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“Leo? Leo, wake up!” Raphael shook his mate awake, concerned about his murmurings while asleep. “Bro, ya okay?” Leonardo sat up, pulling his legs up to his chest and resting his chin on his knees.“Nightmares…”“Been a while since ya had those.” The other nodded and he wrapped an arm around the other’s shoulders. “Talk to me about it.”“Not the usual like they used to be,” he sighed. “Bats and rats… Cockroaches and squirrels… Fungus…”“The mushroom thing?” Leo nodded again. “Yeah, that was freaky. But ya saved us all, just like ya always do.” He hugged his older brother tightly who sighed.“I… didn’t talk about it back then… but I was so angry at all of you about that…”“Really? Why?”“It felt so unfair, my greatest fear was losing all of you and yours were little things we’ve dealt with. Over and done, survived…” He looked up, seeing the surprise of realization on his lover’s face. “But after a few days I came to the understanding that, in the moment we just guessed it was our greatest fears. But maybe it was just, you know, what we faced recently… April was missing her dad, Casey got creeped out by the rats we saw minutes before, you just dealt with Spy Roach and Mikey had freaked out about the Squirrelnoids in the lair, plus we had just patched things up after April didn’t talk to us for over a month and Donnie had been dealing with her all day…”“Makes sense. Did ya talk to Donnie about it?”“No. I was just…” he sighed.“Just what?”“Feeling jealous, I guess,” he shrugged. “Hearing those voices louder than ever, each of you all telling me how much of a disappointment I am… we weren’t exactly the most cohesive team back then.”“Yeah and most of that shit was my fault. I gave ya grief knowing it was easier for Donnie and Mikey to follow me to avoid my wrath since you’d forgive them anyway.”“I won’t pretend it didn’t hurt,” he sighed, turning his face down into his knees. “But I understand. You all are my little brothers, it’s hard enough being the oldest let alone lead you as a team to fight life-and-death battles. And that’s what I hated the most… it wasn’t just, me leading a team—it was me risking the safety of the only family I have. The only three who were just like me who I’m supposed to be protecting, not jeopardizing!”“Wasn’t your choice and if it had been any of us in charge, well, none of us would still be here.”“Honestly, I’m glad it wasn’t worse for you all. I am. It’s just… at the time I felt so alone… That night, it was such chaos…” he continued. “Casey swinging his hockey stick at nothing screaming his head off, losing him… Donnie coaxing April to follow while Mikey dragged you by a chain… then April slapping Donnie and he’s crying, you and Mikey running away from each other panicking… One minute I’m saying we stay together no matter what, the next everybody’s gone…”His breath stuttered as he looked up, his eyes emotional. “That look of fear as you stared directly at me and said, ‘anybody but you—keep away from me.’ And I know it was out of context, and obviously none of us were thinking straight, but hearing, ‘you’re not getting me’…” He tilted his face back down as the other wrapped both arms around him.“Leo…” he sighed. “You’re right, we were all out of our minds with fear. But I’m telling ya…” He reached down to tilt the other’s chin up. “Nobody but YOU… You’ve got me, you have me, you’ll always have me… in every way.” He leaned down to press a kiss on the leader’s lips. After some moments, Leonardo reached up and wrapped both arms around Raphael’s neck.“Thanks, Raph,” he whispered.“Ya know… aside from the bugs and all, there was something else creepy that night.”“The extra-large pizza with extra mushrooms that Mikey ordered afterwards?”“Close, but no. Way worse.”“Really?” Leo tilted his head curiously. “What’s that?”“Wasn’t bad enough Mikey picked up those stray rats and hugged them trying to help Casey be less afraid of them, but he was like that all night! Like he hugged me until I threw up and then offered ya mouth-to-mouth!” Leo softly chuckled.