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Dear Diary!Hiya, beautiful starry friends! Today was my 23rd birthday! It was totally magical! Mamo and Minako worked super-duper hard to get all our friends here for a fun celebration! Yay! Rei and Yuuichirou even brought me special good luck gifts to help me as I step into this new year! But oh wow, what do I even do with them? Rei made those adorable wind chimes herself and blessed them with love, so they can ring out blessings for me! But, um, she makes me new ones every year! I think I have like... six now? They're super noisy and might be bothering Mamo's neighbors! Oops! Ryo and Ami, the best buddies ever, got me these awesome pens and notebooks to help with my school comeback! Mamo says, since I'm gonna be queen one day, I have to study ALL the things—business, science, arts, and more! Just thinking about it makes my head spin like Moon Tiara Magic! I’m super nervous! And oh my gosh, Chibi-Usa is such a handful! Being a mama is way harder than I imagined! Hakura, Michiru, and Setsuna gifted me a J-SHO04 phone, but whoa, it’s a bit too techy for me! They said it has a camera to catch all Chibi-Usa’s adorable moments, but I’m super worried that I won’t figure it out in time! If I can’t take pictures soon, I’ll miss out on these precious memories! Chibi-Usa is growing up so fast and is already walking! Oh, what a busy moonlit adventure this is! Oh my gosh, you'll never believe it! She also has said her first words! Can you believe it? Dada! The little traitor! But, um, that's okay because I totally get why she'd choose Mamo over me! She's such a little stinker; she won't sleep unless she's all snuggled between us! It's cute, but I want cuddles too! Even Luna said I'm like a lonely moonbeam, heehee! Ever since I had our sweet little lady, it feels like Mamo’s been drifting away from me, like, where is he? And Minako told me it was super tricky to get him to help plan my birthday party! Not that I heard! I was just a little sneaky! It feels like there’s this silly gap between us—I mean, does Mamo think I’m not ready to be queen yet? I just want to sparkle and shine! I’m really just hanging out, taking care of Chibiusa with no enemies around! Once school starts, I'll be super busy, but is that really what I want? Moon Therapy Kiss, help me figure this out! Oh my gosh, diary! You won't believe it! Seiya is such a sweetheart for getting me you, and he told me to pour my heart out in you! It totally makes me feel all warm and fuzzy knowing he cares, even with the three lights shining bright on stages around the world! He promised he’d help when I asked, but I could never make him do something he’s not ready for—he’s worked sooo hard! Yaten sent me a gorgeous lamp from America! It's called a 'Fenton Atlantis koi fish fairy lamp' and it's handcrafted—like, wow! It's gonna look so pretty on my bedside! And Taiki? He got me all my textbooks for going back to school! So many! I'm so lucky to have friends who support my dreams, even if being a queen takes time!
Oh! Makoto made the most scrumptious three-tier cake! It had roses on top and the moon phases around it! Yummy strawberry cake too! And Chibiusa got her own cute smash cake that looks like Luna-P! I feel a bit bad though. Makoto also gifted me a pink rose bush, but uh-oh—I’m a total plant killer!
I wish I could keep them alive, but they just don’t like me! Makoto says it’s okay if I need new ones, but I don’t wanna seem ungrateful especially when that's totally her super magical business, heehee! Oh wow,
that would like, make her give up flowers she needs to sell for income, right? Eek! I’m super scared and super excited for the new year, yay! So many changes are happening! It feels like we’re taking a different path from when Chibiusa came to us to rescue the 30th century, but I really hope everything turns out sparkly and okay! I know change can give me a huge case of heart-flutters and make me anxious, but with you, my dear diary, and my new therapist, I can create a fabulous life that's all mine! I mean, do I even want the life I was “meant” to have? I should totally get to make my own choices! After all, I was reborn for a reason! Even my sweet mom said I should enjoy life as a normal girl! Being a queen isn’t quite normal, and I’m worried I might waste this magical second chance! Shouldn’t this life be about ME? Shouldn’t I decide what I want now instead of getting stuck in the past? I really hope my new therapist helps me find that perfect balance and figure out what I want in this sparkly adventure of life! Oh my gosh, used to get like, totally scared sometimes! Thinking like, “What if Mamoru and I don’t end up together and poor Chibiusa never exists?” That would be, like, a mega disaster for all of spacetime, eek! But now she’s here, she's a super cute and healthy baby girl, yay! So far, things are, like, not too bad at all! I just know if I keep trying my hardest and believing in the magic of the moon, everything will be just fine in the end! Believe in love and hope, right? Oh my gosh! Seiya also told me that he and the Three Lights are coming back to Japan! Yay! They'll be living right across from Mamo-chan, the little lady, and me! I'm so super duper excited to see them every single day! But on the flip side, Mamo-chan is always off working, being this incredible doctor and winning hearts everywhere, even in the U.S.! I’m so proud of him, really! But sometimes it makes my heart feel all achy because I miss him so much! And even when he is home, he’s always too busy with the little lady! By the time she’s sleeping, Mamo is totally wiped out and can't even chat! I totally get that he’s a busy man, but I just wish he’d sprinkle a little more moon magic on our time together! I'm so grateful I have such a wonderful man, but some nights just feel so lonely without him here! Can’t wait for things to get better, because I believe in our love!
