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The laughter could be heard echoing off the halls as he sat there, crouched between the toilet and wall, hiding. He had been hidden away since lunch, knowing now was the usual time when he was sought out, a well organized prank waiting to be taken into action the second they saw sight of him. It had become normal for him to skip lunch, knowing it was safer that way. He could have a large breakfast before they woke, and then have a large dinner when he was safe in the sight of the teachers, making in nearly impossible for those idiots to try anything. Of course, this didn’t stop them from sneaking into his dorm and playing pranks on him then, or finding him in between classes and hunting him down, but it did save him from the humiliation of it happening in front of the entire school. The door to the bathroom suddenly opened, slamming hard against the wall and making Severus jump. He held his breath as her heard footsteps walking down the aile of stalls.
“I know you’re in here Snape,”
Severus’s body went cold at Lucius’s voice. He could her other people with him, snickering and trying to keep quiet. Malfoy and his gang were far worse than Potter and his idiotic friends. Malfoy was cruel and his only goal was to make Severus hurt in any way possible.
The footsteps grew closer and Severus truly began to panic. He knew if they got to him then Severus would be in grave danger. His heart dropped when Lucius’s shoes stopped right in front of the stall Severus was hiding in. Now there was no escape. Severus began searching for his wand in his bag, knowing he would have to try and defend himself.
“Open the door, Severus.” Malfoy demanded, rattling the stall. Severus didn’t move, clutching his wand close to him. He heard Malfoy mutter a spell and the stall door slammed open, revealing Malfoy with his gang, all of them staring down at him. Mulciber was the first to move, reaching for Severus. Severus went to cast a spell, but Malfoy was faster, wiping his wand around and making Severus’s go flying. Mulciber grabbed Severus by his upper arm, dragging him out of the stall and throwing him in to a corner. Severus stood, trying to not look so pathetic and scared. Malfoy stalked closer to him.
“You weren’t in your dorm last night,” he began, taking another step closer. “Where were you?”
Severus swallowed, cold dread washing over his body. “I don’t see how that’s any of your business!” He hissed, doing his best to keep his voice steady. Malfoy narrowed his eyes.
“It my business because we have an agreement!” Malfoy was no longer playing, he looked plain mad. “And if you don’t keep to this agreement then I will not keep with my end of the deal!”
Severus knew where this was going, there was no way to stop it. His shoulders slumped. He looked Malfoy in his eyes.
“Please,” he hated begging, but he hated this more. “Can I please just have today?”
Malfoy’s anger disappeared, replaced with amusement. He took another step toward Severus, now so close that Severus could feel his breath on his face.
“No,” Malfoy answered, his hand coming up and gripping Severus’s jaw, making him look up at him. “I want what I was promised last night right now.”
Severus nodded, feeling himself go numb as his hands reached for his belt, knowing he had no option but to let it happen.~~~Severus put his bag down on his desk, sliding into his seat as he prepared for potions. He was early, but that was fine, Slughorn didn’t seem to mind Severus as he prepared to teach, getting his books in order and writing on the blackboard. Severus got his own books out, writing some note down. He kept glancing over his shoulder, paranoid that Malfoy might show up. He kept trying to shut his brain down, get all his thoughts to stop. He hated what Malfoy made him do, but he hated the aftermath much more. He always felt dirty, and his thoughts would go to dark places, replaying everything that had happened, over and over again. Severus never hated himself more than he did after Malfoy used him.
Students slowly began to trickle in, taking their seats and talking among themselves. Eventually Potter came in, his stupid face smiling as he held Lily’s hand. Severus stared at her. She seemed happy as she laughed at a joke Potter made. She hadn’t so much as looked at Severus since last year. He felt his self loathing slam into him as he remembered the hurtful words he had spat in her face, the way she looked shocked and disgusted at him. Severus would probably regret that day till he died.
Black was following them like a dog, Lupin by his side, looking as though he was going over his paper. They all sat close together, talking and laughing. Severus hated them all.
Pettigrew was late rushing into the classroom out of breath. His friends greeted him, apologizing when they noticed there was no extra seat by them. In fact, Severus noticed the only seat left was next to him. Pettigrew noticed too, setting his jaw and reluctantly walking over to sit next to Severus. Neither seemed happy to sit next to each other, and neither made a sound and Slughorn began. And of course Slughorn began by saying that the person they were sitting with would be their potions partner for the rest of the year.
“Bloody fantastic.” Severus muttered.

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Peter was often left out. But that’s okay, he didn’t mind. He knew that James had Lily and Sirius and Remus, so there really wasn’t any room for him. And that’s okay, he was just happy that they still called him his friend. He never really felt like he belonged in the Marauders anyway. He was different from them. They were loud, brave, popular, hot, and Peter was just there fat friend that followed them around. He would always be the side character that no one really took interest in. And he supposed he could live with that. Back in the common room he tried working on his potions essay, but it was nearly impossible seeing as he was supposed to be writing it with his potions partner.“It’s fucking insane,” he said to Marlene, who was sitting on the floor, doing her homework at the coffee table. “I mean, how am I supposed to get anything done when I have him as a partner!”Marlene hummed, writing something down. “It does seem like shit.” She agreed. Peter ran a hand down his face.“At this rate I’m gonna have to find him and do our work together.” He said, gathering his things. Marlene looked up, her face shocked.“You’re actually gonna go study with Snape?” She asked. Peter shrugged, standing and putting his bag over his shoulder.“What else am I gonna do? I can’t afford to fail potions anymore than I already am, and this assignment is a big part of my grade!”With that, Peter left the common room, deciding that the library would be a good place to start his search for Snape. Really, the last thing he wanted to be doing was looking for Snape and asking him to help with homework, but after he failed the last potions assignment he really couldn’t afford to fail this one too. He was already the stupidest out of the marauders, but this just seemed to take the cake. Having to go to Severus Snape for help with homework was downright embarrassing. He hated how the others were so smart, it seemed like it was impossible for them to fail.The library was mostly abandoned when he got there, seeing as it was so close to dinner. He searched all over the library till finally, tucked away in one of the dark corners, he found Snape sitting with his back to a shelf, his nose in a book and his eyes down. He didn’t seem to notice Peter yet, stalking down the aile.“Snape,” Peter started, making the other boy jump and look up at him, his eyes hardening into a scowl.“What do you want, Pettigrew?” He snapped. Peter took a breath.“I need help with the potions assignment, and since you’re my partner I thought you could help me out?” He asked, his shyness showing. No matter how worked up about something Peter got, when put in the actual situation, he always defaulted to being the shy, quiet, fat kid that he would always be remembered as.Snape scoffed. “Like I would ever help you.” He grumbled, turning back to his book. Peter stood there for a second, trying to find the right words.“You’re my potions partner, you kinda have to help me.” He tried, knowing he sounded stupid. Snape turned to him, rolling his eyes.“I actually don’t have to do anything.” He said, looking unbothered.Peter pressed his lips, his hand tightening on the strap of his bag. He huffed.“Look, I’m already failing potions and I can’t fail anymore then I already have, and you are by far the best person at potions, and, like I’ve said about a hundred times already, you’re my partner, so will you please help me?”Snape said nothing, still reading his book as if Peter didn’t exist. Peter sighed.“I’ll give you ten sickles”Snape closed his book and looked at Peter. “Fine.” He said. “But I can’t help you today, we can meet up tomorrow during lunch.”Peter frowned. “Well, what about lunch? Are we just going to skip it?” He asked, not particularly wanting to skip lunch.“Do you want my help or not?” Snape asked, eyebrows raised.“Fine, whatever. We can meet here tomorrow during lunch.”~~Severus most definitely did not want to help Pettigrew with his potions homework, but since Lucius had begun to hunt him during lunch he decided maybe it was better to not spend lunch alone.Snape made his way to his dorm after dinner, where he began to change into his pajamas. His dorm was abandoned, but it always was at this hour. His dorm mates knew not to come in for another hour or two. Severus sat on the edge of his bed, trying to calm himself. He knew it was better not to hide and to let it happen, after all he didn’t want it to happen during the day in a bathroom again. No, night was better, when he could go and shower after, scrubbing his skin till it hurt, then changing into clean clothes and hiding under his blanket till morning. Now was better.The door to his dorm opened, but he didn’t look up. He knew who it was. Lucias stalked over, reaching a hand out and caressing Severus’s shoulder.“I like it better when you listen and are waiting for me.” He told Severus. Severus didn’t reply, still looking down at his hands that had begun to shake. Oh how he hated himself.Lucius pushed Severus so he was laying on his back. “Take your clothes off.” Her ordered Severus as he began to work his own off. Severus did as he was told, pulling his shirt and pants off, shivering as the cold air touched his bare skin.Lucias pushed Severus down again, climbing on top of him and began to kiss him on the mouth. His hands tangled in Severus’s hair, pulling hard and making him gasp. Severus didn’t kiss him back, just laid there like a corpse, waiting for it to end. Most of the time Lucias didn’t care if Severus kissed him back or not, but tonight it seemed to have upset Lucias. He pulled away from the kiss, slapping Severus across the face. Pain bloomed on Severus’s cheek, the skin throbbing.“You just always have to be so difficult!” He hissed, turning Severus over on his stomach and shoving his face into the pillows. Severus began to panic as breathing became hard. He tried pulling his head up, pushing his hands against the bed, but Lucias casted a spell, binding Severus’s hands behind his back.“Consider this a punishment!” Lucius growled in Severus’s ear. He then penetrated him, hard and fast, making a pathetic noise escape Severus’s lips.It hurt, so bad. There were tears in Severus’s eyes, falling down his face and wetting his pillow. Lucias was ruthless with his thrust. He hadn’t used any type of lubricants nor had he prepared him as he usually would. Severus felt like he was being torn in two. He could feel blood trickling down his thighs, something that happened far too often. He tried to forget who he was, where he was, what was happening to him, why this was happening to him, but the pain and Malfoy’s constant degrading words kept him present in the hell he called his life. He hated himself for letting this happen to him, for not standing up for himself. In that moment he began to wonder what it would be like to die. It wasn’t like there was anyone on this earth that would miss him. Lily wouldn’t, she was much too happy with Potter. His mother would be too drunk to notice. His father would probably celebrate. Lucias might be upset to loose his whore.No, there was no one that would miss him.

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“You’re what?!” Sirius shouted at breakfast the next morning, making Peter cringe.“It’s just a study session with Snape, padfoot. It’s really not that big of a deal.” Peter tried to reassure. Sirius scoffed, piling eggs and bacon on his plate.“Just a study session with Snape.” He muttered bitterly.Peter, stupidly, had decided he would tell his friends about his scheduled study session with Snape rather than hide it from them. Of course, they had freaked.“I mean, is there no one else that can help you?” James tried, looking like he wanted to keep the peace, but he hated Snape more than any of them and he was definitely not happy about the whole thing.“No one that knows potions like him,” Peter went on, looking down at his empty plate. “I know he’s a dickhead, but he’s also top of the class, and I really need help with potions.”Of course, none of Peter’s friends noticed his empty plate, they rarely noticed anything about him. Peter had been skipping meals since first year when Mulciber had cornered him in the boys loo, shoving his fingers down Peter’s throat and making him vomit, telling him he should be thankful since it might make him loose a pound or two. Peter never told his friends about the incident, too embarrassed about it. He never really did talk about his insecurity being the biggest one in the group. He would laugh when someone said something about him being fat or large, trying to seem like those kind of jokes didn’t bother him, but in reality those jokes were what played in him mind at meal times.“I understand, Wormmy, but it’s Snape!” Sirius went on, still seeming upset about it all. Peter sighed, rubbing his forehead.“Look, I don’t have much of a choice here. It’ll probably just be a one time thing.” He tried. That seemed to satisfy Sirius enough to let him talk about his own homework with Remus. Peter turned to James and Lily, seeing Lily with her arms crossed, not saying anything. Peter dropped his head in his arms, knowing he shouldn’t have said anything.He looked up, seeing an apple on the plate with the bacon. He reached for it, no longer able to ignore his stomach pleading for something to eat. He took a couple of bites, but it was like chewing ash.~~As promised, Peter made his way to the library during lunch, spotting Snape already there, sitting at one of the tables, his books spread across the surface as he wrote sometimes down. Peter didn’t miss the way that despite Snape sitting at one of the largest tables no one would sit with him. For a quick second he felt almost sad for the boy, but quickly shook that feeling off as he walked over and sat across from Snape at the table.“You’re late.” Was the first thing Snape said to him. Peter pressed his lips but kept silent, instead pulling his potion homework out. They began to work on their essays, Snape glancing up every now and then, fixing a mistake Peter had made and going on to tell him what to do, adding an insult or two. They worked mostly in silence, the atmosphere around them mostly peaceful, strangely enough. Peter was confused with how at ease he felt with Snape. Most of the time people made Peter extremely nervous, and when he was with James, Sirius, and Remus and they would come across Snape, that always made him nervous, with the horrible insults they threw at each other, and the spells they’d cast. But here in this moment, Peter felt strangely safe.Peter found himself looking up and studying the boy across from him. Snape was bent over his paper, his hair tucked behind an ear as to not get in his face. His eyebrows were etched in a permanent scowl, the one everyone knew belonged to Severus Snape. And then there were his eyes. As Peter looked at them he couldn’t help but feel a cold chill wash over his body. They looked tired, dark bags underneath them like he hadn’t slept in weeks. They were hard and unfocused, like there were a million thoughts happening behind them. They looked close to death.“Stop staring.”Snape’s sudden words drew Peter out of his daze, his cheeks heating from embarrassment.“I wasn’t staring.” He grumbled, looking down at his work. Snape huffed.“Pettigrew-““Well what do we have here?”Snape’s body froze as Malfoy came behind him, leaning over him to see what was on the desk. Peter didn’t miss the way Snape suddenly seemed to disappear, his eyes blank and distant.“Shove off Malfoy! We’re studying.” Peter said, knowing that Snape wasn’t going to say anything. Malfoy’s eyebrows raised.“You two studying together? Well this is interesting..” he trailed off, his eyes going from Peter to Snape. Snape wouldn’t look at him, his eyes still down on his paper.“Well, I guess I’ll catch up with you later then, Severus. Enjoy studying.” And he was gone just as fast as he had appeared.Peter looked at Snape, who seemed to take a large breath through his nose, composing himself. Odd, was the only thought in Peter’s mind.