“Maybe he was trying to make Donnie jealous since he was so worried about April. All I know is, I was not about to let his be the first lips to touch mine if I could help it.”“I wouldn’t have let him,” he grinned.“Yeah well, too bad it took you so long.”“Not as long as ya think.”“What do you mean?”“Well, princess, guess who woke up with true love’s first kiss?”“No…” Leo’s eyes widened and Raph shrugged nonchalantly.“Look… it was an emotional three months, not like I had much else to do. The day ya woke up, well,” he scratched one cheek and glanced away for a moment before looking back. “Well, nothing else worked. I figured, why not?”“You creep!” Leo sat up and punched Raph in the arm.“No, I was attacked by the Creep after,” he grinned teasingly.“Jerk!” Leo pouted. “You mean I don’t even remember my first kiss? Does it even count then?”“Oh it counts, Fearless! I remember it enough for both of us.” He scooped the other in his arms and nuzzled him. “Ya are so cute when ya pout.”“I’m not pouting, I’m…” He paused trying to think of a better description and gave up. “Okay, maybe I’m pouting a little.”“Well, can’t have that.” He teasingly licked the other’s lips before nibbling on the bottom one that jutted out slightly. “Ya know what ya can have?” His voice was husky as he began rubbing his hands along the other’s arms.“I’m sure you’re about to tell me,” he murmured with a smile as he melted into his lover’s touch.“Nope, I’m gonna show ya…” He reached over to one of his drawers and grabbed some items that Leo recognized, a warm blush lighting up across his face. He allowed his body to remain compliant as it was handled by the brawler, attaching the wraps around his wrists and ankles before arranging his limbs comfortably to the straps secured under the bed. Once they were buckled, he looked towards his mate who nodded reassuringly before leaning forward and sucking on a delicate spot of his neck.“Had an idea of what to get ya this year… thinking ya don’t need to wait until Christmas for your gift…” He sat up with a grin before grabbing the blue mask nearby and tying it on the other before sliding it over to cover his eyes. A soft moan of anticipation escaped the eldest’s lips and he leaned forward to taste the delicious sound, reveling in the feeling of being fully trusted by someone unused to relenting control.Some moments passed in which Leonardo felt no contact and after patiently waiting nearly a minute, he cleared his throat.“Raph? Is everything okay?”“Yeah, Leo. Was just…” Some music started to play, notes without words filling the air. Although blindfolded, the look of confusion was evident.“It’s not like you to play mood music or anything like that.”“Hey, it’s the holidays—at least I ain’t playing Christmas carols,” he joked before leaning down. He ran his hands from thighs to hips up the sides of his plastron while simultaneously sliding his tongue up along the elder’s slit that began to soften with arousal.“So, ah… is this my gift? Romantic music while being seduced,” he smiled.“Nah.” Leo felt Raph pause but couldn’t hear anything over the sounds being played. “Been thinking about doing something a bit different, trying to figure out if it would be special to ya… but our conversation about your nightmare tells me I should listen to my gut and ya definitely deserve it now.”“Your gut?” Leo smirked, feeling the emerald hands caress his body. “Or something else?”“If by something else ya mean my heart, then yes.”“Well, aren’t you sweet.”“I am, I even listen to ya. So I’m telling ya, Leo… we stay together no matter what, okay? Just like ya said that night and all those other times ya tried to keep us together. Mikey, Donnie, and me ain’t never running off like the bratty brothers we used to be. We’re here for ya.” As the words settled in the air, the eldest felt warmth not only gripping him tightly on his thighs but also both biceps.“Raph? What—”“Aniki…” he heard Donnie’s voice softly on his left.
“Sensei…” he heard Mikey’s voice just as soft on his right.
