I reply.We make our way out of the bus and into our hotel. As per usual there's loads of screaming fans waiting for us. We stopped to sign some autographs and pictures for them. We're always so grateful for our fans and love them dearly for what they have done for us.Tom is waiting at the elevators with our keycards therefore we make our way over to him. We all step into the elevator and head to our hotel floor. I take the key from Tom's hand for our room as we step out onto our floor without uttering a word. The atmosphere you could cut with a knife in that elevator!Niall and Liam’s rooms are opposite ours which is great. Sometimes they separate us even in hotels. Just as the guys go into their rooms and I swipe our key card to our door, I feel Louis nudge me in the side. I look up the corridor, Tom is heading straight for us with a sinister look on his face."Louis, we need a chat" he says. My heart sinks, this is it. I open the door and the three of us walk into the room together. Louis walks over to the bed with his head down, I know he's terrified of this moment and what he has to do.Tom clears his throat before he speaks, my heart is pounding waiting for him to say something. "So Louis the plan for tonight is your going out to a club, you will be introduced to Brianna, have a few drinks together and then when you leave the club there will be some paps outside waiting to take your picture together" Tom explains every detail to Louis step by step of what's going to happen.I can see Louis rubbing at his hands, his breath is getting quicker, his head is starting to sweat, you can see on his face how broken he is from hearing this information. I feel sick to my stomach and want to murder Tom here and now for putting us through this, but I can't for obvious reasons. Louis just nods his head because there's nothing else he can do, he just has to go along with what Tom says. With that Tom walks out of the room. I run straight over to Louis on the bed and pull him up into my arms, I can feel his heart pounding against me and his hands are sweaty on my skin.After we hugged for ages we both went to the mini bar and started drinking. I'm finding it difficult to process this and I want to numb my emotions for a few hours. Louis wants to blank his mind as much as he can before he heads to the club so he starts necking raw vodka to help with it. An hour after a few drinks Louis heads to the bathroom to freshen up and gets changed before Tom comes knocking on the door, it’s time to leave.I'm pacing the room with a wine bottle in my hand panicking about it all. Once Louis is dressed in his black jeans, white t-shirt and black denim jacket with white converse he walks over to me and kisses me goodbye.Knock knock.......

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Louis POVBoth Harry and I looked at each other, we then fixed our eyes on the door, I saw fear in Harry’s eyes! We know it’s fucking Tom telling me it’s now time to go to this club, pretend I’m this party boy for the headlines and of course to meet this Brianna girl. How can she agree to this shit? It’s fucked up.I clear my throat and shout to Tom that I’ll be out in a minute. I take a deep breath trying to hold back my tears and pray I can drink lots of vodka to numb my brain. It’s going to be hard to play this party boy when I’m not really like that, but I guess if they keep supplying me vodka and redbull, I’ll get drunk enough to forget why I’m there.Tom of course will be there watching me, making sure I don’t slip up. Harry brings his hand up to my face and slowly rubs his thumb across my cheek, I slowly run my fingers in his soft hair and kiss him on the lips. “I love you” I whisper before walking to the door. Harry pulls my arm back not wanting me to go and of course I don’t want to either. “Be safe my love, I’ll be waiting for you when you come home to me” Harry tells me as I get to the oak door. I turn around to blow him a kiss before I pull down the silver handle.“Come on Louis we’re going to be late” Tom barks at me the moment I open the door and we’re face to face. Tom is dressed in all black, head to toe, it really does feel like I’m going to my own funeral which is kinda true since my life is over from this point onwards. Tom starts to walk ahead of me down the corridor. I walk slowly behind him with my head down fiddling with my hands. I can’t help it, but I’m so nervous. All I can see are the red and white stripes of this hallway carpet, I’m absolutely shitting myself as we walk.Tom is already at the elevator waiting for me tapping his foot being his impatient self. He huffs at me because I’m taking so long. The elevator pings open and we step inside, I click the lobby button.“You know Louis this is a great opportunity for you and the band, think of the deals you will get out of this” Tom tries to convince me, but I’m not interested in what bullshit he’s talking. I just stand at the back of the elevator with my eyes watching the floor numbers go down without saying a word back to him.He looks at me waiting for a reply, but I just start whistling, he gets it now, I need to do what he tells me but I don’t need to talk to him.The elevator doors open. The first thing I see is AJ our security, he must be coming with us. I have a good relationship with AJ, we have had great conversations and fun throughout the years. I know he feels guilty for what we have to deal with but it’s out of his control, he knows that he would be sacked if he went against what management says. He has tried in the past but they actually suspended him once for speaking up on our behalf.AJ gives me a small smile in sympathy knowing what is going to happen tonight. He walks towards the glass doors of the hotel and guides me to the car outside waiting. The minute we get outside I’m blinded by the flashing cameras from the press. I put my left hand up to shield my eyes a little bit while getting into the black van. Tom and AJ get in straight after me. I lean my elbow on the window edge and stare out at the bustling LA city huffing to myself.“Louis, cheer up you’re going to a club, get in the party mood and put a smile on your face, it’s a big night for us” Tom tells me in his patronizing manner while elbowing me in the side. I just hum back to him obviously not agreeing to his statement. The rest of the car drive to the club was just a blur to me, I zoned out the whole time.When we reached the club I could see the lines of people queuing to get in. I could also see the strobe lights flashing from the windows. I’m really not in the mood, I have to pull myself together and plaster on a smile before getting out.The club were playing really loud dance music. I can hear it loud even from inside the car. I feel Tom’s fingers squeezing the back of my neck, he leans in, whispers in my ear “don’t fuck this up tonight” I turn to face him trying to shake his fingers off me. I plaster on my fake smile and nod. On the inside my body is shaking.AJ slides the van door open for us to get out and the minute I get out I hear the base of the music hit my ears and people staring at me. They’re talking amongst themselves, they know who I am. Some people whip out their phones to take my picture and start screaming my name. All I can do is smile and nod to them as I follow Tom and AJ to the entrance of the club. The security at the club door unclips the velvet rope, we walk through and into the club.We walk up the ten black steps into the VIP section. I weave my way through people dancing in the VIP area in order to get to our booth. It already has buckets of goose vodka and red bull on the table with those stupid fucking sparklers in them. Again with the ‘hey look at me’ message it was giving out, they wanted me noticed. Our waitress pours me out a drink, I swallow half the glass in one gulp because of my nerves. Tom tells me he will be back in a few minutes and to enjoy myself. Fuck fuck fuck this is it I’m thinking to myself as I watch where Tom is going.I take my phone out of my back pocket of my black jeans to send Harry a quick text, I tell him I’m here and it’s about to happen any minute now. After I send the text I put my phone back in my pocket and pour myself another drink. I look up from the table to see Tom, Cora and five girls walking towards our table. I raise my eyebrows in shock but I try to control my facial expressions and I quickly plaster on my fake smile again.Cora introduces the girls to me one by one leaving Brianna till last. She’s blonde wearing a black top, a leather skirt and black heels, fuck this really is my funeral I think to myself. Tom is handing out drinks to everyone and I see him mouth to me talk to her while handing me another drink. I really don’t want to do this but again I have no fucking choice. I walk over to her with a small smile. I have to look like I’m trying in front of everyone, I can actually feel all eyes are on us now watching and waiting.“Hi, I’m Brianna, nice to meet you finally, you’re such a gorgeous man” Brianna says to me while wrapping her arm around me. My whole body stiffens because of her words and especially her touch. Nobody but Harry should be touching me like this, I only want his hands on me in an affectionate way.“Ehhh hi I’m Louis” I quickly say back to her slowly trying to get out of her grip but not to make it too obvious to everyone watching. Brianna tries to dance with me giggling her head off, but I can’t so I try to shuffle over to our table for another drink. I take another big gulp from my glass feeling the burn down the back of my throat. I’m pouring more vodka into the glass than red bull at this point.I feel a hand slide up my arm, I nearly flinch from it because I know it’s her trying to be affectionate towards me. I quickly turn around, I shove a glass into Brianna’s hands, this will make her stop touching me. I quickly make my way to the bathroom, I feel I need to get away for a breather for a few minutes. I walk in and slam my hands down on the marble counter. I then hide in a cubicle, all of a sudden the bathroom door flies open, it hits the wall and makes a loud bang. How did he get here so fast, he must be watching me like a hawk.I hear Tom calling me. I pull myself together, open the cubicle door and start walking towards him, pretending I don’t hear him. I’m now walking back towards the booth, I know he can’t make a show here and call me out for ignoring him with all these people looking on. I push myself through the dancing crowd and sit back down at the booth.I look at my reflection in the mirror on the wall, my heads spinning, I can see it in my eyes they’re red and bloodshot from the alcohol but I don’t give a fuck at this point. Tom comes marching over looking unhappy with me. “What” is all I managed to say to him. “You just stormed off Louis what the fuck, you better play your part or else” Tom barks at me. I plaster on my fake smile to annoy him, shrug my shoulders and tell him I was away for a piss. Tom huffs and commands I pull myself together and go speak to Brianna.I mumble under my breathand I try to gather myself, I know this is nearly over for now. I take a deep breath and head out onto the dance floor and look for Brianna but I feel my legs swaying a little bit, I actually don’t care. I can’t find her so I look around and notice they’re all back at the table. All the girls are chatting and laughing in a circle and I try to get back to the table for another drink when I feel a hand squeezing my arm to tell me not to do it , which means Tom thinks I’m too drunk and can’t have any more.Tom leans into my ear and tells me to stand next to Brianna so they can take some pictures for the paper. They also want to send some to Simone as proof it all went well. I roll my eyes, I know Tom can’t see me with his mouth to my ear still. I then turn back to face Tom drawing him a look and walk slowly over to the group of girls with my fake smile. They’re all so excited to be gathered around me for these photos. Once the group pics are over it was just Brianna and I for one on our own. This will make it look like we’re together but the minute they were taken I head back over to the table to sit down.Ten more minutes of this I tell myself while looking at my watch. I look back up and see everyone staring at me with fucking stupid smiles on their faces telling me they got the shots and it’s done with for now. Brianna walks over to me and sits down, “Thanks for tonight handsome, see you again soon” she whispers in my ear. I quickly glanced at her and said “yeah, see ya”. By the look on her face she wasn’t happy with my reply but I don’t give a fuck now.Cora walks over to give us the nod that it’s time to leave and to get the pap shot leaving the club together. Brianna and I stand up and make our way down the steps to leave. Once we get outside the club I hear the paps shout at us “Louis pose for a picture it’s for the sun” I quickly hold my two thumbs up and try to smile. The paps snap their picture and head away.I power walk to our car, I need to get away as quickly as I can. AJ opens the door for me and we get back in and head back to the hotel. “Good job Louis on tonight” Tom tells me, I just nod back to him and look out the window again counting down the minutes till I’m back in Harry’s arms again!