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Severus took a deep breath, the shaking in his hands finally stopping. He looked up at Pettigrew, seeing him going back to studying. Severus could only hope that he hadn’t noticed how he had shut down when Lucius had leaned over him. The last thing he needed was for James Potter and his marauders finding out that he was sleeping with a man nearly every day of the week. It was bad enough that most all of Slytherin already knew, casting him out and naming him the whore of the house, he didn’t need bloody Gryffindor to know too.They went back to working in silence for another hour till lunch had finished and Snape had a class in the next thirty minutes. He stood and began gathering his books without a word, making Pettigrew flinch and look up.“You’re done?” He asked. Severus didn’t look at him, continuing gathering his things.“Have transfiguration in thirty minutes.” He answered simply. Pettigrew seems to understand, also getting up and gathering his own things. He kept glancing at Severus, something clearly on his mind. Severus was getting annoyed with it.“Spit it out already!” He growled, stopping what he was doing and looking at Pettigrew, who had froze. He swallowed, his Adam apples bobbing. Strongly, Severus’s eyes were drawn to the movement.“I was just wondering if you’d want to do this again tomorrow?” Pettigrew asked shyly, making Severus’s eyes snap back to his. “It’s just, this has been a really big help.”Severus stood there, looking at him. He thought back to how Malfoy had left him alone once he saw he was with Pettigrew. Suddenly Severus’s mind was screaming SAFE! Pettigrew was safe.He found himself nodding. “Alright.” Then quickly grabbed his bag and left, not daring to look back at where he had left Pettigrew standing.~~Peter made his way back to his dorm after leaving the library, his head spinning. Snape was acting odd, almost like he didn’t mind having Peter around, which was strange because no one seemed to like being around Peter. It was a struggle to just sit with a person and enjoy their company when the other person would rather be with anyone else but you. Peter had given up on being anyone’s favorite person a long time ago. There was no way he could compete with James Potter, Sirius Black, and Remus Lupin. So he had gotten used to people saying no when he asked if they wanted to do something with him. It had been a shock when Snape had agreed the first time to study with him, and he had not expected him to say yes a second time. It was strange.Peter made it back to Gryffindor tower, exhaustion settling in his bones. He opened the door to his dorm and quickly covered his eyes.“GUYS!” He shouted. “I thought we agreed on a locking charm when you were up here alone?!”He heard the sound of shuffling and clothes being put on.“Sorry Wormy! We forgot.” He heard Remus say. He uncovered his eyes, seeing both Remus and Sirius fully clothed again. He huffed, going to his bed and throwing his bag down.“Everything alright, Pete?” Remus asked, looking at the boy who was sitting on the edge of his bed.Peter’s head snapped up. “Yeah! I’m fine!” He said, forcing himself to sound cheery. He dug his nails into his palms and decided he would just go for it. “So hogsmade is this weekend,” he started, seeing the way both Sirius and Remus glanced at each other. He forced himself to continue. “I was wondering if you guys wanted to go with me? Maybe go to the three broomsticks?”The both hesitated, then Sirius said. “Sorry Peter, we were kinda gonna go on a date, you know, the two of us.”Peter wasn’t surprised, but it still stung. “Oh, that’s fine. I should have figured. I’ll ask James.”They glanced at each other again. “He’s going with Lily.” Remus said. Again, Peter wasn’t surprised.“Oh.”He stood, grabbing his bag and heading for the door again. “Where you going? You just got back.” Sirius asked.“I just remembered I left one of my books in the library.” He told them, not waiting to hear what they said, leaving the dorm as fast as possible.~~Severus didn’t want to go back to his dorm, so he hid in the bathroom, pressed between the toilet and wall again. It was his usual hiding spot, one the was actually pretty good. Of course, Malfoy knew he did this, but it always took him forever to find him, seeing as Severus never hid in the same bathroom, always moving around. At that moment, Severus had been sitting there for just over an hour, reading a book on rare portion ingredients, when the bathroom door slammed open and hurried footsteps ran into one of the stalls, not even bothering to lock it. He then heard the sound of vomiting, then quiet sobs. Obviously the person thought they were alone, they had no idea that Severus was sitting a few stalls down, listening to their break down.For the strangest reason, Severus found himself standing, feeling the need to see if this person was okay. He didn’t know why he felt the need to do so, but he found himself standing and unlocking his own stall, walking over to the open stall where the figure was bent of the toilet.“Umm, are you alright?” Severus asked, unsure what to do now. The figure turned his head and Severus felt regret clawing at his chest.“Snape?” Pettigrew asked, his voice shaking as he tried to stop his crying.Severus stood there like an idiot, not sure what his next move was. Did he stay? Did he run? Why was Pettigrew upset?“I heard you and I was just making sure..” his voice faltered, not sure what to say. The air was awkward. Pettigrew was wiping his face, trying to hide his tears. He sat back on his heels, still gripping the toilet seat like his life depended on it. Severus cleared his throat, suddenly deciding he didn’t care about history.“What’s the matter?” He asked Pettigrew, making him turn to Severus, his face shocked.“Why do you care?” He asked, his voice thick. Severus shifted on his feet, trying to work past this uneasy moment.“Well, you’re obviously not fine, and I don’t see any of your stupid friends coming to help. Do you need help?” He said trying to not sound so harsh. Peter looked down, looking like he might cry again, which Severus really hoped he wouldn’t. He didn’t think he’d be able to handle that.“They won’t help me.” Pettigrew suddenly said, looking miserable. His voice was small, and something in Severus twisted.“They don’t care.”Severus wasn’t sure what to do with this information. Yes, he knew Pettigrew was the least popular in the group, but he was still a marauder.Severus suddenly felt extremely overwhelmed. Before he could do anything else, he gripped his bag on his shoulder and fled the bathroom, leaving Pettigrew in his misery.

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Maybe it was awful of Severus to leave Pettigrew when he was in such a distressed state, but standing there, seeing him so distraught, had been too much for him to handle. After he had rushed out of the bathroom, his feet had carried him back to his dorm without him even noticing. He had regretted it the moment he saw Malfoy sitting on his bed, waiting.So now here he was, laying on his back naked, Lucius over him, thrusting and moaning, while Severus could only think about Pettigrew and the way his face had looked at Severus, almost confused as to why someone was asking him what was wrong. It was sad, pathetic. To think, everyone in the school wanted to be apart of the maraudeurs, thinking they were the most popular and fantastic group in the school, when in reality, one of the members spent the evening vomiting up his dinner and sobbing, saying his friends, the ones that were supposedly the worlds best friends, wouldn’t care. Severus found it odd, almost fascinating.Lucius groaned, finally climaxing and pulling out of Severus, laying down beside him while he caught his breath. Severus’s chest shuddered, letting out a deep breath as he felt like he could finally breathe. He turned away from Lucius, curling into a fetal position, trying to warm his cold naked body. He felt Lucius shift behind him, then suddenly felt his body pressing against his, spooning him as his arm wrapped around Severus, grabbing his cock. Severus gasped as Lucius gripped Severus tight.“What shall I do when I leave next year?” Lucius said, his voice low and his mouth pressed next to Severus’s ear. Severus bit his lip, trying to stop himself from making pathetic noises.“I’m to be married, you know. To Narssica,” he went on, easing his grip on Severus’s cock slightly. “She is rather beautiful, far more nice to look at than you. I can only hope she’s as tight as you. If she is, well, then the only thing I shall miss about you is the suffering and misery in your eyes.”His grip tightened again, far more fierce than before, drawing a choked cry from Severus and making tears fall down his cheeks. Lucius brought his other hand to Severus’s hair, pulling it tight and bringing his head against his chest.“What were you doing with the Pettigrew pig today?” He asked Severus, his voice low and dangerous.Severus shook his head. “W-we were studying.” He replied, his voice shook from the pain and fear. Lucius hummed.“Do you want him to fuck you?” He asked. Severus shook his head, his heart pounding, but Lucius went on. “I bet he has a nice cock, one that could really fill you up, make you bleed. Too bad he’s one of Potter’s dogs otherwise I’d have him take you, bend you over and fuck you so hard you’d tare, you’d fucking bleed so much! You’d scream for him to stop, but he wouldn’t! Not till you passed out, then I’d let all of Slytherin have you while you were out, so that when you’d wake up you’d be confused by the blood and cum leaking out of your fucked up hole! And then, I’d kill you, because your hole would be so fucked up id have no more use for you.”Severus let out a choked sob at the images Lucius was putting in his brain. He knew the meaning behind Lucius telling him his fucked up fantasy. It was a threat, one that he was sure Lucius would live up to if Severus did the opposite of what he wanted. But what did Lucius want? Well, Severus had no idea, and he wasn’t too keen to find out.Lucius’s hand began to work Severus’s cock, making his erection grow. Severus closed his eyes tight, hating how his body was responding. He was opening sobbing as Lucius’s hand moved faster. Lucius rarely did this, only when he was feeling particularly mean. It was always worse than the normal thing for Severus.“That’s it you fucking, filthy, faggot!” Lucius growled in Severus’s ear as his sob turned to a moan. He was close and Lucius knew it. He stopped his hand before Severus could cum. Severus began panting, groaning at the loss of the feeling.“Beg me!” Lucius demanded, his voice low. Tears were pouring down Severus’s face. He shook his head, refusing to indulge in Lucius’s fucked up game. His hand started to jerk Severus again, catching him off guard, making him let out another moan that turned into a sob.“Beg me!” Lucius shouted, pulling Severus’s hair harder. “Beg me like the fucking whore you are! Prove to me that you really are just a queer!”Severus was close again, that feeling bubbling in his lower stomach. And then Lucius stopped again. Severus refused to beg. And then Lucius went on again. This continued for a while, till Severus couldn’t take it anymore. His cock was aching for release. It was too much.“Please!” Severus finally whispered, his voice small and clogged with tears. “Please let me cum!”Lucius turned Severus on his stomach and entered him for the second time that night. He fucked him so hard and so fast. He came faster than he ever had before. It hurt Severus so bad. Lucius pulled out, and without a word, he left, leaving Severus still naked on the bed, cum dripping down his thighs, and his cock aching.Severus began to wail, everything crashing over him. He hated Lucius, he hated himself. Her hated everyone.Severus continued crying as he reached for his cock, jerking himself off till finally he let out a loud moan as he finally came. He curled into himself, sobs shaking his body. He felt so gross. He felt like a true faggot.~~Severus came back to his dorm, showered and fresh clothes on. His body ached and his head was throbbing. His eyes stung from crying and he knew they were puffy. Black, Crouch, and Rosier were in the dorm when he returned, talking amongst themselves. Severus ignored them, shame washing over his body. Since second year, when Lucius decided to make Severus his personal whore, he had told Black, Crouch, and Rosier that they were not to be in the dorm from six to nine at night, otherwise they’d become the whore. They listened, doing exactly that. Severus remembered the first night Lucius had used him, after he had left twelve year old Severus bleeding and naked on his bed, crying and confused. He remembered how his dorm mates had come on, all staring at him, their faces pale, looking sick at the sight. Severus had fallen asleep fast the night, exhaustion and shame wearing him thin. He remembered the next morning, finding the blood gone, feeling the after effects of a cleaning spell, and a blanket laid across his naked form. He never said anything about it to his dorm mates, nor them to him. In fact, he rarely spoke to them.Severus sat on his bed facing away from the others. He looked down and saw residue of Lucius’s rough treatment on his bed. He waved his wand, spelling his sheets clean. He pulled out one of his potion books, needing something to shut his thoughts out.“Snape?”Severus tensed, fear sweeping his body cold. He turned his head, looking at the trio. Rosier had been the one to call him, his face grim, etched with worry.“We have something to tell you.”Severus felt curiosity shake him. His dorm mates rarely talked to him, or acknowledged him.“What is it?” He asked, his voice horse from crying.Rosier glanced at Black, who was staring at his book, not reading it but pretending to. Then he glanced at Crouch, who pretended to busy himself with organizing his school books.“You know how Narcissa and Lucius got engaged this summer?” He started. Severus flinched at the mention of Malfoy, hating where this was going already. “Well, recently she’s been talking to some people about how she hates yours and Lucius’s ‘agreement’”Severus blinked at Rosier. “What the fuck are you on about?” He asked harshly.Rosier went on, unfazed by Severus’s anger. “She keeps telling Lucius to call it off, but he won’t. So she decided to take matters in her own hands.” He paused, looking like he really didn’t want to tell Severus what it was Narcissa had done.“Rosier, I swear! If you don’t fucking tell me-““She sent a letter to your folks”Severus’s body went cold.His parents knew. His poor mother, sick and dying, knew that her son had been fucking a boy much older than him. His father, who hated queers more than anyone else in this world, knew his son was filthy faggot. Severus didn’t know what to do. His father would be furious. His mother would be so disappointed. Oh god, his life was falling apart.~~Peter laid in his bed, wide awake, listening to his friends snore as the slept. His mind was reeling, thinking and debating. He kept replaying Snape’s face, looking at him as he sat on the floor of the bathroom, crying and vomiting. For a second, he had actually looked concerned, but it was quickly wiped away into a look of confusion and panic. Apparently the situation had spooked Snape, making him flee the bathroom. Afterwards, Peter had sat there for another moment, getting his bearings then flushing the toilet and going back to his dorm. When he returned he found his friends asleep, not even bothering to leave a light on for him.