“Master Leonardo…” his lover whispered from above, his lips near enough he could feel his breath on his mouth.“Guys?” Leo’s voice was somewhat strained as he struggled with processing the unexpected situation.“Thought maybe I could make it up to ya, all those times I lead our brothers away from your orders… now bring them here to serve ya.”“We could never show you enough how much we appreciate you, Leo. But we’re not shy from the challenge of trying to make it up…” Donnie’s voice was coy, in a tone he had never heard before.“I still owe you mouth-to-mouth, bro...” Leo could not see the look on Mikey’s face, but he could imagine the taunting smile the youngest often had, despite the unfamiliar husky voice he spoke in.“Fearless, even bound and blindfold ya are still so powerful… ya just have no idea how good ya look.” Raph pulled Leo into a passionate kiss while the other two gripped a hand in each of theirs, using their free hand to run along his body to trace their fingertips delicately along the curves of his muscles. All of the sensations started to overwhelm him, especially due to the sight deprivation, and Leo moaned achingly under all of the stimulation. He panted as the kiss was broken, the warm mouth relocating to a much lower region along his body.His mouth was met in a kiss by another that was unfamiliar while his neck was nuzzled and nipped. For a few moments, he forgot which of his younger brothers were on what side… until his tongue slipped along teeth and felt a slight gap, causing him to gasp.“Donnie…” The hand that had been tracing his left side cupped his chin.“Yes, my leader?” he cooed, engaging in another kiss before slowly sliding his tongue down his neck and settling at the base to bite gently. It was then his mouth was embraced again, he could almost see rather than feel the colorful explosion as something sugary hit his taste buds.“Mikey…” The hand that had been tracing his right side now cupped his chin.“Yes, big brother?” he cooed and Leo thoughts bounced from Mikey’s inner child to how confident the baby of the family was when taking charge in Dimension X. It was in that moment he felt that, truly, none of his brothers needed him anymore—reminding him that he was nothing without them.In that moment he felt it was both true and false at the same time.He needed his brothers, everything he was revolved around them… big brother, leader, sensei, master, even lover. Splinter was wrong, he was not their father nor should he have ever taken on that burden—especially with so many other roles and titles. Feeling the current kiss break, his mouth went nearly dull from the absence of the others and he collapsed back as all of the tension left his body with a sigh.“Now, kids, if ya break ya new toy I ain’t gonna let ya play again,” Raphael joked. Leonardo ignored the giggles from the other two and moved to kick his mate before being reminded he was restrained.“Bite me,” he muttered.“Don’t mind if I do!” Immediately the brawler resumed licking the softened slit which quickly resulted in the leader’s arousal returning, being welcomed with gentle bites along the extending appendage…The eldest refrained from any further noise, too preoccupied with feeling vulnerable about if he was the only one exposed. In moments that question dissipated as he felt not one, not two, but three shafts pressed alongside his own and his voice caught in his throat with a breathless gasp.“Not quite the type of togetherness ya were expecting, Fearless?”Leo had no idea if he reacted in movement or sound as he could only concentrate on two things… First, how annoyingly attractive Raphael sounded when he was being so cocky—literally. Second, well, second was still the first thing wasn’t it? He had grown up so closely with all of his brothers that he knew them so well he could sense them even in the dark, but this… this was an entirely different level of knowing them so personally, so… intimately… in ways he had only known the second oldest.After hearing a soft click, he soon felt not one, not two, but three hands wrapped around the bundle between the four bodies. Yes, his mind had wandered a time or two… surely it was normal, he told himself, them being the only four of their kind… Normal to wonder what it would be like to be just a little more closer than usual. He thought that curious itch was scratched some time ago when, during a sleepover after an all-night movie binge, he stirred to the sounds of the younger two making out. Feeling flush, he turned to his own mate to arouse him. The four never spoke of what happened, but they were all aware that the other couple was awake and simultaneously coupling silently…They weren’t a normal family but an isolated set of four beings who were raised together as brothers in spirit, but the loss of either of them would be a quarter of their identity.In this life, they only have each other. Thus, they stay together no matter what.Which they did throughout the night, so that when Leonardo woke within the arms of his lover and besides his other brothers he knew it was not a dream. However, his nightmare now felt like a distant memory… the dark past overshadowed by a bright future.~*~*~*~*~