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Harry's POVI've been pacing this hotel room what feels like days waiting for Louis to come back from the club. I've drank quite a lot of wine to try pass the time and suppress my worry. Louis sent me a quick text earlier in the night but I haven't heard anything since.I hear the hotel room door click and open, I immediately jump off the edge of the bed and run to it. I know it's Louis, I want to be there for him and give him all the support with whatever he needs, he's my life partner forever. Louis enters the room with his head down but I can see his chin quivering, he's also unsteady on his feet, I suspect from drinking a fair bit of alcohol but I don't blame him. He had to get through this, I would have been the same.Louis finally looks up and our eyes lock, he literally falls into my arms and starts to sobs. He’s mumbling into my chest and shaking his head back and forth. I place my hand on his head and run my fingers through his hair trying to sooth him, my other hand is around his back squeezing him tightly into me. My heart is breaking for Louis and the situation we are in for the foreseeable, all I can think to do is be there for him no matter what, we will see this through together.I whisper to Louis that I love him and will do anything to take his pain away we're in this together. Louis grips my t-shirt harder in his hands unable to say anything back, he's just so distraught and traumatized after tonight. I take his hand in mine, I guide him over to our bed and sit him on my lap, he’s in my arms cradled like a baby. Louis curls into me, he looks up with his tear filled eyes "Harry, I need you more than ever, it was the worst night of my life and it's only going to get worse, please don't ever leave me" Louis begs.I look down to him while rubbing his arm gently "I'm never leaving you babe, you're the love of my life, I’m here for you, always and forever” I pour out to him. I know Louis knows how I feel, I tell him every single day but I know he needs reassurance tonight. Our lives are being turned upside down again and there's nothing we can do about it.A half hour has passed by, we’re lying still in our clothes cuddled into each other on the bed when I hear a knock at the door. We both actually jump with fright, our hearts are beating so fast, I can see the worry look on Louis face. I hope it’s not Tom, I can't deal with anything else tonight from management. There's another knock at the door, neither Louis or I move from our spot out of fear. "Harry, Tommo, it's us Niall and Li, open the door" Niall shouts.Thank fuck it's the guys not management, I unwrap my arms from Louis to let Niall and Liam in. Louis automatically curls back up into a ball on the bed just staring at the hotel door. I let them in quickly, we don't want to draw any attention to our room, we've had enough from them for one night.When Niall and Liam enter, their eyes land directly on Louis curled up on the bed, both of them looked saddened seeing him like that. They’re so used to Louis being the life and soul of the group, he brings everyone together and encourages only positivity. The guys put their arms on my shoulders as we walk over to the bed to Louis.Niall lies down beside Louis and wraps his arm around him, Liam kneels down on the floor and takes his hand. Louis hasn't said a word to them, he's feeling emotionally drained with a hint of drunkenness. "We're sorry mate that this is happening to you, but we want you to know we love and support you" Liam tells Louis while squeezing his hand. "Yeah Lou, we want you to be happy, we are here for you with whatever you need from us, ok?” Niall adds. Louis just nods, silent tears start to fall out of his eyes and down his cheeks.My heart is broken for Louis I'm trying to hold back my own tears again. I'm trying to be strong for him but I'm struggling too at this point, it's literally killing me. I feel my knees weaken and my head starts to spin, I fall down to the floor and pull my knees up to my chest. I bury my head inmy hands, I can’t stand to see Louis hurt, I start sobbing. Liam pulls me into his arms to try and console me, I really appreciate him in this moment. They're our brothers, we have a bond that will never be broken! We have been through so much together, we definitely are bonded for life."Harry" I hear Louis’ broken voice call me, it's the first thing he’s said since Liam and Niall came into our room.He reaches out his hand for me to take. It’s too far away, Louis notices once I stretch my hand out, he then shuffles over a little bit on the bed and grabs my hand pulling me on to the bed with him and Niall.Niall moves himself over to the far end of the bed to make room for us. I climb on and cuddle into Louis. I feel Niall's arm on mine, he’s rubbing it up and down to comfort me too. Liam follows me up onto the bed, he wraps his arm around as well. We're all squashed together on top of the bed, if one of us goes through something that hurts us, we all go through it. It feels nice for both Louis and I that the boys are here, to be here all together on a night like tonight when we all need each other most in a time of need.Louis and I are just looking at each other both with glossy eyes and sniffing every so often. I notice Louis’ eyes getting heavy. I can see he was beginning to fall asleep, I rub my thumb on his cheek and could feel his face start to soften as he drifted off to sleep. "Night guys" Liam yawned, soon he was asleep too."Thank you" I mumbled out before I went to sleep, I felt Niall squeeze my arm just before my eyes closed for the night.

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Louis POVIt has been a crazy couple of weeks since the story broke in the press that I was out clubbing with Brianna. Zayn called me about it as soon as the story hit the newspapers, he was absolutely gutted for us that we’re still going through this bullshit. It was actually so nice to catch up with Zayn, we don’t get to talk much but we both understand with the crazy schedule we have and Zayn working on his recovery and in therapy. I was glad to hear he is doing a lot better from when he left and has put on some weight. He’s also doing a lot better mentally but still struggling with his anxiety.Harry has asked me to leave the room for a little while, he has a surprise for me, I thought where can I go? I know, I’ll go down the corridor to Liam's room and have a couple of games of FIFA with him and Niall. I’m excited to see what he has planned for me later but it’s also good to spend some time with the other boyos for a while, even although it wasn’t planned. A bit of footie on the PlayStation is good medicine for our heads, it offers an escape from reality.When I entered Liams room the first thing I see is a pile of food, it’s all layed out on the bed and of course Niall is sprawled across it already eating a large slice of pizza. “Alright lads, are you both ready to lose” I say to them with a chuckle, they know I’m an expert at footie and fifa. Liam turns to face me with a big smile on his face “Yeah right tommo, I’m gonna beat you tonight” Niall mumbles something, but we couldn’t work it out, haha, he has a mouth full of food.I pull over a chair in front of the tv, grab a packet of haribo and a controller ready to play. Liam switches on the PlayStation and sits beside me on another chair while stuffing his face with some Doritos. I’m glad we can have these chill nights together, it also helps Liam not to have a drink when he’s occupied with something else. He’s not alone in his room with his own thoughts.We’ve been taking turns on who gets to play the winner of each match to make it fair but of course I’m winning most games against the other guys. I can’t help it I’m just obsessed with football. My phone beeps in my pocket, I take it out to see who it’s from, my heart flutters when I see Harry’s name on the screen. I open the text and immediately my eyes go wide and I automatically hold my tongue between my teeth, I actually think I even drooled a little bit from the image Harry sent me.Harry was just in a pair of bondage briefs that were leather, he drew an arrow pointing down to his crouch. He also had a whip in his hand, the text under the image said ‘come get me big boy.’ My dick went hard in seconds. I hand the controller straight to Niall and ask him to finish off the game, he looks at me funny with an eyebrow raised and then bursts out laughing knowing exactly why I reacted like that. He knows that text was from Harry. “Enjoy your surprise Louis” Liam shouts at me while I briskly walk to the door. I hear the both of them cackling as soon as I left the room. I make my way to our room trying to hide my hard large bulge in my trousers from security in the hallway. I can’t wait to get my hands on Harry’s sexy body, especially in those little leather pants.I burst through the door to see Harry propped up across the bed cracking the whip, he has that smirk on his face with a naughty glint in his eyes. Harry summons me over with his finger, as I walk over to him, I rip off my t shirt, kick off my shoes and pull my pants down as quickly as I could humanely possible. Once I get to the edge of the bed I jump on top of Harry, he grabs my hard dick immediately and starts pumping me with long slow strokes. I throw my head back in pleasure from his immediate touch.Harry slides the cold whip along my back making me shudder, he then hovers the whip just above my left ass cheek, suddenly he cracks it against my ass. My mouth falls opens wide letting out a loud gasp, my ass is kinda stinging but Harry then rubs it gently soothing the sting. He’s just smirking at me with those sexy eyes, I can’t control myself, I lean down towards his chest and with my tongue I lick all the way up to his jaw. I nibble on his ear lobe. I can feel Harry’s hips slightly bucking from this soft touch, I know he loves it, it turns him on so much, he lets out a groan as my head is buried in his neck sucking on his sweet spot.I’m rolling my hips on Harry’s and grinding against his throbbing hard dick. I feel another crack of the whip against my ass, the same cheek, again “fuck this is insane” I gasp out. Harry wraps his legs around my lower back and flips me over on the bed so he’s now on top of me and grinding my hips. I slide my hand down to Harry’s dick and pump him up and down with a tight squeeze every so often, we’re both staring into each other’s eyes with pure lust.Harry clenches his hand around my throat just under my jaw where my sweet spots are. He starts to gently squeeze it, the blood rushing straight to my head giving me a euphoria feeling. I keep pumping Harry’s dick faster as I’m feeling the rush to my head, my eyes roll back in my head from the feeling. Harry lets go of my throat and slides himself down my legs, he kisses my chest hungrily and makes his way down to my dick and hovers just for a moment to keep me in suspense.I buck my hips up waiting for him to take me in his wet hot mouth, when he does I let out a deep groan. Harry deep throats me. I watch his head move up and down my long shaft. I grip his hair tight as he quickens his pace. I feel my dick starting to hit Harry’s tonsils with every movement. I tug his hair more aggressively as my dick is curving down his throat. Harry gags slightly but groans out with a deep moan that vibrates round my dick, the feeling is insane. My breathing gets faster, my stomach is raising up and down, Harry knows my orgasm is approaching. He suddenly stops sucking my dick and takes it out of his mouth.My mouth opens when he stops with shock, he gives me a little smirk, I was ready to cum. Now I know what he’s doing, he’s just edging me. He gets up and walks over to the night stand to grab the bottle of lube. “Louis, fuck me please, finish off, I want you inside me” Harry says in his raspy voice. I get up off the bed with my knees a little weak from just about to cum. I grab Harry by the waist and bend him over the bed while spreading his legs apart. I add some lube to my hands, I spread it all over my cock, I add more to my hands and with my fingers I massage Harry’s rim. I start with one finger, Harry lets out a groan and pushes back on my finger, I then add another, he pushes back even more groaning “Louis, please” he wants my dick!I line my dick up with Harry’s rim, I circle it around and massage his rim to make him open easily for me. I slowly push inside inch by inch, Harry gasps as I enter him fully, he’s grabbing the bedsheets in his hands. I slide my dick in and out in slow motion, once he’s comfortable with my dick he pushes back, he wants it deeper. He feels so tight and warm around my dick. I pick up the pace more while gripping Harry’s waist for leverage, my hips are now slapping against his ass moving faster and faster at every push.Harry’s ass is pulsating around my dick now and I know he’s close to cuming. I’m not far off either. I can see Harry starting to pump his own dick now he’s near orgasm. I’m fucking Harry fast now my hairline is full of sweat, with a few more thrusts of my hips Harry cums and groans out a load raspy moan. His body goes weak from his release, I move myself in and out slowly, I know Harry is sensitive now. Within a couple of seconds after a few thrusts my orgasm hits and I cum in Harry’s ass, filling him up. Just how he likes it.I pull out slowly and we both slump onto the bed panting and sweating. Harry rolls onto his back while catching his breath smiling at me. I lean in and kiss his lips softly and whisper “love you darling.” “I love you more” Harry replies softly.After a couple of minutes just lying on the bed, I get up and go to the bathroom and have a quick shower. As I’m washing my hair Harry gets in the shower with me, we both take a shower together. It feels so good to be able to do this together. We both rub shower gel on each other and kiss in between a couple of times, I love doing these sweet little things with Harry, it feels so good and right. He is my whole world. He is my home.We are all washed now, we have spent the last five minutes just holding each other under the warm water. It’s peaceful and feels so good, the world feels a million miles away. Harry suggests we get out of the shower now and dry off. I don’t want to move but we’ll turn into prunes if we don’t, haha. I watch Harry put on his night cream and tie his hair into a messy bun. We both climb into bed together and curl up for the night, we are recording James Corden's Late Late Show tomorrow so it will be a fun day.I lean over and kiss Harry on his lips, I wrap my arm around his stomach and pull him tightly against me. He takes my hand in his and kisses it. We both drift off to sleep all cuddled up together like we do every night.