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Peter was looking for him. He sat at the breakfast table, his eyes scanning the Slytherins, seeing if he could spot the head of long black hair, but he was no where to be seen.“Oi! Whatcha lookin at, Pete?” James asked him, elbowing him. Peter turned his head to James.“Nothing! Just… zoned out.” He lied. James didn’t question him, instead turning to Lily and asking her if she’d seen one of his school books.Peter was staring at his plate, the only thing on it was a lonely piece of bacon. His stomach grumbled, he was hungry. He had only eaten an apple the day before, but had ended up vomiting it up. He was starving. He hesitantly grabbed the bacon, taking a bite of it and chewing, but he couldn’t taste it. He put it down, deciding that he had eaten enough. Instead he grabbed his pumpkin juice and downed the whole cup.“Oi! Look! It’s Snivellus!” Sirius suddenly declared, making Peter’s head snap up. Sure enough, there was Snape, clutching his bag and walking to the Slytherin table, sitting at the end by himself.“Bloody hell, we need to do something! He hasn’t been to breakfast in ages!” James said, far too excited.“I recon you’re right, Prongs!” Sirius agreed. “What do you have in mind?”James thought for a moment, his eyes squinted. “It’ll have to be something simple, since we weren’t expecting this.” He said, still thinking. Then suddenly his face broke to a grin. “We should vanish his clothes! Leave him in nothing but his boxers, if he even wears those!”Sirius hit the table, excited. “Oh bloody brilliant, James!”Peter gripped his thighs, wanting to say something, knowing this was wrong, but he was too chicken. James grabbed his wand, pointing it at Snape. Peter really wanted to do something, the face of Snape looking at him popping into his mind.“Wait-“ but it was too late. The spell had been cast, and Peter quickly looked to the Slytherin table, seeing Snape’s panicked eyes as he took in his bare body. The whole dining hall erupted in laughter, everyone pointing at Snape. But Peter sat there, staring at the boy whose eyes filled with tears. He stood fast, rushing out of the dinning hall, making everyone’s laughter grow. Before Peter could stop himself, he was standing and running after Snape.He found him in the bathroom, pressed to the wall, not even in one of the stalls. His arms were wrapped around his middle, trying to hide his naked form. His eyes were panicked, and it seemed he hadn’t even noticed Peter. Peter removed his own robe, bending down in front of Snape and wrapping it around his shoulders. Snape flinched violently, closing his eyes as he began to shake. The whole thing was unnerving, it was unreal. When Snape opened his eyes they had such fear in them. He looked up at Peter, his eyes clogged with some kind of fog, like he was in a trance. He was so scared.“Snape,” he whispered, sitting back on his heels so they were eye level. “Breath.”Snape tried, taking a large breath through his nose. He kept doing it till he finally seems to calm, realizing where he was and who he was with.“Get out!” He whispered to Peter, his voice sharp. Peter wanted to argue, but understood that Snape wanted space. So instead he nodded, and stood.“I’ll see you at lunch, in the library.” He said, hoping that he would come. Snape didn’t look at him, just kept staring at the floor. Peter turned and left the bathroom, going to his first class.~~Severus was in such a panic he hadn’t even realized he was wearing Pettigrew’s robe. The sent of the thing was odd. It smelt like Pettigrew, snickerdoodle cookies and a curbing fire. Severus used the smell to ground himself, keeping him here in the present and not in his mind where Lucius was on top of him. He slowly made his way to his feet, holding Pettigrew’s robe tight around him. He knew he needed to get back to his dorm to change, meaning that not only would he be late for his first class, but also that he’d have to walk the halls in nothing but his boxers and Pettigrew’s robe.~~Severus hadn’t missed the way Pettigrew had mentioned meeting in the library that afternoon. After the day that Severus was having, he didn’t much feel like going to the library, but after the incident at breakfast he could feel Lucius’s eyes on him, following him as he walked the halls. He knew his safest option was to meet with Pettigrew. That how he found himself in the library during lunch, waiting. He had been jolting down some notes when Pettigrew approached him. Severus noticed his lack of robe, suddenly feeling guilty for not bringing it so he could return it. Pettigrew sat down silently, pulling out his books so he could begin studying. It went on for a while, doing their work in silence, before Severus could no longer take it.“Is this some kind of prank?” He asked, making Pettigrew look up, confused.“Is what a prank?”“This,” Severus gestured to the both of them. “You constantly finding me, in the library, the bathroom. If it’s not a prank then why?”Pettigrew put his pen down, staring at the table. “I don’t know.” He answered, his voice quiet. “It’s like ever since that first potions class when we sat next to each other, I can’t get away from you. It’s like everything I do always leads back to you.”Severus was stumped by Pettigrew’s answer. But, he found it true. He saw and thought of Pettigrew more than he had in his past four years at Hogwarts. It was the strangest thing.“So, what do we do?” He asked Pettigrew.“Well, we could try to maybe be friends?”Severus frowned, looking up at Pettigrew. “I’ve never had a friend. Well, besides Lily, but I fucked that up.” He said honestly. Pettigrew shrugged.“How about we try to be friends then?” He said, smiling. “Let’s say next hogsmade trip we go together.”Severus nodded, still feeling strange. “Won’t your friends miss you?” He asked. Pettigrew’s face fell slightly. “No, they already have plans.”Severus could tell by the look on his face. They hadn’t involved Pettigrew.“Alright. Fine. We’ll go.”Pettigrew’s face lit up. “Alright! But I think if we’re going to be proper friends then we should drop the last name thing.” He said, then smiled. “Severus.”His name sounded odd coming from his mouth, but Severus decided to give it a go. “Fine, Peter.”He cringed, Pettigr- Peter laughed.“We’ll get used to it.”~~Lucius was rough that night, bending Severus over on the side of his bed, pushing in with no prep and no lube, tugging on Severus’s silky hair, making his neck ache. It hurt, Severus’s whole body. But somehow, Severus didn’t cry. He didn’t wallow. Not even when blood was dripping down his thighs mixed with cum, or when Lucius spat on his back, or when he called him a fag and whore, he didn’t hate himself and want to die. How could he? He had just done the impossible. He had just done what he never thought he would ever do.He could say, truthfully, without lying. He could say the words ‘I have a friend.’

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Severus sat on the stone ledge by the gates to hogwarts, reading while he waited for Peter. His body was in pain from Lucius’s rough treatment, but he had taken some painkillers with breakfast and hoped they would soon kick in. Something that had begun to worry Severus was how rough and careless Lucius was growing. He used to take his time, preparing Severus so he wouldn’t bleed, using lube, or even spit to help ease his way in. But as of recently, he hadn’t cared. He now would barge into Severus’s dorm, rip his clothes off, and fuck the snot out of Severus till he was left bleeding and sore, then leave without a single word. Severus didn’t know if it was because it was Lucius’s last year at hogwarts or if it was some kind of anger, or if it had something to do with Narssisa’s letter to Severus’s parents. All he knew was he wanted to find the reason so that he wouldn’t get hurt as bad anymore.
“Good book?”
Severus looked up, seeing Peter standing before him, his muggle clothes on. He was wearing jeans, sneakers, and a black sweater with a frog on the front. Severus looked up at his face.
“Why is there a frog on your jumper?” He asked. Peter looked down at his jumper then back up at Severus, shrugging.
“I like frogs. My mum got me it for Christmas last year.” He explained. Severus hummed, closing his book and standing.
“Three broomsticks is probably packed, same with honeydukes. The hogshead should be a good place to grab something to eat, and then I’m in need of a new quill and ink, so I suggest we go to tomes and scrolls. Anywhere in particular you’d like to go?” Severus said as they began walking. Peter shrugged.
“I’d like to stop by dogweed and deathcap. I heard they got this new plant from Africa, one that can supposedly make hair and nails grow ten times faster.” He said, his excitement for herbology showing.
“Alright, we can hit that before tomes and scrolls. Hogshead first?” Severus asked. Perter nodded.
Severus had been right. Hogshead only had a handful of people there, everyone else at the three broomsticks. They easily found a table and got some butter beer. Severus got a slice of pumpkin pie, the smell reminding him of his mother before she got sick. Peter got bowl of nuts, but Severus noticed how he barely touched them, almost looking scared of them.
Severus cleared his throat. “I’ve noticed you don’t have a very big appetite.”
Peter looked startled by his words, his cheeks turning red. He stared down at the bowl of nuts. He shrugged. “Sometimes…” he started but trailed off. Severus tapped his foot, knowing these situations were often fragile and hard to get through.
“You didn’t eat breakfast this morning.”
Peter nodded. Severus went on. “Or dinner the night before.”
Again, a nod from Peter. Severus’s leg was bouncing, but he pressed on.
“My mother’s the same way,” he started, Peter finally looking up at him. “She’s sick now. Doctors said it’s from her starving herself. She’s loosing her hair, her muscles are weak. She’s just not who she used to be.”
Peter was looking at him with sad eyes. Severus took a breath, trying to shake those feeling, then looked up at Peter.
“I don’t want you to end up like her.” He stated, then went on. “I know it’s hard, but please. Please try?”
Peter looked down at his hands, then nodded. He reached for the nuts, taking a few and eating them. Severus took another breath, then took a bite of his pie.~~Peter felt humiliated, yet sort of cared for. He hated how Severus had noticed how he skipped meals, yet the fact he had noticed from across the great hall, when the friends he sat next to didn’t even notice, was somehow warming. It made him feel strangely looked out for, like he knew there was finally someone who cared. It was then, sitting in hogshead, that he decided he would try and do better.
They left hogshead and hit both shops they had wanted, leaving them now to wander till it was time to head back to the castle. They walked around the outskirts of Hogsmade, looking at things, talking.
“Let’s play a game!” Peter suggested, making Severus huff. “We each ask a question and other has to answer. I’ll go first.” Peter thought for a second before asking. “If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?”
Severus rolled his eyes. “That’s a stupid question.” He said. Peter faked being offended.
“Hey! I worked hard coming up with that question!”
Severus barked out a laugh. Peter paused, also making Severus pause. “I’ve actually never heard you laugh! Do it again!”
Severus’s face fell. “No” he said. Peter rolled his eyes.
“Come on! What will make you laugh?” He asked, then had an idea. “What did one hat say to the other?” He asked, grinning. Severus rolled his eyes.
“I’m not taking part in this.”
“Come on! Just ask why!”
“No”
“Come on, Sev! Just ask!”
“No.”
“Please!”
“No.”
“I’m not gonna stop asking till you do.”
“No.”
“Severus Snape! Please?!”
“Fine! What did the hat say to the other hat?”
Peter grinned. “You stay here. I’ll go on ahead.”
Severus stopped walking and looked at Peter. “I ought to kill you for saying something so stupid.”
Peter started laughing. “Ohh, you can’t kill me! Who’d be your friend?”
That got a small laugh out of Severus, making Peter smile. Severus rolled his eyes, looking at Peter.
“Connecticut.” He said, making Peter pause, confused.
“What?”
Severus sighed. “If I could go anywhere in the world, I’d go to Connecticut. I’d go to the muggle collage, study science.”
Peter tilted his head. “A muggle university? Don’t Slytherins hate muggles?”
Severus shrugged. “Most do. My father is actually muggle.”
Peter raised his eyebrows. “Really? So you aren’t pureblood?”
Severus nodded. “I don’t tell people but I’m halfblood.”
“Huh.” Peter said, taking in that information.
“So now it my turn to ask a question.” Severus said. “How does one become a Marauder?”
Peter laughed. “You have to kill some one.” He joked. Severus huffed, his lips twitching, fighting a smile.
“My turn.” Peter said, turning to Severus. “Are you and Lucius dating?”
He saw Severus stop walking, his whole body tensing. He turned to Peter, furry in his eyes.
“Why the fuck would you ask me such a ridiculous question?!” He asked, his voice angry. Peter shook his head, wanting to calm him.
“Sorry! I just noticed that he always seems close to you-“
“I’m not a faggot!”
The slur took Peter by surprise, making him blink. “Okay.”
Severus was blinking hard, something strange in his eyes. He turned away from Peter, walking away. Peter shook himself from his daze.
“Sev, wait!” He said, trying to catch up to him. “Sev. Severus!”
He grabbed Severus’s wrist. Severus spun around and faced Peter. “What?!”
Their faces were an inch apart. Peter could feel Severus’s breath on his face. He saw the other boy glance down at his lips, his face shifting from anger. Severus grabbed the sides of Peter’s face, kissing him hard. It took Peter by surprise, but he began to kiss back, wrapping his arms around Severus’s waist. It was hot and messy, lips moving fast, teeth getting in the way. Peter had only ever kissed one person, but it had just been a peck. This was new. He had never kissed someone with so much force, never thought of kissing someone like this, never thought of kissing a boy, never thought of kissing Severus Snape.
Peter was slightly taller than Severus, making him have to lean down into the kiss. Severus shifted one of his hands from Peter’s face to the back of his neck, holding himself higher. With the other hand he moved it down to Peter’s crotch and began rubbing him through his pants. Peter moaned into the kiss, but then pulled back, suddenly aware that they were doing this in broad daylight, where anyone could see.
“Not here.” He whispered, looking at Severus. Severus’s eyes shifted from lust to fear. He pulled himself away from Peter, grabbing his bag he had dropped and began running away, leaving Peter standing there, dazed.~~Severus skipped dinner, not wanting to face Peter just yet. He knew it was wrong of him to run off, but when Peter had said something about going somewhere else, Severus realized that he wasn’t ready to have sex with Peter. The thought of someone towering over him made him think of Lucius, and he didn’t want to think of him when he was with Peter. He didn’t want to ruin things with Peter, not when he could finally say he had a friend, so he knew he would have to make up some lie to tell him. He just needed to think of one.
Severus was in his dorm, reading on his bed. He liked weekends. Usually Lucius was too busy with Narssica to come see him. It was a nice break. His dorm mates were on Black’s bed, playing a game of cards, and Severus actually didn’t mind the noise, enjoying the presence of them in the room.