I try my very best to support him! Yay! I make him yummy breakfast every single morning, and I even iron and pick out his clothes, just to show him how much I love him and appreciate everything he does for me and our little princess! But, oh my gosh! I wish he would surprise me with small things too! Even if it means missing out on work or skipping some long trips! It gets so lonely at night, and it makes me feel all sad... I used to get more attention when we were fighting evil together, but now that the chaos is gone, it feels like he thinks he doesn't need to help me as much anymore. But I need him more than ever, like magical moonlight shining in the dark! But how do I tell him without taking away his dreams of being an amazing doctor? If I’m questioning what’s meant for me, who am I to make him question his path? Especially when we both know I’m not ready to be queen yet! Silver Crystal Power, I really need him by my side! Oh my gosh, I'm totally feeling scared about what the future holds! Eek! Am I, like, questioning how I feel about Mamo-chan? I really do love him, but is it silly to wonder if I’m happy with our little life together? What if I’m never ready to be a queen?! Is it selfish to push him to be king if, or when, I finally am? Will he really be super happy with that? And my precious friends... Are they okay with devoting their lives to protect me? What about their dreams, their happiness? Is it a waste of a magical second chance to make them relive the past? Oh my gosh, is it wrong of me to think about what they want while they are doing so much for me? I guess I’m just feeling all jittery with all these changes! Maybe Seiya was right about using this diary for therapy—keeping my feelings here might help me talk about them! My heart is racing like crazy, diary! I think I’ve spilled enough for tonight, and now I should get some beauty sleep. Mamo-chan said he’ll take me for breakfast tomorrow morning! Yay! I’ll write to you again tomorrow night to tell you all about it! Good night, dear diary! Thanks for keeping my special secrets safe!
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Dear Diary,Hi there, shiny friend! It's your super bubbly Usagi here, ready to sparkle and shine again! Yay!
Oh my gosh! Mamochan took a whole week off just to be with me! Can you believe it?! It's also to help the starlights move in, but it’s super sweet of him! Yay! I love you, Mamochan!
Okay, so much has happened, like, a million things! Let me tell you why it took me forever to write back — four whole days! !
Oh wow, you won't believe what happened on Sunday! Mamo took me out for a super yummy breakfast! Yay! And then we went shopping for birthday gifts! I was so excited! But then, uh-oh! At the store, Mamo was all grumpy! He was like, 'Usagi, everything you picked is way too expensive!' Yikes! I tried to explain that I wanted a job so I could earn my own money before school starts, but it just made him even more upset! Eek! He shouted at me, saying 'that's not the point!' Oh no, my heart!
So, I ran away like a silly bunny, tears streaming down my cheeks! I found a cozy spot by the fountain, but oh gosh, my thoughts are a jumbled mess! It's like a kaleidoscope of feelings swirling around!
But guess what? This Sunday is super special because I have my very first therapy appointment! Yay! I'm so excited to embrace the moon magic of healing!
I really really hope this helps me grow up like a beautiful flower, just like a magical girl wishes! A fully bloomed Usagi-chan, ready to shine bright like the moon! Yay! Oh my gosh, back to, last Sunday it was so unexpected!
I was at the fountain just waiting, and then Mamo found me! He wrapped his jacket around me like a warm hug!
Can you believe it? He has to go to London for some super important medical experiment! But because of the argument, I was all tongue-tied!
We drove home in this quiet mood, and I helped him pack like a brave little soldier! Then he kissed me goodbye, saying he's sorry and that he’ll make everything better when he returns!
Oh gosh, I really hope he does too! I spent the whole night like a total dork, gobbling down yummy ice cream and watching super fun movies!
Oh my gosh! And I totally snoozed through Monday! Can you believe it? Then on Tuesday, Seiya knocked on my door like a big shiny star! Mamo and I were supposed to help them move in yesterday, yikes! I think Mamo didn’t pick up the phone (darn those silly time zones, right?) so he got all worried about me! Aww, he cares so much, that’s so sweet! So I totally filled him in on all the crazy stuff that went down, and like, he didn't seem too happy, eek! He just got very quiet for a moment and when I asked, 'Did I do something wrong?' and he said ‘no’ and smirked like all casually! Then, outta nowhere, he just swooped into my apartment and made a beeline for the kitchen! I was like, 'Excuse me, mister, what do you think you're doing, just strutting in here like you own the place?' But he just chuckled before saying, 'Making you dinner, of course!' Aww, how sweet! I can’t believe this!