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Louis POVWe had great fun on stage last night, Harry was very brave, he raised a pride flag with one of my tweets that said "Always in my heart Harry Styles, your sincerely Louis"When I wrote that I meant it and to this day I still mean it, he is the love of my life forever.Our love for each other grows stronger every day. I was so proud of him to take that risk in front of everyone to do it, to show our love to the world. I had to try hide my smile on stage but on the inside I was screaming in happiness.Today I have another meeting with Tom and Cora which I'm fucking dreading, I always do, I know it's about the contract with Brianna. They’re going over the final plan of what’s going to happen, the story and pap pics will be out in the press very soon.I'm feeling so sad, anxious and angry because it's actually horrible. I have to keep up with this pretense that I’m going to be a father.I will never confirm it on tv or in interviews unless they make me! This will be my reality, Harry is trying to calm me down by running his fingers through my hair. I know he's feeling the same as me but he’s trying to be strong as best he can.I appreciate and love him so much for being here with me every step of the way in anyway he can. Without him I don’t think I could do this alone. He’s my rock.Tom and Cora will be here, in our room any minute now with the paperwork for me to read over.I'm pacing this carpet so much I think I'll burn a hole in it at this stage. My hearts pounding and my head is a spinning mess. How am I going to get through this? Listening to every little detail of this horrific plan they have come up with. It’s going to be difficult.A bang on the door breaks my spiralling thoughts knowing it's them the 'handlers' as we have nicknamed them. Harry lets out a stressful sigh as I walk slowly to the door to let them in.My hand is so sweaty it slips on the cold silver handle when I first try to open the door. I rub my hands on my jeans to dry them and open the door.I see Tom's stupid smiling face with his clipboard under his arm, it winds me up so much, I would love to punch him, but obviously I can't.Tom and Cora walk in greeting me with chirpy hello's, they think it's a game, playing with my life like this.I just nod slightly to acknowledge their presence, I don’t really want to say anything to them unless I have to.Harry is sitting on the edge of our bed with his arms crossed, foot tapping and an annoyed expression on his face.They sit down at the black square table at the furthest corner of the room, they place folders with papers in front of three chairs.This is it, I just stand and watch, I can’t help but grind my teeth in anger.I look over at Harry, he gives me a sad look, then frowns in anger at them. They open up Cora’s laptop too. Tom then says “take a seat Louis, we have a lot to get through, now let’s begin.”My eyes are flicking between the seat and Harry's face, I know once I sit that’s it, this is the final step.Harry gives me a little nod trying to reassure me. I nod back to him, we know what we’re both thinking without saying anything to each other. Our minds are connected like one. This is us!Cora calls to me after she sits down, I didn’t acknowledge Tom’s words, but I need to do as I’m told, contract obligations.Cora starts to flick the papers in her hand. I nervously walk over to join them, my stomach has a knot in it as I take my seat facing them.Tom asks me to read over the papers but to be honest I can’t focus on any of the words, they’re all just a blur to me on the page.Tom clears his throat just before he begins explaining what is going to happen. He then starts to list off the major points in the contract.• Simone will do the announcement as you refuse to do it yourself as we discussed previously.• The Sun newspaper will be the newspaper that will break the story.• You will be interviewed on your happy news and you will be positive about it.These were the main three points that stood out for me as they listed off all the bullet points in the contract.Hearing them telling me everything in fine details has made me feel sick to my stomach. Harry has been huffing and puffing throughout the whole rundown. I know he’s upset and angry with them.Tom and Cora also confirmed the date that it’s going to be announced, which will be the 14th July. This is only a few days away, Fuck I feel my stomach flip, I feel the rush of hot water come up to my throat, I’m going to actually be sick.I excuse myself quickly and run to the toilet. Harry jumps up from the bed shouting and follows me into the toilet. I couldn’t hear exactly what he was saying before he rushed in to check I was ok. He just fell down onto the floor behind me and held me tight.Once I felt better we walked out together to face them again. Harry started shouting, “Do you see how this is affecting Louis, he can’t sleep or eat, he’s anxious and now you’re making him physically sick, you have to give us more time to get our heads around it.”Tom stands up and scoffs in Harry’s face which makes my blood boil, he really thinks this is funny when it’s far from it. He has ruined our lives forever. My hands ball into a fist in rage, I bang my fist down on the table from his disgusting actions towards Harry.He can do anything he likes to me but not Harry, I won’t let him. Tom flicks his head over to me when he hears the loud bang “Sit down Louis” he tells me, he’s such a fucking prick and he knows he can get away with talking to us like this.Harry goes to swing a punch but I put my arm up to stop him and ask him, “for me, babe, please go sit on the bed” I then whisper “we will get him one day,” Harry groans “too right” in return.Our master plan is in place for when the time is right. We won’t forget this or anything these fuckers have done to us, we will make them pay at some point, time will tell.Our master plan is the only thing keeping us going, knowing one day this will all come out. We have added and changed these plans over the years preparing for everything that could and will come out about our abuse in this industry.It’s just a matter of playing our cards right when we need to. We came up with this plan a few years ago now, we have it secured away from prying eyes, only a very small amount of people know about it.Tom and Cora are finished, they get up from their seats gathering up all the paperwork. Cora closes her laptop, she used it for taking notes.I thought they were going to link in with Simone, thankfully not. I couldn’t face that vile human being.They both start to walk towards the door “Bye for now guys, see you later in the venue” Tom says in his chirpy voice. Harry and I both let out a grunt in acknowledgment.The door slams shut, I place my head down on the table. I let out a loud sigh, I’m still trying to digest everything they said again.Harry squats down beside me rubbing my back in circles, his head resting on my shoulder to get as close to me as possible. He’s trying to comfort me.“Babe we got this, I know they’re horrible people and we will make them pay one day” Harry encourages, but his voice cracks at the end of the sentence.I lift my head up and turn to face Harry, pressing my forehead to his.I kiss him softly while my eyes are filling with tears, I don’t need to hold them back anymore.I wouldn’t give Tom the satisfaction of him seeing me crying. Harry caresses my cheeks in his large hands, he then moves one of his hands and lifts my chin. He’s looking at me right in the eyes, he leans in to kiss me back, his eyes filled with his own tears.“I love you darling” I softly say to him between kisses. “I love you to the moon and back” Harry says so sincerely.

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Harry's POVIt has been a mix of emotions these past few days since the story broke in the headlines about Louis.It’s affected us more than we thought it would, both of us have felt really low. We have just arrived in Seattle, we have two days off before our next show. I’ve been thinking on what we need to do to pick ourselves up, especially Louis.After a chat with Lottie I have decided to book a nice quiet getaway in the mountains where we have no noise, no people, just some wildlife but most of all no management watching our every move.Louis and I just really need this time to get away from it all and try to recuperate.I spoke to Louis on the tour bus earlier and asked, when we arrive at the hotel to pack a few things that we were taking a few days off but it's a surprise. The main thing is not to worry, I’ve arranged everything, all he needed to do was relax.He looked at me with the biggest smile. He’s my world and I just want to do something nice, anything to make him happy.I want to show Louis my love for him. I want him to know no matter what, he can always rely on me to make things better.My heart flutters seeing his smile, for a split second he forgets his troubles. I want to make that split second become days, if not longer.We’ve arrived at the hotel, we dropped all our bags into the room. I packed an overnight bag in one bag for both of us so it wouldn't raise suspicion.Once we're organized I text Lottie. I hand the bag over to Lottie. Our plan is to sneak out, Lottie will go wait in the hotel lobby.We have to be very careful not to get caught, which is quite difficult, but we always find a way to get what we want.Plans is our forte. Careful planning is required so we’re not spotted by fans, or our 'handlers'.I write a note telling Niall and Liam that we're going away for a few nights. We let them know we will be back for sound check, so they don’t worry. If they need to contact us to use our burner accounts on twitter only if there's an emergency.Where we're going won't have signal, we can’t use our own main accounts as they get monitored by our team.I also add that we will have our phones off, but we have the laptop and dongle for WiFi. I fold the note and put it inside my jacket pocket for later.We see Tom as we’re walking down the hallway, he’s speaking to security.We casually say that we're going downstairs for a quick coffee, they normally allow us to do that and only if the hotel isn't swarming with fans, which today it isn't thank fuck.Tom agrees so we continue on our walk past him and press for the elevator. We reach the hotel cafe, we see Lottie with our bag and coffees ready to go. We sit down for a couple of minutes chatting and keeping watch before we make our move.After a few minutes I get a text letting me know that the rental car is in the underground garage. Time for our road trip. I wink at Lottie, she gets up from her seat and lifts the bag and takes it to the garage ahead of us.We know there are other security watching on behalf of management, we don't want their prying eyes spotting us with a bag.I take one more look around the hotel lobby before grabbing my coffee and making my way to the stairs to the garage below. We use the stairs, it’s more discreet than an elevator, less people.I hear Louis’ footsteps behind me as we quickly run down the concrete steps.I push the steel door open to find Lottie standing with the driver's door open of the black SUV.It has tinted windows so nobody can see into the car. We give her a quick hug to thank her before getting in. I hand her the note from my pocket and ask her to give it to Niall and Liam when they’re together.I start up the engine and make our way out of the underground garage.We both have our hoods up with sunglasses on our faces, we don’t want to get recognised until we are out of the city.We’re now on the open road, I roll down the windows and start blasting music.Louis has his hand on my thigh while I drive, he seems a lot more relaxed. He’s enjoying himself singing and giggling at my silly jokes.This was a great idea!After driving for an hour, I see a small store ahead. I pull in, we need to get some supplies for the next few days and I'm actually feeling hungry now.We get out of the car, we make our way into the store, of course Louis heads straight to the snack aisle and I spot a bunch of flowers out of the corner of my eye.I know he will love these, they’re bright and beautiful and Roses are known for love, beauty and sensuality. Louis is all of these.I quickly pick up the red coloured roses and pay for them before he notices. I want to keep them as a little surprise.I shout to Louis “I’ve left my wallet in the car and I’ll be back in a sec, ok babe” He just nodded ok.I know his snacks decisions will be distracting him. I run out to the car, I put them into the boot and I make my way back and continue to pick up the rest of the supplies.Louis has his basket full of his favourites, red bull, grey goose vodka, loads of different sweet types of snacks, crisps and a packet of Marlboro gold cigarettes.I quickly throw in a couple bottles of red wine, a bottle of tequila, some ginger ale and some healthier snacks.We’re totally opposite when it comes to snack choices but that’s what makes us work. We walk over to the checkout and pay.We look at each other and smile and head back to the car to continue our drive. We don’t have too far to go now to our destination.As we’re pulling up the secluded path, I look over to Louis, his eyes brighten with surprise seeing the cute little triangle shaped hut.It has a full front wall of glass surrounded by fairy lights hanging from the trees and a hot tub in the corner.“Oh Harry, this is so beautiful and very romantic of you, thank you love” Louis squeals in excitement. I take his hand and kiss his knuckles “It’s all for you my love” I answer as we step out of the car.We meet in the middle at the front of the car, I reach out my hand and take Louis hand in mine.I start to run towards the hut giggling, I pull Louis and he runs behind me. We feel like we’re being naughty, we push through the door to see there’s rose petals scattered everywhere with candle light on the wooden table.There’s fairy lights draping down from the ceiling, twinkling, a small log fire is burning low in the corner.“This is so magical” it feels like a dream I whisper “Thank you Harry for doing this” Louis says while his eyes are everywhere in awe of the room.There was just magic in the air. It felt so right, we felt so right.Louis runs towards the bed in the middle of the room and jumps on it, he lands like a starfish. He has the biggest smile on his face. I haven’t seen that smile for a while.I giggle to myself, seeing him sprawled like that on the crisp white sheets is mesmerizing, he’s beautiful.Fuck, I love him so much I think to myself. “I’m going to get the bags from the car, stay here” I tell Louis.I grab the roses and our overnight bag and walk back in.Louis' face lights up, his eyes melt like a puppy when he sees the flowers “Darling, I just couldn’t love you any more, you’ve put a lot of thought into this trip and I appreciate it so much, thank you” Louis says when I hand him his flowers. I blush and kiss him softly on the lips.I open the fridge to put in some of our snacks, I chuckle to myself when I see the chicken, cheese and ham in the fridge.Lottie knows us so well, she really set this up for us well.I will cook Louis chicken parmesan later, it’s one of his favorite meals, it’s so easy to just throw it in the oven. Simple but effective.When I turn round Louis is already in his swim trunks “Cmon love, that hot tub looks very inviting, shall we?” he says while smiling brightly.I start to undress on the spot, I hurry over, open the bag to find my trunks. Louis then grabs my hand and guides me outside.I nearly trip and fall while trying to put my leg in my trunks. We both look at each other with a cheeky smirk, I know what he’s thinking so I take a run and jump into the tub, Louis follows close behind.The water splashes everywhere which makes us cackle out loud. Our laughter echoes through the trees, we’re in the middle of a forest which only makes us laugh louder.Louis splashes me “Heyyyy” I laugh while splashing him back. I grab Louis’ waist and pull him closer to me, he wraps his legs around my waist as we kiss softly then passionately, our mouths moulding together.This is love, my heart still flutters every time we kiss, it’s like our first kiss all over again. “I wish we could stay here forever” Louis whispers “ Me too” I say.Our skin is starting to wrinkle, we’re prunes now, ha ha. We’ve been in this hot tub for so long, we’ve lost track of time.We decide to get out, we walk back inside dripping wet, we forgot the towels in our moment of madness. Louis grabs the towels from the bed and we start to dry off.I get up from drying my feet to see Louis adding some logs to the fire. I decide to make us some drinks, I bring them over to where Louis is on the small couch.I cuddle into Louis, he drapes his hand around me while tickling my back. I love when he does that to me it’s so soothing.Louis starts playing music from the laptop, he plays the song ‘Chasing Cars’ by Snow Patrol.The song lyrics are very fitting for us. We’re both humming along to it.I’m rubbing Louis’ bare leg up and down comforting him, he loves soft touch.This was a great idea, he is so relaxed already, it’s just us, here together with no cares in the world and in this moment.I feel my eyes closing from the warmth of the fire and Louis rubbing my back.The sun shining in through the window stirs me awake. I open my eyes ever so slowly, the sun is blinding. I see I’m still on the couch with a blanket covering me. Louis must have woken during the night and didn’t want to wake me, so he wrapped a blanket around me. How sweet, I think to myself before stretching out then standing up to see where Louis was.I feel a light breeze on my bare legs, I look up towards the door to see Louis sitting on a chair outside with a cigarette and a coffee in his hand. I walk out to where he's sitting and peck his head, then I sit on his lap.“Morning love” Louis says while smiling up at me. “I feel like going on a little walk today, what do you think?” I suggest to Louis, Louis nods to my suggestion “Sounds like a great idea love”I stand up from Louis’ lap and make my way back inside to have a shower. When I’m dressed and ready to go Louis takes my hand interlocking our fingers together. We make our way down a path to explore our surroundings.It feels so peaceful to be outside in nature, hearing the birds singing, seeing all the different trees, wild flowers growing all around us.This is actual beauty to me, this is paradise, I love being with one in nature like this, it’s so peaceful.We’re swinging our hands together as we walk, we both are giving each other little glances ever so often, it’s so funny we feel like teenagers, blushing or giggling when we catch each other doing it.Of course we try to keep an eye out for other people, just in case. We don’t see anyone during our walk, we’re just in our own love bubble and it feels amazing.After about an hour of walking and exploring we make our way back to the hut. I start preparing the Chicken Parmesan while Louis is laying down on the bed. He’s watching me while I sing and dance, doing my thing in this small kitchen. The dinner is cooked, I set the plates out on the wooden table, “cheers to us” Louis says while we clink our glasses together.We both are full, we finished eating. We both tidied and washed our dishes together. We got into bed together and held each other tight for a long cuddle. We held each other so close kissing until we fell asleep in each other’s arms.