The door swung open, hitting the wall and making everyone look up. Lucius was storming in, his eyes blazing with furry. Severus put his book down and stood, trying to ask what was happening.
“Malf-“
Lucius punched him right across the face, making him fall backwards into his side table. Severus tried to get his bearings, but Lucius grabbed his throat, pulling him to the bed, laying him on his back and crawling on his chest, squeezing tighter, making it nearly impossible for Severus to breath.
“You fucking slut!” Lucius yelled in Severus’s face. “I saw you! I saw you kissing Pettigrew! I saw you touch his fucking cock!”
Severus clawed at Lucius’s arm, trying to get air. His head was light, his lungs were screaming. “You just don’t get enough, do you?! You just wanted more cock huh?!”
Severus was shaking his head, tears falling down his cheeks. He was terrified. He couldn’t die like this.
“Malfoy! He can’t fucking breathe!” He heard Rosier yell, panic in his voice. Lucius let up a little, allowing just enough air into Severus’s lungs.
“Shut up!” Lucius yelled at the three standing on the other side of the room. “Go get Crab, Mulciber, Goyle, and anyone else that wants to stick their dick in something!”
Cold fear swept Severus’s body, making him thrash and fight.
“No, no please! Lucius! Please! I’m sorry, I’m sorry! I don’t want to! Please!” He begged, his body panicking. Lucius pulled a hand back and slapped Severus a couple of times. “Shut up!” He screamed, then looked back at Rosier who was still standing there. “Go! Otherwise I’ll fucking rape all three of you!”
That snapped them out of their fearful daze. Rosier shot Severus a look of sorry, but grabbed his friends and left. Lucius started tarring at Severus’s clothes, till he was left naked on the bed. Severus was sobbing, trying to get away. He was clawing at the hands holding him, kicking. Lucius raised his wand, casting and spell that bound Severus’s hands behind his back.
“This is what you get when you whore yourself to people!” Lucius growled, raising his wand again. “Crucio!”
Severus had never felt such pain. He screamed and withered on the bed, feeling like he was on fire. It could have been cast on him for hours and he’d have no idea. The pain was so severe. When it finally ended, Severus tasted blood in his mouth from biting his lip. His throat hurt from screaming and his muscles and nerves were fried. He laid there, sobbing and panting. He hadn’t noticed the other people looming in the room till that moment.
“Mulciber,” Lucius said, climbing off the bed. “How about you go first.”~~Peter’s head was still jumbled from the day when he went back to his dorm. James was doing his homework on his bed, and Remus and Sirius were sitting together on Sirius’s bed, going through the candy they had gotten from Honeydukes. Peter looked at the couple, a thought suddenly coming to his mind.
“Remus,” he began. “How’d you know you fancy blokes?”
Remus looked surprised by the question, glancing at Sirius, but answered Peter. “Umm, well. I don’t really know. I guess I just fancied Sirius and realized I must fancy blokes.”
Peter frowned, wanting more of answer. “Pete,” he looked up at James, seeing his eyes looking at him with concern. “Do you think you might be bent?”
Peter hesitated, debating for a moment before shaking his head. “No, not at all! I was just curious.” He lied. The truth was he actually had no idea what he liked. His mind kept replaying Severus’s lips on his, the way his hand had touched him…
He shook his head, grabbing a book. “Well, I’ll see you lot later.” He said, leaving the dorm to go find Severus.~~Severus felt black dots clogging his vision, his body slowly slipping away, then a breath of air being sucked into his lungs and his vision was back, his eyes staring at the cock in front of his face that had just been down his throat not a moment ago. Goyal’s hand in his hair pushed him forward again on his cock, far too soon. He had barely gotten a full breath in, and now he could breath again.
He had been fucked in the ass, crucioed, had the word ‘faggot’ carved on his hipbone, been fucked in the throat, had two cocks in his ass at the same time. Any sick, fucked up thing any cruel person could come up with had been done to him. Everyone but Goyal now sat on his bed, most dressed, while Goyal finished up. He had been taking his time, making it so Severus would be on the brink of passing out from lack of air before pulling him off and letting him take half a breath before doing it again. They had also untied Severus’s hands, liking the way he would push against Goyal’s thighs to try and get air.
His lungs were screaming. He knew if he kept on like this then he’d die. He didn’t want to die this way, he couldn’t.
Goyal pushed him forward, his nose buried in his pubic hairs, the smell foul. Severus’s hands grabbed at anything, trying to get free, trying to get air, till he felt a long wooden stick, hidden in Goyal’s pants that were pooled at his ankles. Severus gripped the wand, waiting. The second Goyal let him off his cock he pointed the want up at him.
“Stuplify!” He shouted, sending the boy flying backwards. He did the same to the others before they could react.
“Accio!” His boxers came flying to him. He got to his feet, groaning behind clenched. He quickly put his boxers on, tears of pain falling down his face. He moved as fast as he could through the common room, ignoring the stares of others as he hurried. The only thing in his brain was fear telling him to run, to get away. He made it out of the Slytherin common room, spelling the door behind him with a sticking charm. It was an easy spell to fix, but he hoped it bought him enough time to get away.
He stumbled through the halls, using the walls to support him. He was in so much pain, he had blood flowing down his legs, much more then normal. He also had blood from his hip bone soaking the top of his boxers. There was dried cum smeared across his chest and back, and spit soaking his neck. He hoped with how late it was that no students would see him this way, that he could make it to his hiding spot before he ran into anyone.
Thankfully, he stumbled into a bathroom, his knees hitting the floor, his legs no longer able to carry his shaking form. He sobbed as he crawled under one of the sinks, trying to make his body as small as possible. He chest was rising and falling with the fast breaths he was taking. He was in such a panic and he was in so much pain. His backside left a smear of blood on the tiled floor, raising concern. He had no doubt he had been torn down there, the pain and blood said as much. None of them had bothered to use lube, or prep him, despite pushing him further then he had ever gone before with two cocks at once. It had been brutal, someone underneath him, holding him to their chest while their cock was in him. Then someone else, going behind him and putting another cock in. He had screamed till his voice went horse, begging them to stop, telling them that it hurt. They had laughed, moaned, telling him to take it. Severus shut his eyes against the memories, still way too fresh. He shifted his hips, causing him to let out a horse yelp. Everything was in such pain.
He froze when he heard footsteps, his heart racing against his chest. He could hear the blood in his ears. He waited, hoping that they didn’t look in here. They’d kill him, rape him again.
The door opened and Severus felt relief flood his body. “Peter,” he said, his voice shaking.

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Peter struggled to process what he was seeing. There was blood on the ground, on Severus. Coming from Severus. His left eye was swelling, nearly closing. He was in nothing but a bloody pair of boxers. He had forming bruises all over his chest and legs. Oh his legs. There was blood soaking his thighs all the way down to his ankles, too much blood. And there was a white mucky substance mixed with the blood. Oh.Peter looked up at Severus, seeing how scared he was, tears soaking his face. He hurried to him, bending down to him. Severus recoiled from his touch.“D-don’t touch me!” He hissed, his voice shaking. “Please.”Peter nodded, pulling his hands away. “Okay.” He whispered, fighting down his emotions. “What happened?”Severus shook his head, not meeting Peter’s eyes, his arms hugging himself. Peter saw him trying to hold back his tears, but a few escaped down his cheeks.“Come on,” Peter said gently. “Let’s get you back to your dorm.”Severus shook his head. “No.” He said, his voice shaking. “Not there.”Peter frowned. “Was it someone in Slytherin that-“ he swallowed the lump in his throat. “That did this?”Severus slowly nodded, his eyes distant. Peter knew he needed to make a decision, and although he wasn’t sure this was the wisest decision, he came up with a plan.“Come on, let’s get you somewhere safe.” He said. Severus looked up at him, his eyes scared but trusting. He grabbed Peter’s hand, pulling himself to his feet. He whimpered in pain, closing his eyes. Peter’s heart broke as his lips started to tremble. Peter removed his sweater, leaving him in a tee. He helped Severus get it over his head and on his body, helping him conceal his modesty.“Can I help you?” Peter asked. Severus nodded, holding out his arm and wrapping it around his neck, while Peter wrapped his own arm around his waist. Peter could tell he was in a lot of pain. He was holding tight to Peter, his face strained as he tried to hold in pained noises.Peter helped Severus out of the bathroom and through the halls, avoiding teachers and prefects. They finally reached the portait hole and Severus hesitated.“I can’t go in there.” He said, his voice small. Peter shook his head. “I’m not leaving you out here, or alone. It’s safe in here.”Severus was either too tired or too in pain to care. He let Peter help him through the portait. Peter was thankful no one was in the common room, but didn’t stick around and led him up to his dorm. Thankfully, the rest of the marauders were sleeping, and Peter was able to help Severus to the bathroom, sitting him on the closed toilet. Severus hissed in pain, squeezing his eyes shut as he began to cry again. Peter bent down in front of him, holding the sides of his face and using his thumbs to wipe away the tears on his cheeks.“It’s okay.” He whispered, doing his best to calm him. Severus leaned into his touch, his eyes filled with tears.“It hurts.” He whispered, his voice braking off into a sob.“I know, I know. It’s gonna be okay.”“Do you have any painkillers?” He asked, making Peter blink in confusion. “Their muggle pills,” Severus explained. “Ibuprofen, or Tylenol?”Peter nodded, understanding. “I think Moony has some.” He said, standing. “I’ll go look”Peter stood, leaving Severus in the bathroom as he went to go look for muggle painkiller. He knew Severus was in bad shape, and he was tempted to call Poppy, but he felt that if he did that without Severus knowing then he’d risk spooking him. He wanted to ask Severus before doing something like that.When Peter walked out of the bathroom and shut the door, he was met with three pairs of eyes staring at him.Pete,” James said, rubbing his sleepy eyes and fixing his glasses. “What’s going on?”“Who’s the in the bathroom?” Sirius asked. Peter took a deep breath, knowing he needed to focus and take care of Severus.“I’ll explain later. Moony, do you have muggle painkillers?” He said. Remus, frowned, but nodded.“Yeah, they’re right here.” He said, reaching over to his side table and holding them out for Peter. Peter took them and went back to the bathroom, locking the door and casting a silencing spell.“Here,” he said to Severus, giving him the bottle. Severus poured a few in his hand and swallowed them dry. Peter turned to the tub and started filling it with warm water.“Do you want me to stay?” He asked Severus. He saw Severus hesitate, but nodded, looking up at him.“I don’t want to be alone.” He whispered. Peter nodded. He helped him stand, then turned away when Severus took his boxers off and stepped into the tub. Peter heard him hiss and groan, the water stinging his wounds. Peter went under the sink to gather the first aid kit and bandages for when Severus got out.“Could…”Peter turned to Severus, seeing him struggling to say something.“Could you come here?” He asked, he voice small. His knees were pulled to his chest as he sat naked in the tub, shivering despite the warm water. Peter dropped what he was doing and went to him, sitting on the edge of the tub. He stared at Severus for a moment, his heart aching. He slowly reached a hand out and ran his fingers through Severus’s hair, gently. Severus closed his eyes, tears running down his cheeks again.“It’s okay,” Peter said as he saw Severus trying to contain his emotions. Severus looked down and shook his head, more tears falling in the red tinted water.“Everything’s falling apart.” Severus whispered. “I can’t even go back to my dorm.”Peter shushed him, trying to calm him as his shoulders began shaking with sobs.~~Severus wanted to die. He stood there, looking at himself in the mirror, wearing Peter’s too big jumper and a pair of pajama pants. He looked awful. His left eye was swollen shut and there were bruises in the shape of fingers on his neck. His hair was wet and hung off his shoulders in a hideous way. He was truly ugly.Severus could hear the muffled conversation that was happening outside the bathroom between the marauders. Peter had gone out there to explain to the others what was going on. Severus was just waiting for them to storm the bathroom, maybe spell him or beat him. He knew they couldn’t have been happy that he was there. Peter had wanted to take him to the hospital wing, but Severus had immediately said no, knowing he wouldn’t be able to take the humiliation, and knowing it’d cause so many more problems that he didn’t need.Severus wondered what he was supposed to do now. He couldn’t go back to his dorm, not if he wanted to live. He was terrified to go home now that his father knew about him and Lucius. He wondered what Lucius would do when he saw him in the halls. Would he lunge at him? Try to hurt him? Rape him? He didn’t want to think about it.The bathroom door opened, and Peter stuck his head in. “You can come out now. They promised to be on their best behavior.” He joked, offering a small smile. Severus didn’t return it, nodding solemnly and following him out of the bathroom.Potter was sitting on his bed, watching as Severus crossed the room like he was scared Severus might attack someone. Lupin and Black were in the same bed (odd) Black with his arms crossed, making faces at Severus, and Lupin looking at him with a curious expression.Peter led him to his bed, closing the curtains around them and casing a silencing charm.“You can sleep here,” he told Severus. “Let me know if you need anything.” He then went to leave, making Severus panic.“Wait!” He said, his heart pounding. “Please stay.”Peter looked at him, a strange look in his eyes, but he stayed.