Oh my gosh, I would have totally loved it if he had asked first! It's super rude to just waltz into people's homes without even asking, you know? And then he said I wasn’t just a people! Like, what even is that response? I felt my heart race, but I just had to insist on helping! But then, eek! I got pushed away with giggles and reminders that I’m a little clumsy in the kitchen! Just when I thought I’d snap, he said I could help by getting glasses and sake for our fabulous feast! But, like, what made him think I was into sake? I kinda awkwardly poured us some and then he started sharing about his super exciting tour! And before I knew it, we were all giggly munching on the yaki udon he made and sipping even more! By the time we finished our yummy food, he told me all about his amazing trips around the world! It sounded super exciting but also super tiring to perform every single day! Eek! But I think it’s fun too, like a thrilling moon adventure, but a bit scary! Then, he asked me how I’ve been! I totally spaced out on how to respond, eep! So, I started rambling about Chibiusa, and then it hit me like a moonbeam—CHIBIUSA!! I forgot to pick her up from Haruka and Michiru after they babysat her while I was on my super important date with Mamo! Oh no, what was I gonna do?! I was like crying rivers! I grabbed my phone, dialing them and begging for forgiveness like a true moon princess! I jumped up, ready to rush over and save the day, but then Seiya — like a super knight! — held my arm and took the phone! He said we’d been partying it up too hard (oops! ) and that I wasn’t in my best fighting shape to walk to their place tonight! But he promised to whisk me there tomorrow! I didn’t catch Haruka’s reply, but oh no! They didn’t sound too happy!
And before I could even say anything, Seiya totally hung up the phone! Like, what is he thinking? That’s my precious baby, I need her! I shouted at him, reaching for my phone, but he just held it up high and laughed! ‘You need a break to celebrate me being back, bun head! Pretty please? Just one super fun night?’ Ohhh, Seiya, you’re so silly! Wow, when he looks at me with those dreamy eyes, it’s like my heart goes zappy-zap! I absolutely can’t resist, teehee! But, I had to tell him I needed to call back Haruka first! With a sprinkle of magic and a little charm, I convinced her not to rush over and give us both a piece of her fiery heart! Phew! And I even got her to keep Chibiusa with her for another night!
Ooh, next I just had to talk to Seiya! I mean, who does he think he is, waltzing into my life and trying to take charge like that?! It's totally not okay! Before I could scream out my feelings, he just pressed a finger to my lips and said, ‘I'll show you I can make you happy!’ Eek! I was all flustered and sparkly inside, like, what do I even do now?! And then he giggled like it was all a joke! ‘You should see your face, bunhead!’ Oh, Seiya! I told him to like totally get out of my house like ASAP! It’s super not cool to play with a girl’s feelings, especially when her boyfriend is off on a buisness trip overseas! But, ohhh, dear diary, I’d be lying if I said my heart wasn’t doing the cha-cha! But I can't let my heart lead me astray from Mamo! I love him to the moon and back, even if those butterflies are taking a little nap when he’s around now. It’s not his fault we’re all grown up! I have to keep fighting for him, just like he would for me! But sometimes, I wonder what it would be like if I just kept moooning around forever, like a clumsy bunny! Hehe! I’m mostly carefree, and I don’t have to be all serious like a real adult! Yay! I’m so lucky to have friends who love and protect me, like my Sailor Senshi! But at night, I feel this emptiness, like a dark shadow creeping in. I miss the magical thrill of being a teen, when everything was sparkling and mysterious! Now it feels like this big, heavy boulder! Oh, moonlight, bring back the magic!Is it super mean to wish for more, oh my gosh?! My life is already like, totally amazing, but it makes my heart thump to question my fate like this! Could it be a scary dark force lurking? Or am I just finally leveling up into a grown-up?! So, after Seiya zoomed away, I just lay in bed like a sleepy bunny until morning! I didn’t actually sleep, but I was waiting for the dawn to rise, y'know? When I finally popped up to get Chibiusa, Michiru was like, 'Whoa, Usagi! You're up so early!' And then, she and Haruka sat me down for a serious talk about all the things happening around us! But I didn't say anything about my worries for the future, I don’t want them to be all worried about me! It's not fair since they already work super-duper hard to protect me! Plus, I’m a grown-up now! Time to show my awesome adult side! Hehe! I totally can handle this, right? Anyways, they were all worried about Seiya's antics, but I said it’s okay! I mean, he’s just super tired from the tour and maybe from a little sake!
And I promised them he didn't force me to drink sake at all! We just wanted to celebrate his amazing return, yay! But, um, they didn’t seem too happy, and I think I saw a worried glance before that big sigh!
I hope my feelings don’t cause another clumsy fight between them and Seiya! Moon power, please help me! The last thing I want is to spoil anyone’s super magical happily ever after! But after convincing them I was totally okay, I took little Chibiusa to play at the park, and then tucked her in for her dreamy moonlit sleep!
Now here I am, writing to you, my dear diary! Yay for friendship and love! I really really hope everything goes super-duper okay for the rest of the week! I’m sooo tired, diary! It’s like time for bed and finally some magical sleep, since I didn’t get any last night! But it’s just a little past 3 pm, right? No biggie! I’m gonna snuggle with little Chibiusa and drift off to dreamland! I’ll write in you again sooo soon, I promise! Moon Prism Power, make my dreams come true!