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Louis POVI really enjoyed our secret getaway with Harry. It was just what we needed. Harry still surprises me, I really couldn’t love him any more.When we got back to the city, it was just in time for sound check. Tom’s face wasn’t happy once he noticed we had arrived. We just knew we were in for it.Just as expected he gave us a bollocking for going away on our own with no security, but fuck them. We needed it and we're free to do whatever we like on our own time.Tom came to our room after sound check. He was furious when he walked into our room with a thunderous face.He shouted at both of us again and then went on to tell us “because you left without security you will be separated, Harry, I have booked you another room” he continues “it is clearly written in your contract, you must be accompanied by security for your own safety if going out in public at all times. Pack your bag Harry, I’ll wait here for you” once finished speaking Tom sits down at the table tapping his fingers impatiently.Each punishment gets worse and this one definitely is. He’s making us stay in separate rooms for the week, he really knows this punishment will affect us more than any other form of punishment. We always find a way to get round the punishments, one way or another haha.A fan threw a doll at me on stage tonight. The awful news that I’m going to be a father is out.The fans obviously aren't so aware of the love between Harry and I, we need to rebel against this news.The media portrays such an awful image of me as a single heterosexual man. They believe that I'm going to have a baby. Out of spite and also sending a message to our fans that know about us, I decided to shout "it’s not real, it's not real" I also threw the doll right back off the stage.I am trying not to let it affect me as much but of course it hurts and it will always hurt. We just have to carry on, live our lives together to the best we can and focus on the positive things.Tom gave me some serious side eyes when he saw what I did with the doll. I don't give a fuck, he's lucky that's all I did. I also know I will get punished even more, he can’t do worse than what he’s done already.I could see Harry trying to hold in his laughter but I caught a small smirk on his face. Niall's laugh echoed through the whole arena and Liam chuckled too.After the show, we did our usual after show routine, running off the stage just before the end of ‘Act my age’ straight onto our tour bus.Our bus is Bus 1. Zayn and I have a tattoo of bus 1. It’s a reminder of all the fun times we've had on the bus while travelling all over the world. I've actually saw some fans with bus 1 as matching tattoos to us, which is so sweet.We all bundle into the elevator of the hotel. I'm holding Harry's hand and resting my head on his shoulder, the numbers of floors move so quickly.I will the elevator to slow down, just so I can spend longer with him here.We're both feeling really anxious about being separated for the week. I struggle to sleep at the best of times but without Harry beside me, it's going to be torture. I probably won't get a wink of sleep, unless we're on the tour bus together.Harry's thumb is rubbing the back of my hand, he’s trying to soothe me.He knows I'm feeling anxious, I tilt my head up to meet his emerald green eyes and my heart skips a beat. The lift stops and the doors open, Harry leans down to kiss me softly to say goodnight.When we step out of the elevator, security have been placed outside Harry’s door, AJ looks sad, he’s been told to make sure we do go into separate rooms. I give AJ a wink to let him know it’s ok. I say night to Liam and Niall. I grab Harry by his waist and pull him in for one last hug.Tom has put Harry into a room between his and AJ’s room. He knows Harry doesn’t like to break the rules like me. He isn’t taking any chances, Tom also can listen out for any noise coming from the room and to make sure Harry doesn’t sneak out to my room or vice versa.Just as we are walking down the hallway Tom opens his door and says "Louis, it's bedtime let's go now" I kiss Harry goodnight and hold him tight once more. I don’t want to pull away from his arms but I have no choice. I follow Tom down the corridor, he’s leading me to my room, my head is down but I turn my head back every so often to see Harry at the other end of the hallway .Once we are both standing at our doors, Harry and I look at each other. Harry blows me a kiss, it makes me blush I blow him one back and shout “Love ya darling, sweet dreams, see you in the morning,” "Love you too babe, I'll be dreaming of you tonight" Harry shouts back.Tom bangs on his door in annoyance of us shouting to each other. He can do whatever he wants to us but our love is strong, he’ll never break us. I think that’s why he is annoyed. We also love winding him up, it makes us giggle. If we don’t laugh at this stage we would be miserable.I close my door turn on the lights and head straight to turn on the TV. The room feels so quiet and empty without Harry here.I flick through the channels just to find something for background noise. I finally land on an episode of Friends. I like Friends, this program always seems to cheer me up when I need it.I pop on the kettle to make myself a cuppa. While I wait for the kettle to boil, I unpack some clothes and items from my suitcase. I need to make it a bit more homely as best I can. It probably sounds stupid doing this but we live out of hotel rooms constantly, so the little things like hanging up my clothes in the closet and putting my toiletries in the bathroom makes a small difference.Once the kettle is boiled, I make my cuppa. I walk over to the large bright orange leather chair in the corner. I sit down and raise my legs up onto the arm of the chair, mug in my hand sipping my tea. It’s quite cosy in here I think to myself but of course I’m missing Harry.I can’t stop thinking what he’s doing, it’s going through my mind step by step. I know Harry’s night time routine off by heart, I feel a smile build on my face, then I feel sad, looking around I am reminded he’s not here.I decide to get up and pull myself out of my sad mood. I need a shower, I’m really sweaty from the show tonight, we really do sweat a lot on stage with all the lights and running around. As the warm water runs down my body, my mind starts to wonder. Has Harry had his shower, how is he coping without me? I’m missing him terribly already, I don’t know how I’m going to survive a week of this.I’m drying myself off from my shower, I have a look through my clothes when I spot one of Harry’s hoodies. I slide it on, it smells so much like him. I smile to myself while wrapping my arms round my stomach.I then hear my phone beeping on the table. I run over, I know it’s Harry. I read his text “meet me in the hallway in five x.” My heart starts to beat very fast, Harry is taking a risk to see me, nothing and no one will separate us! I quickly reply “ok love x” I grab a pair of loose grey track pants and pull them on.I pull the door handle down very quietly. I try not to make any noise. I know for a fact Tom will be listening out for anything. Hopefully he’s either not paying attention now or has fallen asleep.It’s been over an hour since we all said goodnight to each other. I peak my head slowly out the door. I see no one is in the hallway. I make my way down towards the end of the hallway and wait for Harry. I then spot AJ walking past Niall’s room, fuck where is he going, has he been told to monitor us, I hope he’s in a good mood tonight and doesn’t say anything to Tom. I see him wink up at me.Harry’s head then appears from his door with a cheeky smile.He’s looking down at me but then he locks eyes with AJ just as he is about to walk into his room.AJ’s face when he sees both of us lights up. He’s trying not to laugh, he knows exactly what we’re doing. He shakes his head, stops what he’s doing and walks towards Harry. He whispers something that I can’t hear. I’m curious to know, but Harry will tell me.AJ and Harry start walking towards me with huge smiles on their faces. They stop half way when AJ signals with his hand to walk towards him. I nod and walk very slowly. AJ and Harry walk back, AJ signals again putting his finger over his lips to say stay very quiet.He opens his door, we all sneak in, AJ closes the door behind us. Harry hugs me so tightly, it seems like forever since we last hugged but it was only an hour ago. “Guys, I’m going to open the inter connecting door between the rooms so you can go into Harry’s room” AJ says. “Thanks lad” I say with a smile on my face. AJ tries his best to look out for us as best he can.Suddenly theres a bang on the door, all our heads turn round fast. Harry and I run into his room as quick as we can, we close the door quickly behind us. I lean against the door to hear who it is and of course it’s Tom looking for AJ. I can’t really hear too much of what they’re saying.Tom knows AJ is on night duty to walk the hallway making sure nothing happens and of course to report back to him if we step out of line. I then hear AJ’s door close, I let out a sigh of relief knowing he’s gone back to his room.We suddenly jump there’s a bang now to Harry’s door, fuck that’s Tom checking on Harry now. I swing open the middle door and I run back into AJ’s room, I listen carefully at the door. I hear Harry walk over to answer the door and open it to Tom. “What’s up Tom, I was half asleep” Harry shouts angrily in his deep groggy voice. I can imagine what Tom is doing, he’ll be looking all around the room, looking to see if I’m there “I’m just checking on you, I thought I heard something coming from your room” he says.“Not mine, I was in bed, maybe it’s the tv, but I can assure you no one is here” I hear Harry say. Harry even tells him to come in and even check the bathroom if he wants. Tom just groans and then silence. I hear Harry’s door close. I let out a deep breath I was holding, nearly caught, we need to be more careful.Harry opens the middle door. We wave goodnight to AJ, I walk in, kiss Harry and make my way over to the bed, he pulls the covers back and jumps straight in. I smile seeing him so happy, I make my way over to the bed and join him.Harry pulls me into his arms, he kisses my forehead and runs his hand up my back to settle me. I kiss his chest and wrap my arms around his waist, our legs intertwined.We decide to set an alarm, I need to be back in my own room before Tom gets up. We are cuddled up together. Now I’m in Harry’s arms I feel my eyes closing and drifting off to sleep. I can’t help feeling a little sad, I know Harry won’t be waking up beside me, I won't see him waking up. Harry can sleep through alarms, he’s a very heavy sleeper. I will need to slip out before morning. If I know Tom he will try to catch us out. He has already tried before bedtime, he will definitely check in the morning.