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Severus watched as Peter slept, laying on his side and doing his best to keep still. He hadn’t slept a wink the night before, too scared of what might haunt his dreams, and his body too sore to relax. The muggle painkiller had worn off and the throbbing pain that seemed to cover his whole body was back. He felt like he could feel his left eye growing bigger with each passing second, the bruising on both his neck and thighs seemed to burn with fantom touches, and every so often, when he shifted his weight, he was reminded of his torn asshole.Severus wasn’t quite sure what Peter though had happened, they hadn’t gotten around to discussing it. Severus didn’t know if he’d be able to tell him, or anyone for that matter. It was humiliating, every detail was gory, horrendous, and disturbing. The way Severus had begged them to stop as they hurt him, raped him, humiliated him. No, Peter could never know.In that moment, Severus made a decision. He carefully sat up, watching to make sure he hadn’t woken Peter. He slipped out of the bed and closed the curtains, ready to bolt out the door and runaway, but instead ran right into James Potter. Severus quickly pulled himself away, not wanting to be touched, especially by Potter. Potter was frowning at Severus, looking at him with a look that was strange, one Severus couldn’t place. Potter cleared his throat.“I was just going to wake Peter.” He said. Severus set his jaw.“Fine! I’m leaving!” He declared, not entirely sure what he was he was angry about.“Sev,”Severus paused, turning around and seeing Peter climb out of the bed. “You’re not going anywhere. You don’t even have shoes.” He said, a half smile on his face.Severus crossed his arms, his cheeks heating. Potter cleared his throat again. “I’m gonna head down to breakfast. Remus and Sirius are already there.” He said, then left, leaving Peter and Severus alone.After a moment, Peter grabbed his own pair of shoes and put them on. Severus frowned.“What are you doing?” He asked. Peter walked around his bed to Potters, grabbing a cloak from under the bed.“I thought I’d get us some breakfast.” He replied, looking up at Severus. “Promise me you’ll be here when I get back?”Severus hesitated a moment, wrapping his arms around himself. He nodded, not meeting Peter’s eyes.~~Peter had been gone for fifteen minutes and Severus’s pain had only grown worse. He sat on the bathroom floor, tears running down his face as he held his hip where the bleeding had picked up again. He didn’t want to look at the word that was carved there, but he needed to see if the wound had been laced with something.𝙵𝙰𝙶𝙶𝙾𝚃The word stuck out against his pale skin, red and angry. It stunk both physically and mentally. He wanted it gone. He reached up, trying to get the first aid kit from on top of the counter, his fingers just grazing the side of it. It fell to the floor, everything in it going flying around the whole bathroom. Severus dropped his hand and began sobbing, both mad and completely shattered.The bathroom door opened and Severus suddenly wanted to be swallowed whole by the floor. Sirius Black looked down at him, his eyes hard and angry. He seemed to be taking in everything, Severus, the first aid all over the ground. His next moved shocked Severus. Black bent down, grabbing one of the bandaids and then going to Severus and handing it to him. Severus looked up at him, frowning.“What the hell are you playing at?” He asked, his voice shaking. Black stared down at him.“How long have you and Peter been fucking?”Severus’s jaw drops. “Oh you’re fucking delusional, Black.” He says.“Then why are you here? Why is he helping you?!”“I’m not a fucking faggot!”Black flinched at the word, then his face turned angry. “You really do love throwing around slurs, don’t you?”Severus snatched the bandaid out of Blacks hand. “Leave me the fuck alone!”“You’re in my fucking dorm!”“Well, Peter brought me here and I can’t go back to mine!”Black blinked. “Why can’t you go to yours?”Severus swallowed, images of the night before replaying in his mind. “Fuck off!”“Sirius!” They both turned to see Peter standing in the doorway. “What the fuck are you doing?!”“Why is he here Peter?!” Black asked. Peter ignored him and walked to Severus, bending down in front of him and taking the bandaid.“Go away Sirius!” He said, moving Severus’s hand so he could put the bandaid on him. Severus looked away, not wanting to see the word.“What the fuck?!” Sirius gasped. “How the hell did that happen?!”Severus knew he was talking about his hip. “Fuck off Black!”“Are you bent, Snape?! Did someone-““SIRIUS!” Peter yelled, his face angry. “Could you please listen for once in your fucking life and fuck off?!”Sirius looked taken aback, but backed out of the bathroom and shut the door behind him. Severus had tears running down his face.“I’m not bent!” He hissed.“I know,” Peter said softly, putting the bandaid on him.“I’m not a faggot!”Peter looked up at Severus, his eyes soft. “It’s okay if you are.”Severus shook his head. “I’m not! I’m not a fucking queer!”Peter swallowed. “Well, I think I am.”Severus snapped his head around to look at Peter. “What?”Peter shrugged, his own eyes beginning to tear up. “I think I like boys,” he then paused. “I think I really like you.”Severus took a sharp breath. He didn’t know what to say. “Why?” He asked.Peter blinked. “Why do I fancy blokes?”Severus shook his head. “Why do you like me?”Peter swallowed, his eyes scanning Severus’s face. “I don’t know. But I want to know, and I want to be closer to you.”Severus stared at Peter for a moment, letting himself stare at the other boy, memorizing every feature of his face. He then slowly leaned forward and kissed him. Peter kissed back, reaching a hand into Severus’s hair. It wasn’t like when Lucius would grab his hair, always yanking and pulling on it like it was a rope. Peter was gentle, letting his fingers get tangled and lost in the strands. Severus actually really liked it.Peter’s lips were soft and gentle. He was an inexperienced kisser, but let Severus take the lead, something that Severus didn’t ever get to do. He was never the one calling the shots, saying what was okay and what wasn’t. He was the one pushed around, told what to do, never being given the opportunity to say no. But now, here with Peter, he felt like he was finally able to say what he wanted and what he didn’t want, like he finally had control over his body.Peter leaned in closer to Severus, and just to make sure he would listen, Severus pulled away.“Stop.”Immediately, Peter stopped. He pulled back, looking over Peter’s face. “What’s wrong?”Severus felt tears coming to his eyes. “You stopped.”Peter looked confused. “You told me to.”Severus felt tears running down his face. “No ones ever stopped.” He whispered. Peter’s face fell, realizing what Severus meant. He grabbed Severus’s hand, making him look at him.“I’ll always stop if you tell me to.”

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When Peter stepped out of the bathroom with Severus, they were met with the other three marauders staring at them.“Pete,” James started. “We need to talk.”Peter set his jaw. “If this is about Sev-““Of course it’s about him!” Sirius said, still sounding upset. “He can’t stay in our fucking dorm!”“Well I don’t even want to be here, Black!” Severus hissed. Peter rolled his eyes.“It’s not safe for him to be in his own dorm!” Peter argued.“Is it because someone etched the f slur on him?” Sirius asked, his eyes narrowed. Peter saw Severus flinch. Remus frowned, looking at Severus.“The fuck?! What is he talking about?” Remus asked Severus. Peter saw Severus nervously glance around.“None of your fucking business!” Severus hissed. “I’ll fucking leave if it’s such a big deal!”“Sev,” Peter said softly. “Whoever did this-““Fuck you, Pettigrew!” Severus yelled, stepping away from Peter. “I didn’t ask for you to save me! I was fine on my own! I’m fucking leaving!”Peter’s face fell angry. “You were so fine bleeding all over the floor and delusional on fear?! Fuck you!”“Both of you, stop!” James suddenly cut in. “Snape, if you can’t leave then you better have a good reason to stay!”“Fuck you, Potter! I don’t need to stay here!”“Sev!” Peter yelled. He took a breath, looking like he was trying to calm himself. He continued in a calm voice. “You need to at least give them a reason. You can’t go back to your dorm. You told me last night that someone in Slytherin did this.”Severus swallowed the lump in his throat. He knew Peter was right. If he went back to Slytherin then Lucius would for sure kill him. His brain began thinking.“Uh..” he cleared his throat, looking down at the floor. “Fine! Lucius saw me and Peter kiss at hogsmade, a-and he attacked me and carved ‘faggot’ in to my hip.”It wasn’t exactly a lie, but it definitely wasn’t the full truth.The room was silent for a moment. “So, you guys have been fucking?” Sirius asked.“Fuck off Sirius!” Peter hissed. “We’ve only kissed once!”“Twice.” Severus muttered. Peter glared at him.“Okay,” Potter started. “So, Snape stays for the time being. But don’t you fucking dare go near my girlfriend!”Severus rolled his eyes. “I have no intentions of stealing your girl, Potter!”The mention of Lily did make Severus’s heart clench. He hadn’t realized how much he missed her.Everyone stood there for a moment, no one quite sure what to do. Lupin cleared his throat. “So, I have class..” he said. Sirius nodded.“Me too.”James grabbed his own bag. “We’ll see you at lunch then, Pete.” And then they left, leaving Peter and Severus alone. Peter looked at Severus.“Do you have class?” He asked. Severus nodded, but looked unsure.“I don’t have any of my stuff. Not my books, or clothes, or, like you pointed out, shoes.” He told him. Peter scratched his head, but looked back at Severus.“There was more to the story, wasn’t there?” He asked. “Lucius did more, didn’t he?”Severus swallowed the lump in his throat, but remained silent. After a moment, Peter huffed, grabbing James’s invisibility cloak and heading for the door.“Where are you going?” Severus asked him.“I’m gonna go get your stuff.”~~~Peter knew his way into Slytherin from years of pulling pranks. It honestly wasn’t even hard, he just had to wait for someone to say the password and slip in under James’s cloak. He walked up to Severus’s dorm, one that the marauders had visited many times, putting itching powder in his bed, or a non stop alarm under his pillow. But when Peter walked in and over to Severus’s bed, his stomach turned.The sheets were all messed up, drops of blood coating them. Severus’s trunk had been ransacked, some of his things broken and ruined. Some of his books had pages ripped out, and some of his clothes had been shredded. Someone had taken what looked like red paint and written the word ‘slut’ across Severus’s pillow.Peter took off the cloak, taking in everything. Whoever had done this had wanted to hurt and destroy Severus. Peter was just glad that he hadn’t had to see this.The door to the dorm opened, and before Peter could even think about putting the cloak back on, Even Rosier, Barty Crouch jr, and Regulus Black walked in, all falling silent when they saw him. Barty immediately pulled his wand out and pointed it at Peter.“What the fuck our you doing in our dorm?!” He asked. Peter shook his head.“I’m just getting Severus some of his things.” He told them, trying to keep the peace. Even looked interested.“Is Snape okay?” He asked, concern in his voice. Peter pressed his lips.“He’s not in great shape, but he’s gonna stay with me for a little.” He explained. Barty lowered his wand.“So, Lucius was telling the truth? You and Snape have been fucking?” He asked.“What? No! We’re friends!” Peter said, confused as to what Barty was talking about.“Well, all we know is Snape got hurt bad because of you!” Even went on, suddenly upset. “If he’s stay with you then you better keep him away from Lucius!”Peter nodded. “I’m going to. That’s why I came to get his things, but..” he looked around at the ruined room. Even frowned.“Mulciber did this. He was mad about not being able to finish.” Even explained. Peter frowned.“Finish what?”Even blinked. “What did Snape tell you happened?” He asked. Peter suddenly realized that he didn’t know it all, but he had a pretty good idea.~~~Peter had been able to repair some of Severus’s clothes and his school books and bag. When he got back to Gryffindor tower, Severus was sitting on his bed reading on of Moony’s books. He looked up when Peter came in, closing the book and getting off the bed. Peter handed him his things.“It might be too late to go to classes today, but we can make it to dinner.” Peter told him. Severus took his things, looking them over. He looked up at Peter and nodded.“Thank you.”Peter frowned. “I ran into your dorm mates.” Severus immediately tensed.“What did they say?” He asked, his voice scared. Peter swallowed the lump in his throat.“Sev,” he said gently. “What really happened last night?”Severus was looking at him with wide eyes. He looked like a trapped animal. Before he could say anything, the door to the dorm opened and the other three Marauders came in.“Ello, Pete!” James said cheerfully. “We’re gonna go down to dinner, want to join?”Peter looked at Severus, seeing him looked almost relieved. Peter nodded.“Yeah, just let Sev change.”~~~The five of them walked down to dinner together, although Black didn’t seem thrilled that Severus was walking with them. When they made it to the dinning hall, Severus turned to Peter.“I’m gonna sit at Slytherin.” He told him. Peter frowned.“Are you sure?” He asked, concern in his voice. Severus nodded.“I’ll be fine.”He wished he could convince himself he’d be fine. Severus would have much rather stayed with Peter, where he knew he’d be safe, but sitting at the Gryffindor with Potter and his gang sounded like a nightmare.Severus sat at the end of the table, away from everyone else. He hadn’t seen Lucius yet, but he had caught Mulciber watching him. He picked at his food, too nervous to eat. He was trying to keep himself from freaking out, telling himself that there was no way anyone would try anything in broad daylight. How wrong he was.“Well, look who finally showed his ugly face!”Severus nearly jumped out of his skin when he felt Lucius bend down behind him, his face next to his ear and his wand jammed into his side. Severus felt cold fear hit him, his heart racing.“You really think you can run away from me like that and get away with it?!” Lucius hissed, his voice dripping with anger. “You embarrassed me in front of my friends! And you are going to pay for that!”Severus felt Lucius grab his upper arm, tugging him along as he kept his wand pressed to his side. Severus kept trying to look at the Gryffindor table, hoping Peter saw and would come help, but he couldn’t spot him.Lucius dragged him out of the dinning hall and to an abandon classroom, shoving him inside, making him trip and fall to the ground. Severus heard the door shut and lock.“Lucius, please-“Lucius slapped him across the face, then grabbed a fist full of his hair and pulled him to his feet, slamming him backwards into a wall. Severus felt dizzy.“You are such a fucking whore! How dare you defy me like that! How dare you run out when you were supposed to stay!”Lucius hit him again, making his cheek turn bright red. He then kneed him in the groins, making Severus cry out, tears coming to his eyes. Lucius let him fall to the ground in front of him.“Give me your tie!” Lucius growled. Severus squeezed his eyes shut, shaking his head.“Please, I-I’m sorry! I won’t-““Crucio!”Severus screamed as the pain overcame his body. He was shaking and crying, and suddenly found himself wishing for death. The spell was lifted and Severus found himself on his back, staring up at the ceiling. Lucius bent down to him, undoing Severus’s tie and then turning him over on his stomach. Severus felt Lucius use the tie to bound his hands together.“Stop!” Severus tried, struggling to break free. Unlike Peter, Lucius didn’t stop. Once Severus was bound, Lucius began pulling Severus’s pants down. Severus cried out, tears streaming down his face. He knew his body couldn’t handle another fucking. He was torn and sore.“Please!” Severus begged. “Please stop! I don’t want to do this!”He sobbed as Lucius pushed in. The pain was unbearable, nothing like Severus had ever felt. He screamed and cried.“I said stop!” He screamed. Lucius grabbed his hair as he began thrusting, tugging on it.“Shut your fucking mouth!” He growled. “You think you can tell me to stop?! You think you have that right?! You are just a filthy fucking half-blood faggot! You will only ever be good for this! So shut up and take it!”Severus sobbed into the floor as Lucius snapped his hips forward, fucking him hard. Severus wished Lucius would be merciful and just kill his after this. Severus had no where to go, and he couldn’t face Peter after this. If Lucius didn’t kill him then he’d take himself up to the astronomy tower and jump.The door to the classroom opened, making Lucius stop.“Get the fuck off of him!”Severus knew that voice, but shame kept him from looking up.

