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People say there are 5 stages of grief.-Denial-Misha couldn't be dead,they couldn't!Yanqing refused to believe it. He refused to believe that his love,his darling,his light,his... everything was gone. Not when he'd just talked to them yesterday. Not when he'd seen them smile and heard them laugh.Not when he'd asked them how they were and they said fine. Not when yanqing left them alone to go work. Not when he could've prevented it if he had just been there. If he had just cared more.-Anger-Misha fucking died. And it was Yanqing's fault.Because he just left them. He didn't stay with them,didn't call or even text them once.He hadn't even told them he loved them. Didn't even fucking consider staying with them even when Misha asked him to(they didn't)-Bargaining-If Yanqing had just stayed with them,if he had taken one second to tell them they were loved,cared for,if only he had done anything but leave.He could've stayed there with them. He could've tried to save them when he came back(he was to late.it wouldn't have worked even if he tried)He could've called Bailu!(She couldn't have done anything)Hell he could've called Luocha!(He doesn't even know luocha's number)He-he could have at least TRIED to do something(but he did not)-depression-Misha was gone and Yanqing couldn't seem do find the will to do anything.Misha was his light,his very soul! But now,they aren't here.They were gone like the break of dawn or the sunset.Like they were just a memory that past him by. But they were so,so much more.They were Yanqing's light. The thing that kept them going.They used to watch the sunset together when Misha would visit Yanqing in the xhianzou.It was always a vibrant orange mixed with a gentle purple. But,now?now it was so unbearably dull. It seemed so,so gray without them.-acceptance-No. There was no acceptance.Acceptance was stupid and just a means to forget. But Yanqing didn't want to forget Misha. He didn't want to move on. He wanted his love back.And he would bring them back.Even if he had to invoke the wrath of the plague athour, even if he had to start another abundance war!He would do everything to bring his Misha back.