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Harry’s POVOur US leg of tour has officially ended last night. We had some great memories over the past few months on the road, ones we will never forget.It’s also sad because of what happened with Louis and knowing what’s to come. We also will probably never tour the US again, our hiatus is coming. The fans don’t know about that yet so it’s bitter sweet.Tom left last night straight after our show. He had to catch an earlier flight home for meetings he has in London. We had a little party in our room to celebrate.It’s just all of us boys and our security team left to travel home today. Louis and I can eventually travel together, we can sit together on the plane.It’s silly to be excited about such a little thing but it means so much to us. We don’t have to be separated from each other in the airport either.I’m sure the fans will be excited to see us in the airport together. Tom always makes sure we travel separately in order to keep up the pretence that we don’t like each other, therefore can’t travel together.Louis and I have just sent invitations via text to all our family, friends, Niall, Liam and their families to join us at our house tomorrow for a welcome home party.We all miss our families so much, everyone thought it was a fantastic idea. Our UK/Ireland leg of tour starts next week. I’m really looking forward to letting my hair down. To be just us four boys and surrounded by people we love and trust.We arrive at the airport. Of course there’s paps and fans everywhere. They are blinding us with the flash of their cameras. We stop and pose for a few pictures before running straight to check in. Since there’s so little of the team left, we are taking the private jet home.We are so happy, it’s such a long flight with not a worry. We can literally be ourselves and not have a care in the world, we’re constantly on alert when Tom is around.One by one we run up the seven small steps of the jet and take our seats, we settle down for the flight.Niall is already cuddled up with a blanket in one of the grey leather seats with headphones on. Niall will be fast asleep soon, he’s feeling really tired. He can sleep like a baby anywhere.Liam is sitting at a seat with a table in front of him. He has his sketch pad out doodling away as per usual, Liam likes to be kept busy.Louis and I take the double seats with a table, we want to play scrabble together before we sleep. AJ and the other security team are seated behind us nearer the back of the plane. I can hear AJ making his final call to Tom informing him we are all on board and ready to take off.I woke to the captain announcing we’re about to land. I stretch and realise I’m still cuddled up in Louis’ arms with a blanket wrapped around us. Louis kisses my hand “We’re home love, let’s get ready to party” he chuckles. “I can’t wait to get home, one more night and we get to see all our family. I can’t wait to cook some party food and get all dressed up” I say in excitement. My mind is already overloading with outfits and food ideas.Louis literally jumps on AJ’s back to carry him off the jet. It makes me howl with laughter, the rest of us literally skip down the steps.We spot the cars and pile in. Louis then shouts “to Princess Park please driver” it’s been a good 45 minute drive, stuck in traffic but eventually we arrive at our apartment. We jump out of the car shouting at each other “see you tomorrow for the party” Harry and I wave goodbye to Liam and Niall as they head to their apartments.When we open our door I immediately run straight to our bedroom and start unpacking. I bought some new outfits while in the US and I’m excited to see what I’d look like with them on. I bought a lovely pair of ladies white jeans and a beautiful light blue silk shirt. I think I’ll wear those tomorrow. They look so beautiful on me and I know Louis will love them. Clothes to be washed can wait. Tomorrow is all about celebrating. We can focus on the normal everyday things after tomorrow.I woke up to feeling refreshed and well rested. We’re both so excited for today. I can hear Louis tinkering around downstairs, he’s not a good sleeper, especially since we started touring.The door buzzer is ringing and I hear Louis unlocking the door letting whoever it is in. It’s probably our mums, they said they would come early to give us a hand preparing everything from food to decorations.I quickly walk down into our open plan kitchen/ living room. I can’t wait to see my mum and give her a big hug and of course Jay, she gives the best of hugs. It’s so good to see them.They have brought with them lots of decorations and food. Wow, what would we do without them. We take a job each to do and start hanging balloons, streamers and banners all around the apartment.We’re chatting amongst ourselves telling our mums about the getaway we had last week and the punishment we got for it. Jay just stopped what she was doing and fisted her hands. She’s fuming, we all can see her anger building.I then see Louis walk up and take her fisted hand and kisses it, he then wraps his arms around her back and cuddles her. She’s hugging Louis back but then drops her head on Louis shoulder crying, so now is Louis. He doesn’t like to see how his mum reacts to how we are treated, which is why we haven’t told our families all of it.After a few minutes, mum wipes her tears on her cardigan, looks at me with a smile and winks as if to say chin up.She then walks over to the bar and starts organizing drinks and glasses. The little bar we have in the corner of our living area is full of different varieties of alcohol. There’s something for everyone.My mum is in the kitchen putting food in the oven on low for later. Both of them wouldn’t let us help them. They want us to relax. They shue us away to get ourselves ready.After my shower I dry my hair and apply some makeup. I even put on some pink nail polish. I know I can wear it for the week, no need to think about being around fans, management etc.I decide on the pink silk shirt, I want to match my polish. I’ll still wear my white jeans and add my pink glitter boots.Louis is looking gorgeous in his Burberry shirt and blue jeans. He’s at the other end of the room. He gives me a little wink and blows me a kiss. I catch it and put it in my pocket for later.No shoes tonight for Louis, he doesn’t wear shoes around the house, he likes to be barefoot.Our mums are getting ready in our guests' bedrooms.We walk out of our bedroom arm in arm, we are now ready to greet our guests who will be arriving soon. We bumped into both our mums in the hallway, they’re both looking beautiful in their sparkly dresses.Just as we reached the living area our door buzzed. I run over to open it, all our guests are here, they’ve arrived holding bottles of drink in their hands, flowers and more balloons. I give everyone a hug and thank them for coming.Louis starts playing dance music to get us all in the mood. Everyone is in high spirits and ready to party hard tonight, you can feel the energy in the air.I’m looking around the room and can see people in small mixed family groups catching up with each other. Some are eating or dancing together just having fun.Seeing everyone we love in one room together makes me feel so happy. Suddenly our buzzer goes again, I look at Louis and raise my eyebrow, wondering who it is. Who can it be, everyone we invited is here. I see Jay opening the door and it’s fucking Tom, he seriously thinks he can pop up whenever he feels like it to our home and on our week off.Both Louis and I run towards the door knowing full well how Jay will react. I’m wondering what he wants. I signal to Lottie to turn the music off. The room is silent with all eyes on the door.“Louis, I need to talk to you about the contract with Brianna, I just got this sent to me by Cora and it needs doing now” Tom says while waving a piece of paper in his hand.Jay whips the paper from Tom’s hand, scrunches it up and throws it back at him. “How dare you come to our son’s home on their week off with this bullshit, I’m not allowing you to do this to them. You can control them on your time but not now they’re with their loved ones” Jay screams at Tom.Everyone is just staring at us at the door, before Tom could say anything back Jay just slams the door in his face. We turn round to face everyone and the whole room erupts in cheers. Lottie blasts the music again and we all start jumping around in happiness.Louis lines up around of shots for everyone at the kitchen island. He gives Liam a non alcoholic drink in the shot glass. We all gather round, raise our glasses “Fuck you Tom” we all shout before tossing our shot back. We all then burst out laughing. We’re not letting Tom or anyone else ruin tonight for us.The drinks are flowing and everyone is having fun, all of us together as one big happy family. We party on till the early hours of the morning, I know I’m going to be so hungover in the morning, but it’s so worth it.“It has been such a great night babe” I say to Louis, all of a sudden I’m on the floor with a thud, my trouser leg tripped me up, I hear concern in Louis voice when he asks “are you ok darling?” Then he laughs “haha.”Louis is trying to help get me up and into bed but he’s just as drunk as me, we’re now on the floor unable to move giggling at each other.We have a bad case of laughter which takes our breath away. I can see Louis holding his stomach just as much as me. This is us, happy, a hilariously funny couple on the floor who would do anything for each other. We are so made for each other it fills my heart with joy.I finally fall into bed, Louis tucks me in “I’m just going to have a spliff before bed love, I’ll be in shortly” Louis tells me after kissing my forehead. I nod my head in agreement to him, I’m too tired or drunk to utter one word. My heads spinning now. I feel myself falling asleep. I know I’ll be in a deep sleep before Louis climbs into bed but I’m ok with that. I know we get to wake up together in our home all week.

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Louis POVWe were so hungover from the party the other night we literally just spent the day on the couch together.I still can’t believe what mum did to Tom slamming the door in his face, it made me laugh so much but I know today I have to go see him. If I don’t he’ll basically make it a big deal, bigger than it’s meant to be.Harry is reorganising his wardrobe in our room. He tends to do this every time we come back from tour. Especially when he’s bought a few new items to add to it. “Love, I have to go meet Tom, I won’t be long ok?” I say to Harry while leaning against the door frame. Harry is very distracted on the floor surrounded by clothes, but he replies “Ok babe, remember don’t let him bring you down with whatever he has to say” Harry then turns around and blows me a kiss. I purse my lips together to motion a kiss back.I look at my watch and it’s 9am, Tom should be there by now. Tom was surprised to hear from me so soon. Hopefully that will get him off our backs for a little while.I unlock my Range Rover and pull out onto the busy street. It’s not too far away where I’m meeting Tom but if I walk I’ll be late. At least it’s not in the London office, it can’t be that serious I think to myself.I pull into the car park, luckily enough there’s a free parking space. I jump quickly out, checking my time and walk inside. The smell of coffee beans hit me straight away. I see Tom near the back of the shop, he waves to acknowledge me, I wave back to acknowledge I’ve seen him as I join the queue to order my coffee.While waiting I see Tom is talking on his phone. This isn’t unusual, therefore I wasn’t worried he’d be getting angry waiting on me. He is always on his phone doing some sort of business.I’m deep in thought thinking about what this meeting is about. My head is getting sore with worry when I hear my name being shouted, “Louis, latte for Louis”my coffee order is ready. The girl pronounced it as Lewis not Louis, it made me chuckle, she shouted it twice, nobody answered so I guessed she meant me! I grab the takeout cup and walk over to the small wooden table where Tom is.As soon as I’m at his table he hangs up his phone. I’d hate to be the other person on the phone, how minuscule they are to Tom that he cuts them off! “Louis, good to see you take a seat” Tom says while gesturing me to sit in the chair opposite him. “Ehhh sorry about the other night, my mum was a bit drunk, what do you want from me today” I ask Tom sheepishly. Tom just shrugs off what I said, he’s looking through his phone distracted. I take a sip of my coffee and wait. Five minutes later Tom is still flicking through his phone, obviously trying to find what he wants to discuss with me. I’m getting anxious and my leg starts bouncing under the table.Finally Tom speaks, “Brianna is flying in tomorrow, we want you to meet up with her. Show her some sights, we want you to be seen out with her, we’ll arrange some paps to take your pic. She will be here all week. She will also be attending your first show of the UK leg” Tom explains. I pinch the bridge of my nose thinking about all of this. I know Harry will be really upset. “That’s not fair Tom and you know it, I didn’t sign or agree to that part of the contract” I reply with frustration in my voice.Tom then proceeded to find an email, holds the phone up to my face from Cora with all the details laid out.“You are doing it Louis, do I need to remind you every time, that you’re obligated by contract to do as we say! Remember that Louis, what we say goes” Tom’s voice is low but angry, we’re in public and he can’t draw attention. “Ok I’ll meet her for an hour max, tomorrow in a coffee shop like this but nothing more” I say back with a frustrated tone.Tom takes a sip of his coffee before replying, the suspense of his answer is killing me. “I’ll let you off this time with an hour, but make it look good for the paps” Tom hisses. With that last sentence Tom stands up and walks straight to the door, no goodbye etc.I decide on my way out to pick Harry up a matcha latte. I will need to break the news to him, which he’s not going to be happy about.On the walk back to my car and for the journey home, my mind is racing again. What’s going to happen with Brianna here in the UK with Harry, the other boys and our families. How are they going to react? I know it’s not going to go down well with any of them.“Darling I’m home, come down to the living room please I have something to tell you” I shout up the stairs to Harry.I place his latte on the round white marble table and sit down on our comfortable sleek blue velvet couch.I can hear Harry running down the stairs. He sits down next to me, he’s trying to read my expression. I take his hands in mine and turn to face him on the couch. I look him in the eyes before clearing my throat. Harry is squeezing my hands waiting for me to explain. I can see worry over his face with his one eyebrow raised.