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Peter wanted to commit murder as he pointed his wand at Lucius, who had pulled himself from Severus and was fixing his pants. Sev was still on the ground, panting in pain and sobbing, his eyes shut tight.“Oh look! Your boyfriend is here, Snape!” Lucius growled. Peter gripped his wand.“You mother fucker!” He hissed. “I should fucking kill you!”Lucius laughed. “You’re no killer, just a filthy pig!”“Stuplify!”Lucius was thrown backwards into the wall, and Peter turned to his left, seeing that it had been James who had casted the spell, standing in the doorway. Remus and Sirius came in after him, taking in the scene.“Holy fuck..”Peter paid them no mind, hurrying to Sev, who was still on the ground, in pain.“Hey, shhh, it’s okay! I got you, I got you!” Peter kept repeating as he pulled Sev in his arms. Sev clung to him, burring his face in his chest.Peter casted both a cleaning spell and a spell to fix Severus’s pants, wanting to conceal his modesty. James still had his wand pointed at Lucius, who was out cold on the floor, but he was looking at Peter and Severus, worry in his eyes.“We need to get a teacher.” He told Peter. Peter agreed, but Severus shook his head, pulling away from Peter.“No!” He said firmly. “W-we can’t get a teacher!”Peter frowned. “Sev, this is really serious!”Sev shook his head. “My father already knows, and if I bring more attention to it, then he’ll-“ he swallowed, more tears running down his face. “Please, Peter. Just let it be.”Peter frowned, bringing his hand to Sev’s face and wiped the tears off his cheeks. “I won’t get a teacher, but from now on, until Lucius graduates, I’m going where ever you go.”~~~When Severus reached Gryffindor tower with the marauders, he immediately went into the bathroom, not even letting Peter in. He turned the shower all the way hot, tore his clothes off, and began scrubbing his skin till pale turned to bright red. It hurt but he ignored it. He sobbed, his tears mixing with the water that ran down his face. He saw blood tinted water running down his legs and into the drain, only making his self loathing grow. He shut his eyes against the images of what had just happened. He hated how they had seen, they all had. Potter had seen it, Black had seen it, Lupin had seen it, Peter-He sobbed, falling to his knees in the shower. Peter had walked in and seen Lucius fucking him as he begged him to stop, saw him crying and withering on the floor. He knew Peter wouldn’t want him anymore, that when he walked out of the bathroom, he’d be told to leave. He’d have to go back to his dorm, where Lucius would be waiting for him.“Sev?” He heard Peter call through the door. Severus didn’t answer pulling his knees up to his chest as he sat naked under the hot stream of water.“Sev, if you don’t answer then im coming in.” Peter waited a minute, then Severus heard him mutter a spell and open the door. The shower curtain was pushed to the side, and Peter looked down at Severus.“Oh, Sev,”He turned the water off, the climbed into the shower, clothes and everything, and sat next to Severus, pulling him into his arms. Severus pressed his face into Peter’s shoulder, squeezing his eyes shut, trying to stop the tears. He was so sick of crying, but it felt like his tears were never ending.“Come in, let’s get you dried off and dressed.” Peter said, then stood and grabbed Severus a towel.When Severus was dressed, he sat on Peter’s bed, curled on his side, staring into space. It was only Peter and him up there, the others in the common room. Peter came up to him and sat on the edge of the bed.“That wasn’t the first time he’s done this, was it?” Peter asked, his voice gentle. Severus shook his head.“He’s been doing it for a while.” He admitted, no longer seeing the point of hiding it. “He’s been doing it since second year.”Peter took a sharp breath, his eyes sad. “You were only twelve.” He said, like he was realizing it. Severus shrugged. Peter blinked.“The other night?”Severus took a deep breath. “He had his friends help him.”Peter was staring at him, his eyes sad. “He gang raped you.”Severus cringed, the statement making him feel dirty, but it was true. He’d been gang raped.“Narcissa wrote to my parents about it,” he found himself saying. “She was upset with Lucius for not stopping with me when she asked, so she was hoping my parents would put an end to it.”“Have you heard from them yet?” Peter asked. Severus bit his lip and shook his head.“My father won’t do anything about it. He hates queers, and now that he knows that I was being fucked by a man-“ he couldn’t finish. He knew what his father’s anger looked like, he had scars on his back to remind him. He remembered when Lucius had first seen them. Somehow, he knew right away what they were from. He had laughed, traced them with his fingers. It made Severus feel small.Peter ran a hand through Severus’s hair, bringing him back from the memory. “You can stay at mine for the summer if you don’t want to go home.” He told him softly. Severus smiled up at him, not going to tell him that he couldn’t, that he wanted to see his mother before she died.“Will you hold me?” He said inside.Peter smiled and crawled on the bed next to Severus, pulling him into his arms, kissing the top of his head. Severus pressed his face to Peter’s chest, closing his eyes, knowing he was safe.They sat there like that for a while, Severus clinging to Peter, while Peter played with his hair. It was strange. Severus used to hate it when anyone touched his hair, but then Peter ran his fingers though the strands for the first time and now Severus was addicted to Peter playing with his hair. Severus let himself close his eyes, the sound of Peter’s heartbeat and his breathing soothing. He thought maybe he’d be able to sleep tonight.The door to the dorm opened, and both boys turned to see the other Marauders coming in. Severus quickly pulled himself away from Peter, not needing Black to make another comment on how they were fucking.“We got the mother fucking load!” Black declared, throwing his cloak off.“The house elves had just finished make brownies for tomorrow and we snagged a tray!” James said, showing off the tray of brownies he was holding.Severus frowned, looking at Peter. “This is a normal thing?” He asked, eyebrow raised. Peter shrugged.“Bring me one, James!” He said. James brought the tray over, and Peter took two, handing the other one to Severus. Potter hesitated, looking at Severus.“You alright, Snape?” He asked, almost seeming concerned. Severus scowled at him, not needing his pity.“Fuck off.” He muttered, taking a bite of his brownie.Potter didn’t seem upset at Severus’s answer, but backed away, giving Remus and Sirius brownie. Sirius stuffed his in his face, then grabbed some clothes.“Im gonna go shower. Moony?”The other boy followed Sirius into the bathroom, making James pretend gag. Severus turned to Peter.“They’re fucking, aren’t they?”Peter laughed. “Yeah, they have been for awhile.”Severus huffed, leaning back on Peter. “Gross. I just showered in there.”

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The next morning Severus decided he was not going to let his fear get the best of him. He dressed in his uniform, got his books and notes together, and went to breakfast with Peter. As they walked together, Severus noticed how Peter was sticking so close to him, looking around as if he was keeping watch.They entered the great hall, and before Severus could even think about going to the Slytherin table, Peter grabbed his wrist and led him to the Gryffindor table. Severus rolled his eyes, but as they sat, he felt his nerves spike. Everyone at the table was looking at him, giving him looks or whispering to a friend. Severus took a breath, knowing this was better then being attacked by Lucius and assaulted. He got himself a plate of food, while also making sure Peter got food himself and actually ate it. Besides the staring, everything was fine.“Morning Pete! Snape,” they both looked up, seeing James sit across from them. A moment later, Lily came to sit next to him, but then paused, her face going angry.“What the hell is he doing here?” She asked James. Severus’s heart clenched, looking at Lily and realizing just how long it had been since he had been this close to her. James gave an unsure look to Peter, then to Lily.“He’s with me, Lily,” Peter said, making Lily turn to him, ignoring Severus.“Why?!”“That’s none of your business.” Peter replied. Lily was growing more annoyed.“Why isn’t anyone giving me a straight answer-““I was attacked in Slytherin,” Severus interrupted, making Lily finally look at him. “Peter offered to let me stay with him for a little.”Lily blinked at him, looking him over like she was finally noticing his black eye and the bruises peaking out under the collar of his shirt. She frowned, slight worry in her eyes. She sat down without another word.~~~Peter decided that if he couldn’t be with Severus, then he’d make sure he was with someone he could trust. That’s how Severus found himself walking to class with Remus Lupin. Severus didn’t mind Lupin all that much, he was the least annoying out of the marauders, and he mostly kept to himself. It was a bit awkward, but Severus would take it over Black or Potter.“So,” Lupin started, walking next to Severus, pulling out a cigarette and lighting it. “When did you and Pete become friends?”“Beginning of October, when Slughorn made us potion partners.” He answered simply, too distracted with trying to make sure he had all his notes. Since Peter had been the one to bring him all his homework, he had forgotten some, and so now Severus had a bunch of missing assignments.“Snape!”Both Severus and Remus turned just as Mulciber reached out and grappled Severus bu the throat, slamming his back into the wall. Severus dropped his things, clawing at Mulcibers hand, realizing he couldn’t breathe.“Lucius said that whoever can catch you gets to fuck you.” Mulciber growled, making Severus’s heart beat pick up. He hadn’t forgotten how rough Mulciber had been. He liked to make Severus bleed when he fucked him.“Let go of him, Mulciber!” Lupin was pointing his wand at the large boy. Mulciber glanced at Lupin, an eyebrow raised.“Ah, so that’s where he’s been,” he said, laughing. “He ran from Lucius just to go and take Gryffindor cock. Tell me, do all of the marauders take him at once?”Lupin pressed his lips. “Petrificus totalus!”Mulciber immediately fell to the ground, stunned and releasing Severus. Severus took a breath, stepping away from Mulciber in the ground. Anger suddenly overtook him.Severus leaned down, gathering all the books he dropped, then went back to Mulciber and kicked him in the ribs.“Touch me one more fucking time, and I’ll write to your daddy that you fuck boys!” He hissed, then turned and marched away, not bothering to wait for Lupin, who had watched the whole thing stunned.Severus was so fucking tired of not fighting back, of just letting people beat him and rape him. He hated to be touched, he hated it all.Severus marched into charms, sat at the front of the classroom, opened his book, and ignored everyone around him.~~~By the time dinner was over, Severus was exhausted. He had had to go up to more teachers then he wanted to, telling them he had missed placed his homework. Luckily, Severus was such a good student that most of the teachers had been confused, but understanding and let him redo his homework. Professor McGonagle had been one that had been so concerned that she had him stay after class.“Is everything all right, Mr Snape?” She asked. “You’ve missed a few days of class and you lost your homework? That’s very unlike you.”Severus worked up a lie. “I haven’t been feeling very good.”The Professor had stared at him a moment, but let him go.Severus had gone up to Gryffindor tower with Potter and Lily, who were being disgustingly affectionate. Lily still didn’t seem over the roof about Severus, but she had stopped looking at him as if he were a dementor.As they walked, she slipped away from James and back to Severus, walking next to him.“What’s actually going on?” She asked suddenly.Severus frowned. “Why do you care?”Lily pressed her lips and hesitated. “You know what? I don’t.”She walked back up to James, going back to ignoring him. Severus felt a sharp jab to his chest. He wanted desperately to tell her everything, to breakdown and sob in her arms, but he knew he couldn’t.Severus rushed up into the dorm, where he found Peter, who jumped when the door opened. Severus stopped in the doorway, taking in the shirtless Peter who was in the middle of changing. Peter looked at Severus, then his shirt, and quickly threw it on. Severus cleared his throat, closing the door behind him and walking over to Peter’s bed, putting his back down and taking his robe off. Peter sat on the edge of the bed, looking at him.“How was it?” He asked. Severus shrugged, sitting next to him.“It was fine.” He said, harshly pulling his hair behind his ears. He was annoyed and angry, and he wanted a distraction. He turned to Peter, realizing how close he was. Before he could even think, Severus was pulling him in for a kiss. It caught Peter by surprise, but he kissed back.Severus felt like the voices in his head were so loud and he just wanted all that noise to stop. As the kiss got more heated, Severus straddled Peter’s lap, kissing him more deeply. He started grinding down on Peter’s lap, feeling his dick start growing. Peter moaned and Severus pulled away to start kissing his neck and pulling at Peter’s shirt.“Take this off.” He mumbled against Peter’s skin. Peter hesitated, but pulled his shirt off. Severus ran his hands across his skin, and hissed lower down his chest, climbing off Peter’s lap and onto the floor, kneeling between his legs. He started working on Peter’s belt.“Sev, w-wait!”Severus stopped, looking up at Peter. “What?”Peter swallowed, obviously aroused by the situation. “Are you sure you want to do this? I don’t want you to do something you’re uncomfortable-““Peter, please. I want to.”Peter swallowed again, then nodded. Severus pulled Peter’s pants open, revealing his cock. It wasn’t as long as some cocks Severus had seen, but it was thick. Severus leaned down, licking the underside of it. Peter let out a long moan.“Fuck, Sev!” He wined, his hands clenching at his side.Severus began taking the tip into his mouth, working his way down until his nose touched Peter’s pelvis. Peter was panting, his legs shaking.“Sev, shit! That feels good!”Severus smiled to himself, and began bobbing his head up and down on the cock. Peter reached out and grabbed Severus’s hair.Severus’s body immediately panicked.~~~“I don’t want to.” Twelve year old Severus had whispered, looking down at his hands as a fifteen year old Lucius sat next to him on the bed.“You don’t want me to tell everyone about your father, now do you?” Lucius asked, knowing he had the perfect blackmail. Young Severus shook his head.“Well, then, you’re going to have to take off your clothes.”Young Severus felt tears come to his eyes as he unbuttoned his shirt and pulled his pants off, leaving him in his underwear. Lucius pushed him down to lay on his back, his head laying in his pillow. Severus stared up at the ceiling, keeping his lips pressed close as tears ran down his face. Lucius pulled his underwear off, leaving him exposed. He felt a wet finger circle his hole and push in. Severus cringed, the feeling uncomfortable. Lucius pumped that one finger a bit, then added another. He worked Severus up to three fingers, then pulled them out. Young Severus had thought that was the end. But then, Lucius pushed his cock in.Severus let out a cry, his eyes screwed shut. It hurt. “S-stop!” He cried, his chest tight. “L-Lucius! It hurts! Please stop!”Lucius ignored him, continuing moaning and thrusting. Severus felt blood dripping down him, and being so young, he thought he was dying. He sobbed.“P-please!” He whispered, his body wrecked with sobs. Lucius leaned down, taking Severus’s mouth in a kiss.“It’s okay,” he told Severus, pulling away from the kiss. “All virgins bleed.”~~~“Sev!”Severus gasped, blinking and looking around. He was sitting on the floor, his knees to his chest and tears running down his face. Peter was kneeling in front of him, concern and worry etched across his face. Severus noticed his pants were fixed and his shirt was back on.“W-what happened?” He asked, wiping the tears from his face.“I’m so sorry,” Peter began apologizing. “I grabbed your head, and you freaked out, and I shouldn’t have-“ he ran a hand through his hair, looking so guilty.Severus shook his head. “It wasn’t your fault,” he mumbled, feeling embarrassed. “I shouldn’t- I-i wasn’t ready. I shouldn’t have pushed myself.”Peter was looking at him with a sad frown. “I’m really sorry.”Severus stood, fixing his clothes, sniffing, and wiping the tears from his face. He grabbed pajamas.“I’m gonna go shower.”

