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Suna Rintarou's Diary - Entry 1January 1 , 2033How do you go from soulmates to strangers? One minute you're inseparable, the next you can't even stand to be in the same room. I don't understand. I just... I need to understand.
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Suna Rintarou's Diary - Entry 2January 2, 2033I Found it tucked away in a box of old things. A mixtape. Our mixtape. The one we made for that road trip… how long ago was it? Feels like a different lifetime. I almost threw it away. Almost.
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Suna Rintarou's Diary - Entry 3January 3 ,2033He thinks he knows everything. Thinks he has me all figured out. He's wrong. He has no idea what's really going on inside my head. And maybe… maybe that's for the best.
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Suna Rintarou's Diary - Entry 4January 4, 2033 Roses burned, letters turned to ash. But the past… it won't disappear. It's in my heart, a burning inferno. Tears still flow. I remember the way he looked at me when he gave me those roses, the way his hand brushed mine as he handed me the letter. It was at Inarizaki's graduation... A lifetime ago. Now, all that's left is smoke and the bitter taste of regret.
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Suna Rintarou's Diary - Entry 5 January 5, 2033 A wave crashing over me, pulling me under. I see his face everywhere. Hear his laugh. Smell the faint scent of his cologne. It's like he's still here, but he's not. And it's tearing me apart to point I was on a date. A date. With someone… nice enough, I guess. We were at that Italian place downtown, the one with the checkered tablecloths. Everything was going… okay. Until it wasn't. One minute I'm trying to make polite conversation, the next I'm turning around like a maniac. Sweat prickled my skin, and then… his smell. That familiar mix of sandalwood and something else I can't quite name. It was faint, almost imagined, but it was him. He was here. Or… was he? I scanned the restaurant, every table, every corner. Nothing. Just… the ghost of a scent. It threw me completely. The date? Ruined. I made some excuse about a headache and left. How can I move on when he's still… everywhere?
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Suna Rintarou's Diary - Entry 6January 6, 2033I hate Hinata Shoyo. Scratch that. I despise him. He's always there, a bright, cheerful, infuriating presence, orbiting him like some kind of sun. It's like he's deliberately trying to mock me. Every time I turn around, there they are: laughing over some stupid joke, practicing together, touching. A casual brush of the arm, a high-five, and it sends a jolt of pure rage through me. I know it's irrational. I know I have no right to feel this way. But it's like a physical ache, a constant twisting in my gut. And the worst part is, I can't even explain why it bothers me so much. It's not just jealousy. It's… something deeper. Something darker.
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Suna Rintarou's Diary - Entry 7January 7, 2033Ten years. Ten years, and everyone thinks I'm fine. They see the art degree, the successful career, the calm, collected exterior. They have no idea. Inarizaki graduation… it's the secret I carry, the weight that drags me down. University? Art degree – easiest thing ever. It was a performance, a way to convince everyone – and maybe even myself – that I'd moved on. But I haven't. I'm still there, in that gymnasium, watching him walk away.
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Suna Rintarou's Diary - Entry 8January 8, 2033Atsumu and Kiyoomi. A walking, talking contradiction. Everyone hated Kiyoomi – my friends, my sister, the whole world it seemed. Stupid, popular, jerk. And rationally, I knew they were right. He was all those things. But… my heart didn't care about rationality. It only cared about the way he made me feel. That flutter in my chest, that breathless anticipation. It was stupid. It was reckless. It was… everything.