“Brianna is flying over here tomorrow. I have to meet up and spend some time with her. Tom has arranged for the press to take pictures. She’s coming to our show too” I explain softly.Harry let’s go of my hands, jumps up from the couch, grabs the cup and throws it at the wall in rage. Green matcha splashes all over the white walls. It even landed on me, he threw it that hard. “Are you fucking kidding me Louis, is this a horrible joke you’re playing on me” Harry screams, his face turning red as a tomato. I haven’t seen him this angry in a while. Harry’s throwing whatever is to hand all around the room while pacing and mumbling to himself.“I’m sorry love, there’s nothing I can do, you do know that” I say while trying to calm him. He has his back turned to me, I try holding his shoulders, he shrugs my hands away. Harry is really losing it and I really don’t blame him but it’s not my fault.“I can’t believe you have to meet her on our week off. She’s also going to our show, a few days before our anniversary” Harry screams at me while kicking the table.For once I really don’t know how to calm him down. I don’t know what to say, which makes me sad and frustrated. We’re in this position after having a great few days together, we’re happy we flew home together. Had a wonderful time with our families. This interrupts our only alone time before we go on tour again.When we’re home, we reconnect and slow down and feel like one. All this Brianna shit is just making our life hard right now!Harry storms up the stairs, taking two steps at a time. Just as he gets to our bedroom door he leans over the balcony “You can fuck off and sleep in the spare room, I don’t want to even look at you” he shouts before slamming the door behind him.I’m left sitting here covered in matcha, the walls, floor and cushions are all green stains. Cushions and ornaments are everywhere. I'm absolutely in shock by what just happened, all in the space of a few minutes.I knew Harry would kick off, but not like this. I also don’t blame him, as much as Harry is kind hearted, he also takes things very much so to heart.This is it, Brianna is really coming into our lives now for the foreseeable. She’s not just this person on the other side of the world I’m bound to in a contract. To have a pretend baby with! I’m feeling really upset by the situation. I honestly don’t know what to do.I make my way to the kitchen. I need to get a cloth and clean up this mess. It didn’t take long to tidy up , I put the cushion covers in to wash, swept up the broken ornaments from the floor and wiped down the wall and floor. Now that’s all done I now can go upstairs to the spare room for a shower and clean myself up!On my way to the spare room, I hover outside our bedroom door for a moment. I wonder what Harry is doing. I can hear he’s still angry, he’s banging about inside. I can hear drawers being slammed closed and wardrobe being banged shut He’s not calmed down yet, I decide to let him cool down for a bit longer.I pull my smelly wet clothes off, turn on the shower. I wait for the right water temperature before stepping in. The warm water is flowing down my body, the feel of it trickling down my back makes me feel good. I then am brought back to the realisation, I shouldn’t be feeling good, knowing what Brianna has done to us. What she’s doing to Harry. I have accepted I need to do this. Harry hasn’t. It’s him I’m worried about.I lean my forehead against the cold white tiles letting my thoughts run wild. I start to sob hard. I end up sliding down the wall on to the floor of the shower pulling my knees up to my chest. The shower is now washing away my tears. The pressure of everything is getting to me and I don’t know what to do, I can’t talk to Harry right now and it’s killing me.After a while, the water runs cold, I don’t care. I just find it difficult to find the energy to stand up. It takes me a minute, I feel drained and lethargic. Walking into the room, I can hear Harry playing some music now which is a real sign to leave him alone. I huff to myself as I pull up a fresh pair of boxers and climb into bed. I curl my body into the fetus position. I throw the blankets over my head and start rocking. I’m trying to comfort myself as best I can.I know these nexts few days are going to be awful. I hope Harry can forgive me before our anniversary. I have a very special surprise for him.

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Harry's POVIt’s been an awful few days since Brianna arrived in the UK with her fake pregnancy bump. She’s been parading herself around thinking she owns the place. To see her at our last show was hard for both of us. Fans loved her being there, which is not uncommon from our fans.I really don’t understand why they follow on all social media platforms all of our “fake girlfriends” all I know is management love it. They were blowing her kisses and trying to get near in order to speak to her. It’s weird to us!Louis and I were so upset, we couldn’t hold our tears back on stage. Fans did notice our tears during the song ‘Over Again’ we didn’t do our usual little ending to the song. I could see on the big screen Louis was crying, that set me off. Fans talked about it all over twitter the next day, wondering why, if only they knew!We haven't spoken to each other since my outburst the other day. I know we both needed some time apart. I felt bad afterwards especially Louis sleeping in the spare room, I know he doesn’t sleep well but he always slept better when with me.It’s 28th September, our wedding anniversary and we’ve been upset too much over all this. I’m not going to let it affect us any longer. Louis means the world to me and I to him. These past few days alone I’ve reflected on our partnership, I think this is the first time we’ve been apart for so long. I want to make our anniversary special, I want to show him how much I really do love him.I start to head downstairs into the kitchen, it’s still really early so I know Louis will still be asleep. He doesn’t sleep too good through the night due to his sleep paralysis, but he usually sleeps a little better come morning.I think I’ll make us some pancakes, covered with lashings of maple syrup, Louis does have a very sweet tooth. I’ll also add hash browns and fried eggs, sunnyside up and a link sausage, in fact I’ll arrange it in a way to make a smiley face with the eggs for eyes. He’ll get a giggle from that.While I'm mixing the pancake mix in a bowl, the doorbell rings. I clap my hands in excitement, it’s my anniversary gifts I ordered for Louis. I rush over and open the door. I will need to try and hide the gifts just now, just in case Louis decides to pop downstairs without my knowledge, I don’t have time to set his surprise up right at this moment.I ordered quite a few things for Louis along with some decorations to decorate our living room. He deserves a special moment right now. I want to make it up to Louis, make him realise I really do care for him very much. I know I can be a stubborn, moody husband most of the time.The delivery lady was very nice, I think she even winked at me when she was leaving.I can hear Louis walking around upstairs, the door ringing must have woken him up. I want him to stay upstairs though I’m not ready for him yet. I make my way up the stairs taking two at a time. I see Louis coming out of the spare room, we both stop and just look at each other with soft smiles, I can’t find the words so I raise my hand and give him a thumbs up, our sign language has always been our way of communicating, we weren’t allowed to speak to each other in public, we had to keep up the persona that we didn’t get on as bandmates. We learned sign language without management knowing.Louis then walks towards me and puts his fist against mine with his thumbs up. We both look each other in the eyes and wiggle our thumbs together. Now I know we’re ok! No need to talk over our fall out, we move on and enjoy our special day. I step forward and peck Louis on the cheek and whisper in his ear "Babe, can you stay upstairs please, I’ll call you when you can come down?” "Ok love, I'll make a few calls while I wait" Louis replies.I’m rushing around preparing all the gift boxes. I lay them out neatly in order from small to large. I can’t wait Louis will be excited to open these when he comes down.I take the two large red heart balloons with I love you on them and place them at each side of our marble fire surround, one for each year we’ve been married. I scatter the smaller ones all over the living room. I also scatter red rose petals on the floor in the form of a path leading from the bottom of the stairs to the kitchen island. I add one single rose to a small vase and place it in the middle between our breakfast plates. It’s now time to make a start on the pancakes. Memories flood into my mind of Louis and I on our wedding day, it was so perfect and my heart feels warm.Breakfast is now ready to be plated, I call up "Lou, you can come down now.” I hear Louis jump from his bed and walk down the stairs and into the kitchen, “Harry, darling, wow I love all this, you’re too good to me" Louis says while smiling from ear to ear. He starts giggling at the smiley face on the plate, I did also add tomato sauce and crossed out his eggs for eyes.Louis loves to sign his autographs with a smiley face with crosses for eyes. His eyes are looking all over, it’s nice to see him happy. We eventually come together and hug tight for a bit.Louis then kisses me very passionately "Happy anniversary" we both end up saying at the same time when we pull away from our kiss.We both can't help but continue smiling, my face aches from it, this day will be fantastic, I just know it. We sit down and start to eat our breakfast, not a word said, we just look at each other and lock eyes from time to time, he still makes me blush with those ocean blue eyes. My thoughts go back again to our wedding days.We had to sneak off to get married the first time, that’s was just a civil ceremony in Australia!The second time was beautiful, all our close family and friends were there. It was in a beautiful sunny setting. There was an old brick ruin with colourful gardens filled with all kinds of colourful flowers.The ruin had an arched wall, which we were told was the walk way into the garden grounds. We both love flowers, sunflowers, daffodils and roses are our favourites. Unfortunately no daffodils in this country.Mexico is very special to us. We always feel free here. The culture is so different, your accepted here more for who you are.The venue had decorated the archway beautifully with lots of different flowers. Mostly white with a hint of yellow sunflower here and there.We both wore white suits with a white Tudor Rose in our lapels. We had violins and a cello play our wedding song ‘You’re still the one’ from Shania Twain.The noise of Louis’s sitting his cutlery down on his breakfast plate pulls me from my thoughts. “Darling I have a surprise for you later, can you get dressed up tonight and be ready for 7pm?” Louis asks with a mischievous look in his eyes.I nod yes back squeezing his hand. I’m excited for what Louis has in store for me, he knows I love surprises too and he’s usually very good at arranging them. He’s such a romantic at heart.Both of us are stuffed after that big breakfast and decide to relax on the couch. This is my opportunity to give Louis his gifts.I ask Louis to close his eyes and hold out his hand while I fetch his first gift bag. As soon as he feels the handle over his hand he opens his eyes.Louis is like a big kid at Christmas, he gets so excited opening gifts. I bought a couple of Burberry shirts, adidas trainers and a couple of adidas track suits, one green, one blue.He was so happy with the gifts I chose. I love spoiling Louis, I would buy him the world if I could.Louis leans over and kisses me softly, sliding his tongue along my lips asking for entry. I happily oblige, we haven’t been together the last few days and I have missed him.We spent most of the afternoon on the couch catching up on our kissing and cuddling.I’m now getting ready for tonight, we’ve both decided to surprise each other with our outfits.We’ve been in our separate rooms a couple of hours now.I see from my watch it’s nearly 7pm so I start to make my way down the stairs when my eyes land on Louis. I can’t help but smile from ear to ear. He’s wearing a tight fitted black blazer, one of his new burberry shirts and a pair of black tight fitting jeans. He looks and smells gorgeous. I'm wearing a white suit, a black low buttoned down shirt with black boots."You look absolutely beautiful" Louis tells me. He walks forward and takes my hand. I blush uncontrollably. "Thank you babe, you too look beautiful" I reply.We make our way down to our car in the garage underneath. Louis decides he’s driving us there.I'm looking out of the tinted windows trying to work out where we're going. I have no idea, it could be anywhere knowing Louis.We suddenly turn down a familiar street and it clicks with me, Louis is taking me to our favourite Italian restaurant Rosso’s. My face lights up with joy.I look over at Louis with shock, it’s been a while since we were here. This was our first serious date. Louis just smiles back at me. I adore his crinkles in his eyes from his smile. He knows how much Rosso’s means to me, it is one of my favourite places to be, holding fond memories and the food is wonderful too.We park the car and make our way to the door. We’re walking hand in hand and make our way inside.My eyes look around the whole restaurant and I notice it’s empty. I can only see one bar staff member, the manager and a waiter."I booked the full night, we have the restaurant to ourselves, I don’t want to share tonight with anyone other than you my love” Louis whispers to me. I feel goosebumps rise all over my body hearing those words. Louis is such a hopeless romantic husband.Looking around more, now that I can tear my eyes from my beautiful husband, I can see the restaurant is lit all over with candles dripping in old wine glasses.There are rose petals scattered from the entrance of the door leading to our table. There are heart balloons with, I love you written on them too in the form of a circle surrounding our table.I squeak in excitement. I don't know where to look, Louis is squeezing my hand while rubbing his thumb over the tip of my knuckles. He’s chuckling from my reaction to all of this.The manager greets us and asks us to follow him. He guides us over to our table, it’s in the middle of the room.The table has the same red and white checkered cloth as previously on our first date. Two Candles are mounted for each year of marriage on a beautiful crystal ornamental stand along with a big bouquet of mixed flowers.We’re ready to order our favourite dish, spaghetti bolognese with a side of bruschetta.The waiter brings a bottle of my favourite red wine. Louis has a bottle of his favourite beer. He’s really put thought into every single detail for tonight. I love the circle of balloons with the ‘I Love You’ the sentiment of our wedding rings, our love will never end!The restaurant is playing classical music which only adds to the atmosphere.Louis and I are holding hands across the table staring romantically into each other's eyes while eating our shared plate of spaghetti bolognaise. We can’t take our eyes off each other.Tonight has been out of this world so far as anniversary surprises go. We’re waiting on our desert’s when I see out of the side of my eye three people walk in from a side doorway. They’re all carrying musical instruments, I raise my eyebrows in confusion.One has a cello, the other two violins. They sit down in the middle of the little stage and start playing 'You're still the one' by Shania Twain. My heart skips in delight, my eyes light up in excitement then fill with tears because this is our wedding song!I get emotional every time I hear it, memories start to flood back again from our wedding day.During me listening intently to the music, I hadn’t noticed the waiter bring our desserts. Louis clears his throat which draws my attention back to the table which is when I notice at the side of my chocolate torte on my plate is a jewelry box. I stare at Louis with a surprised look."Open it" Louis encourages me with a nervous smile. I quickly open the box. I’m stunned at the sight of a silver necklace with a single pearl on it."Louis you shouldn't have, I love it" I squeal with joy. I push my hair to the side of my neck gesturing for Louis to put it on immediately.Louis gets up from his chair and fastens the necklace around my neck, it sits just above my butterfly tattoo.