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The weeks went by and Severus was starting to feel like a person again. He didn’t freak out as often, he went to classes like normal, and he had grown much closer to Peter. They hadn’t tried anything beyond kissing since Severus had his flashback, but there would be moments when they were alone in the dorm, laying in each others arms, sharing secrets and talking about things.“My family thought I was a squib until I was nine,” Peter admitted one night. “My mother would cry and beg me to do magic. I felt guilty about upsetting her. I’ve always felt like a disappointment.”Severus had frowned. He had held Peter closer to him, kissing the top of his head. “You’re not a disappointment.”Severus would never admit it, but he loved laying with Peter. He would sometimes wish in the morning, when they both were tangled in each other, warm under the blanket, that they could skip classes and stay where they were forever.Severus had also grown to tolerate the other boys in the dorm. In fact, he had received an apology from Potter one evening while doing his homework on Peter’s bed.“Snape,” Potter had started, sitting on his own bed. “I’m sorry. I’ve been a dick the past four years. I was just so crazy about Lily that I-““Decided to humiliate and bully me everyday?” Severus said, an eyebrow raised. Potter sighed, scratching the back of his neck.“It was wrong. I was stupid. And I’m sorry.”Severus had stared at him a moment longer, hummed, then continued his homework.As for the others, he actually quite enjoyed Lupins company. Sometimes, the both of them would go down to the library to study, or play a game of chess together. Black still wasn’t quite sure of him, but he no longer made crude remarks towards him, instead keeping to himself.Things had seemed to be going fine.Then, the holidays came and Severus realized he had to go home.“You can come spend Christmas with my family,” Peter said the night before they were set to leave. “They won’t mind.”Severus looked up at Peter from where his head was on his chest.“Thank you, but this might be my mother’s last Christmas. I want to spend it with her.”Peter stared at Severus. He leaned down and kissed him lips, just a quick kiss.“You promise to write?”Severus nodded. “I promise.”~~~Severus stood in front of his house, his trunk clutched in one hand. Snow was falling all around him, making him shiver. He was terrified to go inside, but he knew he had to. His mother was inside, and seeing her would make up for all the pain he was sure to endure. With one deep breath, Severus stepped forward, opening the door and going inside.The house was quiet. The fire in the fireplace was burnt out, small bits of smoke rising. Severus took his coat off, hanging it in the foyer.“Mother?” He called. There was no answer. He walked around some more, going into the sitting room. He froze. His father sat on the sofa, a bottle of alcohol in one hand, and a letter in the other.“F-father?” Severus said, his voice small.Tobias took a swish of his drink, then held the letter closer to his face.“Dear Mr and Mrs Snape,” he began, making Severus’s stomach turn. “I regret to inform you that your son has been sleeping with my fiancé for sometime. I know this may be very inappropriate, but I wish for the affair to stop, seeing as me and my fiancé are to be married next year. I do hope you can talk some sense into your son.”Severus’s hands were shaking. “Father, I-i can explain-““Shut the fuck up!” His father stood, throwing the bottle at Severus. Severus ducked, the bottle shattering on the wall behind him. Tobias began removing his belt, the sound making Severus panic for a number of reasons.“Pants and shirt off, now!” Tobias demurred, his face red with anger. Severus was shaking, but did as his father said, taking both his shirt and pants off, leaving him in his underwear. His father grabbed his hair, dragging him to the dining room, where he bent Severus over the side of the table. He started bringing the belt down on his back, making Severus cry out in surprise.“No son of mine is going to be a fucking faggot!” He father shouted. Severus screwed his eyes shut, tears of pain running down his face. “You want to whore yourself out to older men?! You want to get fucked like a sissy QUEER?!”The blows were growing harder, leaving red marks on Severus’s pale skin. “How long?!” His father asked, pausing the blows, breathing hard through his teeth. “How long have you been getting fuck?!”Severus let out a sob. “S-since I-i was-s twelve-e.” He hiccuped.His father brought the belt down again, this time on the back of Severus’s thighs. Severus cried out.“You fucker!” His father went on. “You embarrass me! You filth!”Severus cried into the table, his hands gripping the edge. It hurt. “I-I’m so-sorry!”His father gripped his hair, pulling his head up then slamming it down against the table. Severus felt his nose break, making a pained noise escape his mouth. Blood now ran down his nose, into his mouth, and down his neck.“You’re sorry?! You’re fucking sorry?!” His father was screaming. Severus felt him grab the back of his boxers, making Severus’s panic only grow.“Stop!” He shouted, but his father ignored him, pulling the boxers down, and began hitting the belt against his backside.“This is what faggots get!”Severus closed his eyes, tears mixing with the blood. “I WAS RAPED! I DIDNT WANT TO DO IT! HE MADE ME!” He screamed, his voice breaking into a sob. His father stopped. His hand returned to Severus’s hair, pulling him off of the table. He felt his father’s breath next to his ear.“Boys. Don’t. Get. Raped!”Severus closed his eyes as more tears poured down his face. He felt anger growing in his chest. “I was fucking RAPED!” He growled. “I was blackmailed! I had no fucking choice!” His father hit him with the belt again, making Severus cry out.“Fuck you!” He screamed, more angry at his father then ever. “If it weren’t for my mother I’d never see you again!”His father hesitated, then he began to laugh.“Oh, really?”His father yanked him by his hair, dragging him out of the dining room and down the hall. Severus stumbled, his underwear around his thighs, and his body in pain. Tobias led them to his mother’s bedroom, opening the door. Severus felt his heart drop as he stared at his mother, laying in her bed, her eyes open, dead.“She’s fucking dead!” His father hissed.Severus shook his head, tears coming to his eyes. “NO!” He screamed, pulling out of his fathers grasp and running to his mothers bedside, grasping her hand. “Please! Mum! I’m here, I’m here! Wake up! Please!”He sobbed as his father grabbed him, pulling him away. “NO! PLEASE! MUM!”He screamed and sobbed as his father dragged him to the closet in the hall, throwing him in the dark, small room, then shutting and locking the door. Severus pounded on the door, sobbing.“FUCK YOU! YOU FUCKER LET MY MOTHER DIE!”He collapsed against the door, overcome with grief. He sobbed, knowing that the only person who truly loved and cared for him was now dead.

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Severus didn’t know how long he had been locked in the closet, shivering and naked on the floor. He could hear his father moving around the house, walking by the closet, but he hadn’t made any attempt to let Severus out. Severus was hungry, thirsty, and cold. He had only seen darkness for what felt like days, and could very easily be so. He had tried screaming, begging, anything to make his father let him out. Nothing had worked. He had began to think that maybe he’d die in that closet.The lock clicked, making Severus sit up. The door opened and his father grabbed him, throwing his out of the closet.“Get dressed, pack a bag, and leave.” His father said, then walked away.Severus pulled himself to his feet, cringing at his bruised back and thighs. He stumbled to his room. It looked the same as it had before he had left. He felt numb as he put on pants and a jumper. He grabbed the picture of him and his mother on his bedside table, some clothes, a his books, stuffed them in a bag, and left the room. His trunk was still by the door, along with his shoes and jacket. His father was smoking on the couch, ignoring his son. Severus put his shoes and coat on, then grabbed his trunk and turned to his father, puffing out his chest.“I may have been raped, but I am also a homosexual! Just thought that you should know, you did raise a faggot for a son!”His father still ignored him, so Severus turned and left, slamming the front door behind him.~~~Peter was sitting in the living room, his sisters sitting with him, on Christmas Day. They had finished opening gifts and were getting ready for lunch when a knock came from the front door. His mother stood and went to open it.“Peter,” she called. “It’s for you.”Peter stood, confused. He went to the front door, his mother stepping aside. He gasped.Severus was standing on his porch, tear stains on his cheeks, holding his trunk. He had dried blood under his nose, and his under eyes were bruised, like his nose had been broken.“Fuck, Sev! What happened?” He asked, letting his friend in and hugging him. He felt Sev melt in his arms, his shoulders beginning to shake as he started to cry.“I’m sorry for coming without letting you know-““Sev, it’s okay!” Peter said, holding him close. His mother was giving him a questioning look, but Peter ignored her. “What happened?” He asked again. Severus hesitated, gripping Peter.“My mums dead.”Peter felt his heart drop. “Oh, Sev! I’m so sorry!”Severus shook his head, pulling away from Peter and wiping his tears away. “I-I don’t- I can’t-,” he took a deep breath, looking like he was trying to calm himself. “I don’t even know what day it is.”Peter was sensing something more had happened, but decided he’d wait to ask. “It’s Christmas.” Peter told him, hoping maybe knowing the day would help him. Severus’s eyes went wide.“Oh, god! I’m sorry! I-I shouldn’t be here-““Sev,” Peter said, holding his biceps, trying to calm him. “It’s okay! Come on, let’s go upstairs and we’ll talk.”Severus nodded, staying close to Peter’s side as Peter led him up the stairs to his room. Peter led him to sit on the bed, bending down in front of him and cupping his cheeks. Severus was holding back his tears, his eyes watering and bloodshot.“Hey,” Peter whispered. “What’s going on?”Severus shut his eyes, his tears falling silently.“My father kicked me out.” He said. “I didn’t know where else to go.”Peter sat next to him on the bed, holding him close. Severus tucked his head into Peter’s neck. “I don’t know what I’m going to do,” Severus said, wiping the tears from his face again. “The only person that ever loved me is dead.”Peter frowned, his own tears coming to his eyes as he realized Severus truly believed that. “That’s not true.”Severus shook his head. “My father just kicked me out, Lily hates me, and Lucius just wants me for a quick fuck!”Peter shook his head, cupping Severus’s cheek and turning him to look at him. “What about me?” He asked, using his thumb to wipe Severus’s tears away. He swallowed, his throat bobbing. “I love you.”Severus froze, then started shaking his head, pulling away from Peter. “No you don’t.”“Yes I do!”“Why?” Severus asked, his voice small. “Why would you love me?”Peter smiled sadly. “Why wouldn’t I love you? You’re you! You’re smart, you’re brave, so so brave!” He kissed Severus’s forehead, then looked in his eyes. “You’re caring, and you’re witty. I love how you’ve been hiding all of Sirius’s left socks and now he’s only got his right ones.”Severus laughed, ducking his head, tears coming to his eyes. Peter went on. “I love how when you play chess with Remus you always let him win, even though you’re way better at the game than him. I love how even though Lily won’t talk to you, you still care about her. I love everything about you. I’ll always love you.”Severus looked up at Peter, tears falling from his eyes. “Thank you.” He whispered. Peter smiled, pulling him close and kissing his forehead.“Anything for you.”~~~Christmas night was spent in Peter’s bed, both of them laying together, the only light in the room being the lamp next to Peter’s bed. Severus had his head on Peter’s chest, clutching his shirt, tears falling down his face.“She might have not been the best mother, but I really miss her,” he said quietly. Peter played with his hair, trying to sooth the other boy.“You know, I’m sure you could stay here, when we aren’t at school. My parents won’t mind.” Peter offered. Severus only hummed. He turned his head to look up at Peter.“I’d feel a bit odd,” he said honestly. “I mean, I’m not part of the family.”Peter frowned, grabbing his hand. “But you’re my-“ he stopped. He wasn’t sure what Severus was to him. He sat up, grabbing both of Severus’s hands, confusing the other boy.“Peter, what-?”“Sev,” Peter started. “Will you be my boyfriend?”Severus’s eyes went wide. “Pete, if anyone finds out-““Fuck them all!” Peter scooted closer. “I love you, Sev. And I want to be your boyfriend.”Severus swallowed. “What about your friends?”“Fuck them.”“What about your family? Do they-““Fuck them!”“Peter, we’ve barely known each-““Sev, I love you.”Severus was staring at him. He realized then that Peter meant it. He truly loved him. Severus nodded, a small smile growing on his face.“Okay.”Peter grinned. “Yeah?”“Yeah, I’ll be your boyfriend.”Peter leaned down and kissed him. Severus was quick to kiss back, suddenly forgetting all of the points he had made to Peter, and just wanting to be as close as he could to him. He wrapped his arm around the back of Peter’s neck, pulling him closer. He then moved to straddled his lap, making Peter groan.“I love you so much!” Peter said into the kiss. Severus smiled, bringing his hands up to Peter’s hair, running his fingers though the gold locks. He wanted to say ‘I love you’ back, but he had never told anyone besides his mother that. He wasn’t exactly sure how to.Severus pulled back, looking into Peter’s eyes. “I want to have sex.”Peter’s face showed surprise, but excitement, as well as concern. “Are you sure?” He asked. Severus nodded.“Everything is healed. I’m ready, please.”Peter nodded, then his cheeks heated. “Okay, but um, I’ve never…”Severus blinked. “You’re a virgin?”Peter nodded. Severus smiled. He leaned close to Peter’s ear. “That’s okay,” he whispered. “I’ll show you how.”Severus felt Peter shudder under him, then groan. Severus decided then that he wasn’t going to let a phantom version of Lucius ruin this for him. He’d have sex with Peter, and he wouldn’t freak out. He’d make sure Peter’s first time was so much better than his.Severus removed his own shirt, carful of his bruised back. Peter reached out and ran his fingers across Severus’s skin, then leaned down and kissed his collarbone.“Tell me what’s okay and what’s not okay.” He said to Severus. Severus nodded, then threw his head back and moaned when Peter found his nipple, licking and kissing it. Severus looked down at him.