“It's all for you my Love" Louis whispers before kissing me on the back of my neck.We ask the waiter if he would take a couple of photos, we want to remember this day forever. Louis then pays the bill and leaves a very generous tip for all the staff, even the chef!!We have arrived home, I arrange the flowers from the restaurant in a vase and place them on the white marble table.Louis sneaks up behind me and puts his arms around my waist. He then slowly starts to undress me, kissing the back of my neck as he slides my jacket off.I turn to face him, both our lips lock passionately. We both start undoing each other's buttons on our shirts without breaking our kissing.We then unzip our trousers. Shoes are next to come flying off. Louis then pushes his jeans down past his thighs, my trousers just drop to my ankles and I easily step out of them.Louis then reaches down to his feet to pull his tight jeans fully off, they are very skin tight.He nearly fell over while trying, he does look very hot and fit in them, he knows I love sweing him in tight jeans but they can be troublesome when passion takes over.We both are now hysterical with laughter. I hold onto Louis trying not to let him fall while he tries again, eventually they’re off, he throws them on the couch in annoyance, “never again.”I lift Louis up onto my hips, he wraps his legs around my waist and his hands around my neck.I walk to the stairway and carry Louis up the stairs. Louis is arousing me by nibbling my neck while running his fingers through my hair.I drop Louis onto the bed, he giggles loudly. I crawl up his legs and sit on his hips straddling him. I bend down to kiss his already wet red lips, my tongue seeking permission to enter his mouth.Our tongues intertwine, I slowly grind my hips against Louis’s very hard cock.Louis places his hands on my hips, I bend down to kiss him again when he quietly asks me to make love to him.I peck his lips and tell him, “of course my darling” I stretch over to the drawer and take out the lube and cover both my cock and fingers.I massage Louis’s rim and push in two fingers. Louis groans, throwing his head back while arching his back. I hear him softly say “Harry, please, I need to feel you inside me.”I then guide my cock to his entrance and push the tip in. I take my time, I don’t want to hurt him, little by little I push until I’m fully inside Louis.I look up and see he is smiling. I lie my stomach down on top of his and kiss his nipples.I wipe my hand with lube on the bedsheet then hold both sides of his cheeks and lift his head up to mine.We look into each other’s eyes with lust, I kiss him with sincere passion when I start to move forward slowly pushing in and out.We both are in rhythm now. Louis is mumbling in between kisses, “Harry, I love you, you’ll never know how much” “I do babe, very much so” I reply.We continue to make love, softly kissing, whispering in each other’s ears small grateful words.Louis is now breathing faster, he’s nearing his orgasm, I adjust my position, I’ve found his prostate, Louis lets out a loud groan “yes, there Harry, oh my gosh I love you Harry, I’m going to come” within seconds he’s cum all over his stomach. My orgasm is nearing, I release soon after Louis.“What a wonderful night this has been Louis, thank you” I say, “it has been, hasn’t it darling, thank you too”

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Louis POVWe're having a great time in Ireland. Nialler is in his element being back on his home soil, of course he's drinking lots of Guinness. He claims it tastes better at home. I personally don't like the taste but we will humour Niall.Niall was wild on stage in Dublin last night doing the Irish jig. The crowd loved it.We all laughed at Niall singing ‘took a chonce’ haha instead ‘take a chance’.Harry screamed sixteen instead of eighteen during our song. That drew a lot of attention from the fans and Tom wasn't happy about it but again fuck Tom and what he thinks.We finished sound check for night two in Dublin an hour ago and we're just chilling in the catering room after dinner.We decided to have some fun by playing odds or even. I dared Liam to twerk on top of the table after he rolled odds, it was hilarious, he really went for it.Harry rolled evens, he had to make a dancing video to Jason Derulo’s ‘Talk Dirty To Me’ we were all howling to the point our stomachs were sore with laughter.Just as I was about to roll the dice, Tom walked in with the famous clipboard, the room went silent.Tom looked at me and shouts “Louis, we need a catch up, now" I huff before making eye contact with Harry and make my way to follow Tom to his makeshift office backstage.I sit down on the slightly worn leather couch opposite Tom. My arms are crossed waiting for him to talk more bullshit.I’m fucking annoyed at him to a point I want to punch him! It takes a lot of control not to!Tom takes his time and pleasure, (he knows I hate him and that he irritates me) flicking through some pages on his clipboard.He stops half way through, he’s found the page he needs. He then lifts his head and his eyes lock on mine."The story for the birth of your child is being sent to the press shortly, advising them the date will be 21st January" Tom's words make my stomach turn, hearing the due date."You will be flying out to LA a few days prior with all the baby supplies. Pap pics will be taken to look like you're prepared for the arrival" Tom continues to explain.I zoned out after hearing about Pap pics, I can't handle this, it's too much. My heart is racing, I have never felt so many emotions all at once.Tom clicks his fingers in my face bringing me back to reality. He then says in an angry tone “Just go Louis" he knows I can't take anything in at this moment. I quickly run out of the room.My eyes immediately search for Harry, I can see him on the far end of the corridor. I run as fast as I can to him. Harry sees from my face I'm upset and runs towards me. Harry embraces me in his arms in the middle of the corridor, asking me what happened.I can’t talk for crying, I manage to stutter out the date.At first Harry didn't understand but after a few seconds it clicks.Harry held me tight in his arms reassuring me but I can feel him shaking, this affects him too.We walk into our dressing room, we try to wrap our heads around this, it’s another blow. The reality of the date has now been confirmed.Harry and I have been lying together cuddling on the couch for the past hour. We didn't exchange too many words, we both know how each other felt. All we needed was to hold each other.My phone startles me by ringing in my pocket, it woke me up from my sleep, we must have drifted off without realising it.I glance at the screen seeing that it's my Mum calling. I sit up clearing my throat and answer. "Hi Mum, is everything ok?" I ask, "Louis, I just seen in the papers the baby has been born, what's going on, are you ok?" Mum says with worry in her voice.I jump up in fright from her words and feel very confused. Harry's phone starts ringing shortly after mine. It’s probably his family too wondering what the hell is going on.I tell mum I spoke with Tom earlier and that he was sending the story of when the due date would be to the press but it’s been set for 21st January.I put two and two together and come to the conclusion that someone in the press leaked the story for today instead of the 21st of January.Niall and Liam have now burst through the door in panic.They have obviously seen the headlines and have no idea what is going on. I reassure Mum on the phone that we will sort this and not to worry before hanging up.I look at everyone’s confused looks and I just burst out crying, I couldn’t hold it together any longer.Niall and Liam run towards me as I drop to the floor in floods of tears. I start hyperventilating in panic. They are trying to comfort me but I can't hear what they're saying, my ears are ringing. I manage to catch my breath and I leap up storming towards the door to find Tom.I hear everyone's footsteps running behind me as I run down the corridor.I reach Tom's door, I actually kick it open in rage and scream "What the fuck Tom, how has this happened and why? You told me it was just being sent to the press ahead of time" Tom pushes on my shoulders to move me away from his face. "Louis, calm down I have no idea what happened and we're trying to sort it" Tom replies.Harry pushes past me swinging a punch at Tom but Tom ducked out of the way and Harry hit the wall."Get yourselves together NOW, and get out of my office, go get yourselves ready, it's nearly show time" Tom screams in demand. Security races in to see what's going on after hearing all the commotion. They freeze when they see all of us screaming at Tom."I refuse to go on stage, I'm not preforming with Louis in this state" Niall shouts. " Yeah I'm not either this is all too much can't you see what you're doing, this affects all of us, Louis and Harry are our brothers and when they suffer, we suffer!” Liam adds.Tom's face drops, he can’t believe what he’s hearing. He never thought all of us would go against him by refusing to go on stage. It feels good that we're all sticking together and standing up for ourselves for once."I'm warning you all get into hair and make up or you all will be punished" Tom tells us trying to gain some control. We all stand there not moving.Tom lunges forward to grab me and force me out the door, but before he gets to me Harry pulls his hands away. I'm in total shock and I turn quickly and land my fist on Tom's nose. It starts pouring with blood.Tom is surprised I laid hands on him. Security run to take me away from Tom, not to protect him but me before it gets even worse.I break away from AJ and run down the corridor. I burst through the steal exit door, I need to get away.Harry isn't far behind me, we jump into one of the cars parked outside. I rev the engine so hard smoke comes out of the exhaust before speeding out of the car park.I don't even know where I'm going but I just keep driving until I spot a sign for the beach. Both Harry and I haven't said anything yet as the adrenaline is still pumping through our bodies.Harry turns on the radio and we hear the announcement that our show for tonight has been canceled, claiming that my baby has been born, but it was false information.They then reported that Niall and Liam are both sick, I huff hearing this and turn off the radio. The drive is silent again for a few minutes until I hear the thunder in the distance followed by the rain bouncing off our windshield.The sky is filled with rolling clouds, it's like the sky knew how we were feeling.I park the car in a little cove overlooking the sea. The rain is coming down heavily now adding to our heartbreak.I turn the engine off and turn towards Harry, his eyes are full of tears just like mine! I know he’s worried about me too."Harry, I don't know what to do anymore" I sniff. Harry pulls me in for a hug, telling me ‘we’ll be alright’ and that we can get through this, we have each other.It doesn’t feel like it at the moment but I know we will, as long as I have Harry by my side.Harry lets go and pushes open the car door, I’m confused why he’s getting out in this thunderstorm but I jump out to follow him.The sky lights up with lightning across the bay and another clap of thunder is rolling in. I jump from the thunder and run towards the front of the car to Harry.Harry lets out a massive scream, he’s letting go of his emotions. What a great idea.I grab his hand and stand by his side and let out my own scream, it feels good screaming it all out. I’ve been bottling up all my emotions this past year.We’re both soaking wet from the rain standing side by side looking out at the rough water swirling with the wind. The rain is washing away our tears, it’s hitting our faces so hard.I spin Harry to face me, I pull him in for a massive hug and say “thank you” we kiss each other softly. We both now fall to our knees in front of the car, cradling each other in our pain.Harry presses his wet forehead to mine and we just stare at each other.I brush my nose against Harry’s and softly rub my thumb on his neck. We kiss again before getting back up facing the water.I scream out again, this time to ask the universe “Why me, why me?” Harry pulls my head to his chest and gently rubs my back in comfort. I cry into his soaked shirt grabbing the back of it with my hand while letting go with another loud cry.After what feels like hours Harry leads me to the passenger seat. He knows I’m in no fit state to drive back.Harry jumps into the driver's seat and places his hand on my thigh before he pulls out of the parking spot. We make our way back to the hotel, thankfully we don’t meet anyone.Harry texts Niall and Liam letting them know we’re ok. Harry runs us a hot bath to soak in. We go to sleep now feeling fully drained from tonight.In the morning we leave to go back to the UK for our last few shows.

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Harry's POVIt's our last ever show tonight in Sheffield it's so bittersweet. We want to give our fans the time of their lives as a thank you for everything they have done for us, without them we wouldn’t have been so successful.All our families are here to cheer us on in celebration, they're full of emotions as well as us.We did our final sound check and we're all sitting together having our last dinner.Sarah and her staff are wonderful, they put on an amazing spread for us all. Sarah even made us a farewell cake.We took photos of the catering staff and all the crew that have been with us on this crazy journey. Niall even smashed a cupcake in AJ’s face which was hilarious, he took it like a champ and laughed it off.We announced to the fans last week we were going on a hiatus at the end of our tour for 18 months.They were devastated just as much as us having to break the news to them, it broke our hearts.The whole internet blew up with fans messaging us with heartfelt messages, thanking us for everything. We want to thank them for all they did too, it's all thanks to them for getting us where we are today.It was an hour before we make our way on stage for the last time. I was feeling excited but also sad about it.I head towards hair and makeup. Niall and Liam are already there talking to Lou about all our memories they have and how they’ll cherish them.Lou started tearing up while trying to do Liam's hair, he reached up to hug and comfort her. “I’m going to miss you crazy guys” she says. “We will miss you too, but we’ll keep in touch and meet up, ok?” Liam replies. Niall and I look over and nod in agreement.Louis comes waltzing in whistling and smacks me on the ass, I jump slightly and Niall starts loudly laughing.I kiss Louis and spank his beautiful peach shaped ass back, we're in such a giddy mood.We both take our seats for Lou and Lottie to do our hair and makeup up now. I keep smirking over and making eyes at Louis through the mirror, he giggles every time he locks eyes with me.I hear outside in the corridor our families laughing and chatting together, they’re walking towards us. They walk in with their hands full of balloons, champagne and streamers.They just managed to sit them down before we all run over to hug them. Our families want to throw us a party, they are aiming to set up the big lounge. They really spoil us when they can.Liam’s dad pulls out some silly string and starts spraying it all over us (I did mention we were all giddy), haha we all try to run and hide from it.The silly string goes everywhere and none of us can stop laughing. We head out under the fire of silly string still to get dressed in our show outfits. I of course chose a black t- shirt and black jeans.Now that we were all dressed and ready to go on stage, we did our pre-show ritual of singing ‘high ho high ho, it’s off to work we go’ to warm up our voices.We get a final photo of all the crew, before we knew it, we were on the platform rising up onto stage singing our hearts out to the crowd.We had so much fun tonight on stage, we made a human pyramid, had another famous water fight and Liam had slipped a can of the silly string into his pocket from his dad earlier.Our family were front row at the second stage we had for ‘Act my age’ all of them started a conga line and we sang the ending part of the song four times.We loved every second of it, seeing them so happy, it was a night to remember. We didn’t want the show to end either, we knew it was our last time as a band for a long time.All of us boys gave each other one final hug on stage.Louis and I made eyes at each other and left our hug till last, we wanted to surprise our fans.The whole arena erupted and went crazy when we hugged, this was our only hug in years on stage since management stopped us. The fans in the know and who believe in us where so shocked. Others still believe we hate each other. We didn’t even look at Tom but I’m sure he was fuming over it.I’m so glad we ended it with our hug, also we did have fun and we’re just being our chaotic selves.We said our goodbyes and tears did fill all our eyes, they could see how much their love means to us. They were singing their hearts out even after the music stopped.We all raced to our dressing rooms to quickly get showered and change into more comfy clothes so we could relax.Our families went straight to the big lounge to finish decorating and pour some drinks for everyone. As we walked down the corridor I could hear the music and people laughing.When Louis and I got to the door my eyes lit up seeing Zayn spinning the music on his decks. We both ran straight over to Zayn and gave him a massive hug.“Vaz happenin” Zayn shouts with a big grin, I couldn’t believe he came and surprised us. Zayn looked amazing, he is so healthy looking too, it made me feel happy seeing him back to his old self again.Niall and Liam joined in our hug with Zayn when they arrived, all of us boys together again.It was an amazing journey we all had together. Memories will be treasured. We all started jumping around in a circle in happiness to see Zayn.Mum came over and handed us a drink, Zayn went back to playing some more music on the decks. I joined my family to have a little chat about the show. I could see Louis from across the room talking to his family. We both blew each other kisses as a little sweet gesture.Niall takes over the mic from Zayn and starts rapping the ‘Fresh Prince Of Bel Air’, that boy loves rapping that song. Liam had his arm around Zayn, they were dancing along to the rap, they all had a genuine smile on their faces. The first for a long time.Our crew started to join us after putting all the stage and equipment back into the trucks to be sent back to London in the morning. They deserve to have a few drinks with us, especially after all their hard work throughout the tour.Gem, Lottie and Lou were up on the table dancing together. It was so much fun. Everyone was enjoying themselves.The room radiated with so much love we have for each other, we are one big happy family.I can’t help but take a moment and look around the room at everyone having fun. I could see Tom sitting by himself in the corner drinking his beer and on his phone.I’m surprised he joined the party with the crew. I shrug my shoulders not wanting anything to bring me down and ruin tonight.I feel Louis arms wrap around my waist and his lips kiss me on my cheek. I lay my head back against Louis' shoulders.Another song has started and Niall grabs Lottie and starts doing the conga, everyone joins in and we dance all around in a circle in the room. There was about 80 of us doing it.Niall then lead us out into the corridor and onto the arena floor. All our singing and laughing echoed the now empty space. I pull out my phone and record this special moment.We all ended up in a massive circle, we all grabbed each other’s hands and kicked our legs around.Lottie was playing songs from her phone as we couldn’t hear the music from the lounge. All five of us ended up in the middle of the circle surrounded by everyone, so we started throwing some crazy shapes, dancing together, mine were really crazy.The song changed and our song ‘No Control’ came on. We all burst into laughter. Lottie obviously had a random playlist on.We ended up doing the dance from James Corden’s Carpool Karaoke to it and everyone joined in with us. I always loved this song and go wild on stage, the meaning is well known by our fans who believe in us. Louis wrote this song about how he feels about me.After our dancing another conga line was formed and we headed back into the lounge for some more drinks and fun.We literally partied all night, the sun was rising in the sky when we all came out of the venue to head home.I have great memories for the rest of my life. I’m so glad we achieved everything together as a band. I am so especially happy meeting Louis on this adventure, he is the love of my life and sharing this together was other worldly.

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Louis POVAfter the last show in Sheffield, Harry and I went home for two weeks to spend time with our families.It has been a long hard five years of touring and it’s been difficult being away from each other. Harry and I are missing each other, after spending so long together every day it’s hard being without him but we wanted to spend quality time at home.After our time is over with our families we decided to book a month long holiday in Jamaica. We wanted to get away together alone with no prying eyes on us.We booked it so we would be home just in time for Christmas and my birthday. We always spend Christmas up North with my family and then New Year’s in Harry’s and vice versa. Christmas and family mean the world to us. It’s so special to be able to spend time and celebrate together.My suitcases are packed and in the boot ready to drive back down to collect Harry. We’re then making our way to Manchester airport to catch our flight. I tightly hug all the family, jump in the car and drive towards Holmes Chapel for Harry.It took me an hour and a half to reach Harry’s house, that’s good timing, the traffic wasn’t bad today.Anne was waiting at the door to greet me. She wrapped her arms tightly giving me a big squeeze once I reached the door. I started laughing when I spotted all the suitcases lined up in the hallway. Harry can never pack light. He has to be prepared for everything just in case, which is another reason why I love him.Harry comes running down the stairs when he hears me laughing and jumps in my arms and plants a passionate kiss on my lips.“Hi love, I missed you” I tell Harry once our lips separate. “Babe, I missed you more, now let’s go, I’m excited to get away” Harry squeals in excitement.We both say goodbye and give our hugs to Anne, Gem and Robin before loading all the suitcases into the car. It’s now a very tight squeeze with all the bags in the trunk and in the back seat, thank fuck I have a Range Rover with lots of space.We drive out of the gravel driveway with our hands out the window waving goodbye until we were round the corner.I look over at Harry and his eyes are full of tears. I pat him on the thigh and give him a comforting look, he looks back to me and smiles.We’re heading to the airport, it’s only a half hour drive away, soon we will be on our jet dreaming of our romantic, quiet vacation.The jet is booked for 3pm, so we should have plenty of time to park the car in the private parking area at the airport and board the jet. Staff were available as we parked to help us with our luggage, thank fuck, I don’t think I’d manage it all even with Harry’s help.The jet was beautiful, it had two cream seats with black leather trim facing each other. In between the seats was a black high gloss table. It was so shiny and clear, you could actually see your faces in it. On the table there was two glasses full of champagne, strawberries and a single rose in a small steel vase. Harry thinks of everything when he’s booking our holidays away together.The hostess has pulled down the long couch and made it into a bed for us. It’s going to be a long flight. It will take over ten hours to get to Jamaica. I’m not complaining because it’s just Harry and I on the jet.We take our seats for take off “Cheers darling” I say and we clink our glasses. Harry’s dimples pop when he smiles back at me.Harry starts rubbing his foot up my leg, he has that mischievous look in his eyes. My dick goes hard immediately when Harry’s foot touches it, I’m turned on so much just by the slightest touch.The seatbelt signs go off and the hostess has gone to the front of the plane. She closes the door behind her and will only come through if we ring. She knows we like our privacy.I get up from my seat and pull Harry up too. I pull him over to the bed and lie him down.Harry can’t keep his hands off me, he slides his hand into my loose black joggers and starts pulling on my dick. My mouth falls open as I gasp at his touch. I roll to face him and caress his cheeks, I kiss his lips passionately. I then take one hand away and slip it into Harry’s pants pulling at his now large hard dick!We both kiss softly while we are stroking each other, we’re trying to keep our moaning low, not wanting the staff to hear us.The fear of being caught makes it even more exciting, this is not our first time being part of the mile high club but very arousing.I pull on Harry’s shaft faster, he starts sucking on my neck, he likes to mark my skin. He also knows I get aroused from it too. I can feel my dick beginning to twitch as Harry squeezes his hand on my balls, I can’t help but let out a groan.Both our pace picks up and we’re pumping faster and faster knowing we’re both reaching our orgasm soon, together.With a few more pumps I groan out through my orgasm and cum. Harry wasn’t far behind me with his.We both go to the bathroom and clean ourselves up before going back to lie down again. I switch on the tv and decide to watch a movie, before long I was fast asleep spooning into Harry.When I woke up Harry and I were still cuddled up together. I checked the time and it was nearly time to land.We quickly got up and sorted ourselves out to take our seats for landing. When we landed we were met by our driver who would take us on the next part of our journey, our private part of this little island.We arrived to the outside of the house and it’s breathtaking.It’s surrounded by white sand, coconut trees and the clearest green water.The driver helped us take our luggage in before leaving. We both started running from room to room all excited, taking it all in.The house is perfect for us. It has a recording studio. We want to start recording some of the songs we’ve already written.The song we want to record first while we’re here is called ‘Kiwi’. We wrote it together in one night. It’s all about this baby situation, we needed to get it out of our heads and down onto paper, then we will produce it. We have loads more songs we want to write together during our stay here, but first it’s time to relax and have some fun. We have some form of freedom.Harry and I both meet back in the kitchen that faces out to the water, it’s truly beautiful. We both look at each other with mischievous looks, Harry starts to strip naked, I see what he’s doing so I join him.We grab each other’s hands and run and jump straight into the water giggling.We feel so free here together, knowing nobody is here looking over us and telling us what to do, pure bliss. This is our dream, we kiss each other in the middle of the ocean, the sun is setting in the sky.It is truly magical, I hold Harry in front of me, we watch the sunset, we’re happy, free and most of all together. Paradise is on the horizon.The master plan continues…..