“Are you sure this is your first time?” He asked, laughing. Peter smiled up at him.“I share a dorm with Sirius and Remus. I’ve heard somethings.”Peter then took off his own shirt, and Severus reached up and kissed him again, their bare chests touching. Severus could feel Peter’s dick growing under him, trapped in his pants. Severus pulled away, his hands going to his own pants and taking them off. Peter followed suit and took his pants off too. They both were bare, sitting naked on Peter’s bed.Severus grabbed Peter’s hand, then laid back on the pillows, pulling Peter on told on him. “You have to prepare me.” Severus whispered. Peter nodded. Peter grabbed a bottle of lube from his bedside table, putting some on his fingers.Severus grabbed Peter hand, guiding his fingers to between his legs. “Start with one.” Severus told him. Peter nodded, then slowly pushed a finger in. Severus let his eyes fall closed, enjoying the feeling of Peter’s gentleness. After minute, Severus told him to add a second one. That’s when he let out a sudden moan.“Oh, shit!” Severus moaned, taken completely by surprise. Peter frowned, worried.“What-?”“Don’t stop!” Severus quickly told him, his back arching into Peter’s fingers. Being fingered had never felt like this before. Somehow, Peter had already found the right spot.“Add another.” Severus told him breathlessly. Peter added a third finger, and Severus felt like he could cum. He held back just a little bit longer, knowing for the size Peter’s cock was he’d need the stretch.“Okay, okay, pull them out.” Severus told him, doing his best not to cum. He reached down and grinned the base of his cock, trying to hold back.“What’s wrong?” Peter asked, worried. Severus laughed, looking up at his boyfriend.“I almost came.”Peter blinked. “Already?”Severus smacked his arm. “Just put it in.”Peter smiled. “How about a please?” He said, leaning over Severus, lining his cock up.Severus groaned. “Please, Peter!”Peter smiled, then slowly pushed in, making Severus groan. It was strange, he’d never felt this before, but if felt so fucking good.Peter was panting above him, and Severus reached up and connected their lips, both of them groaning into each other.“Peter, move! Oh god!” Severus was consumed with pleasure. He was going to cum soon.Peter started thrusting, making them both moan. “Fuck Sev!”Severus’s head was thrown back in pleasure. “Oh, Merlin! I’m gonna cum!”Peter leaned down, thrusting fasting, and started kissing Severus’s neck.“Cum, cum Sev!”That was all Severus needed. He arched into Peter, gasping and groaning as he came. “Peter, I love you! I love you, I love you!”Peter didn’t last much longer after that, thrusting one last time and coming inside of Severus. They both laid there, Peter on top of Severus, panting and catching their breath.Severus leaned down, tears coming to his eyes. He kissed Peter’s head, bringing his hand up to his hair and running his fingers through it.“I love you too.” Peter mumbled, turning his face and looking up at Severus. Severus smiled.“Was it a good first time?” He asked. Peter laughed and nodded.“Definitely.”Severus smiled. He realized then that it had been both of their first in a way. It was Peter’s first time having sex, and Severus’s first time having consensual sex.

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𝙴𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚢𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚜 𝚕𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛Severus sat at the long table in Malfoy manor, listening as the Dark Lord spoke, but the words were not reaching his ears. His mind was far off. Across from him was Peter, his Peter, the Peter he had not seen or spoken to since their fight, since Severus had told him four years ago that he’d be joining the death eaters. And now, the same boy that had yelled at him, screamed at him, was sitting next to the Dark Lord himself. He now bore the mark on his arm, he was now one of them. And Severus was furious.
“Severus,” the Dark Lord now spoke to him, making Severus silence his mind and look to him. “You will continue to stay here.”
Ah yes, Severus had been trapped in Malfoy Manor for nearly a year now, guarding the headquarters and Narcissa and her newly born son. It had been so nerve racking at first, to be stationed in the house of the man that had raped him as a child, who had abused him for years, but Lucius knew not to touch him. He had tried that first night, sneaking into Severus’s room, but Severus wasn’t twelve anymore, and he no longer feared Lucius. He had spelled Lucius, giving him his own taste of his medicine and putting him under the torture spell. Then, after Lucius had retreated from the room, Severus put his own wards up, making sure they would only let him in his room.
Severus turned his gaze back on Peter. He looked different. There was something in his eyes, something Severus had never seen before. He wanted the meeting to end so he could talk to him. He needed to know what was going on.
Finally, the Dark Lord stood, bidding everyone goodbye and left. Severus stood as the others did, going to greet others at the table. He gestured to Peter, having him follow him to his room. The second the door was closed, Peter spoke.
“Sev, I need you to hear me out.”
Severus pressed his lips. “What the fuck are you doing here, Pettigrew?! Are you spying for Dumbledore?!”
Peter shook his head. “No! Not at all! I’m spying on Dumbledore! I just need to talk to you and apologize about the last time we spoke-“
“Fuck you!” Severus growled. “You called me fucked up for joining the death eaters and now here you are! How do you expect me to really believe you joined?!”
“I swear! Me and the Dark Lord have a plan involving the Potters and Lily’s son-“
“Lily?” Severus asked, immediately intrigued. “What about Lily?”
Peter looked like he regretted opening his mouth. “I really can’t say.”
Severus pressed his lips, turning his head away. He had heard rumors about Lily’s son and a prophecy. He knew the Potters were in hiding from the Dark Lord.
“Sev,” Severus turned back to Peter, seeing he had taken a step closer. “I’ve really missed you.”
Severus’s eyes traveled Peter’s face. He looked so much like the boy he loved, yet he knew he was different. There was something off about him. Peter took another step closer, his hand coming up and cupping the side of Severus’s face. And sue Severus, but he found himself leaning into the touch, closing his eyes. He hadn’t been touched like this in years, hadn’t let himself be vulnerable since Peter had broken up with him in their flat, calling him disgusting, telling him he couldn’t bear to look at him knowing what side of the war he was choosing. He had packed his bag and left Severus standing in that flat alone. He had waited days for Peter to come back, but he never did. Eventually, Severus had left.
Severus opened his eyes and looked back at Peter, pulling away.
“Why leave me for joining the death eaters if you were going to do the same?” He asked. Peter dropped his hand, taking a deep breath.
“I fucking hate James Potter,” he said. Severus raised his eyebrows.
“I mean, I do too, but that’s not your only reason, right?”
Peter shook his head. He suddenly had hate and anger behind his eyes. “You don’t understand! I spent years trying to do everything right in the eyes of James Potter! I kissed his ass for years! Only to be treated like shit by him! It was last year I suddenly realized I did everything just to please him and I actually had no option on life that was not influenced by him! So, I chose my own life! And I choose this!”
Severus frowned. “That doesn’t seem like a sound reason.”
Peter rolled his eyes. “Oh yeah, because yours was so much better?!”
“I had to figure something out! I had no job, no money, nothing! I had no family! I did the only thing I could!”
“You had me!” Peter shouted. “We were living together! We had a life! We were going to get married!”
Severus scoffed. “Fuck off! We were not going to get married! That was a childish dream that could never happen! And your family would never let you marry me! You were already cut off from them because we moved in together! Can you imagine what they’d do if we would have gotten married?!”
“I didn’t give a shit about my family!” Peter was closer now. “I loved you! I wanted to be with you!”
Severus frowned. The tension in the room was high. They both were staring at each other, words hanging in the air. Peter suddenly grabbed the sides of Severus’s face and kissed him, hard.
Severus kissed back, wrapping his arms around Peter’s neck, but then his mind caught up to him. He pushed Peter away, both of them stumbling back.
Severus wiped his lips, pointing at Peter.
“Get the fuck out!” He hissed. Peter looked hurt, but pressed his lips, opening the door and slamming it behind him as he left.~~~"𝙾𝚔𝚊𝚢, 𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚒𝚝 𝚒𝚜!" 𝙿𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚊𝚒𝚍, 𝚞𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚂𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚞𝚜'𝚜 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜 𝚊𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚕𝚊𝚝. 𝚂𝚎𝚟 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚗𝚎𝚍.
"𝙸𝚝𝚜 𝚜𝚖𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚒 𝚛𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛.."
𝙿𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚞𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚍. "𝚘𝚑, 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚘𝚗! 𝙸𝚝𝚜 𝚊 𝚐𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚝 𝚏𝚒𝚛𝚊𝚝 𝚙𝚕𝚌𝚎 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚞𝚜!"
𝚂𝚎𝚟 𝚑𝚞𝚖𝚖𝚎𝚍. "𝚒 𝚜𝚞𝚙𝚙𝚘𝚜𝚎." 𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚎𝚍 𝚏𝚞𝚛𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚒𝚗. 𝙿𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚊𝚍 𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚎𝚠 𝚑𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜 𝚎𝚊𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚎𝚛 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝙹𝚊𝚖𝚎𝚜 𝚝𝚘𝚐𝚎𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚙𝚞𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚛𝚘𝚘𝚖 𝚝𝚊𝚋𝚕𝚎 𝚞𝚙 𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝚂𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚞𝚜 𝚑𝚊𝚍 𝚋𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚊𝚝 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚔. 𝚂𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚞𝚜 𝚛𝚊𝚒𝚜𝚎 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚋𝚛𝚘𝚠𝚜 𝚊𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚍.
"𝚒𝚜 𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚊 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚘𝚗 𝚠𝚎 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚑𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚍?" 𝚑𝚎 𝚊𝚜𝚔𝚎𝚍. 𝙿𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚜𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚎𝚍, 𝚠𝚊𝚕𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚘 𝚂𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚞𝚜.
"𝙿𝚎𝚛𝚑𝚊𝚙𝚜.." 𝚑𝚎 𝚕𝚎𝚊𝚗𝚎𝚍 𝚍𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍 𝚂𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚞𝚜'𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚙𝚜. 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚘𝚞𝚝 𝚜𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚝, 𝚐𝚎𝚗𝚝𝚕𝚎. 𝙿𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚔𝚒𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚂𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚞𝚜. 𝙷𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚍𝚗𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔 𝚑𝚎 𝚌𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚐𝚎𝚝 𝚝𝚒𝚎𝚛𝚍 𝚘𝚏 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚕𝚒𝚙𝚜.
𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚖𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚍, 𝚂𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚞𝚜 𝚏𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚗 𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝚋𝚊𝚌𝚔 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙿𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚘𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚑𝚒𝚖. 𝚃𝚑𝚎𝚢 𝚙𝚞𝚕𝚕𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚙𝚊𝚛𝚝 𝚏𝚘𝚛 𝚊 𝚖𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝, 𝚂𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚞𝚜 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚞𝚙 𝚊𝚝 𝙿𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚛, 𝚜𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐.
"𝚒 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞."~~~Severus stared at the headline of the Daily Prophet, stating that there had been another attack, one on the Longbottoms. Severus had known about the attack before it had even happened, but now, staring at the words that were written, he felt an awful churning in his stomach. Frank and Alice had been met with a fate worse than death. Severus knew what it was like to be under the torture spell, but to be under it so long that you no longer knew who you were made Severus want to vomit.
“Good morning, Severus.”
Severus looked up, seeing Lucius come into the dining room, sitting at the head of the table while a house elf brought him his food. Severus frowned, looking back down at the paper and ignoring the other man.
“Quite the surprise, seeing Pettigrew yesterday, hmm?”
Severus look up at him again, putting the paper down on the table.
“What are you getting at?” He asked, not wanting to play any games with Lucius.
Lucius shrugged. “It’s just suspicious, isn’t? Say, didn’t he leave you because you became one of us?”
Severus stared at Lucius, he jaw clenched. He picked up the news paper, and pushed his chair back, going to leave.
“Oh, come on Severus! I was just having a bit of fun!”
He heard Lucius push his own chair back too, standing and following him. “Stay away from me!” Severus growled, trying to hurry to his room. Lucius grabbed his arm and pushed him into a wall, getting his face close.
“Come on, Severus,” Lucius hissed, his voice breathy. He was about as tall as Severus and his nose was close to his face. “I’ve missed you! Just let me show you how good it can feel! For old times sake!”
Severus let his face get closer to Lucius, his lips hovering right over his.
“Old time sake, huh? You mean when you’d rape me so bad I’d bleed and tare? You mean when you stole my virginity from me when I was only twelve?” He pulled his face back, making Lucius look from his lips up to his eyes. “Fuck you! I will never let you touch my body again!”
He pushed Lucius away, then marched to his room, not looking back.